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299. More for You is Less for Me: Self Forgiveness

 

When the accumulation of wealth is no longer of high social importance, there will be great changes in the code of morals. We shall be able to rid ourselves of many of the pseudo-moral principles which have hag-ridden us for two hundred years, by which we have exalted some of the most distasteful of human qualities into the position of the highest virtues.—John Maynard Keynes

 

Continuing with:

Redefining Capitalism:

Here, I realized that in order to present a viable solution to the accumulation of capital and profit making, I require to review the acceptances and allowances as a point of self awareness that I walk through Self Forgiveness, because I realize the atrocities that have ensued from our blind acceptance of what should have always been a mater of great concern when considering to what extent we have blindly accepted the system ‘as is’ without any further question about it.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize how it is within the acceptance of accumulation of wealth , we gave way to competition wherein we fight to get ‘the most’ which only represents to what extent we have separated ourselves from the very basic understanding of how reality and natural physics operate, wherein the moment energy/money is accumulated it invariably so causes damages for the whole, this is the damage that we’ve accepted as our ‘means to make a living’ which is based on mere and sheer self-abuse without even realizing it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept the desire to secure my own accumulation of wealth as a means to survive and ensure that this ‘well being’ is always ‘there’ and accessible at my own will, without realizing that this system has been based on fear and survival without realizing that accumulating wealth while others have non is in fact the result of creating a system wherein I have made it ‘ok’ for me to have and neglect others’ needs and requirements, which has created a self-righteous scheme of polarization that we justify with our own satisfied means to live that we only focus on at an individual level, and not realizing that not caring for the whole, the global well being leads us to this disparity that have become our usual roles of riches and poor people, never questioning what is it that these roles in our society imply as abuse and abusers of live that is unconditional.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the accumulation of wealth is in fact stealing from others what corresponds to them as a fair pay to remunerate their work and instead see wealth and rich people as a status to attain and to ‘work harder for’ wherein all that was considered was self interest, omitting looking at the usury that lies behind it.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see the accumulation of wealth as the obscenity that it represents and that we’ve learned to bow down to without understanding that for some to have, some are invariably left without any support:

The Soul of Money – Part 11 – Hierarchical Distribution of Life

This means that we won’t suddenly strip the rich and the elite from their wealth obtained through deceitful and abusive means, we can propose a gradual redistribution of their wealth either through placing it to the use of such capital for restoration or infrastructure or any other means to help the circulation of such capital to the benefit of more people equally, which is gradually freeing society from an imposed debt and slavery.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to contribute to a formation of a disparity and polarization through accepting and allowing ‘facts’ of ‘how things are’ and ‘how things function’ wherein I did not question further why we are allowed to secure our lives with money and accumulating money while others have no access to such money to even have the basic means to live.

 

I realize that the way to proceed won’t be through a clean-cut of confiscating and redistribution which can lead to further hostility and violence than the intended well-being for all. Thus we have to make money circulate first of all without bearing debt and interest or any other value in itself to perpetuate further accumulation, but will have to be directly used to maintain a sustainability wherein those that already have the wealth will have to simply halt their own growth by having to now comply to the settlement/ agreement of giving / providing/ allowing equal distribution of profit.

Within this, there will be a transitional period wherein the accumulation of wealth will be understood and realized as a problem that caused the disparity that will be healed by equal distribution – thus it will be a process of the individuals holding such wealth to eventually give it away for social benefit or give it a proper use wherein such capital can be placed into action to generate jobs, profit that will support more people at the same time.

 

I commit myself to realize how the solution for accumulation of wealth resides within the giving and receiving as a constant flow wherein growth is no longer defined by the amount of money made, but the stability and consistency of support provided for all individuals equally, without any form of debt or interest implied.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept an inherent conditioning of survival, scarcity and fear of loss  wherein we have conditioned ourselves to this need to have an assurance, a covered means of surviving which lead us to see money as a safe-boat that we had to ‘guard with our lives’ in fear of each other taking more than the other or taking ‘ours’ away, which lead to this hoarding process of money as a means to secure one’s survival and as such, making of this mechanism an acceptable way of existing and handling one’s money and finances wherein the well being of the social organism was not considered at all, but only focused on our own private needs, desires, wants and fears.

 

I realize that if we all become aware of each other’s ability to have equal access to money and resources through establishing a new economic system in Equality, we can then focus on re-establishing the actual problems that we are driving in this world such as encouraging working together to clean the mess we’ve created at an environmental level, contribute with Education and proper management wherein no one will be able to cheat each other to make more money, but we have to understand that as long as one single person thinks of getting ‘more’ than the others, is already an indicator that the same condition of fear, limitation, scarcity and survival is being recreated.

 

I commit myself to understand that accumulation o wealth is against the laws of physics wherein life is in constant movement, in cycles of giving and receiving and that any form of hoarding or amassing of wealth is only a result of fear, and that within a new economic system we can stop existing in such fears and instead demonstrate that we are capable of coexisting as physical living particles of a greater system wherein each one’s responsibility lies within giving and receiving in equitable manner, which means: every person must contribute to generate each other’s well being, and that’s our security and comfort that is a collective effort beginning with the individual realization that this must be lived at an individual level first.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that we’ve never taxed the accumulation of wealth and that this has given free reign to amass wealth with no social responsibility at all. This implies looking at how taxes are mostly paid and higher to those that work the most and those that already have the money got the least taxes  or even absolute subsides to continue expanding their wealth/capital with not regard as to whom is being benefited through this process and who is being deliberately pushed aside from getting such support.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a financial system where money has been used to generate an idea and belief of power that has been made real through destining money to support projects, work, labor that can only be afforded by those that have the most money in their hands, which makes us all equally responsible the moment that we also seek our own stability and benefit without realizing who doesn’t get such support in order to have equal power to benefit from what we’ve made available for buying and consuming in our world system.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make of money a point of power in itself, wherein the accumulation of capital is used as a means to stand on top of/ superior to everyone else and in this accepting and allowing inequality by the use and compliance of a monetary system that was never determined to serve life in equality, but rather the opposite.

 

I realize that Money should be a tool to have access to that which enriches life, leisure, equitable distribution of wealth to ensure that no one entitles oneself to have ‘more’ than the rest through an obsolete legal framework to justify and excuse it.

 

I commit myself to realize that within making of money a means to ensure everyone is supported in a tacit or direct manner, we will stop existing in anxiety, fears, hardship, hatred between the haves and the have not’s because everyone will have equal amount of support, and in this, stop the majority of the conflicts we have in this world that may have other connotations such as religious, cultural and racial differences – yet money being the most prevalent one.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever accept the fact that accumulating wealth is a ‘good idea’ as it will secure myself because within this idea of security, I accepted and allowed a system of disparity wherein I can have accumulation of wealth while others have no ability to accumulate nor have any access to any form of wealth/support at all and in this, my single acceptance of ‘money as security’ is already being a building factor toward our current system that has prevailed throughout our human civilization without a second guessing about it.

 

I realize that we all endowed money with unlimited qualities to it, wherein we made money a number that represents a form of power and that it was never really backed by the actual physical reality, which means that money could be accumulated as a form of wealth in itself, attributing imaginary values to it wherein we stopped seeing only a pile of metal coins, gold, paper or numbers on a screen but became used to seeing power, control, the ability to buy virtually anything that’s salable in the market that we have also constructed and allowed as a form of economic growth and progress.

 

I commit myself to live the realization that we can instead create an economic system that rewards this innate desire and need to be supported and most importantly, cared for/ secured by having money which is one of the starting points of wealth accumulation. And in this, we can instead maintain a constant and continuous flow of giving and receiving instead of owning and amassing wealth, which obviously must be understood as a point that stems from fear and as such must be walked by the individual in order to realize how we function as an organism where money should be a giving and receiving in constant motion, just like blood throughout our veins that is carrying the oxygen that we take in and out in a permanent motion as our natural physical functions, this is the key to see  accumulation as stagnation and as such, as a potential disease bearer.

 

I commit myself to redefine wealth in function of one’s ability to coexist as a generous contributor to a system that will ensure everyone is equally supported. This is the definition of a real abundance as wealth when it is equally distributed through giving an receiving our work force, our intellect, our skills and abilities to contribute to maintain a sustainable system that supports a new understanding of our lives in a symbiotic interdependence, which is what causes a proper homeostasis/ equilibrium within our organism that is our society and biosphere as a whole.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed any idea of people deserving less or more money than others, wherein I equated wealth to a form of retribution for the person’s achievements, never pondering first if everyone had an equal opportunity to develop skills, have proper education to then get to a point of achievement, which is what we usually take for granted and as such, have accepted poverty as a disease that one is born with, never really pondering how it is stemming from our very own accepted and allowed disparity wherein we completely forgotten about and denied support to those that have no money to live at all.

 

I realize that in our current corporate capitalist system, only people that are of benefit for the same system are rewarded to keep maintaining it, and that everyone that is perceived as being ‘out of the loop’ is completely ostracized. Therefore, it is our responsibility to extend support to those that have non at the moment, in order to being empowering every individual to have equal opportunities wherein the accumulation of wealth can be re-distributed to provide the necessary money to give this type of immediate support, to generate the necessary infrastructure, education, access o necessary means to live in order to generate an equal well being for every individual in this world.

 

I commit myself to realize that the agreement that we currently apply with regards to money is not sustainable , and to realize that property in itself and capital in itself does not represent an objective look at reality, but it is a fictional amassing of ‘power’ as defined b the same agreement that we have to self-forgive, redefine and correct in our reality, this is within the realization that we are the only ones that have trapped ourselves in our own  fiction/story and justification of what money is, how it works, and what it is used for.

 

This is the way wherein we can all agree to eradicate the diseases/ mind dysfunctions that we’ve used to abuse each other such as greed, the deliberate creation of scarcity, inflation, the commodization of that which should be a human right to have access to, the sacrifice of  the future for the sake of sustaining a temporary ‘well being’ that is not sustainable and most importantly, the eradication of self-interest as financial interest and reverted toward a common-interest as a common-well being for all.

 

Wealth in an Equal Money Capitalistic System implies the  giving and receiving of money as a means to distribute to every part in equality what is required to live, within the understanding that our social status won’t be defined by the accumulation of money or property, but rather as an actual cyclicity of generosity and consideration of everyone’s well being, a real care for one another, this means that wealth will be measured by the ability to give and receive in Equality.

This is the way to construct a world system that encourages mutual consideration, appreciation, Neighborism, caring,  sharing, social reciprocity,  understanding, bond-creating responsibility which implies the realization that all beings deserve to benefit in an equal basis.

 

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Day 10: Money and Politeness

 

As I walked the point of politeness as a positive experience within me and now that I am realizing to what extent everything that we have done/lived by has been linked to Money and the functioning of money in this world, I’ve seen how I’ve lived as a ‘polite person’ without identifying the actual positive ‘kick’ I would get out of it, yet this ‘attribute’ was linked to an inherent desire to be part of the ‘polite people in the world’ which, if reading back in my previous entry – were ‘well educated people’ that were mostly rich/ having more than enough money to live ‘well.’

 

This ties in with my choice of careers as well wherein my inclinations toward the world of ‘arts and culture’ lead me to believe that I had a more ‘refined’ taste than other members in my family who would not be any type of art enthusiasts or well-cultured in the usual ‘intellectual ways’ that I would deem people to be in such ‘social circles.’ So, when I began realizing that only a certain type of people was into art/ music and how they mostly were people with a certain education/ background that lead them to have such ‘refined’ tastes and views on life, I realized that I had to equate that, that I had to become part of such circles in order to achieve my desires/ dreams that I had formulated back then, which were pretty much linked to having enough money to travel around the world and the usual stuff that we dream of as young kids growing up into the ‘adult world.’

 

So these ‘refined manners’ were acquired from interacting with people outside of my family. I recall admiring people that were ‘well cultured’ and would express themselves with such a vocabulary that denoted they had read tons of books throughout their life. I would enjoy going to my aunt’s house for that reason, it was filled with books and we could go to museums and do stuff that I never did with my parents. The same when enjoying talking to their friends and also when being with parents of my friends and partner, they were all ‘well-cultured’ people, even teachers in literature and history and linguistics, which made me want to become part of that circle of people that would have dinners with wine while telling intellectual jokes and having some delicious Italian salad while eating nuts. If you have seen the movie ‘the hours’ I wanted to be like the character played by Meryl Streep, and somehow I would picture myself feeling equally empty even if I had achieved such ‘status’ in my world. But anyways, it was that ‘realm’ wherein I envisioned myself as being fulfilled.

 

What was the way to go there? Becoming equal and one to how I would see these people would behave, talk and experience themselves. So, I enjoyed reading from an early age and linked this to being/ becoming a cultured person, even if I read mostly fiction novels for most of the time.

There was also a time when I was a lot younger around 9 years old when I would attend these luxurious dinners with my parents wherein I got to experience what ‘being in society’ was, and how I was simply acting like a full grown up at that age. I would observe how everyone behaved and even though I knew the whole thing was a façade and really fake, I would play along trying to be charismatic to be equally liked/ accepted the same way that my sisters were. I guess that having a taste of what it means to have a ‘good life’ left a mark on me, even if at the time we were under extreme financial strain, all of those trips and luxury was paid for according to a certain position my father took for a while in a national organization. It was such an awkward experience because we did not have much money then, but we were in these pompous dinners and staying in master suites, literally stealing the room from rockstars staying in the same hotel. I guess that’s the most ‘taste’ I’ve had of what it is to have such luxury and comfort, as well as people praising you all of a sudden by association. Man, it is really something that ‘traps’ you for a while.

 

I guess that if I had not had such experiences, I would have not been aiming for such positions in a not so conscious way – or I didn’t want to fully acknowledge because of not wanting to be deemed as greedy. It’s cool to expose this as there is obviously so much that I held as an imprint on these trips wherein ‘the good life’ was suddenly my reality for a moment. That’s where I got the association of ‘polite’ as in being a ‘politician,’ because that’s how I identified the way that people at such conventions would act like/ interact with each other: in a polite, refined and ‘safe’ manner which is not being too ‘open’ yet not ‘too quiet’ as if there was a problem with you. I learned how having a constant smile made you being liked – I could not fathom why people would always say the same things to you ‘oh how pretty are you!’ It was a bit traumatic having to go through such disparity at such a young age, really. When coming back home after such events and trips – which were only two or three only during two years – it was like getting off of some really nice dream where you could ‘have it all’ and forget about all the actual financial troubles that my father was going through at the time, which I have shared and how it would also preoccupy me extensively as in fearing losing the house and everything.

 

So, to sum up, politeness was for me a way to establish and place myself on the track to become someone of ‘importance’ and in a certain ‘circle in society’ that I wanted to be part of, which was mostly the ‘intellectual circles’ wherein I could have enough vocabulary and presence to mingle with such people. That’s how both my career choices were linked to such cultural world, even after knowing that making a lot of money out of it would not be as easy – as I had initially thought. I got to admire mostly people that had written books already and that I knew I could ‘learn from’ in my attempt to become equal to them. And this all entailed having a secured-financial ‘freedoom’ while doing ‘what I like,’ which was either writing or creating art. I knew how being polite would lead you to get preferential treatment as well, and I sought that, creating a certain aura of power/ control and importance wherein I made sure people would ‘pay attention to me’ – yes.

 

Later on I went into the controlled opposite, but that’s another story wherein further suppressions were linked mostly in relation to judgments toward money – as I have briefly explained above. What I have walked here were dreams and desires that I had kept and was preparing myself for when I was in my early teens; I even thought of becoming a financial advisor just because of knowing how much money they would make, and all of those decisions were only based on desiring having a preferential position in the system wherein I could have enough money to travel around the world, as that’s what I really wanted to do or my ‘idea’ of what happiness in this world is about.

 

Now I have realized within the 23rd Interview by Anu how such elaborated words are definitely only for the ego of the intellectuals and it’s absolutely true – I mean, I created myself as that for the sake of belonging and making myself a space in such circles that I later on absolutely abhorred and almost completely ostracized myself from – going from admiring rich people and the power they had to opposing them and even blaming ‘them’ for the current status of the world, that’s been my life with money which I had not exposed to such extent from this money-perspective before. However I see how it is definitely the ‘missed factor’ that I probably withheld from sharing because of not wanting to be seen as greedy or superfluous/ self-interest driven person while acknowledging that we all are, and we all sought our ways into the system in one way or another. Everyone would enjoy having such financial comfort and power – even myself that later on tried to deny it can only recognize that I did, and ‘my dreams’ were based upon getting to a certain ‘state’ wherein I could write or do some works while having all time left to explore the world.

 

Well, it’s easy to dream and part of this entire process is to take all the points here back to Earth wherein I land myself on the ground to then see how a single seemingly ‘normal’ expression like being polite is in fact having all of this – and probably a lot more – behind it as a conditional input for me to express such ‘politeness’ as ‘who I am,’ which is linked to how I had defined myself according to the ‘social stratus’ that I wanted to be a part of within this world system.

 

I still have a lot of ‘points’ to sort out in relation to and toward money and my career and who I want to be and what must be one, mostly because of – as I mentioned before – going to the opposite polarity of judging rich people, judging the ‘power’ that some beings had to manipulate others because of money, judging the attitudes rich people would present while neglecting the fact that I had sought to be ‘just that’ as well. All of this while deliberately shoving off the reality that I knew and was well aware was going on in this world.

During this time, I managed to make of poverty and misery something that was just a constant part of my ‘landscape’ yet continuing to seek my personal fulfillment. I could have long talks with my then contemporaries that were sociologists and economists, literature people and talk about social policies and the government and whatnot, but we never ever had an actual definitive realization on how We were absolutely responsible for it. That would be yet another part of my ‘socialization’ wherein sitting in cafés talking for long hours would lead us anywhere, yet believing that we were ‘changing the world’ with our bright intellectual ideas and reunions. Lol

 

So – time for self forgiveness and self-corrective application to disengage from this politeness that I have separated myself from according to all of these memories that I’ve held within myself for the purpose of someday, being able to correlate/ cross-reference if I had ‘made it’ within this world system according to the expectations that I placed onto myself.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to make of myself a ‘polite person’ and allowing it to create an inherently positive experience wherein I became part of the ones that are looking forward to become part of a certain elite in this world, which in my case was the ‘intellectual/ well cultured’ people that can certainly only exist in a particular social stratus where money is affluent and where money is not a concern. Therefore, by me acting and playing out being the ‘polite person,’ I was in essence training myself to be part of the ‘polite world’ which I had linked to higher-social stratus of well educated/ well cultured people/ rich people/ intellectuals, because that’s what I wanted to be and ‘where I wanted to belong to.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to then create an inherent desire to be and become someone ‘superior’ within the social standards which is why I fed myself so much with knowledge and information as I had given value/ worth to knowledge and information as my ‘talents’ when realizing that I could make a living out of it and still get to an elevated social stratus wherein I could be financially stable and have more than that in order to have a life of luxury and traveling as the dreams that I had created in my mind while neglecting this reality in its entirety.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear losing all the relationships at an intellectual level with writers, sociologists, historians, linguists, and any other person that I deemed as ‘intellectual/ superior’ when I decided to step aside from that world and going into a more ‘noble’ and ‘meek’ path of not wanting to be part of the ‘high spheres in society,’ which came after a particular event that changed my view/ perspective about money and recognition and made a decision that ‘I didn’t want that for my life.’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to want to be part of the ‘intellectual people’ as that’s what I gave myself value as, knowledge and information, accumulating data that I could later on speak about and be regarded as ‘important.’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to play out being the ‘polite person’ among people that I wanted to ‘keep’ as relationships because of already being scheming me being part of such social-circles that I sought to be a part of, mostly because of regarding that I could make a load of money with it while doing something that I regarded as ‘humane’ as possible – which is culture/ words/ arts/ music, etc.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to increment my desire to know and prepare myself within specific careers simply out of the desire to accumulate as much knowledge as possible that I could ‘sell’ as my profession and earn good money out of it. In this I forgive myself that I had denied the fact that my life, my attitude, my politeness had been having money and the desire for money as an obvious drive in the background, while me denying so because in such realms, people seemed to be “humble” about their careers and knowledge – yet having a very affluent type of living, which I also desired to be like/ experience myself as: having money yet not being a ‘show off’ about it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link a proficient vocabulary to being a ‘well cultured person/ well educated/ refined/ well mannered/ polite’ which I have immediately identified as something ‘valuable’ within a person, which is identifying knowledge and information as ‘valuable’ on top of the one and only value that exists which is life and Life cannot ever be knowledge.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself for having ever criticized/ judged people on how they would place value in their possessions without realizing that I was doing the same toward myself as my own mind in the form of knowledge and information and creating a value toward myself according to it, separating myself absolutely from the one and only reality that is here as myself as my physical body, as life, the life that I absolutely neglected in such times simply because being too busy building myself and preparing/ scheming my way to climb ‘the ladder of success.’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to blind myself with believing that my parents were unconditionally supporting my decision in life, without realizing that they were ‘happy’ about it because I was aiming to be a ‘rich’ person or having more than enough money and that my aspirations and actions were leading to becoming this ‘important person in society,’ which is why they started reacting when I stopped creating/ forming relationships in society and retreated, because this was linked to me losing all contact with such ‘intellectual people’ and losing the opportunity to be ‘a part of them.’ Now I realize that it was linked to money, to securing my ‘place in the world’ that I also deemed to prefer above any other professions or activities in the world. I was ready to praise myself as knowledge and information only, which I now see is the absolute manifestation of self-interest because I never considered ‘life’ in that, at all.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create and build myself within a particular personality wherein I made sure that people would ‘pay attention to me and give me a position of ‘importance’ even at face value, which was linked to my ‘scheming’ of positioning myself within a certain area in society that I could live ‘well’ of and still fulfill my desires to be someone ‘important’ in my world.

 

I commit myself to stand in a position in this world wherein I can truly make use of these attributes in a way that is best for all, because I see and realize that if I had personal interest as a driving force to be ‘preparing’ for such world, I could do the same now with having the starting point the absolute drive to support myself and all beings equally within a position within the world system wherein I no longer ‘fear’ it/ oppose it as some type of rebellion and antagonism stemming from criticism toward money/ power in this world. I realize that being in a position of power in this world cannot possibly exist within me unless I stand as one and equal to all – which means that whatever I have to do within this world system, I realize that I am perfectly able to do so, with having the starting point of doing/ living/ acting and creating myself as someone that can stand within the system to establish a system that is best for all life.

 

I commit myself to use these acquired ‘attributes’ and experiences as a point of reference to see and realize how I am capable of standing in a position that I had deemed as ‘superior’ yet now having a principle to actually stand for, which is life in equality and oneness – and not just following ‘dreams’ of fame, glory and success that I formulated in my mind which I knew would lead me to feel equally empty, because I obviously was not considering the whole in that equation.

 

I realize that the only true-fulfillment that I can create for myself is stemming from the standing and consideration of an overall well-being for humanity, that is my ‘true passion’ and as I got to know from some feedback at the farm ‘I’ve found my purpose in life,’ and the proof of this is that I had not been as consistent toward any particular ‘movement’ or ‘phase’ in my life as I have now within this process, because it is not just ‘another phase’ in my life of seeking my way into the system, it is The Phase and only phase wherein I dare to face myself and take self responsibility for my creation. And I realize that this entails actual work, actual self-commitment that strengthens every day the more I see, I realize and understand the extent to which we have enslaved ourselves to the absolute separation that stops here as myself.

 

Thus, I commit myself to stop any personal interest that stood only in the name of personal glory and success and instead use what is here as myself as a means to establish what is best for all in this world, which I hereby commit myself to walk into its completion as I know that I won’t ever be actually ‘fulfilled’ until this entire world is equalized as myself as who I really am, and for that there is Actual work to do and a long road to walk.

 

 

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An Interview on how when you really have it ALL and you then see yourself in the absolute opposite, your life changes, ‘who you are’ is gone. It is proof of how much we can also disregard within the experience of those in ‘power’ and apparent ‘control’ of their lives – a very cool interview that supported me to open up these points with more ease, to not judge what I have lived and become, but to see it for what it is: unacceptable forms of separation we’ve created in this world:

Life Review – When you Lose your Money – you Lose your Friends

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Day 9: Politeness

I’ve been having in the back of my head how I developed the survival system of behaving politely/ in a socially acceptable manner since I was a little child. This is mostly to how I was raised by my parents and other socioeconomical factors that have created definitive ‘marks’ on who I am as my behavior.

 

The image that comes to my mind is a picture that I saw once in my photo album from my first years alive and I am placing a napkin hanging from the collar of my t-shirt with a rather righteous/haughty/ fancy look and my mother is next to me looking at the camera. Another one is a picture of me with a paper-made crown sitting on a sofa, like a ‘throne’ for a queen when I was just 2 and a half years old; there’s another one of me sinking my hands in a bucket of water while my then nanny is crouching down and looking at me, probably warning me about getting all wet and that I should not sink all my arms into the bucket of water that was probably as tall as my waist line. My father’s car is in the background which means I wanted to clean it just the way he does, I was only 3 years old then. There’s also pictures of me having these huge headphones and sitting next to a tape recorder while having my mouth open, which means I was singing. Well, all those points developed into defined personalities such as being always holding a napkin on my hand while eating as a symbol of ‘proper manners’ and eating behavior, being a cleanliness freak, being a ‘music lover’ and being a self-righteous ego on two feet within a sense of having some domain or specialness in me. And I was only 2 to 3 years old in all of those photos.

 

So this point came up as something to write about when listening to some interviews today in relation to observing behavior, which is one dimension that I have not fully delved into looking myself as behavior linked to the personalities that I developed throughout the years. I tested out a word to write about today and ‘manners’ came up which is then how this whole point opened up.

 

Being polite is one of the main ‘characteristics’ and behavior that I play out when being with people and ‘in public,’ and the image of my father playing to be a polite soldier comes up, actually my mother would call me something like little tin soldier when I was a little girl, which probably explains a lot as well. Okay but not to deviate from the point. My father would always let us know to ‘be still!’ and basically both my parents educated us in such a way that we would act like little grown up people.

 

This politeness got imprinted ‘heavily’ later on from when I was 6-7 years when socializing with my parents friends whom I perceived as ‘more than’ because of essentially having quite a lot of money and having these huge houses and living in cool residential areas that I would enjoy going to play to. In that, I would perceive such world as everyone being ‘polite’ – which is how I’ve linked it to being ‘political’ in the character/way of being that politicians act like, which is basically focusing on presenting a particular façade to play safe all the time when being in public.

 

‘Keeping a good image’ was something also induced by my mother, hers was mostly in the ‘expressive’ aspect of watching my mouth and not being ‘impertinent’ when speaking to people –my father focused on the physical behavior, like telling us to sit properly and crouching down to always pull up my socks and ensuring my shoes are clean. I’m laughing because of how much I simply accepted that as ‘normal’ and that’s why I had such a hard time interacting with other kids because they didn’t give a fuck about manners and being polite or getting their clothes dirty – so I developed a judgmental experience toward anyone that ‘would not be polite’ = being a regular human being, really.

 

Till this day I’ve caught myself going into a reaction the moment that I perceive that someone is Not being polite as in ‘taking advantage of a position’ – like someone wanting to win a place in the queue for something – or getting one step ahead of me to have a better place while waiting for the train, seemingly ‘unnoticeable events’ wherein I have automated responses of criticizing and judging people because of them not being polite.

 

The points that I’ll be walking and opening up are aspects of myself that I had not opened up for having them as ingrained belief systems that I deemed as ‘positive’ and in that, thinking that I should not bother to look at them, without realizing that there is actually a great part of myself ‘hidden’ behind these seemingly cool attributes that I’ve lived so far. As long as there is an entire indoctrination system behind it, I must investigate it, which means that no matter how ‘cool’ I perceive a point that I’m living to be, I must investigate it to make sure that whatever I am building/ creating and establishing myself here as, is based on actual self-understanding of How I got to be ‘who I am’ at the moment – in such case, how ‘manners’ exist as a belief system charged with a positive experience wherein the ‘negative’ is created the moment that I, through my politeness-filter of reality, judge and criticize everyone that I believe are Not polite and within that Not ‘humanly’ enough to interact with.

 

This means that I’ve created of my ‘politeness’ an elitist system wherein I believe that a well-educated being will have certain attributes that make them consider others before them, a way of perpetual altruism that often evokes a ‘good feeling’ out of it, which means it is an energetic-based personality and not an unconditional expression of self, as a sense of neighborism that is acquired within the basic principle and understanding of What’s Best for All as Equals.

 

I’ll be continuing opening up different aspects and dimensions of this ‘manner’ point as the behaviors ingrained with personalities throughout different stages of my life, which I had not opened up in fear of them being almost ‘self-glorifying’ yet suppressed and still existent within me, which means that every time I suppress it, I am recreating it and accepting it as ‘part of myself/ who I am’ without even noticing it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as ‘politeness’ as a behavioral pattern that I had deemed to be ‘positive’ and ‘good’ for myself within the belief that being polite is an attribute that all people should live by, as that would make our coexistence ‘easier’ in this world, without considering that it is actually only an experience that I have created based on survival as the improved acceptance that a polite person gets within society and certain socieconomical stratus wherein money dictates the education that a person has, and in that, the behavioral patterns that denote a person’s ‘quality of living’ and parental values at home.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give continuation to a behavioral pattern such as ‘having good manners’ from the starting point of revealing/ showing that ‘I am well educated’ and in that, creating an ideal of who I am as ‘my education’ as ‘my family’ and ‘values’ that I have given to a certain behavior wherein I then judge/ criticize anyone that cannot fit into a category of being well-educated/ polite, without realizing how this is a belief system that I have adopted and continued in the name of representing ‘who I am’ as a configuration based on how my parents wanted us to ‘be’ within the social context wherein high-education, manners and ‘values’ are highly regarded, which would ensure our survival and positioning in the world system within a high-stratus in society.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a person with ‘good manners’ is well educate as a synonym of being ‘a good neighbor’/ good person which implies that I have created my own elitist value schemes toward people according to how I see them through my politeness-filter personality, which implies that I will only ‘mingle’ with those that I perceive as educated, well mannered and polite according to how I was taught I should be/ behave as a little child at home.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a superiority experience within me whenever I see myself being ‘polite’ toward people and getting an ‘instant-gratification’ reward such as being thanked for doing something for another which is then implying that my ‘politeness’ is not an unconditional common sensical expression of and as self, but still an energetic personality that I try to keep up to, without realizing that in this, anything that steps out of my ‘politeness schemes’ I judge and criticize as lower/ inept/ rascal/ savage, without realizing that this is how I have had such an immediate judgmental behavior toward people while interacting in reality, due to how I have been conditioned to believe that polite people are ‘worthy’ and the opposite are ‘unworthy,’ in this

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize how politeness/ well mannered people is linked within my belief system to having enough money and in a certain social position that I have been taught is ‘more valuable’ than someone that is uneducated/impolite/ rascal/ savage according to the judgments that I learned as the way to denote someone that would probably not have enough money to be ‘well educated’ and in that, accepting the point of discriminating people according to the amount of money they would have, while absolutely neglecting and not even considering why on Earth such polarities even exist.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for having regarded my parent’s imprinting onto myself as ‘good manners’ as something that I had to be grateful for, without realizing the actual belief system as elitism that I accepted and allowed to exist within me when linking good manners to ‘affluent people’ and bad manners/ impolite people to ‘lower class/ moneyless people’ and in that, creating a positive experience toward ‘fellow polite people’ and a negative experience toward ‘impolite people,’ as well as a neutral experience to people that I would perceive as expression-less within not being decidedly polite or impolite, which would be then linked to undefined within my schemes of human categorization according to education and money.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a sense of comfort and openness as an experience created upon interacting with someone that I perceive and profile as being ‘well educated/ polite’ within the identification of that which I was taught I should be like and aspire to become, which I accepted as a valuable aspect within human beings which lead me to create a positive experience within myself whenever I behave in a ‘polite manner,’ while creating the exact opposite as a negative experience as the immediate profiling of people that I perceive to be savage/ uneducated/ impolite, which I have accepted to discriminate/ judge in my mind while believing that I didn’t want anything to do with such people, creating the ultimate elitist experience based on manners.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that ‘How I behave’ is who I really am.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still perpetuate the ‘ingrained values’ that I acquired at home, that I have kept due to them being seemingly ‘positive attributes’ within my personality, without realizing that it is in these ‘values’ that I have perpetuated the existence of good/ bad, positive and negative as well as neutral experiences toward people according to How I deem them to be within my polite/ impolite schemes, as the manners they present on face value when interacting with people in any given moment.

 

When and as I see myself categorizing someone as polite and creating a positive experience within me toward them, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am accessing my politeness-filter wherein I am valuing and regarding the people as ‘good’ and ‘benevolent’ based on the attitudes and manners that they present. Therefore I realize that I must treat every person equally regardless of how they ‘present’ themselves, as I realize that such manners are a survival-masquerade to remain as ‘worthy’/ ‘valuable’ within a system where money decides who is ‘worthy’ and who is not and seeing good manners as the direct consequences of having money to be well educated, in this creating a positive experience toward people with money.

 

When and as I see myself judging a person as being ‘impolite’/ presenting bad behavior such as ‘bad manners’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am accessing the politeness-personality wherein I am then adjusting my experience to be negative and derogatory toward such being for being seemingly ‘uneducated’ and a ‘rascal’ without considering at all that I am creating such separation based on the link that I’ve created in my mind as ‘bad manners = poor education’ as a symbol to represent lack of money/ being poor, which I have created and associated a negative experience toward.

 

I realize that with me stopping the polite/ impolite judgments toward myself and others, I stop perpetuating the current money system wherein rich/ wealthy creates a positive experience while poverty/ lack of money represents and creates a negative experience, as well as the non-expressive people that I have judged as ‘mediocre’ which are all values I have separated myself from in relation to the same values we have separated ourselves from life through/ as money.

More to come…

 

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