Self Corrective Statements and Self Commitments on Escaping from the Inner Hell creates the Outer Hell
Continuing from:
220. Drug Culture: Mad Society as a Lifestyle
When and as I see myself fearing to face the consequence of what I have become and seek a way out of it to not face me, to not consider taking responsibility for what I have done and become – I stop and I breathe – I realize that there is one single point that I cannot ever escape and that is myself, my mind as what I have become and in this, there is no point in prolonging the point as that can only feed the mind that thrives in friction and conflict –
I realize that fear is a great self-manipulation aspect for us to victimize ourselves toward our own creation, it is a reason, excuse and justification to exist as energy instead of existing as a physical self-directive being.
I commit myself to stop participating in fear when facing the consequences of myself and instead direct me to take self responsibility and stop all self-manipulation to seek for quick fixes out of my responsibility – I realize that I am the only one that can take Self Responsibility for myself, and that this is inevitable no matter where I am in this existence. Literally.
When and as I see myself having the thought of vanishing/ disappearing, simply wanting to not-exist in order to not have to face the consequences of what I have become – I stop and I breathe – I realize this thought leads me to the inertia of not moving, not directing myself which is a waste of time really – thus I direct myself to breathe, stand up, physically move in order to realize that there is nothing preventing me from taking responsibility for what I am and what I have become, this is simply a matter of deciding to face myself and stopping participation in the distraction of my thoughts.
I commit myself to face myself in my reality and stop any thought that deviates me from moving physically, the attention is thus here as breath and focusing on immediately directing myself toward a solution, which implies actually writing out the pattern/ point faced in order to structure specific corrections that must be implemented by myself and as such realize that I do not require to ‘fly away’ in my thoughts if I instead decide to direct myself physically and be at ease for real from that.
When and as I see myself creating backchat in relation to having ‘no way out’ from my self-created experience and believing everything is fucked up, that we’re going nowhere, wanting to give up – I stop and I breathe – I realize there is no real giving up in this world other than dying and as such, not even death will be a safe-place from facing myself and my responsibility – thus, I direct myself to be and become active in that moment to look at how to instead direct myself to look at the problem I am facing and as such direct myself toward a solution, as I see and realize that wanting to give up/ hide/ run away from myself is simply a point of conflict that does not support myself to Live, but only to entertain a mind that seeks for further ways to maintain oneself in friction and conflict – thus
I commit myself to stand one and equal to my mind to create solutions for the problems/ situations I am facing, wherein I ensure I take on the directive principle of myself and my reality and for that, no desire to run away/ thinking everything is fucked is required.
When and as I see myself wanting to ‘make it all stop’ in my mind, I stop and I breathe within the realization that thinking about stopping is only enhancing the self-experience – thus it is pointless to think ‘I want to make it all stop,’ since the stability of who and what we are is always here as the physical as breath.
I commit myself to remind myself to realize that the stability of the physical body is always here ‘one breath away’ and that any desire to seek for a better self experience is only another way to escape responsibility, which is unacceptable and as such, commit myself to stand up and walk the necessary steps to get to a point of stability and self-responsibility, to ensure that I in fact face my reality and my decisions made.
When and as I see myself imagining that it will take me a long time to solve the situation/ problem and go into an experience of helplessness and gloom, I stop and I breathe – I realize this is another self manipulation in order for me to Not take self responsibility and create an excuse to not face my reality. Thus
I commit myself to direct myself as my mind to instead plan a way to walk the corrections and take self responsibility, as I see that there is no point in feeding imaginations that lead me to further excuses and justifications to not stand up. Thus I stop manipulating myself and face the reality of myself and what I have become.
When and as I see myself going into imagination and experiential flashback of immediately grabbing onto something or someone when facing a point of conflict – drug, relationship, food, going out, avoiding myself with any form of entertainment – I stop and I breathe. I direct myself back to physical reality and deliberately stop participating in the desire to ‘have something’ to ‘make myself feel better/ help me cope with the situation’
I realize that the reality of what I have become is that which I am Here as a living being and as such, imagining to ‘run away from it’ through positive experiences that I have defined within my mind as such will only prolong the process of facing myself here, physically and in a stable manner.
I commit myself to stop participation in any enticing thought to consume something in order to feel better about myself, as I see that this is a temporary fix that has never lead me to an actual living stable and consistent solution.
When and as I see myself experiencing apathy, dullness, sadness and a general lack of ‘energy’ and wanting to give up on myself, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am actually manipulating myself to feel this way through all the thoughts and backchat allowed – thus I direct myself to stop wallowing in this mind-create experience and as such, focus on the constancy and consistency of who I am as the physical, as breath, where as long as I am breathing I realize I am able to perfectly move myself toward a solution instead of hooking myself onto reactions that only support the mind.
I commit myself to stop creating self experiences of self-doom and gloom in relation to ‘having to face myself/ my consequences’ as I realize these are not self supportive at all, and instead direct myself to act upon the solutions that will lead to an actual consequence that will benefit myself and all equally – no longer being bound to a single self-definition of ‘having to cope with my reality’ but being sound and stable to face it and take responsibility for it as myself.
When and as I see myself yawning and wanting to sleep, slouching and a general heaviness on my eyes, I breathe and I realize that I have to take some fresh air, move around and not give into the physical wallowing experience- and instead direct myself to breathe and focus on the solutions that I have to lay out in front of me.
When and as I see myself biting the lower part of my index finger, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am biting my own direction and as such creating a mind experience about that which I have already propitiated at a mind level. Thus
I commit myself to breathe, focus on my physical body, move, get fresh air whenever I am feeling tired/ down/ wanting to sleep as this is a clear pattern of wanting to avoid having to face myself.
When and as I see myself wanting to compulsively clean something or wanting to go out and ‘get this one thing I require no matter what’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that this is compulsive behavior wherein I use such points/ events as an excuse to not have to face myself as my responsibility toward my world/ reality and seek to ‘get out’ for a while, which leads to a pattern of evasion. Thus
I commit myself to stop being compulsive or impulsive in my decisions that lead to a prompt ‘get away’ from responsibility, which is a flag point in order to always be common sensical about our activities and decision, to ensure I am not directing myself as y mind to seek a ‘way out’ – which thus requires me to slow down and always ensure I am in fact making the decisions of what to do, instead of creating a point of ‘easy way out’ by finding excuses of ‘what I require to do’ which is usually only a distraction from what I in fact have to do and give direction to.
When and as I see myself doing nothing, being idle and as such ‘waiting’ for the right moment to snap out of the freak of having to face myself, take responsibility for myself, I stop and I breathe – I realize that If I don’ move then nothing will change or move.
I realize that we have created this world as the perfect ‘entertainment center’ wherein we have dedicated our lifetimes to only feel good, seek the ‘good self experience’ while avoiding to look at how we have created all the bad/ negative that is certainly the outflows and consequences due to us having wanted to have a quick fix to our problems and flaws that are generated at a thought level, which implies that: the more I avoid facing myself = the more I contribute to maintain our current world and reality ‘as is’ because we have feared consequence so much, that we don’t want to give up and stop participating in everything that has kept us in a bubble of ‘everything is relatively fine,’ without realizing the abuse and unsustainability that such bubble exists as, because it is only through having enough money to live that one can actually not do anything and still manage to wake up the next day, because people that have no security and support to live each day, Truly live each day getting what they require to eat to ‘live.’ This implies that instead of us wanting to avoid facing the responsibility of how we created such a reality that we all want to run away from, we all become self responsible beings beginning with ourselves to spot and identify where and how we have contributed to this life-long apathetic behavior, fearful manipulative behavior to not face our responsibility and create solutions for ourselves in this world.
I realize that it is only through individual ‘awakening’ which means: realizing the problems in this world, taking the decision to face ourselves/ what we have become, take the self directive decision to STOP participating in everything that prevents life from being lived – beginning with our thoughts, feelings and emotions, stop wanting to consume/ get high/ get a relationship/ run away literally from our reality and as such face ourselves as everything that we are and have become as this is the key to actually getting to know ourselves and realizing that in the mind we won’t ever be able to solve the problems in our world and reality, but only through physical self-corrective processes wherein we deliberately start caring for ourselves and each other, to stop being subsumed in a self-experience of doom and gloom and instead, start looking at and caring to see what is the current state of the world we live in and as such, become part of the solution through stopping self-interest and individualized self-experiences and focus on creating solutions that are best for the whole, that includes ourselves as well.
I commit myself to stop wanting to get any form of energetic high as a positive experience to not face myself and my consequences as I see that the accumulation of consequence is pervasive currently in our reality and leads ourselves nowhere else but the constant and continuous self-experience of being ‘flawed’ and ‘wrong’ as a justification to not stand up – thus it is a commitment to stop Feeling bad about ourselves and the world situation that WE have participated and created, and focus on how to stop and correct the patterns of the past that we already know had led us nowhere but toward further consequence as humanity. We created the problems, we create the solutions.
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