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272. Venerating The Money-God

 

Continuing from: 271. Sacred Art: the Key to Understanding Reality

Also Read: 203. The Acceptance of Heaven is the Allowance of Hell

 

So, we find that the representations used to venerate gods/ the divine were meant to ‘educate’/imprint/reinforce within human beings this sense of being lost and seeking to be ‘found’ and ‘happy again.’ You are born sin, some guy died because of your sins, you have to punch your chest recognizing that it’s been ‘my fault, my fault, my great fault’ and then pray to some god, angels, archangels and saints to save us from ‘falling’ into the pits of our temptations, which is everything that has been tainted with being bad, wrong, spoiled, which also includes that which generates Life on Earth, such as sex and sexuality, such profanity from ourselves yet we never questioned this and as such, morality was born.

 

If we have a look at what sacred art represents is quite a form of ultimate abuse and control which is using the Earth’s materials to be worked by and through one human being to create a final product that will serve for purposes of enslavement. I cannot see a difference between this same process and virtually all that we have constructed/ built in our society that is currently serving No purpose other than continuing the mystification of the human race within these ‘godly’ self-beliefs of evolution/progress/betterment and investing in such ‘godly tasks’ while there’s still people dying from preventive diseases, starving to death and having no proper education given in equality in order to be able to ‘equally make it’ in this holy-crusade that we’ve called Life. That’s our god of progress, yet we’re all quite happy with the way it turned out ‘for us’ because we have had no idea of what it is to really be ‘forgotten’ in this world system.

 

In terms of this sacred art, it is no different to the images/pictures/sounds used for massive purposes of propaganda through the best PR campaigns to direct the population to buy/consume something and as such, keep the entire system in place. Back then there was no media or radio or anything like ‘mass media’ that exists now- yet, there were churches and people that spent their lifetimes ‘converting’ people, which here in Mexico it meant stopping venerating several gods of natural forces and start believing in Jesus, the bible, the saints and seeking to be ‘benevolent’ at all cost. So it meant a shift from a functional form of enslavement to these natural-forces as gods to a monotheism that became the most profound form of indoctrination in our culture: you are only a servant to god, you are a sinner, you deserve nothing, you must suffer to reach any godhood. And for that, you have to now ‘Elevate’ yourself through believing in god, going to church, giving your money to the church, feeling constantly guilty for your sins, feeling like you always NEED to feel good, to be ‘closer to god’ and do whatever it takes to make a higher score in your reputation with god as this ‘omnipresent’ authority-figure that we all learned to fear.

 

What’s more fascinating is that this is precisely how the Quantum Mind operates: everything that was created as a constant form of secret mind is all the negative, bad, evil, dark, nasty and the usual catholic indoctrination means that one has to ‘feel bad’ about that, feel guilty, you are a nasty piece of flesh if you dare to go without confessing your dark deeds to another man that was supposed to absolve you from your sins in god’s name. Well, what happens at a quantum mind level is that we would thus only seek to be ‘Positive’ all the time and experience the ‘glory of god’ in our earthly lives, which means: hide everything that seems negative, seek the light! seek the positive! without Ever having understood what the hell does ‘being positive’ in fact meat, which is certainly Not an actual best for all state of being for ourselves as our physical body and establishing proper relationships with ourselves and each other – but instead it meant the Most Energy for the Mind/ Consciousness, which implies that we have only really been venerating one real god: energy/ consciousness, wherein we have believed that all the love, light, peace and joy are ‘natural’ experiences and our ‘utmost desire’ to fulfill on Earth – but, again, who taught us that such ‘well being’ is an energetic flickering experience that we have to Buy/ Consume and attain Happiness/Joy/Bliss no matter what – why do we have to BUY our happiness and well being?

All of this exists in a massive ignorance toward how the mind operates that, as we have explained before, to generate any sense of ‘positive experience’ it has to consume the flesh/physicality in order to transform it into energy that we then call ‘positive experiences’ – For this please educate yourself with the following interview:

Quantum Mind Self Awareness – STEP 26

 

The religious construct implies: you are separated from god – But what is ‘god’ anyways? Well, if we can give god a proper signifier it is the physical, life in itself as a whole – thus, one of the ways in which we have separated ourselves from our own piece of god as the physical body that we are is through the Mind, because the mind is a system that can only exist if enough energy as the result of a relationship of friction and conflict within ourselves is generated in order to create these either positive or negative experiences that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become as ‘who we are’ as ‘our personality’ as our ‘identity.’  So all of these suffering images were meant to remind us all the time: suffer, be sad, repent! you are born in sin, you are flawed, you are not worthy unless you climb the ladder of success to get to god/the most money in the world and as such, you’ll be holy and deserving the heavens. But, no one explained how such ‘glory’ as the heavens/ the most money in the world was created: both systems implied the resourcing of the physicality transformed into energy to power up the ‘Heaven’ existence – that is no longer existent and for that read the Desteni Materialand the Money System as well wherein those at the ‘top of the pyramid’ and even in a figurative way ‘closer to god/ the heavens/ above the Earth’ are able to be in such positions due to the abuse that is imposed onto the rest/ base of the pyramid in order to make More than others and claim divinity and having a ‘fortunate position’ while deliberately neglecting how those below are actually ‘living’ and how they have been the forgotten ones by some god to have equal-support and opportunity as those that get to be at the very top.

 

Now, when looking at sacred art which was mostly made for and in the houses of the elites and the ecclesiastic circles/ churches, one gets to see this imposition of ‘divinity’ and ‘power’ through majestic constructions with lots of gold and magnificent paintings that are revered till this day. For that, you can hear  The Soul of Money – Part 26 for further context of how this operates.

It is quite an abuse to use actual creative forces to forge, sculpt, paint and manifest some of the most atrocious artifacts with which billions have been enslaved to through such items/products becoming a representation of the belief systems we have all followed – there’s still billions venerating images, crucifixes and all forms of relics associated with some form of ‘divine symbols’ that one is then protected by, or given ‘good omens’ with or signifying some form of specialness – all kinds of delirium that is able to be created/ constructed in order to maintain this hierarchical separation from ourselves as god/ life existent equal and one in everything and everyone.

 

I see this is why a movie like Stigmata became such a fascination to me because the message was clear with the Gospel of Thomas there “Jesus said… the Kingdom of God is inside you, and all around you, not in mansions of wood and stone. Split a piece of wood… and I am there, lift a stone… and you will find me.” However, as explained yesterday, Jesus was not god, Jesus simply saw within himself and everyone else that sameness as Life, hence such Equality could be found Everywhere and as such, this statement would debunk the entire institutionalization of god made religion, made ‘followers’ and a set of dogmas that one would have to somehow be controlled by, which is the entire plot of  Stigmata where the Vatican is presented as keeping all of these secrets in order to not lose control of the faithfully deceived.

 

If we see a parallel within the Money System currently, the same process is going on: one is not supposed to question the existence of Money – how it is created, who decides what is worth what amount of money, what are the laws that decide and govern how money moves in this physical reality, and the ‘representatives of god’ as money in this reality are the bankers and governmental institutions that have the ‘divine power’ to create money out of thin air and decide to do whatever will benefit them the most with it. We’re then left with a few economists – a parallel to the theologians  – that are supposed to ‘make sense’ of the economy only, and I say theologians and economists are similar because none of them have any actual ‘say’ to change how the power is forged/constituted/configured within this reality, one can only ‘study it’ within its defined/given context and that’s it, hence no change has emerged in this reality. To read more about how this is in the process of being changed to an actual revolution, read an Economist’s Journey To Life.

 

It is still fascinating to me to see people appeasing and kneeling at the sight of these artifacts, crying in front of these clay representations of virgins, saints and any other ‘doll-like’ figure that could represent that character from that passage that they thought was ‘divine’ in nature – and that certainly always lead to seeking this ‘divinity’ within ourselves, learned to curse and deny and conceal all the negative and as such, keep walking to ‘create’ the kingdom of God/Money the ‘Positive’ in this world. One can thus see how this has become the foundation of our current ‘civilization’ : see pretty pictures, attach some ‘great value’ to that which entails great abuse, extrapolate the Value of Life as Equals and create a hierarchical system wherein one has to accept great suffering to get to god. Sounds familiar? Yes, life is a struggle and you’ll have to endure sweat, blood and tears to ‘make it’ in this life. These are the laws of our current hierarchical system of abuse as well as the religious precepts that we have blindly followed– and this has become the foundation to the vast majority of a nation blinded by religion and still believing that through prayer this world will get better and they will get what they require to live, which is money.

Is ‘God/ Religion/ Money’ to blame then? Not at all, it has always been ourselves that created such entities, it has only been ourselves that followed through with such forms of separation while being embodying the answer to all life: the physical, life in equality. This is thus not a point to condemn but mostly a point to expose in order to see what type of religious-systems we’re still following and Money as the current construct it exists as is certainly no different to any form of religion that we believe is what’s best for all, while it has always proven to Not be so as this world and our entire history of ‘venerating gods’ have demonstrated already.

How long will we continue to value metals, paper, wood, oils, stones shaped into the form of gods/money more than life itself? how long will we continue to be controlled by these symbols and totems that can only signify a point of separation and abuse toward each other?

Investigate the Equal Money System where all false gods will cease to exist and Life will be recognized as who we are in Equality: giving and receiving what we require to live and never again reduce ourselves to being servants of abuse.

 

 

“Everything Works-together like a Conspiracy of Synchronicities. Constantly Sending the Message: “Obey – you are Imperfect”, “You’re Born in Sin”, “You’re Not Good Enough”, “the World can’t Change”, “Accept what is Here” – and then, you are Given an ‘Answer’, an Illusion as Consciousness as Religion, as Spirituality, through which you can Escape, Waiting for Death as the ‘Great Escape’ to go to ‘Another World’, apparently, to a ‘Better Life’, apparently, which obviously, if you Study the Law of Physics: Is Impossible. There Is Only That which you Are and Allow – Even Beyond this, because: ‘Magically’, your State of Energy don’t Change, ‘Magically’ your State of Being don’t Change, it is What it is Now and what you Accept Now; and if you Do Not Understand the Most Basic Principles of What makes it Possible for you to be Consciousness, to have a Thought, to have a Feeling, to have Emotion: If you don’t Understand That even – How could you Ever be Free?” – Bernard Poolman*

 

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216. Information as Warfare–But do we even Understand Who and What We Are?

Self Realization without understanding how we came to be what we see and witness on a daily basis as ourselves and our reality is virtually impossible. This is what I have assessed more so than ever this year that all the information, the actual detail of who we are, how we function and exist at an individual and existential level, our origins, the ‘why’ of virtually anything that I had asked myself and pondered about throughout my lifespan, has been explained to the T in all the information presented/ provided by Desteni through Eqafe and the blogs Heaven’s Journey to Life and Creation’s Journey to Life  read from day 1. I point out these two as they are the key to understand the human mind within the consideration of the existential perspective that we had never gotten to know/ understand before in our entire human history.

 

This is how, I can see, realize and understand that whatever I took as knowledge in order to form a personality was mostly out of accepting ‘Fear’ as a way to exist in this world. I realize that even my personalities of being ‘opinionated’ and ‘revolutionary’ were stemming simply because of an actual ignorance, sense of powerlessness and neglect to my own participation within this reality – and as such, I took words, knowledge and information as ‘truths’ that I could use only to create another way to be ‘safe’ within my confinement of the actual support I was and still have through money, without understanding what the actual ways of change imply, what the actual Revolution as an overall change in this world, humanity and existence as a whole imply.

It is thus quite a revelation to me how looking back at this desire to change and be a ‘revolutionary person’ was still only a preprogrammed part of myself as a personality design that would upgrade through further desires to change the system, having No Clue of the causes and inner workings of such systems, because I had No Clue of myself as a body, as a mind as an individual being in this world. This Must place into perspective how easily we affiliate, adopt ideas, perspectives, beliefs of something that ‘sounds nice’ according to what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be programmed/ indoctrinated with from the knowledge, information, images that are stemming from the same/our very own environment that is constructed/ built/ upgraded and managed within the same blueprints of the same system that we sought to overcome, – see the paradox and absurdity within this – that we somehow wanted to change or ‘make more just’ without having an actual understanding of  even our own mind, which must be already a Great Warning and Alert to anyone currently promoting any form of activism, opposition as we’re seeing in this world at the moment with all he protests, occupy wall street, wars, mind possessions that will go haywire if we don’t stop to take the moment to understand what the Hell is going on in this world as the result of our very own nature as humanity and existence – and also to see and realize that there is certainly a solution, yes, because we created and are the problem in the first place. However, as Bernard Poolman was saying today:

“do not support things just because you like it—test it for real and equate it to a lifetime – will it work for all as best for a lifetime—to do it just for a week –no good –live it for real – there is no easy solutions to the world problems”

There is No Easy Solutions to the World Problems indeed, as we are the end-point of the consequence that we’ve accepted and allowed to manifest and compound throughout time, and this is only taking into consideration the beginning of Human Civilization – later on I’ll explain a bit of what we must regard and consider when looking at our current world Problems.

 

The Revolutionary Character:

 

Self Forgiveness, Commitment and Realizations upon accepting and allowing information, developing an entire ‘opposition character’ / Revolutionary Character through it without having an actual Understanding of why I was doing so and how I was only following a desire to Understand/ Know about reality outside of myself, never having had the ability to understand reality as myself, until now.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold an opinion/ belief and idea of reality based on what I read, what I watch, what I hear and hold it as ‘truth’ that I then hold as part of ‘how I see the world,’ without ever having questioned what was the actuality of the evens, who was getting the most benefits from such anti-communist propaganda, why was it being feared and stopped at all cost?  Which is now very clear how it was not even about communism in itself but it was a propaganda against anything that could consider a more just and egalitarian society, without having understood the level of mind control that exist not only within governmental and socio-economic models, but at the level of the individual as the mind that has been the actual dictator for us to create world-systems and new ways to continue seeking after only self-interest and Never regard each one of us as one and equal. I realize that the reality of what we have become as the mind is the actual creator of all of the current world events that we are witnessing, since it takes a massive process of identification with one particular group of people/ political affiliation/ nation/ culture in order to create an opposition toward another for not communing with the same ‘views’ which are always based on personal/group preferences, destined to create problems if such interests oppose the persona/ group interests of others and as such, we have conflict and further warfare that stems from the individual in itself and then onto reality as a hole

 

I commit myself to expose how it is vital for all of us human beings to understand the inner workings of ourselves, as our own physical body in relation to the mind, to understand the actual extent of the problem that has always been here as our very nature and that it won’t just go away nor with communism, nor with capitalism and it is only with the Equal Money System that we can get to a position of learning how to support each other as equals, to provide a certainty to be able to survive physically – BUT it won’t end there. The actual change of humanity and the world system inevitably and invariably begins at an individual level. This is of utmost importance to understand the forces that we are dealing with Within our very own mind as individuals, which is and has been the actual creator of this world system in order to continue satisfying a mind-system that feeds off of the actual physical substance in order to survive – and that this very mechanism is the actual source and key to understand all conflicts between Equals, all deliberate neglect to one another, all deliberate separation in order for consciousness as our mind as a system to Win at all times, because it can only thrive in separation, in conflict, in constant and continuous friction that begins within ourselves as our own mind as thoughts, feelings and emotions that We are responsible for, as the nature of Consciousness is not ‘alien’ to us, it is who we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become. It is our Mirror in fact that we have to Understand first in order to correct the problem from its root

 

Within this, I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to generate more inner conflict within myself when seeing wars and learning about what was happening in the world within ‘conflictive zones’ in ex USSR and Middle East generally, wherein as a child or a young person, I had no further explanation, I had no ‘political specialists’ to explain to me and within this, because of not having an explanation, generate a desire To KNOW how the world works based only on information that I would get from the TV or the occasional talks with my uncle and aunt that were more informed or at school – yet even that, was always within the confinement of what we as human beings understood/ were able to explain as ‘world events’ and mechanism of the world, without having a clue of the Actual Reality that was going behind the scenes of what we can say is only the tip of the iceberg as the consequential outflows of an existential situation that we are facing currently as our reality.

 

This is how within Desteni, the first step is Understanding who we are as the mind as it is absolutely impossible to get to see what we have Created, Manifested and Externalized as our world-system, without understanding the inner workings of the mind, of our very cells and atoms and their own relationships formed between energy and substance and Understanding the very relationship that exist between Substance and Energy in itself, as it is really, almost impossible to make sense of this world and our current consequences that we are All living and experiencing, without understanding Reality as a Whole

Within this, I commit myself to Expose how the material at Eqafe must not be understood as something that we promote for any form of ‘personal benefit’ – it is the actual Education Required in this world that must be promoted by all means as part of our understanding of the Responsibility we hold toward ourselves and each other; it is the Actuality of what is going on in this world and the material in itself should be regarded as Basic Human Information that All beings will have to eventually be educated with, as it represents the Key to Understand ourselves, reality as a whole and be able to Within this understanding, create and establish solutions that Do Consider the limitations, the problems we face and test it out as a sustainable option for a solution that Always leads to a Best for All Outcome.

 

I have explained throughout my process how I considered myself to be a ‘sensitive person’ and be ‘easily affected’ by what I would see on TV and my reality (I suggest you watch:  2012: Overwhelmed with Tears by Media – YouTube for further support by Sunette Spies )  and so, it was only when obviously getting to Desteni that the world began making sense, but I can say with full absolute certainty that it was only this year that I got to understand Reality and make sense of myself, this world, this process, the entire ‘Whys’ that I had never gotten answers to within this reality. This meaning that I sought within knowledge and information in history, in philosophy, religions, occultism, Gnosticism, alchemy, astrology, Buddhism, you name it and Nothing was giving me answers to my world – the news on the paper didn’t give answers either obviously, as all of that was only the Outflow of our reality that is generated from our individual ways in which we function an exist. So, it was only through reading Heaven’s Journey to Life that it all clicked, it all made sense and I was relieved within Understanding. This is how and why we share this information, we share our process because it is Not necessary to suffer for not knowing about ourselves, life, reality, existence, ‘the end of the world’ or anything else that might only occupy our minds without resolution. Desteni, Eqafe are the key to understanding reality and Stop being a victim of knowledge and information that as I’ve explained throughout these blogs, lead me to become an ‘opinionated person’ but from the starting point of only regurgitating ideas and beliefs that I had in no way tested out/ verified or further investigated myself, which is How I can see we exist as humanity: we create these blindfolds upon knowledge and information that has been designed to Fear anything that is actually veering toward a common sensical perspective upon reality.

 

It is quite fascinating how everything that tormented me, that worried me and that I had accepted and allowed myself to see as an unfathomable mystery that I was probably never going to understand until ‘I die’ have become now part of my reality as what I understand of myself and this world, and the clarity and stability that we are able to give to ourselves through Self Forgiveness and Self Honesty in relation to what we are witnessing within this world, is a life changing situation. We certainly do not have to die to understand and see ‘the bigger picture’ of what is going on in reality – the understanding, the tools to support ourselves are here and within this, all existential woes  are able to be Self-Forgiven and Self-Corrected through our practical understanding of what it is that we have to focus on day to day, breath by breath, as I see and realize that all the time spent in uncertainty was simply based on my desire to KNOW but never see my actual Participation within it.

 

It is vital to understand who we are and what we have become as the Mind/ Consciousness as a System upon the physical body and our beingness within this all in order to make sense of our reality. Otherwise, I see that it is quite a point that can drive oneself crazy if we do not grasp the forces that we are dealing with as our own ‘enemy’ which is ourselves at all times. Because Everything that is here is ourselves. And as such, there are no ‘counteracts’ but simply  a process of separation from oneself that we accepted and allowed from the very beginning of our existence.

 

Now, this is how when looking at the world system, it is not only to look at the pictures and outflows within the context Only of human history – it is to understand the process from an existential perspective – and this is what we as human beings had Never considered until now, and this is how I cannot emphasize more the importance and relevance of the material that’s being presented in Eqafe as part of the Desteni Corpus of Investigation upon Reality at an Interdimensional Level for over 6 years now – which is the key to Realize that there is a lot more to this reality than what the Eye of the Mind meets – and this is and will be an Educational Process that we will All have to go through as part of our very basic Self-Understanding upon creation.

 

I realize that the real revolution won’t happen in any mainstream media type of reality, because what Desteni and Equal Money System represent is far more extreme than any concept of what Capitalism or Communism or Socialism implies, as non of the above considered the necessity of understanding the Human Mind as the basic platform to establish a world system that is able and capable of catering a platform of self support to Correct the nature of mankind to stop Acting only as an individual-self-interested system that only seeks after its own benefit and instead, Learn how to Use the Mind as a Tool to Support each other as One. This means that any system reform that is being envisioned/ proposed in our reality Must contain/ have an absolute holistic understanding of reality of us human beings, of our process of relationship formation within this system that we call ‘World-System,’ our relationship with all the other species of beings that are equally here, of the factors that are dependent on our very participation in our own mind in order to create a Solution that Contains the necessary platforms of Support to correct, align and design a New Human Being that must be created, that must be Engineered within the basic understanding of reality as a physical system instead of being indoctrinated with further values, words, pictures, ideas, concepts, emotional and feeling imprints that we are still currently educating children with, essentially maiming their ability to stand as physical beings due to immediately imposing our ‘old ways’ of how we have existed until now: mind drones that serve only self interest without even knowing or understanding where or how does that Self-Interest and that desire to get the most/ be greater that everyone else is actually stemming from and implying within ourselves as mind systems within a physical body.

 

How can we follow through to support or oppose a world system, a particular regime, a particular religion or political affiliation, cultural tradition, educational perspective if everything of this world has been based upon knowledge and information destined to perpetuate exactly the same system as is – essentially becoming our own Self-Brainwashing to only perpetuate the division of humanity by knowledge and information?

 

And when one understands the absurdity of our inner friction and conflict, it is hard not to laugh at what we have done to ourselves, but at the same time want to cry for what we’ve done in the name of our own inner-friction and conflict translated into what we are witnessing today as potential wars and further world-system fallout projections. The truth of what we’ve done and become is already here as our world and reality, and understanding the ‘why’ of it all is the basic point that is a Human Responsibility actually as it is only through understanding that any attempt to blame and point fingers at a god or creator or system or government or whatever is simply impossible to do if one is Self Honest enough.

 

I see realize and understand that the current outflow and consequence will take time to correct and align as it’s taking us quite a long time to get ourselves to the current stage we’re in. Thus, I allow myself to contribute to this process of Education as part of who I am as I realize that the change won’t come from an outside force that will solve it all, but each one of us that educate ourselves and are able to be the example of what understanding and Acting upon understanding implies, always veering and directing it toward a best for all outcome in Equality as Life.

 

– This will continue

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Relevant Links to Educate yourself and Stop being only part of the ones that ‘Revolt’ against the world without having a single clue of even how your mind operates.

 

To take the first steps in understanding this Process of Writing, Self Forgiveness, Self Corrective Application within the understanding of who we are as the Mind:

 

To Understand the beginning of Existence – nothing more and nothing less:

 

To Understand the preparation of what came to be Humanity explained by the creators and the main contributors to what has become our reality:

 

To Understand the Existential Enslavement perpetrated by the Creators of the Human Being and its direct consequence to how our world system operates and who we are within it in our current reality with direct influence on who we are and have become as the mind:

 

Understanding of the World System and the Individual Participation of Who we are as the mind and physical body within it as well as practical solutions to be implemented within our reality:

 

To Understand the Mind and Learning from other beings’ patterns in order to take responsibility for what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become:

 

Understanding the Force that Creates Life – from enslavement within an energetic system to a physical equal and one self-expression to birth ourselves as Life in the Physical:

 

 

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61: The Stoned Philosopher

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever believe that Alchemy was ‘the real deal’ within reality to obtain the ultimate knowledge wherein I could finally obtain ‘the truth’ and be enlightened through knowledge and information.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to justify the lives of suffering and ‘misfortune’ as ‘lessons to be learned’ wherein we had to first reach our lowest bottom to then rebirth from the ashes like a phoenix, and in this allowing me to use all knowledge and information as myths and gnostic meanings in order to make sense of life, without ever pondering that life has always been here as myself, as my physical body that I used and abused in order to obtain some ‘higher knowledge’ that could lead me to ‘the ultimate power’ as eternal life, which I now see, realize and understand cannot in any way exist as a piece of information at all.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to indulge in the ‘spiritual entheogen exploration’ wherein I believed that seeing the patterns on everything and dancing on the walls was really being seeing life moving and dancing for me, which I had kept as a memory that I didn’t want to ‘let go of’ because of how wonderful if was.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was special because I could see all of these patterns, figures and energetic experiences that I have defined as ‘blissful,’ while having no idea whatsoever to what it actually implies to Live, which has nothing to do with any symbol, any pattern, any thought, any feeling or emotion – but self, here, stable as the I that stands aligned as a physical being that is no longer crucified by knowledge and information as the mind’s experience seeking ‘life’ in knowledge and information generating experiences that are finite and induced just like any other drug-related enlightenment.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever believe that the truth of reality could only be accessed through knowledge, information or chemically induced experiences wherein everything that I saw was only myself, my own mind and in no way was I actually ‘being here’ as the actual realization of who I am as one and equal as life, but it was only a temporary mind-experience that lead me to seek further into knowledge and information, missing out the basic point which is: not having to ‘seek’ something outside of myself to live, but rather stopping the constant thinking, believing, perceiving, mind chatter and be here, breathing, being still yet self directive which is what I always overlooked when it came to seeking ‘enlightenment,’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to seek enlightenment as a way to evade taking Responsibility for myself, my world, my reality because I thought that through my own purification,  I would have an ‘easy-access’ to life, eternity and all the blissful experiences I sought – never taking into consideration the totality that is self-here as one and equal, but only minding my own business, only being concerned about ‘my’ experience only, which is the ultimate form of selfishness and self-interest that all-seeking spiritual people are currently perpetuating and feeding as themselves.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become obsessed with alchemy, its symbols, its illustrations and the depiction of the ‘majesty’ of life after walking a process of self-purification from the nigredo, to the albedo to the rubedo which is what I sought to be and become ‘no matter what,’ wherein I neglected at all times the actuality of the world that is here, wherein billions are having no means to eat – yet there I was, wanting to ‘ascend’ and be a super-consciousness being that could ‘the pattern of life’ which was only the patterns of consciousness itself as my own mind, reminding me that I have enslaved life to a pair of figures and symbols in an attempt to live.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become infatuated with knowledge, believing that ‘I was on to something’ and I was ‘this close’ to ‘get it’ wherein the chemical marriage implied that I had to fulfill a ‘journey’ in my life that was related to higher knowledge, higher understanding that made ‘me’ special and ‘unique’ because I felt as if it was ‘calling me,’ when in fact, it was all self induced and learned from examples in popular culture, just like from Jodorowsky and other ‘masters’ that I would read in order to make ‘my own religion’ based on personal self-interest to ‘be one with God’

 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to seek God in patterns that I could see with my physical eyes, seeking god in the ‘abject,’ seeking god in Hebrew words, symbols, alchemical terms and trying to find a meaning to life, without ever realizing that life has no meaning but is and exists in itself –

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to deposit my attention to ‘wonderful words’ that would mean something ‘too cryptic’ for me to understand, which made me want to understand and study more to be this ‘erudite’ in the matter, which would apparently make me ‘more’ than myself which is how intellectualism operates: the more you store as knowledge and information, the more ‘valuable’ you are in a system where life has been sold in the name of money, which provides enough ‘power’ that creates self-importance.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that my life was being ‘tested’ by life itself to see whether I could find and get all the clues to ‘get to god/ life/ eternal life’ which is how I became rather obsessed with numbers, religions, alchemy, gnosticism, tarot and anything that could ‘guide me’ to understand who I was and what I was doing here, following a self-importance journey to ‘enlightenment’ that only existed in my own head, feeling like John Nash having an entire conspiracy in the head, watching Pi and the Holy Mountain wherein I thought I could find ‘the meaning’ to it all.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that the symmetry and composition in a work of art was pointing out that I was trying to ‘give myself messages through images/ drawings’ which is nothing but the ultimate mindfuck that I participated in and created for myself, wherein I believed that I was drawing out my past lives and pointing out to me ‘the road to follow’ in this lifetime, which is nothing else but the product of knowledge and information that I used in order to make myself special, ‘unique’ and somehow more ‘powerful’ than the rest of the mortals because of having this ‘unique’ fascination with ‘all things divine’ which was only me in my mind seeking some grand entertainment to evade my responsibility in the world, evade actually planning a physical tangible practical living plan that I could use in order to LIVE in this physical reality, but instead being planning ‘who I would be’ once that ‘I’ve reached the ultimate step of enlightenment’ on Earth.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that smoking weed in any way was ‘opening consciousness’ and allowing me to ‘see more of reality’ which is one of the justifications I used to not give it up at the time.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that all bits of experience, all people, all events had a meaning in the puzzle I was busy building as my ‘spiritual journey,’ without realizing or even wanting to accept that I had created it in my mind all the way, and I was just giving more attention to that which ‘fascinated me,’ rather than toward that which represented facing myself, facing my own responsibility and getting to know my own mind as the real creator of this extensive mindfuck.

 

I realize that I used and abused my physical body in the name of seeking ‘life’ outside of itself as knowledge and information, which proves to what extent we have never even questioned the fact that we are not even aware of every breath that we take, of every single piece of the Earth that we consume in order to continue living and the processes it goes through in ourselves, IN our own physical body – it is ludicrous, yet we are here and walking the process to stop all mind-curiosity toward ‘elevated/ higher/ drugged knowledge’ that has had In No Way any consequence to life.

 

I realize that my initial ‘Love for Knowledge’ as philosophy, as the desire to ‘know more’ was merely self interest, and that my knowledge became my own cross to bear of which I now take Self-Responsibility for, because I am realizing the simplicity of who I really am here as the physical body that breathes and is able to exist without experiences.

 

I commit myself to share my process with anyone that is currently ‘in the journey’ to enlightenment or any other form of spiritual endeavor, to share with them how I have realized the mindfuck that it all was while abusing the physical body, the physical reality and neglecting the actual problems on Earth while seeking my personal satisfaction fueled by chemicals, thoughts and experiences that only made ‘one’ special, while disregarding the rest of the world as equally HERE as ourselves.

 

I commit myself to establish myself as the physical body to ensure that I am no longer bound to the memories of that which I perceived as blissful as all the experiences induced by chemical reactions that I equated to ‘god’ and ‘enlightenment,’ which would have been rather addictive if I had not stopped right away – thanks to Desteni because that’s the only way I realized what I was in fact doing to myself.

 

I commit myself to expose the fact that no knowledge, no special gnostic information,  no alchemic process will create LIFE as Life is already HERE as each one of us, wherein all that we have done is veiled it through further knowledge and information, instead of realizing it as who we are, here as our very physical body that is not bound to the mind’s processes to exist.

 

I commit myself to expose the desire for enlightenment as self interest as that continual desire to be ‘more than’ who we already are here as physical beings.

 

I commit myself to continue walking my process of writing, applying Self Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application to ensure that all knowledge that I had used to define life is purified and equalized as Self, wherein there is no trace of greatness or ‘grandeur’ existent within and as myself, but actually walk the process to let go of this energetic fascinations that I had been so keen toward.

 

I commit myself to reveal how no enlightenment or spiritual endeavor creates an actual physical change in the world that is visible to ALL or creating any form of best for all outcome, but is merely self interest linked to money as that state of ‘happiness’ and ‘bliss’ that can only be obtained as an experience whenever your stomach has enough food, your body is properly hydrated and your environment is safe and secure from ‘the evil’ in this world that is created ever moment that positivity is sought and pursued in this world.

 

We Must Stop.

 

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2012 Meet your maker

In the back of my head – backchat – there is this thought ‘why am I once again having to talk about ‘God!’ as a resistance to go again into this topic. However, throughout the past years walking the Desteni material I came to realize how I could not side-view this concept – aside from the various beliefs I held about it in the past – thus I see it as a relevant point because it has become our chronic state of dementia, forgetting that initial moment of separation that lead ourselves to who and what we are currently living in.

This is going  beyond any usual idea/ belief or concept of a Christian or Muslim or Jewish idea of ‘god’; this is about the single acceptance and allowance of ‘god’ as a primordial separation from being one and equal – this is that basic make-believe IDEA of anything/ anyone being able to be ‘more’ than who we are.

Back in 2008 when the Reptilian interviews came out on YouTube, I was immediately ‘hooked on’ to them. I understood that any reaction that I could get toward their presentation was only a reaction to the  inherent ‘nature’ that resides within us all – I understood what the infamous ‘image and likeness’ meant as the ‘human nature’ that sought to be god at all times – we are still living that, certainly, look at this system, it is a dog eat dog world wherein controlling, manipulating and having ‘power’ over others is still an alluring idea that many have defined as a point of ‘fear’ – who would we be if we had all the money in the world? What would this world be if everyone allowed themselves to step upon anything and anyone in order to ‘get to the top’? However, the point here is looking at how such ‘power’ and ‘top’ has been in fact an induced belief, a fantasy created upon what is here which we can see now manifested as the cruel reality wherein because of some striving and fighting to be ‘on top,’ some have to be invariably existing ‘below’ and in the worst conditions that we might not even be able to outline here. And this is our creation.

 

It is within this point that we place ourselves in the shoes of the contemporary gods which can be ‘rich people’ that are able to ‘do as they will’  because of such godly-power that money represents. But, let’s rewind a bit: how on Earth have we gotten from Anu the mythological god that is often seen as ‘malevolent’ and the punching-bag for how fucked up this reality turned out to be, into this current reality?

 

In the interview that was released 2 days ago [1] he declares how he had only used what was already HERE within a basic realization: he is one and equal as that ‘source’ that everyone would deem themselves as coming from instead of being one and equal-to it.  Once again, the use of words is precise here – we must distinguish to what extent a refractional-shift in meaning can mean the whole world going into enslavement. Yes, this is the moment when we would all have to go quiet for a second to re-consider how much shit we can talk with no awareness whatsoever, which is what we have manifested and poured-out as this half-baked reality wherein the raw nature of this creation could not be essentially ‘someone’s creation’ only, but was astutely recognized and used by a single being in order to be ‘god,’ to be that point that has ‘the whole world in his hands.’

 

What we often miss is that: it takes two to tango.

I’ve received probably hundreds now of angry comments on the reptilian interviews, trying to blame Anu for how this reality exist now, yet having no understanding of creator and creation being in fact one and equal. It became quite obvious early on that having the reptilian gods presenting themselves to ‘their creation’ was yet another opportunity in a golden platter to realize ourselves, to understand that they had merely used what was already here as a preprogrammed system and manipulated it into a specific energetic functionality that became an ongoing enslavement. Anu reveals his true-intentions in part 2 with specific details about the energetic system that we are still living out – fascinating stuff to place into perspective everything that we had deemed as ‘who we are’ without ever having been able to realize and understand what was it that it was all actually for.

 

As I went hearing them I kept having this immediate clicks on what is it that he was actually revealing here: he had been nothing else but part of the same game, he merely played the role in this reality of ‘god’ – we have missed the fact that it is still ‘us’ as a separate point playing the character that would show us to what extent we could be blinded by the illusion of the ‘physical experience’ and all its pleasures and divinities. These divine-ties is what we accepted then as a life on Earth, a life filled with both your greatest misery and your ‘greatest excitement’ – all of these back and forth rides for the sheer purpose of using the Earth’s energy, human beings going from cathode to anode and create enough energy to produce the white-light that we then, foolishly, sought to ‘go to,’ always missing that we were in fact the ones generating it.

Duh.

 

It is ludicrous  and I even experience that I am missing a word here in order to explain this ‘forgetfulness’ – yet self-created and self-indulgent deception of the human within this accepted and allowed self-enslavement within an automated system. This is about words in separation of ourselves that became beliefs, that became make-believe systems such as the one we have now with our god-money system.

 

The revelation that Anu brings forth is that he merely played his part within this entire scheme that is self-created. And the truth is that I see this as a very long and tumultuous process to realize who and what we really are, a system that has been agreed and placed by all of us, always forgetting about it because we had to see to what extent we would abuse each other in the name of a God. Who’s been the dishonest ones all the way? We all have.

 

This sounds absolutely abhorring – however it is real, as real as having more than half of the world still suffering this primordial separation. This idea becomes suffocating for me at the moment – this is the actual moment when we see what we have done onto ourselves – everything becomes so clear and it seems like the most vile yet perfect plan for us to get caught in our own bite of the apple, stuck within the same point forever: we all wanted to be god, we all wanted to have the same power that Anu was able to simply acknowledge as one and equal as himself and use it, play along with it.

 

This was the ‘key’ point and decisive factor: while everyone else was believing to ‘come from source,’ he could realize himself as one and equal as everything that is here. However, the fact that he acknowledges that he wasn’t a self-directive consciousness implies that there is yet a lot more to understand and follow through in his interviews. There’s a ‘desire to know’ which comes from a curiosity point that arises – but it’s also from the basic god-debunking factor that re-draws the map of what this reality is, who we are, what we are, where we come from, how is it that we accepted and allowed ourselves to exist here as we are now.

The relevance of this material is not for mere ‘mystery solving’ purposes – no, absolutely not. This can be applied in virtually everything that we do in this reality till this day, as it is understanding the very ‘driving force’ that we live-by in every moment when existing as a mind-system.

Look at politics and ‘the system’ – we believe that there is this ‘system entity = god’ that is ‘more than ourselves,’ that cannot be questioned, that cannot be changed – and if I learned something today was understanding how it is the actual fear of challenging such ‘untouchable entities’ not from the perspective of ‘winning’ over them or boycotting them – as it is usual to approach such ‘entities’ for example within activism – but to actually debunk the embroidery they represent as a single self-created over-wrought presentation that we deemed as ‘superior,’ separate from ourselves instead of realizing who and what we are as one and equal as it. This is where the ‘as’ particle throughout the Desteni material represents such a key-word within the acknowledgement of everything and all being ‘it’ as well. As = we are it as well.

 

All of the grammatical categories become a single way of creating different shades of the same color – it’s always been us as one and equal  – yet in separation of ourselves we have fucked each other into oblivion, always forgetting that anything and anyone that we ‘fought against’ has been only ourselves.

It is not only saying ‘I am a part of you’ but ‘I am one and equal as you’ – man, imagine all the fucked up relationships we’ve created with ourselves beginning with our own mind, then toward our family, then toward this ‘god’ idea as that supernatural being or any other form of ‘god’ as anything that we could deem as ‘powerful’ or ‘superior’ to ourselves – the most commonly known god at the moment is money, for sure, a make believe system that we have endowed with the power of giving life and death – which also were points introduced by Anu, he’ll go into it within the following interviews he’s placed out for our de-light.

The relevance within this is seeing how the so-called and self-proclaimed ‘God’ is now talking to us in a rather modest manner once that he is willing to share how he’s just ‘played his part’ and has not been in fact a ‘creator’ but only a great manipulator of what was already here.

Hence, it is not that the nature of ourselves as humanity comes specifically ‘from him’ – common sense is: it’s always been part of ‘who we are,’ probably from that very first moment of separation. He just had to become that role of ‘superiority’ and extrapolate it to an extent wherein ‘his manipulation’ upon this this creation went out of control, wherein he even got himself out of the game because of not realizing what he was actually ‘dealing-with’ which is life, substance, what is HERE and has always been here.

 

As long as there is polarity, there is ego – as long as there is a lived-perception of ‘high and low’ ‘good and bad’ ‘up and down’ ‘rich and poor’ ‘winner and loser,’ the idea of god is still existent. It is just like people wanting to ‘crack capitalism’ which is no different to wanting to ‘cease the existent as god’ yet becoming oblivious to ‘how to do it.’ Common sense is: stop participating in going from the cathode to the anode generating the same polarity-experiences. But the point is not to ‘eradicate god’ only as a concept/ idea/ belief – it is about actually understanding how the fuck we created IT in the first place! What is it that god represents? Is it the extrapolated epitome of our communal desires to be ‘above all’? Is such god actually the image and likeness and mirror of ‘our inherent nature’ that we then turned our backs on, pretending that ‘someone else did it to ourselves?’

If we understand this, how ‘evil’ can we be to claim amnesia and label only ‘him’ as evil for daring to play out such a character in our reality – it takes two to tango and in that we are all equally responsible for abdicating self-responsibility, for going the easy way out to fulfill our individual yearnings in separation of ourselves.

Is this all going to be about the promise of an outrageous physical experience on Earth? Have we all fallen for the same points over and over and over again without being able to remember why we created such recycling system in the first place?

Were we always desiring to ‘experience’ something, hence the primordial point of separation, labeling him or any other ‘godly character’ as ‘evil’ for daring to epitomize our inherent secret desire to be ‘god,’ to be ‘above it all’?

These questions place into perspective what we have always missed which is ourselves – it is only now pertinent that we face the consequences of having allowed such separation – there is no other way to do it as we all know how easy it is to pretend that ‘everything is fine’ and do nothing about it. Using love and lies as a self-talk that is ‘positive’ is like trying really hard to avoid seeing/ realizing who and what we really are.

I also realize that I am sharing what I have realized at the moment – but this can only be realized by-you if you give yourself the opportunity to actually walk the process which is walking ourselves as this process of self-realization, understanding our own mind and how this reality function so that we can take on the wheel again and become self-directive beings that ensure no other fuckup is perpetuated ever again in this existence – no matter ‘how’ the future looks like – we focus at the moment in this lifetime, we have this one-opportunity to realize ourselves as one and equal and actually take responsibility for this reality. There are no more ‘future moments’ for that, we direct and dedicate ourselves to be and become that which we always should have been: living as one and equal – the implication of doing that, the necessary changes and transformation is already here and explained as this entire process of Self-Honesty wherein we get to understand How it is that the mind is not who we really are and how it is that we must focus on the physical reality that is the direct consequence of having imposed a value-system as a hierarchical-godly system to enslave each other in order to be ‘more’ than another.

So, we continue walking and integrating this understanding so that we’re able to finally correct such ‘inherent nature’ for once and for all.

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[1] Anu the Reptilian God in 2012


2012 Fear of God

When you are a child and you are told that there is an ‘all seeing god’ that is watching you in every single moment of your petrified existence, what do you eventually grow toward such invisible policeman in the sky? Fear.

I have explained before how my belief in a God as an all seeing guy that could eventually communicate through other ‘delegates’ through mediums – and ventilate my little-secrets in front of my family- became a driving-fear within my every day living. I feared being watched all the time, I would go into a mix of fear, guilt and anxiety for doing something that I considered was ‘wrong’ in the eyes of ‘god.’ More than fear of ‘God’ itself as this omnipresent-omniscient, omnipotent, and even apparently omnidirectional ethereal being that ‘God’ was supposed to be, I feared the consequences of doing/ saying something that would make him mad/ angry at me. I eventually became watchful of my every step and thought in order to ‘not piss off God’

When looking at this point, I can see how ever since I became aware of this god-point and wanting to, in essence, ‘be liked by God’ in order to ‘get a reward back’ later on in my life for it,  I created a personality of being a ‘good girl’ that is accumulating golden coins through benevolent acts and benevolent thinking, just so that I would not have to face the point that I actually feared, which was ‘The wrath of God.’ Hell knows how I even got that idea of ‘God’ being a wrathful being if you didn’t stick to the line of being a ‘good fella.’ However, I stuck to the code and I kept track of my thoughts and actions from the starting point of fear.

 

Even at the peak of me realizing that such faith in God was plain brainwashing, I still held this idea of a greater force that could eventually come back and obliterate myself I one sneeze if I just kept doing everything that I wasn’t supposed to do – or that I would eventually be punished by having hundreds of future-lives living in misery. Fear became the driving force for me to ‘behave well’ and be a ‘good neighbor,’ just because of keeping my own score at the eyes of God.

 

Of course I would not talk about this with anyone – my belief in the afterlife and the white-light beings watching my every step was ‘My secret’ and no one was supposed to know, because apparently I was privileged and special – along with my family – to have such protection which, somehow, in the elitist realms of heaven not anyone could have access to. I mean, I would essentially mock Catholics that would go to church believing that god was in some flour-chip drenched in wine. Yet, I believed in all of these long-ass rants wherein the heaven and stars was given to us in order to keep the faithfully deceived ‘happy’ by being ‘special’ and having this super spiritual protection from the white brotherhood of God- lol. I remember some of those ‘sessions’ at my house with some of those mediums, having to hear a seemingly endless list of names of death people that had been lurking around my house,  that were apparently ‘given light’ in that moment to ascend. The sheer thought of having invisible death beings around me was something that scared me a LOT – however it was all part of the idea that such death souls were lost for a moment and had found some  “light” in our house, LOL

 

 

‘God’ as the reason to Stop Self-Abuse

How I have observed this pattern of fearing God and using God (or Baby Jesus for kids) at least here in Mexico and within the culture that I have seen around me, is using it as the perfect excuse to threaten beings to ‘have good morals’ and ‘act in the right ways.’ As I just explained to this wasn’t the type of ‘resource’ used by my parents in order for me to behave.  My mother would rather use the idea of monsters or any other ghastly creature for the same purposes, and I can say it worked the exact same way.

 

So, here specifically with poor people– which is a great majority in this country –  and people living in rural areas in México, traditions, family and religious values are the basis of their upbringing and education.  Faith and devotion form essential ingredients of their family-values wherein if the mother / father finds no way to show their children why they must behave or do something, they turn to god and use it as an excuse to do as they say:

“If you don’t do your homework, baby Jesus will start crying!”

“If you take drugs and alcohol, our holy mother will start crying”

“If you beat your wife, you will sure have to explain your deeds to our holy father once you are on your way to hell”

And so, people are easily conducted through using God – or any deity for that matter – as a point of fear in order to ‘tame’ human beings to behave well, to do as they are told and eventually become docile beings that are then considered ‘faithful’ because of how supple they have become in order to accept ‘the word of god.’

 

Within this idea of ‘God’ being an omnipotent being that decides whether you live or die, go to heaven or hell, but is also able to give you extra-powers to do stuff that you are apparently unable to do by yourself,  God/saints are used to, for example, stop/ quit a certain addiction.

In my family, people that have drunk for probably half of their life, one day – after a car accident or having someone dying in a car crash due to being drunk, or seeing someone dying of alcoholism – they decided to ‘swear to the virgin that they won’t drink again.’ And I have been amazed by how they do live and respect that ‘swearing,’ which goes hand-in-hand with the same fear that they were brought up with from childhood, wherein ‘God’ as the policeman in the head is the one thing that they respect and obey above all, even above their immediate ‘authorities’ like parents/ family members.

 

And this is not limited to only ‘rural areas’ wherein the catholic roman church holds the hegemony of people’s lives for the most part. In the streets of one of the busiest avenues in Mexico City, one can see painted virgins graffiti-style on the walls wherein messages are apparently given ‘in the name of the virgin’ in order for people – mostly males in this case – to stop drinking, to come home early after work and not take/ indulge into drugs; to keep their money for their family instead of squandering it in ‘gaming’ a.k.a. gambling, prostitutes and buying alcohol or drugs.  And you might think that such an image with those words would have no effect on people, but it actually does. This goes hand in hand with the level of cultural indoctrination wherein in a hypothetical situation, people can be fighting to death and yelling the hell at each other – but if a church, priest or virgin or anything related to their belief could suddenly emerge around them, they would simply stop, appease, maybe feel remorseful for a moment and probably even stop their confrontation.

How come we have delegated our common-sensical ability to stop for a moment to look and realize what we are accepting and allowing ourselves to be and become, only through the belief or idea in some magnificent being that is watching over our heads?

 

Why have we required a savior to exist?

 

The point is realizing how beings that take on points such as stopping addictions by ‘swearing to the virgin’ could essentially realize that they are walking a decision to stop any addiction by themselves, by their own will. However, it is as though they require this ‘God’ idea no matter what, they believe that something ‘extraordinary ‘ is giving them the necessary strength to overcome their addictions.

 

The reality is that each one could easily see that you don’t require the idea of a loving-caring invisible being in order to take on responsibility for stopping an addiction, for example. The only reason why the idea of god/ saint/ invisible force to be the mediator for you to keep your word, is because we haven’t yet allowed ourselves to trust ourselves through proving that we can actually do, say and live that which we say that we will.

 

 

‘God’ is not required to ‘keep going’ through life.

The moment that the belief in God was finally debunked within me, part of the downward spiral experience was because of realizing that I wasn’t living a life for myself, as an actual living expression and self-caring consideration. I was only living a life wherein I could accumulate a great score in order to satisfy ‘God’ and have a kickass afterlife experience that could, apparently, compensate for any bitter taste that I could have experienced while ‘being alive.’ This is how we go living our lives waiting to die, accommodating ourselves and directing ‘who we are’ based on a divine system of punishment & reward which eventually affects all our decisions in this world. And it is absolutely ludicrous to see how if there was no ‘god’ as a police-force within millions of beings, things could be even worse.

However, religion as this ‘untouchable law’ within people is nowadays becoming more ‘light’ and only remains with such ‘power’ in poor, small towns/ cities that are very traditional and still hold a blind-faith toward all-things ‘God.’ Once that money steps in the scene, things change. And proof of that is seeing how the narcos/drug dealers who are essentially poor people that get involved into dealing drugs for the good money it represents, they still hold their belief in a ‘god’ or ‘saints’ – yet what they now do is forging the image or name of the deity of their choice in their 24k gold-bathed guns that they use to give the ‘sure shot’ to someone. Somehow saints are now involved into taking care of criminals, doing the best they can to exterminate those that dare to challenge their heavenly drug-lord business.

 

Prescinding the Policeman in the Head

No matter what cult people are in – they have this authority-figure that they fear ‘letting down’ with their actions/ words and that’s how the bondage of religion is woven.

So, instead of having to submit ourselves as human beings to an idea of such god-policeman in the head, to keep it as a constant reminder of ‘why we should do onto another what we want for ourselves,’ we can simply understand that this it the way to direct ourselves in this world – and live it. Why is there the need to rely on a religion/ belief in order to ‘do well’? Is it that only through beliefs in invisible deities we are able to realize our actual potential and determination to do something, to stop a habit, to become self-responsible? No, and I have proven this for myself.

Once that all the fear of god is gone and there is no aspiration to get to a heaven, what remains is Earth, as grounded as it can be wherein you realize that everything you do, you walk according to what you see/ understand is best for yourself = best for all day by day.

 

The God concept as the policeman in the head, can be prescinded as it serves no purpose other than keeping people bound to a certain religion that is then equated as ‘that which gives them force to continue,’ without realizing that such force is not given by an almighty god, but has always actually been here as ourselves, we just were too coward and gullible to think that we required someone else to endow it to us.

 

Common sense overrides all fears – this is how we walk in this world then, fears are irrational and have no other purpose than limiting our living expression in the moment. We are witnessing how fear has become the actual source of mind control in our reality: we’ve done it to ourselves and it’s time to stop for once and for all.

 

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2012: 8 Ways to Practically End Suffering

Let’s say that my ‘path’ through Buddhism was rather short-lived. The closest I got to it was by creating an ‘art piece’ that was called ‘Kit for the Traveling Buddhist’ which contained a little effigy of Buddha along with a small cardboard box that resembled a shrine, a little book that sums up the basics of Buddhism, some incense and porcelain incense holders. I actually bought that in Tower Records which to me made quite a cool depiction of how Religions have become nothing else but another set of products that one can buy along with any other entertainment and collector’s items.. I wonder if someday they’ll make a mini-Jesus version with a little cross that you can bury in a little clay monticule.

Let’s look at the Buddhist teachings/principles from a Destonian perspective – hereby I take all the necessary steps to place anyone into an appropriate context in relation to what the ‘Noble Eightfold Path’ is. See how great it sounds:

The Way to the End of Suffering is the Noble Eightfold Path, the way to deliverance from suffering taught by the Buddha. The higher reaches of the path may seem remote from us in our present position, the demands of practice may appear difficult to fulfill. But even if the heights of realization are now distant, all that we need to reach them lies just beneath our feet. The eight factors of the path are always accessible to us; they are mental components which can be established in the mind simply through determination and effort. We have to begin by straightening out our views and clarifying our intentions. Then we have to purify our conduct — our speech, action, and livelihood. Taking these measures as our foundation, we have to apply ourselves with energy and mindfulness to the cultivation of concentration and insight. The rest is a matter of gradual practice and gradual progress, without expecting quick results. For some, progress may be rapid, while for others it may be slow, but the rate at which progress occurs should not cause elation or discouragement. Liberation is the inevitable fruit of the path and is bound to blossom forth when there is steady and persistent practice. The only requirements for reaching the final goal are two: to start and to continue. If these requirements are met there is no doubt the goal will be attained. This is the Dhamma, the undeviating law.

There is no doubt that the MONEY factor is completely overlooked from the get-go. Sure thing, directing ourselves one and equal as our mind is one of the first points to consider if we want to create a point of change in this world – however, if one really takes a closer look at this, you’ll see that there is almost this ‘invisible force’ that will apparently make it all ‘work’ just by walking in an almost a blind-mode toward this elusive goal. These ‘invisible forces’ are equal in nature to the current ‘market forces’ that are the holy ghost of economics, human’s most well-sustained projection of there being something apparently undeniable and uncontrollable, like some type of force that has a life of its own, which is obviously b.s. No ‘greater intention’ will be able to create an actual change in the world unless there is a physical and sustainable platform that is able to actually allow the manifestation of ‘heaven on Earth’ if we dare to speak in such ideal-terms. All I see that we require is to give each other equal opportunity to coexist as equals, having equal access to what is HERE by default, by mere fact of being a living, breathing being that is part of this world.

Now, let’s place these 8 ‘noble ways’ into perspective.

1.      Right View

See things as they truly are without delusions or distortions
for all things change. Develop wisdom by knowing how things
work, knowing oneself and others.

At Desteni we share how walking in this physical reality requires being Self Honest about our own experience, and our everyday living activities while daring to live without having to create emotions and feelings as a way to ‘feel alive.’ We live here as breath, walking the physical reality that is HERE.

We walk a process of first getting to know ourselves in order to then be able to stand in a position of correcting and directing ourselves as equals coming from that vantage point of understanding how we function at a mind level, and how it is that ‘who we are’ within our mind creates the reality that we live in. Through this process we’re able to get to know others as well, because we understand that we have in fact been preprogrammed Mind Consciousness Systems that have exactly the same mechanisms of defense, of ‘living’ as a rather looping-life system with cycles that  keep us trapped within a single life-design with no ability to ‘breakthrough’ – apparently.

Heaven is no more and we are now ensuring the old system ends with ourselves. We are walking the actual process of stopping our own constant delusions that exist every moment that we think, feel, believe, imagine or talk back to ourselves perpetuating our faith to our self-religions of ‘who we are’ as personalities, entities of knowledge and information that get activated through the use of memory and associations according to an entire lifetime of experiences. This is how ‘Wisdom’ has been useless in fact, because it has only served to separate ourselves from the commonsensical realization that who we are doesn’t require ‘knowledge’ to exist. Thus it only compounds as a nice thick layer of words that have no practical purpose in supporting who we are as life. Knowledge without application is useless – hence we cultivate Self Honesty to walk through the world, get to know how it works so that we are in fact able to realize our potential in order to change it once we stop existing as a bundle of limitations and fears. Within seeing what’s actually Here in fact without the unnecessary ‘rationalization’ that goes on in our minds, we are able to simplify our living reality because there is no need to make ‘wisdom’ about it, but just doing/ living what’s best for all.

The Right View is then linked to developing common sense to see where and how what’s best for all is able to be practically lived and applied in every moment that we are here -seeing with our physical eyes what is here without creating further judgment about it, thus stopping ourselves from re-creating the past from a single point of perception.

“Process is to find self honestly how things really work, to self forgive yourself for allowing it to work this way and then to expose the dishonesty and abuse about the system to help others see as well to strengthen the group that must be one and equal to bring change. The change will be common sense once one develop a self honest sense.”
Bernard Poolman

2.     Right Intention

Wholehearted resolution and dedication to overcoming the
dislocation of self-centered craving through the development
of loving kindness, empathy and compassion.

What we have discovered is how many of us wanted to ‘change the world’ and ‘change ourselves’ from the starting point of bettering ourselves, being ‘more’ than what we perceived ourselves to be, sometimes even trying to gain some self-worth through ‘altruistic works.’ We wanted to create a sense of completion through ‘saving others’ and pretending to care without ever first asking ourselves Why and How we have accepted and allowed ourselves to perpetuate a system where there is not enough for everyone? How come we were trying to save others and ‘care for another’ without first even daring to care for our own lives? We never realized that we had to first make of ourselves the point of our existence.

All of these efforts were done in separation, disregarding the vital questions that are now the starting point of the solution we are presenting for this world: we cannot go around perpetuating charity and ‘good intentions’ while inflating our egos with any form of experience stemming from the gratitude that one would get by doing something that should be a living right, that should be readily given by virtue of being alive. Altruism is definitely another ego trip wherein one can get a fluffy feeling out of supporting someone that has been born in miserable conditions by default. This is unacceptable.

I’ve had short-lived experiences within this and being part of ‘missions’ wherein you go and live in the house of poor people and ‘live as they do’ for some 4 days to apparently get a reality check, while having the certainty that, no matter what, you will have a bus coming to pick you up and go back to your house where all food, comfort and $ecurity is in place. These types of actions might give you a little taste of what being poor is like, however it will never be like actually living within the fact that you have no possibility of stepping out of that system because there are no choices for you. However, it did give me a great lesson: I cannot cross my arms and do nothing about it. That’s how I sought for ‘answers’ in all places, including spirituality – to no avail, of course. It is now that I am able to stand for a feasible solution that will enable an actual platform of support for all beings in this world.

Hence the decision to live a process of Self Realization as Life is able to be lived/walked within the starting point of Ourselves. This means first getting to actually accept ourselves, while learning how to practically stop the constant/ consistent self-repetition of patterns and cycles that are not supportive for anyone in this world.  The Intention is at all times that of supporting ourselves to understand what it means to live as equals, which, for the most part, is not trying to become something ‘wonderful’ or ‘marvelous’ according to any sort of belief that could point out that we are actually that. The intention must be based on what is best for all at all times. As the saying goes: The road to hell is paved with good intentions – which is how any ‘intention’ is merely the starting point that must be fully and thoroughly walked to its completion – otherwise, the middle road is simply something unacceptable.

We’ve learned how to first look at ourselves, and within stopping our inner turmoil, fears, beliefs, and judgments, we are then able to start looking outside ourselves to see the magnitude and extent of work that must be done in order to create a world that’s acceptable to live in for all living beings.  We understand that ‘love’ is not real and that any form of kindness is often linked to a point of self interest wherein we only care enough because there is some benefit for us.

We focus on ourselves and learn to accept and give to ourselves that which we have perceived ourselves to lack; we learn that we can only exist as limitations of being ‘too flawed to change’ and ‘way too fucked up to correct ourselves’ if we remain in that intention of change without taking it full-on and living it/ applying it as the necessary process of Self-Correction to live as who we really are. This is a living decision that is not only built out of nice words and great intentions, but lived fully and completely wherein actual change is lived as self, which will then inevitably so within standing together as a group, and become the platform to create a world system that supports All Equally.

One can only desire to help because of tacitly accepting and allowing a disadvantage point as the foundation of our current reality: this is unacceptable.

3.     Right Speech

Abstinence from lies and deceptions, backbiting, idle
babble and abusive speech. Cultivate honesty and
truthfulness; practice speech that is kind and benevolent.
Let your words reflect your desire to help, not harm others.

Being the living word – being Self Honest – daring to see the truth that lies behind the usual characters that we use to play the game within society, where we manipulate each other and trick ourselves into striving to be the eventual ‘winner’ of it all, uttering words of apparent benevolence, hiding the actual ‘gist’ of it all which is mostly self interest and a sheer lack of common sense.

What are lies but only a way to hide ourselves from our responsibility toward who we are and what we have created? Therefore, lies would not even have to be ‘avoided,’ but simply seen for what they are: ways in which we manipulate each other to believe something of ourselves that we are not, ways to win, ways to be apparently ‘more than.’ It’s fairly simply – lying leads to making up statements/judgments that are simply not supportive for anyone.

Backchatting/ backbiting, idle babble and talking to ourselves are forms of mental possession wherein we can only become aware of one thing: we’re not HERE considering the physical reality that doesn’t require our marvelous human input to judge/ point out and essentially denigrate a reality that we have become so used to continuously judging, and within doing so, creating self-judgment that eventually becomes ‘who we are’ at all levels. We have already spoiled this reality to a great extent due to our ‘rationalization’ of reality wherein logic is taught in schools, losing sight of what ‘common sense within the consideration of all beings equally’ actually entails.

Hatred, harm, violence, abuse, denigration can only exist if one has not first debunked such words for what they are/stand for in their very ‘nature.’ There’s no doubt that we as humanity can get to know ourselves through the words that exist here as proof of the extent of separation we have created from who we really are. Such self-loathing and self-deprecation can only be created in a mind which then turns into a living-reality for many who are currently forced to suffer the outcome of such violence within wars, forced labor, family violence, social rejection and any other form of abuse we can name with words/ concepts.

Thus, what would speaking about such fallacies and intangible concepts such as ‘love’ and ‘light’ as a ‘non-physical energetic luminosity’ indicate about us human beings? Nothing else but a deluded ‘suit of benevolence’ as a ‘nice personality’ that is only seeking and sticking to positivity because of believing that, by doing this, the ‘other side’ as negativity and all the ‘bad stuff’ in this world will eat itself, which is obviously a rather naïve way of wanting to look at this world. Just another self-manipulative form to talk ourselves into a heavenly mental-reality that is nowhere to be seen or found in this physical-reality where the exact opposite is all that I can confirm: there is no god, and we are the ones that have created all this, so we must cut the positive perorate to actually take Self Responsibility for this world.

We don’t require to speak of ‘love’ and ‘light’ or ‘positivity,’ or use words to portray ourselves as pseudo-gods, instead we act and live words that can create and depict what we are here to be and become as life, words that represent who we really are, words that we can use to heal us, words that actually mean something because we live them – not words that have been extensively used and abused as a means of selling an idea of what ‘love’ and ‘compassion’ is. We don’t know what those words are, simply because all words are currently tainted by our current monetary system which has been the foundation of what we call a ‘life.’

Because of this, we must learn how to Live the Words we Speak – by saying this, we can see that many of the words that we currently use to define ourselves and the world will not exist, because they were never meant to support Life or Self Expression. Within walking a process of being the living word, we realize that our vocabulary must be self-corrected and ‘purified’ to see if such words are able to stand as who we really are, or were simply supporting a system of separation and self-deprecation.

4.     Right Action

 

Practice self-less conduct that reflects the highest
statement of the life you want to live. Express conduct
that is peaceful, honest and pure showing compassion
for all beings.

We could carry ourselves with as much grace on the outside yet feeling like shit on the inside and still be regarded as being ‘peaceful’ and ‘honest,’ or ‘unbreakable,’ being ‘tolerant’ while raging inside ourselves, continuing to suppress our ‘true nature’ which comes in the form of thoughts that can only be hidden for so long until there is no other valve of escape left, which is how any form of limitation to only act in ‘the right way’ leads to a point of self-limitation. This is what morality does and the same applies to any of the current points we’re revisiting here. See how the word ‘right’ is used as a direction toward only looking at a single side of the coin, which is tacitly implying that we must not look/ direct ourselves on the other side – what would be the ‘wrong’ actions then?

We don’t require to name them all – we just have to ask ourselves what is causing harm and abuse in this world and we’ll get an idea of that which is not best for all/ the wrong actions, and we can get our answer within looking at the byproducts of capitalism. How could we then try to ‘cover the sun with one finger’ and stick to ‘right actions’ while the very foundation of this world is misery, abuse, jealousy, hatred, disregard of any other being as ourselves? Unless we learn how to correct ourselves and stand up from that ‘shady side’ of our reality, we’ll continue living in fear while sticking ourselves to the ‘right side.’ Self Honesty is not nice or beautiful, which implies that we will have to face those dark corridors within our own mind and walk through them with Self Forgiveness to actually realize that all the ‘evil’ in this world has been created by ourselves, and within ourselves.

5.     Right Livelihood

Avoidance of work that causes suffering to others or that
makes a decent, virtuous life impossible. Do not engage
in any occupation that opposes or distracts one from the
path. Love and serve our world through your work.

It is definitely not about showing a graceful smile and pretending to be ‘at ease’ while doing the ‘right thing.’ It is about actually living in Self Honesty, which will mostly bring out the true demons that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become. How could we dare to think that being devoid of any apparent desire will automatically lead us to some greater experience in life – that is absolutely ludicrous. None of these ‘selfless conducts’ will work because even if you see yourself ‘devoid’ of such mind and thoughts and had ‘positive self-talk’ to have your ‘peace of mind,’ you will still have to buy food to eat and coexist with the rest of the world that is still based/ founded upon abuse. What if there comes a situation where you are not able to get any money to buy food or have a place to live? I bet that such ‘pure expression’ becomes pure anger and frustration for not having created a solution that involved Equal Support for all living beings. Do we have to go that far?

We are already engaged within a world wherein we are inherently supporting a system of abuse. How come we never saw the obvious? How come we never questioned how Money had become the decisive factor between life and death for billions of beings on this planet? How come we have created such an artificial system and dare to accept it ‘as it is?’ Such ignorance is over – the way to live in common sense Here is giving equal access to resources and services that enable life within our current societies. Literally giving to each other what we want for ourselves – there can be nothing ‘greater’ than that.

The Right livelihood must be what is best for all, and that implies taking the necessary steps to intervene within the current political scenario in order to establish a solution that will require no further ‘benevolence’ than taking one single action: providing support for all beings to have a dignified life here. Sustaining such a system within actions that count and accumulate toward what’s best for all will be our day-to-day living.


6. Right Effort

Seek to make the balance between the exertion of following
the spiritual path and a moderate life that is not over-zealous.
Work to develop more wholesome mind states, while gently
striving to go deeper and live more fully.

There would be no need to ‘seek balance’ between two poles that should not even exist as such in the first place. We can only seek balance by continuously fighting ourselves as ‘energy,’ as thoughts/ emotions/ feelings that create this entire ‘extra-reality’ as an ‘extra-dimension’ in separation of who we really are as physical living beings, that could simply become used to doing what’s best for all, as natural as breathing. There is no need to create an ‘extra effort’ if we move at the physical pace of living and breathing – directing ourselves every  moment to simply sustain a proper living-reality for all, which obviously includes ourselves.

There is no need to ‘moderate life’ if Life is walked as a Principle wherein all is considered – all excess, all deprivation are but mind-created dysfunctions that are not in accordance with what the physical requires, to the physical reality that is constant and consistent. This will certainly imply getting to know what it is to ‘live in moderation’ as a best-for-all type of living at a physical level. Money won’t exist as a limitation, therefore ‘living fully’ can only come once an Equal Money System is established so that we can focus on discovering what Life/ Living is really like in consideration of all within the same reality-equation.

There is no need to ‘work-out’ the mind – it is about stopping the mind from creating an alternate invisible reality with programmed patterns that have no correlation to what is HERE. No need to seek such ‘spiritual path’ because the steps are already here and they are all dramatically mundane which might ‘crush the heart’ of many that still thought there could be something magnificently ‘godly’ about it all in the sense of light, angels, masters and some ‘golden’ type of divinity.


7. Right Mindfulness

Through constant vigilance in thought, speech and action
seek to rid the mind of self-centered thoughts that separate
and replace them with those that bind all beings together.
Be aware of your thoughts, emotions, body and world as they
exist in the present moment. Your thoughts create your reality.

Thoughts exist in the ‘present moment’ tied to a past and a future within/ as consciousness = a limited system that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to call ‘life.’ If our thoughts would create our reality, then by me creating ‘positive thoughts’ it would imply that I could have already stopped world hunger and human trafficking in this world, which obviously hasn’t happened at all.

It is not to become a constant ‘policeman in the head,’ a constant vigilante of ourselves, but being aware of such thoughts in order to take responsibility for them and walk an actual process of self-correction. Desteni is then the right place to learn how to ‘walk the talk’ and actually become the living words that will be supportive for all beings here.

8. Right Concentration

Through the application of meditation and mental discipline seek to extinguish the last flame of grasping consciousness and develop an emptiness that has room to embrace and love all things.

The mind as the con-center is certainly not the way to go. There is no meditation required other than seeing the world as it is and taking the necessary actions in order to enable LIFE to be equalized in this world. There is no need to create a ‘void’ to embrace – it is about mingling as one and equal with/ as everything and everyone that is equally here. That sounds great, and it is certainly easier said than done, but we cannot remain in the bubble of speaking nice words and talking about paths without having a direct confirmation of us ‘living the change’ that we want to see in this world.

When our attention and focus is here in the physical world, we will already be one point that stops the usual conflict that creates wars and segregation within our reality. This gives us then the ability to focus on doing what is necessary to create a world that’s best for all. It won’t be meditating, it won’t be preaching, it won’t be repeating mantras or praying to a non-existent god, but walking the correction and actions ourselves because that is, in essence, where we have missed ourselves.

Walk with us at Desteni and become part of the new Culture of Life that doesn’t require a doctrine to follow other than a single principle: What is Best for All – this will certainly end all suffering in this world.

A Must-Hear to understand what Practivism is:

 

2012: World Transformation – The How-To

And Buddha opening his eyes after a prolonged meditation, realized that he was still living in a world where abuse, suffering, poverty, starvation were existing. Where had he been while seeking Nirvana? Did that make any difference to this world?


How I was able to Hear Desteni?

This wasn’t planned at all, but on a day like today January 29th but in 2008 I stumbled upon my second Desteni video which I got to finally watch. I was alone at night in my apartment and ready to get back to school in the following days, while continuing a process of being longing for a change in my life in a desperate manner.

The months before Desteni – and my entire lifetime if I could say so – I searched for answers that I could not get in encyclopedias or my dictionary. I sought into the occult and mystic realms another form of ‘knowledge’ that could make any sense to all of this ‘life’ of mine of which I was losing my ground on. I was absolutely enthralled with spirituality, the idea of ‘God’ being everywhere, us being god, being one, seeking love, wanting to ‘feel love’ and within this getting quite a burnt perspective on reality which lead me to follow certain ideas/ beliefs of myself having this benevolent mission in life that I had to seek ‘guidance’ for in order to ‘fulfill’ it.

At that time I was questioning myself extensively. I would write about losing the ‘meaning’ of who I am and how I had to go back to memories to remind myself ‘who I was,’ yet at the same time not believing that all I was is this ‘so-called lifetime’ as I wrote. I had been interested in how everything develops/ works as a process in life and this curiosity is what lead me to research on various topics like religions, philosophy, mysticism which included alchemy, magic, esotericism, kabbalah, Sufism and the list goes on with various ‘isms.’ I mean, I tried to get a hold of each thing to see what ‘suited my interests.’ Now we know that religions are designed according to people’s minds and cultural lifestyles which now makes me realize how it is that I couldn’t ‘fully identify’ with any of them. I wanted to ‘make my own religion’ as a syncretism of all of which I could find ‘supportive’ from each one of these religions/philosophies/ practices/ cultures, etc.

I’ve been quite fond of writing and I had been doing it for 8 years by that time wherein I wrote “I know the writings and the essence of my thoughts are creations.” Yet all of this I would still link to the idea of ‘enlightenment’ which is essentially what I was seeking at the time. I also would feel like ‘death’ was around the corner – yep, it was the death of me as who I had believed myself all the time.

I’ll share my exact words on the first encounter with Desteni written out in the evening of January 29th, 2008:

“So I saw this girl from Desteni bringing Ian Xel Lungold who is the man that got me investigating about the Mayan Calendar. So I thank him, now I know what goes one a bit more. . I mean, it’s really tough when you truly think of it, but it is completely plausible as I’ve been in touch with such things since I was a little girl. I was brought up with the belief in spiritualism. Basically my whole life has been based in their beliefs.”

Then I describe several events that I used as a form of believing that spiritualism was real as in ‘real life events’ that supported me to believe in it. I proceeded to write hours later – I apologize for the sketchy and jumpy type of enunciation, but I was mostly on weed all the time and I would write in a rather messy way, yet I wanted to share it as ‘raw’ as it is, this is to clarify that the words might not be well suited to describe ‘Desteni’ yet it was how I grasped it at the time.

“It’s 11:05 and I come here only to make or point out the fact/ statement that a whole dimension of who I was has been completely/ almost shattered today. Something beyond here and there changed my mind. So the channel (portal) can be applied to Einstein, Tesla, Marilyn Monroe, Dimebag Darrel I mean, everyone. So there goes this manifestation… It is beyond all schemes, I couldn’t have (illegible ‘thought this’) not even in my wildest dreams. But seeing Kurt Cobain speaking through a blond woman makes you wonder how you really haven’t (illegible) on stuff, even more when we’ve certainly felt like I didn’t belong here. The idea of good and evil dissolving, I hadn’t thought about the idea of god and it makes me wonder. We are our words and I allow myself to forgive myself for ALL and for it ALL. Each pinch of doubt, fear, insecurity might come from my pre-installed system as it feels odd to be coming out of the end. […] So it’s been a long, long day filled with truly, this time TRULY unexpected information, therefore I’m grateful and I’ll try to begin acting as one, being honest with myself as the very chains of reality, this shadow world comes to a transformation from the core. I want to assist that change.

I’ll try to watch them all (videos.) Lots of good vibes. I thank everything until now for I am indeed now aware of my own nature”

And that was the entry for the day. The real ‘shift came through the writings two days after I spent all my time watching videos while having the last days of vacation from school.

The following pages contain very ‘powerful’ realizations that I would like to share here in a summed-up version of entire pages wherein I expressed how excited I was and all that I was ‘ready to give up’ for this process. I’m even a bit flabbergasted myself to see how immediate my decision was to HEAR – and this is all mostly because of seeing the common sense in having to be the ones that cut the chains of our own shackles in this world.  I’ll transcribe a bit here:

“It’s the last day of the first month. It could officially mean that it’s the end of my vacation time and all I can realize is that all my life could be thrown out the window right now because my belief systems have fell and with it, many things I became a part of. I saw each system demon come in and talk about polarities, beauty, addictions, god, trinity, everyone, everything. And this made me ‘feel better’ like I have a solution to the possible outcome of it all. I heard LaVey saying who he’s is/was a demon and he’s in the dimensions observing how humans go to heaven, their heaven once they die.

So me and that LSD experience. I won’t ever do that again as I must realize what I saw was still the product of our mind. I am really curious about Gurdjieff and his afterlife. He says he was erased from Earth because he realized true awareness of ‘I am.’

So really, it is a BIG change for I now know my thoughts, feelings, emotions are part of the system I am. This isn’t really me, we’re covered in bags of skin with huge egos while thinking about success and happiness in the system. I don’t know what I’ll become or what will actually happen after this whole breakthrough. I really feel I want to quit it ALL. I mean it. So, words are me.

Really this is the end of our world as we know it, really. What will come is our Self Realization through the destruction of our systems/demons and I feel think 2012 will be only a shifting time for all of us to save Mother Earth and become Aware, not saved as Jesus (through the Portal) said, but become aware that I don’t have to worship anyone […] Therefore I won’t be experiencing the unity as I thought. It’s good I’ve got a record since 2000 of my life, so now I will consider, re-consider it all…”

Feb 5th and my world was falling apart already within my relationship in terms of how I began sharing about Desteni with family and friends in a rather enthusiastic manner that didn’t suit their scheme of who I was/ what I was supposed to be. Here I share something of this day

“I’ll be like the temperance so I may have time to realize how we exist through relationships. It can’t make me sad anymore, it’s a fight against my own mind. That is judgment day, is here for me, it’s beginning. I do not believe in anything outside of myself anymore, no more religions, no more surrendering to a higher power. There’s no such God as we are god ourselves. All of us, we just have to realize it.

[…] The deal with it all now is becoming my words and it requires subjugation of our big egos towards unity and equality. Will that ever happen? All my beliefs on 2012 are awaiting (in relation to a final ‘end of the world as shared in previous blogs) In fact I like the idea, but what kind of seems torturing is the fact that there’s no solution, there’s no going out of it all forever.  […] It is fascinating I know I’m not alone, I’m not a stranger, I’ll rather try to burn my ego down to ashes and let the true me get out. I won’t hold on to things as I realize how everything is constantly moving. What’s real? I don’t know. And I’m glad I’m not into a relationship anymore.”

And now I remember how initial ‘doubts’ on Desteni were triggered by others in my world – though common sense was undeniable:

“What if Desteni is actually a conspiracy? Well I don’t feel so, it’s not nice to think that all the books I recently bought are nothing but fantasies either, yet they can be so. Music is a system, art, expression, feelings, so what the hell on earth can I do? I’m just waiting, TELL ME! I have no desire whatsoever and it might be really bad/ good whatever. Everyone… So I sometimes wonder… maybe I could be very useful on heaven here on Earth… I have not bought my life yet but I’ll be patient. I’m doing my effort and placing my endeavor towards – not what is called enlightenment – but the truth of our essence. There is nothing to be scared of but of ourselves. So here we go, that’s it. I will not think of anything but forgive myself and I walk for this is all I got now, somehow.

I will trust them this time for it makes complete sense to me. I want to thank Jack and everyone out there in the dimensions who are currently coming to us (through the portal) in a specific moment of our lives. We can’t deny this, we’re in this together, all of us so we might as well hurry, we are aware of this now. That’s why maybe we all felt our worlds crumbling down for some time now, we didn’t know the dimensions were actually struggling to take out all the white light system. So, we were enslaved, huh, who could tell? To me it isn’t much of a new thing because I’ve seen everyone and I know I feel their whatever they are feeling and I’ve always felt weird whenever a young kid approaches me to ask for money or anything. How odd really, we don’t have to ask more. I will continuously make my endeavor to stop the mind. To know who I really am and so, If we are all gods, we better make up to our own nature. Nothing is sacred anymore but all of it together. So that’s about it. This is the real change.

Then the ‘crisis/ breakdown’ came wherein I started digesting more and more of the material, yet it was a necessary process as we all walking this process know and have experienced at some point in our lives/ process.

“So today it wasn’t such a  great thing going back to school. I know it was going to be mad, I couldn’t really sleep that well, I kept wondering about many things and I had goose bumps, very intense ones so I hope today I find a reason for that. If there’s one, Maybe I’m going through a deep crisis indeed, I need help.

Self Honesty, using common sense. I got a message from Andrea at Desteni. I feel great I know and them, it’s great. It has helped me a lot.

My world is really falling apart, it consists of my beliefs, thoughts, that includes all the stuff I used to cling to. There are no more chakras, there will be no more reincarnation as Buddha (through the portal) wrote – so what happens then? So I’m guiding everyday towards equality and it’s hard considering life in this city which is hell. Art is even nonsense now.

Everything up to where we are now makes no sense. There’s no ‘white light’ anymore so we’re on our own. This will be a major shift, I might as well sell everything and go for a ride. But I enjoy myself here I am now. And I’m thankful for it all too. No matter what, I’ll be a ‘stop the mind freak’ if it’s necessary for me to be so. I’ll quit weed if it’s needed, I’ll do so. I believe I was like a heretic or something (in a past life belief), I believe I stood up for No God in other lives and now I returned for a while as a god conceiver, a ‘god seeking person,’ a mystic which is the ultimate enslavement by that of ‘surrendering to a higher power’ – God! I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to think of a higher power other than me. I am living my words so I make it happen. If I need to quit my friendship, I will only if required. I hear my blood streaming. So this is where we got to. It is now, the apocalypse (revelation) is here slowly but surely. The revealing. I am all, I am alive. My blood is pumping.”

The following days I continued describing all the series of realizations with regards to what and who I had become, I realized that I was fooling myself by using weed to ‘cope with the message’ and eventually stopped it, the same happened with my relationship as I saw for myself the deception it was and how it was not supporting myself to walk this process.

I found it cool to share these thoughts straight from my notebook as ‘who I was’ 4 years ago wherein I was waking up from a slumber filled with ‘positivism.’ Desteni became that final and initial point to a process of having sought for a ‘solution’ to this world and having sought for a ‘way out’ of my own ‘chains,’ I saw the common sense in having to become the solution in this world once that I realized there was no God. This proves that I had in fact deposited faith on some benevolent being eventually being able to ‘save us.’ Now I know that it is definitely not so and that we are here, walking our process of self-revelation as the realization of who and what we are as one and equal which is not nice or pretty and implies taking Self Responsibility: an actual understanding of How we have created this world and walk through the Manifested Consequences in/ as our world.

Common sense could not be denied and I walked a process of shedding off my beliefs and embraced the new way wherein Forgiving myself was the way to stop participating in delusions like god or having some form of ‘guidance’ above me to become this ‘enlightened being.’ It was very supportive to get messages from people at Desteni when I did ‘seek for help’ as I was going a bit crazy with all the material. It only lasted a couple of days but what I got really allowed me to settle down and assert myself to walk this.

I eventually walked through the entire breakdown of crying and thinking that I had ‘lost myself’ but it was only beginning to step out of my religion and realizing that I could not continue as the ‘me’ that I had lived as until then.

Now I’m here, I did finish school and I’m actually in that point again in my life where a cycle is about to end here and a new one will begin. I can’t believe it’s been 4 years already yet it is so and we continue walking here.

All I can say is to be patient with yourself if you’re beginning this process, takes time to walk through one’s mind as thoughts, feelings, emotions and the rest of our reality within writing and applying self forgiveness, we’re all still all walking it as well.  I see how the commitment to be part of this process of Equality and Oneness was almost an immediate decision, because I had sought to be part of a change that could give a ‘meaning’ to my life. I realized how I could make myself the point of my existence and within that, make of my life this instrument to transform and establish a system that supports all Life.

Desteni is the process to get to live in this world. It might have come in the ‘weird’ presentation of a portal with all of these fascinating messages that made all sense to me. Yet the process of walking it and applying it/ living it became that single ‘point’ in my world that I required to realize that I was in fact able to become that which I saw  ‘knew’ we were even if it was in the back of my head. I was able to finally get the ‘reality check’ that I required to see how deluding myself with god and spirituality had been in fact neglecting my reality. The breakdown that I described was precisely because of realizing how I had been living in a bubble of positive thinking while abuse, suffering and violence was everything that was creating and making of this world such a fucked up place, all of it beginning within our very own thoughts (!)

Witnessing that through documentaries and videos we would get on a daily basis by Bernard, allowed me to open my eyes to the reality I had neglected. This was probably one of the key points within my Desteni-process wherein I started looking outside of myself to a reality that required to be exposed and shared to see what we are accepting and allowing to exist in our world, our creation. And with that, create and stand as the necessary solution that we are now presenting and walking as the Equal Money System.

Some lines in those journal entries contained some lyrics by John Frusciante that I wrote and seemed appropriate for this point in my life:

My life goes blank
Life was never what you thought.
Life was never what you saw
The lights go out

I dared to turn off the light and face the reality of what I had become, I wrote that it was ‘painful’ but understood why I required to walk this process and committed myself to it fully.

I’m grateful as I’ll always be for being here, being able to share my story today after 4 years of walking this process, between hell and Earth and back again, facing the nitty gritty details of myself that I would sometimes get embarrassed to even expose to myself. All of it I’m able to Self Forgive and prepare myself to be the point that takes Self Responsibility, that does stand up to create the necessary system for all of us to live as equals.

If you want to read more about my process, check out the archives now available in this same blog in the year 2008.

We continue walking. Thanks for reading.

Watch the vlogs on this topic here:

2012 Walking with Desteni: Why I could Hear the Desteni Message – Part 1

2012 Walking with Desteni: Why I could Hear the Desteni Message – Part 2

First note when watching Desteni 2008

First notes while watching Desteni, January 30th 2008


Life Per-pose: is this how it’s ‘meant to be’?

Discovering God’s master plan can be rather stifling for the very first time when writing yourself to freedom seeing all that which we accepted and allowed in the name of ‘personal growth’ or ‘learning lessons in life’ within the acceptance of us having to go through this for some apparent mystical reason. Most of them are unacceptable acts of self-abusive nature that we as humans have kept us busy recreating as ‘our life’ while missing the actual factness of life as breath as the physical, here. This all began when reading this following quote and getting to the point of ‘debunking it’:

“There are no coincidences. Every event we experience and every person we meet has intentionally been put in our path to help raise our level of consciousness .” Cheryl Richardson

Then I realized that I used to think this way for a LONG time, finding all types of meanings to virtually ANYTHING in my world, making of my ‘life’ nothing else but a ‘puzzle’ wherein I’d be entertained enough all the time ‘placing it together’ or at least finding some type of ‘meaning’ to it all.

With this I mean that I sought for some type of ‘guidance’ and/or ‘divine clues’ a long time. I’ve kept written records of myself from the year 2000, beginning with petty notes of ‘going somewhere’ or having some major change in my life – which meant going to another school or having another ‘platonic love’ to write about – and within them all I was always ‘hoping for something to knock on my door to tell me the way to go’ and within this following the idea that whatever I ‘had to experience’ was related to some higher purpose.

Within seeking for ‘guidance’ I began searching for that ‘something’ that I had to ‘come across with’ to get to fulfill some kind of heaven-sent life purpose, I’ve scrapped off most of this as ‘who I am’ and I’m simply bringing it up here as it just re-emerged when taking this quote to write about it and before I place this quote on its deserved trash can, I have to take a look at how this type of statements actually enhanced my thoughts on there being a ‘meaning’, a ‘reason, a ‘purpose’ for anything/everyone I encountered myself with in this world.

Interesting that within this I never ever questioned myself why if I had to ‘follow a certain pattern’ never questioned the fact that it was a pattern and that it was already laid out before me – but anyways, I got my entertainment for several years on cherishing every single thing that could possibly mean ‘a piece in the puzzle’ that was ‘myself’ and ‘who I had to become’ which was someone that kept living ‘for the future’ and with various multiple future projections of myself in time, seldom being actually Here. I mean, when I was 10 years old I already wanted to be 20 to apparently ‘have all the fun I wanted to have as a grown up’ and this had only stopped since I’ve been walking this process, otherwise I’d probably still be picturing myself 10 years from now as a ‘realized person’ with whatever form of success I had sought to achieve before.

But the spiritual aspect of this came as I started getting to know of book writers, musicians and artists that had a similar vein and perspective on life which lead me to think ‘I’m on the right path’. Acquaintances would seem like ‘hints’ to the ‘next piece of the puzzle in my life’ which would become my ‘next thing to do’ – maybe this is why I dig that movie Memento that much because the guy ‘lives his life’ out of this apparent mission he’s got to fulfill and how we build ourselves as memories with attached value/ meaning to create ‘who we are’.

Every person that I got to know I’d know the exact days and numbers and in which ‘era’ of myself I was in, I was quite an obsessed freak on all types of seemingly rubbish data that would mean ‘the world’ to me. Every relationship that I had as the aspects that I thought I had to ‘walk through ‘ to eventually ‘get somewhere else’ became quite the ‘living-pattern’. This brings me back to stuff like tarot, the movie PI probably ignoring at that time how I had become fixated on such type of movies because I had sought to create of my life my own alchemist journey wherein at the end of it all, all the suffering, all the mistakes, all the sadness and despair that I over indulged and created for myself as my own life-story would’ve made ‘sense’ and would finally get some type of reward – such as getting to the source of it all and becoming an enlightened being of sorts forever leaving behind the physical coil that I had despised and disregarded for so long. I mean, ‘this mortal coil’ became one of those sentences that marked my view of myself as my world and thus seeking always something else separate from myself to ‘get somewhere else’ but here.

From this I created a literal ‘story in the making’ of my own life, through my own writings, through the stuff that I’d create, the pictures I’d take in a compulsive manner as to keep those moments in my memory as ‘who I am’ and as a reminder of whatever experience I had created for myself in that moment were also considered as the type of ‘divine sign’ as being in ‘this time and space in this particular moment’ which means =  ‘I must be on the right path!’. Literally, to this I can add how I’d be seeing patterns of numbers everywhere all the time, seeing eyes in the sky – without ever understanding how it is that we program ourselves to do that, well my mother explained me a bit on that but I denied the common sense presented as in such plain grounded words as ‘you’re creating it yourself’ because I wanted to preserve such mysterious side of my life as my own story-to-tell that would have this marvelous finale someday.

From every experience I would think  that ‘there was something to learn’, there must be ‘something more to it than that which I can understand at the moment’. Within this mindset I accepted and allowed myself to be in relationships wherein I’d get to experience a lot of self-acceptance through others while  suffering by their side, in a way believing that I had to pay some ‘karma’ about that or that I had somehow given up on myself at some point and now it was my turn to save people – yes this is called the saviour syndrome and we’ve walked it for quite some time through this process as well.

This became  a literal experience when I’d have male friends that were mostly ‘social outcasts’ for whatever reasons people and themselves would cage themselves in –either due to sexual preferences, schizoid and erratic addictive behaviors, bum-like creatures that spoke like poetry all the time, people that were usually  judged and that not many could ‘stand’ for a long period of time but myself. Once I had my ‘partner/friend/lover whatever living with my best gay friend lol that was quite a fascinating time wherein I literally thought that this was ‘meant to be’ for me to become the person that stands as the reason why none of them has finally pulled the trigger to blow their heads off = “I was meant to be there!” Oh god…

So, I started seeing myself as a ‘healer’ – or rather like a nurse as a someone that wanted to help people while creating this ever-glowing aura around myself. This personality was also supported by these guys around me and other people that I’d meet with whom I started behaving like in a ‘guru style’, becoming more of a light and lover easy-going ‘silent’ person which would be mostly submissive and accepting tantrums from my friends/relationships as something that ‘must had a meaning/ purpose/ reason to be in my life’, I’d mindfuck myself as far as ‘I must develop tolerance and patience to deal with these people, this is what I’ve chosen and I’m not aware of it, so I accept and comply to it” –

For this I applied the nonsensical idea that I had to pay for probably having been such a deranged lunatic in some other life and now having to be the one that ‘takes care of such beings that were ‘me’ but in this life’. I mean, what a masterpiece of a holy-wood movie I built of myself, and this we all do every time we seek to create these stories that would someday apparently ‘have any meaning’ to know who or what we are and what we’re supposed to be doing here in this world, that ‘lifepath’ and purpose in life thing would drive me crazy, always wanting to know ‘what I was supposed to be doing’ and thus placing trust in everything outside of myself to ‘guide me to it’ – never realizing self direction in any moment.

I actually accepted any type of emotional turmoil from myself and others around me as ‘lessons to be learned’ as points that I had to accept as part of my life due to me having misbehaved in the past. I accepted myself to be tied and bound to relationships just because I feared ‘losing myself’ as all the self-created value/worth that I had built around myself in relation to these particular persons and that others had accepted as ‘who I was’ which had to do with others ‘depending on me to keep going’ – kind of making of myself the necessary nurse that ‘must be by their side’ otherwise they’ll sink into depression and die. Even my family would make fun of me taking food to my friends and being there like the nurse to make sure they’d take their antidepressants and would have enough weed to not go into erratic behaviour and hissy fits with other people, to ensure that I’d stand for as long as it would take them to slow down and come back to senses. I obviously wasn’t living my life at all, I was living as someone else’s shadow going through the same cycles of asking ‘how are you’ hoping to hear ‘I’m okay’ instead of ‘same as always’.

I am exposing this because this is obvious self abuse that I accepted and allowed as myself – I was going to write ‘that I endured’ but that’d be self-victimization which became sort of like the usual ‘martyr’-personality wherein I literally thought that I had to suffer to make any real art, that I had to suffer to really know what ‘life is about’, that I had to endure pain and any form of disgrace for the sake of knowing my limits and thus ‘strengthen’ my resolution to be a ‘loving being’ in a dream-like state of life where ‘nothing would bother me’, where I would’ve found all the ‘keys and secrets to life’ after having lived a life that would seem no different to an esoteric monopoly game of hints, ups and downs that were apparently ‘part of the plan’.

Such ‘masterplan’ of my life  was never master in fact and it was a preprogrammed plan for us to be entertained within our own personal mythologies that we decided to cultivate as the seeking of meanings, codes, symbols or any other trivial fact that would become part of the beads to tie into a single chain that would have some coherence at some point in our lives, without ever seeing how we had missed life, the actual ‘beingness’ of being here, embracing ourselves as the physical when going into a dimensional shift of a ‘someday’-situation  being alright, of being finally ‘in paradise’.

I must say that after these years I’ve made quite a ‘progress’ in letting go of creating this type of ‘coincidences having any meaning’ in my life and making of myself just as another character that I would often indulge into within reading and losing myself into it which I would then try to correlate to the events I’d have in my own life. Now I’ve simplified my living to directing it here as the moment instead of bouncing back and forth into a past that seemed like the usually tagged ‘good old times’ wherein I’d feed my premature nostalgia and/or dream of a future wherein I would apparently be settled and ‘knowing what I’m here fore’ for whatever ‘divine’ reason it’ would be.

Every time that we see ourselves saying ‘it had to be this way’, ‘it happened for some reason’, ‘this things don’t happen by accident’ – Oh right, there’s another movie I can relate to this single point in how ‘orchestrated’ our entire reality was to the point of being sarcastically tragic, that’s ‘Magnolia’ and I’d confer this as one of my favorite movies because of how they depicted a series of seemingly unimportant events getting to a climatic intricate cross-wired story-telling that develops into a resolution of realizing how fragile we as human beings are when we are pray of our emotions/ feelings as well as being subject to death, tragedy and seemingly unfathomable natural events that could twist even the most ‘grounded head’ around for a second look. In the movie they emphasize how ‘things cannot be simple coincidences or random accidents, but would have some intricate unfathomable explanation that would mostly point out to a ‘god’ being the master puppeteer of them all, one sick god for the matter of this this movie and the nature of events that take place.

This is what I now realize but I’d solace myself to  think that all of this life would also make sense at the end, which is how I kept me in an idle status of hoping and ‘waiting’ for something/someone to come and ‘save me’ – lol even the main song for that movie’s soundtrack is called ‘Save me’ by Aimee Mann. This correlates to when my secret desire to ‘meet god’ grew bigger and my indulgence in conspiracy theories and end of the world stories began ‘ringing like bells to my ears’ as it would – at least – give me the sensation of ‘being somewhere near to the truth’ while neglecting the obvious truth of myself that I had accepted and allowed while existing in such constant ‘seeking for a momentum’, ‘seeking for such relationship that would be a key-point to my reality’, seeking for a meaning behind anything from a sequenced number on my microwave to a ‘glaring eye’ in the sky  that I would stumble upon, everyone I met that I thought I’d had to ‘meet’ and take something from to make myself…

Now:

Imagine millions living like this with all of this networks of information that we go storing as ‘who we are’ – no wonder we’ve created of this world as a stage to ‘gain the contest’, ‘run the quest’ for something, as a continuous seeking and ‘exploring’ everything and all that could ‘bring me a little closer to god’ in whatever form and sensation it would make itself present.

The moment I realized I had to stop this continuous self-creation as the ‘special character in the movie’ I’d perceive myself to be dead, a ‘goner’, idle and empty which was only me stopping from feeding my mind into these continuous self-created self-fuck mind-propulsion that sought a ‘new mystery’ every time to debunk and occupy myself in this as part of ‘seeking to find myself’ Lol, fascinating how much we disregarded our physical reality while existing in such a constant invisible surrounding bubbles as our minds filled with words, pictures , memories that could eventually mean something to myself or someone else for the sake of obtaining a ‘greater communication with the whole’ or whatever I would define ‘god’ to be, seeking to stitch all the moments and ‘get the final picture’ at the end of it all, like a quilt that I could then cover myself with and be at ‘peace’.

Once we look back and see how self support is always here as Breathe, we can laugh at all the intricacies and details that we’ve kept for the sake of ‘following such path’ and seeking a greater connection to it all.

I recognize this is the type of writing that allowed me to have a sense of self-recognition as all that I have accepted and allowed myself to become within my ‘personal history’ and place this process into perspective to see how I’ve gone from existing in such a limited frame of only building my own character and my own stories for the sake of my own indulgence in the existence of some ‘greater truth’ to be discovered – and now have a sense of realization with regards to how limited I had been living when only seeking my ultimate fulfillment and pleasure while disregarding the entire world and whatever was going on through such times when I became self-centered all the way.

Part of spirituality is the promotion of this individualism wherein apparently you are encouraged to ‘let go of your ego’ while promoting the creating of yourself as some type of ‘divine act of god’ that would have some grand meaning after all the shake ups and fuckups would’ve been walked and blindly accepted and allowed  without ever realizing: wait a minute, I can actually stop myself from supporting this, I can actually support myself to not participate in these constant search for something ‘greater’ than myself, I can actually be here without desiring to become something, attain something or seek for someone but instead face myself and embrace myself.

When living in this constant search for meaning and purpose we miss what’s here which is to be breathed, we miss the reality that we exist as while existing in an apparent ‘better past’ and moving into the future hoping that you’re able to ‘make it through’ this life. It is through this non-self acceptance of ourselves as ‘this mortal coil’ that we remain believing that there is some ‘intention’ behind our lives, hence that there is some marvelous being watching our back. It was never a god, it was just a fucked up program designed to keep us generating feelings and emotion to power some creator’s ideal of ‘heaven’.

Now what we’ve hit the ground, we can stop drifting off to some alternate reality see that there is no meaning, no purpose no ‘intention’ behind this to seek other than the intention and direction as the purpose of life to create a world that’s best for all, because there’s nothing else to do really and we’ve neglected this for such a long time that it’s only fair we dedicate this life to make it a reality.

There is no ‘raising of consciousness’ available in your local white-light store (not the apple one) anymore – that’s all gone. What remains is here as breathing fleshy-bloody living human beings that has only each moment to establish ourselves as life. We shut down all the superior-god ideas being possible within this reality and focus on the matters of this world of which there are many points to take care of so that we can move as human beings from our self-dug cave of enlightenment.

Wake up!

and thanks for reading up to here.

Please read Sunette’s explanation and perspective on this quote which certainly is the great point of direction required once we’ve realized the fuckups that we’ve accepted as ‘our life’ and reality:

Relationships are no “Coincidence”

Consciousness is the grid of enslavement that we believed ‘had to be raised’ – what a mindfuck.

Get to know the real story of our existence at Desteni


The souldiers

The dear souls/ the souldiers are the people that write this type of deranged conclusions to justify the world we live in. This is merely a single outflow of the entire belief system called ‘god’ as some ‘kind’ of  mastermind that apparently had perfect and transcendental reasons to create such disparaged conditions that we were – apparently – able to choose from to live as in this world 

“One can never really know the reason why an individual soul chooses the path it has decided to take before it comes into a being called human. Only the soul truly knows why it wants to create, experience, and be the thing we call poor or rich.”

 

According to this, we then must accept and surrender to a world founded upon misery created by misers that exist in such either natural-born conditions like  fucked-up-till-the-bottom-of-hell or blissful-as-the-gardens-of-eden defined by nothing else but the system that would have specific structures and placements for both poles to exist within hierarchical positions as ‘our society’ wherein we learn that some have to be below and above and the rest of the bunch in limbo while everyone was in either way defined and determined by Money/ wealth or any other means of power over another.

What could be the reason for someone to ‘choose being poor’ – I mean, isn’t that a rather masochistic way to gain pride an honor as a human being? Isn’t that accepting punishment as the way to learn a bright moral lesson? Why was god/creator such a fucker that created such choices to be even possible to begin with.

The soul/ system/ god “truly knows” statement is placing ‘someone out there’ as the all powerful being that is able to exist in such a self-righteous way that ‘they only know’ because ‘he/she/it/they’ might be supreme and know-better than the rest of the flimsy creations that may move/ do and say at will. I mean, wow, what a powerful lesson, God! Exert your righteousness over creation, let them know ‘who’s the boss’ and justify such an assholing move with imprinting shit like the quote above, justifying the means to get to an ‘end’ – if there was any point in it by the way other than blatant energy to create your blissful heaven used also as a nice bait to keep everyone running towards it, existing as energy churning machines with petty human existential conflicts that’d keep this entire system running.

 

Coming into this world and having a set of equally fucked options to incarnate not remembering that it was the same life over and over again, was part of our existence – we can’t remember, we now know about it through the Desteni material and it makes perfect sense that we all gave into such type of nice picture presentation of coming to Earth and getting the ultimate physical experience. From this, conclusions like ‘there must be a higher reason for it’ are common consolation prizes because ‘at least’ we could keep some form of respect to an all knowing god/system/soul construct that ‘knew what’s best for us’ – right… that’s obviously not so and it’s simply blatant mind control to believe that one must suffer and be a masochist to learn any lesson in this world.


Till this day, through the Equal Money material that we’ve placed out there, we still get comments from many people justifying the existence of rich and poor people through this obviously fucked belief system. Many still believe that ‘to make a living you’ve got to strive and suffer’. If we are the image and likeness, the obvious necessary question then is: was god an actual masochist? was the creator/ designer a real lunatic that created his own Hollywood show by creating a system based on polarity? the answer is and must be self evident now.

I mean come on! We really had to be that blind to not see that this entire world functions like a battery with two poles that can only power itself if there is enough friction as attraction/repulsion and any other conflict that makes energy move. That’s what we are, that’s what we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to be and exist as and justify it with words that may seem ‘above our understanding’ while justifying some of the most horrid conditions existent on this planet such as starvation and living in extreme poverty with no opportunities to actually live in this world.

Hence, any point of justifying our own fuckedupness as ‘who I am’ and giving into thoughts that it can’t apparently be stopped is us giving into the same system that has accepted and allowed poverty and wealth to exist, the abuser and abused, the master and the slave– we are it, we exist as that, we have the ability to become either/or yet we can decide it’s Non because either side leads to the creation of the other side inevitably.

Stopping our preprogrammed existence, stopping following the ‘cycles of our soul’ and justifying any atrocity with bs like ‘lessons of the soul’ is what’s required to do.

We must expose ourselves for what we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to become in this world wherein there’s extensive mind-droning processes blinding everyone with bright lights. This is nonsense. All of it and must be stopped.

Only when existing here as breath as the physical body that I am here do I stop my participation in anything that has to do with and supports the existence of this nonsensical preprogrammed crap, such as paying karma for past lives or having a good life because ‘I deserved so’. Visit  http://www.desteni.co.za to learn everything about the soul and the white light scam – time to get real, people.

God won't save the queen now


Obvious witty crap

“Unrest of spirit is a mark of life; one problem after another presents itself and in the solving of them we can find our greatest pleasure.”

 

This single statement implies:

  1. That we as physical living beings must always be ‘restless’ as a trademark of who and what we are, we must assume that life must be a shitty sequence of events that are apparently here to make it ‘a life’ otherwise it would NOT be living.
  2. That problems are an ‘inevitable thing’ within our life experience and that
  3. Solving such problems can be actually pleasurable – which implies that we as human beings must assume that life must be a series of masochistic and self-flagellation events wherein we can possibly find the ‘meaning’ of all lessons to be learned only to die at the end, come back the next life and forget it all.

Whoever wrote this became +1 to accepting the enslavement and self-pity whole that we’ve made of this world. This is obvious bullshit that must be exposed for what it is: nothing else but system boot-licking propaganda that ensures we don’t deviate from the current ‘adversities’ that can obviously be stopped and self forgiven to never repeat them again as they definitely have no purpose in life towards a best for all outcome and instead, become the foundation of ‘acceptance’ and ‘surrendering’ to the seemingly fleeting life events that we have ‘no control’ upon – apparently.

Check out Desteni and learn how to debunk stuff like this and join us to expose it for the malarkey that we as humans have bought for so long.

 

We say: Till Here No Further with this witty submissive crap!

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