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370. Desteni Insider: God, Spirituality, the Afterlife

 

Coming to the realization that who we are in this world is not working to create a better world made me seek answers to try and make sense/justify the suffering, poverty, wars, corruption, a lack of consideration to one another that I used as an excuse to remain only within a persistent process of questioning reality beyond what one is taught in school. I grew up being influenced by the ideas of there being ‘Life after Death’ and the dead coming through channelers or mediums to tell their ‘loved ones’ how they were alright and how everything was going to be ‘just fine’ for them. But also there were messages coming from a form of ‘brotherhood’ from which myself and my family would be getting all sorts of apparent protections and blessings in order to ‘do well’ in our lives. I kept questioning who exactly these individuals were and why in spite of them seeing the people that were seeking for help – being mostly desperately seeking money – was there no divine intervention to support them and end the suffering, end world hunger or even better: establish Heaven on Earth. All that was shared between these spiritual people were nice messages that gave hope and reinforced any kind of faith that would keep everyone waiting and expecting things turning out to their favor as a sign that this ‘god’ or ‘spiritual beings’ actually existed and were in fact on our side,  taking care of ourselves and solving whichever mundane troubled situation we were stuck in. Yet all of this seemed too staged, too dogmatic since it wasn’t something one could openly discuss due to the entire atmosphere of secrecy and reverence that existed whenever these beings would speak through the channelers/mediums that could only speak for a short period of time.

 

I was then familiar with the existence of a heaven or a spiritual realm beyond the Earth plane where the dead would go, yet we never got any answers as to why the world was in the verge of destruction and why us human beings kept existing in these ‘lessons to be learned’ somehow always yearning for a better living condition (translated to having money to live well and in peace) – these and many other questions were not allowed, it seemed that all that really mattered were our personal queries of any form of personal relationship gone wrong, or money problem which, if resolved, would only confirm our trust on these individuals within the belief that somehow we were being ‘chosen ones’ or ‘special’ for having this kind of contacts. It seemed unfair to me since I knew that everyone in the world could benefit the same way we were – apparently – yet others didn’t seem to agree since I had to keep it a secret throughout my entire life.

 

When watching Sunette Spies as a portal in the Desteni videos that were being broadcasted on YouTube since 2007, the in breath and out breath wasn’t anything unusual or weird to me, I instead thought I knew what was going on: I immediately assumed and believed she was a channeler/ a medium like any of the other beings I had witnessed throughout my life – yet there were significant changes that made me ponder ‘what kind of brotherhood/beings were these’ because the message somehow was quite straight, direct, there were no staged words or fancy presentations charged with the usual key words that the other beings I had witnessed before would express themselves with.  I started questioning more and comparing the Desteni Message to what I had heard before from what I believed were the same kind of beings: how come these beings speaking through Sunette were speaking as any regular person? How come they would be speaking about there being No God and reptilian beings having created the human being? Why were they not just leaving with some message of hope and ‘goodness’ rectifying that god is with us? Instead the reptilian point was opened which wasn’t any longer a mystery to me since I had also done a brief investigation on the subject prior to Desteni. Everything I thought I knew about channelers/mediums was debunked when I got to watch the video and read the articles related to channeling (Kryon – Pre-programmed Channels, Questions and Perspectives: Unconscious Mind Pre-programmed Channels, Questions and Perspectives: Continued pre-programmed Channels , Questions and Perspectives: Oneness and Equality with regards to ‘Channelings’ , Questions and Perspectives: How was psychics and channels controlled and why? , 2007 History of Mankind – Part 16 – Anu’s Plan – YouTube) explaining why it was also part of the program and why all forms of ‘light beings’ were part of the deception on Earth to keep individuals trapped in the belief that somehow, there was a benevolent god, that love was the way and that we only had to continue aspiring to have some manifestation of the divine through thinking positive or asking things to the universe. All of this was the real scam and later on understood as the cult of money that it has become nowadays (Read: Day 450: The Power of Now Illuminated)

 

So continuing with the previous post 369. Desteni: An Insider’s Report what I came to realize is that everything was in fact a preprogrammed and predesigned reality construct that we have been living in wherein even the higher beings, the gods, the ‘supreme energies’ that I had placed any form of belief upon were in fact also part of the reality design that we have all been participating in within our minds and in absolute separation of the reality that was certainly existing in complete dissonance to all the benevolent words we would get within the New Age culture – all of this was perfectly schemed as part of the diversion to never get to question ‘God’s creation’ and the beliefs we have acquired through familial and cultural tradition, all being part of the necessary programs that we have within and existing as Mind Consciousness Systems. This is when the point of enslavement was understood. I grasped how perfect the plan had been wherein everything in this world was in reverse and every single aspect of who we have believed ourselves to be as human beings in terms of the spiritual endeavors, seeking gods, bonding ourselves within religions, seeking eternal life, seeking the philosopher’s stone had been nothing else but a nice game that we blindly followed, never ever questioning why is it that we only sought our personal enlightenment, happiness and comfort? Why were we just expecting some god to do the work for us, or have these ‘special connections with a higher force’ while the rest of the world was submerged in suffering and agony due to lacking the necessary means to live which is the same as: lacking sufficient money to live; furthermore, why were all of these people suffering absolutely unaware that there were apparently some spiritual beings that could grant them healings and protect them from ‘all evils’ – apparently. This all made sense to understand how the vilest form of enslavement had to have a very agreeable and sugar coated image in order to be unquestioned and undoubtedly accepted as ‘truth,’ how our constant need to ‘seek god’ was just fearing to realize we are here alone and responsible for every single aspect that has gone wrong in this world, how the enslavement of humanity had been part of a ‘greater process’ by a few individuals that wanted to ‘be Gods’ in existence – it was all revealed to be a sick cosmic joke that we have all been a part of, life after life.

 

As I went through the material, I committed myself to remain skeptical about that which sounded the most fantasy like to me, simply because I could not witness myself the ‘other side’ or ‘the afterlife’/heaven  yet, once again the consistency of the message from the hundreds of beings from all walks in existence speaking through the portal lead me to realize that the final message was quite clear, consistent and made absolute sense as to why this portal had opened and why we they were calling out humanity to walk a process of Self-Honesty. I understood then how all the New Age agenda, the spirituality movement, the promoted ways for ‘peace of mind’ through meditation and seeking to align your chakras to be in resonance with god had been nothing else but a self-interest brainwashing that I had briefly participated in within an attempt to make my life less ‘miserable’ or as I experienced it to be miserable in my existential woes and ever present form of depression. After understanding religion, love, spirituality, channelings as a pillar and essential part to this enslavement of ourselves in our minds, I was ready to leave that all behind and instead begin walking a very different path that I never ever thought I would place myself in: letting go of the idea of god, of spirituality, of something or someone greater than me in order to get to know me as a creator in this reality.

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What I came to realize was that we were truly all alone as human beings, we are the direct creators of the reality that I was wanting to escape from or completely eradicate or disguise with some ulterior beliefs about a genuine spiritual realm that we could somehow rely to in order to be supported or saved in worst case scenarios by invisible beings or forced of the ‘goodness’ that I thought existed beyond the Earth plane, little did I know it was exactly the opposite that this reality existed as.

These realizations led me to understand how I had veered my life to seek answers and make someone else responsible for the mess on Earth due to the fear that I had about who we are and what we have become as the real perpetrators of our crime scene: the world-system imposed on the Earth. This was what partly caused the emotional breakdown that I had to go through in order to be willing to see beyond what I had initially sought to find at Desteni which was just ‘more of the same confirmations about the goodness in existence’ I was wrong. For the first time I had a crystal clear understanding that if we don’t stop deluding ourselves in spirituality, religions, gods, masters, etc. we will continue to abuse and eventually destroy ourselves if we don’t stop.

I went from being a profuse reader of religions, philosophies and watching all kinds of conspiracy theories videos to a more down to earth verifiable investigation of the state of the world; while being subscribed to the DesteniProductions YouTube Channel (2007-2011) we would regularly get all kinds of documentaries and videos that would expose the reality of this world: poverty, crimes against life, corruption in the political world, the destruction of nature, the abuse of the animal kingdom, the conspiracy theory that our economy and monetary systems are, the madness of the human mind, including spiritual messages that were now clearly understood as a genuine scam to divert the human’s attention from the real problems we had provoked in this world. I was taken aback due to the realization that I had mostly avoided watching the full graphic reality that takes place every single day in this world – It made me angry and sad at the same time, going into a depression upon realizing to what extent we have all been too focused on our personal endeavors to get all kinds of gifts from the universe, attract all the money, health and all the ‘good stuff’’ in our lives, aiming at living a happy fulfilled life without ever really wanting to understand how such nice life was in fact being manufactured/produced/created by every individual that is existing in a slave position that earns the daily bread through creating our personal heavens, the real and actual forced labor that exists in this world happens when having no money means: you die.

The sensitivity that I claimed to have toward the world, the usual depression that I would allow myself to be in whenever I would go out in the streets and witnessed the misery, the ‘soft violence’ and constant fear that we all existed in became slowly but surely debunked as the mechanism to protect myself from actually understanding my responsibility within the creation of the problem in this world. I came to understand that my sadness, my depression, my ‘wanting to end it all’ was another form of manipulation to not take responsibility for myself and this world –the constant belittling believing myself to be ‘too little’ to make a change in this world was exposed as a personality trait that had lead me to stand in the background, to choose seeking to create images and pictures that ‘made me feel good’ in an attempt to seek something of ‘real value,’ something ‘greater’ and meaningful to do the work for me, to protect me, to give me some comfort and happiness while pretending that I could ignore the harsh and crude reality that exists for every individual that somehow we have all collectively decided do not deserve to have a dignified living, and yes I realized I am part of the clan as a human being that have accepted and allowed this without a question throughout ages. I understood my self interest to only have a ‘good time’ in this life and be ‘against the system’ while seeking some higher connection with the spiritual realm that I believed was ‘what was real’ – I was wrong, I was absolutely blind.

 

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What became clear was that such ‘nasty thing’ that I had avoided to talk about and pretended to ignore was suddenly understood as the ‘real god’ of this reality: money and this was the simple message that I could clearly reference within my world due to having been keen on politics and sociology before my ‘spirituality’ phase that I had resorted to due to having been too disillusioned of the political and economic world that going to the opposite side was just another shot at ‘making it’ in this life. I had to go back to reviewing the facts of this reality, the same one that is here the moment we go out from the comfort of our homes and the money we have in our wallets – I realized it wasn’t ‘god’ giving me this life, it was money and so my spirituality trip came to an end within the realization that everything I had participated in was a feel-good story for me-myself and I in the mind and that it had made no difference whatsoever to the genuine struggle that the world is sinking in and is continuing to sink in, in spite of this also having been foretold by the various beings through the Desteni portal in 2007 . Five years later and humanity is still opting to hear the feel good fluff rather than walking through a process of self-investigation to see ‘who am I’ within this world, what is my responsibility within this and  how can I practically contribute to stop the madness in here in order to establish the constant and consistent message that Desteni presents and represents: Life in Equality.

 

I started shedding away the beliefs I had held till then since I understood it was only a mindjob in order to justify the worst crimes in our reality, including the monetary system as a belief system, the idea of self as a self-religion and the seeking of my personal desires as a self-interest life path that was contributing to the enslavement of the many and the ignorance that exudes from every corner of this world wherein we are so used to buying and consuming happiness and avoid anything that makes us re-consider who we are, what we’ve done and become and what we are here for.

 

Slowly but surely I made the decision to become an advocate of the rather ‘harsh’ side of reality in an attempt to provide sufficient evidence and personal realizations for all spiritual and religious devotees to hear about such as there being no god, we’re It and there’s nothing and no one coming to save us: we have to do it ourselves.

 

Once stripped from this individual aspect of spirituality that had lead me to voraciously read the articles on the desteni.org website and watch the videos available, I came to the conclusion that I had to obviously do something about this. It was impossible to now turn my back and pretend I didn’t just hear that, it would have been impossible for me to lie to myself any longer – so I directed myself to what was explained to be the practical process that each one of us could live by and apply: the process of Self Honesty through Writing ourselves to Freedom, Writing and Applying Self Forgiveness, Developing Common Sense and Dedicating ourselves to get to know who we are, how we came to be to begin stopping existing as a preprogrammed organic robot that gets to experience highs and lows in various personalities for all the various ‘life scenarios’ and occasions. That’s when I determined myself to be part of this process, because all of the enigmas about god, the afterlife, the creation of humanity were explained in such detail and with such consistency that the key to create and establish solutions on Earth existed in fact within our individual participation in this process – so, if this was the solution I made the decision to do it, I had to finally try these tools that they were constantly explaining and directing everyone to apply. This meant that I had to actually do the whole Process, I had to test the waters and see whether this was ‘for real’ or not – and so I committed myself to this, wanting to be ‘part of it all’ yet not really yet grasping the actual importance of this process on Earth and the changes that were to come within my world, this certainly was No longer an illusion.

SAYING THAT ‘THE WORLD IS AN ILLUSION’ IS AN ATTEMPT TO SOLVE THE PRIMORDIAL PROBLEM ON ‘WHAT IS REAL/ WHAT IS REALITY’ AND FOLLOW THE LAWS OF THE LEAST EFFORT AND ‘SEEKING/ FOLLOWING YOUR GREATEST EXCITEMENT’ TO NOT HAVE TO FACE AND CARE ABOUT THE WORLD/ REALITY WITHOUT SEEING THAT THIS WORLD/ REALITY IS AS REAL AS WE HAVE TO EAT, SHIT, DRINK AND RELATE TO OTHERS TO CONTINUE EXISTING IN IT. HOW COME THAT WE AS HUMANITY DARED OURSELVES TO SIDE-VIEW THE MOST BASIC COMMON SENSE IN THE NAME OF JOY, HAPPINESS, FAITH AND HOPE? EASY, IT’S NICE TO REJOICE IN THE MIND AND NEGLECT OUR RESPONSIBILITY WITHIN IT ALL.

This will continue…

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The blog that explains it all : Heaven’s Journey To Life

 

Related blogs/ vlogs debunking spirituality – 

A selection of my investigation through the Desteni Process

2012 Life After Death–Interdimensional Portal | Testimony

The Video Tolle Doesn’t Want YOU to See

How to Raise Your Frequency (Ask Teal Episode on Increasing Your Vibrations

Spirituality and Capitalism Make sweet love through Hicks

2011 Pretty Happiness Machines – Vlog the Hell Out of this World

2011 Abraham-Hicks – You Are Perfect As You Are – Video

2012 Spirituality and Activism Won’t Change the World – YouTube

Eckhart Tolle – Nirvana Is Already Here –

The Biggest Missing Piece – Abraham Hicks –

Fears and white light beliefs

Don’t try to get rid of the ego!” – Alan Watts’ review

The Jesus Message is Not Religious -

2010 ¿Spiritual Consciousness? Where’s the MATTER? –

2012 Positive Thinking Debunked! Heaven’s Journey To Life

2012 I Used to Be a Loving Person -

2012 Religious Consumerism: God is in the TV

2011 Vatican Exposed & the Faithful Deceived -

2010 EQUALITY: The END of All Religions

2012 Doomsday Character: Sick of Humanity?

2012 Existential Woes: Stop and Know Yourself

2012 Organic Self-Indulgent Lifestyle -

11.11.11 Opening Of The Portal Of The Divine

2012 Walking with Desteni: Why I could Hear the Desteni Message – Part 1 –

2012 Walking with Desteni: Why I could Hear the Desteni Message – Part 2

The Secret History of the Universe: The Discovery of Light –

2010 Do You Want to Be ETERNAL? -

Bruce Lipton ‘ The Power Of Consciousness’ -

2008 I used to believe in a god

Law of Attraction is Based on Memory

Why isn’t Love an Illegal drug?

2012 Love is a Drug: Are YOU an Addict?

Life After God

135. ‘The Secret’ CULTivates Narcissists |

future and white light crap |

Day 11: I.O.U. Life as a Debt System of Power

Occupy LOVE: New Activist Brainwashing

2012 R.I.P. God |

2011 Desteni Portal: Objectives

Desteni y las Teorías de Conspiración

How I was able to Hear Desteni?

In Heaven Everything is Fine

 


253. Birth of New Consciousness–Spiritual Spitefulness

All you got to do is find your way

All you have to do is hold positive thinking

All you have to do is find the light

All you have to do is listen to your higher self

All you have to do is expect things to come  your way

All you have to do is be willing to surrender

All you have to do is seek out your greatest excitement

All you have to do is HOPE for a better time, it’ll come your way

All you have to do is find it in  your heart to give love

All you have to do is to Wait for what is about to happen

All you have to do is find your way to your heart, whatever it takes

All you have to do is become a servant of god

All you have to do is embrace your true power

All you have to do is live to the fullest and enjoying every moment

All you have to do is realize you are eternal, you cannot be lost

All you have to do is realize this world is an illusion

All you have to do is Relax, you’re gonna make it

All you have to do is look into the future and have Faith you’ll be alive

All you have to do is …. wait for more 3 years and if the world keeps going as we are and no one’s changing – then, the Mayan Guys were Wrong! LOL Sorry!

 

Aren’t such empty words another form of abuse? Absolutely  since people are genuinely asking for help/ support and all they get is fluffy words that are in No way physically, tangibly applicable and livable and in exchange, they get a good laugh from someone that is willing to perpetually lie for the sake of getting good money out of hypnotizing people with nice fluffy sugary messages that take advantage of the gullibility and state of perpetual fear that we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become.

These are all sentences you will usually get from any spiritual master and guru or channeler/ medium that claims to bring good news to the world. I was not aware of Tolle or Neale Donald Walsch, Icke or Drunvalo until I got to Desteni. And today for the first time I decided to hear what Drunvalo has to say, which is no different to any of the afore mentioned people that claim great answers reside in words like ‘love’ and ‘good will’ and ‘following your journey’ – without ever really questioning what’s of substance that is livable and applicable behind those overrated words. There’s a simple way to approach someone’s work: any piece of interview/ writing you take from any individual to investigate what they promote/ stand for, represents who they are and becomes an integral and individual account of all their body of work, since all words we speak and write ourselves as represent the point of expression we accept and allow ourselves to exist-as, not to be taken ‘lightly’ of course. This is something we also apply with ourselves as Destonians, wherein any blog we write stands as an account of sharing that which is Self Supportive for any human being that may stumble upon our writings.

What you read above is a series or patterns of sentences that I ‘picked’ up while listening to a looped video that appears on Drunvalo’s website which is no different to what any other spiritual guru’s replies wherein all is about waiting, hoping, visualizing futures, sending positive vibrations, believing in higher selves, expecting something to happen as a matter of prophecy and repeating a lot of times that he wants to help, but shows no other way other than repeating the same statements over and over again. That is not different to any channeled message you get from any entity that claims to profess some light and love and blessings for humanity. I have already repeated myself as a result of having to make something very clear here:

What is neglected, ignored or blatantly sugar coated here? Basically Everything that we are as human beings within our thoughts, words and deeds that have shaped and molded the current world we live in. One must dare to be Self Honest when sticking to a ‘spiritual highness’ while hating your neighbor inside your mind. Wanting to ‘do good’ and bring about ‘peace and joy to the world’ while satisfying one’s juiciest greedy desires. For an account of all the actual nitty gritty details of what we’ve become – and none of the spiritual teachers ‘teach you’ how to deal with – you can read any of our Journey To Life blogs and any blog you pick from the archives of this very blog here. What you’ll find is ourselves, people that once held ‘high spirits’ for change, hope and bliss and were equally high to anyone that is at the moment seeking a solution to the problem that we’ve made of our lives in this world  in sugar coated words that repeat like mantras intended to keep a human being subdued, like sedatives/ drugs to ‘calm down’ the mind and any intent for actual ‘critical thinking’ that should be veered toward questioning virtually everything of this world that we’ve blindly followed as ‘who we are’ and ‘why we are here.’

 

 

We’re taking responsibility for everything we have become. We are no longer ‘waiting’ and we understand that there will be No Transformation of Consciousness, since consciousness is the very part/ aspect of what we’ve become that we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to direct our lives in the name of following energy/ the mind/ all the illusions and delusions of grandeur that could separate us more and more and more from the physical body, from the matter that is here and that is currently existing as the manifested consequence of us following our heavenly minds waiting and hoping for something just ‘great’ happening our way.

 

What happens is: it’s very easy to get excited about a ‘change’ in spirituality, as that usually implies no physical change, because of the excuse that ‘it is at a spiritual level’ = invisible/ non tangible level;  one would have to be deliberately fooled to not see the lies within this. 

 

Realizing that we have to In Fact work with ourselves in the very detail of who we are and what we’ve become is the reason why many are too afraid to give up that which makes you feel good, special and enlightened, as that’s what spirituality basically sells. What’s not usually understood is how liberating it is to stop waiting, hoping, dreaming, praying chanting, wishing, having faith, carrying stones, crystals, cards, reading endless books of positive messages, hearing channeled messages, watching people sitting on white blankets laughing at you if nothing happens in 3 years from now on… At Desteni we have instead begun a process of Self Forgiveness for having sought for solutions outside of ourselves or in any piece of ‘miraculous message’ or expecting ‘angels’ to be guiding us to fulfill any spiritual journey.

 

The only journey is getting ourselves out of this hell that we are blindly veiling with deception after deception of which spirituality and all things invisibly ‘great’ are causing as a result of a Collective Unconsciousness, wherein we’ve been literally existing as mind-drones following the mind’s/ consciousness direction that will only regard Energy and all things abusive to Life and never ever questioning but WHY are we waiting, hoping, praying, asking for something while all we can see is each other on Earth destroying all? Why would we even have to wait for a change if all changes are visibly aspects of a political, economical and social system that requires basic principles as a foundation to manage ourselves as humanity. Anything less than investigating this reality as the actual Problems we’re facing will lead you again to hoping, waiting, chanting and hypnotizing yourself into believing there’s nothing to do and some magic wand will come and wipe our mess all of a sudden.

Visit the Capitalism vs. Equal Money Group for further context of what is Really Real.

This is the actual disease and mental disorder, fellow human beings, the acceptance and allowance of the excitement for all things ‘positive’ while deliberately ignoring and neglecting HOW we caused the problems in the first place.

There is support for you to actually give an END to the lies that we’ve fed ourselves with and that we’ve all co-operated with, since Money is no different to any other spiritual tool that only works for some chosen ones only. Investigate Desteni, Equal Money System and realize that there is no God/ Alien/ Force going to save us, but we require to rather stop fooling ourselves, take the wheel of our lives here on Earth, educate ourselves, educate our children within the principles of Equality to make everyone aware of the level of abuse that hoping, waiting, wishing leads to: a lazy humanity that is willing to follow prophecies till the end of their individual lifetimes and allow kids to continue being starved and women to continue giving birth to beings in this world that exists in negligible conditions, instead of actually caring just a little bit about the lives of those that genuinely physically suffer on Earth, a suffering that is the direct outflow of those with light/money/energy – which is all of us that have the ability to write, speak, have education and the means to publish this and as such, make a decision to support what is REALLY HERE as the Real Problems that have always begun at a thought level, which is the spiritual realms we have all embodied and spited life with – it is time to Stop.

Get to know yourself: Investigate the Desteni Lite Process, a Free Online Course wherein  you’ll be able to actually ‘find your way’ through your own directive will to write yourself to become aware of all of which we have participated in as a force of self interest instead of having considered the laws of the physical wherein each individual part is required to stand as a responsible-actor and walk a corrective process to ensure we don’t ever delude ourselves with our own words as creations that stand for a fallacy that is diverting our actual ‘point’ of our lives, which is ourselves as physical beings, as part of the whole. This is the actual Standing up for Life that no one in their full sanity and self awareness will turn down as an opportunity to finally learn how to live.

 

Further Support

 

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Further delusional news:

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154. The Ladder of Success is Self Abuse

Consumerism is Self-Consumption

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the belief that buying is a pleasant experience and a hobby, wherein one learn to see the act of consuming as a a fulfilling experience that satisfies and quenches that seemingly constant ‘void’ that is perceived when there is no energetic experience going on within us, which is how we have defined energy as Living instead of understanding how it is that these energetic experiences in fact lead us to our very own depletion/consumption and eventual death, as all energy implies the consumption of the physical, the burning of the fuel that is the physical in order to create what we only see as a ‘fulfilling/ pleasant/ satisfying experience,’ because no one on Earth had even known how it is that this process of Thinking actually goes through, and it is now that we have the information through the material available at Eqafe such as the Quantum Mind Series that we are able to understand how everything that we have ever thought is implying a form of abuse toward ourselves as the physicality that we really are, all in the name of an experience that only goes up in the mind, without no apparent further consequence other than a momentary high which is what we have in fact become addicted to: Energy as a make-believe ‘living experience’ while ignoring the actual gruesome reality that goes behind every single thought that we participate on, which implies our own self-consumption.

This is the point that we had not realized when labeling ‘consumerism as a pleasant experience’ and not seeing/ realizing and understanding How such pleasant experience is created and what is actually enabling this experience, which is and can only exist if ‘something else gives It/ provides it which in this case is the physical that is literally ‘nailed’ just like Jesus on the cross in order to give that ‘kingdom of god’ that we have foolishly defined as money, wealth and the experience that we have defined through/as money as happiness, fulfillment, power, satisfaction as the saturation of energy that we have foolishly ‘bought’ to be ‘real’ in any way, because we have ignored our own physicality as the actual equality and oneness as life, as the actual source of that experience that we believe is ‘who we are,’ due to not seeing, realizing and understanding how the mind works in relation to the physical body and how it runs like an engine gnawing our very own physical tissue to keep its energetic functions going – all of this is explained in the Frog Series that I suggest listening to in order to understand consumerism as a point of self abuse and how we have the actual capacity to correct this points within a new system like the Equal Money System beginning with Ourselves as that equal and one relationship developed within our mind toward the physical.

 

When and as I see myself participating in the thought of ‘Buying is a Pleasant experience’ and projecting this judgment upon others to see them as ‘ignorant,’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that I have been absolutely ignorant to the actual understanding of how all ‘Positive Experiences’ are created at the expense of the physical which is the sacrificial rite that we do on a daily basis whenever we think and only follow our own personal benefit/ happiness point, while believing that we are enhancing our ‘living experience’ and ‘evolution’ in ourselves, without understanding how we are actually sacrificing our own flesh and living substance due to the accepted and allowed belief that thinking, having feelings and emotions is something ‘natural’ to the human being.

We have been oblivious to what extent we have abused ourselves/ all that is here whenever we simply consider it was very easy to follow energy as ‘living,’ which is the necessary education that must be taken on in our reality so that we can in fact, at last, understand that this current system of consumerism based on linking consuming/ buying to a positive experience is an evidently unsustainable system, wherein we only see the ‘nice’ and ‘positive’ and ‘attractive’ points as the final product made for our own benefit, while neglecting the actual gruesome reality that goes behind the entire production process and extraction of prime matter – nice way to name the Earth’s resources – in order to transform it/ configure it in a way that we impose our wants, needs and desires toward this satisfaction/ fulfilling point as a positive experience that we have believed is ‘all that we are here for in our lives,’ while missing out every moment of actual living here in Equality and Oneness as the physical, as Breath, simply because we trained/educated ourselves to only regard Energy as Living.

And this you can understand in the series the Crucifixion of Jesus in the chapter number 7 that speaks about this ‘Ladder of Success’

 

I commit myself to stop judging and within this reinforcing the same mechanisms of separation that we have participated in, which implies using our minds to assess/ value/ define this physical reality in terms and way that we benefit ourselves from, due to the premise of accepting life as an energetic experience –thus it is to educate myself to ensure that I am aware of how it is that I have become what we can see in each one of ourselves and this world in its entirety as the outflow and consequence of our own accepted and allowed perception of life being an energetic experience that is either positive or negative, and within this, exposing how it is that our own wants, needs and desires became manifested as every single product that we are able to BUY now with money that is not readily available/ given to all unconditionally, which is indicating how we have separated ourselves from our very own physicality as this entire world through a belief system in our minds, that sustains our entire economical model at the moment – this is no different to the thinking pattern of believing that buying/ consuming a single thing to own/ possess/ eat/ wear/ use is what ‘living’ is about (which is how we have defined living as an experience) wherein we diminish ourselves to being only ‘thinking’ instead of breathing and understanding the physicality as who we really are and how we consume it while thinking/ following our thoughts.

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when entering a mall/ commercial center/ market, and seeing all the plethora of things there are to buy and its wide variety, I get the pictures of the media and how they present similar products wherein then I access a thinking-pattern to blame the media for ‘brainwashing us,’ without realizing how there is Nothing in this world that was made ‘by the hand of a god,’ we are all responsible for it and that implies that we created the media in order to constantly create new needs/ desires within people in order to fulfill and satisfy the exigencies that we’ve established as a monetary system that requires constant consumption to continue going, which is very clear how our current system is energy-driven as an abusive relationship upon the physical, instead of having created and established and agreed upon a world system wherein we can support one another as equals, standings As the equality and oneness that we in fact are, but that we didn’t do because we accepted the mind to be the one that dictates ourselves in relationships of separation toward everything and all that is here, which is why and how Media is so effective, as it presents a relationship of separation creating a desire/ want/ need in terms of buying/ consuming products in the name of getting a positive experience out of it, and us accepting that as ‘Real’ and ‘True’ because of our own accepted and allowed separation from this physical reality through an energetic experience created in our minds toward that point that we then call our ‘desire/ want/ need’

This implies that all we are currently following is our own self interest, without understanding how such cultivation of personal-needs/ special needs are only existent for those that have money and that form part of the ‘active participants in society’ wherein money has defined who is valuable to the system to perpetuate its functioning and who’s not, thus using Media to create an incentive for ourselves to enter the ‘realm of happiness’/ become part of the Elite where money buys the smiles and fulfillment, using money that is also a belief system of abuse due to it being created only out of thin air with its main purpose being the control and centralization of power for a few, while entertaining ‘the masses’ to contribute to this through entertainment/ media in order to continually go seeking for theses positive experiences that are linked to the ideal image/ presentation of successful living  of those that sit in the royal chairs of ‘power and control’ within the same configured system of ‘power’ = ‘money,’ which is actually only a make-believe system, hence: NO power is real, no money is Real but what is Real is the abuse that we inflict upon ourselves every time that we diminish ourselves to Believing that such money is in fact ‘powerful’ and that owning/ possessing something/ someone is in fact making ourselves ‘more’ than who we already here – this happening every time that we follow a single desire to acquire, buy and consume in means of personal satisfaction and fulfillment.

 

When and as I see myself wanting to blame something or someone for the current state of reality we’re living in, in separation of myself – I stop and I breathe – I realize that we are ‘specialists’ in projecting blame toward others for being ‘the villain’ and ‘the bad guydoing this to ourselves, without understanding how it is that we created our own reasons and justifications to perpetuate a system wherein self interest is the main cultivated aspect of ‘who we are’ as human beings, wherein everything that we have created and configured as our world system – money, policies, economy, education, religions, leisure, science, technology – is directed to benefit and please only a fraction of the population that have enough money to really have a good life, which is the main primary point that is promoted through media/ ads everywhere, infiltrating what’s cunningly called ‘public opinion’ to create a commonly accepted ‘standard living’ in society based Not on a common well being and direct understanding and interaction with nature/ the Earth, the animal kingdom as part of ‘who we are,’ but instead diminished everything to only being a consuming-aspect to keep up the ‘satisfaction’ experience within ourselves as our mind which must be understood as the very mechanism of self-depletion that we run on a daily basis, being the relationship of who we are as the mind toward the physical the actual point to investigate  and learn about, to understand How we have made of consumption to sustain our physicality an entire mind-created experience linked to getting ‘the most of it all’ and defining such point of abuse as ‘power’ without understanding a thing about the current monetary system wherein such power can in fact only stem from the abuse inflicted to all of the Earth’s resources, animal kingdom, humanity as well in order to ‘keep running’ this entire machinery that we have called a ‘living system,’ which is in fact not at all so, because we have not  yet established our individual understanding of equality and oneness as this physical reality which is then why and how

I commit myself to support myself to continue understanding who I am in relation to the world system, how my very own thoughts/ participation in emotions and feelings and defining this entire reality according to a value-system wherein the monetary system I have believed to have any ‘solid foundation’ is in fact determining my own relationship to other beings, things and the world in itself, due to us having accepted and allowed ourselves to diminish who we are to a set of predefined, predetermined, finite relationships based on energetic experiences such as power, success, happiness through consumption which must be first of all understood as the relationship that we have created within ourselves toward our own mind in separation of the physicality that we are, which is the first step to consider if we see and realize how our own system is flawed from the very beginning of its creation, and our existence as a whole, because we separated ourselves from each other and developing relationships toward one another and giving it a value, which is the premise that lead us to currently desire, want and need such experience of ‘reuniting’ as a possession/ consumption point instead of an equal and one relationship and understanding of who we are as equal and one to that point of desire, want and need.

 

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138. Honor Life

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My nose clears up and sometimes people certainly knock at your door and can change your entire ‘mind-frame –moment’ of the daily routine, almost like a clap that happens just a millimeter away from your nose to wake you up. And the lights are out …

However, I have a full stomach from the vegetables and fruit that I bought with the money that ‘ensures’ I have always enough food to eat every day. It’s interesting when someone’s expression can ‘break our schemes’ when not being used to seeing such joviality that one would judge for being too ‘fake’ to exist in a world like this, but it’s not really so. I got  a hug today and it almost felt weird as I had forgotten what it was like to have such warmth in such an expressive moment out of ‘nowhere.’ I saw myself almost being like a robot that did not know how to compute other than hugging back and then laughing about it.

We have accepted and allowed ourselves to become so lost and so afraid in our minds all the time that we have never in fact communicated with another, we have never in fact heard another unconditionally, we have never in fact Been Here within the realization that if it wasn’t for the food, the water, the sun rays, the air we breathe, the plants, the animals, the trees, the clouds, we would not be able to continue existing here. The Earth, the animals, the entire universe has given us all in a golden platter – what have we done? We create high heels and squash it with all our might while shooting bullets of gold toward animals to ensure ‘they’ know who the ‘king of the concrete jungle’ is.  We have diminished life to a single background that in no way is respected as ourselves, simply because: we have Never in fact respected and honored ourselves.

All delusions that we might trap ourselves into for one moment, a single ‘inner conflict’ based on self interest is immediately ‘earthed back’/grounded upon hearing a story about someone’s life that has been quite difficult – a relationship that suddenly after 7 years of living together turns into hell and a custody of a child that is held through endless papers and an absolutely inefficient bureaucrazy, calling people that reclaim the right to see their children ‘mentally unstable’ and giving longer terms to a case wherein the mother was simply held back from seeing her child, without any background of abuse.

Listening to a ‘hell of a ride’ story from a body that exudes a genuine desire to live reminded me what it is that ‘living’ is, that there’s no time for feeling sorry for oneself even if the worst case scenario becomes your every day living with no possible ‘sane’ explanation as nothing in this world makes sense anyways. This person’s drive to continue going after having been gone to hell and back is still the ability to be with her child, and this I place in contrast to realize   how we get so flustered upon minute things in our day to day living, while missing out on life really and by life it is not about any ‘grandiose’ event, but the literal Being HERE as every breath and physically, practically moving in all necessary ways to get/ solve a certain problem in our reality. 

 

I was also hearing to the Sheep’s interviews before all of this happened, I realized how much we have taken for granted. Here we are, most of us having our pacific lives with the comfort of money in our pockets – I can see how we would truly have to see ourselves in actual struggle to really learn to appreciate what it is to have a tangerine to eat, a plate of warm food, clean clothes, a decent place to live, a toilet to shit and pee upon, trees to get our clean air from, the oxygen to breathe, sun to say hi to every day, because we have become so deluded in our minds that we are truly not living, we have only been hating in our search for such ‘love’ and ‘happiness’ that has only become an elusive sellable ‘tag’ that we still tend to fall for as something ‘possible,’ while meaning the actual ‘joy’ that life can be – such as breathing and realizing I am here even when the whole world seems to turn against you. We have turned our back against life, and it is time to stop.

 

This is not living, and it’s amazing that someone has to kind of knock on your door to snap you out of whatever mindfuck you’re going through and realize that we are here to really continue going, as there is people that definitely want to live, that speak about wanting to honor life, giving and receiving in equality and even finding diversity as something that one can enjoy as well – my brain froze as I recalled all my controlled points while she was reviewing all the aspects she had noticed were an imposition to life, and it’s so true – who am I as control but a tyrant in my mind only, as I have not even truly honored my own physical body to begin with.

 

I am glad to meet people seemingly ‘out of nowhere’ that truly seem to care about the environment, about conviviality, about frankness, honesty and life itself. It all seemed like ‘happening by chance’ as all the situations that lead her to be here were a real stroke of luck, it’s as if without speaking we could only see each other’s eyes and know that there is a spark of life that we can share to support each other – it’s like that aspect of myself that I would have before judged for being too bubbly, yet I see the will to live life even if situations seem to only be spitting at you– it’s not an every day thing that someone tells you their entire harsh and strenuous life in one go, and still manage to have the ability to laugh and speak of words like waking up to breathe, see the clouds, breathe, smell a tangerine, say hi to plants, say hay to the sun and in essence: Honoring Life. Hence the title of this blog.

Might be the moon, but hearing the words that I usually read to myself or hear others through videos being said once again after so long from a ‘live voice’ of another person in my physical reality, in my house certainly allows me to see that we are here to create a world-system wherein people like her can re-establish an actual living, wherein legal problems are no longer Battles but actual Justice that benefits the ‘so called crazy’ just because of being overtly frank and expressive. I can relate to her and it’s absolutely ludicrous how just because of behaving a little bit ‘over the top’ can anyone deem that you are crazy, I see myself in her.

 

And so, this is not to create a la la lá moment, but rather a real wake up call to remind myself that there is people, LOTS of people we have to reach out to, because they are certainly willing to support themselves, willing to support others, willing to LIVE and literally survive after everything could seem like closing up in every possible way.

 

It is these ‘wake up calls’ wherein we learn to see each other and realize that the sense of being ‘strangers’ only exists in our minds as we already share the same world that we are absurdly exterminating while getting caught up with our pet peeves and quirky ‘personalities’ that we have sought to ‘respect.’

 

The Sheep series at Eqafe are a Must Hear – it is the most humbling experience to have an animal explaining to you a reality that we are absolutely oblivious of, explaining about things we can’t see, because we haven’t allowed ourselves to do so, because we have diminished Life to a single Lie in the mind that likes to satisfy itself in a little cocoon of happy-go-lucky lives that have no idea of what REALITY is about – and I include myself of course. This is how I realize that my position in this life is to support myself to support others, and to be that example and point of support that I as them/ others would want to give to myself as well. That is my commitment in life and that there is no time to ‘whine’ about life when there is actual life that awaits to see and realize that: there is another way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take Life for granted and every day that I wake up for granted, believing that because I go to sleep at night, I will surely wake up the next day which is actually the point that allows us to live in a perpetual ‘timeline’ dragging the past into the future, taking for granted all that I have done with ‘great ease’ and having mostly a ‘dull life’ simply because I had it all, without realizing how it is such opportunities in life that then indicate one thing: I must place myself within and as a point of support for everyone else that does not have a cool comfortable life, as this is the law of our being: honoring each other as equals and I see that there is no ability to be ‘SELF realized’ if one single speck and spark of Life  is left ‘lost’ while being willing to live and support themselves and others to live as well.

I commit myself to realize and ‘remind’ myself everyday what it is that I have decided to live for and as everyday – this is the people that might be a bit hard yet no impossible to find, because we have found each other as Destonians – we have lots to learn, a long path to walk – however we all agree that the way we have imposed a ‘functioning’ upon this world cannot continue, and that we are here to stand as the platform of support that is unprecedented, that is unique in all ways, that should be ‘on top of the spiritualist’s list’ as someone on YouTube commented today in one video. And yes, this is it: we are here to establish Equality as Life in this world  through and as the Equal Money System – and I am grateful, I allow myself to be grateful for having the opportunity to realize that there is people eager to live and share that will and drive to do so without any restrain.

To step out of the mind bubble and see what is real important to do, share and be in this world: to support all life thee same way that we are being supported to learn how to live for the first time here.

That is Self-Will – to Live for Living.

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129. Will Love and Lighters end up Killing People?

All the positive babble exists as a cover up to the Extreme Fear that exists within ourselves as part of our who we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become as the mind, which is certainly NOT Benevolent, and this has been explained throughout many, many hours of interviews within the Desteni Material that’s being published on a regular basis – and recorded daily – available at Eqafe. Now, paraphrasing The Soul of Money – Fear and the Law of Attraction – Part 32 How on Earth can we think, believe or perceive that Energy in any way can change this physical existence? And I’m not even going to talk about the Law of Attraction particularly here, but more about the actual fucked up counter-effects that must be realized and taken into absolute consideration in order to Open up our EYES to see what type of hell we’re creating for all equally every time that we indulge to seek for all ‘the good’ and ‘light’ and ‘love’ as peddled by several masters, light workers and your regular Jesus follower – repeat: follower.

 

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A punctual fact to avoid misinterpretation and or potential claims of slander: This blog is for the purpose of exposing that which  many human beings are NOT willing to accept exists within our thoughts. This is an educational blog that serves as a point of reference in order to give actual self-support for people that may encounter themselves creating positive feelings to cover up potential Real harm toward other human beings. Assist and support yourself with it instead.

 

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Who we are as the Mind existing in positive and negative thoughts as feelings and emotions?

Let’s look at a white light slim-line tube: electricity bounces back and forth from Cathode – the negatively charged pole –  to the positively charged pole, the Anode. Due to the velocity that the energy bounces back and forth we cannot see this light bolt happening, we only get to see the apparent constant stable beam of milky white light that ‘enlightens’ our night. Now,  this light is exactly similar in nature to the energy we are constantly generating through our participation in the mind, existing as that blinding imposed invisible light that are the thoughts, feelings and emotions; however, the point to realize is how to generate so ever-lasting surrogate company as our mind that experiences life as an energetic sparkle all the time, is actually only able to exist through/by consuming/gnawing our very own physical flesh/tissue in order to generate such a perfect ‘stream of consciousness’ that is our mind, that apparently divine white light that as our thoughts, emotions, feelings and any general mind-activity that is absolutely invisible and intangible to our physical 5 senses – yet, we act upon it and we live according to what goes on in our minds. Hum, what’s wrong with this picture?

 

Why do we practically use light?

We use a light because we don’t want to remain in darkness, we’ve been taught that ‘we must fear the dark’ as children– yet in terms of who we really are as physical beings, darkness is who we are: there is no light inside our body to circulate our blood or digest our food, the body is not afraid of the dark, it is ourselves as the eyes of the mind that perceive light as all the relationships that are existent within our reality, no different to all the thoughts that run rampant in our minds generating a positive or negative experience within ourselves all the time – that’s the ‘light’ of ourselves, that’s our ‘light on’ all the time that we keep ‘on’ because of our ingrained ‘fear  of the dark,’ where everything is pitch black because there is no friction causing light to be seen, there is no movement, just silence, stillness and that’s what we are actually able and capable of  living as in our day-today-living and ‘waking’ reality once that we start walking a process of Self-Forgiveness in Self Honesty to start seeing Who We Are if we stop participating in the constant coming-and-going from cathode to anode as thoughts generating either negative or positive experiences that only exist within ourselves: they are thus Not Real.

 

The Dark as Nothingness

The absence of light is so feared –  there is no energetic spark going back and forth generating enough friction to generate light. We then see the energy as this ‘beautiful light’ yet, we are unaware of the friction that causes and generates this friction in the first place, which is in the case of our own minds creating an entire positive experience that bounces off from an absolute negative point,  which is the current ‘normal’ state of being’ as human beings and also the reason why we are always trying to generate a positive feeling and experience in order to be suddenly ‘lifted up’ from the negative to the positive, without realizing that there is a definitive friction that must be ‘kept in place’ to keep the white light on. The same goes on in our minds.

For further reference listen to: The Soul of Money – The Interconnection between Thoughts, Energy and Light – Part 5

 

Love and Light VS Hate and the Dark

If we have a look at the world, all wars, all conflict, all friction from a single inner-battle in our minds to world-wars is a conflict generated from the perceived positive against the perceived negative that we have acquired/ adopted from those that have gone before us – nothing else but a mere belief system placed to cause deliberate conflict. I strongly suggest you read the blog on Morality written by Esteni De Wet who explains one of the several dimensions that exist as morality, which is one of the primary causes and pillars of our current ‘distress’ that we exist as when having a polarized view of our reality.

 

Everything that is here of this world as physicality just IS – there is no tags or barcodes or statistics that indicate us what is to be seen as positive and what is to be seen and regarded as negative. We are the ones that impose these values that are created in our minds and imposed onto the physical, no different to how we have created our monetary system of ‘profit’ and ‘debt’ while using the constancy and consistency of a physical world to generate the actual ‘goods’ that are sold for profit – not to mention the living beings such as animals that are also part of our self-abusive system. The Earth as nature does have/show ‘negative numbers/ red numbers:’ it is us that are now extracting the resources to the point of depletion that are assessing now an actual physical loss.

And, the question is WHY are we causing this Loss as the physical world that is here? Simple: we are using/  abusing the physical reality in order to generate our Positive experience powered by Lights as the symbol of an apparent civilization that thrives in a ‘shining light’ without ever considering what must be consumed in order to sustain what is and has become an artificial living within our world. Why artificial if everything is ‘Natural’? Because we are using artifacts/ means/ ways to create an apparent comfortable/ joyous/ copious and abundant life out of the inherent and necessary abuse to generate such positivity.

 

Your De-Light is Made out of Someone’s Dis-Grace

An Easy example: how can I now be experiencing the joy of my coffee at the moment? Several indigenous people had to work for months to take care of coffee plants that they are bound to in order to have an ability to take proper care of their plantations, dedicating their days to ensure that the weather and conditions are adequate to keep the plantations in a mint state, so that they can eventually be reaped and seek for a buyer that is willing to take it. This pay is definitely not fair as anything else in this world wherein Money does not equate Life. The coffee cultivators are paid close to nothing for their hard work while the distributer and seller makes an excellent business from it, creating as much as 100 percent of profit – or more – from a job that is certainly not remunerated well at all. Then me as the happy coffee consumerist, go and buy that coffee, being oblivious to the processes behind me having these now roasted beans ready to be brewed into my ‘De.Lightful coffee cup’ – and this is just one single example of EVERYTHING in our world that is built upon abuse, and I didn’t go as far as talking about the lives of the people that cultivate coffee such as:  their financial problems, their lack of education, the lack of money to expand their crops, the lack of understanding of the capitalist world so that they could sell and commercialize their own coffee – YET we are delighted with our coffee cup. This is how a positive experience stems from a negative experience, and this can be applied to all and everyone in our reality.

 

Hence the reason why when talking about bogus like ‘Love’ and ‘Abundance’ and ‘Prosperity’ and ‘Happiness’ and ‘Bliss’ among other words are just euphemisms for the human-driving-force that Money and Sex represent as the ultimate ‘goal’ in any thinking being. How limited have we become: being consumed by a desire to just be a freaking spark as energy bouncing from cathode to anode in the white-light slim line tube that seeks all means and ways to just continue generating that friction in order to produce the majestic white bright light that EnLIEghtens our hearts, and fills us with JOY! Oh great! and… where is the abuse behind this bright blinding light? Everywhere behind the processes of that enchanting delight.

This is how our world is created at the moment.

 

In the next blog, I’ll continue explaining How it is that I am saying that Love and Lighters can become potential Killers if they don’t stop existing as an ultimate positive experience and face their fears, take self responsibility for their positive thoughts and become actual trust-worthy living human beings that can be endowed with actual responsibilities that are in fact honorable and honoring Life in Equality – after all, isn’t that what SHOULD be a Love and Light Principle? Doing what’s Best for All?

There’s a certain difference from thinking positive to DOING/ LIVING/ Acting in the best interest of all – one requires an imaginative high on happy-pills mind to exist and the other one actual physical work and effort to do so.

Sounds like a threat? No, sounds like a wake up call that everyone – including myself of course – must take on to see where and how we are wanting to STICK to our positive experience that SICK-Ends and clouds our common sense to realize that any single moment that we are only going after that which is BEST FOR ME/MYSELF/I only is directly creating a weapon against the whole.
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Day 50: I Ate Myself Today

What does it mean to ‘Feed my obsessions?’ and how is this related to Eating myself? The current understand that we’re getting from the Heaven’s Journey to Life blog, implies that we have in fact been our own parasite as the mind eating away on our very own physical body. It’s fascinating that we reprimand cannibalism – some can even express being utterly disgusted by it – yet we do this to ourselves every single moment that we are existing in our minds, feeding our obsessions as thoughts, feelings, emotions and anything that we can ‘grab onto’ from our reality, which becomes a point of stimulation for ourselves as the mind to hold on to that point, and take it to the level of complete possession wherein ‘who I am’ is no longer here-as-breath, but instead  consuming/depleting myself as the physical body every single moment that I give my breaths away to feed but one single thought, which through repetition and patterns can become an obsession.

 

This pattern of ‘me feeding my obsessions’ has been a great distractor within my reality, wherein one single point of stimulation can divert my attention from here-as-breath, physically present as my body, and into a mind-shift wherein all that I remain doing is ‘thinking’ about that something/someone/event that becomes ‘my point’ to grab onto in order to continue existing only as a mind that thinks and has no-regard whatsoever for HOW it is being fed in itself, which is: through the consumption and transformation of the physical into energy, which is like the way we have violated life of oneness and equality and extracting – just like fracking, drilling, exploiting wells – and transforming it – like refining oil for gas – into a form of energy that is able to serve as fuel for the mind.

 

I had begun exploring this point of judging waste/ garbage outside of myself, without being aware of how I am depleting myself at a physical level by the very participation in the mind as consciousness, within my conscious mind that then activates everything that I exist as within/as my mind consciousness system. This implies that we have all been very busy depleting, consuming and literally eating ourselves whenever we feed our obsessions = whenever we feed our own mind.

 

And, that has been a definitive pattern that I have walked wherein my own ‘diligence’ in other areas, becomes equally diligent within the ‘feeding my obsessions’ point, wherein I won’t stop until I satiate that need – it’s just like vampires, lol, now I see why I would get such a kick out of reading those stories because, the drive for blood was so great that it became almost like an elation in itself to ‘look for it,’ which is quite similar to how we go ‘seeking for love’ and sickening ourselves to the bone by depleting the very physical through that constant feed of obsessions with our own physicality/life substance, which is the very ‘point’ that we have missed as humanity all the way:

 

Our minds consume our physicality

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘feed my obsessions’ indiscriminately because it usually generates this exhilaration as a ‘good feeling’ that I have accepted and allowed in the past to exist as ‘reasons to live,’ which implies that I diminished my day to day living to a continuous point that I had to ‘achieve,’ such as attaining a goal, a relationship, going somewhere, experiencing myself in a particular moment or event, which would become a constant conscious thought that I would ‘feed’ every single moment that I wasn’t here-as-breath but only as a mind feeding itself off of my physical body substance, which is the actual ‘fuel’ for the mind – without me ever being aware or even caring enough to ponder: how is it that my mind is being fueled?

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever be afraid and disgusted at cannibalism, without realizing that I am my very own cannibal the moment that I continue participating in the mind while already now knowing that I eat myself, I consume and deplete my very own life substance ever single moment that I give my moment here-as-breath into feeding one single thought that becomes ‘my obsession,’ simply because it generates a ‘good experience’ within me – within this

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that it was ‘okay’ for me to ‘chase my dreams’ because apparently ‘that’s what we as human beings are here on Earth for! To achieve our goals, dreams and greatest illusions!’ and in that, believing that because everyone else is doing it: why can’t I also do it? And so, becoming the perfect preprogrammed organic robot in a society that is specifically built, structured and organized in a way that we are constantly bombarded and stuffed with points that we can generate an obsession for: either a ‘perfect partner/ spiritual soul-mate,’ a pair of shoes, a great restaurant to attend, the ultimate car, some nice vacations in the Bahamas, getting the ultimate games, music, watching movies, attending parties, socializing while consuming anything – and any other point that becomes this ‘constant’ though in our heads that we then agree to ‘work for’ because: it is worth it, we are worth it – which has not become by casualty part of the advertisement’s mottos in order to make it ‘okay’ to feed our obsessions.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to neglect my common sense and shape myself according to what everyone else was doing, which was feeding their obsessions about music, idolizing famous people, wanting to buy lots of clothes, products that would make us ‘feel better’ about ourselves, without ever realizing that: from the moment that we give permission as the acceptance (cause) and allowance (effect) to feed that obsession as an actual desire/ want/ need = we comply to the entire consumerist behavior that is broadly accepted in our society, wherein we have all agreed to ‘feed each other’s obsessions’ through making it ‘okay’ to equate live = consuming, buying, satisfying ourselves with products, things, relationships as life-experiences that we believe is ‘all we’re here for’ when in fact, who and what we have become, is nothing but a machine that is able to justify, excuse and vindicate any means/ ways to obtain its satisfaction as that positive energy that is created the moment that we ‘give into’ our obsessions and don’t stop until we get it.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to never realize that I would actually only be obsessed and feeding my obsessions for the actual ‘good feeling’ that I would create within myself, placing aside the common sense that would actually rear its head every time that I would realize that: everything/ everyone that I desired and that had become that point of obsession, was never ‘as good as’ I had ‘Thought’ it would be, because the Idea and belief that I formed about that something/ someone Never matched reality. This implies that I had only been feeding my own mind, through using my physical life substance to do so, in order to make myself ‘feel good’ and in most instances, ‘feel alive’ through feeding my thoughts, feelings and emotions about that something/ someone, wherein I ultimately disregarded the fact that: it was never about ‘them’ but it was only about me-feeding my-own obsessions to make-me ‘feel good’ and reduce my physical body to a single energy-making machine that feeds the mind through depleting itself as life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use something/ someone as a point of stimulation within my mind that I grab onto as a way to continue perpetuating myself as only an experience generated through thoughts and feelings that I use to ‘feel good’ about myself, thinking that I was actually ‘living’ while desiring/ daydreaming/wanting/ needing – when in fact, all of it was made ‘acceptable’ within ourselves as human beings, through that very initial acceptance of ‘who we are’ as only mind-energy demons that feed off of the physical substance/ life that we are, which we have neglected throughout our entire existence, using it as literally only a physical bait to attract others into our reality, reducing ourselves to a single image-based reality that is virtually only fed-for and specifically manipulated in order to Feed our Minds – but Never consider what we really are as physical beings, beyond a single image in the mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for having become horrified at the sight of natural resources’ extraction/ exploitation such as fracking, without realizing that I have been doing the exact same thing within my very own physical body, which implies that this world is the exact replica and representation of who we are and what we exist-as within our own minds, which reveals to what extent we have become judges of our own deeds, condemning our very own functioning that we have conveniently veiled ourselves from seeing, because: the truth and reality of who and what we have become, has Nothing to do with light or love, has nothing to do with ‘feeling good’ about a single iota of mind movement that I use in order to satisfy and satiate myself as a mind, because all that I have ever fed is my own mind.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was ‘nurturing myself’ with ‘love’ which is part of the programming that I got fed-with through learning lyrics and complying to the popular culture in a specific ‘branch’ of it, that I deemed would use ‘love’ as a more ‘spiritual’ thing other than just a physical-bait for sex that is understood, without realizing that all forms of obsession are the same, we can simply choose to ‘coat it’ with either chocolate, caramel or nuts and still it is the same thing: a point of obsession that makes me feel ‘good’ about myself and my reality, which is only a reality generated through and by the mind, neglecting at all times the actual physicality that I exist as.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to ask forgiveness to my body for what I’ve done to it in the name of feeding my relationship obsessions, I am witnessing the consequences of this continued application throughout my life and all I can say is that I forgive myself for having neglected at all times the fact that I sought myself outside of myself this whole time, while reducing my own physical body to a single instrument of chasing-after that which I wanted to ‘obtain/ get’ to ‘satisfy myself.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consume my very own physical body/ life substance every moment that I sought to be ‘fulfilled’ in separation of myself through attaining something/ someone/ going somewhere else – and in this, neglecting every single moment that I lived HERE as myself, as Life in the Physical, which is now what I am walking as myself, in order to establish for the very first time that equal and one relationship with myself as my physical body, now that I’ve realized how I had become the ultimate obsession for ‘something/ someone’ in separation of myself in my mind, while disregarding and completely ignoring myself as my physical body that I am here, as breath as life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become obsessed with my own mind as thoughts, feelings and ideas as future projections that I use to instigate a ‘good feeling’/ positive experience within me, which stems from this inherently accepted and allowed perception of myself ‘not being complete/ not being good enough’ wherein I then sought-myself in separation of who I am here-as-breath as the physical. Thus, I stop feeding my obsessions and becoming obese with my own over-eating to fuel my obsessions and mind-addictions in order to feed one single pattern that I, through cultural cultivation, had accepted as ‘who/ what I must aspire to be/become’ which is a ‘satisfied person’ – which implies the saturation of myself of positive energy that seeks to rejuvenate itself as a mind every single moment that such saturation of myself as positive energy goes to a low, which is when I then re-activate my obsession as the mind, neglecting myself here-as-breath – in order to place into motion the extraction of physicality life-substance at the service of the mind-system and Not of myself here-as-breath, as life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate the act of eating something outside of myself from eating-myself, which implies that the energy-resources that I am ‘craving for’ are in fact mind generated when not having established a physical-relationship with my own physical body to realize, see and understand what is it that I am ‘in-fact’ requiring to eat, and what is simply only a mind-related consumption of food in separation of myself here-as-breath.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that ‘feeding someone else’s obsession’ was in any way some type of sexual innuendo that I would play out in order to have power over others, which I learned through songs and pictures and ideas of what would be ‘enjoyable’ within others, which was only enjoyable within who I am as a mind system that is willing to create the most twisted and bizarre ways of satisfying ourselves as an idea of the mind, as the ego and personality that has never in fact been ourselves here-as-life, as the physical – but only who we are as mind-systems that work in a system of money wherein everything that will give us a ‘high’ is directly linked to having to ‘buy it’ and consume it’ in the name of our personal glory and satisfaction.

 

I commit myself to establish my own relationship with my physical body first and foremost before even attempting to walk with others in equality, as I see and realize that the moment that I miss-myself and instead divert my attention of here-as-breath into the mind as ‘feeding my obsessions’ as future projection, I am in fact only existing in the mind and not here-as-breath. Thus I walk my self-agreement process wherein I make sure that who I am is always here as self, constant and consistently existing as the physical, wherein any single diversion into the mind, is called out into awareness of me here-as-breath to walk Self-Forgiveness here-as-life in order to establish myself as the directive principle of who I am in every single moment.

 

I commit myself to become more aware of what am I feeding myself with as food and going establishing awareness to see how if I am eating is in fact required by my physical body, or if it is only feeding myself as a mind-obsession that is always justifying and excusing its desire/ want/ need for mind fuel as the deification of energy for/ as the mind, while defying and neglecting the physical that must be invariably abused, used and depleted in order to satisfy the mind’s obsessions.

 

I commit myself to stop every single thought that becomes an instant obsession within myself, from a single picture presentation, an ideal of living, a desire to be somewhere else, a desire to be experiencing a particular emotion that I had become so used to in the past as any for of temporary sense of ‘satisfaction’ that would satiate my mind for a while, only leaving me high and dry after a while and asking for more.

 

I commit myself to establish myself from here on as the point that is able to give herself/itself back to Earth wherein the energy that I consume is no longer used to abuse life, but is instead used to support Life as who I am, wherein all that I consume is given back to Earth, Earthing all the energy that I’ve abused and give it back to self.

 

I commit myself to establish a world-system of money – the Equal Money System – wherein we will no longer be brainwashing each other in the name of consumption as buying, consuming, producing and selling that which we know is detrimental to life on Earth, but we currently comply to it because our lives depend on ‘making money to survive,’ which reveals to what extent we have compromised life to this compro = ‘I buy’ in Spanish – mise (miser) and in that, reducing our entire existence to a buy-consume happy-go-lucky living that is absolutely energy-based and Never has been physical awareness and consideration of self-here as life, breathing, walking, physically existing as the flesh and bones, as the organism that simply requires breath and physical substance at the moment to exist.

 

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Day 48: My Smile is a Rifle + I’m pointing it at you.

  • When you smile at a stranger, there is already a minute outflow of energy. You become a giver.~Eckhart Tolle*

 

The truth is that I would smile to people on the streets when having eye contact and when I had deliberately decided to establish such contact through ensuring that I could have them ‘by my side’ by demonstrating a physical gesture that would let them know ‘I come in peace and I intend no harm’ – which implies the starting point was  fear itself:  “People are strange when you’re a stranger” is what I learned from Jim Morrison only as a phrase that could get stuck in my head along with any other song that I would listen to in casual places.  When spirituality came into my world – or I drove myself into spirituality – I read information on how within giving away these ‘positive vibes’ and ‘thinking positive’ all the time could in fact ‘help’ to create a better world. Obviously having been submerged in a rather stagnant and pessimist phase before that, I went for it – and began being the positive charm that could engage anyone with a soft-voice and a pre-planned smile that I knew could open the doors in a world wherein fear closes them all.

 

So,when going through life smiling at people during this phase, I can confirm what Mr. T* says in his quote here – I would create this fluffy experience which can only confirm two things:

1. I did it because of the nice fluffy experience within myself only, while thinking that I was causing the same in another as well – foolishly so believing that this in any way could ‘make their day better’ lol – which is what LOVE is justified as

2. I always did it in means of protecting myself from the actual fear that I would  carry myself around with when interacting/ directing myself toward humans in general when walking on the street – smiling as in ‘breaking the ice’ in order to sugar-coat the actual need to be ‘smiled-back’ as a means to talk myself into believing that: people aren’t that ‘bad’ after all, all we need is a bit of extending your mouth to demonstrate that you are a ‘good person’ as well! – yes, I  cannot even recall ‘who I was’ as such person any more. It did work at all times and would get me many opportunities however: all stemming from fear, from actual deliberate manipulation to have people ‘on my side’ while actually fearing they could insult me, rob me, attack me or anything else that I would be constantly paranoid about while walking in the streets – this way I thought I could ‘prevent me’ from being deliberately targeted as then any people would commiserate and believe myself to be this enlightened being that doesn’t deserve such harm. Of course I didn’t do this with every single person, it was mostly with those that I had to directly communicate with them for any practical purposes, as well as the ones I had to have ‘uncomfortable situations’ with, like sitting on the train together, in a bus, in an elevator, arriving at a bench in a park and sitting next to someone, etc.

The fact is that it is so much ‘better’ for the mind to be an affable person all the time and smiling and seeking this acceptance all the time as it creates you a ‘good reputation’ + the added positive energy wherein I would self-talk myself into being adding props for my enlightened closer-to-god personality that is used to manipulate people with the ‘I am Love’ Tag while secretly asking ‘Love me back, please’ – yet what I see is that I was only following my own deception: ‘giving a smile’ is obviously not going to change anything in this world other than generating a few energetic sparks inside my body and believing that I was supporting my self-enlightened interest to become an absolute benevolent being. Lol, yes delusion is easy when being in spirituality/ the good positive side of the coin – or should I say the ‘moon’ because I was certainly not even aware of how on Earth I was able to maintain myself living with using money as a means to do so. I have only found out after years that I was only playing another ‘video game’ reality of attaining heaven through keeping score of my own ‘good deeds’ – the more I could create a fluffy experience about it: the better.

I actually after having written out this first part of the blog, went out on the street and noticed that a girl around 9 had this very eerie gesture toward me while watching me walking down the street, and as I came closer to her she suddenly just grinned – which proved the point that I had written out here on how people first Fear each other all the time and then smiling is just a way to cover up that initial fear or whatever it is she could have experienced and demonstrated with her face in awe. (note: I still have a shaved head and that’s still not a regular thing around here for women.) And! I also realized that I would constantly have a smile on my face, like this rigid gesture that I would keep in order to seem affable for all of the above mentioned reasons – the same when ‘looking at nature’ and believing that GOD had wanted me to get out of my house for a walk in that very moment because I was going to witness these two little birds chasing after each other – or a piece of glowing plastic with the sunrays creating this beautiful contrast with the green foliage and a bit of dry leafs – the same would happen when encountering a dead little bird on the side walk – and I am exaggerating a bit with the ‘god’ thing, but I would definitely create all forms of nice positive experiences from JUST looking at reality. Yes, people, I was very/ highly deluded creating and seeking experiences through my eyes – and I’ve walked that in the blog ‘Lugubrious Romantic’ that you can read more about and the process of self correction for it, which I have been applying and was definitely cool to spot the point in such a specific way.

 

 

So, I must say to Mr. T that I wholeheartedly disagree again with his statement, as it is reducing any actual ability for a human being to realize what giving and receiving in equality is and implies, and wrapping it up to nothing more than just another double-cheese burger to-go that can satiate the never ending quench for energy that we as human beings have denigrated ourselves to: nothing else but loveseeking fizzy bubbly machines to always seek for our next greatest excitement (energy) – yet neglecting any actual understanding of what it would actually mean to be a ‘giver’ in reality. Instead of smiles becoming an actual expression in the moment as self, they became just another way to cope with my reality of which I was extremely fearful of, constantly, almost paranoid at times – which was also enhanced by the delirium that ‘I am this benevolent being in a world of tyrants and mean people’ – so a lot of fabricated delusions can be played out in a single fleeting moment of smiling to a stranger. Some can even understand ‘SEX’?’ and get the message entirely wrong – you never know what gestures imply as they have also become a part of the deceptive means to ‘imply’ things without having the courage to speak about them up front. I speak for myself when I say that, and have walked that specifically as I realize how we fear actually being willing to communicate openly and in self honesty, which is how the infamous ‘misunderstandings’ emerge as a way to confuse us even further from the initial point wherein we sought some sense of recognition and comfort – a single smile.

 

Another fact is that when reading that quote at first me as ‘marlen-value’ pointed it out toward sex: ‘you are a giver’ as in you are satisfying someone else’s senses – which is like giving entry to someone for sex. Thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be the very mind that has perpetuated the sexualization of society with single statements that I usually associate to the ‘double-meanings’ that I was so used to understanding when hearing words and linking them toward sex – thus I realize that the solution is stopping sexualizing what should be an unconditional expression in the moment such as openly smiling with no fear, no holding back. Once again, this is to expose how ‘positive feeling’ are always linked to two things – or three: sex, money and god/ religion which is kind of the same as it can turn into a rather sexualized experience that is now comfortably understood as ‘religious experience.’

 

Therefore, this is another reason why light and love will lead you to fluffy deliriums about reality wherein the actual physical giving to another being in the name of Equal-consideration of who we are as one and equals, is pulverized to a ‘cosmic spark’ of smiling at others and believing yourself to already be a ‘good doer’ in this world. Absolutely unacceptable as we have billions indulging in this positive bullshit that is polluting the airwaves with mantras of enlightenment while poverty, famine and sexual exploitation increase every moment that a single person decides to smile in the name of that inner personal satisfaction as the illusion of who we are as energy bodies that will ascend ‘higher and higher’ some day, as we treat each other ‘with Love’ which is the mask of fear that we portray in order to avoid facing our reality: unless we establish a system of life that supports all living beings equally, no matter how many smiles we exert to strangers: NOTHING will change.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use smile as a way to mask the actual fear that I experience toward people while walking on the streets. I realize that this is not necessary to do if I stop the fear itself within my mind, as it is only stopping the initial thought of ‘I fear people’ and instead, realizing that smiling at others will create no difference whatsoever within a being’s reality, as well as within myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate the word ‘giver’ with sexual connotations wherein I have become the very mind that sexualizes reality and all gestures and movements ‘must be’ related to sex, as I have deemed this to be the only thing that moves humanity – and even if it’s so, I realize that there are more points to debunk in relation to judging it, instead of actually walking a process to support myself and others to stop only creating the usual ‘curiosity’ and ‘double sense’ that implies a sexual context within my mind, wherein I am becoming part of the entire mechanism that uses sex as a means to obtain energy, instead of realizing sex as an actual physical experience that must be part of our education within this world in order to stop profiting from it as a means to make it seem ‘secretive’ and within that, stirring thoughts that will propitiate sexual obsessions with no practical and physical support to assist myself and others to realize that: we have vandalized sex and any other sexual suggestion to only being an energetically mind-driven mechanism to make ourselves ‘feel good’ as in obtaining that positive rush within ourselves, while actually neglecting and even not knowing what real physical sex and experiences would imply.

 

I commit myself to expose positive attitudes as the actual mask of fear to perpetuate control and the desire to manipulate/ have power  over others, wherein all things LOVE are actually stemming from fear, fear of loss and the sense of ‘lacking’ wherein we, human beings, believed that we always required to be ‘loving’ in order to feel satisfied and fulfilled, never realizing that it is within this acceptance of ‘love’ as something ‘good,’ that we have blinded ourselves from reality wherein the actual TRUTH of ourselves is seen in every kid that is starving and pondering: why on Earth do these people ‘rejoice’ in love while I am left to simply die? What do they call ‘giving’ then?

 

I commit myself to expose the positive, love and light  lies as excuses to keep ourselves bound to a single ‘streamline’ of ‘positive thinking’ and believing that in doing so, any form of change is being conducted in reality – thus exposing the actual GIVING and RECEIVING that must be a process of education as a new way of living called Neighborism that we are all able to begin walking as a individual self-honest process that we all can and must, actually, as our point of Self Responsibility conduct in our every day living to ensure that we in-fact change human nature into a real love-giving being that considers ALL beings in equality and creates the Equal Money System as the way to promote actual feasible GIVING and Receiving solutions that contemplate the physical interdependence of all organisms/ beings in order to live in Equality as Life.

 

We must realize that as long as we don’t the basic points to live in dignity as a guarantee in our reality, we’ll continue seeking fleeting answers to a reality – such as positivity, law of attraction, smiling, giving hugs for free, seeking peace, meditating, chanting, dancing, reciting mantras, the bible, talking to god and any other schizophrenic attempt to ‘do good,’ reality will continue to be obliterated in every second that we continue seeking our personal satisfaction instead of actually dedicating ourselves to establish our own Equality as life and bringing some actual justice on Earth by our own hands.

 

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Day 44: The Evil Veil of Me

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever pursuit the positive in life and believing that that was ‘the path’ that I had to walk as it would make me be a ‘better human being’ while neglecting the fact that such positive energy was in fact the result of the actual evil as the bastardization of life to energy wherein I made sure that ‘who I am’ as a point of separation from the whole always stands on the ‘positive side’ which I allowed myself to deliberately ‘stick to,’ regardless of the actual inner-experience that would come up when being possessed with anger and obsessive thoughts as a child, which then developed into generating a double experience within myself wherein within the outside I would present an affable and charismatic persona, but in the inside I judged my very own participation as I knew that it was only fake and ‘to get by’ within the standards of society that I always accepted as ‘how things are’ without daring to really question it as to How it is that we were all just playing games of pretending to care about each other.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to exert that inner inexplicable irritation toward myself as a child as a gnawing experience that I would then try and exert out as annoyance, annoying others and seeking attention because I did not know why I was experiencing such inextricable physical discomfort wherein I just wanted to peel myself off of my physical body.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to develop obsessions from a very young age wherein I would feed my obsessions with constantly thinking about something until I would get it, and I would then experience the temporary relief of finally ‘achieving’ something that I wanted, only to find something else to obsess about in no time, which is how I became used to being holding on to a future-experience of self-gratification which is how we are currently living as beings that only care about the immediate instant-gratification wherein there is no actual regard for that which we are consuming in the name of such gratification.

 

I forgive myself that I always accepted and allowed myself to believe that through sticking to the positive self-experience I was being a ‘good being in existence’ without ever, ever imagining that this is the actual evil of this world as all the spiritual beliefs and ideas of positive, light and benevolence stem from the very acceptance of that inherent separation of who we are as one and equal, thus becoming a worshiper of the very evil that has leads us to exist in the current state we’re living in as humanity, which is now, more clear than ever, that is taking a toll on all of us that believed that we were ‘on the good path’ of walking with and as the ‘good guys’ while neglecting that in reality, it was the other way around.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to ‘fear the evil’ and react to such word without ever having known that everything we have been and manifested as the consequence of our primordial separation has been evil, pure evil in nature, which then explains how I would constantly hold the thought-pattern about ‘Humanity being evil’ and creating this constant ‘hardening’ experience when being ‘exposed’/ being interacting with human beings as I believed everyone was ‘on to get me’ and ‘against me,’ which explains how retreat, isolation and the desire to simply interact the least possible stemmed from this that I deemed as ‘irrational fear’ – yet it was real as the actual nature that exists as all of us, not only myself and that I can only see and understand it for what it means to ensure that I walk the process to stop any form of continuation to degrade and defy life in the name of any form of energy – whether positive or negative – it is my responsibility to stop all patterns of energy within myself, as I realize that this is the only way that I can give myself back to myself the points that I had initially separated myself from.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever only seek to be a positive-supporter a ‘cheerleader’ when it came to positivity and positive experiences, without realizing that within this I had made of reality nothing else but a chemical reaction that would only make me Feel Good about myself and my thoughts and place myself into this angelic pedestal, while neglecting the fact that the foundation to such experience was stemming from the actual evil that we became the very moment that we accepted and allowed ourselves to be the cause and effect of energy as the result of the desire to ‘experience’ and ‘be more’ than ourselves as equality and oneness, which means that I abdicated the wholeness of myself and vulgarized it to me being and becoming only a single experience that would only continue to keep satisfying itself through generating the same positive experience within the participation with others in reality, using them/ using life as a way to transform it into the necessary crutch for my self elation.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to try and ‘fix the world’ in separation of myself and believing myself to be a ‘good natured being’ when in fact, I was only trying to save my own ass when it comes to realizing that any desire to do good was actually stemming from the fear that I had realized was absolutely undeniable within me, which is how I feared everything that had to do with ‘dark’/ ‘darkness’ and ‘evil’ because I had feared myself as my own ‘evil’ experience/ thoughts/ imagination that I had not been able to communicate with others, because of fearing being judged for having such experiences within me, which reveals to what extent we as human beings experience these type of inner confusion and not knowing how to ‘deal’ with it, because we were always taught to simply ride the wave of experience until it ‘fades out’ – yet not really understanding why and how I would suddenly have ‘evil thoughts’ as a child toward people in my reality, with no apparent reason, which is what manifested that self-annoyance and irritation that I tried to cover up with a positive attitude and being just cheerful, because I knew that that would keep me ‘safe’ from the evil that I actually feared as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever pursue a ‘light working career’ wherein I would dream of being able to ‘help people’ and make this world a ‘better place’ by implementing solutions that had to do with giving hope, having faith and believing that ‘after all, it all must come down to a positive end’ – which is in fact the problem that hope instills and creates in this reality as a the laxity wherein the real nature that must be worked with through writing, applying self forgiveness and  the Self Corrective Application had been simply pushed down and covered up with all things positivity, which is like trying to build a solid foundation upon a swamp.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever seek relationships as a way to make myself feel better about myself, without realizing that it is through the nature of relationships that our ‘real nature’ was shaped and formed, which implies that creating relationships was an automated way to continue the perpetual desire to ‘be more’ than myself because relationships in themselves already imply separation and energetic experiences created from that moment of separation toward that which we are attempting-to and trying to reunite with. Which means that I had only reinforced separation through trying to connect/ establish relationships due to such separation only existing as an energetic experience that doesn’t consider the actual physicality as the fabric of existence as substance/ as life of which everything and everyone is made of.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to deem that everything that was ‘evil’ in this world had nothing to do with me, which was me neglecting my very own thoughts as the constant seeking for power, control, recognition, glory, instant-gratification as a constant ‘win-win’ desire within me, which is the actual core and initiation of all evil in this world wherein ‘who I am as money/ power’ is all that really drives us to want to ‘be something/ someone’ in life, which is Not living but instead agreeing to play the game and ride the ‘waves of success’ that we all comply to live in within this system that only cares to perpetuate such constant fueling of experiences, instead of regarding and supporting life in equality, which is now our duty to establish as a living principle on Earth.

 

I commit myself to debunk any inkling and remain of positivity within me as I walk myself out of the mind and into the physical, remaining as the awareness of who I have become as a result of having lived in fear of ‘the evil’ in me for such an extensive period of time, wherein morality took the place of any form of common sense and in that, becoming a biased being that only cared about listening, doing, being, supporting all things positivity for a while, while having been on the exact opposite, which lead me to a final great confusion within my life that actually lead me to Desteni and that I see and realize is the only way to stop ALL Confusions that we may have in this world when wanting to deliberately stick to the positive out of the actual fear of ourselves, fear toward fellow human beings, because we see and realize that our actual current natures is that of evil that is also a veil that we have created upon ourselves the moment that we accepted and allowed ourselves to live as energy only, as an energetic presence instead of a physical beingness that requires no definition to exist.

 

I commit myself to expose how within our current society and the ‘need’ for us to ‘define who/ what we are’ is in fact reinforcing the evil nature that seeks to have its place of consumption, satisfaction and opposition wherein we become just these lighting bolts that seek to be excited at all times in order to move while constantly wanting to get away from the negative experience and remain in a state of perfect bliss, which can only exist if energy exists – and energy is the very abuse of the physical substance as life that we have used and consumed in the name of our personal ‘power’ and satisfaction.

 

I commit myself to stop the need to be constantly defining myself as an experience and instead, embrace silence as I walk here as breath wherein every pattern of self-deprecation as an energetic experience – whether positive or negative – is understood, seen and realized as a self-abusive pattern as I now see, realize and understand how all the experiences that had no ‘explanation’ before are now becoming clear as a result of us having become the manifested consequence of our abdication toward life/ as life, which perpetuated the ‘who I am’ as that experience of separation which is then what leads to a constant seeking of experience in order to ‘feel alive’ or ‘be someone’ which is only seeking to define ‘who we are’ as that very relationship of separation which must stop here, as I realize that I am perfectly able to exist without using the mind as a constant energetic input onto the physical reality that I am able to move in, walk, breath, eat and experience as an actual moment to moment – instead of future projecting, or remembering or seeking to ‘feel something’ in order to ‘feel alive.’

 

I commit myself to show, how – we have become servants to the Devil/Energy-Authority for ourselves to only WITHIN ourselves manifest our Authority/Godhood unto ourselves, where our existence had become completely internalized and automated within ourselves as Mind/Consciousness – only existing to survive and possess ourselves as Energy; with no substantial living action visible to bring about a change of ourselves within and without.

In this – I commit myself, to through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, speaking and sharing – walk the Visible Action of The Decision to no more accept and allow myself to Serve the Devil/Energy-Authority within and as the Cause/Acceptance of accepting separation, and Effect/Allowance of allowing the relationship between the negative, neutral and positive energies of Mind; but align myself into and as equality and oneness with and as the human physical-body, to stand with and as Life-Authority of and as equality and oneness as what is/will be best for All, as my process of taking directive-principle as responsibility for who, how and what I am in every moment of Breath, and so no more exist in and as the automation of Consciousness that has become the authority over and of me, the physical-body and this physical-existence, but in fact walk in and as Awareness, here in every moment of Breath.” Sunette Spies*

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I commit myself to continue exposing our ‘real nature’ as evil in order to finally take off the veil of energy that we have abdicated our self-directive power to, and become a being that is willing to walk the necessary time and space to reintegrate myself as the physicality of oneness and equality as Life, as that which I separated myself from in the pursuit of happiness, the pursuit of ‘me as an experience’ as energy, of which now I see, realize and understand has been the very key point of ultimate enslavement that must be stopped with the implementation of the Equal Money System wherein real Neighborism is able to emerge as a new human nature, once that we have all realized that we can only thrive in equality as a group, as collective that is able to decide what’s best for all to live by and simply apply it/ be it/ become it.

 

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Day 34: The Delusion of Ownership

 

“This land is your land, this land is my land

From California, to the New York Island

From the redwood forest, to the gulf stream waters

This land was made for you and me”

 

It is sordid how within these seemingly childhood spirited songs, we get sufficient brainwashing as private property and the human supremacy as ownership upon the land, wherein ‘the other’ has ‘his land’ and ‘I have mine’ which is the beginning of separation from each other, from the land and ourselves and in that, already implying that such land will only be acquired through friction and conflict, just as we have read about the multiple wars and conquests in history books where the stories are told by those that won, leaving the gruesome aspect of the actual conquer off the record – yet exalting the ‘human pride’ that comes with the ‘acquisition’ – deliberate invasion and expropriation – for the so called ‘common good,’ which means placing a price tag on the land and selling it to the best bidder.

 

‘This land was made for you and me’ – already implying that life, the Earth and its resources must be ‘at my service, and in that, agreeing that we have never actually even pondered how we got to establish such a territorial ‘nature’ wherein private property as an land turned into an asset and how turning the Earth’s Resources into Commodities became the doom of our civilization.

 

I won’t even get to the rest of the meaning when it comes to limits and the territory that encompassed ‘your land’ and ‘my land,’ wherein all that mattered was making sure that kids are brought up with the most flagrant ideas on how our lives were supposedly founded upon ‘a great agreement of good willed men’ that sought to impulse the never quenching desire to obtain happiness at all cost, wherein we hoodwinked ourselves to always follow that which made us ‘feel good’ about reality, wherein it only became a mirage ‘Lifestyle’ that – coin.cidentally enough – is sustained and maintained through a massive abuse of the Earth’s resources to continue existing – Pow! And there goes our Earth, denigrated to become just a ‘divine source’ of money.

 

The sheer reality is that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be brainwashed to believe that we/ I could ever actually ‘own’ anything or anyone in this world, because I see and realize that private property has become the very weapon of choice that those with ‘power’ have over people – wherein you can easily tag-along with the fueling of desires, hopes, dreams and the materialization thereof through following our ‘greatest excitement,’ while the actual physical substance that allows me to Breathe and exist cannot own another part of self. It can only be made an illusion that we have trapped ourselves fully and completely about.

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use songs as a way to brainwash kids about the supposed ability to own anything in this world that could make me an ‘entitled person’ as a god-given right to ‘own property’ and seal it with a nice sounding tune to make it perfectly fine for human beings to establish their territory as ‘my land/ your land’ with the apparent meaning that it is ‘our land’ in equality, but in reality what is being heard is ‘yours’ and ‘mine’ as a way to differentiate who owns what, because in reality, people own their homes, own their own land which is fought for and defended at all cost, to the extent that people have the right to shoot you if you sit on someone else’s property without permission.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the Earth’s resources to become just another asset, something that can be valued with monetary labels called ‘prices’ according to a made-up/ make believe system that only sought to actually deny every single being the ability to ‘own their land’ wherein we are now stuck in massive debt, owing to the banks which is an institution that was made to seem almighty and powerful, while in reality it was just them that took the place of making the money available for all in that, each one of us accepting and allowing such institutions to govern the money = govern everyone’s lives, wherein now banks own millions of homes wherein people are evicted just because they can’t upkeep their payments – without even asking: where is ‘my land’? where is ‘your land’? Isn’t it supposed to be for all?

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never question why I could not simply have a space in my reality to live in, without having to ‘own it,’ but simply have the right to have a dignified living – in this absolutely forgetting about the fact that we all were equally responsible for having made that a reality through constitutions, laws and living-rights that could be effective for all – but instead, I allow myself to place myself into an inferior position wherein I believed that ‘those in the ruling-elite’ were actually caring and considering about ‘what’s best for me/ what’s best for all,’ despite the evidence of how none of those so-called liberty rights and individual guarantees have been respected and actually lived in this reality, as all that actually governed our reality has only been Money.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to establish ‘human supremacy’ through being able to establish ownership as private property, delimiting a piece of land to give to myself and others in the name of ‘freedom.’ In this accepting the first point of separation that would ensue wars and a perpetual warfare to always have ‘the most of the cake’ as obtaining more lands which translates to more resources, which in this money world translates into more money as the selling of the exploitation of such resources in the name of so-called: progress.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept the fact that I could ‘steal’ another’s land – based on the initial delirious acceptance of ‘private property/ ownership’ being an acceptable legal status – and in that, using wars as a means to get ‘my neighbor’s land’ to expand my own powers as territory and resources, which would eventually make me ‘more powerful,’ and in that allowing the self-entitlement of lands according to an expansive-enterprise that lead to the current state of the world wherein imperialism and capitalism go hand in hand to make the most of the Earth’s resources in means of human’s abusive delusion of power.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to accept such battles and conquests as something that is to be celebrated, or even made memorials of in the name of instigating the so-called ‘national pride’ upon having concealed a battle where actually thousands – or even millions – are massacred and evicted from the land they occupy in the means of a ‘greater good’ which is always masked by the interests of a few that have no regard for life. I have accepted this as a ‘usual means to obtain power,’ which means that I have been sufficiently brainwashed to never question ‘who’ endowed ‘who’ with such power and ability to kill another in the name of entitling themselves with a piece of the Earth that has always been unconditionally here, who has given the godly right to own it, to establish limits, to establish separation within a world that wasn’t created with barriers other than the differentiation of ecosystems as an actual opportunity to have a different living environment according to physical-points like climate. Who has been the real separator? The human being, we all have accepted the delusion of ownership to become our own demise while pretending it made us ‘powerful.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to learn about wars and conquests in school and accept that as a ‘usual form of change’ and apparent ‘progress,’ wherein I then became used to seeing/ hearing/ reading about wars in our contemporary world because: “wars regenerate the economy” – which is what I learned in school and within that, not realizing that all that it means is ‘power can only exist in abuse’ and within my mind, making it something ‘normal’ to do in order to place some apparent ‘order and progress’ as the positivists mottos that I learned were supposed to be ‘best for all,’ when in reality: they never were meant to be best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow the current eviction of human beings in this world because of debt, and allowing people living on the streets, people suffering for not having anything to eat, no education, no healthcare, no financial aid of any kind just because of accepting the delusion of ownership and the monetization of our Earth’s resources as a means to control and obtain power, which makes me by default as a regular money user, a compliant to these rules that have clearly enslaved humanity to a state of absolute separation wherein currently life is being obliterated in the name of money, to have ‘more power’ and have ‘power over others,’ which is just a dictatorship ruled by money in the best interest of a handful.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever feel ‘proud’ because we ‘owned our house’ and in that, adding a layer of power and security within my persona wherein money became part of the ‘stability’ that I could experience as a certainty within my life, within this never daring to question private property in the past, because that’s all I grew up knowing about: having to pay for food, having to get money from the bank to live, working to get that money, paying for school, paying for doctors, paying rights and legal permits and everything became just a money world wherein I always refrained myself from pondering: why are we not just giving it to ourselves? Why do we have to ‘owe’ all of this money to something/ someone? Why if the State is supposed to be an institution in the name of ‘what’s best for all’ not giving all of these apparent god-given rights without having to sell them?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become the very perpetrator of my reality in terms of adding a price tag onto life, making me within this an almighty money-god that decides who can afford to pay for the number in the price tag and who can’t, because that’s the only reason why values are placed and deliberately enforced as a ‘law’ that we have to follow: you have to pay to live – else, you die.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the Earth, the resources, the animals, plants, air is ‘here at my service’ wherein we as human beings have become so infatuated with our ability to THINK and within this ‘THINKING’ becoming the King of the Earth that can decide how to exploit it, who gets what according to the divine monetary laws that I created in the name of Power, as the constant allowance of wars as a means to obtain such power from any land/ people that could ‘serve me’ equally as the Earth’s resources that I have made equitable to Money.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be brainwashed and brainwash kids with the phrase ‘this land was made for you and me’ wherein the seemingly innocent tonality of it all makes its perfectly fine to think that this world ‘was made’ for us, to live in it, to exploit it, to sell it, to deplete it, to rape it, to abuse in all possible ways because apparently some god decided to make this Earth as a playground – when in fact, it is only human infatuation with power the one that created this song as a means to justify the obvious abuse and mass raping of the Earth’s resources in the name of ‘ownership’ which is an obvious declaration of separation toward everything and everyone, as not everyone can own the same at the same time, and in that, making of this Earth instead of a living peaceful ever wonderful place to live in, just another jail that we have enslaved ourselves to through the current monetary system.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I could own ‘anything’ in this world, and that such owning would be equitable to satisfying my desires, hopes, dreams and that ‘having money/ owning property/ resources’ would imply that I am in fact ‘closer to god,’ as I have equated money to a divine and god-given experience wherein I justify ‘my right’ to exploit and abuse the Earth in the name of my personal satisfaction as a human being that has sold its very own sustenance to a system that we created in an apparent means of well-being for all, which is and has proven itself to be not so at all.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify ownership by saying ‘I work hard for it,’ which means that I have accepted this type of enslavement as a means to obtain life, instead of realizing that I could agree to live in a world wherein we work to maintain and sustain life as a given right for all, instead of having to work-to-live wherein no substantial improvements to life are considered, because survivalism is then accepted as a ‘living condition’ – never questioning the fact that we could support ourselves in Equality in fact, wherein we don’t have to strive for a living any longer.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that happiness on Earth is equal to the amount of money I have, as that implies that I have the abusive right to kill, own, exploit, resell and abuse the Earth’s resources to capitalize my values and my ownerships to get ‘more power’ in the name of my personal glory and satisfaction, while justifying it with this godly sickening song that taught me that ‘this land was made for you and me. ‘

 

I commit myself to expose the delusion of ownership as a human creation in order to impose power and have control over the Earth’s unconditionally existent resources that cannot possibly continue being sold and capitalized in the name of personal power – all life must be equalized and given as an actual living-right wherein no more private property is in the way to create a sustainable and comfortable living position for all beings that are willing to live in Equality. This can be done through implementing the Equal Money System wherein we become the very creators of our own present and building a future that is no longer enslaved by a minority that has decided who gets what/ how much the Earth’s resources cost. This implies that my very own life is committed to stop this delusion beginning with myself wherein

 

I commit myself to stop any idea, belief or perception of me having ‘the right’ to control the Earth that we have diminished to only being a ‘resource’ wherein we have actually all complied to equating Earth to just a fuel to keep us all alive, a piece of land that we can ‘own’ – instead of realizing that we are more than capable and able to create an design a system that will effectively work for all, wherein equal opportunities to live a dignified living are given as a birth-right and Not made an exclusive trait of those with money beforehand. I realize that to be able to implement this, I must educate myself about Equal Life wherein all Life is valued equally through a monetary system that will enable life to be a given-right for all on Earth, which includes not only human beings, but animals, plants, the environment that has been equally abused and oppressed in the name of power as money as control.

 

I commit myself to become an advocate of Neighborism wherein we learn that we can only live in peace and thrive as humanity if working together as one – wherein all that we conduct, direct and work on has the starting point of considering what’s best for all as pertinent decisions to ensure that all have equal access to a dignified living, wherein suffering starvation, poverty, eviction, health care negligence, lack of education is no longer part of the Equality equation, as I ensure that I establish a system that will decidedly function for all in equal-terms. This is giving to another what we want for ourselves, and commit ourselves to work within this system that will makes us all finally proud to have an integral society that is leaving no one behind.

 

I commit myself to show and explain the benefits that we all get when thinking in Equality at all times, and how everything that stood once as a means of power – such as our current monetary system – will inevitably fall as it is already imploding because of it not having been a substantial system in any way whatsoever as life, which means that all power structures based on abuse – all of them currently – will have to come to an end for the new to have a space to be implemented here and for that, I commit myself to make it known that there is a solution to facilitate the transition, which is the Equal Money System to ensure that all beings have a point of unconditional support to live while we all adjust to getting used to be unconditionally supported, to not go into massive riots and over-indulgences that could harm and abuse others.

 

I commit myself to explain why it is important to work within ourselves as individuals within this phase of massive global change, wherein we all have to educate ourselves to learn how to live as equals, wherein we consider that only in Equality can we continue living in this world and how it is within this very principle that we can re-create and regenerate this world into a source of Life and stop subduing it to only being a ‘cage’ that was created by and for ourselves.

 

I commit myself to explain why the Equal Money System  is the most principled based type of economic model wherein there are no precedents to compare it, because we had never in fact even considered that we could all live equally as one by giving to each other the right to live just by virtue of existing here.

 

I commit myself to walk the Equal Money System as myself, wherein I stop creating any delusions of owning, having control over something/ someone in my reality, and in that establish equal agreements wherein I ensure that no power is invested upon a few, and that no abuse is perpetuated in the name of such power.

 

I realize that all the power that can exist is here as ourselves in every breath wherein I nurture myself from the Earth and give myself back to work on the Earth to make of it a Living-Space for all in Equality.

 

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2012 Wake up, Character: Life is not a Play!

“Your past history and all of your hurts are no longer here in your physical reality. Don’t allow them to be here in your mind, muddying your present moments. Your life is like a play with several acts. Some of the characters who enter have short roles to play, others, much longer. But all are necessary, otherwise they wouldn’t be in the play. Embrace them all, and move on to the next act.” Dr. Wayne W. Dyer

 

The reality is that the moment that we accepted and allowed ourselves to believe that ‘life is but a play-out of events’ and ‘people the characters in our play,’ we define and reduce our living-physical reality to a  single –and often looping – story-to-tell and cherish for a future, where we can ‘look back’ and get a kick-out of re-experiencing such memories in our minds. Is it that we are only predictable characters in a story that we apparently only ‘find ourselves walking into’? ‘When,who, what and how am I generating these experiences and events in my reality?’ – ‘How on Earth have I gotten myself to this current experience?’ ‘Why am I torturing myself with self-deprecating thoughts?’ ‘Why can’t I stop thinking about the past!’

These are common sense questions that we tend to shove under the rug in one single moment, and it is in such moments that we have ‘skipped’ in our reality that we blindly accept that such experiences as thoughts, feelings and emotions are ‘Real’ – the blasphemy that comes when saying: it was all in your mind’ often crushes the gist that some have defined as an energetic kick gotten from a ‘positive’ and ‘negative’ experience in our reality – yet it was never actually REAL, but only generated within our own minds. Who we are here is the accumulation of the past, present  – and certainly if we continue the same way, the future as well – thus Time is only a nice elusive trap to believe that we have actually moved – yet we haven’t – we are here, we remain here and the only thing that will move is self as the establishment of being and becoming a living-moment of breath, of self directing self in such simple moments wherein we are Here or only perpetuating the past.

Have we exchanged this living moment of breath for a limited rush of experiences that eventually wither and decay? Who are the ones enslaving ourselves to such mental relationship? We are – and ‘moving on’ won’t be as easy as just saying so.

 

Who created and manifested such ‘hurts’ in our life? We did – what Dr. Wyer suggests is only using a band-aid solution to any accumulated backchat and reactions toward a particular person or event in our life that we fed in a direct way through our own thoughts, emotions and feelings. It is easy to say ‘embrace it all and move on’ as if the human mind was so ‘detachable’ from everything that we have linked ourselves to in specific relationships, we become our relationships and it’s clear that in our current reality, all relationships have been based on being self-interest driven characters that sought personal drama and glory all the time. How limited, to be dead honest.

 

These nice theatrical statements lead us to believe that ‘we must seek characters for our play!’ lol – and then go through life yearning to establish a point of connection with people to have some drama in our life. And I speak for myself in this – I was so imbued in storytelling and living through books that I only yearned and desire to live some of the experiences that the Characters of the books had. We called this ‘series of events’ as ‘life’ – experiences that we lead ourselves-to within the accepted and allowed belief that living is going through this rollercoaster of highs and lows – just like how sugar and love create a chemical reaction within our minds, wherein the moment we are ‘on a low,’ we seek the next rush in one way or another. In my case even the pit of depression would feel ‘good,’ because it was still a miserable energetic experience, eventually becoming a constant dependency that must be kept ‘down’ as a constant mental-state that I would feed with words, pictures, ideas and beliefs about the world, people, etc… Ehm-hem: it was all in my head!

 

Whether being the tormented or a cheerful positive person, both poles lead us to believe that life is a high end of a low and vice versa – lol – is it, really? Sounds more like the mechanism of a rollercoaster ride. Are we only these experience-seeking beings going up and down, bouncing off one moment then dozing off, then waking up to seek the next greatest energetic experience?

 

Move on to the next act’ – again, another play, another story to tell, another sequence of events that must have an ‘extra layer of adrenaline’ to make it better than the last one, more ‘extreme’ and ‘outrageous’ – just for the sake of gaining props in our personal scores. The next act we create with other people that apparently ‘leave a mark’ on us, never realizing that all experiences we created toward ‘them’ have always only existed in our own minds.

 

Is life – better said- should life be reduced to such feeble mind acts? No, that’s definitely dishonoring the very breath that holds all our mindfucks alive. Is it that we have never realized it? I’d say it’s more a point of not having allowed us to stop for a moment to see ‘who am I within seeking the next greatest ‘fix’ in my life? – ‘Is seeking to create events an actual way of Living?’ – What is Living?

 

Being here as breath, being absolutely self-directive in everything we do, think, say and how we interact with others is the base foundation of a life based in and as a sequence of breaths and not ‘events’ that hold the entire novel-like development, taking us on a ride up until the never quenching moment of climax/ orgasm that can only last for a moment to inevitably – by Newton’s law – fall back into a low, leaving us like addicts seeking for one more ‘ticket to ride.’ LOL

The power of equality is the gravity that bounds us to the Earth, to that which is real and applies to all. It is only the helium that we pump into our minds as thoughts and feelings that make us believe we can fly.

 

Oh god, all our songs, our culture, our behavior, our personalities, our characters defined according to playing a role in this entire play that we have called life – is it REALLY this in-and-out reality all that we are? Are we supposed to only be these storytellers that must always have a happy-glowing end or a tragically absurd type of human misery that leaves us Also craving for more?

No – who we are as Life must not be defined by energetic experiences that are self-created and induced as chemical reactions that we eventually become addicted to. No one can blame another for being an addict, because we all are as long as we are seeking for our next big score.

 

We are more than capable of scripting a reality that is constantly based on a living-physical experience that is satisfactorily for ALL as Equals – no need to create fluffy-puffy experiences to believe that ‘we’ve made it’ somehow. Lol! This is about Life!  Not a race! How can it be? We have trapped-ourselves into but an illusion of winning and losing – loving and hating – wanting and rejecting – all existent in our own minds.

 

So, the point is quite clear now: we require to stand as the principle that writes a script to LIVE, to enjoy and express for the sake of actually experiencing our physical bodies and sharing ourselves with others as well – allowing all to see that any mystical idea of being in a tragic comedy is only a game played to keep us busy in our minds, to then seek for a remedy to our own self-created misery – neglecting  the actual reality that certainly requires our full attention to see that what others are physically enduring is not only a ‘role in the play’ but the consequence of us living in fairy tales and missing out on ReALLity – we have become real ET’s on this earth, living up in our minds while missing hearing the grass grow.

 

So, we’re here to become the actual Characters that Live, the care-takers of the Earth = the Living Words that are not only a flickering result of lights that go on and off in a binary mode. I suggest that you give yourself a chance to take your life by the hand, and walk yourself out of these squared lines to finally hold the pen and script the life that you are willing to live for eternity as All, as One and Equal.

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“Love and Feeling must be understood to stop the abuse that is allowed in its name as Biochemistry. What is Real? man know thyself!!!”
Bernard Poolman 

 

No more strings attached to the past, the future or the present – no more Tie-me’s that exist only as the mind. We exist here in every breath that we take in and out – moment by moment wherein we establish who we are as Life or a character that lives through the eyes of the mind. What do you choose to be?


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