n noun (plural data) See also data.
1 a piece of information.
2 an assumption or premise from which inferences may be drawn.
3 a fixed starting point of a scale or operation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use words as a piece of information that I acquired as an ‘already given’/ already established association in order to name, validate the existence of and qualify something in separation of myself, without realizing that the moment that I am defining and naming something according to the association of image and symbol and sound, I accepted and allowed my own mind control wherein we packaged life into limited containers that we use to relate to ourselves and others – never really questioning to what extent we have limited ourselves just by the words/ data we use to communicate ourselves with.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not question why there are words denoting human aspects that are obviously detrimental to all, wherein words such as abuse, misuse, enslavement, power and control – to name just a few – became the way to accept and allow such imposition of energy upon life as the ‘moreness’ that can only exist when the individual is perceiving itself in separation from the whole, being able to apparently impose/ exert power over others through words; without realizing that everything that we think, speak and do is always toward ourselves as we are one and equal in fact.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to use words as immovable laws, wherein the most basic form of mind control exists as words and how we learn words within our family and school, wherein we are taught a specific image imprinted along with a specific sound and letters that become the arbitrary imposition as ‘given data’ that we as children simply have to comply in order to be able to communicate with others, without really questioning the nature of such words and their implication being of a nature that is always supportive and best for all. Instead, having to realize that the very grammar we use is already indicating that we Must have an experience toward words as nouns – people, things, animals – and as such, go shaping our ‘individuality’ according to what we accept and allow ourselves to believe are our ‘preferences’ our ‘likes and dislikes,’ which is nothing but information that I separated myself from, that I formed a special relationship with in separation from all other words in order to ‘make them my own,’ and a such become my own programmer as I went on throughout the days ensuring that I become that point of preference as a way to assert my ‘individuality’ as a character creating personalities and eventually sculpting the ego that I became when coming of age.
Within this, I realize that the moment we teach children words in separation of themselves and as a way to create their individuality in separation of the whole, we are in essence perpetuating the same system that has been based upon the abuse of life through words as a means to have ‘power’ over reality, never realizing to what extent this single mechanism of ‘education’ is in fact mind-programming to the detriment of children, because there is no awareness in and as words but only self-awareness in separation of the whole, using words to identify oneself in contrast and in comparison to the rest which is how the entire qualification as a means to generate polarization is created.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever be proud of the specificity with which I became ‘my personality’ based on the characters I allowed myself to script as myself through my writing, wherein I was actually quite conscious of how I could create my own stories through words, then become such words and embody myself as the character that I wanted to live as, no different to the stories I would read in books – which means that I made of my life for a while nothing but a story that I programmed for myself in order to entertain me with my emotional and feeling experiences in relationships, just because of thinking that Life was all about becoming a special being with special events and people that could generate ‘a lot of material’ to work with at a later stage to be a writer.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from words wherein I saw myself frustrated with them but at the same time abusing them in order to reinforce the characters I was busy building wherein I never questioned the substance and essence of words as who I am, never questioning what is it that I am actually using/ misusing in order to ‘give life’ to the characters that I programmed into myself through my own participation in copying personalities, characters and archetypes that I embraced as a platform to create me, without ever questioning why we only have a limited set of role models in society wherein we ensure that we continue existing as the same characters throughout time, never questioning how we could in fact exist as physical beings in equality and oneness wherein words would no longer be used and abused as a means to divide people into personalities/ characters, but instead use words in order to recognize ourselves as others wherein instead of saying ‘I feel this/ I am this’ being able to incorporate others into our beingness in the moment ‘I am one with you as this/ I am one and equal as you in…’ – wherein the very fact that we have to use more than one word to indicate a fuller meaning of who and what we are is already indicating that we had deliberately not wrought a word that could imply our oneness and equality as life, but instead, words were used as a way to separate, divide, individualize and specify the separation that we have become as characters and personalities that exist in contrast to one another, that oppose each other based on the self-configuration we have become in order to remain as ‘more than’ and ‘special’ at the eyes of others, which means that we never were really looking Inside ourselves, but only defined, shaped, molded and sculpted ourselves according to how we want to be Seen by others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use words to judge wherein such words as adjectives being able to express a judgment about something/ someone is already a way to push throughout basic education the need to establish points of separation based on what we see, but never within the consideration of being judging everything and everyone that is also ourselves. In this,
I forgive myself that I had never accepted and allowed myself to question the very teaching of our language, and take it for granted simply because of giving to education and school a status of ‘untouchable’ and ‘unquestionable,’ which is precisely the way that we comply to story data throughout our education without really questioning how we are taking this information for granted, and how we are accepting it as ‘readily given,’ when in fact the reality is that it was just information passed on from generation to generation influenced and imprinted throughout time with all the experiences attached to such words, which means that we only learned to see words as points of self interest in order to suit our own ‘needs’ as everything that we could experience for our own benefit – either positive or negative, still same imposition – and never really questioning how it is that such words are not realized as the very manifestation of our accepted and allowed self-separation as one and equal.
“So I suggest you find-out why it is you’re unable to Actually Understand the ‘Desteni Message’, why is it that you’re unable to ‘See’ for Yourself – why is it that you Allow ‘Thoughts’ to ‘arise’ within-you and that you Search those ‘thoughts’ and you give them ‘names’ like ‘Kundalini’, trying to reach ‘great orgasmic experiences’, ‘fuelling’ a ‘Mind System’ – Great Dishonesty” – Bernard Poolman
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to learn that words as adjectives are here in order to judge another, without realizing that through being able to qualify something as positive or negative is already a form of imposition toward what is here, which is what language and words have become.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become an ‘avid reader’ simply because of being able to formulate (form-emulate) my own experiences in my own mind as a form of secret mind that no one else had to know about, that I didn’t have to share and that way, ‘live through others’ words’ in order to satisfy this belief of me becoming emotional and feeling as part of ‘who I am’ and human nature, wherein I deliberately cultivated such relationship to words themselves as a constant energy-kick that I would get when reading books.
I forgive myself that I never accepted and allowed myself to question what is it that I was really doing when reading books and how it is that I had made it ‘normal’ for me to live through reading others’ words instead of writing myself in a self supportive manner, because I see and realize that everything I would write about me was in essence wanting to emulate my life to the characters in a book , of which we have no actual understanding of how we are using and abusing ourselves in separation of one and other through words in order to establish a point of experience that only ‘I’ could experience as an exclusivity within my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use words as means to create and validate my own ‘specialness’ wherein I would think that it was only ‘me, me, me’ that could experience such images, pictures and general beingness in a moment with a particular type of writing that I then became fond of in order o keep up this belief of myself as having a ‘special connection’ with the people that would write in a way that I wanted to be like, which means that I pushed myself to become that which I idolized, which is people that were proficient in writing, writing books, being able to have a proficient vocabulary, wherein I then began using words as currency in order to give myself ‘props’ in separation of myself as one and equal, because I / we as humanity deliberately neglected even daring to question the origin of words, as that would have implied being/ becoming aware of our absolute responsibility toward each other as the words awe speak.
I commit myself to walk this relationship toward words themselves as data that I had come to value as ‘more’ than myself and as such, becoming the manifestation of ego as the construction of words, being aware of existing as a quilt that I sew with bits from characters in order to create myself as the image/ idea and personality that I came to embody after having worked on my own words as a means to justify, ratify and demonstrate that ‘I in fact am this character because my words say so,’ which is an absolute form of self-righteousness wherein all that mattered within me was a set of definitions in separation of life, because I never ever even considered life within and as words.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to establish myself as the ‘controller’ in my reality through the very data I accepted and allowed as myself, as something ‘real’ as ‘the real me’ that I had constructed throughout time through everything I could grab from the media, from people in my reality and as such, become my own architect in a deliberate way without ever realizing how through taking this vantage point of being ‘above’ others and reality through using words that indicate comparatives and superlatives is the essence of mind control to promote individuality as a moreness of ourselves here, instead of promoting a way of being able to live as individuals that regard each other as equals as life.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become an energy junky as in pushing myself to create ‘the most emotional and feeling experiences’ out of just reading words on paper, which indicates to what extent we have separated ourselves from the physical reality wherein we decided to use words in order to generate a positive experience within ourselves that in no way had an actual relationship to ourselves in the moment, which is what makes books so ‘appealing’ to people – yet we have covered up such vicarious atonement with our own justifications toward books as ‘culture’ and ‘education,’ never pondering what is it that we were really in fact valuing and why.
I forgive myself that I never accepted and allowed myself to even consider or conceive that there could be another way to express myself in consideration of others as myself, because such consideration was never taught or given as a particular word in itself, which indicates to what extent we have become so used to only seeing ourselves in separation of each other as characters in ‘books of life’ with prescribed life experiences that we came to simply believe is ‘who we are’ and walk it from the womb till the grave without ever really taking such fleeting moments of questioning myself, my who I am as words beyond the accepted and allowed ‘norms’ that were prescribed in order to keep ourselves blind and not taking into consideration that we are in fact pronouncing (pro-enouncing) ourselves as subjects of our own intellect and that every word that I speak as a sentence of myself about others is invariably always about myself in reality.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that the moment I am pronouncing words about something/ someone or myself I am already making a decision of who I am in that moment, which implies that
When and as I see myself pronouncing words, I stop and I breathe – I realize that every single words that I will be pronouncing as an expression of who I am in that very moment is and will be communicating and expressing the decision of who I am in that moment; thus I align my words to an equal and one starting point to ensure words do not become again the very polarity holders of our reality, the very separators that perpetuate an abuse that is and will always be self-abuse.
“Jesus said: ‘Judge not, lest ye be judged’ –because you will-only ‘Judge’ that which you have Done-Yourself –you can only ‘Speak- it’ because you’ve ‘Done-it’, which is why Self-Forgiveness is Relevant” – Bernard Poolman *
“This ‘Reality’ and as-it Exist now is your ‘Real Nature’ – is ‘the Truth’ about you = You have Created this As your Mind. ‘Stop’ all of-that and start to consider ‘What is Best Equally for All Physical-Beings in this Reality’ – and then you’ll-find ‘Heaven will-be on Earth’ – and then you will-find ‘you Love your Neighbour’ –and then you’ll find why doing ‘What’s Best for All’ that everyone will-do ‘What’s Best for All’ – it is-Not a very ‘giant leap’, it requires ‘No-Faith’ = it Requires CommonSense”
– Bernard Poolman
For more specific support on learning who we are and what we have become in relation to words: Desteni I Process
Matrix words 2009
Interviews to get a never-be
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