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272. Venerating The Money-God

 

Continuing from: 271. Sacred Art: the Key to Understanding Reality

Also Read: 203. The Acceptance of Heaven is the Allowance of Hell

 

So, we find that the representations used to venerate gods/ the divine were meant to ‘educate’/imprint/reinforce within human beings this sense of being lost and seeking to be ‘found’ and ‘happy again.’ You are born sin, some guy died because of your sins, you have to punch your chest recognizing that it’s been ‘my fault, my fault, my great fault’ and then pray to some god, angels, archangels and saints to save us from ‘falling’ into the pits of our temptations, which is everything that has been tainted with being bad, wrong, spoiled, which also includes that which generates Life on Earth, such as sex and sexuality, such profanity from ourselves yet we never questioned this and as such, morality was born.

 

If we have a look at what sacred art represents is quite a form of ultimate abuse and control which is using the Earth’s materials to be worked by and through one human being to create a final product that will serve for purposes of enslavement. I cannot see a difference between this same process and virtually all that we have constructed/ built in our society that is currently serving No purpose other than continuing the mystification of the human race within these ‘godly’ self-beliefs of evolution/progress/betterment and investing in such ‘godly tasks’ while there’s still people dying from preventive diseases, starving to death and having no proper education given in equality in order to be able to ‘equally make it’ in this holy-crusade that we’ve called Life. That’s our god of progress, yet we’re all quite happy with the way it turned out ‘for us’ because we have had no idea of what it is to really be ‘forgotten’ in this world system.

 

In terms of this sacred art, it is no different to the images/pictures/sounds used for massive purposes of propaganda through the best PR campaigns to direct the population to buy/consume something and as such, keep the entire system in place. Back then there was no media or radio or anything like ‘mass media’ that exists now- yet, there were churches and people that spent their lifetimes ‘converting’ people, which here in Mexico it meant stopping venerating several gods of natural forces and start believing in Jesus, the bible, the saints and seeking to be ‘benevolent’ at all cost. So it meant a shift from a functional form of enslavement to these natural-forces as gods to a monotheism that became the most profound form of indoctrination in our culture: you are only a servant to god, you are a sinner, you deserve nothing, you must suffer to reach any godhood. And for that, you have to now ‘Elevate’ yourself through believing in god, going to church, giving your money to the church, feeling constantly guilty for your sins, feeling like you always NEED to feel good, to be ‘closer to god’ and do whatever it takes to make a higher score in your reputation with god as this ‘omnipresent’ authority-figure that we all learned to fear.

 

What’s more fascinating is that this is precisely how the Quantum Mind operates: everything that was created as a constant form of secret mind is all the negative, bad, evil, dark, nasty and the usual catholic indoctrination means that one has to ‘feel bad’ about that, feel guilty, you are a nasty piece of flesh if you dare to go without confessing your dark deeds to another man that was supposed to absolve you from your sins in god’s name. Well, what happens at a quantum mind level is that we would thus only seek to be ‘Positive’ all the time and experience the ‘glory of god’ in our earthly lives, which means: hide everything that seems negative, seek the light! seek the positive! without Ever having understood what the hell does ‘being positive’ in fact meat, which is certainly Not an actual best for all state of being for ourselves as our physical body and establishing proper relationships with ourselves and each other – but instead it meant the Most Energy for the Mind/ Consciousness, which implies that we have only really been venerating one real god: energy/ consciousness, wherein we have believed that all the love, light, peace and joy are ‘natural’ experiences and our ‘utmost desire’ to fulfill on Earth – but, again, who taught us that such ‘well being’ is an energetic flickering experience that we have to Buy/ Consume and attain Happiness/Joy/Bliss no matter what – why do we have to BUY our happiness and well being?

All of this exists in a massive ignorance toward how the mind operates that, as we have explained before, to generate any sense of ‘positive experience’ it has to consume the flesh/physicality in order to transform it into energy that we then call ‘positive experiences’ – For this please educate yourself with the following interview:

Quantum Mind Self Awareness – STEP 26

 

The religious construct implies: you are separated from god – But what is ‘god’ anyways? Well, if we can give god a proper signifier it is the physical, life in itself as a whole – thus, one of the ways in which we have separated ourselves from our own piece of god as the physical body that we are is through the Mind, because the mind is a system that can only exist if enough energy as the result of a relationship of friction and conflict within ourselves is generated in order to create these either positive or negative experiences that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become as ‘who we are’ as ‘our personality’ as our ‘identity.’  So all of these suffering images were meant to remind us all the time: suffer, be sad, repent! you are born in sin, you are flawed, you are not worthy unless you climb the ladder of success to get to god/the most money in the world and as such, you’ll be holy and deserving the heavens. But, no one explained how such ‘glory’ as the heavens/ the most money in the world was created: both systems implied the resourcing of the physicality transformed into energy to power up the ‘Heaven’ existence – that is no longer existent and for that read the Desteni Materialand the Money System as well wherein those at the ‘top of the pyramid’ and even in a figurative way ‘closer to god/ the heavens/ above the Earth’ are able to be in such positions due to the abuse that is imposed onto the rest/ base of the pyramid in order to make More than others and claim divinity and having a ‘fortunate position’ while deliberately neglecting how those below are actually ‘living’ and how they have been the forgotten ones by some god to have equal-support and opportunity as those that get to be at the very top.

 

Now, when looking at sacred art which was mostly made for and in the houses of the elites and the ecclesiastic circles/ churches, one gets to see this imposition of ‘divinity’ and ‘power’ through majestic constructions with lots of gold and magnificent paintings that are revered till this day. For that, you can hear  The Soul of Money – Part 26 for further context of how this operates.

It is quite an abuse to use actual creative forces to forge, sculpt, paint and manifest some of the most atrocious artifacts with which billions have been enslaved to through such items/products becoming a representation of the belief systems we have all followed – there’s still billions venerating images, crucifixes and all forms of relics associated with some form of ‘divine symbols’ that one is then protected by, or given ‘good omens’ with or signifying some form of specialness – all kinds of delirium that is able to be created/ constructed in order to maintain this hierarchical separation from ourselves as god/ life existent equal and one in everything and everyone.

 

I see this is why a movie like Stigmata became such a fascination to me because the message was clear with the Gospel of Thomas there “Jesus said… the Kingdom of God is inside you, and all around you, not in mansions of wood and stone. Split a piece of wood… and I am there, lift a stone… and you will find me.” However, as explained yesterday, Jesus was not god, Jesus simply saw within himself and everyone else that sameness as Life, hence such Equality could be found Everywhere and as such, this statement would debunk the entire institutionalization of god made religion, made ‘followers’ and a set of dogmas that one would have to somehow be controlled by, which is the entire plot of  Stigmata where the Vatican is presented as keeping all of these secrets in order to not lose control of the faithfully deceived.

 

If we see a parallel within the Money System currently, the same process is going on: one is not supposed to question the existence of Money – how it is created, who decides what is worth what amount of money, what are the laws that decide and govern how money moves in this physical reality, and the ‘representatives of god’ as money in this reality are the bankers and governmental institutions that have the ‘divine power’ to create money out of thin air and decide to do whatever will benefit them the most with it. We’re then left with a few economists – a parallel to the theologians  – that are supposed to ‘make sense’ of the economy only, and I say theologians and economists are similar because none of them have any actual ‘say’ to change how the power is forged/constituted/configured within this reality, one can only ‘study it’ within its defined/given context and that’s it, hence no change has emerged in this reality. To read more about how this is in the process of being changed to an actual revolution, read an Economist’s Journey To Life.

 

It is still fascinating to me to see people appeasing and kneeling at the sight of these artifacts, crying in front of these clay representations of virgins, saints and any other ‘doll-like’ figure that could represent that character from that passage that they thought was ‘divine’ in nature – and that certainly always lead to seeking this ‘divinity’ within ourselves, learned to curse and deny and conceal all the negative and as such, keep walking to ‘create’ the kingdom of God/Money the ‘Positive’ in this world. One can thus see how this has become the foundation of our current ‘civilization’ : see pretty pictures, attach some ‘great value’ to that which entails great abuse, extrapolate the Value of Life as Equals and create a hierarchical system wherein one has to accept great suffering to get to god. Sounds familiar? Yes, life is a struggle and you’ll have to endure sweat, blood and tears to ‘make it’ in this life. These are the laws of our current hierarchical system of abuse as well as the religious precepts that we have blindly followed– and this has become the foundation to the vast majority of a nation blinded by religion and still believing that through prayer this world will get better and they will get what they require to live, which is money.

Is ‘God/ Religion/ Money’ to blame then? Not at all, it has always been ourselves that created such entities, it has only been ourselves that followed through with such forms of separation while being embodying the answer to all life: the physical, life in equality. This is thus not a point to condemn but mostly a point to expose in order to see what type of religious-systems we’re still following and Money as the current construct it exists as is certainly no different to any form of religion that we believe is what’s best for all, while it has always proven to Not be so as this world and our entire history of ‘venerating gods’ have demonstrated already.

How long will we continue to value metals, paper, wood, oils, stones shaped into the form of gods/money more than life itself? how long will we continue to be controlled by these symbols and totems that can only signify a point of separation and abuse toward each other?

Investigate the Equal Money System where all false gods will cease to exist and Life will be recognized as who we are in Equality: giving and receiving what we require to live and never again reduce ourselves to being servants of abuse.

 

 

“Everything Works-together like a Conspiracy of Synchronicities. Constantly Sending the Message: “Obey – you are Imperfect”, “You’re Born in Sin”, “You’re Not Good Enough”, “the World can’t Change”, “Accept what is Here” – and then, you are Given an ‘Answer’, an Illusion as Consciousness as Religion, as Spirituality, through which you can Escape, Waiting for Death as the ‘Great Escape’ to go to ‘Another World’, apparently, to a ‘Better Life’, apparently, which obviously, if you Study the Law of Physics: Is Impossible. There Is Only That which you Are and Allow – Even Beyond this, because: ‘Magically’, your State of Energy don’t Change, ‘Magically’ your State of Being don’t Change, it is What it is Now and what you Accept Now; and if you Do Not Understand the Most Basic Principles of What makes it Possible for you to be Consciousness, to have a Thought, to have a Feeling, to have Emotion: If you don’t Understand That even – How could you Ever be Free?” – Bernard Poolman*

 

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204. Opposing the System: Elitist Act of Irresponsibility

Revolutions and Dissidence as so-called Acts of Goodness while protected by money to keep fueling the same system that’s being opposed.

I was taught to fear the bad/ negative/ evil within both the context of morals as in ‘doing good things’ to be a ‘good person/ good girl’ and also within the aspect of fearing ‘dark entities’/ demons at home. I know this doesn’t sound something ‘usual’ but I was brought up more within a belief in the afterlife and a ‘white light brotherhood’ than anything Christian/ Catholic like churches and the bible etc., masses on Sundays or anything like that. This was all based on a bad experience my mother had when she was in her nun school and found a priest having sexual intercourse with a nun. The rest is history – I got to know of that story in a watered down version as a child, being old enough to realize the scam that the church was. Being religious in this country as in any other is a matter of ‘belonging’ and so I also had my phase of wanting to be ‘good’ and ‘fit in’ with the rest of the people, mostly because of the school I went to, which was a Jesuit one – great education, bad idea trying to play good and benevolent when attending the masses, in the end it just turned into a spiteful game I played toward all things catholic-church-the pope etc. and creating an entire personality about it that I have walked through in the past as well.

I would question a lot why the hell on Earth was the Vatican so filthy rich having gold all over while priests were supposed to have some ‘poverty vow’ or something – as well as a ‘chastity’  and many other flaws that I felt just perverted by even seeking to get a second hand communion paper because I believed that I had to have such paper in order to be able to feel good about having some form of sacrament other than baptism. And this became just another ‘stand point’ for me to simply begin pursuing being ‘good’ at my own terms. I liked the idea of god not being bound to a stone and rock temple/ houses like churches, it really seemed quite bogus to me to believe anything the church said for that matter like the Adam and Eve story which was nothing else but a similar story to white snow and the seven dwarfs to me for that matter, I just ‘tagged along’ to not question it too much – not to say that I once did try and learn ‘Catholicism’ in those lessons given to children my age (around 9) within my attempt to be a ‘good girl’ and dropped out after the first class, lol.  I also did it because of my friend’s family being very devoted and so, I didn’t want to be a ‘heretic’ as I was usually called as well at home sometimes, which was fine. I mean, I grew up in a house where you could not spot one single cross on the walls or on people as in ‘necklaces’ or earrings etc. as it was plain ludicrous to see a gory Jesus-look alike dummy figurine nailed to a wooden cross as a sign of any benevolence, I was in fact mostly haunted by any images I would encounter like that in people’s homes – lol even holograms – you know those images that change when you move from side to side – of Jesus shedding blood on the cross, bizarre kitsch shit to say the least, which is probably what religion has become, nothing but a merchandising fan base wherein having a button that says you’re the member of a club makes you feel in any way ‘special.’ To me seeing crosses in people’s houses was something similar to what for a Christian would be like to see a satanic symbol, not to mention that my white/light community made me stop wearing one of those David star symbols because it was apparently ‘not good’ lol– but that’s just how I grew up.

I seriously never got the point of him dying for our sins and I only now get the whole picture thanks to the Crucifixion of Jesus interviews that, I must admit, I began listening to with my left overs of ‘skepticism’ toward the whole Jesus story, only now realizing to what extent I was also wearing the ‘atheist coat’ for that matter, to abdicate any form of responsibility toward this institutionalized existence of good/ evil.

 

And so, the context I grew up with was obviously being overtly open about my criticism toward religious ‘authorities’ within my standard of ‘I am a good person because I ‘’unmask’ the lies and the false preachers of god.’ However, I was following a belief as well, about there being these light beings that were here to help me and my loved ones to ‘make it through’ in our lives, and ‘give light’ to the entities at home that would ‘lurk around’ from time to time. Lol, we were absolutely oblivious back then how the Earth was all Demon-based.

So that’s how I was so righteous boasting against the church, because I had my ‘true faith’ and ‘verified’ by these seemingly ‘heaven sent’ solutions to our lives in times of distress – I mean, I’m talking about stuff like my sister losing a watch – an ‘expensive gift’ in her 15th birthday – and these mediums/ light beings whatever suddenly making it appear underneath the couch  – and so there were all of these things that were always consulted with them in order to ensure that we remained with our ‘safety’ at home, that we were always ‘supported’ by these seemingly invisible beings that would care for us enough to always ‘be there.’ However, how it all started crumbling down when bad stuff happened, and we were left questioning: well, where the hell is our security? why did that happen? we are good people!’

 

See the trivial aspects of all of this? the narrow-viewed of what my reality consisted of? Only ensuring that WE as my family remain safe/ secured and using any form of god/ heavenly support as a way to also feel safe/ secured which meant what? Everything was done out of FEAR. The same with how I would feel so ‘righteous’ to boast about the ‘falseness of catholic church’ which was only possible if I had my so-called ‘security’ in place from what I believe was the ‘true source of power’ / true god in this world as these light beings and this channel-based congregation that I would not even attend to on a regular basis, but twice or three times a year only. However we would only blatantly use them whenever we were in trouble. This is how I grew up with lots of fear as well, because I was taught how one could ‘pick up’ other beings’ ‘bad energies’ and become them, which is the absolute easy way to project any form of Self-Responsibility for what WE Experience within ourselves in our minds.I was also taught that I had to ‘protect me from envious people’ and that’s also another source of anxiety, constantly checking up people around me and fearing – more like backchatting about them apparently being against me and at some point it was as if ‘everyone against me’ and the delusion grew quite big as a constant point of conflict, which I later on knew it is mostly something that we all have as human beings that exist as the condition of survival in this world, which is obviously stemming from how we have accepted and allowed ourselves to live in a world configured to Only support some, and wherein being ‘out in the world’ would feel like being in a dog-race that I simply had to ensure I would always win –for what? Safety, happiness, success, fulfillment- as I have explained in the previous blogs. 

 

And so, in my righteousness, I only became part of the ‘opposition’ like the same type of disposition that people that call themselves ‘Spiritual’ boast out about Religions – mostly Christianity/ Catholicism –  so in that, I was already way ‘prepared’ to become a spearhead of any form of spiritual light and lovish movement wherein as I’ve explained various other times here in my blog, I wanted to end up creating my own religion, lol. Which is how I investigated quite a lot and the points that I would always end up seeing in common were yes, oneness, equality, the universe, chemical marriage, life – but all seen from this super fluffy furry perspective that I could get a positive kick out of, never really placing 1+1 together to in fact SEE and get to understand This World System, but only as another personality later on in my life of being the ‘informed citizen’/ member of the world, which was mostly an intellectual aspect linked to spirituality and making a concoction of these two with which I would feel quite proud of, having a mouth full of opinions without even daring to look at my own reality, as an individual and my participation within the delusional system that I was so happy criticizing and judging all the time, and I mean this: All the time. Quite the way that many of our current detractors and main critiques at Desteni spend their days as well, finding flaws outside of themselves due to the blatant resistance that is not being considered within common sense even: what you resist, persists and so, eventually the game of seeking ‘the bad guys’ outside of oneself becomes a rather sleazy way to abdicate Self Responsibility. I am glad I’ve stood up from this and realized that there is no point in opposing the system/ others, but rather Understanding the system, educating ourselves to see Why Religions exist, How it is that we would have actually been long-gone if a form of apparent ‘control’ was not existent such as the religious authority/ god beliefs that at least were able to create a bit of a ‘stop’ to our inherent human nature.

I can’t believe how much I’ve learned in the past months and all of this is thanks to letting go of anything I ever believed to be real, of course, and rather listen to the explanations as all the interviews published at Eqafe.

And to all of this: what did I Fear all this time? LOTS. Did I Ever even considered facing my fears? No way, ‘why would anyone want to do such a thing??’ – So, this was part of the aspect of how one tries to do good/ be the one that ‘unmask the false gods’ while only really wishing to benefit me, me and only me within it all, never really placing an eye onto ‘them’ and realizing I am ‘them’ as well – hell no, that would have stopped my battle against them, which is what our mind thrives one: friction and conflict – And so this is how I lived within myself and toward my world and reality,  until I encountered Desteni.

 

Continuation of the Elite Character

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my ‘goodness’ based on acts that were mostly viewed as ‘supportive’ within society, such as helping others, cultivating one’s own self-image to succeed In this world wherein I learned I could later on just ‘give a helping hand’ to those in need, instead of actually having investigated why were people with money mostly considered as ‘good people’ and people that were poor were treated like criminals, wherein I then feared everything that I could have no control of, such as seeing poverty on the streets or people going crazy due to not having any form of support and instead of allowing me to understand how they had become such beings that I would react in fear to, I simply neglected them and considered that I simply had to continue ‘my path’ and worry about my own fulfillment and not feel ‘bad’ about others – wherein within this idea of me not having to ‘feel bad’ about others, I accepted it as it being ok that I do not give ‘much thought’ about poverty/ crime/ corruption in this country because I would simply go into anger instead of understanding- which is how I simply decided to ‘stick to the positive’ in order to no ‘affect me’ in my personal life by knowing how things actually worked.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to define my goodness as in placing myself within a righteous position of being able to boast and criticize ‘the church’ mostly as a corrupt institution, generating even hatred emotions toward the organization and the authorities in it, without ever realizing that I was only judging them for what I had been taught they did as ‘mean people/ bad intentioned people’ while I never even questioned why it is that it wasn’t ‘bad’ or ‘mean’ to only seek for my own protection and well being  – as well as that of my family – creating an idea of myself as in doing some form of ‘justice’ in the world by ‘exposing the truths,’ without realizing that doing such form of activism as an opposition to religious authorities would mean nothing as I was absolutely unaware and ignorant of how the world system worked, and thus, created actually a relationship toward all things religious as a form of love and hate wherein I sought to ‘do good’ but in my own terms, which became then still seeking some form of power and grandeur outside of myself in the form of a religious belief that I could feel satisfied about – in this belief, never considering how I could for example, implement a system, a way for us all to stop living in fear and stop seeking to secured and having any form of ‘divine privileges’ but instead focus on solutions that could provide a dignified living for all, which reveals to what extent I was only busy seeking a self-enlightened interest, becoming some form of ‘liberator of society’ based on opposition, criticism, bashing toward the so called ‘evil’ as the church and other institutions, such as the government- never really seeing the ‘big picture’ of it all and how my opposition was also part of the necessary ‘balancing acts’ within the system to make it seem as if there was any real actual way of being able to ‘overcome it’ by force/ by opposition/ by revolutions – which has never been successful and should had already been proven as a useless way of trying to ‘make a change’ in this world, however it is still being worn as a nice ‘activist suit’ by many, that are living in protected ways by money/ house/ education, playing the ‘revolutionary intellectuals’ that in no way lead to a solution that is applicable and tangible toward this world. In this

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to identify myself with ‘like minded people’ that would perceive ourselves to actually ‘care’ about the world/ society by opposing, dissecting, criticizing and even ridiculing people in positions of power and authority – specifically people in government, media and popes – wherein I would get a positive kick out of being able to ‘bash them’ because of still having my ‘true god’ as a belief within me, which makes you ponder how we can only ‘boast’ and ‘bash’ and ‘oppose’ something or someone if there is a point of security one is holding on to – whether a belief, money or a relationship – it is all based on survival.

 

And so within this I realize to what extent this entire personality of being like the benevolent ‘libertarian’ was based on having a position to always be supported with, which is actually stemming from the money that exists as the fuel to this entire system based on slavery – which means I could in no way claim innocence/ being a good person by opposing the so called evil – and also realizing how it was fueled by a desire to be and become this ‘important person’ in society that would ‘free people’ within the starting point of opposing others/ bringing down certain powers in society, which indicates the level of ignorance really, lack of understanding how reality works which is how and why he Desteni material is the most important process of human education that All human beings should be exposed to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within the security and comfort of ‘having what I need to live,’ create a point of conflict in my reality such as wanting to ‘unmask the false preachers of god’ as the catholic church mainly wherein I wanted to ‘do good’ based on implementing my own idea of what ‘the real god/goodness’ was all about, which was yet another belief that I simply had accepted as a ‘purest form’ of the divine – being spiritual – and within this righteousness generate a relationship of hatred toward religious institutions wherein I believed that I had to be the one that would ‘speak the truth,’ without realizing how I only felt ‘strong enough’ to speak up because I would still have my ‘basic security’ as family/home/ money which enabled me to not worry to oppose the system, being quite ignorant as to how everything that I was judging is Also myself and is an aspect of myself as humanity that I am one and equally responsible for.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that creating a form of vengeance toward the system would make me a ‘good person’ like a hero that at the end of the day creates this fantastic heroic act of any concept of ‘doing good’ while missing out all the forces that are actually creating such ‘evil’ in this world, which is in fact beginning with ourselves and our own thinking processes and emotions/ feelings wherein we have been absolutely obvious about as human beings, only focusing on solutions ‘out there’ and never looking within ourselves, which is how the moment that we become aware of how our mind works, we immediately – if self honest enough – stop criticizing and judging and separating ourselves from everything and everyone in this world through a relationship of oppositions, as we understand how such point of ‘opposition’ was created, for what purpose, what was the intended reaction from human beings toward such point of ‘control’ and how I tis possible for us to stand up from it Without creating further opposition/ wars/ conflict of any form of vengeance or claiming ‘injustice’ because, we have to blatantly self honest with ourselves first, to clarify our starting point of any single time/ moment wherein within this self-righteous benevolent act of ‘doing good by bringing  the bad guys to justice’  we neglected our own participation in the very processes that fuel and lead to the entire world system as I tis, as the most vilest human creation that we have abdicated our responsibility from, which is unacceptable.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not see how I was in fact fearful about that which I opposed and that my act of ‘opposing’ the system/ the church/ institutions and constantly finding flaws in it, only lead me to a position of feeling disempowered-  and I repeat FEELING disempowered because I in fact was still being supported in order to remain within a physical security such as having money to eat, education which I used as a platform to ensue this ‘opposition’ without any point really, but making myself seem ‘righteous’ and ‘common sensed’ without being self honest about my reality, which implied that I could only take this vantage position of ‘revolting’ by denying the very system I was feeding myself from. Thus, missing out the entire ‘point’ of any form of change in this world and in fact, using this ‘righteous citizen/ person that cares’ character as a way to further neglect Looking within myself, my true desires to actually be in a position wherein I could live well and continue opposing the system as that which I learned from elitist academics, that I wanted to form a part of: intellectualizing revolutions, theorizing society in order to propose further ‘solutions’ only on ink and paper-  while earning good wages with it through writing or teaching at school. Thus I see and realize how my initial desires of ‘doing good’ were obviously not unconditional, but well planned and veered toward an inevitable position of power and even authority in the ‘intellectual world’ while remaining protected with money/ the necessary to live ‘well’ or more than well if possible.

 

I realize that self interest is always behind any form of ‘doing good’ or ‘justice’ and that we have never in fact been absolutely devoid of self interest to move ourselves to propitiate a change in this world, which is why change has never really existed, and no revolution has even been REAL for that matter. Thus, time to unmask the revolutionary, time to take Self Responsibility first, to see who we are as our own mind, How did we create this opposition toward the system and how it is in our hands that we are able to create an actual solution by living it, becoming it, working as a group world wide and stands as the actual point of Self-Responsibility in Self-Honesty that promotes an Equality system such as the Equal Money System wherein we all learn to be Self Responsible and within that, get equal support within the realization that opposition creates division, creates conflict and ensues wars. Such diatribes must stop – and so we begin with ourselves.

I commit myself to explain and educate myself and others about how within an attempt to ‘oppose the system’ and ‘bring down the bad government’ we are taking the righteous superior position of apparently being ‘innocent’ about the current conditions in this world, which is not acceptable, since there is no point in blaming but understanding the problems and instead of launching wars against each other to obtain the point of power, we can work together to establish solutions which would be in fact using time to our benefit as humanity, considering all living beings – and stopping all forms of separation, division, conflict within any false sense of righteousness and justice to the benefit of ‘some only’ – this is standing for ALL in Equality.

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Have you Seen my Happiness Anywhere? (Part 1): DAY 204

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161. Good Deeds as Future Investment

Continuing from 160. Pious

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define ‘good deeds’ according to ‘doing good to another’ and within this justifying my own feeling good based on what I had done onto others, instead of realizing that everything that I do ‘onto another’ is in fact done toward self as one and equal and within this, there can be no ‘positive experience’ when directing oneself to support another the same way that I would like to be supported.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to accumulate good deeds as in doing ‘positive things’ onto others from the starting point of accumulating positive-karma and a positive reputation within the system for my own benefit, in this forgiving myself for having accepted and allowed myself to brush aside and hide the actual driving-factor to do things for my own reputation/ benefit, instead of actually doing it absolutely and unconditionally for another – within this

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be hypocritical the moment that I would not want to do something such as ‘helping someone’ but because I had to keep up my reputation of being ‘the helper/ the supporter,’ I would do it from the starting point of simply not ‘messing with my reputation,’ instead of actually being fully willing to support another as myself, which proves to what extent I would be willing to compromise myself and pretend to be ‘something’ at the eyes of others only to not ‘spoil my goodness record’ of being an actual pious person that will ‘enlighten’ those that don’t know the road to do the same themselves.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to listen to a person within wearing the ‘good person’ suit, wherein in my attempt to ‘change them,’ I would deliberately listen and waiting for the moment to erupt all the ‘negative aspects’ that I had heard them say from the puritan stance of me apparently being already ‘beyond that,’ which is part of the ‘good person’ reputation that I believed myself to be wherein I deliberately pushed aside my own experience, my own deeds, words and backchat in the moment wherein I would take such stance as there being ‘nothing wrong with me,’ and within this existing in a superiority position when supporting others as in being the ‘virtuous person that supports the impaired ones,’ which is absolutely denoting separation in all ways and part of what the masquerade of benevolence creates within oneself: “I am right, you are wrong and must be helped out”

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to use points of support toward others as ‘points for my own score’ wherein I would keep score of myself being a ‘good person’ for having helped out people during the day, without ever actually proposing for example a change within the entire way that such point of conflict for many could be approached within school so that ‘I’ would not have to take on the pride and positive experience of ‘helping others,’ and instead support the educational system to be supportive for all beings equally, within the realization that if Many have the same problem, then the flaw is within the way it is being taught, instead of the problem being the beings not understanding it.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to Invest on my own ‘good person’ character within the realization that within building this reputation from an early age, I would get ‘doors open’ more easily within the system in the future, wherein I was from an early age already looking forward to way, means and relationships that I would use in order to make a ‘good living,’ wherein I would go as far as supporting my classmates from that starting point of thinking that ‘Someday they will be in a position wherein they will be the ones that will be able to support me’ and within this, not being unconditionally supporting others as myself in the moment, but actually see it as a positive-credit investment to the future, wherein I was aiming at ‘using my credits’ at some point in the future whenever I wanted and If I would require such ‘gears’ in the system to my own benefit.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to deliberately seek to create ‘political relationships’ with people at school, which were not necessarily ‘friendship based,’ but going straight to the point of being in ‘good terms’ with everyone in order to get a positive reward in the future wherein I expected me to be supported by others due to me being ‘remembered’ as having been a ‘good person,’ which once again proves that I was in fact investing on my own positive-feedback within my participation in the school-system as a way to be recognized by others and as such, ensure that no matter what, people will remember me for ‘how good I was in everything I did, ‘ which is plain self-interest based type of actions, words and deeds at all times.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to deliberate shove aside my ‘negative backchat’ toward others in the moment of interacting with them, and immediately play out this point of ‘them probably being able to support me in the future’ and as such, immediately shift my way of communicating with them to being more affable and open and ‘charismatic,’ from the starting point or vantage point of realizing that I could ‘use their friendship/ colleagueship’ later on in life in order to support ME, so I better behave in a friendly manner in order to be liked by them.

I realize that within this way of socializing – social-lies are kept from one another in what is euphemistically called ‘political relationships,’ wherein we all knew that we were building ‘relationships’ for our future and within this know before hand that we didn’t necessarily have to ‘like’ each other or be empathetic toward one another, but only see relationships as ways to climb within the system and to support each other’s interest as a way to keep ourselves ‘on top’ of society, which is what we were being trained for at school.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to deliberately be a ‘good person’ toward those that I knew had more impact within the political arena in my environment, due to believing that money and politics as part of my ‘relationships’ would be of great use in order to have someone to ‘aid me’ in the future if I ‘help them out’ at this stage- which was schooling years – and within this, from an early age learn the ways within the system of corruption and recommendations wherein things are much easier if you are supported by another in a position of power/ control within the social structure that being ‘one more in the mass,’ which is how I learned that creating a positive reputation within me toward others that I knew would be ‘potential future support’ was to my own benefit, and that helping them out ‘today’ would ensure my own help ‘tomorrow,’ which is how people in positions of power and control support each other to always remain winning, looking for one’s own benefit and position within the system, instead of actually supporting one another to be equally supported, wherein such corruption and favoritism would not have to exist any longer to be supported within the system, but instead equal opportunities as equal support being given as an unconditional living right.

 

I see and realize how I have used this point of support within my reality as a way to gain/ accumulate ‘positive points’ within my imaginary positive-feedback/ positive reputation chart, wherein I was ensuring my own survival and positioning within the system by deliberately using my ‘wits’ and ‘understanding’ in a place like school to support those that would not understand/ required help and doing so from the starting point of thinking that ‘I am helping them today but I expect to be supported by them tomorrow,’ which mostly implied people being in positions to support me to get to a certain job/ position within the identification of myself as a ‘good person’ and ‘hard working’ and ‘benevolent’ at their eyes, wherein the memories of ‘me having helped them’ throughout school would become the usage of such positive points to ensure that I am able to be supported by people, due to understanding how this world system works based on relationships and understanding the importance of school and relationships within school to create a network of support toward each other to keep us all in the same positions of power/ control/ direction according to what we were supposed to do/ be within the world system.

 

I commit myself to expose the system of values as positive and negative as the starting point of our entire personalities and beingness being driven to survive within such system basing our actions, words and deeds within the starting point of being ‘good to others’ to our own benefit within the distorted principles of supporting others the same way that one would like to be supported but using it as a way to support each other within a closed system of favoritism and recommendations used to gain or preserve certain positions within the world system wherein the majority of people have no access to such ‘colleagueism’ in order to ensure that those with already enough power/ consideration within the system, remain in such positions through being supported by those in power to remain in the same point of power above others.

 

I commit myself to stop existing within this favoritism system of ‘being a good person’ in order to await for a positive reward from my initial investment as the ‘good doer person,’ and within this actually walk the process to understand and realize how such benefits from being a ‘good person’ can only exist in a system of Inequality – therefore we can only support each other as equals within the realization that any benefit we currently experience above others is in fact a point of abuse that will no longer be able to exist once that the Equal Money System is in place and established as an actual opportunity to become an example of what giving and receiving in an unconditional manner is all about, which is supporting each other to live in dignity, supporting each other to in fact become living beings and within this realizing that there is no ‘benefit’ to await for within this all, but simply realizing that I am supporting self as one and equal and within this there is nothing to win or lose as it is part of self-support that I have decided to walk as myself within this Process of Self Realization

 

I commit myself to actually walk the principle of giving to others as one would like to receive in an absolute manner wherein there are no ‘hidden agendas’ of personal benefit to do so, and within this becoming aware of any positive-experience of upliftment or personal satisfaction as an energetic experience if such point arises in any given moment of interaction within supporting others, and instead, assist and support me to realize that there is no ‘other’ that I am supporting here but Self as one and equal, and within this, humbling myself to the point of realizing that it is only through supporting each other to get to an optimal point of expression, self-awareness and self-realization that we will in fact be able to assist and support ourselves as the whole to create a system wherein ‘good doing’ won’t exist as a positive-reputation system for one’s personal benefit, but instead become simple principles that we will all live by, wherein one’s actions, words and deeds are understood within the context of the whole being our responsibility and creation at all times.

This is how we transform the positive-thinking, positive doing as self-investment toward positive rewards in the future, to a constant realization that within giving to others as we would want to receive what’s being benefitted is not only self or the other person but Self as a whole as one and equal, and within this understanding that there will be no need to create relationships based on self-interest to maintain a certain position within the system, but instead actual empathy and understanding and relationships of physical interaction will emerge, as there will be no need to have relationships that support the perpetual positioning of only a few on top of the ‘social chain’ within a hierarchical system of values that would support only a few – but instead, the majority as the whole will learn how to support and work together as one single organism wherein any point of abuse is understood as a disease.

 

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52: Capitalist Quick-Handy-Brainwash

We are all aware of poverty as one of the greatest problems we face on Earth as the direct consequence of having numbed and sedated ourselves quite nicely with knowledge and information that we accepted as ‘unchangeable,’ and that we have simply embedded as a veneer to protect us from facing the real screwed up facts that we have swallowed in the name of our personal “well being” wherein anthems like ‘I don’t care about anyone else but me’ become the voice of a generation that is doomed to remain secluded in a 4 x 4 cell – ehhm… room, proclaiming such perfect brainwashed hate-culture that promotes individualism through the appearance of proud and and bravery while neglecting an entire reality that is crumbling down to pieces.

Within this quick-answers to life, we find several quotes that reflect the collective-acceptance of knowledge as a way to give an explanation to – virtually – all, it doesn’t matter if what’s implied in such quotes is detrimental to life, nooo – what matter is the ability of pumping up an ego that is clearly submitted within a state of ‘powerlessness’ wherein the constant desire to ‘outdo’ others through knowledge and information becomes the equivalent of actual battles to conquer territories in the middle-ages.

Let’s begin with the Holybook that sounds more like Hollywood as its second remake to keep the masses ‘occupied’ while missing the very first acceptance here.

There will always be poor people in the land. Therefore I command you to be openhanded toward your brothers and toward the poor and needy in your land.” Deuteronomy 15:11

 

God/whoever said it: There will ALWAYS be poor people in the land – Massive crime against humanity in the holy-script-you-are yet, what people only look at and ‘Pay’ attention to is ‘oh so what do I have to do to be able to earn the kingdom of god in the heavens?’ which is perfect indoctrination really, be the effect that ‘solves the problem’ instead of ever looking at the cause, which is actually one of the greatest flaws within the ability to observe reality and ourselves as the cause and origin of the problem.

 

Another quick-drive-thru example: I had a discussion with someone defending the use of guns because ‘how else would they defend themselves if someone shoot first’? and in that, missing out the entire root and cause of the problem – how have we dared to build / produce an object as a means to “protect,” embedding in it the ability to be ‘god’ as in taking a being’s life in one split-second.

 

“Life is tons of discipline.” – Robert Frost

Live, work, work, work, have children, work, work, get old and die.

Do not deviate from that (production) line and you’ll be a happy-living fella. Well, we should be aware by now how ‘wisdom quotes’ are used to perpetuate the very system that will maintain everyone with a happy-coat of caramel melting all over you in order to not see the actual truth underneath it all. Discipline is regarded as a ‘positive aspect’ within society for the complacency it implies within the monetary realm: I do not see, I do not hear, I only work and what I earn is for me and my loved ones to live happily ever after – but is it when all that you discipline yourself to is being an obedient robot that doesn’t question why he has to spend 40 years of his life working non stop to be able to “live”? And people learn how to be proud of such achievements while in fact, it’s like an ode to a life-long decimation of any inkling of life in each one of us. And I’d get always this ‘feeling sorry’ for people when noticing this, this asphyxiating routine and how we can mock at each other’s day to day living yet: we are all trapped in the same boat just because of Money.

 

Within that equation Life = tons of discipline: heavy weight, a burden, life is a struggle, life must be fought for, life must be ‘earned’ and not unconditionally given – all of it is reflected in one single moment that you propose to someone the ability to live in Equality = giving and receiving what we want and require within a System that values Life and all you get is complains and even threats toward ‘making sure Equality never works for all’ – Jesus left great words but they have never been lived – whenever you propose Neighborism and living in Equality people go:

Whaaaat?

 

And then the fears come up because: who will I be without ‘this’ discipline? If I don’t require money to motivate me, then ‘what’ will motivate me? And this is not for the sake of judging, I mean It took me quite a long time of actual common sense development to understand the Equal Money System – however, I’m bringing into awareness how one single word can trigger out the most rabid fears toward communism, and abuse of ‘being able to have it all’ which implies one thing: we have never in fact lived, we have only lived to die and survive through.

We are discovering the power of the word, but we’ve certainly trapped ourselves even further whenever we take such words as the ‘law of god’ without actually pondering what is being defended and actually said there.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use knowledge and information in order to blind myself and only bling my eyes with that which sounds ‘right’ and ‘good’ and ‘productive’ within a world wherein ‘my happiness’ depends on ‘my effectiveness’ to be a complacent slave that does not question the most basic accepted and allowed forms of ‘living’ in this world, which are conditioned to money and money and money and my desire to fulfill the ultimate state of ‘superiority’ above others, because that’s what I apparently came here for.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept poverty and starvation, abuse, violation of life in all ways because ‘the bible told me so’ and in that, buying the bill of ‘rights’ and ‘liberties’ that are focused on maintaining a ‘guaranteed individuality’ based on the satisfaction of one’s own ‘living rights’ which are bought and sold only, within a system wherein money is not given to all in Equality, but is instead given upon working as a slave within a system that will ensure that one is so embellished with entertainment, ‘goods to buy’ and the eternal seeking of perfect-picture lifestyles of a thousand smiles and ‘good times’ that I have neglected the very existence of fellow human beings that are most certainly starving and having No say in the system as to why they had to be born as a deliberate outflow of an elite that seeks positivity, power, ‘comfort’ through protectionism provided by money.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for having been a ‘disciplined being’ in society as that is considered a ‘reward’ within the system wherein: the better slave I am, the more money I get, the less questions I ask, the more I am liked by my boss – and in that, becoming the perfect eslabón (Spanish for link) slave in the chain of be born, consume, make money, love and die as a way to ensure that Life is always at the background, just ‘there’ as a taken-for-granted fact that we can simply ‘make money from’ and in that, believe that it is is ‘how the world works’ and ‘how God wanted it all to be’ – because otherwise, within the realization that it is in fact US that have created this system would create such great distress in people’s lives that all fairy tales would dissolve in a rather caustic manner, implying that they were never real in the first place, but only sustained through prolonged acceptance and allowance of abuse as ‘who we are’ in the system of ‘living, consuming, dying’ and repeating ad nauseam.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect the reality that is presented only through flashy pictures on the TV screen about poverty and viewing it in perfect HD while neglecting that the very ability for me to watch poverty through TV implies that I am in fact the elite that has created and manifested poverty as the waste produced every time that I sought my own comfort, happiness, bliss, joy and the ultimate state of satisfaction as the saturation of myself with ‘positivity’ that is translated in physical reality as wealth/ money and a never quenching desire for More.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use ‘wisdom quotes’ as a way to defend the apparent ‘human supremacy over matter/life/ Earth’ giving ourselves the ‘permission’ to intellectualize reality to suit our preferences, our knowledgeable ego that is willing to neglect the very basic aspects in which we are sustaining this self-fulfilling suckcessful bubble in the name of my own personal glory.

 

I commit myself to continue exposing the accepted and allowed abuse in this world through the use of knowledge and information as way to mask reality and its rawness with positive attitudes and ‘attributes’ that make the perfect consumer a ‘happy being’ because apparently, such actions provide a sense of ‘well being’ for ourselves, without realizing that it is in the very accepted and allowed words and implications within such words that we have created this reality as the perfect excuse and actual spitefulness toward life, only to suit our self-interest and personal self-enlightened behavior.

 

I commit myself to become the example of what it is to let go of knowledge and information as  way to suit my own ‘needs’ as my-needs is implying that I participate in a world-system of money that is only existent for a minority in this world as an actual means of satisfaction and completion through buying/ consuming to be ‘happy’ in this world, while the same monetary system means absolute disgrace, poverty, enslavement and a never ending rabbit hole wherein life doesn’t meet its needs and money is only seen as that god that has never shown its face to them.

 

I commit myself to stand for Life in Equality no matter what, no matter how many threats and words and spiteful vengeful discussions are walked in the name of defending the system with all claws and weapons of choice which have become words, as ‘wisdom quotes’ as ‘facts’ that people use in the name of guarding that which they love the most: money, power, specialness and their ability to abuse just for a temporary sense of satisfaction and fulfillment in a system where Energy is the real enslavement of humanity.

 

I commit myself to implement the Equal Money System as the one way to show and reveal to what extent we have doomed ourselves by our own negligence toward life itself, wherein I have become the very abuse that the system has been proclaiming as a way to ‘succeed’ which I have bought because there is apparently ‘no other way around in the system.’

 

I commit myself to life no matter how many rocks are thrown as words that intend to kill and perpetuate abuse, as I realize that ‘them’ are myself and all I can do is show the way to forgive ourselves for the delusion we have created, bought and sold in the name of personal interest – and within that, showing, revealing and sharing examples of how we stand for Life in Equality as an actual living-statement that Life must be valued in equality for and as All that is here in this same ecosystem as the Earth, and that there is an actual way to go forward which implies each one’s will to stand as an equal in this world, and be the actual change that is required to promote a new living-system that will never again have to use words/ knowledge and information in means of satisfying only mind-egos, but actually support practical living-life between all living beings on Earth.

 

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Day 11: I.O.U. Life as a Debt System of Power

Who are we serving in this life: Money or God? Or Money as God?

I was listening to this interview on the levels of ascension and the reward system in heaven that was always presented as your greatest desires and ‘last stop’ – the most fucked lives on Earth were supposed to be the ‘greatest tests of all,’  just to obtain a supposedly ‘privileged position’ in an illusion and delusional hierarchical system  while in fact, you were recycled ad nauseam with us being aware of it, yet never really doing anything to question it and ponder why on Earth we had to go through such cycles over and over and over again.

 

As above, so below: we are living the same delusion as it was lived in heaven, living a life to earn as many ‘good karma’ to eventually get back to the ‘creator’ and experience the promise of this ‘perfect eternal bliss,’ running you entire life trying to keep up with that belief living in a world wherein without money you die and/or live a life of absolute misery until you run out of time and eventually die. Who did you serve? the money system – you die and the system remains, alive and thriving on new potential batteries that must be educated, developed and well trained to become part of the ‘forces’ that maintain this entire world system alive.  Did you learn any new lessons then? No, you were ‘learning’ the same stuff over and over again without being able to remember. The question is: why did we never even questioned the reason for having been ‘separated’ from God – I mean why having to run a rat race on Earth if you were just coming from such ‘heaven’ – who is it that you were owing your life to? God? Really?

 

The fact is that God was an energetic scam to generate an illusion of a paradisiac custom-made reality after death, without ever knowing that such delusion was powered and generated by us generating energy in any possible way – any friction will do: sex, emotions, feelings, the desire for power, conflict, wars, anything that will act as a catalyst for the human to produce energy that would serve as batteries to maintain the lie ‘alive.’ We  have abused ourselves as this physical reality to keep our illusions running – and all of it to keep the idea of GOD in place, believing that we had to ascend and make the most of this one life we had – yeah, right.

 

 

Charge-Me up

Knowing that you have money gives you a certain experience of power. Knowing that you have little money really diminishes you to feeling close to nothing in this world, this is the extent that we have separated ourselves from this reality. What is the only way to generate a position of inequality: generate some conflict inside and outside to make people seek their accepted status quo, which in this world’s case is at least remaining in eternal I.O.U’s in a system of debt, yet having enough to eat every day – a status quo of abuse. That is why wars have been accepted throughout history as economy regenerators – and this is a well-known ‘secret.’ Why have we accepted the obvious separation from life to ponder some above others?

 

Separation, friction is what generates power. I remember staring at a white light for an extended period of time while being at school, and figuring out what was it that would generate this light when going from cathode to anode. The fascination from getting to know how hydraulic energy works, how Eolic energy works, the natural fall of water generating power – but what was placing everything in motion? the Earth itself as that energy in potency that it represents? How is it that we have deliberately made of the Earth and what’s here a symbol of energy, as money, using our money-coined eyes that we have wherein everything we see can be transformed into money.

 

I remember thinking about this when I was quite young and how I started thinking of food, things around me as money – and in this also seeking to not pick expensive things that I would know would require more money to be bought, replaced. I mean, taking an apple in my head would mean eating money, instead of an apple – Isn’t this also abusing life? Having to be as a child reminder that everything you consume costs money = your life is costing Me money, you owe me and there you go! A relationship of power is created right in the family system.

 

 

Family I.O.U.

This is how the family system also works wherein through a forced hierarchical system, children are made dependent of their parents through the so-called ‘family bond’ that is similar to generating debt throughout time that makes children dependent on their parents to survive at all costs to, later on in the future, be able to reclaim such expenditure that is usually sold as ‘investment’ with capitalized interest. Yes, I witnessed this with my grandmother how she would blackmail all her children within making sure she reminded them of having ‘given her entire life’ for them and their education, which would then tie my mother and all her siblings to a constant remorseful and guilty experience that made them bound to her until the day she died. And that’s how the current money system works obviously, where we are enslaved to debt from birth and in that, believe that striving for money is ‘the only way’ to exist in this world. Even people with enough money also require money to live, so no one is really out of the loop in that. The fact is that we never directed ourselves to really find out how on earth have we enslaved ourselves to such conditions, regardless of how much we can recognize that this is Not Living – and just killing life to live.

 

I feared being a financial nuisance to my family in terms of them having to spend money on me. I restricted myself from asking too much, I would always aim at the least expense, choosing the cheapest versions of the things that I required for school, most of the times making sure I could save up the most – in essence limiting myself because of having this constant fear of wasting/ using/ depleting money with my very existence. This also would extend later on every time I took a shower and pictured how much water many other that were also taking showers in the world were consuming, how many toilets were being flushed at the same time, how much food was being eaten, and it all seemed like eternal binging on Earth that would overwhelm me at a thought level.

 

Now I see why it has bothered me so much to be living, because I grew up with this constant mortification for having equated everything to money, to debt, to a form of energetic enslavement that I simply ‘was born into’ and could not get any straight answers on why on Earth money was created in such a conflictive way – meaning that it was not something anyone could get, but would have to strive for. And that’s what we have all accepted and allowed in this world: equating everything that’s here to Money as a symbol of power, which means, it cannot be ‘readily available for all’ because that would remove the preferential creation in itself that it represents as in only ‘some’ in this world being able to have it all, and that includes you and I have that have the ability to sit comfortably with a house, food, water, laptop and coffee on the side.

 

I remember that one of the reasons why I would ever think of suicide was mostly at the time of the financial strain that I wrote about in my previous blog. It worried me so much to see my father in such a strain that I thought I was to blame, because of having felt like an unwanted child, the last ‘mistake’ and then having all of these corrective processes at that time like getting orthodontic support for 5 years, which means paying quite a load of money for that – then regular electrocardiograms for my heart, because I had a slight arrhythmia developing around that time – and this sense of guilt would come through every time that my father would give me money for my week, or pay for my school’s tuition. I generated this feeling within me of having to be always extremely grateful to him for supporting me and in that, generate an experience of not owning my life, but rather owing it to someone else, which in this case is those who are able to support you financially.

 

And again, suicide is the ultimate fuckup we can ever take on within ourselves, it is becoming just another part of the consumerist system wherein someone allows oneself to be consumed by the thoughts of this all being ‘too much’ while neglecting that we are all self-created, as well as the entire system of enslavement that ensued when separating ourselves from the whole and starting forming relationships toward such points that we separated ourselves from. The only way any God could exist is through this primordial separation.

 

 

What is Life?

“At the moment, our illusionary experience as our Minds of/as Energy. Where for ‘life’ as ourselves as Energy to exist – we constantly/continuously mine the physical for our Minds, mine this physical existence for Money for the illusion of ‘life’ for a select few human beings as the Elite in this world, – Life is Death within this physical existence.
Life is supposed to be Living, and in this physical existence – no being is living, only trying to survive as a mind within and a world without with money, dying to live – literally and figuratively. Life is supposed to be all equally as one within and as this physical existence in fact Living, expressing, expanding and growing as individuals and together with and as all that is here. Not as it is now where everyone is killing themselves and each other to compete in the game of survival.” – Sunette Spies

 

This aspect came up today and I was very glad to finally read it as blunt as it is, because I could not fathom this world being life obviously, we’ve never been alive as the actual and full expression of what Life is supposed to be, this is just killing/ depleting/ sucking the life essence out of what is here to keep our mindfuck alive. However, the consuming aspect and judgment toward it – such as how I would go equating everything to price tags/ money – is part of a mindset, a system that can obviously be corrected. What’s real is this physical reality – what’s the illusion is the price tags as the money system of debt and scarcity that places the divide between us and using what’s here as life – equal and one – that can actually be provided for All to Live Well = it is absolutely correctible.

 

The Process of Birthing ourselves as Life in the Physical is walking that entire relationships of separation into a for-giveness reintegration of self= giving back to ourselves that which we have separated ourselves from, which can sound quite elusive and conceptual when missing looking at the ‘greater picture’ of who and what we really are as one and equal. And I mean ‘conceptual’ from the perspective that we only have our mind as instrument to seeing; this then became the perfect gap/ missing link as we would only continue dwelling and fighting against each other, driving us insane because of not having a clue about what on earth is going on within ourselves, yet always forgetting that we were the ones that created it all the way, that we have been here before and have actually lived hundreds of lives on Earth. We cannot even fathom that at the moment, obviously, as it is part of the same cage that we built for ourselves to make sure we would always be ‘safe’ from reminding us of such separation in the name of a single experience as the energy created through separation. This is the cage that we are slowly but surely taking ourselves out of by walking these writings, and establishing who we really are as life through Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application, as it is only us keeping the current system in place = we are the solution, because we are It.

 

It will take a great majority in this world to realize what I just explained to understand that: We Don’t Have to Be Living in a Position of Strain and I.O.U’s toward a delusional system of Inequality – all we require to realize is that who we really are as Life is equal and one – we are from the Earth, everything that is here has always been here as the fabric of existence that we are equally part of and made-of, we have just played power games and for that  ‘a price to  pay’ has been established for the separation that ensued from that. It all was just for the desire to experience and experience is energy. 

 

 

Money Powers: really?

So, the power of money can only exist as the separation that I have accepted and allowed to exist within this world, as myself, as that factor that determines our very experience here on Earth whenever we fear not having money to survive or when having more than enough which is also changing our ‘who we are’ into an exacerbated state of being, over-energized so to speak.  Now whenever I take these polarities – and even when having the ‘basic’ amount of money that I could call a ‘neutral’ or stable living condition – it’s still an accepted and allowed experience within us that has become so ingrained that we truly don’t question any longer how and why money has the power to change ‘who we are’ and generate these feelings and emotions within us. It is really and all-round mindfuck that must be stopped, as it is all separation based, really.

 

Like today, I went to an ATM and got money to pay the rent. And I have become so used to ‘taking care of money’ that I have this wallet that I place around my hips, just in case someone would try and steal money and never imagine that I could keep money underneath my clothes. I mean, it’s been so awkward every time I’ve had to carry money that way for ‘security.’ It is true how what is valued and protected is money itself and not our lives. Thousands of soldiers can be killed at wars, but the resources earned at the end of it are ‘priceless’ for those that end up getting them. Praying to god would be ‘priceless’ but it becomes a positive-reward system as a future investment association with ‘going to heaven’ while having the vantage point of ‘asking god for favors’  in the meantime – how ludicrous? Singing songs about finding happiness in misery and waiting for some saving grace after having the most paradoxical living conditions.

 

‘We are so lost, so afraid’ And this became an acceptable way of existing as miserable humans,  yet never even imagining how it all started, because we can’t remember! And that’s how and why – once again – it is so Vital to study the Desteni material.

 

The only real value that exists is LIFE and we ALL are it –  we just require to recognize the common sense in this to start being part of the ones that STOP existing as batteries to power a non-existent system of enslavement any longer = there is no more purpose for us to keep existing as such inner conflict as the chains have been severed. It’s all about us now being willing to truly learn what Life and Living is and should have always been.

 

This will continue…

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We are the System, It’s Time to Wake Up! (2009)

 

A Must-Read to expand the points shared in this blog:

 

The Soul of Money is a series of interviews that explains in detail all the points, mechanics and history that lead us to create the current reality and economic system we’re living in.  Anyone can have a thorough explanation and a reality check at an individual and existential level with perspectives that have never been told, seen or even pondered before in this reality, yet have dictated our lives throughout the history of human civilization.

  1. The Infinity Secret – Consciousness as The Light and The Dark
  2. The Heart of Love
  3. The Inequality of Resource Distribution within All Bodies of Existence
  4. Divide and Conquer – The Majority Enslaved by the Minority
  5. The Interconnection between Thoughts, Energy and Light

2012 R.I.P. God

To place this into context – this is the result of being back and forth writing about  God these days – more than usual –  through comments, messages, blogs.  I reply to several comments a day when I have to explain the non-existence of God over and over again wherein words tend to become automated – and I am now being asked to  ‘define ‘god’ in a short sentence’ – within my mind it’s like wtf? Why should I define something that doesn’t exist? Yet, I breathe and see that this is a ‘big concept’ that is still ruling the lives of many, many beings. Therefore – God, here we go.

I’ll share a moment I had at the farm.

Bernard asked me: So, what if there IS a God?

For a moment I froze over to this question wherein the initial reaction was that of having all my blasphemous fears rising up – what if ‘God’ was actually something that could punish me after having denied ‘him’ and talked bs about it? Yes, the religious construct was immediately faced in a split second there.  Then I realized in  common sense and replied: If there was a God it wouldn’t matter/ it would make no difference as God would then be one and equal as well.

This is to understand that we can only create something ‘more’ or ‘less’ and fear it if existing in separation from it = not considering Oneness and Equality.

In other words, the God concept can only exist in separation of ourselves as this ‘higher entity’ in our minds – in reality, all is one and equal.

If you equate ‘God’ to ‘all’ or ‘Life’ or ‘the universe’ or ‘existence’ or ‘Earth,’  then you can just call it for what it is – there’s no need to hold within our minds a concept that has its origin in a religious construct based on masters and slaves, on worshiping an idea instead of living by naming things for what they are. Instead of having to ‘believe’ in something invisible or ‘almighty’ or ‘whole and perfect’ in itself, we rather dedicate ourselves to speak words that we can relate ourselves to in this physical reality, where we can create and become a living example of what life must be in equality.

If you define ‘God’ as a creator – realize that all that is currently here is manifested by the Earth, as itself – we are the ones that are responsible for whatever happens to it as a deliberate intervention and relationships we form in it, in order to live – and also destroy/ abuse/ exploit it in the name of ‘power’ and ‘greed,’ which goes hand in hand with our monetary system. The Earth cannot abuse itself, we have stood as that point in reality, we have created and used words like ‘God’ to abdicate the responsibility for our creation, just as we use the word ‘love’ to cover up the actual suffering and pain that goes on in this world because of the reasons mentioned above.

You can get a thorough perspective and investigation on what was really going on within the ‘Godly realms of Heaven’ – how it is that people were really being ‘guided’ and given some fluffy experience that could be called ‘god’ and ‘joy’ as the entire idea of ‘God’ as a systematic energetic experience that was merely preprogrammed, while the actual physical exists in extreme pain and suffering. You can also read all about how the white-light system was dismantled and within that, how the ‘creators’ of this reality were exposed as it is all explained/ existent within the Desteni material.

All the mawkish associations like

God is Love

or

God is Joy

or

God is Freedom

or

God is Mercy

etc.…

All of that is to create connections between words that have been deliberately preprogrammed to make you get a warm/ fuzzy feeling as energy churning within you and associate it with the word ‘God,’ so that it could – at least – have some type of sensation to it, because we have definitely not been able to see any ‘god’ in this reality as it is usually conceived/ perceived as an almighty being/ higher being/ or a ball of super-powerful energy or invisible force.

There is no greater energy than the one that is existent in its totality here – any more or less conceived in that is separation existent at a mind level only.

The bucket of cold water for me to get rid of the belief of God was Desteni and the material wherein the entire enslavement of man through the White-Light Construct was explained. I mean, I used to believe in a God as well – by tradition, by comfort, by having that ‘need’ of something or someone to solve things for me, to protect me, to not feel alone, to not feel like all of this life was in vain – and this can be applied to any other relationship I formed within my reality.

I really wanted to make this blog as short as I could but… now I have to bring this up otherwise the case is not closed and you might come up with further questions about it.

The book: Life after God by Douglas Coupland– this book depicts how in a society wherein everything seems to be ‘lost’ and ‘helpless,’ we turn to God as the last resort to at least have a little faith in something. Okay, for a moment I went into the thought ‘it seems very awkward having to talk about God and my experience toward it’ just because it’s been quite some time that I stopped believing in anything like that- but that’s just a mind-limitation, I bring the point Here and share it/ communicate about it. 

The point about the book is how it ends with this passage wherein – I won’t spoil it – in essence the character is declaring requiring God to keep going, because he couldn’t continue/ keep going by himself, alone. And I resonated a lot with this at that time (some 6 years ago) because I felt as lost as all the characters of that book felt like – and I thought that the only way out of my own misery was through seeking God. And that’s how my entire ‘spirituality’ journey began which I have written about in several blogs throughout these past months and years – recent example is ‘The Feel Good Times’ – Yet my incursion in spirituality and religions was more of a brief walk  to see what would fit my idea of god – yeah, just like a custom-made god and religion, that’s what I was aiming for back then.

When I realized that the string I had attached to god and wanting to develop this ‘relationship with God’ was essentially based on saving my ass and out of enlightened self-interest, to ‘be at ease’ with myself, it became very obvious that I had resorted into the idea of God out of desperation, out of that desire to have something to ‘live for’ or something to ‘live up to’ in a way. I hadn’t realized myself as that point of my existence to live for. I didn’t accept myself, I would not consider myself as something ‘worthy of living’ at times, I would consider myself as a nuisance to the world and in my attempt to become ‘something,’ I turned to God, seeking to make myself ‘greater’ with all of these ideas of reaching enlightenment or some holistic understanding of this reality that could make me feel ‘better’ about myself – simply because I was existing as a bundle of fears, a whole fucking lot of fears.

This means that resorting to God was my way of coping with an extensive ‘fear of god’ that I went through – mostly created out of the beliefs in spirituality with being aware of the afterlife and demons and dead people being able to lurk around here on Earth everywhere and creating an intense fear of being watched the whole time. I would fear ‘god’ knowing all my secrets, I feared these ‘guides’ and beings being taking notes of everything I did, so that they could ventilate it whenever I would be in the presence of such ‘sessions’ wherein we were apparently given “support and protection from ‘the evil of this world.”

Why would ‘God’  then not just defeat such evil? Why having to go around floating with a protective mechanism to not be influenced by others? I had a great laugh when listening in these History of the Portal interviews how guides would be walking around like that when coming to Earth – it is amusing to hear these stories now, however when I was into believing in a God, I would pretty much feel like bound to this need to ‘do the right thing’ all the time, out of fear of being judged in the presence of this god or ‘guides’ that we would – apparently – be in contact with on a regular basis. I won’t go into details about it, it’s not relevant as it was all preprogrammed and part of the entire ‘specialness’ point in my religious-system based on spirituality.

So – to sum it up, I used the God idea for a while to try to see things in a positive way. When getting to Desteni and starting watching the news again, documentaries, videos that revealed the reality of this world, I definitely saw how I had simply used god/ spirituality/ positivity as the way to hide all the fears that I had toward myself, toward this reality, toward humans, toward facing myself and everything that is here basically. It was like having the NOD32 God being upgraded and feeling protected against all the viruses as fears that I would have toward myself, it was like eating a candy that will make your mouth sweet for a while and then just leaving the same bitter taste.

How can God exist in a world of abuse, poverty, starvation… I mean I feel like a robot having to explain this because it’s just plain obvious now, because I cannot conceive how something ‘magnificent’ can be believed to exist in a world with astounding separation and negligence toward LIFE.

God is just a word that represents the quick fix we have created as humanity to have someone to blame for our creation, to have something to ‘hold on to’ whenever we felt too lost to continue, to have something to aspire to get to be-with once we are dead, to deposit faith upon simply because we weren’t able to trust ourselves, we hadn’t allowed ourselves to become ‘the’ point of our existence.

That’s the process, and that’s how we walk it. I’m glad to be walking out of that as the entire idea that I have enslaved myself-to, which is my own ego as personality that has held all of these fears and limitations in place.

I named the blog R.I.P. God as the final leaving-the concept-alone for once and for all, it serves no purpose, it has no physical correlation to what is here, we simply take it as the piece of preprogrammed concept that continued the enslavement of man. We stop it, we forgive ourselves for having accepted and allowed ourselves to be dominated and bound to such superior alter-ego as our god-creation, and walk the process of self-realization of who we are as one and equal. We thus act according to the laws of the physical reality to become a self-responsible being, within the consideration of all the points that require to be corrected and directed to co-create a world that’s best for all – no need to believe in anything for that.

There is No God. There is No need to even discuss about it further – we simply focus on what is Here to establish Life in Equality.

thanks for reading –

Some blogs/ notes written about the God point in the previous days:

God – Why believing in God is Abuse

Divine Economics: Money or God?

Groups wherein evidence of how God / Religions separate this reality are shared:

Stop All Religions and Live Equal

God – and why believing in God is insane

For support on how to walk out of the God relationship into a living-reality of Self Responsibility: Desteni Forum •

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Cool video by Jan Erik Hansen:

Are the poor really blessed?


Hitchens is dead… and god as well

I just got to know Christopher Hitchens is dead which is interesting because it’s been only a few weeks since I first heard/saw the man in videos. A co-worker showed me his work, specifically the following one Hell’s Angel: Mother Teresa by Christopher Hitchens that reveals the convenient figure that ‘the west’ took from Mother Theresa to create a revival to the catholic church being somewhat ‘benevolent’ and caring for those that suffer, eventually turning her into a saint that is very well debunked within this documentary by Hitchens.

He exposes what seems the truth behind the woman and her real intentions behind the benevolent character that was shaped and promoted ‘all of a sudden’ by the media around the world. She is shown as a rather negligent person toward those that she deemed to care for and instead, enjoying traveling the world, having meetings with the most wealthy people in the world, travelling in private planes while collecting massive amounts of funds to benefit the creation of apparent ‘beneficence’ which in her schemes meant more convents for the faithfully deceived, Not hospitals for the diseased –  amongst other revealing facts that I didn’t know about this particular icon such as ‘Mother Theresa’ that has become the synonym in the collective unconscious of ‘benevolence’ and a symbol of an apparent ‘poverty vow’ that was certainly exposed to be a lucrative façade for the world.

 

I heard other conferences Hitchens gave on YouTube because my co-worker is quite a ‘fan’ of the man, so I got to hear how he would expose in an acute and accurate manner revealing facts about religion, specifically the roman catholic church and the atrocities committed by this oligarchy in the world. We all know religion has been ‘the opium of the masses’ and god a convenient excuse to not take self responsibility, though ‘atheism’ in itself becomes quite a repetitive rant that leads nowhere other than ‘denying god’ and once again pointing fingers at the ‘oppressors’ without taking any step further than that. Defining yourself as an ‘atheist’ is still defining yourself according the non-existence of ‘god’ which includes ‘god’ and the concept is therefore reinforced instead of being eradicated in its entirety.

 

Atheists then have the tendency to become rather religious about their opposition and perspectives toward ‘god’ and religion. Till this day – and after having gone through several other atheists and open critics toward religions/ god/ belief systems – it is only at Desteni and specifically Bernard Poolman that I found people that would be able to speak about the non existence of god not only to debunk the belief system and god as an excuse for inaction and exposing it without any bit of shame or ‘special regard’ – but also creating of this point of awareness an entry point for common sense, creating an ‘open ground’ for Self Realization developed as a form of Self Responsibility wherein we get to the conclusion that: we are the creators of this world, we are the ones that must stand up and take the wheel of this reality beginning with ourselves, individually – yet driven by the same principle: Equality as life. From here every speech/ interview/document by Bernard and everyone participating at Desteni will be a point to expose ourselves and the system while presenting the tools to take self responsibility and presenting the ultimate solution like the Equal Money System which is the way we can get to live in Self-Honesty in this world.

As much as I can agree on all that is spoken about the atrocities and general corrupted ways that institutions like the church have conducted in this world for the sake of their own benefit/power and confirming what I had ‘loathed’ from it as the money-making scam and massive brainwashing conquest that it represents in the world, I found that I only required to ‘hear the facts once’ and then move on to stop judging and become part of a solution. With this I mean moving from being an eternal religion-loather and god-debunker to a position of self responsibility wherein I have realized that complaining or exposing god/ religious systems and any other belief must be accompanied by a solution, otherwise we are no different to occupy wall street-fighters that solace pointing fingers at the world without realizing: ‘oh it’s myself as well, it’s my creation, I am the system, I power the system.’

 

This is a convenient moment to speak about people like Hitchens that informed themselves and had the ability to generate material that has been shared for educational purposes and is valuable for the facts and the manner in which they are presented which ensures skepticism is ‘kept in place.’ Though, we can only take him and other similar peers as a ‘stepping stones’ and cautionary tales to debunk all belief systems in the world to create an actual solution that can stand as a literal consideration of all in equality. For that, we don’t require to be constantly denying god or being absolutely blasphemous – we just require to focus on ourselves and our point of self responsibility. Once god is debunked and out of the equation,we only require to look at where we neglected our own ability to respond and regard each other as equals.

We can now move on to ensure we create a world wherein no hidden interests are kept in devious forms like religions/ cults/ political parties or any other ‘antagonist’ which is certainly also part of the same game once that it is used as another form of religion – e.g. atheism.

All ‘isms’ can be flushed down the toilet when we realize we only have to live by a single principle that can be lived and applied by everyone without having to ‘comply’ to any form of belief.

Equality is based on facts, on the reality that is here equally observable, tangible, breathable and livable by every participant. From here, establishing what’s best for all is a consensus to regulate our lives considering everyone and everything as equals, giving to each other what we want for ourselves. We require one single law to debunk all greed, self importance or any other inflation of sorts that has kept the current make-believe system in place: Equality as Life.

Time to wake up, time to stop being an ‘atheist’ only and dare to step on the ground of self-responsibility as an actual creator.

Visit http://www.equalmoney.org to inform yourself on how to stop running within/as the most common god that exists at the moment: money.

 


Seeking God is a money-driven scam

Religion promotes self interest, focusing on a set of beliefs that are directed to fulfill those  ‘spiritual needs’ that a human being is seemingly bound to experience on Earth.  Such ‘fulfillment’ is linked to obtaining that which we’ve equated our ‘happiness’ to, which can only be real if you have the money to give it to yourself. Eh, so where was ‘god’ in the entire equation anyways?

This is a special extra-lengthy sunny god Sunday edition partly influenced by a chat we had earlier and because of having at  least some 3 to 4 churches in a peripheral area of less than a kilometer – one around the corner by the way– where after coming home from a walk I imagined having to go to one of those rites and sit flat listening some man perorate on how ‘god’ will save you and you must repent and feel shitty for your sins. Glad that this was never my type of Sundays, though I did go through the entire god-seeking experience.

The fact that religions are popular is because they are seemingly promoting the ‘good will of man’ through being ‘benevolent’ toward fellow human beings and kind of earning good-karma – o sorry that’s the wrong religion – earning sufficient patting from god that will eventually draw you closer to the golden gates of paradise a.k.a.  salvation, which in the eyes of regular mortals like you and me that’s equated to being eternally blissful and existing in a happy ending that’s being promoted by both the Vatican and Disney alike.

Forgiveness is promoted as something that you ask for – as if you weren’t able to give it to yourself and require your master’s permission for that or something along the lines; then told by your pastor / herd manager to do the pertinent retribution after which you’ll feel ‘so good’ that you’ll drop some of your coins around as a gesture of gratefulness for experiencing such an easy brainwash and go back to ‘feeling good’ or at least less guilty. Sounds ludicrous now in terms of ‘asking’ for forgiveness, though this is it all works  in the world of mastering-manipulation through religious ‘principles.’

Within that, another type of indirect way of clearing your aura from past sins is paying your Sunday tithing where your benevolence is measured (me-assured) according to the number of zeros your bill has – yes, there we already have  a commercial per-chasing situation of paying-buying that involves money. You pay according to the amount of pain you’ve caused  for your sins with a set of prayers where words lose all possible meaning, where you talk yourself to ‘feel better’ without ever even daring to see/ acknowledge  the cause of committing such actions in the first place.  Then there’s the ultimate blissful moment on Sundays where a specific song is sang and the basket comes along your way:  you have to ‘pay’  for such absolved sins with actual money which will ensure you a seat in the front row on your way to heaven. Now you’re saved, forgiven and smiled at  by some man that heard your atrocities while, I’m sure, he’s done that and sometimes even more than that. This is based on real experiences and facts that I won’t discuss here, though I’ve had my trail on ‘religion’ and the power that they hold in fact – by power meaning money obviously which allows them to be so popular in conditioning the minds that seek for salvation and forgiveness instead of giving it to themselves.

How else would religion become the greatest corporation or monopoly around the world if it wasn’t through tackling on human’s feeble minds that seek a god to take responsibility for them while being willing to pay for a quick mind fix and feel ‘good’ about it all?  Imperialism. Oppression of those ‘weak minded pagan people’ that they eventually turned into the most fervent Catholics on Earth. It’s was only through a constant and consistent indoctrination – which also involved actual physical and verbal abuse – that religion was able to be accepted as equal to the executive and judicial powers of a nation.

Even if the catholic church/ Christianity promote ‘asking for forgiveness’, the saint inquisition as a subdivision of the Catholic Roman Church was one of the first institutions that promoted a form of capital punishment through the inquisition directed to those that refused to accept ‘god as their savior’ – might be confusing the motto with Islam, but it’s all the same anyways. There you would have heretics punished with the most vile artifacts I’ve ever seen in my life, all of them forming an exhibition that even after it is promoted as the actuality that it was – meaning coming in the combo of Christianity’s imperialism tactics to ‘reform’ those that failed to comply to the ‘one and only true god’ – people are still following such institution with a literal blind faith.

Why does religion doesn’t speak about self responsibility? Self Honesty? Well, because in the very depths of their agenda they must keep you bound to the idea that ‘you need them’, that ‘you need your god’, that you require to go there every Sunday to check out your neighbor’s wife – I mean, to check how bad/good you’ve been in that week, feel sad and miserable about it for the hour or so that the entire charade lasts and then leave  after having accepted that it was your fault and apparently repenting which will leave you with  a ‘clear conscience’. All of this after having left your juicy tithing which gives you the sensation of being now ‘freed from all your criminal activity’ during the week and so, you’re ready to do it all over again!

See, in any of those moments do we actually take  a look at the world outside of ourselves? One is only seeking for salvation, feeling better about oneself = not so miserable and creating a false sense of comfort through asking for world peace or hungry kids to be fed yet doing nothing in fact to promote solutions or expose the reality as it is. Why? Because the almighty belief in a god is more powerful than any common sense that won’t ever be shared in churches as that would be like setting their own boycott to have empty seat from the following Sunday on.

Self empowerment is then promoted by the seemingly counter-act to the orthodox religions which is spirituality. There you got the universe – not a single god – giving you all that you want while enhancing your ability to be ‘at ease’ and ‘in silence’ while the world is apparently just fine. In spirituality you’re also seeking to save your ass and sit on it for a while trying to ‘connect the source’; you also want to get to be with that godhead that some love to define as an ‘energy’ or an omniscient being that, ‘at least,’ is not defined by having long hair, blue eyes and a prominent beard – yet in essence the same stories and roles  as hierarchical systems are  lived and applied. Any real self empowerment and self realization would pose a threat to any religion/spiritual congregation because it would  free people from having to ‘follow spirituality/ being spiritual’ and consuming all of that which promotes ‘being at peace with yourself’ through blindfolding techniques where it’s definitely easier to sit on your ass and meditate yourself ‘till you’re feeling something fuzzy inside, than facing your own thoughts and the exact nature that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to exist as, which is not ‘good’ or benevolent, otherwise religions wouldn’t exist in the first place as they are the result of fear and abdication of self responsibility to a ‘higher being’.

When I was a child I would pray everyday on the way to school from day one up to when I finished elementary school. Looking back it’s fascinating  how in that moment I would get a feeling that I was doing something ‘good’ while praying for starving kids to be fed, yet at the same time asking for us (family) to win the lottery and get that huge house that meant the equivalent to ‘happiness’ on Earth at the time. So in essence asking ‘god’ for things in the same manner I would when blowing the candles on each Birthday cake.

My family wasn’t that religious, though this ‘our holy father’ prayer was something usually prayed as it seemed somewhat ‘real’. It would feel like something ‘solemn’ to do everyday – what a load of crap because the entire thing is about someone/ god doing stuff for us and preventing us from doing shit and giving us all – I mean, there is no actual sense of supporting each other as equals in it, or considering life as the only value, speaking, writing and communicating that which is of support to others and ourselves; I see no sentence that includes plants, animals and the environment as part of the equation in such prayer. It’s never worked obviously, I never won the lottery and starvation hasn’t been eradicated either.

I was taught to do this – I followed, that’s all I knew. I got to know of other ‘god’ ideas which I then felt fortunate for, almost like a chosen one for having this ‘direct link’ with the ‘realm of the death ones’ due to being familiar with channelings and spirituality. The fact that I kept that as secret and that we as a family would keep it as a secret reveals what type of cult it really was, really only a few knew about it yet it all seemed so real. Being familiar with the ideas/ beliefs of having these type of ‘privileges’ such as having people apparently ‘watching over me all the time’ created a sense of ‘god is watching me, I must be a good person or else I’ll be damned’ – the fear of god developed and within that, I got to know this world and the system for what it is.

Ludicrous that god as the policeman in the head is taught in religions. Some can even use the idea of god to educate their kids like ‘don’t swear or you’ll make baby Jesus cry!’

I never had crosses in my house – because of this entire spiritual thing that we were into which now I see it was no different with its own set of rules and secrets around it – but anyways, seeing them in my friends’ houses made me ponder how people liked seeing gory representations of a man with nails on hands and feet while agonizing in what evidently seems like a very painful death; then daring to carry them  around their necks and shaping them with all sorts of materials and motives – ludicrous. Yet at the same time I was mostly living with the fear of others’ negative vibes and ‘jealousy’ and essentially being aware of not doing anything that these ‘beings’ could see and later on recriminate myself with. It was ludicrous, they ‘knew it all’ and because it would be ventilated in front of everyone in my family, I’d rather focus on keeping my reputation somewhat clean.

That’s how I grew up with the fear of a ‘god’ as the punisher and the beliefs of asking for whatever you want that will make you happy while not forgetting to ‘drop a line’ to bless the people in Biafra so that they can  have something to eat.

From there my delusions on spirituality only escalated even beyond the spiritualism and channelings that I had grown up with. They became more elusive which was in direct consonance to my lifestyle of escapism while trying to make sense of this world, wanting to make my life have a certain ‘purpose’ or ‘meaning’ which was linked to me feeling like a chosen one to create my own religion. Lol. I became quite a nutjob for a while when seeking the truths and the ‘real salvation’ from this world. Nothing made sense yet there were patterns repeating all the way. That’s how when getting to Desteni everything fit, like the that  puzzle that I wouldn’t have ever been able to put together alone. I would sometimes feel like the hermit looking for some answer that only a fool could dare to embrace.

The point that I originally wanted to share here is how religious indoctrination should be regarded as mind control and harmful brainwashing as it enables children to believe in fantasy-like stories as their source of existing here; beliefs on ethereal beings that are apparently caring for you becomes quite the hair in the soup when we grow up and see that there are other people that are not exactly being ‘cared for’ and have to actually strive for a living. This creates a rift between the reality that is here and the stories that are told ‘as real’ within religion – and by religion I should ratify and clarify that I’m referring to the one that I was familiar with which is the catholic one. We are taught to be thankful because ‘we’ have what we need and for that, we’re taught to feel grateful and special because  the good old god ‘cares for us’ –  but what about the rest of the world?

Through such blessings and prayers we’re taught to ask for that which will ‘make us happy’, for that which will ensure that we are ‘safe’ and even healthy while still aiming to sit next to the holy father of god. Lol what a fuckup really. I can only say that promoting the idea of a benevolent god and indoctrinating that onto a child can only make you complicit of an atrocity that leads to the creation of irresponsible and airy-fairy human beings that believe that someone will do the job for them, and that anything ‘good’ that happens has been an act of the ‘divine forces’ that are now giving results after years of prayers to ‘get it’ – never actually questioning why isn’t the same ‘fortunate position’ not available for everyone equally?

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to place my life at the ‘hands of god’ and creating a massive delusion within me as my life thinking that someone is always ‘taking care of me’ – within this developing a sense of being ‘special’ as well as being observed which unfolded in an irrational fear of god that then became the reason to ‘be good’, which stems from such initial fear.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create myself as the idea of a ‘benevolent person’ only out of ‘fear of god’, fear of being exposed for the ‘real intentions I had’ and exposing the nature of the deeds that I would hold in my mind in secret because of the threat they posed to my falsely created integrity.

It’s such a fuckup that we indoctrinate kids with morality, it is ludicrous for all the shit that it develops which is primarily fear of being punished or exposed or ‘falling from the grace of god’ if one is a bad bad kid. There must only be one single morality point: what’s best for all to end all poles of good/evil.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to motivate my life and ‘good actions’ as points and ‘credits’ that I would be seemingly saving and keeping a record of by this apparent god so that I could get to be eventually saved and having a great afterlife in this elusive paradise where I could finally get my ‘reward’ for being a ‘good girl in this world’.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to motivate me to move, to only do things and act in ways that were ‘good’ or seemingly ‘benevolent’ out of self interest only, out of accumulating my good-god points and later on ‘good karma’ wherein the underlying expectation of getting the same in return existed as a secret desire within me.

If we could’ve actually realized that it is possible to give and take openly as an equal and one relationship, there would be no need to expect rewards for ‘doing something good’ as it wouldn’t be labeled as ‘doing good’ or not, it would just be the way that things are conducted and lived in an Equality world – there no morality would be required, no expectation to get things in return but simply giving and taking within the same principle of equality as life – as what’s here.

We’ve compromised ourselves so much with creating certain attitudes that are seen as ‘goodwill’, developing quirks and mannerisms, words and appearances that will follow the norm of how ‘good people’ look and act like. It is not true, ‘good people’ are as equal as the most experienced scavenger like person that is seeking to get something out of something/ someone else – they only have different masks and accepted roles, but the essence of the final motivator to do so is the same in nature.

Daring to see this single aspect of ourselves might be tough for some, simply because we realize that we’ve never actually moved ourselves as an actual act of self-realization meaning self movement, but it was always motivated to obtain or become something/ someone of perceived ‘well-beingness’ and more often than not, of power and success = rich people = money.

So religion and its indoctrination is brewing hypocrisy in the world from head to toe. It is teaching that imaginary people are seemingly watching over you while fulfilling your dreams and making you all pampered and cared for, which  generates an inner conflict when realizing that there are billions of people that don’t ’ know ‘god’ because they’re not being pampered or cared for. This is how we discover the fact that we’ve been taught lies wherein parents are the ones that are responsible for, because the child knows nothing and has no idea of how to walk in the world – it is only through parents that they accept what they say as ‘fact’ and ‘truth’. As the child grows up we can expect him/her to not trust their parents ever again and do their own exploration and realizations to see what makes sense once they step into reality and see how it actually functions – this is though the most preferable way it goes, sometimes it turns out in further self abuse and confusion of what this world is and what living must be about. This is then linked to money of course and once that money is seen as the main driving force for religions and the idea of such god to exist, the idea of any altruism or benevolence is debunked.

That’s how at Desteni we are presenting common sense solutions that don’t require a single point of belief to be understood. The practical points of understanding how we exist and function in our reality can be cross referenced by anyone by directly investigating our reality, being our own reality-checker with regards to how relationships operate, how things ‘move’ within ourselves as experiences wherein we’ll always get down to seeing the accepted and allowed ‘nature of man’ in the current system as the source of such convenient belief or idea that motivates seeking one’s ‘heavenly experience’ in one way or another.

“All I want in life is to be happy” is what guides our actions, this is the real fucker that must be seen from all angles; even in walking this process if there’s but a single expectation of ‘making it,’ we expose it to ourselves for what it is as that would indicate we’re still playing the religion game, expecting something/ someone super natural to do things for us.

Exposing this is the least we can do to make sure more people are able to step out of the self-created see-through crystal box wherein we cage ourselves while believing we are free, because ‘the barrier’ is just so thin and clear. In fact the entire monetary system can be viewed as that single crystal clear barrier between ourselves and others. We believe we have free choice, we believe we have free will but in essence we’re just like rats in a cage as well, not even questioning the in or out as such comfortable status quo of never questioning reality is more enjoyable than having to go through the rather ‘uncomfortable’ realization of it all being a blatant lie. This is how I’m sure that many, many people would rather spend their days lying to themselves – even if being fully aware of doing so – than having to give up the illusion of happiness and fool-fill.ment that the single idea of god or someone watching over your head might provide –  yes, in some sick sense of our ‘spiritual requirements’ to not feel alone.

This has turned into another buybill as part of my white past seeking the holy-lies that would make me have such connection that I sought with all my might for something ‘divine’, something ‘out of this world’ that could give me a reason to exist and be. This is how I got to disregard all human aspects of reality, I deliberately neglected them to ensure I remained focused in this elusive spiritual realm that I thought I’d reach by being a ‘good god servant’ in a meek and positive way.

I perorate this religious rant with the following:

Self Respect is Not promoted through religion as you have to turn the other cheek before you realize you have to stand up for yourself and prevent any form of abuse in the first place.

Self Responsibility is not promoted through religion because you can ‘ask’ someone for forgiveness, but never give it to yourself as a way of realizing your own fuck up and being the real ‘master creator’ behind your experience.

Self-Trust is never promoted in religion as that would imply you wouldn’t require to pray and go to church to have your ‘god’ giving you all the strength and might that you can’t apparently give to yourself. You are encouraged to ‘trust your feelings/ heart’ which is only but a physical organ that doesn’t think, another delusion promoted by religion/lightworking malarkey.

Self Honesty is never part of your religious curriculum because realizing yourself as one and equal would debunk the imposition of hierarchy that keeps the chains of religion tied to each one’s feet.

Self Will is not promoted as you have to ask for courage and a certain reward in the way to move yourself to do anything in this world, otherwise ‘what would be the point of it all?’

Self Forgiveness is NOT promoted by religion of course, otherwise the priest would be prescinded and lose his job as the special pastor in the church of your preference, he wouldn’t be able to rejoice with the money that comes ‘indirectly’ as part of ‘paying for your sins’ besides existing in a personal inflated state of having some type of powers conferred on to him to hear other people’s dark deeds and be able to ‘absolve’ someone’s fuckups. Forgiveness is then ‘asked’ and not realized as part of taking Self Responsibility for our actions and consequences.

Self-Support is not promoted in religion as you are often led to and taught that you must ask God to give you the strength and you must follow an entire brainwashing session to make sense of this world while believing that an all-mighty invisible hand is guiding your actions and making you go through some nefarious experiences just to teach you a lesson, from which you’ll either come up to the surface again or die in the bottom of such situation. Yet apparently ‘god’ and his ‘mysterious ways’ have planned that specifically for you to realize one of those morals that will apparently change your life.

Self Investigation is not supported – knowing yourself is only ‘god’s task’ as he/she/it knows why things are placed on your way. It is taught that stuff ‘happens to you’ yet you  are apparently not the creator of them all, but only the victim that can then ask for forgiveness and keep going to church to renew their desire to ‘get to god’ and be eternally happy.

Self correction is certainly NOT promoted as that would imply that you could become a common sensical living being that would not require to go and self-flagellate each sunday, asking for forgiveness and paying money for your sins. You would eventually realize that all that you require is correcting your patterns and habits to start acting in ways that will  support you and others equally which would demerge your relationship with ‘god’ as a necessity in your life to act in ways that are best for all = you become your own god.

Self Realization is NOT supported as you’d see that if Oneness and Equality are the principles of this world,  you are then one and equal as any idea/concept of ‘God’ and as such, you see yourself as the responsible one for all that is here – the marvelous and the fuckups. Now the act must be cleaned up to create a tabula rasa for kids to step into a world where all past can be only remembered as a hell of a nightmare to never repeat it again. At last a god-police free land forevermore.

This can only be done through the Equal Money System where all religions are given and end as we simply realize: we can give it all to ourselves in Equality.

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