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354. Self Governance in Equal Money

 

The solution to transform the way we direct ourselves resides in a complete redefinition of our participation in the system where we will all have to become participants in the matters that make our lives possible. We will have to step up, recognize our ability to stand together as  Self-Governed individuals and ensure each one of us becomes the Self Directive Principle in our minds, our physical bodies, and commit our life and spirit to live in absolute integrity in accordance to the Law of our Being, which is Life in Equality as What is Best for all – this is the Living State that we can form at a Global level where one by one we stand as living, self responsible and mutually supportive individuals that  ensure we are never again subject to anyone’s terms and conditions, and instead stand as our Individual yet Equal Living Principle as Life, where no policing, no punishment nor rewards will be required – only a constant sound and stable commitment by all to Live to Create what is Best for All.

 

Continuing:

 

Problem                                                             

  • Throughout history we have being ruled by the so-called ‘Divine Powers’ that were endowed  to people in the elites/ royalties that became our governments, monarchs, kings and authorities – all of these entities formed  the necessary platforms that enabled and ensured to protect and perpetuate such ‘special powers’ to govern  in the hands of a few in order to maintain control upon the rest of humanity and be benefited by it. All of this went on throughout time by our own acceptance and allowance – we all have lived the consequences of these ‘orders’ but we have never really conducted ourselves to create a fundamental change in these power structures to generate a solution from the root/cause of the problem which begun the moment we delegated our individual responsibilities to others, by virtue of the ‘endowed divine powers’ that the majority held as true.

 

  • From the beginning, these governmental structures were not meant to be supportive for humanity, we wanted to believe they were – or at least it said so in the constitutions and bills of rights –  but it never was never in fact lived and applied. The evidence of that is ever present in every single country that we live in where the same patterns repeat as the construct it is: there’s corruption, misuse of the public funds, nepotism, despotism, laws that are the result of lobbying processes by the corporations to suit their interests, taxes that fund wars, creation of banks and corporations outside of any form of regulation, education that is merely systematic indoctrination, no real variety in the ability to vote in genuine elections because the choices are inherently fixed and flawed, no free and best quality public services like health, infrastructure, telecommunications, banking systems…  instead everything is being privatized to make of our basic living necessities just another profitable business that we all dependent on.

 

  • Our governments became the actual malevolent act in our society instead of having been the exact opposite according to its main function to direct the people to a common wellbeing. In reality we are and have been  in fact Enslaved by our governments as the structure that we have all complied to for thousands of years on without much question, since this was part of the inherent programming that we also accepted and allowed as our own mind consciousness system wherein these structures existed as our very thoughts, beliefs, feelings and emotions that we accepted an d allowed ourselves to believe are ‘who we are.’ This is what leads us to actually question the following: how can we blame other human beings for doing what they did if we all collectively participated in this preprogrammed life paths wherein by default some would play the role of the elite/kings/masters/priests that hold the money and the knowledge while others had to form part of the ‘base of the pyramid’ as the slaves that had to work for these governments that were never in fact existent to uplift the lives of all humans in equality.

 

  • This is how it is rather foolish to blame the structure, the system and the people that filled-in such necessary positions, without looking at the greater picture of this reality existing as an all encompassing set-up for human enslavement. The government as the necessary structure of control was established by people that merely ‘played their part’ within a greater scheme in which all human beings – no exceptions –  have been part of the necessary places to control and enslave everyone and everyone having agreed to that without a question, because we too believed we could get to be part of the privileged ones someday as the elites, royals and people in power/ money and control over others. All of this has been revealed  in the recent years, and it goes hand in hand with the ability to now have sufficient certainty on us as humanity no longer being bound to a system of control, there are no gods anymore directing this reality show but ourselves and our world systems like the monetary and governmental one. This is how the emergence of the Equal Money System has taken place where we let the world know that we are the only ones directing the system and continuing it now, we are the ones that have perpetuated it and as such, we have the ability to change it, because we accepted, allowed and re-created the problem in the first place.

 

  • However, most of the people in this world are absolutely lost in the power-games that we’ve lived by throughout thousands of years – it is clear that it will take time for us to educate ourselves about how it is that we have limited our ability to govern ourselves because of having been so used to existing ‘under the direction of’ somebody else’ to take care of our lives. Government can mean ‘mind control’  and this is precisely what we have done thus far: we all accepted and allowed a structure of power and control to dictate our lives, therefore it is not to blame only a few for this, but instead understanding how we did it, why we did it and most importantly how it is that the ability to reconstitute ourselves is in our hands.

 

  • This is how we can’t blame the government for ‘not doing its job’ – we haven’t just ben sufficiently informed to realize that it was never the real intention of any elite/ governing class to better the lives of the people – this is directly linked with the hierarchical structures of religion wherein money became the new god in our reality that still has the power to decide upon our very own lives and well being. This is why no government has worked to be an example that can be applicable to all, this is why all governments have had exclusive interests on the monetary side rather than focusing on supporting people’s lives to be supported to exist in the best way possible. It should be quite obvious by now that there has never been a genuine intention to establish life in equality – this is why we’ve had all these various forms of government that have only served the interests of those that implement them. It is about time we realize that we are the ones that have accepted and allowed the governments that we have by our individual abdication of Self Responsibility.

 

 

  Solution                                                              

  • Self Governance is the ability to direct ourselves according to the Law of our Being: Equality and Oneness as Life. This means that there can be no god, no patriarch, no leader, no government as a separate entity ‘above us’ dictating the way that we should all live by – Our ‘Government’ will be existent as the joint effort of each individual existing in Self-Governance. This means that each individual will be educated to take individual responsibility for everything that the governments were intended to do. Governments won’t exist as a selected group of ‘powerful decision makers,’ it will only be a group of people that can be proposed to supervise the efficiency of the system according to their  particular skills and abilities, their lifetime experiences or being experts in certain areas to ensure that everything is running  according to that which ensures the best living quality of life is produced and sustained by all the various sectors of our societies that make our lives possible. 

 

  • This is  a sui generis form of ‘governance,’ it has no previous parallel or point of comparison to any other regime existent in the past, because these individuals as overseers won’t form part of a ‘superior elite’ trained to rule over others, nor will anyone be specifically proposed as a governor/ president according to particular groups’ interests – No, government will exist as the individual self directive process to always create and generate that which is best for all life – one by one. This will be possible as the ability of each individual to stand in Self Responsibility, Self Honesty, Integrity and Self Will  to ensure that everything that we do and conduct ourselves to live by as a society, is leading to a certain best for all outcome through direct democratic processes that will facilitate our direct participation more so than any other previous electoral process – the old structure of two or more choices to vote for people will cease to exist as such. What we will vote on is the ways in which we want to direct ourselves according to what we will be informed and sufficiently educated to understand will lead to a best for all outcome. This will be a matter of scientific and mathematical fact rather than any other form of preference since we will be dealing with physical reality systems to manage our living conditions in this reality.

 

  • As an example, we already have the internet and our voices are already being heard through organizations and places where we can all share perspectives on what would be best way to direct ourselves/ our lives in our current societies; However, money is still a problem  and major obstacle to not implement this form of governance, because that would bring down the structures that hold the economy in place. This is why in Equal Money Capitalism and Equal Money System, every project, every idea, every innovation in education, science, technology, infrastructure, resource management, health services, production, etc., will be able to be voted on by everyone that wishes to do so.  This will require at the same time sufficient education to each individual to ensure that the proposals are understood in common sense and that what is Best for All is always considered as the intended outcome, for we will all have a present reminder of how bad tings can go when we abdicate our responsibility to decide and delegate it in the hands of a few ones trained to be greedy of power to never see beyond their own interests – which also became our nature as well.

 

  • The solution to greed, power and control in a governmental power structure will come by  dissolving the government as an all seeing entity driven in its ultimate purpose of maintaining a corporation well fed by an enslaved society locked into a prison that we have all cooperated to build. Yes, it will take time to establish for the first time an absolute state of self-governance, however it is only as individuals, standing in equal self responsibility and self honesty that we can direct and guide our lives in the best way possible. This is what Equality implies. there are no leaders, there are no kings, no royalty, no hegemons, no popes but only individuals that are self regulated according to that which is best for ourselves and everyone in equality

 

Read more about 319. Political Power in Equal Money Capitalism here

 

“We understand and realize that we are responsible for what we have created in this life by our acceptance, allowance and consent, both individually and collectively; and in that awareness of true responsibility we undertake to embody our own power and authority to correct that which has been manifest in dereliction of responsibility to uphold and honor all life. As such, we undertake, by this declaration of intention and the acceptance thereof, to commit ourselves to heal this world in every form, in every corner and for every living thing. In this we recognize the inherent power in such responsibility and that all can be made whole once again if built on a foundation of responsibility, oneness and equality for all life. At the same moment, we see that all beings have such power through the capacity of self-forgiveness, for to forgive another still separates that other from their own responsibility to see what they have wrought and to choose through self-forgiveness of free will and volition to correct the former course. Every individual has that power for themselves and that power is embodied in the application of self-forgiveness. We must start by first forgiving ourselves for what we have accepted and allowed as the current conditions on planet Earth. Therefore, by acknowledging our own responsibility, we empower others to follow and to begin to take the steps to make amends and to atone for what has been done before. To atone means to enter a state of being “at one,” by standing one and equal with all life and each other. By so doing, each one is erasing the illusion of external power and control that has manifested in the form of bondage and slavery in this world.” – Ken Cousens

 

 

 

Rewards                                                              

  • Self Governance is thus that ideal yet very realistic and practical application of living as self realized individuals that understand who we really are as equals as Life. This means nothing else but honoring each other as life, ensuring each other’s well being as our own, living to expand and express ourselves to our utmost potential, ensuring no superior entities or beliefs are created that may disrupt this Equality, ensuring no one is left behind, ensuring everyone is equally granted access to everything that we require to live in the best possible way.

 

  • Our Freedom in Equality, our ability to choose the best way to conduct our lives, the best way to educate ourselves, the best ways to feed ourselves, to produce what we will consume in the realization that there’s been utmost care and inherent respect for all life forms and resources that we use to make our lives possible, we will be able to direct our lives in a Self Honest manner, because no one will be ‘setting the tone’ of our lives from the top, because there will be no top – only equals at the same level of The Earth as the Life that we will instead learn how to Live, Enjoy and Express in.

 

  • These rewards of Self-Governance will exist according to the Living Principle of Life in Equality embodied by each one of us  – there will be no single ting that is produced, labored for, published, adopted as educational system or entertainment that goes without our communal consent and agreement of it being in fact what is best for all. This is where we have to understand that Self Governance is a matter of living by the principle of Participatory Equality wherein that which is best for all is ensured by each one’s self investigation, education and practice of this living principle, so that we can all trust each other to in fact be voting, deciding and opting for the best living condition that is possible for all of us to live by here on Earth, along with all the animals, plants and resources that will be fully recognized as equal and one to the life substance that we all  are. Honoring one another as Equals ensures that all our thoughts, words, deeds and intentions are always leading to a best for all outcome.

 

  • We will all ensure to forever eradicate the figures that stood as the symbols of power and control: No hegemon, No monarch, No absolutist, no totalitarian dictator, not tyrant, no corporate powers behind politicians,  no king, no queen, no pope, no, no cult leaders, no military chief is ever again to take control or ‘steer’ the populations at their personal will  – Never again Masters and Never again Slaves – only Equality as Life.

 

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241. The EndGame Show: 2012

I watched Derren Brown’s The Gameshow episode which is a brilliant piece of what popular TV should become: a blatantly blunt and absolutely irrevocable proof of what we have become as humanity: full blown evil egos that have absolutely no regard toward the life of fellow living beings and dare to rejoice making a mockery out of another’s unfortunate lives that are being directed by the observers themselves.

I had to breathe in order to not participate further in further thoughts and outspoken backchat after one witness the whole thing and for a moment find yourself laughing along to what we have defined as entertaining and funny. This certainly made me realize to what extent we have brainwashed ourselves to have the most twisted sense of humor labeled as ‘normal’ to laugh upon actual evil lived out in the life of a human being that’s being secretly filmed for the de-light of everyone, even if it is entertainment gone educational, still running a show within the whole scheme of how it all functions through/ by money itself.

 

The game depicts the two options we hold in this world while living and interacting with everything and everyone here, as simple and direct as a yes and a no: to do what’s best for all/ doing onto another what you would want others to do onto you/ giving and receiving in equality/ loving thy neighbor as thyself OR essentially ‘consciously’ deciding to make another’s life their worst fucking nightmare and hell through your own direct ‘democratic vote’ to do so.

 

When the audience in this fake ‘game show’ are endowed with the godly-ability to direct what happens to a person’s life, and are given the ‘right to vote’ toward a positive and a negative outcome that would be taken on upon this man’s life – the audience, conveniently suited with masks that enhance their anonymity – cast their vote to massively decide through the majority rule vote what the life of the man would turn out to be for the night. This is a perfect depiction of how we are all nicely sitting on our asses, having our lives backed up with money in our pockets while we watch the whole planet and beings going extinct and crumbling down to ashes as a result of us having disregarded any other single particle ‘outside of ourselves’ As ourselves, equal and one, and only abused it in order to create a vulgar display of power where we are able to decide upon another’s life in a deliberate manner to feel ‘empowered..’

And! We are waiting for doomsday? Wtf.

 

Derren Brown - the Show -Evil Human Nature

 

The results are not surprising considering the inherent human nature that is Evil as the reverse of life. This show reveals to what extent – even if given the ability of ‘free choice’ as in freely choosing and deciding upon a being’s life – the majority of the people votes for all the worst to happen to the man/ subject of the show – what for? One can see the thrill as the excitement that is generated through vicariously witnessing another’s suffering and having the power to say ‘I made him go through that/ I deliberately wanted that person to have a shitty time in his life, yeah man! that’s some real fun, hey’ – Writing these words is already quite a criminal sentence, however the point that I am here to share, place out and walk through is how after watching this for a moment I felt disgusted for being a human being – again: a feeling/ experience created at a mind level as the usual disdain that I would project and cultivate toward humanity in the past, myself included, of which some layers/ dimensions will certainly come up as they are ‘stirred’ through external stimuli. I was a perfect example of how to loathe reality and still manage to get your personal interests in place. 

 

Continuing from – Evil:

194. Let the Mask Fall!

 

I realized to what extent it is relevant to speak about this topic since we’re only few days away from the great non-event that will probably only serve as an excuse to immigrate to another ‘meaningful date’ to a few years from here on – I will resume with the education point I had last shared until I lay out the latest discoveries of this character. I suggest reading the blogs listed above to get a perspective of my own fuckups with regards to how fervently I would dare to speak about things like the end of the world and rejoice about it, just like a perfect doomsday activist that I was on my way to become some years ago.

 

Throughout this Process I have realized that I cannot in any way continue creating judgments upon those that judge, that would be the obvious law of stupidity, isn’t it? It took me quite a while to grasp it and all I can say is I am applying and practicing to live humbleness after realizing my own fuckups within this aspect in my life.

 

The only reason why I prayed – figuratively speaking – for the world to end was precisely because I would generate the same type of disgust toward humanity to the one I experienced today after watching this show, a remnant of the type of thinking I would function in a 24/7 attitude in my past, and I must say that committing oneself to stop the continuous judgment has been a definitive decision that must be lived in every single moment that I decide to breathe as life and stop myself from playing the grumpy old humanity-Grinch that I had become. Obviously, it was easier to just want everything to be ‘washed away,’ sucked by some massive black hole or obliterated by some meteorite – in fact the word ‘obliterate’ holds the relationship to this ‘massive’ desire to end it all.

 

But the reality is that: I didn’t want to face what I had become, what we’ve become. I have written about this before several times but the whole death and destruction point has reached its peak, since it’s only a few days away now for Nothing to happen for once and for all.

 

You can read more  from the ‘Doomsday Character’ here:

 

Fortunately, I found self forgiveness and no, this is no  religious-sinner act here. This is about being profoundly ashamed of myself as a human being for what we’ve done and become, and be able to give myself a second chance to live, a second opportunity to start from scratch and I’ll never forget when I heard those words and decided from there on that I would choose life.

 

It is only through Self-Forgiveness that one can stand up from all the guilt, remorse, shame and all the psychological and physical heavy loaded guns that we have emptied upon ourselves, each other, the animals, the Earth, children, every single spec of life that we are obviously unaware and have disregarded while seeking for our greatest vilest excitement, which happens to be covered in sugar to disguise the fact that every form of apparent human benevolence is in fact just a blatant way to disguise our real nature, the one that can be ‘lost in the masses’ and be unable to be spotted as a perpetrator of a crime or a hideous act of nasty violence and abuse toward another fellow living part of this reality that is ourselves.

 

Can I have a single point of respect toward a human being that decides upon something really hideous to happen to another being under free choice? No, but I’ve become that as well. I have accepted and allowed the existence of a world wherein who we are has become the blatant DEMONstration of what the so-called godly given free-choice and free-will as the freedom to abuse and disrespect life in the name of self-interest as a human consciousness robot that knows nothing better but laughing at another’s disgrace and pretending there is some acceptable sense of rejoice in that. Seriously, we do that all the time.

 

We all seek happiness, bliss, joy, being content, peaceful, we wash ourselves in our benevolent acts of kindness by ‘helping others’ and showing off the super-whitened smile while secretly in the back of our head, the real evil nasty thoughts reveal that we have in fact no self-respect because if we had a single bit of integrity, we would tape our own mind from thinking any inkling of repugnant backchat and spiteful judgments toward another being. It is fucking ludicrous that anyone can possibly consider oneself as a good person, as any form of benevolent act in a world wherein our very actions on a daily basis reveal that we Only care about our own well being, our own family – fuck the rest! – our own jobs/ money/ security and let the children starve and be sold for money to feed their families –

Oh, but then again! we have our marvelous entertainment such as 2012 and the plethora of promises and hopes and positive wishes and apparent magical solutions for humanity, because in our minds we live in the delirium that ‘we deserve it’ –  Really?

We’re the almighty gods of existence here, with our elitist ways of catching up on the latest on world hunger:

About 25,000 people die every day of hunger or hunger-related causes, according to the United Nations. This is one person every three and a half seconds, as you can see on this display. Unfortunately, it is children who die most often. – poverty.com

We even got a poverty.com portal that we access in our laptops to check out some fancy numbers and statistics but  absolutely neglecting in its totality the reality of what one single reality experience of those 25 thousand beings actually experience in one single day of their lives – oh but yes, we are claiming we are empty vessels in full view and require some god, some major event to look forward to… wow, really, wow.

 

People given the free-command to decide upon a being’s life within the framework of a ‘game show’ while wearing masks to protect the oh-so-beloved ‘identity and privacy,’ collectively decide to inflict  the most hideous experiences that a single person can go through in a matter of hours – taking into consideration that such acts must be able to be broadcasted for pg-13 audience, otherwise I’m sure the evil could escalate a lot further. Now taking the same actions at a global level: how could any human being indulge in believing that as a result of a series of constant and continuous putrefactive acts, one could get some form of heavenly reward from a non-existent god as a result of one’s nastiness and brutality inflicted upon all life forms in every single second that life is disregarded and instead abused? How could such a being that is deliberately flipping the middle finger to another for the sake of a laughter in any way expect that some divine hand is going to come and wipe out the whole earth to end the suffering of everyone and some ‘special ones’ ascend to the heavens?

 

How can we as humanity, accepting and allowing this delusional and hypocritical world system in any way expect something GOOD and Benevolent emerging out of Nowhere on a single day that everyone seems to be waiting for, as if there was some mighty being or force that was actually pleased with what we’ve become in order to grant us the long-awaited doomsday. In and for all cases, we’re all equally and one doomed beyond measure for what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become – yet this is not an excuse to say ‘it’s too much’ and then give up, as that would only indicate a timeloop that will have to be corrected anyways.

 

It is also quite a paradox that I have to recommend a TV show to witness our reality, simply because we haven’t been Paying Attention to our reality outside the door, but instead have to read about it, watch it through our HDMI screens and get a bucket of cold water to wake up from the slumber we’re in. Will we learn? Unfortunately as history has shown: we don’t. Even if millions die in world wars and keep the memory intact as if it had been in fact the most atrocious acts in humanity, we perpetrate and support with our very thinking-schemes a system that is founded upon abuse, our desires to be happy, rich, fulfilled, to be joyous and blissful at the expense of others, never minding about a single thing that must be sacrificed for such a ‘good time,’ because in the end we’re the ‘masters of disguise’ when it comes to painting an entire town red without realizing that it’s actually blood that’s been shed in order for some twisted idea of progress to exist.

 

If we could look at oil as the result of the actual processes in which  the oil itself was discovered and exploited, the suffering of the beings caused for the wars that lead to the appropriation of oil from some middle east country and the crimes committed in the name of this ‘dark gold’ as a form of quantum-memory projecting itself as you pump gas into your car, one could probably have a constant reminder of what our idea of ‘civilization’ is all about. Feeling guilty or remorseful or taking yourself to a point of wanting to commit suicide won’t do a thing, it will only make things worse because even such ‘decisions’ are made in self interest: only caring about – once again – one’s own experience and are no different in essence to a decision made to live in eternal bliss, because even death was believed to be a final-point to the book we’ve jotted upon as ‘our life.’ It is not so, definitely, it is the most stupid thing one can do as well as believing that some magic date will bring an end to this ‘torture in life.’

 

The reason why I am writing this is because I felt a nauseous experience about humanity again as I hadn’t felt in quite a while in spite of the amount of information and personal self investigation wherein we become aware of how we are Not in any way any benevolent act on Earth. But one has to be actually faced with this form of ‘entertainment’ that is revealed to be quite a blow on our face what we have deemed as ‘funny’ as ‘entertaining’ and ‘acceptable’ within the constrains of our mediated minds wherein no respect, honor and regard for life exists, at all, because all of the reverse to that is what sells well.

 

All I could think of is: I am here, I acknowledge what I’ve done, what I’ve created and propitiated within my every day living – I am no different to the beings that deliberately chooses upon the man’s ‘bad time’ on this TV show. Through my accepted and allowed existence and continuation within this system, I am in complicity to the thousands of people dying every day of starvation, I am directly responsible for the belief upon any form of hope for things ever ‘getting better’ or in the best-case scenario, or in the shape of my old secret desires, witness a full deployment of natural forces upon humanity, to just boil down the Earth to ashes – such self destructive thoughts are continually lived as our personal hells in our minds, every single day having to battle ‘the damned thing’ that is ourselves, foolishly so only battling our own minds as an experience.

 

No wonder the world is what it is, we rather cut down trees and put some shiny lights upon them and profess ‘love and peace’ for a few couple of days while massively consuming shit that we don’t need and call that ‘holy-days,’ really? Do  a research on the type of activity humans rejoice in such holy-days: massive amounts of alcohol, porn, drugs and any other form of brutal entertainment is ensued to ‘kill the dread’ that these ‘holidays’ are usually adorned with in a regular human being’s life. This is what we’ve become.

 

Now, feeling disgust and feeling any form of actual shame would only be me playing the necessary role for this massive mindfuck to continue. We all have to STOP no matter what from existing within this perpetual game of self-righteous acts of self-believed immaculate souls that actually ‘do good’ in any way whatsoever on Earth.

 

I, of course, cannot count myself out of everything that I am writing as I am writing this within the full awareness that I have not lived to the 100% that I would want to, but it still remains a ‘want,’ a ‘need’ and a ‘desire’ that is the same type of desires that can burn someone’s hands in the form of having the impulse and drive to steal, rape, murder or just commit some form of violence within the same impetus that the mind as an energetic drive creates within our physical bodies – there is no self movement yet, and that is what the correction will have to be if doomsday is to be stopped as any form of deviation toward the actual responsibility we hold as human beings toward each other as equals.

 

It is Not Real to ‘want’ to change – it is no different to wishing light and love, really. We must LIVE change, we must Ensure that No single thought toward another living being is exerted. It is to be realized that one cannot play the benevolent act within the current frames wherein benevolence is actually founded upon abuse.

 

We present common sense, the reality of how things function, the blatant truth of what we’ve become in an attempt to make ourselves feel special and unique and with some form of ‘divine seed’ awaiting to sprout some more industrial glitter to give head to further ‘love and light,’ in the hopes of getting ass-ended to the heavens of the 5th dimension – or as I wished upon – dying to forevermore cease to exist so that I would not have to face myself among such humanity that I came to despise, without realizing I was only staring back at me: self victimization as another entertainment of me and my mind alone.

 

We still have the ability to take the ‘Remote Control’ as a single decision to think, do and say what is best for all life, always – We can be carried over by this sense of deindividuation that takes place, wherein we believe that we cannot be ‘spotted on’ for not giving a damn about life, for not standing up ‘who will notice? does anybody care what I had to say? what I do and how I live MY life? Why should I place myself ‘out there’ for people that don’t give a fuck? Well, these might be well known excuses that I have participated in myself that reveal we have to actually make a deliberate action to stand up for life, otherwise the voices in our head will grow bigger than ourselves – in our mind.  It takes guts to be able to place oneself as an example of how we can take our lives from the very filthy bottom of the pit of regret that we get to when realizing what we’ve done, and have the strength to stand up and walk a daily process of self forgiveness, self introspection through writing and deciding to live and apply a practical correction in order to ensure that Never Again do we ever perpetuate what we’ve been and become, of which this world is the unfortunate genuine expression of.

 

Just as the people in Brown’s gameshow decided to NOT give what’s best for all as what they would want for themselves to this man as the main ‘subject’ of the whole experiment, we are living out that single decision in real life, idiotically following through with a system of absolute blatant self abuse wherein no one seems to give a reverend fuck as long as one is protected with enough money to live way and have some entertainment and some nice piece of land to own to look at. What about the rest? who the hell decided that we have the ability to have computers, be able to read or have our elitist lives to only be writing about all that which we have neglected and abused in our lives? yet, we are doing it , because it is what we have, it is the last call before all hell breaks lose even further than it already is, and not hearing what we say when we propose to Choose Life, Choose to Give and Receive what is Best for All, what we All would want for ourselves as the Real demonstration of what Loving our Neighbor should be, to actually create the greatest actual physical heaven on Earth, we decide to spite each other and mock the hell out of it just because ‘we can.’ 

 

Now, after all of this, going into victimization and saying ‘we don’t deserve to live’ can be just another ego game – been there, done that and as such, I direct myself to realize that any form of experience from the realization of what we’ve done and become is just another mind-game to remain in my safe spot of inaction and bypass stander-act that I have so much judged upon other human beings. This is where we realize that this all does not require further large faces and pretentious acts of ‘care,’ as the people at the end of the show reveal themselves to have. I bet the shock only lasted for a couple of hours only to get back into reality, probably still deciding to ruin someone else’s life with as much ease as pressing the button that will lead another piece-of-here toward their own personal doomsday. And still that’s a controlled act, but what about reality that is here where abuse goes inadvertently flying by under our noses every single day.

 

For that matter, this is doomsday to me: having to witness every single day through what we can read on the news, watch in documentaries, read from our very own minds is causing this world to go straight down the drain in  free fall with little to no common sense at all being integrated as who we are on Earth.  It should be a matter of alarm if you while watching the show decide that it would be fun to see the person suffer. And I questioned once the violent acts within the Roman circus with people that would rejoice seeing ‘beasts’ fighting gladiators and all forms of violence as entertainment – we already then knew what kept the masses going and happy: blood, violence, abuse, decay, that is the real show, our own game show wherein we’ve accepted that some must win and some must die. It is, to say the least, unacceptable.

 

So, I breathe and realize that the only way we are ever going to get through this is through learning how to Self-Forgive, learning how to walk practical solutions for every single point of accepted and allowed inequality, separation and neglect toward another fellow being that I have participated in within my life. Resisting or Judging Self  Forgiveness is the only way to actually redeem ourselves from our constant and consistent hideous acts of self interest that we’ve gladly cultivated without a question.

 

Time  to stop waiting around for a mighty and glorious end of the world as that is really just the festive act for the ones that are quite shitscared to face the reality of what we’ve become – I once was there in such lines, I’ve crossed the divide between projecting blame and hatred toward humanity and learned how to take self responsibility, which begins by me stopping m y own accepted and allowed continuation of separation and commit myself to LIVE, to integrate myself as a physical presence within my physical body wherein I learn how to honor each moment of life that I breathe and not participate in any further mind games that have the most consequential outflows upon life.

 

We are an organization worldwide that exists for one single purpose: establishing life in Equality on Earth through a new political and economic system  and currently provides absolutely free self support for over 5 years now of which I I have been a participant of with my own living-process that can be read from head to toe in this same pages you are reading this on. We present a never before given solution for the world’s problems in one single presentation: the Equal Money System, which is essentially doing the least voted options in Derren Brown’s experiment with people: giving to each other what we would want for ourselves, sure these people never took into consideration that such being is themselves, and how anyone that suffers in this world for that matter is also ourselves.

This means that it requires self education to learn how we can only thrive in humanity if we regard each other as equals, and for that we require to continue existing as a living-functional seed of life that has been planted in this murky sea of death and destruction. This opportunity is only lasting for a lifetime. If you decide that you would like to contribute to the minority that is currently deciding any form of benevolence upon others, join us, the more we unite in one single voice as common sense, life in equality and equal money, we can create further awareness of there being a new way of living, one where causing havoc in a being’s life is seen as the blatant abuse that it is and not something we can openly laugh at while hiding behind masks to prevent one from being seen and recognized for our true intentions that are the result of having abdicated our physical common sense in life to a mind that thrives of separation and conflict.

 

“And if you Dare to Live in Self-Interest, without Considering All Other Life as Equal: there will be a Consequence. That Consequence will come, and be Visited upon each one According to what has been Allowed throughout All Time. Man tend to very easily Forget to what Extent he Participate in Disharmony, and will use All Kinds of Ways to Achieve a Higher Consciousness without doing any Restitution to Correct the Harm Accepted and Allowed and Done in his Past Life on Earth.” – Bernard Poolman  – Day 240: Apocalypse in Heaven – ADC – Part 87

 

I’ve chosen to stop my own delusions and walk a self-corrective process in order to learn how to breathe instead of reacting with further anger while witnessing any form of neglect in our reality, as I see, realize and understand that me creating further experiences in my  mind  is no different to existing in the same mind-possessed mechanism that decides upon the very outcomes of life on Earth. unless we stop, this current highway to hell will only be walked fully with no ability to turn back.

‘Hopefully,’ 2012 will become the year that we stop indulging in any form of escapism and desires for change, but instead open our eyes to see to what extent we are actually causing our own doomsday and ‘end of days’  every single day that we reduce our living condition to a single budget sustained by a massive exploitation of resources and call that a ‘life.’

 

We Must Declare what we are willing to accept and allow and what we are not. I declare that I am not willing to accept and allow myself to create a single form of division within me toward another human being in the form of these ‘invisible entities’ as thoughts that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as, and that this becomes the actual gift that I would want to receive from any other person: I stop expecting Change outside of myself and Live it As myself.

 

As for Derren, I’ve learned important points in the past few weeks that I’ve been watching his shows online, it’s quite a brilliant way to expose humanity and made as attractive as any form of regular entertainment on national TV, that is genius – and a great source for money as well.

 

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“We can take these Memories, these Buildings, our Physical Society and we can Change our Relationship to it, and to Each Other to be What is Best for All Life and we can Prevent Apocalypse. We can Change who we are, what we are, how we are, why we are – and a New World will be Born. This Way: the Old World will Pass Away and we’ll Create a New World. Then, we can Create a New Heaven because the Old One has already Passed Away.
Will we do so? Unfortunately, at this stage – it will still take Quite a While.” – Bernard Poolman

 

I will follow through in the next posts with respective self forgiveness for that usual impetus I get into whenever I react in any way toward this ‘mass’ that I belong to as humanity, which was the main reason I plead for the world to end in 2012, Self Responsibility and the ability to Stand Up is what I got.

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61: The Stoned Philosopher

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever believe that Alchemy was ‘the real deal’ within reality to obtain the ultimate knowledge wherein I could finally obtain ‘the truth’ and be enlightened through knowledge and information.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to justify the lives of suffering and ‘misfortune’ as ‘lessons to be learned’ wherein we had to first reach our lowest bottom to then rebirth from the ashes like a phoenix, and in this allowing me to use all knowledge and information as myths and gnostic meanings in order to make sense of life, without ever pondering that life has always been here as myself, as my physical body that I used and abused in order to obtain some ‘higher knowledge’ that could lead me to ‘the ultimate power’ as eternal life, which I now see, realize and understand cannot in any way exist as a piece of information at all.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to indulge in the ‘spiritual entheogen exploration’ wherein I believed that seeing the patterns on everything and dancing on the walls was really being seeing life moving and dancing for me, which I had kept as a memory that I didn’t want to ‘let go of’ because of how wonderful if was.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was special because I could see all of these patterns, figures and energetic experiences that I have defined as ‘blissful,’ while having no idea whatsoever to what it actually implies to Live, which has nothing to do with any symbol, any pattern, any thought, any feeling or emotion – but self, here, stable as the I that stands aligned as a physical being that is no longer crucified by knowledge and information as the mind’s experience seeking ‘life’ in knowledge and information generating experiences that are finite and induced just like any other drug-related enlightenment.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever believe that the truth of reality could only be accessed through knowledge, information or chemically induced experiences wherein everything that I saw was only myself, my own mind and in no way was I actually ‘being here’ as the actual realization of who I am as one and equal as life, but it was only a temporary mind-experience that lead me to seek further into knowledge and information, missing out the basic point which is: not having to ‘seek’ something outside of myself to live, but rather stopping the constant thinking, believing, perceiving, mind chatter and be here, breathing, being still yet self directive which is what I always overlooked when it came to seeking ‘enlightenment,’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to seek enlightenment as a way to evade taking Responsibility for myself, my world, my reality because I thought that through my own purification,  I would have an ‘easy-access’ to life, eternity and all the blissful experiences I sought – never taking into consideration the totality that is self-here as one and equal, but only minding my own business, only being concerned about ‘my’ experience only, which is the ultimate form of selfishness and self-interest that all-seeking spiritual people are currently perpetuating and feeding as themselves.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become obsessed with alchemy, its symbols, its illustrations and the depiction of the ‘majesty’ of life after walking a process of self-purification from the nigredo, to the albedo to the rubedo which is what I sought to be and become ‘no matter what,’ wherein I neglected at all times the actuality of the world that is here, wherein billions are having no means to eat – yet there I was, wanting to ‘ascend’ and be a super-consciousness being that could ‘the pattern of life’ which was only the patterns of consciousness itself as my own mind, reminding me that I have enslaved life to a pair of figures and symbols in an attempt to live.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become infatuated with knowledge, believing that ‘I was on to something’ and I was ‘this close’ to ‘get it’ wherein the chemical marriage implied that I had to fulfill a ‘journey’ in my life that was related to higher knowledge, higher understanding that made ‘me’ special and ‘unique’ because I felt as if it was ‘calling me,’ when in fact, it was all self induced and learned from examples in popular culture, just like from Jodorowsky and other ‘masters’ that I would read in order to make ‘my own religion’ based on personal self-interest to ‘be one with God’

 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to seek God in patterns that I could see with my physical eyes, seeking god in the ‘abject,’ seeking god in Hebrew words, symbols, alchemical terms and trying to find a meaning to life, without ever realizing that life has no meaning but is and exists in itself –

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to deposit my attention to ‘wonderful words’ that would mean something ‘too cryptic’ for me to understand, which made me want to understand and study more to be this ‘erudite’ in the matter, which would apparently make me ‘more’ than myself which is how intellectualism operates: the more you store as knowledge and information, the more ‘valuable’ you are in a system where life has been sold in the name of money, which provides enough ‘power’ that creates self-importance.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that my life was being ‘tested’ by life itself to see whether I could find and get all the clues to ‘get to god/ life/ eternal life’ which is how I became rather obsessed with numbers, religions, alchemy, gnosticism, tarot and anything that could ‘guide me’ to understand who I was and what I was doing here, following a self-importance journey to ‘enlightenment’ that only existed in my own head, feeling like John Nash having an entire conspiracy in the head, watching Pi and the Holy Mountain wherein I thought I could find ‘the meaning’ to it all.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that the symmetry and composition in a work of art was pointing out that I was trying to ‘give myself messages through images/ drawings’ which is nothing but the ultimate mindfuck that I participated in and created for myself, wherein I believed that I was drawing out my past lives and pointing out to me ‘the road to follow’ in this lifetime, which is nothing else but the product of knowledge and information that I used in order to make myself special, ‘unique’ and somehow more ‘powerful’ than the rest of the mortals because of having this ‘unique’ fascination with ‘all things divine’ which was only me in my mind seeking some grand entertainment to evade my responsibility in the world, evade actually planning a physical tangible practical living plan that I could use in order to LIVE in this physical reality, but instead being planning ‘who I would be’ once that ‘I’ve reached the ultimate step of enlightenment’ on Earth.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that smoking weed in any way was ‘opening consciousness’ and allowing me to ‘see more of reality’ which is one of the justifications I used to not give it up at the time.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that all bits of experience, all people, all events had a meaning in the puzzle I was busy building as my ‘spiritual journey,’ without realizing or even wanting to accept that I had created it in my mind all the way, and I was just giving more attention to that which ‘fascinated me,’ rather than toward that which represented facing myself, facing my own responsibility and getting to know my own mind as the real creator of this extensive mindfuck.

 

I realize that I used and abused my physical body in the name of seeking ‘life’ outside of itself as knowledge and information, which proves to what extent we have never even questioned the fact that we are not even aware of every breath that we take, of every single piece of the Earth that we consume in order to continue living and the processes it goes through in ourselves, IN our own physical body – it is ludicrous, yet we are here and walking the process to stop all mind-curiosity toward ‘elevated/ higher/ drugged knowledge’ that has had In No Way any consequence to life.

 

I realize that my initial ‘Love for Knowledge’ as philosophy, as the desire to ‘know more’ was merely self interest, and that my knowledge became my own cross to bear of which I now take Self-Responsibility for, because I am realizing the simplicity of who I really am here as the physical body that breathes and is able to exist without experiences.

 

I commit myself to share my process with anyone that is currently ‘in the journey’ to enlightenment or any other form of spiritual endeavor, to share with them how I have realized the mindfuck that it all was while abusing the physical body, the physical reality and neglecting the actual problems on Earth while seeking my personal satisfaction fueled by chemicals, thoughts and experiences that only made ‘one’ special, while disregarding the rest of the world as equally HERE as ourselves.

 

I commit myself to establish myself as the physical body to ensure that I am no longer bound to the memories of that which I perceived as blissful as all the experiences induced by chemical reactions that I equated to ‘god’ and ‘enlightenment,’ which would have been rather addictive if I had not stopped right away – thanks to Desteni because that’s the only way I realized what I was in fact doing to myself.

 

I commit myself to expose the fact that no knowledge, no special gnostic information,  no alchemic process will create LIFE as Life is already HERE as each one of us, wherein all that we have done is veiled it through further knowledge and information, instead of realizing it as who we are, here as our very physical body that is not bound to the mind’s processes to exist.

 

I commit myself to expose the desire for enlightenment as self interest as that continual desire to be ‘more than’ who we already are here as physical beings.

 

I commit myself to continue walking my process of writing, applying Self Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application to ensure that all knowledge that I had used to define life is purified and equalized as Self, wherein there is no trace of greatness or ‘grandeur’ existent within and as myself, but actually walk the process to let go of this energetic fascinations that I had been so keen toward.

 

I commit myself to reveal how no enlightenment or spiritual endeavor creates an actual physical change in the world that is visible to ALL or creating any form of best for all outcome, but is merely self interest linked to money as that state of ‘happiness’ and ‘bliss’ that can only be obtained as an experience whenever your stomach has enough food, your body is properly hydrated and your environment is safe and secure from ‘the evil’ in this world that is created ever moment that positivity is sought and pursued in this world.

 

We Must Stop.

 

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53: A Clockwork Mindkind–The Evil in Me is the Evil in You

When I watched A Clockwork Orange some 10 years ago, I was amused and fascinated at the same time with the entire story, without precisely knowing why I could rejoice in being witnessing Alex’s and his fellow droogs mischievous acts of random violence. The Fact is that for a long time, I thought that Kubrick had left the story in a ‘sellable’ ending compared to the original story in the book, which ends with a grown up matured and reformed Alex encountering himself with another one of his droogs and recalling the ‘good old ultra violent times.’ That seemed like a ‘right’ and socially redemptive ending that Burgess gave to a story filled with an actual accurate depiction of humanity: Evil, Madness, Violence and Vile-Ends to achieve a sense of power and fun.

 

The idea of ‘Humanity is Evil’ has been a constant thought pattern within me, and I can guarantee it has been within YOU as well. It is now that we are witnessing the real Evil of Man coming out from the gutters that we start pondering if we had held ourselves in high pedestals when it comes to claiming any form of ‘goodness’ and ‘benevolence,’ while the current state of the world can prove we have never in fact really showed any true benevolence that we could hold ourselves accountable for. Even more so, any attempt to ‘do good’ as charities, social services, helping the poor and starving is in fact fueling the same evil machinery that has created such conditions in the first place – and for that you must hear all about it here.

 

“While nothing is easier than to denounce the evildoer, nothing is more difficult than to understand him:” Dostoyevsky

 

We get a sense of pleasure from watching evil – here in México it’s very common to have these yellow-press as we call it which shows gruesome and explicitly gory pictures of people that are murdered, ran over, tortured and savaged in one way or another by fellow humans. That sells a lot – and the same goes for Hollywood and all the ultraviolent movies that leave Kubrick’s interpretation of Alex’s violence looking like an artsy Saturday Morning version of evil.

Now, what’s the REAL point here: We are willing to witness in others what exists within us. You, reader, cannot possibly deny that you have never ever thought of killing someone or committing the most vile act in one fleeting moment of absolute rage and madness, wherein your entire body becomes possessed by this seemingly unstoppable desire to go out and just destroy or kill something/ someone. And I’m being quite general in the description because the point here is to realize that we can only get a sense of pleasure from an apparent detachment from the representation and ‘acting out’ of what goes on in our heads. Hence, Dostoyevsky was rather kidding himself when thinking that we cannot understand evil, because that would be not wanting to know our true-nature. Yes, that’s the basic ‘shocking’ point for anyone that is willing to read and be Self Honest in this world – in fact, as I’ve mentioned in several blogs in the past, one of the key quotes by Bernard that allowed me to witness the reality of this world and remove – slowly but surely- my ‘veil of sanctity and goodness’ was

Self Honesty  is not nice or beautiful” – Bernard Poolman 

And this implies that getting to know yourself as who you really are in Self-Honesty, won’t come up as shining gold dust falling from the skies over your head and angels singing about your perfection – Hell, no. It’s quite the contrary and we’ve reached the time that had been explained back in 2007 within the Desteni material that would take place on Earth in the coming years – yes, we are 5 years from that time and it’s now quite settled and going on with full force. One just has to glance at the news of people committing more ‘vile acts’ even in full and broad daylight – like a man trying to rape a woman in a busy street while she was going out to walk her dog.

 

There is no place to hide and you know why? Because such evil is existent in every single one of our minds.

Denying it is futile, it is the same as talking to yourself and repeating a 1000 times that ‘you are a good person’ which is obviously stemming from the actual fear that we have experienced toward our own ability to exert our Real Nature, which is Evil in its utmost potential. This is one of the reasons why willing to delve into the pit of your own mind takes a lot of guts, as well as obviously making the commitment to stop both the delusional ‘goodness’ and the rawness of the evil nature within. ‘The Killer in me is the killer in you’  – another  piece of lyrics that to me meant quite a literal sense of reality: we cannot deny the fact that we are fully aware of how our Mind Works – yet we suppress it and deny it behind fake faces and fake smiles to pretend that ‘everything is sugar and spice.’ Really?

If we can spot the evil nature of man through our daily news and obvious consequences in this world, why is it so difficult to accept such same nature within ourselves? Is it actual fear of realizing who and what we have become?

I am sorry, Mr. F. Dostoyevsky – wherever in this existence you are – but a man that is willing to know oneself would not pretend ‘not to understand’ his inherent nature.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever deny the real nature of myself as a human being that by default emerged into existence as the result of friction that generated the separation that remained as a constant self-experience of division, antagonism, separation and longing toward the whole that I separated myself from in order to become energy that seeks to be ‘more’ than others, and in that be the primary source and origin of all abuse in this world and existence, for I see, realize and understand that for power and control to exist =abuse must exist.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever be resilient to accept the true nature of myself as the inherent nature of ourselves as humanity as Evil, because of having lived as an idea of being a benevolent being that cares about humanity and life and the environment, and it was ‘impossible’ for me to believe that ‘I’ could ever be ‘a mean person,’ which was simply the way to neglect any form of responsibility that I held toward this reality, simply because of being taught to always ‘do good’ which implies that I had to be educated to ‘tame’ my inner nature of actual evil.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to miss the very basics in common sense wherein: if we had to be trained/ educated/ tamed and indoctrinated to ‘do good’ and be ‘good respectable citizens,’ it implies that the actual nature of ourselves was Never of good, benevolence and actual consideration of each other as equals, otherwise, our education from our emergence into this reality would have been based in simply fine-tuning such ‘benevolent nature,’ and it wasn’t like that – we became the very battle within ourselves through constantly having to place ourselves back in the cage of our ‘do good’ mentality, without having any proper explanation to understand WHY we had to always be fearing ‘the bad’ and ‘the evil,’ which only lead me to create fear toward any bad thought that would come into my mind as a child, fearing my own thoughts, dreams and nature, which I learned to mask very well with smiles, ‘doing good’ and sticking to always thinking on ‘the bright side’ of reality, which caused quite an inner conflict when I would become aware of my own nature.

 

I forgive myself that  I have accepted and allowed myself to find a sense of vicarious enjoyment through watching the evil nature portrayed in films, stories, books, villains of any kind as they ‘dare’ to represent that which has always existed as my own nature, but hid and suppressed it out of fear, out of having been taught to always ‘do good’ and ‘stick to the positive thinking,’ which caused me to then only become a concealer of thoughts that would come up in my head, and fear them, believing that some other ‘bad entity’ was responsible for it – hence fearing all the dark and evil as it caused tremendous anxiety to face that which I was taught to stay away from at all cost.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to use the belief in god, spirits and guardians as a way to ‘keep me safe from evil,’ which would be the way for me to cope with that which I came to only constantly fear because of following the education of my parents who have also been educated in a way to always ‘fear the evil’ and ‘stay away from being a bad person,’ which is how I simply became fearful of all things evil, avoiding it at all cost and resorting to the comforting thought of god as a means to protect myself from my own mind and thoughts that could come up in any given moment, which revealed the actual nature that I existed as, but denied and suppressed which caused an inner-struggle and fascination at the same time for it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever believe that within ‘thinking positive’ I was actually correcting my real nature as the thoughts that would come up in my head – which now I see and realize is what we have all been doing as  humanity: staying away from the actual nature of ourselves and stigmatizing anyone that would dare to portray the actual evil-nature of ourselves in a blatant and open manner.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create a point of fascination toward ‘all things evil’ and malicious at some point because it seemed ‘more real’ to me than the fluffy caramelized version of reality – associated with the pink color – and in that, always wonder WHY I had such a fascination for the rawness of human evil such as serial killers and demon possessions, wars, brutal massacres and everything that could point out that we were able to be evil/ kill others/ do ‘bad things’ that could disturb the world and society, simply because all of it was revealing our own nature.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to keep myself ‘safe’ from ‘evil’ through developing a personality that could be comfortable with seeing ‘the evil’ in others, but never really pondering where and how I was existing in the exact same nature of such evil and how I had repressed it and suppressed it in order to not have to realize the actual reality of myself as my own mind, as who and what I have always been, which is and must not be ‘feared’ but rather walked through a process to ensure that I no longer stand in the pole of being ‘good’ or ‘bad,’ but just a physical being that is able to coexist with others in Equality, which means: the beginning of the separation that instigated the evil in ourselves is able to be stopped and taken to an end with ourselves walking our process of Self-Honesty to ensure that we stop being the cause of evil/ separation and reverse of Life by stopping ourselves from participating in the same mind-set that disregards everything and every other being as one and equal with ourselves.

 

I see, realize and understand that the current evil in humanity is driven as an energetic experience that begins at a thought level – therefore, I ensure that I become aware of every single thought and forgive myself for every single attempt to give head to a thought that implies harm, abuse, desire for power, revenge, superiority and any other form of separation that is only generated the moment that I see others as separate from myself.

 

I see, realize and understand that every-one that is here is myself, and in that, any ‘battle’ that I generate stems from my very own beingness as energy, as thoughts, as a personality that seeks to ‘thrive’ as a mind in individuality – wherein I then take a deep breath and establish my self-directive principle of Life in Equality, as I see and realize that it is only through me stopping all forms of separation at a thought level, that I can begin correcting the inherent accepted and allowed patterns of separation that I’ve imposed onto Life, which has always been here as myself in and as Equality and Oneness.

 

I commit myself to support myself to lay out all that which I have veiled from myself, to not see who and what I have actually become as a mind that exists in separation of the whole – and in that, become the point that stops existing as ‘evil’ as the reverse of life and in that, correct my physically accepted and allowed patterns of separation that can only exist if I give continuation to who I am and exist as within my own mind.

 

“I commit myself to show why and how – the only solution to ourselves, humanity and so this world: is ourselves within ourselves as God/Energy-Authority/Consciousness control of separation, taking responsibility and walk ourselves into and as equality and oneness with and as the physical-body, and eventually this physical existence through and as the process of writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application. To, as we stop the separation within, and standing and living absolute equality and oneness as ourselves with and as the physical, we will so stop the separation without, and walk this world/current World-System into and as a System of and as Equality and Oneness, that ensure this world of sacrifice/suffering stop in the name of money, for each to have an equal and one opportunity Life/Living, as we stop the sacrifice/suffering to our own physical-bodies in the name of Energy/Consciousness.” Sunette Spies *

 

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2012 Existential Anguish: Solved

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Here I share about this photo that had no description or explanation when I first made it and uploaded it on December 22nd, 2011 – to me it just seemed like another ‘anguished representation’ of a general experience that I’ve had – and most certainly every human being has had – throughout my life, wherein this ‘existential anguish’ became something that I could not ‘pin point’ yet it was definitely Here as myself, not knowing why or what I could possibly be so ‘sad’ about. It wasn’t even sadness either, it wasn’t a depression either – This was ‘something else.’

 

When I was reading Sunette’s blog, and this specific quote  it all just clicked and this image that I had surreptitiously posted on Facebook as a way to share how I would experience myself at times wherein it’s not a personal anguish, because there was nothing ‘going on’ within my personal life – but a general/ existential anguish which would come through most of the art I have created – always depicting suffering and humanity in some form of massive enslavement – and I had no understanding within myself on why I was drawing this, why I had such a constant drive to draw the same type of themes, while getting a constant experience of being dismal about reality.

 

So, now understanding reality and all the latest interviews and Sunette’s blogs have allowed me to understand everything that I ever sought to understand and there’s a phrase that I’ve been having on a constant basis while reading, hearing, understanding who I am here: all makes sense now, and it’s a great relief as much as it is a great duty to be informed and essentially, preparing myself because I’ve never been so sure about something in my life. I cannot even recognize who the hell I was in the past, feeling lost and so afraid of the world and people – and this is not a magic-wand type of realization: it’s taken time and I’m sure that as time progress we can only go asserting ourselves more and more within this process.

 

Why is it a ‘weight off’ of my back to understand this? Because I could experience this constant friction and conflict within myself without a reason. I always got to read/ hear people’s stories that made sense as to why they would be depressed, or sad and generally self-destructive in their lives due to their contexts, but I always had a ‘good life’ and I simply got to believe that I was being just an attention seeker and spoiled brat trying to be a drama queen. But no, it wasn’t that either… it was definitely something beyond even a point of self manipulation as I mostly would keep it to myself, and actually play the ‘forte’ one with/ toward people that were ‘truly depressed’ by their self-created circumstances – yes, everything we have ever experienced has been Self-Created.

 

So – to me this is understanding more of myself, what I was expressing, which made me ‘excited’ and still a little jump on my chest comes up when I bring ‘here’ that moment when reading Sunette’s blog The Forward March to HELL: DAY 28  and it all just suddenly clicked as I had have a general concern about not knowing ‘why I paint that’ – It’s one of the ‘lost pieces in the puzzle’ that I had sought in books, spirituality, philosophy, people, personal heroes and only now it is all coming together so that I can finally stop my personal mysteries and focus on that which is actually relevant, which doesn’t have anything to do with seeking some great truth behind art – I’m done with that, this is about Self-Realization – Self-Creation as a physical being that essentially can continue living here, breathing, walking all relationships back to Self wherein no more separation as relationships exist.

 

The truth is that when I go stopping all past definitions as ‘who I was,’ I in fact remain and more ‘human’ than ever as a living flesh that is no longer torturing itself with mindful gaps that would occupy my mind on a constant basis at times in my past.

 

I am the one that is able to now ensure that I stop all forms of EXPERIENCE toward the separation that I’ve ‘felt’ as myself, as this world and coming along with the usual dreary experience when seeing people not caring about each other, people striving to make a living, people living and begging for money on the streets, animals being hit by their owners, children being hit by their parents, people fighting and cursing at each other for no reason, people competing against each other and never even questioning WHY we can’t just Be Life.

 

So – the death and destruction now makes sense to me as I see that I’ve done this all to myself and it’s in my hands to now stop it, walk my process of writing on a daily basis, applying Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Application, so that all that I go realizing as the separation that I’ve become can finally be brought back to self, wherein I take Self-Responsibility to ensure that Life is never again dissociated from who we really are as physical beings.

 

I invite everyone reading these words to check out the afore mentioned blog and all of our blogs that are being pressed on a daily basis as the commitment that we as Destonians have taken on as Our Lives.

 

As far as art-creation, I’ll continue making it but I now can stop actually experiencing that as an energetic possession that was driving me mad – and instead, walk the points of separation as myself, as my own words and still be able to depict it in a picture/ drawing/ painting as the result of realizing how blind we have become and propose the solution that can be walked by All in the name of Life in Equality.

 

The World is Not going to end – the only thing that will end is our human negligence and disregard for each other which most certainly needs to meet its end in each and every one of ourselves.

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“Advantages of Blogging – it makes sure the disadvantages does not manifest as backchat/shame – but, seriously though – it’s cool seeing the days go as you walk – lol; and with continuing walking it’s like – man, I can’t turn back or stop now, because I know if I will, all that I have done this far will mean nothing, and will have to start again – so, you just keep on writin’/moving and becomes more natural each passing day” Sunette Spies

 

Self Forgiveness is the Key to STOP All our Existential Woes and actually Get back on Track to what must be done in order for us to finally be able to say: We are Here and we are ALIVE

Some other quotes I’ve taken from Sunette’s blogs that allowed me to understand more about myself:

Vlog:
2012 Existential Woes – Stop and Know Yourself

If you want to hear a very simplistic explanation of this process, get the following interview:

Reptilians – Where does Relationships come from – Part 40

 

HEAR Great Music made by Destonians

Earthonites-Jealousy

 

And a cool blog to walk the correction:

Day 2: Perfection Game
Glorifying the Devil as the Nature of God: Day 36
Day 36: Heaven on Earth

I recommend hearing the following interview to make sure you don’t miss out on your own life and only realize when it is too late.

Life Review – When Life turns its back on You


Day 35: Golden Corpses for Sale

In a world where surgically removed stillborn babies are roasted dry and covered in gold leaf to then be trafficked and sold for £4,000 for any form of ‘good luck’ amulets/ rituals/ spiritualism, can we expect our fellow human beings to let go of beliefs that are sold in the most obscure ways? Can we redeem our insanity as species? Do we respect Life or do we value more Money than Life? Or is it Beliefs that we truly value the most? Are we all equally participants of this that we might believe is absolutely gruesome?[1]

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a living species that is willing to sell anything in the name of ‘good luck’ and ‘good omen’ as a belief in order to earn money that will allow me to continue living in this world, without realizing that I have only enslaved myself to the monetary system the same way that I have created a belief about stillborn babies being of any ‘good luck’ within rituals.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe or perceive that selling dead fetuses covered in gold can in any way have any ‘magical powers’ to bring good luck/good fortune, not realizing that all that I am asking as ‘good fortune’ is related to money and sex, as these are the two aspects that have become the drive within my every day living

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to traffic dead bodies and cover them with gold to make them more special than the dust of the Earth that they represent, wherein I am making money out of that which should be buried back on the Earth – but instead I’ve allowed myself to make money out of a single belief linked to Kuman Thong and a good fortune amulet, which is again, desiring money and power that can only exist in a system where life is not respected, where life is sold and where I can traffic with dead bodies to make money.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a buyer of dead bodies/living beings for the sake of my own personal interest according to beings being of ‘good omen’ within my beliefs which I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see are absolutely delusional when it comes to asking for ‘good fortune’ by using beings as a means to do so, which implies that I have become an equal abuser that is willing to pay for dead bodies in the name of good fortune.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that I would not require to be selling/ buying living/ dead beings in order to make money within a certain religious/spiritual belief, if money was a given-right at birth, wherein I would no longer require to ask for ‘good fortune,’ which is translated to Money. I realize that I can instead of promoting beliefs in the name of waiting and hoping for a god/ energy/ source point to ‘give me good fortune,’ to actually Create it by Taking Self Responsibility for my world, the World-System as I see and realize that the opportunity to live in dignity is in my hands if I dare to stand up and let go of greed, beliefs and the desire to be powerful, as power can only exist if abuse exists.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make use of dead living beings for rituals in black magic, Santeria, animism and any other cult belief wherein the consecration of any living/ dead matter is used and abused as a means to obtain ‘power’ or any other apparent ‘good luck’ related charms, without realizing that all that has lead me to traffic life and death is only because of money not being a given-right to life, and I’ve resorted to make money and earn copious amounts of it by trafficking with stillborn babies as an ability to become part of the rare-item sellers that can produce for a selective group of people that are willing to pay for such items, due to their beliefs about them which have been created and instigated by fellow human beings throughout time.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create beliefs about charms and magical powers that any living being – including young children – have for rituals, spiritualism, spiritism, animism, black magic, Santeria – wherein abuse toward another being’s physical body is inflicted in the name of a godly-power, in the name of unseen spirits that are used as a way to justify abuse onto another being, which is then linked to ‘good fortune’ which can only prove the delusional traits that I’ve accepted and allowed to exist within myself in order to always ‘win’ and have the ‘best luck in the world,’ which is translated to Money and Sex – therefore

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create cults, religions, sects, spiritual endeavors in the name of bettering ‘human’s living condition’ which is often related to ritualistic abuse of the living matter in the name of money, power and personal satisfaction, which reveals that who I have accepted and allowed myself to become is a greedy being that is willing to kill, to sell dead bodies, to abuse young children, to kill animals, to torture beings, to force sexual acts, to denigrate a human being’s reality in the name of a ‘superior power’ as the ritualistic abuse that is conducted in the name of obtaining power/ control/ special gifts that are all based within the same belief system according to anything being able to be ‘more’ than who and what we already are as this physical reality that exists in equality – yet we have become so deluded that we are trafficking with dead bodies and covering them with gold to make them a ‘rare exclusive item,’ and in that placing such ‘rare exclusive item’ as an object of good-charms and personal power, which is proof of how insanity is able to be accepted as ‘normal’ if there is a religious background to sustain such belief

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the abuse of living/dead beings in the name of rituals within spiritual/ religious contexts as a ‘tradition’ that is seen as acceptable and ‘okay’ because we have become the accomplices of these delusions in the name of ‘respecting people’s beliefs,’ which is proof of how we are willing to see the abuse of life and selling it in the name of greed and personal belief of super natural powers as something that is acceptable because it is a religious/ cult/ spiritual belief.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that living beings can in fact have ‘superior powers/ magical powers’ and create any form of positive/ negative effect upon others, which is equal to and one with the belief that we have created the current system wherein money is the energy that allows us to have a positive or negative experience according to having/ not having it, which leads us to participate in the same system of abuse wherein selling corpses for money for ritual purposes is no different to selling any other living being for personal satisfaction, consumption and/or luxury item that is as promoted in our reality as any other religion would promote sacrifices as a way to obtain ‘more power’ over others.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that consumerism is a religion, and that any ritual behavior wherein life is sold is equal to and one with any other religious fanaticism that people believe cannot be changed/ stopped and is imperative to follow in order to obtain ‘good fortune,’ which is the same with how we all require money to exist and are willing to sell anything and anyone – including ourselves – in the name of money in order to survive, compromising each other to exist within cycles of abuse that are able to be stopped if we will ourselves to establish an Equal Life System

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish fellow living beings to items that can be sold, which includes everything that we are consuming at the moment to eat, to wear, to move ourselves as I see and realize that everything that is keeping my current ‘lifestyle’ running, is based on being able to have money to buy and use life’s source to transform it into energy to continue living – yet doing this within a system wherein Life is being Sold – wherein we are all equally trafficking with selling life in the name of survival, which is delusional when seeing and realizing that we can actually create a solution for All equally in this world to be able to stop all deification of money, all ritualistic abuse,  all super natural beliefs that are all leading to personal power, to create a Living System wherein money becomes the representation of Life in Equality as a given right for all to be able to live in dignity and stop indulging into abusing life in the name of money/god.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people selling dead stillborn babies covered in gold leaf, without realizing that by me existing in this very same system that enables the ability to buy/sell living beings/life, I am equally responsible for this form of abuse that is the current ruling government in this world, which leads me to realize that any form of judgment that I’ve held toward ‘abusers’ is actually pointing out to myself that I have become an equal abuser by the single fact of perpetuating a system wherein Life can be sold in the name of personal power  = we all equally buy it, sell it and thrive upon abuse.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people’s beliefs as ‘extreme/bizarre’ and ‘absolutely abusive,’ without realizing that who I have become as a participant within our current monetary system is being one and equal to any person being able to make money out of selling life no matter ‘which way’ it is made – I see and realize that the same a stillborn baby covered in gold leaf is sold for personal power/ good charms, the same for a woman that sells her body for sexual services to make money to live, the same someone buys a car in the name of personal satisfaction/ power/ social status or simple mobility, which proves that we often disregard how everything is interdependent as a chain-massacre of abuse toward life the moment that we have all accepted and allowed money to become ‘the point’ that we all require to continue living in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my responsibility to create a world system of money that provides equal life for all, and instead support, instigate and be an enthusiast of beliefs that will apparently create ‘good luck’ out of nowhere, without having the least idea of how this reality works and how nothing can be brewed out of ‘nowhere’ in this reality, and within this neglecting the consequences that my desires and personal dreams create in this world, which is to the detriment of all living participants which includes myself, invariably so.

I commit myself to stop any beliefs of items/beings/ life having any form of ‘super natural power’ that can ‘heal me’ and make a more ‘powerful’ being, which is implying that I am not satisfied with myself here as the physical being that I am and that require basic sustenance, but instead want to ‘be more’ which can only exist as a delusional idea in the mind wherein atrocities toward life are daily perpetrated in order to satisfy a chain-need of personal satisfaction according to that which I can ‘buy’ to make my life better.

 

I commit myself to stop seeking any form of personal power/ wellbeing at the expense of other living beings which implies that, in order to do this, I must become part of the necessary reforms in this world to create an actual way to support all life in Equality, wherein beliefs are no longer a reason to abuse in the name of personal-improvement and power translated to money, but instead Life is dignified, respected and given and received as an actual realization that we can become beings that respect life as each other, and stop any form of abuse that was only held by the ability to make of life a lucrative business.

 

I commit myself to expose all rites, cults, spiritual fanaticism, deification of dead bodies and sacrifice of alive ones in the name of a spiritual/ religious beliefs and cultist behavior  instigated by the desire for personal power/ good luck which is and has become the driving force to accept any form of abuse in this world of which we are all equal participants the moment that we have endowed money with ‘real power’ over life, as a belief system wherein some can be/have ‘more’ than others according to the power to acquire life-resources to live and thrive in reality at the expense of others that cannot.

 

I commit myself to expose how it is only through an economical, social and political system based on Life in Equality that real well-being can emerge for all living beings, wherein religions, spiritual practices and any other form of cultist activity will cease to exist the way they do now, because it will be realized that there is no need to pray and abuse life to recreate rituals to obtain any form of ‘well being’ as it will be a birth-right to be supported to live and educated to understand how it is that any form of abuse of fellow living beings constitutes abuse toward oneself.

 

I commit myself to share myself and become part of the instructors of life that can allow human beings to step out of and stop participating in beliefs that have been inculcated and reinforced within particular cultures and traditions that never considered that a change in the world system is possible and that their current acceptance of spiritual/ religious beliefs is in fact a form of abuse toward life which is who they are as well.

 

I commit myself to promote information that can allow common sensical living realizations in various aspects of our day to day living reality as humanity,  in order to go re-educating ourselves into beings that start considering how our life will change the moment that Life is no longer a lucrative business, but given as an equal recognition of who we are as life, in Equality

 

I commit myself to promote the Equal Money System as the necessary reform within this system that will prove that abuse can only stem from the need to make money to live in this world – hence by giving Equal Money for All, we can begin establishing a primordial sense of Neighborism that should have always existed on Earth as a god-given right realization that Life is here for all, equally as one and that no one has the right to abuse it in the name of personal power.

 

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2012 Meet your maker

In the back of my head – backchat – there is this thought ‘why am I once again having to talk about ‘God!’ as a resistance to go again into this topic. However, throughout the past years walking the Desteni material I came to realize how I could not side-view this concept – aside from the various beliefs I held about it in the past – thus I see it as a relevant point because it has become our chronic state of dementia, forgetting that initial moment of separation that lead ourselves to who and what we are currently living in.

This is going  beyond any usual idea/ belief or concept of a Christian or Muslim or Jewish idea of ‘god’; this is about the single acceptance and allowance of ‘god’ as a primordial separation from being one and equal – this is that basic make-believe IDEA of anything/ anyone being able to be ‘more’ than who we are.

Back in 2008 when the Reptilian interviews came out on YouTube, I was immediately ‘hooked on’ to them. I understood that any reaction that I could get toward their presentation was only a reaction to the  inherent ‘nature’ that resides within us all – I understood what the infamous ‘image and likeness’ meant as the ‘human nature’ that sought to be god at all times – we are still living that, certainly, look at this system, it is a dog eat dog world wherein controlling, manipulating and having ‘power’ over others is still an alluring idea that many have defined as a point of ‘fear’ – who would we be if we had all the money in the world? What would this world be if everyone allowed themselves to step upon anything and anyone in order to ‘get to the top’? However, the point here is looking at how such ‘power’ and ‘top’ has been in fact an induced belief, a fantasy created upon what is here which we can see now manifested as the cruel reality wherein because of some striving and fighting to be ‘on top,’ some have to be invariably existing ‘below’ and in the worst conditions that we might not even be able to outline here. And this is our creation.

 

It is within this point that we place ourselves in the shoes of the contemporary gods which can be ‘rich people’ that are able to ‘do as they will’  because of such godly-power that money represents. But, let’s rewind a bit: how on Earth have we gotten from Anu the mythological god that is often seen as ‘malevolent’ and the punching-bag for how fucked up this reality turned out to be, into this current reality?

 

In the interview that was released 2 days ago [1] he declares how he had only used what was already HERE within a basic realization: he is one and equal as that ‘source’ that everyone would deem themselves as coming from instead of being one and equal-to it.  Once again, the use of words is precise here – we must distinguish to what extent a refractional-shift in meaning can mean the whole world going into enslavement. Yes, this is the moment when we would all have to go quiet for a second to re-consider how much shit we can talk with no awareness whatsoever, which is what we have manifested and poured-out as this half-baked reality wherein the raw nature of this creation could not be essentially ‘someone’s creation’ only, but was astutely recognized and used by a single being in order to be ‘god,’ to be that point that has ‘the whole world in his hands.’

 

What we often miss is that: it takes two to tango.

I’ve received probably hundreds now of angry comments on the reptilian interviews, trying to blame Anu for how this reality exist now, yet having no understanding of creator and creation being in fact one and equal. It became quite obvious early on that having the reptilian gods presenting themselves to ‘their creation’ was yet another opportunity in a golden platter to realize ourselves, to understand that they had merely used what was already here as a preprogrammed system and manipulated it into a specific energetic functionality that became an ongoing enslavement. Anu reveals his true-intentions in part 2 with specific details about the energetic system that we are still living out – fascinating stuff to place into perspective everything that we had deemed as ‘who we are’ without ever having been able to realize and understand what was it that it was all actually for.

 

As I went hearing them I kept having this immediate clicks on what is it that he was actually revealing here: he had been nothing else but part of the same game, he merely played the role in this reality of ‘god’ – we have missed the fact that it is still ‘us’ as a separate point playing the character that would show us to what extent we could be blinded by the illusion of the ‘physical experience’ and all its pleasures and divinities. These divine-ties is what we accepted then as a life on Earth, a life filled with both your greatest misery and your ‘greatest excitement’ – all of these back and forth rides for the sheer purpose of using the Earth’s energy, human beings going from cathode to anode and create enough energy to produce the white-light that we then, foolishly, sought to ‘go to,’ always missing that we were in fact the ones generating it.

Duh.

 

It is ludicrous  and I even experience that I am missing a word here in order to explain this ‘forgetfulness’ – yet self-created and self-indulgent deception of the human within this accepted and allowed self-enslavement within an automated system. This is about words in separation of ourselves that became beliefs, that became make-believe systems such as the one we have now with our god-money system.

 

The revelation that Anu brings forth is that he merely played his part within this entire scheme that is self-created. And the truth is that I see this as a very long and tumultuous process to realize who and what we really are, a system that has been agreed and placed by all of us, always forgetting about it because we had to see to what extent we would abuse each other in the name of a God. Who’s been the dishonest ones all the way? We all have.

 

This sounds absolutely abhorring – however it is real, as real as having more than half of the world still suffering this primordial separation. This idea becomes suffocating for me at the moment – this is the actual moment when we see what we have done onto ourselves – everything becomes so clear and it seems like the most vile yet perfect plan for us to get caught in our own bite of the apple, stuck within the same point forever: we all wanted to be god, we all wanted to have the same power that Anu was able to simply acknowledge as one and equal as himself and use it, play along with it.

 

This was the ‘key’ point and decisive factor: while everyone else was believing to ‘come from source,’ he could realize himself as one and equal as everything that is here. However, the fact that he acknowledges that he wasn’t a self-directive consciousness implies that there is yet a lot more to understand and follow through in his interviews. There’s a ‘desire to know’ which comes from a curiosity point that arises – but it’s also from the basic god-debunking factor that re-draws the map of what this reality is, who we are, what we are, where we come from, how is it that we accepted and allowed ourselves to exist here as we are now.

The relevance of this material is not for mere ‘mystery solving’ purposes – no, absolutely not. This can be applied in virtually everything that we do in this reality till this day, as it is understanding the very ‘driving force’ that we live-by in every moment when existing as a mind-system.

Look at politics and ‘the system’ – we believe that there is this ‘system entity = god’ that is ‘more than ourselves,’ that cannot be questioned, that cannot be changed – and if I learned something today was understanding how it is the actual fear of challenging such ‘untouchable entities’ not from the perspective of ‘winning’ over them or boycotting them – as it is usual to approach such ‘entities’ for example within activism – but to actually debunk the embroidery they represent as a single self-created over-wrought presentation that we deemed as ‘superior,’ separate from ourselves instead of realizing who and what we are as one and equal as it. This is where the ‘as’ particle throughout the Desteni material represents such a key-word within the acknowledgement of everything and all being ‘it’ as well. As = we are it as well.

 

All of the grammatical categories become a single way of creating different shades of the same color – it’s always been us as one and equal  – yet in separation of ourselves we have fucked each other into oblivion, always forgetting that anything and anyone that we ‘fought against’ has been only ourselves.

It is not only saying ‘I am a part of you’ but ‘I am one and equal as you’ – man, imagine all the fucked up relationships we’ve created with ourselves beginning with our own mind, then toward our family, then toward this ‘god’ idea as that supernatural being or any other form of ‘god’ as anything that we could deem as ‘powerful’ or ‘superior’ to ourselves – the most commonly known god at the moment is money, for sure, a make believe system that we have endowed with the power of giving life and death – which also were points introduced by Anu, he’ll go into it within the following interviews he’s placed out for our de-light.

The relevance within this is seeing how the so-called and self-proclaimed ‘God’ is now talking to us in a rather modest manner once that he is willing to share how he’s just ‘played his part’ and has not been in fact a ‘creator’ but only a great manipulator of what was already here.

Hence, it is not that the nature of ourselves as humanity comes specifically ‘from him’ – common sense is: it’s always been part of ‘who we are,’ probably from that very first moment of separation. He just had to become that role of ‘superiority’ and extrapolate it to an extent wherein ‘his manipulation’ upon this this creation went out of control, wherein he even got himself out of the game because of not realizing what he was actually ‘dealing-with’ which is life, substance, what is HERE and has always been here.

 

As long as there is polarity, there is ego – as long as there is a lived-perception of ‘high and low’ ‘good and bad’ ‘up and down’ ‘rich and poor’ ‘winner and loser,’ the idea of god is still existent. It is just like people wanting to ‘crack capitalism’ which is no different to wanting to ‘cease the existent as god’ yet becoming oblivious to ‘how to do it.’ Common sense is: stop participating in going from the cathode to the anode generating the same polarity-experiences. But the point is not to ‘eradicate god’ only as a concept/ idea/ belief – it is about actually understanding how the fuck we created IT in the first place! What is it that god represents? Is it the extrapolated epitome of our communal desires to be ‘above all’? Is such god actually the image and likeness and mirror of ‘our inherent nature’ that we then turned our backs on, pretending that ‘someone else did it to ourselves?’

If we understand this, how ‘evil’ can we be to claim amnesia and label only ‘him’ as evil for daring to play out such a character in our reality – it takes two to tango and in that we are all equally responsible for abdicating self-responsibility, for going the easy way out to fulfill our individual yearnings in separation of ourselves.

Is this all going to be about the promise of an outrageous physical experience on Earth? Have we all fallen for the same points over and over and over again without being able to remember why we created such recycling system in the first place?

Were we always desiring to ‘experience’ something, hence the primordial point of separation, labeling him or any other ‘godly character’ as ‘evil’ for daring to epitomize our inherent secret desire to be ‘god,’ to be ‘above it all’?

These questions place into perspective what we have always missed which is ourselves – it is only now pertinent that we face the consequences of having allowed such separation – there is no other way to do it as we all know how easy it is to pretend that ‘everything is fine’ and do nothing about it. Using love and lies as a self-talk that is ‘positive’ is like trying really hard to avoid seeing/ realizing who and what we really are.

I also realize that I am sharing what I have realized at the moment – but this can only be realized by-you if you give yourself the opportunity to actually walk the process which is walking ourselves as this process of self-realization, understanding our own mind and how this reality function so that we can take on the wheel again and become self-directive beings that ensure no other fuckup is perpetuated ever again in this existence – no matter ‘how’ the future looks like – we focus at the moment in this lifetime, we have this one-opportunity to realize ourselves as one and equal and actually take responsibility for this reality. There are no more ‘future moments’ for that, we direct and dedicate ourselves to be and become that which we always should have been: living as one and equal – the implication of doing that, the necessary changes and transformation is already here and explained as this entire process of Self-Honesty wherein we get to understand How it is that the mind is not who we really are and how it is that we must focus on the physical reality that is the direct consequence of having imposed a value-system as a hierarchical-godly system to enslave each other in order to be ‘more’ than another.

So, we continue walking and integrating this understanding so that we’re able to finally correct such ‘inherent nature’ for once and for all.

Anu’s interviews are able to be found at Eqafe

                                                                

Listen to the First interview:

[1] Anu the Reptilian God in 2012


Allegory of the Cave: our excuse to remain as slaves

 

The fact is that we come into this world without having any idea of ‘Why on Earth are we here’ becomes our drive in this reality. We then equate living to achieving goals, having a family, becoming successful (rich) – becoming a ‘winner’ in everything we do, following a single ‘dream’ without really questioning if such ‘missions’ or goals in life are actually what we are here for.

 

The accepted idea of us coming from a state of ‘forgetfulness’ and coming here to get back to ‘remembering’ something is already placing a massive condition to ‘who’ and ‘what we are’ from the get-go. This ‘forgetfulness’ must not be understood as ‘getting to complete ourselves’ here on Earth, but getting to realize how it was a deliberate plan to enslave man to always want to KNOW and Never Live.

That’s the key point of this here and I had to drive around in circles to get to the following: Life is Not Knowledge

 

Man Know Thyself

 

Getting to know yourself implies getting to see how we function within ourselves – the relationship toward our own mind – as well as the relationships we have formed that we have called ‘Life.’ If we have a look at it, the law of our being is currently compromised by money and the delusion of ‘power’ – we have then created our own cave wherein we have delegated our power to play only with shadows, believing that those that cast them are ‘more than ourselves’ and even separate from who we really are.

The fact is that we have forgotten to ‘know ourselves’ as the understanding that: we have set the rules of the game, we have cheated ourselves into believing it was never our ‘creation’ and that we could blame some ‘God’ for it.  It is now our turn to establish some basic living-conditions that will enable Life to flourish where there has been none, previously.

 

“God is really all people know and then this is called Man know thyself –that should be Man know thyself as Life” – Bernard Poolman

 

What Plato described as ‘Real Knowledge’ within this context would be knowledge that can be lived as living-words that stand within a practical realization of what Life is and can be lived-as in this world. This is now re-defining the usual philosophical rhetoric that never lead to a tangible and useful ‘use of words.’

We have lived ‘knowledge’ in a separate realm within our reality.

Equating enlightenment to the ability that some ‘privileged ones’ have, as passing on knowledge to the ‘ignorant ones’ already places an unequal starting point within the game. The Lie that is accepted and allowed is that the world of ‘ideas’ is what is real, when in fact we words not lived have been a primordial separation from what is here as the physical reality.

 

If we take the Allegory of the Cave as an example to illustrate this, the Prisoners of are set ‘by default’ as the natural-condition we are born into – yet we invariably created at some point that is ‘not remembered.’ We get to this reality wherein we are placed to race within this ‘game of life’ to attain nothing else but Knowledge that will apparently ‘set us free’ and give us an actual realization of what ‘Reality’ is.

 

Who are then those that solace themselves casting the shadows of a make-believe reality for the prisoners? We all are.  Even before that! Why on Earth did we allow ourselves to place us in such a position as  ‘prisoners’ wherein some others would be casting the theatre of shadows ?

We did – in our attempt to be ‘more’ than the rest – self interest which later on was capitalized as seeing everything with eyes of ‘personal power’ and a strong desire to obtain anything and all that could fulfill a sense of ‘freedom.’

Once we start asking the pertinent questions to everything we’ve bought as our ‘reality,’ we’ll start really taking the illusion of the shadows and the light of knowledge for what it is: our own knowledge trap that would perpetuate ourselves as prisoners wanting to ‘get out of the cave’ through attaining this ‘ultimate knowledge’ which leads to a perpetual state of ‘happiness’ and ‘everlasting grace.’

Nowadays we call this process the pursuit of happiness.

 

The fire is specific – light as enlightenment that only a few can achieve if having enough money for it.

 

Anything that could have bound us to keep facing the wall of shadows as some invisible force as the White Light as God, as Consciousness, has been debunked. 

 

What is left then? The ingrained idea that what we are doing here as humanity is seeking ‘God,’ seeking Knowledge, seeking ‘The Truth’ that will ‘Set us Free.’

 

So, we direct such myths to explain our current reality to a point of support.

 

 

We Cast the Shadows

“So what we see and experience is not necessarily real, yet we give existence to anything from actual structures to thoughts, concepts, ideas anything possible by our human mind. Existence is that which we give existence to and as – becoming that which we experience ourselves within and as..”[6]

 

The reality of the prisoners was depending on the shadows casted by those set as the shadow-creators behind the prisoners. In our reality that role is performed by those with enough money in the world to dictate the rules and the reality: politicians, corporations, bankers, elites as families and sects that were deliberately placed in this reality in order to maintain ‘God’s order.’ The fact is that till this day, they are seen as the ones to blame for our current status of the world – we never realized that they are also part of the game and that in fact, we have all accepted and allowed it in an equal manner.

 

This makes us all responsible because, what is money but knowledge imposed onto this reality as an ‘unchangeable’ and ‘unchallengeable truth’ – it is our own deliberate system of separation to make some remain facing a wall with shadows while others had the light to cast the show. This is allowing some to remain as the directors of the game – apparently – as ‘more’ than those who remained ‘tied and bound’ to facing a wall as prisoners – they never could realize each other as equals. We have accepted the shadows to be as real the same way that those that were deliberately and placed in the position of ‘casting the shadows’ believed themselves to be in control of this existence. The fact is that not even the creators were actually ‘in control’ of what is here – Life is directing now.

 

 

At an individual level we create this ‘wall’ in front of us as well, whenever we keep believing that the shadow we see in front of us is ‘everything we are,’ we see ourselves trapped and enslaved by this self-image/ self-idea, without ever questioning why on Earth are we even bound to this cave-reality with shackles that can definitely be taken off if we all agree it IS what’s best for all to Live.

 

See, this premise of the ‘prisoners’ in reality is that “original sin” that we have believed we must ‘pay for’ and this is something that could not have been understood until now that we get to hear from our Real ‘forefathers’ where and how and why we are here on Earth. [2]

 

 

Within identifying the shadows as knowledge, as all the ideas and systems imposed onto this reality, we get to see how we are directly responsible for perpetuating and accepting this reality ‘as is,’ because it was all we had ever known.

 

We just ‘can’t’ remember that we created such forgetfulness in the first place, and this is where the importance of studying the Desteni material exists. We would not be able to tell the ‘truth’ of reality as is without having the ability to ‘know’ beyond our own mind as that only instrument of cognition within this reality. That is through the Interdimensional Portal which should already be regarded as a once in a lifetime opportunity for humanity to see and understand what we have become, why are we here on Earth, how is it that we have created this world in separation and from there, while being able to understand and educate ourselves about the actual process of Creation. We have been the Gods we have blamed for our current situation in the world: we have set the rules all along.

 

 

Out of the Cave into Reality

because we created it in the first place

We are all responsible because we all accepted and allowed even the creation of allegories and mythologies as plausible and ‘credible’  explanations to our own deliberate separation, to justify our beliefs, our spitefulness toward each other in disregard of the whole. We created our own demise through accepted and allowed separation from each other as words– we tried to make sense of this world through knowledge and information and forgetting about the reality that has and always remained here.  [2]

 

Without understanding HOW we created ourselves as the reality that each one of us is constantly living and playing-out within the context of replaying the past, present and future, we will remain holding on to this shadow-like reality wherein we can only complain, feel miserable about the idea that we accepted and allowed ourselves to actually become.  It is through our very own participation in the constant and continuous thinking and communication based on this idea of being ‘separated from source/ left by God,’ that we began creating these words as ‘who we are,’ as prisoners that have been forever cast out from the realization and living experience of being one and equal.[3]

 

What are beliefs but words that are taken as ‘truths’ that eventually become part of our self-definition, it becomes ‘who we are’ without questioning it further.

 

“We are as real as what we have allowed ourselves to become as this world– the world being a system expression equal to our minds –we use our minds to create all the machines and technology–our minds interdimensionally actual looks exactly like the systems and machines and TV’s and computers we have in this world–that is our apparent evolution — the externalization of the mind into form — the next stage is the mind becoming actual physical form — this will be really tough to live through — prepare yourself effectively as all sentient life will face this in all ways” – Bernard Poolman

 

 

This is how we are walking a process of placing out the ‘truth’ of ourselves as thoughts, ideas, beliefs and perceptions of who we are, what we have become through our own accepted and allowed thoughts as patterns that we have continued playing out as ‘who we are.’ This goes from the micro to the macro – each self-belief as the self-religion that we have bound ourselves-to has become our own self-created cage that we feel we are betraying every time that we dare to equalize ourselves as God, as everything that is Here. How ludicrous! And some of us have gone to the extent of blaming a ‘god’ or some other beings in apparent  ‘higher positions’ for this separation, without ever actually realizing that: we did this to ourselves, I did this to myself, by a single belief in Separation.

 

 

Knowledge is ‘God’ and ‘God’ became an excuse

The words that created such separation as a belief became ‘our law,’ it became almost like ‘the word of God’ that no one ever dared to question again.

Knowledge is separation, words not lived are all lies told to justify our irresponsibility – we’ve knitted our own blindfold to remain in a victimized state within this world, feeling like the prisoners seeking to get out of the cave at any cost – even if that means enslaving our lives to menial jobs that could at least ‘shed some light’ to our day to day experience as temporary energetic fixes like fixating on love, happiness, bliss, light, money… Is this Living? No! Absolutely not – can we stop and change the current accepted reality? Of course we can.

Knowledge has  become our very own trap as the elaboration of words that could justify our deliberate belief on separation from what is Here. Knowledge became the words that we speak, the words that we have perpetuated as ‘who we are’ which is what is currently being taught as our philosophy, religion, morals, cultural values and mythologies wherein the role of ‘God’ is the utmost separation toward all humans[4].

 

‎”Spreading the word of God is equivalent to spreading a message of terror – the fear it creates makes humans blind to reality.” 
– Bernard Poolman

 

It is madness to see how a single be-LIE-f has separated ourselves from Li(E)Fe through believing that only through a process of enLIEtenment we could ‘attain’ the truth of ourselves once again. Knowledge and information as God, as the ‘law of our being’ in absolute discordance to the reality that is HERE and has always been here.

In essence this is us showing/ revealing to ourselves how it is that blaming and projecting our own misery, feeling ‘enslaved’ to this world is a self-created belief that we then formed as ourselves as the physical reality we live in now, creating the idea of the ‘original sin’ that we then would have to redeem ourselves from.

 

“We are the Living-Words that has become Contaminated by the Knowledge we have Accepted.” Bernard Poolman [5]

 

We are here to establish the living principle we have neglected while following knowledge. We have been ‘separated’ from reality, never realizing that such separation has been self-created and never inflicted by a higher-being. We must now as a matter of self-responsibility make sure we dissect all possible separation that is now ingrained at the systematic level of our reality – as our laws, policies and values that are embedded on to anything as a price tag.

We have justified suffering and abuse through our own elaborate words as knowledge. Who is the real ‘evil’ in this word then?

It’s time to take Self Responsibility for our creation, it cannot be ‘clearer’ than this that it is us the ones that have played the joke on this existence.

 

Seek life–dump knowledge–who you really are created knowledge–let your creation not be the controller of you as creator”   Bernard Poolman

 

 

Sources:

[2] The Cross’ – Atlantean Interviews through the Interdimensional Portal. Desteni,  2012

[3] The Decision’ – Atlantean Interviews through the Interdimensional Portal. Desteni, 2012

[4] ‘The Friction’ – Atlantean Interviews through the Interdimensional Portal. Desteni, 2012

[5] Poolman, Bernard. “Knowledge.” Bernard Poolman Quotes. Desteni, 01 Mar 2012. Web. 1 Mar 2012. <http://bernardpoolmanquotes.wordpress.com/2012/03/01/knowledge/>.

[6]  “What is existence?.” Desteni. Desteni, n.d. Web. 1 Mar 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/questions-and-perspectives-what-is-existence>.

 

Suggested Read:

Poolman, Bernard. ” The Age of Knowledge – The Point of Consciousness and The Power of Now.” Desteni. Desteni, 21 Aug 09. Web. 1 Mar 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/interviews-from-the-farm-23-the-age-of-knowledge-the-point-of-consciousness-and-the-power-of-now>.

Poolman, Bernard. “’The Secret Knowledge of God’.” Desteni. Desteni, 18 Dec 09. Web. 1 Mar 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/interviews-from-the-farm-42-the-secret-knowledge-of-god>.

“What was the White Light and why did it exist?.” Desteni. Desteni, 2007. Web. 1 Mar 2012. http://desteni.org/a/questions-and-perspectives-what-was-the-white-light-and-why-did-it-exist.


2012 Life After Death–Interdimensional Portal

It’s been some years since I’ve been writing and I can’t recall having written about meeting Sunette – the portal – at Desteni while being in South Africa.

I had explained before how watching her in the videos wasn’t such a ‘new thing’ for me in terms of having beings talking from the ‘afterlife’ through a human being’s body – even though I later on got to know that channeling wasn’t precisely what she was doing. However being living with her and witnessing how it all works was something quite amazing, yet ‘normal’ as every being that is in the body simply does the same stuff that Sunette would do in any given moment. Whenever I was curious I would ask  ‘who’s in the body?’ this I would do whenever I could notice a particular voice tonality or ‘stance’ that I could recognize wasn’t Sunette – some other times it’s just imperceptible and you learn how to stop creating any idea of ‘who Sunette is’ in contrast to the rest of the beings. I see that’s part of the Equality and Oneness process wherein each being can only have these distinctive remarks as long as we try to find/ spot them – other than that, it’s just an equal and one expression, all equally part of ourselves which is quite fascinating nonetheless.

I could write my personal stories of being a bit surprised in relation to particular beings that would come through and my reactions to it – however the point here is to simply declare that it becomes such a ‘usual thing’ that we even tend to forget what ‘the portal’ actually represents for humanity and existence as a whole.

Hearing the Interview ‘History of the Interdimensional Portal – Part 2’ reminded me that which is still fascinating about Desteni, that which I can answer almost on a daily basis in semi-automated answers in YouTube videos in relation to Sunette being an interdimensional portal, and how her body is the point of physical expression for beings coming through from the dimensional existence to share and communicate about the existential process we are currently walking. However, listening to stories like this made me realize the actual Process we are living, which is a once in an existential-lifetime opportunity for us to finally realize who and what we really are beyond the veils of our mind, as Life – as One and Equal.

It is interesting that we have taken this point as a ‘regular thing’ within our reality, at least for myself after being so used to hearing, reading and chatting with dimensional beings – well, the latter while being at the farm with Sunette around – that I simply didn’t create any further ‘divide’ or separation of being talking with beings that are dimensional = don’t have a physical body/ are not alive any longer as in having a ‘life of their own’ on Earth – yet the words are and have been one of the key points within Desteni and our process as humanity.

I understand that this is the part of Desteni that many people still react to in terms of not being able to ‘prove it’/ witness it for themselves, however we have given testimony of it even in situations wherein we have been scrutinized for traveling ‘all across the globe’ to be at the farm, which is the usual point of identifying it with ‘meeting the portal.’ I can only say that one can make a ‘big deal’ out of it if the message is not heard, because it was through all the words that have come through the portal from beings in existence that I actually got to realize what regarding each other as equals actually implies, which is something that then takes off the ‘weight’ of the portal being something ‘more’ than us, once that we understand what oneness and equality actually means. Within this, there is no need to ‘believe’ in it, but simply HEAR the words and live the message that is shared.

Back to the interview…

The story narrated by this 7 year old boy that died, describes his entire realization of being in a different dimension on Earth. It reminded me of that which is still here yet we have veiled ourselves off from because of being only existing as our mind and in that, missing out the entire existence that is HERE and has always been here. This places into perspective the fact that we have been only walking thought-feeling-emotion machines without any further idea of there being something else to this life.

The fascination that I got from listening to this interview was similar to the one I got from listening to the Atlanteans interviews, which have been so far the history of existence coming from ancestors that we have never gotten to know of in this reality until now, narrated and explained with such detail that makes us really ‘wake up’ to see the bits of ourselves that we have missed within this reality, while being so occupied within our own mind and fighting against each other.

I see for myself how I tend to ‘lose perspective’ at times of what it is that I am actually getting to hear within these interviews as something that I would have never gotten to know of if it wasn’t for the existence of the Portal itself. However, it is also cool that it doesn’t become something ‘more’ than myself, I simply see it as part of the realization of getting to equalize ourselves to as one and equal, which is the entire process we are walking here. The importance or relevance of hearing these stories from the afterlife, as well as the history of mankind, is simply to get a broader perspective about ourselves, about existence and life itself, to learn how to take all points into consideration in terms of the realization that everything we are and do is part of a whole, and within this take Self Responsibility accordingly.

Listening to any material that has been created by the portal/ Sunette for the last 5 years now, has been a definitive turning point for humanity – whether people are aware of it or not – and this is what makes it such an important point to create a reference for as part of this process. With this I mean: we probably wouldn’t be here writing and sharing and applying ourselves within this process if Heaven had not ever been dismantled as the entire system of enslavement that it was.

As fascinating as this may seem for anyone reading here that didn’t have any reference to what Desteni is, I suggest taking a moment to simply listen to that interview as well as any other interview in the Internet from Desteni, as each video-interview is a key point to get to know ourselves, to understand who and what we really are and, most importantly, HOW we can practically assist and support ourselves to become a living-part of the solution that is proposed as the Equalization of Life as who we really are. (See the Unification of Man as I am)

We have never had such an opportunity in existence before. We have this one lifetime to stand up for Life and realize all the lies that we have perpetuated as this current mess of reality and stop them forevermore. Obviously within stopping = a new input must be created, and that’s in essence how we are walking our process to realize and understand what it practically means to stand as One and Equal as this reality – these are common words yet not properly understood within the actual implication at an existential level of what they imply.

For that, I can only suggest visiting the Desteni website and forum for further support as it is definitely quite an extensive amount of material that has been unconditionally published since 2007, plus all of the thousands of blogs and vlogs by us Destonians. We are here and walking the material as our own process which is what makes of Desteni such a cool group of people that are daring to walk ourselves out of our mind and into the physical  – which is nothing else than realizing who we really are as Life and giving us proper support for that to establish a system in this reality that can make of Equality as Life a Reality, regardless of any current obstacle such as money. For that, read all about the Equal Money System

To wrap this up, don’t be afraid to get to know what there is beyond the reality that we see with our current physical eyes, everything/ everyone is one and equal as ourselves and we are here to realize so that we can Birth-Ourselves as Life from the Physical, to finally and actually Be Here.

Enjoy!

Portal expanded interdimensionaly

History of the Interdimensional Portal – Part 3

Self-Extraction out of the body - Interdimensional Portal

The Story of Sunette


2012 What’s your Mark?

What has ‘marked you’ in your life? If you ask yourself this question you might come up with a memory, a moment in your life that ‘changed it all’ for you. Does that define who you are? Another answer would be having physical marks that could indicate the walk in time-space wherein our physical body starts to deteriorate according to the current experience of ‘getting older’ – does that define your current experience in any way? Marks are also qualifications, standards, requirements, symbols, representations, points of reference – setting up marks as goals can also be applied the same way, competing against ourselves. In essence, we could say they are imprints that we create and regard as a reminder of something, someone, identifying ourselves with a particular something/ someone for the sake of keeping track of ourselves.

There’s also a general desire to ‘leave a mark’ in this world – that’s almost the type of purposes we all had, whether it is going toward the usual success and pursuit of happiness associated with fame and glory, or the opposite polarity as becoming that point that leaves a mark as a reminder of everything that is wrong in society; that’s for example how serial killers have remained as transcendental beings for showing/ revealing the extremes of the accepted and allowed ‘human nature,’ they played out the reality that we have secluded and kept ‘secret’ within ourselves – they became the manifestation of what has existed in every single being’s mind as the idea of harm, abuse and violence toward ourselves/another. Such beings have tainted/ left a mark in human history that can be regarded as ‘negative’ – however we have all been the creators of such actions, regardless of the initial point of denial to take Self Responsibility for this that may come up while reading these words.

Some others seek to leave a ‘great mark’ in their lifetime, becoming someone ‘outstanding’ and influencing this reality in a  ‘positive’ way – these are people that are usually honored/ reminded in society as benevolent beings. From here all the delusional stages of light and bliss, god, angels, positivity, good vibes and the divine stem from, never ever questioning how it is that we have created of ourselves heroes and villains just to maintain a fuckedup status quo of ‘good vs. evil’ that apparently keeps everything in ‘balance’ which implies that the friction is not eradicated.

We can see that it is such desire for peace/ balance/ harmony that we are  not supporting ourselves to consider the root and cause of everything that goes on in our reality that is currently not supporting life, not supporting our expression, but only existing as beings that are always apparently subject to experiencing the highs and lows of ‘reality.’

As much as we would like to neglect the following, it must be said: it is within our little bubble (mind) wherein we walk a lifetime trying to ‘leave a mark’ in this world. We become so self-absorbed in our own realm of oddities and stories as the personal mythology that we neglect the world that is here, physically revealing to ourselves what happens when we stop watering a plant: it dies. This is a single example of how this reality had been specifically designed to keep us all well entertained with our own mind – and the relationships we have formed in it – as a form of never questioning or even having the least consideration to look at other beings’ life-experiences in this same world. Opening our eyes to see how it is that we spent our lives trying to create an effigy of ourselves in the name of whatever we believed in – and wanted to be ‘reminded’ for –  is only another mindfuck that reveals to what extent we as humanity have neglected reality while seeking to outdo our personal scores, to leave our mark.

Winning, competing, striving, fighting, outdoing, overcoming are actions that imply a necessary effort to accept a starting point of ‘adversities’ that we have accepted and allowed as ‘how life is.’ Isn’t this world now looking like a rat race in a labyrinth wherein each one is only trying to find the most ‘outrageous’ way to get through it? This comes to mind as I see the usual world that billions are immersed into: entertainment, TV, music industry, fashion, glory, big business, pursuing happiness, being Special.

To me leaving a ‘mark’ is wanting to be Special and exist in any possible way wherein we make ourselves ‘more’ than the rest, become ‘different’ by any possible means wherein we can make sure that we ‘leave a statement’ which is usually  linked to a single belief, a single character we decided to play in our life. Some dedicate their lives to be benevolent, others to play out the villain, others to simply seek happiness regardless of anything that may come on their way.

We have all played out these roles and, at the moment, all of this bs is what’s stepping on top of the lives that have no desire to be ‘special’ or even enough energy to think what type of ‘mark’ they would want to leave in this world, simply because they have no food, no water, they have no house to live in, they have no proper education and they are mostly used to living in constant fight or flight mode, merely surviving or even having to mitigate their daily struggle to live in the physical level using any form of drug – not for ‘recreational processes’ but to stop thinking about being hungry and having no means to feed themselves. The same goes for all the slave workers that dream of ever being able to leave such hideous jobs while having no possibility to do so, leading them to now leave a mark that is mostly a reflection of the consequences we can create in a world that doesn’t support all beings equally: they commit suicide.

I am watching a news report on Homs, the Syrian city that has been extensively terrorized the past weeks with as much as 4 detonations every 5 minutes, a conflict where thousands of people have already died including civilians of course, the usual ‘casualties’ wherein kids have their brains blown off by bombs, wherein people have lost their family and friends already – “Where is the UN?” is the question they ask themselves, where are the so-called ‘Human Rights’ organizations?– We all know that such ‘unity’ is non existent in this world as long as there are interests behind the gears that move this reality. It is obvious that such consistent war is financed for ‘higher purposes’ of control and conquering the territory to have access to the resources, that is also a statement of ‘creating a mark’ in means of showing ‘who’s the boss’ now.  CNN has placed this ‘warning’ sign at the beginning of each segment saying that ‘the graphic nature of the content may not be suitable for all viewers’ – how come this reality is censored when it comes to seeing/ witnessing in a voyeuristic manner the outflows of the human ego trying to take control an entire territory for the sake of money? How could we neglect these events while entertaining ourselves with our personal lifestyles seeking glory and power?

We have accepted such war scenes as ‘normal,’ as ‘part of the necessarily evil in this world’ as some dare to call it.  Yet on the other side of the coin, people mourn the ‘loss of a star’ in the entertainment industry while celebrating with pompous awards wherein people carry thousands of dollars on top of themselves to look ‘great,’ to leave and set a mark in the world, to win something. This is the type of madness we are living in – yet all I see is that who I am in this world as part of it all is linked to such entertainment industry, because I consume it one way or another  – I am not apparently linked to anything that goes on in the middle East, yet I use the same money and resources  that are the ‘hidden causes’ of such wars.

‎”If suffering were payment for karma, the elite would be in hell in every breath. The system of money as it now exist proves that karma is not functional in this world at all at the moment.” – Bernard Poolman

I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again: we are living in a bi-polar world. I cannot still fathom how anyone that is willing to pay over a 1000 dollars for a pair of shoes can neglect this entire reality wherein people are starving and could eat for several months with such amount of money – how low can we go? The same can be applied to someone that could only seek to harm and abuse others to make evident the already accepted and allowed abuse, yet only wanting to perpetuate themselves as a character that did this in order to ‘make a statement,’ which is how the regular terrorist organizations work and function like. Either poles and all the stages in between, are not supporting ways wherein all beings could actually unite for the very first time within a single principle to establish equal possibilities to Live,  having a constant and consistent form of support that could place all in an equal ground to LIVE.

I mean, come on! All our system of ‘leaving a mark’ just to be reminded in a certain person’s mind, in a history book, in a certain piece of reality for the sake of exalting ourselves as the ego that we have only existed within/ as our minds, must cease to exist, because it is in this very pursuit of a goal that we end up forgetting about anyone and everything in this world. This is how we turn ‘the world’ into a me-myself-and-I situation within a limited scope of reality comprised in our mind.

What would be the ‘mark’ that I would like to create in this world? Leaving a mark that would ‘taint’ everyone with a self-honest realization of having to live by the principle of what’s best for all in order to stop the current accepted madness in this world. The mark would be living as the example of what is possible if we set a single goal for humanity: Walking a lifetime dedicating myself to create a world that’s best for all, a world wherein the future generations can come and finally stop the recrimination and projection of blame to the ‘ones that came before them,’ because of not having done anything to stop the cycles of abuse and disregard of life in this reality.

I’m looking at and being part of a very strange phenomena that is already leaving a ‘trace/ mark’ in this world and this is what we are doing as Destonians, as people that are  paving a non-existent road in this world which is walking the way to establish Self-Equality in all forms/ ways in this reality.

How to transform the world from this manic-driven self-inflicted ego possessions of importance, competition, rivalry, superiority and general madness wherein we have made ourselves to accept inequality, injustice and wars in the name of progress? We place and create ourselves as the solution: we stop within ourselves existing as that constant coming and going between poles of right and wrong, good and bad, as that friction and struggle that we create at a mind level and stand as the point that allows the world to see that: we don’t have to seek answers and solutions outside of ourselves, we must become the point that stops and corrects the current ‘human nature’ we are still playing out.

If we look at the marks in the bodies of people  from having to experience war and be part of the set of ‘casualties’ within a careless money-driven conflict, such marks can only remind us one single thing: we cannot perpetuate a world that is biased in nature, that is bipolar and has lost all sense of regarding any other being as oneself, losing a sense of reality while being indoctrinated with what media, society, educational systems have  told us that ‘we should be’ which is not based or even pointing at the necessary implementation of an Equal World  – at all.

Do people that have no money have an option to ‘leave a mark’ in this world’? As harsh as it may sound, they do – only as part of a number in a statistic of people that are living in poverty, that are starving, have no means to aspire for a better living condition or have died in a war.

Turn your TV on, glance through all the channels, see the variety of realities that are fictional and real that we are creating as a reflection of ourselves in this world. We don’t have to go that far to look ‘outside’ for that madness and general chaos – we just have to look within ourselves in our minds: that’s where the chaos begins. This is how we begin a process of Self Honesty to investigate how and why we are participating in the current reality in such selfless manners until we become the point that Stops.

The one and only mark as the final goal of each one of us is one and equal = establish Life in Equality for all, self-forgiving all our personal-scores to create and leave the ‘best mark of it all,’  the best mark that could ever and should only exist is: Equality as Life – right now, we only carry the mark of having accepted and allowed a world of abuse.

Time to open our eyes, time to start looking at what we accept and allow in our world, what do we occupy our mind with, how much do we actually ‘care’ about our own personal-marks as the constant competition to become someone ‘better,’ instead of simply vowing ourselves to live a lifetime of self-support for ourselves and for the rest of this existence that is now crying out for ‘help,’ which can only come if we all work together and stand up for Life.

We are all responsible, it is impossible to deny this any longer.

Choose Life.

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