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618. Being Taken for a Ride vs. Taking the Wheel and Driving Yourself

Or learning how to slow down, calm down and get out of anxious ingrained ways of behaving.

I’ve been becoming more and more aware of the very – very – ingrained aspects in me that have become so much so ‘how I am’ and ‘my nature’ that I had overlooked, that I hadn’t directly intervened because, in a way, I had not been aware of it as much, or had not seen it as something that would ‘affect’ others, because in my mind I was just being ‘the best I can be’… but is it really? Lol

We were discussing in today’s group chat  about the addictive nature that we create towards our emotions – or feelings – and how we have to directly intervene and direct ourselves, actually take the wheel whenever we are being ‘driven’ by something and it’s not us driving, sitting at the wheel and directing where we want to go and who we want to be in every moment of our lives.

The word autopilot is a keyword for me whenever I see I am in such kind of ‘addictive’ patterns which interestingly enough do not involve actually ‘doing’ something in particular hat I am addicted to – but more like a state of being. The reality is that I had not questioned this ‘way of being’ as much before and I am quite thankful that I have someone in my life that is daring to point out all of the various – many – times when I go into this ‘antsy’mode,  yes, a rushing-mode, almost like a state of being where I constantly have to be ‘on the run’ to do something even if I don’t actually have to.

I’ve noticed how I am blind to this for some months now and it is quite shocking at times that if it wasn’t because of my partner saying ‘hey, sloooow doooown’ or ‘what’s the rush?’ or ‘caaalm doooown’ and holding me for a moment – lol – I would not be as aware of it because of being so used to doing things in ‘fast mode’ and it has been so much of ‘my way of being’ that I’ve seen it as part of my traits, a good trait in fact to be ‘always on time’, being fast, accurate, efficient, etc. Nothing wrong with those words though! But I definitely know WHO I am when I am living those words through this energy-driven mode, which actually happens when I consider I am on autopilot mode and being taken for a ride by these ingrained lifelong ‘ways of being’ which I am quite aware I copied from my parents as well.

So, during today’s chat I brought up the analogy of how we have to be more directive in taking the wheel and driving ourselves, directing ourselves to what we want to do and how we want to live those moments, instead of riding in the back of the car and ‘being taken for a ride’ without any awareness of our state of being, of how we may be going down ‘the same old road’ that we know leads nowhere but sabotage, despair, inaction or just problems without solution.

If I look at myself as a back rider, I don’t have to pay attention or decide which way to go or be fully knowing where I am going or how to get there, I’m just being ‘driven’ by something or someone else. Being in the driver’s seat requires my full attention, full awareness on every single detail from how to operate the car, the direction, the way to get there, the timing, the traffic, other cars, fuel, …. Etc. Yes, yes, eventually that also becomes ‘automated’ but the point here is to understand the difference of riding in the backseat within ourselves and in our minds where we just ‘repeat’ ourselves in addictive states of being and experiences that we no longer question – even if we know we are compromising our lives and that of others in one way or another with our actions or inactions – and how we can instead remind ourselves to be the driver, the one that directs, that is intervening directly on the way to go, that tests out new routes if the ‘same old ones’ are leading us to places and states of being that we know are detrimental to our lives. It requires such responsibility of deciding to take the wheel, it’s not limiting, it is expansive.

I was actually discussing that with my partner recently, and we were wondering about how there’s many people that prefer to do the least or stay the same because it seems ‘easier’ or ‘more comfortable’ when in fact, doing the most and pushing to do the best, and developing discipline and adding new challenges to our lives is the one thing that makes one grow the most. This is a bit out of topic but we also talked about how most relationships get into big problems right after the honey moon phase, and that’s because everyone starts the relationship or even prepares to ‘get the person’ by becoming the ‘best version of themselves’ for a moment, to impress, to attract the other person and so ‘play safe’ as they say, meaning they appear to be nice, loving, hard working, kind, responsible, adamant, etc. And once that the ‘prey has been caught’ as in establishing a relationship with each other, bam! The reality – the real-reality unfortunately – of each other comes out in full force, because it becomes quite difficult to maintain a façade of being better than ‘one actually is.’ It is unfortunate thought that this ‘how one actually is’ means the worst version of ourselves, but hey we are here to become aware of these accepted patterns in society and be able to change them.

That’s when people start to ‘show their true colors’ and embark themselves in endless fights with destructive behavior towards one another because one or the other – or both – are not really who they ‘appeared’ to be. Whereas, as he shared, he conceived a relationship as a point of responsibility that would actually, yes, be more demanding and a point of responsibility, but for the best. I like this approach as well because it definitely means one has to intervene, to change, to adapt, to upgrade, to become the driver, to actually truly use that relationship as an opportunity to become in fact a better person, and this is what I’m focusing on.

It is for me –a person that has dedicated some 10 years of her life to develop self-awareness and such – quite a shocker at times to see these very ingrained patterns of rushing, being ‘antsy’ as in wanting things fast, now, being very demanding and exigent with others or within a situation… very controlling to say the least. It’s great that there’s a person that can say ‘yes I knew you were like that, but I decided to be with you anyways’, because this has opened up the possibility for me to become aware of my patterns, to not take it personally or see it as ‘faulty’ or wrong things within me – even if I get shocked at times by it – I do remind myself why I am the way I am, I know my background at home, I am aware how I picked up all of these ‘ways of being’ from both my parents in general, I know there’s nothing or no one to blame but to take responsibility for it myself now. And what assists a lot is to be able to see a person first hand on how they deal with the same situation in such a different way, with calm, patience, in a more ‘chilled’ manner, because that’s precisely the example I didn’t have at home, but now I do in a way so, that’s for the best because one can then look at ways in which the person acts and behaves and learn from how it can be done, test out at least if it works for me to act differently in situations where I would usually be in antsy mode.

Another point is that, at first, when he would point out these things to me, there was a slight reaction of ‘How dare you say that to Me?’ lol, yes because I had this big ego idea of being the one that is working on self, that is a ‘very self-aware person’, but I had to immediately take the guard down and put on my humbleness shoes and admit myself to see what he was saying and picking up from my attitude, and reflect back to say ‘yes, it is so, that’s what I’m doing in fact’ and within that, start realizing the many aspects that I had no way of ‘cross-checking’ before because there had been no one that dared to question those ways of being before, because in my mind I was just being ‘the best’ to my ability – but I had overlooked the tension, the anxiety, the rushing, the impatience that usually accompanies that ‘dutiful’ and ‘disciplined’ manner I can have a times, so that’s not a way to live those words.

So, because I am grateful for having that in my life currently, the least I can do is to share that as well with people I consider I have the ability to give feedback to. Sometimes people might react to it, but at least I’ve said it, it is then something they can look at or throw away. My responsibility is to test out the waters and see with whom I can give that kind of feedback – who is open for it – and where to ‘keep shut’ because at times, yes,  I do tend to be too ‘intervening’ with others – to say it in one way, lol – and some people do get genuinely offended by my questions about what their experience might be in a moment. I can only learn from it, just like with everything. But for now I stick to having that opening of feedback with my partner and also at times with my mother, who actually gives that ‘in the moment’ feedback based on very subtle behaviors that can only be picked up by someone that has been ‘there’ seeing you growing for most of your life – yep, it is so, she nails it every time, so I at times still deny it but that’s when I know I am suppressing something – so, now I’m learning to admit it and be willing to open up about it.

We all can do this no matter what kind of interaction with others we have. Even if it’s only one or a few people you relate to on a daily basis, each interaction with each kind of person can assist us to see more of ourselves. Some may give direct feedback, some may not dare to say it, but we can always cross-reference our experiences with them to take note of what created a subtle ‘shock’ in us, meaning, a moment where something just didn’t ‘feel right’ or ‘sit right’ and made us react, or where we saw that others reacted, so that we can cross-reference how one acted in such moments.

But, I must say that by being alone or being with a person that is not daring to say straight feedback to me would have created more ‘untold’ reactions and consequences, a longer road for me to realize: “man, this is affecting other’s experience around me, I need to chill out, I need to slow down, I need to stop being so controlling, I need to stop being so exigent and ‘right-here-right-now’ type of demanding person that I’ve become.’ So, my suggestion – very personal – if you are the kind of person that is ready for full on – and in your face- feedback about our bits here and there that we need to change or become aware of, then align with people in your life that are on the same page and will take nothing personal about it, but instead be grateful for that kind of communication, because it is something I appreciate a lot, something I kind of longed for in a relationship so, I aligned with someone that would be in the same page of how to take feedback and work with it. 

And yes, at times a hug or a simple point of touch can assist me to ground myself in those moments – yes it may sound like I have some kind of mental problem that needs to be ‘calmed down’ with a pat on the back, lol! – But! I’ve found it is actually supportive to make it that physically visible for me, because it becomes a very visible to myself and others, like a wake up call of ‘Holy crap! I’ve been in autopilot just running the ‘rushy mode’ or the ‘antsy mode’ or ‘bossy mode’ and now I got my wake up call.

Now the point is not to create dependency or even a sort of a ‘relationship dynamic’ to always have to be calmed down or pointed out that I am rushing or I am being demanding, or that I need to chill out. Nope, the point is to be able to direct myself so that I can in fact stand up to my standards which I tend to project onto others or situations outside of myself. If I am indeed exigent, I need to be congruent and apply that to myself first. So I can apply the word in being exigent to no longer have to be told that I need to chill out and slow down, but step into the driver’s seat to direct myself, so that my interaction can also open up to seeing more of myself within the interactions that I have with my partner and others in my life.

All I can share at the moment is to be able to – or dare – to create an agreement with someone that you are close with to say the facts about what one is seeing in another. Sometimes I just say things and I completely assume and misread the situation, but it’s ok, no one takes it personally, I’m just clarified about the situation and I learn to ask things differently instead of asking within assumption. Sometimes I assume too much and don’t communicate, that is usually the worst, so I take that step to ask directly and go creating that confidence to have that open communication with someone in the bits that we notice about one another, and know that we are made aware of these things not as a judgment or a point to be spiteful about, but as things that we know we can become aware of, discuss and decide to change within ourselves.

So how am I changing it? By ensuring I am not tensing up my body when doing things, being ok with not ‘having to be doing’ something I’ve defined as ‘productive’ all the time and enjoying a simple moment of eating, walking outside, watching something in the internet that is for fun or entertainment, to enjoy seemingly ‘silly’ conversations – lol – to become creative in what I can make for food, to remind myself I don’t have to pressure myself to do things, but simply do them, without the energy-rush. To remind myself that whenever I feel like I want to go home already when being outside, it is merely a habit because there is nothing really ‘pressing’ for me to be at home for most of the times, it’s just a habit that tends to kick in as a mode of rushing to get back to some kind of ‘comfort zone.’ Also to not demand to others to act in what I believe is ‘the best way’ because some people are just not up for it and will react to it, and I have to be ‘ok’ with it no matter how it may make common sense – I tend to do this with strangers, not a good idea, so learning to read the different situations better, lol.

So this is about changing the way I live the moments, because in my case it’s about the inner experience, how I become tense within my body when doing things or when knowing I have to get to do something and putting some kind of extra pressure that is Not needed at all. I simply have to take the wheel and direct myself to do it. It is about removing this almost addictive ‘stress’ that I’ve become so used to carrying – shall I say burdening myself with – which comes through in the way I move and express which seems a bit too ‘fast’ or ‘erratic’ at times for some, lol, I do laugh at being calmed down in such moments, but I do need to become more aware of this so as to not make it a part of my personality, because I know my body is not at ease when being in that mode. It happens because I am ‘up there’ in the autopilot – whereas I know when I am here, stable, directive – there’s actually calm, a slowness, an ‘everything is alright’ within me – which is not a sense of delusion, but an actual cross reference of walking my day according to what I have to do and so de-pressuring from the ‘burdening’ sense of rush that I have tended to attach to things.

Ok, so that’s my take on this current point of awareness of where I need to take the driver’s seat and not be ‘driven’ constantly by the rush-mode or have to be driven by someone else to the point of becoming aware of it. So it’s cool to have a cross-reference outside, yes, but then to take the wheel and not become dependent on that to change. Yes, this is part of the result of applying the Desteni support and the Eqafe recordings, some of which I will also share down here so that you can start gearing up to this ongoing process in everyone’s life on Earth. Sonrisa

 

 

How Much More Your Body Language is Saying – Body Language

Self Presentation and the Truth of You – Body Language

 

And my friend Anna’s vlog, which I could relate a lot to:

WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE?

Slow motion

Join us in our process of Self-Expression as LIFE

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373. Meeting the Most Evil Man on Earth: Bernard Poolman

Today August 11th, 2013 Bernard Poolman Died and it’s quite the most shocking news you can get on what one would expect to be the most regular Sunday morning on Earth, it wasn’t and I agree with Cerise’s statement My Dad, The Devil: the world is more poor without him.

I must begin with saying that I have never known what to say when people die, and have only attended one single funeral that wasn’t even from a family member but my mother’s best friend and every time I got to know someone was dead I just could not know what to say or if I should ‘feel’ anything – well today I got a more direct experience of that for the first time. I am 26 years old and have never lost anyone as close to me until today yet I wipe the tears and continue to stand because I’ve gotten more than enough support from him to now be where I am standing today: writing the new contract I’ve acquired with life, walking the process to stand equal and one to the words lived by him as the walking living flesh he was, a man that has been hated by people that are willing to abuse and deny the responsibility we have in this world and  deny what is required to be done on Earth, but at the same time revered by all of us that are grateful for every single moment he would share what would be Here to be shared, in the moment – no preparation, no scripts, no nothing –  and to me it was more than an honor to be able to directly collaborate in being the hands that type out what he would so fluently speak out and yes, that will be no more – but the words are still here and now to be lived by each one of us since it is what we are here to be and become: stand equal to the living principle he embodied, that’s what he really was and continues to Be.

Continuing from:

 

When approaching the Desteni Forum for the first time, we got to see posts by ‘Eagle,’ an individual that would post all videos and continually respond to every single post that was made in such a riddled yet clear cut way that only through reading such words it was like opening my brain to a whole new window that I knew it was there, but somehow it was marvelously placed in such directive simple ways that I immediately knew I’d like to someday be able to directly see the points, which was also learned through all of the replies posted on the DesteniProductions Channels (2007-2011). Later on Eagle became Common Sense and as I begun to participate in the Private Forum in march 2008, I can say that I’ve been tremendously assisted by all the chats conducted by Bernard from that time wherein I’ve learned of the miles of words shared by him, Sunette/Dimensions and everyone else that have contributed with as an essential part of walking the Desteni Process: the support we got at the forum until our very last chat with Bernard this week is something that remains as one of the best dynamites a human being can ever detonate within an indoctrinated mind shaped in the image and likeness of a system of self-abuse, only to make space for genuine living foundations based on living principles

 

 

My initial admiration for Bernard as the words/principles he spoke of later on became a realization of how what he embodied as the Principled Living on Earth, wasn’t about something ‘superior’ or ‘special’ but actually simply living by the principles he spoke of, the actions he lived and the relationships he formed that are the genuine examples that we have as a testimony of a new way of living for humanity if we so want to continue living in this world. He said it best: “Self honesty is not nice or beautiful” and this became a key quote for me to continually remind myself that the sugar and spice type of life we had all been taught to seek and follow was always a Lie. I resonated with this very clearly which is why I resonated a lot to the words he spoke of, he was wording out what I had seen but merely allowed to ‘pass by’ and now being aware of this had a definitive cause and direction: to expose the lies, to learn how to Self Forgive and walk an individual process of Integrity, Self Respect, Honor and most importantly getting rid of all the bullshit that usually keeps us busy in the mind – I certainly learned to appreciate myself and stand as the reality of who I really am and conduct my potential. I didn’t have many conversations with him while at the farm other than very specific points to be discussed and somehow I see that I didn’t entirely open myself up back then as I was still tip-toeing around it all, not wanting my stuff to be exposed yet understanding that he could see it all.

“Self honesty is not nice or beautiful” – Bernard Poolman

Such a simple statement  yet absolutely supportive since we tend to create this idea that process is something great, marvelous, that will turn us into these good doers or even worse righteous gods  instantly  when it has nothing to o with that, it is genuinely being willing to actually get to know our demon-self, the truth of ourselves, the reality, the nitty-gritty details that we have all always concealed to learn how to ‘make-up’ with flowery words of love and light, and being ‘good’ and eliciting nice experiences upon other individuals without even realizing to what extent – by keeping these masks – we have continued to keep the current hypocrisy and false-value systems that in no way represent a living principle that life should be. Bernard was the living words of every aspect that required to be said in a world where Life is being sold and Equality is a demonized non-living word. He stood as the living principle of the resolution, the integrity, determination, clarity and discipline required to walk this process that we’ve embarked ourselves in within this Process, this  Journey to Life that involves the dismantling of this world at all levels, even beyond what our minds can conceive in order to establish a new living contract on Earth, a contract that stipulates through our written word the principles, the responsibility and practical steps to actually change the nature of who we have become as individuals in the mind – every single statement written and later on spoken in interviews by Bernard revealed to us a blueprint of the mess we are in as this world system and our individual reality, due to everything that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become. He was always writing the raw truth about reality and opening up the necessary self-confrontation necessary to realize one single thing: we are all collectively responsible for everything we are, everything we’ve become in this world and this was done without ever inciting violence, vengeance or retaliation against ‘others,’ without going ‘against the system,’ without having to incite to revolt or do anything ‘extremist’ as some haters would love to claim he did, just to discredit a message that actually challenged their current self-interested ways of ‘living’ while neglecting abuse.  Instead Bernard did the absolute opposite, he pointed out something we had been missing all along: in this world we have no enemies other than ourselves, individually, we’ve been screwed by our written words that never have considered life in equality – and this clicked within me as the realization of how blindfolded I  had been to always take a stance of antagonism to portray myself as the ‘good person’ without even investigating if such ‘benevolence’ was in fact real – which it obviously wasn’t but only a self-interested mechanism to keep me on ‘good spirits’ while pointing out the flaws in the world.  We were pushed to question ourselves  if it was in fact the integrity I believed myself to have such as in ‘having nothing to do with the ‘evil’ in the world, without even seeing, realizing an understanding that the very thoughts, pictures, imaginations, intentions, secret desires and future projections stood as the very building blocks of our collective illusion – my empire of dirt was debunked and so I realized how worth-less was it to continue ‘holding on’ to something that had never been in fact an example of what living is all about.

 

So, Marlena was the girl that got to the farm in an intense desire to be just noticed right away, and he noticed it right away ‘You are still trying to get recognition’ and realized the point an committed myself to walk and learn what humbleness is about. I was insecure, hooked on harmful relationships, fearing, not wanting to ‘get out and be seen,’ hiding my face behind hair– literally – not wanting to make much noise in the internet, not wanting people to know about myself and my process, being regulated by a sense of ‘self preservation’ of ‘what I like, who I am’ and being fearing any form of conflict wherein I may lose the approval of people or any other ‘meaningful’ relationship I believed to have in this world – well all of these aspects have been slowly but surely debunked throughout time by living and applying the example that Bernard stood as along with every other person that begun applying the same tools within this process.

I got to know I was just asking for another confirmation of a ‘changed character’ a ‘bettered version of myself’ when that wasn’t in fact what this process is about, and within an attempt to keep things in a ‘nice way’ I realized I was only creating yet another mask to conceal myself within the Idea of ‘Change’ without genuinely understanding I was ‘playing it safe’ – until later.

‹Bernard› remember that all is self
thus–self awareness, self standing

make all the words with self you direct your self to be and live it and in the mind–you make up reasons why not to do what you will–but fear others like family

dare to live for real
and fix reality to be worthy of you and all other beings here
  (2008)

 

Marlen's Visit to the Farm 2009

Where is Bernard in that group pic? Lol! I was laughing so hard because he was the one taking the pic an making us all laugh (July 2009, Desteni Farm – South Africa)

 

I am grateful that I was able to visit the farm in 2009 and stay for a year and meet The Most Evil Man on Earth: Bernard Poolman. When I got at the farm he wasn’t home yet and when he arrived the first words were “You’re already Making Noise!” lol because I was just too happy to be finally there and speaking too much with everyone I had already developed relationships with at the forum and being overtly excited about it all, so I greeted with a big hug and from there on, I was in for the experience of my life, I could have never known how much one can learn from another individual and all the people at the farm walking this process as the support it means in order to understand what Living by Principle in fact means in physical reality.

I probably would have liked to be able to be more open toward him while I was there, I was still wanting to stand somehow ‘in the background’ and not stepping up so much forth as I considered others to be more capable than me and I was still holding onto quite a hierarchized way of thinking that is certainly non existent within me at the moment, since I learned how to plant the seed of self-stability, self-authority, self-will, self-respect, practicing the realization of the importance of the written word in a world consumed by contracts of evil as the reverse of life. I certainly got such resolve within myself while being there and remained cultivating it ever since.

 

At the farm I went through heaven and hell, but the hell must be understood as the necessary as-it-should-be realization that throughout my life I had disregarded essential principles in relation to the ‘who I am’ as ‘my time,’ ‘my preferences,’  ‘wanting to do only what I like/want/feel like doing’ and the consequences that I got to face was the realization of how little was I in fact considering other beings – specially animals in my case – in my reality, but only focusing on this ‘self-enhancement’ without a clear resolve and understanding of what Equality truly means in all practical levels, which lead me to realize coexistence and the equality with all life forms that I had disregarded so far as  a part of everything that is here as myself.

The self that is created is an illusion

 

What I’ve learned from Bernard is a lot more than what I will express in these lines since every single  interaction with him – directly and indirectly –  lead me to strengthen, clarify and expand my understanding of this world, life, the visible and invisible yet verifiable in all ways in terms of observing the nature of this reality as our image and likeness, as the fuckup we all signed ourselves to with ink on the flesh as the self that we sold in the name of experience, of energy. Along with this I was able to develop the ability to recognize the actual abilities, skills and talents that I had doubted I could ever develop. I am grateful for the challenges I was able to take on while being at the farm. Lol, there’s this funny moment where one morning Bernard asked ‘Who wants to take a painting project!?’ and Marlen raises hand right away “Meeee!!” and yes oh boy was it not the kind of ‘painting’ I was expecting but an actual challenge of thick brush and rolling painting an entire building lol, which I managed to do with the help here and there of the other guys, man was I proud of myself and according to that immediate ability to respond and stick to my word of ‘getting it done’ in such an apparent simple task, I was able to realize to what extent I had limited myself by my own thoughts of distrust, of doubt and hesitation to speak – slowly but surely I saw that I had only feared being wrong, saying the ‘bad things,’ wanting to be directed/getting orders instead of actually realizing I could develop the common sense and techniques as I go, and this didn’t only apply to the work done at the farm which was already in itself a challenge but also in relation to the ability to commit oneself to do something and Actually Doing-it.  Such is the nature of the things I learned at the farm, learned Self Will and a determination I had absolutely no Idea I was able to bring forth and establish as myself, as my expression.

 

There’s No doubt that all the points I learned from Bernard and others’ interactions with him enabled me to realize that the actual power we have exists  in and as every single breath, and how we had to let go of fears to stand in order to be visible, to not be fearful or ashamed in any way of what I am doing and this is something continued to be walked every single day as the fear is no longer there, but the resolve is a constant renewal of existential vows, the reason why we’re doing this is because we have kept ourselves waiting for far too long for someone to ‘show us the way,’ and it is only now within this process and having Bernard’s example that a new living nature of humanity became a living possibility for all of us aware of and walking the Desteni process, which is nothing else than applying the tools that Bernard himself used to become what he became: the living word in flesh.

 

 

I’ve described several key moments through my journey in this entire MarlenLife blog of things I learned from him, including the R.I.P God blog wherein I realized the irrelevance of my questions about existence and reality that were based on the same constructs and ideas in separation of myself, detached from any real physical value on Earth.

I was at the Farm when we embarked ourselves in the course that is being now provided as an educational platform of self support for several people that have committed themselves to it: the Desteni I Process – back then the Structural Resonance Alignment (SRA)– and I was one of the first individuals to go through it and have the opportunity to buddy people, learning how to begin trusting my understanding and common sense and placing it into application. I remember also all the times we would have the infamous ‘Interviews from the Farm’ which were usually chats at the lounge are or the veranda with the entire group that was living there where we got some of the greatest lessons one could have ever gotten about the world system, heaven, Earth, the Afterlife, Process, The cure for our Curiosity –  it was like story time with real shocking and real supportive facts that are equally available till this day at the article section http://desteni.org/articles/interviews-from-the-farm   

I will probably always say how 2009-2010 was the greatest year of my life, and a small part of this is depicted in the following video Here as Life

The most supportive thing was when I was able to be called out for the patterns I was existing as and I am being forever thankful for the support Bernard gave me to see that which I had absolutely neglected and refused to see, up to the point where I  walked ‘the death of me’ and assisted myself to more and more grasp what must be done in this process and stand as a point of support for myself and everyone else. The thing is I wasn’t exactly told what to do which was also another point of great support – I took a decision to come back, finish school and continue with my process which has been walked with all the same support we got and continued standing and taking on the point I had resisted the most: the Equal Money System proposal and realized that it was a decision I had made to stand up for something that truly means equalizing the value of Life in this world – along with Bernard’s support we continued to walk all the matrixes of self deception to get back to the point where we have realized no solution on Earth will be possible unless we first focus on the Education of the Human Mind, and this is something I continuously confirmed through and with Bernard every single time which also strengthen the resolution to focus on what we are currently doing: supporting ourselves as we are supporting many others to get past the veils of the mind and be what I have committed myself to be: a Life-Birthing assistant as this is what I received not only from Bernard but Everyone else at Desteni, as the Desteni Group world wide, so we’ll continue to spam the world with common sense and self honesty.

 

 

I had few moments of being with him alone, and our conversations were always very directive lol which is cool in a way because that’s how I got to see that I didn’t have to ‘beat around the bush’ and go straight to the facts, get past the emotional bs and focus on the practical directions.  I must say that I had kept still a veil toward him until the past months where he became more than just a living example but also a buddy, a colleague, someone I could share and laugh with at the nonsense of the world and always bringing it back to a solution – all was clear and a constant confirmation of the common sense learned and developed through living and applying the example that he has provided us all with. I will miss that interaction, but again as the clarity that is here as I write these words, I realize that he exists As the Words we will continue to write, live and stand one and equal to, where “Bernard”ceases to exist as a name and memory only and becomes part of who we are as the words we live, standing as an example and living expression that we decided to take on from him and expand through, walking through the systems until we all realize our actual potential and live it out, because that’s what he was able to see within every single individual that had the decision to walk this process of self support. Yes never in my life had I lived with such unconditional beings at the farm and him being the example of what it is to support another the way we would like to be supported ourselves, not expecting anything in return other than the ability to stand on our own two feet, standing side by side as who he is. 

 

I had great laughs with him as well, I particularly enjoyed all the moments of laughter because he had this great sense of humor, lol everyone should have been able to listen to his characterization of the American accent or when he would approach beings at the gas station, the supermarket and ask them about god and money and what would they prefer to keep if they had the option – lol! But I also got to witness first hand the actual physical process he was going through, I witnessed the amount of pain he would endure on a daily basis due to the systems taken on by him as part of his process. I would become worried about it, I wanted to be a solution to ease his pain and he only said: keep breathing and that is already a cool thing for me – and so I will continue until the last one I give  myself. He explained to me how that was his point in process and how I would do the same in his shoes – I said Yes, and continue to confirm I stand within the resolution and self will I learned from him, a genuine example of what it is to stand by principle, doing all that he could, no matter what and never make a big fuzz about it, but learn how to breathe through it, within the understanding of what must be done here in this world.

 

 

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I learned how to  stand up to my own self-abuse, to  slowly but surely get past the trivial aspects that I had held myself a victim toward or apathetic about and be able to integrate living principles that are absolutely non existent in a reality where we abuse life in the name of power as money, in a world where a single value system has become our image and likeness of desires, wants, needs and imaginations that only benefit ourselves, disregarding the consideration of how the abuse on Earth is not built only through/due to money, but the relationships, the contracts, the profiles, the pictures we’ve created within our reality.

 

I learned what Equality means in physical practical terms, what the equation of 1+1=2 meant and I can now laugh a a bit at myself when we were discussing the Equal Money System back in 2009 and I remember asking him: but what will be the value of money then? And he simply said: Life. Eureka! a whole new world was able to be realized just because it revealed to me what kind of religion our political, economic an political systems had become. I also learned how to give myself direction and take on greater responsibilities within the group, which is something I had held myself back from doing just because of those initial fears and seeing the points as separate from me – yet when realizing the principles required for it, one can certainly develop this resolve as we go integrating the living principles necessary to establish self-trust and be able to genuinely begin living without the constant desire to ‘return to my safe cave’ and ‘forget about this ever happening’ – such point cannot exist when one realizes the extent of the problem we’re facing in this world and existence and the responsibility we hold toward every single word, every single screwed up relationship we’ve established as the reverse of Life and how we must stand up to genuinely correct the damage we’ve done to ourselves and every other living particle we’ve taken for granted as part of ourselves.

My resolve to this process is to establish the living principles he stood as the way I have been walking for the past 5 years, of course I require to strengthen my ability to see beyond the ‘downfalls’ when we see there is no way out, because we both agreed that there is always a way out and that is how one can always see solutions where I once only saw gloom and doom, death and destruction.

 

After these years of having walked the placement and development of economic, political and social systems applying the principles he shared with us, I realize the importance of first beginning to establish a living common sensical understanding and application of all of these principles and actually living them, embodying them as the way we relate to ourselves, to one another,  and stand as that pillar of support to others to o the same because I can see that we require each other to make this work and this is how more than this being about Bernard is about the living principles of self integrity, honor, self respect that we will continue to live and apply toward one another, being grateful for the existence of human beings around the world that as myself are able to Hear his words and commit ourselves to be the examples that this world has yet to realize we are all able to be and become, when we start honoring life and ensuring that we live the words and walk the way forward.

 

Thank you Bernard! I will be forever grateful but more than that, we got to now stand as the principles you left and not be a only a follower – we’re ready and capable of this. Let’s do it!

 

Bernard’s blog:
Creation’s Journey To Life

 

Also check out:

Bernard Poolman’s Quotes

 

 

Matis, Bernard Poolman

Mantis on Bernard’s hand (2009)

Support for Destonians:

 

And don’t forget to watch Bernard’s favorite besides Coffee: The Century of the Self

 

What now?

 

Ready to Become a Destonian and start Walking your Journey to Life?

Here’s How:

1) Make the Decision to Take Responsibility for yourself and stand up for Life in Equality – start Writing Yourself to Freedom, open up a blog and make a commitment to Walk the 7 year Journey to Life and share others’ blogs as well

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2) Join the Desteni Lite Free Course to walk step by step the tools of Writing, Self Forgiveness, Self Honesty and becoming the Living Solution for this World.

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3) Join the Desteni Forum: participate in discussions, ask questions and post your own blogs in the 7 Year Journey to Life thread, Let yourself be Known for your Commitment to Stand up for Life

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4) Support the Living Income Guaranteed Proposal – Visit basicincome.me for regular updates and participate in the discussions on the site

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7) Commit yourself to this Process Realizing that You are not only Walking for Yourself but to bring about a World that we all want to Live in. Share your process in videos YouTube for greater Impact and Support

 

Thank you all for reading and walking with, let’s continue honoring each other.


371. Desteni Insider: Fear, Fear, Fear

 

The easiest way to be a mind controlled individual is through accepting fear as part of ourselves, yet from the moment we step into this world, fear is what is propagated from the very moment we are taught how to survive and call it ‘becoming a happy and successful human being’ and cope within a reality that has a foundation of zero guaranteed support if you have no money, which is then the driving force of every single decision we are able to make in this world, because even our ‘life’ is actually motivated by fear of death.

 

We learn that we must always aim to always be the best, always aim to be successful and be the most beautiful, bright, charismatic, benevolent and joyful human being that loves and is loved by everyone around you, without understanding how such desire is in fact motivated by Fear of being  the entire opposite: a failure, a sad, dismal, ugly, loser that is hated by everyone if one does not comply to what parents, teachers and society tells you to be and become – and fear for your survival! because success always has a happy face.  It seems odd that in our 21st century of ‘the new era’ that began with an individual coming into this world to leave a message of Life in Equality, we didn’t change anything in the world and continued to base all our systems – economic, political, social and digital – on Fear that is created the moment you know that if you have no money, no personality, no worth or value at the eyes of everyone else: you die.

 

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Reencarnación = Loop = Repetición Contínua (2008)

 

These are some of the aspects that we have come to accept as ‘facts’ not that they imply the are true facts: you know that if you are not the brightest person in your class you are part of the losers, you know that you must aim to be number one in everything or else you won’t be accepted in the best circles in society, you know that if you don’t look pretty enough, cheerful enough people will judge you for being awkward and sad. And yes it is mostly so, because we have accepted knowledge as who we are and in that accept the polarities of good and bad, loser and winner, fear and desire, love and hate as the living as the narrow white and black mind reality that we have defined ourselves without ever questioning why we always had to be constantly fearing to be or become everything that is seen as bad, negative, ugly, dismal – little did we know that this also had been part of the game to keep everyone locked into an eternal desire to thrive while accepting strife as part of our day to day living in this world.

 

As I’ve said, I realized that the world is in reverse therefore all that seemed good, benevolent, happy, loving was in fact just another side of the coin motivated by one of the main roots that motivates ‘our lives’ which is fear: fear of dying, fear of not being good enough, fear of being rejected, fear of not being up to other’s expectations, fear of being alone, fear of what people will think of me, fear of how others see me, fear of doing and saying the wrong things, fear of making mistakes, fear of public exposure, fear of being ‘on the spot,’ fear of taking responsibilities, fear of having to make decisions, fear of the dark, fear of dark entities, fear of being hijacked, fear of ending poor, fear of dying of hunger, fear of not ‘making it’ in this life, fear of losing my spot, fear of having others plotting against me, fear of people disliking me, fear of being liked by ‘the wrong people,’ fear of being caught if my secrets were to be out, fear of having my face be displayed in ‘public sites,’ fear of having my name being known by too many people, fear of what my family would say, fear of having some deadly disease, fear of robbers, fear of vagrants, fear of drunks, fear of the city, fear of being crazy and deluded, fear of being misunderstood, fear of god, fear of aliens, fear of germs, fear of war, fear of the unknown,  fears, fears, fears….

 

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I hadn’t realized how fearful I was until I begun writing myself to freedom and I realized that to begin with I had to apply self forgiveness for all the fears that came up whenever I had to write and actually publish my writings online! Oh dear god that was such a ‘ludicrous’ thing for me to even conceive what if my family reads it, what if that person in my life gets to read what I really thought, what if someone stalks me, what if they think I’m in a cult, what if they lose all respect for me, what if I lose credibility… all these what ifs came up while beginning to post my blog in its original location back in April 2008. It took me some months to finally begin writing which wasn’t something ‘new’ to me, but certainly the starting point was absolutely new because I was going to for the first time apply Self Forgiveness and mostly all I could see were: Fears. It is quite clear to me now that fears are limitations, fears are excuses to not give the necessary steps to walk beyond our comfort zone. Every single day that I wrote and published, fears would come up and every single day I had to push myself to deliberate ‘just do it’ while still hoping that no one that I know would get to see it. I feared having a YouTube Channel because I would have never ever in my life back then thought of recording my face/myself and broadcast it to thousands and thousands of people because ‘oh what would they say about my face, what would they say about my voice, what would they think about my thoughts?’ all of it fear paranoia that I decided to also break through with great nervosity but certainly understanding why I was doing it: this was a process wherein I was genuinely committing myself to stop all fears, all the limitations that were only existent in my mind as the accepted ‘I Know’s’ that I’ve described before and committing myself to prove each one of them to be nothing else but a mind delusion I had participated in throughout my life.

 

I can recall myself as a ‘very fearful person’ and one of the aspects I have certainly committed myself to stop within this process is Fear and interestingly enough, the process was an integral aspect of understanding reality, getting to know that there were no ‘invisible forces’ dictating my life or attempting to harm me in the dark,’ understanding how virtually any fear that I had projected upon others toward myself was Only my own creation, only existent in my mind and as such I could write about it, self forgive it and realize myself as being able to exist without fear, which then became a day to day process of bit by bit letting go of the fears.

 

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It is quite normal that once we are stripped from the comfort of all the apparently ‘good’ and ‘positive’ what is left is all the negative, the bad, the ugly truth of who we are and have become, and the Desteni Process is certainly where we get to face that ugly truth that we have all tried and attempted to cover up, disguise and suppress with nice masks of ‘everything is fine,’ and ‘everything is rosy and shiny’ and ‘I am alright, I am happy, I am satisfied’ and never ever daring to see the actual reality hiding behind such nice and positive fluff. That is where I learned from Jack’s article The Courage of Self Honesty wherein I begun to understand that walking this process takes guts and that fear was the weak link I had to constantly work with to push through the boundaries. Every single point that I was able to ‘overcome’ within understanding how I had created the fear and how I kept feeding it by ‘making it real’ made me become more stable within the realization that even opening up points about myself implied an effort to ‘open them up’ to the point where the expressions that I used to this process became elusive to doing that which would seem terrifying to do at first glance: opening the can of worms and digging out the rotten corpses – both squeamish and stinky, haunting ghosts that were literally petrifying myself and holding me back from writing and going deeper into the actual ‘nitty-gritty’ of myself, my thoughts, my experiences, and that’s where I saw what kind of a web we have spawn through our very own creation of personalities and characters that I became aware of were nothing else but sheer mind distraction to keep me enslaved to thinking, fearing, desiring, wanting, needing and repeating the whole cycle over and over and over again, not to mention how the self definition of being a fearful person became a self definition of submission, self belittlement, self judgment, seeking for acceptance, seeing myself as not pretty enough, having some odd body that no one would like, having odd personality, fearing that people would notice how I was not comfortable in my own skin, fear of being made fun of, fear of being ‘the joke’ to laugh at – inferiority, disbelief in my abilities and capabilities, fearing growing up, fearing being betrayed, fearing losing friends and relationships, fear of never being the expectation that I thought everyone had upon me… all these aspects became the points I opened up throughout day to day writing and pushing myself to the point of change in an immediate desire to be just self realize and believing that having no ‘chatter’ in my mind meant ‘being done with process,’ lol – little did I know I was barely beginning it and still today after 5 years it is only the first phase, the first baby steps of the rest of our lives.

 

Within fears and fearing to look at the truth of myself, I created more fear and petrification and it became an obstacle initially within my process. I received a specific interview with support and feedback on myself at that time which supported me tremendously to first of all accept the fact that FEAR is what I existed as, I was too ‘okay’ within the belief that ‘I am fine and nothing is wrong with me’ without realizing that this too was obviously a way to conceal the actual truth: I feared opening myself up, I feared publishing myself, I feared that what I said would be used against me, I feared that someone would be disappointed at me – yet, step by step, day by day I continued opening up the points to get to see more and more about myself, the reality of the aspects I had thought I had ‘hidden’ very well. But through all the supportive videos and vlogs of other people sharing how they had begun applying the Desteni tools themselves, I got to realize that I had to do the same in order to break through that essential layer of brainwashing that I had embodied throughout my life.

 

 

 

Writing Self Forgiveness on every single fear that would come up in the moment of writing within opening up any aspect within my daily writing supported me to realize how every point of complication, problem and discomfort experience within was able to be transformed into a point of expression of what I can instead direct myself to live, be and become – through words this means placing very directive statements within common sense of what I realize and how I will direct myself from this moment of understanding on.

Throughout the years the process has implied continuously breaking through and walking through fears of virtually about anything that I believed myself to be, challenging it to the core and gaining the ability to instead of fearing and seeing problems, establish solutions. This is not an easy task since it is a continuous feedback process that doesn’t only exist at an individual level. The chats held every single week of the year within the Desteni group for those that are genuinely interested in their own process of Self Responsibility in Self Realization supported me to gain several perspectives from what others were also experiencing and allowed me to understand that we truly all function at the same level of fears that tamper our ability to exist as self directive and common sensical individuals.

Within Desteni, real life investigation is necessary and that is through walking our day to day living as well as within the information available like documentaries and books – we have been able to correlate and verify the mechanisms explained within the Desteni Material to be an essential part of the agenda that exists as the main form of Mind Control to have individuals be directed by emotions and feelings rather than facts and common sensical assessments. This is but a fraction of the understanding that I’ve gained throughout the 5 years I’ve walked with the Desteni group, continuing to see and research on daily basis on all the scientific advancements and technological endeavors that attempt to create solutions to this world – but, as long as the mind within who we are as human beings is not understood, it should be obvious that it will be very difficult to be able to create solutions unless we first go through this individual process of self-support at an individual level to understand fear as the control mechanism with which we prevent ourselves from walking as integral beings that have a clear understanding of what is required to be done into this world if we so in fact want to live in a world that we can all be proud of.

The application of stopping fears doesn’t imply ‘never again fearing anything’ – there are practical fears wherein if you know you’re about to crash the car that’s in front of you if you don’t slow down, is rather a warning system to slow down and take proper measures to drive safely. The fear of ending without any money should not be a constant worry and concern but rather a practical understanding that if you have no money in this world, you have no access to what you require to live and that is then a call to direct oneself to get an effective means to make a decent income to live – furthermore such fear should be the driving force for each one of us to rather create a system that ensures and secures the well being of every individual so that we never again have to go through life fearing to be killed, robbed or high-jacked for someone else to make money that should be – by virtue of human rights – available to everyone equally.

 

 

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I’ve become an individual that doesn’t allow fear to be the directive principle of my actions, feelings or emotions, there are obviously aspects yet to be faced and walked but it becomes fairly easy to spot the fears when one gets any form of mind feedback as thoughts, emotions or feelings in the moment as an attempt to go back into inFEARiority, limitation and any other experience that we had become so used to exist in. Now I can assess the situation and realize that it is up to me to give into the fear within the mechanism of control it exists as OR decide to walk in common sense which means deciding to live, act and speak according to what is best for all. This doesn’t end there, since all aspects of self interest and apparent stability must be cross referenced to ensure this is yet not another ‘fearless personality’ but genuinely assessing consequences of my actions and inactions and the responsibility entailed, as well as the effects that can harm or abuse others.

I’ve come to understand how loving someone is in fact created out of fear of losing that something or someone and that the fear that is propagated in our society as all things ‘positive’ is in fact the best way to keep us all chained to our misery and self-limitation. Becoming an emotional-fearless being is an every day application wherein every moment that we see ourselves being held back by a single thought or emotional experience, we must investigate what is it that we are fearing to begin with in order to get the root and cause of the experience, this is by far a very simple and practical application that anyone can use to see then how to give ourselves direction instead of giving in to fears and limitations.

Walking the process of Self Honesty to become a living being that is always here as breath is where I am at now in this process has enabled me to understand the human mind and within this also have the ability to support others the same way I have been supported to face myself. This is why the process cannot be walked alone, another’s feedback is always necessary to ensure one is not creating yet another mind-dimension of being ‘fearless’ and ‘stable’ without genuinely living as such in our every day living.  That we could all use to genuinely create a world that we all want to live in, a fearless world – yet this is not possible if we don’t walk this process individually to take responsibility for the limitations we’ve existed in.

 

More to come…

 

 


353. The Best Regime is Equal Money

 

We haven’t questioned the words we speak as  the nature of actions they contain, we haven’t abolished money as a belief system of debt in function of abuse. If anything it should be a point of great concern how after thousands of years we haven’t ever coexisted in the best way possible where all living beings are equals in all aspects as Life. This is because all our regimes have consisted of structures founded and determined to generate systems of power and control and as such, inequality has been accepted as ‘the way things are’ without a question – it is about time we begin realizing the actual abilities we have to correct this, which begins at an individual level to understand what does constitute an actual goodwill in humanity.

 

Continuing:

 

Problem                                                             

We are  species that have specialized in creating words, placing them in  books full of  statements intended to guide man’s life,  but we haven’t ever lived the ideal and best intentions placed in our constitutions  in order to generate an actual well being in this world that stands as the best way to direct ourselves to live as Equals in harmony and peace. Throughout time we haven’t yet questioned why we seek to ‘Change the World’ and haven’t first looked at why we have allowed ourselves to remain in the damaged and defunct state of the world system that we are attempting to ‘change’ and apparently ‘live’ in; we look at history without realizing that the nature of  humanity has maintained and sustained the same cycles on enslavement because we have failed to understand how it is that each one of us has complied to re-enact the same power structures over and over again, there has been no human evolution but only a change of scenarios that creates the illusion of it.

 

Some others might have had great intentions to change the world system but never actually realizing that only writing and promulgating laws intended to generate common good won’t create a sudden ‘good willed nature’ in humanity; in fact the opposite has happened where currently no one can trust any form of governance or our neighbor because we have made everything so corruptible to the point where we have become subject to participating in a system that is not working according to generate a common well being that is applicable to all, which means everyone is bound to be born into slavery where our politics are based on offense-defense balancing between nations compete against each other to see who can accrue  the most wealth, using resources and man labor as the ‘fuel’ to keep the good life being enjoyed by this winning minority. Every regime has incorporated these ‘particularized’ needs where subjective aspects as points of identification and differentiation  from other states ,were considered as specific directives in their constitutions according to culture, tradition, religion, habits,  which led to the inevitable segregation between humans just because societies became characterized according to the interests of the ruling minority, which would then signify the basis of their  that specialness, their privileges which became the configuration of the way people live in a particular territory: it became people’s binding force of identity that turned into a strong belief of ‘what the people stand for,’  what their purpose in life is and how they view their own life according to these living codes embedded in their particular system.

 

We have always been governed and subject to governance wherein the rules of the game are written by individuals that may or may not have the best interests upon society, however such constitutions are not lived by the individuals and any other form of comparative studies of why this is so are also useless because there is simply no physical common sense that is regarded as universal directives that should be considered as a universal law that we could all abide to by a mere agreement on recognizing the equality that exists within and as ourselves as life.  We can already attest that all form of political philosophy has failed to do its job to generate living lawful principles that human beings could apply and live by to generate the necessary change within the nature of man, as Rousseau claimed.

 

Thinking in terms of ‘What is Best for All’ already get people raising their eyebrows – however this is also proven to be difficult in our lives where no actual educational processes about the nature of the system have been provided in order to understand why equality has been relegated to a fringe term that is de jure present in all constitutions and charters, de facto never lived or applied on Earth. Thus the type of regime determines how people apparently ‘choose’ the decisions based on the values they learn at school, the politics in their nations, it is as if we haven’t yet learned  any other way but what we currently know ‘it’s best’ and continue to accept things as they are. This is for example how we continue to believe that being governed by a few ‘educated people’ that ‘know what they are doing’ because they have been trained to take such positions in the world system are more ‘trustworthy’ than anyone else, which is why the rest will simply follow to deposit faith that it will eventually all work out as intended – whether such intention is to enslave or uplift humanity, same point, we simply agreed to it because we believe we don’t know any better than them. For some others it would be to live in self governed small societies with a religious purpose in order to venerate life and some gods alike – some others can think of a Global Equal State order where all human beings can in fact be free under a single regime where life is valued and lived in Equality. Well, we agree with the latter – however why would this Not Be immediately recognized by every individual as the Best  foundation for a Regime  that can exist?

 

To understand the cognitive dissonance that exists in order for the majority of the people in this world be able deny that Valuing Life in Equality is what’s Best for All, we have to realize that there is an entire educational apparatus existent in order to shape the human mind according to that which will serve a particular nation or regime in the best way possible. It is thus obvious that in a corporate capitalistic system, these values are shaped according to commerce which means consumption, buying and selling, defining our status according to that which own and making ourselves honorable for supporting wars that ensure corporations are well fed with an apparent cause to defend our honor, our security and promoting ‘good values’ such as words that sound like freedom and democracy, but are in no way actually meaning the signification of the words as we know them to be.

 

These are the values that are ‘fought for’ in the country that we’ve used as example for the purpose of understanding the problems in our world, the United States of America  (for more you can read the entire series 307. CapitalismUS: Pursuit of Happiness and the rest of the posts after this one) This is thus what defines how a person lives, how life is conceived, what their every moment is veered toward and lived for which in a society like the contemporary American culture, is to obtain happiness – this might not seem different to the same purpose placed by human beings in ancient times, however the How and What makes people happy is what has been upgraded according to the current regime. This is how words are defined according to that which serves the establishment – an example is how happiness for an individual can be founded upon being rich, owning properties all over the world, traveling, sitting by a pool drinking and admiring the scene of a ‘good life’ while for others happiness would mean having potable water, food, shelter and dignified living conditions – it must be very clear what has shaped our particular and personalized values no matter in which nation we live in, which is Money. As long as we still see through the eyes of the characterization that words have gained within a particular regime, we will continue to ignore common sense such as understanding in a physical common sense what is Best for All which is explained in the first post of this series.

 

The problem is when we talk about being a ‘good citizen’ and being a ‘good human being’ – Citizenship is related to the particular contract we are born into as part of particular nation or state – this is what we sign ourselves into from our birth certificate till the moment our Death Certificate which is a state of de-function which means we are no longer functional to the purpose we were signed into as part of our countries functioning as corporations. This Good citizenship ties in with what was explained in terms of the System  Honesty and Integrity discussed earlier in this series, wherein we abide to the norms, the values, the laws and regulations of our particular regimes simply because that is all we have ever known and we also know that if we don’t abide to that, we can get the opposite of reward which is punishment and as such, fear is the counter act to maintain people in a ‘good citizenship’ status as a reward to never question why such regime is not working according to that which is best for all, which is a question we all should have asked ourselves by now, yet even if we have, we haven’t done anything to change the reality of this until now.

 

A regime is not only a structure and several institutions that govern us, it is an entire way of living and establishes the foundation for everything we do, how we live and how we relate to one another. It constitutes an ethos   and so far all of the different regimes have catered for a diversity based on particular interests  that are mutually exclusive.

 

It should already be known that much before our monetary systems were in place, there has always been a form of order in our societies established through force creating rights and such dominant forces shaped our constitutions wherein the so-called ‘best conditions for everyone’ were shaped according to a particular culture, religion, , traditions, language and meaning of words, time and space context,  habits, etc. It is thus to understand how by the differentiation in how we understand the world through the meanings we acquire/ learn  in our particular educational/indoctrination  systems,  we create ideological, philosophical, moral and ethical barriers  in order to justify one single thing: the inability of man to live in Equality, the inability to actually put 1+1 together and realize that the simplicity to create what is Best for All is actually physically evident. Why haven’t we done this then? Because we are so used to merely following orders and being told what to do by a few as long as we don’t have to partake in the necessary involvement that managing and directing our lives actually requires, wherein not only a few should be interested in the frameworks that define the way we live and take the positions that enables them to do what they see is ‘best’ according to their particular interests. We have accepted and allowed things as they are, because we get to have a ‘good life’ where money becomes the alternative to govern ourselves by the power embedded in money and not by the laws that could do this without having to ‘strive’ to make a living or compete to make the most.

 

Our current regimes are based on self-serving ‘living philosophies’ based on generating a feel good experience according to the amount of money that we have, which goes unquestioned because as long as our nature is not challenged in its root and instead fed by ‘how the system works’ – which is again the nature of greed, competition, selfishness, abuse and negligence  as the actual evil as the reverse of life, as everything that exists in the negative conditions that prevent the emergence of any actual goodness in man – we will continue studying theories about great societies while claiming the best regime is in fact ‘Utopic’ and lacking actuality – yes, this is not a coincidence either that we believe it to be such a ‘high end’ in itself such an impossible thing to concretize in reality,  just because we haven’t learned to become self governed individuals that understand that there we don’t require a Leviathan to take care of ourselves if each individual is able to live by principles that create a living regime where Life is Valued and Lived in Equality. Who has then accepted and allowed the limitation to live in an Equal Freedom? Us.

 

Many claim that this Best Regime is idealistic in nature, it is superior to all because it is all encompassing as a Global System which should be based on Life in Equality and Oneness – yet again, we have to look at Human Nature as the Problem to make this a reality which draws us back to the initial point: if the Regime and ‘ways of the system’ is created by human beings, then what must be changed is the human nature in itself. De jure the constitutions to create the best regime do exist, de facto none of them are lived and applied, there is no actuality to a Best for All Regimes and even if we all physically understand what we require to live and know what would be the best way to coexist, we like to think that there is a form of specialness in opposing commonality, just because we learned how to praise individuality and superiority, without ever pondering how these ‘values’ are supporting the separation and abuse that some even dare to project and blame onto authorities for not recognizing them as our individual guarantees according to the laws, we are the ones that in fact make the life of the system be unequal in nature. Who are the real double edged swords then? Our words that have not been lived in a way to honor all life in equality yet.

 

 

Solution                                                              

  • “We Declare Our Intention to Support, Nurture and Defend the rights of all Human Beings who walk upon this Earth and who share the Gift and Breath of Life. This intention is founded upon the recognition that all Sentient Beings are endowed with the unalienable rights of self-determination and the fundamental assurances of the minimum qualities of life, such assurances to be fulfilled by having the necessities of life such as proper nourishment, clothing, shelter, access to knowledge and education, training for fulfilling capacities to support and sustain their lives and their families, to be integrated within their relationships of social, economic, familial and community bonds.

     

    It is Our Dedicated Intention That We Shall Strive to assist all those in need in order that they may provide for themselves and their families the means of establishing the fundamental requirements of life while on this Earth. We shall be guided by our consciences and our intentions to honor all life forms and all human beings on our planet, and all sentient beings in existence as a whole, to apply our efforts to uplift and sustain the qualities of life that we wish to have for ourselves and our families, and to continue in our efforts until all on this planet have achieved such a goal. In so doing, we fulfill the law that states, “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.”

    Ken Cousens

  • Removing Idealism from the term ‘Best Regime’ implies doing the opposite of thinking, which is acting, directing, convening, participating  and creating living agreements where all participants commit themselves to be co-creators of a new living system in and of Equality as Life. Within the Equal Money System which is the Equality System by excellence, we will undermine the potential harm existent in words and will direct ourselves to integrate the living principles that generate a Best for All living condition as part of our day to day interaction and participation in our world in and as the words that we speak. This is part of understanding that we are the system, we create the regime and just as language gets to a point of death if there are no more speakers that use it, we have to become the life of that new language as the words that will ensure the Best Regime is  lived in our very own words in every single moment that we are Here, coexisting and participating with everyone in order to make our lives possible.

 

  •   It is time to let go of being ‘good citizens’/ ‘good slaves’ to a system of abuse and instead understand the physical laws that govern our nature which is Life in Equality as what is Best for All. We are witnessing and becoming the living understanding of how it is that our world can in fact be if each individual lives by principle and not by negative enforcement to survive in a world of fixed scarcity, debt that sounds like death and antiquated values based on a power structure founded upon money as a relationship of abuse. It is crystal clear how the ability to change the world, to create the best living regime possible does not exist in one single book or ancient text with a magic formula to it, it is happening now, it is being presented by the corpus of the educational material available at Desteni and Equal Money, which are the two Educational and Directive Principled Pillars to be lived by each individual in order to manifest the change that we require to implement in this world.

 

  • The state current crisis in our word is sufficient evidence for us to open our eyes and understand that it is only in Equality, working Together and honoring each other as Equals as Life that we can come to this simple realization where the Best Living Regime exists the moment all living beings are equally  supported to live the best possible way, where all Nations become one single global estate that is no longer distinguished by a need to have more power over others,  but instead it is one lived and understood as a single organism living in absolute homeostasis and in symbiotic relationships.

 

 

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  • No more political philosophy, no more sociological theories on all the various aspects that could ‘better’ human life because we will all be living in a physical understanding of what is Best for All and as such, direct and dedicate our lives to creating this new Equality World Order based on understanding our inherent interdependence in this social organism.

 

  • Any personal preference that does not oppose, threaten or harm this physical common sense will be able to be lived and integrated as part of our individual expression through our habits, ways of communicating, entertainment and personal inclinations as long as no other being is coerced to follow it, as long as no other living being is abused or harmed in such practices. This is how we can understand that our constant well being in a state of harmony, self honesty and interdependence is the happiness that was bought and sold in the ‘old days.’ We are here to finally integrate the living principles that will ensure all children are born into life and not into death as it happens in our current system. 

 

  • The ability to define and direct for the very first time an actual Living Regime in Equality is and will be sufficient proof that we have gotten to Equalize ourselves as life, which means we can only exist in such a system if Self Realization is lived by each individual co-operating and participating in it. 

 

  • It is about time we unite under the same symbol-less flag that denotes the unity between all men and women as equals, along with all other living creatures that coexist here and that must be Equally regarded as part of the necessary jurisdiction to ensure their well being as that is what we all want for ourselves and our generations to come into this world.

 

 

 

 

 

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346. Manumission with Equal Money

Our Manumission is the  self-directive process to liberate everyone and establish a new living system based on and sustained in Equality through our individual process of Self Correction and Self Responsibility.  This is the process of Educating ourselves about all the mechanisms in which we turned our lives  into survival money-making odysseys instead of actual processes of self development, expression and enjoyment of our lives. It is about time we Understand the Accepted and Allowed Self-Enslavement  in order to make an informed decision to Take Responsibility for our world and each other and pave the way to live in Actual Freedom in Equality.

 

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  •   Enslavement in our society stems from the power structures that we have made legit every time that we adopt the belief of something or someone having more or less power than another and as such, having the ‘power’ to decide how a nation is governed, how a community is directed, how much money everyone gets, what kind of information you are given, what type of Education and for what purposes you have access to, what are your values, moral codes, religious affiliations, ways of entertainment, fears, limitations, etc. – everything is the result of a cultural configuration that runs with the same Game Theory mechanisms that a corporation is run by, and what is a corporation’s main purpose? To create Profit – this is the axis of evil upon which our entire world goes around, and our very own thinking and behavior has been the battery to keep this entire system this way, which means our very own minds have been wrought, shaped and formed according to these ‘principles’ based on survival-mode fears. 

 

  • The fact is that as much as human behavior is the product of a society, we are also aware of the preprogrammed design of the mind as a system wherein the purpose of our creation was to generate energy in all its various forms as experiences that we could buy and consume or create through relationships formed in power-play mode driven by the desire to win at all cost. This inherent condition is what we can call Human Nature – it is not the Nature of the physical body that runs according to a Physical Common Sense principle of Life as a social organism of symbiotic relationships, it is the nature of a Mind Consciousness System that existed as an energy-resourcing construct existent within each and every single human being on earth as a mechanism of control and predetermination to ensure we would never question our ‘real purpose’ of being here in this world and what our lives were in fact existent for. This is relevant to understand from the study of the Desteni Material in order to place all the pieces of our human history together and realize that the enslavement that has always existed on Earth is not only existent as our cultural configuration or power structures, but it is also inherently existent within human beings as the nature of the mind that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become. The moment we think, we are not only reflecting the nature of what is around us,we are in fact expressing the nature that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become: we actively participate in the entire mind mechanism in which we begun defining ourselves according to that which we think. What does this have to do with how the system works? Everything.

 

  • We are all aware of who the ‘dominant forces’ are in our social context: everyone that has money. It is true, there are some that have a lot more money than the average, but the moment we are the ones able to give money for someone to do the job for us and within this abdicating our responsibility to participate in an equal manner, we are accepting and allowing this mechanism of coercion to exist –  this is how our current money system works. We all trapped each other within this same enslavement system and the process of delivering ourselves from this evil as the reverse of live is a process of understanding our individual responsibility to the creation and perpetuation of the system ‘as is,’ because we have expressed our consent to ’how the system works’ by never having attempted to actually change the way it works, and even if we could spot the problem, we did not do anything about it.

 

  • Currently corporations are the main players in our reality – they exist in the same structure of our governments/ social orders in a hierarchical manner wherein people are paid to produce that which later will be sold for the purpose of ‘covering our needs’ yes, but mostly generating profit from it and in that, our entire mechanism to sustain our lives is precisely linked to a mechanism of death wherein our life force is monetized as ‘labor’ that becomes a permanent thing to do throughout our entire lives if we want to survive. In the meantime, the people that were ‘clever enough’ to accumulate all capital goods and property to hire people to do the work, are the ones that will only continue growing their wealth by maintaining the workers in an enslaved position to ensure that the expected ‘growth,’ ‘economic progress’ and ‘economic efficiency’ are guarded and assured in a direct proportional manner to the level of need that exists to have money/ have means to survive. This can only exist in a system where people are not supported from birth to death to live, and even more so it is the other way around: people currently are bound to work in order to live, because life is only possible with money and if money is run in a profit-making scheme it is obvious that some at the bottom will not get enough to make it to the top, because those at the top are the ones that set the rules of the game without any opportunity for the people as the majority to decide how a corporation is run.

 

  • Many people upon acknowledging the problem that money has become as the tool for this enslavement, at the same time disregard the fact that it can simply cease to exist as it does with the ‘almighty powers’ as a coercive belief system of values and instead, transformed to become a tool that support our very own liberation-this is what Equal Money means:  money becomes an accounting tool for trading and stand as a ‘granting rights’ document – however as we must know it is not only ‘money’ that is the problem, but our own wants, needs and desires that have become ‘who we are’ as part of our motivations in life because it is all that we have ever known thus far.

 

  • These desires, wants and needs have been shaped according to this necessary ‘masking’ and ‘adaptation’ of a system of fear and control to turn it into a feel good motivated system with positive attitudes and meanings to processes of abuse i.e., to be successful you have to learn how to ‘play the name of the game’ in the system, which means being deliberately willing to abuse in order to win.  This is where we suggest watching the documentary The Century of the Self to understand how in the past century, the political system adopted marketing techniques to sell concepts to people for purposes of control such as Democracy, Freedom and its derivatives Free Choice and Free Will. By doing a fundamental change of meaning in these words, Democracy became a synonym of Inverted Totalitarianism wherein an apparent form of elections takes place where one can choose between two or more options of officials that never implement what they promise – we should all know better by now, but because we apparently don’t, we’ve fallen every time into the acceptance of the system ‘as is’ because ‘that’s how it’s always been’ and ‘nothing’s going to change this.’ Hence we blindly accept a political system where we even know that ‘our representatives’ are not the real ones ‘in power’ although they have the legal means to execute other’s orders.

 

    “The consciousness as it now exist as humanity is the accumulated human natures of all that has ever been as beingness and we have our being as what we have accepted and allowed and unless this is faced and stopped and understood and purified, it will be the end of all. These human natures were the result of each singularly defining themselves lifetime after lifetime in self interest seeking self gratification while competing to win at all cost — and the cost that must be paid to restore this is all cost –everything you have. “–Bernard Poolman 

 

Therefore, how to deliver ourselves from our bondage?

 

 

Solution                                                              

  • The process of Manumission begins the moment that we First Inform ourselves and begin asking the right questions upon observing and introspecting about our reality. It is only through this opening initiated by self’s empirical and self directed investigation about the world system that we begin seeing everything that is wrong and not working ‘as it should’ or as we thought it worked in our society; we begin to understand the mechanisms that make it functional, the actual motivation of our lives in this system beyond what we blindly consume and satisfy our needs with. 

 

  • The first point is to understand how we have created our own bondage to our political and economic orders of absolute enslavement and polarization and as such, how to create solutions where we can ensure to one another that we don’t ever again recreate the same system of power, abuse and greed at an individual level, even if existing in an Equality based system – this is thus a profound process of individual introspection, self honesty and self investigation to see where we stand as individuals within this world, what we participate in and how we have generated the current problems and consequence by our own participation in it. This is the first step as  a solution, because if this process is done in a genuine manner, one will inevitably continue unfolding the necessary steps to create solutions once that the truth is evident and not feared or shut down from one’s awareness, but is accepted and acknowledged as a point of inevitable self responsibility.

 

  • An example is how Corporations could be in fact regulated to be directed in a way wherein maximizing profits ceases to exist as its sole purpose and instead becomes what it always should have been: a goods production organization in the best interest of all, providing quality, durable and environmental friendly products that are sold for the benefit of the final user. This is possible if all profit is shared equally through the policy of Equal Profit Share, which is one of the various proposals within the Equal Money Capitalism System, where money ceases to be the ‘motive’ but instead becomes only a way to ensure that everybody wins in the production and commercialization processes.

 

  • Beginning to question the reasons for suffering, scarcity and abuse in this world is the first step. The next one is to educate ourselves through all the vast amount of documentaries, books, websites that speak about these problems so that it becomes part of our culture to watch materials that explain ourselves in an audiovisual manner to what extent we have abdicated our self responsibility and become subject to our own ‘system configuration’ without a question, and even if the questions emerged within ourselves, we were  immediately taught to ‘stop asking’ because consequences ensued when daring to question the laws and order in which we have lived thus far. These are some basic documentaries I suggest watching as well as suggesting to visit the Documentaries and Films section at the Equal Money Forum  for regular updates and further discussions.

 

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Rewards                                                  

  • The Education about how we brought our world to shambles through abdicating our own responsibility allows us to identify where and how we missed our ability to respond to live in a common sensical manner in our word and as such, how to generate the solutions utilizing the principle of like cures like wherein we identify the problem and create the solution utilizing the current organizational mechanisms and structures that we already have. This implies that we will become aware of what Not to do in our process of creating a New Living System on Earth that functions according to the Principles of What is Best for All.

 

  • The recognition of our individual participation leads us to become humble in nature, to stop blaming others for what we believe ‘they’ have done unto us and instead, begin to see how it is that another’s wealth could only be possible through our acceptance and allowance for such legal mechanisms and political orders to exist the way they do until today. This support ourselves to realize that it is in fact a collective responsibility wherein everyone was too blind to only seek for personal self interest instead of actually implementing education on how the system works so that we can all act and make informed decisions on what we participate and what we don’t and how to solve problems once that the accepted and allowed behavior has created consequences. This process entails walking through consequence to ensure we never repeat it again, and this is in fact what is of most value because this will be a realization upon fats, upon actual consequences where by being equally affected by it, we will all be pushed to form part of the solutions to make our lives practically able to exist again.

 

  • Education about our system will thus become an integral part of our schooling systems or educational processes beginning at home, this won’t be any longer ‘specialized knowledge’ but instead a history book of a bleak past that we all must ensure we tell as a cautionary tale to never again recreate the same abuse, slavery and power structures of the past. This is the time when we learn from our mistakes, learn how to walk through a process of Self Correction and Stand up to become part of the change once that we See and Realize how we participated in it and How it is in our hands that we can conduct each other to live in Equality and share all relevant information that can make our lives better every day.

 

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290. How to End Slave Servility? Equal Money

We see our reality being reduced to a set of definitions like properties, goods, services that all mean money that is able to be accumulated to then, compare such wealth within a value system that will indicate either poverty or abundance of capital. Okay, but where do we get to consider the human factor within it all? There is no explicit description of uplifting the human being to a best for all quality living standard, nor do we even dare to place such benefits as a living right for all, and the truth is that we can only exist the way we do now by creating and maintaining a forced way to maintain a limited conception of what an economic system should be, as that ensures a limited  state of mind, a limited view of ourselves that will conform with any entry of money that enables us to exist and accept any way in which it is being provided. Is this what we can call a fair deal? No.

 

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For context on redefining capitalism, read: Day 180: The Word ‘Capitalism’ in ‘Equal Money Capitalism Redefined

 

Definition of Capitalism:

We’re going word by word in a very basic definition of Capitalism to redefine it, explore it and see what each word means and how we are able to re-direct every aspect of this collective agreement into a Best for All system.

Capitalism is an economic system that is based on private ownership of capital goods and the means of production, and the creation of goods and services for profit.[1][2] Elements central to capitalism include capital accumulation,competitive markets, and aprice system.[3]

source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Capitalism

 

Service

ORIGIN
    Old English, from Old French servise or Latin servitium ‘slavery’, from servus ‘slave’.

 

The word ‘service’ has had a negative resonance to it, it’s got to do with the way that I was raised in wherein I had a person that you can call a nanny, and I got to see or realize how she didn’t precisely liked her job, maybe not all of it, because we used to have some fun – but when it came to having to do certain thing like cleaning, she would get into a particular experience or so I remember. In spanish the word for ‘maid’ is sirvienta and this is a word I grew an aversion toward because it seemed denigrating- why? It’s got the word ‘serve’ implied and that implies already a hierarchical relationship. The aversion comes from realizing the power that money has to make these girls leave their houses at a fairly young age to work as maids/nannies just because they live in poverty and, somehow I would be ‘feeling sorry’/concerned about their experience.

 

I would place myself in that position of being away from home and really only wanting to make money to support you family living in penury wherein their need for work seemed like a punitive act. I would hear stories of how they would cry because they missed their families. Every time I would see myself being a ‘happy child’ around them, I could not ignore the fact that being with them meant me being ‘more’ than them, because they were being employed/paid by my parents,  I was going to school, watching TV and having my parents spoil me with their money – they didn’t have this and they are mostly subject to what people that hired them decides to give them access to in the house in terms of food, entertainment, place to sleep, etc. I have a lot of memories from my early years around my nanny and seeing how she would go to a beauty-school, had to work as ‘my nanny,’ then clean the house, do her practices and this was a rather fortunate position because my parents would treat her like a fourth daughter at times, but there was an inevitable distinction, and that was the role that she played at home, she was nonetheless an employee which means, she lived there because of money only.

When I went to Bavaria I saw how people say Servus in means to greet and meet and that I found it interesting, like reinstating servility/slavery to it, and in fact it does come from this – and the fact that within capitalism and its definition we don’t see the word ‘human’ or ‘work,’ or ‘living condition’ it becomes a serious topic to ratify, since we’ve done the same with the word ‘goods’ and pointed out what a trickery word it is to create an immediate positive association of the word ‘good’ and immediately place aside/ overlook the actual doing, the ‘getting there’ to that final product/good that as we all know in this world, is far from being entirely made by/through benevolent means.

 

So, the word ‘services’ within the context of our capitalism definition should be redefined in order to no longer stand as servility, as a relationship of slavery that implies a hierarchical order, it must be redefined as a giving and receiving in an Equality system wherein what I do, what I contribute will be remunerated with money in order to live a dignified living, wherein everyone will have access to money through contributing to do the jobs and activities that we prefer and enjoy doing – if everyone contributes, the ‘shitty jobs’ that no one wants to do would be distributed as part of our inherent responsibility, and that’s something I am definitely looking forward to, since it is the most sane manner in which we can All contribute to Really End Slavery.

 

Another example is that when people call you on the phone for example, and they ask you if you are this/that name, if the person is in fact such name, they answer su servidor/ your server indicating that it is you that’s such name and are ready to ‘serve you.’ This bothered me as well since to me there is no need to place ourselves as a rug on the floor in order for people to make business with us. And this example contains the aspect of convenience with it. How many times will the moon and the stars be spoken out – so to speak – by a certain sales clerk when you’re about to invest in a certain product, and we’re told how wonderful their service/product is and we are given sugar to our ears in such a way that we end up buying it? Many times, if not all the time. This is an outflow of competition between people providing the same services, everyone’s work will read to be ‘the best’/the most exclusive/with the most experience/having all the credentials necessary and being people’s favorite. Isn’t this tricking ourselves to buy just to make a sale of our services? Yes, and we’ve accepted this as ‘how things work.’ 

 

I disliked the fact that people had to revere to you when you’re about to buy, it’s like money has this intrinsic power to bend, mold, shape and twist people around according to the amount of power you hold in your hand in the form of money.

 

There is also of course services that are being sold and that should be in themselves a basic human right. Medical services are expensive ones throughout the world, yes, you may have social security but that only comes if you are already working in a stable job, and currently not all jobs offer social security as a guarantee, because it involves further contacts, responsibility and investment from the employer. Therefore, health becomes a luxury when it should be a living right, it becomes another preferential opportunity for those that have enough money to pay for private health services that are better than public ones. And the list goes ad nauseam, simply because with money being a synonym of power which invariably creates hierarchy and slavery, because the moment that money is not something that is able to be reached by all people equally, we’re faced with an invariable disparity that must be addressed every time that we seek to create a change in this world.

 

We have to redefine the word ‘service’ in our basic definition of capitalism in order to restore the equality that should exist within a giving and receiving condition of relationships, this is the only way to ensure that a service is no longer stemming from a forced necessity to live, a forced activity that competes against others, that is no longer acting like an activity that people see no option to succumb to work in, just because the opportunities are ‘here.’ This can be a sex-server’s justification for entering the realm of prostitution wherein there is no way that a ‘decent job’ would provide them with the same affluence of money compared to working ‘by their own means,’ and even in this, we realize the relationships of protectionism as the pimp that must get some of it in exchange of the security and protection that women require in these contexts.

 

So the whole term of ‘goods and services’ is a well made trick to imply usury, hierarchical powers, cheating, lying, submission and of course any lack of integrity at the moment, which is why we have all accepted the world ‘as is’ and learn from a very young age that one must be corrupted in this world in order to make it, which is a point that caused me a great conflict in terms of my morals o always ‘doing the right thing’ but if cheating is the way to get ahead, you have to comply to the majority or you’re left out of the game. And this is precisely what I mean by pushing each other’s envelope to further abuse and extremities to make money, we can create a service out of nowhere. Like if you would enjoy planning parties and supporting your friend to to do it, it has now become a very well paid activity, the same with childcare or tutoring,  or showing how to cook, or sharing computer skills – we’ve turned everything into a service, because there are not many options that we have to make a decent living in this system.

 

Workforce is what makes the ‘service’ possible and if we create a system wherein activities will be paid as regular jobs – yet –having such activities being the basic activities that make a system functional, then, would prostitution would still be a preferred service by women? will taking care of other people’s children still be a choice to work on – could be, but for the most part all parents will have sufficient time to take care of their own children, so all nanny/maid services won’t continue to exist, unless there is a specific reason and there is someone willing to do the job for it, that should remain as a possibility.

 

However, what we are removing from the equation is the Forced activities that we are pushing each other to work in within the current way capitalism works, wherein some people are Deliberately left out of the equation and pushed to be part of the service-force doing jobs like cleaning or garbage collection, or domestic work which end up being a person’s entire lifetime jobs and one should place oneself in the shoes of the garbage collector, the sewage cleaner, the toilet scrubber, the sweatshop worker, children selling candies on the street, the maids in people’s houses, factory workers: were we meant to live to do this for an entire lifetime? Is this what ‘Living’ means?

 

You can agree by now that it is not – we have been serving only the money-god with no real consideration of How we are giving/granting access to money, and this is what must be aligned in order to understand what we are all collectively perpetuating if allowing our current capitalist system to continue ‘as is.’

 

The fact is that as long as we are only working ‘for money’ and not because we actually care and enjoy to contribute to a particular sector of our system to sustain it, makes us all slaves equally – are we ready for a change? Of course, as ready as we’ll ever be.

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265. Seeking for the Next Fix: a LIEfstyle

A key aspect that we use as an excuse, reason and justification to ‘evade reality’ is precisely the way in which we have accepted and allowed ourselves to shape reality as, which is through relationships of abuse and mutual neglect. It isn’t pretty and that is why we turn to love, light, spirituality, happiness, fulfillment, enjoyment which is mostly translated to drugs and spirituality or spiritual-entheogen trips that lead to the ultimate high that is quite difficult to let go as an experience, and it is quite fascinating how such Experience becomes a constant ‘thrill’ that is sought by individuals, revolving their entire lives around these moments wherein they can feel ‘more alive’ or ‘more connected to themselves’ and existing in this paradise like realm of their mind in a virtual reality formed through visions that are upgraded to the status of revelations and mythical encounters that one is apparently getting to as a ‘moreness’ of oneself.

 

So here I want to focus in the mechanisms that lead oneself to seek for this evasion of reality and justifying it with some sense of ‘spirituality,’ which has become another excuse to seek ‘peace and love’  – like in the 60’s – while adding the ‘transcendental’ aspect to make it seem more ‘evolved’ in nature, yet at the level of who we are as the mind, it’s exactly the same thing.

 

This constant seeking for the ‘good experience’ is precisely explained in the Quantum Systemization interview: Quantum Systemization – Mind Wallpaper System – Part 14 wherein this ‘feel good experiences’ are in essence covering up the actual reality that is existent as our inherent nature that we are constantly seeking to cover up/ sugar up and spice in order to hide from facing ourselves as our mind, our reality, our creation.

While listening to this interview, it became clear to answer the questions as to why we have always had in the back of our heads ‘all I want in life is to be happy’ and how we will do all that we can to justify our happiness thrill, claim that we are hurting/harming no one in order to remain seeking this personal blissful self-experience that in fact is stemming not from a benevolent truthful desire to become a better human being, but to evade reality, to ‘see more’ and eventually end up hooking only within the experience that we perceive as absolutely positive and nice with all the fluffy silky experiences in the mind. Well, what has been unknown so far within our human knowledge at the expense of what we are able to generate such marvelous self-experiences, and that is: at the expense of the human physical body – read the entire series to get more information on this, including:

155. Are we all Cannibals? « and a quote that sums it all up:

 

“Where I had within and throughout my Life, created who I am in my mind, and connected everything/everyone into and as my who I am in my Mind and so emerged into/as physicality reality through a Mind/as a Mind. Where, the processes of thinking/internal conversations emerged as how I would, within my Mind-Reality and the relationships I had formed within it – evolve it through thinking, and having internal conversations within myself and substantiate the Mind through/with energy/energy-experience as I make my internal alternate mind reality of actual physical reality ‘alive’. And so create an entire ILLUSION of what it means to live/be alive, not seeing, realising and understanding how for the Mind to exist, the Physical Body is sacrificed..” – Sunette Spies – Thought Designs – Part 2: DAY 154

Continuing from:

220. Drug Culture: Mad Society as a Lifestyle

 

So, before we get to the spirituality realm of justifications to seek for the positive, seek to get a constant experience of this ‘godhood’ through drugs and believe that everything is just fantastic “outside of our bodies” while seeking to connect with a higher force, let’s look at the reality conditions that I have summed up today from a group chat wherein we discussed all the entertainment and forms of distraction that we have used in order to not become politically active, which should in essence be an inherent living condition to our human-nature, meaning: we are social beings, we live in an organism, we Should care about all aspects that define and decide the way that we live and interact within this same ecosystem. Thus it should be already a matter of psychological dysfunction to think and believe that we should only look after our own interests while holding the constant backchat of ‘I don’t care about anyone else but me,’ which is the type of cancerous thinking that we end up wanting to run away from when we avoid realizing how we have created our reality through such constant and continuous thinking processes, which is us participating in the mind to create our reality: big problem.

 

Drugs are pervasive within all circles/castes in society: wealthy, ‘middle class’ and people living in extreme poverty, all use drugs alike. It should already be a matter of public health crisis to see this problem, why is it that no amount of apparent ‘well being’ can also mitigate the need to get high/ consume drugs. In fact, when having a lot of money, you get power-high and seek for further forms of entertainment that usually incorporate more ‘extreme’ activities as entertainment that usually entail more abuse that elevate the energetic ‘kick’ out of it. This is why people turn to for example, extreme sadist pornography/ snuff films, killing and torturing animals, ritualistic abuses and rites of passage that lead to an apparent ‘welcoming’ to a certain era/phase or place in a human’s life, absolutely gut revolting when considering to what extent we regard suffering as a form to prove oneself being ‘strong enough’ to make it in this world – Evolution, anyone?

 

Alcohol, drugs, sex, entertainment and its multiple hybrids and variations are always sought. Once again, here we are not looking at ‘why’ drugs are bad or good, but the root-cause of such pervasive desire to ‘escape from reality’ which I gathered from our group conversation:

poverty, lack of resources, wealth, uselessness, evading reality, freedom from the ‘hooks’ of the mind, feeling good, escaping from stress, fitting in, socializing, keeping awake, passing time, disinhibiting purposes, wild sex,  personal reward system, moment of distraction justified by not harming anyone, earning such heavenly moment through hard work, relaxation, getting a break from oneself, turning the tables, opposing the system, spiting society, being progressive, being liberal, being transgressive, open mindedness, spiritual purposes, self-connection, enlightenment, mitigating hunger, avoiding pain, boredom, anxiety, nervousness, hyperactivity, depression, looking for a thrill, wanting to ‘feel alive!’ and the list goes on….

 

what do all of these processes have in common? The mind. These are Not physical experiences craved by the physical body to exist, they are Mind experiences that we have believed ourselves to be/ become and seek to escape from, quite a conundrum to see how we have built our entire civilization based on this desire to ‘feel good’ wherein physical needs and requirements are neglected and mind-desires and obsessions are fueled and supported as an actual ‘living right,’ as proof of this,  it’s easier to see a TV and drugs in a poor family home than proper sewage and potable water systems, along with decent infrastructure and food – and by drugs I don’t only mean ‘hard drugs,’ but alcohol is part of the generic term that should be applied to alcohol as a social self-indulgent drug that has been made ‘mild’ due to the key factor it represents in the numbing and dumbing down of society –as well as the juicy profit – and believe that everyone is being ‘free to exert their right to drink,’ which is one of the main reasons why people want to get to their 18 or 21 years of age: to be legally able to be self-abusive and… vote, yes of course…

 

Social responsibility have been thrown out of the window because: monkey see, monkey do and through this, we are all taking ourselves down the plughole to a massive electric shock to ‘feel good’ and define that as enjoyment. Now, we have gotten hooked on self abuse through looking at such self-abuse all around us, because not giving proper support to all living beings is self abusive, not caring enough about life to create immediate solutions to live in dignity is deliberate self abuse and neglect, not giving a damn about all the resources in the Earth that we are consuming to build our ‘civilizations’ is self-abusive.

 

So we create our ‘windows of escapism’ from the nightmare and hell we all help build and recreate every single day that we define ‘who we are’ as the mind.  – Catch the drift?

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become so addicted and hooked on to my own thoughts, feelings and emotions that I have sought to get More of such energetic experiences, regardless of the amount of abuse it entails –

I realize that the outflows we are facing as humanity is our consequence for having followed through with energy and the mind while neglecting physical reality as who I really am and must honor in Equality and I see that everything that I have ever participated in as the mind is the Lie that we have used to consume the Life that we are and embody, and as such have used the same mind to formulate reasons, excuses and justifications to ‘keep our party alive,’ pretending one can genuinely ‘forget’ about something and not have it all come back 10 times fold once the high is gone.

 

I commit myself to explain and properly share how it is that through one’s own self-addiction to the mind, we have created this current world of vanity and egoism that only seeks to ‘feel good’ and believe that ‘no one is being harmed through it,’ which is quite the ultimate declaration of the cells that compound the cancer as the desire for more, as an ‘overgrowth’ that must be brought to justice by our own hand: we educate ourselves, we support people to wake up and the decision must be made by self as an actual irrevocable decision to never again support the same abusive system that we have become as the externalization of the relationship between the mind and the physical body.

 

I commit myself to live the realization that it is only through equal and one support that we can stop seeking to ‘escape from reality’ and instead look forward to live and create a real living-environment where getting high becomes a real thing of the past.

 

We will continue with this in the next post – suggest you review the long list and spot where and how you are trying to escape your reality and what do you use to do so.

 

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237. Living IntelliSense as Life in Equality

Would a drive for intelligence exist if there were no ‘props’ for it within the system?

We accepted and allowed a rating system in school that becomes the equivalent of your potential job opportunities without any further questions about this to be a ‘real measure’ of an individual’s potential. We have accepted and allowed a number or a letter to define ‘who we are’ within the system because schooling is the platform of adjustment and allocation as to who you will be throughout your entire life as an individual according to the money you are able to obtain from your ability to be intelligent or not, and as such, decide careers according to your mental capacity. Is this a Real way to measure a being’s skills and abilities? Of course it isn’t.

 

Grades in school  and the education system are just like price tags upon anything of this world: it is a make believe system that we all believe is ‘who we are’ – and  as such, calling oneself intelligent is only realizing one’s ability to use the mind within this system that is the externalization of our own mind, it’s like tuning in to a proper functioning within the same hierarchical  schemes of the world in a proper and successful manner and be rewarded for it even further, wherein there is no glory without abuse.

Continuing from:

 

Ever questioned why the people that ‘had it easier’ in the system would end up having a lot of money and even free stuff/ more privileges besides all their money earned? Incentives to continue supporting the system, never questioning, feeding the desire for more as a perfect way to control even to the ‘winners’ themselves, more and more being unaware of reality and the actual consequences that are being created due to this negligible process.

 

The self correction in relation to a single character that we define ourselves as implies a written process, however it is not only about me stopping existing within a self-definition as a value given within/ by a system that has never supported life, but also seeing what must be changed at a system level so that never again is one human being considered as ‘more’ than others according to being able to measure ‘who I am’ as an individual that responds to the system, to sustain it, feed it within its hierarchical schemes, instead of actually establishing a new of living wherein our education system is never again based on indoctrinating kids with beliefs of ‘who they are’ being able to be measured by a single number, creating competition, breeding separation between those that should be taught to regard each other as equals.

 

When and as I see myself ‘spiting’ this intelligent character by playing out the opposite as being irresponsible or lacking any drive to Move within the academic world, I stop and I breathe – I realize that through ‘spiting the character’ I am only going into the opposite polarity to apparently ‘make up for my self-definition,’ without realizing that as consciousness we will always drive ourselves to the opposite as a personality system that will then also have to be walked in order to understand how we have developed a biased living-condition based on satisfying roles and personalities only. Thus I direct myself to simply direct myself to that which I have to do and not begin doing it as a form of opposing my ‘past personalities’ or ‘spiting who I was’ in the past, as that is certainly not a common sensical solution.

To understand how consciousness operates when dealing with personality systems, listen to Quantum Systemization – Resonance Absorption Membrane – Part 3

 

I commit myself to stop any form of ‘spite’ toward my old personalities and trying to ‘make up for them’ through going to the opposite polarities, not realizing that this will lead me nowhere but into further self limitations – I direct myself to do, say, act upon what is required to be directed, being here as breath which implies no memories defining ‘who I am’ toward that point

 

When and as I see myself somehow lingering on to a self definition of being ‘intelligent’ when compared to others, I stop and I breathe – I realize that who I really am exists as equal potential and physicality as everything and everyone else – hence I direct myself to stop my self-assessment in comparison to others and focus on listening, breathing, interacting with others from the starting point of always supporting ourselves to establish Common Sense reasoning within any event or situation, which does not imply having to have a certain amount of knowledge and information, but simply walk ‘who I am’ within an awareness of what is required to be directed, done, said and acted upon.

 

When and as I see myself accessing a superiority mode according to knowledge and information that I have accumulated and experiencing a sense of ‘power’ within it, I stop and I breathe – I realize that the only real power is who we are here as physical beings and breath. there is nothing else.

 

When and as I see myself assessing my ‘potential’ according to the amount of knowledge and information that I have about something and believing that such point is ‘not my field’  – I stop and I breathe – I realize that my own limitations only exist at a mind level and as such, I can direct myself to try them out in physical reality to see the validity of such limitations and within this, develop further skills that are not only related to memorizing or storing data, but obviously developing common sense as the actual intelligence that we as human beings should support each other to integrate as part of our living skills.

 

I commit myself to participate within the establishment and creation of an education system wherein we no longer measure each other according to the numbers/letters we get as ‘grades’ defining who we are according to being intelligent/ not intelligent.

 

I commit myself to equalize myself to my physical body as the actual common sensical and physical intelliSense that we can integrate as a practical living skill, which means no longer diminishing ‘who I am’ as a set of knowledge and information, but actually expanding ourselves to be and become human beings that are self aware within this world system within the consideration that it is in our ability to live to our fullest potential if we provide enough platforms of self support as basic education, beginning with parents and the understanding of what is of real value within this world, which is then not linked to knowledge and information but an actual self equality and oneness

 

I commit myself to develop an IntelliSense wherein common sense is lived and promoted by myself through my own application as words and deeds that are able to redefine intelligence to an actual living skill that everyone is equally capable of developing through self-support as a practical living education wherein what’s required at all times is to consider what’s best for all in All areas of our living – and this is thus the best way to set the foundation for a world wherein we can regard each other as equals in our ability to coexist within a set of life-values that can be integrated to a real intelligence such as doing onto others what you would like to  be done onto you, giving and receiving equally, considering each other as equally ‘valuable’ as life and ‘love thy neighbor as thyself’ which is a point that we all have to first integrate toward ourselves as an actual living cultivation of honoring and respecting ourselves as life, so that we step out of our current narrow view upon life where knowledge and information is ‘praised’ and instead, we develop an equal and one living-application of this equal regard of practical things to direct in order to support each other to live in the most optimal condition.

 

Knowledge without application is useless and as such, I commit myself to expose also where our knowledge and information as our ‘ranking systems’ to define a being’s ability to exist within the system is flawed and that there is no possibility for us to realize to what extent we have separated ourselves from who we really are as the physical unless each one takes responsibility for what we’ve become within this single consideration of ‘intelligence’ that each one has, either ‘superior’ or ‘inferior’ it is still a limited definition of who we are.

 

I realize that I had lived out this self definition based on participating within all the memories that valued myself as such, without realizing that all definitions created at a mind level are not in fact the real substance that I am – yet, I tis my absolute responsibility to ensure no single speck of superiority remains within this realm of self definition as intelligence.

 

I commit myself to expose how it is that intelligence has not existed as an actual honorable skill in this world, otherwise we would not be so busy cultivating our minds as this world system that runs upon an abusive make-believe system of values that only benefit those that are in a position to get the most money/ resources from the hierarchical disposition of the world system, which is the system that we have all complied to and abided to by virtue of living in this world.

 

I commit myself to expose how it is actually abusive to only define someone according to a letter or a number as ‘who they are’ in their skills and mental abilities. I support myself to walk the living correction of having defined ‘who I am’ according to a number as grades within the schooling system and equalize myself as that which has always been in fact real: myself as my physical body that I breathe in here.

 

I commit myself to live in humbleness as an ability to use any current lived-skill within knowledge and information and the ability to memorize toward a best for all outcome. Within this also realizing that we Still live in a world wherein we are still being ranked according to these schemes – therefore it is not to ‘ditch out’ our grades/ degrees in the schooling system, but to equalize ourselves to it so that we are Not defined by it, yet we use what we got in order to walk through it and be able to sustain ourselves within this current system, while at the same time, aligning our actual living values to that which is Real as the physicality and life that we all are equally.

 

When and as I see myself in any  interaction wherein I see myself accessing the knowledgeable persona in order to ‘have the answer to it all’ – I stop and I breathe – I realize that this is my ego wanting to ‘pop up’ in order to seem like I ‘always have the answer’ which is only a point that bursts like a bullet and it happens when I am not breathing – thus

 

I commit myself to realize that having any form of ability to store memories with certain ease is not an indication of intelligence but simply a skill, a mind ability that is able to be developed equally for all beings that are able to live in a stable condition throughout their first living years, which is a point that we can all commit ourselves to investigate how that works and functions at a mind-physical level, such as educating oneself with the Quantum Mind Self Awareness Interviews, wherein we can stop speculating about ‘Intelligence’ and instead, learn how we have always had the exact same abilities as a potential existent within each one to be developed to an optimal degree wherein we can all learn how to make use of our mind in an equal and one basis to our physical, instead of conceiving this intelligence as something ‘more’ or ‘special’ for only a few.

 

 

I commit myself to establish a self-integrity based on living skills that are self supportive for all as equals and within this, learn how to live physically which is something that is then walked through/ lived/ breathed and not ‘known’ as data only.

I commit myself to continue assisting and supporting myself whenever this self definition rears its head as an ego-burst and direct myself to breathing and realizing that who we are is equal in all ways, we just have to learn how to actually live it out within and without – which means, I live out my inner process of self-equality and oneness between my physical body and my mind to no longer be having to ‘think’ to live, and the same without as a world system that supports common sense living, valuing life and supporting each other to let us know when we are going into any ego-drive of intelligence over matter.

 

I commit myself to explain and expose how we have only pursued ‘intelligence’ do to the rewards given toward such ability/ skill in the system and as such place a parallel of how things would change wherein there is no more remuneration to such ‘intelligence’ within an Equality System wherein every single being will be exposed to the exact same amount of information as a point of support to live, within this eradicating any form of intellectual elitism based on intelligence as an actual ‘gift’ for some and transform it into a single aspect we can all develop in an equal and one manner Within the consideration of the physical reality and what’s best for all.

 

I commit myself to live my self-equality and oneness by being here as breath throughout any form of interaction with others, being aware of listening/ hearing in the moment and not skipping the moment to speak but allow myself to breathe and then interact within common sense = saying ‘an answer’/ giving knowledge and information does not make me ‘more’ than myself physically here.

 

I commit myself to make use of the education that I have toward a best for all outcome and actually contribute to give an end to this current world system so that we can focus on developing/ cultivating the actual values of life which is life itself in equality.

 

“from Intelligence to IntelliSENSE would be the process from knowledge and information, to commonsense practical reasoning” – Sunette Spies

 

I suggest to all parents to educate themselves to not push your children to be ‘intelligent’ or a ‘good student’ as prescribed within our current system, it is best to support them to develop that which they are good at even if it is not within the realm of our current subjects in school and direct them to consider their skills and abilities toward the manifestation of a change within this world that they can contribute to in an equal manner. It is not to judge them for not getting ‘goo grades,’ but rather find the point that has not been properly integrated, the belief that might be tampering their schooling process and support them to equalize themselves to their fullest potential. For that, self support through writing, self forgiveness and self corrective application is suggested, beginning with you as a parent that seeks ‘excellence’ within children but has not actually first lived out that for yourself. Let’s begin our common sensical living from ourselves individually first.

 

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236. Perfect Slave with Badges of Honor

“from Intelligence to IntelliSENSE would be the process from knowledge and information, to commonsense practical reasoning” – Sunette Spies

 

Continuing from:

 

Self Forgiveness on the Intelligence Character:

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to define intelligence according to ‘having good grades in school’ and being recognized as superior/  more than others for that.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link intelligence to responsibility within the context of how I developed this skill of being able to learn/memorize things and do the respective tasks/ assignments at school in a timely and precise manner which suited the character of being ‘intelligent and responsible’ within the context of school only, believing that I was in fact ‘intelligent’ and ‘responsible’ as form of special trait within me, without realizing they were just skills developed and used within only a particular field of my reality such as school, yet in terms of other aspect of myself I would not be responsible and would not be common sensical to question reality further than what I was taught about it, which proves then that intelligence was a self-belief fueled by others within my reality as ‘who I am.’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create a relationship of self definition toward knowledge and information as ‘what I am good for’ in terms of working with it, memorizing it and as such due to how our school system is configured, the more you memorize stuff = the more intelligent you are considered – within this missing out an actual ability to discern what is of real value in this world as life and physicality, just because of learning how to cultivate and attain this ‘superiority’ of mind, that actually only serves the same system as the world system that is configured as our individual minds, within this supporting the inherent separation that we’ve become as fully fledged mind systems that disregard the physicality that we are as equality, learning to value life within the mind according to knowledge and information that later on becomes money to sell oneself within the system in order to be able to live – that’s what our knowledge and information has served then: energy and not life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define, consider and believe that intelligence was a ‘positive trait’ within human beings as something that I had to cultivate, without ever being actually common sensical about this association and placing it within the context of how the world is functioning where no super-intelligent being has made use of such intelligence to present and promote solutions that could change the way we live and participate within this world, within an actual regard of what’s best for all. This is what must be now regarded as an actual intelligence as intelliSense that is able to be cultivated, promoted and integrated within human beings through us sharing how we have come to understand that we have never lived in common sense, but only followed knowledge and information as ‘who we are,’ separating ourselves from our own physicality and diminishing ourselves to be this limited version as a database that is functional within only a certain aspect in our reality. Not at all what Living Life should be about.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that such intelligence was dependent on the ability to memorize and how I created a relationship to memorize knowledge and information with certain ‘ease’ according to the environment and the conditions I was brought up in – For more explanation on this, hear the Quantum Mind Self Awareness Part 37 that explains how Language is formed and as such, what our ‘intelligence’ in fact is.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get excited every time that I would be able to absorb more knowledge and information within the belief that ‘the more I know/ memorize and accumulate, the More I am’ but not from a reality-understanding perspective, but just piling up the data of knowledge and information that we have to go through within our education and define myself according to it, within this creating a positive experience toward learning, which I also judged because I was supposed to ‘hate school’ as everyone else did, but I didn’t – therefore

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to copy the perspectives of people toward school/ learning as something that is not desirable, and creating an entire self definition according to ‘who I am’ as in secretly enjoying the accumulation of knowledge and information and build a self definition around it, while keeping an opposite façade toward my peers so that I would not be able to be called a nerd or any other name that is pejorative toward anyone that is ‘good’ in school.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to place this ‘extra value’ toward who I am as this ‘intelligent character’ without realizing that it wasn’t really a ‘virtue’ but only knowledge and information that I had a certain ability to imprint/ memorize within myself, but, being also aware of how there was no practical application for that, other than getting ‘good grades’ in school and being able to explain how things work from what I read in books, which implies that all I have ever done as my supposed ‘intelligence’ was copying-pasting information in my mind to be able to use it as required – which, for that matter, we are all equally within this application as mind systems, wherein everything we do is out of memory that we’ve gotten from our parents and past generations, the environment itself with specific programmed patterns that we integrate at a physical level and simply ‘automate’ our living through that.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that anything that is knowledge and information can only exist as the mind consciousness system, as that part of me that I have delegated my actual physical hereness and self directive awareness to, wherein I have defined myself according to the ‘cultivation of knowledge’ as a prop for my own identity/ personality as ego – and within this, diminish myself to be ‘only good for one thing’ which was just being this ‘intelligent character’ while neglecting to cultivate/  apply myself within the aspects that I thought were simply ‘not my thing’ without even trying them out,  such as being one and equal with my physical and being more physical in my every day living, due to having cultivated my mind for the most part of my life. Hence

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to define me as being ‘good’ for dealing/ handling with knowledge and information and any Mind-work and be sucking at/ bad/ not good enough for any Physical-work, not realizing this was the result of my own self belief played out as ‘who I am’ according to this inherent acceptance of every human being only being good at some things and not good at others, and blindly accept this as such and define good and bad according to my own belief of who I am toward certain activities.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to not question this ‘intelligence’ that I apparently had, and within this not ponder about the information that I was integrating within myself, which was only a limited perception of what we as mind systems have been able to depict and define about humanity and reality, believing that it is in fact so, believing it to be real, without realizing that all that I cultivated was myself as a mind consciousness system looking at itself as such,  but never as an actual physical being that can be absolutely self aware in every moment of breath – wherein one would not require to Know about reality through knowledge and information, but be here in self awareness and understanding all the relationships we hold as part of the whole.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever believe that I had in fact a form of ‘gift’ for having this ‘ease’ with studies/ knowledge and information and its integration, without realizing that it was all just based on an ability to copy information, store it and then, speak it out.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be aware of this copy-speaking information at a certain level and compare myself to people that I deemed as ‘real intelligent people’ who were actually simply only doing the same mechanism, but veered toward other fields that I considered ‘beyond myself’ such as mathematics, physics and engineering which I believed were ‘superior’ than my so-called intelligence, which proves that even if one deems intelligence as part of one’s ability, there will always in the mind be a point of comparison to make oneself more or less than, invariably so, as in the mind one is seemingly never ‘good enough.’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to feel ‘bad’ whenever anyone would say ‘I want to be like you’ wherein I would mostly ask a non-existent god ‘but WHY can’t they also have it easy?’ yet at the same time, believing that I had this ‘gift’ for some miraculous reason and not question it further, not challenge it but only later on spite it, only to end up spiting myself of course.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to use intelligence later on as a way to make up for all the other apparent flaws I had, such as lacking an actual physical condition that would be the most healthy or good looking according to the social standards, or being comfortable in socializing – which I only acquired later through association – but for the most part, believe that I could Not have it all, and that I had been given this ‘intelligence’ and that something had to be ‘flawed’ within me in return, such as struggling with accepting myself as my physical appearance, or not having a great physical conditions for sports of high impact and so forth – all of which became part of the limitations I accepted and allowed through family beliefs wherein I learned that we were ‘good’ for being ‘intelligent’ but we would suck at sports or any other outdoor physical activity, within this accepting such limitation as ‘real’ and later on actually living it out as ‘who I am.’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to define and direct my life within this limited scope accepted and allowed self definition within the belief that ‘I am only good at being intelligent’  – and within that only, create this inner conflict within me based on ending up believing that I was intelligent in fact, and that I was not good at other aspects or fields even within knowledge and information in itself, which became thus a reduced point for me to believe that I was probably only good at being intelligent from the perspective of being mostly obeying the system and that’s it, which within this created a personality of responsibility linked to ‘being intelligent’ which is where my fuck up exists,

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to within the desire to spite this so-called intelligence’ I ended up challenging it because of how I had been fed up with being only associated throughout my life to being this ‘intelligent and responsible person’ that I saw as utterly useless, since within me, there was a lot of inner conflict for not having been able to define who I really was outside of that character/abilities and as such, believing it was ‘unfair’ that I could only be valued for this limited ability to store knowledge and information and speak it out, therefore seeking for other ways to be recognized, praised by others in the opposite pole as in the emotional/ feeling aspect, which I why I deliberately veered toward an ‘artistic career’ and ditched any other expectations teachers, parents or anyone else had told me about such as opting for careers/ professions dealing with numbers, science or further ‘mind cultivation careers’ without realizing that everything in this world-system is currently existent as the mind in itself, therefore there is no point such as something being more ‘humane’ as I defined emotions/ feelings to be than a structural-knowledge and information career, since all that I really am was obviously disregarded within this equation, which is neglecting the physical.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place up a ‘high expectation’ on myself for being apparently this bright person and within this feed my specialness and uniqueness within and throughout my life, within this love/ hate relationship of wanting to be recognized as intelligent and at the same time, hate it because of only being reduced to that, which is just a conflictive-play out in my mind that is always existent whenever we define who we are as our mind and the mind thrives off of energy created through any form of friction and conflict that generates emotions and feelings. Within this creating a ‘depressed state’ because of realizing how I had this apparent flaw to establish personal relationships, because of only being perceived as this ‘intelligent responsible person that others feared’  and creating my own bubble of self-pity just as another entertainment and tunnel vision for myself while growing up.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to then seek to spite my own ‘intelligence’ by wanting to develop what I believed was ‘more human’ within me, which was all the emotional/feeling character that I deliberately started developing so that I could be identified more with a more ‘humane scope’ of who I am as these feelings and emotions as ‘sensitivity’ other than being only this rational or ‘intelligent’ person that can memorize stuff and get good grades in the schooling system. Within this, believing firmly that who I really was, were my emotions and feelings, which is how I cultivated this aspect a  lot in a deliberate manner, which is what I am walking as a process wherein I made decision in my life based on satisfying and fulfilling this ‘sensitivity character’  linked to an ‘artistic’ apparent trait.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see that no matter which career or which ‘side’ I would cultivate ‘who I am’ in, it was all based on energy – either through the ‘logical/intellectual’ side and aspect as the ‘intelligent character’ or the other one as the ‘sensitive/humane’ character as all the emotional/feeling development that I built as ‘who I am’ – all were based on and as the mind in itself in both aspects that we tend to veer our lives around: being structural or expressive and creating an inner conflict about that, wherein I ended up ‘spiting’ the structural side, the logical/ intellectual/ knowledgeable side and opted to define me as the ‘expressive’ side, not realizing that in this decision, I never considered myself as the physical body in and as a Self-Equality, but only that which I would be able to ‘experience’ at a mind level, which proves how this system in its entirety has never in fact regarded physicality as who we are, since we are always veering toward one side or the other as self definitions in our mind, without even understanding how our very own physical body works, which should already have placed a massive question that I never asked in terms of why we are not self-aware of every single cell of our physical body and the rest of reality for that matter, proving to what extent such perceived intelligence was never ‘real’ as I accepted this entire world ‘as is,’ even if it created a point of inner conflict at times, I would simply let go of the conflict and focus on what I was able to grasp and integrate as ‘who I am’ as more knowledge and information.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still for some reason wanted to believe that I could hold on to this perceived ‘positive trait’ within me, which for that matter would be like wanting to hold on to my mind as this ego-personality that I’ve become to such an extent, that I have not been able to absolutely let go of it. I realize that we live in a system wherein the ability to store knowledge and information and speak about it is regarded as intelligence, and that it is thus my duty as part of my process to direct this ability to develop an actual common sensical understanding of life and living, wherein there is no knowledge and information per se  to memorize, but only understand the processes that lead us to be and become who we are, and within this, be able to transmit it, share it as part of the basic education that we will be living and actually Applying as part of our alignment to that which is Real as ourselves, as physical beings that are integrated with common sense as practical living skills that are applicable within understanding how reality works and as such, direct ourselves within that understanding toward a best for all outcome.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to only believe that I was a system that can regurgitate knowledge and information and that probably that was ‘it’ for me, that was my task, in this – I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to diminish the totality of who I am as a physical being, a part of this whole to a Very limited configuration of a mind system that exists as an energetic churning machine, that consumes physicality to be able to ‘run its course’ and believe that ‘that was all that I am’ and that I had to accept other ‘flaws’ within me because I had to apparently be grateful for being this ‘intelligent person.’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become the accumulation of memories of people saying that I was intelligent and ending up believing that I was in fact so, which is how we trap ourselves in lies and self definitions toward each other, instead of actually recognizing each other as the life that we really in fact are as equals, that physicality is not defined by a mind-configuration in itself but exists here as the innocence of what life should be, untainted by our energetic schemes that divide and separate ourselves from ourselves and from living in itself, limited to cultivating our minds only and forgetting even about breathing.

 

What type of intelligence is this that we’ve defined ourselves as where we can spend the days Thinking and not even being aware of being a breathing living human being?

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I had some form of advantage within this process due to this so-called intelligence, which is really nothing else but being able to remember things with probably a bit of more ease, within the realization that it does not make oneself ‘more’ than others, it is just like others being able to have a perfect physical condition to run for a long time and I believe myself to be incapable of doing that, without realizing that all such points entail a physical training and practice – either cultivating the mind or physical activity – nothing is simply ‘magically’ here as a certain ability.

 

The proof of this is that if a kid was born between animals and that kid had no ability to develop memory in the way that a child would do within the ‘family environment’ as in having parents and school speaking words, experiences, and as such learning how to memorize the words, sounds, alphabet, etc. they would simply be considered as ‘not intelligent’ within the system standards, but probably that child would have learned practical skills to survive on their own within a particular environment, which proves that what we currently define as ‘intelligence’ is according to this configuration of the world based on knowledge and information that supports this entire limited-version of reality that we live in, which is then placing on a pedestal all people as walking knowledge and information databases that will enable the continuation of the same system in place, which is then where we as people that are becoming self aware of what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become, must stop the continuation of this superior/ special regard to all such knowledge and information that supports the ‘old system,’ and instead focus on walking our own integration of common sensical living wherein we Live the redefinition of intelligence to intellisense: from knowledge and information to a common sensical living awareness of ourselves as physical beings in a physical world, where no more knowledge and information, including our emotions and feelings, define ourselves and limit us between either sides of the poles, but equalize everything that we have been and become through these energetic associations toward our reality, which includes all our self-definitions that simply do not regard life or consider equality as who we really are.

 

“Intelligence is a programme of consciousness/the mind  that consist of and exist as the/a entire body of knowledge and information definitions about ourselves/ ‘who we are’ and our relationships towards ourselves, others and this world as a whole that in fact separate us from ourselves, each other and this world/physical existence. Because we’ve created relationships towards ourselves, others and this world through definitions/programmes within our Mind, and not in fact lived and actual real physical equality and oneness with ourselves, each other and this world. Intelligence is the programme/manifestation that actually separate us from establishing real/eternal relationships of physical equality and oneness” – Sunette Spies

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the relationship of myself toward myself through my mind only and in this, accept the limited scope of defining me as only knowledge and information that I Thought I was ‘good at handling,’ without realizing that in this, any form of actual common sense development was not cultivated, because of learning only through copying and pasting and remaining within the standards and frames of what was good/ right, making me more like the example of what a ‘perfect system’ within this system would be like: being responsible, not questioning further and doing everything I was asked to do. Perfect slave with badges of honor.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be aware to a certain extent of what a lie this intelligence was, but accept it because it ‘at least’ made me feel ‘more’ than others within my mind and create a point of specialness, uniqueness and stand as an example of how to be the perfect system for others to copy, which I believed was my role and simply had to play along, not questioning the actual hierarchical separation and segregation I was cultivating within this all, which is unacceptable to say the least since I only regarded ‘How I experienced myself as an intelligent/ non intelligent  person,’ disregarding the effect of accepting such character within the schooling system and those that had to be deemed as ‘inferior’ for me to be the ‘superior one.’

 

I breathe, I stabilize myself physically and walk through the manifested consequences due to my own accepted and allowed playing of characters without considering physical reality consequences.

 

More to come in the next blog, continuing dissecting this knowledgeable entity that I have dragged as ‘who I am’ and directing myself to equalize myself in all ways to my own physicality.

 

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211. Why is Life a Struggle? Why Can’t All be just HAPPY?

 
We’ve come to neglect the fact that it takes a single decision and agreement to enable a state of well being to all human beings. Any brainwashing propaganda saying ‘We Can’t’ must be categorized as a weapon of mind control , because throughout our investigations we’ve come to understand how it is through massive propaganda systems through the media, that the population ends up being Educated by TV, by Newspapers, by everything which has become part of the ‘collective unconscious’ without anyone being seemingly regulating such aspects that influence us all – is it really? Now, I’m not speaking about conspiracy theories here, it is to realize how we are all aware of how Self Interest as the desire for power/ money complicates everything, leading us from personal trivial desires to ascend/ escalate the ‘social ladder’ or justifying wars in the name of a so-called national defense while regurgitating words that keep the population fearing each other all the time, fearing ending up without any form of money and support, in essence: fearing that their own ‘life’ is able to be turned off in no time.

 

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What Happens when we Don’t give to each other what we would like for ourselves as a basic form of ‘protection and security’ that is always sought by a human being that stems from the preprogrammed design of surviving and essentially, doing all it can to continue living, even if that means killing or consuming everything on his path? This is the history of our human civilization – do we have the power to change it? Of course, we just have to agree that there are basic conditions that we all require to give and receive in Equality in order to live Well*

I can attest how the moment one suddenly has no such security as owning your house – even on ‘paper – having enough money to have your ‘usual treats’ or any other vainglory that money brings, one is faced with an uncanny experience that I had never had before in my lifetime back then – since I was 8-10 years old when it happened – and it’s what one would call Depression, no distinct to how the crisis in Capitalism is also dubbed as ‘Depression’ and it only exists as an energetic experience of having little to no energy/ money which causes an emotional state of ‘Depression’ which is simply having a seemingly ‘negative experience’ of anxiety, distress, worry, concern, apathy and general diminishment of your ‘self-esteem’ a.k.a. not getting your happy-meal so to speak to continue escalating in the social standards in society.

Why have we even allowed Lack of Money to be a regular condition in this world?
Why have we never questioned poverty and ‘depressions’ as an actual disease that must be cured at the root/ source of the problem, which in all cases is the current monetary system?
Why have we only managed to ‘mitigate’ the problems that affect us ALL and Con.Form to what is presented as temporary solutions to a lack of money – such as further Debt that sounds like Death wherein you end up rolling on your payroll like a shroud wherein all that is left of you is a piece of flesh and bones that forgot about itself and always sought life, but never lived.

 

The reason Why we are doing this is because we have neglected each other as Equals – hence it is a matter of Education, it is a matter of being willing to step out of the brainwashing that is constant in our society which is nothing else but the sum total of individuals seeking to fulfill their own interest. Call it ‘making a living,’ I call it collective agreement to abuse each other as Life and must be Stopped.

 

Throughout these blog series I’ve investigated my own process of forming and linking the idea of well being, happiness, success to Money and I’ve titled it as the Elitist Character which is the inherent pattern we’ve acquired the moment that we live in this world and learn that only through money we can satisfy ourselves in all aspects – whether it’s the usual love/relationships, business/job and personal spiritual endeavors or simply having the ability to hoard money due to belonging to a certain bloodline-lineage that enables you to have the ‘Time of your life’ from the moment you are born.

For the rest of us mortals, we have to simply try and attempt to Succeed as in Sucking out the Life essence o the seed that gives life, following dreams of ‘someday Finally making it’ and spending the rest of our days literally ‘dying to live’ – why is this so? and why is it that the moment that we lack money and we are unable to have a proper living condition and/or meet our usual ‘treats’ that only a few people can afford in this world in fact, we are subsumed into what is called a ‘Negative Experience’ which is similar to the ‘lower vibrations’ that people on  Heaven would define the demon dimension to be like, never realizing the abuse that such standard of ‘heavenly experience’ meant for the Earth and human beings in it (Research: Demons in the Afterlife) The World is in Reverse –and yes, ‘the world is a vampire,’ Billy Corgan, however I would mostly say the Human’s been a vampire serving other greater vampires that have become our regular Empires that will kill and destroy as long as some form of bliss can be obtained from it – isn’t that gory? How we’ve neglected GLORY as the Victory over others through going on a killing spree without any form of mercy?

Why have we even accepted the fact that ‘life is a struggle/ life is a fight’ which takes me back to the motto of the Jesuit school I went to: Militia est Vita – yeah, Loyola was a soldier and suddenly saw himself maimed and enlightened with some form of godliness to predicate well being on mankind, did he have to Suffer in order to get such Godly predicament? Points to ponder, not to mention that his legacy  continued throughout  Jesuit schools that are meant to ‘shape leaders’ in this world are anything but affordable for the most of population.

To correct and redirect the title of this blog which is a common misconception in our lexicon: Life is not a Struggle, it is Us human beings that have made it a Struggle through the acceptance and allowance of the current world system ‘as is.’ Time for a Revolution? No, time to first debunk our own brainwashing through Writing, Applying and Living Self Forgiveness In Self Honesty – that’s the key to massive liberation from the drive-thru lifestyle behavior and start Valuing that which is REAL as Life, as the Physical.

 

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to never question why it is that I suddenly felt sad and worried all the time as a constant experience only by knowing that we had financial troubles and within this, taking it personal to the level of believing that It would be a solution for them – my parents – not having to pay for my food and education, making it then an entire out of proportion desire to not exist as a fleeting solution in order to ‘wash away’ the worry and concern that I was witnessing in my father, never really considering how it is that in fact it would have only brought further problems.

I realize that people committing suicide due to financial problems are taking the easy way out apparently, and see no way to solve the problem – however, there is no way we can escape this world and reality for we will continue coming back into this Earth, and there is no way that one can accept the fact that the future of this world remains locked into a certain self-destructive mode as it is currently, and I also realize that this depends on us, human beings, being willing to step up and Take Responsibility, because if there is something that is neglected at all times throughout our lives whenever we ‘flirt’ with any desire to give up or even ‘leave the Earth’ as in committing suicide, we are deliberately denying and neglecting the responsibility that we all hold toward this world and ourselves as individuals that have accepted and allowed the current world system of debt as the only way to ‘make money,’ instead of agreeing altogether to establish a system that will Provide for All Beings Equally

It is already quite clear that we are running only from actually doing all we can in order to establish a solution that will be permanent, and will become the new living-phase of us as humanity for the first time on Earth, since all we have been thus far, is nothing else but slaves serving a greater ‘God’- either metaphorically speaking as in Religions and Spirituality – or literally as the Money that gives us such bliss and joy on Earth.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into extensive fear as a child about losing our house, losing ‘my safety and protection’ and within this, becoming unstable in my personal experience due to believing that having no money meant being close to death and that was it, close to living in poverty as the poor people that I would actually Fear becoming and living on the streets with them and eating what they ate and having to beg for money in order to survive.

I realize that this is the reality of fellow human beings that are HERE in this world as myself, and that the only barrier that divides me from realizing myself As Them, is the mind that I have cultivated in order to always seek to benefit me-me-me and never consider the reality of myself as the totality of who and what I am as One and Equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to generate an emotional experience of sadness, worry, concern, anxiety and fear generally when hearing about us not having much money and having our house owned by the bank for a moment which to me felt like suddenly descending from heaven into hell and even though my reality didn’t drastically change, the sheer fact of knowing that ‘We don’t have much money’ became a very bitter phase of my life to go through, wherein I simply desired to  have the nightmare be over, go back to our ‘happy go round’ lives of having money – at least enough to be ‘happy’ – and that was it. However, it was quite a road out  of that huge bump on the road wherein I then became that same instability and inferiority that I cultivated due to not having had enough money at that time to satisfy my desires imprinted and acquired mostly by the media, by wanting to have what my friends had (see 201. Friends of Convenience: for a little piece of Heaven) and as such, believing that I was certainly ‘less than them’ due to not having as much money as they did.

 

When and as I see myself defining who I am according to the amount of money that I have or I don’t have, and creating a negative experience/ positive experience for either occasion, I stop and I breathe. I realize that money should only be a means to Live and have the necessary to have a dignified living – and this means, becoming part of the solution through my own living self-agreement and consideration of supporting myself as life and others equally to step out of the selfish-act of survivalism as the actual point of mind control it represents

 

I commit myself to expose how we can all in fact assist and support each other to establish a world system that can be implemented by the sheer realization that who we are as life is and has always been Here, and that it is the human aspect that has become the very weapon of mass destruction as the imposition of a system that functions upon the abuse of life.

 

I commit myself for Life to stop this carnage, the strain, the worry and constant threat of having no money the next day to live, as I see and realize that the experience of each other is invariably creating the reality that we All Live in. It is impossible to ignore this.

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