I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into an energetic reaction as anger and frustration when seeing someone is not effectively supporting themselves which I only allow myself to become part of as a point of enhancing that frustration with self instead of remaining here as Breath supporting myself to not play-out the same point that I have initially reacted to
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lose patience within myself when dealing with directing someone towards an effective self-application.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to exist as patience as that point wherein I direct without going into an emotional reaction.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exert my reaction on to someone else in my reality while being ‘angry ‘ at someone for losing their keys therefore having to be opening the door to her just because ‘she can’t find her keys’
My back-chat goes like ‘she sees it all so light as if it didn’t matter to find her keys’ ‘what is she thinking, that she’s got her butler to open the door for her?’ ‘Why don’t you go and look for them instead of being bothering me to go and open the door for you’
And so it is this point wherein I judge someone based on how I perceive them to be ‘careless’ and not really being up to take self responsibility which in the end makes them depend on someone else to open the door for them for example – as well as other points.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge this person as being fucking careless and not taking self responsibility.
I take self responsibility for myself to not react within anger to this and simply remain to the point that I am walking witch which in fact was already tainted by a previous experience of reacting to hearing someno else’s mind bullshit which we all have indeed.
I basically read the same shit from two people in the forum wherein self-pity, self-importance and self-experiencing self as ‘lost’ and asking ‘why’ not taking self responsibility was played out twice in spanish and english so, I eventually became that equal point of reaction so that’s not cool at all because it is them yet I got frustrated because of having had written the point out extensively for them to support themselves yet they do not seem to be ‘getting it’ – thus, the point is to re-consider the starting point of supporting because I can’t change them and no matter how well all of the material is explained, each person must see for themselves and if that’s not in place, then it is not about us but about them taking self responsibility.
I take self responsibility to stop the inner reactions as anger and frustration towards them which is actually only reacting towards me becoming frustrated because of not being effectively handling myself within directing others to not react in anger and to not react overall towards that which I read by others and as others’ experiences.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become possessed by anger as the accumulation of points wherein I allow myself to be disturbed by the thoughts of others, the experience of others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become frustrated towards others due to them not being able to effectively support themselves which is then still me reacting in anger to getting angry at people, angry at myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘lose my temper’ the moment that I am not assisting and supporting myself here as breath but going into the experience in my mind wherein then it becomes ‘too much to bare’ eventually going into anger and reactions of all kind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry at people today because they don’t seem to understand that they can stop! wherein I have to actually apply myself to simply STOP the reactions as anger within me which are easily triggered by my own thoughts when engaging in another’s experiences that is all equally self-created and thus completely unnecessary.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience my own ‘headache’ as the result of participating too much within my own thoughts as my own mind which I have indulged into an experience that culminates in frustration and anger in one moment.
I Stop as this is unnecessary bullshit to allow within me just by reading others, viewing what’s going on in this world and thus basically taking it personally eventually allowing it to affect me, here.
I breathe myself here, I do not allow myself to go into second thoughts about people within my mind, I direct myself here and do not allow points to compound to keep generating this irritability that I have become.
I mean man, it can even be the result of fucking hormones lol – we are so engaged with our chemical reactions – geez.
Okay breathe let go – Cool for writing being here at hand.
May 26th, 2012 at 6:40 am
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