I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that my trust has been betrayed in the system, that I have been tricked and deceived by ‘others’ that ‘abuse my power,’ without realizing that I was the first one that accepted and allowed to give my power of Equality away to live as a mind-system that would only equate everything that is here as Life as separate from myself, turning everything into a monetary value in separation of myself as Life.
I realize that the quality of the system being Treacherous is merely reflecting back to ourselves the Lie that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to build around life itself: a system of values/ worth that begins with words that define a fictional existence of ‘value’ in separation of myself as life, wherein all words entail a relationship that I create toward everything and everyone I see, which reveals the extent of the deception as only definitions/ limitations can exist in inequality.
I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to place ‘trust’ in a system of values where Life was clearly never considered as Equal and in that, believing that such system was created for the benefit and utmost care of each being on Earth, which is only a product of the propaganda and information that I have come to believe is Truth, just because of having learned that ‘those in power’ would be taking care of the best interest of the population, which is and has clearly been proven as the total opposite in fact.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to learn from a very young age to save money, to ponder money as something ‘important’ while creating an inner conflict as to who decided ‘what price’ to place to all things and why some things were cheaper than others? Without getting any straight answer which lead me to stop asking because ‘I asked too many questions’ and instead accepted and complied to simply get used to the idea of being able to buy things with paper and metal coins, which seemed absurd all the way when what is here is no one’s property but the Earth’s itself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in a system wherein lies are told from the get-go in the form of accepting a fictional value system such as money which implies that first ‘life lesson’ of separation toward children: you require money to buy what you want and in that accept money as truthful and real, believing that this ‘agreement’ of using money as a way to obtain things was best for all – never realizing that it was in that moment that I stopped asking questions about money and how the banks worked that I simply complied to game and ‘played along’ with becoming a ‘good saver’ and learning to value money over life.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that everything that was produced in the system was in the best interest of all, wherein I could not fathom that there could be products that were not fully tested to its ultimate consequences – or tested on animals – and could be sold/ or providing services where the health of the person would be taken care of with utmost specificity, only learning much later and to my anger and absolute awe that a lot of abuse was taking place in the name of money.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to only ‘swallow’ all of those reactions I would get whenever I heard an explanation on how the system works, wherein all the anger and frustration of feeling powerless to change how ‘things worked’ in the world became layers of frustration and anger toward the system that I later on sought to escape or retaliate in my very own selfish mode of criticizing the system and seeking to be ‘separate’ from capitalism, due to my ignorance and absolute unawareness of my own responsibility entailed within the creation of this system by my own acceptance and allowance.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be brainwashed to equate things to money, wherein that simple ‘logical’ equation lead me to accept the entire treacherous system as who I am, because I gave up the actual value of Life in Equality and started monetizing everything as numbers that varied according to ‘someone else’s laws and regulations’ that I stopped bothering to question, because of thinking that ‘people in power knew what they were doing’ due to the premise of learning how our government is supposed to take care of all the population and guard the implementation of the best policies for all, only much later realizing the extent of corruption that I got to be aware of within the political elites, which proved to me that I had been ‘deceived’ – yet it was my own deception, my entire acceptance and allowance for having assumed and taken for granted the system as something that would be designed in the best interest of all, not being aware of greed being a more powerful quality than that of ‘honesty’ and regard for Life.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself for having ignored how the ‘dissociation’ that I would experience in every moment that I would face ‘greed’ and taking advantage from certain positions in the system – linked to having more or less money – would stir this sense of ‘unfairness’ within me that I simply neglected because I saw that no one else was ‘caring’ to ask or know further about it, within this complying to how the rest would move/ be/ think and act wherein everyone seemed to be perfectly fine with how the system operated, thus I complied and ‘moved along’ because of assuming that things would be taken care of and done in the best interest of all.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the physicality of money as an actual value in itself, wherein I learned that without money = I could not get anything, and in that, becoming very cautious/ fearful about money/ losing money, being very careful with what I would buy and start living in limitation and contention in order to always have money as a form of security in my life, always equating having money in my wallet as being secure, being powerful and being ‘prepared’ for any eventuality or emergency, which is accepting living in absolute survival wherein the very presence of absence of paper and metal coins with me would make a difference in how I act, how I move myself in the world and my relationship to all and everything.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to accept some things being ‘more’ expensive/ worthy than others within such monetary values
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to accept the bullshit explanations as to why some fruits were more expensive than others, which is the moment wherein I started realizing that the price of things was not ‘in itself’ but contained a series or processes that were also related to money wherein all that I am buying and consuming is a chain-massacre of fake values imposed onto life wherein the only way to obtain it, is through getting money which is a forced way to participate in the system – because if you question it and have no money = you simply die. Thus,
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to comply to the existence of a treacherous system wherein I believed that I was being cared for and later on realizing I was not, blaming it on ‘the system’ without ever seeing and reflecting back to myself all the series of moments wherein I gave into accepting the system ‘as is’ with no further questions asked.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed the deception of the system because of wanting to be a ‘good citizen’ and ‘complying to the rules and regulations’ which was actually stemming from fear of being punished, being wrong/ being bad, which I took as ‘normal’ and within that accepting a system of survival based on fear of punishment and further isolation from the rest of society, which is what jails represent as the impartation of the law.
I commit myself to continue debunking the most ‘obvious’ yet primordial acceptances of value as money in separation of myself as life, and how that has shaped the ‘who I am’ as an individual that currently uses money as a way to ‘survive in the system’ while realizing that everything that is Here is of the Earth is and should be granted in Equality for All – yet, because of the amount of lies we have bought as ‘truth’ in relation to the world-system of money, I am now walking the consequences of delegating and even negating my common sense to trust in the system that I thought ‘knew’ what was ‘best for me.’
I commit myself to write to investigate where and how I have built my own value schemes in accordance to the primary premise of things not being ‘equally worthy’ in this world, wherein I then learned that to be ‘special’ I had to place some things/ people of ‘more worth’ than others, such as beginning with favoritism as a child.
I commit myself to reveal to what extent we have used the word ‘Trust’ as a way to blind ourselves to premises that only sound ‘logical’ to a mind trained in/ as Logic, wherein there is and has never been any common sense that could point out the most obvious points such as money being a fake-system, a belief-system that we use to empower some and deliberately abuse others to maintain a system based in inequality where ‘power’ can only exist as abuse of others through generating profit in a system that blatantly accepts it as a form of success.
I commit myself to establish the Equal Money System as this is the most obvious common sense we have ever missed in this reality and existence, and that we can only continue existing if we accept the fact that we have been living a LIE as the current world-system and that it will take self-honest and self-responsible beings to dare to correct the consequences of our gigantic mistake and deliberate spite toward life, in order to finally establish a world-order in and of Equality as Life.
I commit myself to continue debunking my own logical acceptances of the system, wherein logic stands as the basic ‘love for knowledge’ as truth, in a world-system where knowledge has become the weapon of choice to kill and abuse in the name of power over life.
Mundo Abajo/ World upside down (2003)
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