What is the quote that allowed me to understand Self Honesty?
“Self honesty is not nice or beautiful”- Bernard Poolman
And this was already over 4 years ago, wherein I realized that I was certainly Not going to be ‘in for a ride’ to make myself ‘feel good’ or ‘be better’ or ‘gain’ anything within this process that could be mistaken/labeled as ‘personal improvement’ or any other point like that to vaingloriously elevate ourselves above others in this hierarchical system in an elaborate mind-delusion of ‘betterment,’ No.
This process is actually going inside our own self-created hell for a ride and walking through it until we’re eventually done taking the ‘heat’ that we produce with our own friction as ‘the problem’ that we seem to have become so used to having as human beings: inner conflict, ‘mental instability,’ self esteem problems, social-dysfunctions, inability to create proper relationships, being pathological liars and cheaters, greedy… all existing in our minds as ‘our nature,’ that we try and hide all the time through creating/ keeping a ‘good face’ and ‘positive attitude’ toward the world/ others for our own benefit. This is how we can simply look within ourselves every single time that we’ve made ourselves believe that we are ‘good’ and ‘good hearted’ or even sometimes, climbing up a serious delirium about being ‘a savior’ of some kind –yes like the thousands of self-proclaimed Jesuses and Antichrists that play the same role when it comes to ‘saving humanity’ which is nothing else but another ‘Sign of the Times’ where we’re facing the actual reality of who we are as our own mind.
What does this mean?
That this process that we’re walking of Self Honesty implies getting to see the nitty-gritty-dirty and gruesome aspect of ourselves, and I am deliberately using these words because they are in fact the consequence that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become from the moment that we accepted ourselves to only be ‘our mind,’ and the mind standing as and only for its own survival. This is plain evident in on the daily news that we are sharing within the Capitalism vs. Equal Money Group in Facebook that I suggest you check out as well, which encompasses the outflows of this mind-possessed reality as our current world system that is certainly unsustainable and must be realized as such in order for us to in fact take responsibility for it, which is what the Equal Money System implies within this process as well.
Now, ‘selfishness’ is the word that comes to mind and in the dictionary as well, which pointed out Egomania, a topic I had briefly written about before and the definition of the dictionary I consulted read: “Extreme self interest” and that’s essentially what we have become. This world is our reflection as egomaniacs, because if we in fact cared about ‘the Whole’ as who we are, we would have already changed the current system that is built as the image and likeness of who and what we have become within the idea of ‘As long as I am alright, I don’t care about the rest’ – and this becoming the blueprint to promote even more exacerbated states of selfishness/ egomania motivating our every move, our every word, every thing we consume, think and act upon during the day is motivated by this desire to always ‘get the most of the cake.’
Hence walking in Self Honesty this process is actually daring to see the true-workings behind seemingly ‘benevolent’ tasks or ‘good deeds’ during the day, which maybe you as I , as human beings that accepted ‘the positive’ as this supposed noble-quality of ourselves (yeah, right) without actually daring to see how in wanting to ‘do good’/ be good toward others, we have in fact neglected our ‘equality and oneness’ to only take our claws out and scavenge it all for our own benefit, while being willing to ‘exterminate’ any form of opposition and competition that prevents us from ‘getting what we want.’ And, what we have recently realized as Desteni is that fears actually were cover ups for this realization of Self Interest being the Force that moves us all which means that all points of fears are actually stemming from a desire, want and need to get something for ourselves/ our Own benefit.
Within Fear, we remain as ‘victims’ which somehow within our minds makes us seemingly ‘not responsible’ for what we define ‘Happens to us’ instead of us realizing how we are Creating it as ourselves. I mean, it’s become even like a spoken language malfunction – an example is whenever I have caught myself saying ‘This happened to me’ instead of saying ‘I created this point within myself/ I allowed this to happen in my reality/ I was unaware when doing this and so I created that’ – which is an absolute point to turn the tables and see that we have in fact been ‘the source’ of all our evil and malice naively called ‘bad luck’ as well.
So, if anyone has any concept about the Apocalypse or judgment day being this glorious sublime type of scenario with some red skies and some gigantic planet hitting the Earth to eradicate it all… well, I must be the one that debunks such parody – which was my own at some point as well – and instead look at what it is that we are in fact doing within/ as ourselves: facing the actual evil nasty and venomous creatures that we have become, that our Real Self Revelation.“What? Me? Nooo, Never! I am such a good person, I’d never do ANYTHING like that!’
Well, it’s time to stop kidding ourselves about our apparent ‘benevolence’ and instead, dare to walk our own evil within the understanding that good/ bad can only sustain a morality construct that in no way supports Life – and instead we ‘keep in mind’ that there is an actual True Principle we can guide and direct ourselves by: what is best for all in all ways, at all times as a declaration of who and what we are here to establish ourselves as, because we’ve Never been living under such principle, at all. This is how and why the material as the Reptilian Series, the Atlanteans and the Secret History of the Universe have been of great support to understand that we in fact are in a crucial time in this existence, on this planet to – for Once and for All – establish ourselves as the living-realization of how this existence and real life can only emerge if we in fact consider each other as equals, and all Evil within ourselves is walked within this process of Self Forgiveness in Self Honesty.
We are here to Breathe and realize that it is not to take this point personal either or creating YET another reaction/ character toward seeing our “gruesome” aspects, it is about finally understanding that unless we embrace the totality of who we are – which practically means: getting to know ourselves as our mind and walking the good and the bad through Self-Forgiveness and Self-Honesty with Self Corrective Application, we won’t get ourselves ‘out of this.’
We are prepared to do this, because we have the tools, we are a group that supports each other to do this as well, as we have seen and walked for ourselves what a ‘breakdown’ this may cause at some points when realizing that everything we have ever believed ourselves to be was not in fact ‘real’ as it was never built upon an equal and one understanding of ourselves as the mind, as the physical, as energy, as substance, as our physical body and existence as a whole.
This is thus looking at the ‘greater picture’ which is something I suggest ‘keeping in mind’ in order to walk this process unconditionally, as I have seen and realized for myself as well how we tend to lose perspective in terms of why we are walking this process, what does it mean to walk an individual process and an existential process as a whole as well – and that is in fact what the Desteni I Process implies when it comes to realizing our point of responsibility with ourselves/ existence as a whole to then base our application/ the totality of what we walk here as self correction on this single premise: we are here to establish an Equal and One Living Realization of who we really are as what we have never in fact lived-as, which is Life in Equality. This begins within ourselves and debunking any ‘good doing’ is necessary in order to remove this ‘nice façade’ that we’ve built of ourselves, face our demons, self forgive all the good and the bad to finally establish within/as ourselves What’s Best for All Life.
This is an introduction and I have to thank Mr. Anu for sharing this process/his process with us to also begin working with our own patterns.
The interviews at Eqafe are:
These have been REAL eye openers here and the very fact that it took me a day to get to this already implies there was a resistance to walk through to start getting onto this.
And, to answer to the question proposed as the title of this blog, at ‘face value’ I can say that benevolence is not yet existent and that we are literally creating it not as a ‘good doing’ in terms of projecting halos upon ourselves as that’s the worst type of deception that can exist in fact, thus this ‘benevolence’ can only acquire a common sensical meaning wherein what matter is living/ directing ourselves to be and become the equality and oneness as living-flesh that we are, and that means: walking this process of Self Realization through Self Forgiveness in Self Honesty to only then realize/ see and understand the actual implications of who we are/ what we have become as the mind in the physical and How we can practically walk the necessary corrections in fact. This is also supported by Heaven’s Journey to Life , Creation’s Journey To Life blogs and many others walking the 7 Year Journey to Life daily blogs wherein as a group, we ensure we share this process with anyone else that is willing to also face themselves, take Self Responsibility for our creation and as such, dare to LIVE – which is certainly the path we’re walking at the moment and is yet ‘to be realized/ known/ seen/ understood – however, this is walked breath by breath, moment by moment until it is done, not losing our ‘ground’ nor the attention on the feet that we stand upon: physical support to face the mind ‘chaos’ that we’ve become – and that’s our certainly, that’s our point of Self Trust: no matter what, we are here and we face what we are/ have become and whatever may come as the consequences of our own creation – only then will we see if we are in fact able to be/become benevolent as a living realization of who we are in every moment of physically being here.