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340. The Imposition of the Symbols of Power

 

Force as ‘Power’ was imposed  as a way to have some do the work that others didn’t want to do and as such, the structure of power and control was built as a result of the imposition of fear as our motivation and drive to live  – the ultimate paradox that must cease to exist in a world of Equals.

 

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Problem                                                                

  • There is no physical immanent condition or characteristic in the physical matter/ nature and that which is of the Earth that indicated a social and political organization wherein some resources had to be allocated to only a reduced number of individuals according to where they live or a certain race and language or practice certain religion. The only linkage between an apple and a price is an entire system of control as our ‘Value System’ – which is an invisible trait that corresponds to a belief system imposed yet accepted and allowed  upon everything as knowledge and information that we have come to Believe is ‘True’ to the physical thing in itself – is the human mind and its conception of reality.  We have literally imposed the mind onto the physical reality  where a price and the amount of money an individual has, determines their access to such item/product in order to satisfy their need to use it or consume it.  

    Through accepting value, we have configured our entire reality as a survivalist reality where Fear becomes the motor of everything because that which we need to live is not given or guaranteed to everyone equally – instead we created the perfect scheming to ensure that some would always be left ‘out of the equation’ hence becoming either invisible to the eyes of the World-System as the Money System, or be left in a precarious condition where they have to Comply to do ‘whatever job is available’ in order to ‘Make a living.’  This is how we have conditioned each other to always fearing to end up ‘with nothing,’ fearing to lose, fearing to be controlled or lose control, fearing to have no guarantee to Live Life in the best way possible, which is in the end fearing death

 

  • Why have we imposed this system of values then? The Self-Interest of the human mind imposed as a Value system  exists for purposes of abuse, control and the structure of ‘power’ which is the imposition of  only a few, a minority’s best interest being created/ labored and sustained by the work and labor of the majority that has ‘No power.’  We have all collectively accepted and allowed symbols of Power and Control, and Money is certainly only a way to manipulate and control the access to such values – but in essence, it is the human experience imposed onto physical reality that determines the values of that which is turned into a product and valued according to what we believe is ‘fair’ within a value system designed to generate a hierarchy upon and of this reality for the benefit of a minority. This is  why the Value of Life has never been just ‘Life itself,’ but a set of personal interests that were then imposed through Educational systems as ‘the way things are’ and indoctrinating our ability to think to be limited to only confirming and accepting those ‘Symbols of Power’ as real, as legitimate and what a better way to have common consent if all that is taught is ‘how things work’ without showing or enticing any form to transcend such order and control – yet it can obviously be done.

  • An example is the acceptance of the power of Money in vast quantities in itself such as the ‘Accumulation of wealth,’ which is seen as a symbol of success yet created out of using this same ‘value system’ to justify the ability to snatch, appropriate, confiscate and own land and property as a form of security and assured comfort where those in royal/superior/authority positions would not have to do all the ‘hard work’ that those without money are coerced to do, just because ‘they have the money/ property/ rights to the land.’ This is clearly Feudalism and as you and I can see, nothing has changed from the ‘obscure days’ of humanity and the same forms of power structures have existed from the beginning of human civilization, before any written history since this force and imposition can be translated to physical abuse and imposition of power through this in order to have some be ‘ in control’ and some others remain as followers, slaves and disempowered ones.

    This is the enforcement that the Value System represents:the imposition of Greed, Control, Manipulation, Education as ‘Power’ as a way to ensure that others remain in a ‘lesser position’ to Not afford making a dignified living, and having no option but to resort to the ‘low end jobs’ in order to live in the most precarious manner.

 

  • The Brute Force is what has been an inherent part of this imposition of values, which is the same reason why we keep accepting it: we fear changing it, challenging it, we fear defying the ‘Authorities’ that built the world system because we fear being punished by it and lose any perceived freedom we have, but do we really have any freedom? Is there any real Self Determination in a world where you and I cannot buy a kg. of Apples if you don’t have the same amount of money required in the price tag? And if you dare to take it, you are a criminal and should go to jail. We cannot dissociate the enforcement of an Abusive System through and from Abuse itself, this is what we have all collectively accepted and allowed as our ‘Values’ because the punishment of not accepting it means not being able to live – yet life is not a value in itself that has been regarded either here.

 

  • We have reduced Life to the ‘Value of Money’ instead of the other way around – there is one ‘God’ being served here, and that is Money – not Life, yet Money would be useless without Life. So is it really Money that is the problem or the Values considered as money and ‘power’ in this world at the moment? The way we function now is that those things that we value the most is that which gives us an ability to win over others, to have more than others, to learn how to act diligently in a system where abuse is the principle and starting point, where no one questions this within the compliance of ‘How things work.’ It is fundamental to understand that the moment that we generated a value and restricted the ability for such value to be granted and obtained  – given and received – by each individual in equality, a system of coercion, separation and stratification was imposed. We didn’t question this authority, we became subject to it through laws, policies as  ‘agreements’ or ‘decisions’ made in a deliberate manner to only benefit those that made the rules and set the values in the first place. 

 

  • This fear has been immanent in  existence as a form of separation, meaning we can only Fear if we are not regarding each other as equals. This is the ‘nature’ of our Human Nature as the Mind or our Human Mind as our Nature, which is why we ‘unconsciously’ seek to dominate, control others so that some have their lives secured and even further than that, don’t have to work, struggle or fear not having sufficient to survive.
  • The survival of the fittest and this living struggle is one of the reasons why life was not given equal to all, because fear had to become the motivation to create a ‘functional system’ where people would Have to Work based on this constant threat of ‘not having anything to eat if work is not getting one, just because we have never lived in a way wherein from birth and throughout our Education we are taught to understand the world in Equality, of mutual support and care for one another – instead we learned to compete,fight, fear authorities, fear consequences, fear punishment, fear ending in the ‘low end jobs’ without having any form to evade this if you are born ‘by default’ in a precarious living condition.

 

All of this comprises a part of the excuses that we have forged in order to force the Inequality that we are living in at the moment – it is all in our mind, it is all an experience attached to symbols that we have enabled ourselves to be controlled by through Desire and Fear, the basic polarity systems that keep the mind in place are the ones that we have generated as our governing systems – reward and punishment, scarcity and abundance, control and subjugation, masters and slaves – all are just characters imposed through Force and creation of consequence for those that dared to question this further or not comply to it. Aren’t these Value systems the greatest form of tyranny and dictatorship that we have imposed onto our reality without Ever questioning?  Yes, the mind dictatorship upon physical reality of equality and oneness.

 

Solution                                                              

This is precisely where the gist of Equal Money is to be understood: it is an educational and reconstructive process to redefine, align and correct the relationships formed between ourselves, toward our reality in separation of each other as equals through the use of Intellect and the Human Mind as knowledge and information linked to experiences based on Emotions and Feelings, enhanced by physical experiences of either pleasure/ enjoyment as well as harm and abuse that have been used to impose a certain way of accepting a value, a word or action in means of control.

Thus, it is an Educational Process of Self Honesty within to see how and why we have remained as we are currently in our world without questioning it, how have we defined ourselves by these values, how have we accepted them as ‘truth’ with no physical linkage of the value toward the person or the physical part of reality – but only accepted its ‘linkage’ through the acceptance of thoughts and logic as ‘our intellect’ without ever basing such intellect within the principle of Equality as Life.

 

The Solution at this moment is to Take Self Responsibility for our own mind, our own accepted and allowed indoctrination and walk through a process to understand how through our own words we have imposed these values of ‘who we think we are’ onto everything and everyone without a question. We have developed the necessary tools to do this in a self-supportive and self-directive manner as the courses that Desteni has prepared wherein we are all participating in the same process of walking our own mind to align, correct and reconstruct our understanding of reality based on what’s best for all – this means learning how to become an individual that is able to take Self Responsibility  to become part of the solution required in this world, learning how to give and receive in equality, how to consider and care for others, how to understand that abuse implies separation and self interest, how fear is only an excuse to not let go of our current ‘status’ wherein everything is apparently ‘fine’ if you have money, but it isn’t obviously, otherwise the world would not be falling apart. Words lived in Equality are the Key to eradicate all forms of power and control in our reality.

 

 

Rewards                                                  

  • Through implementing Equality as a living principle, we will be able to create a society wherein all individuals integrating this same living principle will integrate a physical and living understanding of what it is to value themselves as Life in Equality and interacting, participating in the same system according to the same living principles.
  • Everyone’s living principle will be acquired through the Living Word – no teachings, no indoctrination, no coercive means to ‘implement equality’ – it is all about a living understanding of how within valuing each other as equals as life, we are able to coexist in peace, harmony and the best living condition for all – that’s the manifestation of work in equality to create the world that we all want to live in.

 

 

 

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237. Living IntelliSense as Life in Equality

Would a drive for intelligence exist if there were no ‘props’ for it within the system?

We accepted and allowed a rating system in school that becomes the equivalent of your potential job opportunities without any further questions about this to be a ‘real measure’ of an individual’s potential. We have accepted and allowed a number or a letter to define ‘who we are’ within the system because schooling is the platform of adjustment and allocation as to who you will be throughout your entire life as an individual according to the money you are able to obtain from your ability to be intelligent or not, and as such, decide careers according to your mental capacity. Is this a Real way to measure a being’s skills and abilities? Of course it isn’t.

 

Grades in school  and the education system are just like price tags upon anything of this world: it is a make believe system that we all believe is ‘who we are’ – and  as such, calling oneself intelligent is only realizing one’s ability to use the mind within this system that is the externalization of our own mind, it’s like tuning in to a proper functioning within the same hierarchical  schemes of the world in a proper and successful manner and be rewarded for it even further, wherein there is no glory without abuse.

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Ever questioned why the people that ‘had it easier’ in the system would end up having a lot of money and even free stuff/ more privileges besides all their money earned? Incentives to continue supporting the system, never questioning, feeding the desire for more as a perfect way to control even to the ‘winners’ themselves, more and more being unaware of reality and the actual consequences that are being created due to this negligible process.

 

The self correction in relation to a single character that we define ourselves as implies a written process, however it is not only about me stopping existing within a self-definition as a value given within/ by a system that has never supported life, but also seeing what must be changed at a system level so that never again is one human being considered as ‘more’ than others according to being able to measure ‘who I am’ as an individual that responds to the system, to sustain it, feed it within its hierarchical schemes, instead of actually establishing a new of living wherein our education system is never again based on indoctrinating kids with beliefs of ‘who they are’ being able to be measured by a single number, creating competition, breeding separation between those that should be taught to regard each other as equals.

 

When and as I see myself ‘spiting’ this intelligent character by playing out the opposite as being irresponsible or lacking any drive to Move within the academic world, I stop and I breathe – I realize that through ‘spiting the character’ I am only going into the opposite polarity to apparently ‘make up for my self-definition,’ without realizing that as consciousness we will always drive ourselves to the opposite as a personality system that will then also have to be walked in order to understand how we have developed a biased living-condition based on satisfying roles and personalities only. Thus I direct myself to simply direct myself to that which I have to do and not begin doing it as a form of opposing my ‘past personalities’ or ‘spiting who I was’ in the past, as that is certainly not a common sensical solution.

To understand how consciousness operates when dealing with personality systems, listen to Quantum Systemization – Resonance Absorption Membrane – Part 3

 

I commit myself to stop any form of ‘spite’ toward my old personalities and trying to ‘make up for them’ through going to the opposite polarities, not realizing that this will lead me nowhere but into further self limitations – I direct myself to do, say, act upon what is required to be directed, being here as breath which implies no memories defining ‘who I am’ toward that point

 

When and as I see myself somehow lingering on to a self definition of being ‘intelligent’ when compared to others, I stop and I breathe – I realize that who I really am exists as equal potential and physicality as everything and everyone else – hence I direct myself to stop my self-assessment in comparison to others and focus on listening, breathing, interacting with others from the starting point of always supporting ourselves to establish Common Sense reasoning within any event or situation, which does not imply having to have a certain amount of knowledge and information, but simply walk ‘who I am’ within an awareness of what is required to be directed, done, said and acted upon.

 

When and as I see myself accessing a superiority mode according to knowledge and information that I have accumulated and experiencing a sense of ‘power’ within it, I stop and I breathe – I realize that the only real power is who we are here as physical beings and breath. there is nothing else.

 

When and as I see myself assessing my ‘potential’ according to the amount of knowledge and information that I have about something and believing that such point is ‘not my field’  – I stop and I breathe – I realize that my own limitations only exist at a mind level and as such, I can direct myself to try them out in physical reality to see the validity of such limitations and within this, develop further skills that are not only related to memorizing or storing data, but obviously developing common sense as the actual intelligence that we as human beings should support each other to integrate as part of our living skills.

 

I commit myself to participate within the establishment and creation of an education system wherein we no longer measure each other according to the numbers/letters we get as ‘grades’ defining who we are according to being intelligent/ not intelligent.

 

I commit myself to equalize myself to my physical body as the actual common sensical and physical intelliSense that we can integrate as a practical living skill, which means no longer diminishing ‘who I am’ as a set of knowledge and information, but actually expanding ourselves to be and become human beings that are self aware within this world system within the consideration that it is in our ability to live to our fullest potential if we provide enough platforms of self support as basic education, beginning with parents and the understanding of what is of real value within this world, which is then not linked to knowledge and information but an actual self equality and oneness

 

I commit myself to develop an IntelliSense wherein common sense is lived and promoted by myself through my own application as words and deeds that are able to redefine intelligence to an actual living skill that everyone is equally capable of developing through self-support as a practical living education wherein what’s required at all times is to consider what’s best for all in All areas of our living – and this is thus the best way to set the foundation for a world wherein we can regard each other as equals in our ability to coexist within a set of life-values that can be integrated to a real intelligence such as doing onto others what you would like to  be done onto you, giving and receiving equally, considering each other as equally ‘valuable’ as life and ‘love thy neighbor as thyself’ which is a point that we all have to first integrate toward ourselves as an actual living cultivation of honoring and respecting ourselves as life, so that we step out of our current narrow view upon life where knowledge and information is ‘praised’ and instead, we develop an equal and one living-application of this equal regard of practical things to direct in order to support each other to live in the most optimal condition.

 

Knowledge without application is useless and as such, I commit myself to expose also where our knowledge and information as our ‘ranking systems’ to define a being’s ability to exist within the system is flawed and that there is no possibility for us to realize to what extent we have separated ourselves from who we really are as the physical unless each one takes responsibility for what we’ve become within this single consideration of ‘intelligence’ that each one has, either ‘superior’ or ‘inferior’ it is still a limited definition of who we are.

 

I realize that I had lived out this self definition based on participating within all the memories that valued myself as such, without realizing that all definitions created at a mind level are not in fact the real substance that I am – yet, I tis my absolute responsibility to ensure no single speck of superiority remains within this realm of self definition as intelligence.

 

I commit myself to expose how it is that intelligence has not existed as an actual honorable skill in this world, otherwise we would not be so busy cultivating our minds as this world system that runs upon an abusive make-believe system of values that only benefit those that are in a position to get the most money/ resources from the hierarchical disposition of the world system, which is the system that we have all complied to and abided to by virtue of living in this world.

 

I commit myself to expose how it is actually abusive to only define someone according to a letter or a number as ‘who they are’ in their skills and mental abilities. I support myself to walk the living correction of having defined ‘who I am’ according to a number as grades within the schooling system and equalize myself as that which has always been in fact real: myself as my physical body that I breathe in here.

 

I commit myself to live in humbleness as an ability to use any current lived-skill within knowledge and information and the ability to memorize toward a best for all outcome. Within this also realizing that we Still live in a world wherein we are still being ranked according to these schemes – therefore it is not to ‘ditch out’ our grades/ degrees in the schooling system, but to equalize ourselves to it so that we are Not defined by it, yet we use what we got in order to walk through it and be able to sustain ourselves within this current system, while at the same time, aligning our actual living values to that which is Real as the physicality and life that we all are equally.

 

When and as I see myself in any  interaction wherein I see myself accessing the knowledgeable persona in order to ‘have the answer to it all’ – I stop and I breathe – I realize that this is my ego wanting to ‘pop up’ in order to seem like I ‘always have the answer’ which is only a point that bursts like a bullet and it happens when I am not breathing – thus

 

I commit myself to realize that having any form of ability to store memories with certain ease is not an indication of intelligence but simply a skill, a mind ability that is able to be developed equally for all beings that are able to live in a stable condition throughout their first living years, which is a point that we can all commit ourselves to investigate how that works and functions at a mind-physical level, such as educating oneself with the Quantum Mind Self Awareness Interviews, wherein we can stop speculating about ‘Intelligence’ and instead, learn how we have always had the exact same abilities as a potential existent within each one to be developed to an optimal degree wherein we can all learn how to make use of our mind in an equal and one basis to our physical, instead of conceiving this intelligence as something ‘more’ or ‘special’ for only a few.

 

 

I commit myself to establish a self-integrity based on living skills that are self supportive for all as equals and within this, learn how to live physically which is something that is then walked through/ lived/ breathed and not ‘known’ as data only.

I commit myself to continue assisting and supporting myself whenever this self definition rears its head as an ego-burst and direct myself to breathing and realizing that who we are is equal in all ways, we just have to learn how to actually live it out within and without – which means, I live out my inner process of self-equality and oneness between my physical body and my mind to no longer be having to ‘think’ to live, and the same without as a world system that supports common sense living, valuing life and supporting each other to let us know when we are going into any ego-drive of intelligence over matter.

 

I commit myself to explain and expose how we have only pursued ‘intelligence’ do to the rewards given toward such ability/ skill in the system and as such place a parallel of how things would change wherein there is no more remuneration to such ‘intelligence’ within an Equality System wherein every single being will be exposed to the exact same amount of information as a point of support to live, within this eradicating any form of intellectual elitism based on intelligence as an actual ‘gift’ for some and transform it into a single aspect we can all develop in an equal and one manner Within the consideration of the physical reality and what’s best for all.

 

I commit myself to live my self-equality and oneness by being here as breath throughout any form of interaction with others, being aware of listening/ hearing in the moment and not skipping the moment to speak but allow myself to breathe and then interact within common sense = saying ‘an answer’/ giving knowledge and information does not make me ‘more’ than myself physically here.

 

I commit myself to make use of the education that I have toward a best for all outcome and actually contribute to give an end to this current world system so that we can focus on developing/ cultivating the actual values of life which is life itself in equality.

 

“from Intelligence to IntelliSENSE would be the process from knowledge and information, to commonsense practical reasoning” – Sunette Spies

 

I suggest to all parents to educate themselves to not push your children to be ‘intelligent’ or a ‘good student’ as prescribed within our current system, it is best to support them to develop that which they are good at even if it is not within the realm of our current subjects in school and direct them to consider their skills and abilities toward the manifestation of a change within this world that they can contribute to in an equal manner. It is not to judge them for not getting ‘goo grades,’ but rather find the point that has not been properly integrated, the belief that might be tampering their schooling process and support them to equalize themselves to their fullest potential. For that, self support through writing, self forgiveness and self corrective application is suggested, beginning with you as a parent that seeks ‘excellence’ within children but has not actually first lived out that for yourself. Let’s begin our common sensical living from ourselves individually first.

 

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216. Information as Warfare–But do we even Understand Who and What We Are?

Self Realization without understanding how we came to be what we see and witness on a daily basis as ourselves and our reality is virtually impossible. This is what I have assessed more so than ever this year that all the information, the actual detail of who we are, how we function and exist at an individual and existential level, our origins, the ‘why’ of virtually anything that I had asked myself and pondered about throughout my lifespan, has been explained to the T in all the information presented/ provided by Desteni through Eqafe and the blogs Heaven’s Journey to Life and Creation’s Journey to Life  read from day 1. I point out these two as they are the key to understand the human mind within the consideration of the existential perspective that we had never gotten to know/ understand before in our entire human history.

 

This is how, I can see, realize and understand that whatever I took as knowledge in order to form a personality was mostly out of accepting ‘Fear’ as a way to exist in this world. I realize that even my personalities of being ‘opinionated’ and ‘revolutionary’ were stemming simply because of an actual ignorance, sense of powerlessness and neglect to my own participation within this reality – and as such, I took words, knowledge and information as ‘truths’ that I could use only to create another way to be ‘safe’ within my confinement of the actual support I was and still have through money, without understanding what the actual ways of change imply, what the actual Revolution as an overall change in this world, humanity and existence as a whole imply.

It is thus quite a revelation to me how looking back at this desire to change and be a ‘revolutionary person’ was still only a preprogrammed part of myself as a personality design that would upgrade through further desires to change the system, having No Clue of the causes and inner workings of such systems, because I had No Clue of myself as a body, as a mind as an individual being in this world. This Must place into perspective how easily we affiliate, adopt ideas, perspectives, beliefs of something that ‘sounds nice’ according to what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be programmed/ indoctrinated with from the knowledge, information, images that are stemming from the same/our very own environment that is constructed/ built/ upgraded and managed within the same blueprints of the same system that we sought to overcome, – see the paradox and absurdity within this – that we somehow wanted to change or ‘make more just’ without having an actual understanding of  even our own mind, which must be already a Great Warning and Alert to anyone currently promoting any form of activism, opposition as we’re seeing in this world at the moment with all he protests, occupy wall street, wars, mind possessions that will go haywire if we don’t stop to take the moment to understand what the Hell is going on in this world as the result of our very own nature as humanity and existence – and also to see and realize that there is certainly a solution, yes, because we created and are the problem in the first place. However, as Bernard Poolman was saying today:

“do not support things just because you like it—test it for real and equate it to a lifetime – will it work for all as best for a lifetime—to do it just for a week –no good –live it for real – there is no easy solutions to the world problems”

There is No Easy Solutions to the World Problems indeed, as we are the end-point of the consequence that we’ve accepted and allowed to manifest and compound throughout time, and this is only taking into consideration the beginning of Human Civilization – later on I’ll explain a bit of what we must regard and consider when looking at our current world Problems.

 

The Revolutionary Character:

 

Self Forgiveness, Commitment and Realizations upon accepting and allowing information, developing an entire ‘opposition character’ / Revolutionary Character through it without having an actual Understanding of why I was doing so and how I was only following a desire to Understand/ Know about reality outside of myself, never having had the ability to understand reality as myself, until now.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold an opinion/ belief and idea of reality based on what I read, what I watch, what I hear and hold it as ‘truth’ that I then hold as part of ‘how I see the world,’ without ever having questioned what was the actuality of the evens, who was getting the most benefits from such anti-communist propaganda, why was it being feared and stopped at all cost?  Which is now very clear how it was not even about communism in itself but it was a propaganda against anything that could consider a more just and egalitarian society, without having understood the level of mind control that exist not only within governmental and socio-economic models, but at the level of the individual as the mind that has been the actual dictator for us to create world-systems and new ways to continue seeking after only self-interest and Never regard each one of us as one and equal. I realize that the reality of what we have become as the mind is the actual creator of all of the current world events that we are witnessing, since it takes a massive process of identification with one particular group of people/ political affiliation/ nation/ culture in order to create an opposition toward another for not communing with the same ‘views’ which are always based on personal/group preferences, destined to create problems if such interests oppose the persona/ group interests of others and as such, we have conflict and further warfare that stems from the individual in itself and then onto reality as a hole

 

I commit myself to expose how it is vital for all of us human beings to understand the inner workings of ourselves, as our own physical body in relation to the mind, to understand the actual extent of the problem that has always been here as our very nature and that it won’t just go away nor with communism, nor with capitalism and it is only with the Equal Money System that we can get to a position of learning how to support each other as equals, to provide a certainty to be able to survive physically – BUT it won’t end there. The actual change of humanity and the world system inevitably and invariably begins at an individual level. This is of utmost importance to understand the forces that we are dealing with Within our very own mind as individuals, which is and has been the actual creator of this world system in order to continue satisfying a mind-system that feeds off of the actual physical substance in order to survive – and that this very mechanism is the actual source and key to understand all conflicts between Equals, all deliberate neglect to one another, all deliberate separation in order for consciousness as our mind as a system to Win at all times, because it can only thrive in separation, in conflict, in constant and continuous friction that begins within ourselves as our own mind as thoughts, feelings and emotions that We are responsible for, as the nature of Consciousness is not ‘alien’ to us, it is who we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become. It is our Mirror in fact that we have to Understand first in order to correct the problem from its root

 

Within this, I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to generate more inner conflict within myself when seeing wars and learning about what was happening in the world within ‘conflictive zones’ in ex USSR and Middle East generally, wherein as a child or a young person, I had no further explanation, I had no ‘political specialists’ to explain to me and within this, because of not having an explanation, generate a desire To KNOW how the world works based only on information that I would get from the TV or the occasional talks with my uncle and aunt that were more informed or at school – yet even that, was always within the confinement of what we as human beings understood/ were able to explain as ‘world events’ and mechanism of the world, without having a clue of the Actual Reality that was going behind the scenes of what we can say is only the tip of the iceberg as the consequential outflows of an existential situation that we are facing currently as our reality.

 

This is how within Desteni, the first step is Understanding who we are as the mind as it is absolutely impossible to get to see what we have Created, Manifested and Externalized as our world-system, without understanding the inner workings of the mind, of our very cells and atoms and their own relationships formed between energy and substance and Understanding the very relationship that exist between Substance and Energy in itself, as it is really, almost impossible to make sense of this world and our current consequences that we are All living and experiencing, without understanding Reality as a Whole

Within this, I commit myself to Expose how the material at Eqafe must not be understood as something that we promote for any form of ‘personal benefit’ – it is the actual Education Required in this world that must be promoted by all means as part of our understanding of the Responsibility we hold toward ourselves and each other; it is the Actuality of what is going on in this world and the material in itself should be regarded as Basic Human Information that All beings will have to eventually be educated with, as it represents the Key to Understand ourselves, reality as a whole and be able to Within this understanding, create and establish solutions that Do Consider the limitations, the problems we face and test it out as a sustainable option for a solution that Always leads to a Best for All Outcome.

 

I have explained throughout my process how I considered myself to be a ‘sensitive person’ and be ‘easily affected’ by what I would see on TV and my reality (I suggest you watch:  2012: Overwhelmed with Tears by Media – YouTube for further support by Sunette Spies )  and so, it was only when obviously getting to Desteni that the world began making sense, but I can say with full absolute certainty that it was only this year that I got to understand Reality and make sense of myself, this world, this process, the entire ‘Whys’ that I had never gotten answers to within this reality. This meaning that I sought within knowledge and information in history, in philosophy, religions, occultism, Gnosticism, alchemy, astrology, Buddhism, you name it and Nothing was giving me answers to my world – the news on the paper didn’t give answers either obviously, as all of that was only the Outflow of our reality that is generated from our individual ways in which we function an exist. So, it was only through reading Heaven’s Journey to Life that it all clicked, it all made sense and I was relieved within Understanding. This is how and why we share this information, we share our process because it is Not necessary to suffer for not knowing about ourselves, life, reality, existence, ‘the end of the world’ or anything else that might only occupy our minds without resolution. Desteni, Eqafe are the key to understanding reality and Stop being a victim of knowledge and information that as I’ve explained throughout these blogs, lead me to become an ‘opinionated person’ but from the starting point of only regurgitating ideas and beliefs that I had in no way tested out/ verified or further investigated myself, which is How I can see we exist as humanity: we create these blindfolds upon knowledge and information that has been designed to Fear anything that is actually veering toward a common sensical perspective upon reality.

 

It is quite fascinating how everything that tormented me, that worried me and that I had accepted and allowed myself to see as an unfathomable mystery that I was probably never going to understand until ‘I die’ have become now part of my reality as what I understand of myself and this world, and the clarity and stability that we are able to give to ourselves through Self Forgiveness and Self Honesty in relation to what we are witnessing within this world, is a life changing situation. We certainly do not have to die to understand and see ‘the bigger picture’ of what is going on in reality – the understanding, the tools to support ourselves are here and within this, all existential woes  are able to be Self-Forgiven and Self-Corrected through our practical understanding of what it is that we have to focus on day to day, breath by breath, as I see and realize that all the time spent in uncertainty was simply based on my desire to KNOW but never see my actual Participation within it.

 

It is vital to understand who we are and what we have become as the Mind/ Consciousness as a System upon the physical body and our beingness within this all in order to make sense of our reality. Otherwise, I see that it is quite a point that can drive oneself crazy if we do not grasp the forces that we are dealing with as our own ‘enemy’ which is ourselves at all times. Because Everything that is here is ourselves. And as such, there are no ‘counteracts’ but simply  a process of separation from oneself that we accepted and allowed from the very beginning of our existence.

 

Now, this is how when looking at the world system, it is not only to look at the pictures and outflows within the context Only of human history – it is to understand the process from an existential perspective – and this is what we as human beings had Never considered until now, and this is how I cannot emphasize more the importance and relevance of the material that’s being presented in Eqafe as part of the Desteni Corpus of Investigation upon Reality at an Interdimensional Level for over 6 years now – which is the key to Realize that there is a lot more to this reality than what the Eye of the Mind meets – and this is and will be an Educational Process that we will All have to go through as part of our very basic Self-Understanding upon creation.

 

I realize that the real revolution won’t happen in any mainstream media type of reality, because what Desteni and Equal Money System represent is far more extreme than any concept of what Capitalism or Communism or Socialism implies, as non of the above considered the necessity of understanding the Human Mind as the basic platform to establish a world system that is able and capable of catering a platform of self support to Correct the nature of mankind to stop Acting only as an individual-self-interested system that only seeks after its own benefit and instead, Learn how to Use the Mind as a Tool to Support each other as One. This means that any system reform that is being envisioned/ proposed in our reality Must contain/ have an absolute holistic understanding of reality of us human beings, of our process of relationship formation within this system that we call ‘World-System,’ our relationship with all the other species of beings that are equally here, of the factors that are dependent on our very participation in our own mind in order to create a Solution that Contains the necessary platforms of Support to correct, align and design a New Human Being that must be created, that must be Engineered within the basic understanding of reality as a physical system instead of being indoctrinated with further values, words, pictures, ideas, concepts, emotional and feeling imprints that we are still currently educating children with, essentially maiming their ability to stand as physical beings due to immediately imposing our ‘old ways’ of how we have existed until now: mind drones that serve only self interest without even knowing or understanding where or how does that Self-Interest and that desire to get the most/ be greater that everyone else is actually stemming from and implying within ourselves as mind systems within a physical body.

 

How can we follow through to support or oppose a world system, a particular regime, a particular religion or political affiliation, cultural tradition, educational perspective if everything of this world has been based upon knowledge and information destined to perpetuate exactly the same system as is – essentially becoming our own Self-Brainwashing to only perpetuate the division of humanity by knowledge and information?

 

And when one understands the absurdity of our inner friction and conflict, it is hard not to laugh at what we have done to ourselves, but at the same time want to cry for what we’ve done in the name of our own inner-friction and conflict translated into what we are witnessing today as potential wars and further world-system fallout projections. The truth of what we’ve done and become is already here as our world and reality, and understanding the ‘why’ of it all is the basic point that is a Human Responsibility actually as it is only through understanding that any attempt to blame and point fingers at a god or creator or system or government or whatever is simply impossible to do if one is Self Honest enough.

 

I see realize and understand that the current outflow and consequence will take time to correct and align as it’s taking us quite a long time to get ourselves to the current stage we’re in. Thus, I allow myself to contribute to this process of Education as part of who I am as I realize that the change won’t come from an outside force that will solve it all, but each one of us that educate ourselves and are able to be the example of what understanding and Acting upon understanding implies, always veering and directing it toward a best for all outcome in Equality as Life.

 

- This will continue

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Relevant Links to Educate yourself and Stop being only part of the ones that ‘Revolt’ against the world without having a single clue of even how your mind operates.

 

To take the first steps in understanding this Process of Writing, Self Forgiveness, Self Corrective Application within the understanding of who we are as the Mind:

 

To Understand the beginning of Existence – nothing more and nothing less:

 

To Understand the preparation of what came to be Humanity explained by the creators and the main contributors to what has become our reality:

 

To Understand the Existential Enslavement perpetrated by the Creators of the Human Being and its direct consequence to how our world system operates and who we are within it in our current reality with direct influence on who we are and have become as the mind:

 

Understanding of the World System and the Individual Participation of Who we are as the mind and physical body within it as well as practical solutions to be implemented within our reality:

 

To Understand the Mind and Learning from other beings’ patterns in order to take responsibility for what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become:

 

Understanding the Force that Creates Life – from enslavement within an energetic system to a physical equal and one self-expression to birth ourselves as Life in the Physical:

 

 

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2012 Existential Woes: Stop and Know Yourself – YouTube

214. Creating Awareness is Not Enough–LIVING As It is

 

Understanding Reality is the key to then see how it is futile to victimize oneself within this world and then seek to revolt/ escape and judge the system, without realizing that it is OUR Responsibility at all times to be the solution – not just use knowledge and information to create ‘awareness’ without being the living example of what it is that Standing up for Equality actually means as a Self-Directive Process that we walk in order to realize, see and understand our very own participation within the world system that we have judged and criticized up to now.

Self Interest Complicates Everything in this world. Look at the problems today, they are not imposed by only one man or one single ideology, religion or group – the problem in this world is the sum total of individual survivalism created as an image and likeness of a mind as consciousness that could never ensure its survival without creating deliberate conflict and friction to get some energy and continue existing. This single aspect is imprinted in our very Atoms in our physical body and As the nature of Existence as a Whole, being unaware of this physical and mind aspect of who we are is the negligence and ignorance we have accepted and allowed the moment that we abdicated our own responsibility to ourselves by allowing us to be reduced to being a single automatized and systematized existence of emotions, feelings, thoughts that will always seek for one’s personal benefit, as ‘happiness’ and the most social recognition one can get in one way or another – this is the pattern I walk and take responsibility for.

I direct my self-interest and powerlessness act of ‘revolutionary’ and stream it here as breath to take responsibility for all that I ever sought to be and become in separation of the best interest of all and instead, live it as a genuine act of understanding how it is only in Equality that Life can thrive in this world for all.

Revolutionary -Elitist Character – Self Corrective Statements

 

Continuation of the Elite Character

The Revolutionary Character:

 

I commit myself to live the realization that we should not require suffering or any other situation of abuse to have a reason to stand up for Life in Equality. I realize that the reason why I chose to stand up entailed a form of self interest that wasn’t entirely Self Honest. Thus, I direct myself to confirm my standing up for Life in Equality as what’s Best for All from the realization of this entire world being our Responsibility and it can only be and become the world I dreamed of – where everyone gets along and is living ‘happily’ – if we commit ourselves to create it, and this is through Education. Therefore, I commit myself to be the example of what it is to Stand up for Life as a Living Principle, not motivated by external desires of attaining something/ someone outside of myself, but as the point of Self Support and Self Assistance that adds up to more people that is willing to do the same and as such, realize that the ability to establish a world system that is Livable depends on each one of us, not in some government or politician’s decision. We Are It.

 

I commit myself to realize that the responsibility we all hold toward this world system is equal and in that, all our words, thoughts and deeds are essential to align to a best for all outcome in all ways, as that is what I see and realize creates the totality of this world system and within that, it is not about opposing the government and asking It for a ‘Change’ but we take such Change in our hands and act upon it.

 

I commit myself to not participate in emotions when hearing the news about the world and become sad or feel powerless about it. I rather stand up in the moment, take a deep breath and realize that I am aligning my life to be and become part of the solution and that diminishing myself to a victim of this world has never worked, not for us not for anyone protesting about the world conditions. We have to instead, establish, promote and create awareness about the solution that exists at an individual level As each one of us, standing together being the majority that is willing to stop the current mad world we’re living in.

 

I Commit myself to live my life being a living-example and promoter of what Life can be when one is Self Responsible and dedicate one’s life to promote a solution to an overall system reform that will benefit not only ‘me’ or those directly standing up for the solution but ALL beings equally, as that is the way it should have been from the beginning and so it will be and Must be by our direct intervention to create it, as I see and realize that what is the most required aspect at the moment is Education and that is what Desteni is all about, beginning with the Desteni Lite Process that is absolutely open for everyone that is willing to start facing oneself as our mind, as we have realized that it is the Individuals that make the system not the System that shapes the individuals only.

 

I commit myself to stop any form of criticism toward the system from the vantage point of getting an experience of victimization and as such superiority about it, I realize that when we are simply committing ourselves to establish a solution, the points that are flawed within this system can be addressed to show the problem and Then explain the solution and How to walk the solution, because I see and realize that there are far too many documentaries and videos, books and information about everything that is Wrong in this world, but few or only a minority get to the point of showing the solution and exemplifying how it can practically be sustainable and established. Thus

 

I commit myself to always place a solution to every single problem that I address as part of the information and education required in our world, to no longer feed the same ‘opposition personality’ that we have all become every time that we complain about ‘the world’ without proposing any solutions. The most viable solution is the implementation of the Equal Money System wherein people will be able to have the ‘survival-mode’ placed on a definitive Stop and as such, have enough time to work with ourselves, with our minds, to walk our individual processes of Standing up for Life and within that, realizing that it is only through our own decision to work with ourselves, taking Self Responsibility for ourselves to direct and align our lives within the principle of what is Best for All as equals, that we can understand the imperative requirement for each one of us to assist and support other beings to realize the same point for themselves as well: there won’t be any change coming from ‘the clouds’ or the government or a savior as a revolutionary in this world, it must come from each one of us living the words that we speak within the consideration of what is best for all, and within that, realizing that there won’t even be a need or requirement for a ‘leader’ to do this if we can all Will ourselves to Lead ourselves to a best for all outcome. This is what Real Democracy is all about: being the 1 Vote for Equality as one’s life/ living and self-corrected process to finally create an awareness that a world divided cannot ever be a Living World.

 

I commit myself to expose the reality of our media, our economy, our politics as mere obstacles to real solutions, because everything that is currently being massively promoted is only being so from the starting point of obtaining some form of benefit about it. This implies that our Self Movement toward a World in Equality cannot have the same motivations that lead to the same abuse and within this, I realize that there cannot be and exist a desire for change within Self Interest – as Change will imply in this context the eradication of all forms of abuse in any possible way.

 

I commit myself to continue educating myself about how this world functions to no longer aspire to get a position in the system wherein I ‘know it all’ form the desire to be a knowledgeable ego, as I see and realize that knowledge without application is utterly useless and that when one is being the living word, we don’t require to THINK about it, we just express what is Common Sense to the realization of what is best for all, and that is simplicity, never complexity.

 

I commit myself to continue establishing myself as my own starting point to move me within this process, wherein the matters of the world are not reduced to simple points I can ‘speak about’ but actually understand the reason and origin point of what caused it and within that, see and look at the solutions that will be required in the long run to support that aspect of the world. This is within the realization that it is part of our education to always see the problem and investigate and project the solutions – otherwise, we remain asking for ‘solutions’ toward government/ authorities, instead of realizing how we have created it ourselves and so, each one of us will be the solution to it as well.

 

I commit myself to watch the news from the starting point of looking at what is going on in this world, be informed about the reality that is HERE and not from the vantage point of already wanting to blame others as the government, parents or any other form of ‘authority’ that could be the culprit in my mind. I realize that everything that goes on in this world is our direct responsibility and that point does not envision or separate people according to hierarchies and Roles we all play in society – we are all equal and one within our consequential outflow of everything that we have accepted and allowed to exist within ourselves.

 

I commit myself to use all the knowledge and information that may be useful to expose a reality and see it only as that: data that is here represented in numbers and pictures that can be used to represent a reality that we have to all take  Self Responsibility for individually – thus it is not to seek to ‘make money’ out of knowledge and information or further manipulate for only a few people’s interests, but use what is here to show and expose our reality, while presenting a solution accordingly.

 

I commit myself to plan out/ project my life destined toward a position wherein I can support the most beings in this world as that is what I have vowed myself to be and become. A point that stands As the example as the walking-realization of what is possible to be and become once that we commit ourselves to Live in Equality. This means that all Selfish-Interest has no room in a Self-Interest that considers what is Best and Equal for All – Self being the totality of who and what we are as human beings, as this world and existence as a whole. That is what is required to be realized in order to understand that any form of opposition is only a war against Self.

 

I commit myself to use my abilities and skills toward a best for all outcome, wherein I ensure that whatever I do, say, speak stands in alignment to that which I realize is best for all in every single moment and movement. This implies that Breathing is the key to always slow myself down before making a decision of how to approach a situation, a particular piece of information, ensuring I am not only seeking to oppose/ expose without understanding as that is the actual key to stop all further division in this world – to expose the reality that has been accepted and allowed while directing it to an equality solution.

 

I commit myself to realize that there cannot be any ‘superiority’ or ‘inferiority’ position in society when establishing a world in Equality – thus any desire to ‘stand on top’ must be breathed out of myself and realizing that there are no ‘protagonists’ here that will end up in a superior position – it is about an equal and one leadership that we all have to take on wherein we can eventually realize that we do not Require to ‘push ourselves’ to do things by some form of authority/ control through fear, but that we can simply direct ourselves to do it within understanding.

 

I commit myself to walk in humbleness this process and to ensure that any inkling of egotistical desires to be or become ‘more’ than who and what I am are simply breathed out in every single moment they may pop up in my mind, as I see and realize that this is just part of the consciousness desires that I had participated in for my entire life – thus, I take responsibility for my creation as Myself as my own backchat and energetic experiential desires and within this, ensure that I stand always here as breath, realizing that what I really and and the only real power I exist as is in every moment that I have the ability to breathe – stand here and be a living example of the very process of equalizing oneself as Life, until it is done.

 

I commit myself to expose how the revolution begins within each one of us, educating ourselves, taking Self Responsibility and within this, ensuring that no matter how ‘bad’ things may get in reality, the solution will NEVER be to oppose the system or retaliate or fight against each other – but to Always present a solution, to Always speak, communicate and be the living example of the solutions that can exist when self interest is equalized for all in Common Sense and Self Responsibility, realizing that we have only created such problems and turmoil in society because of Self Interest, Greed and the desire to be ‘more’ than what we already are – this all part of the Education we must be directly sharing in order to step out of the mind control we’ve accepted and allowed individually, and within this, start seeing the reality that is here behind all survival fears and retaliation desires to ‘make a better world’ – It is only through education and informed decisions that will lead to an invariable best for all outcome that we can thrive in this world. And this is what Desteni and the Equal Money System are for.

 

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194. Let the Mask Fall!

The beginning of the Evil Series

For some time we’ve been reading about Evil and how it is a primary point to start dissecting within ourselves in order to – obviously – get to know ourselves as the totality and actuality of what we’ve become, which has been mostly covered-up by make-up ideas of goodness, benevolence, positivity and ‘goodheartedness’ that is like a constant self-talk of ‘I’m good, let’s do good, let’s become better human beings, let’s be more this/that’ while in fact, neglecting the so called ‘darkness’ of ourselves that is required to be scrutinized within ourselves in order to finally stand on our own two feet without any veils to not see the evil that we are and have become.

Within this, it is to realize that this is not only about morals of ‘good and bad’ but seeing the inherent nature of ‘who we are’ as evil that is mostly covered up with ideas, beliefs and yes, concepts created around ‘good/ benevolence’ and everything that touches upon the light-love-airy-fairy view of reality, which is simply a make-believe system just like anything else. However, who and what we are as individuals, as the mind, as our beingness is in fact Not good, otherwise the world would be corrected/ solved/ changed a long time ago. 

Now, you might go into the idea of this being pessimistic and whatnot, but it is in fact within such characters that we hide ourselves from the reality that we’ve become by trying to become a better person, and it is Not about becoming a better person as that would imply that I am trying to ‘make up for’ the past, the who I have become out of guilt, remorse and further cover-ups to the reality, the ‘truth’ of ourselves that we keep always there in the secret mind.

I wanted to begin writing about this topic for some days here in my Journey To Life blogs, however I decided to give proper finish to my procrastination character and begin this one, which will most likely be going in depth to what I accepted and allowed myself to become within, first of all, all the cover-ups to not have to face the inherent evil within me. It’s interesting how even writing it out this idea of me being pessimistic or dramatic or ‘satanizer’ comes up, however it is just any other word that depicts that side of ourselves that we have tried so hard to ‘overcome’ and ‘make better’ and ‘spice up’ with all types of experiences in our reality that in no way have ever in fact changed our real nature, otherwise, again, we would have come to a sensate consensus of  what is best for all to live and apply in our reality. Now here ‘con’ comes from consentire = ‘agree’ – con also means with and sensus = senses with a direct sense based on what is physical in this reality, which is not something that can be labeled as good or bad in itself, but our actions and ways of approaching reality have in fact become polarized to create and generate this inherent conflict that is ‘constantly there’ as who we are and have become, which is what I will be explaining here. 

Now, this all begun some days ago when watching Maya Harel’s video  Day 187 – EVIL — Journey to Life which is a blog review on Heaven’s Journey To Life blogs on Evil

and this is a note I made for myself:

The point that has come up while watching Maya’s video is how I have experienced this evil even in the most supportive environments where everything is seemingly ‘fine’ and still, there is this nagging, uncomfortable experience within me, not being able to just ‘pin point’ it, it’s always just there and then thoughts would emerge such as ‘is there something wrong with me?’why can’t I be normal and just enjoy this?’  without realizing that, such experience was/ has been probably the ‘evil aspect’ of myself that I haven’t allowed myself to really look into, because of always believing that this ‘thing’ would somehow recede through time. Hell no, it is this experience wherein we are not completely comfortable within ourselves no matter what a ‘pretty picture’ of environment we are in. It becomes almost like this battle of trying to ‘keep up the ‘good and positive’ based on knowledge and information of the environment being supportive, of the people being supportive– We try and fully embrace the moment but, there’s this ‘something’ all the time and it just seems not possible to simply be here, fully stable or even enjoying the moment, it just doesn’t ‘go away,’  it is this constant experience of there something being ‘wrong’ within ourselves – and this constant nagging experience is what I can spot as my own deliberate negligence to face the ‘truth’ of myself, as evil.

 

And I questioned myself many times why it was like me wanting to simply ‘let go’ of such nagging experience, without realizing that it won’t just be ‘gone’ by me kind of only ‘thinking’ about it and coming to realizations like ‘oh yes, it’s the evil in me’ and turn around and keep going with my ‘life.’ Of course it cannot work like that, that’s precisely how we have lived as humanity, just wanting to brush-off, neglect and hide the actuality of our inner experience. What comes to mind is this video that I would watch several times while growing up, and it depicts this standard humanization of the ‘happy go lucky lives’ while hiding the real evil behind at all times (Blackhole sun – Soundgarden – quirky point is that this is post 194 and ‘94’ resonates within me as the year that I became aware of the ‘world’ through TV and becoming used to watching gruesome/ explicit acts on TV and essentially facing this ‘evil’ nature – same year I became used to being fascinated by everything that would challenge what was accepted as good/ benevolent and developing my personality around that, however only at a surface value)


To understand happiness as the ultimate brainwash for control of the masses and proliferation of capitalism, watch The Trap – this is how happiness, love and light has been the control-system of humanity not only within our ‘capitalist era’ but throughout our entire existence as humanity – and that you can understand by studying Heaven’s Journey To Life blogs and Reptilian interviews at Eqafe.

blachole sun

The images were disturbing just like anything I watched that year when I was 7 years and seeing a ‘broader picture’ of reality through TV – lol, interesting, getting to know humanity through the TV. And even within this realizing that everything that we get to see/hear/ read cannot be just labeled as ‘brainwashing’ without understanding first how even such deliberate demonstration of ‘the human nature’ is in fact existent because We in fact have become That and it is thus used for further entertainment purposes, wow.  So this video contains various aspects that I got ‘hooked on’ throughout my life which was this ‘end of days’ type of depiction while presenting humans as ‘mindless robots’ within a prefab type of ‘lifestyle’ – this also brings me to the realization of how I created this separation between the façade of ‘who I am’ and how I would actually experience myself throughout my entire life.

 

polarity as meThis is, for example, not being able to understand why I would only paint seemingly ‘bad/ negative/ pessimistic’ stuff and in the outside I was seen as this normal, happy, young person. I could not ‘compute’ myself within this. And so, that’s why it always seemed so ‘fake’ whenever I was expected to act/ be a certain way and present an image for the sake of society, parents, school, etc. I became quite aware of becoming this two side-side person which was also depicted in some of my early art  and even beyond throughout the years, the same would still ‘come up.’  That’s how I went through my rebellious teenage years of being like this pessimist existentialist that lead me Nowhere of course, other than consuming myself in reading books of which I can gather absolutely Nothing that can be lived in Self-Honesty. Well, probably a few words from Douglas Coupland, however he went too spiritual and seeking god somehow. And yes, that’s why I also sought god at some point, and went into spirituality because the sole idea of me being ‘stuck’ in this emptiness – which I had gone through in my teenage years/ late childhood even – was simply unbearable and so, I sought to get myself ‘out in the world’ by deliberately portraying myself as someone more optimistic and friendly, even the scheme of my clothes changed from only black t-shirts to various bright colors, lol,  Oh boy, I tried hard, I really did, but didn’t matter how bright my appearance looked, the same ‘nagging experience’ where it all seemed too fake to fool myself simply kept popping up, rearing all the time behind my back when I tried to simply ‘have a good time’ and become to what I thought was ‘being a normal person,’ which involved being friendly and nice and going out, meeting people – Oh well, that can be another personality in itself of course, but it was all based within me wanting to just ‘get rid of’ this me-isness, like ‘get off of me!’ …

 

It never did, not even when I thought my life was perfect with having gotten everything that I supposedly wanted and desired in terms of the specific people I had desired to be with, the specific things, the specific likes, dislikes, so called talents and everything was just ‘there’ like here! be happy! and I just couldn’t, and that’s what I’ve explained many times before throughout this entire process of writing myself out, however I had never tapped it into what it is: this beingness that is actually me, that I only probably painted pictures on, projected onto others instead of seeing Me, getting to know who I have become as this ‘inexplicable’ experience, which is not pessimistic, I simply found it hard to fool myself to be enjoying life at all. And that is because I simply tried to cover up the experience with many things, doing various activities, tried relationships, people and a looong etc. – and it would never go away.

 

A memory pops up, one of my ‘best friends’ at the time would explain to me about this constant presence he could not bear – yes he tried multiple times to ‘commit suicide’ and overdose on whatever he could buy over the counter, though the point is how to me this was ‘too puzzling’ to understand, as if his experience was something absolutely ‘alien’ to me, not realizing that I had always experienced the same but actually, was too fearful to get to know it – and this is the KEY here, ‘I was too fearful to get to see that same ‘nature’ within me’ and that’s how I deliberately would take the position of the ‘good doer friend’ that tried to get everyone back on track to the ‘good side,’ without seeing myself As them and realizing that I was precisely being there with them because the exact same thing was existing within me. Fascinatingly enough, I would veer toward people that were comfortable with this aspect of themselves, however I always saw myself as this ‘little lamb of god’ next to them, lol, which is plainly delusional and existent as, yes, the ‘good person’ character.

Part of the writings I came up with while reviewing ‘the evil’ some days ago, was how friends would reflect me/ who I am, just as any other relationship I formed and this is something I denied at all times, to me I was the ‘good nurse’ and that was it, nothing to do with them being my mirror ‘noooo waaay, I am a gooood peeeerson’ – right.  Even the image of being ‘the nurse’ may already indicate the type of role I played and that I can still see till this day comes up at times with trying to ‘support others’ and ‘save them’ instead of focusing on myself and sharing my own process of how I have ‘saved myself from myself,’ which also explains my particular affinity to types of music, which in this case is diverting the attention to the ‘outside’ and kind of ‘identifying’ with others and what they were saying and becoming in their ‘beingness,’ instead of developing an intimate relationship with me, beginning with yes, looking at the ‘dark side of the moon’ that I always kind of brushed aside believing that ‘I was not that, noooo, I am a good person,’ and! Because I didn’t have the guts to admit that existed within me as well, which is how we become fascinated with something as an energetic relationship of Further separation, instead of standing one and equal to that which we find disturbingly fascinating.

 

The truth may be seemingly harsh, but it’s bee rather fascinating finally realizing how silly it was to try and keep covering up, because of fearing ending up as ‘dreary’ as I perceived others to be.

 

There’s much to come, this is just the beginning.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to for so long try and hide or brush off looking at the ‘evil’ within me, even if I heard it a thousand times for the past  years at Desteni, and instead simply looked on the surface of it without really being willing to ‘dig into the dark corridors and hidden corners’ that I had been suggested to do, but remained on the ‘surface’ of portraying myself as only a ‘good person’ with bits of flaws here and there, which is what caused this ‘dissonance’ within me, not being able to stand here facing myself absolutely because of still hiding things From Myself even, thus,

When and as I see myself wanting to remain hiding the reality and truth of myself as the inherent evil that I’ve become, I stop and I breathe – I realize that this resistance to look within myself were based on having judgments toward ‘evil’ implanted as a child wherein I was taught to only seek to be a good girl/ good person and as such, stick to ‘all things positive’ no matter what, which leads to our actual ‘cannot compute’ status where we don’t know how to Deal with the evil coming up within ourselves, and so, evolve our minds through positive personalities to try and cover it all up even more, without being willing to instead, look at who we are as the evil just the same way that we look at ourselves as ‘the good’ and remove both conditions, to instead walk a process of deliberately doing/ establishing ourselves as what is best for all life. 

I realize that this ‘best for all’ is nor positive nor negative as that can only exist within energy relationships toward ourselves and others – best for all is the way that we can describe the physical way of establishing an agreement between all parts here coexisting that can lead to an outcome that is best for all. Thus, the good and evil is walked through a process of removing the conditions imposed toward ourselves as our mind and beingness in order to integrate a consideration toward everything and everyone as one and equal as ourselves.

 

I commit myself to give myself direction within the walking of this ‘fear of evil/ good person’ character as the necessary process to dissect all aspects that I had denied, suppressed, neglected of myself in order to keep only the bright side showing – thus, this is no longer a point of morality as only good or bad, but understanding self as the actual inherent nature we’ve become and walk the necessary process to correct ourselves with the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self corrective application and living that which we write ourselves as, within the principle of each one of us becoming the necessary change/ correction that is required in this world.

 

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189. Anger and Irritation upon Procrastination

Consequences – Self Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience anger and irritation toward myself and ‘the world’ because of my own procrastination and within this, having ‘wasted’ the time that I had when I had it to do this properly and instead, having to now rush things to make them ‘work’  – however I see and realize that I must be very aware of not going into a rushing state wherein I end up doing things just to ‘get them done’ and forgetting about realizing that each thing that I commit myself to do  requires the exact same amount of self-awareness here as breath to do it, and within this, committing myself to not just ‘get things done’ and get the ‘obstacle’ out of the way – in this

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to equate my life to ‘getting things done’ and seeing the tasks and points that require direction as simple ‘points’ that I have to simply ‘get done and over with it’ without realizing that in this attitude toward my tasks and projects, I am in fact missing out the entire point of the task/ project in itself, which is actually an opportunity for me to slow down, stop seeing life as this series of projects and assignments and instead support me to realize that each and every single task I commit myself to I can take on as long as I am here as breath directing myself in every moment and within this

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, within the consequential outflow of me now having more tasks to do and having ‘wasted the time’ before, I will have to simply be more strict with myself and my time frames, as I see and realize that if there is this ‘extra thing’ that I have been procrastinating to do, it must be done as soon as possible – and within this equate all things that I have to do appropriately.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the fear of ‘oh fuck I’ll be stuck here for another half year’ without realizing that I am not stuck and I created this for myself – within this

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to realize that any point of pressure and rush is created by me and the relationship I created toward moving to another place and finishing school but at the same time not wanting to simply get the whole thing done with the final paper, which I see and realize that the sabotage is only toward myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience anger toward myself and within this go into a pessimistic attitude toward it because I will not apparently be able to move in another half year, without realizing that if any consequences have to be faced, I will simply have to face them as they are and as long as it takes because there is no other way within this when one is subject to processes that I have no control over other than doing my part which is getting this document done.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get pissed off when things go out of what I have initially considered they would go through/ as,  which implies having created a time frame for some other particular task, without realizing that I should have actually done this one written document long time ago and that it is my responsibility to now ensure that I use every bit of time to get to everything that I have to do, instead of wasting my time getting pissed off and irritated at everything and everyone because of my own dead corpse of procrastination.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an energetic experience over procrastination as this further anxiety because ‘things are accumulating’ without realizing that I am the only one that is accumulating them as thoughts of what I have to do, instead of just doing it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to blame others for the decisions made and try and project my own anger and frustration toward me due to not having done the things that I had agreed to do a long time ago.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be irritated because of having had music again the whole fucking day yesterday, wherein I go into a powerless mode because of not being able to go and shut people up so that I can have my peace and quietness to be able to write.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to waste another day and not write because of considering that the music/ noise from neighbors is absolutely irritating and impossible to write when having that constant sound.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to even get irritated at someone arriving home earlier today and within this fearing that the noise will come through the interview and believe that ‘they should not fucking be here’ which is plain control-freak that wants peace and silence in order to please me and my ideals of having a quiet weekend.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wake up with a bad mood today because of things not going as I expected and within this, get irritated at everything, and everyone without considering that I am only acting out and lashing out my own energetic experience of anger and frustration for the accumulated procrastination toward points in my reality.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get irritated because of things not being done according to how they were planned and agreed to be done, within this becoming inflexible and irritated because ‘things are not going the way that we decided and agreed to do them,’ without realizing that I am simply using this as an excuse to lash out and project my own irritation because of not having planed my life with my reality-responsibilities in order to be prepared and have everything done by now to then be absolutely ready and steadfast for anything that is required to be done.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately neglect the consequences that I would have to face in real-time reality based on my procrastination to not get this particular scholar task done and within this, having to postpone everything else that I wanted to do for undefined time in order for me to ensure that I can in fact leave with having everything sorted out.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself and my own departure based on my own procrastination due to me wanting to leave but at the same time creating deliberate obstacles in my reality that make it impossible for me to leave, even thought everything else is ready and the one that I am only waiting for is myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be irritated at my own deliberate self-sabotage because ‘I knew what I was doing all the way’ and I didn’t stop, which places into perspective the actual Evil that we are and do to ourselves in order to make our lives more complicated simply because of accepting and allowing dishonesty from our side.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss breathing the moment that I simply get knowledge and information as having to ‘rush’ something without considering that any ‘rush’ can only exist as an energetic starting point to do things, which obviously always will carry out a consequences – thus

When and as I see myself rushing to do something and wanting to get it done as fast as possible – I stop and I breathe until I see that I am in fact being here stable and the movement within my physical body is not that of an anxious movement and strain, but is in fact a self-movement here as breath. Within this, realizing that I can only direct one point at a time and that I require to establish a routine that makes it practical and physically possible for me to do every single point every single day – and within this, also not accepting and allowing further manipulation to want to stop doing something to do that other thing, based on preferences or specific values given to one or another task, as I see and realize that that which will become part of my daily schedule, is all equally relevant and important.

 

Within this, I see and realize that the rush that I experienced this morning was because of having an unexpected notice and within this, having my little plans ruined because of believing that I would ‘still have time’ to work on this written project that I have been procrastinating, without realizing that such project should have been done by now and that the only way I will get this done is through simply doing it and stop whining about it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make of this task this ‘huge’ obstacle in my reality based on and directly proportional to the amount of time I didn’t direct it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the consequences are for myself yes, but also toward everything and all – and that this is actually depending on me and how I am able to stop the energetic experience toward my own procrastination and simply focus on what is required to be done.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an experience toward things going ‘out of plan’ without realizing that If I had in fact lived my life according to doing things in the time that I had also ‘planned’ to do, I would not be existing in such an energetic rush and anxiety because this is only the consequential outflow of my own procrastination and deliberate postponement to do things – the consequence is thus me having to simply do all things required without making an experience about it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thinking ‘I don’t want to see anyone today’ wherein I am simply wanting to lash out onto people in my reality what I am experiencing within me due to having to face the consequences of what I’ve done, which is unacceptable since that is how I have criticized people as well, when they behave in absolute anger and irritation to people without the other people they are communicating with having anything to do with the person’s mood and personal frustration/ anger/ irritation thus

 

When and as I see myself wanting to lash out and be irritated at people in my environment as a way to show and reveal that ‘I am pissed off at myself’ I stop  and I breathe – I realize that this is actually rather foolish and stupid to do since who we are is already the accumulated and manifested consequence of having wasted our lives and time in entertainment and the feel good experiences of the mind which are now here to be faced as the time that I could have used to work on my task/project/ document, instead of now existing as an energetic experience of anger toward ‘the world’ as a way for me to blame and exert my reactions instead of taking responsibility for them, which is unacceptable.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to even get irritated by the presence of someone at home when it is supposed to be ‘all quiet and empty’ in order to satisfy my desires to have no noise around me, which has become a rather constant point of desire that I will surely have to get to, because it’s being also the source of anger and irritation because of people constantly playing music in the house or in the neighborhood, which makes it impossible for me to record interviews, but at the same time, I see that it is a point of me wanting to control my environment instead of realizing that I have no possibility of doing that, and that if I want absolute silence I then have to wake up in the middle of the night to have a relative silence around.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be irritated at someone cleaning in the house which reveals the absolute nonsensical way of existing as the mind, since I would get pissed off if people do not clean and now I get pissed off because someone is cleaning and ‘making too much noise’ – within this I realize to what extent one can utilize anything, virtually ‘anything’ outside of oneself to blame and project anger toward without a cause but our own self-created experience of anger and irritation that is only existent within ourselves.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am becoming my father when it comes to being constantly irritated and angry when things are not working ‘my way’ and be an absolute ‘sweet and loving person’ when things are going my way, which reveals the absolute disparity that I am allowing within myself based on the external environment and how it suits my preferences and desires/needs, instead of seeing and realizing how I have to take responsibility for myself and what I have created within me also as these energetic experiences of anger and irritation according to wanting to control my world and having things always working ‘my way’ and within my desired ‘time frame,’ without realizing that I have already imposed too much of myself as self interest toward my day to day living.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use another person as a reflection of myself to justify the anger and irritation as something ‘genetic’ without realizing that I also learned from looking at my father how he would go into anger and frustration and further retaliation toward others whenever things would not go his way, within this

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience frustration as that surge of energy that I am just waiting to lash out on others, so that others can be aware of me being angry and somehow seek some misery-is-company type of words and attitude as a confirmation to me being ‘right’ in getting angry

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect my physical body throughout all of this and that I have not been diligent enough with myself in order to be breathing and Here as I direct points and situations, and that missing out on breath and missing out time and space that I could have used to work on my project is simply no longer here and that the only point I can do is giving it direction along with any other commitment  I have agreed upon doing. 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get very sleepy as I write this and want to just shut down and go to sleep, without realizing that this is a defense mechanism in order for me to simply not continue realizing that this has been a key-aspect within my reality: how I have become this replica of what I would see my father do and that would actually bother me quite a bit, which is lashing out anger upon others and not taking self-responsibility for it. Thus

 

When and as I see myself wanting to lash out my anger toward others and not take responsibility for this single moment of preparing myself to ‘present’ myself in a particular way toward another being – I stop and I breathe  I realize that this is the moment wherein I have to ensure that I sort out and deal with my own reactions through self forgiveness and self corrective application as this is the only way wherein I ensure that I stop the abuse that I’ve imposed on myself as my reactions being passed onto others that certainly have nothing to do with it – and even if they did, I realize that I have to work on the point of not getting angry at them as an energetic experience, but simply point out something in common sense and at all times considering not only my own preferences and considerations, but what is best for all and within this, I realize that I cannot ‘know’ what’s best for all when I am existing in an energetic experience in my mind as within that I will only continue doing that which satisfies my energetic experience which  – as evil as it sounds – is wanting to intimidate and make other feel guilty for whatever reason, without realizing that this is certainly not the way to go, as I am only projecting onto others that which I am doing to myself /as myself.

I breathe – here and walk the points as required within Self Responsibility – I stop the blame and anger projected onto anything and anyone in my reality and assist and support myself instead to realize that there is only one solution to this all: just doing what is required to be done.

 

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168. Thoughts as Self-Created Resistance

Procrastination Character

Thought Dimension:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the thought of my professor’s office as as single point of fear and resistance toward me writing out my document, which is linked to the actual process that the written document must go through in relation to revisions and having to re-write things more than once, wherein the image of being at the office represents that point of approval or disapproval of it.

When and as I see myself having the thought of the office before writing and creating a resistance toward it, I stop and I breathe. I realize that this is just a fear point that I can simply breathe through, not participate in and continue doing.

I commit myself to not allow one single thought to determine my entire starting point within doing things and actually do it: place myself to writing the document.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to actually resist facing the professor and going to his office, simply because of it representing an actual confrontation of the revisions required and the commitment for me to do do this whichever time it takes, regardless of how many times it has to be ‘re-worked’ as I realize that nothing can be just ‘perfect’ in one go, which is the actual limitation that I see is existing as an obstacle for me to simply do this.

When and as I see myself using the thought of the office as a point of confrontation thus fear, I stop and I breathe – I realize that all of this is only happening at a mind level and that I am able and capable of directing myself to do this without any thought in my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within this future projection of fearing going to that office for a revision, I create an actual resistance in my mind wherein every time that I think of ‘getting this done,’ the thought of the office comes up as a ‘burden’ to face and within this another thought and/or imagination point activates with a positive experience such as doing something else first like any other daily task and ‘saving this writing for later,’ which is in fact me playing energetic games of placing a positive experience as ‘another task’ in front of the task that I am fully aware requires to be prioritized in my reality.

When and as I see myself creating the backchat upon the thought of the office/ school and thinking ‘I will do this later’ – I stop and I breathe – I realize that the other tasks I am committing myself to are actually necessary as well and that I can divide and measure my time to get to all point within a schedule that I can stick to, so that I ensure I in fact get this one with the starting point of me as directive principle and not a thought that makes me react and only do that which I ‘want to do’ and within this

I commit myself to live by principle and not by thoughts and preferences.  And this is ‘the deal’ in itself within this dimension.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have thought of me writing out hours endlessly without realizing that this is absolutely just a character that is pretending that ‘I do not want to write,’ while I have proven to myself that writing is an absolute supportive point for ourselves to face ourselves and within academic purposes, to propose/ show and demonstrate that which we are here to communicate/ convey which in this case implies my own process and that there is absolutely no excuse to divide ‘process writings’ to any other writing that I have to do as part of who I am and my own expression.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a division within me, giving a positive value to writings done ‘for process’ and a negative value to writings done toward an activity that I have considered as pointless such as school/ academic purposes, without realizing that I have committed myself to do this and that shoving it away or trying to make it ‘less important’ or even ‘non important at all’ is me actually not wanting to do it and face a point of self-expansion, which is yes, ludicrous how in our minds we trap ourselves in our burden and energetic bubble of constricted ‘airwaves’ wherein we are not here breathing, but instead postponing being HERE because of all the mind burdens/ tasks/ points that we are constantly procrastinating to do.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that within this self-creation process I have in fact proven to myself that I am deliberately creating a fucked up experience and absolute self sabotage every time that I give into Energy to create instead of Physically moving myself to DO things instead of future projecting, thinking and imagining all of the above mentioned points and aspects that I have charged with a negative resonance – within this

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to immediately seek for a point of comfort and enjoyment and ‘feeling good’ or ‘better’ about myself with points of distraction such as surfing the net, reading the news, going out for a walk, fixing this or that around my room and house wherein such thoughts and imaginations emerge the moment that the initial negative thoughts such as having to confront my writings with an academic, having to spend ‘long hours writing’ become this negative experience that is quickly shifted in my mind toward a point that ‘I’d rather doe’ in order to satisfy my own existence within this ‘feeling better’ about myself by doing other tasks, within this

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel better with doing and completing and satisfying ‘other tasks’ which I have defined as ‘enjoyable tasks,’ wherein I believe that I am being responsible for taking care of these tasks, however having then imposed these preferred tasks on top of this primary task that is an actual point of immediate action for me to take on, which means it is a priority in my world and that I have procrastinated for so long in this ‘waiting’ for – hell, nothing there is nothing to wait but ME just Doing it.

When and as I see myself rather doing other writings instead of the academic point I must write, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am creating a disparity in values according to that which I like/ that which I don’t like and as such, diving myself to only do that which I enjoy doing and avoid that which I apparently don’t enjoy doing – thus I equalize my application toward my writings and not kid myself to only do that which I like.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘wait’ for when I could apparently have the ‘right book’/ ‘the right information’ to do this, without realizing that I’ll be describing my experience and as such, there is no book that could possibly hold at this stage any of what I am here to share as my process of self-creation as it is a self-explanation of who I am as my own creator.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise my physical body to constantly be used up and consumed to charge up these thoughts and imagination every single day, wherein I have actually tortured myself instead of actually doing it. Within this

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dishonor myself, my physical body within this deliberate neglect toward the responsibilities at hand and within this having satisfied only the mind-reality of feeling good/ feeling satisfied with and while doing other tasks, while knowing and being perfectly aware that I have this other primary task at hand.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to actually squander my breathing, my physical hereness, my unconditional support given by others in order for me to do this, and instead only focus on one aspect of my reality that makes me feel ‘good’ and that I ‘prefer doing’ while deliberately neglecting the other aspect that is the reason why I am being supported to live every single day at the moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an experience of regret when looking back at all the time that’s gone by without me giving direction to this and within this thinking ‘what the fuck have I allowed?’ without realizing that all that is left here to do is simply Doing it and that there is no way to go back in time and ‘sort it out then,’ but instead have to ensure that I get this done as soon as I possibly can, as I am in fact even postponing my own plans due to this single point of resistance to finally get this written document done. It is writing, it is me and my experience to be shared – how on Earth have I actually resisted to do this?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see an art degree as pointless and useless piece of paper that will have no ‘power’ at all within the system, without realizing that we live in this world system wherein one single piece of title gives you enough credentials to be ‘accountable’ within the system and as such, realizing that this is one requisite that I require to cover in order to give completion to what I committed myself to finish.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that having this little paper on the wall just proves that I am ‘worthy’ toward the system, without realizing that it’s not about the paper or the title or credentials even, but the self commitment that I have committed myself to as part of being a self directive and self responsible beings in all aspects in my reality, as I realize that my reality is my process and that neglecting doing this, is deliberately neglecting my own point of responsibility and self movement.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always give myself excuses as to why I should leave it for the next day and why I am not ‘ready’ to do this now wherein a thought of doing something else first always come in, and that something else is a task that I have defined as ‘enjoyable’ and even ‘more supportive,’ and within this creating a rift within me toward doing that which I realize is my immediate point of action as opposed to that which also requires action but is not in an absolute immediate manner that must be completed – thus I see and realize that I require to prioritize my time, myself and my current point at hand to complete and to not take further responsibilities without first sorting this one responsibility in my reality.

I Realize that I will have to face the consequences of my own procrastination within this point which I am fully aware that I created simply because of having given into energy and seeking for a feel good experience instead of actually doing what must be done in the moment and realizing that I could not be in a better position to do this and that I have in fact dishonored myself and neglected my self commitment by having given so much ‘head’ to this, instead of simply doing it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I see myself having the thought of writing the document out, see the thought of that specific folder wherein I don’t want to go through everything that I have to revise it and give it proper order and coherence and within this creating a single thought of the folder that contains the files as a burden, due to all the information that is there and the points that must be aligned wherein I am creating a negative experience toward it, instead of actually supporting myself to open up the document, read through what I have and write.

When and as I see myself resisting opening up the very folder in my computer that contains all the written documents and avoiding clicking on it, I stop and I breathe, I realize that this is actually a physical click of opening up documents and reading and going through it to see what requires to be corrected, shifted, what requires an addition and as such focus on what is necessary to be done in order to in fact complete it and have it done for once and for all.

I commit myself to stop all thoughts and instant ‘captures’ of either the office or the folder containing the writings in my computer and using these thoughts as a point of fear to not move. I realize that I am capable of simply breathing through such thoughts and commit myself to write, review and work on the document myself.

 

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164. Who am I within Procrastination (2)

If we are really looking into this, we can only develop a point of Self Trust according to how we LIVE self trust and what I had experienced it before in my process was according to my ability to live the corrections and commitments to myself as this process –

Therefore, this is another aspect/ factor when it comes to living out a point of procrastination for an extended period of time and allowing it to grow like a tumor that we then just panic about when it become this unbearable and inconspicuous part of ourselves that cannot possibly be hidden any longer.

What comes up? Self judgment would want to come up, however I immediately see that I can simply take this point from here on, not judging myself for having fallen on this point, as I realize that any point that is here to be corrected t is the simply a point to take on, correct and stand up – simply walking the correction, walk the talk and within this ensuring that I do not stand behind my own shadow-self as the consciousness-experience of ‘all is fine’ and instead dare to face the consequences and the points that I had deliberately dismissed – and I write ‘deliberately’ as I see that there is always a deliberateness to anything that we in a moment decide NOT to do, and that’s tapping into the various dimensions as they are being walked within Heaven’s Journey To Life blog that is being a pivotal point of support within me to get myself ‘back on track’ within this seemingly ‘unimportant point,’ which now it’s very clear how the ‘unimportant’ and devaluation to the actual task at hand serves only for the purpose to give myself a ‘free range’ to simply go through another day without just doing it.

Within this I realize that the aspect of ‘others’ and who am I at the eyes of others is really not relevant within this, this is about myself as the commitment that I have taken for/as myself and that I have realized and lived to a certain extent must be absolute in all aspects for me to experience myself absolutely Here, without any snowballs attached dragging along an entire past of ‘unresolved/ undirected points’ within my reality, which I also KNOW beforehand are never as ‘bad’ as I imagined them to be.

In all of this, we can see how it is only within myself, my own acceptance and allowance to participate in the mind that I’ve become subject to my mind instead of standing one and equal to it. Is this a lesson I can only learn and never again repeat? Yes, as other points that I have proven myself being able to walk, live and be self directive within, I realize that I am also perfectly able and capable of standing up from this and walk the point from square 1.

I also realize that when we hit ourselves on the face of reality and realize the amount of time we lived in this ‘unbalancing act,’ we then try and catch up to everything in one go, creating then the experience of it begin then ‘too much’ or ‘impossible to get to,’ which are ALSO mind-mechanisms to not get it done. I can even see how I can use ‘supporting others’ as an excuse to not get to my own doings and writings, which is certainly not an option to do since we are all perfectly capable of making time instead of being sucked by it and wasting it in really non-supportive activities that I will disclose later on.

Thus, I assist and support myself to walk each one of these thoughts to not get it done by actually Getting to everything, creating a point of balance within my tasks, prioritize, stop any point of distraction and in fact support myself to Live Here realizing that every breath is here as an opportunity for myself to give myself self-direction. And this I also realize doesn’t require a point of ‘background’ of ‘who I am/ what I have been/done’ in the past, but it is simply here for me to walk and as such I stop basing my application according to the past as that would be also comparing ‘me’ to ‘who I was,’ which is only existent as memories. I work with the actuality of myself here, without any judgment and focusing on the physical tasks that must be done.

Within this all it is to walk the point for what it is, not creating any further judgments or experiences toward what is already done, what is gone is gone and there’s nothing else to do but to ensure the point is corrected from the get go here.

Furthermore, I invite You the reader to walk aside, to take on this point of getting things done/ committing ourselves to stop procrastination in any aspect within our reality within the understanding that we tend to blame and complain about ‘the system’ and how ‘ineffective it is,’ without realizing how this world is created out of the choices we’ve made and at the moment, our seemingly ‘unimportant factors’ such as procrastination that we have lived out as ourselves are in fact being the building blocks of our current world-system and our inner-experience of course, as we can see how a point of well being is also based on us being living day by day ensuring that we get things done, as I see and realize this is an actual physical aspect of our lives, it is not thinking it is not entertaining or deviating ourselves within any other point that may be ‘occupying our time’ which is not to be blamed for, but seen as the deliberate point of distraction that it represents within our minds.

Within this it is to see and observe what in our reality has become a point of distraction – either an event, something you want to buy, someone you’re ‘interested’ in, a certain career you are pursuing, a certain possession/ ownership that represents a significant increase in your income ,a future trip/ vacation, a personal event such as having kids, getting married, changing your job, someone dying, someone being born, TV, media, magazines, news, virtually anything can be grouped within the various points that we can distract ourselves with eventually creating these nice comfortable bubbles wherein we become only observers of our reality instead of living in it and seeing ‘who am I’ within participating in all of these aspects and their actual tangible ‘value’ to invest our time in – and this is within the questions that I learned from Anu in asking: how is this in any way supporting myself in my process? and within that, one will be able to spot any point of dishonesty and actually do-the-doing of stopping and correcting the point.

It is also a point to question/ ask myself: who am I within this relationship of procrastination? I could call myself many names that’s clear, however it’s not the point – it is actually not even seeing the point of ‘what is there to be done’ as the actual ‘thing-to-do’ but instead see the who am I within this procrastination as a deliberate point of inaction/ irresponsibility created in ‘full awareness’ which is the relationship that I created as myself toward another point in my reality and allowing it to just ‘bloom’ until the weeds become unbearable. Well, this is certainly an aspect that I am not willing to continue and this is what I can call officially riding again the horse instead of standing next to it fearing to be squashed by him in any given moment.

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154. The Ladder of Success is Self Abuse

Consumerism is Self-Consumption

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the belief that buying is a pleasant experience and a hobby, wherein one learn to see the act of consuming as a a fulfilling experience that satisfies and quenches that seemingly constant ‘void’ that is perceived when there is no energetic experience going on within us, which is how we have defined energy as Living instead of understanding how it is that these energetic experiences in fact lead us to our very own depletion/consumption and eventual death, as all energy implies the consumption of the physical, the burning of the fuel that is the physical in order to create what we only see as a ‘fulfilling/ pleasant/ satisfying experience,’ because no one on Earth had even known how it is that this process of Thinking actually goes through, and it is now that we have the information through the material available at Eqafe such as the Quantum Mind Series that we are able to understand how everything that we have ever thought is implying a form of abuse toward ourselves as the physicality that we really are, all in the name of an experience that only goes up in the mind, without no apparent further consequence other than a momentary high which is what we have in fact become addicted to: Energy as a make-believe ‘living experience’ while ignoring the actual gruesome reality that goes behind every single thought that we participate on, which implies our own self-consumption.

This is the point that we had not realized when labeling ‘consumerism as a pleasant experience’ and not seeing/ realizing and understanding How such pleasant experience is created and what is actually enabling this experience, which is and can only exist if ‘something else gives It/ provides it which in this case is the physical that is literally ‘nailed’ just like Jesus on the cross in order to give that ‘kingdom of god’ that we have foolishly defined as money, wealth and the experience that we have defined through/as money as happiness, fulfillment, power, satisfaction as the saturation of energy that we have foolishly ‘bought’ to be ‘real’ in any way, because we have ignored our own physicality as the actual equality and oneness as life, as the actual source of that experience that we believe is ‘who we are,’ due to not seeing, realizing and understanding how the mind works in relation to the physical body and how it runs like an engine gnawing our very own physical tissue to keep its energetic functions going – all of this is explained in the Frog Series that I suggest listening to in order to understand consumerism as a point of self abuse and how we have the actual capacity to correct this points within a new system like the Equal Money System beginning with Ourselves as that equal and one relationship developed within our mind toward the physical.

 

When and as I see myself participating in the thought of ‘Buying is a Pleasant experience’ and projecting this judgment upon others to see them as ‘ignorant,’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that I have been absolutely ignorant to the actual understanding of how all ‘Positive Experiences’ are created at the expense of the physical which is the sacrificial rite that we do on a daily basis whenever we think and only follow our own personal benefit/ happiness point, while believing that we are enhancing our ‘living experience’ and ‘evolution’ in ourselves, without understanding how we are actually sacrificing our own flesh and living substance due to the accepted and allowed belief that thinking, having feelings and emotions is something ‘natural’ to the human being.

We have been oblivious to what extent we have abused ourselves/ all that is here whenever we simply consider it was very easy to follow energy as ‘living,’ which is the necessary education that must be taken on in our reality so that we can in fact, at last, understand that this current system of consumerism based on linking consuming/ buying to a positive experience is an evidently unsustainable system, wherein we only see the ‘nice’ and ‘positive’ and ‘attractive’ points as the final product made for our own benefit, while neglecting the actual gruesome reality that goes behind the entire production process and extraction of prime matter – nice way to name the Earth’s resources – in order to transform it/ configure it in a way that we impose our wants, needs and desires toward this satisfaction/ fulfilling point as a positive experience that we have believed is ‘all that we are here for in our lives,’ while missing out every moment of actual living here in Equality and Oneness as the physical, as Breath, simply because we trained/educated ourselves to only regard Energy as Living.

And this you can understand in the series the Crucifixion of Jesus in the chapter number 7 that speaks about this ‘Ladder of Success’

 

I commit myself to stop judging and within this reinforcing the same mechanisms of separation that we have participated in, which implies using our minds to assess/ value/ define this physical reality in terms and way that we benefit ourselves from, due to the premise of accepting life as an energetic experience –thus it is to educate myself to ensure that I am aware of how it is that I have become what we can see in each one of ourselves and this world in its entirety as the outflow and consequence of our own accepted and allowed perception of life being an energetic experience that is either positive or negative, and within this, exposing how it is that our own wants, needs and desires became manifested as every single product that we are able to BUY now with money that is not readily available/ given to all unconditionally, which is indicating how we have separated ourselves from our very own physicality as this entire world through a belief system in our minds, that sustains our entire economical model at the moment – this is no different to the thinking pattern of believing that buying/ consuming a single thing to own/ possess/ eat/ wear/ use is what ‘living’ is about (which is how we have defined living as an experience) wherein we diminish ourselves to being only ‘thinking’ instead of breathing and understanding the physicality as who we really are and how we consume it while thinking/ following our thoughts.

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when entering a mall/ commercial center/ market, and seeing all the plethora of things there are to buy and its wide variety, I get the pictures of the media and how they present similar products wherein then I access a thinking-pattern to blame the media for ‘brainwashing us,’ without realizing how there is Nothing in this world that was made ‘by the hand of a god,’ we are all responsible for it and that implies that we created the media in order to constantly create new needs/ desires within people in order to fulfill and satisfy the exigencies that we’ve established as a monetary system that requires constant consumption to continue going, which is very clear how our current system is energy-driven as an abusive relationship upon the physical, instead of having created and established and agreed upon a world system wherein we can support one another as equals, standings As the equality and oneness that we in fact are, but that we didn’t do because we accepted the mind to be the one that dictates ourselves in relationships of separation toward everything and all that is here, which is why and how Media is so effective, as it presents a relationship of separation creating a desire/ want/ need in terms of buying/ consuming products in the name of getting a positive experience out of it, and us accepting that as ‘Real’ and ‘True’ because of our own accepted and allowed separation from this physical reality through an energetic experience created in our minds toward that point that we then call our ‘desire/ want/ need’

This implies that all we are currently following is our own self interest, without understanding how such cultivation of personal-needs/ special needs are only existent for those that have money and that form part of the ‘active participants in society’ wherein money has defined who is valuable to the system to perpetuate its functioning and who’s not, thus using Media to create an incentive for ourselves to enter the ‘realm of happiness’/ become part of the Elite where money buys the smiles and fulfillment, using money that is also a belief system of abuse due to it being created only out of thin air with its main purpose being the control and centralization of power for a few, while entertaining ‘the masses’ to contribute to this through entertainment/ media in order to continually go seeking for theses positive experiences that are linked to the ideal image/ presentation of successful living  of those that sit in the royal chairs of ‘power and control’ within the same configured system of ‘power’ = ‘money,’ which is actually only a make-believe system, hence: NO power is real, no money is Real but what is Real is the abuse that we inflict upon ourselves every time that we diminish ourselves to Believing that such money is in fact ‘powerful’ and that owning/ possessing something/ someone is in fact making ourselves ‘more’ than who we already here – this happening every time that we follow a single desire to acquire, buy and consume in means of personal satisfaction and fulfillment.

 

When and as I see myself wanting to blame something or someone for the current state of reality we’re living in, in separation of myself – I stop and I breathe – I realize that we are ‘specialists’ in projecting blame toward others for being ‘the villain’ and ‘the bad guydoing this to ourselves, without understanding how it is that we created our own reasons and justifications to perpetuate a system wherein self interest is the main cultivated aspect of ‘who we are’ as human beings, wherein everything that we have created and configured as our world system – money, policies, economy, education, religions, leisure, science, technology – is directed to benefit and please only a fraction of the population that have enough money to really have a good life, which is the main primary point that is promoted through media/ ads everywhere, infiltrating what’s cunningly called ‘public opinion’ to create a commonly accepted ‘standard living’ in society based Not on a common well being and direct understanding and interaction with nature/ the Earth, the animal kingdom as part of ‘who we are,’ but instead diminished everything to only being a consuming-aspect to keep up the ‘satisfaction’ experience within ourselves as our mind which must be understood as the very mechanism of self-depletion that we run on a daily basis, being the relationship of who we are as the mind toward the physical the actual point to investigate  and learn about, to understand How we have made of consumption to sustain our physicality an entire mind-created experience linked to getting ‘the most of it all’ and defining such point of abuse as ‘power’ without understanding a thing about the current monetary system wherein such power can in fact only stem from the abuse inflicted to all of the Earth’s resources, animal kingdom, humanity as well in order to ‘keep running’ this entire machinery that we have called a ‘living system,’ which is in fact not at all so, because we have not  yet established our individual understanding of equality and oneness as this physical reality which is then why and how

I commit myself to support myself to continue understanding who I am in relation to the world system, how my very own thoughts/ participation in emotions and feelings and defining this entire reality according to a value-system wherein the monetary system I have believed to have any ‘solid foundation’ is in fact determining my own relationship to other beings, things and the world in itself, due to us having accepted and allowed ourselves to diminish who we are to a set of predefined, predetermined, finite relationships based on energetic experiences such as power, success, happiness through consumption which must be first of all understood as the relationship that we have created within ourselves toward our own mind in separation of the physicality that we are, which is the first step to consider if we see and realize how our own system is flawed from the very beginning of its creation, and our existence as a whole, because we separated ourselves from each other and developing relationships toward one another and giving it a value, which is the premise that lead us to currently desire, want and need such experience of ‘reuniting’ as a possession/ consumption point instead of an equal and one relationship and understanding of who we are as equal and one to that point of desire, want and need.

 

Walk with us in our Journey To Life and to establish a living-common-sense in our reality through a Monetary Reform that that we can All participate in through democratic means, simply by externalizing our awareness of how this entire world system is a scam that we have all been participants of and within that, taking responsibility for the consequences we’ve created through establishing a life-considerate system as the Equal Money System, so that we can re-establish our relationships to ourselves, the world/ each other in Equality and no more create belief systems of ‘power’ and ‘success’ only through accepting life being limited to a single energetic experience that can only exist through the abuse of the physical through the mind.

Time to Wake the fuck up!

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147. Hissy Fit: Cleaning Demonic Possession

 

Today after listening to the Whale interviews – which supported me to also get back ‘down to Earth’ after getting pissed off at irresponsible situations going on ‘at home’ –  I realized how Thinking is Self Interest even if such interest in this case is getting pissed off and KNOWING IT – and still acting out on it  – furthermore I realized how through thinking we have denied/closed off and diminished ourselves to only see a VERY limited version of our reality, we get stuck on a minute version of what WE are able to see, realize and understand and experience in our minds only, while there’s an entire existence going on in this reality with beings that are far more aware than ourselves about us human beings and this entire existence while we simply decide to annihilate and exterminate animals for whatever reason we might ‘think’ it is appropriate to do so. Wow, really, wow – and all of this I realized after going through one of Marlen’s greatest fears:  finding a house absolutely dirty after I leave for only a week after several months.

1st point: my ‘plans’ were disturbed (pattern of getting out of routine/ expected future projection) the moment that I came in and saw the mess – and decide that I have to clean it up as there is no way I can leave the mess as is for one more second.

- – Thoughts: I cannot possibly let this all remain as is, it is unbelievable, I have to clean it all up

Imagination: this existed as an image that came up during the first hours of the day and future projecting myself being back home, in my ‘work space’ and focusing on my tasks.I was aiming at getting back home early and get back on track to everything that I had to do – instead, I spent hours cleaning and arranging what was ‘my own fear/ nightmare’ in terms of precisely having evading leaving the city for

1. wasting time

2. coming back and finding an entire mess in the house – kitchen specifically as I obviously have no say in people’s rooms

Backchat chart:

  • - I leave and everyone just stops giving a fuck about cleaning at all
  • - this is WHY I don’t like fucking leaving the house, everything turns into a mess when I’m not around here
  • - why can’t THEY take Responsibility for cleaning up after ALL THIS TIME!
  • - It is IMPOSSIBLE that at this stage, they are STILL doing this even though they KNOW it is unacceptable
  • -WHY Can’t they just have a BIT of consideration
  • - And endless coursing that ‘I KNEW’ I was shouting out loud

 

Yes, anger, I have written about it for a long time – and even remembering when I was so surprised when anger was like a point that I had simply covered up with an image of ‘Everything is just fine in the world!’ and when getting to see the actuality of it all, anger emerged – suppressed realization of what I had deliberately neglected/ dismissed in my reality and then deliberately acting upon anger itself. Yes, Deliberately – and this can lead to Who am I as Deliberate acting-out in anger?

What are the physical points within this mind-cleaning-demonic-possession frame of mind within acting out in anger: Grabbing all the dishes piled up on the sink with all the food clogging the tube and tossing them into a wooden box, grabbing the cleaning gloves, sponges, detergent/ cleaning liquid and spilling it all over the stove, tables, sink to start scrubbing away the ‘dirt’ – every spot I would turn my eyes to, I’d find just some other fine mess –  gather all the rotting organic garbage out of the kitchen, take out the trash, grab broom and start sweeping to then mix water and literally throw water on the floor to clean it, all of it while cursing and pushing stuff that would be deliberately ‘standing on my way.’  It’s not the first time that happens and I have ‘vowed’ myself to stop it, however in my mind the self-righteous point of ‘I CAN get angry because there is No responsibility taken’ emerges. The backchat in such moment was actually spoken out loud, and – here comes the point -‘I KNOW/ I KNEW’ that I was doing it, I was ‘perfectly aware of it’ – then, why didn’t I stop? – I have written about self-righteousness when getting angry about abuse, and so I had the opportunity to ask Enlil today about confusion with regards to this righteousness to be angry and the relationship formed when facing any situation of abuse.  Yes, Enlil, Mr. Relationship-formations co-founder of humanity Inc.

Marlen, lol – seems you really want to be/become angry at abuse –

that’s cool, meaning that is a ‘first step’ – but what happens when you get angry is that the abuse wins, because you react – the same as when bullied, for example –

you react in terms of what the bully intended, the bully wins, the system is throwing things at humanity’s face essentially to have you react, cause the moment you react, you’re powerless cause the mind takes over in that moment,

and every time you react – you react, and don’t use the time in-between to stand / establish solutions, everyone is in some way or another angry and always have been, but there come a time when the anger must be transcended, must take a breath, must realise it’s here and must realise it’s going to take time to change and self getting angry about it won’t change it, and doesn’t make self a better person for being angry
 

what does determine self is what you walk to change it in the actions you live

 

the anger, it’s also an interesting point because in a way one rather want to get angry than having to admit to the point that it’s going to take time to change; like we don’t want to go to that realisation that it’s going to take time, there’s nothing one can do about it RIGHT NOW – so it’s a fear of going into that realisation, that it is too late to change it all NOW, and that it’s going to be a process and so we get angry, more at ourselves really and the sense of powerlessness we experience; but you cannot let the anger/powerlessness diminish you

 

- Pointer to look at within this context:  

  • –I Expected ‘them’ to Already Know that they Have to clean/ take the trash out/ leave the kitchen clean before leaving for the weekend
  • – I ‘hoped’ it would happen, I believed that I didn’t have to remind them because I ‘assumed’ that they are aware of what they have to do after (adding more ‘charge to the possession’) 2 years of being living together
  • – I was aware of being angry and deliberately deciding to shout and curse in that moment – who am I within this moment and this split second decision? I take the point of being righteous as the mind and decide to get possessed by the moment, wherein, as Enlil clarified: cause the moment you react, you’re powerless cause the mind takes over in that moment, and this justified from the self-righteous desire to say: “It is Unbelievable that they Still haven’t gotten the point, they can’t be self-responsible about their own shit”

 

What do we have? Anger projected at others within the realization that I in fact ‘expected’ others to act/ be / do what I expected them to do, realizing that after ‘all this time’ they haven’t changed and still require policeman in the head to change – believing that because we’ve had confrontations about the same cleaning thing in the past, they would ‘learn’ from it and change, meaning: this time ensuring they do take care of their own stuff while I’m not at home – Believing that we have ‘matured’ our relationship as house mates and they were ‘doing better’ now – in terms of being more considerate – Believing that 2 years would be enough to change an entire lifetime of personal habits of cleaning just because of ‘being living here’  –  believing that they would read notes on the wall of what to do and what not to do, not realizing we as humanity have done all of this and taken it to the next level of negligence, sometimes or the majority of the times.

 

And if I actually look at it from the perspective Enlil shared here, it was me in fact feeling ‘powerless’ because they were not at home for me to exert my anger onto them and shout in from of their face – as I write I realize that I am trying to bring up other points like them leaving the door  of the house open in order for me to get some condescending readers about this, but no. I realized  how I was angry at myself for having expected the house to be a particular way – not meeting my expectations that were also a possibility to turn into a fear and so, some equations took place and I reacted to this point/ event that could have been the outflow.

 

Being Self-Honest, I was in fact angry at me getting angry at the exact same type of situations I thought I was ‘transcended’ or not as ‘reactive’ as before – however, I still went into it, I ‘did it anyway’ and as such, this deliberate acts have consequences for not having actually breathed through it and simply direct myself to still clean up everything as I had realized I would from the get go . My body hurts in various spots as I realize that any little strain it is as painful as having run a marathon in a matter of hours.

And if we look at the points wherein I am projecting blame on to others, it is in fact the exact same points we ALL do. I ‘know’ I should stop, but I ‘gave into’ the anger anyways – and it is a point that I see and realize is not to be further judged, but realized as a simple way to reflect how everything that we judge about others is in fact what I am doing within myself.

I also realize I can only react to such an extent if I have in fact accumulated negative energy-experiences as thoughts that I can only exert as a point of accumulation triggered by apparent ‘external factors.’ I see that in the moment that I saw the overflowing pile of dishes, I ‘made the decision’ to become possessed in anger – and it’s is a fuckup, yes but I am also seeing how it works, and this is also thanks to the  Quantum Mind Self Awareness interviews to see how we in fact do have a moment to decide who and what we decide to be and exist as in every moment: breath or a mind-possession taking over.

Thinking, becoming emotional, and justifying anger is still of the mind as only a mind can react according to its own parameters of what is dirty, what is abuse, what is ‘too much’ based on memory – so, it’s to remember:

the anger must be transcended, must take a breath, must realise it’s here and must realise it’s going to take time to change and self getting angry about it won’t change it, and doesn’t make self a better person for being angry

 

So, I’ll be walking the various points here now that I’ve laid out the plot, the spoiler and placed the point into perspective to see where and how shoving away our thoughts can also create an accumulation that awaits to be exerted at the least ‘provocation’ –

Is it really necessary to live this way? No, it is not living, it is only reacting as expected based on patterns – who do I decide to be: a predictable pattern or a physical body that decides to walk the points – any point – as breath?

I Choose Life. Self Responsibility at all times

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A humbling series of explanations about LIFE, the animal kingdom, marine biology and human communication – this is the first seAssion with the whales and all you’ll end up realizing is how on Earth could we ever claim any form of ‘scientific evolution’ or human evolution for that matter while disregarding the beings that are in fact Aware of themselves as this entire existence – and what are we human beings doing onto them? We all know – Time to OPEN OUR EYES and Educate ourselves with something that has Never ever been shared in the history of humanity, it’s about time we HEAR what we never even ‘thought’ would be possible.


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