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The Starting Point

By Ken Cousens

 

“True Love cannot exist in the presence of Unequal Station”
In this essay we will explore the fundamental context that one must address in order to understand the concepts of Equal Money and Equal Life. This context is summed up in the title of the essay: The Starting Point. Simply stated, it is one’s starting point that will wholly determine whether one can comprehend the concepts of Equal Money and Equal Life, and in that context there are only two starting points that exist, either one starts from the point of self-interest (“What’s in it for ME?”) or one starts from the point of what is best for all (“What’s in it for WE?”). There is no middle ground. If one is starting from the point of self-interest, one cannot get there from here. Every argument and every position rallied against the principles of Equal Money and Equal Life become self-nullifying when the starting point is self-interest. When life is viewed from the subjective position of unequal station, where there is greater and lesser, superior and inferior, more deserving and less deserving, and every variation thereof, then nothing exists except for the self-focused reality of self-interest. Not only is it a fact that true love cannot exist in the presence of unequal station, but nothing exists in the presence of unequal station except the self-absorbed reality of personal agendas, the self-focused litany of arguments ad nauseam that insist it is more important than all of existence, and that rights of birth, station, position, status quo and everything else are there to support the illusions of separation and all of its variants. In simple terms there is only the choice between Life and self, and what those saluting the flag of self have failed to take into account at this stage of planetary evolution is that life has had enough of the abuses of self, and is now taking control, whether that is apparent to the self or not at this moment in time. In time, and the not too distant future, it will become the most self-evident principle on the planet.

 

When the starting point of one’s approach to Equal Money and Equal Life is “What Is Best For All” then the entire universe rearranges itself to make the principles self-evident, as if they always existed as an integrated whole system, a complete interconnected fabric of life and existence that has never been without harmony, balance and equilibrium while still at the same time fully observant with eyes wide open to the horrors of separation and all of its spawn. Such a starting point is not about the lofty abstraction of positivity in ignorance of the realities on this planet, it is simply the firmly established stand that there is only one choice for how money and the systems thereof must ultimately be applied, and that is to do what is best for all. In such context, Life is seen as a fluid continuity that is in communion with all of existence, and every part contains the template of the whole and the whole is seen in every part. In this, the starting point is to stand as Life; to take the stand within and as oneself as Life means that one cannot do anything that is not fundamentally based on the sound principle of what is best for all life in all expressions and all manifestations. Life as what is best for all is based on correspondence, which is simply the ability to respond as the equal and parallel coefficient of every other expression of life, to respond as co-equal to all other forms of life, to nurture every iota of life as one would one’s own breath, and the in breath and out breath of one’s own respiration, as re-spiriting, is the inspiration and out spiration of life as spirit as one and equal to every and all living expressions.

 

When one takes a stand for Life, it is a self-directive state of being that establishes an implacable position that will not be swayed and cannot be persuaded from that position no matter what may come at it. All time and space cannot persuade one so situated to rescind the commitment, and such a stand for Life will inevitably force all of existence to rearrange itself to conform to the intent of such a stand for the principle of what is best for all. To the self-focused and self-interested such a stand is madness and has no logic, because the starting point of such is that if it does not serve self in its self-fulfilling gratification, then it has no meaning and has no value. The self-interested cannot even fathom such a stand for Life because there is no instant gratification and there is therefore no value to such a one.
The self-interested character that resides, in one variation or another, in almost the entire planetary population knows only one principle, so succinctly expressed in the statement “What’s in it for me?” It is like a universal radio station tuned to WIIFM, and the pain, suffering, agony, pleading, misery, torment and convulsions of the world and its population are like distant static that are so effectively tuned out by that finely honed instrument of self-adulation and ego-maniacal madness known as the self, singing blithely “I, Me, Mine…I, Me, Mine…I, Me, Mine….” as the world descends into entropic annihilation. “Are you mad?” proclaims the self-interested adherent when presented with the concept of “The Greater Good” because such a one cannot even begin to understand that there is anything outside of itself worthy of its attention. Their starting point as well as every other point along the timeline of their existence is always and forever centered on self, so such concepts as a global economic and monetary system based on the sanctity of Life, the honoring of all beings and the exaltation of the life force in every plant, animal, human, forest, ocean, river, field and ecosystem cannot be fathomed and never given credence. Conversely, a system in which every action is within dynamic equilibrium with all beings and all existence so that Life itself is forever regenerative, equally manifesting what is best for all beings, reciprocally and mutually beneficial to every form and function, and eternally sustainable, is as natural as the first breath of a new born baby to one that stands for the principles of Equal Money and Equal Life for All.

 

The self-interested starting point can only hear the word “Money” in the phrase “Equal Money” and cannot comprehend that such a word as “equal” has anything to do with money. Money to the self-interested is the beginning, middle and end of all existence. It is not a means to an end, it is the end itself. The self-interested worship at the altar of money and never give it a second thought, never understanding that every dollar that passes through their pockets and accounts is attached to someone, some where, that must service a debt, toil in the fields, labor in the factories and deliver the goods that their self-indulgent lives may be supported and sustained on the blood, sweat and tears of millions whose bones pave the way to an imaginary heaven so that the privileged few might easily enter such a promised land. The self-interested do not even know that the word money itself is derived from the name of an ancient moon goddess (“Mon”) that has woven her lunar spell over countless generations so that their very minds are wrapped and enraptured as nothing less than the lunatic fringe of a world gone mad, driving the teaming masses to commit the unspeakable and heinous acts and assaults on Life now taken for granted as if the end point of this madness is the way it is, the way it has always been and the way it will forever be. Such phrasing as “It’s to Die For” and “I will kill to have that new car” are taken as a given, as natural, as the rallying call of the self-interested, thereby establishing their starting point as death, violence and destruction just to fulfill that one last desire before the closing of the last curtain over the stage of all life, to die for one last pleasure, to kill for that one last prize.

 

Therefore, one must start with the logical question: “What is my starting point?” How does one approach the question of Equal Money as a direct expression and manifestation of an Equal Life for all? Does one, in fact, start from the point of recognizing that every thing in existence is standing as Life itself, for everything has a life force, and that life force is equal in all things. But, you say, rocks do not have life force. To which the proper response is, oh but yes they do. They stand equal as the manifestation of Life in every atom of their substance, that stands equal with magnetism and electrical current that flows throughout their molecular bodies, and from the rocks comes the soil and in the soil exist the teaming masses of microorganisms that are essential for every plant, animal and human to stand in their life as the physical embodiment that they are. When Life is seen from the starting point of an inextricable web of creation that is wholly interdependent on every other living thing, just as the systems of man have created a global system that everyone is completely dependent upon as a quantum whole, then the starting point begins to become clear as that which holds and sustains Life in all things, in all creatures and in all of manifest existence. And every other thing, every seeming inanimate expression of Life, when looked upon in and as part of this inextricable fabric of Life as a quantum whole, can and will be seen, if the starting point is Life as one and equal, as part of the whole, both dependent and interdependent for its life, life force and existence, as standing in oneness and equality with all Life.

 

So what does it mean “to stand” for Life and “to stand” for oneness and equality? It means simply that one chooses as a self-directive principle to make Life and what is best for all as the central point from which all one’s life, actions, thoughts, feelings, emotions and intentions emerge. It means one stands for Life and cannot be moved from that position, as a commitment of one’s being beyond time and space, as a holding point and station that will not ever again accept or allow that which is not best for all or in support of Life. From such a starting point, everything that is not in support of Life, that is not properly founded on life-enhancing principles, shall, as by a force of nature, depart from one’s existence. If one takes that stand resolute and without equivocation, then all of Life and all of nature shall rearrange around oneself in correspondence with that stand; and when two or more stand for and as Life, together as one, Life is here in that co-equal commitment and co-resonant expression and the power and force of that commitment is expanded exponentially. In that stand and starting point, the mind cannot enter, because the mind by design will seek every angle, every perspective and every strategy to find fault in that stand and position. The mind as the starting point is designed to support separation and self-interest, and therefore, if the starting point of approach to the concept of Equal Money is one of the mind expressed as logic, economic models, mathematical equations or any other spawn of the mind, one can never see past the veils of illusion and deceit upon which such a starting point is premised.

 

To the mind of self-interest, the starting point of a forest is nothing more than a calculation of board feet, bonds and capital, corporate equity and the rest of it; to one who stands as Life in equality, the forest is a living community with infinite variety, infinite grandeur and infinite expressions, seen as the whole forest consisting of and equal to every part and every being living in that expression of Life standing equal to the whole. As such, if a human enters that forest and standing as Equal Money and Equal Life utilizes the mind as a tool, the calculations of that self-directive being with and through their mind will analyze the use of the forest in a sustainable model. In such an approach, every living creature in the forest is taken into consideration, so that if harvesting timber is part of the intention, then it will be done with the life of the forest itself taken into consideration so that the forest is left both intact and sustainably continuing in its life force and every component part’s requirements sustained and maintained. This approach can be applied to any other system, whether it is a farm, a river, an ocean or a planet. Human needs can be met in such a model, and Life itself will direct the principle and the calculations and the considerations to sustain the whole, including humanity, within the context of preserving the part of every whole in its integrity and its right to Life. Standing as equality includes consideration for the future, so that the future needs of the system, at whatever scale, are part of the calculations, so that the sustainable model can exist here and now, and can continue in every moment here and now into eternity. Standing as Life is standing in and as eternity. Standing as Life is standing in and as Equal Station with all of Life, in its infinite variety of expression and manifestation, and in its eternal continuity throughout all of existence.

 

Standing as Equal Money means that one has taken the irrevocable stand as a commitment of one’s being to live in every breath as the principle that money is only a tool whose utility must always be applied to what is best for all and shall provide the means and methods whereby all of Life will be honored as equal in life force in the part and in the whole. Standing as Equal Money establishes a starting point that money is seen as a system that previous to such stand was created and applied within a context of competition, jealousy, fear, violence, destruction, proceeding as a veritable biblical plague that will devour everything in its path to perpetuate its existence as the god of humanity and a force that cannot be contained. Money in and as a principle of unequal station creates hierarchy, posits reality on seemingly immutable laws of lack and limitation, in which some will have and some (read most) will have not. The inevitable equation of money premised on unequal station is that some have the so-called divine right to hoard and accumulate wealth to be applied only for the glorification of self to the detriment of all of Life as a whole. This, of course, equates to the love of money, where in such an equation this so-called love is nothing more than the penultimate expression of self-aggrandizement, self-interest and self-adulation, all of which is, in fact, nothing more than the inversely proportionate expression of self-loathing, self-degeneracy and self-abnegation.

 

What those in such a station at this point in time do not see, realize or understand, is that money as a force has now taken control of all of the systems previously created to support and sustain it, and that force is one of pure unadulterated self-interest equal to the negation of Life, which can only be defined as a reverse reflection of LIVE, thus as EVIL, and that it is now commenced on the process of consumption of all in its path, including those previous masters of money who perceived and believed themselves destined to own and control all of Life and all of this world. All who insist that money in support of self-interest is an eternal and never ending ride shall one day soon wake up to the sober realization that they are one and equal to that which they support and have become. Therefore, those in support of money in any manifestation of inequality, where the few have much and the many have none, shall be increasingly faced with nothing left but themselves and as themselves they will be sorely pressed to face all the consequences that ensued from such a starting point. To those it can only be said to consider the possibility that at some point in time, somewhere, some when, somehow, Life finally has had enough. Now Life, as the most powerful force in all of existence, has begun the slow and steadily increasing reversal of the game whereby only Life as an Equal Station, as an Equal Starting Point, will inexorably have the final say in the matter. And the beginning point of such a say is in fact matter itself, as matter derived from mater, the material matrix from whence life emerges, the mother of all here in the physical, not in some ephemeral dream posited as heaven in some non-existent future, but right here, right now, whether as Life in the microcosm where the microbial expression shall overtake mankind’s ignorance of Life itself in its use of drugs, antibiotics, chemicals, poisons and genetically modified organisms, or in the macrocosmic scale of weather and planetary ecosystems that shall, if necessary, remove the offending apostates who think they can play god and own and control Life itself. All the money in their self-contained delusions of grandeur will never buy Life and will never again buy anyone a first class ticket to heaven. Get real, get with Life, or pay the consequences when you must, inevitably, face yourself and only yourself in the end. And do not delude yourself any longer, for you do so now at your own peril. The beginning of the end has already begun.
Life is now in control.

 

Life can and will rearrange the system of money to serve Life, and those clinging to money as their god and their central starting point of self-interest, will find that they are beginning to lose their grip. Indeed, they are already finding this to be the fact. All of Heaven now stands as equal to Life; before the maxim as above, so below was literally true, and therefore, the hierarchical, unequal structure of Earth in its monetary system of life-negation was indeed how Heaven was arrayed. But a doorway was finally opened between Earth and Heaven, and the infinite separation that had allowed the previous system to be created, to grow and thrive, was suddenly dissolved forever. Those in the hierarchy of Heaven, in which control and enslavement equal to that seen here on the Earth, had suddenly become aware of the situation, and they took the stand – finally – to serve Life. Now, those who previously had been assured their destiny as masters of the universe here on Earth, no longer have the support of a stratified dimensional Heaven that supported their stations as the seeming masters of Life. Suddenly, and irrevocably, all in Heaven came together as one, equal with and as Life, walking a process to face themselves, to forgive themselves and to commit themselves to what was best for all, best for Life.

 

The stand for Life, with the starting point of asking the question with every action: “Is this Best for ALL?,” requires that one must always start with and stand on the principle of self-honesty. When one fills a car with gasoline and uses that gasoline to convey oneself to a place for self-indulgent purposes, does one honestly stand with the principle that the price paid for a gallon of gas does not come close to paying the full price in all of its consequences for all such self-indulgent acts? When one drives a car to work to make money in an industry that negates Life, that destroys Life, that contributes to the annihilation of species, of ecosystems, or the planet as a whole, can one truly face oneself in self-honesty and avoid the fact that in consequence there shall be a significant price to pay for that gallon of gas, that day’s events, or that job, or that transaction, that corporation or that nation? Can we as a whole, as humanity, stand in true self-honesty and view the condition of this world and the condition of a large portion of humanity and say the current system of money and politics and religion, the triumvirate gods of most who refer to themselves as human, and say that this system is what works for all and is best for all?

 

Can you who are reading this essay stand and look at yourself in the mirror and see in yourself a mother clutching her starving child to her withered breast bereft of nourishment and blithely just discard that living child to the trash heap of history and grind her bones to build more castles and citadels designed to protect and defend the sanctimonious temples of this world; can you continue believing that in ten thousand years of more of the same, such bones of countless starving children shall turn to limestone and become the marbled pillars of the moneyed institutions in some future world in which such money stands as god of existence and all bow down to it and pray for relief to be disbursed like rolls of copper pennies. Can you in unabashed self-honesty look yourself in the eye and see yourself standing one and equal in the body of a wretched soul who must grovel in the trash heaps of this world to scratch out a meager subsistence of life, to stand equal to the children having to sleep loveless and cold in the discarded corners of every city, to stand equal to the battered women as they endure the relentless onslaught of violent and impotent men made so by a soulless society that cares naught for their existence save for how their life force can be forcibly extracted to energize the neon lights of this phantasmal illusion that knows nothing of real Life? Do you ever ask yourself what was that bump in the road that momentarily disturbed your air conditioned limousine ride through the perfumed corridors of your mind, and listen for the answer that says it was the discarded bodies of a billion hungry men, women and children that you have built your empires upon or perhaps the countless piles of bones littered throughout your history of neglect, contempt, and disdain for such lesser beings not worthy to eat the few crumbs that fall from your sumptuous banquet table? Do you really think the incantation of the priest will absolve you of personal responsibility as you pass from your deathbed into the beyond, or perhaps do you ever consider the possibility that now that Heaven walks equal as one with Life, you will only be met with the reflection of your own starting point and you must walk every moment of it with full awareness of every deed you have done and every consequence you have spawned?

 

It has been said as if eternally true that there are only two things that are certain in life: death and taxes, yet now, there is really only one thing that is certain, and that is that in death one will inexorably have to face oneself. At that moment there will be only one question: “What was your starting point when given for consideration the concept of Equal Money as a new system to replace the old, one in which all things are constructed to serve every aspect of Life, every being and every thing?” Was it “What is best for all,” or was it “What’s in it for me?” Was it “How Can I Serve Life?” or was it “Who Will Serve Me?”

 

Equal Money has nothing to do with money, for money does not exist. Money is simply the totality and reflection of humanity in its current relationship to life, which is a system on automatic drive that is self-perpetuating, parasitic in its total expression, and harvesting the substance of the life force of all of humanity without regard to the consequences. Today money serves the ego and the illusion of false prosperity and the abject denial that things are seriously wrong in this world. Today money is god, for both the godly and the godless alike; all worship at its altar and pray to its deified visage in their minds. It is not a pathway to Life as best for all, but only for what serves them and them alone. When the starting point of anyone upon hearing the phrase Equal Money is that which is best only for themselves, they only hear their own denial and the collective din of humanity in its mass consensus hallucination that all is right in the universe. All is not right in the universe, yet all can be made right. We need only commit to and stand for the concept of Equal Life for all, commit to and stand for the principle of prosperity and abundance for everyone, commit to and stand for the starting point that all children go to sleep at night in a warm bed, with furry toys tucked in beside them, with warm bellies filled with nourishment, with all men and women standing together in joie de vive, a joy for life born from the soil and substance of their lives in harmony with all other Life, standing firm and implacable in the realization and understanding that by standing for Life they stand with and as all of existence.

 

So in the end there is only one choice, death and annihilation, or Life and eternal vitality for all. True love can only exist within the balance and harmony of equal station for all, which means simply that all can stand in their own lives equally, that all fundamental rights of existence that one would want for oneself and one’s family are equally available to all. In such a paradigm, money automatically becomes an equal equation that is utilized for fulfilling the requirements of Life as best for all. It can happen in an instant breath for anyone, it simply requires a paradigm shift in a quantum moment, to take the stand for Life, to realize that Life in correspondence with Life is what true love consists of and exists as, and to realize that all substance here in the physical is the very fabric of Life itself. To deny any other being the full compliment of joyful existence in the full vitality of Life is to deny oneself the very same, for we are each as to and unto each other the mirror reflection of ourselves, and in fact, we are each other as we are Life as a whole. We only have to wake up from our self-induced nightmare and take a stand against the perpetuation of the illusions of separation within and as the abstractions of the mind, which have driven us to the very precipice of madness and precariously close to the imminent tipping point towards irreversible planetary ecocide. But the hour is getting late; it is very late, indeed.

 

ALL Equality is WITHIN the ESSENCE of LIFE itself,
From which All Form Emerges;
When this is not recognized and understood,
A separation occurs where No Joy is Ever Possible.[1]

 

There are many here among us, who feel that Life is but a joke;
But you and I, we’ve been through that, and that is not our fate;
So let us not talk falsely now, the hour is getting late![2]

 

 

[1] Bernard Poolman, Creation’s Journey to Life, Day 174
http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/10/day-174-after-death-communication-part.html
[2] Bob Dylan, All Along the Watchtower

 

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273. Honoring Life and our Creative Force in Equality

When looking at what we have learned to express as and dedicated our lives to as humanity, it’s not been to honor each other as equals, we didn’t learn from our parents or at school how to do that – we instead learned how to compete, how to win, how to ‘do whatever it takes’ to become number one and feel proud about it. We never learned how to direct our every breath and every moment consideration to nurture ourselves, to become better living beings, to learn from others, to support others to strengthen ourselves and themselves, to cooperate and realize the true harmony that can create in this world. Unfortunately, we have only learned the opposite: to only care for ourselves, our loved ones, to respect authorities that abuse the majorities, to vote for that which will ensure My security and satisfaction while neglecting those that will be affected by such measures, to deposit our time and workforce to maintain a system wherein no one is living ‘happily ever after’ yet still believe that such thing is possible.

 

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Our civilization is like a fractal from the perspective that we can take any part of it, anywhere in the world, study the patterns as the forces involved in creating the patterns that such part/piece of reality is presenting and we will be able to realize the limitations, the abuse, the suffering, the negligence, the harm and also all the benefits and good living conditions generated through the use and abuse of such resources/space/people/living beings.

When I began writing about this point within looking at sacred art the same points exist: we learn to revere to a reality according to the pictures that we are then taught to venerate, to obey and we get certain belief systems imprinted wherein we are able to justify such abuses – like no one questions why people are still living in shacks made of cardboard and aluminum sheets in certain peripheral areas of our ‘great cities’ but billions are invested in freeways, constructions of the greatest quality, multi-billion projects for malls and other centers that ensure more money will be obtained through such investment – but, what kind of ‘profit’ can one make from building proper houses for people? If you are the company that builds such houses, you can earn great profit with the right connections, however the materials of such houses are most likely flimsy and of the lowest quality, why? Because we haven’t learned how to honor each other as equals and we give to another that which will cost us the least so we can earn the most. Haiti is still struggling to recover after 3 years of the Earthquake and the world keeps turning without any substantial support being given to people that have no basic sanitation/ toilettes/ running water and sewage which in itself is currently the cause of the cholera outbreaks that are becoming a chronic situation there.

It is impossible to not look at my comfortable position and ponder how on Earth one can feel ‘happy’ in this world while billions of people that are equals in essence to myself are going through hell every single day. And all of this is because we have learned to honor money and not life. We have learned to trust invisible gods to make a change instead of us taking the responsibility for our creation; we have learned to rather applaud the great civilized world of wonders, luxury, opulence and ‘divinity’ while turning a deliberate blind eye to the reality that we are neglecting in order to ensure that we ‘keep on dreaming’ and never look at the other side.

 

The point here is to realize one thing: in the end, everything that we are currently securing our lives with is a make believe system that is no longer sustainable, just as the gods and religions that are slowly but surely coming to pass as more young people realize the fallacy that it is to venerate gods and money that is destroying the Earth, and it’s not a power that god and money have in themselves, it is the way we are currently using Money which is the problem. And currently our lives are revealing their ‘real dark side’ in order for us to realize that we have really fucked up. We cannot continue venerating gods and money that is deliberately becoming the most lethal drug that we are all consuming on a daily basis, and we have to understand that such lethal drug is the mind and who we are as the mind is the one that has accepted and allowed any form of power in separation of ourselves, any form of symbol as ‘more’ than ourselves and any creative force place at the service of forging these very same symbols and structures determined to implant belief systems that have ruled humanity from the very beginning of our civilization.

This is also in conjunction when looking at human history, all continents and their prehistoric times wherein all that remains is all the archeological residues of civilizations and all the representations and ‘great works’ that were mostly dedicated to create this ‘divine’ idea of the human being, adoring gods and forces of nature outside of themselves, learning to consider the ‘greatest forces’ in this world as ‘bigger’ and ‘more powerful’ than ourselves, and in this abdicating all sense of reality when it comes to really looking at what it is that we are praying for/ venerating/ building, what type of values, what are we really creating a sense of respect for, what are we placing on pedestals and as such, also looking at everything that we are mostly neglecting and brushing aside as all our ‘backchat’ and secret mind transformed into the ‘ugliness’ of the world that we constantly feel the need to ‘spice up’ – it is unsustainable now to hide behind gods and good spirits since even drugs and alcohol are turning the ‘party’ into a nightmare and horror screening in real-time.

 

Within all of this it is just a reflection of everything that I could realize just by observing some ‘marvels’ of sacred art and the history that exists before us as humanity, and the thing is that throughout all of this time there has been no equal and one consideration of who we are as living beings toward each other. Proof of that is that we rather employed our work force to create gods and ‘precious items’ to make ourselves ‘more worthy’ than developing any form of Self-Honesty and consideration of what is best for every single living being in this world. There was non, and the fact that many people are Still venerating any god – either money or religious god – generates the point of abuse necessary to maintain this current system in place. Yes, you read properly: abuse required to maintain this current system in place.

 

In the Equal Money Capitalism we will practice the law of placing our creative forces at the service of Life itself, learning how to honor ourselves as each and every single cell that we have taken for granted, we will learn how to understand that no system can be a ‘living environment’ without ensuring that every single being is equally supported to have the necessary means and services/ resources to Live in dignity – because we will stop living as viruses within a system outdoing each other and being subsumed in mind-battles against each other, we will instead learn how to become the beings that we all desired to become, but ended up veering such twisted self idea toward a relationship of competition, dishonor and abuse because that’s currently the only way only a few can ‘win’ in the game.

The creations that will originate from such self-stability and real harmony will have nothing to do with artifacts that represent symbols of ‘moreness’ as the depiction of our personal deliriums within the beliefs of gods/ money/ power, we will instead learn how to put our creative efforts to create sustainable environments that finally consider the life that has been used/abused to currently maintain our deceptive self-images and money systems. A real honor toward oneself and each other will emerge and the expression of ourselves will be a one and equal reflection of that – that’s definitely an art/creativity that one can ‘look forward’ to – however such decision to do this must not be placed in a ‘long term future projection,’ and instead realize that we have to become it ourselves, today, by making a decision in every moment to be of life and not of the mind of gods, moneys and ‘power systems’ that have only served to abuse life.

That is certainly the purest breath of life that we can give to ourselves, to purify ourselves, to support and direct our every single cell to ensure our lives are honored at last and we burn down to ashes everything that was never meant to do just that.

 

So, this is a rebirth for Self-Expression, to never again idolize gods and money and instead learn how to honor our every single cell that enables us to breathe and exist and as such, direct our every day and existence to for once and for all implement a world system that will ensure no one/ no-thing  is ever again used as energy and work force to sustain/maintain beliefs systems of abuse such as religions and the monetary system that only benefits some. From this starting point of standing one and equal to every single part/particle in our reality, we can be sure that whatever we express/manifest from this living-statement of who we are as Life in Equality, we will learn what actual Self Expression is, which won’t be based on beauty and all these wonderful stories of divine powers and great victories,  but a real extension of a stability, a certainty, an honoring of ourselves as that which we are committing ourselves to live by and express as.

The meaning and purpose of life, is at all times Life in itself – hence we first learn how to Live: we create a world system that lays the foundation to enable such living expression @ www.equalmoney.org

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267. The Greatest Addiction Ever: The Mind

 

“Energy is a by-product of life, it is not alive – we became addicted to our creation as energy and in this way we abdicated life ending up as just the light produced by energy – like a shadow of what we really are. At Desteni I Process this self deception is corrected through a self help process. Do it – before the lights go out for the final time.” – Bernard Poolman

 

Here I share some feedback in relation to my own process and how I have walked this point so far. Since I began my process of Self-Forgiveness, Self Honesty through writing, developing Common Sense and essentially taking the decision to support myself to actually Live for the very first time, I have dedicated myself to work with every single point that has occupied my mind in quite an astounding manner. I mean, this goes from memories, pictures, sounds, wants, needs, desires.. the way I can describe it is like when you are constantly hungry and no matter how much you eat, you are always wanting ‘something more,’ that’s how I have seen the parasitical nature that the mind exists as.  As Humans we have never learned ‘what to do’ with these experiences, we only learn/ are told to ‘cope with them’ or seek the opposite experience in order to be ‘happy/ well/ good’ again – this is quite a problem and a general result of the ignorance we had toward the actual functioning of the mind and its grip on the physical body, wherein no matter How  you define experiences to be as either ‘positive or negative,’ energy is energy and the effects on the physical body that is consumed in order to power up this mind-system does not care how you define such experiences as long as one Remains in such constant self-experiences.

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220. Drug Culture: Mad Society as a Lifestyle

Throughout these blogs we have also realized that there is more to addictions than just getting a positive experience due to the inherent instability that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to exist as from the moment that we allow the integration of the mind as ‘who we are’ and start defining our beingness according to mood, ‘states of being,’ emotions, feelings and allow the thoughts to direct who we are.

 

I was talking to my mother this morning and explained how this process has been for me like placing myself into rehab and going through actual withdrawal symptoms that are in fact experienced at a physical level the moment that we no longer feed our usual ‘inner turmoil’ that would ensure we remain locked within predefined patterns of existence that we had believed were ‘unchangeable,’ unable to let go of, unable to correct, unable to stop. This Process in essence means the most intensive mind-rehab program you’ll ever walk, because it is not only about stopping participation in your regular drug-addictions or self destructive behaviors, but it is in fact placing ourselves in a total rehabilitation program to finally align the absolute nature of who we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become as the mind.

 

Okay, but What or who am I as the mind? – you might wonder  – well, it is in essence every single self-definition that we have participated in that gives us either a negative experience or a positive experience as emotions and feelings respectively – every single memory, thought, physical movement, experiences as feelings, emotions, sounds, words that defines ‘who we are,’ what we like, what is ‘in character’ and what is ‘out of character,’ it is everything that we have accepted as our ‘true nature’ that is constantly wanting, needing, desiring, hoping, yearning, dreaming, seeking to escape from itself, seeking to get more, be greater, faster, be ‘whole and complete’ and all of this obtained through doing/ consuming anything or anyone that we can get an experience from.

 

“I commit myself to show that the MIND has NO Power and that MIND Power only developed as another CONSUMER PRODUCT where the Human feeds off the Program of Self-Interest without ANY AWARENESS that Life as the LIVING FLESH is being Abused just for Producing Feelings that act like a DRUG to which the Personality and the Flesh is ADDICTED.”  – Bernard Poolman

 

When one deliberately stops this point of ‘getting an experience in life,’ one becomes essentially more stable, there is no longer this constant ‘hunger’ for more, there is no constant inadequacy experienced, there is no longer this constant self-loathing/ hatred toward oneself and the world which leads to a constant desire to just ‘make it all stop,’ there is no longer the being uncomfortable in one’s own skin, there is no longer the constant judgmental thinking toward everything and everyone outside of ourselves – which by the way, it’s never about ‘them’ but always about ourselves –  there is no feeling of being ‘less’ become you expect to become more and more each day – but at the same time it is not a blissful experience either, as that would be self deception again: using our physical body to get a Mind-experience of apparent ‘well-being’ which cannot be defined as an energetic high, but must be rather considered as a constant stability that must be granted from one to another as an equality system wherein we can all get the necessary support to Live and genuinely enjoy life.

 

As one goes stopping the constant gnawing regular thoughts, what comes up is the ingrained physical patterns that represent the actual nature of ourselves – meaning, once we stop victimizing ourselves in our constant complains, judgments, self pity, self loathing thinking, what emerges is becoming more aware of the actual factors that make us decide ‘who we are’ and why we do what we do and what governs our every single move – this is where I see that Self Will is of utmost importance, to actually let go of wanting to ‘dive into’ the mind and any form of energetic experience and instead, will oneself to act/do/be and become a stable breathing living being that does not require to think, get emotional or experience feelings to live, but simply Is and exists here as the physical body.

 

Being in the physical: this is an important consideration for anyone that is willing to work and walk through any form of addiction, doesn’t necessarily have to be giving up drugs or alcohol or any other chemical stimulant, but also the addiction to our personality, our habits, our manias that We Already Know are Not Self Supportive, but keep on doing it just because ‘that’s all we know ourselves to be capable and able of being/ doing’/ ‘we don’t know anything better,’ which is the most common form of self mind-control that we have realized exists within each one of us: we fear giving up our self religion/ personality/ ego/ mind even if we are aware that it has never supported ourselves to actually Live.

 

I could write about how there is a definitive grounding experience that one is able to become and integrate as oneself when an actual dedication to this process, to get to know ourselves as our minds and living/applying the corrective process is self-directed in every moment – however I would mostly suggest you take this opportunity and suggestion to do this for yourself. The addictions/ cravings have mostly been reduced to physical movements that indicate a form of suppression that I am trying to ‘cope with’ and it becomes so in my face that pushing it aside only compounds it until I have to sit down and write the hell out of it.  So what I have also realized is how I obviously have used anything, any activity to not face the actual ‘problem’ which is mostly having to do with something wherein I am not directing myself effectively. One can only continue fooling oneself for so long, and once self honesty is being integrated as the main platform in which we decide to run ourselves on, it becomes quite unbearable to keep up with lies/ self deception, the shit eventually catches up on you – so to speak.

 

What is an addiction but a desire to live a lie, a temporary fix to escape the made-up self-belief of who we are as the mind, because I am here to say that the physical body is Not the one seeking to ‘get a high,’ it is only the mind that does and who we have become as an integral compound of the body and mind, the mind has run its course on the physical and this is why we are on so many drugs and self-destructive behaviors, because we are Not considering the physical body at all.

 

It is much easier to breathe and be here, stable and constant instead of continuing endless battles within ourselves toward the invisible forces that we have accepted as ‘who we are.’ I mean, we are talking about the addiction toward the mind, and how that is and will be the most ingrained addiction Every single human being has participated in, we cannot judge or claim that drug-addicts only exist in shooting up crack and heroin or smoking weed and taking prescription pills – the moment we accepted and allowed our well-being and stability to be defined through a positive experience, such as love, vitality, a sense of bliss, belonging and any other self-experience that we believe is ‘who we are,’ we agreed to separate ourselves from the constancy and consistency of who we are as the physical, breath, here, stable and give the wheel of our lives to the mind that runs on preprogrammed patterns of energy that will generate any form of mind-activity as a way to engage ourselves into thinking, feeling, becoming emotional and give our focus, attention to such mind-activity without realizing we are in such moments already feeding the addiction to the mind.

 

There is no need for the mind to do what should be actual vital functions as they currently exist in this world: breathing, eating, directing yourself in your regular responsibilities to make money to live in this world, relating yourself to all other living beings and dedicating oneself to become part of the examples that demonstrate that it IS possible to stop being directed by a mind that constantly seeks experiences and it IS possible to become a more stable, self directive, grounded, common sensical and in the process of becoming self honest human being. This is the most difficult task ever, I agree, because we have become so addicted to thinking, feeling, seeking for emotions, conflict, turmoil, defining everything we do and have become according to emotions and feelings to such an extent that we believe that: not participating in our mind is equal to being Dead/ Inert, lifeless – that’s a BIG misconception that must be debunked here if one is willing to walk this process wherein you will certainly not get any energetic churnings, on the contrary, I can say that such stability is we all have been seeking/ looking for and it only takes a sound and constant every moment decision to Not Give Into the constant ‘high’ that disables us from seeing who we have become in this constant seeking/ wanting/ needing/ desiring of who we have become as the mind.

 

I can remember when I was a child and I would get too much sugar with chocolates at times, and I would be like a rat in an enclosed space, literally walking around the kitchen table endless times and driving myself to believing that I was ‘going crazy’ when in fact it was me beginning to define such experiences as ‘who I am’ as this ‘uncontrollable rush’ induced through sugar in this case, and accept it as ‘normal’ because that’s what everybody else does, apparently.

Later on, I began participating in a constant self experience of anxiety, worry, concern, nervousness, inadequacy, feeling like I just want to ‘shut myself up’ due to the anxiety and exaltation that I copied/integrated from my environment – what did I seek for later on in life? Yes, getting out of myself and my mind, smoking weed is one single example as the outcome of that, without understanding that my ‘seeking’ for a way to relax has always been here as myself, breathing – no need for any drug to do that, and this is one key aspect in our society that runs on stress and self abuse.  According to what I wrote yesterday, we can see how stressful parents would imprint this same stress on their children, which is why later on children would seek drugs to generate the sense of ‘stress control’ and ‘impulse control’ which is what I can spot was my case, since I accepted and allowed myself to adopt a nervous/ anxious/ stressful manner of being, linked to patterns of desiring to be in absolute control and perfectionism adopted from parental patterns, which is also what we are understanding in relation to the influence of parents on children on the first seven years of age – I specifically recommend listening to Reptilians – The Reptilian’s Master Mind behind Memory Control (Part 1) – Part 117 to get a clear perspective on this.

 

Now there are multiple factors that lead to addictions and I’ll continue to walk them in order for us to be able to see and spot where and how we are accepting and allowing ourselves to be influenced/ directed by such factors without giving it a proper self-aware direction to ensure we are not continuing a point of abuse. Again, this is not only in relation to drugs, drugs are only the externalization and most common way to live out this constant desire to get a ‘fix’ – but we can become addicted to anything or anyone and that includes our own thoughts, without having ever been aware of WHAT is it that Powers such thoughts, which is what must be broadly understood and known: it is the physical substance, the tissue/ the fabric of the physical body that which powers up the mind, and that is the basic form of self-abuse that all of us human beings are subject to, and this is why it is so important to become aware of these ‘forces’ in order to become self directive as them, because they are who we have become, we gave them lodging and constant nurturing, the mind is our creation and who we have become as such creation can also be remodeled/ re-sculpted by ourselves and the extent of such remodeling depends on our dedication to actually will ourselves to live without the mind as our boss and decision-maker and instead install ourselves as the directive principle that considers what’s best for ourselves as all and live the principle of life in Equality.

 

The tools that I am assisting and supporting myself with are walked within the Desteni I Process , the Desteni Material, all the blogs and vlogs that all of us walking this process share at our current Journey to Life self-writing process, the Desteni Forum where interaction takes place with regards to How to walk this process or particular points one is working with in our writings, there’s also all the various groups at Facebook such as Capitalism vs. Equal Money wherein we get to know how it is that his humind-nature is affecting our reality at a world-system level and as such, become aware of our responsibility we hold individually to ensure that we all become aware of what we are collectively generating due to deciding to only ‘live’ through the mind, instead of practically considering the actual corrective processes and solutions that must be implemented and walked within the consideration of ourselves being the creators of the mess we try and ‘escape from’ through drugs/ habits/ and any other mind-experience – see the conundrum?

This is the actual mind control that we all exist as and we are here to ensure that humanity is aware of the practical self-applicable solutions that we are being the proof of, Do work when one commits oneself to no longer feed the mind but begin learning how to honor ourselves as physical living beings.  It is the most important process you’ll ever commit yourself to, it is the self-relationship that we have never established and it is here, the moment where we have all the support necessary to do so, to walk this process and ensure that no form of self abuse remains standing in this world.

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“Actual Prosperity is where Every Living Being in this World Prosper and Live to their Full Potential. Full Potential Being: Living in an Environment that Support All Life Equally, that Ensures Happiness, that Prevents Fear and Addiction to the Mind, that Ensures that Each Child Born Understand EXACTLY where every Thought come from so that they can Prevent Mind Control and Abuse from all kinds of Faith-based Ideologies – whether it be Religious, Political, Educational, Psychological, Economical. Whenever Faith Exist: the Ideology will Promote Ideals of Inequality, because – What’s Best for All do Not Exist in Faith, it Exist as the Action each one Must Take to Ensure that there is Never Anything Unknown that could Cause harm to Another and All basic Essentials must be Available as a basic Human Right.
The Very Moment you have Basic Essentials and Claim that Others can’t have it, because it is the Will of some ‘Greater Power’ – you are
Abusing your Greater Power which is based in Money, Wealth and Greed.” – Bernard Poolman*

 

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211. Why is Life a Struggle? Why Can’t All be just HAPPY?

 
We’ve come to neglect the fact that it takes a single decision and agreement to enable a state of well being to all human beings. Any brainwashing propaganda saying ‘We Can’t’ must be categorized as a weapon of mind control , because throughout our investigations we’ve come to understand how it is through massive propaganda systems through the media, that the population ends up being Educated by TV, by Newspapers, by everything which has become part of the ‘collective unconscious’ without anyone being seemingly regulating such aspects that influence us all – is it really? Now, I’m not speaking about conspiracy theories here, it is to realize how we are all aware of how Self Interest as the desire for power/ money complicates everything, leading us from personal trivial desires to ascend/ escalate the ‘social ladder’ or justifying wars in the name of a so-called national defense while regurgitating words that keep the population fearing each other all the time, fearing ending up without any form of money and support, in essence: fearing that their own ‘life’ is able to be turned off in no time.

 

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What Happens when we Don’t give to each other what we would like for ourselves as a basic form of ‘protection and security’ that is always sought by a human being that stems from the preprogrammed design of surviving and essentially, doing all it can to continue living, even if that means killing or consuming everything on his path? This is the history of our human civilization – do we have the power to change it? Of course, we just have to agree that there are basic conditions that we all require to give and receive in Equality in order to live Well*

I can attest how the moment one suddenly has no such security as owning your house – even on ‘paper – having enough money to have your ‘usual treats’ or any other vainglory that money brings, one is faced with an uncanny experience that I had never had before in my lifetime back then – since I was 8-10 years old when it happened – and it’s what one would call Depression, no distinct to how the crisis in Capitalism is also dubbed as ‘Depression’ and it only exists as an energetic experience of having little to no energy/ money which causes an emotional state of ‘Depression’ which is simply having a seemingly ‘negative experience’ of anxiety, distress, worry, concern, apathy and general diminishment of your ‘self-esteem’ a.k.a. not getting your happy-meal so to speak to continue escalating in the social standards in society.

Why have we even allowed Lack of Money to be a regular condition in this world?
Why have we never questioned poverty and ‘depressions’ as an actual disease that must be cured at the root/ source of the problem, which in all cases is the current monetary system?
Why have we only managed to ‘mitigate’ the problems that affect us ALL and Con.Form to what is presented as temporary solutions to a lack of money – such as further Debt that sounds like Death wherein you end up rolling on your payroll like a shroud wherein all that is left of you is a piece of flesh and bones that forgot about itself and always sought life, but never lived.

 

The reason Why we are doing this is because we have neglected each other as Equals – hence it is a matter of Education, it is a matter of being willing to step out of the brainwashing that is constant in our society which is nothing else but the sum total of individuals seeking to fulfill their own interest. Call it ‘making a living,’ I call it collective agreement to abuse each other as Life and must be Stopped.

 

Throughout these blog series I’ve investigated my own process of forming and linking the idea of well being, happiness, success to Money and I’ve titled it as the Elitist Character which is the inherent pattern we’ve acquired the moment that we live in this world and learn that only through money we can satisfy ourselves in all aspects – whether it’s the usual love/relationships, business/job and personal spiritual endeavors or simply having the ability to hoard money due to belonging to a certain bloodline-lineage that enables you to have the ‘Time of your life’ from the moment you are born.

For the rest of us mortals, we have to simply try and attempt to Succeed as in Sucking out the Life essence o the seed that gives life, following dreams of ‘someday Finally making it’ and spending the rest of our days literally ‘dying to live’ – why is this so? and why is it that the moment that we lack money and we are unable to have a proper living condition and/or meet our usual ‘treats’ that only a few people can afford in this world in fact, we are subsumed into what is called a ‘Negative Experience’ which is similar to the ‘lower vibrations’ that people on  Heaven would define the demon dimension to be like, never realizing the abuse that such standard of ‘heavenly experience’ meant for the Earth and human beings in it (Research: Demons in the Afterlife) The World is in Reverse –and yes, ‘the world is a vampire,’ Billy Corgan, however I would mostly say the Human’s been a vampire serving other greater vampires that have become our regular Empires that will kill and destroy as long as some form of bliss can be obtained from it – isn’t that gory? How we’ve neglected GLORY as the Victory over others through going on a killing spree without any form of mercy?

Why have we even accepted the fact that ‘life is a struggle/ life is a fight’ which takes me back to the motto of the Jesuit school I went to: Militia est Vita – yeah, Loyola was a soldier and suddenly saw himself maimed and enlightened with some form of godliness to predicate well being on mankind, did he have to Suffer in order to get such Godly predicament? Points to ponder, not to mention that his legacy  continued throughout  Jesuit schools that are meant to ‘shape leaders’ in this world are anything but affordable for the most of population.

To correct and redirect the title of this blog which is a common misconception in our lexicon: Life is not a Struggle, it is Us human beings that have made it a Struggle through the acceptance and allowance of the current world system ‘as is.’ Time for a Revolution? No, time to first debunk our own brainwashing through Writing, Applying and Living Self Forgiveness In Self Honesty – that’s the key to massive liberation from the drive-thru lifestyle behavior and start Valuing that which is REAL as Life, as the Physical.

 

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to never question why it is that I suddenly felt sad and worried all the time as a constant experience only by knowing that we had financial troubles and within this, taking it personal to the level of believing that It would be a solution for them – my parents – not having to pay for my food and education, making it then an entire out of proportion desire to not exist as a fleeting solution in order to ‘wash away’ the worry and concern that I was witnessing in my father, never really considering how it is that in fact it would have only brought further problems.

I realize that people committing suicide due to financial problems are taking the easy way out apparently, and see no way to solve the problem – however, there is no way we can escape this world and reality for we will continue coming back into this Earth, and there is no way that one can accept the fact that the future of this world remains locked into a certain self-destructive mode as it is currently, and I also realize that this depends on us, human beings, being willing to step up and Take Responsibility, because if there is something that is neglected at all times throughout our lives whenever we ‘flirt’ with any desire to give up or even ‘leave the Earth’ as in committing suicide, we are deliberately denying and neglecting the responsibility that we all hold toward this world and ourselves as individuals that have accepted and allowed the current world system of debt as the only way to ‘make money,’ instead of agreeing altogether to establish a system that will Provide for All Beings Equally

It is already quite clear that we are running only from actually doing all we can in order to establish a solution that will be permanent, and will become the new living-phase of us as humanity for the first time on Earth, since all we have been thus far, is nothing else but slaves serving a greater ‘God’- either metaphorically speaking as in Religions and Spirituality – or literally as the Money that gives us such bliss and joy on Earth.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into extensive fear as a child about losing our house, losing ‘my safety and protection’ and within this, becoming unstable in my personal experience due to believing that having no money meant being close to death and that was it, close to living in poverty as the poor people that I would actually Fear becoming and living on the streets with them and eating what they ate and having to beg for money in order to survive.

I realize that this is the reality of fellow human beings that are HERE in this world as myself, and that the only barrier that divides me from realizing myself As Them, is the mind that I have cultivated in order to always seek to benefit me-me-me and never consider the reality of myself as the totality of who and what I am as One and Equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to generate an emotional experience of sadness, worry, concern, anxiety and fear generally when hearing about us not having much money and having our house owned by the bank for a moment which to me felt like suddenly descending from heaven into hell and even though my reality didn’t drastically change, the sheer fact of knowing that ‘We don’t have much money’ became a very bitter phase of my life to go through, wherein I simply desired to  have the nightmare be over, go back to our ‘happy go round’ lives of having money – at least enough to be ‘happy’ – and that was it. However, it was quite a road out  of that huge bump on the road wherein I then became that same instability and inferiority that I cultivated due to not having had enough money at that time to satisfy my desires imprinted and acquired mostly by the media, by wanting to have what my friends had (see 201. Friends of Convenience: for a little piece of Heaven) and as such, believing that I was certainly ‘less than them’ due to not having as much money as they did.

 

When and as I see myself defining who I am according to the amount of money that I have or I don’t have, and creating a negative experience/ positive experience for either occasion, I stop and I breathe. I realize that money should only be a means to Live and have the necessary to have a dignified living – and this means, becoming part of the solution through my own living self-agreement and consideration of supporting myself as life and others equally to step out of the selfish-act of survivalism as the actual point of mind control it represents

 

I commit myself to expose how we can all in fact assist and support each other to establish a world system that can be implemented by the sheer realization that who we are as life is and has always been Here, and that it is the human aspect that has become the very weapon of mass destruction as the imposition of a system that functions upon the abuse of life.

 

I commit myself for Life to stop this carnage, the strain, the worry and constant threat of having no money the next day to live, as I see and realize that the experience of each other is invariably creating the reality that we All Live in. It is impossible to ignore this.

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188.Con-Sequence

Consequences of ProcrastinationWriting 

The manifested consequence of our creation is what we learn to face within this process  – and one would common sensically consider that because of knowing/ being aware of the potential harm, disruption, loss of integrity when deliberately participating in any thought, word and deed that we ‘know’ is not what best for all, we simply would stop doing it and stop the harm and self-abuse. Well, who we are as the mind is anything but common sensical or ‘sane’ within the logical sense of what sanity should be as a state of equilibrium at an organic/body and mind level. We are anything but that. While reading one of Heaven’s Journey to Life blogs I remember leaving a comment how I was a bit shocked when realizing that we Know what we are doing to ourselves, such as consuming our very life substance in order to create energetic experiences – yet we continue, yet we keep doing it even though the explanation is here on a golden platter for us to stand up and change.

I saw within myself also how the points that I’ve been able to definitely quit and stop and support myself to face the ‘withdrawal’ of were aspects wherein I made a firm decision to change. The moment I do not make this definitive decision, I know beforehand that I will use an excuse to not-change and kind of sneak in the pattern that I am ‘trying to stop’ because in the ‘trying’ there is no definitive action taken to decisively stop something. How on Earth have we managed to fool ourselves? To actually be abusing our lives, our living opportunities of expansion and growth even within the current ‘constrains’ of the system we live in, and simply allow ourselves to be ruled by apathy, by uselessness, by the sheer decision to ‘do it later’ which implies already deciding to do something else that sounds better to me than actually pushing myself to expand my current accepted and allowed automated response to only ‘go for’ that which sounds nice, enticing, comfortable, cozy even within my mind.

 

Now, the consequences… this is the part we really don’t want to face because it is all obviously to our own detriment and within the character walked so far, I realize the piece of self-sabotage masterpiece this has been.  I have also realized that I cannot victimize myself, make excuses, try to explain why I didn’t do it in a way that would sound ‘good’ at the ears of others – nope, I can’t like and all I have been able to say is ‘I have no excuse for that’ and even that sounds like cynicism based on me obviously having judged people in the past that would ‘blatantly’ accept their mistakes and faults and have  ‘nothing else to say’ because apparently, an excuse or justification would ‘soothe the consequence’ in some way, which is always stemming from this inherent human-mind desire of keeping ourselves on the ‘positive score’ of the game, even if everything goes to hell today we rather say ‘oh, but, you know, we did our best, we did everything we could, there was no way to change this’ – and cross our arms and hope to die probably.

Well, that which I see could happen at a global scale in terms of the procrastination we are accepting and allowing to sort out this world, the same I can see in the seemingly ‘unimportant’ points that I have procrastinated, deliberately ignoring the consequences and effect that this single point that I accepted and allowed to leave behind created as an effect in my overall beingness wherein it is rather difficult to pretend that everything is fine when there’s this corpse you’re dragging behind you and stinking every day a little bit more every time.

The consequences are both at a physical reality level and within my own ‘stance’ as a living being, because as we’ve explained before: if the sun refused to shine and postpone it’s glow today, life on Earth would not be possible, if the oxygen decided to withdraw itself from the atmosphere, take some ‘time out’ and come back in a week or so after a run through the universe, would life still be possible? No – and these are all obvious hypothetical points because it is simply not common sense to even conceive that a physical constancy in our world would procrastinate its function – the same applies to our physical body.

 

So, I see, realize and understand that every single judgment I had toward anything else not being fully applied and determined to change within others, must be absolutely reverted for me to face my own deliberate procrastination even though realizing and knowing/ being aware of the consequences. In my mind, it doesn’t make sense obviously to do something that will not be producing energy for it to create an experience about the moments that I am working on something – and this is precisely the ‘withdrawal’ process I see I have to face here – it’s going ‘better’ in terms of being able to spot the moments, however unless a definitive decision is made to stop walking the middle path, nothing will absolutely change/ be corrected.

 

I see and realize that within giving up on a single point and trying to hide/ suppress the actual experience toward it, it simply compounds until it becomes a literal burden on your back – so, this has been cool in order to spot the anxiety in relation to this, which would be automatically coming up in the seemingly unnoticeable moments wherein I would have the least ‘reminder’ of this point that I have to do – however since I’ve been actually working on it, the ‘benefit’ of this is also re-establishing myself as my directive principle which is one of the other dimensions of consequences that emerge when procrastinating: we stop existing as that immovable force that is able to ‘walk through it all’ simply because of allowing ourselves to be diminished and create an entire detrimental experience within one single point that we Know we are not ‘sorting out’ in our reality.

We cannot blame either, that’s just a be-lame act in order to not take responsibility for our actions, and I have walked that as well as it came through while walking all the other dimensions to this procrastination character that you can read from the first day here:
162. Either Do it or DIE

So, my suggestion within this is to give ourselves the necessary direction to commit ourselves to do and act and give direction to that which we have committed ourselves to be and do, to stop generating unnecessary consequences as I see and realize that it is Not required for us to go through hell and back to learn a lesson, that’s just white-light-dovey crap like the ‘paths of the soul’ for us to accept our own self-abuse as a ‘living lesson’ – No fucking way.

Within stopping the first moment wherein we see ourselves wanting to procrastinate, we are able to stop the entire sequence of events generated as a result of our own con wherein we opt for the ‘feel good’ experience instead of doing and working on that which we are aware must be directed and done.

 

Till Here No Further

Feelings and Procrastination

 

”More perspective on the points of feelings is that one tend to procrastinate because you feel good. But interestingly enough you have created those feel good feelings through your resonances through time so that you can trap yourselves so you never have to do anything. Because in-fact you are in constant fear and the only way that you don’t have to face your fear – which is everybody else in this world and the world system – is to create a feel good situation where you can justify why you are powerless and helpless to do anything about the situation in the world and that is how you delude yourself and deceive yourself to never actually take action and to accept the world the way it is, through happiness, feel good little feelings.
And obviously the world system in terms of money, and all the days like ‘Christmas’ and ‘Father’s day’ and ‘Mother’s day’ – all those kind of stuff is supporting your self delusions in keeping you trapped in it. And all the parent’s are teaching their children exactly the same traps so that they can feel good and even say, ‘I mean how dare you, let the child at least live and feel good while they’re alive’. Meantime, you have stolen that child’s life using the deception of feeling and energy.
Understand, the ‘Physical’ do not feel good. The ‘Physical’ will either have pain or no pain. That is all the physical feel. It’ll be either hot, cold – it’s simple physical things, that’s what the physical feel. That’s what’s Real.
One plus One Equals Two.” – Bernard Poolman 

 

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181. Waiting for the Ideal Moment to Write

Another point is how I have seen how I have this idea that If I am working on something, I have to ‘shut down’ from anything else in order to just focus on this one single task to complete, no matter how long it takes – which is an aspect of my personality linked to being rather extremist when I commit myself to do something, and within this leaving behind/ not giving attention/ not maintaining the rest of my activities with proper attention. Somehow it is as if I want to ‘redeem’ myself, my initial procrastination and getting it done all the way, in one go – which is once again based on a consideration of the mind in me wanting to ‘make up for it’ instead of simply continuing to now do it on a regular basis.

This, as ‘seemingly unimportant’ as it might be, it actually constitutes one of the most used excuses and justifications to not work on this, because in my mind I have made this idea or belief that I must simply get it done in one go and not having to do ‘anything else BUT the task at hand’ – wherein things like ‘oh I won’t have time to eat’ and wanting to shut down any form of communication with others as if this was a distraction emerge, thus it is a recurrent thinking process wherein I hold this ‘ideal’ of having the time and disposition to do so. By ‘time’ I mean having an entire day or more of just having to focus on that, not having to do any other point of responsibility and essentially it’s like being secluded in order to ‘get it done,’ which is of course extremist and in separation of reality wherein if my body would for example make such drastic decisions such as ‘not wanting to digest my food for one day,’ I could have gotten ill or even died for that. Therefore, it is a mind-delusional requirement and almost a requisite that I’ve created as part of linking this particular writing to some ‘book writing’ and ‘being a writer’ as the ideal of not having to do Anything else but writing.

This is backchat that I mostly play out in a self-accepted manner in both ways: the ‘negative’ and the ‘positive’, meaning, that I’ve made it alright to simply drop a particular task for undefined amount of time and/ or go to the extreme of wanting to JUST dedicate myself absolutely and completely to that one single task to ‘get it done’ and forget about everything else, wherein I then create an experience of seeing ‘everything else’ as a nuisance and an obstacle to ‘achieve my aim’ – even within the wording we can see how there’s an energetic drive to it, wherein I am not really considering the process of writing myself as a self-supportive process, but mostly only following my own needs in relation to trying to ‘make up for it’ as the amount of time I did not regularly spent working on it – regularly being the solution here – and instead, go into the extreme of wanting to get it done as fast as possible.

However, the ‘thing’ that happens is that I end up only seeking for this ‘one whole day that I can dedicate myself to it to get it done’ and eventually not get to ‘that whole day’ as I have obviously several points to attend as my responsibility throughout the day.

The picture that came to mind is from that movie ‘the Hours’ and how the character of Virginia Wolf would spend her days in her room writing and not really having to attend anything else – or so I got that ‘idea’ from the movie of course – I remember my backchat within that was ‘How cool! She only has to focus on writing and have her cool time to go out for a walk (read the blog: 175. My Sacred Time of the Day) and just write and write and write’ awesome, I want to be like that! And so within this, I created this belief ever since then that, in order for me to focus on some ‘writing project’ I basically require the life of a ‘writer’ as I used to read about the lives of all these writers that I admired and how they would wake up really early to write and then follow throughout their day doing the same. So all of these and many more are background conditions, not to mention the ‘inspiration’ that I thought was required to write as well. So we can call these the ‘ideals for perfect writing time’ which are based on other people’s lives and conditions within what I have judged as an ‘easy life’ of simply having to indulge in writings and seemingly having others doing their responsibilities at hand, such as taking care of the house, making money or even taking care of children.

So, here I have the ‘ideal’ aspect which can form part of the imagination, however it is not that it comes up as an entire play out in itself, but more of a belief of how the external and internal conditions must be in order to write.

Self Forgiveness on the Fantasy that I’ve held as the Ideal Imaginary moment to write:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold the backchat ‘I have to shut down from anything else in order to focus on this one single task to complete it, no matter how long it takes’ wherein I am seeking to have this one ‘empty-tasked’ day to do this, and every time that I have made it as a point to myself to do it in this or that day, I end up postponing simply because I cannot simply ‘unplug’ myself from my reality in order to have this ‘extended period of time’ to just focus on this. I realize that in my desire to fulfill and make up for the time that I did not regularly work on this document, I then go into the extreme of wanting to ‘solve it at once,’ without realizing that this is mostly impossible since everything requires a process and my exigencies of wanting to redeem myself toward this task will most certainly not be able to be fulfilled as easy as just wanting to have it done/ complete in one go – thus

When and as I see myself seeking and ‘looking forward’ for the next weekend to have an entire day wherein I can work on my document, I stop and I breathe – I realize that in this I am actually limiting my ability to work on the document for a fixed amount of time/ hours a day, instead of wanting to do it in one go as per mind’s exigencies and instead , proceed to work on it regularly for hours a day in order to realize that this is and will be part of the daily tasks and process that will be required until it is done – thus,

I commit myself to stop looking for an ‘empty task day’ to work on this document, as I realize that there are no such days and that I can simply direct myself to fix the hours of the day in order to work with this and within that, making it part of the daily habits that I must work on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make this point ‘more’ than any other point in my every day living, wherein within this experience toward the document as it being ‘more’ than any other writing or task I have to do, I in fact ensue the separation toward actually doing it, because of believing that I require a lot of time and the proper ‘setting’ to do it, the proper ‘momentum’ which is nothing else but a mind-generated drive toward the tasks that I have at hand.

When and as I see myself going to extremes of thinking ‘Oh I won’t have time to eat today, I cannot keep myself in communication with others because they are a distraction’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that these statements and others indicating ‘stopping doing something else because of seeing it as a waste of time’ is only based on me now wanting to redeem myself, as ‘my time’ dedicated to this task that I simply put aside for a long period of time. Thus

I commit myself to not try and ‘make up for’ the time I didn’t work on something – I face the consequences within the realization that it will take the necessary time and process to get it done, while combining it with my every day tasks and responsibilities as I see and realize that the ‘ideal’ of wanting to have an entire day ‘just for that’ is simply not possible and within holding this ‘ideal’ I have mostly created my own obstacles in my mind – thus I assist and support myself to distribute my time in order to dedicate hours a day to this document and realize that I don’t have to ‘aim’ to complete it in one go, as that would be only wanting to keep myself in a positive-experience of ‘having done it,’ instead of walking the process of doing it just as any other task/ point in my reality.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire having the life of ‘a writer’ wherein I had actually ‘dreamed’ and ‘fantasized’ quite a lot about being a writer and having a specific setting to ‘write’ and within this particular setting as a comfortable environment to write, I envisioned that I would require to be near nature and having no noise around me, having someone else cooking for me and doing my basic responsibilities and me simply being there, drinking coffee and writing and going for strolls around my own garden – lol – as I see and realize that even if this was a ‘made up illusion’ obviously, I do consider the point and aspect of having ‘no noise around’ as the ideal point that I have to Have in order to be able to ‘concentrate’/ focus on this task, which is why the least ‘noise’ is rather an excuse to postpone it and also because of not precisely living in ‘the country side’ but in a constantly noisy neighborhood in the city – thus,

When and as I see myself wanting to have this ‘perfect picture’ of the ideal moment, ideal place and conditions to write such as being near nature, having no noise around, having someone else doing my responsibilities, having a garden/ nature to walk around on, drinking lots of coffee and essentially having a picture-perfect room/ setting in order to write and be ‘comfortable’ within writing a particularly ‘long’ document –I stop and I breathe – I realize that these imagination pictures that I have created are based on a movie, and are based on my ‘ideals’ that in no way have a correlation to physical reality, as we all require food to eat, money to earn, relationships to attend and a world to be aware of essentially in order for that writing to be in itself even a writing, as what else could we write about if it wasn’t about our experiences and realizations within the ‘real world’ which is not always quiet, wherein one does not always live in a perfect country side, nor has someone else to pay for in order to do one’s responsibilities –thus, I stop participating within these ideals that only become a rather absurd obstacle for me to not write, as I see and realize that these conditions and ‘terms’ that I have created in order to feel ‘absolutely at ease’ to be writing this particular document, implies that I have made of this document something ‘more’ than myself and any other task and that I have created this belief that it must be ‘perfect’ and as such be written within a ‘perfect’ moment/ environment – thus

I commit myself to stop creating the beliefs that I must be in and require specific settings and inspiration in order to write, as I realize that these are just mind exigencies that I have created in my mind, which have become excuses to not get to a certain task simply because I would rather ‘wait’ for that perfect moment and setting wherein all is apparently ‘done and fine’ and so ‘I can write till I drop,’ which is obviously not realistic at all.

I commit myself to stop making an imagination point an excuse and justification for me to not work on something within the expectation of having possibly ‘in the future’ a ‘perfect moment’ to write, which doesn’t exist as I am actually able and capable of simply deciding to work on something and that is it, the work and written document is not dependent on a feeling, or an experience of ‘inspiration’ which is part of the mindfuckism that comes when thinking about writing a document that is not precisely self forgiveness or writing myself. I stop separating one writing as being more/ less than the other and focus on simply doing it.

 

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160. Pious

Making a Hypocritical display of virtue

The word hits the nail on the head to explain a self-conscious virtue that one display in order to get quite a satisfaction from actually showing it off, while waiting to ‘gain points’ to obtain that which is either able to be categorized as a ‘good being reputation,’ a ‘benevolent’ person that supports those in need or a piece of heaven for it, which was the type of constant self-consciousness I would have: be good, be benevolent, you don’t want ‘others’ talking shit about you.  Hence, all this ‘good deeds’ were in fact always motivated by ‘how others will see me’ and maintaining this flawless reputation that I created from when I was in school. However, I learned how the system works and started using it for my own benefit, which included creating a positive reputation so that later on no one could ‘doubt’ of me doing something that was ‘wrong’ or ‘bad.’ And I must say that even in this point of awareness of human-reputation, I would mostly fear doing something bad/ wrong because of an ingrained fear of god/ punishment in ‘unknown ways,’ because I also learned how people were supposed to get a hell of a life if they had been ‘bad people’ in their lives – hence the ignorant belief that poor people had been in fact very bad people in past lives.

When thinking of the word pious what I get is several experiences lined up as the same type of event: showing others how to do something in school/ supporting them to get past any form of problem to which I would always get a kick when being thanked or even praised for ‘being such an angel/ good person’ and helping them out, deeply knowing that I was in fact doing it to get this type of psychological reward while believing as well that they would only say that to later on be able to ask me again/ be supported/ helped by me.

In this the superwoman point emerged, I mean, believing that one is in fact able to help others and live a life doing that in order to ‘make others feel good and make myself feel good,’ however how much of that was in fact actually supportive if I were to only solve their problems without them taking responsibility for it? And also within me: what was the driving force to place myself at the disposition to support? Altruism and ‘good hearted people’ may seem like apple pies on the outside, but as we know and realize our human nature we cannot possibly remain within this nice belief considering that the very system that we live in is based upon Rewards, which translate into any type of positive energy/ money that adds up like stars in a rating system. And that’s what it was all about: being the star with most ‘positive feedback’ to, just like any other product, gain value in my world-market to make myself feel good, ensure a future of well-being – because, you know, people that are able to establish such good reputation from an early age were supposed to be winners/ ensured successful beings in the world system. And it seems even unreal to say it, but I became aware of it at a very early age upon seeing how such reputation worked at the level of world-system/ business/  money/ relationships, becoming this ‘golden trophy’ that I knew would add up within my reputation the more I ‘did good.’

 

And this is essentially what I was basing my life upon, it was actually like a constant masquerade I’d wear and become very aware of whenever I would get to a new school, with any ‘new people’ I’d meet, new environments I’d settle in, using a ‘good sense of humor’ and the willingness to ‘help’ as a way to create relationships out of self interest, realizing how I would probably eventually ‘need them in the future,’ and as such becoming a calculator within my demon.stration of benevolence as a pious showoff of such ‘virtues’ = making relationships in an easy way out of self interest. This lasted up to the time when I still wanted to be such an example of ‘good person’ and that ended like 10 years ago. After that I went to the opposite side due to becoming rather critical about any attempt to be successful in the world, however I still would not give up my ‘achieved path,’ I kept the desire to build such reputation but in an apparently ‘unconventional manner’ which lead me to an even ‘more’ special point of reputation to the point of sickening myself with feedback from others saying how benevolent/ good person/ considerate one I was. And hell,  for all that we are aware now as our process, I would not trust a single thing of feedback anyone else had to say about me, because I knew I was doing it and probably everyone else was also doing it and as long as any of such ‘benevolent acts’ were actually fueled by the desire to get a point of recognition/ positive feedback/ stars accumulated in my curriculum, none of it can be considered as an actual point of self-support in consideration of others as myself.

This is within the vein of ‘The Force of Good’ points that we probably never investigated within us, because we believed that such ‘good/ positive’ thinking/ deeds were ‘absolutely honest’ and ‘good natured,’ however how can Anything of what we’ve done in fact be ‘good’ if we only considered our own reputation, our own ‘good feelings’ about such deeds in fact. We have all been hypocritical for that matter and this is just part of the aspects of how we have hand picked our life experiences to remember always in a positive/ laureate manner while hiding the actual starting point for such actions being only self interest.

What we have to realize is that we are in fact able to support each other to get to stand as our optimal living condition in this world once that there is no competition to be ‘the most benevolent one’ to get the most “good reputation” that translates to credit/ money within the world system to get all the benefits. IF we give benefits to ALL beings equally,  THEN, what is there to ‘disguise’ as a benevolent being/ pious display of virtues in self interest any longer? Nothing, there will be no more laureate people doing anything ‘benevolent’ in self interest, and instead it will become a single living-integrated realization that life can only flourish and continue if all beings are Equally Supported as Life. Once that survivalism is no longer the measure point for our actions, our lives can be measured/ valued and lived according to the physical-worth of actions that in fact support life in Equality.

 

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144. Obsessive and Possessive Patterns: My belongings

I had a dream wherein I was going to the farm with someone and realized that we had arrived without baggage. I saw how the other person seemed to not care at all about it, however I saw myself manipulating the moment by becoming anxious, desperate, talking in an acute voice tonality and moving around in a fast pace from side to side in an attempt to actually make others to ‘get the point’ and take us back to the airport to get our luggage.  It seemed that I was really possessed with the entire point of ‘getting my bag,’ feeling like ‘unprotected’ without it, and I questioned how it was that the other person was not really caring much about having no bag with himself.

And in that dream I can recognize a pattern of myself, which is how I tend to not Live in the moment whenever there’s something that is absolutely occupying my entire attention: I ‘forget’ about breathing and with that, everything else in the environment. In the dream I forgot to enjoy the arrival to the place and actually enjoying being there again – Instead, I was moving around, rushing and finding any and all ways to get back to the airport to get my stuff, literally being possessed to get a cab, find someone to get us/ me back to the airport. So, here some points walked in Self Forgiveness wherein I decided to hold and create the backchat and obsession of ‘wanting to get all my stuff right fucking now,’ projecting blame to other beings and as such, even missing out the actual cool moment to see everyone again as I was too busy throwing a fit about our bags not being with us, while deliberately hiding the fact that I had ‘forgotten’ about the baggage because of also getting caught in the entire point of meeting another person, which is also the subtle moments wherein I also tend to ‘lose sight of the moment’ and go into an absolute possession of ‘being meeting someone’ and creating an entire  experience about it in my mind, eventually forgetting about things/ losing things due to my attention being diverted to another one single point – quite a pattern. It was also interesting how the other person’s ‘unattached’ stance toward ‘belongings/ ownerships’ was in my face and making a point with it, yet I would react to it with further backchat instead of actually taking a moment to breathe and actually let go of the possession/ learn from his reaction to support myself that way.

 

So, within this blog I’ll walk the first dimension of the dreams as obsession wherein I was absolutely moving based on my self-interest, which seems like it’s  been the only way we have ever always ‘moved’ ourselves as humanity.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become ‘possessed’ by the stuff that I have defined as ‘my belongings’ wherein I simply became absolutely focused on ‘getting my stuff back no matter what,’ missing out each and every single moment of  breath, being spending my time with another/others for the very first time and ‘enjoying’ the entire moment, just because of wanting to ‘have all my shit together’ before settling down.

When and as I see myself being absolutely possessed by ‘my belongings’ the moment that for one reason or another I am not able to have it all together, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I cannot ‘change’ the events by becoming anxious and desperate to go back to get them – instead I simply direct myself to explain the point to someone else so that we can eventually get ourselves to ‘get our stuff back,’ instead of making such fuss and a big deal out of ‘not having my stuff,’ worrying and throwing a tantrum, fearing ending up without anything, which indicates the actual pattern wherein I see I can ‘lose myself’ from being here as breath: when missing out my belongings and ‘losing everything I have,’ which is actually related to how money is our security/ safety bubble, which is a point I opened up a couple of days ago.

I commit myself to actually realize the unnecessary distress and worry that I create in my mind as thoughts when wanting to ‘get what I want’ right away which is stemming from an actual fear of losing it all as well as my ‘happiness point’ wherein I got used to ‘having all I want’ right away, without realizing that who I am is here and that all I can lose is stuff that I have become possessed by as my belongings and turning them into my ‘point of stability’ in separation of myself here as breath –thus I realize that they are not ‘attached’ to my body and that I cannot define myself and my moment according to having them or not having them. I realize that use I give to all I have, however, it is not ‘the end of the world’ if I see myself without them all.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within the thought of not having my bags with me, I immediately go into fear of loss as all the money invested on clothes and ‘personal belongings’ along with stuff that I had some type of ‘attachment’ toward, which indicates there is a point of possession that I am feeding as things = money that I can earn or lose in one go, within this not yet equalizing myself as everything that I have wherein I realize the current means and ways that one can get money being not ‘readily available,’ however, becoming possessed by ‘our belongings’ is definitely a mind-defined relationship instead of an actual realization of self-equality and oneness.

When and as I see myself reacting to seeing the thought of ‘my bag with all my belongings’ as a point of potential loss, I stop and I breathe – I realize that this attachment I have programmed through the value I have separated myself from and as money, which implies that there is no actual ‘loss’ as the who I really am in this reality, and that the loss is only a point of losing that which I had ‘made my own’ through the same means in which we have kid each other as apparent ‘owners’ of something – and even someone as well at times – that we can in fact ‘lose’ –

I realize I cannot lose myself as I am already here – and that all points of separation as ‘value’ upon a piece of what’s here that I had made/named ‘my belongings’ must be reviewed in order to realize in common sense this is how we currently exist as with regards to ‘things’ outside of ourselves, yet this in no way can define who I really am as the physical being that uses what’s here to live.

I commit myself to let go of the specific attachments I have created throughout time toward ‘that which is mine,’ and instead equalize myself to it, so that I do not hold this ‘strong definition’ based on what I see and believe is ‘important’ to me as belongings –this is an actual point to walk due to how I had defined the ‘who I am’ based on the stuff that I see and have a constant relationship with on a daily basis in my reality – being it clothes, computer, stuff in my room, artwork, ‘things’ that I have defined as ‘indispensable’ in my mind – yet never really seeing what is really indispensable and what is only keeping a certain dimension of self-possession in my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to the other being’s parsimony and nonchalant attitude toward the realization that ‘we had missed our bags/ left them at the airport,’ in which I saw the image of the being just laying on bed almost not ‘caring at all,’ while I was with my nerves all spiked up wanting to go to the airport ‘as fast as possible’ to get our stuff back – within this judging the being’s attitude as careless, lazy, complacent and passive, just because of the being showing little to no interest to be concerned the same what that I was with regards to ‘my belongings.’

When and as I see myself judging another being as ‘too passive’ and ‘nonchalant’ to deal with situations that I have defined as ‘emergencies’ wherein immediate action is required – I stop and I breathe – I realize that I have to actually slow down to see how reacting to another’s attitude of patience and parsimony is a way for me to complain about them not supporting my mind fuck.

I realize that I had in fact been judgmental and at the same time jealous of beings’ attitude toward loss, wherein I believe that they would have to be ‘going up in flames’ as well, but instead seeing them act and taking it all ‘without a care’, which is what I have taken as a crutch for me to react even more toward them and blaming them for ‘not giving a fuck/ not caring about the whole thing ‘the same way I do,’ and in this, actually taking a self-righteous position of me being the ‘good person’ because of caring ‘too much’ about the event, which is absolute self-manipulation to make myself ‘the winner/ the caring one’ within this entire event,  in this

I commit myself to actually stop always aiming to be the one with the ‘right judgment’ at all times, wanting to impose my view as ‘that which is right,’ which is the way that I still want to hold on to my mind in a self-righteous mode, instead I support myself to learn from others in fact, to see how it is possible to exist without an actual attachment toward ‘things’ in my reality and still manage to live.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a person that ‘truly cares’ shows emotions of worry and preoccupation, rushing and ‘moving around in a fast pace’ as if such attitudes were in fact necessary when giving direction to a point that requires immediate to short term solutions. I realize that I have only created such belief in my mind based on parental patterns of rushing, preoccupying/ worrying about things and creating attachment toward things ‘of my own,’ without realizing that I cannot own, I cannot have ‘control’ over my reality and that any point of fear of loss must be confronted/ faced as the actual point of possession it represents: fearing losing ‘my belongings’ as ‘my stuff’ as a way to justify me being pissed off, exalted and rushing to get things ‘back to me,’ wherein I am only caring about me-me-me, my time, my stuff and moving everything and everyone I can to get my stuff back as a synonym of getting ‘my comfort, peace and security back’ which is unacceptable, as it’s mind possession.

When and as I see myself wanting to become emotional in anger or anxiety and distress when things are ‘not going my way,’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that this is just a mind fit that in no way assists and support ourselves to get things done, it is only a mind-driven reaction that serves no one. Thus

I commit myself to stop manipulating myself through emotions of anxiousness despair, worry and concern whenever I want things to get done the way that I want it, how I want it, as fast as I want it and in the moment that I want it which is precisely what I have lived as in my reality: subtly moving people around in a way wherein I can get a benefit and/or support to ‘do what I want/ get what I want,’ which is then the point to expose toward myself and eradicate, as I see and realize that it is in this seemingly ‘petty reaction’ that a great ‘chunk’ of my personality resides: moving and directing things as fast as possible when and where there is an immediate point of self interest to cover, while creating a negative reaction and backchat toward those that are ‘in the same situation,’ yet do not approve/ support my reaction/mindfuck the way that ‘I’ expected them to do, in this

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always seek for at least 1 other person to ‘backup’ my mindfuck, wherein I am still wanting to get things done ‘my way,’ even if I know that ‘my way’ is absolute self interest and actual obsession in that moment. It is unacceptable to want to get at least one other person to ‘agree’ with my mind possession as a way to validate it as real and ‘a good reason’ to get what I want. In this

When and as I see myself deciding to act as a point of mind-possession wherein I am moving the earth and mountains to get my point of desire/ want and need done, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am actually being possessed in this moment by the entire situation wherein I am not considering anything or anyone else BUT My point of happiness which is being obsessed with  become ‘getting it,’/ making it/ going somewhere and essentially, not stopping the mindfuck till it is satisfied/ done/ achieved– thus

I commit myself to stop supporting my own wants/ needs and desires that come up in a cyclic manner in my mind, and instead breathe and realize that if the point is in fact relevant to give direction to in common sense and placing self interest aside, I can direct myself to see the viable options –here as breath – to give direction to the point. However if it is only a point of ‘immediacy’ just because I say so, it’s absolutely unacceptable and as such must be stopped by myself immediately, as I see and realize that I am also involving others in ‘move’ that I have to also take into consideration at all times to make a decision that’s best for all. This way I ensure myself to not be immediately caught manipulating and controlling others to ‘get things done,’ but I instead take such points and walk them myself first in self honesty to ensure I am not possessed by my own interest to give direction to something/ someone

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider my obsessive-compulsive behavior as a curse and a virtue wherein the curse arises when becoming dependent on a particular pattern, getting things done and a virtue as this ‘gets me moving,’ without realizing that both starting points are equally fucked as they are stemming from an actual fear – of loss/ lacking/ being unprotected in this case – instead of being actual points of self-movement in the moment within common sense.

When and as I see myself becoming compulsive with regards to depending on a particular habit of extreme lack/ need in an urgent manner to immediately move, I stop and I breathe – I realize that there’s no need to create a situation of ‘extreme lack’ and ‘rush’ to get things done, no matter how it has worked ‘in the past,’ who I am cannot be repeating the same ‘effective formulas’ of myself in the past – thus I ensure that I actually walk a point without having to take it o the very last consequences before losing all time to move, and in this actually create a habit of distributing enough time and consideration to check all points required when and while moving, directing, doing something in our reality.

I realize that the ‘obsessive point’ of not stopping doing something until it is done can be a ‘cool thing’ if the starting point is clearly self-supportive at all times and it doesn’t become a one point to procrastinate and eventually do ‘all at once’ in the least amount of time possible – I realize that I have created this pattern throughout time wherein I had even involved ‘luck’ as a factor to determine things always ‘turning out well’ at the end when taking on a project, task or a single point to ‘move’ and direct, as I see and realize that this is hope here acting and not actual self movement at all times.

I commit myself to slow myself down to breath when the mind is rushing wanting and trying/ attempting to get something done. Instead I walk at the breathing pace to establish solutions according to the actual need and practical requirements of the solution.

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become thoughts as an experience wherein even in my dreams, and knowing beforehand that I can just breathe and exist ‘here,’ I allowed myself to be possessed by the worry and concern of ‘losing money’ through losing my bag, representing that attachment/ value that I have given to possessions that are in fact an imposition of property over that which is here from and of the Earth, transformed into ‘products’ that we buy and sell to ‘make a living’ within a delusional system wherein we created a big lie as monetary system in order to support the mind’s desire of power as an illusion that can only be ‘made real’ through imposing private property as ownership upon the Earth in the name of personal benefit and personal interest.

 

When and as I see myself getting concerned about ‘losing my belongings’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that ‘my belongings’ is but an imposition I have beLieved myself to be real in order to justify my point of control/ imposition over life for my own benefit. Thus, it is to see that it is the relationship created with money that which is to be reviewed the moment that we allow ourselves to be mind possessed/ obsessed with thoughts that indicate fear of loss while creating a point of need, desire and want to satisfy that ‘fear of loss’ – this indicates already the type of conflict that we create only in our minds while abusing the very physical reality that has allowed ourselves to ‘bear’ the mindfucks that we indulge in, the moment that we use the mind to create a point of worry, concern, going into obsession and thinking possession out of fearing losing something that was never ‘mine’ in the first place, which places into context how it is that I have accepted and allowed myself to be still regarding material possessions as ‘the point’ of possession even in the slightest /sly-test situations.

 

I commit myself to actually let go of the value, regard that I have imprinted onto ‘everything that I own’ as ‘my belongings’ to ensure that I in fact stop defining ‘who I am’ according to ‘what I own’ and as such, commit myself to review the attachments I have created toward my ‘material possessions’ as it is not even a matter of ‘how much money I have’ or how ‘expensive’ my belongings are, but the value and worth that I have given them in my mind as the ‘who I am’ being defined by such belongings.

 

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142. The Money Security-Bubble

 

“Purnima Halder, 35, was so desperate that she could not even afford to buy the children a meal.
She sold the older two children, aged ten and eight, for 185 rupees (£2) and then gave her four-year-old away for free.”
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2197542/Indian-mother-thrown-home-drunk-husband-sells-young-girls-just-TWO-POUNDS.html

 

When living with and within the comfort that money creates in one’s world and reality, it is easier to see why no one would want to suddenly care about a fair, equal world that considers all beings equally when everything seems to shine on your face the whole time.

I was watching the news this morning and saw myself almost wanting to cover the TV with my body so that my father would not have to be eating breakfast while watching injured people in Syria on the screen, or all those ‘debt numbers’ from Spain – a condescending move from my side, considering that I was also eating myself and not realizing how I was in essence not even paying attention to the chronicle, but only looking at the pictures and in one moment I realized that I was there: watching images of people dying in gruesome ways in a war that I consider to be ‘far, far away from here’ while eating breakfast and ‘following the events’ on a TV screen in the kitchen. What a dissociative world we live in – yet I went to the office and there was no internet, I was complaining about the service and saw how we tend to get flustered with just about any single detail that may go wrong/ missing in our perfect little world for a couple of hours or days, while the lives of thousands of people can be completely annihilated from a single blast in one go, without having anything to even ‘hold on to’ once that that which was your life is ‘reduced’ to remain only as what is in fact real: you as the physical body breathing. Is that really reducing then?

 

Then I had plugged in my pc to the TV screen and my sister saw the news that I was reading about one man killing his two sons and himself when finding out the mother/ his ex partner had a new boyfriend, she thought it was terrible and asking something along the lines of ‘why would anyone do that?’ which is the type of questions we like to hold on to in order to in one single moment dissociate ourselves from the entire event, project it onto ‘others’ and believe that we are perfectly sane to ever react to/ do and commit the same type of atrocities, yet we Think, feel and become emotional the whole time, which is a continuous form of abuse, no different to a father that suddenly beliefs himself to be such thoughts and ends up committing a ‘grave mistake’

 

We get distracted with the slightest thing that can be an analogy of what sugar does to our body – an image, sound, picture, personality, anything that can for a moment just present the ‘ideal’ way that life should be about and that’s in essence the story of our lives: never really grasping what is HERE as the reflection of ourselves, but instead making up better, faster, accurate stories to cover up the inherent flaws and root cause of making it okay to seek for happiness and fulfillment in individualized /selfish ways instead of asking ourselves why have we got the tendency to only take ‘us’ into consideration and our future plan, but never the entirety of who we are as our physical body and this existence.

I went past a liebrary and realized that even if it was in the ‘master’s degrees’ section of the university, all the knowledge accumulated there had certainly not made any difference to the way society is actually understood, because the mind of the human being is not understood at all.

However, even if the information is here already as all the investigation that Desteni has provided the world with for over  6 years now on a daily basis, it is still ‘hard to hear’ because the money bubble as the positive experience is still one ‘hard bone to crack’ – apparently – however the current monetary system functions like a genetically inherited osteoporosis wherein it is just a matter of time that the entire structure of the body – as our world system currently – that seems to still be ‘standing’ may actually just fall down to smithereens once that the weight of the Lies that we have ate as ‘who/ what we are’ are exposed for what it all was: a play set to be lived as ‘truth’ in order to keep a Machiavelli-style system running for the benefit of a few, for the creation of a heaven that has turned out to be the greatest scam in the shitstory of mankind that we have become equally ‘aggrandized’ with, foolishly so.

And so, with all of this it is to see how we can virtually ‘spot the lie’ we have bought, sold and become in every moment that we interact within our reality, wherein certainly the highlight of your day is seeing a kid having a genuine smile after hearing the sound produced by hitting a candy against a lamp post – however, no candy and no lamp post would exist if no money was available to first have a ‘happy tummy’ fed, there would be no way to laugh.

Thus, I see and realize that we tend to only place people with LOTS of money within this ‘untouchable’ money-bubble, however it is not only THEM but each one of us in fact that have the ability to even be writing about what we are able to witness as ‘ludicrous points’ from the perceived vantage point of being ‘superior’ for being able to spot it. Yet what allows me to have sufficient energy in my body, what has allowed me to have enough education to be writing and speaking a second language? what is allowing me to have a pc and the comfort of a bed and a house to live in? Money as the current life-giver in inequality. – and this clarifies the starting point of any opposition and systematic antagonism as another tantrum thrown from the beneficial stand point of money as the primary point required to satisfy  our basic needs that then allow us to expose reality for what it is.

 

What does this mean: that a woman that has to sell their kids for food will certainly have no ability in any way whatsoever to stand up to advocate and be a contributor to the Equal Money System in fact, she can  -unfortunately – only stand as the billions of reasons WHY the Equal Money System must be in place asap – the Rich people living in a comfortable bubble will most likely not care/ haven’t even considered what reality is like when having no money at all – thus, it is Our responsibility to take this point on, yes you and I having enough money to feed ourselves, to read these words, that have access to education and money to actually contribute to the creation of a world wherein Life can be finally equalized through equalizing Money as Life – we all get ‘tired’ of reading ‘bad news,’ however: who accepts and allows the points that create such consequential outflows? We do – therefore, it’s time to Stop, forgive ourselves and start walking an actual process in our world wherein we can ensure that we support each other to live as equals, and that is through giving equal access to what is here for All beings equally.

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96. Words that maketh murder

The moment we value knowledge and information and its expression as more than ourselves, we are enslaving ourselves even further from what we have accepted and allowed as separation existing in the form of language itself.

 

One of the points I had valued as ‘more than myself’ is the ability people have to express themselves, within that comparing my own ability to express toward others, without ever really stopping for a moment to realize: how can I praise an ‘ornamented’ way of writing without looking at the actual content thereof? Meaning, what do the words in fact mean? which is what is relevant at all times when working with words, it’s not about ‘sounding good’ and such ability will certainly be an inherent process related to being able to express words as self-here –

 

Therefore, it’s plain to see how we tend to glorify, for example, these ‘great writers’ that in essence paint a perfect picture that we complete in our minds and as such, end up believing that they are ‘valuable/ worthy’ for the quality of pictures we are able to imagine of ourselves in our minds, just for the sake of it. While at the same time, the same words can be sentencing an entire country to remain in perpetual poverty – we cannot dissociate the fact that words as imposed values onto reality is then linked to money itself – as this is about numbers and symbols that we have created relationships toward in separation of who we are as one and equal.

 

The moment that we place value on the point of expression in separation of ourselves = we are being victims of our won beauty schemes toward words. I am speaking obviously form my experience wherein I would ‘fall in love’ with books just because of the nice picture that I could get from reading them – a book worm as an imagination addict that would devour the words in order to remain in my little comfortable bubble of la-la-land. While at the same time, in the same world and reality, words were used to declare war toward an entire nation, words were being used to threaten someone to death, words were used to create a ‘burning memory’ within someone for the rest of their lives, words were being used to sentence someone to die in poverty as laws and regulations that dictate who lives and who dies. Words that maketh murder

 

I am grateful for having the ability to listen the origins of language and, I have been able to ratify that which I had realized about words, only to now realize the importance of redefining our words to a best for all – equal and one consideration at all times of who/ what we are as such words. It is impossible to even try and ‘stop wars’ if the very words that lead to create it are not understood as the very acceptance and allowance of self-separation that leads to such conflicts that eventually become a consequential outflow as wars and chronic conflicts linked to a system that we have accepted and allowed to be ‘more’ than ourselves.

 

Equalizing ourselves as words is a vital point here – more than ever these two interviews that I suggest listening to

have clarified for myself that point of imposition we have essentially violated ourselves with, words that we have accepted as the way to define a point of obvious abuse, neglect, disregard and condition of separation toward one another wherein we only focused on ‘how we feel’ instead of who we are AS such experience or definition that can be formulated as words – and as such, be able to recognize the ways we have created a ‘world’ in separation of who we are as one an equal.

The very first moment that we accept the association of a part of reality toward a word and we file it in our archive of ‘values’ as meanings/ knowledge and information categorization = mind controlled is exerted. Thus, we have to grasp the importance of the process we are walking here which is essentially facing ourselves as our words, as our sentences, our judgments, our dictation as the dictatorship of what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become as the mind. Unacceptable – this world is the proof of the dictatorship of the zombie-words, the dead-words we have become because of  simply having copied them and ‘lived them out’ in means of survival. Let’s face the truth: we did not know any other way, however that does not mean in any way that there is ‘no other way either,’ and at Desteni we are revealing and proving to ourselves there IS definitely a way to do this. If one man could, we all can.

 

Just by looking at one single word, we can get a glimpse of what we are accepting and allowing ourselves to exist as. It is our decision: do we remain as characters copying characters on flat screens and buying all the accessories to embody the ‘picture perfect HDMI presentation or do we dare to step out of this virtual insanity?

The sanity comes when we stop relating to each other as characters, as pictures, as memories – that’s the ‘real freedom’ and it’s fascinating that freedom is sought ‘outside’ of self when the keys are held by each one to finally heal that in-jury of the past as judges of the whole. The reign is over, it is our duty and responsibility for we cannot possibly remain being enslaved to our own dictation.

 

No wonder the word ‘word’ is almost identical to ‘world’ as each word contains a part of ourselves we have separated ourselves to from the whole = it is our duty to purify our vocabulary and this can only be done through walking the basic process that enables such understanding to be acquired with proper assistance and that’s the Desteni I Process. There is no doubt that we have to do this process with the tools and support that is being provided by and as Desteni – it is the only way that education – the real education – is taking place on Earth.

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