Category Archives: physical
Human Nature is the actual source of the problem in this world – by this we refer to the traits that exist as self interest in our minds with which we separate ourselves from the physical common sense of Equality as Life. It is about time we understand that it is not only the Environment that is the problem that shapes Human Behavior, but instead realize how we have created such environment as the image and likeness of our mind.
Continuing:
Problem
“Human nature refers to the distinguishing characteristics, including ways of thinking, feeling and acting, that humans tend to have naturally, i.e. independently of the influence of culture. The questions of what these characteristics are, what causes them, and how fixed human nature is, are amongst the oldest and most important questions in western philosophy. These questions have particularly important implications in ethics, politics, and theology. This is partly because human nature can be regarded as both a source of norms of conduct or ways of life, as well as presenting obstacles or constraints on living a good life. The complex implications of such questions are also dealt with in art and literature, while the multiple branches of the Humanities together form an important domain of inquiry into human nature, and the question of what it means to be human.
–http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Human_nature
-
Human Nature is the most common excuse that we as humans use in order to justify that it is impossible to change the world, because ‘human nature’ is just ‘who we are/ how we are/ what we do and how we will always continue to be’ this has become the perfect way to keep people at bay and not attempt to question and change their own lives, and the lives of others because, once this human nature premise is accepted as an irreparable conduct, any solution to the problems of this world will only be sought outside of ourselves, keeping this inherent ‘nature’ intact and unquestioned, because ‘that which makes us human’ such as emotions, feelings and a strong sense of self-importance above others is ‘who we are and have always been.’ All that is recognized is that we have always been greedy, envious, selfish, egotistical beings that are always seeking to better ourselves upon others, always competing, having no sense of social responsibility, always hungry for power and wealth to have control over others without realizing it is all done in the name of fear; this sociopathic behavior has been accepted as who we ‘are’ by default and it’s often believed to only be the consequence of the environment, but it isn’t.
-
It is only now that we are able to understand the mind that we realize how it is that we have created the environment as a result of all of these human traits that are the origin of the nature of our societies and power structures alike. We believe it is only the nature of some ‘vile’ individuals that have set up this massive prison, but it is not true, we built it ourselves through our own Accepted and Allowed nature with no intention to question it or change it. Instead we glorified it through our mutual acceptance of the excuse ‘But I am only human’ and ‘In the end I am human and make mistakes/ become emotional’ and even got to praise these mind experiences through artistic demonstrations wherein all the human is able to create from the starting point of being an individual with an eternal inner conflict between emotions, feelings and the real world. This became part of the universal traits that we only learned we had to learn how to ‘cope with.’ It is within such belief and acceptance that we have created our absolute enslavement by our own mind and hands.
-
To Understand the nature of the Mind, it is important to study the Desteni Material, an investigation for over 7 years about the actual systematic nature of the mind that has been unknown to ourselves until now. You can visit the Desteni Articles to begin reading part of this continuous investigation.
-
“Human Nature can’t be changed” – this is a mind definition with no awareness of who we are as the mind, who we are as a physical body, our beingness and our relationship with this physical existence throughout time; we have always accepted and allowed ourselves to say ‘it is how it always has been’ and in that prevent anyone from actually beginning to question that which we have always taken for granted, which is our ability to think, to become emotional, to create value systems and create relationships based on individual self interest. We can look at how even the ability to question these ‘traits’ is already seen as something that is threatening to our nature, to ‘that which makes us humans’ which means that we have reduced ourselves to only be emotional and feeling energetic systems that act in self interest with no regard to the physical laws that govern our reality and our own physical stability. It is certain that if in our minds we regarded ourselves as physical beings that have the same attributes as everyone else – such as a physical body requiring food, water, shelter, clothing, etc. – the ability to understand Equality would be greater, however this is not so and this explains to what extent we are literally brainwashed ourselves to not recognize that all points of ‘individuality’ as preferences, characters, emotional traits are only but mind configurations that generate the first obstacle to recognize each other as Equals in the physical common sensical meaning of the word. We could create an entire treaty on human nature, but for that I suggest reading the blogs as well as the Desteni Material to understand more about who we are as the Mind, our Nature and how to reflect ourselves upon the words contained in these websites:
-
The fact is that there are very few aspects about the nature of the mind generally known by humanity at this stage with regards to our creation and origin, our purpose in this reality. Even psychology as the science that is supposed to study the nature of the mind and behavior of the human being is only existing as a coping mechanism to deal with ‘human nature’ or simply redirect the usual human traits mentioned earlier, but there has never been an actual re-educational process at an individual level to prove that through getting to know ourselves as our mind as the ability to recognize all the patterns that have led us to the current consequences we’re facing in our world and reality, and establishing a Principle to live by in common sense as what is Best for All we can become a human being that stops existing in the same full acceptance to our mind as ‘who we are’ and start living as an individual that begins to understand how we can only ensure our personal well being if we ensure each other’s well being in Equality.
-
We have become the victims of our own beliefs and experiences in this reality – we created gods or systems to take care of ourselves, delegating any responsibility to never realize that it was in fact us that created the very prison we now complain about; this prison exists at a Mind Level which we eventually externalized as the nature of our world system and environment. We can have to look at how the inequality existent in this world is the result of every single inferiority and superiority belief or complex that we believe is ‘real’ and ‘who we are’ and what we have a ‘right to live by,’ which are nothing but accepted and allowed beliefs, ideas and perceptions we have of ourselves in relation to other human beings; for example, we can look at how we envy others fortune, good looks or personalities and then think that such inner experience and opinion upon others has no effect on the ‘outside world’ – well, it obviously does and every single thought, action/ inaction and spoken or kept quiet word has an effect on everything and everyone in our reality, because we are all coexisting in the same physical reality where every single relationship we form toward another reflects on the mechanisms that run our lives in the ‘greater picture’ as our world system. This means that the environment, the systems, the agreements, the unspoken rules with which we direct ourselves are directly stemming from these accepted and allowed self beliefs on multiple levels that have gotten ourselves to exist the way we do now where we are fearing each other in a constant manner, we are fighting and competing to every other individual that we conceive as an enemy of sorts in this world and reality that we have turned into a battle field where life has been reduced to a winning or losing situation.
-
The problem is self evident every time that we study the laws, policies, constitutions and ‘behavioral codes’ existent in every organization, institution and system that defines how we live our lives where No life is actually considered, but only interests are kept safe from other only those that have the most money have the ability to protect themselves, and for the most part they are used to make money when it is convenient to allege that there is some form of infringement happening so that these individual interests above the rest are always the ones that are considered first – this means there is no common sense or any sense of honoring life in our legal and political systems, because we have created the world system in such a way that our interests are ‘mutually exclusive’ which makes Equality impossible when pondering self interest over common sense.
-
When a new living system where we can all live as Equals is presented and proposed, the usual comments point out that ‘we as humans will always want more than others’ and how ‘there will always be someone that wants to take control of the situation’ and this is why we have created world systems that enable this abuse. Is this preventable? Yes it is, and this is part of the primary premises that must be considered when looking at a process to Change the World in a practical and viable manner. At the moment none of these considerations exist because we have disregarded to look at the root and cause of the ‘problem in the system’ which is within each one of us, in our mind, in our own behavior and preferences that override common sense – this is what creates the environment as a reflection of this nature wherein only individual interests are cared for, and any regard to consider everyone as Equals is seen as a threat to this individuality that is protected and guarded mostly with money at the moment. This means that we in fact fear having ‘the same as everyone else’ because of our belief that it is okay for us to want more than what we have, and aspire to have control over others for our own benefit. The current individual interests that we exist as are founded upon abuse, because every time that only the interests of a few are guarded we must know that the majority will be disregarded and abused to create such well being for only a few, which is what has happened throughout history.
- We cannot just blame the environment and victimize ourselves for the nature of the people that govern us. They are equal to us and everyone else that has accepted the mind-experience of thinking, desiring and experiencing belief systems to be real which is how the power that we have agreed to endow to them is legitimized through our own acceptance and allowance of this nature as ‘normal’ to human beings. This resides as the acceptance of ‘who we are’ and how we have understood each other to be throughout generations where we never questioned why some individuals had more money/power/influence over the population than others and how we shaped the system in itself to adopt these type of facts as ‘true,’ which became the very laws that currently conduct our lives.
To be continued with Solutions and Rewards in the following post…
- Education is Available here:
-
-
Desteni Lite Process – Free Online Course to Learn how to become part of the Solutions presented here
-

Blogs:
Hear:
Vlogs:
Like this:
Like Loading...
7 Comments | tags: be the change you want to see in this world, decisions, education, ego, environment, Equal Money, evil nature, feel good, how can human nature be changed, human behavior, human nature, powerlessness, problem, reflects our nature, self change, self realization, solution to the problems in this world, thoughts, world system | posted in Ayn Rand, Behavior, bubbles, capitalism, CapitalismUS, common sense, Constitutional Equality, consumerism, control, Corporate Capitalism, Democracy, Desteni, destonian, destonians, Direct Democracy, Economy, education, ego, EMC, emotions, energetic experiences, energy, enslavement, Equal Money Capitalism, equal money system, Equal Rights = Equal Responsibilities, Equality, equality consideration, equalmoney system, ethics, Evil, family values, forgiveness, goals in life, happiness, Human Egolution, human nature, Human Rights, inner-struggle, instant gratification, Integrity, Journey To Life, liberation, Life, Life in Equality, love, mental, mind control, mind demons, mind drones, Money Limitation, morality, motivation, Nature, neighborism, personality design, philosophy, physical, physical psychology, Political Reform, psychology, redefining words, rehab, relationships, responsibility, Revolutionary, right, Sculpting in Time, self abuse, self acceptance, Self Forgiveness, self image, self interest, self realization, Self Will, self-honesty, self-religion, social awareness, social conditioning, social global solutions, Social Reforms, support, survivalism, system, System Reform, system savvy, thinking, thoughts, trust, value, wealth, woman, world equality, world s ystem, worth
Without Self Honesty We Cannot Create a World that is Best for All.
Continuing:
Problem
“Human nature is the product of preprogrammed design and those that find themselves in Elite/Privileged positions are in those positions because they were part of the deception of the preprogrammed design where they protected themselves form the reality of a finite resource based world. Preprogramming was used to deliberately create those that work and those that feast. The Elite now face the responsibility to acknowledge through Self Honesty their deceptive ways and to be in service of those less fortunate and place at a disadvantage due to genetic preprogramming until all designs are equalized to that which is best for all life.
No economic or social change is possible till we have a spiritual awakening that realize and accept the equality of all life regardless of form or preprogrammed disadvantage.
Without understanding how the human mind is designed to create an energetic consciousness as Ego personality, the human race will never be free from its own fears”
– Bernard Poolman
-
The nature of the system in itself has created the definition of ‘Honesty’ wherein we are supposed to act according to its rules and regulations, not questioning the system but just complying to how everything works where we protect our ‘loved ones’ only, where we ensure we don’t tell lies and stand as a ‘responsible’ person that has nothing to hide – yet little is understood on how such ‘cleanliness’ and apparent honesty is in fact possible due to the amount of money we have that enables us to have enough means and services to generate that care and have such ‘decency,’ but what about all the people that have no means to live in an ‘unacceptable manner’ according to our standards wherein only those that have ‘enough money’ can become respectable beings, because the person with no money has to resort to steal to feed their family.
- People are considered to be ‘Honest’ when they are able to openly ‘express their feelings,emotions or opinions’ such as how much they dislike something and how they are being ‘true to themselves’ as to why they don’t want to cooperate in a particular job or activity, why they dislike a particular person and how they ‘feel’ about another or a particular circumstance in our reality.
- ‘I am being honest’ is expressed as what we believe is ‘who we are’ and in that, we are placing our personal preferences, desires, views, opinions and perspectives to the level of our self-religion, our creed that we are able to expose and ‘stay true to ourselves’ without ever questioning if such ‘truth’ is in fact leading to a best for all outcome. We can look at this reality and all the people that have claimed to be honest but never questioned how it is that such honesty is just another value shaped according to the nature of this system that caters self-interest, self abuse and disregard for life in Equality. This means that we have measured this ‘honesty’ according to the Value System of this world system where life is not considered Equal, where Money decides whether you live or die and where you are able to ‘honestly earn your living’ by working and getting money without questioning what kind of damage onto others or the environment it is producing, why it is that you are not able to easily ‘get more money’ to live more comfortably, why not everyone is able to have the same privileges you do, why you can only be supported if you have enough education to have a job and if you don’t, you starve to death along with your family. Yet no one questions why it is ‘dishonest’ for people to have to steal or sell their own organs to get money to live – all of these are aspects that correspond to our Self Responsibility which is a key aspect to start developing Self Honesty.
-
We are taught to follow our dreams and be ‘honest’ about our desires, yet we never question who or what lead us to have such desires, what has caused us to believe that we have to ‘trust our feelings’ and do whatever we can to achieve a goal that we probably watched in a movie, read in a book or heard from our peers at school or the neighborhood. Yet people value ‘being honest’ to these feelings as a ‘motivation to live’ without realizing the level of brainwashing that this implies when a human being is taught to make decisions, give themselves direction based on ‘how they feel’ instead of analyzing practically and mathematically the outcomes and common sensical determinations to generate a best for all outcome.
-
Emotions like hatred, disgust, dislike and aversion can be ‘honestly expressed’ which then propitiates another to value the person for being ‘so honest’ about how they experience themselves, instead of questioning Why such experiences exist within themselves in the first place. ‘I am being honest with myself,’ is said when someone admits a fault and a deliberate pattern of abuse wherein the ‘honesty’ point sheds a positive light upon it that ensures people generate another ‘cloak’ in the system which is Respect and ‘accept’ another’s experience based on how they feel without questioning the origin of it and what it is revealing about the individual themselves, how it is actually imperative that the individual takes self responsibility for their experience, because it is simply leading to a point of separation and disruption from what is best for all.
-
Then we have the world system wherein people are Honestly paying their debts on time, never missing a single payment, being very obedient to not commit a ‘fault’ in the system and having a belief of being ‘an honest citizen that abides to the law’ – however, do they question such laws and if they in fact abrogate what is best for all? Do they question why is it that Debt exists? Why it is that their children have to enroll themselves with over a thousand dollars of debt at the end of their career to make an ‘honest living’ in the system’? Why is it that if they have no money to pay the debt, they ‘honestly’ accept that there is no way out of it but asking for more debt, without any form of common sense indicating that getting further in debt is Not the way things should work in the system – yet, the system rewards ‘system loyalty’ and becoming a respectable and honorable person in the system is only possible if you pay your debt on time, send your children to school, support the system of profit by following all your desires and dreams to be the driving force for every work you do and never question who is actually having ‘all the power’ in the system, because you ‘honestly enjoy the benefits’ and ‘honestly feel good about yourself being successful in your business’ which is not a ‘good’ or a ‘bad’ thing, it is about realizing if such security and success is available as an equal opportunity for everyone else in this planet to have an assured means of support.
-
‘Honesty’ has turned into a blatant façade to hide the actual abuse that exists in every one of us accepting the system to be ‘as is,’ a system where ‘honest, respectful beings’ are in office, leading wars in the ‘honest’ regard for homeland security and being ‘honest’ in their despise for those that are apparently a threat to the honest hard working respectable people. This is how our words became shields to not see the obvious: that there is No Self Honesty and that no one has ever been a respectable being, because the moment we comply to the system ‘as is’ and use the value of money to only satisfy our needs, we forget that we are part of a world where we coexist with all other beings that Should also by virtue of being part of this ‘honest world’ should have equal access to the necessary means to live. This is not happening, because Self Honesty does not exist.
-
Honesty is the ‘good doer’ joker card developed in the system to make believe there is goodness and benevolence in humanity, but we know that this is not so otherwise we would not be writing today about having to take self responsibility for the world and become Self honest to change it.
So, what is Self Honesty?
Solution
-
Self Honesty is becoming an individual human being willing to take Self Responsibility for what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become, being willing to see ourselves first as who we are, what our thoughts, emotions and feelings reveal of our own nature and measure what is it that requires to go through a process of Self Correction in order to become individuals that are able to be trusted with Life and being willing to Live as Equals which means: becoming the creators and participants of a world that is Best for All where everyone is granted access to that which we require to eat in order to live in the most dignified sustainable condition.
-
Self Honesty is not nice nor beautiful, this is the ‘ugly truth’ of ourselves that has been hidden behind nice words of grandeur that painted a great picture of our lives without realizing it is blood that we were using to paint it with. This means that Self Honesty implies being willing to look at the reality of this world in its mechanics, how it functions, how are relationships existent, questioning why poverty exists, why do people starve to death, why is our money based on debt, why and how it is that only a minority have all the money in the world? How it is that we have only always cared for our own interests and disregarded everyone else’s? Why can’t we change the mechanisms in which our food is produced? Why can’t we give free health support to everyone’? and the list goes on and on.
-
Beginning to write ourselves, to look within who we are, what we like, what we have participated in is what enables us to get a glimpse of what we self honestly have participated in as all the aspects we rather kept secret and not expose of ourselves, because in common sense we know that such attitudes are in fact Not what is best for all, but we did it anyways because we felt good about it, we didn’t think that our thoughts, words and deeds could have outcomes in our reality that would affect everyone equally, but they do and this is the time when we come to face this reality as our world that is the mirror of our individual actions which we can all agree, have become our very own hell to exist in. This is why we first have to walk this process of Self Honesty to realize what we have been and become to later on begin to understand the responsibility we hold toward every single outcome that exists within this reality as everything we are only currently angry, ashamed, desperate, frustrated and depressed about without looking at how it is all our creation from beginning to end. Then we want to ‘change the world’ overnight, without understanding how it is that our very own thoughts, words and deeds have contributed to this absolute global crisis that isn’t a ‘curse’ imposed onto us: we have created it, we are it.
-
Self honesty implies realizing and becoming aware of everything that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become in disregard of everyone else’s’ well being and equality to ourselves – this means having acted and existed only based on Self Interest wherein ‘who we are’ as ‘honest people’ lead us to blind ourselves from the crimes against life that we have perpetuated every time that we simply comply to ‘how the system works’ and do nothing to change it. The system is ourselves which means that all its ‘ugly truth’ is in fact the mirror of who we are and have become as individuals in our own minds. When living in Self-Honestly one is wiling to look at all of these aspects of ourselves in detail that have lead us to only care about satisfying our personal interests without caring about another as equal and one as ourselves.
-
Self Honesty is being willing to question every single thing we have been and become, what we believe, what we have ‘lived for’ and the purpose we have created toward our own life. It is about daring to see who we are beyond the ‘idea of self’ and all our ‘good traits’ and ‘bad traits’ and see how they all stem from the inherent configuration of the system we are born into wherein No Self Honesty exists, because life is sold and abused and never honored – this should then place the foundation to understand how no word that we are currently using can be in fact Self Honest, because all our Value Systems have been based upon words that support the abuse, that hide the self interest and glorify the ‘success’ of what it means to disregard everyone else and only care accumulating to cater for your very own self at the expense of others. This is what capitalism represents as the ‘blueprint’ of our personal interests externalized as an economic system, this is precisely why we say: we have to take Self Responsibility for the system, we cannot just complain about Capitalism because it is our actual inherent nature: it is who we are and have become.
-
Self Honesty means investigating everything of this world, looking at and understanding how we intervened to bring the whole system to abuse and massive failures to then understand that our collective responsibility resides in taking part of this system ‘as is’ and walking the necessary processes to correct it from within – not destroying it, not opposing it, not ignoring it or allowing it to just’ fall apart’ but actively create the necessary means such as political processes and economic reforms to ensure that the world system we have created by our individual participation is lead through a process of correction determined by us, the individuals, that first have to begin this process at an individual level to realize who and what we are and have become as our minds, seeking after our self interest. Instead we become the living principle of what it is to become an example of acting, thinking and doing that which is best for all in Equality.
-
Self honesty is not Morality of right or wrong, it is the living principle that guides our every breath, every single moment that we decide to live according to that which will support everyone equally and lead to a best for all outcome wherein we can gauge the outcome and consequential outflows of our actions through mathematical and empirical means where we can ensure that the way we conduct our lives is in fact leading to creating that which is best for all. This means that each individual as a self responsible being is able to stand as the solution of this system by becoming the living example of what it is to act in the best interest of all and work with stopping, correcting and aligning one’s ‘personal interests’ that lead to segregation, disregard, neglect, self importance and superiority or inferiority complexes that have created the current psychological problems in our society that absorb much of our lifetime due to focusing on sorting out ‘how we feel’ instead of ‘how the world is being created according to what we want and how we feel.’
- Equality is thus not only a quality of being, but the quality of words that we live in consideration, honor and regard for one another as equals. This is the foundation of the Equal Money System and Equal Money Capitalism, where we have realized that unless the individual takes self responsibility for our thoughts, words and deeds as the building blocks of our current global crisis at all levels of our existence, we will remain seeking for ‘change’ outside of ourselves instead of within.
For Examples of How to Walk Self Honesty read the 7 Year Journey To Life blogs
“Self-Honesty is the process to finding the “Key” to “See” to live/be the change of self and this existence as self.” – Sunette Spies
“Only with self honesty do the potential become available to birth yourself as life.” – Bernard Poolman
Rewards
-
The ultimate reward is being able to trust each other as life, with life to the extent that we will be able to ensure that no matter whose life I am living, it will always be a dignified life, living in the best way possible, in the best living environment where everyone can enjoy life at last and for once and for all get past all the fears and limitations that we are currently living in. It will be the absolute renaissance of humanity as it never has existed before, an actual rebirth by virtue of our own words which means: it is in our hands to actually make this happen.

Artwork by Matti Freeman
Blogs:
Hear:
Vlogs:
Like this:
Like Loading...
22 Comments | tags: 2013, bernard poolman, change human nature, change the system, desteni, destonians, destonians for life, environmental solutions, equal as life, Equal Money, equality, human nature, life, life changing, living conditions, marlenlife, oneness, reform the system, self forgiveness, self honesty, Sunette Spies, what is self honesty | posted in honesty, Human Egolution, human nature, Human Rights, physical, political economy, positivity, redefining words, responsibility, self creation, Self Forgiveness, self perfection, self realization, self-honesty
The Right to Life in Equality has never existed, no matter how many constitutions hold the statement “All human beings are born free and equal in dignity and rights” we haven’t ever lived as such- WHY and HOW did we get ourselves to this compromised and abusive position? For context, suggest reading:
Problem
From capitalism.org website:
What is the fundamental right?
There is only one fundamental right — the right to life — from which all other rights, including the right to liberty, the right to property and the right to pursue one’s own happiness derive.
Are rights guarantees to the success of actions?
All rights are rights to freedom of action. That is, the right to those actions necessary to support ones life — so long as they do not violate the rights of others. Keep in mind that rights are not guarantees that those actions will always be successful. Thus, the right to pursue happiness, does not necessarily mean achievement — it only means one is free to pursue what one thinks will make one happy.
Pursuit does not mean attainment, though it is a necessary precondition to attaining it. Similarly the right to life, is the right to take those actions necessary to survive, free from the physical compulsion and interference of other men. The right to life does not mean that one can force others to support ones life against their will. [what rights do guarantee is that if your actions are successful, no one may rob your of the results of those actions].
We are well aware this is stemming from the old mindset of our lives existing within a constant need to defend and offense from rivals and enemies, an eternal battle that doesn’t only take place between nations, but also between neighbors. This is the platform, the set-up, the ‘default’ explanation of ‘how things are, how things have always been’ wherein one has to‘defend one’s rights/sovereignty at all cost,’ which is not only a Capitalist trait but relative to Politics and Imperialistic tactics throughout human civilization. What has happened in the 20th century is that, these ‘Rights’ were covered with new concepts like ‘Self-Determination’ ‘Freedom,’ ‘Pursuit of Happiness’ that we’ve already explained and democracy used as a noble reason to intervene in foreign countries’ struggles in order to implement a ‘better way of living’ that is tainted by the concepts highlighted above, which is nothing else but an actual form of imperialism for profitable means disguised with a banner of liberty, justice and free will. This is Ayn Rand’s legacy that could excuse the individual’s ‘right to pursue happiness’ at all cost, while keeping the words set in such a way that it truly sounds fair and just, but never specifies it will be possible for All in Equality. This is what we have accepted and allowed thus as an individual or tunnel-vision sight of our reality where dog eats dog as long as ‘I’ can defend my right to WIN.
What is it really being defended here as a ‘Right’ in our Capitalist System?
Self Interest as the right to abuse, extort, kill, oppress, exploit and dominate in the name of Power
You can read the previous entries to understand the power that forges our current ‘Rights’ within the current Capitalistic System we’re living in, which certainly overrides any constitutional effort to regulate people’s lives toward a common well being, no matter how many ‘Human Rights’ declarations we have, the world hasn’t changed at all, but gotten worse – why? Because there’s money / self interest in the way of Equality.
According to the definitions of ‘Rights’ we can then assume that it is our right to kill other people in the name of our freedom. There is this motto by one of our Presidents here in Mexico that reads “Respect for the Rights of Others is Peace’ – Benito Juárez – But do we even know what such rights are?
So if a person that has the current ‘understanding’ of them having the right to kill, to pursue their happiness at all cost, to use any means possible to have more than the other, to cheat, to lie and deceive in the name of their goal – which is happiness, money, power –then one is supposed to ‘respect their right’ and cross our arms and hope to die? This is precisely what’s missed when taking Words for granted, we don’t measure the actual Meaning of them and instead, we adopt such statements as ‘maxims’ because they sound right. Big mistake.
I share my personal experience with the concept of ‘Rights.’ I was very interested in Human Rights since I was probably in 1st grade of primary school, I went to vote for ‘Children’s Rights’ and the whole idea sounded great, I felt proud of myself for learning the children’s rights and being able to ‘have a say’ in such child-participation in some general elections at the time here. But obviously, as I went growing up I realized the world was not moving according to the Words in our Constitution. It was futile to learn our 117 articles in this Country where the very first statement of Equality is violated the moment I step out of the school and see a child my age asking for change to eat. I became disenchanted by the rights I was supposed to ‘hold at heart’ as my Individual Guarantees. Only much later and fairly recently in my life did I become aware how these ‘rights’ were turned into the ability to own, buy, be happy, seek for my own desires and nevermind the violation of the majority’s rights, I stopped caring or at least being somewhat enthusiastic about ethics and laws, everything sounded too right in words, but reality told another story.
This is the first encounter with reality, first 10 years of my life and I already knew I could no trust the government, the constitution, the police, the banks, the clergy, I still held somewhat faith on a god or teachers and my personal role models, but none of them offered a solution as to Why People are NOT being supported Equally in this world. Then, as I grew up, I stopped caring and like many people in our current society: we simply gave up any change and instead, allowed ourselves to ride the hedonist trip of ‘Free will’ and ‘Free choice’ and Rebelling against the system, which I have described in the following blogs here along with the process wherein we take Self Responsibility and realize how we are all collectively responsible for shaping our current reality ‘as is.’
Why have we even allowed Lack of Money to be a regular condition in this world?
Why have we never questioned poverty and ‘depressions’ as an actual disease that must be cured at the root/ source of the problem, which in all cases is the current monetary system?
Why have we only managed to ‘mitigate’ the problems that affect us ALL and Con.Form to what is presented as temporary solutions to a lack of money – such as further Debt that sounds like Death wherein you end up rolling on your payroll like a shroud wherein all that is left of you is a piece of flesh and bones that forgot about itself and always sought life, but never lived.
– 211. Why is Life a Struggle? Why Can’t All be just HAPPY?
Equality
Within our current socioeconomic and political system, Life is not valued as a Right, but something each one has to ‘earn’, and within that it has become a privilege. Money has become the medium through which one is able to access those goods and services that ensure one’s subsistence. One’s ‘Right to Life’ is not a given, but restricted to those who have money. This way of doing things within the current world system is reflective of what we value as a society, which indicates that money is valued over Life.
Many religions and ideologies promote the concept of Equality but have so far failed to bring the point of Equality to a level of practical implementation that can be lived by, where the concept of Equality merely remains in the realm of the abstract and ‘theory’.
|
Solution :
Within the consideration that Might Makes Right and the Solution to this that is Equality Makes Right, the right to have Equal ability to live in dignity and seek for an actual purpose in life that is not defined by the accumulation of wealth, competing towards another to be ‘more powerful’ or measuring ourselves according to the amount of money we own. It is about Valuing Life as Who and what we All Are, and within this, acting in Self Responsibility according to our participation within the same system, the same ecosystem, the same world-system wherein we must ensure that Everyone is In Fact considered and granted their Equality through the Power that Money will Represent in Equal Money Capitalism, this is the Value of Life made money and granted as an individual guarantee for every single person that is willing to give to others what they want for themselves.
This is real self determination –not the ability to buy that which makes you happy.
Constitutional Equality
The fundamental point of Life on Earth within a democracy is going to be protected by a Constitution of what is Best for All. Any policy, law or rule must therefore be made within the framework of Constitutional Equality and be aligned to the Principle of What is Best for All. The Principle of What is Best for All implies several other Principles:
-
Honoring the Right to Life
-
Prevention is the Best Cure
-
Equality
-
Do Unto Another as You Would Like to Be Done Unto
|
Equality
Within an Equal Money System, the point of having ‘equal money’ is to assist with the psychological harmonization of the human into a harmonious character that no longer lives in fear of his own survival, but lives as Life, gives as Life and receives as Life – equally.
Since we’ve allowed ourselves to invest value into the concept of money, we use money, and more specifically ‘equal money’ as an interim step within the Equality Principle and the Equality Constitutional Development to bring about a psychological re-connection: through distributing money equally, we are “equally distributing value” through what money represents.
This is only a temporary point to rectify the psychological damage that has been done by money and our ideas of money, debt, power, choice, fairness, etc. Once this point of psychological disharmony has been corrected, money as a concept in itself will disappear completely as it will have lost all relevance.
http://equalmoney.org/wiki/Politics
|
Rewards :
The Right to Life as an Individual and Collective Guarantee implies Self Responsibility understood within the physical and biological terms this implies: we all participate in this world, by us being equally supported to live in the best way possible, we will equally create a world worth living in, a place where children can be born with an assured living condition of harmony and peace – it is what we have always wanted, the best for ourselves, the best lifestyle anyone would have always wanted but always thought we could only ‘get’ by ‘striving for it.’ It won’t be like that any longer.
There will thus be only One Law, as the Rule of Law as the Constitution based on Equality and what is Best for All Life. All other guidelines will be in the form of policy and regulation, which will be required to be laid out within the utmost specificity. Within adhering to specificity and clarity to the utmost level, no space is left for the interpretation of law or policy. If at any stage it turns out that a door for interpretation was left open, this would indicate that the law or policy is not good enough and will have to be specified to close the gap. As such, there will no longer be a need for lawyers as ‘experts’ on law or courts for the purpose of interpreting the law. Education within the Equal Money System will provide everyone with the necessary reading skills to be able to effectively read and assess laws and policies for one self – at the level that it should be assessed, so all can be on an equal ground of understanding and clarity.
– Economist’s Journey To Life: Day 155: Constitutional Equality as the Rule of Law ~ Economist’s Journey to Life
|
For further reference, read the Equal Money Wiki

Blogs:
Watch:
Vlog:
Like this:
Like Loading...
28 Comments | tags: Ayn Rand, capitalism, constitutional equality, Equal Money, freedom, justice, living equality, pursuit of happiness, right to life, Rights | posted in american culture, austerity, CapitalismUS, change the system, Constitutional Equality, consumerism, control, corporation, Direct Democracy, economics, education, ego, elitism, EMC, Equal Money Capitalism, equal money system, Equal Rights = Equal Responsibilities, Equality, equality consideration, equalmoney system, evolution, family values, Global movement, greed, Human Egolution, human nature, Journey To Life, Life, Life in Equality, physical, Politics, positivity, Private Property, profit, responsibility, right, sacred economics, self awareness, self interest, self realization, Self Will, self-honesty, social awareness, social conditioning, survivalism, system, system savvy, value, wealth, world equality, world system, worth
A key aspect that we use as an excuse, reason and justification to ‘evade reality’ is precisely the way in which we have accepted and allowed ourselves to shape reality as, which is through relationships of abuse and mutual neglect. It isn’t pretty and that is why we turn to love, light, spirituality, happiness, fulfillment, enjoyment which is mostly translated to drugs and spirituality or spiritual-entheogen trips that lead to the ultimate high that is quite difficult to let go as an experience, and it is quite fascinating how such Experience becomes a constant ‘thrill’ that is sought by individuals, revolving their entire lives around these moments wherein they can feel ‘more alive’ or ‘more connected to themselves’ and existing in this paradise like realm of their mind in a virtual reality formed through visions that are upgraded to the status of revelations and mythical encounters that one is apparently getting to as a ‘moreness’ of oneself.
So here I want to focus in the mechanisms that lead oneself to seek for this evasion of reality and justifying it with some sense of ‘spirituality,’ which has become another excuse to seek ‘peace and love’ – like in the 60’s – while adding the ‘transcendental’ aspect to make it seem more ‘evolved’ in nature, yet at the level of who we are as the mind, it’s exactly the same thing.
This constant seeking for the ‘good experience’ is precisely explained in the Quantum Systemization interview: Quantum Systemization – Mind Wallpaper System – Part 14 wherein this ‘feel good experiences’ are in essence covering up the actual reality that is existent as our inherent nature that we are constantly seeking to cover up/ sugar up and spice in order to hide from facing ourselves as our mind, our reality, our creation.
While listening to this interview, it became clear to answer the questions as to why we have always had in the back of our heads ‘all I want in life is to be happy’ and how we will do all that we can to justify our happiness thrill, claim that we are hurting/harming no one in order to remain seeking this personal blissful self-experience that in fact is stemming not from a benevolent truthful desire to become a better human being, but to evade reality, to ‘see more’ and eventually end up hooking only within the experience that we perceive as absolutely positive and nice with all the fluffy silky experiences in the mind. Well, what has been unknown so far within our human knowledge at the expense of what we are able to generate such marvelous self-experiences, and that is: at the expense of the human physical body – read the entire series to get more information on this, including:
“Where I had within and throughout my Life, created who I am in my mind, and connected everything/everyone into and as my who I am in my Mind and so emerged into/as physicality reality through a Mind/as a Mind. Where, the processes of thinking/internal conversations emerged as how I would, within my Mind-Reality and the relationships I had formed within it – evolve it through thinking, and having internal conversations within myself and substantiate the Mind through/with energy/energy-experience as I make my internal alternate mind reality of actual physical reality ‘alive’. And so create an entire ILLUSION of what it means to live/be alive, not seeing, realising and understanding how for the Mind to exist, the Physical Body is sacrificed..” – Sunette Spies – Thought Designs – Part 2: DAY 154
Continuing from:
220. Drug Culture: Mad Society as a Lifestyle
So, before we get to the spirituality realm of justifications to seek for the positive, seek to get a constant experience of this ‘godhood’ through drugs and believe that everything is just fantastic “outside of our bodies” while seeking to connect with a higher force, let’s look at the reality conditions that I have summed up today from a group chat wherein we discussed all the entertainment and forms of distraction that we have used in order to not become politically active, which should in essence be an inherent living condition to our human-nature, meaning: we are social beings, we live in an organism, we Should care about all aspects that define and decide the way that we live and interact within this same ecosystem. Thus it should be already a matter of psychological dysfunction to think and believe that we should only look after our own interests while holding the constant backchat of ‘I don’t care about anyone else but me,’ which is the type of cancerous thinking that we end up wanting to run away from when we avoid realizing how we have created our reality through such constant and continuous thinking processes, which is us participating in the mind to create our reality: big problem.
Drugs are pervasive within all circles/castes in society: wealthy, ‘middle class’ and people living in extreme poverty, all use drugs alike. It should already be a matter of public health crisis to see this problem, why is it that no amount of apparent ‘well being’ can also mitigate the need to get high/ consume drugs. In fact, when having a lot of money, you get power-high and seek for further forms of entertainment that usually incorporate more ‘extreme’ activities as entertainment that usually entail more abuse that elevate the energetic ‘kick’ out of it. This is why people turn to for example, extreme sadist pornography/ snuff films, killing and torturing animals, ritualistic abuses and rites of passage that lead to an apparent ‘welcoming’ to a certain era/phase or place in a human’s life, absolutely gut revolting when considering to what extent we regard suffering as a form to prove oneself being ‘strong enough’ to make it in this world – Evolution, anyone?
Alcohol, drugs, sex, entertainment and its multiple hybrids and variations are always sought. Once again, here we are not looking at ‘why’ drugs are bad or good, but the root-cause of such pervasive desire to ‘escape from reality’ which I gathered from our group conversation:
poverty, lack of resources, wealth, uselessness, evading reality, freedom from the ‘hooks’ of the mind, feeling good, escaping from stress, fitting in, socializing, keeping awake, passing time, disinhibiting purposes, wild sex, personal reward system, moment of distraction justified by not harming anyone, earning such heavenly moment through hard work, relaxation, getting a break from oneself, turning the tables, opposing the system, spiting society, being progressive, being liberal, being transgressive, open mindedness, spiritual purposes, self-connection, enlightenment, mitigating hunger, avoiding pain, boredom, anxiety, nervousness, hyperactivity, depression, looking for a thrill, wanting to ‘feel alive!’ and the list goes on….
what do all of these processes have in common? The mind. These are Not physical experiences craved by the physical body to exist, they are Mind experiences that we have believed ourselves to be/ become and seek to escape from, quite a conundrum to see how we have built our entire civilization based on this desire to ‘feel good’ wherein physical needs and requirements are neglected and mind-desires and obsessions are fueled and supported as an actual ‘living right,’ as proof of this, it’s easier to see a TV and drugs in a poor family home than proper sewage and potable water systems, along with decent infrastructure and food – and by drugs I don’t only mean ‘hard drugs,’ but alcohol is part of the generic term that should be applied to alcohol as a social self-indulgent drug that has been made ‘mild’ due to the key factor it represents in the numbing and dumbing down of society –as well as the juicy profit – and believe that everyone is being ‘free to exert their right to drink,’ which is one of the main reasons why people want to get to their 18 or 21 years of age: to be legally able to be self-abusive and… vote, yes of course…
Social responsibility have been thrown out of the window because: monkey see, monkey do and through this, we are all taking ourselves down the plughole to a massive electric shock to ‘feel good’ and define that as enjoyment. Now, we have gotten hooked on self abuse through looking at such self-abuse all around us, because not giving proper support to all living beings is self abusive, not caring enough about life to create immediate solutions to live in dignity is deliberate self abuse and neglect, not giving a damn about all the resources in the Earth that we are consuming to build our ‘civilizations’ is self-abusive.
So we create our ‘windows of escapism’ from the nightmare and hell we all help build and recreate every single day that we define ‘who we are’ as the mind. – Catch the drift?
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become so addicted and hooked on to my own thoughts, feelings and emotions that I have sought to get More of such energetic experiences, regardless of the amount of abuse it entails –
I realize that the outflows we are facing as humanity is our consequence for having followed through with energy and the mind while neglecting physical reality as who I really am and must honor in Equality and I see that everything that I have ever participated in as the mind is the Lie that we have used to consume the Life that we are and embody, and as such have used the same mind to formulate reasons, excuses and justifications to ‘keep our party alive,’ pretending one can genuinely ‘forget’ about something and not have it all come back 10 times fold once the high is gone.
I commit myself to explain and properly share how it is that through one’s own self-addiction to the mind, we have created this current world of vanity and egoism that only seeks to ‘feel good’ and believe that ‘no one is being harmed through it,’ which is quite the ultimate declaration of the cells that compound the cancer as the desire for more, as an ‘overgrowth’ that must be brought to justice by our own hand: we educate ourselves, we support people to wake up and the decision must be made by self as an actual irrevocable decision to never again support the same abusive system that we have become as the externalization of the relationship between the mind and the physical body.
I commit myself to live the realization that it is only through equal and one support that we can stop seeking to ‘escape from reality’ and instead look forward to live and create a real living-environment where getting high becomes a real thing of the past.
We will continue with this in the next post – suggest you review the long list and spot where and how you are trying to escape your reality and what do you use to do so.
For Further Support:
Desteni
Desteni Lite Process
Desteni I Process
Equal Money System.

Blogs:
Interviews:
Never wait to change, it might be too late:
What is it that we Like so much about our Reality that we will not Move ourselves to Change?
Like this:
Like Loading...
6 Comments | tags: all I want in life is to be happy, doors of perception, drugs, entheogens, hallucinogens, mind dimensions, psychedelics, transcendental experiencdes | posted in acceptance, agreement, alcoholism, angst, antagonism, antisocial, anxiety, awareness, characters, civil desobedience, control, crazy, cultural values, demons, Desteni, Desteni I Process, discipline, energetic experiences, Equal Rights = Equal Responsibilities, Equality, freedom, freespiritism, future projection, Global movement, goa philosophy, goals in life, Human Egolution, human nature, inner-struggle, insanity, Journey To Life, liberation, Life, life review, life-taggers, mind control, mind drones, Mindfuckism, mindsplit, nervousness, parental patterns, personality design, philosophy, physical, physical abuse, polarity, positive experience, positivity, power, rehab, responsibility, rewards, riots, ritualistic abuse, school, self abuse, Self Forgiveness, self image, self interest, social organism, spirituality, thinking, thoughts, value, world equality, worth
It’s quite easy to justify our desire to feel good, to escape, to say it is our free will and free choice to live our lives to ‘the fullest’ and call that a ‘living right to live life the way we want to’ and one should respect that, because we are not harming anyone doing so.
Continuing from:
220. Drug Culture: Mad Society as a Lifestyle
I used to live by these words ‘Live your life and leave me alone with mine’ and I must say it is like having to get down from a ride you are apparently really enjoying, just as we enjoy feeding our feel good experiences at all times in the mind – and within this, it is not that enjoyment is wrong or bad or we should not have a moment of fun, it is what we end up Only focusing on when having our lives only being ridden through a desire to Just feel good all the time, to have a good time, to have fun, to entertain ourselves, to seek for new and exciting experiences. As anything, excesses or an entire life lifetime only focused on a hedonist lifestyle will certainly lead us to a certain place: death – one could say we will all ‘get there’ but the point is how we are willing to be aware and deliberate of our ‘choices in life’ to live as an hedonist being and decide to ignore reality and our ability to actually do something about it.
The people that have crossed over can share nothing else but sheer regret for having lived lives hooked up in mind-desires and problems and ‘seekings’ that lead nowhere other than being caught up in the chasing after chasing energetic experiences of ‘fulfillment,’ but never really living.
The desire to feel good/ feel fine and the use of drugs is a common pair that can be justified in various ways, making an ‘honor’ to people in this world that recognize themselves as ‘villains’ and never ever having wanted to be the ‘good guys,’ not realizing either that this physical world and reality is not about taking a ‘side’ and painting oneself either black or white, is not about being good or bad and feeding each other’s poles of antagonism/ protagonist we have divided our lives in, with obsolete morals that only fuel the separation as the believed sense of freedom derived from ‘doing what one likes/pleases to do,’ wherein there is no actual inherent desire to stand as an example of what a living-breathing human being can be, or make things better for oneself and everyone else, but simply deciding Not to live in order to create any form of change in this world – however, what I have found is that people that get to think this way are a consequence of not having been supported unconditionally to prevent them/ourselves from becoming a spitefulness act upon the Earth, and this does not necessarily harming others, but definitely being aware of neglecting reality by one’s will and fulfillment of a sense of contempt toward a world that ‘has never given a damn about you.’
Even if people can claim this is not the starting point for seeking such feel good experience, it is well known at Desteni how all positive experiences have a negative starting point: a constant ‘feel good’ experience actually stems from the constant self experience of living in fear, petrification, anxiety, remorse, guilt, mind trips and everything else we have defined as ‘bad/negative,’ leading ourselves to go into a quest to become the exact opposite, never quite understanding how we have lead ourselves to such a point of ‘carelessness’ and whose life we are really disregarding this way.
This is about understanding what one can also justify at all times with various excuses like deciding to simply live a life of enjoyment, having fun, having a good time, getting in touch with one’s most beloved habits, there is no ‘pursuing’ other than the energetic experience and visualization of one’s mind as something ‘better’ than reality, and then we dare to defend that as a living right, yes, a right to abuse ourselves even if the abuse is not seen at first sight: this is the real ignorance, what goes on beyond what our eyes can see is the reality that we have never ever been aware of, a reality we are trying to evade but also use as an excuse to defend ‘our right to abuse’
“Respect my Culture.
Respect my Choices.
Respect my Faith.
Respect my Rights as a Parent.
Respect my Opinion.
Respect my Diversity.
Respect my Right of Free Choice.
Respect my Sexual Orientation.
All these Forms of Respect would Immediately be Gone once the Person Understand, in Detail, HOW they Create this through the Mechanics of the Mind and See that All of these Forms of Respect are In Fact Illusions.” – Bernard Poolman *
Ask yourself: is this ALL that I want for myself? Have I really made the choice to only live this way? I am pretty sure that anyone defending their point will say ‘yes,’ however as one can realize, all our decisions are influenced by our ‘role in the game’ that we have called life, and I am pretty sure that at this stage from the poorest person to the richest one seeks a form to escape and evade reality in one way or another, and this is why we go back to the main point as always: we seek to evade ourselves, our mind, our past, our entire set of rotten corpses that we have believed we can only hide and run away from through using/ consuming/ buying/ chasing/ experiencing ‘something’ that can give us a different sensation in life – a sensation= a mind experience, and to understand all the choices we’re making in the name of ‘sensation’ is to understand all the motives and reasons we used to justify having lived our lives subsumed in self interest, seeking always/ all the time for the most benefit, the most enjoyment, never a dull moment when living in this constant tripping-mode as a regular drug user does.
I got to see this aspect of ourselves as human beings again, a forgotten one since it is not that easy to find people that are living relatively well, socializing, being overtly expressive yet openly willing to take drugs in order to get these experiences that become a life-style, a seeking for a ‘something,’ or at least I had forgotten what it was to be in that positive-light of mentality and optimism that would cover up quite a great despair that I could only open up after one stops draining one’s experience with any form of mind-drug, habit, addiction or definitive self-talk to believe that ‘there is nothing to worry about, everything is just fine’ and yes, that Bob Marley song comes to mind as it got stuck on sixth grade when I had to learn the lyrics to ‘three little birds’ and I felt quite dumb having to sing along to ‘Singin’: “Don’t worry about a thing, ‘Cause every little thing gonna be all right!” – then got to know Marley as this music god for all weed users and developed a hatred to be honest, due to all the ‘relax and just chill’ type of mentality, it pissed me off, because I actually wanted to live that life, live in a little place outside the city, being happy painting and forgetting about the troubles and being careless about reality, how wonderful! I got a taste of that for a while, it didn’t ease the distress, it only aggravated it- why? Because drugs and anything else we induce ourselves in in order to ‘forget all our troubles and cares’ becomes a suppression, a point that we then have to face no matter what since it means we have decided to deliberately ignore such ‘bad experience’ as our own creation.
So , what I have found is that even if ‘enjoying the ride of life’ becomes an enticing point, I have just proven to myself it is Impossible I could turn my back on life and go back to my ‘old ways,’ fracking hell no. I realized that the commitment we have to live is an ‘abnormal one’ in a society wherein we are all patting our backs for being the greatest cheaters, liars, addicts and careless pieces of mind that can exist. I decided to not be that, even if I could have had all of the opportunities to do so, to become quite a great player in the realms of the ‘intangible’ and be ‘successful’ within such mind-frame, but the lie eventually gets to be too extensive to handle, the lie catches you on fire and you either burn to ashes to reborn or allow yourself to keep fueling the fire with more airy-fairy ideas that lead you to believe that ‘feeling good’ is all that life is about – limited, very limited, but ostensibly attractive.
Is it too extreme to vow oneself to life the way that we have committed ourselves to as Destonians? No, it is really only having to live in a world of temptation and tame the forces that we have allowed ourselves to be driven by throughout our ‘lives lived’ through the mind. It is to swim against the tide – without opposing/ neglecting or antagonizing – of everything and everyone that points us out to one single thing: just relax, sit back and just chill, do not care about the ‘bad stuff’ and misery, give some charity here and there, try and make poor people’s lives a bit happy for a while, share some of your time with the unfortunate ones and the rest of the time, just ‘enjoy.’
Enjoyment cannot exist as a continues consumption of either drugs or food or sex or any other part of ourselves in our reality that we turn into ‘our new toy’ that we have linked to a ‘max’ experience within ourselves, it is unsustainable. We can only look at our ‘entertainment industries’ to understand what we are deciding to be and become: chill pill consumers in order to just ‘live our lives and never mind the rest.’ Yes, in a tunnel vision reality that makes sense, but soon reality will ‘catch up with us’ and we will most likely have to step down from the fairy-tale mountain with some rough awakenings – is this necessary? We could prevent it, but at this stage the question remains:
“What will it Take to Wake Up People from their Obsession with Respect that Do Not Place Life in Every Way, for Everyone, Always, First?” – Bernard Poolman
The problem is how we have definitely blinded ourselves to make it all fine in our minds – money is the primary security that enables us to have fun, to have all we want as an ‘extra’ point of enjoyment and as such, justify such ‘lifestyle’ with working, with retribution somehow to society, not realizing or fully comprehending why it is that every single act and life that is existing here is our equal and one responsibility, because all patterns that lead to the acceptance and allowance of disparity have been blindly accepted from generation to generation. It’s about time we give to each other what we have always wanted to live by, but never thought we could.
As for drugs, how can any mind-induced experience become the ‘savior’ to our experiences if it is the very physical body that is being consumed everything we ‘think’ we are ‘making it.’
This is about time to be willing to see how unsustainable it is to chase after our implanted dreams or actually be and become the living-dedication of ourselves to LIVE a life of actual enjoyment, which I have defined as a breathing-physically here point of awareness with regards to comfort-ability, and knowing that any justification for ‘how things are’ and believe there was something about us that was unable to be changed – well, it’s time to drive ourselves as consciousness down the road of self-introspection, self investigation leading toward self forgiveness, writing, developing self honesty and common sense to have a perspective of what is real and sound in our reality and who is not.
This will continue
For Further Support:
Desteni
Desteni I Process
Desteni Lite Process
Equal Money System

Vlog:
Blogs:
Interviews:
© 2013
Like this:
Like Loading...
7 Comments | tags: all I wanna do is have some fun, cheat, choose life, dmt, drug addiction, enjoying life, enjoyment, feel fine, feeling good, fuck the rest, god, hedonism, journey to life, leave my life alone, lie, live life to the fullest, marlenlife, other dimensions, pleasures, society rules, tripping | posted in Behavior, Desteni, Dreams, drive-thru lifestyle, drugs, end, energetic experiences, energy, enlightenment, entertainment, Human Egolution, Life, Life in Equality, media, mental, mind, mind control, mind drones, Mindfuckism, mindsplit, motivation, personality design, physical, physical psychology, polarity, positive experience, positivity, power, practivism, psychology
Continuing from:
“The Human Being, being Sensitive to Discord, Disharmony, Disease – are very easily Motivated to Seek Out the Harmony within themselves as the Equilibrium of Multiple Systems, Interacting within Relationship of a Closed System, as a Balanced Perfection for the Sole Purpose of Keeping the being Engaged at All Times; to Seek the Equilibrium and to Keep the Equilibrium going, and where Mastery will be to become a Master of Love, and Stay within the Geometrical Equilibrium.[…]
This Principle has been Very Cleverly used to Keep the Physical Reality in a Form of Stable Control. With None of the Beings in Multiple Forms Realising How their Existence has been Systemized to be Followers of Reaction and Instinct. Followers of Pre-Planned Preprogrammed Designs, with Rewards along the Way when Equilibrium Spots are Hit within the Map of the Book of Life.” – Bernard Poolman
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever define myself as a visual vicious wherein all that I was seeking was patterns, numbers, perfection in nature and in the forces that create this world, without being aware how we have been ‘naturally tuned’ to praise the world/ its forces as beauty as perfection without being aware of the actual mechanisms behind it, which had been only me as a mind system seeking for its ‘harmony and equilibrium’ according to the same system of control and preprogrammed designs that we actually believed was ‘who we really are.’
This means that I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize how within praising any apparent/ visible order and harmony in nature/ the Earth, I am only praising and seeking for the perfect balance within the configuration/ frameworks and paradigms of a perfect system of enslavement, which ties in with how we perceive people that are obedient to the system of abuse as ‘successful people,’ never questioning such bright success and perceived perfection which only stands according to the laws of the system as consciousness, as preprogrammed equilibriums designed and existent for the purpose of maintaining/ sustaining the control of ourselves within this reality, constantly seeking harmony/ perfection without questioning How such harmony and perfection is practically and physically created, who and what must be sacrificed in order to create such illusion of perfection?
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to see ‘God’ in geometrical shapes and forms and numbers, as all the patterns that seemed ‘perfect,’ never realizing that such patterns were in fact the very blueprints of the enslavement of this system-reality that we have clearly lived in as a form of trap that we always sought to inherently keep ourselves locked into, because we associated this perfect order and control to beauty, power, perfection, evolution, advancements that we believed were in fact our purpose of living here, which proves how perfect the enslavement is: we don’t want to give up the mind, but the mind is the very system that presents the nice perfect picture equilibrium as the standard order, while hiding the mechanisms that lead to such apparent perfection at an interdimensional level, which means that the actual enslavement was Always going to be out of our sight and covered up with all things positive and nice.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek out for various ways that would lead to a perceived equilibrium and harmony within myself and in my external world, without realizing how for such ‘visible harmony’ there must exist systems that are able to manage our current idea and belief of what ‘harmony’ is, which is linked to a positive experience existent as a form of control through the systems that represent this visible arrangement of equilibrium to the eyes of the mind, but that I never questioned what were the actual forces behind it and in this,
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see how that which we seek as equilibrium, beauty, perfection, order is currently based upon what we exist as the mind and how we currently then only see through the eyes of the mind, wherein the reality of ourselves is not seen/ realized or understood and as such, we have been blindly seeking for ‘the positive’ as the equilibrium, the harmony’ of perfect systems of control, disregarding any basic understanding of whether such visible/apparent perfection/ beauty/ harmony was in fact what’s best for all life.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create a positive experience when looking at nature, the perfect controlled forces that shape our reality and be astounded by what I could define as beauty in nature, without taking into consideration how it is that what we see/visualize and interpret reality with, which has been created through the quantum mind that transforms the physical reality into knowledge and information as energy that I am in fact reacting to and assessing the ‘who I am’ toward it, just as a predictable outcome of reactions on either a positive or a negative manner as the mind system that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that I have always only reacted to my own mind as my own knowledge and information through which I have seen this reality. Thus, how could I ever be certain of me liking something or enjoying the view of something if all that I’ve seen is my own mind as my own knowledge and information sticking to a perfected pattern of control all the time? I realize that creating any positive experience about this perceived ‘perfection’ that I have endowed nature with in my mind as a positive experience, is what I am here to correct, and stop participating in, as I had realized this before. However, when it comes to understanding how reality operates and how energy operates, I can see and realize that we only see the ‘nice façade’ of the tip of the iceberg and we are rarely ever actually aware of the reality of something/ someone, and this is where the deception would be debunked, to finally stop praising images of the mind and instead get ourselves to a point of equality in the physical.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever seek to ‘balance out’ forces of depression, frustration and distress with the opposite forces as enjoyment, conformity and laxity as positive experiences, wherein I believed that being on the ‘positive side’ is now getting myself to a ‘harmony’ wherein harmony is not an actual equal and one stance toward everything/ everyone in this example, but only seeking the moreness/ the positive experience that we’ve come to accept as ‘the normal’ due to how we have accepted and allowed ourselves to deny, neglect and mostly seek to always keep ourselves ‘away’ from all things negative, which implies the perfect form of control, when we have been unaware of how we actually create the positive, the perfect illusion of order and beauty that we have come to value as ‘more’ than ourselves and as such keeping us ‘in line’ within the system of control that presents a luring and enticing presentation to always keep everyone bound to the positive side and avoiding everything that means and represents stepping out of such conformity and status quo that has sustained the perfect enslavement on Earth.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see the actual abuse as all the constant friction and conflict that must exist in order for any energetic experience to be lived as ‘who I am,’ and even dare to exert/ project this experience onto people/ things in separation of myself through the eye of the mind, as the I of consciousness, not being aware of the actual control and abuse that exists in our so-called visual perfection.
Within this – I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the same mechanisms that create the energy experiences within my body, consuming physicality in order to create an experience that I can either define as either positive or negative within my own assessment of knowledge and information, is equally projected in the outside, wherein all that we have deemed as the ‘greatness’ in our reality – such as the marvels of the energetic systems and power – is in fact the most atrocious abuse that implies a great devastation of a part of this whole ecosystem that we are burning up in the name of moving faster and dare to call evolution.
“It was Obviously Imperative that No Human Ever Gain Access, to the Real Intent – because that would Cause the Eventual Understanding of All the Systems, which will Cause, eventually: the Human to Wake Up, which will Cause, eventually: the Human to Gain the Ability to Set themselves Free from Enslavement. And that would Cause the End of a Mechanical Existence, where All Emotions and Feelings are Produced by Interdimensional Systems, Presented as Feelings and Thoughts – to Keep the Human Entertained and Engaged in a Faith of Purpose and Meaning, which would Never be Anything that is Best for All Life. But, the Human would Not Notice that, because: they’re Existing, continuously, in Fear – Attempting to Complete their Task by Piecing together a System, which will Result in the Experience of ‘Love’ and which they would then See as ‘Light’. This ‘Light’ and ‘Love’ will Shine and become Brighter if they Focus on it, because – then, the Machine/System Produced, would Function and Produce MORE Energy. And the Energy, will Give the Human the Illusion of ‘Power’. A Power they Never want to Give Up, because they believe it’s ‘Them’. They even call it ‘Divinity’.” – Bernard Poolman
I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to be marveled by the so called ‘wonders of the world’ wherein the pictures of technological advancements and a ‘better future’ are painted as the perfect peak we can get to as human beings, without realizing that behind all forms of ‘progress’ we can only spot abuse and systems that allow such perfection to be constructed by slaves, by abusing/ burning up the very living-resources of the Earth that we have diminished to the status of ‘fuels’ that are meant to be burnt for our own convenience, which clearly denotes the level of unawareness and self interest we have lived in, wherein we have dared to consume our very own world/ living substance in the name of this feeling of ‘power’ and success and evolution that we have all agreed to create as a positive experience, never realizing at the expense of who and what such marvels were in fact able to be created of.
This world works in reverse, and if everything is going ‘just marvelous’ within ourselves, it in fact means that one is at a perfect and balanced enslavement state within a preprogrammed design of perfected control. This is thus how common sense points out that the actual best for all will always lead to discord, distress, disarrangement, dissociation of the current forces that keep the perfect-cage in place. Within this, it is my responsibility to stop following through with ideas of evolution, happiness, harmony, equilibrium and all the ‘beautiful forces of nature’ that are also part of the entire system that is currently only functioning through abuse and exploitation of the physical.
Thus, I commit myself to expose the relevance of the Desteni Material as the very key to unlock the actual secrets of reality that are not nice or pretty, and actually entail having to let go of any inkling of belief of what beauty, perfection and stability is according to the current mechanisms in which we understand harmony, which is mostly associated with a Positive energy and as such explain how positive energy is only the reverse/ the other side of the coin of the inherent negative that we have sought to deny, suppress and neglect within ourselves, without realizing that the Key to ourselves is in fact within the ability to stand outside of that perceived perfection, moreness, evolution and superiority as species – stop creating any further abuse and be willing to study how the systems function in order to then be able to re-direct what is already here toward a best for all outcome, which means stopping participating in energetic experiences of the mind, and focus on equalizing the physicality of what is here as a point of support for all living forms in equality, which does not mean perfection in a visual manner, but in a physical perfection as the consideration of the equality in all bodies of existence.
This means that it is in the best interest of all to stop seeking beauty, harmony, equilibrium and stability as the status quo in which we’ve kept ourselves captive and controlled by our own hand as the accepted and allowed systems of ‘perfected enslavement’ that we have deemed to be positive, of ‘evolution’ and an actual advancement within humanity, us being the ones that create the actual enslavement as a world system which must clearly now be also stopped and corrected by ourselves.
At Desteni this new Year we’re marking the beginning of the end of this perfected enslavement by exposing the actual human nature that we’ve kept ‘in balance’ and ‘in equilibrium’ within ourselves as the perfect picture presentation of all the positive that we’ve sought to be and become and present toward others, and that we genuinely believed represented ‘who we really are’ as divine creations. This is the lie that will be debunked in the most self-supportive way, as we are currently witnessing the Unveiling of the truth or ourselves as the mind in the most hideous and harmful ways – thus, it is part of our collective responsibility to actually be informed and educated on how to confront the actual Evil as all the reverse of life that we have all become and kept hidden/ secluded as the uncomfortable background and behind-the-scenes mechanisms that have enabled this reality to be functioning as and built upon.
It is becoming aware of the actual forces that will emerge of the actuality that we’ve become due to having accepted and allowed ourselves to exist as a mind system and creating a mind-world working upon these mind-systems of control that are no longer sustainable – and just like any release of a individual kept locked in a perfect cage for a long time, there we will all require a point of self support and reference to be able to ground ourselves to the physical and be able to deal with our own ‘forces’ that will run rampant if we do not make a clear statement of who we really are and what we are willing to live and stand for and by.
For further support:
Desteni
Desteni Forum
Desteni Lite Process
Desteni I Process
Equal Money System

Interviews:
Blogs:
This blog is part of the After Death Communication Series
Like this:
Like Loading...
Leave a comment | tags: consumer, creators, demons, desteni, divine consciousness, Earth, energy, eqafe, equalmoney, forces of nature, god, godly, human, human nature, journey to life, love, marlenlife, mind, physics, platonic solids, reptilians, rewards, sacred geometry, scavenging the Earth, slave, system of control, teamlife, the secret | posted in acceptance, belief, Bernard Poolman, bubbles, common sense, conspiracy theory, control, cultural values, demons, Desteni, destonians, ego, elitism, energetic experiences, energy, enlightenment, entertainment, Equality, Evil, freedom, Global movement, god, idealism, Journey To Life, Life, Life in Equality, mind, mind control, mind drones, Mindfuckism, mindsplit, new age, personality design, physical, physical abuse, polarity, positivity, power, psychology, quantum mind, quotes, responsibility, Self Forgiveness, self image, self-honesty, self-religion, spiritualism, spirituality, system, system savvy, trust, victimization, wisdom, world equality
Continuing from:
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to live and align myself to the Law of the Physical that Governs who we are/ what we are as a complete, perfect awareness as Law and instead, having followed through with laws that have been created by/ through the mind that does not have any regard for the physical, but only use it as a resource for its own functioning and survival, which is how and why we have led us to the current problem in this world/ reality, because we have followed the mind-made laws instead of having observed the physical and aligned ourselves to it/ as part of it, as an equal-system of perfect symbiotic relationships.
Nature and Symbiosis
When left to operate naturally, the plant and animal world exist in a symbiotic relationship with each other. Symbiosis is, in essence, a giving and receiving – a form of value exchange. When all parts of nature are allowed to exist in a symbiotic way – they together exist as a massive and complex life-support system, which human beings are meant to be a part of.
A profit-driven system has altered how we view and participate in nature, where we have started to take more than we require and virtually stopped giving back, hereby disrupting the balancing effect nature requires in order to be able to perform its function as a symbiotic life-support system.
source: equalmoney.org
|
Text quoted in Bernard Poolman’s blog Creation’s Journey To Life Day 252*
“The Law of the Physical that Governs the Physical – is Complete, Perfect, Awareness as Law. Thus, it Functions Equally for All in Every Way. Originally the Earth was a Planet of Sound, which means: Wholeness, which Inherently Existed as All the Laws of Wholeness.”
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard the laws of the physical out of ignorance, wherein I adopted the way of conceiving laws and regulations based on self interest, based on a monetary system that hasn’t functioned at the best interest of all – disregarding the basic functions that have enabled fauna and flora and this entire ecosystem as the Earth to continue existing, which is the ability to freely get/ obtain the resources that are required to live, and that it is us as human beings that have violated such rules in the name of personal gain and self interest as greed, which means we violated the laws of the physical and as such, are facing the consequences of having denied equal access to all our equals in this world to have a dignified living condition.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow through with what was placed as ‘advancements’ and ‘progress’ in our reality, wherein I accepted things as ‘they are’ and believed that there was people behind such decisions ensuring they would be best for all and taking care they would not cause damage/ harm, without realizing that the moment that we created profit/ gain as a form of superiority above other living forms, we created the greatest violation to the physical laws, which is the violation of what is Here, regardless of any mind thinking about it.
I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to ponder the mind as a greater form of intelligence over any other life form, without realizing that the Mind’s basic functioning is to precisely regard itself as ‘more’ than any other species, which is one of the violations of the Law of the Physical that implies all life forms, all bodies of existence should be equally regarded as Life and embodying such living right in a giving and receiving symbiotic relationship as part of the same organism.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to through existing as a mind consciousness system, exist only as self interest that I have believed is who I am and as such, surpassing the law of my being that is Equality and Oneness and only gave head and regard to the thoughts, feelings, emotions, internal conversations as myself, as what is the reality of myself while the world can function without a single being having to think about the world in itself.
“With the Introduction of the Mind to Exploit Disharmony for Self-Interest, Wholeness Constituted the Laws necessary to Return it to Harmony Inevitably.
Awareness as Wholeness do not Direct, as it Is the Directive Principle through which Those that Live, Equal and One as the Law of Wholeness – would Constitute an Equal and One Reality that will be Harmonious. And Those, that Function in Separation to the Law of Wholeness, which is the Law of Physics – would then Wholly become the Manifestation of their Unholiness, Equal and One.”
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard and impose a mind’s desires, wants and needs upon the Directive Principle of the whole, which invariably leads to disharmony as the harm that we have created through the creation of money as the weapon of abuse – without realizing that now that we are aware of the source of all our disease/ problems, we have also the key to solve the problems, create solutions and embody such solutions as my directive principle that must be reinstalled as my ability to discern at all times that which is best for all and live it, become it – Within this
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever serve the god of the mind as energy, as the abuse of the physical in itself, which is everything that I have defined as my personality and individual configuration that exists ‘different’ to everyone else apparently, without realizing that in such differentiation and individuality, we stopped working and functioning as a collective and became separated through all forms of ideology, dogma, religions, politics, personalities, races and languages as a form to remain divided and only looking after those that are ‘similar’ to us, surpassing the basic fundamental equality that we all exist as, which is our physical body that we all have and exists in an equal and one manner.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that the inherent Evil as human nature, as the reverse of life that the mind represents, is the source of the current consequences that we are facing as humanity, wherein our un-wholeliness as the separation we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to exist as, is leading us/ we are leading ourselves to a point of potential annihilation due to having ignored the Law of the Physical as the perfection of equality and oneness – and instead, dared to create perfection standards that can only function within the mind’s drive for perfection for its own benefit individually, but never collectively.
I realize that the ‘battle’ we embody as our own physical body with the mind system and all its parts and platforms, represents the ultimate challenge wherein we are having to tame the individual energetic forces that would only seek for individual self interest and instead, deliberately become/ embody the Law of the Physical in all ways as an actual living form – this implies that the process I’m walking is the deliberate decision to be and become a living form that is able to coexist with other living forms as equals – and that, must be taken to a practical living system that must be man made in order to ensure we all abide to this Law of the Physical and never again experience the need to abuse within a mental disorder that leads us to want to be ‘more’ than others’ through abusing the physical for our individual self interest/ benefit.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to violate the laws of the physical in the name of my own self interest, due to a con-formism according to what I would see in reality, and within that, accept my condition of abuser and accepting and allowing to see such abuse as progress, as success and ‘superior’ to other life forms.
Inevitably, thus – the Disharmony would Cancel itself Out and the Physical will Return to Harmony. Therefore the Physical do not Act as a Teacher. But Those that Function – using or abusing the Laws: May Learn from it and Change Themselves. Or End-Up in the Chains they Created themselves. It is thus Perfection as a Teacher-Environment. And thus Produce Either Complete, Perfect, Awareness – or Eradicate whatever Cause Disharmony. Within this, Time is Irrelevant.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that the purpose of Life is to learn how to Live in Equality/ coexisting with all other life forms and as such, this implies seeing the current ignorance we have all lived as and determine myself to become part of the solution and practically and physically embody that living change from living only as a mind of self interest and greed, to a physical living form that coexists with all other living forms in actual harmony.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to actually honor the ability to be alive and become aware of what we’ve become and have the tools and solutions to change what we have become, which is then be able to decide to live the decision to become a living-physical form that coexists with all others as equals, sharing responsibilities and also being able to receive in equality, as this is what is the actual gift of life, being able to coexist in perfect harmony with all other life forms as equals.
Thus, Realise the Gift of Physical Awareness – so that you may Become Aware. Or by your Own Hand, through Abusing the Laws of Perfection – you Will Exterminate Yourself.
I forgive myself that I hadn’t accepted and allowed myself to realize the gift of Physical Awareness and had deemed it as a curse, which is only me as the mind being deliberately placing ignorance as bliss instead of recognizing our physical awareness as the ability to recognize ourselves and as such decide to live according to the perfect ways in which we can coexist if we all come to the realization that it is only in Equality that we can thrive as species that are part of a greater ecosystem that must not be abused for the sake of our personal endeavors as humanity thriving in self interest, but learn how to implement rules and regulations that ensure life is lived according to the Law of the Physical.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to fully realize the extent of abuse that we’ve imposed the sheer moment that we continue living as individual mind-sets seeking any form of self interest whenever we only care about ourselves as individuals and disregard all living life forms that are equally here and being disregarded in the name of the mind’s self interest as who and what we all have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become.
I commit myself to align my life, my being and the entirety of who I am to the Law of the Physical, which is ensuring that everything that I use my body/ mind/ voice for is to act, do, speak in the name of what is best for all, and that anything less from this is certainly only abuse, which I commit myself to point out and direct every time that it is here as part of my awareness, and that is how awareness becomes the living-tool in order to realize, see and understand how we have gotten ourselves to this point, how to correct every single point of neglect, abuse, separation and as such, live the principle of self-responsibility as myself, as I realize that I cannot ignore the awareness of what is here and the immediate necessity to align myself to the directive principle of the Physical here.
Desteni
Desteni Forum
Desteni I Process
Desteni Lite Process
Equal Money System

Blogs:
Interviews:
Like this:
Like Loading...
1 Comment | tags: abuse, awareness, bernardpoolman, desteni, discrimination, disregard, energetic abuse, eqafe, equalmoney, exploitation, harmony, imperfection, journeytolife, law, life, mind, mind government, mind system, perfection, physical, physical reality, physics, sound, teamlife, The Law of the Physical, violation of nature's laws, wholeness | posted in acceptance, Bernard Poolman, bubbles, cultural values, death and destruction, Desteni, Desteni I Process, disease, dishonesty, energetic experiences, equal money system, Equality, equality consideration, equalmoney system, Evil, freechoice, god, good, Journey To Life, Life, Life in Equality, mental, mind, mind control, Mindfuckism, neighborism, physical, physical abuse, physical process, physical psychology, positive experience, Self Forgiveness, self reflection, self-honesty, slavery, sociology, spiritualism, system savvy, world equality, world s ystem, world system, world values
The answer to the greatest ‘problems’ in this worlds has always been Here, right in front of us as the laws that govern the universe and nature and the mechanisms in which it all works, it’s always following a mathematical precision that we see all around us in the shapes, forms and the forces that mold life as we know it, which includes ourselves.
“Laws of Physics is the laws of this world and enlightenment is to work in balance with the laws […] unless one can exist in all realities in ways that is best for all according to the laws of the reality that effect all –one will not be able o exist in any reality“ Bernard Poolman
What has happened in our reality has been the implanting of us, human species, existing as the culmination of two forces existing in one single body: substance and physicality and energy as a mind consciousness system that was incrusted upon the ‘vessel’ that we are all existing as our human physical body, that is certainly ‘the dust of the earth with water’ = made of mud. This single creation as physical body is perfectly able to exist without the need of a mind system, and this is precisely what the Desteni Portal represents as well and what we are all aware is possible from the single realization that we don’t require the mind to exist, because the mind is a fixed system that opposes and collides with the inherent laws of the universe/nature/ the physical.
We have come to believe in realms of ‘spiritual nature’ that would disregard the physical body as the actuality of who we are in order to ponder the realm of the intangible as the idea/ ego/ personality/ soul/ higher self and any other name you can give to the configuration that we’ve come to embody as individual beings, making these Ideas, beliefs and perceptions that we create in our own mind and accept and allow of each other as ‘who we are’ More important than the afore mentioned laws and physicality that govern nature, the universe and ourselves as part of that sameness as physical beings.
Continuing from:
The human being, representing this precise conflagration of a physical and mind creation embodying substance/physicality as the matter of the world coexisting in an intricate relationship with an energy-system – that we now refer to as the mind consciousness system – holds the key to the final resolution that we can embody as creation in this reality to establish a final solution and alignment of both elements to an equal and one coexistence in symbiotic relationships to continue living, if we actually are able to grasp the opportunity at hand when it comes to Understanding and Realizing the gift of life that we are and have, and commit ourselves to Align these faults, negligence and disregard in order to be and become what we should have always been: developing to our fullest expression and it is obvious that this can only happen if we understand how we can only get to this point if we unite our individual forces – 1+1+1+1 – to create and manifest an actual kingdom of god on Earth.
For that, we require to understand how energy works within its requirement of friction and conflict that we generate within ourselves as the mind and impose it upon the physical body to use the very physical substance to generate energy, which is the ‘bastard’ product of this separation/friction/conflict. That has been our ‘doom’ as humans, and the causes can be found Everywhere wherein we can spot a ‘problem’ such as a lack, scarcity, malfunctioning, annihilation, extinction, inconformity and all words that indicate by default there has been one part missed within the cycles and natural laws that govern the physical reality. This is part of what I had to digest when coming into a much ‘hyper’ matrix since I usually remain in a very secluded area where not much is going on. When coming into a city, it is as if this massive pattern of negligence, abuse and greed would unfold right in front of me – it can be ‘overwhelming’ and took me a night to digest it, probably. The fact that the problem is visible everywhere implies that we have neglected the solutions that are possible and existent equally Everywhere if we align our forces to it,
I also happen to be reading a book recommended by Bernard yesterday The Game of Life and How to Play It while travelling and as always, takes some time for some of the points to be ‘digested,’ but I suggest you also follow through Jeanne’s blog ‘Painter’s Journey To Life’ who will be dissecting the basic points that will be pretty much in tune with what I will be walking here, since I am well aware how I suppressed this basic understanding in the name of laziness, apathy and discouragement as I have walked and explained in the series of blogs that have been enlisted above, all linked to the ‘doomsday character’ which is really only human ignorance wasting away the life we hold in every moment of breath here – we say it with so much ease, but goddamn, it should certainly not be taken lightly at all.
I also literally stumbled upon a video here and I am barely beginning to watch it and awakened a fascination that reminded me of when I was an avid ‘curious’ about the world, nature and the forces at hand. I admit I lost all sense of curiosity and that became my doom – partly because of thinking that there was nothing else to ‘discover’ and within this, going into my own apathy and that aspect of myself was dead, dormant or simply pushed aside which is not what this process is about. I recognize the stagnation point as my own unwillingness to realize that there is still much more to understand than what I have only begun to grasp. I had some fascination for numbers, geometry. alchemy and many other things of such nature – I reduced then Fibonacci being to consciousness and as such diminishing everything that I had previously had any interest on as mere rubbish. I was very keen on numbers and seeing all the patterns in nature, we all have that, we can all be our own scientists and I see how I became rather reluctant to science because of it being so limited, apparently – but, right now that we have all the astounding vast information at Eqafe in relation to ourselves, reality, the laws that govern this reality, the nature of ourselves as this flagrant containment of two forces in one body makes us the key to the Universe. And no, this should not be taken as anthropocentric suprematist statement, but it seems that we are the only ones that are ‘out of tune’ from everything else, yet have an actual ability to direct our Will to transform the matters at hand.
A spark also opened up when reading Maya Rote’s series on Physics wherein the forces at work within this Universe were presented again, not as something to be ‘overlooked’ by another belief system of ‘there is no God,’ but as a key to understand ourselves once more. And one of the points that we walk in this process is to never hold on to something as a ‘certainty’ until proven absolutely being so by all means throughout time. We can’t hold on to knowledge and information without testing it in all aspects and ways to in fact come to physical conclusions that can in fact give us a cue on what is best for all.
Now how the hell does all of this will follow through here? I see myself like having all these strands and having to collate them to give them proper direction, but it seems that we have simply Not Been Paying Attention to how other species live in order to understand the forces we should all Align ourselves as, because if we remove the human factor from the Ecosystem, nature would have followed its course and cycles – however the creation of the human embodies the ultimate ‘duel’ that must be resolved, aligned as the conciliation of opposite forces that only represent one thing: the separation of ourselves from our oneness and equality, and that is what we currently exist as: a physical body tyrannically invaded by a mind consciousness system that was pondered as ‘who we are’ and given all the attention and considerations, never questioning if this ‘god’ in our heads as our own thoughts, feelings, emotions, internal conversations was in fact the order that the physical should exist as, which is obviously not, since Energy represents the ultimate self interest that one can embody and that is our mind, extracting from the physical body the actual substance to create the Fuel for our Mind-driven desires to be fulfilled at the expense/ cost of the physical. Rings a bell? Any extraction of energy represents this, as discussed in day 2 of this Journey to Life listed above.
Why don’t we see the animals fighting with each other about not being equally remunerated for the labor/ force they have put to sustain themselves, why don’t they have legal or judicial systems? This is just one tiny example of what should have been obvious -blatantly so, I should say- with regards to there being Something Inherently wrong within ourselves as human beings that no other species present, yet have come to face and carry the consequences that we have now created for Them as well, the natural elements within the ecosystem as part of the consequences that we have imposed onto reality.
I left off a pointer in my last blog recommending Kryon’s Interview and saying there are some Key points in there, and that is the awareness of substance. I won’t stay anything else but that was also part of the realizations that I see I have actually neglected, we all have actually, when believing that it is us in our minds that is alive – and this is also a consistent message throughout Desteni: it is rather foolish and conceited to believe it is us human beings that are aware and alive – yet it is unfortunate that the vast majority of beings are unaware of this.
Also review the Animal’s Life Reviews to understand More about what I’ll be sharing here.
So, while watching this show from the BBC called ‘The Code’ in its chapter ‘Shapes,’ I realized to what extent we have missed out the symbiotic relationships we should regard at all times if we would want to actually become ‘masters’ of the matter on this Earth. This means: the sheer accumulation and action of self-interest upon the matter, is already an action that will cause imbalance in the rest of the whole – and just like a domino effect: once you violate a basic principle in our existence such as the consideration of Equality, we became rather selfish, egotistic, greedy and obsessed beings that have foolishly believed any form of ‘true glory’ could stem from seeking Only one’s personal interest, while disregarding that the true ‘Kingdom of Heaven’ can only exist if we give and receive in Equality as the actual action that considers the laws of physicality and natural arrangement that are here, on this Earth yet ignored by ourselves as mind systems that have only sought to ‘get the most out of’ such forms, shapes, laws and mechanisms.
It is absurd we have come to spiritualize and make of the actual Harmony with the Universe ‘airy-fairy’ words that we now associate with quite a disgrace and deviation of humanity through things like religion and spirituality as the deification of Energy – Hence considering the ‘laws of the universe’ is an actual physical consideration that should not be associated with anything else other than the actual forces that govern the universe.
What does this mean? We’ve played god, and we rottenly failed at it – but Why? Because we are unaware and uneducated gods that will have to face the consequences of our indiscriminate actions due to disregarding everything and everyone in this reality being equally aware and alive. This is thus the phase where we are ‘growing up’ from our apparent ‘free will’ to do whatever we want and use it ‘at our discretion’ without realizing what we were actually ‘playing with’ on Earth, which is life, ourselves and everyone involved in it – there is no such thing as isolated actions that have no impact on the whole. This makes us no different to our creator that also Missed the crucial point of the relationship he held with substance, and for that please listen to the fantastic series Reptilians to understand the true image and likeness we hold to him.
What a marvelous joke isn’t it? Give a sense of freedom as ‘free will’ and ‘free choice’ and see what humans do with it – the result is our Earth.
Now, from the documentary, watch the point about bubbles and the economic solutions they represent as natural forces at work – lol, seriously this is something that can only show to what extent the Answers to this reality have been always right in front of us: The sphere, bubbles and how nature’s economic laws function. This proves a natural disposition to cooperate, to coexist to Share, to amalgamate and collaborate as an inherent property of matter to arrange itself in the most functional structures that are sustainable and effective to continue life on Earth. Those are the Laws that govern our physicality, nature, the ecosystem. Why haven’t we done the same as human beings? Because a ‘moreness’ belief is what consumes the most energy, and energy can only stem from a relationship of abuse, of friction and conflict.
From the documentary “Nature’s always finding the most efficient solution that it can” – So why us human beings haven’t been living to this basic evident principle around and within us? – The kingdom of god is everywhere around us within and without, we have lost all touch with what words really mean here, because we have only been thinking in Energy and where there is no Energy, we lose all interest, as that’s the primary way in which friction and conflict can be kept: continue existing in absolute ignorance, disarray, friction and conflict so that no solutions are ever found – these are the ‘forces’ we have to tame and work with, as it is is just our stubborn aspect of ourselves that thought we could thrive Alone as individuals, disregarding the whole. Today we can prove that wrong, and all that is left is our consequences to face.
This should place in all physical commonsensical evidence that the key to our reality and the solutions that are possible are virtually everywhere around us, we have just Not been paying attention – until now.
Now that is for sure in absolute accordance to the Equal Money System’s proposal on Stewardship:
Within an Equal Money System it will be recognized that Humans are a part of the Ecosystem they live in. The word ‘eco’ stands for ‘home’ – and thus, each human will be responsible for maintaining the Balance and Harmony within their home, within their Ecosystem. This involves the Monitoring of the Well-Being of the Plants and Animals within one’s Environment and to Intervene when Disharmony occurs as a result of Human Impact, so that a New Equilibrium can be established.
|
This will continue ..
Desteni
Desteni Forum
Desteni I Process
Desteni Lite Process – Free Online Course
Equal Money System

Blogs:
To Understand the Basics on Energy and Substance, please invest on your universal awareness of who and what we are and exist as:
And the Solutions to Economy in our Reality:
Like this:
Like Loading...
2 Comments | tags: economy as natural disposition, give and receive equally, harmony with the universe, human error, human god creator, jesus' words, law of attraction, laws of nature, natural arrangement, oikos, stewardship, the game of life and how to play it, well being | posted in awareness, Bernard Poolman, bliss, bubbles, consciousness, cultural values, death and destruction, Desteni, documentary, doomsday character, energetic experiences, energy, enlightenment, Equal Rights = Equal Responsibilities, Equality, freechoice, freedom, freespiritism, Global movement, god, god particle, happiness, Human Egolution, intellectualism, Journey To Life, karmic lessons, Life, Life in Equality, linguistics, mind, mind control, mind drones, Nature, neighborism, new age, physical, physical abuse, physical process, physical psychology, Sculpting in Time
Perfect Elitist Enslavement with a belief of Freedom.
A branch of the Elitist Character is being able to form/ mold/ shape your ‘personality’ with traits of Your Choice – lol – which is the choice that money is able to spare when you have your life essentially ‘solved’ to not be begging for money on the streets or working and actually ‘earning your money.’ I’m going to be writing about what came to be a mix of an elitist-intellectual-revolutionary/antagonist/libertine character that was mostly sought to be ‘lived’ within my life through and as this kind of fascination to become ‘acculturated’ in the drug scene. Yes, in common sense, a person that is barely able to make money to live cannot possibly suddenly be trying to be fascinated by the effects that chemicals create inside your body, trying to reach some form of bliss/ enlightenment with particular substances, read books and information about it, watch movies on the topic or just hold on a continuous habit of indulging in them, which obviously requires one to have More money than the required to Live in order to pay for pills/ drugs to make You Happy. This is depicted quite well in a book by Brett Easton Ellis Less than Zero.
I went to the supermarket yesterday and noticed three guys being quite excited about getting a bottle of Jack Daniels while overhearing one of them saying ‘this place should be run by someone like my dad,’ complaining about the ‘slowness’ of the service to get the bottle, which was barely a 3 minute wait. I could imagine/project or almost predict their entire evening with a bottle of Jack Daniels, most likely ending up puking it out on the toilet, feeling like shit the next day and going with a massive hangover to their top-elitist university nearby. Yes, this is a ubiquitous pattern nowadays, a ‘lifestyle,’ and no it is not criticizing or judging it, this is what we have become: once you have money to cover your basic needs, You SEEK for something more than surviving – because that is already covered.
So this is an aspect of the elitist character, because there are many other conditions that lead to drug consumption, which is also the opposite polarity of poverty, which you can read her “Huffing makes me Forget My Tummy Aches” based on the street kids that sniff cement or glue in order to mitigate hunger – as well as the toxic paint Romanian kids would sniff in that documentary that I also recommend watching if you haven’ Children Underground. That’s another point to walk in itself, but what I’ll share is from the perspective/ side I got to live in and be most ‘acquainted’ with – so to speak.
Drug Culture
I made up a conclusion of why Black Metal/ Death Metal brewed mostly in Scandinavian countries – later on in a then flourishing/stable America – that have the best and most stable economy and general well-being, in which I created a hypothesis that because everything was just ‘too fine’ and ‘happy’ in their world, they had to create some form of opposition to balance out the dread of having everything being seemingly fine inside, but the hell inside was not sorted out, as well as becoming aware of the obvious disparity it is to live in a ‘First world’ like that and having wars, poverty, starvation, abuse in any other place in the world; yes, it is enough to already label us all Mad people to not see the obvious polarized ‘nature’ we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become. This is a similar point in our capitalist societies wherein we are absolutely living in a virtual world wherein things like Depression and Social Phobia have become a lifestyle – and I realize it’s not only a past-century thing, it’s always existed in humanity and the ‘crazy’ people were mostly out skirted in order to not cause any problems to the so-called healthy rest of the population – you can read that in ‘Stultifera Navis’ the First Chapter in Michel Foucault’s Madness and Civilization: A History of Insanity in the Age of Reason. (1988) wherein madness was certainly something that should be kept ‘away’ – nowadays, we’ve embraced it and called it a lifestyle fueled with designer drugs. Wow, really, wow. And why? Because Drugs = Addictions = Constant and Certain Profit Making = Lots of Money.
All of this is mixed into a cultural set of identification to a form of escapism due to how Alienated we’ve become from any form of actual understanding of how everything that enables life to be Lived is produced, what it is to work on our own sustenance. Instead we have focused on and then focusing on things that will give you a mental high in the comfort of your 4 walls room, which is how the majority of people are living as in this world.
I remember when going to the family doctor when I was a child, he would always have all these pens, notepads, rulers, sticks for your tongue and virtually everything plastic made around the area had names of medicines on them. I am sure you are quite aware of this and I questioned it at the time and my mother explained how the companies would give the doctors money/ commissions if they would sell a particular brand of medicine. I took it as normal since it was quite obvious that we were being sold many things all over the place, so it seemed when simply becoming aware of all the billboards on the streets and the suggestive ways in which to BUY our happiness, our health, our improvement, our sanity.
This morning I began hearing more than watching The Marketing of Madness and I say I begun because I’ve barely gotten to the 3rd part out of 18, but as I was hearing, all this entire network of information was suddenly here for me to realize that I must now write about this. Why? I have had a strange fascination for drugs and madness and this goes as far as when I was a little girl and they would joke-threat me to take me to the Batán, which is/was the most well known mental hospital in a smaller city nearby where I lived. Why? I just liked playing crazy, it became a form of entertainment that’s for sure, it was something staged in order to attract people’s attention, well to freak out my parents and sisters mostly. To me insane people were quite ‘free’ according to my schemes, which is what mostly fascinated me – why? Hell, All I know is that from the moment I got cable TV – as I’ve mentioned several times in the past, it was the ‘opening of myself to the world’ at the key-point age of 7 years old, I was more aware of the eccentricity of musicians and I would definitely always hear around the house how ‘artists take drugs / get high to look so careless/ free/ expressive’ which is what to everyone’s eyes would Justify their behavior as ‘careless’ = free. Before that, just playing ‘crazy’ was something that could give me a thrill for doing something ‘out of the ordinary’ which I’ll open up in posts to come.
This is quite an extensive topic that I’ve been writing about here and there throughout this process, but it’s been not that long ago when I was busy with some other character that this entire insanity-point came up again, along with realizing the fascination I had with certain ‘alternative cultures’ based on what I grew up reading, watching on TV, learning from ‘artist’s biographies’ of how most of them had some form of insanity, drug addiction or plain disturbance, which is how I almost lead myself to touch upon those fields within a self-aware act of investigating madness and drugs, then defining all of this to be of my preference/likeness = self brainwashing. Why would that be? again, for the reason that I had the time, had the money to not be living only on survival mode and explore my own ‘personal fascinations’ for a while, enough time to now be able to write about everything that I saw, witness, tried out and have realized now when it comes to see how everything that I had thought to be quite a ‘rebellious act’ of the type of stuff that I was into/ that I liked, came to be just another polarity in the system that required my courageous fascination with things that I deemed as ‘forbidden’ in order to entertain myself further, leading me then into spirituality/ seeking god and wanting to mix both. I mean I was quite into researching DMT and Entheogens and all these ‘awakening’ procedures as well as the effects LSD had to ‘see beyond the veil’ and whatnot. My experimentation was not to get Lost or evade my reality, but to find some form of ‘divinity,’ lol this is the ultimate mindfuck that anyone can fall for in this world wherein you can buy anything you want, give it a meaning and call that a talisman for protection – same with drugs: take it, feel good, realize that you re not ‘mad’ or ‘crazy’ but just an ‘Awakened’ person, yep and there you go: specialness + drugs + money + boredom = perfect slaves on drugs – or as Thom Yorke would write ‘a pig in a cage on antibiotics.’
Now, the personal endeavor to write about this is because I immediately noticed there were still reactions when hearing all these drug names, all the movies, books, relationships came to mind and I realized that I had not opened this point up mostly as a point of reservedness and morality according to how it would be seen as ‘insane’ to have some fascination for madness and drugs – both together were like a perfect cocktail for self-debauchery, that is quite ubiquitous in our current culture/ media, which is where I got it all from in the first place. Idolizing junkies is precisely not what I would want to continue perpetuating as a fluffy reaction within me – yes, there are feelings attached to this entire topic – why? That’s what I will find out as I continue writing here – a sense of freedom in a constrictive world? A sense of ‘limitless expression’? As a result of writing out this, I experimented for sure that there are threads to be walked in order to stop keeping this fascination as part of my little-secrets to keep this bit of a world that I still wanted to be defined by, somehow, because of the entire participation in emotions and feeling when touching upon all things madness, drugs, eccentric behavior and the ‘inextricable human mind,’ which is part of my ability to now be quite thankful to Understand my Mind and be aware of how one can virtually pick any point of fascination according to what one is exposed to, and use it only as a constant point to re-fuel an energetic relationship toward it. This entire aspect is one of those parts of a personality that I became quite infatuated with while developing my emotional/ feeling body, so this is relevant, absolutely relevant to walk.
So, I’ll continue with going sharing part of the personal story and writing out Self Forgiveness, Self Corrective Statements and Realizations about such ‘fascinations’ as mere treats for the mind, which certainly must be stopped so that I expose the entire thing for what it is: just another way to entertain ourselves and pay for it while becoming ‘hooked on drugs’ which is virtually getting ‘hooked on Energy’ wherein the Mind is the only one that benefits.
Desteni
Desteni Forum
Desteni I Process
Desteni Lite Process
Equal Money System

Documentaries:
Vlog:
Blogs:
Blogs on Drugs and Madness:
Interviews:
Like this:
Like Loading...
25 Comments | tags: anxiety, beatnik, big pharma, brainwashing, careless, chill pill, drugs, elitist characters, escapism, Free, happy pill, high, junky, less than zero, mental disorders, mental ilnesss, money, profit making, prozac | posted in addiction, antagonism, artistic, artists, beat, belief, bubbles, buy peace, capitalism, consumerism, control, corporation, crazy, cultural values, death, demons, Desteni, destonian, disease, documentary, drugs, education, ego, elitism, Equality, Evil, feelings, freechoice, freedom, geneartion x, goa philosophy, happiness, image, inner-struggle, insanity, learning, liberation, Life, life review, media, mental, metal, mind control, Mindfuckism, mindsplit, money, new age, obsession, personality design, physical, physical psychology, polarity, positive experience, psychiatry, psychology, quantum mind, scepticism, self esteem, self image, slavery, special, spiritualism, teenage loathe, wisdom, worth
The Positive-Thought and Reactions that have chained me to see everything else as a ‘lesser time’ of the day.
When we have a negative thought, in our mind we immediately want to jump again to the ‘feel good’ experience as that is essentially when we consider that we feel ‘fine’ and ‘great’ and create this sense of ‘everything is alright.’

Today I’m going to walk the Positive Thoughts’ Reaction in relation to the procrastination character. These particular thoughts are in essence like one single picture-frame that I see in my mind whenever I am ‘thinking’ about getting this document done and after going through the negative thoughts of all the tediousness and apathy experienced toward simply ‘doing the task’ as the memories discussed yesterday, I create immediately the ‘positive experience’ as that which I talk myself into rather doing because it is simply something that I enjoy doing.
Now, what’s interesting within this is that I’ve made of walking outside my every day ‘moment to self’ however if I applied the same rigorous immovable decision to ‘go out for a walk’ in all aspects of my day to get to all my responsibilities, I am sure that I’d be definitely more effective.
So first – I’ll walk the positive experience linked to this thought, then see how I can practically create a schedule in order to consider that I can place the same ‘drive’ that I have to go outside and walk toward any other task that I require to get done.
This ‘drive’ won’t be based then in having a positive experience, nor a ‘positive attitude’ toward it, but a single process of moving myself physically to do it – just like what walking implies – an effortless activity wherein I am simply giving myself physical direction to move and go somewhere and back.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the positive thought of the view of the street that I walk through with a golden like light shining on the pavement, with some clouds half way covering the sun as this moment that I would rather ‘walk outside for to experience’ instead of working with the task that I have at hand, which came up as the thought of ‘I must get to work on this today’ and immediately participate in the previous two thoughts or any other point of fear and unpleasant reaction such as tediousness, apathy, fear and general avoidance to it, wherein I then switch into the positive thought of ‘walking outside’ as one excuse to simply ‘leave it for later’ in order to go out and experience the thought that I have created in order to tempt myself to go outside, wherein I feel more at ease and ‘good’ about myself due to all the physical experience that I enjoy participating in.
When and as I see myself creating the thought of the street that I walk through as a temptation to not do what I have to do in the moment, and leave it for later – I stop and I breathe – I realize that this is the mechanism in my mind that I have submitted to in order to always ‘give in’ to what I have made part of my routine and an ‘alright’/ enjoyable point that I have never questioned due to it being part of physical activity and movement during my day, yet when it becomes a point of self manipulation it is clear that I must stop and realize that I cannot follow the ‘positive experience’ and drop/ leave the responsibilities aside, as I have made a habit of making it ‘alright’ to go for a walk and do what I enjoy doing regardless of any other point that requires immediate direction.
I see and realize that I have made of this point of walking a religious-point that I have made immovable in my every day routine, which indicates that because it is a positive experience of feeling ‘free’ as in moving and not doing something in particular, I have made it ‘my time of the day’ which I have respected as such during my every day living. Thus I realize that if I implement the same to get other points done in my reality, and making my responsibilities also an immovable and unbreakable point of my routine, then I can get to still have that time for me to go out for a walk and have the certainty of having worked with that which I must work with myself no matter what.Therefore,
I commit myself to implement the time throughout the day to get this writing done as an every day point that I get into for at least 2 hours of my day, which implies that I have to choose a moment every day according to my already existent schedule to get to this point and do it no matter what, to equalize the same drive that I have for going out for a walk, into this point wherein I make no excuses or justifications as to why I could not get to it today. This implies that within the rest of the activities that I had for the day, I can go also assessing which ones I can move around/ set proper times to do them instead of doing a little bit of all at once without really dedicating proper time to each task, as I see and realize that this can also be a supportive point to go into as I walk this alignment of myself to that which is priority in my reality to get done.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a positive thought as the image of the streets that I walk through with even the sensation of the slightly cold breeze with the sun coming down and several clouds as the enticing and temptation point that I ‘give into’ because of believing that this is something that ‘I’d rather do instead of remaining at home during sunset time,’which I have linked to a sense of depression and isolation and a feeling of seclusion, due to having created the habit for many years now to be outside walking during sunset time regardless of any excuse – unless it is raining/pouring heavily outside – and within this, create a positive experience of my day that leads to this one moment of going outside for a walk and even plan my day in such a way that I ensure I have time to go out for this walk.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize how I implemented this point of walking at that particular time of the day ‘back in the day’ wherein I would be experiencing myself as ‘isolated’ at home and making of this time of the day my religious moment to ‘be free’ and create an entire positive experience of the sightings and the weather, the pictures I’d see as my ‘high’ moment of the day, wherein this became a habit to simply not be inside my house when the shift from daylight to nighttime goes on, as I have created this sensation of sadness and dread to being at home and seeing the daylight go and night coming in, which then reveals how this positive experience exists as the opposite to this sensation of depression that I would go into at the time when I would not go out of my house at all –
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get the memory at the moment of me being reading in my ‘old house’ when I was a young teenager and being immersed in the reading and looking up outside the window and seeing that there was still some daylight – then the next moment after a while looking up and realizing that it is already night time, wherein I would create this sensation of ‘having missed the sunset/ having squandered another day’ which created this negative experience of depression and dullness and dissatisfaction within me, due to realizing that I had seen ‘another day gone by and not doing something in particular but reading,’ which I knew was a distraction from actually going outside and interacting with reality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to then use walking as that positive experience that I created in my mind as a ‘personal improvement’ aspect which means that I have tainted the walking point with a positive experience from that time when I used to not go out for a walk/ remain at home and link that to a ‘dull time/ bad time/ depressive time’ of my life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to program this point of ‘going out for a walk’ as a remedy to me ‘hitting the low’ as a depressive or dull moment in my day wherein the cheering up moment comes up as ‘going out for a walk’ as the ‘always effective method’ to get myself into a ‘high’ and positive experience even if it is as slight as having this impetus and driving force in a positive manner to go outside, which indicates that I have in fact used this point of ‘going out for a walk’ as a way to ‘escape from myself’ and the responsibilities that are usually existent ‘at home’/ in my room. Thus I realize how I have used the excuse of MY MOMENT of the day as this immovable/ sacred moment that I cannot put down for something else/ to do something else such as writing my document, which actually happened –thus the memory.
I forgive myself that I have linked the experience of being inside the classroom during the afternoon/ evening and seeing outside the window how the sun would be going down and wishing and hoping that I was ‘free’ to be able to go out for a walk, creating a positive experience toward the sole ability of going out for a walk during sunset – within this (okay this is seriously shocking the marlen programming here) I breathe – lol –
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link being in school or reading or writing or doing anything else BUT being outside walking during sunset as a negative experience within my day, which is how and why I have used this image as a positively charged thought in my mind that I have used to manipulate myself to ‘get out no matter what’ in order to not experience the negative as the dullness/ depression/ tediousness/ apathy that is linked to me being at home ‘secluded’ in my room, being at school attending class instead of being outside and being with the horses at the stables – which is ‘outside’ yet not walking/ doing what I want in that moment and use these points as an excuse to define al of those activities as a negative point that I do not want to do based on my self interest as the positive experience of ‘going out for a walk to make my day.’
Therefore, when and as I see myself getting this anxiety when seeing the sun coming down already and not being outside already in my daily walk – I stop and I breathe – I realize that what is driving me to hurry is that ‘negative experience’ that I have gotten from that memory wherein I would remain at home during ‘sunset time’ and be depressed just by seeing another day go by without doing ‘anything’ but reading/ being at school during class time and only being sitting close to the window or simply looking outside with ‘wonder’ as to manipulate myself to make of that moment something dull/ bad/ negative based on my desire to be outside/ being with the horses and supporting them before night time and not being outside walking, but being outside supporting another being during sunset time – and as such, I realize that I have imprinted within me my own beliefs of what is positive and negative onto activities/ actions/ moments in my life based on different contexts and situations that cannot in any way continue defining ‘who I am’ within reading, who I am within attending class, who I am within supporting another being, who I am within walking, who I am within the particular time of the day – specifically sunset’ – which I have charged as this almost ‘sacred’ time of the day that I Must experience while walking, and whenever I was not able to fulfill this point of being outside walking throughout this time, I would also get frustrated or irritated for not doing what ‘I like doing’ – within this
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the memory of working with horses at the farm during sunset, wherein I would take much earlier than sunset since horses come into the stables at sunset, and as such have the experience of ‘missing out on life’/ missing out ‘my moment’ wherein I would simply be walking outside during sunset instead of taking care of another, which is also what I see factored into my entire experience of working with horses as a point that would ‘take my time’ as a ‘personal time’ that I had created as something untouchable and immovable such as going outside for a walk during sunset.
I see and realize that even the thought of not being able to do this once I am at the farm, has factored into ‘not wanting to leave my religious walk’ of the day and as such, how I have mind—controlled myself into this single limited perspective of my experience within walking wherein I am essentially revolving around this moment of the day, to get to this moment of the day, making it my ‘ultimate experience’ instead of actually seeing walking as that moment that yes, I can listen to interviews and ‘get out in the world,’ however not to make it an entire experience that is ‘positive’ in nature and that overrides any other point of responsibility within me, as I see and realize that this is the ‘problem’ that we create within ourselves every time that we only want to do that which we have programmed as a positive experience in order to avoid the negative experience linked to it.
When and as I see myself believing that I am ‘missing out on life’ because of being working with horses instead of being ‘outside walking by myself’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that such thoughts are what creates also a negative experience toward working with horses in that particular time of the day, based on the positive experience that I have imprinted throughout time to ‘my time’ as being alone, walking during sunset time as this precious time that I don’t even want to share with another – as I have been so inflexible and rigid with my own self-religion when it comes to doing things the way that I am used-to/ ‘want them to be done’ which are all aspects that only sustain this rigid and immovable and closed-minded version of myself, wherein I see and realize that it takes a physical ‘effort’ to do something different within this walk in itself, like going out for a walk with another and being listening to another while walking instead of being all by myself, or spending longer time indoors when getting to a particular place during my walk, wherein the moment that I go out and the sun is down I believe that I have ‘missed the entire gist of my walk’ because I was not able to fully ‘presence’ the sun going down, lol, which is really ludicrous now that I write it out and funny, but that is essentially how I have been my own ‘clockwise’ in relation to my day, my doing, my ‘climatic moment of the day’ as being outside going for a walk and not wanting to miss ‘that’ moment of the sun going down.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when I see me spending more time within a particular task in the computer and see that it is already ‘being late’ to go out for a walk, I look up at the sky and if it’s already going ‘darker’ than usual, I create this experience of anxiety to move right away and cut/ stop whatever I’m doing, and rushing to putting my boots on and going out for a walk, simply because of not wanting to miss this particular moment of the day outside. Within this
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dominated and controlled by a single experience that I have considered is a positive experience within my day such as ‘being outside walking during sunset’ without realizing to what extent I have made this a ‘cannot miss’ point wherein I manipulate myself, my doings, my tasks and even others so that I can always ensure I have this time for myself in order to have the day ‘complete’ and experience ‘satisfaction’ from it as a positive experience – and the other way around, creating a negative experience wherein for whatever reason I cannot be outside going for a walk during sunset, wherein a slight irritation and dissatisfaction emerges, due to believing that I have missed out on life today.
I realize that Life is not defined by a positive experience, nor defined by the pictures I see of a sun going down and setting my reality into ‘night time,’ nor is it this special moment that I must experience always being walking outside, alone, with earphones on and creating this whole ‘my time’ experience as I see and realize that within having created this point as ‘THE moment of my day’ everything else then comes in a ‘second place’ wherein my drive to do it is partially based also on ‘getting to the moment of going out for a walk’ instead of equalizing such impetus/ driving force as a physical breathing in every moment point that I commit myself to live in a stable and consistent manner.
When and as I see myself believing that being doing something else that is not walking outside during sunset time, is a reason for me to believe that I am ‘missing out on life’ and that ‘I have ‘just missed My Time of the day’ wherein an entire experience of dissatisfaction and even slight irritation comes up – I stop and I breathe – I realize that I have created and made of this walking time an ‘immovable’ aspect within my life in separation of the rest of my daily tasks and activities and simple ‘being here’ that also require an equal commitment to get them done and to equalize myself as breath no matter where I am, with whom, with whatever I am doing – therefore
I commit myself to equalize this impetus/ driving force that I have created and lived-out in relation to ‘going out for a walk’ toward all activities during my day wherein this driving force is no longer linked to a positive experience of ‘enjoying the movement’ and the view of the world while walking while avoiding re-creating the dullness/ sadness/ depression that I would go into in the memory of myself remaining ‘at home’ through sunset time – and instead direct myself to physically move to get all points done within my day wherein I can still go out for a walk without making it a ‘moreness’ moment within my day, wherein I have made everything else of the day as the ‘downfall’ compared to such momentum that I get from the moment I decide to go out for a walk, up to the moment when I come back and it’s already dark and within this, having the background thought of ‘I’ve made my day’ because of having had this positive experience fulfilled within me, which indicates that I have not equalized my daily routine to be an equal and one self-movement, but still held this particular time of the day as ‘more’ and ‘positive experience’ within me, which is unacceptable as then in my mind, I have created of the seemingly ‘tedious’ tasks which require my focus and attention as negative experiences when compared to my self-created positive experience of going out for a walk.
What I have realized within this is that it is absolutely necessary to go in depth to that which we have charged as the positive experience as this entire made-up positive experience overrides common sense and self direction to in fact direct ourselves to do that which we have deemed as ‘negative’ in our world and reality – it is all based on How we have imprinted such moments in our reality – thus we have the ability to re-define such moments as an equal impetus/ driving force at a physical level that we are able to exist as simply being breathing and equalizing our activities to breathing instead of ‘thinking’ and going into experiences upon thinking about reality and our actions.
Furthermore I can see how I have made of my ‘positive experience’ something that would seem quite ‘usual’ or ‘normal’ for any other person, however due to how I have specifically ‘conjured up’ this every day action within my day, it is definitely not something that I hold as ‘normal’ within my day, but have made it ‘more’ than any other moment of my day – thus I commit myself to stop holding any ‘moreness’ value to sunset time, to walking and to within this realize that I cannot accept and allow myself to be motivated by pictures and and a positive experience to move as all that I require to move is here as my physical body, breath and my will and decision to do what is required to be done and within this actually Live the entire day instead of ‘being living for’ only a particular moment within my day.
More to come
Desteni I Process
Desteni
Desteni Forum
Equal Money System

Blogs:
Great must listen interviews:
Like this:
Like Loading...
Leave a comment | tags: activity, breathing, day to day living, depression, dread, excuses, exercise, journey to life, justifications, marlenlife, moving, positive experience, procrastination, romanticism, self religion, sunset, walking | posted in awareness, Behavior, Body, bubbles, Desteni, Equality, freechoice, freedom, happiness, Journey To Life, Life, Life in Equality, Mindfuckism, personality design, philosophy, physical, physical abuse, physical process, procrastination, self creation, self-honesty, support, value