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I  forgive myself that i have accepted and alowed myself to like/adore/consider me a fan of music
i forgive myself that ihave accepted and allowed myself to define my life according to the music i listen to
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ever think/believe/perceive that i could only relate to people that had the same/similar musical taste as me.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to like men for their musical tastes
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define me as similar to other people just because of their musical taste/preferences
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to declare that music saved my life
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to praise music and consider music as something separate from me.
I am one and equal to music, I am music
I forgive myself that i ever accepted and allowed myself to numb myself watching music videos for extensive amount of hours everyday for several years since i was seven years old of age
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire playing guitar to be like a rock star
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to consider/deem rockstars as cool people
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take shirley manson as a role model in my life
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to establish my relationships based on similar tastes for music
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself that i can only trust someone for their musical taste
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create myself a bubble of me taking music as a drug
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be/feel seduced by music
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to learn innumerable song lyrics
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to still get “feelings” whenever i hear certain songs
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deem music as something beyond me
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to always consider me as a fan of music
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to idolize music artists and considering them as “unreachable”
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be obsessed with john frusciante
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to consider myself as being “in love” with john frusciante
i forgive myself that ihave accepted and allowed myself to declare that i would be happy if i could be with john frusicante
Gee!! haha i sense stupidity now in myself, but this is real
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my self forgiveness on john frusciante as stupidity as not needed/ too far.
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed mysefl to feel compassion for john frusciante while he was on drugs
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire being fulfilled with music my whole life
i forgive myself tha ti have accepted and allowed myself to declare that i may leave all drugs and sex and whatnot but i can’t give up on music
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to compare music to sex, drugs or anything else
i am one and equal to sex, i am one and equal to drugs, i am one and equal to music and any other perceived entertainment for my mind.
I forgive myself that i haven’t accepted and allowed myself that music is an experience of senses therefor, musis is for mind
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be shaped/molded by my perceived idea of what rockstars and artists are like
i forgive myself tha ti have accepted and allowed myself to believe this is what I have become on my own
i forgive myself that i haven’t accepted and allowed myself to accept the fact that much of my personality comes from the perceived “outgoing and free” expression of music artists
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to place hope in someday being part of the music world
i forgive myself tha ti have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe/perceive there’s a music world
i forgive myself tha ti haven’t accepted and allowed myself to embrace music as me, to embrace all music artists as one and equal with who i really am
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to consider/deem music artists as something superior than me
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior to music artists considering them too talented for me to achieve that
i forgive myself tha ti have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to music artists
i forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider musica artists as role models in my life
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to embrace certain aspects of shirley manson’s personality as my own. I am one and equal to shirley manson (LOL)
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to learn from music artists
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed msyelf to keep track for several years of each and everysingle music video i watched
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be an mtv addict from 1994 till 2002
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to declare that i was raised by mtv
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from music artists, therefore considering that i “copied” their ways or being, their attitudes, etc
i forgive myself tha ti have accepted and allowed myself to have idols as music artists
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to place myself in that worshipping situation of idolizing other people
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel “moved” by certain music
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel mesmerized by music
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe i have a deeply ingrained music system within and as me
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to place hope in music as being my third possible option for a living
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deem i am not “good enough” at making music
i forgive myself tha ti haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that talent is a perceived judgement by the mind
i forgive myself tha ti have accepted and allowe dmysel fto judge/deem music as being good or bad according to my formed opinions
i forgive myeself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i didn’t need to apply self forgiveness in music
i frogive myself that i have accepted and allowe dmyself to have “formed opinions” regarding music
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowedmyself to separate myself from people just because i don’t fit into their musical taste
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge people for their musical tastes
i forgive myself tha ti have accepted and allowed myself to condition my “friendship” with someone just because of their musical taste in the past
i forgive myself tha ti have accepted and allowed myself to still hold on to past likes/preferences on music
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowe dmyself to deem/perceive that i know lots about music
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ever desire working for music industry
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ever desire being a music article writter for music magazine
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ever desire working in spin magazine in the past
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ever desire being part of a music band
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ever desire going to live to new york to work in a music magazine
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowe dmyself to desire going to live in Canada
i forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge musicians as lucky people
i forgive myself that i haven’t accepted and allowed myself to accept the fact that I am musicians as well
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel envy for musicians lifestyle
i forgive myself tha ti haven’t accepted and allowed myself to exists within and as freedom i perceive from musicians
i forgive myself that i haven’t accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as self expression as i consider musicians to be
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to still feel deeply attached to music
i forgive myself that i haven’t accepted and allowe dmyself to realize that there’s no attachment because i am all, i need no relationship to music, I am music.
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowe dmysel to categorize people for their musical tastes
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowe dmysel to perceive that i could tell what a people is like just by knowing their musical taste
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself for not having embraced all kinds of music of this world yet as me
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from some types/kinds/genres of music deeming them as “not of my kind”
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to discriminate certain musical expressions
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowe dmyself to declare that music could only get me to a certain feeling/experience that nothing else would be able to give me
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become sadenned/frustrated by knowing that music is a system manifestation as well
i forgive myself that i accepted and allowed myself to take music as a tranquilizer
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to listen to music as a way of numbing myself
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take music as a drug along with weed
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to link the idea A immediately to music
i forgive myself that i havea ccepted and allowe dmyself to link the idea of G immediately to music
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to consider that all main relationships in my life were first founded on music
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe/perceive i got the desire for playing music downloaded from my father’s system
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my father’s musical expression
i forgive myself that i haven’t accepted and allowed myself to take music as natural self expression yet
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from people regarding that i am not “made” to be a musician, or that i don’t have musician wood
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to sitll desire being a “talented musician”
i forgive myself tha ti have accepted and allowed myself to desire my music to be heard or recognized for the oddity within it
i forgive myself tha ti have accepted and allowed myself to ever declare i was meant to be with a musician
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowe dmyself to ever declare i am always attracted to musicians
i forgive myself tha ti ahve accepted and allowed myself to declare that i have a weakness for artists
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to consider myself as an artists
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to tag everything in my world in order to fit into categories
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to experience music as something separate from me
I am one and equal to artists
i am one and equal to musicians
i am music
i am art
i am all that exists in this world including musical expression and self expression through art i facts
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to place a desire within me to fullfill my expression through musical instruments
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to now fear being part of any other expression i fear of it being all done by the mind
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowe dmyself to fear my mind : i am one and equal to my mind. I am my mind and i am stopping it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowe dmyself to feel/believe and perceive that I “feel like” listening to a certain specific artist or kind of music at times
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire that bob marley could get into the portal and tell everyone to stop smoking weed
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deem bob marley as being coward for not facing himself through the portal to give a message to his legions of fans around the world
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowe dmyself to judge musicians that get rich and forget about music
i forgive myself that i ever accepted and allowe dmyself to link music to money wealth
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowe dmyself to believe that i could die happily after seeing/watching live certain bands in this world
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to risk my health and life just to be and experience myself fully in a music concert
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowe dmyself to deem music concerts as my club parties
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the artists performing on stage, considering them as bein superior/beyond my reach
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowe dmyself to judge certain artists as being to egotistic
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think believe or perceive that i could never aspire getting that “high”
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to copy and get much of my perceive personality from female music artists in this world
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to admire the guts and determination and braveness of some women within and as the music sphere of this world
i forgiv emyself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there could be a woman musical revolution
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to delve into feminism through music
i forgiv emysel that i haven’t accepted and allowed myself to embrace both expressions, male and female, as one and equal to all in this world, one and equal as who I am  with all that exists
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself learning from those female artists
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe in emotions feelings thoughts and quotes in song lyrics from many artists
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take certain people’s thoughts and ideas and quotes as my own accepted and allowed truth
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel/believe and perceive that i was done to experience music in this world
i forgive myself tha ti have accepted and allowe dmyself to consdier that music would be my all time dream job
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deem that music could be a business for myself
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to place myself into a hypotethical situation of me bieng part of the music sphere of this world
I am no separate from music in this world, i am no different to musiscians, artists, poets, writters of this world
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ever believe/perceive that music is the purest exrpession
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to place music in a “special” place within and as my being
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowe dmyself to believe/perceive/think that I could make a good music performer
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ever dream of becoming a musician recognized by the whole world enableing me to travel around the world and spread the message to people
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to place certain hope in music to create a change in this world. There’s no change for this world, only stopping it.
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think believe or perceive that by me stopping listening to music i am leaving a faithful friend
i forgive myself hta ti havea ccepted and allowed myself to think/believe/perceive that everyone in this world may come and go, leave, but music would always stay with me
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to place someone as bieng more special for being able to create music
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe and perceive that people that are into art world are more openminded and self expressive than others that don’t
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think believe perceive that art is a way out of this world
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to get into art just because i wanted to fuck the system
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deem/perceive/think that by  me creating art i am being more special than any other human beings that never create something.
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe and perceive that art and music are elevated human activities
i forgive myself tha ti have accepted and allowed myself to reject all other spheres of life as less important to those ones that focus on self expression such as music, art and literature
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel/perceive myself as being similar to artists/musicians/writters/philosophers than any other kind of  people in this world
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that there are different kinds of people in this world
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create separation in my mind towards human activities defining what a human being is. I am not my profession, i am not my designed activity. I am all as one and equal as life

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