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418. Deschooling Ourselves: Why and How to Do it?

 

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After watching Charles Eisenstein’s Deschooling Ourselves workshop video, I realized how important it is to be aware of how much of ‘who we become’ as a person in our society and in relation to others is shaped in and by the schooling system. To this, it would also be unfair to only look at school as the only one problem there is in our society, because schools were created by us human beings in the first place so there’s a human mind behind it all; albeit for all practical purposes, the idea of ‘education’ and the blind trust that parents confer to the schooling system makes of the schooling system set up the most easy way to actually justify integrating values, beliefs, behaviors, ways of thinking reality, ways of relating to others, ways of survival among one another where we are geared to continually having to prove ourselves to be ‘the best’ or ‘the worst’ in a system of standardized marks.

School is also the place where we come to first get in contact with people of different backgrounds, where our initial social clash begins which leads us to start inherently doing a process of preference over principle, which is how we come to build our very first friendships and relationships, where we as children do not  have a full awareness of us in fact being in a closed-system where one gets to be friends with people that could or could not afford some private/public school, and so already from there, we start classifying ourselves based on our socioeconomic background.

I have to say it is also unfortunately the place where parents place their most trust on within the systemically integrated belief that ‘whatever happens in school is just fine’ and that teachers and the government system behind it as education system ‘knows best’ – while parents mostly see this as some free time from their parental duty – or are deliberately also kept busier with long hours of work which is leading to unattended children growing up in front of TV’s, computers plugged into the myriad of boundless information on the internet and learning tricks about drugs and developing sexual deviances as a way to escape the inherent anguish of living in a world where parents must work 24/7 to get money to live, and where you as a child/youngster will invariably have to end up doing the same… I mean, who would not react to that expectative of one’s ‘future’ in this broken world? Yet we dismiss it and actually have come to blame schools, blame media, blame the government, blame parents and so as you can see blaming each other for the problems we have co-created in our society of which school is one great and pivotal pillar of.

 

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There’s a complete structural problem in our society and a large part of it has to do with how we haven’t questioned our sacred institutions like schools and the way they exist nowadays, which from my perspective are more like prisons or reformatory cells, they have always been the brewing ground for behavioral conditioning, human experimentation and indoctrination which goes unnoticed within the idea that there’s always an authority that somehow has a ‘greater understanding,’ because we place our trust on systems of validation, certification and quality-proof standards placed by some organization we’ve defined as government, which are a few individuals that have unfortunately proven to be easily bribed to rather arrange laws and regulations in a way where other individuals can be benefitted from it all – either for profit, for further population control or both. All of this apparatus of authority is currently quite skewed of course and it is rather alarming since school is the spot where kids are mandated to go to every single day – yet, even if kids do not go to a school per se, the same principles of it are still embedded in the way that we organize ourselves, in the way that we related with one another, in the way that we value ourselves, in the way that we choose what we want to do with our lives, in the way that we behave with our families and friends. The sheer idea of ‘education’ as it exists now is only a reinforce and catalyzer of essential mind and behavioral patterns that have existed within us as human beings since the beginning of our species, as they are all existent in the very core programming and functioning of our minds. So, what have we done then? We have only perfected the mechanism to make it a continuous mandatory process for kids to get to like/dislike certain things and make decisions based on, well, mostly fear of survival so that we can keep the same slave system mechanism running. But is it really the system that is the enslaving one? Or is it that we haven’t really realized where the real policeman ‘in the head’ resides in? Hint, the answer is already given in that question.

 

In Charles Eisenstein’s Deschooling Ourselves, a group of people walk through and expose all the behaviors, personalities, quirks and fears that they have become throughout their schooling years, wherein either one would stick to the rules and follow or dissent and rebel in whichever way possible, one would start valuing oneself according to the kind of work you deliver to the teacher, another would seek to prove the teacher wrong, another would seek be approved by them, another just wanted to break free and rebel against all rules… this also included some other more personal aspects like  because in school we also have mostly faced some of our most embarrassing or stressing moments.

I’ve shared before about crying over getting lost during math calculation exercise and not being able to keep track of it, getting so anxious that I burst into tears. From my experience, I’ve shared before about the usual pressure one would get when being ‘on the top’ and so having some classmates trying to ‘take me down/take ‘my place’ and directly letting me know how they would win over me and how they would see me fall and be glad for it, etc. All kinds of bullying also comes when being the one that sticks to all rules and does things ‘to the T,’ which to me for example later on became a way to simply dislike being used as an example for the class, which led me to then want to hide while  still wanting to keep my sense of public recognition. This influenced the way I shaped my main personalities: I started to desire being ‘cool’ for any other reason other than getting straight A’s …  and kind of a ‘rebel’ by liking non-popular things so that I could make it clear that I wasn’t ‘the teacher’s pet’ either for example.

All of these patterns are part of a lengthy self-investigative process that is contained in the pages of this blog as I’ve seen that most of the times when investigating any mind pattern, word or behavior, it invariably goes back to one of those ‘memories of schooling days’ and how some of the most ingrained fight or flight patterns, behaviors, attitudes, self-definitions like qualities and virtues, likes and dislikes as well as career choice a.k.a. who I wanted to be and become as a person, were shaped based on the same education system. To me it also involved a process of sharing a room with either 6 other kids in my first school and then moving onto being with over 35 in the following schools and universities, which is already quite a challenge when it comes to seeing how it is virtually impossible for teachers to be truly aware of students in large classes.

School becomes ‘the place’ where we are supposed to ‘find our ground in life’ and so, it’s quite obvious that we only become copies of the copies of stereotypes that we also acquire from the usual imprinting of professions we are supposed to go veering toward from an early age as part of the social-structure – however along with that, we got movies, TV shows imprinting a whole different set of values with which we believe we are in fact ‘making a free choice’ to do what we want, but we have never even questioned whether what ‘we want’ is in fact something we truly developed for ourselves or something we learned from school or saw on TV or internet.

In essence, we have never really been genuinely ‘ourselves’ as all we have become is copy of the copy of the coping and survival mechanisms we’ve shaped as personalities or professions, and that’s what I mostly have realized also when it comes to investigating myself and my ‘core personalities’ and how everything that I developed as ‘my personality’ was a collection of bits and pieces of popular counter-culture aspects along with a decision to antagonize the system no matter what, while remaining ‘safely’ in it at the same time since I would still like to be the obedient straight A person in school, lol, even if I tried to ‘rebel’ at the end… it just would not work as I couldn’t simply fathom myself being irresponsible at school which involved a sense of responsibility of ‘school being the one thing that I had to do as my main activity’ throughout the years.

What is behind that, for example? Fear of being punished, fear of being left behind, fear of losing my self-value and definition? Fear of losing my ‘throne’ as the first one in the class? Well, these points are definitely something that come to define ‘who one is’ based on a particular setting like school, where we actually acquire this way of thinking based on achievements, values, marks, behaviors and responsibilities that lie not within a common sensical practical outcome, but according to doing things the way they are asked to be done and according to a ranking system that is in no way based on the particular skills and abilities that are unique to each child, that is simply not part of our school system.

At the end of that Deschooling workshop by Eisenstein, the ultimate question remains: how to Deschool ourselves? And I simply realized that actually walking this process of self-investigation, of writing oneself to freedom, of developing self-honesty wherein we investigate our core patterns within ourselves is the best way to deschool ourselves, because in investigating our behaviors, our personalities, our fears, our manias, our weaknesses and strengths, our relationships, our friendships, our first traumas, our first embarrassments, our bullying experiences, our relationship to authority, our ability to learn, our qualities and deficiencies, comparison and judgment toward others, our discriminatory or empathic behaviors, our friendships, our enemies… all of these aspects that one actually gets to first live in school – most of the times – are part of what one can write out for oneself, investigating each pattern within the awareness of writing the experience out to identify how is it that one has limited oneself in such pattern.

So for example, if I had continued to only value myself according to what marks I would get in school, and feel ‘bad’ for getting a lower mark, then I would have continued to seek to get some ‘straight A’s’ or the equivalent way to get such ‘superiority validation’ somewhere else in my world, just because of not wanting to get to the opposite side of that and so lose my self-validation/recognition. So I had to work with understanding ‘who am I as recognition’ and the desire thereof, where am I not valuing myself, how have I accepted and allowed myself to only value myself according to achievements at school? Or how have I believed myself to only be a brain that thinks well? Where am I not actually seeing myself beyond this limited valuing perspective and really seeing through a broader potential that I had probably and most likely would not have developed if I had continued to only stick to my personality and personal desires.

So, deschooling ourselves involves a practical and continuous application of walking a process to self-forgive and let go of all the plethora of perceived flaws, definitions, beliefs, limitations, fears and rather work with developing real self-value, real self-acceptance and skills to develop ourselves to our utmost potential. In this, for example, I had to stop the desire to be recognized by others, while at the same time also walking the opposite polarity – because, as one walks one pattern you also get to understand how the mind works in polarities. And so I realized that along with my desire to be recognized, I also got to fear being recognized and so actually sought to ‘hide’ or become a rather ‘low-key’ individual while still holding on this ‘recognition’ point in place, so essentially I would create my own inner conflict which I even externalized in the way that I would dress in a rather extravagant manner while  at the same time using my body’s posture to indicate that I didn’t want to be seen, so I would hunch while walking because I believed that standing straight was ‘showing off’ and only able to be done by good looking girls for example, lol, yes all of this is a fine example of how we pollute our minds in fact.

So, this is just a tip of the iceberg example that one is actually able to investigate for oneself when looking at all the patterns we’ve become in our lives, not only from school but acquired from parents, from people we watch on TV, from the books we read, from the people we admire, from our friends and people around us, etc. As I’ve mentioned, we’ve become the copies of the copies and so the schooling system, the social system has become nothing but a reflection of these categories and identities existent and developed in our minds wherein we get lost in comparison, judgment and the idea of value in relation to ‘who we are’ within the system, all of which actually enables us to coexist within our current dog-eat-dog mentality, where all that matters is achieving personal glory regardless of who or what is abused and affected by it, or ‘collaterally damaged.’

 

I am a product of this society and I’ve had to walk this rather astounding process of deschooling myself,  of deprogramming myself in my mind while at the same time walking a process of self-creation, which is a continued process of self-investigation of every single moment, every single day wherein one continues to assert oneself as the new integration of common sense, of living principles, of a sense of commonality, of a consideration of what’s best for all, of not following an experience as to ‘how I feel’ or how I believe ‘I should feel/be like/act like/talk like’ to dictate who I am in the moment,  wherein it is a continuous process of letting go of any constrains and limitations that I have previously identified through writing, and have released through the process of self-forgiving behaviors, emotions, feelings, thinking patterns, ideas about myself so that I could then practically and actively work on stopping myself from running-through the same old programmed ‘me.’

Now I place my focus on attention on this self-creation process which is truly a first-timer for us all to be able to walk and do, because it is now that we are for the first time becoming more and more aware of things that were deeply rooted in the unconscious before. Now we are able to slowly but surely as humanity able to spot these patterns and behaviors with greater ease, and I have to say that this then a great opportunity and it does rejoice me to see more and more people starting to question themselves, and the overall world-system, which indicates there’s in fact a great opportunity existent here to change the direction of our lives if more and more people start waking up and smelling reality for what it is so that we can work together to correct and align it.

I must also say that when I speak of this process, it isn’t something I do ‘by myself’ nope, it would have been mostly more difficult I’d say – I walk with a group of people networked through the internet – around the globe – with whom we’ve shared our lives,  our writings for over 7 years now, keeping in constant processes of developing and strengthening our communication and feedback processes to ensure that we don’t get lost in this re-educational process we’re walking, which has to do little to nothing to any regular ‘schooling system,’ but we are all more than certain that more individuals must recognize the vital importance of implementing this self-investigation process as part of our schooling system, learning how to work with our minds as our thoughts, feelings, emotions, to learn how to effectively write them out and communicate about them while integrating a sense of self-support through developing common sense: the consideration of what is best for all. 

It is about time we realize that it makes complete sense to actually focus on empowering each other to learn how to best coexist as human beings rather than focusing on being liked by the teacher, or beating our classmates, or planning ways to get into a group of friends to ‘fit in,’ or planning our greatest success where we disregard another’s life of lack of opportunities and suffering that is and has become our collateral damage in this zero sum reality.

It is thus in our greatest and most common interest that we could all walk this self-education process of self-honesty which is a process of self-creation according to living principles to get to develop ourselves to our fullest potential, and so make it part of our educational programs in whichever way they take shape in the (near) future once that we more and more realize how detrimental and even harmful our current standardized type of educational systems are which actually stems from the skewed and misconstrued value systems in our minds.  

So, the best way to deschool ourselves, which is the same as saying the best way to change ourselves is definitely walking the Desteni I Process. There’s no greater set of tools in this world, nor greater group of people that commit themselves to support one another throughout this Journey to Life, to live in dignity and equality. And I can only encourage everyone to try it out for yourself, because if I had aimed at simply wanting to ‘change’ but not really investigating my mind and living patterns to the utmost degree, to really learn how to sweep behind the rug of my memories, my past, my experiences, to understand who am I within my mind and how to practically apply and establish solutions in my day to day living, I would have been equally lost in a constant yearning ‘for change’ but not really knowing how or where to start.

This isn’t an easy thing to do either, it’s probably the greatest commitment we’ll ever make in our lives, which is our commitment to actually learn how to live in the benefit of ourselves and all life considered. However, it will for sure be the most rewarding and long lasting for future generations as well.  

 

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416. Relationships: Not about the Taste, but the Nutrients

 

There are times when the most obvious still manages to become part of my moment to moment living, and this has been mostly ghosts of the past meaning people, places, past relationships with specific individuals that I also developed highly obsessed type of relationships too. And so what I heard in an interview on Paranoia is about this “positive” type of paranoia wherein I realize that I had missed one single key point: the moment that we allow one memory to occupy our minds and we reactivate the experience of that particular memory in the past, we allow ourselves to re-activate that whole ‘me’ of the past in that single fleeting moment where one gives-up/ gives into any form of energy based on memory. Lol, really it is as if we decide to possess or poison ourselves for a moment just to give ourselves our energy-shot while imagining/seeing pictures in our mind, where we use illusions to kick off an experience within ourselves that we have defined as “pleasant” – either nostalgia, yearning, excitement, excitation, curiosity or merely believing that I miss the person or situation.

 

But then again of course when realizing this – after listening to this interview – it became very obvious how even almost like at a quantum level, even before translating this interview I was having an itching desire to just leave that one for later and go out for the walk. But, I didn’t, I made sure I got it all recorded before leaving and I was glad I did as I was then able to then use my time through my walk on my way back to apply Self-Forgiveness out loud for all the bits and pieces of memories and seemingly ‘insignificant’ moments where I would allow myself to trigger the thought of a ‘ghost of the past’ – meaning a particular memory of a person, situation, event – and then engage within it in a pondering manner, which is mostly what I’ve seen and realized means I hadn’t entirely decided to give ‘good riddance’ to it, to fully and actually let-go.

 

And in this, what came up was the realization that I cannot really ‘miss’ anything or anyone as I am already here, one can only ‘miss’ something as an experience in our minds, as the bond created toward that something or someone.  So, missing implies only ‘craving’ the relationship formed at an energetic level toward another which means: a relationship formed through the mind, which are the only kind of relationships that can be missed, spoiled or desired as they had a starting point of energy and ended up being busted as energy – never real.

 

Within this, I see that the people with whom I have formed relationships based on co-operation, co-working, working through misunderstandings and genuine decision to support each other are rather the strongest and most constructive type of relationships that I would genuinely suggest all of us as humans to develop and invest our time and effort on, it is the kind of relationship that is not dependent on ‘preference’ toward another or a fleeting experience of desire or attraction or based on being ‘similar,’ but rather in the equal recognition of each other as human beings with our weaknesses to strengthen and our strengths to share and learn from each other.

 

I saw that I had associated the word relationship in a rather limited manner wherein I could mostly only see a partnership type of relationship and within that of course, believing that because ‘my point in process are relationships, then I am not doing that well’ and so even creating an experience of ‘leaving that point for later,’ instead of realizing that I would not be able to be doing what I’m doing if I wasn’t able to actually establish relationships with other individuals.

 

So yet again, seeing to what extent I/we have been brainwashed when it comes to words and our narrow view of these relationships wherein even only defining relationships to ‘people’ is still a limited perception, as life is a conglomerate of relationships, and so relationships are the key to being able to function as one organism and be able to live in harmony. For that, each one of us as a thread in the tapestry of our reality has to stand in principle and absolutely clear when it comes to being able to work with one another – what does being clear and standing in principle mean? It implies that there can’t be no past memories haunting one another based on past mistakes, judgments, preferences or merely suggesting ‘incompatibility of characters’ that trigger emotions of contempt and disdain to one another or ‘nice’ and ‘positive’ feelings to one another. In this, any energetic experiences toward another, no matter how subtle, no matter how positive or negative are always coming from the mind, and as such they become like a poison that prevents real supportive and constructive relationships from developing.

 

Why do I bring up the word poison? Because in my own experience, I’ve seen relationships come and go based on the energetic starting point I started and developed them with, wherein even my sole intent and desire to create a bond with a particular person backfired to the point where none of those relationships is standing at the moment, and it’s for the best. It is a tough lesson you see, more so when we have created a culture where all that you learn from TV and movies is to ‘fall in love’ and seek for that ‘spark of love’ or attraction with another, or that nice warm empathy felt to someone that becomes your friend or else – it’s all about ‘feelings’ as fuzzy warm energy sparks that we create in our body, believing that ‘this is normal’ and ‘this is what love is’ or what ‘relationships should FEEL like’ – when in fact Relationships is anything but a Feeling or a fleeting experience in our minds. They are actual processes of walking with another/others throughout a considerable amount of time to get to a particular outcome – to either develop an intimate relationship as partnership or to develop common tasks and projects to take on.

 

Why is there no-energy type of relationships? Because all that we’ve ever known and learned about relationships is to place the FEELING before anything else, and this is rather consequential and on the long run, only smoke that eventually fades out and what is left is mostly the result of our failed relationships: broken marriages/divorces, inability to communicate and eventually war too is a failed ability to cooperate with each other as equals, but instead keeping a particular experience toward the perceived ‘enemy’ that is always self-created: we decide who we hate and who we love, instead of always placing our equality as living beings above all other forms of segregation, which is mind created.  

 

I also spoke self forgiveness for having actually used and abused myself when it comes to using a memory, a ‘ghost’ essentially to trigger an unnatural experience in my ‘physical-moment’ of being just here and suddenly going into this shift as an alternate reality of a sudden yearning, a curiosity, a ‘cherishing the past’ attitude that I took as normal without realizing that in going to the past in those seemingly ‘fleeting moments,’ I have kept reactivating the whole ‘me’ of the past, as the one personality with all its various memories and networks within me linked toward that particular person/situation/event whenever I would allow this ‘ghost’ to emerge within me.

 

I realized that the reason why I wasn’t letting go is because it is those first relationships that you establish that have the most energy, the ones that we get the most obsessed about or give the most attention to, which is why we go endlessly seeking over and over again that ‘first high’ – this is what I suspect heroin addicts seek forevermore after their first shot and they cannot get it ever again,  because it is unlikely that the body can experience such dramatic change of state again. And so addicts try and increase the dose, but it won’t ever be ‘the same.’ It’s the perfect trap when it comes to enslaving ourselves to memories attached with such ‘high experience’ you see: we keep chasing energy, we keep chasing ghosts in our own minds that no one can see but still we allow those ghosts to come up and absolutely define ‘who we are’ in one moment.

So this is a point of awareness to truly be here as breath and not allow the same memory/matrix point to lock-me down into the same thinking patterns, which at times it’s as if they were ‘there’ in the air in a particular place and one would go ‘picking it up’ as one walks through such path – just as one walks the street for example.

 

To Forgive and Let go

 

All that is Here is myself, it’s who we are, and I could only ‘react’ to it if I had formed a special bond/relationship to it through energy. Energy – for all practical purposes – is a mental experience, it implies separation and as such it makes perfect sense to remind me about this aspect of the points of separation that I create through holding on to the specialness in those ghosts from the past, a perceived importance, added care and interest to a part of me that I developed a particular relationship to.

Here another reminder is that no matter how ‘subtle’ this is, whenever I perceive this ‘ghost of the past’ as something that ‘defined me’ and as such is special because ‘it changed my life’ etc. it indicates a speculative relationship toward that something/someone: it’s energy, it’s my mind, it’s memories, it’s invisible, it’s a ghost and I have to stop haunting myself with them.

How I’ve seen these emerge is as if in my mind there were  like these various hooks that containing some of the most ‘attached’ type of experiences and relationships formed in my past, so it is like a broken record seeking to be flipped for another play. It is also quite laughable to what extent we have given up our ability to remain focused here on reality because of having followed these ‘ghosts’ in our minds, giving up our attention to us being here, breathing and suddenly whoop! Going up there in the mind, following these flimsy little things that we already know where it lead us and that tend to constantly emerge in the moments where the actual opportunity to be fully here, physically exist. They come up, ‘innocently’ and the moment we get into the web we get caught – so it’s up to us to decide how far down the rabbit hole we go or if we can absolutely prevent even getting ‘curious’ to fall for the same hole that we already know leads us nowhere in fact.

 

If anything, it is great to observe these memories, to really look at the experience triggered and sometimes it is as if ‘revealing the name of the game’ as the name of the energy would already break part of the spell, because it is in our inability to discern the ‘hold’ that such memory has upon us that breaks the ‘spell’ so to speak.

So instead of going into an experience of being unable to identify the experience we’ve linked to the memory (of a person, of an event) and perceiving that one ‘can’t name it’ but we ‘like it’ so ‘we keep going and go for it’ – it is to realize that I/we have to stop playing naïve when it comes to what we dive into and/or indulge into in our minds. And yes, it’s mostly always about memories, memories, memories – the ‘reminders’ of who we are supposed to be, act like, fear, like, dislike, desire, etc. There is always a way to find out the energy in a memory as in defining what makes us feel good or terribly bad as the most extreme points of fear and desire, like or dislike, these relationships of separation through energy as positive or negative experiences that we create in order to define us, to continue limiting us – but never realizing that by de-fining/delimiting and identifying us with a ‘few aspects’ we’re already building up our personality cage from which we then seek to interact with ‘similar cages’ and avoid ‘different cages.’

This is how we come to create a caged world divided by words, experiences, misunderstandings, offenses and past broken relationships. It’s even funny how we’ve learned to ‘get over’ with some past love or relationship with an individual by then going to the opposite type of relationships such as going from ‘love’ to ‘hate’ and so proceeding to ditch them, taking them in our minds to the opposite side. In this we recreate the exact same relationship to them, it remains in place because all we did was changing the ‘charge’ or the definition ‘tag’ of the relationship build up – in this case moving it from love to hate, but our personalized relationship to that one person/event/thing is still the same: based on energetic experiences that only we can define because: they only exist in our mind.

I still very much ponder how come we haven’t declared mental insanity around the globe so that we can create a genuine ‘state of emergency’– along with our regular duties and responsibilities – make it mandatory for our common wellbeing to work on our mental stability, health and support ourselves to go through it, as that is the key to genuine peace and solidarity on Earth, to learn to ‘love our neighbor as ourselves.’

So the conclusion is that I cannot keep going fueling these mosquitos from the past, these buzzing little things that can become our sole point of attention if we get to be obsessed with ‘finding more’ into them, instead of seeing them for what they are: ghosts, reminiscences of what once was and it has in fact nothing to do with who the person or situation really is or was in fact, as all that we remember is OUR EXPERIENCE about the situation/person, and that’s always self-created, that’s our own ghost-factory creation, and in this we only continue dividing and conquering each other by illusions.

 

So, hereby I commit myself to stop fueling any tiny thought or memory that leads to an experience about the person/event/ghost of the past and realize and so in those moments realize I can instead fully breathe and realize, I am here and I continue walking and enjoying the moment for what it is.

I realize that we only want to ‘make more’ of our moments as an experience in our minds, and it is the simplicity of breathing here what we perceive ‘lacks’ something, like insipid food that lacks salt and the salt being the energy. We don’t need those ‘extra flavors’ as the flavor comes and goes, it’s only perceived for a few moments on our taste buds and then what really matters is the actual nutrients that we are ingesting and how it will support proper development of our physical bodies – that’s the real type of nutrition then we also have to seek in personal relationships too: not going for ‘taste,’ but rather working on the actual nutrients that we all have and can develop further in each other as we work and live together.

 

My declaration of Living Principles:

22.    The realization that for me to be able to change myself in thought, word and deed to the most effective living being that I can be and become – I first have to ‘know thyself’ and so commit myself to investigate, introspect and understand how I became who I am today, to prepare the road before me into self creation of a responsible, aware, self honest and trustworthy person for myself and so for all

 

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403. How to Stop Living in Defense Mode

I have previously discussed how it is that we condition ourselves to create/put on a hard veneer in order to – let me be frank – not be fucked with/bullied/attacked by others and how this becomes like a second skin growth to actually make up for an initial experience of being vulnerable or having felt attacked by others words/actions. Here we can see how we condition each other to be constantly expecting the worst from one another, and so becoming the ‘fighters’ in the battlefield that we’ve created of our lives.

There are various reasons for this, one can be survival which is the way we have conditioned ourselves, our human nature to be guarding our own interest out of fear of others taking it away or abusing each other to get the most with the least effort etc. Another one is more related to that ‘attack’ that exists as a violent action toward one another, verbally/psychologically speaking while at the same time having the possibility to escalate to become physical as well. This is how I could see that we begin ‘corrupting’ ourselves0 when taking each others words personally, as a ‘personal attack’ and so create it in the form of bullying or ‘trollism’ as it exists now.

Here I’ll focus on a rather simply form in which I’ve noticed my own ‘defense-mode’ and what are the reasons for it. I’ve been actively participating in answering/interacting on YouTube and forums wherein I have had one of the most vivid evidences of how we can attack each other just for the sake of winning a ‘battle’ in our minds, just for the sake of ‘being right’ and making one another look like ‘an ass’ because ‘they are wrong’ and so in essence co-creating  just another virtual battlefield to breed human hatred or perpetuate the ‘Divide and Conquer’ mind frames which I initially would react to in an emotional way upon reading such denigrating, defaming,, spiteful, violent and even life threatening comments we would get on a daily basis as a result of what we publish, which is all about life in equality, living rights, what is best for everyone, etc.

So, looking back,  this is what I see as a cool ‘training ground’ when it comes to facing the REAL human nature and not only see the one I had believed in  – such as the good nature one – while being locked in my ‘home bubble’ and my limited environment with limited interactions, where I yes certainly did face bullying and backstabbing from ‘friends’ at an early age, prompting me into quite a ‘depression ‘ at the age of 7, 8 because of not being able to fathom such ‘harm’ imposed toward me from another at first, until I had the support from my mother to realize I did not have to take others words/actions personally – which was great support and led me to become rather independent from sheeple mentality while going through school. I did, however, become somewhat defensive in my personality, I could say that yes I had clear principles but a lot of it was also from the starting point of showing ‘others’ that ‘you can’t mess around with me,’ it worked to a certain extent – but what happens when that ‘veneer’ becomes ‘who you are’ and how one dictates one’s every interaction?

 

I see that the defense-mode that I am able to act out upon in one moment actually stems from acting once again based on past experiences/memories where I still place myself in such ‘defense mode’ meaning being ready to be ‘attacked’ from the moment that I, for example,  read a YouTube comment and so, instead of unconditionally reading the words that a person is placing, I already see where I can ‘find the point they are missing out on’ or what they are ‘defending’ or where they are trying to ‘prove me wrong, so that I can ‘point it out back’ and so this is something that I became used to do back in the day where we were certainly first becoming more aware of what each person implied in their words, which has been supportive nonetheless. But I see that I require to now and from here on step down from continuing that mechanism/way; this actually happened to me yesterday where I did thankfully get feedback from the person that I replied to on YouTube saying: “Marlen? I commented because you right on the money!  Thank You!”  The first word as my name with a question mark implying that they probably didn’t understand why I had replied in such a ‘harsh’ manner. And so I realized that I had come through toward him in the same old ‘attack-mode’ and ‘defense-mode’ instead of just seeing where the person is coming with the comment, what I can agree on as that’s our common ground and then expanding a bit on it without having the starting point of ‘proving him wrong’ or judging his very reply for not considering all points that I see but simply focusing on what I can do to assist and support to expand on the points brought up and create a conversation from there.

Assist and support here are the key points, not to ‘defend my point’ or ‘defend my cause’ because that’s what creates the battlefield on YouTube, but rather keeping it simple when answering back and inviting the person to continue the dialogue instead of wanting ‘them’ to ‘change’ all of a sudden toward Me and what I have to say, as that would be me as ego wanting validation/acceptance from others right away. The same point applies when I have deemed others as being ‘defensive’ toward me and so judging others as ‘being on defense mode’/being on attack-mode but it is really only me projecting my perception upon them because I’ve ‘been there/done that too.

 

So the key here is to then when and as I see myself reading comments, reading/hearing another’s words, I assist and support myself to not go into the predisposition of fighting/ attacking another based on the belief/assumption that ‘they are here to attack me first’ and so, instead allow me to read the comment/words unconditionally, without expectations or already ‘sharpening my knife’ to ‘get back at them,’ as I see that within this starting point I perpetuate the conflict and not allow myself to be really HERE with/as the words written/spoken and so be able to interact/reply back within the consideration of what I can learn from what the person is explaining, what I can learn from them, where I see that I agree upon to also reply back and letting the person know I also see that/agree with it.

This implies: Seeing where there is a point where I can share from my own realizations, self investigations and not only from knowledge and information, all of this within the consideration of placing myself in another’s shoes, taking into consideration the words in one YouTube comment, one email, one conversation and ‘walking with’ to expand on a point of cognitive dissonance, misinformation, belief, or an emotional reaction to the points explained, so that I can also point it out in a considerate non-defensive, non-attacking, non-aggressive manner which means explaining to another a point the same way I would want another to explain it to me: with patience, with humbleness and gentleness so as to be able to let the other person know that I do stand as these principles I talk about at all times, this is who I am and this is the consideration, care, gentleness and humbleness toward others that I commit myself to live by when interacting with them, so as to not come through as ‘me having the truth’ or ‘me having to be always right’ but being also willing to see my faults, my mistakes, where I reacted to another’s words and so take responsibility for such reactions myself.

 

So to not go into ‘denial’ of my actions, which is what the vlog was about in fact wherein I received such comment, here I stand directive of such point which opened up yesterday and so I am directing it here, as I see that if I want to create a world of transparency, integrity and trust, I have to be doing just that myself, seeing, realizing, understanding my mistakes, my reactions, investigate where they ‘come from,’ understand them, self forgive them and most importantly, give myself a new direction as to how I am going to be living these corrections from now on whenever I interact with another.

 

 

Self Forgiveness and Self Correction

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a predisposition of ‘having to defend myself’ when replying to YouTube Comments or replying to others’ words whether written or in a conversation, instead of realizing how I perpetuate my own memories of the past and even from my childhood of how I had to be ‘wary’ of people’s words and actions toward me, which is why I became ‘edgy’ as well, not being able to trust others and as I’ve explained before, this is not about ‘trusting others’ but rather trusting me in being able to read/hear words in stability and be able to support myself unconditionally to interact, reply back within the consideration of what is self-supportive both for ‘them’ and ‘myself’ as two or more individuals establishing a communication and settling the way to create a point of communal understanding – not fighting or ‘proving each other right/wrong’

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize how I am in fact perpetuating the current status quo in our relationships where we have focused so much on the winner/loser mentality, the ‘attacker’ and the ‘attacked,’ the bully and the bullied and where we believe that we constantly have to be ‘defending’ ourselves which can only exist if we are ‘coming from’ a starting point of ego as in seeing others as enemies, as ‘the problem,’ as ‘the ignorant ones and oneself being the ‘right one,’ through which we approach another from the vantage point of seeing another as inferior to myself and so believing that I have to ‘educate them’ with ‘what I know’ instead of being actually grateful that there are people that are still willing to reply in a comment to a YouTube video and so be able to hear/get to know what others’ perspectives on a subject and learn from it, see where we still have to ‘align’ our understanding, what are the main points where there is still a point tampering self-realization,  as well as being willing to correct ourselves if necessary and in the possible measure, being able to support and assist another to expand themselves a bit more – maybe point out some aspects they can do further investigation on, other blogs or vlogs to watch/read and so not immediately ‘showing the way out’ when the entire starting point of commenting by the other individual is to precisely establish communication and be able to continue it in the best possible way.

I realize that in our world nothing will be changing if we do not first focus on being able to get to hear /read one another, see where there is a common ground and build it from there, thus no longer existing in the ‘I’ll prove you wrong’ mentality.

 

I also realize that I have to be aware of not seeing myself as ‘the victim’ that is going to be ‘abused/attacked by others’ as in this position of victimization I then justify my ‘getting back at’ others as in ‘having to defend myself’ which is why in this world we, for example, allow the use and existence of guns, because we give into this mentality that ‘I have to protect myself, I have to be armed’ without first investigating why and what causes this abuse in the first place.

 

I realize that I have to stop projecting my past, and my ‘mind-frame’ that I had built around ‘commenting on YouTube’ as in ‘getting myself  into a battlefield’ and instead, read the comments from the starting point of being able to support myself, to learn from another, to see where I can improve my communication, identify and recognize where I wasn’t clear/what I missed and so expand through this communication instead of already wanting to ‘end’ the interaction by placing a comment that could be seen as ‘sparking up reactions’ which previously I had defined as supportive for the person to ‘face themselves’ but, we are in a different stage in our process so I now apply the point of being gentle and supportive with others, the same way that I would like a ‘stranger’ on YouTube to reply to my messages and comments as well, doing to another what I would like to be done unto in the same situation and in all cases for that matter.

 

I commit myself to use the opportunity of interacting with others either through comments on a website, on a forum, on every day conversations/interactions so that I can expand and support myself while at the same time assisting and supporting another, because it is in these seemingly ‘irrelevant’ or ‘small moments’ that actual windows of opportunity exist to ‘connect’ to others and let them also realize that there are solutions, there are people that do not fall into the usual patterns of the divide and conquer mentality, and so this is what I commit myself to living in all aspects of my everyday living and interactions with people from around the globe through the marvelous platform that the Internet is.

 

I commit myself to redirect my judgments upon others being ‘in a defense mode’ and instead be able to in such moments immediately take the point back to self and direct myself toward another in a way wherein I can apply consideration, humbleness, gentleness to place myself in their shoes so that I am able to best support them and expanding ourselves through using words or even behavior, voice tonality that indicates in stability that I am here, I hear you, I understand you, let’s clarify this/let’s expand on this/ have you considered this point about this that you mentioned here? so that it is and becomes a more ‘inviting’ way to continue interacting with another.

 

I commit myself to walk through my own ‘predisposition’ of being in this ‘defense-mode’ so that I can stand here, clear, open, available and willing to communicate and direct another’s questions and sometimes even curiosity and not fall into the ‘attacking-mode’ but to genuinely be able to consider their starting point and so walk-with, instead of walking-against others.

 

I commit my self to live the realization that ‘the enemy’ is really myself and my own assumption, my own mind, my own projections which means that in practicality I am then going to be open to read/hear words without going into reaction, without already ‘preparing’ my artillery to shoot with a barrage of points that have nothing to do with what was initially said either, but to also keep it simple and ‘grow’ the conversation from there.

 

I commit myself to only reply to comments/written and spoken interactions when I have given myself a ‘moment of clarity’ which means when I have breathed and ensured that I am in fact stable, here, that I am taking responsibility for my initial reactions or starting point toward another, and so be more open, willing and available for genuine communication, ensuring I have no interference/noise as my own reactions preventing me from hearing/reading another unconditionally.

 

I commit myself to ‘take back to self’ any judgments I may had toward ‘others’ as ‘them being the attackers’ or ‘them being in a defense-mode’ as in fact, that would mean me reacting in ego towards ego – lol – so the best way to interact with another is to work with the common sense of looking at words themselves, no assumptions, rather asking what they in fact mean if the point is not clear, but generally not jumping into assumptions, not taking my own knowledge, my own ego into consideration when interacting with others, as that’s where the shifts happen and the divide and conquer mentality is re-created, wherein I perceive that another is ‘not the same as myself’ and so I have to ‘prove them wrong’ according to me, which is where the problem exists.

So I instead commit myself to focus on directing the words, the comments, the situation for what it is, devoid of past grudges, preconditioning, preprogramming of ‘how I deal with others that I perceive are attacking me’ as I then live the realization that the ‘attack’ only exists in my mind as memories and experiences that I create when I take another’s words personally or as ‘going against me’ which is the ego-starting point of reading/hearing another, when we ‘take it personally’ instead of realizing that each one’s words relate to oneself only, and so I take self-responsibility.

 

I commit myself to in fact become a pillar of support for myself and others which means I cannot judge, I cannot avoid another or see them as ‘less than myself’ or as ‘ignorant’ but instead assist and support myself and others to transcend such limitations of the mind to work with what we have as our statements, see what we can agree upon and expand it from there, as Self Support.

 

So instead I am grateful that this point opened up so I could see what I was doing in this interaction and so be able to give it direction here for once and for all – so, thanks Tyler.

 

7.      Living the Principle of Self Awareness – to be aware, to see, to recognize my own thoughts and Mind, to be self honest to the extent where I can take responsibility for when I see my thoughts / Mind is not what is best for me / others and commit to immediately take responsibility and change for myself and so for others

The Desteni of Living – My Declaration of Principle

 

 

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392. Why are Emotional Relationships a Fuckup?

Continuing from:

 

“So the disillusionment with arts have to do with My Own expectations about it. How I thought that this was ‘the way’ to change the world and of course I didn’t follow through with ‘becoming an artist’ in the traditional sense which I then perceived as myself already ‘opting out’ of it all and seeing the sheer idea of dedicating myself to ‘create art’ as utterly selfish, without realizing how much I had desired ‘that’ to be my reality before. I’ve also been recently sharing about these points with people, explaining how I’m not proud of the decisions I made earlier on in my life and how I would not recommend anyone to study arts. I do however not say ‘don’t study arts’ but simply place my own expectations, my own experience, my decision to do something else and how such studies were a nice platform but not real tools that I can apply to what I am doing now.” From 387. The Love/Hate Relationship with Art

 

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Facing Myself, my Relationships through the Relationship with Art

I suggest to read:  What does it Mean to Have a Relationship with Oneself? – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 608 by Andrew Gable

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my relationships based on emotions and feelings wherein it doesn’t matter whether it is arts or a person or a responsibility or a place, the moment that I create emotional and feeling attachments to places/people/objects/professions then I begin creating my own trap through definitions based on what I believe that ‘I like’ and what I believe is ‘my thing’ based on nothing else but emotions, feelings, experiences that I went attaching toward something/someone over time, and then believing that I am in fact all of these experiences, emotions and feelings in relation to something or someone, without realizing that such experiences cannot define what such something or someone is in fact, as it is all entirely self-created, it is me-myself that has created this experience within me.

Within this premise, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to immediately automate the words ‘my relationship to/with something/someone’ being defined as an experience that I have built toward something or someone instead of the actuality of how I participate, interact with, communicate with /through something or someone and within that realizing that any experience that I create is entirely my own and has nothing to do with that something or someone but myself at all times.

Therefore I realize that the projections upon ‘art’ is in fact the experience that I have created toward the who I was within that time of my life when I chose to study art and that If I were to place myself within that same frame of mind 7 years ago, I would probably still go for that choice in life, which means that it is a decision I made entirely based on what I wanted to experience and who I wanted to be as a personality, an ego and satisfy my drive that I went building up throughout time to ‘make it’ within the art world – so this point I have opened up before however now I am able to see that it has nothing to do with ‘art’ in itself, I’ve made of art the excuse to project my own judgments toward my decisions, the way that I established relationships toward this something that I ‘built myself’ around, and as such because I realized I could not continue constructing myself as ‘an artist’ within the initial ideals I had, then I acted in spite and begun regretting and embarrassed by my choices in life as I see them as ‘useless’ without realizing that I was actually reacting at all the various others things I did in my life throughout that time of which I cannot be proud of either and that I cannot certainly recognize as ‘myself’ any longer so

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me according to the relationships that I built with people and with specifically my career as ‘arts’ which in fact reflect all the choices in my life, the people that I chose to surround myself with and that I cannot really judge myself for who I was back then as back then I had no awareness of the points I am aware now.

So I realize that I have to stop being ‘hard’ on myself based on this hidden-experience of having ‘the past haunting me,’ and so be able to finally let go of it as I do not have to re-enact this kind of shame or embarrassment about myself, my past relationships, my emotionally-driven decisions in life because it is to realize that back then I didn’t know any other way – and so instead I am grateful to be able to be here writing myself, having deviated from ‘the path’ that I had initially chosen as god knows where the hell I would be if I had followed through my ‘lifestyle’ and the relationships I built around the same ego and personality that I was. I rather see and recognize that I’ve definitely moved on from that phase of my life, but! Also realizing that every time that I create an experience toward any memory, any relationship, any past choice including my decision to study arts, I recreate the entire network of ‘the who I was’ in my past and as such I continue enslaving myself to those relationships and only fuel the negative experiences that are the opposite polarity to the initial positive experiences that I used to build my relationships with people and with the profession/career I was veering myself toward.

And within this, I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to follow the usual pattern within the mind which is ‘dissing’ something once that one has squeezed the last drop of positive experience out of it, which means that once that it ‘served me’ and ‘its purpose’ and I’ve hit the ground back into reality about it and I am no longer seeing visions based on emotional and feeling experiences, then I go into the opposite polarity of talking bad about it and feeling righteous within that, without realizing that it is only the predetermined and rather predictable outcome from an initial positive experience that I created with such ‘passion’ about it that when the whole experience was no more, I ‘dropped’ down to the bottom and the opposite – so it happened just like a typical relationship wherein people first get in love with each other and as time progress and the energy runs dry, they part ways and talk shit about each other, so that’s what I did toward ‘art,’ and I didn’t even realize it because to me it was so right that it hadn’t fulfilled my expectations that I believed I had ‘the right’ to feel that way about it, without seeing the obvious: it was a feeling, an emotion, a judgment that came from nothing else but the ‘who I was’ toward art and so, within this ‘dissing’ recreating my past relationship to art over and over again – trapping myself in my own past.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form emotional relationships toward what I deemed as ‘my career’ or ‘my path’ which in this case was art/being an artist and within this allow a physical process to become a rather emotionally driven relationship, similar to those that I’ve walked with individuals wherein there are a lot of feelings and emotions attached to something/someone that I want to hold onto and when the relationship is no more, such dependency then turns into a ‘lack’ of this fulfillment gotten from something or someone and as such, it turns into a form of bitterness ‘toward something or someone,’ without realizing that this all is really not about ‘art’ in itself or the people in my past relationships or else, it’s about myself and how I created relationships of dependency upon others in order to ‘satisfy me’ or ‘complete me’ or give me some kind of experience to which I could define myself, build myself, construct and upgrade myself as the ego that I was wanting to be within the ‘who I am’ as a professional artist as well as within the relationship formed in relation to who I am as an artist and in relationship to others.

 

Therefore I realize that the best way to follow through with this is to entirely let go of my experiences toward my past specifically and so be able to give myself back to myself as being able to focus on what is here, what I am working with, what I am developing as myself and also to align my relationship to art and be able to enjoy it, visiting museums or read about it, hear it, interact with it without loading the entire experience of ‘going to the museum’ and defining myself according to that any longer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be spiteful in the past few years and whenever I would talk about some forms of contemporary art become infuriated and a bit angry about what I defined as being utterly selfish and self-centered and ‘useless’ to the problems that I was then realizing were ‘much more important than that’ – and in this, I still agree that there are more important points in life than some kinds of art that are merely conceptual and contemplative and ‘useless’ as a tool to create practical solutions to the world – however, this obviously doesn’t justify the fact that I’ve been spiteful and holding this love-hate relationship to it, and within this only fueling an inner conflict of still being interested in or curious about the current art forms that are emerging while at the same time judging it as useless so here

I had considered myself to feel bitter about art

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Bitter: causing pain or unhappiness. Feeling or showing angry hurt or resentment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel bitter about art as in becoming resentful toward it and toward the people that create it, not realizing that I had exactly done the opposite for a prolonged period of time which is why the inner conflict arose in the first place, all based on me wanting to make of art the quintessential human experience and making it the most ‘honorable profession on Earth’ or so, and so believing that being an artist was the same or similar thing as to say I was chosen by god and/or touched by god, so in essence a lot of delusions of grandeur that I created within me and that I projected toward art. So, this bitterness as in being angry, resentful, dissatisfied toward art has to do with me having to let go of my own desires/hopes/dreams related to me becoming an artist. So once again, it has nothing to do with ‘art’ in itself but the expectations and experiences I created toward it and so, when realizing I had to stop pursuing my mind any further and only feeding my ego, that’s when the opposite relationship came up.

When and as I see myself feeling bitter about any form of art that I may see, read about or even people that create art and discuss their work – I stop and I breathe, I ensure that I am not tensing my physical body and experiencing that bolt of energy within me wanting to ‘let them know the truth about their creation’ which is in fact nothing else but me wanting to ‘express’ through reaction, as if I had ‘the truth’ within myself and so within this actually becoming nothing more than an ego that wants to be recognized for ‘my new position’ which is not really supportive but only a packet of resentment, judgments and overall bitterness toward that which I once praised.

I realize that this all comes from how much the entirety of ‘my world’ and ‘myself’ that I deemed as ‘real’ and ‘genuine’ were in fact not, so this whole relationship with art I remember very well was the first initial ‘big hit’ that I took when understanding who we are as the mind, as a preprogrammed mind consciousness system and that the thing I feared losing the most was the personality I had created through/as art and having chosen that path for myself, which is why that initial big fear of loss about this self-definition had such a ‘big impact’ in the aftermath, wherein I allowed myself to not be entirely self-directive toward art but instead then create the opposite polarity and so still participating within the mind. And this came through even though I believed I was ‘well over with it,’ only to test out not long ago that there were still reactions coming through the more ‘artistic’ documentaries I would watch and wanting to ignore the reactions to it until I simply believed that I had to ‘speak my mind’ about it – and yes, it was ‘my mind’ and a till here no further to when and as I see myself questioning or asking another about their creation from the starting point of the ‘bitter drop-out of an artist’ that I became in my mind, and so stop defining myself based on the choices of the past and focus on communicating or creating a dialogue based on what we can learn from it, what can be useful to understand our human condition or even innovate and take points to be creative in the ways that I can support myself and others through this process while using art as a supportive tool for it, without endowing it the entire ‘duty’ of ‘changing the world’ in itself, which as I’ve previously discussed, it’s impossible.

When and as I see myself wanting to create an experience of spite or disdain and bitterness toward ‘art’ and seeing it as useless or pointless while at the same time being curious about it, I stop and I breathe – I realize that both the negative and positive experiences are only re-creations of the ‘who I was’ in the past as an art-lover and then the who I became as the anti-thesis of that which was pretty much being very critical toward art within a negative context, and so I simply stop, breathe and observe/interact with it without creating any experience but rather seeing it objectively for what it is. And this is the challenge really because I had cult-ivated the experiences attached to works of art and becoming emotional about it, which I also learned from books at the same time. So I realize that all of my emotions and feelings are in fact nothing else but knowledge and information that I’ve translated into energetic experiences that serve no purpose for me to interact with something or someone.

 

I commit myself to be able to be here as breath while witnessing performances, watching/visiting museums or art galleries and also to remain here as breath when getting too excited about seeing something because that’s also once again recreating the same pattern of the visual vicious – which I’ve talked about extensively of – and so realize it’s just images, it’s just pictures, it’s just a part of reality and the only way I can ‘react’ to something is if I ‘load’ all my past-definitions in order to react based on memories and the knowledge that I had built around art and the ‘who I am’ toward art. So I can practically simply stop those past definitions and focus on reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to read about the Stendhal syndrome in some book and consider that I would get this kind of experiences such as seeing ‘the sublime’ and mostly images that would depict the end of the world, which is why I focused myself so much on depicting the end of the world and getting a kick out of it, and believe that these emotions were ‘normal’ to me and that I had all the right to ‘express them’ but, the reality is that it was all a self-created experience and that there was no ‘magic’ or ‘real connection’ to painting or anything like that which I believed was something ‘special’ within me. Therefore I realize that these experiences were pretty much all created within my desperate need to ‘feel something’ because I had deemed the ability to ‘feel’ as in becoming emotional as special, as sensitive, as ‘unique’ in a human being – and so I created my own web of experiences according to how I would see others would feel and so mimic it, read books that were very emotional and then going determining what I would find as ‘emotional’ and what I would like to experience and so integrate as part of the ‘who I was’ as the characters that I read about and that I eventually wanted to create for myself.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to made of past relationships as something conflictive and filled with ‘turmoil’ inside my mind as I realize that this was also part of the definition of who I wanted to be as a very sensitive person in order to be able to have stories to tell or talk about, as I believed that I had to suffer to make any real art. Therefore, I realize that any experience I created toward something or someone wasn’t part of reality as such, but entirely self created in my mind. Within this, I realize that also in my relationships the experiences I created about others were never ‘real’ as such, but only the plethora of experiences and definitions I created upon them – that’s why once the energy ran dry and seeing the individuals or situations that I was in within my life with sober eyes and frame of mind, the ‘truth’ of myself and the interactions with others/something came through as it is.

 

So a way to redefine a relationship it is to first of all no longer define tit through/as an emotion or feeling, something that we believe is ‘real’ in the mind based on memories, ideas, beliefs, past experiences that we then make real as our preference, as that which ‘we want,’ without taking physical reality into consideration.

Therefore an emotional relationship will always end up as a ‘fuck-up’ if it is not aligned to physical reality wherein I can stand as an individual that first of all ponders what it is that I sought in my relationship with something/someone that I believed I didn’t have myself, alone – and so realize that whichever I was expecting to get from ‘art’ or someone in my life were and had been all points of separation, illusions that I believed were unable to be experienced within me. So this is how the best way to create a relationship with someone or something is to ensure that it is seen through the eyes of physical reality, where no emotions, feelings, no past experiences, no ideals, wants, needs or desires become a decisive factor in terms of defining who I am toward others, as all I have to consider is myself and within doing that I can then interact with something/someone based on the principles that I can integrate within myself, as the relationship that I want to establish for myself so that no matter what I do, where I am, with who or alone, I remain stable, supporting myself, getting to know about others in the relationships formed with my reality, recognizing myself as one and equal with them, instead of seeing them as points to ‘fulfill me’ or things/experiences that I believed I lacked.

I realize that it’s been supportive to revisit this aspect of ‘my relationship to art’ to review my state of affairs in relation to other relationships based on emotions in the past, and so to focus on preventing further ‘fuckups’ as the ups and downs and polarity relationships of ‘love and hate’ as that is all of the mind –  instead there are more physical aspects and perspectives to consider here as well.

Life on Earth in itself is built through relationships, so I cannot define relationships only as personal relationships with something or someone, but rather realize that we are all made of and constantly require and exist as relationships that define the way we live in our world – therefore the more we are able to act, participate and be part of these relationships in a physical and common sensical manner without being driven by desires, hopes, dreams, fantasies and illusions, the more we will be able to begin changing the focus of our reality – from the distraction that emotional relationships are to a rather physical process of aligning ourselves to that which enables our coexistence in the best possible manner – no feelings/emotions required for that, no special relationships but rather the equalization and realization of who I am as this interdependence

 

to be continued…

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354. Self Governance in Equal Money

 

The solution to transform the way we direct ourselves resides in a complete redefinition of our participation in the system where we will all have to become participants in the matters that make our lives possible. We will have to step up, recognize our ability to stand together as  Self-Governed individuals and ensure each one of us becomes the Self Directive Principle in our minds, our physical bodies, and commit our life and spirit to live in absolute integrity in accordance to the Law of our Being, which is Life in Equality as What is Best for all – this is the Living State that we can form at a Global level where one by one we stand as living, self responsible and mutually supportive individuals that  ensure we are never again subject to anyone’s terms and conditions, and instead stand as our Individual yet Equal Living Principle as Life, where no policing, no punishment nor rewards will be required – only a constant sound and stable commitment by all to Live to Create what is Best for All.

 

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Problem                                                             

  • Throughout history we have being ruled by the so-called ‘Divine Powers’ that were endowed  to people in the elites/ royalties that became our governments, monarchs, kings and authorities – all of these entities formed  the necessary platforms that enabled and ensured to protect and perpetuate such ‘special powers’ to govern  in the hands of a few in order to maintain control upon the rest of humanity and be benefited by it. All of this went on throughout time by our own acceptance and allowance – we all have lived the consequences of these ‘orders’ but we have never really conducted ourselves to create a fundamental change in these power structures to generate a solution from the root/cause of the problem which begun the moment we delegated our individual responsibilities to others, by virtue of the ‘endowed divine powers’ that the majority held as true.

 

  • From the beginning, these governmental structures were not meant to be supportive for humanity, we wanted to believe they were – or at least it said so in the constitutions and bills of rights –  but it never was never in fact lived and applied. The evidence of that is ever present in every single country that we live in where the same patterns repeat as the construct it is: there’s corruption, misuse of the public funds, nepotism, despotism, laws that are the result of lobbying processes by the corporations to suit their interests, taxes that fund wars, creation of banks and corporations outside of any form of regulation, education that is merely systematic indoctrination, no real variety in the ability to vote in genuine elections because the choices are inherently fixed and flawed, no free and best quality public services like health, infrastructure, telecommunications, banking systems…  instead everything is being privatized to make of our basic living necessities just another profitable business that we all dependent on.

 

  • Our governments became the actual malevolent act in our society instead of having been the exact opposite according to its main function to direct the people to a common wellbeing. In reality we are and have been  in fact Enslaved by our governments as the structure that we have all complied to for thousands of years on without much question, since this was part of the inherent programming that we also accepted and allowed as our own mind consciousness system wherein these structures existed as our very thoughts, beliefs, feelings and emotions that we accepted an d allowed ourselves to believe are ‘who we are.’ This is what leads us to actually question the following: how can we blame other human beings for doing what they did if we all collectively participated in this preprogrammed life paths wherein by default some would play the role of the elite/kings/masters/priests that hold the money and the knowledge while others had to form part of the ‘base of the pyramid’ as the slaves that had to work for these governments that were never in fact existent to uplift the lives of all humans in equality.

 

  • This is how it is rather foolish to blame the structure, the system and the people that filled-in such necessary positions, without looking at the greater picture of this reality existing as an all encompassing set-up for human enslavement. The government as the necessary structure of control was established by people that merely ‘played their part’ within a greater scheme in which all human beings – no exceptions –  have been part of the necessary places to control and enslave everyone and everyone having agreed to that without a question, because we too believed we could get to be part of the privileged ones someday as the elites, royals and people in power/ money and control over others. All of this has been revealed  in the recent years, and it goes hand in hand with the ability to now have sufficient certainty on us as humanity no longer being bound to a system of control, there are no gods anymore directing this reality show but ourselves and our world systems like the monetary and governmental one. This is how the emergence of the Equal Money System has taken place where we let the world know that we are the only ones directing the system and continuing it now, we are the ones that have perpetuated it and as such, we have the ability to change it, because we accepted, allowed and re-created the problem in the first place.

 

  • However, most of the people in this world are absolutely lost in the power-games that we’ve lived by throughout thousands of years – it is clear that it will take time for us to educate ourselves about how it is that we have limited our ability to govern ourselves because of having been so used to existing ‘under the direction of’ somebody else’ to take care of our lives. Government can mean ‘mind control’  and this is precisely what we have done thus far: we all accepted and allowed a structure of power and control to dictate our lives, therefore it is not to blame only a few for this, but instead understanding how we did it, why we did it and most importantly how it is that the ability to reconstitute ourselves is in our hands.

 

  • This is how we can’t blame the government for ‘not doing its job’ – we haven’t just ben sufficiently informed to realize that it was never the real intention of any elite/ governing class to better the lives of the people – this is directly linked with the hierarchical structures of religion wherein money became the new god in our reality that still has the power to decide upon our very own lives and well being. This is why no government has worked to be an example that can be applicable to all, this is why all governments have had exclusive interests on the monetary side rather than focusing on supporting people’s lives to be supported to exist in the best way possible. It should be quite obvious by now that there has never been a genuine intention to establish life in equality – this is why we’ve had all these various forms of government that have only served the interests of those that implement them. It is about time we realize that we are the ones that have accepted and allowed the governments that we have by our individual abdication of Self Responsibility.

 

 

  Solution                                                              

  • Self Governance is the ability to direct ourselves according to the Law of our Being: Equality and Oneness as Life. This means that there can be no god, no patriarch, no leader, no government as a separate entity ‘above us’ dictating the way that we should all live by – Our ‘Government’ will be existent as the joint effort of each individual existing in Self-Governance. This means that each individual will be educated to take individual responsibility for everything that the governments were intended to do. Governments won’t exist as a selected group of ‘powerful decision makers,’ it will only be a group of people that can be proposed to supervise the efficiency of the system according to their  particular skills and abilities, their lifetime experiences or being experts in certain areas to ensure that everything is running  according to that which ensures the best living quality of life is produced and sustained by all the various sectors of our societies that make our lives possible. 

 

  • This is  a sui generis form of ‘governance,’ it has no previous parallel or point of comparison to any other regime existent in the past, because these individuals as overseers won’t form part of a ‘superior elite’ trained to rule over others, nor will anyone be specifically proposed as a governor/ president according to particular groups’ interests – No, government will exist as the individual self directive process to always create and generate that which is best for all life – one by one. This will be possible as the ability of each individual to stand in Self Responsibility, Self Honesty, Integrity and Self Will  to ensure that everything that we do and conduct ourselves to live by as a society, is leading to a certain best for all outcome through direct democratic processes that will facilitate our direct participation more so than any other previous electoral process – the old structure of two or more choices to vote for people will cease to exist as such. What we will vote on is the ways in which we want to direct ourselves according to what we will be informed and sufficiently educated to understand will lead to a best for all outcome. This will be a matter of scientific and mathematical fact rather than any other form of preference since we will be dealing with physical reality systems to manage our living conditions in this reality.

 

  • As an example, we already have the internet and our voices are already being heard through organizations and places where we can all share perspectives on what would be best way to direct ourselves/ our lives in our current societies; However, money is still a problem  and major obstacle to not implement this form of governance, because that would bring down the structures that hold the economy in place. This is why in Equal Money Capitalism and Equal Money System, every project, every idea, every innovation in education, science, technology, infrastructure, resource management, health services, production, etc., will be able to be voted on by everyone that wishes to do so.  This will require at the same time sufficient education to each individual to ensure that the proposals are understood in common sense and that what is Best for All is always considered as the intended outcome, for we will all have a present reminder of how bad tings can go when we abdicate our responsibility to decide and delegate it in the hands of a few ones trained to be greedy of power to never see beyond their own interests – which also became our nature as well.

 

  • The solution to greed, power and control in a governmental power structure will come by  dissolving the government as an all seeing entity driven in its ultimate purpose of maintaining a corporation well fed by an enslaved society locked into a prison that we have all cooperated to build. Yes, it will take time to establish for the first time an absolute state of self-governance, however it is only as individuals, standing in equal self responsibility and self honesty that we can direct and guide our lives in the best way possible. This is what Equality implies. there are no leaders, there are no kings, no royalty, no hegemons, no popes but only individuals that are self regulated according to that which is best for ourselves and everyone in equality

 

Read more about 319. Political Power in Equal Money Capitalism here

 

“We understand and realize that we are responsible for what we have created in this life by our acceptance, allowance and consent, both individually and collectively; and in that awareness of true responsibility we undertake to embody our own power and authority to correct that which has been manifest in dereliction of responsibility to uphold and honor all life. As such, we undertake, by this declaration of intention and the acceptance thereof, to commit ourselves to heal this world in every form, in every corner and for every living thing. In this we recognize the inherent power in such responsibility and that all can be made whole once again if built on a foundation of responsibility, oneness and equality for all life. At the same moment, we see that all beings have such power through the capacity of self-forgiveness, for to forgive another still separates that other from their own responsibility to see what they have wrought and to choose through self-forgiveness of free will and volition to correct the former course. Every individual has that power for themselves and that power is embodied in the application of self-forgiveness. We must start by first forgiving ourselves for what we have accepted and allowed as the current conditions on planet Earth. Therefore, by acknowledging our own responsibility, we empower others to follow and to begin to take the steps to make amends and to atone for what has been done before. To atone means to enter a state of being “at one,” by standing one and equal with all life and each other. By so doing, each one is erasing the illusion of external power and control that has manifested in the form of bondage and slavery in this world.” – Ken Cousens

 

 

 

Rewards                                                              

  • Self Governance is thus that ideal yet very realistic and practical application of living as self realized individuals that understand who we really are as equals as Life. This means nothing else but honoring each other as life, ensuring each other’s well being as our own, living to expand and express ourselves to our utmost potential, ensuring no superior entities or beliefs are created that may disrupt this Equality, ensuring no one is left behind, ensuring everyone is equally granted access to everything that we require to live in the best possible way.

 

  • Our Freedom in Equality, our ability to choose the best way to conduct our lives, the best way to educate ourselves, the best ways to feed ourselves, to produce what we will consume in the realization that there’s been utmost care and inherent respect for all life forms and resources that we use to make our lives possible, we will be able to direct our lives in a Self Honest manner, because no one will be ‘setting the tone’ of our lives from the top, because there will be no top – only equals at the same level of The Earth as the Life that we will instead learn how to Live, Enjoy and Express in.

 

  • These rewards of Self-Governance will exist according to the Living Principle of Life in Equality embodied by each one of us  – there will be no single ting that is produced, labored for, published, adopted as educational system or entertainment that goes without our communal consent and agreement of it being in fact what is best for all. This is where we have to understand that Self Governance is a matter of living by the principle of Participatory Equality wherein that which is best for all is ensured by each one’s self investigation, education and practice of this living principle, so that we can all trust each other to in fact be voting, deciding and opting for the best living condition that is possible for all of us to live by here on Earth, along with all the animals, plants and resources that will be fully recognized as equal and one to the life substance that we all  are. Honoring one another as Equals ensures that all our thoughts, words, deeds and intentions are always leading to a best for all outcome.

 

  • We will all ensure to forever eradicate the figures that stood as the symbols of power and control: No hegemon, No monarch, No absolutist, no totalitarian dictator, not tyrant, no corporate powers behind politicians,  no king, no queen, no pope, no, no cult leaders, no military chief is ever again to take control or ‘steer’ the populations at their personal will  – Never again Masters and Never again Slaves – only Equality as Life.

 

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347. How to Become the Change in this World? Equal Money

How did we shape ourHuman Nature’? We just have to consider how it is that  the 99% have abdicated self responsibility and allowed a 1% to take ‘all the power’ as all the money to control over the majority – only a belief system as strong as ‘god’ could do this, and it is called our monetary system – it is our creation and all the consequences are a reflection of the beliefs we held as truths without a question – it is about time we understand the ‘Missing link’ in our process of Change in Humanity and walk the practical steps to Become the Change that we want to see in this world.

 

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Problem                                                                

  • Continuing from 346. Manumission with Equal Money 

    Since the beginning of our time, humans have organized in groups/ societies and communities to ensure that we would always have our survival guaranteed. However, physical force and dominance made it possible for some to create a hierarchical organization where the strongest one would be able to force/ have power over another to do whatever they wanted them to do which would essentially mean doing ‘their job’ for them or else a form of punishment and abuse would ensue. If we look at money and what it has become, it is the representation and reflection of this threat-creating  process in an inverse manner, it is not that if you don’t do the work you’ll get physically or mentally abused, if you have No money you  won’t Have any means to support yourself until you Do get a job and get your ‘freedom’ back. This is the mechanism of slavery and survival that we are all existing in.

 

  • Culture became the  ‘sentimental and emotional’ coercive element in our society to reinforce values, behaviors, belief systems, patterned socialization that could benefit the same economic and political powers in place. This is where we are born into desiring to be ‘rich and famous by having all the money in the world’ and equating that to the purpose of life in itself, while life in fact has no purpose other than existing in a self-regulated and sustainable manner, which is something we have simply not implemented in our every day living understanding of our role within this world system. We turned life into a ‘purpose’ and gave ourselves a ‘reason to exist’ and that was shaped according to the same values and mechanism that would ensure the world system is kept in place – this is where everywhere in our media, books, traditions, religion, family, teachers, in every single relationship that we’ve formed this same patterning exists: we are meant to seek happiness in life but of course, such happiness is not ‘for Free.’  Yet we seek ‘Freedom’ without even being aware of how we don’t even own our own lives the moment we sign the contract to exist as part of a system created by ourselves  to only care about one’s wellbeing, and be a ‘self-sufficient individual’ with no other purpose but to achieve personal satisfactions, while ignoring the relationships of abuse that one has to ‘make use of’ and partake in order to get to ‘make a living’ and furthermore get to such desired superior social status i.e., becoming wealthy, influential and dominant in society, the survival of the fittest crowned and legitimized by everyone as a dream come true. But where in this equation is an equal consideration of this benefit being available and possible or all individuals equally?

 

  • Our Education at school and home is another main tool to ensure that every person is indoctrinated into the ways of the system. This is where we were taught to obey, to be able to perform, compete and be fear driven to accomplish our tasks to get things ‘right’ even if we don’t understand the purpose of what we are learning for is for in practical reality. Everything that would be required to be of practical understanding of how our ecosystem works, how to develop critical thinking, how to become practically skilled to work with the resources and tools that we already have, how to ‘think out of the box’ in order to find more efficient ways of living, how to regard at all times  everyone’s wellbeing, how to sustain the environment, the animals, how to not create special relationships but honor each other as equal parts of the world we live in, how to be self responsible beings… none of this is part of our Education, it is instead the process formation of a complacent slave bound by fear and constant requirement of money to live that makes of our Education the greatest well masked form of indoctrination that we are all required to fulfill if we ‘want to make it’ in this world. Never did we question why it is that all of such knowledge and information is required in such abstract manner with no practical application in our day to day living – yet we regarded as ‘important’ because of having to be graded according to how much we could memorize it or not.

 

  • Every form of knowledge on how the systems that control our lives are created is reduced to pamphlet-like information in our schooling years with no further detail other than an extensive amount of ‘facts’ we are supposed to accept ‘how they are’ and ‘have always been,’ shutting down any other possible ways to change the way things work in our world and research new ways to live and coexist in our societies – this is what Schools should be for, but we know it is not so.

 

  • Our thoughts being that basic unit of interaction with our environment and assessment of ourselves as ‘who we are’ throughout our lives becomes the essential programming that we are constantly defining ourselves by every time that what we think is not what is best for all, every time that we reduce life to a set of experiences that can be bought and consumed, every time that we look forward to accumulate and possess something that we have no idea how it has been created, under which conditions and to what extent the Earth’s resources, slave labor as in bad working conditions, low wages, extensive amounts of fossil fuels were used to distribute the thing, plus all the legal permits, marketing campaigns and retail strategies that ensure the profit making purposes in the benefit of a few – this is what we have become, this is what we are currently fueling by every single product we buy and consume.

 

  • Being Greedy only means that one would participate more in an indirect manner with buying more things, but every single person is equally participant in these cycles of death and destruction in order to make or lives sustainable and happy. This is the enslavement that exists at a thought level transformed into an economic behavior where we certainly lack looking at the consequences of this enslaved cycle imposed onto society. We learned that we can ‘be free’ with money but we haven’t even questioned who taught us to desire more? Who told us that being rich is the ultimate happiness? Who gave us the ‘hint’ that life was all about ‘following your own dreams’ without any other care but our personal satisfaction? Of course, this is the corporate mentality that had to become ‘our living philosophy’ in order to keep the game running for the minority only. Yet we all complied to the game. This is The Trap we’re in, which is also another documentary I suggest watching in order to understand the multiple levels of  control that we’ve existed in. 

    Solution                                                                            

  • Continuing from 346. Manumission with Equal Money

    The solution begins within the individual to get to know and understand the mechanisms in which our mind works, how we have been subject to and subjugated by our own thinking patterns, emotions, feelings, beliefs, ideologies, preferences, religions, culture and any other form of identity including our professions to ensure we would only accept our role in the system ‘as is’ and only learned how to make the most money in it, but never actually dare to question it, which implies that this process entails a recognition of our collective responsibility upon every single aspect that is taking place in this world.

 

  • Now that we are aware what we’ve been participating in our system, how we have managed ourselves in our societies without a question and how we have complained to ‘follow our dreams’ without even knowing what type of agenda such dreams complied to, we are capable of making an informed decision: do I remain as a slave by my own acceptance and allowance, being colluded in a system of corruption where we have money or die or I stand up, take Self Responsibility and ensure that I become the solution that is required in this world?

     
  • Equal Money is all about choosing Life, choosing to no longer be a slave to a system that we have all participated, fueled and complied to believing that we were only ‘taking care of ourselves’ but never questioning who and what was being abused in such process and why we had to ‘fight for our survival’ instead of being supported by virtue of being alive.  This is thus the first step that one take to become part of the change that we require to create in this world: one begins to live and apply the principle of Equality as Life through a Process of Self Honesty and Self Forgiveness. This is the only way that we have realized one is able to step out of the brainwashing and mind control that we have perpetuated as our own identities, as our own preferences and ‘human traits,’ because it involves recognizing how we abdicated responsibility to life, our deliberate disregard for one another as equals, our abuse imposed onto the resources that sustain our lives in our deliberate pursue of progress and ‘development’ that was never understood was just another way of ‘redefining’ profit making purposes as our ‘way of living.’

 

  • Self-interest, greed, selfishness, lack of common sense, negligence, deliriums of grandeur, envy, jealousy, competitive natures and abusive behaviors must be deconstructed behaviors at an individual level. This we do through the written process of Writing, Self-Forgiveness to recognize what we have Accepted and Allowed ourselves to be and become and at the same time, write down the process of Self Correction that we determine ourselves to live and apply, ensuring that the end result of this self introspection and self investigation is a definitive Self Corrective living process that always  leads to what is Best for All Life in Equality.

 

  • To do this and ensure one is actually implementing the living principles of Life in Equality, we have also set up the necessary platforms of support listed at the end of this blog.  Desteni is the platform of Individual Support in order to integrate the Principle of Life in Equality to understand how our lives can change, our ‘human nature’ and ‘human behavior’ can change by our Self-Willed decision to no more participate in all the thinking processes, the emotions, feelings, desires, wants and needs that go beyond what is required to live in a dignified manner – this is the ‘Missing link’ that has not been implemented yet in all our ‘World Change Processes’ throughout history. It is about time we let the world know that we got the solution, we got the answers and in this to have a global effect: Each individual’s Self Application Counts.

 

 

Rewards                                                  

  • The process of Self Honesty and Self Forgiveness implies ourselves giving our own permission and direction to birth ourselves as life in the Physical. This means that it is a process wherein we individually ensure that each of our thoughts, words and actions stand in the Best Interest of ourselves and All as Equals. We will no longer be born into a system of monetary enslavement, but instead money will become the surety to the means we require to live and we will be able to ensure  that no one is left behind.

 

  • The birth of a new Human Nature gives way to our New Living Behavior where Life in Equality will exist as a stable, reliable and sustainable living environment that sets the foundation for us to honor each other once that we will no longer have to compete and fight for our survival, which will ensue a new collective understanding of what it is to live in equal interdependence and support and how we can in fact learn to love our neighbor as ourselves. This is possible through the Process of Self Forgiveness in Self Honesty where we learn to love ourselves, to develop ourselves to our fullest potential and ensure that we become the living example of what it is possible when our lives are dedicated not only for our own well being, but for everyone’s wellbeing in Equality. This is the Principle of Life in Equality and by living it, Heaven on Earth will be here as our very words, thoughts and deeds directed to generate Life in Equality.

 

Day 349: The Message of Jesus

  • By implementing this living change in our behavior, our actions, our words, our way of thinking, perceiving and expressing ourselves we are able to generate a suitable living environment for all children to be born and integrate themselves to an environment where all they will learn and apprehend as their understanding of themselves, their world and each other will be based in the principle of life in Equality, developing common sense to ensure that all relationships formed, all decisions made, all expression is always leading to a best for all outcome. This will be our collective responsibility to ensure we become the pillars of the future by setting the example of a new human behavior and nature that will always honor life in Equality, where no slaves and no abuse toward life will ever exist – this is what each one of us must take Self-Responsibility for, this is how each one of us becomes the politician, the lawyer, the father, the mother, the teacher, the  authority as life that guards everyone’s interest as our own, because we recognize we are One and Equal.

 

 

 

 

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345. Freedom in Equal Money

 

One cannot ‘be free’ from having to breathe every single moment to remain alive. This  should suffice in order to understand the physical laws all living beings are subject to, yet we created the word ‘freedom’ as a convenient and necessary carrot on the stick to ‘live up to’ without first questioning why are we born into  slavery and how it is that we have perpetuated this system where our life has become and asset and part of a greater business scheme, where we are taught to ‘fight for freedom’ and indulge in all forms of Experiences to ‘Feel Free’ but, Can Freedom be Real in our physical reality and if so, how can it be lived within the Principle of Life in Equality?
 
 

 

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Definition:

freedom
n    noun
1    the power or right to act, speak, or think freely. the state of having free will.
2    the state of being free. unrestricted use of something.
3    (freedom from) the state o

  • Our very own breath is subject to the money that we can make/ not make  in the available jobs wherein we learn to ‘make a living’ and have a life based on survival instead of actual self expression in Equality. Is Freedom possible in this world? Is the physical world able to provide such ‘freedom’ as the definition above denotes?  We can only seek freedom due to recognizing the enslavement we are all bound to where our very own life becomes a contract of constant commercial relationships where the outcome is always seeking to make the most profit – relationships of abuse – that is then turned into a a necessary agreement we submit ourselves to in order to have enough quantity of money to cover our living necessities and if we have a bit more than that, we call it ‘freedom’ and feeling secured by this having-money experience. But why is such secured and comfortable living not an assured support for our lives by virtue of being alive? And why is it that only a few can have such comfort and extra money as freedom while others are subject to work to generate the products and services that the wealthy ones buy with such ‘freedom’ wherein the poor’s need for money leads them to accept ‘any way’ to make the necessary to survive, yet at the same time dreaming of one day being ‘free’ from this system of perpetual self consumption with no regard for equal sustainability as an individual guarantee given by the state.

 

  • Freedom is  a concept that generates the belief that our liberation relies upon having more than enough money to decide ‘how we want to live,’ our ability to ‘express’  and ‘the way’ we want to express it, while at the same time being taught and ‘encouraged’ to pursue the options that we are presented with to exercise such freedom according to prefabricated models of expression, identity and individuality that can be bought and sold as experiences of empowerment as along with all the other necessary products and services that we require to live. ‘Freedom’ is but an experience generated by having money to live or more than enough to buy the strictly necessary. This becomes the foundation of the degenerative concept of  Free Will as an apparent self determination that ‘supports’  the ability to ‘choose who you are’ in a world where every single breath you take is subject to the amount of money you have and even in that, one is taught ‘how’ to spend it.

 

  • This is indulging in accepted and allowed self-created desires, where buying and consuming becomes a synonym of self-gratification and self-interest  as a ‘well earned freedom’ by working to earn money in a system that is founded upon default slavery-status from birth to death and living within coercive means wherein you either work to get money or starve. 

 

  • Why do we have to fight for freedom? Why is it a ‘right’ and how we have abdicated such self determination in this system? Is Freedom  real or is it another product of feel-good words to evade, deny and neglect the responsibility we hold toward each other as part of the whole in Equality?

 

 

freedom
1    the power or right to act, speak, or think freely. the state of having free will.

  • As reviewed in the Might Makes Right series, power is a relationship of abuse that generates the necessary Rights for people to ‘defend’ or ‘fight for’ and justify inequality. Freedom is commonly experienced as a state of mind, an empowerment in a self-righteous way without realizing that this ‘fight’  implies that we had to abdicate our ‘right to life’ from birth in order to later on have to reclaim ‘our freedom’ or ‘fight for it’ within the same system that has ensured that we are never actually in fact ‘free’ to have access to that which we require to live in Equality to everyone else. This means that we generated a relationship of separation from our living expression and to a subjugating and binding relationship of ‘power’ and ‘rights’ that is currently existent in the foundation of our political, economic and social organizations.

 

  • Our actions are dictated by thoughts which stem from our preprogrammed Mind wherein every single definition we have linked to words is meant to satisfy an individual self interest to feel ‘better’ about ourselves without looking at the root and cause of our eternal longing for ‘freedom’ as the consequential outflow of an inherent limitation existent in our current world system. Therefore, if our freedom is defined according to being able to ‘think freely’ we can already know that such freedom has never in fact existed, because all our words as thoughts and deeds have not been self determined in common sense and according to that which is best for all. Otherwise we would have already lived in a natural state of freedom in Equality and Freedom would not even be a concept to ‘long for’ but an integral aspect of our self-honest and common sensical living principles.

 

 

  the state of being free. unrestricted use of something.

  • Freedom should not be the meaning of ‘liberating oneself from oppression,’ since this would imply that the conditions that generate such enslavement would be constantly re assured every time that ‘Freedom’ is sought or fought for. An example is how every time that we use money we comply to this relationship of enslavement wherein we ratify that it is only with money that we’re able to have the necessary means to live.

 

  • Our current understanding of Freedom also entails the ability to have experiences that we call ‘living’ such as buying/ consuming and generating desires upon the ideals that we obtain from our family, our education, society and its 24/7 mirroring media where all values, habits, vocabulary and human experience is imprinted to people through our entertainment and ‘educational’ systems, which is in fact the necessary indoctrination to be shaped and formed according to become part of the working force that is sold to generate an absolute well being to a minority in a system where ‘those at the top’ experience ‘the most freedom’ by enslaving the majority to generate it for them i.e., having people working in slave labor conditions to generate the goods that people with enough money are able to afford.

 

  • Freedom becomes ‘libertinage’ in this conception of ‘unlimited abilities’ in a finite physical world where every thought word and deed does have an effect on everyone in an equal basis. This is why when a concept like ‘Free Market’ is imposed, one associates the sense of ‘liberation’ with it and ‘unlimited capacities’ without considering that this physical world cannot sustain such ‘unlimited nature’ and/or capacities that are only a product of a concept that gives the right for desires to exist in our minds that such ‘unlimited nature’ can be true in fact, without seeing that it holds no common sense or physical understanding of the laws we are all subject to where we can Definitely deplete the resources of this Earth if we continue trying to impose our desires and dreams and use our life force to ‘make it a reality.’ This has been the current accepted and allowed abuse because we haven’t learned how to honor ourselves yet, and this is also why we believe we have ‘free reign’ upon reality – have turned of our world into a massive profit-making machine which is busy in  a state of free fall decay wherein new measures are being generated to protect the minorities at the top and keep the majority controlled from commanding further ‘acts of freedom’ that are identified as abuse, without realizing that ‘reclaiming freedom’ is only trying to deal wit the consequence of an accepted and allowed born-into-slavery condition we all exist as in our world system.

 

3    (freedom from) the state of not being subject to or affected by (something undesirable).

  • The level of enslavement, limitation and self-imprisonment is created every time that we speak words that result in actions and behaviors that stand in the name of personal interest that lead to harm and abuse in disregard of what is best for all. However, in our system we are taught that being ‘Free’ is having the ability to ‘express’ and call it ‘free speech’ and that is how if someone decides that their expression is to denigrate, abuse, extort or control others –even wage war to protect such freedom – it will be done and blatantly accepted and allowed by everyone regardless because of the false premise of ‘If I want my freedom to be respected, I must respect other’s freedom as well’ And this becomes the glue with which we bind each other to relationships of abuse, extortion, exploitation, murder, violation of physical common sense and the ultimate disintegration of any spec of life that we could hold within ourselves. Freedom thus becomes the accepted and allowed form of abuse, to buy and consume the life that we have placed ‘on sale,’ where every time we obtain something that we require to live, we reinstate and reenact the very acts of complacency to a system that works as the reverse of providing life and security for all in equality.

 

4    a special privilege or right of access, especially that of full citizenship of a particular city given to a public figure as an honour

  • We are born into debt in a system where our very Birth Certificate is already an acceptance of our lives lived to serve a corporate system where life is made an asset and sold in a society that functions more like a market than a living playground of ‘unlimited capacities,’ where that which we require to sustain our lives is deliberately turned into product that we can only have access to with money, and money can only be accessed if one works in the system to grant ourselves such ‘right to life.’ This is how Survival is granted through complying and adopting Enslavement as a way to ‘make a living’ – this is existent from the moment we accept money as that necessary entity that enables us to live or die if we have a lack thereof.

 

  • There is No Freedom in our world where we become part of a social contract based on a business-model instead of a life supportive system where man-made laws determine what is supposed to be our ability to express and live. Accepting our citizenship is supposed to be the entitlement of our ‘rights’ and ‘guarantees,’ but again, we don’t question why the same state that is supposed to grant these ‘rights’ imposes limitations from the moment we arrive into this world and the food we eat is sold and not given as a living guarantee.

 

  • We are introduced to money as a way to ‘obtain more freedom’ in this world, little do we question why we created such an entity to guarantee our ability to live, and why not everyone s granted with this access. We abdicated this ‘freedom’ and complied to only have certain ‘options’ in life and claim we have free choice in a world where nothing is in fact secured, since life is something that cannot be secured with money, otherwise we would have many people buying insurances to remain alive in order to avoid the natural cycles of life and death.


    This same cycle is accepted and allowed as our limitation: we are born to give away our life to a system wherein limitation, abuse, subjugation to ‘greater powers’ exist the moment we think that we are in fact acting in ‘our best interest,’ while in fact, in this current system ‘following our dreams’ is only the result of accepting what we are presented as ‘our dreams and desires’ as  and claim such dreams to be the key to our freedom, never questioning why we cannot dare to accept the fact that seeking for freedom already implies we are enslaved – there is no freedom possible where no matter how much money you have, you depend continually on breathing to be able to be alive, that implies having to be bound to a relationship of consumption that is currently turned into an ‘experience’ for the sake of enhancing greed as a means to generate more profit for a few. This is thus what also supports the commercialization and monetization of life, our substance and that which we are all made of.

 

 

5    archaic familiarity or openness in speech or behaviour.

 

  • The moment we think, the moment we experience an emotion or a feeling, we are already ‘under the influence’ of the mind, we are then subject to/controlled by energetic experiences where no physical common sense exists. There is no Free will existent where every single thought that we have accepted without a question as ‘who we are’ is a product of the same system that we have lived in and only complained about for not granting us this living-right to ‘freedom,’ without generating or proposing solutions to change it either. If our behavior was truly meant to set us free, we would have stopped desired to generate ‘the most’ only for ourselves because we would have understood how No one is Free until All is Free. This is Self Honesty and this is the base foundation of what Equal Money implies.

 

 

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Self Honesty is Freedom from Self Deception” – Bernard Poolman 

 

  • Freedom can only exist in Equality – it is the living understanding that we are subject to physical laws that must be taken into consideration in order to ensure that the use of the natural resources to live is done in a moderated and regulated manner that benefits everyone equally. This is a preventive measure to ensure that each one’s access to goods and services required to live are guaranteed. This is  a Physical Common Sensical Freedom that can be obtained through the necessary changes at a political, economic and social level to be Educated to understand this common well being as an individual principled living  in common sense as what is best for all.

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  • We have to disengage from our current laws and policies in which we are born into by taking responsibility of the systems that have held such ‘world order’ until today. This is part of the realizations where we understand and accept that we have the ability to decide what is best for all, which must be  the foundation and directive principle to liberate one another from the binding forces of profit making schemes, value systems and interests that we have all adopted without a question in the name of our personal gain without ensuring common benefit at all.

    This is where Self Honesty exists: we cannot ‘be freed’ by fighting against the system or ignoring it, or overriding the current order with separate forms of government or communal living.  We All have to  Take Self Responsibility for the enslavement we have all complied to in the first place. We make use of our democratic systems to become a political party that presents the Principle of Life in Equality so that it can be made an option to be voted along with the current well known ‘old orders’ that we are still subject to.  This is how we will use the current legal and political systems to reinstate  directive Self Responsibility to our living substance and lead ourselves/ our lives in a common sustainable well being principled living where everyone’s expression is exercised in moderation and self-regulation within the understanding and consideration of our thoughts, words and deeds been of no harm and no abuse toward one another. This also implies the liberation of our imposed power systems onto nature, the animal kingdom and every part of this ecosystem that has suffered the consequences of a man-made righteous system of abuse.

 

“Abuse as in abnormal use is to chose to not allow equal freedom in the context of what is best for all” – Bernard Poolman

 

 

  • Freedom will be a living integrity where Self Honesty resides in the understanding that everything we require to live are resources that must be made available to all. Hence our virtue to guard everyone’s best interest will ensure that such freedom is never again revoked by individuals or groups attempting to maim and control others in means of obtaining the necessary to live, this is prevented and eradicated by giving equal access to the goods and services required to live in dignity for all.

 

 

  • Freedom won’t mean  buying, consuming, reproducing the lifestyles of ‘the rich’ and ‘own everything we want.’ We won’t feed the greed  that would re-generate a level of enslavement and limitation toward each other as well as a dishonoring behavior toward the life that we abuse to generate such ‘states of mind.’ This is why through Equal Money we can ensure that this Freedom is lived within common sensical practical understanding of the physical laws we are subject to, such as the natural cycles that we have to consider in order to generate the means for our sustenance, as well as ensuring that  our actions and attitudes are always aligned to be part of this common well being that is generated by the very words we speak and act upon, wherein our freedom is our ability to ensure everyone’s well being is secured as our own, by our own work, by our own self-willed decision to live according to the principle of what is best for all, that’s the only condition where actual freedom can exist.

 

  • Freedom from our personal Mind Control is the process that has already begun in which through a personal written process each word that we have tainted with experiences and turned into ‘longing desires,’ wants and needs is taken through a process of writing, applying Self Forgiveness in Self-Honesty to understand how it is in the very words we speak and the way we act and behave toward one another have bound each other to self destructive and abusive behaviors, which in turn exists as the foundation of our current world system: we are it.

    Writing yourself to Freedom is the actual Key to decipher the codes and blueprint of our mind, identify the points of self interest, self dishonesty, abuse, greed and all forms of ego in order to redefine our words so that we may live them/ as them in the best interest of all individuals in Equality as life, ensuring that every word, thought and deed is determined to generate relationships of interdependence and symbiotic behavior that lead to generate what’s best for all.

 

  • Equal Money is the necessary tool at an economic level to understand how it possible to equalize these relationships in an accountable/orderly manner to sustain and maintain our lives  in this physical reality where having food, water, shelter, clothing, secure and dignified living environments, healthcare, work/jobs, educational skills and facilities and all the infrastructure of human and material support for this is granted to each other by virtue of recognizing our ability to coexist in means of supporting our assured well being in equality – it is a tool to ensure no abuse is recreated by having the ability to control / have power over others, which is in fact what will guarantee each other’s freedom from enslavement, coercion and subjugation to ‘hierarchical powers.’ Equal Money means the laws of our physical requirements decide what everyone needs to have a successful living.

 

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  • Freedom will no longer exist as a ‘separate concept’ or a ‘yearning ideal’ to look up to –it will be the very foundation of our  ability to exist as Individuals with Integrity recognizing each other’s Equality as Life, ensuring that our words, thoughts and deeds are always lived and expressed to honor ourselves and every single being, part and particle that coexists with us here on Earth, ensuring that each other’s living requirements are guaranteed by a establishing a system that we can all participate in to generate the necessary means of sustenance in abundance and optimal living quality standards for everyone’s benefit.

 

  • Living in Self Honesty is ensuring that we all guard each other’s best interest as our own, this means that no harm or abuse is possible once that we all understand that we all have to contribute to generate the best living environment each one of us want to live in. This ensures no competition, no war, no rivalry or ‘survival of the fittest’ conditions are imposed ever again toward one another –  our freedom is created at a collective level through Self Responsibility, sustainability and equal regard to one another to maintain this  living behavior as an actual state of freedom.

 

  • Freedom means no mind control, no slavery, no fear of survival, no subjugation to laws we don’t understand,  no more hierarchical powers, no more legal means of oppression, binding behaviors or illegal operations that lead to a state of insecurity in our world. Instead all the necessary support to Live will be Given and Received in Equality which will generate the certainty of having the best living conditions for our lives to thrive in Equality for ourselves, our children and the generations to come to be born into an actual state of Freedom.

 

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285. Who Taught us What We Want in Life?

Whatever we have placed as happiness, our ultimate goal and desire has been only the perpetuation of the configuration of a world where Money is God. If I was living in a community where life I about working together to maintain a sustainable environment, entertainment as we know it today would not mean a constant feedback from people and media in order to know and ‘remind’ ourselves what our ‘goal’ and ‘purpose’ as humanity must be, which is often answered with the premise of: one has to be Happy to call this a life, one has to make the most money to make of this life, a life, you have to be able to ‘get what you want’ and money is implied  in this, and if you don’t achieve this – then you’re a failure.

But why didn’t we ever turn the tables to realize that unless everyone is happy as in having all the necessary means to live, then I cannot be happy either? This would have lead us astray from the path we’re so addicted to now, the path of: I only care about my experience and fuck the rest.

 

Who made the rules and who benefits from this? The consumerist mind that we have trained ourselves as can only find itself being perfectly fine and in order within an environment/scenario that views such purposes in life as normal and the ‘general standard’ for humanity. Our mind as it exist now, is the engine that keeps this entire system running within its intrinsic nature of disparity, inequality, debt and dishonor:  being the lie that one has to compete against another to get ‘the most’ of what you’re able to earn in your field/profession, that ‘who you are is what you buy and own’ and accordingly, you’ll be able to sell yourself as the accumulation of your education – which is only available for those with money and willing to make more money – so, this is the premise to understand how we stopped calling a tree a tree and it became another good to exploit and sell and become part of the market where everything that we are as human expression places a price tag onto everything, diminishing life to a set of two single verbs: buying and selling, we’ve become the life-taggers and it all begun the moment we turned life into a good and a service instead of just Living.

 

With this background, it is interesting to see that we value ourselves according to the values that were already set/ in place and never questioned them. Then according to this, we create our sense of lack, our inadequacy, our ‘struggle’ to live that is set as a constant reminder through our advertisement, our talks, our behavior with each other in order to ‘make sense’ of our system that has No Common Sense, because it currently benefits from such constant inner conflict and strife to ‘become superior’ in order to earn more money and buy all the things that we are taught will fulfill our lives/ make us happy- it is self abuse that is supposed to be rewarded at the end of your journey. This is unacceptable, because it implies us having first had the audacity to grab everything that is on this Earth, Of this Earth – including ourselves –  and give it a name and a purpose, and with it a Value. From that moment on, setting up a system wherein we could create an illusion of power as the accumulation of such fictional value that could be rendered as money, and capitalize it/grow it through buying more/ owning more and have the ability to get more just by agreeing on this value, and then get entirely possessed by desiring such fictional value in itself, that everything that substantiates such money becomes ‘the Value’ in itself to trade, to buy and consume and get a Feeling out of it –but where did Life go? 

 

Now, to be able to get such Feeling from things, we have to buy them and consume them or simply Own them. Own says Won and as such, we’ve set our living environment as s chessboard game wherein you either win and get the most, where money is a certainty in your life and no longer a strife, or remain a slave working for money, never having access to that ‘surreal’ idea of being able to have it all. But who said that we should aspire to ‘have it all’? Where in our minds have we gotten so fixated with this belief of being super rich and having access to all the wonders – that are only defined as such through copycat/ monkey says, monkey do mechanisms –  in life through money? It is a ‘cultural’ thing and as such it must be considered as the necessary template of brainwashing in which we’re born into: all our beauty standards, all our ideals of success, all our professions and dreams are now configured to be suited in this one single aspect of making the most money.

 

The trick is that, in a system where not everyone was able to make ‘all the money’ and not everyone as in every single human being having a Real equal opportunity to become a ‘millionaire’ for obvious reasons, the struggle was set to keep everyone running after such elusive dream. If you had no desires, no such aspirations but to be here, be a human that has the necessary to live, that works and contributes to a certain activity that supports your own development and that of your community, wherein simply money wouldn’t have to be ‘the Goal’ that is embedded with greed and a detached sense of self being ‘only an individual’ and forgetting about the fact that we live as a whole, a an organism that is composed of many selfs that make life on Earth possible, and this includes animals, plans, the atmospheric environments and everything that we can call ‘our planet Earth.’  Great – however, what have we done with this single acceptance of life being meant to be successful only if you have money- and call this a certainty and a Matter of life? We have used it to condition our very lives to accept misery and suffering because ‘not everyone can win in this game until  you make enough money to Own such happiness and make more money out of it/ capitalize it’.

 

We’ve set the rules, we accepted the game, we are playing the game. The game is consuming the very life that gives the value to such money – one can’t eat gold or money as paper or metal coins– we have denigrated our sense of being to a non-existent sense of Neighborism that is willing to harm, abuse, step on another, compete in order to win the game, while the Earth as this planet never set such harmful and deceitful rules.

 

We have gone way too far with the game and we cannot continue directing our money to buy more stuff that we don’t need and call that a sign of success, because such ‘sign of success’ was never meant to be in accordance to living a life of mutual benefit with each other and the environment, it was born from abuse and it must end by each one of us considering how much of our lives we have defined according to money? You might end up seeing it is virtually everything that which has been conditioned by money.

 

So the question is why would we want to keep this system as is? How have we turned our natural resources, our ability to work/ cooperate and our skills and talents into money that capitalizes itself to make some have more than others –  quite a vile act that we’ve become, and the process of Self Forgiveness is Here and For Everyone: make a decision to become the +1 that creates a world that is no longer suited in these fixed values and instead, develop common sense to find the real meaning of life, of what it is to be a human being that can enjoy life when working together to create and maintain a new way of living wherein children won’t aspire to be ‘the richest man on the world,’ but an equal human being that supports life and our living environment with his/her creations, that is able to enjoy the daily interactions with fellow human beings that will no longer be tainted by this money-seal of convenience, idolatry, hypocrisy, greed and selfishness.

 

It is up to Us – you and I  – reading to ensure the old traits and ways that we followed to get us here are stopped and ended here, with our own decision to start veering all that we are and do toward this single change, to install and promote a real desire that every child should be educated with: to become the example of a human being that regards Life, his/ her own life as quite a great gift to experience, which will allow the child to realize that everything that is here should be equally given and received, because that is the movement of life, and that way, learning that we can reward ourselves in equal ways for any work that we do that is meant to support and make our living condition possible.

 

Only then can we consider ourselves being alive: our relationship with ourselves and each other will become the real meaning of life, because man is not an island and certainly our future cannot be fixed if we don’t work together: we’re in this together now

 

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The only real desire, want and need every single being should have is creating a system that is sustainable and able to provide for all in Equality as a Living Right, because in that, our happiness is assured.

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277. Finding it Hard to Accept Rewards

 

Why would we require ‘Rewards’ when the solutions to this world are placed – we should conform with that as a living principle, why do we have to ‘fantasize’ with all the ‘good stuff’ to support what’s best for all?

 

I will be walking this point because it is quite an underlying and quite well masked self-experience whenever we speak about the Rewards point within our proposal to establish the Equal Money Capitalist system specifically. You can read more abut it in the Economist’s Journey To Life.

 

Let’s look at the ‘reasoning’ behind this in the form of Internal Conversations:

-We shouldn’t require to have a positive drive to do what’s best for all

– we don’t deserve this, we have abused far too much to now only expect rewards for establishing a fair economic-system

– Why is it hard for me to speak all the ‘good things’ as rewards?

– We shouldn’t expect to have something ‘in it’ for us to move, that’s just too greedy

– Why would I want rewards on top of solving the problems?

 

 

When reading all these rewards and solutions to our current problems in the world, it is simply realizing how things should have always worked, I see that they are not meant to be ‘positively driven’ as an energetic experience that can lead us to feel momentarily ‘Great’ about ourselves or ‘Happy’- instead this is all about finally creating the necessary equilibrium to live as who and what we are, as equals in this world. However, there’s this inherent ‘lock’ or ‘barrier’ wherein the sheer acceptance of ‘all the good stuff/ what’s best for all’ would be just too much of a ‘good thing’ linking this establishment of Equality to a positive experience, which is what I then resist to fully embody as myself due to reasoning how all the defined negative in this world is ‘more real’ than all this positive things that are only created through abuse. So, I can spot the problems in this world and solutions – but, when it comes to rewards, I freeze out.

 

I was listening to the interview Quantum Mind Self Awareness – STEP 43 and point this was explained with a cool example that I could relate to in terms of identifying positivity with ‘happiness’ ‘good’ ‘love’ ‘joy’ and as such, it is as if I have placed a veto upon those words to promote them as a reward, because I have associated them with a great fallacy – however, that is within our current context wherein yes, only a few can experiment such grandeur due to having enough money to live very well and with all they need. However if everyone has such equal opportunity, then an actual happiness can emerge, an actual well being that is no longer a flickering momentary experience.

 

Self Forgiveness on the exploration around Rewards:

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only feel comfortable when speaking about the problems, the bad, the negative in this world and believe that I have a ‘hard time’ speaking about the solutions and that which is best for all, simply because of within my mind linking this to a point of abuse and deception that I find it hard to live as myself because I have linked the positive/ happy/ joyful experiences to money and as such linking money to evil/abuse wherein I then go into a point of avoiding talking about the benefits simply because I have not dealt with my own polarity construct of negative/bad stuff in reality as ‘the real deal’ of our world and all the good/ happy/ beneficial aspects to the Positive-experiences in the world that I have judged within myself extensively due to myself benefitting from it while knowing that not everyone has equal access to the benefits I have.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have ‘the least’ and experience myself as more of a real-benevolent person when rejecting or refusing money/ not looking for the benefits that money brings within this current world system due to a morality aspect that I have created with regards to it being Bad to enjoy yourself if you have money thus I realize that through judging I am creating more separation toward enjoyment as a reward in itself, thus I realize that we are presenting a solution of enjoyment that will be equally accessible for all in Equality and as such, there is no point in keeping judging this benefit, but instead establish ways in which it can be a certainty for all as a given right to benefit from everything that enables us to live in this world as equals.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link what’s ‘more real’ to a defined negativity and ‘bottom of the pit’ that I would deliberately go into in order to experience what I defined as that which is actually real and create an opposition toward anything that seemed ‘too good’/ ‘too benevolent’ / ‘too happy’ and within this, form and create an aversion to it, which means that

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a ‘gloomy-character’ that can only look at everything that is fucked in this existence as the real-reality and as such,  wanting to stick to this side of ‘reality’ than belonging to the fluffy-artificial positivity that I was brought up in, because it seemed simply not Real, not congruent with the reality that I would see was non-existent for everyone that had no money to live, that had no support to have a ‘happy life’ either, without realizing that in this I am denying myself from actually realizing that such experience is possible for everyone if we are all equally working to create and establish a world system that works for all equally.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link everything that is negative of this world as ‘the real reality’ wherein yes, the real reality currently is the majority that has no money to live a happy life – though within wanting to stick to this ‘negative experience’ as ‘what’s real’ it has now become something ‘hard’ to let go of which is why when it comes to writing and speaking words that imply what’s best for all and Rewards specifically, I see them as too fake/ too ‘out there’ / too manipulative just because of having linked all the negative of our reality as what’s real, without realizing that such reality certainly has to cease to exist and actually allow ourselves to live words that can actually support us to live and enjoy life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link the word ‘rewards’ with a positive charge and experience at a mind level.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link ‘what’s best for all’ with a ‘moreness’ point, without realizing that this is not about being more or positive, but re-establishing an order within this world that will enable life to be finally supported as it always should have been – and this does not imply now having to define me as ‘positive’ and perceive myself to be ‘out of character’ – thus

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being ‘out of character’ when looking at rewards and believing myself to be incapable of coming up with rewards because of believing that we don’t really deserve it, that I can only accept and implement the solutions, but no rewards.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link the word ‘rewards’ with a plastic card of frequent visitor in a posh –line of hotels and also a money-card wherein rewards were accumulated by my father’s account and how I would use these plastic cards of ‘rewards’ in order to buy more/ consume more, which I always thought was ‘for free’ (Read the previous entry to understand this point) and as such create a positive experience within consuming/ buying with such ‘rewards’ cards.

I realize that I have in fact linked rewards to buying/ consuming and within this, judging such benefits as ‘wrong’ due to how I have dedicated myself to judge this world and reality within a negative value and self-experience wherein the moment that solutions are presented I experience as if I ‘can’t’ simply take the ‘positive outcomes’ and write them out, because of not allowing myself to first clear the word rewards from the positive charge in itself.

 

What I realize is that this is still experienced because of currently having to exist within the transition point wherein we Know what’s best for all, we understand the problem, the root cause of this inequality – yet we are the ones that currently have the money and education to do something about it, which is an excuse to feel guilty for being existing within this fortunate position and looking it through the eyes of ‘me not being real because I have money and the protection that comes with it’ – instead of looking at it from the perspective of: I have money, I have access to education, I become the one that implements the solution – which is the position I have taken at a common sensical level, but I haven’t allowed myself to fully LIVE and Realize this as myself, as an actual possibility, because I haven’t yet forgiven myself for the guilt and shame that even having money and this fortunate position has become as an experience within me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold the reasoning of ‘I am not being real within my decision to support a system that is best for all because I have money and always had money to live well and have a proper environment to live in, which makes me part of the Elite that exists at the expense and abuse of those that have none’ – wherein within this statement, I have accepted and allowed myself to still exist within a form of guilt and shame, which is actually an egotistical self-experience that I have held on to in order to continue this personality which is obviously an obstacle to fully stand as the solution as what’s best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link the word ‘Rewards’ with being greedy and a positive person that is only looking after self-interest, which is how I have linked this word within the consumerist society that I was born into

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold the backchat ‘Why should we require rewards in this world to move’? wherein I am judging the way that I realize more people can in fact listen to a world-change process that will enable life to be supported for everyone – thus

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the means of promoting what’s best for all, instead of looking at the actual results that can come from in fact implementing that which we all know should have always been/ existed as, thus there is no ‘positive charge’ or ‘luring’ aspect to this, this is just using our current motivational-points and triggers to support that which has never been supported which is Life in Equality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link ‘what’s best for all’ to a positive resonance and as such see it as a polarity point to the negative that I have wanted to define myself as due to linking such ‘negativity’ as ‘more real’ than all the good that we can envision currently as what’s best for all, without realizing that what’s best for all is not positive or the counter act for the negative, it is simply establishing equality as physical structure to support everyone as it always should have been.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience anger when reading some of the rewards and judge them as vain, wherein that implies that I am taking things personally with regards to what people actually want and expect in their lives as something ‘better’ for them to look a and consider what’s best for all because in my mind, people should not have to be ‘lured’ into what’s best for all, however I realize that the ‘good way’ has not worked at all in this reality to promote ‘what’s best for all’ and as such believe that ‘I have a hard time creating rewards’ simply because I have not allowed myself to consider actually embodying fully what’s best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel righteous when declaring that ‘I don’t require any rewards if the solution is in place,’ wherein I then see myself as more ‘self-honest’ or ‘common sensical’ than anyone that would actually begin to hear what we have to say due to reading the rewards proposed, due to how I have judged myself and everyone that is not willing to take action if there’s nothing ‘in it’ for them/ myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow myself to embody a personality of feeling ‘okay’ when looking at the bad, the negative, the problems but go into inner conflict when it comes to looking at the rewards, the solutions that I have linked to a ‘positive experience’ without realizing that in this all it is to stop feeling bad about the reality of this world and as such stop linking the rewards and benefits for all as the ‘good’ that I have linked to abuse and deception.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have a problem to actually embody or feel comfortable with speaking the words that mean that which is best for all such as enjoyment, happiness, satisfaction due to linking it to a positive-energetic experience that can only be founded through abuse. I realize that this means that I am only looking at these words based on my experience and realizations, instead of looking at the words as an actual physical expression that we can in fact embody/ become within living in a proper structure/system of support for everyone equally, wherein it will no longer be linked to a positive experience founded through abuse, but it will be a living-right – this implies that I am only judging the words as knowledge and information and not really looking at the physicality aspect and sustainability of such beneficial experiences as an actuality, a consistent support and not linked to momentary flickering experiences that money can only buy at the moment.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the word Rewards as a fucked up consumerist bullshit and within this linking it with an experience of disgust toward it because I have made myself believe that I simply want ‘justice for all’ and see all forms of Rewards as something that I refuse to participate in because of the backchat ‘Why would we want rewards on top of establishing solutions that are already best for all’? Without realizing that this Reward point is but a way to promote what’s best for all as a ‘winning’ consideration within the current mind-frame of our society, wherein we know and have realized that people won’t move unless there is something ‘in it’ for them.

 

When and as I See myself having ‘difficulty’ with coming up with actual rewards to give to each other in a world system where everyone will have equal access and equal benefit to all – I stop and I breathe – I let go of seeing this as selfish and greedy and instead look at the starting point of rewards as that actual well-functioning of a society as how things should have always been when regarding all of us with equal right to benefit from what is here.

 

I realize that I have to walk equal to everyone and the majority that is certainly currently only moved by self-interest and within this, I realize that ‘their interests’ are currently only existent within the current mind-frame of consumerism as how we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be moved/ motivated by – I also realize that such self-interest is in fact not ‘bad’ or ‘evil’ if such aspirations lead a person to live a fulfilled living condition, wherein it won’t be a ‘bad thing’ any longer if we make such ability to enjoy life/ fulfill this self interest an equal ability and capacity for all – thus

 

I realize that I have only judged the ‘good’ things in life according to what I have realized throughout this process of understanding how the world is in reverse and all the ‘good/ benevolent’ was in fact founded upon abuse. However, what we are walking currently is the process of being able to propose a practical way to create a solid foundation for these benefits to be equally available and given to everyone equally as a birth-right. This means that I have to stop judging the point of Rewards according to seeing them through the Current eye of consumerism and the abuse that this represents, but instead realize that rewards are possible as a consequential outflow that comes from establishing a world system wherein we will be educated to discern what actual value is as Life, and no longer the current means/ways we have sought our ‘benefit’ and ‘happiness’ from, which is standing within the current abusive ways and means that we are currently abusing life for our personal glory. If this ‘glory’ is equally available in a sustainable non-harmful and sustainable way in an Equality system, then I accept and allow myself to live ‘glory’ and all these positive aspects as a giving and receiving point that I allow myself to give to myself and others in Equality.

 

I commit myself to continue exploring the current discomfort experienced when speaking about Rewards and as such focus on the reality and viability of such outcomes to be established within the proposal of Equal Money Capitalism.

 

This will continue

 

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276. Why Do We LOVE FREE Stuff?

Both words Love and Free entail the utmost fallacy and life-abuse, yes, keep reading and you’ll understand why.

 

“Social change organization have been marginalized by the idea that support must be FREE as they give support FREE–but in fact it is subsidized by corporations to be able to provide FREE stuff –This addiction to FREE STUFF is ensuring that the 99% cannot stand up and fund change –Every one is trapped in self interest where FREE STUFF determine decisions — Some common sense that a group must be funded should be realized if change is ever to become a global solution –as long as value is equal to FREE STUFF, the brainwashing trap all in the prison of Money Bottom of Form” – Bernard Poolman

 

This is an Eye-Opening statement that we usually obviously have mostly ignored wherein we have become so used to falling for all the ‘free stuff’ and believe that there are actual ‘free’ things in life. We obviously ignore that there is no-thing in this world that can be carried out without having a point of consumption/extraction/ work/ actions/ time that leads to a certain consequence. This is how whenever people say ‘Hey, watch Zeitgeist!’ and point out their solution being ‘burning all the money/ eradicating the money system’ is a clear indication that brainwashing has been quite deep to understand the implications of what it means to pay for something as a process of acknowledging/ understanding of the resources, processes and labor that took place to create such ‘thing’ that then becomes ‘free’. Sure, the Earth don’t charge us Money for what is grown here, however the ecosystems run through natural processes wherein certainly a lot of life and death processes take place, which obviously imply consumption, relationships, deterioration of the environment which is now carrying all the effects of all these activities lived-out by the inhabitants – the effects of this is demonstrating what happens when we  break the natural cycles of this physical reality in order to establish quantum time mind-desires on a space-time reality where things take Time and actual Work to develop. This is the consequence of implementing our mind-reality upon physical reality: absolute destruction and a constant unstopping depletion of life on Earth, within this, removing Money from the equation can only lead to further unawareness of the actual forces that have made of our current system seemingly sustainable, which is human labor along with the resources that are certainly ‘not for free’ as we’ve explained just now.

 

The way we have been educated is to believe in ‘Freedom’ and as such this libertinage leads to the idea/belief of ‘Free Stuff’ that is a perfect and suitable concept for a capitalist system that promised freedom through consumption – you can watch the Century of Self for self-education purposes and understand the role of Public Relations as the actual cogwheels that use the mind-ingrained patterns to create a sense of ‘independence’ and ‘empowerment’ through buying/ consuming from where this whole idea of Freedom comes from in order to in fact Sell More/ Consume more – did it work? Just look around yourself and this entire world, of course it did which is only possible due to us having been ignorant of the actual forces at work within/as our own mind.

 

If wee look at the tactics to create junkies/ drug addicts, the dealer first gives a ‘free sample’ to the person as a bait in order to expand the clientele, since there is quite a high percentage of certainty that the person will come back for more, this time obviously there won’t be any ‘free stuff’ to take. I place this example to make more obvious the implications of how we believe that receiving free stuff is ‘cool’ without measuring the actual agenda behind such belief and ignoring the fact that nothing is ever really benevolent and ‘free’ and as such, it should never be valued as something ‘truly positive’ in our consumerist society since no-product/ no-thing that is given ‘for free’ is devoid of being an actual product of physical and logistic processes that involve a production process in order to get to be something that can be ‘given for free.’ This should already make it clear that ‘free stuff’ is a delusion.

 

When we look at sales and how we believe that things are in fact ‘cheaper’ or ‘on sale,’  we in fact ignore that the retail prices of things are usually hundreds of times more than the actual cost of production – which is usually done and paid as ‘slave labor/ cheap pay’ and as such, the owner deciding to earn a ‘little less’ to sell more through placing things “on sale” is just another tactic to in fact get rid of all the merchandise to get all the new stuff in store and continue selling at ‘normal prices’ just because it is ‘new stuff’ and ‘no longer on sale’ – Great Lies. Again: there is no ‘real benevolence’ or positivity in ‘free stuff’ if you actually look at what makes it possible for you to even become aware of such ‘free stuff.’

 

Now, in terms of us at Desteni being a a group that was funded by people that understand the implications of being Equal in all ways within this world and process toward change that implies being Equal to the System that we all live in, it is obvious that we are not exempt of using money to survive and continue expanding just like any other person/business that requires money to live. We understand how the system works and this is why we are providing Education such as the Desteni I Process and educational material at Eqafe in order to continue expanding the already 6 years of providing unconditional support to any being within the internet at the Desteni Forum, through all our blogs/vlogs in our Journey To Life and the free courses like the Desteni Lite Process. All of these process imply the dedication of a full time job- certainly implying More time than your regular 9-5 job, a lot of preparation and financial stability in order to be well fed, well educated and having the available time to support more beings, because we understand that the Key to Self Change is through Education, and that’s what we currently provide as well as the solution for a global change that we are currently busy implementing as the Equal Money Capitalism proposal. All of this implies having just what any other human being on this current world system has in order to Live Well: the necessary income to have the available time to provide such services is not given just by ‘spreading self support’ and just consuming air to breathe – that’s obviously Not how it works.

 

If we look at a ‘spiritual teacher’ and an example is here,you’ll hear how it’s fairly easy to link a positive message to self-promotion for meditation and all other forms of psychic abilities, intuition and ‘connecting with your angels,’ which we all know is all bullshit and using blatant tactics to sell some made-up services that people pay for within a self-enlightened interest mode. This seen as ‘okay’ because ‘it’s stuff that you want to hear’ and as such is considered positive, the same way we believe candies are positive and fun and believe this is so until kids turn hyperactive and show early cavities in their teeth, along with elevated levels of sugar – is that real fun and treats for our children?

I mean, if we wanted to make easy money by telling lies and speaking what people Like and Want to hear, we could be making great money – but, since we are speaking the reality of this world and providing tools for self support that imply no miracles and magical acts, people then are turned off because we all want this quick fix, easy-doings type of solutions wherein all that is realized is how we have become so used to our drive-through lifestyle wherein we literally just want to drive-through, ask for our order, get what we want in a few minutes and pay a few bucks for a process that does not involve only the ‘final product’ that you consume, but all the forces at work in order to make it possible for it to exist and as all ‘fast food’ and McDonald’s solutions, this implies animal abuse, labor abuse, exploitation, unhealthy foods that cause illnesses and diseases as well as certain sugar addictions that are not that ‘hard to quit’ once people believe it’s better to ‘buy McDonald’s than cooking fresh food at home.’ This here is the definition of  self-accepted slavery, isn’t it? This only an example that can be extended to virtually any other job in the world that we all depend on.

 

So, we want to create change but we want to give no money to fund it? How does that work? It’s plain to see that virtually everything we benefit from implies a process where money is involved, everything we wear, eat, use on a daily basis is money, the houses, the cars, the so called ‘free areas’ implied money to pay for the labor to build them, education, even growing food is currently not a ‘free act’ either since you have to Buy the seeds and the necessary nutriments to fertilize the Earth, pay for the water to water your crops, etc. We haven’t educated ourselves to understand the processes and actual work-force and resources-used to generate a sustainable system. Yet, we only learn to complain whenever something goes up in prices and are always waiting for ‘luvin’ the free stuff, the sales, the bargains and make ‘great deals’ with that. Right.

 

I am realizing to what extent I had been brainwashed with regards to money, how within certain contexts we make it ‘okay’ to pay for things and for others we believe that we should ‘have it for free,’ because we tend to look at the ‘final product’ and disregard all the amount of mouths fed, all the resources used, the time and education that a person requires in order to create a certain piece of product/ service that is provided. What’s more fascinating is how we even believe that organizations that are determined to Change the system should charge No money at all –how is such thing possible considering that money is the one thing that has enabled us to be in the current position of being educated beings around the world that are committed to fund for a change in this reality – otherwise we would be as voice-less as the 2+ billions of people that we are in fact standing up for, to create and establish a world system that In fact creates a correction from the very root of the flawed structure that we have all accepted ‘as is’ to finally benefit Them as well, the voiceless, the uneducated.

 

What’s more interesting and absolutely fascinating is that all the Education and material at Desteni and Eqafe explain precisely the keys that enable you to understand how change must take place, why we have to be In the system to create a change, where is the ‘problem’ stemming from and how to walk the correction beginning at an individual level. There is No other group in the world that provides the explanations from the very beginning of human civilization and even before time was created in order to understand how and why we are here in this current ‘mess’ we’ve all learned to complain about but never realize our self responsibility toward it,  how and why we have gotten ourselves to this current process of crisis and how Change must be funded with the very same money that we have used to abuse and enfilade beings to win the ‘war of life’ and abuse everyone else on the way.

 

So, the same way we have spoken of freedom being a fallacy and a concept word that sounds as good as ‘love,’ we expose the same with regards to ‘Free Stuff’ that constitute a fallacy in fact since there will always be mouths to feed, resources to consume and work-force-time directed to create such ‘free stuff.’ We can instead ask ourselves what type of enslavement are we accepting and allowing when expecting things to ‘be free’ instead of actually working to implement a system wherein actual freedom will be the ultimate law of equilibrium: equal rights = equal responsibilities and as such one can see that there are always actions and reactions, there is a force and consequence, there is an intention that creates an effect, there is an ability and a duty in equal-manner. That’s the basic giving and receiving consideration that must be understood in our society, to finally stop being brainwashed to think ‘there are free things’ and this ties in with the saying we have at Desteni ‘None is Free until All is Free’ and this is actually implying being free from the Money-Consciousness that we have all participating in wherein we have forgotten who we are as one and equal and the giving and receiving in equality this implies – instead, we have reduced everything to numeric values that we then believe are ‘more’ or ‘less’ than, which is precisely the system that we must transcend through understanding how we created money, why and how we have to use money in order to correct the deliberately abusive relationships we’ve funded with it. Just like anything else: if money became the problem = money becomes the solution.

Real Freedom can only exist when understanding how reality works and as such become an equal force to support to change how the current system that enable abuse operates, because this is our creation: we face it as the gods we have believed ourselves to be.

This is fairly simple: you contribute with paying for your self support and as such you are contributing to continue growing and expanding such support for others, this is the only way that we can ensure that people Hear the Solutions to Equalize Life for All living beings, wherein the same money that we have enslaved ourselves-to becomes our own actual key to freedom, a real one at last and only then can we dare to speak about real love and care for all as Equals.

 

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