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383. To Forget to Self-Forgive

First Cousin Once Removed Preview (HBO Documentary Films) (2012) by Alan Berliner

Remember to Forget’ were the words chosen by a poet with Alzheimer as his last statement to the potential million viewers of the documentary ‘First cousin once removed’ by Alan Berliner, which depicts his life in his last months of living with this mental condition, and it is interesting that the words ‘For-Get’ and ‘For-Give’ can be a bit similar, but there’s a world of difference between both, where the act of merely ‘wanting to forget’ can lead us to experience something like Alzheimer, in an attempt to let go of the memories, the identity, the past, the load of experiences with which we created and inflicted the most trauma/harm/abuse within ourselves, and so wanting to forget as a way to ‘cope with the past,’ and that’s how such forced ‘eraser’ move in the mind can lead to this memory-loss problem.

 

I enjoyed this documentary, it’s very well made and I recommend it to see first hand what Alzheimer is like, and the reasons that usually lead to it, along with the genetic disposition that can exist – which as we now understand how the memories of those that have gone before us are integrated within/as ourselves as the mind in the womb, as the information we have ‘pre-loaded’ within us as the ‘sins of the fathers’ – then it makes sense that Alzheimer can ‘run in the family’ as a trait developed to want to forget about one’s deeds, one’s traumatic past, one’s wrong-doings and essentially take the forced road to a ‘way out’ of it all, a way to not face one’s inner demons.

 

The documentary could’ve had a subtitle – in the words of the film’s director – a Poets’ Alzheimer, since the documentary is about the ‘first cousin once removed’ from the director of this film who happened to be a poet, a writer, a translator, a man of ‘great achievements’ only to get to the last days of his life forgetting about it all, and it for sure brings us back to this point of our Journey To Life and the route to Nothingness. Edwin Honig – the protagonist of this documentary – gets to such ‘nothingness’ though not in a self-aware and self-directive manner to it and this is what I’d like to discuss here because it doesn’t make sense to get to this point of ‘Nothingness’ as in remembering – apparently – nothing through simply deciding to block the memory, to forget.

 

The things that Edwin could vividly recall – at times, when it seemed he wasn’t unconsciously deliberately ‘wanting to forget’ – were traumatic moments in his life: being blamed for his brother’s death when he was a child, having been to the army and shooting others, and maybe some family member he was fond of, but that was it. He is shown recordings with traces of the achievements throughout his life explained by himself at an earlier stage in his life, all his books, his poems, his translations of some ‘great writers,’ and so forth, and it was quite amusing to see how he would watch these recordings of himself explaining all his studies, his achievements and saying something in the lines of ‘He’s trying too hard to be someone’ and so yes, this is most of the things we put all our time and effort to, to build up the idea of ‘who we are’ as our mind, our ego – not realizing that life is not memories and how when one has no more memories to ‘hold on to’ then all of these lifetime achievements are reduced to nothing but pretentious additions we identify ourselves as, which can be later on absolutely forgotten and ultimately end up at death. Edwin had kept journals on a daily basis for over 50 years, so he also tried too hard to remember, only to end up forgetting it all. It seems like an ‘overload’ of too many memories, too many things he wanted to keep but eventually forget that he ended up ‘forgetting it all.’

 

I liked the fact that at some point, due to being asked many questions by the documentary maker (his cousin) he would just ask him to be forgotten, to not exist for some days, weeks, months and so in a way it could be him realizing that he was just telling his-story, the tale we all become as a bunch of memories we then believe is ‘all we are’ which is absolutely limited. We have reduced ourselves to become a curriculum, a data base with memories, experiences, feelings, the ideas we believe others have about ourselves, the feelings and constructs we impose onto reality, our entire ego that we accumulate throughout time, and how when we eventually ‘want to forget’ due to the emotional load that it creates within us, maybe that’s when Alzheimer emerges as an absolute ‘shutdown’ of these memories, which I interpret as a decision to Not Forgive, but Only Forget.

 

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Alzheimer seems to be the result of Forgetting to Forgive, but not only ‘Forgive’ in itself, but to Self-Forgive. It’s interesting that Edwin hadn’t been such a good father after all and how his ‘children’ – now grown up males – hold a grudge against him due to what he would do to them, which they interpreted as abusive, as him being an a*hole. And so, Edwin could not remember at all that he had children/sons, and even when the time comes for one of them to visit him, he shows exhaustion, maybe because memories would come back and so the load of remorse, guilt, the entire emotional experience created throughout time could come back, and so he’s left alone. Alzheimer seems to be a way to evade reality, to evade looking at one’s demons and learning how to self-forgive ourselves for it all, a way to escape from facing self-responsibility and as such wanting to ‘put memories down’ not realizing that the level and extent to which we are tied to as our memories and our mind cannot be ‘shut down’ or these ‘side effects’ emerge.

 

This is also another way to see how without walking this process of Self-Forgiveness to learn how to recognize our thoughts, words and deeds that could have caused ourselves inner-conflicts and struggles that we eventually lashed out onto others, affecting them and learn how to self-forgive ourselves for it all, bit by bit, word by word, and we only try and ‘forget it all’ causes an illness, because one is attempting to ‘get rid’ of the memories instead of actually understanding how we created such problems, how we participated in them, why, why did we allow it to become an emotional burden, who did we affect with our deeds too, what do we feel incapable of forgiving ourselves for that we instead choose to simply evade and ‘forget’?

 

And if we were able to remember who we have been from the beginning of our existence, we would have all gone through the same ‘deletion’ process as Alzheimer to go back to ‘ignorance is bliss’ mode, which is in fact what we do whenever we attempt to forget our past, our history and recreate the same abuse and harm because we don’t want to remember and take responsibility for our lives, our world as our creation and change the patterns for once and for all.

 

It’s interesting that one documentary that shows the actual nature of the memories left in a person with Alzheimer can shed more light than any scientific study attempting to understand the origin of it, which once again is also confirming what has been explained at Desteni in relation to Alzheimer Syndrome which I suggest to anyone to investigate and get rid of these ‘enigmas’ that still exist in humanity, while it’s already been 7 years of having the opportunity to learn about the totality of who we are as human beings, as preprogrammed mind consciousness systems that can create a short-circuit process in order to not have to confront one’s own inner demons all the time, creating things like Alzheimer or the usual anxiety, fears, phobias and general stress that we impose onto our physical body every time we are ‘living’-through-the-mind.

 

An aspect I enjoyed is seeing how Edwin only expressed appreciation for the expression of a child – the director’s son – because he was a child, expressing himself with music, in the moment, not questioning him about ‘who he was’ or who he could remember, but just being in the moment, which is also another point to consider about this ‘nothingness’ that we can all exist as, as a self-created result of learning how to self-forgive, to correct, to let go within self-responsibility and full awareness of choosing to be living in the moment – which is different from this form of Alzheimer’s ‘living in the moment’ as an accidental result of wanting to evade one’s memory, which is why in this case someone that doesn’t represent a ‘threat’ to one’s self-definition can become someone we enjoy too.

 

 

This documentary should also support with the realization that who we are and who we define ourselves to be is nothing else but a collection of memories and experiences that we build up as ‘who we are’ and we indeed put so much ‘effort’ onto it, without realizing that it is only the ‘who we are in the mind’ that we are valuing and accumulating as knowledge and information, while we forget about the words that we can live and become as an essence of ourselves – not the titles, not the money, not the recognition, not the studies, not the professions or definitions that others can give onto us – but the words we decide to live in full self-awareness. Just as the point we hear a lot about in Desteni on ‘stopping the mind,’ it doesn’t mean: forget about who you were and be ‘living in the here now moment’ absolutely oblivious of everything, as if one could simply ‘turn the page’ and have a blank one without any consequence. So if anything, this film depicts the consequences of not being able to cope with our mind, our memories, an entire life of wanting to ‘cherish all memories’ and the outcome when you realize the fiction you’ve become as a character and eventually just want to throw the character out of the window and remain as the flesh and bones we are… that’s what creates the consequence as a forced de-egofication process.

I am able to relate to the idea of wanting to cherish every moment as the ‘old me’ that was on my way to do that all the time, and having that mentality of wanting to be a writer someday that could use those memories to create more fictional characters through which I could live through as well, and I’m glad I stopped myself, which to myself as my ego it was the same as some form of egocide, because stopping ‘cherishing memories’ – even with the compulsion I had to be taking pictures all the time – I was on my way to fill memory cards and entire notebooks of my own personalities with no direction – which is also the type of writing I was doing before this process, using art as just another way to convolute the perception of who we are as human beings: point-less, self-referenced, self-interested beings seeking this something to ‘fill in the void’ with and ending up in some kind of nonsense with a life wasted in this perpetual ‘search’ which I now see that we all as human beings have, nothing else but the gloom created as the result of separating ourselves from who we really are as life, as the substance that unites us all as one and equal.

 

Today we discussed about this existential anguish in relation to ‘losing all hope to humanity’ not realizing that I was maybe on my way to creating yet another ‘disorder’ to simply evade facing reality – which we all do one way or another by creating any form of emotion or feeling to make the whole thing turn into a ‘me-myself-I’ experience rather than taking responsibility for the problems we create in our lives and this world and turn it only into a ‘concern’ – and how if I hadn’t discovered Desteni and the ability to Self-Forgive, I would have probably continued down the spiraling road of using art as a way to express this absolute ‘lostness’ that I experienced for great part of my life up to 6 years ago when everything started making sense.

 

All I can say is that it is quite a relief to no longer be drilling my mind with the usual existential-queries and ‘enigmas’ that used to also occupy my-time here, thinking about time, and death, and memories, and identity, and fictional characters, and this life as a dream and so forth… all of which has existed as part of our philosophy with no concrete realization to simply see the direct reality of it all: we have used our mind to divert our attention from reality, from the actual consequences and physical existence that we tend to cloud or ‘paint with other colors’ through thinking about reality, through ‘feeling’ or ‘becoming emotional’ about it and pondering these energetic flicks as ‘more’ than what life really is.

 

After the film ended, Alan Berliner had a Q&A session with the audience, and he ended up saying that ‘Memories are the glue to life’ and I couldn’t disagree more as this mentality is what has kept us since the beginning of our existence as human beings tied to a past that we then ‘choose to forget’ proving that we haven’t moved an iota from the very initial problems we were programmed with, just because we have accepted our mind to be ‘who we really are,’ forgetting or not even being aware of what Life really is, which is not and will never be knowledge and information, and memories. Just like in all our devices – memories are nothing but part of the system that enables us to function as clusters of space and time in a disk drive that sometimes gets full and overloaded and requires some ‘rebooting’ because there’s just ‘too much to info to handle,’ and that’s also what Alzheimer seems like.

 

Memories cannot be the ‘glue of life’ as they are only invisible bits of information we believe is who we are. Life doesn’t require a glue, life is not divided, life is all that is already here that we have separated ourselves from in every moment that we define ourselves as a picture, as an emotion, a thought, a feeling, a memory, all of it part of the masks that we craft and can end up driving us crazy if we continue to overlook the reality and simplicity of who we are here as breathing flesh and bones physical beings that have to now use our memory practically and constructively, to go self-forgiving each thought, word and deed that we’ve acted upon and created in order to ‘forget about who we are’ and as such, not take responsibility for who we are and have become. Look at this world, read the news, talk with people on the streets, look within yourself in your mind and see how this world is our reflection.

 

Learning how to Self-Forgive is the greatest gift one can give to oneself if one does not want to end up driving oneself absolutely insane, or mentally kaput for not having the courage to stand in the face of ourselves, of our past no matter how ‘bad it may seem or how ‘overwhelming’ the consequences of it already are, there is no other way but to stand up for it and face it. Self-Honesty takes Courage and that’s something one has to develop in order to not end up mentally ill due to wanting to forget. My suggestion is to then do this: learn how to Self-Forgive, Remember to Self-Forgive instead of compounding the inner turmoil and the cowardice to recognize who we are and have become, not only as individuals, but as humanity – and so, whenever we see ourselves feeling guilty, ashamed, embarrassed, overwhelmed by our past, our memories, our mind, it is that moment where instead of remaining in the victimization of the experience: we stand up, take a deep breath and decide to self-forgive the experience, the memory, the thought, the deeds and correct ourselves in the moment in the realization that no one did this to us but ourselves, and no one will ‘forgive us’ as there is no God, but ourselves, our own creators.

 

The one last mercy we can give to ourselves is Self Forgiveness, let’s use it and become physical living breathing beings that can stop pondering too much about what life, death, a thought or memories are and rather learn how to live in every moment of breath directing our lives to be and become an example of what we all know we can be when correcting all the mess of the past to stand as self-directive and self-honest individuals, always considering what is best for self and all as equals: no memory required but only as a remembrance of a past to never repeat again.

 

To learn more about Desteni’s perspective on Alzheimer and Memories:

 

To stop being defined only as a memory chip of emotions and feelings:

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369. Desteni: An Insider’s Report

Preamble

My name is Marlen Vargas Del Razo and I’m here to disclose the actual and proven truth about what many can call the greatest Cult and Scam that has existed in the history of the internet according to various sources that, just as any other biased piece of journalism, lack any real practical self-investigation to come up with a veritable result that could be identified as a genuine piece of scientific evidence and an integral attestable piece of information that could provide people with a clear and verifiable perspective of what this infamous group is all about.

Unlike many that may research about ‘Desteni’ and immediately click on the most controversial links that may pop up in the 352,000 results (0.22 seconds) Google search, I suggest you rather take my name written above and run a simple search with it + the word Desteni to see some of the words written and spoken, as well as the various images that have been produced since 2008 as a result of my direct participation in this group, which is an internet based community dedicated to a singular and certainly sui generis cause which is to Educate the Human Being about the reality we have only lived behind the veils of our consciousness/the mind, our so called education, culture, languages, political and economic systems and all the images that have dictated who we are, what we do, why we do it and within this, basing our lives upon lies that we have made real as the current world-reality that we are all experiencing as an every day hell – unless one has sufficient money to protect ourselves from the actual reality that the majority is living in.

I will be sharing the details of what is now a 5 year Journey I’ve walked along with many other people around the world – including the year I lived at the Desteni Farm in South Africa (2009-2010) – that have committed ourselves to the same living principle that we find is the correct thing to do in a world like ours today: to create and establish solutions to live in a way that is best for all as equals. I have written over 1000 posts available in this website as a direct result of my process of self investigation, this is without counting all the other hundreds walked in the individual and specialized process of Self Support: the Desteni I Process, as well as the thousands of posts at the Desteni Forum and individual vlogs in two accounts on YouTube (MarlenVargasDelRazo and MarlenLife) wherein I have documented my individual process from self-investigation at an individual level to the publication and exposure of world-system solutions that are intricately related to the process of self investigation, self education and interaction with people in my reality in order to generate a change that is created at an individual basis and shared with the world; all of this is published a result of the certainty that I have acquired when it comes to proving over time that this process of Self Honesty and Self Responsibility is in fact the key to create a change in this world that will be the foundation to establish a new world order based on Life in Equality.

 

 

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I was born in Puebla, México on September 1st, 1986 came out of the womb with a c-section due to having the umbilical cord around my neck which I blamed for a constant nagging sensation I had throughout my life as a constant emotional experience of suffering, fear, anxiety, uncertainty and definitively seeing the world as a danger rather than a genuine place to be able to live in. Till this day I am 26 years old and I became involved with the Desteni group when I was 21, and the day that changed my life forever was January 30th, 2008 when I watched the first Desteni video, yes one of those where Sunette Spies (Interdimensional Portal/ blond girl giving deep breaths at the beginning and end of the less than 10 minute YouTube videos) would have one of the hundreds of beings interviewed in to give some revealing message. In my particular case, it reminded me of all the other spiritualist-channelings and mediums I had witnessed throughout my life, it wasn’t ‘anything new’ apparently – yet the message that I heard in that 10 minute video was sufficient for me to leave the various books on spirituality, religions, esoteric agendas and any other philosophy to continue devouring the videos as I continued watching them one by one throughout the course of months until I had assured I had watched them all to get an actual understanding of what this whole ‘portalling’ was all about.

 

At that moment I was interested in obtaining some higher truth, some ultimate truth, some ultimate answer to all the questions I had accumulated throughout a lifetime of finding ‘no point’ in living in this world if all there exists is suffering, violence, wars, lies, corruption, deceptive governments, false relationships where we harm each other, hatred, self loathing and the list goes on and on… Therefore, the approach toward these videos that seemed to be ‘out of this world’ was to get a quick fix, a solution, seeking to find the recipe that contained all the necessary steps I had to follow to just ‘get it done’ and be somewhat healed, enlightened, all knowing, have the answers to the meaning of life in one go and get over my existential inquiries that had lead me to wait, hope and expect something grandiose knocking at my door to stop for once and for all seeking some kind of answer from a creator as to what I had to do with my life, or how to implement some kind of ‘divine plan’ on Earth –lol, little did I know that we were already living ‘his plan’ but that this god wasn’t precisely benevolent as we had been taught to believe.

 

Of course as many other human beings filled with fears and expectations on ‘things getting better somehow’ or having some alien/god/master/being from the universe coming here and saving us,  I only desired to create some kind of unity in this world while getting myself some kind of special connection with a creator, a god, an energy or whatever that could tell me that ‘my life had a meaning and a purpose’ so I could stop seeing the suffering that I could not make sense of. ‘God must have a reason for all of this to exist’ and that god/ energy/ all knowing one idea started slowly but surely fading away as I continued the research through the Desteni material and finding out that everything I had ever known, everything I had believed myself to be – including the persona that I was so eagerly building myself to be – was just another character that we have all created based on who we are told to be, the family we are brought up in, the amount of money we have, the country and culture we live in, the generations before us that left their genetic dynasty of a troubled self-experience existing in a world where survival defines our ability to live or die everyday, leaving little to no space to investigate the obvious truth in this reality: we are slaves in a preprogrammed reality wherein everything that we see as the current problems we all live in an experience on a daily basis is reflected upon the nature of the world as it is today.

 

Suddenly every single question, enigma, diatribe, existential anguish and any other form of ‘wonder’ about reality, the universe, human beings, the mind, spirituality, life after death, eternal life, god, demons, heaven, hell, the so called ‘end of the world’ were all concepts being explained in detail as the finite constructs they all represent within the greater construct/scheme and aspect of reality that we are aware of in which we’ve all been existing as: Consciousness. Within my limited understanding within that very first impression, my life was not going to get any easier from that moment on simply because of realizing that there was a lot of ‘truth’ in these ‘Desteni videos,’ yet I could not find what it is that I can do to fix it all now, or the opposite: what do they want of me and what is their genuine purpose of publishing this information and Why this was not part of the world news:

1. An Inter-dimensional Portal opened between Earth and the Dimensions in March 2006. This allowed access to Heaven/Dimensions by a human while being fully aware and visa versa allowed beings in Heaven/Dimension full access to Earth. This opened a journey that was not expected or could be imagined. This Portal was placed as the Grace of God.

· The Future of Heaven and Earth and the Universe Mar 19 2007

 

I knew that this was something I had to absolutely research in its totality before diving myself into it fully and completely. I kept myself at a safe distance from the Forum, not even reading it to not influence my own research through only watching the videos and reading the articles, not even knowing if there were people already applying this, which was something they were constantly mentioning to do in the videos. My research wasn’t complete until I had ensured I had read every single article in the Articles section of the website, including the parts that I had deemed as the most repetitive type of brainwashing I had ever read in my life, it was called Self Forgiveness and kept wondering who on Earth could have said that ME, I, the person that stood up for originality, uniqueness, ‘freedom of choice’ and all things ‘independent thinking’ would be suddenly reading the dribble of repetitive sentences that looked more like some serious kind of brainwashing and bizarre programming that I was supposed to write and read in order to get some kind of realization about it.. Initially,  I left the Self Forgiveness part for the very end of my investigation because it was certainly the part that most resembled any form of religious brainwashing – little did I know that I barely understood the word Forgiveness at all.

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First Written Record of the Desteni Investigation , 2008

 

Through reading all the articles, watching the videos on a daily basis for several hours before and after going to school – all of this while studying college in the career of Visual Arts as the Universidad Nacional Autónoma de México –  I realized that this was something that I was going to be dedicating my life to, it was quite an immediate realization that became a certainty the more I watched that ‘I wanted to work with these people, I have to meet them and be part of this’. Of course it wasn’t easy to come to these conclusions since every time that I would Think about it, it all seemed ‘too good to be true’ yet too vast and consistent in every single piece of writing and video that I tried to dissect to find any form of flaw I could point out and boast that it was just another lie, another trick to get something out of us –and yes I still understand why many people try to discredit Desteni right away, because no one on this Earth has ever before come up with such a genuine benevolent message on Earth – besides Jesus – along with a practical solution to essentially establish the best living condition that we as individual human beings can exist as in this world, without expecting something from us in return. I had been taught to always get to know what people’s intentions are and not take just the ‘good stuff’ at face value, but see what form of manipulation is given in order to get the gist of the ‘good deals’ we get in life. I kept watching and every single time, I failed to find an inconsistency in the coherence and narration of evens that even if they were absolutely out of the spectrum of my physical ability to discern whether ‘the portal’ was real or not, the congruence, the convergence of points that I had gotten to read about from various other sources made me realize that this message was precisely the kind of intention I was aiming at living for in my life: a message of unity, of peace, of genuine care for one another  – yet the word ‘life’ was still as death as I was due to having little to no reference to what ‘life in equality’ actually meant – yet every single article and video was aimed at placing the necessary blueprint for us to test out for ourselves, correlate, self investigate what was being explained in the material. Obviously this was then gaining its place of being rather unique and never before seen in our world, because here all the answers, the solutions to our lives, this world and reality were being given by this girl on YouTube with little to no further information than visiting a forum that I mostly avoided reading through to not deviate myself from simply watching the videos and reading the articles on the website.

 

One of the first things that came up was getting rid of ‘God’ and it was far easier than I thought which was through being educated about the creation of the concept – what it meant as the ultimate separation and hierarchical imposition in the minds of all humans in order to establish a world order that has existed till this day on the basis of masters and slaves – therefore it became a matter of understanding the construct itself. I certainly then knew that the meaning of my ‘journey to find god’ had rather turned into a journey to understand and get to know myself, the reality that I live in and how I was in fact a direct responsible actor for every single atrocity I had only managed to complain, get angry and blame others for in this world. I was about to get myself into a cul-de-sac called Self Honesty wherein the only way out was to actually apply these steps that were repeatedly mentioned video after video, article after article: write yourself to freedom, applying self forgiveness, develop self honesty, apply common sense, oneness and equality, stand up for life in Equality. For sure at the beginning it seemed liked a cool thing to be able to get dead people talking through this girl, but why were they all saying the same message and how come no one else in the world was talking about this? To me it was the greatest revelation to such an extent that I was ready to let go of my intensive research in all things spirituality, philosophy, my personal cult to the belief of who I am as part of this culture, the role I thought I had as ‘an artist’ in this world and essentially place my whole life on a scale to measure what it is that I in fact was and who I would be without this construction of myself as ‘Marlen’ as the persona formed by the environment I lived in plus everything else that I managed to adhere through my quest to become that special being that we all believe ourselves to be.

 

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But, why is it that I was into it from the first moment I watched it? Easy: words made sense, everything that was explained I could relate to. It was as if the hidden side of reality that we have all been ‘aware’ of at some level was finally placed into words, but oh dear god how uncanny it is to get to these ultimate truths in a mundane YouTube less-than-10-minute video, isn’t it? However, the more I watched the more I didn’t consider people being able to reject what was being said, yet only later on I realized the power of fear and the ability to dynamite any potential veil-breaking information that has the potential – if applied and lived individually – to de-enslave/ liberate an individual from the most profound forms of brainwashing that you and I have ever been remotely aware of. Our history of human development has come and gone and none of it in any way supported us to become better living species – it was true: knowledge without application was useless and as I continued consuming hours and hours of watching the Desteni videos, scribbling some ‘facts’ here and there, drawing while listening to a consistent message that made me ‘lose my mind’ and go into a 3 day breakdown where I began saying that ‘life doesn’t make any sense, oh my god who am I without my emotions, art is filled with emotions! and I am an emotional person! Everything I’ve done and been has been but a lie!’ and within this going into the fear that ‘these people must want to brainwash us for some ulterior purpose’ – and yes, oh was it true, that ulterior purpose is to step out of the preprogrammed mind design wherein I was on my straight way to hell and ready to become some kind of entheogen seeker of the divine and somehow save the world from an impending doom that I used to preach in order to justify why I didn’t want to live my life in the most responsible way…

 

If there’s any warning I can give to anyone stumbling upon Desteni is taking it easy to watch the material, obviously now there are thousands upon thousands of blogs, videos, articles, books, audio interviews recorded throughout these past 7 years that Desteni has been ‘live’ on the Internet. The whole world has been stripped from head to toe for us to finally understand who we are, what we are here for, what was our purpose on Earth, what is this world, why aren’t we happy, why do we seek god, why are we driving ourselves to our impending doom and a plethora of more questions and ponderings that we have consumed our lives with, going generation after generation filling books with what we believe ‘we know’ without having an inkling of idea about what the mind in itself is – of which I was quite an active participant of – and why is it that we seem to be devolving with all these wars, lies, corruption, discrimination, suffering, harm, hate-all of which I had noticed throughout my life had become a constant part of reality; no one could have ever seem to have an answer to this, not even the Jesuits at the school I studied which is the Instituto Oriente wherein I rather reinforced my heretic character and only liked and agreed with the one principle that made sense besides everything else they claimed Jesus said and did: equality and considering each other as living beings regardless of the amount of money we have, the last name we have, the amount of properties we have and so on, yet we were being trained to be part of the elite in society that would ‘ensure’ that we were ‘benevolent masters/ leaders’ to our employees/slaves. Of course no one could ever answer to me why was the Vatican the richest country in the world, why the pope would not give away his fortune in the name of ending the world hunger if he so would pray and hope god or some world leader could end it … and these are just but the ‘tip of the iceberg’ questions that lead me to confirm  that whatever speck of religious inclination I could have wanted to resort to in order to make sense of this world, was simply another mirage in my quest to find that ‘something’ in my life I had been longing for – apparently.

 

The truth is that I only wanted to have some ‘great place’ in this reality where I could be special and within that ‘make all my dreams come true’ which were as mundane as being famous, having some fortune, finding love in some kind of partnership/relationships, escape the corrupted country I live in and essentially live in a blissful state while pretending to worry about the ills of the world… This was the ‘me’ that I have to now be typing out for the purpose of this Desteni Witness Report, placing myself in the shoes of the discouraged person that I became when realizing that this world wasn’t getting any better, that everyone was lying, cheating and being corrupted and that all that I could do is… feel sorry about it, be depressed, be doomed and living in a constant gloom and cry about the many horrors that I had witnessed on daily basis here and no, it wasn’t war, it was worse because it’s become an ‘accepted’ form of crime against life: poverty, discrimination, inequality, greed and any other form of egotistical traits that I could see were doing harm and were a form of actual self-abuse.

So what on Earth did I come to realize about all of this and the ‘Me’ that I existed as up to the moment when I found Desteni?

Find out in the next entry…

Thanks for reading

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What you are in your mind does not prevail – wake up!-  2008


316. Rights are NOT Guaranteed to be Successful

307. CapitalismUS: Pursuit of Happiness

 

Problem                                                                             

What one can realize from our current power structures, is that our rights have been outlined and set in special charters and constitutions simply because we have always lived in separation from what always should have been ‘inalienable rights’ to live in the most dignified manner as a living quality available and given to all human beings. The reason why this is not so is because granting each other Equal Power disables the opportunity for some to have More.

Within this context, it is impossible to not look at the Mind in itself and the mechanisms in which Consciousness as the Mind resides within and as ourselves, as ‘who we are’ and what we have become, which is the current Truth of our Human Nature guided and directed by the mind: we seek to have the most because that’s Energy’s Nature and within such mind-possessed human nature, we have created the current world wherein we can set the most beautiful words on paper to live by, but in reality, do the exact opposite.

Capitalism as our current living-philosophy is not an ‘alien system’ imposed by a few mean people, it is precisely the exact reflection of who we are and how we function within our minds as a system driven to have the most which is why we say we live in a constant survival mode and within this, have externalized this basic energetic systems that our entire mind functions as and that we have conditioned ourselves as humans to believe that ‘there’s never enough for all,’ or that we ‘can’t be equal/ are not equal because some will always have more than others.’ But the physical Equality and Oneness as the constitution of who and what we are made of is not considered within these constitutional ‘Rights,’ because there was no Understanding of Life in Equality and Oneness as who and what we really are.

This is one of the pivotal differences that are presented within the Equal Money System and Equal Money Capitalism that have not existed before in our civilization as an overall solution to the disparity, discrimination and polarization we’ve lived in until now. Why is this? Because those that were able to gain the power through the use of Force then settled the Rights to be able to have the say of what our right is and if it is able to be conducted to a physical application or not.

A perfect example of such gaps or holes in Capitalism’s philosophy is the following:

From Capitalism.org

Are rights guarantees to the success of actions?

All rights are rights to freedom of action. That is, the right to those actions necessary to support ones life — so long as they do not violate the rights of others. Keep in mind that rights are not guarantees that those actions will always be successful. Thus, the right to pursue happiness, does not necessarily mean achievement — it only means one is free to pursue what one thinks will make one happy.

http://capitalism.org/category/rights/

 

This is where every single great idea falls in this world: it is not a Guarantee, it is not meant to function for all and is excused by people saying ‘not everyone will achieve it,’ ‘not everyone will make it’ and that’s where all sorts of theories about ‘the Survival of the Fittest’ come forth and where competition to have the ability to live comes to play as a matter of living or dying, not as an ‘incentive’ to become better at what you do. This is the deliberate encrypted deception we have accepted and allowed in our world, wherein we believe we have to ‘strive’ to make a living and have to ‘fight for our right’ to ‘be free’ and ‘self-determined.’

If this  does not open our eyes to see the brutality of our self-created cage and deception, we will continue to accept scarcity, discrimination, violence, hatred, competition for more, greed, deliberate marginalization between humans as some having the ability to have More than others and as such, control and dominate them to keep building the desired grandeur that Money currently enables some to build and create.

 

How is it that Rights are Not Guarantees to be Successful at all times?

Because of how our current economic and monetary system function and exist, there is No Equality considered in such model, specially capitalism where it is certainly a vile Monopoly game where you are doomed to play the slave from birth or inherit your family’s wealth without anyone having the ability to question this non sense and disparity, because ‘that’s how the world has worked so far.’

It is absolutely unacceptable to keep believing in such ‘Rights to happiness, to property and to freedom’ if Money determines whether you live or die, it is quite a cynical way to believe we are been guided by these great words that mean the absolute opposite for those subsumed in poverty: doomed and ostracized from having a happy life, enslaved to endless mortgages to own a house, or denied any access to proper shelter and living conditions, and denied any form of freedom to live ‘the way you want’ because Life is Sold, not given as a Living-Right.

 

Solution                                                                             

Our Right goes hand in hand with Our Responsibility to ensure that the system is functional and sustainable to give such freedom, self-determination, right to pursue happiness and use the resources in an Equal Manner without any form of disadvantage or abuse, this is the Only condition in which such Pursuit of Happiness is accessible: if every single being has equal access and support to live it out in their full capacity, wherein it will depend on the individual to achieve it or not, without any form of ‘System limitation’ that prevents them from doing so.

This is also the only way in which we can ensure that we stop seeing Rights as a ‘Paternalist’ measure from ‘The System,’ and instead realize that We Are The System, and that we cannot once again delegate the ‘Power’ to a few institutions to promulgate laws and rights that are tainted by the framework of a Rigged Capitalistic System. Thus, we have to ensure that the right to be Self Determined is redefined as the ability (read power) and consideration to work and participate to ensure that the achievement of collective goals toward a successful outcome is created and established by each one’s participation in the system in an Equal Manner.

This principle is within the understanding that the current crisis we are facing is because we have abdicated our responsibility to make our rights a feasible fact and reality, because it is impossible to only wait for others to ‘make our rights valid’ while accepting inequality as a starting point. This is thus we We have to ensure that all our power structures, our laws, our mindsets are aligned to conceive a reality working  in a symbiotic manner, which is what will create actual freedom in our society, a physical organism that is able gauge and monitor at all times that these fundamental rights to have equal access to work/job/activity to obtain money is at all times available for every single person, and that the sharing of profit for such activity/work is always in accordance to the policies that will ensure each person is equally supported without any exception.

This is the solution that is thus not a matter of a ‘statement’ only, but a living-condition that must be in place in order to ensure that Life is honored in Equality by our Constitutions based on Equality which will define how our Money is created, which will define every single relationship we have toward one another, it is the foundation of an actual Respect for Each Other’s Right to Life once that this Right is ensured to be a living fact by every single being in Equality.

 

You can also read the overall solutions in the previous entry: 315. Rights and Equal Money Capitalism

 

Rewards                                                                             

There  will be no need to ‘seek happiness’ at the expense of others, or of your own strain, effort and suffering to ‘achieve’ any form of financial stability, since your work and your own regular and consistent self-support within a job or profession will determine your ability to be happy, stable, content and have all the tools and means to develop yourself and your living conditions to the utmost degree depending on your own will and determination to do so.

This is precisely what will lead to peace on Earth once that we stop fighting against each other to ‘have more’ or ‘have control over others,’ because such concepts will be understood as the root and cause of the current massive problem we’ve created in our reality. Thus each one’s living-determination will define your own Right to enjoy Life and learn how to actually Live once that we all stop existing in a constant ‘fear of survival’ or fear of being limited by imposed systematic conditions, because it will be Our responsibility to ensure each other’s living stability at all times, since we will all be working to maintain, sustain and generate the desired living conditions not only for oneself, but for everyone equally. This is the condition that we will all be entitled to: a giving and receiving of each other’s right to live without any limitation other than ensuring no harm and no abuse is reproduced by individuals ever again.

The ultimate reward is ensuring that the Right To Life is in fact Lived by every single human being and No More Suffering and Abuse ever takes place, that in itself should suffice to us All.

 

 

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257. A Piece of Heaven at the Expense of Life

Why do people turn to drugs? There is a definitive reason that cause all the dimensions that play a role  in our current Drug Culture as either cause/effect,  but a common thing is definitely the root and cause of WHY people turn to drugs. We all know the usual things, for example: to escape from oneself, to hide, to run away from the mind, to stop the abhorrent self-experience, to avoid taking responsibility for one’s life and relationships, self-loathing, etc. – but, have we asked why do we have these problems? One can say: family problems, relationship problems, issues with one’s ‘flawed self,’ physical issues, lack of self esteem, heritage, cultural trends, traditions, religions, survivalism in clans/ mafias/ brotherhoods, spiritual beliefs, shamanism, environmental contingencies, availability of narcotics due to associations/ alliances, legal drugs due to psychological conditions, and the list may go on – However, behind all of this one must see one common thing: human conditions that have lead to all of these problems/ issues/ separations and sectarianism that stems from a basic problem in our society: a lack of support for all living beings to have a dignified living that creates a proper environmental condition where All beings would be able to live without having to worry about not making it through the next day, not having to tolerate the injustice and abuse that is accepted and allowed within a system that only caters for some– that’s it. 

 

And that’s what we know in common sense and what can also be watched in all the various documentaries* about drugs that are affecting our societies wherein there is simply an absolute boredom, menial jobs for the working class – or no job opportunities at all – and a general dissociation from wanting to have anything to do with a ‘shitty world/ shitty system that doesn’t give a fuck about life!’ hence turning to have an alternate reality where ‘everything is fine, a heaven in one’s mind for a moment, a harmful  momentary high that turns into a lethal habit that leads to a living condition that is mostly deplorable in most of the cases, as well as leading to any other ‘sudden deaths’ out of the usual ODs and other negligence  that stems from lacking any form of precaution when ingesting/ inhaling/injecting/smoking a drug. It is even common to have people that do this on a regular basis become ‘icons’ in our society, our ‘role models’ which can already point out what type of ‘human quality’ we’ve become fanatics of.

 

It is also interesting how drug-culture became mainstream to a point now wherein one can watch a “music video” and there’s people smoking weed, one can watch a movie and get all the specifics on how people shoot themselves heroin and even all the withdrawal processes in a explicit manner, like in Trainspotting which is probably one of the most popular and obliged reference about drugs for many people that even learned how to do drugs through watching the movie.  I will tell more about that in following posts.

 

The reason why this is an important topic is because drugs as any other form of escapism, represents the aspect we hold on to the most, as it is a self-created intricate relationship we form with only Experience as an Energetic physical experience induced by chemicals in the physical body – the reason why I find it so important to expose is because it’s ubiquitous nowadays for people to be aware of all types of drugs and ways to get high or even self-harm to get a moment of absolute adrenaline –rush/drug of the mind . That’s becoming a children’s game  and I’m referring to what I became aware of today as the salt and ice challenge – I mean, this is how kids age 10 or even less can get used to having a way to get this absolute pain and fear that are the most ‘powerful’ self-experiences created at a mind level when inducing pain along with the ‘challenge’ aspect – where kids will mostly broadcast themselves doing so to ‘prove’ to others they are able to ‘handle it,’ and what mostly happens is kids then will turn to seek for more ‘intense experiences’ like that. Even our words and vocabulary is pointing out blatantly what it is that we are inducing within ourselves: that was Intense! all energy based, and if you’ve been reading these series, you would be aware by now of how energy operates within the physical body through consciousness as a system that we believe is ‘who we really are,’ which is comprised of all our thoughts, emotions and feelings that we whole-heartedly have believed is ‘what living is for’ and if not.

 

This Grave mistake of identifying ourselves with all the drama, excitement and high-intensity of any self-experience is what is mostly leading us to an actual death wherein we disregard actual life/living just for a ‘little piece of heaven.’

And this is what’s leading humanity to a certain end if a single pattern of addiction continues without any definitive decision to STOP.

 

Please read the series to catch up to this point:

220. Drug Culture: Mad Society as a Lifestyle

 

 

I had made a pause in these series due to the impending ‘doomsday’ that I decided to write about due to my inherent responsibility in having participated pretty much in that type of doom-mentality or gloomy-self-experience as we’ve called it – and what is left is pretty much ourselves, having to face what we have become and as such, take the wheel of our reality in all levels, in all ways and have a look at how we’ve become what we’ve become, which is also another form of escapism through the mind to evade the responsibility we all have here.

 

Drug Culture is quite a common topic virtually everywhere in the world, no matter if it’s a high-energy-hyped society like many places in Europe and America or a third world/ poor country in Africa, or under developed regions like South America – everyone’s got the same ‘epidemic’ which is drugs which includes alcoholism as main problems that maim  the ability for any being to realize and take self responsibility, because drugs imply one single point: a giving up experience that is now turned into an addiction, a need, a fascination and obsession wherein people are literally willing to give all their money, all their life just for one single initial ‘rush’ that any drug can give them. While observing this, it is impossible to not create a parallel to what we understand now of how the mind works, wherein we create our own fixations in order to fuel and satisfy this idea of ourselves that we’ve simply copied, absorbed and ‘become/ embodied’ without a question, and that includes addictive patterns of seeking this ‘greatness’ as an energetic experience that is able to be obtained with drugs, pretty much flushing your entire life down the toilette for a single self belief of you being ‘perfectly fine/ in control / able to quit any time and all of the people that have been severely enrolled in hardcore addictions mostly find it very hard if not impossible to actually live out that belief of being able to stop and quit at any time.

 

That is One single dimension of the addiction: the energetic experience that we are familiar with the moment we accept emotions and feelings as ‘who we are’ and what drugs do is an overall enhancement of this relationship within the ‘who we are’ as the mind, which implies that we are completely hooked on absolute self abuse, since any energetic experience  – as anything that requires energy – is not ‘for free,’ it is an actual process of consumption of the very physical tissue/ fabric that provides the necessary resources for any drug to function properly – this is why the deterioration of the physical takes place in drug addicts/ consumers – among other various dimensions that involve the living conditions that hard-core long-time addicts end up living in or are born in, which is also another aspect that leads to drugs – all in all: stems from lacking actual living support in all ways to live in a sound and healthy environment where life could be actually honored = hence it is a matter of Collective Responsibility, since we are all responsible for continuing fueling a system that is not providing a sound environment for us to develop our expression to our utmost potential.

 

The purpose of these blogs will be to point out main factors that lead to drug consumption, the reasons behind that and how to support oneself to Prevent drug-addictions, referencing the usual ways in which one picks up this belief of drugs being the ‘greatest thing ever’ as well as gathering enough strength to realize there IS a solution to this world, there IS a way to support ourselves to stop seeking to ESCape from reality and instead, sober up and stand up to support the actual change we all dreamed of, it’s in our hands, so we must clean our act before we can establish ourselves in the actual world we have all wanted to live in, and within this, also paving the way for the children to come and ensure they do have the absolute opportunities  to Live and express themselves, and never again resort to any form of escapism through the mind to manifest a self-abusive ‘heaven’ in the mind.

 

Erroneously – those that Profess to be ‘Souls’, will Claim that the Body of Flesh is a temporary Illusion. And they would base it on the Experience they Generate through Mind Systems, which Follows the Design of the System where: the Search for Meaning and Reason, would Follow through the Combination of Predesigned Platonic Solids as Key Parts to Systems that produce Energy and Visual Input which the Person Align with, So Intensely that they Believe that it is Real, and they Disregard the Simple Reality of a Breath and Food and Bodily Functions that Keeps them Alive.
In this, these ‘Souls’ End-up Acting like Vampires in the Physical Reality, Seeking to Consume everything in their Path for the Self-Interest of the ‘Feeling’ that Produce, according to them, the ‘Experience of Happiness’. The fact that this ‘Happiness’ is Produced at the Cost of the Suffering of Uncountable Living Beings – Simply is Ignored or Seen as ‘Collateral Damage’ of an Illusion that will ‘Suddenly, Magically’ Disappear.”  – Bernard Poolman +

 

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250. Ignoring the Equilibrium of the Physical is our Doom

 

The answer to the greatest ‘problems’ in this worlds has always been Here, right in front of us as the laws that govern the universe and nature and the mechanisms in which it all works, it’s always following a mathematical precision that we see all around us in the shapes, forms and the forces that mold life as we know it, which includes ourselves.

 

“Laws of Physics is the laws of this world and enlightenment is to work in balance with the laws […] unless one can exist in all realities in ways that is best for all according to the laws of the reality that effect all –one will not be able o exist in any reality“ Bernard Poolman 

 

What has happened in our reality has been the implanting of us, human species, existing as the culmination of two forces existing in one single body: substance and physicality and energy as a mind consciousness system that was incrusted  upon the ‘vessel’ that we are all existing as our human physical body, that is certainly ‘the dust of the earth with water’ = made of mud. This single creation as physical body is perfectly able to exist without the need of a mind system, and this is precisely what the Desteni Portal represents as well and what we are all aware is possible from the single realization that we don’t require the mind to exist, because the mind is a fixed system that opposes and collides with the inherent laws of the universe/nature/ the physical.

We have come to believe in realms of ‘spiritual nature’ that would disregard the physical body as the actuality of who we are in order to ponder the realm of the intangible as the idea/ ego/ personality/ soul/ higher self and any other name you can give to the configuration that we’ve come to embody as individual beings, making these Ideas, beliefs and perceptions that we create in our own mind and accept and allow of each other as ‘who we are’ More important than the afore mentioned laws and physicality that govern nature, the universe and ourselves as part of that sameness as physical beings.

 

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The human being, representing this precise conflagration of a physical and mind creation embodying substance/physicality as the matter of the world coexisting in an intricate relationship with an energy-system – that we now refer to as the mind consciousness system – holds the key to the final resolution that we can embody as creation  in this reality to establish a final solution and alignment of both elements to an equal and one coexistence in symbiotic relationships to continue living,  if we actually are able to grasp the opportunity at hand when it comes to Understanding and Realizing the gift of life that we are and have, and commit ourselves to Align these faults, negligence and disregard in order to be and become what we should have always been: developing to our fullest expression and it is obvious that this can only happen if we understand how we can only get to this point if we unite our individual forces – 1+1+1+1 – to create and manifest an actual kingdom of god on Earth.

 

For that, we require to understand how energy works within its requirement of friction and conflict that we generate within ourselves as the mind and impose it upon the physical body to use the very physical substance to generate energy, which is the ‘bastard’ product of this separation/friction/conflict. That has been our ‘doom’ as humans, and the causes can be found Everywhere wherein we can spot a ‘problem’ such as a lack, scarcity, malfunctioning, annihilation, extinction, inconformity and all words that indicate by default there has been one part missed within the cycles and natural laws that govern the physical reality. This is part of what I had to digest when coming into a much ‘hyper’ matrix since I usually remain in a very secluded area where not much is going on. When coming into a city, it is as if this massive pattern of negligence, abuse and greed would unfold right in front of me – it can be ‘overwhelming’ and took me a night to digest it, probably. The fact that the problem is visible everywhere implies that we have neglected the solutions that are possible and existent equally Everywhere if we align our forces to it,

 

I also happen to be reading a book recommended by Bernard yesterday The Game of Life and How to Play It while travelling and as always, takes some time for some of the points to be ‘digested,’ but I suggest you also follow through Jeanne’s blog ‘Painter’s Journey To Life’ who will be dissecting the basic points that will be pretty much in tune with what I will be walking here, since I am well aware how I suppressed this basic understanding in the name of laziness, apathy and discouragement as I have walked and explained in the series of blogs that have been enlisted above, all linked to the ‘doomsday character’ which is really only human ignorance wasting away the life we hold in every moment of breath here – we say it with so much ease, but goddamn, it should certainly not be taken lightly at all.

 

I also literally stumbled upon a video here and I am barely beginning to watch it and awakened a fascination that reminded me of when I was an avid ‘curious’ about the world, nature and the forces at hand. I admit I lost all sense of curiosity and that became my doom – partly because of thinking that there was nothing else to ‘discover’ and within this, going into my own apathy and that aspect of myself was dead, dormant or simply pushed aside which is not what this process is about. I recognize the stagnation point as my own unwillingness to realize that there is still much more to understand than what I have only begun to grasp. I had some fascination for numbers, geometry. alchemy and many other things of such nature – I reduced then Fibonacci being to consciousness and as such diminishing everything that I had previously had any interest on as mere rubbish. I was very keen on numbers and seeing all the patterns in nature, we all have that, we can all be our own scientists and I see how I became rather reluctant to science because of it being so limited, apparently – but, right now that we have all the astounding vast information at Eqafe in relation to ourselves, reality, the laws that govern this reality, the nature of ourselves as this flagrant containment of two forces in one body makes us the key to the Universe. And no, this should not be taken as anthropocentric suprematist statement, but it seems that we are the only ones that are ‘out of tune’ from everything else, yet have an actual ability to direct our Will to transform the matters at hand.

 

A spark also opened up when reading Maya Rote’s series on Physics wherein the forces at work within this Universe were presented again, not as something to be ‘overlooked’ by another belief system of ‘there is no God,’ but as a key to understand ourselves once more. And one of the points that we walk in this process is to never hold on to something as a ‘certainty’ until proven absolutely being so by all means throughout time. We can’t hold on to knowledge and information without testing it in all aspects and ways to in fact come to physical conclusions that can in fact give us a cue on what is best for all.

 

Now how the hell does all of this will follow through here? I see myself like having all these strands and having to collate them to give them proper direction, but it seems that we have simply Not Been Paying Attention to how other species live in order to understand the forces we should all Align ourselves as, because if we remove the human factor from the Ecosystem, nature would have followed its course and cycles – however the creation of the human embodies the ultimate ‘duel’ that must be resolved, aligned as the conciliation of opposite forces that only represent one thing: the separation of ourselves from our oneness and equality, and that is what we currently exist as: a physical body tyrannically invaded by a mind consciousness system that was pondered as ‘who we are’ and given all the attention and considerations, never questioning if this ‘god’ in our heads as our own thoughts, feelings, emotions, internal conversations was in fact the order that the physical should exist as, which is obviously not, since Energy represents the ultimate self interest that one can embody and that is our mind, extracting from the physical body the actual substance to create the Fuel for our Mind-driven desires to be fulfilled at the expense/ cost of the physical.  Rings a bell? Any extraction of energy represents this, as discussed in day 2 of this Journey to Life listed above.

 

Why don’t we see the animals fighting with each other about not being equally remunerated for the labor/ force they have put to sustain themselves, why don’t they have legal or judicial systems? This is just one tiny example of what should have been obvious -blatantly so, I should say- with regards to there being Something Inherently wrong within ourselves as human beings that no other species present, yet have come to face and carry the consequences that we have now created for  Them as well, the natural elements within the ecosystem as part of the consequences that we have imposed onto reality.

 

I left off a pointer in my last blog recommending Kryon’s Interview and saying there are some Key points in there, and that is the awareness of substance. I won’t stay anything else but that was also part of the realizations that I see I have actually neglected, we all have actually, when believing that it is us in our minds that is alive – and this is also a consistent message throughout Desteni: it is rather foolish and conceited to believe it is us human beings that are aware and alive – yet it is unfortunate that the vast majority of beings are unaware of this.

 

Also review the Animal’s Life Reviews to understand More about what I’ll be sharing here.

So, while watching this show from the BBC called ‘The Code’ in its chapter ‘Shapes,’ I realized to what extent we have missed out the symbiotic relationships we should regard at all times if we would want to actually become ‘masters’ of the matter on this Earth. This means:  the sheer accumulation and action of self-interest upon the matter, is already an action that will cause imbalance in the rest of the whole – and just like a domino effect: once you violate a basic principle in our existence such as the consideration of Equality, we became rather selfish, egotistic, greedy and obsessed beings that have foolishly believed any form of ‘true glory’ could stem from seeking Only one’s personal interest, while disregarding that the true ‘Kingdom of Heaven’ can only exist if we give and receive in Equality as the actual action that considers the laws of physicality and natural arrangement that are here, on this Earth yet ignored by ourselves as mind systems that have only sought to ‘get the most out of’ such forms, shapes, laws and mechanisms.

It is absurd we have come to spiritualize and make of the actual Harmony with the Universe ‘airy-fairy’ words that we now associate with quite a disgrace and deviation of humanity through things like religion and spirituality as the deification of Energy – Hence considering the ‘laws of the universe’ is an actual physical consideration that should not be associated with anything else other than the actual forces that govern the universe.

 

What does this mean? We’ve played god, and we rottenly failed at it –  but Why? Because we are unaware and uneducated gods that will have to face the consequences of our indiscriminate actions due to disregarding everything and everyone in this reality being equally aware and alive. This is thus the phase where we are ‘growing up’ from our apparent ‘free will’ to do whatever we want and use it ‘at our discretion’ without realizing what we were actually ‘playing with’ on Earth, which is life, ourselves and everyone involved in it – there is no such thing as isolated actions that have no impact on the whole. This makes us no different to our creator that also Missed the crucial point of the relationship he held with substance, and for that please listen to the fantastic series Reptilians to understand the true image and likeness we hold to him.

 

What a marvelous joke isn’t it? Give a sense of freedom as ‘free will’ and ‘free choice’ and see what humans do with it – the result is our Earth.

 

Now, from the documentary, watch the point about bubbles and the economic solutions they represent as natural forces at work – lol, seriously this is something that can only show to what extent the Answers to this reality have been always right in front of us: The sphere, bubbles and how nature’s economic laws function. This proves a natural disposition to cooperate, to coexist to Share, to amalgamate and collaborate as an inherent property of matter to arrange itself in the most functional structures that are sustainable and effective to continue life on Earth. Those are the Laws that govern our physicality, nature, the ecosystem. Why haven’t we done the same as human beings? Because a ‘moreness’ belief is what consumes the most energy, and energy can only stem from a relationship of abuse, of friction and conflict.

From the documentary “Nature’s always finding the most efficient solution that it can” – So why us human beings haven’t been living to this basic evident principle around and within us? – The kingdom of god is everywhere around us within and without, we have lost all touch with what words really mean here, because we have only been thinking in Energy and where there is no Energy, we lose all interest, as that’s the primary way in which friction and conflict can be kept: continue existing in absolute ignorance, disarray, friction and conflict so that no solutions are ever found – these are the ‘forces’ we have to tame and work with, as it is is just our stubborn aspect of ourselves that thought we could thrive Alone as individuals, disregarding the whole. Today we can prove that wrong, and all that is left is our consequences to face.

This should place in all physical commonsensical evidence that the key to our reality and the solutions that are possible are virtually everywhere around us, we have just Not been paying attention – until now.

Now that is for sure in absolute accordance to the Equal Money System’s proposal on Stewardship:

Stewardship

Within an Equal Money System it will be recognized that Humans are a part of the Ecosystem they live in. The word ‘eco’ stands for ‘home’ – and thus, each human will be responsible for maintaining the Balance and Harmony within their home, within their Ecosystem. This involves the Monitoring of the Well-Being of the Plants and Animals within one’s Environment and to Intervene when Disharmony occurs as a result of Human Impact, so that a New Equilibrium can be established.

 

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247. Blindly Following Our Progress

Doomsday is a novelty joke to evade the consequences of our thoughts, words and deeds of having disregarded the laws of nature and the physical in our reality in the name of following through with our mind-driven desires, all based on energy which implies the abuse of the physical for the sake of feeling just Fine.

What’s the fine line between progress and devolution? The neglect in which we have built this marvelous see-evil-I-zation wherein we have focused on the ‘I’ only of self interest, following our success, no matter ‘what’ has to be destroyed and potentially damaged for the rest of the Earth’s existence just to have a moment of bliss and ideal of progress disregarding the shit hitting the fan while smiling at the beautiful scenes of what progress implies.

Cities like Dubai are the perfect example of what human beings as gods disregarding the ‘forces of nature’ imply: creating this great buildings at the expense of the most horrid living conditions that any worker on Earth is currently having to go through just to make a living. The same goes for all the people that confections our clothes, build our gadgets, grow and reap our food which is essentially the extraction and transformation industries that get to do the most work at the expense of slave labor. The ‘retail’ industry is the one that benefits through us buying brands, lifestyles, experiences that we have tagged as our ‘successful living’ while neglecting everything that had to be destroyed for that single ‘lifestyle’ to be now something that is Normal to ourselves.

Read Matti Freeman’s Day 152: Slaves of Dubai – Exposing the Darkness behind the Glittering Lights of Progress for further context.

 

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We’ve come to the point where we would rather expect some 3 days of darkness to happen or some planetary alignment and suddenly have a renewed world all of a sudden. Seriously, is there any  trace of sanity in such beliefs? No – and this world-system is proof of how we have all been inherently insane to keep blindly participating in this world system wherein Nothing is projected to be sustainable in a long term basis.

I was watching Gian’s video on Hope – which I obviously suggest you watch as well – and realized that it is true, we are born with a certain belief/idea of ‘this is how things always have been and there’s no change in how things work’ – and in this ‘this is how things work’ is the doom of our race, because in such acceptance we have only gone either of the two following ways:

1. Waiting for the world to end/ be destroyed = doomsday character.

2. Waiting for something marvelous to happen that will wash away all the destruction and will wipe out all our atrocities in a blink of an eye = ascension/ transformation of consciousness character.

 

Both are equally fucked, to say the least, since we can read WAITING which is just precisely HOPING for something to happen. In both scenarios we either drive ourselves to a Negative Self Experience – which is what I have described in the past posts – or we drive ourselves to a Positive Self Experience, which is all your ascension/2012 transformation of consciousness type of messages. It is funny to recall the last book I read on the Mayan Calendar subject, right before Desteni – well in fact the day I finished the book I encountered Desteni – where Dr. Calleman said that by November 2012, everyone would be enlightened – I would quote the page of the 2012 Transformation of Consciousness book he wrote, but gave it away within the realization that I had just indulged in quite an extensive amount of unfounded statement. Wow, really wow.  If enlightenment means being ready to continue using and abusing the Earth by our every single move in everything we think say and do then by all means, we are full of light and will soon burst into flames if we don’t stop.

 

What I realize is that beyond me having gone into the negative experience about the world and feeling all sad/ depressed that ‘this world is shit,’ is really only the exact same as thinking positive and waiting for something Great to come, because in self-doomification I am doing exactly the same thing: Only waiting for an End while precisely only living to die and doing absolutely Nothing to stop the current ways in which our society has been made ‘acceptable,’ which is accepting and allowing self-abuse in all ways.

 

Now, the problem is not the Earth of course or the ecosystem and all the living beings beside the human being, that was perfect in its natural equilibrium; it is our force as human nature of actual Evil that has disregarded the physical forces we are subject to. That’s what playing God in essence has been about: believing we could somehow implement our jolly civilizations of multiple advancements without a single point of concern on ‘what’s next’ you know? Because there is a very important factor that we have ALL Participated in: We Trusted in those that have come before us to only give ‘permission’ – accept and allow – to implement what is currently running here as a living-condition that should be beneficial for all. But is it so? Of course not, not at all since all decisions made have been based upon Energy, which in this world system means Money/ Profit being the directive principle of the route we have followed through as humanity. And as all decisions made/founded upon energy: there is a massive disregard for its sustainability in the long run, and this goes from relationships that we found upon this energetic positive experience to making our living decisions of what career to study, what to ‘invest upon’ only within the same scheme of what we have currently valued as ‘More’ than life itself.

 

When I was a child, I developed this ‘ecological awareness’ in a very limited way, but it was ‘something’ and I remember being 7-8 years old and from that time and on, every time that  I flushed the toilet I would ‘feel bad’ for the water that will have to go with all the rest of the world’s toilet water and polluting the Earth. Whenever I would take a shower I would literally imagine how many more were showering around the world as well, how many were spending too much water in their showering while I was ensuring I would spend the least – I worried about things like littering on the streets and the smog produced by all the cars in the city – and I would become rather depressed whenever I would get to go to another country or see pictures of another’s travels throughout Europe for example, and be marveled at the cleanliness and order that those cities/places were in, it all seemed ‘to good to be true,’ which is another outflow and consequence of us regarding such advancements as something genuinely positive to follow and desire. I only created a loathing for my country and the people here, so I went into an absolute abhorrent state because in my mind ‘no one cared’.’  And again, going into a ‘powerlessness’ and ‘hopelessness’ because no matter how much I tried to make an effort to ‘do something,’ obviously it was futile, because I wasn’t really looking at or aware of the greater picture of how things work in this reality.

 

Throughout the years, it was like swimming against the tide all the time, everyone just wanted me to relax a bit about all the things I would constantly worry about – all that which I called ‘pollution’ yet never really saw how everyone’s – including my own-  every single move contributes to this ‘pollution,’ no matter what we do in this current society. So, this is part of a personality that I became until I simply opted for the ‘fly away’ type of personality wherein I would shove aside my constant awareness on dirt/ pollution/ contamination/ civil carelessness for the environment and blamed this country and its people for it, never really understanding the magnitude of the problem at a global scale of which this idea of progress was mostly the direct source of, and how it was because of the ‘improvements’ that people in the first world were developing as the ‘ultimate civilizations’ that we were in fact following through with this abuse, without the necessary education on how to DEAL with everything we would get now from such first world countries and simply started copying it, using it,  without any further regard, which became a problem because we simply followed through with the ‘advancements’ without really pondering: hmm, if I buy a v.8 vehicle yes I’ll have a shitload of HP and luxuries, but is this sustainable?

And so, our living standard instead of focusing on creating sustainable conditions for transportation became the ultimate presentation of an actual mock to any regard for the resources required to run a v.8 vehicle, because all that we really cared for is showing off our ability to pay for such amount of gas, taxes and maintenance as an indication of elevating our power of acquisition through buying that which could SHOW to others that we are ‘making it in the system.’ This is what our success have become.

 

“A Successful Failure, is when Failure is taken Personally – and the Purpose of Failure is not Grasped. Because Failure, has been Changed into the Illusion of Energy and is Experienced as some form of ‘Feeling’.
Failure, when Grasped – is the Map and the Road to Self-Perfection.” – Bernard Poolman*

 

The example I give is quite a tangible one, since also in my home city there’s Volkswagen and all the German people worked there and had this thing for cars, which I then became used to the idea of one has to have this latest-model of car and dispose the older ones because: you always get improvements. This is a single example of how we Always buy into the idea (social conditioning) of having the latest and most recent upgrade of everything as a sign of success – see for yourself how only the nice bright idea of power is looked at, but have no regard at the actual need for an upgrade and what happens with all the cars that are disposed, what are the current productions settings that have created our brand new car, the gas requirements, labor that has been put into it, how has it been paid for – none of that is of our concern, we feel like royals just having the ability to buy it and ride it and disregard everything else. And yes, it feels GREAT but I bet it won’t feel that great when there’s no freaking gas to pump into such v.8 vehicles, where already decisions are being made between eating or pumping gas into your car, as a matter of fact and consequence of disregarding basic common sense equations in which life should run upon.

 

Now we get the point of success being a blatant ignorant self-abuse, you see?

 

And then, when the shit hits the fan as it is happening now, we would rather follow through either of the above mentioned 2 options, instead of actually placing our hands on the problems and become aware of the series of steps that we have followed through until it’s become this chain-massacre of points that we accepted and allowed to end up in this blind-line of production and consumption that is disregarding and neglecting the primer matter of which everything is formed.

Please read an Economist’s Journey to Life for further  details

 

I had to just go and clean the fridge from all the food that my house mates have just ‘left’ and realized how just because we have the money to buy, we simply buy-buy-buy and don’t even think about what we are in fact going to in fact use. I can absolutely say that the waste of food I have created for the most part has been the one I have processed in my own physical body and dumped on the toilette, but I absolutely measure the amount of food I will in fact eat – and if some vegetables go rot, it’s a minimal quantity that I can place as compost for the tree and that’s it. And when confronting anyone about such blind-consumption, we only face the point of: Oh but ‘I’ bought it, so it’s ‘my’ stuff as a given right to abuse. The same we do with everything that we consume that we know it’s not beneficial, like people taking drugs and believing that it is only THEM that they are fucking up, not anyone else – which means that we disregard the basic fact that Everything we do, act and speak is linked through a collective process of coexisting in the same world, this means: there are no ‘isolated forces’ that will not have an effect and consequence on this reality, we’re all equally contributing to them.

 

And once again, what do we do? If you ask any regular person, everyone’s just hoping things will just go ‘mildly wrong’ in our lifetime as it’s being predicted everywhere, we just hope to ‘make it through,’ die and leave the future generations with the most heavy load of destruction to deal with. This is the statement we are living by every day that goes through without placing and becoming a solution to this world.

 

What is this whole ‘evolution’ based on, what is our progress based on? Abuse of the Earth to make things bigger, faster, greater, more efficient, more astounding and creating within ourselves this fantabulous self-experiences of this being a ‘marvelous world/ our creation,’ but we rarely or never even look at all the processes behind everything that we consume – and for that, we are ALL equally responsible.

 

And this is one of the points that listening to the See no Evil, Hear no Evil, Speak no evil – Life Review which really walks us through what we’ve become without a doubt in this world, and also a great way to gift to another a piece of audio-awareness that can be an eye opener for this ‘holiday season’ when all our “Love” is DEMON-strated through buying/ consuming and giving each others stuff that we have no idea how it’s been created.

 

So, where does our responsibility reside on? Having accepted and allowed the current lifestyles we’re living as ‘the way things are’ which is what Anu also explains is something that should be really questioned at all times, as that implies the inertia that we’ve moved ourselves within: how things are/ it’s always been this way wherein we automatically infer = then it is fine, then it is okay, then there is no harm or potential life-threat within this, because it’s been running for 50 years. Well, it’s certainly ONLY 50 years that’s taken us to massively upscale our current abuse on Earth and we call this progress.

And we expect doomsday? Lol that would certainly be a ‘gift’ if any god existed, we won’t get rid of any consequence any time soon unless we actually take responsibility for it, face it and fix it.

 

“Without Failure – Self-Perfection is Impossible.
Without Failure – Birthing Harmony on Earth is Impossible.
Without Failure – Perfecting Individualization is Impossible.
Without Failure – Enlightenment Perfection is Impossible.” – Bernard Poolman*

 

To be continued, for sure.

 

 

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    227. Are We Addicted to our Emotions and Feelings?

    Elitist Character: Drug Culture – Energy Addiction as our Self-Consuming Demise – Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Application

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    Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Statements on Energy-Participation in the Mind:

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from myself through a thinking and experiencing process that happens at a mind level wherein I have tacitly agreed to consume my physical substance/ the life essence as the fabric of my physical body for the sake of thinking, feeling, experiencing myself As the mind that is a system that requires energy to exist, and for energy to exist, friction and conflict must exist, without ever realizing the consequences that there exist at a physical and existential level of my own accepted and allowed participation in energy.

     

    I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize and integrate the understanding of how energy is created through friction and conflict imposed by the mind upon the physical body and in this, continuing to participate in thoughts, emotions and feelings that I simply would not absolutely and diligently Stop in a self-directive decision, which is how and why we have accepted and allowed ourselves to ‘become addicts’ to our own mind and within this becoming addicts to/ obsessed with that which we allowed ourselves to diminish to a single energetic experience in our minds that we experience as ‘feeling good’/ having a good time, which is always an assessment that must be self honestly reviewed in order to see where and how we have participated in the mind.

     

    When and as I see myself leaving a leeway or a ‘flexibility’ to my own stopping of thoughts and internal conversations that lead to emotions, feelings or imaginations, I stop and I breathe – I direct myself to breathe in and out deeply until I am aware that the energy / point that emerged dissipated and I am back here as the physical paced of breathing, wherein I ensure my muscles are relaxed, I am in a comfortable position and I am directing myself to do what is here to be done/ directed in my reality.

    I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that every time I am in my mind creating experiences toward a piece of information/ words that I read, or toward another being or the environment, I am reducing physicality to a single stream of knowledge and information within my mind,  that in no way represent who I am as a physical being as one and equal to everything that I am thinking of or becoming emotional, or creating feelings about, but that this only benefits the configuration that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a mind-system that reacts with thoughts, emotions and feelings to knowledge and information that I then convert into an experience later on filed and stored as memories, pictures, sounds in order to identify ‘who I am’ toward reality according to the reactions I have programmed myself to exist as.

     

    When and as I see myself participating in thoughts, internal conversations, backchat, reactions toward something/ someone in my mind, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am diminishing physical reality to a single stream of knowledge and information which is Not Real here as the physical and instead, realize I am one and equal to everything to everything that I am aware of in that moment as the substance of the physical that we are all made of. Within this, the only practical assessments I can do, are based upon common sense which is the way in which I direct myself to stand one and equal to my mind in order to no longer be ‘fed’ with experiences of emotions and feelings that I am not directing, but instead I become the directive principle of every single aspect I decide to participate in.

     

     

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Create Energy from my very own participation in thinking and internal conversations wherein through participating in the thoughts that get to be in my conscious mind, I am already accepting and allowing myself to be the subconscious and unconscious mind, which implies that the process of becoming energy exists every time that I think, have internal conversations/ backchat, go into an experience or behave in a particular way according to a determined context in my reality, which implies that I am defining ‘who I am’ according to How I Assess reality through the mind, instead of being here physically present, constantly and consistently no matter where or with whom, as the physical in itself adapts to physical conditions, not mind-created experiences according to how it perceives itself based on other beings or a particular environment, which means that I am the only one that is participating in defining ‘who I am’ according to ‘where I am.’

     

    When and as I see myself creating a particular different experience within me according to who I am with or where I am in, I stop and I breathe. I realize that in this slight difference I am participating in, I am not existing here as a physical being but as the mind with its various personalities that I direct myself to stop and instead, focus on the practical reality wherein I realize that I don’t require to portray myself within a particular experience in order to interact with others, as being physically here and speaking in common sense is all that is required when it comes to Living Life.

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to cultivate the personalities that I thought I was ‘free to build’ and construct for myself, due to having seen everyone else doing it, so why wouldn’t I? which is then complying to the social norm of fixating into my own personal creation of ‘who I am’ as the mind with emotions and feelings due to the value and regard feelings and emotions are given by people in our world, wherein someone that would Not ‘feel’ or become emotional, was seen as ‘cold’ or ‘distant’ or ‘jaded’ which is what I feared being and becoming – therefore

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever fear existing without emotions and feelings and be seen as cold and jaded in my reality, without realizing that it is through this collective agreement of existing as personalities of the mind, that we have collectively agreed as well to the ongoing self abuse that stems from such self-definitions at a mind level wherein the physicality that enables such self definitions to be fulfilled, is destroyed, annihilated and consumed as this point of identification is what creates separation – and that is through thinking and thinking is a mental process which implies Energy.

     

    I commit myself to breathing in order to establish myself as the physical wherein I am no longer participating in the thoughts, backchat or internal conversations and instead, ensure that I am here as the physical wherein I am able to be aware of my breath and my surroundings moment by moment, where no ‘waves’ exist within the physical other than the constant movement in and out of breath as the actual vital sign that I am here and I am alive – I don’t require any emotion or feeling or thought to confirm so.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never consider the effects and consequences I would have to walk through at a physical level due to participating in the mind as thoughts, backchat, internal conversations because of having admitted such activity of ‘thinking’ as ‘who I am’ and believing that I was doing ‘no harm to anyone by just thinking’ which is one of our usual excuses to not stop and realize that every time that we think, we are not here as our physical body and that we were most likely never going to notice unless we would be able to realize the consequences of participating within energy of the mind later on in life and then blame other factors such as food, pollution, stress or any other external environmental condition, without realizing that every detrimental aspect to ourselves as life, begins at the level of one single thought that already indicates a separation of ourselves from the physicality that does not require to ‘think’ to live, but simply move as self in order to continue existing, which is then focusing on vital processes and activities that support life in itself and within this

    I commit myself to stop every time that I see myself thinking within the realization that it is Not Me making a decision to have these internal conversations that come out of nowhere, therefore, I stop within the realization that participating in such mind-chats means I am abdicating the responsibility and the hereness of being Here as breath as my physical body. Thus, I direct myself to think and use my mind as a tool in order to Live in Common Sense

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow the energy experience that rises and that I participate in every time I direct myself to go seek in the web for something that will trigger a sense of excitement within me, which I realize is not me making a decision to have a moment to entertain myself, but that this usually comes when I am in the middle of doing something that is implying me-facing-myself and my responsibilities, which implies that every time I give into these distractions, I confirm that I am in fact opting to go for the Energetic experience  – thus

     

    When and as I see myself wanting to go and visit certain websites wherein I can read or look at pictures or hear music that I know will make me feel ‘good’ for a moment when I am busy with my responsibilities, I stop and I breathe – I realize that in deciding to ‘go for it’ I am implying that I would rather participate in energy than being here as breath directing myself physically – thus I stick to breathing in and out until there is no movement left as a desire that comes up in the mind and stick to what I am already physically directing myself to do.

     

    I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to be absolutely directive with every single surge of the slightest energetic experience that begins arising within my mind and instead of being absolute and dedicated to stopping it absolutely, I left a leeway which is walking the middle road to not be absolute and dedicated to stopping all thinking and walking this process selectively, as there are definitive feelings and even emotions as well that I allowed myself to participate in – within this

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be Self Righteous about my experiences and justifying my participation in the mind wherein I would simply not be absolute to stop All participation but still leave an ‘open door’ to that which I thought, believed and perceived would not be ‘detrimental’ to my process, without realizing that the more we allow ourselves these ‘little participations in the mind,’ the more we accumulate energy to that particular thought/ emotion/ feeling that we believe is ‘who we are,’ and within that, before we realize it, we’ve lost ‘track’ of ourselves and have become that thought and embodied it to the point wherein now stopping it is more difficult because of all the extent of time and space that I have given away deliberately to participate in the mind, wherein I literally feed my obsessions and disregarded for such moments my physicality and everything that I am aware of within this process

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I had a ‘right’ left to have a bit of excitement in my life and indulging in fleeting moments of thinking, becoming emotional or experiencing feelings, which are all stemming from the same processes in the mind wherein there are no ‘innocent’ experiences as I diminished them to be, or ‘natural’ energetic experiences, as I see, realize and understand that All energetic experiences are in fact only existent through the same processes that Any other emotion, feeling, thought, backchat, internal conversations and memories exists as.

     

    I commit myself to apply myself within an absolute awareness of myself in every moment, as much as I do when I am participating outside with people, wherein I am aware of every blink of an eye, every breath, my entire physical posture and breathing and walk that into a point of comfort within and as myself no matter if I am alone or ‘with people’ so that I don’t create a personality of ‘awareness’ but instead equalize my self awareness at all times throughout the day, getting myself back to breathing every time that I ‘wander off’ in my mind, missing out on physical reality.

     

    I commit myself to be and become alert, aware and specific within my participation in my  mind in order to spot all slightest changes of self-experience which means going into a reaction and identify who I was with, what did I see, what thought crossed my mind, what did I read, what was the last interaction with another being, what am I not directing effectively that is keeping me in a ‘bound’ experience to the mind, which is then the process of writing, self forgiveness, self corrective application as the tools to see the points for myself-

    I realize this is the most beneficial point I can do for myself whenever I see that there is something I am apparently ‘not seeing’ or ‘being aware of,’ but all that happens is that when I try to make sense of it in my mind only, it remains without any actual physical consideration because it goes away as the thought that it is as a conclusion and realization which is how I require to write it all out, place it in front of me to be and become aware of my own words/ my own ‘script’ at a physical level and within that, self forgive it, correct it, breathe and integrate the self corrective statements as my application from here on, which always implies a dedication to breathing and remaining here, physically.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to the experiences that I have cultivated in my mind, specially those ones that I became self righteous about within the belief that I could just ‘keep this little piece of heaven’ within me, which is the same as leaving a back door for abuse to continue while already being aware of the extent of abuse that we are imposing onto ourselves and each other just because of this self righteous identification of who we are as our mind.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to identify ‘thinking’ with an entertaining process wherein through imagining and projecting things I would get a sense of upliftment, excitement and even comfort that I defined toward a situation, events, people, activities, foods, entertainment that I have turned into mind-drugs for my personal satisfaction, which implies that I have agreed to abuse and continue abusing myself and others when not honoring life as one and equal with myself but, remain within a self-righteous mode in my mind to continue creating these positive experiences in my mind as a ‘temporary high’ of which it would then take a greater effort to ‘step out of,’ due to the extent of ‘comfort’ that it is to be only imagining, thinking, projecting, picturing events, situations, experiences in our minds while missing out the physical reality that is certainly not going to generate any ‘positive ‘experience’ however, it is to realize that it is through that chasing after the ‘positive experience’ that we have agreed to consume the physicality that we are in order to feed our minds to generate experiences in self interest. Thus

    When and as I see myself ‘making it okay’ to continue indulging in an activity/ thinking process/ day dreaming  – I stop and I breathe – I realize that this ‘personal entertainment’ has consequences at a physical level that I am not absolutely experiencing, but am aware of, and this is the point wherein knowledge is placed into application and as such, as I see and realize that I am separating myself from the physical every time that I think, feel, become emotional or participate in imagination and backchat, which is then a process that I must ensure I stop in an absolute manner to assist and support myself to be here as breath, supporting myself as life as what I  really am.

     

    I commit myself to stop any positive experience, no matter how ‘little’ or ‘innocent’ it may seem as I realize the level of precision and diligence, that I must live by and apply as a continuous self-movement of which I won’t get any positive experience out of, lol, but it is a self-decision made in common sense and within the realization that I am not willing to continue abusing myself, this reality as everything and everyone that I have reduced to knowledge and information that I have reacted toward in a positive or negative experience in my mind for my own personal vicarious pleasures as everything that I had defined the thinking and becoming emotional and creating feelings to be like – this is the point that must be ‘given up’ in an absolute manner in order to be able to stand here ‘absolutely’

     

    I realize that it is ‘hard’ initially to let go of that which makes us ‘feel so good,’ but once that we understand how such fixations are only here existent through our own abdication to life, it is a decision made in Self-Honesty and Integrity to decide to stand up as a physical being that will no longer be an automated robot that will be triggered with emotions and feelings and thoughts about self as this entire reality, but instead establish oneself as the actual integrity/ completion that one is able to exist as when being here breathing and having no ‘waves’ in our waters moving, which menas, having no thoughts, feelings, emotions, worries, concerns or desires, wants, needs –  but simply being here. This is what I realize is the most absolute way to be here and when one is diligently integrating oneself as the physical, the energetic experiences feel like a drug throughout the physical body and it’s certainly not a nice experience, and within that

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create a ‘feeling bad’ experience out of the energy that I created myself and that I experience within my physical body as a poison or drug of sorts, without realizing that created it for myself and that ‘feeling bad’ about it is only wanting to victimize myself for something that I inflicted upon me – thus

     

    When and as I see myself ‘feeling bad’ for experiencing the result of thinking / participating in the mind in a constant and continuous basis, I stop and I breathe – I realize that ‘feeling bad’ is still another mind experience and not an absolute stopping here as breath to move physically to assist and support myself to stabilize myself here and remain breathing to not recreate any experience again.

     

    I commit myself to assist and support myself to choose life as in choosing breathing every time that I see myself veering toward/ opting for living out an experience in the mind, and instead become diligent to stop at the slightest energetic experience, through breathing and then immediately investigate the point through writing, self forgiveness, self corrective application in order to ensure that I am aware of what was that point of separation and become aware of how to stop it.

     

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    207. Changing the World in Self Interest

     

    Continuation of the Elite Character – Self Interest when wanting to ‘Change the World’

     

    Now from the personal interests and keeping ourselves in a position of current benefits, we jump to also another aspect of self interest which, as I had explained in the previous blogs, has to do with an inherent desire to get to a position of power/ recognition by becoming some form of libertarian to society, while earning money and living quite ‘well’ within the system – not to mention how I would mostly be only speaking about it but not doing anything practical about it. This is the substantial aspect that we can all still see around us: many people becoming ‘aware’ of change and wanting to ‘change the world’ but how much of that awareness is in fact practical to do create a tangible physical reality that can be best for all? Only by promoting social equality or justice within the context of my understanding back then would have lead to another revolution wherein further conflicts ensue without any actual change that would lead to a realization of how it is that Money is the current point that is required to be changed/ reformed in order to establish any form of change in this world. I was only looking at governments back then, people in it, and all the entire world-system as just some type of ‘evil’ that I was absolutely a victim of. This is where the trick resides here, how we have always separated ourselves from the responsibility of what is here and rejoiced in being able to point fingers and even Drive other beings to become aware at the same level of opposition and lead them to further ways to ‘escape the system,’ of which I am also responsible for and have walked in self forgiveness throughout my process, because I also led people to further irresponsibility and opposition within my apparent ‘clarity’ about reality, which was, once again, only stemming from my desire to place myself as this righteous benevolent person that wanted to change the world and bring ‘social justice’ while neglecting my own responsibility within it. How easy, isn’t it?

    In reality, we have realized it cannot possibly as easy as that, it cannot possibly be just a matter of ‘letting things run  its course’ and be asking for change while even desiring to get further recognition for being a ‘voice for the people,’ while maintaining our own benefits and being deliberately oblivious to how we were ‘good for fighting’ against the system, but not at all even being aware of how our own self-interest was still stemming from not being willing to give up our ‘little bits of heaven’ in order to dedicate our lives to an actual change, because we weren’t even aware of what that implies.

     

    So, this is how at Desteni we are aware that social, political and economical change is required in order for the World to change – and that cannot exist if there is no Education for human beings in order to realize to what extent the configuration of this reality – including the ‘opposition’- was part of a greater scheme of enslavement of which we are all equally participants of by the sheer fact of being here. This implies that the first step is taking Self Responsibility of what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become and within that, become part of a group that promotes Self Responsibility in order to establish an actual change and reform to the current system, while realizing that it is not about ‘opposing it’ nor spiritualizing the entire process to a heavenly experience of ‘self change’ either – it is rather a realization of practical steps and considerations that one must be absolutely willing to walk as an Understanding and Realization of what must be done, instead of it being just another activity to make oneself feel ‘better’ or ‘good’ or aim to get to some ‘higher position’ within society, which would absolutely go against everything that we stand for which is Equality as Life, as physical beings that decide to stand up and take responsibility.

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever think that wanting to ‘change the world’ was going to be a nice, blissful type of experience wherein I would be able to maintain all my benefits and even earn ‘more’ by promoting ‘change’ in this world, which is the entire personality of how I wanted to obtain some form of reward/ benefit from doing something ‘good’ to society, which reveals to what extent we have never been self-willed beings but have only regurgitated the same words and desires to ‘do something’ about reality, but never even questioning why we, people with certain amount of money, were wanting to do some ‘change’ just by promoting it, without understanding how the system works and how the actual change entails money and entails a process of participation within the system, not outside of it.

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to desire ‘world change’ and expecting it to just ‘happen’ by a sudden realization of ourselves human beings being willing to just ‘do something about the world/ ourselves’ which was quite an ignorant desire from my side, mostly relying on an spiritual type of agenda that I also participated in, wherein I believed that somehow everything would be aligned to a ‘wonderful outcome’ in the end, and this relying on how brainwashed I had always been to believe that ‘in the end everything will be just fine,’ becoming a comfortable belief-system and ‘certainty’ within me in order to just continue pursuing my own position of promoting ‘change’ but never even looking at the actual root/cause of the problem in this world system, which is Money.

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create an entire character within myself of becoming an opposition to ‘the Elite’ once that I realized my own position and the self interest that I was living in, without realizing that I never actually stopped being part of the people that have enough money to eat and be educated – thus, I only ‘changed my mind’ about money, but I never changed my actual understanding of how it is that money works, how it is that no matter how much I pretended to ‘care’ about others as long as I remained oblivious to myself, my own self-change as an actual introspection and investigation of my life to see where and how I could in fact contribute to a world-change based on what’s best for all, I simply was projecting a desire to ‘change others’ / the world without having to look at myself, because that would mean then that I was in fact not ‘right’ and within my own mind: I was absolutely ‘right’ about what I was aiming to do and be/ become, neglecting the fact that I was also absolutely responsible for everything that I was pointing fingers at within this world, while still remaining under the protective shadow of having enough money to live well and still manage to criticize the system with no further solutions other than opposing it and ‘asking for change’ to the ‘authorities.’

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect things to always work out ‘just fine’ in the end when embarking myself within a process of becoming an antagonist and opposition toward the world system, wherein I essentially would only take pride of being an ‘aware being’ and ‘not being brainwashed,’ developing a constant anger toward society, media, people in general, without realizing that the actual point of change and real awareness that I was missing was myself, first realizing how I am equally responsible for this world which is ludicrous but, I never even considered how I was responsible for this entire world’s situation and that me and my desires to ‘change the world’ were coming and existing from the self-righteous belief that I had nothing to do with ‘what is going on in this world’ and that I was only a ‘victim’ of it, without realizing how this became my own protective mechanism from realizing how we have all contributed to the current state of the world by the mere fact of existing, by the mere fact of using money and by the mere fact of believing that we had some ‘higher purpose’ in life and that my ‘higher purpose’ was linked to becoming ‘aware’ and be the ‘world changer’ personality, from the starting point of opposing the system, not realizing that I am in fact one and equal As the system and that the system is ourselves.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to change the world from the perspective of the Enlightened Self Interest, wherein ‘in the end’ I would also get a higher position after such apparent ‘world change’ which is the motivation that I had been conditioned to follow through as part of the entire process of ‘getting to a higher position in society’ while wearing a ‘world peace’ banner in my mind in order to justify the means to my projected ‘success’ as in doing it for a ‘good cause,’ which in the end is no different to any other job/ position that is intending to ‘do well’ and most likely only remain as a ‘promoter’ instead of an active participant within the system, working on a solution that will certainly not allow further elitism in society or any other vainglory form of personalized benevolence but only the realization that we can only thrive as humanity when all beings are equally supported. That implies that:

     

    I commit myself to walk the process of realizing how any form of world change cannot contain any form of individual self interest to get to a ‘higher position’ at all, as that would obviously imply that only the same system that allows such ‘superiority’ would be reinforced with another mask of ‘change’ – an actual consideration and actions toward world change imply doing it from the starting point of realizing how we are one whole as one organism that can only continue living if we regard all parts/ all beings as equals – this implies then that only equal positions in society can exist wherein all people are equally supported with money to live, with education to understand how we can all practically become self-responsible beings and within this, understanding how money can only be valued as life in order to maintain such well being in society, wherein a form of sickness/unbalance to the organism can only exist if one single part is desiring to get ‘more’ than the other part, which is then another form of Self Abuse that must be understood as such and not any longer as Success which is how we’ve been currently brainwashed to think ‘power’ is.

     

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    196. The Elitist Evil behind Relationships

     

    “I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand the commonsense, practical, physical question regarding: the things coming up in the Mind, “seemingly coming from nowhere”, that I never questioned “where the things that come up in my Mind, seemingly from nowhere go when/as I resist/deny/suppress/ignore it?” – Sunette Spies*

     

     

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    So far I’ve walked the point of believing that I had the ‘right’ to assess reality outside of myself and Think/ Believe and/ Perceive that ‘I had nothing to do with that’ and that whatever would come up in my mind was strictly pointing out what existed in others wherein any form of reaction that ensued from this, was taken as ‘ my right’ to react to whatever I thought/ assessed about another.

    See the point? I created my own judgments/ perspectives upon something/ someone in one moment, within my mind only, and according to my own assessment based on judgments, ideas, beliefs, perceptions, preferences at the level of backchat, I defined who I would be in such a moment toward the person and event. Now, where is the physical reality participation in this? Nowhere, I would mostly do this is one single moment of observing, ‘assessing people’ and according to this ‘evaluation’ determine already who I would be toward the person/ environment based on how much I could benefit from the relationship/ situation – mostly obviously, focusing on the economic status of the person and future relationships, which is mostly how I am realizing I was programmed to always be aware of and ensure that I would create relationships based on money, in which I accepted and allowed myself to become a silent elitist in my mind.

     

     

    Why is this relevant to my process? I have shoved aside many times my own elitism implanted at an early age wherein I was taught to be aware of the amount of money people had within my ‘friends at school’ and within this, always being asked questions by my mother about the social status of my friends, their parents their jobs and this eventually making me angry because at my eyes, I knew that the point was me only seeking to be with people in the same ‘social status’ which eventually lead me to rebel against that at a later stage which is another story much later in my teenage years – however, as a child because of being under the ‘control’ of my parents, I would frequent and get along with kids that were part of an upper class that I was quite oblivious to before the age of 6, thus generating this inherent desire to one day have their life, their money and as such, believing that keeping these relationships would lead me to a similar economic outcome as them/ their families which is an upper middle class close to rich people.

     

     

     

    Now, the most prominent point would always be remaining quiet in these situations and events. about the reactions as a defense mechanism, while keeping a ‘welcoming face/ gesture’ on my face when being in an environment that I was busy quickly assessing and deciding who I would be in such situations – the event here is not yet relevant, what is relevant is walking that condition of, after having gone through the righteousness of believing that ‘I am right/ I have the right to assess others’ then simply remain quiet and allow my own thoughts to determine who I am toward others/ in a particular moment/ even in my reality based on the benefit I could get ‘in the future’ from being liked/ accepted by a particular type of people. Why is this? Protection mechanism based on the fear of not being liked/ accepted/ welcomed, fear of  rejection and as such, limiting my ability to benefit from such relationships.

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be thinking and valuing others and a moment in reality according to the amount of benefit I would get from such relationships, wherein I essentially allowed my self interest of experiencing a life of joy, comfort and luxury instead of common sense of an actual empathy toward the beings I was being acquainted with.  Within this, assessing my own participation in reality according to the amount of positive experiences I would get from it, which implied me having to ‘keep quiet’ all the judgments and assessments made toward others in order to remain accepted and liked by people that I thought and realized I could ‘benefit from’ within creating a friendship/ acquaintance that would lead me to a similar living-outcome based on the material possessions/ money they represented, which became a desire within me as well.

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to determine reality according to my own subjective values of ‘what is in it for me?’ wherein the participation within any event/ activity/ relationships, was always made from the starting point of building a reputation of being a ‘good valuable person’ which would ensure that I created the necessary façade to not have any problems in my reality/ get the most benefits in reality, as I Knew that as long as one present an actively warming attitude and gentleness, people immediately create a point of trust and comfort which is assuring an imprint within another person’s mind of oneself being a ‘good person’ in order to then be able to get something out of the person in exchange to such amicable link in a future moment/ situation wherein such relationship would come in ‘handy’ for my own benefit.

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to use people, events and situations to my own benefit to build my own ‘persona’ as the reputation that I was aiming at in order to be liked/ accepted/ praised/ recognized by many people and within this appraisal obtained through me creating a positive input within their lives, assure my own ‘triumph’ within everything that I would commit myself to be and become in my reality, as I understood the importance of social relationships in order to escalate in the social-stratus, wherein me having ‘high hopes / aims’ within this world, I knew that I would have to present ‘the good side’ of myself, which was specifically prefabricated in order to create social relationships so that I could benefit from it, accumulating ‘positive relationships’ stemming from the actual fear of being relegated, ostracized, disowned, discriminated and essentially treating me as ‘less than’ everything that I wanted to be and become, which is linked to obviously ending up with no money/ no comfort/ no ‘happiness’ in my world – within this using relationships in my reality in order to only benefit myself, never considering how such relationships could be transformed to a point that could benefit all, because such principle was not even considered within myself in the past.

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become a cunning observer of reality and acting according to the expected ways within the social-terms of how I would ensure that I always would have people on my side/ people that would like me and accept me within the realization that within this world system, the more you create relationships based on an empathy at a character-level of being a ‘good person,’ one ensures a point of support,  which is how I would abide to these rules in order to ensure that I would do things for others expecting something in return ‘in the future,’ and within this, seeing my participation within relationships with others as a plain act of hypocrisy in order to generate a good reputation for myself for and if I ever required to get something from a person or a situation, ensuring that I would most likely ‘get what I wanted’ based on me having first created a positive-link toward people, ensuring that they would ‘remember’ who I am and as such, support me/ help me out with any point that I would require from them in order to succeed/ achieve my goals or be gotten ‘out of trouble’ which reveals how every decision I made with regards to relationships in my reality were measured according to the amount of benefit I could obtain from them for either any potential ‘upgrading’ in my lifestyle or ‘getting me out of trouble.’

     

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to asses people and define ‘who they are’ according to the amount of money/ education they have and accordingly having decided to either evolve/ develop the relationship Or not participate at all, wherein the not participation would imply already that I would not get ‘anything’ out of such relationships that would support my aim of being and becoming someone ‘better’ in terms of escalating a social-stratus, ‘hanging out’ with more educated people which reveal to what extent I allowed myself to support the polarization of this world within the very ‘weighing process’ of my relationships since I was a young girl.

     

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become used to seeing money as a relevant factor that would determine who I could hang out with/ who I would rather refrain from relating with, base on this inherent belief that I had to stick to people that I could benefit from at an economical and social-relationship level, which became the elitist mind within me that was an aspect of being the ‘good person’ as a building block of a reputation that I was busy scheming throughout my life in order to be and become someone of ‘power’ in my reality, aided from all of these relationships that I thought I could benefit from.

     

    When and as I see myself assessing a relationship with a particular person based on the amount of money and benefit that I can obtain from such relationship, I stop and I breathe – I realize that this has significantly being walked as part of my process, however the point of creating relationships based on the benefit I can get from others at a later stage is still here wherein the only acceptable way of creating relationships in our social-reality at this stage, is to ensure that the outcome of such benefit can be directed and linked specifically to a best for all outcome, this is the Only acceptable way to continue creating relationships/ acquaintances within our reality

     

    I commit myself to walk a process of self forgiveness and self corrective statements and application to ensure that there is not a single bit of self interest implied within the relationships that I create as getting something out of it for my own personal benefit – I instead ensure that I become aware of the relationships that I create, verifying that each one of them stands in alignment with the principle that I am living my life as, which is that of creating, establishing and being the very building block of a world in Equality, wherein all relationships will stop being only based on personal gratification, self interest, greed and the ‘upgrade’ of social-stratus based on wealth, and instead develop the very basic considerations of equal and one support to one another wherein Money is not a decisive factor within it, but more of a necessary mean at this stage in this world to develop and create a world system that will be based on Life in Equality.

     

    I commit myself to stop participating in the same relationship dynamics that have lead to the polarization of reality wherein we have only sought to benefit ourselves/ escalate positions while ignoring the absolute hideous reality that the majority is existing in because of  only a few being busy building further ladders to escalate in the social stratus while neglecting the fact that we are equal and one to that which we neglect, deny  and suppress which is the poverty and the lack in this world based on an economic system that has not supported all beings equally – within this

     

    I commit myself to walk this process of relationships in order to direct relationships to stop being the building blocks of this elitist society that is having money as a god, and as such align the understanding of how it is that only within the realization of the Real Value within Life which is LIFE can relationship and ourselves as individuals actually thrive in reality, as the moment that only self interest is continued to be sought in this reality for our own benefit only, the more we continue the separation, greed and absolute neglect toward the rest of the world that is Here as ourselves and requires to be always taken into consideration with ever y single relationship that we form from here on, as equals, dedicating ourselves to stop egotistical desires of ‘fame and fortune’ and instead, stand up to create and manifest a living condition that is dignified for all beings on Earth, as this is in fact what I would want others to give to each other in an equal manner as the actual well being we are perfectly capable of installing in this life.

     

    There is a particular memory coming up which I will write about in my next blog. And this will be a series of exploring this which I had certainly not written about in my process before, which are these seemingly ‘unimportant’ experiences in my early childhood with particular groups of people and ‘friends’ that I was close to due to my parents’ relationships, which had a ‘better economic position’ than us and how many times I would swallow my experience toward them, my own anger, judgments and general irritation and envy within such friendships just because of not wanting to miss out the opportunity to go to the places where they lived and play with their games, and hang out in their homes which I perceived were better than my own and obviously, it was all based on the money that they had.

     

     

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    160. Pious

    Making a Hypocritical display of virtue

    The word hits the nail on the head to explain a self-conscious virtue that one display in order to get quite a satisfaction from actually showing it off, while waiting to ‘gain points’ to obtain that which is either able to be categorized as a ‘good being reputation,’ a ‘benevolent’ person that supports those in need or a piece of heaven for it, which was the type of constant self-consciousness I would have: be good, be benevolent, you don’t want ‘others’ talking shit about you.  Hence, all this ‘good deeds’ were in fact always motivated by ‘how others will see me’ and maintaining this flawless reputation that I created from when I was in school. However, I learned how the system works and started using it for my own benefit, which included creating a positive reputation so that later on no one could ‘doubt’ of me doing something that was ‘wrong’ or ‘bad.’ And I must say that even in this point of awareness of human-reputation, I would mostly fear doing something bad/ wrong because of an ingrained fear of god/ punishment in ‘unknown ways,’ because I also learned how people were supposed to get a hell of a life if they had been ‘bad people’ in their lives – hence the ignorant belief that poor people had been in fact very bad people in past lives.

    When thinking of the word pious what I get is several experiences lined up as the same type of event: showing others how to do something in school/ supporting them to get past any form of problem to which I would always get a kick when being thanked or even praised for ‘being such an angel/ good person’ and helping them out, deeply knowing that I was in fact doing it to get this type of psychological reward while believing as well that they would only say that to later on be able to ask me again/ be supported/ helped by me.

    In this the superwoman point emerged, I mean, believing that one is in fact able to help others and live a life doing that in order to ‘make others feel good and make myself feel good,’ however how much of that was in fact actually supportive if I were to only solve their problems without them taking responsibility for it? And also within me: what was the driving force to place myself at the disposition to support? Altruism and ‘good hearted people’ may seem like apple pies on the outside, but as we know and realize our human nature we cannot possibly remain within this nice belief considering that the very system that we live in is based upon Rewards, which translate into any type of positive energy/ money that adds up like stars in a rating system. And that’s what it was all about: being the star with most ‘positive feedback’ to, just like any other product, gain value in my world-market to make myself feel good, ensure a future of well-being – because, you know, people that are able to establish such good reputation from an early age were supposed to be winners/ ensured successful beings in the world system. And it seems even unreal to say it, but I became aware of it at a very early age upon seeing how such reputation worked at the level of world-system/ business/  money/ relationships, becoming this ‘golden trophy’ that I knew would add up within my reputation the more I ‘did good.’

     

    And this is essentially what I was basing my life upon, it was actually like a constant masquerade I’d wear and become very aware of whenever I would get to a new school, with any ‘new people’ I’d meet, new environments I’d settle in, using a ‘good sense of humor’ and the willingness to ‘help’ as a way to create relationships out of self interest, realizing how I would probably eventually ‘need them in the future,’ and as such becoming a calculator within my demon.stration of benevolence as a pious showoff of such ‘virtues’ = making relationships in an easy way out of self interest. This lasted up to the time when I still wanted to be such an example of ‘good person’ and that ended like 10 years ago. After that I went to the opposite side due to becoming rather critical about any attempt to be successful in the world, however I still would not give up my ‘achieved path,’ I kept the desire to build such reputation but in an apparently ‘unconventional manner’ which lead me to an even ‘more’ special point of reputation to the point of sickening myself with feedback from others saying how benevolent/ good person/ considerate one I was. And hell,  for all that we are aware now as our process, I would not trust a single thing of feedback anyone else had to say about me, because I knew I was doing it and probably everyone else was also doing it and as long as any of such ‘benevolent acts’ were actually fueled by the desire to get a point of recognition/ positive feedback/ stars accumulated in my curriculum, none of it can be considered as an actual point of self-support in consideration of others as myself.

    This is within the vein of ‘The Force of Good’ points that we probably never investigated within us, because we believed that such ‘good/ positive’ thinking/ deeds were ‘absolutely honest’ and ‘good natured,’ however how can Anything of what we’ve done in fact be ‘good’ if we only considered our own reputation, our own ‘good feelings’ about such deeds in fact. We have all been hypocritical for that matter and this is just part of the aspects of how we have hand picked our life experiences to remember always in a positive/ laureate manner while hiding the actual starting point for such actions being only self interest.

    What we have to realize is that we are in fact able to support each other to get to stand as our optimal living condition in this world once that there is no competition to be ‘the most benevolent one’ to get the most “good reputation” that translates to credit/ money within the world system to get all the benefits. IF we give benefits to ALL beings equally,  THEN, what is there to ‘disguise’ as a benevolent being/ pious display of virtues in self interest any longer? Nothing, there will be no more laureate people doing anything ‘benevolent’ in self interest, and instead it will become a single living-integrated realization that life can only flourish and continue if all beings are Equally Supported as Life. Once that survivalism is no longer the measure point for our actions, our lives can be measured/ valued and lived according to the physical-worth of actions that in fact support life in Equality.

     

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