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135. ‘The Secret’ CULTivates Narcissists

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept the pursuit of happiness as a normal human being’s purpose in life wherein one’s empowerment as money – more than the necessary one enabling relationships, properties, top executive jobs and all sorts of benefits in society – is actually revered and venerated as if it was an actual God that we are praying to and praising, making of money our god – yet we disguise this blatant cult with words like success, fame, fortune, dream life and roles/conditions within society such as nobility, royalty, presidency, top sports players, magnates, riches and ‘influential people’ that can only exist in such titles as an example for billions of human beings that seek to be in such a position as well, without realizing how ludicrous it would be to in fact sustain a life of ‘the rich and famous’ for 7 billion human beings.

Thus, I realize that what is required is an actual wake up call to expose how such ideal ‘happiness’ and ‘well being’ based on the standards of what a rich/ famous person is, is in fact unsustainable and the actual glorification of abuse, as if we were able to in one single moment become aware of how many people have suffered, been killed, abused, chronically suffered through the creation, manufacturing and production of our entire ‘civilization,’ we would probably start regarding wealth and fortune as an actual point of abuse instead of blindly and foolishly praising it in separation of ourselves as life.

When and as I see myself wandering off to the life of the rich and the famous and start wondering how ‘great’ it would be to have all that money – I stop and I breathe – I realize that such images and stories of having all the money are actually systematically conveniently propagated and are specific/ strategic ways to imprint desires, wants and needs within regular slaves/human beings so that we continue working ‘as much as possible’ to someday eventually (in our dreams only) get to such a position of power and fame, glory as all the money that we believe is the actual point of ‘happiness’ in our world.

I commit myself to expose how the lives of the rich and famous are actual strategic points of propaganda to keep capitalism and our current life-style of seeking fame, fortune and glory in place as the ultimate bliss, which is then recognizing the point of abuse it represents to present a life that is in no way LIVING but only consumerism equated to fulfillment unattainable by all human beings equally and that it is thus in fact an insult to present such outrageous fortune while blindly believing that all beings can ‘climb the ladder of success’ toward such fame and fortune within the current monetary system.

I see and realize that it is only through looking at the ‘reality’ of our desires, wants and needs that we become aware of how we have participated in creating desires, wants and needs that in no way represent an actual Living Condition that Supports Life/ living, but that are only make-believe realities as the products and activities that are related to us aspiring to be and become part of ‘the elite’ that we see on TV, that we see on magazines and that we are enthralled with within our current societies wherein media is telling us what to do, what to eat, what to wear, who we should date, what to vote for, what to diss, what to suppress, what to embody, what to think and what Not to think through imprinting fear toward the most basic questions that every human being should ask themselves, such as HOW it is that we have created the current monetary system as a god that is not readily available for all to dignify all beings’ lives?

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never question the seeKing and Chase-ing of positivity in this world as a point of abuse, due to it being perfectly ‘normal’ for any being to seek self’s own ‘well being’ through asking to an energy/god/saint/the universe for that which could mean happiness/ joy point, which is actually using money as a point of abuse to acquire yet another point that can only be conceded/ given if it is taken from others in fact, which is how the Law of Attraction actually works like.

I realize that the sheer acceptance of only a fraction of human beings existing in this acceptance of their ‘pursuit of happiness’ as an actual living-purpose is what must be exposed as the popular accepted and allowed abuse within humanity, as this is the way that we have made of narcissism an apparent disorder that can be named individual self interest due to the extreme care for one’s own well-being actually existing as a  ‘normal thing,’ in our society, being entertained with all things positive that one can consume in order to ‘feel great’ while 3/4 of the Earth starve to death every single day.

When and as I see myself accepting positivity and positive thinking as a ‘normal thing’ in our reality wherein it’s seen as ‘something ordinary’ that people want to succeed in what they do and what they dedicate their lives to – I stop and I breathe –  I bring myself here to realize that such attitude is actually the building blocks of a delusional world system, wherein any positive experience cannot exist without abusing thousands of beings, which includes everything that we virtually have as a commodity in this world system at the moment, simply because we have not yet become an actual living being that cares for life in equality, but only seeks one’s own benefit at all times, regardless of who has to suffer the consequences.

Thus, I commit myself to expose positivity as an actual abusive thinking pattern that has been blindly accepted, followed and bought within society because of the amount of money it also produces for the world system – thus it is to expose what a closed system of wealth it represents when only a few can aspire to get to/ obtain such point of success wherein education, money, and having at least a middle-class position is what enables you to seek after things like ‘The Secret’ and any other wishful positive thinking, without considering how everything that one asks is in fact manufactured, produced, distributed and sold within a world system wherein Money in itself as the current monetary system is the actual structure of abuse of which there cannot be in any way a possibility to ‘succeed’ without abusing others.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept the ultimate self-importance and individualism as an actual ‘self-care’ wherein in fact I only cared about ME-me-me and my position within this world system being secured through money as long as My-Needs are fulfilled, without realizing how this apparent ‘self-improvement’ of the individual through wishful thinking, positive attitude and a ‘clear vision to the future’ is nothing but white-light rubbish as words that rub the ego the right way in order to create an imaginary sense of well being, wherein the very backchat/ thoughts in the head as internal conversations become also part of the character that sustains this positive-beingness of only seeking to get the rewards, only seeking to be granted with ‘the most cake,’ granted with the ‘most important position’ in a job, granted with all the money in the world with which we can ‘make our dreams come true,’ never questioning how this ‘may your dreams come true’ attitude represents doing just that: manifesting an imaginary dimension of our minds, using an also imaginary point like money to in fact create a righteous ‘right’ to use the resources of the earth, the people and the entire structure in order to Only satisfy ourselves –

I realize that this makes us ALL Equally Responsible for what is existent in this world, just by the fact that we have all sometime wished something ‘good’ for ourselves while neglecting the rest of the world and its actual situation of absolute lack, famine, violence, abuse and extortion that reality is currently existing as, wherein money became our security veil that will certainly not be sustainable for a long time now.

I commit myself to expose self-improvement as the search for success, positive thinking and positive attitude as the most EVIL tools ever provided to humanity further separate ourselves from one another, creating the ultimate competition to get the jackpot within following ‘The Secret’ that we foolishly accepted as ‘real’ without pondering how it is that people in the Elite would actually allow this point to come-through with such as if it was in any way real – Thus, it is to expose this ‘get rich quick’ lifestyle propaganda as the totalitarianism propaganda hitting human’s buttons that read ‘searching for happiness,’ in order to accept the current monetary system wherein ‘all dreams can come true’ through maintaining and sustaining a system of abuse such as capitalism, wherein the platform to only support/ grant such ‘big prize’ is available for a few only, which means that The Secret as the Law of Attraction is in fact like a light that attracts the moths to their death, as there is no way in which such happiness as ‘all the money, fame, glory’ is able to exist for all within the current configuration of the world-system as money – yet there is another way

The solution stands clear: we must create a world-system wherein Everyone’s Lives can be in fact glorified, dignified and enjoyed through a monetary system that ensures the access to the Earth’s unconditional resources in an equal manner, as that is the actual way in which True Happiness can emerge in this world, where all men regard each other as equals, wherein all beings can finally live and experience the ever longed-for Heaven on Earth that has been broadly promoted, while it is the ultimate Scam in religious and New Age movements with the infamous name of ‘ascension,’ without realizing that such Heaven is no more and that all that is Left is Life on Earth to be equalized through an actual political and economical reform, wherein all that is here of the Earth is given and distributed equally to all beings in it.

 

This is then the real Law of our Being that must be realized and understood as the Only way in which Our lives can continue existing – thus it is to transform that selfish narcissistic Self-Care/ Self-Importance to an actual SELF that considers/ regards all beings as one and equal.

I commit myself to be the example of how Life can only thrive if living in Equality beginning with ourselves

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77. I Can’t Get No Satisfaction

 

Disenchantment of my Own Expectations

The disenchantment experienced within art school after the first year came up as an outflow of me having based my decision to study art from a desire to experience all the points that I have described in the previous blogs, which meant that because and due to my starting point not being that of a self-directive decision, I experienced disillusionment in every class I’d take, while holding the desire for something/ someone to fulfill this yearning to get to a point of satisfaction. This lead me to spend most of my first year extensively imbued in spirituality as a means to ‘compensate’ that which the art career was not ‘giving me’ from the get go, which is in fact my own manipulation from what I desired to get/ obtain from and through the ‘art experienced’ based on all the expectations I had formulated only in my mind about art, art school and myself being ‘in the right spot’ this time, only to realize that I was experiencing myself as in the beginning of literature wherein I started developing the same backchat to justify my ‘dissatisfaction’ with the career. (Read through 72. My Career Choice where I disclose this experience)

 

And so, here I walk one of those various moments I had while going through school and specifically the painting workshop I attended, which was supposed to be my ‘forte’ point within my ‘skills’ –

 

Pattern: talking myself into thinking that ‘this school is not good enough for me/ is not what I accepted’ which is the usual backchat I would form whenever I would simply opt to drop out and move onto something else based on not getting the ‘satisfaction’ from it that I was expecting.

 

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I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to get as early as possible to my painting workshop from the starting point of keeping this definition of myself as being ‘responsible’ and ‘attentive’ in school, yet wanting to ‘earn my right’ to leave after 3 hours exactly so that I could go to the library instead and read about the new age, esoteric books and religions that I considered were ‘more important’ than the workshop itself, which is how from the first year of being In art school, I began creating these ideas of myself not being fulfilled/ wanting something more ‘substantial’ based on the expectations I had created when deciding to study art and dropping out of literature. Within this essentially starting to repeat the same pattern of ‘dissatisfaction with my choice’ and seeking something else that would be more ‘fulfilling’ to get my positive experience, which is how I got myself into researching religions, spirituality and the occult as a result of me ‘going deeper’ into the ultimate desire of knowing it all as the mysteries of existence which I am now in fact able to hear and would have never gotten in any books in that library, lol.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to work within the painting workshop from the starting point of ‘getting things done to get a grade’ and losing all interest because of my own projections upon the teacher and fellow students as not being there with the same enthusiasm I thought I was attending school with, which in fact was a self-belief to cover up the fact that I simply was shifting my point of attention from art to spirituality/ or a mix of the two which could satisfy my desire to know.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to judge my fellow mates in the workshop as looking ‘down’ and comparing myself to be rather positive and enthusiastic about painting, which is how I started creating backchat about the entire workshop not being ‘fulfilling’ or a ‘good environment’ to create, taking my observations upon others as ‘real’ and believing that being ‘creating’ with such people around me was not ‘beneficial’ for my ‘inspiration,’ thus beginning to loath going to such workshop and started only going to it for mere obligation to preserve my self-idea as a responsible being.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself and my works within the starting point of competition toward others’ wherein I clearly talked myself into superiority, believing that ‘my paintings were great’ and that others’ paintings were simply bad and wrong, which is all based on my desires to fulfill this idea of myself as being an ‘innate artist’ and with ‘real talent’ which was all based on the definitions, judgments and self-belief created by and through what I would get from friends and family and others around me which I described in here 75. Bursting Dreams to Live Reality

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to deliberately choose a workshop that I knew was not that ‘popular based on my idea of then having ‘less competition’ there and so ensuring in my mind that I could ‘stand above others’ with my work/ paintings, wherein I actually sabotaged my opportunity to learn just because of starting participating in such workshop from the desire to be recognized and ‘stand above others’ works’ which all crumbled down due to and because of not getting such ‘satisfaction’ I was seeking from my teacher and fellow mates, which lead me to add another point to the entire disillusion because I was not being equally-praised as people in my world – such as friends/ family – had expressed toward ‘my work.’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to project blame onto the teacher when seeing him doing his own artwork while and during the ‘class’ or workshop-time, based on the expectation I had of teachers showing you/ sharing their painting secrets and techniques and everything else which I expected, and because I didn’t get that, I started believing that I was in the wrong workshop and that I had completely failed at choosing teacher – but in fact, it all stemmed from this immediate dissatisfaction that I started experiencing toward ‘studying art’ overall, after the first year and being in the beginning of the second year wherein my fulfillment started veering toward spirituality, once again repeating the pattern of thinking I had made the ‘wrong choice’ again.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that my teacher did not care about what I was doing and not giving a fuck about anyone else there, without realizing that I was simply expecting to be directed and get the feedback that I wanted based on expectations of him toward my work, which was all ego based as in only considering my own work as something ‘already great’ and having only to ‘perfect it’ in school, which was all a belief and never really Real, therefore whenever I did not get my desires fulfilled in the workshop, I started building disillusionment toward the entire career overall, giving up and just going there because ‘I had to’ and not as a self-directive decision of living my ‘choice’ in fact.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to start backchatting about ‘art school’ altogether and thinking that I could instead just be at home, painting by my own and seeing no point in going to art school if I was not in fact going to get any direct guidance by the teacher, which is how I would then compound the judgments toward people not caring at all and starting to absorb such ideas about others into myself as ‘depression,’ blaming the environment as being Not-supportive at all.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to start building regret about my career choice – yet again – when seeing that I was only going there to ‘fill in the assistance list’ and being there 3 hours only to then immediately go to the library or home to read that which was ‘calling my attention’ the most which was spirituality, religions, philosophy and the occult, and in this starting to go to school with no actual disposition to learn and stay there enough to develop skills, but simply ‘passing through the classes’ because I simply knew I could not now repent and say that I did not want to study art any longer.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to talk myself into regret when thinking ‘painting used to be my thing and the most enjoyable time in my life and now, it’s so sad’ based on my self-created experience in this workshop, wherein I see and realize that I started blaming ‘the academy’ for ‘killing inspiration’ and feeling just like another robot in the ford-t production line based on my initial ideals of what art school would be like, seeking to fulfill my ego’s desire to immediately be recognized as this ‘great artist’ and get all the props for my ego to then be able to say that ‘art school is great!’ – but because I did not get it, I simply started losing interest.

 

This is part of the pattern of ‘dissing’ that which is not feeling me enough energy any longer thus

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to start dissing art school, the teachers, the workshop mates, school mates and the entire art school scenario as lame and sad and depressing, simply because it was not giving Me what I had expected as this constant fulfillment of compliments and judgments that could ‘highlight my work’ above others’ and in this, starting to think and justify my experience with thoughts like ‘No wonder academy fucks all creativity and true passion to create’ which is a self-belief according to expectations and my usual way of blaming others for what I would be creating and experiencing within myself – thus it had Nothing to do with art school itself, people or the teacher but it was all myself not getting the necessary energy for me to continue being ‘happy’ within it, which is actually cool because if I had gotten my ego-nurturing, I would have probably elevated myself to a semi-god status wherein I would have only been moved by ‘desire for fame and fortune’ and not sought another way which is how in the middle of that first year in painting workshop, I found Desteni.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that it was a waste of time going to such workshop/ school in general, wherein I started going and leaving just exactly on the minimum of 3 hour stay there, and then rushing back to my house to ‘do my thing’ and continue studying and getting deep into spirituality, devouring books and anything that I could deem as ‘superior’ and of ‘utmost importance’ in comparison to art, which shows how I was only energetically driven to study one thing and another after another based on the amount of satisfaction as positive-energy experience that I could get from ‘my studies/ my religion/ my desires’ being fulfilled or not.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be counting the minutes till it was ‘safe to leave’ and place my name on the list and say goodbye with such excitement, as if I was attending some community work given after you’ve been in prison and only paying your sentence somehow, which became a very uncomfortable situation until I simply stopped that year in the painting workshop, which I see and realize that was simply the cannon fodder I used in that time of absolute and extreme self-dissatisfaction, lostness, disillusionment, depression and self suppression through weed to the utmost degree, that I can barely remember myself back then, and that if it wasn’t for all the pictures I took that time and the writings, I would have no remembrance of myself and my experience in that time, which was absolutely self-created hell.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to start seeking my ‘own fame and fortune’ by taking photographs by myself, deliberately ‘spiting’ the art school point by not taking photography workshop in the belief that ‘I can do this by myself/ on my own, I don’t require school’ – which was absolutely conceited from myself – and eventually ‘hitting the jackpot’ wherein all the dissatisfaction in ‘school’ was even more enhanced and perceived as a ‘waste of time,’ when being invited to exhibit my ‘independent photography works’ in another country, which was a sudden rush of self-importance and fame that was fulfilling ‘at last’ the dreams that I’ve had with regards to someone suddenly ‘knocking on my door and asking me to show my work somewhere else in the world’ – which did happen and lead me to have my short-lived experience of fame and art-world experience that I had dreamed of for a long time.

 

In the next post I will share my ‘fame and fortune’ experience lol and how it changed my life to the realization of what it Really meant to be ‘in’ the artworld and how I started experiencing myself being simply ‘in the wrong profession’ yet again… lol

 

2006

Self Corrective Statements:

When and as I see myself talking to me in my mind about ‘being in the wrong place/ having made the wrong decisions’ I stop and I breathe – I recognize the stupidity loop for what it is as me starting to diss something based on the expectations that I had built around something/ someone without taking the necessary time and space to actually walk it in a self-supportive manner, which means: not building backchat about my decision and my choices, but instead working through with it practically with no judgment wherein I can actually assess what is supportive, what is not supportive and then, make decisions based on this practical living experience, instead of just giving up at the least ‘drop of energy’ as me not getting the necessary ‘positivity’ around a point to keep going.

 

When and as I see myself being in a place, walking my decision and starting to think that ‘I’ve made the wrong choices’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that this is a pattern of me beginning to see everything through the ‘I want to drop out ‘ filter wherein when starting to criticize and judge others as depressive and not good enough for me, indicates that I am in fact creating a negativity based on me not getting my ‘initial fix’ from the beginning as a positive energy experience that I always sought to get, at all times from and of everything I participated in.

 

When and as I see myself projecting my own judgments upon people/ the environment as it ‘not being supportive’ for me to develop my abilities, I stop and I breathe – I realize that this is one Huge excuse that I’ve used to drop out from studies, not following through because of believing that ‘everyone else is too slow in comparison to me,’ which is how within my impatience I have dropped out from studies such as learning languages, dancing and guitar lessons wherein I thought that having to ‘wait’ for an entire group to ‘catch up’ was a waste of time and money – thus dropping out and eventually only learning things half way, always being dissatisfied with any form of education, due to how I had lived in a school with only 6 classmates in elementary school at the very end, which allowed us to go into topics and material that was supposed to be learned in the following two years of junior high school, which is why I developed this constant desire to ‘consume knowledge’ in order to be ‘ahead’ of the rest, never considering what being a part of the group implies, but simply wanting to ‘get it all done fast and first,’ all of it being a primary mechanism to fulfill and support my ego.

 

When and as I see myself backchatting about others and judging them as ‘too slow to understand/ to act’ I stop and I breathe, I realize that I have been impatient my entire life and that building such backchat toward others only lead me to drop out and end up nowhere when believing that people are not ‘moving as fast as they should,’ according to my mind’s standards of learning/ working and ‘doing’ in the system, which is how I became displeased with living in this country with what I judged as extremely lazy people, never taking such judgment back to myself to see where in my world I was doing the same.

 

When and as I see myself placing me in a position wherein I am not ‘competing’ against what I deem as ‘strong people’/ ‘potential rivals,’ I stop and I breathe – I realize how I have deliberately sabotaged my opportunities of self-expansion and growth every time that I would make decisions based on seeing ‘where I can remain on top/ being the best’ and ensuring I would have no ‘strong opponents’ or ‘rivals’ based on the superiority and desire for recognition that I lived through and by in my life, wherein I would ‘watch out the field’ for competition and within that existing only to ‘remain’ on top, and never daring to actually see how within such stance I would only in fact exist as fear of loss of an apparent ‘special place/ position’ in my world, which is unacceptable when we look at how this entire world is essentially propagating and promoting competition as survival mode, which is how the entire world is able to continue going: through instigating competition, comparison, rivalry as eventual wars and the ultimate separation between who we are as one and equal, all because of just one point wanting to be ‘above everyone else,’ which became the way that we have divided and separated ourselves into a hierarchy that is not supporting or regarding all beings as equals, which translates currently to a monetary system that is Not supporting all beings equally.

 

When and as I see myself projecting blame onto teachers/ people that I had placed as ‘authority’ to give me the tools to work with/ give me the fulfillment of what I want as the ideal of proper education, I stop and I breathe – I realize that it is my responsibility to support myself to ensure that I am expanding myself to learn and cooperate within the group wherein I do not wait for orders/ feedback to do what I am required to be done, but that I become my directive principle at all times in common sense = considering what is best for all – and if I require further support, ensure that I speak up and communicate about it, instead of just remaining quiet and festering about it in my own mind without daring to actually confront the situation, directing it to a best for all outcome at all times.

 

I realize that I have always ‘waited ‘for the authority to ‘let me know what to do’ in schools and studies, which is how I became the ‘obedient’ system person that is usually praised because of not being willing to stand up to the authority and thus, remain properly happily enslaved to ‘waiting for others to let me know what to do,’ instead of me taking the initiative to do it for and by myself, now within the consideration of what is best for all and the impact/ outflow consequence that my decisions will have upon myself, my own life and that of others in equality.

 

When and as I see myself starting to feel ‘uncomfortable’ in a particular place/ scenario, I stop and I breathe – before giving head to my own backchat to diss everything and everyone around me, I ensure I walk the point within myself to see where and how I am in fact uncomfortable and not satisfied with myself and my application, instead of projecting as blame onto and toward others wherein I remain as the ‘victim’ of it all, which is unacceptable. Thus I take responsibility for my experience at all times, ensuring that I cross reference the point with at least another being as to share how it is that I am experiencing and what I have seen and realized as ‘my creation’ – as to ensure that if there are actual changes to be directed in the ‘outside’ of myself as the event / situation I am in, we can then directly work to establish a more proper way of directing a point instead of only remaining as individual islands backchatting about it and not speaking up to direct the point to a best for all outcome.

 

When and as I see myself being deliberately attempting to ‘do things my way’ as a way to spite that which is no longer giving me the ‘satisfaction ‘that I want/ need and require in my experience, I stop and I breathe – I realize that whatever decision and direction I take from this starting point is prone to fail, as the starting of it is that of reacting to a point that I just swept aside and jump onto another point as ‘the solution,’ without having first investigated Why and How I lead myself to ‘diss’ one point, wherein I ensure that I have in fact done all I can to ‘make the point work’ before deciding to part ways/ stop participating in something/ with someone in any given event/ situation, and this way, ensuring that the decisions taken to ‘move on’ to another point are in fact well informed, tested, tried out to all its various possibilities and also referenced by at least another 2 human beings to ensure that I have at least 2 other perspectives on ‘where I am’ in my world and what I am looking at doing/ proceeding with, to ensure that I no longer exist in the ego of ‘I can do it by myself, my way will always be the ‘right way,’ which is learning to consider others in my decisions at all times, walking a self-directive point to not only take ‘me’ into consideration within decisions, but also what is best for all at all times.

 

I commit myself to continue debunking the very basic patterns that have marked my participation in this world as an ego that sought a constant fulfillment of and as the positive energy experience and within this, ensuring that all decisions I make in my life are not based on energy / from the starting point of a positive energetic experience, but are in fact the result of me having assessed an studied the practicality of the decision, the possible outcomes and reality-consequences that can be seen through writing, applying Self Forgiveness and Self-Corrective statements to remove the basic conditions such as ‘getting a positive energy experience’ from the decisions I make and take in my life. This can allow me to stop only acting/ moving based on the expectation of a positive energy experience and instead, learn what Self-movement and a self-directive decision actually implies, wherein positive energetic experiences are no longer the ‘god’ I am looking for in my life, but instead walk here honoring life in and as myself as the physical body that I am.

 

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69. Change is in the Meaning of Money

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that changing the monetary system implies a Change in the Meaning/ Signification of the word ‘Money’ itself, wherein the sign is no longer passed on from generation to generation as the medium of exchange in the form of coins, bills and banknotes based on rules and regulations imposed by a minority that Makes the money/ decides How it is distributed/ given and traded, and instead realize that for an actual Social, Political change we require an Economic change wherein we as human beings agree that the ‘balance’ required in money at the moment to stop the Inequality is through Equalizing Money to a physical tangible reality and principle, which is Life in Equality.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the current implications of the meaning/signification of money in our societies is implying suffering, abuse, power, over consumption, division of classes, greed, envy, comparison, competition, success as a positive quality, survivalism amongst any other form of separation that stems from the basic realization that: not everyone in the world has access to this ‘means of exchange’ as money – which implies that not everyone is able to give/ receive that which is required to live, signifying that we have accepted the ‘money tradition’ as a word/ meaning that is signifying the enslavement of man to an arbitrarily made system that is only benefitting a few, while the majority does not get to see ‘the light’ as money as energy/ power to acquire that which is needed to live. Furthermore, instilling the desire for ‘More’ within those that have the basics to live – middle class – but learn to not be satisfied with the necessary as the glorified ‘example’ of the ‘wealthy’ implies that one can get to have all that power as well, wherein the ‘rich and famous’ become just like a carrot on a stick that keeps everyone circling around/ working/ doing all that is possible in order to someday ‘attain’ that amount of wealth as a synonym of protection, happiness, ultimate satisfaction, and ‘worth’ completely oblivious to the actual abuse that goes on with the mere acceptance of money as a separate meaning from ourselves as Life, which implies by default that abuse is existent in its meaning over Life.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the basic required shift and change in the meaning of money can be established as a social convention based on the firm-ground and principle of Life in Equality, wherein All can be equally benefited by such change/ shift within the relationship we have with money itself: from a meaning of power that is only achieved through work – for the majority – or inheritance,  to a readily given tool as a means of giving and receiving equal access and distribution of the resources of the Earth that we use for consumption and construction of our society, of which its members must equally stand – one by one – as the understanding of what giving and receiving as Equals means: Equal-Money will be the consequence and outflow of us deciding and agreeing in a New Meaning to Money which can benefit All in an Equal-way, which implies that the relationship between the human and money won’t be that of power, lack, desire/ lust as greed and a constant survivalism to get it, but will become an Equal Living Word as a simple tool to manage resources and ensure everyone is equally supported, by mere virtue of being a living being in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to perpetuate an unspoken social convention over money as a current means of control of the Earth’s resources distribution, which implies that it is in our absolute power and ability to re-unite again to agree that within the principle of one man, one vote, we can establish a new system that can benefit all beings Equally, wherein those in the elite and those starving are finally equalized by having equal power of acquisition along with the rest of humanity, which will dissolve the eternal class-struggle and avoid the need to ‘take down the power’ by force/ revolutions/ battles/ wars – I see and realize that through giving a New Meaning to Money as an equally give-distributed tool, I can prevent a tumultuous process of shift/ change within the monetary system, as I see and realize that wars, revolutions and coup d’état only separate the individuals within a society further, which is precisely why Equal Money System is the most pacific way in which we can all agree to give to each other as we want to receive the right to Live a dignified living, without resorting to further violence, death, crimes and revolting in spitefulness, but instead recognize our actual Neighborism  if we agree to Live as Equals.

 

I realize that the responsibility for how money currently exists resides in each and every single person that has accepted the meaning of ‘money’ as it currently exists in absolute means of separation, division, power and competition, which implies that the solution will also mean a new social convention to give a New Meaning to Money that will imply a process of change through Education, just like learning a New Word and its Meaning, which must be first lived within the individual as the realization of who and what we are as Life is Equal and One = hence, making of money the representation of that realization made a system that is socially agreed upon through democratic means, as the real power that each one hold by virtue of being a participant within society as part of the entire ecosystem as the Earth.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that Equal-Money becomes an imposition as a new meaning to Money-itself, without realizing that fear is only a means of control that have kept us believing that the meaning/ value of money could not be changed/ transformed/ shifted in its functionality, which implies that we cannot fear implementing a Living Principle that is and will benefit All beings equally.

 

I realize that we have kept ourselves living in a generational inertia, never questioning money and its meaning, but simply accepting it ‘as is,’ which implies that it is now that more and more people are being affected and directly influenced by the inequality inherently schemed as Money at the moment, that we start questioning how money was created, when/ how did we accept this, which is the actual imposition and forced-acceptance that we all complied-to by the very first moment that we used money in our lives without further questioning its existence and the ‘rules’ behind it.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the ‘free choice’ that is implied in the arbitrary meaning of Money at the moment, was not established and promulgated in the best interest of all, but only considering the benefit of those that made the rules of its meaning in the first place, which means that we have followed the ‘tradition’ of such meaning as a ‘word of god’ without really questioning how come we have delegated the same abusive system from generation to generation without pondering the need for a change in its meaning and power over life itself.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that Money is a mere abstraction/ concept, and Not a full sign as a direct meaning of  what Money should be as linked to a physical-tangible object/ part of the physical world – but instead accepting its ‘value’ within the belief of ‘power’ in an abstract form represented by metal, paper, coins with no physical relationship to an actual physicality of/as life itself in this world, but became a meaning to ‘power’ as the ability to simply deny / allow the access of money to other beings, the quantity of it and the rules within which it would function-as, implying that it is Not a meaning/signification that is Real in any way whatsoever, but a socially deliberately ‘flawed’ convention representing the absolute separation of humanity toward the world itself and each other, creating the basis of Inequality by and through a single meaning in separation of ourselves as Equals as Life.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that money in itself as paper, bank notes, plastic, metals cannot in any way be a ‘meaning of power’ in itself, it is the social convention as a Belief-System that we have agreed upon that decides how it works,  which reduces money to a psychological object rather than an actual meaning in function of the physical reality as the tangible resources that can be given/ exchanged with one another – this means that the word ‘wealth’ is the solidification of this intangible ‘power’ above others as a mere social-convention/ belief-system that is only made real through the acceptance of such money having the ability to buy/ consume all that which the value of such money is accepted and allowed to have/‘mean,’ which is, once again, a mere belief-system wherein there are no real values attached to the physical reality, but are all man-made conventions/beliefs. H

Hence, I realize that the problem and solution resides within the ability of us as humanity coming together to create a New Agreement as a New Constitution to declare the value of Money as Life, as a tool to support each other as equals with no ability to generate the illusion of profit/ gain/ power over others as ‘wealth’ any longer.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize how we have conditioned and controlled ourselves through the acceptance of habit and tradition as a pattern followed to perpetuate a system of abuse, wherein we only came to understand the effect of having/ not having money once we experience the detrimental consequences as being poor, middle class or positive consequences as being wealthy/rich as the basic conditioning within a human being’s life, without first asking how it is that such Inequality is able to be accepted as ‘normal’ in our world-system.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that we are all one and equal as part of this physical world – and that money as words became the separators between ourselves as life through the imposition of meaning/ value as worth that can be more or less according to a social convention/ belief-system that was not based upon Life in Equality, which means that we only gave and acquired such meanings through establishing comparison, differentiating one from another as separate entities that could be then assessed as being ‘more’ or ‘less’ than others, which implies an obvious problem of Meaning and Signification within words themselves and Money as a a product of such social conventions/ belief-system in separation of the consideration/ value of ourselves being one and equal as Life. Within this

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the ‘injury’/ split/ incision manifested within this world system as and through Money stems from the very decision of giving words a particular meaning and value within a make-believe system called ‘social convention’ where not every single being was able to vote upon the meaning/ value and worth of words, which implies that the most common sensical way of establishing a new system, a definitive reform in the system stands within the agreement of giving to each other that which is best for all, as the realization that it is only through arbitrarily placed separations as words/ values upon Life itself that we came to create the current system that we are existing as and suffering the consequences of, wherein we have made ourselves subject to our own imposed cages as money upon life itself that is unconditionally given by the Earth as part of who we are in this same Ecosystem.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the substance of and as Life is here indistinctly, however we have as words and language created separate forms of it as different meanings that acquire ‘different values’ according to the relationships that we form with it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that value in itself is but a consideration given to things/ people/ the environment in separation of ourselves, which becomes a meaning of worth as more or less than in a fixed-system as a social convention to agree that some things are ‘more’ than others, and in that simple and primordial separation, accepting money as a ‘moreness’ and ‘lack’ at the same time, which is how and why money is a function of abuse.

 

I commit myself to establish the New meaning and signification of Money as the correspondence between the word Money/ Equal-Money to Life itself, as the physicality and substantiality that is here as the Earth’s resources that can be given and obtained in equal agreement and equal availability for All participants within this ecosystem of Earth, which implies that Money in itself has no power other than the ability to be a counting tool to administrate the resources, the provision of services and any other means of giving and receiving in equal terms. This is then establishing the real meaning of Economics as the administration/ management of the house’s resources/Earth’s resources, which is an absolute physical logistical processes and Not schemes to make more profit/ wealth based on unsubstantiated values as abstract meanings Over life itself.

(Read the blog an Economist’s Journey to Life for further support.)

 

I commit myself to equalize the signification and value of Money as one and equal as Life, as the value implying the relationships established between human beings as the social agreement and understanding that we had created a distinction/ separation and differentiation from the one and only real value that is Life itself, which will have to be equally extended to all words, concepts an aspects in our reality wherein we no longer create separation through/ as words that can imply a ‘moreness’ or ‘lesser’ value of things/ people/ the environment itself, but it is all turned into a simple tool to communicate, just as we communicate using words that must be then Equalized as who we are, as actual Living Words that can stand within the new Equal-Money System as the Equal-Value of Life System where the relationships that we establish with one another, can only be interdependent and symbiotic in nature – just like an actual social organism that is able to distribute its resources in an equal way, learning from the functioning of our own physical body that maintains the homeostasis of the organism in place through ensuring that all parts are equally supported with the nutrients required to Live.

 

I commit myself to explain that the difference we agreed to impose upon things and ourselves is a mere linguistic ‘problem’ as meaning/ signification that Must be re-evaluated within the consideration of the current consequences that such ‘flaw’ in the meaning of Money itself and the relationships we have created toward it/ as-it, have manifested a world in absolute separation, where only constant survival and competition is keeping the system alive, as that seeking for ‘more’ as an ideal of fulfillment, without realizing that such fulfillment could be actually readily given at birth by mere virtue of being alive in this world, and that it only takes a social convention and agreement to establish a New Monetary System based upon Life in Equality as the one and only value given to All as the realization of who and what we are as One and Equals as Life.

 

This means that Language in itself will cease to only be a ‘form’ imposed onto life, and instead become an actual Substance as each one of us realize, see and understand the separation that we have created within our world and reality through and as words – wherein we recognize that we are all made of the same substance that is Life itself, and that all words must be equalized as such realization – wherein Living Words implies recognizing the substance of who and what we are as One and equal in every single sound/ word that we express as a constant living-application/ externalization and expression of ourselves as Life.

 

For that, it is an entire process of Re-Education now that we see that the key to change ourselves and our reality exists and resides in the introspection, realization and investigation of who we are as words and how we have to equalize ourselves as such words within the principle of what’s best for all life to Live as Words that are in support of the new meaning and function of Money as Equal-Money = Life in Equality and Oneness.

 

Equal Money System 

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We are a group of people walking a process to redefine words as Life through a process of Self-Correction that entails All Aspects of our lives – where no part is more or less important to review, but equally important as the understanding that this world and reality is the consequential outflow of the separation as words we have ‘lived’ and perpetuated in our lives, and only now being reviewed to see and understand what it takes to Change the World beginning with Ourselves.

Read our blogs: Destonians and Journey to Life blogs 

 

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Read the previous entries for the complete exploration of the separation created through and as the word Money

 

Blogs that explain the Value/ Relationships created through/ as Money as the separation that exists as an energetic system, which is devaluing substance/life itself into meanings/ words/ relationships between each other that have placed a Cap on life itself.

Creation’s Journey to Life 

Heaven’s Journey to Life 

 

Bernard Poolman – FAQ Equal Money System – Science and Language


52: Capitalist Quick-Handy-Brainwash

We are all aware of poverty as one of the greatest problems we face on Earth as the direct consequence of having numbed and sedated ourselves quite nicely with knowledge and information that we accepted as ‘unchangeable,’ and that we have simply embedded as a veneer to protect us from facing the real screwed up facts that we have swallowed in the name of our personal “well being” wherein anthems like ‘I don’t care about anyone else but me’ become the voice of a generation that is doomed to remain secluded in a 4 x 4 cell – ehhm… room, proclaiming such perfect brainwashed hate-culture that promotes individualism through the appearance of proud and and bravery while neglecting an entire reality that is crumbling down to pieces.

Within this quick-answers to life, we find several quotes that reflect the collective-acceptance of knowledge as a way to give an explanation to – virtually – all, it doesn’t matter if what’s implied in such quotes is detrimental to life, nooo – what matter is the ability of pumping up an ego that is clearly submitted within a state of ‘powerlessness’ wherein the constant desire to ‘outdo’ others through knowledge and information becomes the equivalent of actual battles to conquer territories in the middle-ages.

Let’s begin with the Holybook that sounds more like Hollywood as its second remake to keep the masses ‘occupied’ while missing the very first acceptance here.

There will always be poor people in the land. Therefore I command you to be openhanded toward your brothers and toward the poor and needy in your land.” Deuteronomy 15:11

 

God/whoever said it: There will ALWAYS be poor people in the land – Massive crime against humanity in the holy-script-you-are yet, what people only look at and ‘Pay’ attention to is ‘oh so what do I have to do to be able to earn the kingdom of god in the heavens?’ which is perfect indoctrination really, be the effect that ‘solves the problem’ instead of ever looking at the cause, which is actually one of the greatest flaws within the ability to observe reality and ourselves as the cause and origin of the problem.

 

Another quick-drive-thru example: I had a discussion with someone defending the use of guns because ‘how else would they defend themselves if someone shoot first’? and in that, missing out the entire root and cause of the problem – how have we dared to build / produce an object as a means to “protect,” embedding in it the ability to be ‘god’ as in taking a being’s life in one split-second.

 

“Life is tons of discipline.” – Robert Frost

Live, work, work, work, have children, work, work, get old and die.

Do not deviate from that (production) line and you’ll be a happy-living fella. Well, we should be aware by now how ‘wisdom quotes’ are used to perpetuate the very system that will maintain everyone with a happy-coat of caramel melting all over you in order to not see the actual truth underneath it all. Discipline is regarded as a ‘positive aspect’ within society for the complacency it implies within the monetary realm: I do not see, I do not hear, I only work and what I earn is for me and my loved ones to live happily ever after – but is it when all that you discipline yourself to is being an obedient robot that doesn’t question why he has to spend 40 years of his life working non stop to be able to “live”? And people learn how to be proud of such achievements while in fact, it’s like an ode to a life-long decimation of any inkling of life in each one of us. And I’d get always this ‘feeling sorry’ for people when noticing this, this asphyxiating routine and how we can mock at each other’s day to day living yet: we are all trapped in the same boat just because of Money.

 

Within that equation Life = tons of discipline: heavy weight, a burden, life is a struggle, life must be fought for, life must be ‘earned’ and not unconditionally given – all of it is reflected in one single moment that you propose to someone the ability to live in Equality = giving and receiving what we want and require within a System that values Life and all you get is complains and even threats toward ‘making sure Equality never works for all’ – Jesus left great words but they have never been lived – whenever you propose Neighborism and living in Equality people go:

Whaaaat?

 

And then the fears come up because: who will I be without ‘this’ discipline? If I don’t require money to motivate me, then ‘what’ will motivate me? And this is not for the sake of judging, I mean It took me quite a long time of actual common sense development to understand the Equal Money System – however, I’m bringing into awareness how one single word can trigger out the most rabid fears toward communism, and abuse of ‘being able to have it all’ which implies one thing: we have never in fact lived, we have only lived to die and survive through.

We are discovering the power of the word, but we’ve certainly trapped ourselves even further whenever we take such words as the ‘law of god’ without actually pondering what is being defended and actually said there.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use knowledge and information in order to blind myself and only bling my eyes with that which sounds ‘right’ and ‘good’ and ‘productive’ within a world wherein ‘my happiness’ depends on ‘my effectiveness’ to be a complacent slave that does not question the most basic accepted and allowed forms of ‘living’ in this world, which are conditioned to money and money and money and my desire to fulfill the ultimate state of ‘superiority’ above others, because that’s what I apparently came here for.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept poverty and starvation, abuse, violation of life in all ways because ‘the bible told me so’ and in that, buying the bill of ‘rights’ and ‘liberties’ that are focused on maintaining a ‘guaranteed individuality’ based on the satisfaction of one’s own ‘living rights’ which are bought and sold only, within a system wherein money is not given to all in Equality, but is instead given upon working as a slave within a system that will ensure that one is so embellished with entertainment, ‘goods to buy’ and the eternal seeking of perfect-picture lifestyles of a thousand smiles and ‘good times’ that I have neglected the very existence of fellow human beings that are most certainly starving and having No say in the system as to why they had to be born as a deliberate outflow of an elite that seeks positivity, power, ‘comfort’ through protectionism provided by money.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for having been a ‘disciplined being’ in society as that is considered a ‘reward’ within the system wherein: the better slave I am, the more money I get, the less questions I ask, the more I am liked by my boss – and in that, becoming the perfect eslabón (Spanish for link) slave in the chain of be born, consume, make money, love and die as a way to ensure that Life is always at the background, just ‘there’ as a taken-for-granted fact that we can simply ‘make money from’ and in that, believe that it is is ‘how the world works’ and ‘how God wanted it all to be’ – because otherwise, within the realization that it is in fact US that have created this system would create such great distress in people’s lives that all fairy tales would dissolve in a rather caustic manner, implying that they were never real in the first place, but only sustained through prolonged acceptance and allowance of abuse as ‘who we are’ in the system of ‘living, consuming, dying’ and repeating ad nauseam.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect the reality that is presented only through flashy pictures on the TV screen about poverty and viewing it in perfect HD while neglecting that the very ability for me to watch poverty through TV implies that I am in fact the elite that has created and manifested poverty as the waste produced every time that I sought my own comfort, happiness, bliss, joy and the ultimate state of satisfaction as the saturation of myself with ‘positivity’ that is translated in physical reality as wealth/ money and a never quenching desire for More.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use ‘wisdom quotes’ as a way to defend the apparent ‘human supremacy over matter/life/ Earth’ giving ourselves the ‘permission’ to intellectualize reality to suit our preferences, our knowledgeable ego that is willing to neglect the very basic aspects in which we are sustaining this self-fulfilling suckcessful bubble in the name of my own personal glory.

 

I commit myself to continue exposing the accepted and allowed abuse in this world through the use of knowledge and information as way to mask reality and its rawness with positive attitudes and ‘attributes’ that make the perfect consumer a ‘happy being’ because apparently, such actions provide a sense of ‘well being’ for ourselves, without realizing that it is in the very accepted and allowed words and implications within such words that we have created this reality as the perfect excuse and actual spitefulness toward life, only to suit our self-interest and personal self-enlightened behavior.

 

I commit myself to become the example of what it is to let go of knowledge and information as  way to suit my own ‘needs’ as my-needs is implying that I participate in a world-system of money that is only existent for a minority in this world as an actual means of satisfaction and completion through buying/ consuming to be ‘happy’ in this world, while the same monetary system means absolute disgrace, poverty, enslavement and a never ending rabbit hole wherein life doesn’t meet its needs and money is only seen as that god that has never shown its face to them.

 

I commit myself to stand for Life in Equality no matter what, no matter how many threats and words and spiteful vengeful discussions are walked in the name of defending the system with all claws and weapons of choice which have become words, as ‘wisdom quotes’ as ‘facts’ that people use in the name of guarding that which they love the most: money, power, specialness and their ability to abuse just for a temporary sense of satisfaction and fulfillment in a system where Energy is the real enslavement of humanity.

 

I commit myself to implement the Equal Money System as the one way to show and reveal to what extent we have doomed ourselves by our own negligence toward life itself, wherein I have become the very abuse that the system has been proclaiming as a way to ‘succeed’ which I have bought because there is apparently ‘no other way around in the system.’

 

I commit myself to life no matter how many rocks are thrown as words that intend to kill and perpetuate abuse, as I realize that ‘them’ are myself and all I can do is show the way to forgive ourselves for the delusion we have created, bought and sold in the name of personal interest – and within that, showing, revealing and sharing examples of how we stand for Life in Equality as an actual living-statement that Life must be valued in equality for and as All that is here in this same ecosystem as the Earth, and that there is an actual way to go forward which implies each one’s will to stand as an equal in this world, and be the actual change that is required to promote a new living-system that will never again have to use words/ knowledge and information in means of satisfying only mind-egos, but actually support practical living-life between all living beings on Earth.

 

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This blog is in continuation to Day 16: Who am I

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Day 37: The Opium of the People

 

A cold realization – yet another one in this process – in relation to Religion. I had become such a blatant hater of the religion I was born into and then, fascinatingly enough, sought others to fulfill ‘my needs’ that were based on any type of philosophy and practice wherein I could create a ‘bridge’ toward a relationship with a god/ source/ higher self and ‘fulfill my mission in life.’ I’ve written before about it in the various spirituality-related blogs  and it’s great to realize that there is still a lot to understand about this reality, and that I can take a lot of my words back to self through Self Forgiveness on this post in relation to how much I have judged reality as the ‘opium of the masses’ without understanding why we actually required to be  sedated with the illusion of god/ heaven/ happiness in the afterlife in order to not end up killing each other due to our Real Nature. Yes,  as shocking as it is: we required God and following Religions, Spirituality or any other Movement that promoted the reunion with the ideal of benevolence that could instill – on a parallel mode – Fear as a way to control our real heavy-duty evil nature.

It’s fascinating that I saw the word opium coming up yesterday and I could not pin point what was it all about, until today that I heard an interview that explains Religions and their key-role within the development of our civilization. Then Marx’s quote about Religions came up and realized that we truly had no idea about ourselves until now. With this, I clarify I am in no way justifying or now supporting religion – as anything in this world, it is part of the enslavement that We Created for ourselves and that we were definitely requiring it in order to not go absolutely haywire against each other.

It is interesting as I had realized this point partially, when seeing how people with scarce resources – poor people – could be the most angry and spiteful toward the system yet remained appeased due to one stronghold in their morals: religion, the idea that they had to be good/ do good in order to get to heaven. The idea of heaven then becomes such a powerful dream and desire that is able to instill fear – as the opposite force of the happy ideal of fulfillment – through creating necessary threats to make it clear that:you had to love your neighbor in order to get to be with god in heaven. That was, of course, the heaven of ‘your choice’ which was created and related to specific groups of people in this world as humanity.

Now for the entire explanation, hear about why the inherent nature of man is Evil and enlighten yourself about the exact detail of why, how and how come it is that we haven’t seen and realized this before throughout human history. Brilliant.

 

Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge anything in this world just because of what I read and what I got to understand as knowledge that seemed like common sense to me, but never really knew ‘why’ a point like Religion, in this case, was a necessary ailment to prevent the actual inherent nature of man as evil from taking over our reality to such an extent, that we could have most likely exterminated ourselves long time ago.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge Religion as the ‘opium of the masses’ without ever really understanding why Religion existed as a key-aspect in our relationship to ourselves due to the inherent evil nature that exists as ourselves, human beings, hence religion being an actual regulator of our inherent evil nature to prevent us from killing one another in the name of power and greed over others.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that Religion was pure evil, while in fact it is me as humanity that is the real evil and required of a handbrake as fear-installment through Religion in order to create a point of morality to always seek to do good to eventually get to a heaven wherein we could meet ‘god’ and live happily ever after – all of this because of our real nature being that of self-interest, desire for power and being willing to do anything to get to a position that would fulfill that self-centered egoistical nature that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become – in this

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never question why I hated religion and then sought religion as a way to make myself less miserable, without realizing that the relationship that I had sought to create toward god was in essence, the relationship that I had separated myself from as god, as one and equal, which is the essence of separation that we have created, recreated and multiplied in all the plethora of points that we have acquiesced as part of our reality, without ever really questioning ‘why’ and how come we require the idea of a god to exist, and how come god it is separate from ourselves if it is god, which should be an ever-present omniscient type of concept.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge religion based on deeming it as brainwashing, without seeing that it is not about ‘Religion’ as a man-made creation in itself, but about Human Nature, our nature that is the actual effect of the primordial separation that ensued the moment that we separated ourselves from being one and equal as life – within this

 

I forgive myself that I have ever accepted and allowed myself to be so ‘sure’ about something such as deeming, judging and denigrating any aspect of reality as something that is ‘bad’ and ‘wrong’ and ‘abusive’ without taking such words first back to myself and dare to investigate how come an apparent point of ‘separated-reality’ is able to be ‘evil to me’ and ‘bad toward me,’ such a religion ‘wanting to manipulate me’ and forgetting about asking the very key-question to all aspects in our reality: Who  have been the creators of religion, of spirituality, of movements, of capitalism, of the banking system, of the political elite, of the corporations: we have, human beings.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never question why I hated religion and then sought religion as a way to make myself less miserable, without realizing that the relationship that I had sought to create toward god was in essence, the relationship that I had separated myself from as god, as one and equal, which is the essence of separation that we have created, recreated and multiplied in all the plethora of points that we have acquiesced as part of our reality, without ever really questioning ‘why’ and how come we require the idea of a god to exist, and how come god it is separate from ourselves if it is god, which should be an ever-present omniscient type of concept.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge Religion as the ‘opium of the masses’ without ever really understanding why Religion existed as a key-aspect in our relationship to ourselves due to the inherent evil nature that exists as ourselves, human beings, hence religion being an actual regulator of our inherent evil nature to prevent us from killing one another in the name of power and greed over others.

 

I realize that the only way to walk this process is through accepting humbleness as self, because we cannot possibly continue existing in an elevated idea of self based on knowledge and information as our own spiderweb that was spun, without ever considering that every single point of separation as knowledge and information is actually demonstrating an aspect of ourselves that we created an experience toward, and that must be now restored/ given back to self through Self Forgiveness, as there is no other way to get to a point of equal-terms and clarity as Self once that we are now witnessing the damage done as the result of our own creation.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create separation upon separation through judging the initial judgment that religion entails as a point of separation from god/source/ substance as life, that we then sough to ‘reunite with’ without ever wondering: why and how did we ever then ‘separated’ ourselves from it? How come we have allowed ourselves to fall for a belief and base our entire civilization upon a single judgment that is indicating our separation from any form of actual understanding of how we got ourselves to this point, wherein we are blaming religions for the problems in the world and overlooking the very simplistic aspect of ALL problems in the world: they have all been man-made.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself in words as creations that I then dared to judge, blame and  base myself in comparison-to, belief-upon, belittle, antagonize and even hate without ever realizing that nothing was just ‘miraculously’ placed here by a ‘hand of god’ – I see, realize and understand that this reality has been my creation, in all bits, parts and even that which I had promised to myself to never ‘be a part of’ – it has always been me.

 

I realize that Self-Forgiveness is the ability for me to no longer be bound to the chain-massacre of judgment upon judgment and reaction upon reaction as the infinite ways in which I could continue delegating my point of responsibility toward ‘something/ someone’ outside separate from me – from god, to politician, to CEO, to bankers, to spiritual leader, to the pope, to parents, to teachers, to kings, queens and any other person that I deemed was ‘responsible’ for the fuckup that is here as this world, missing out completely the basic common sense realization which is: it’s always been myself creating and perpetuating separation as the initial after-shock from that primordial separation from being one and equal, from which this negative experience that emerged, became ‘who I am’ as a separate being, which is and has been the starting point of ourselves as creation.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wage war against me all the time, to separate myself even further every time that I sought to feel better about myself, to ‘be closer to god’ which is in essence the perpetual enslavement that we all became a part of – either through religion, spirituality and participating in any form of movements – as well as sex and following money – all forms of desiring to create a point of positivity and a good experience in ourselves, that could get us ‘back to’ that initial fulfillment that exists when ‘being whole’ as the sum of all separation that currently exist – therefore

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that it is only through writing myself, applying Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Application that I can go stopping all forms of separation toward myself and walk the necessary process to stand one and equal as that realization of completion/being one and equal,  through stopping the recreation of separation as an energetic experience within me, which begins at the level of a thought that is seeking to be ‘more’ and ‘feel better’ about myself and in relation to ‘others,’ within this

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the initial point that lead me to seek to be a part of a religion and seek ‘god’ and establishing a communicating with ‘god,’ as that ideal of perfection and ‘greatness’ which had always actually been me seeking to communicate with myself – yet always existing only as an ‘idea’ of myself toward the idea of an almighty god that could ‘save me,’ without ever being able to see the obvious: there is no god and I’ve done this all to myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, within this point of righteousness toward religion, seek to make myself ‘feel better’ about myself whenever I would rejoice in criticizing it and deeming myself to be ‘more intelligent than that,’ while missing out the obvious: any time/ moment that I sought to ‘find myself,’ I was participating in the same religious construct that I judged as the opium of the masses, just because I had pondered knowledge and information above all common sense within this reality.

 

I realize that the relationship that I sought to create with god, was always seeking to create a relationship with myself, which is now in the process of stopping the energetic relationship that I have created toward my own thoughts, emotions, feelings accumulated as memories that defined ‘who I am,’ and walking the process of disentangling myself from all the bits and parts that I have separated myself into within the belief that: I was incomplete and required  god and the illusion of eternal life in heaven to exist, wherein I could finally be ‘free’ and ‘happy,’ which is the reason why I actually accepted all the abuse and suffering in this world, diminishing this reality to being just ‘hell’ in my mind, which was always self created by individual and collective participation due to our inherent beingness that emerged from that primordial separation that we have ‘forgotten’ about, yet recreate every single day that we neglect the fact that any being that is Here as part of this reality is equal to and one with ourselves.

 

I see, realize and understand that it is my/our duty to now walk the process of actually Living as equals in this world, which is a process that lived by self every moment of breath that I have been able to effectively write out, self forgiven, applied self corrective application and walk the process of self, here as a breathing living being that is existing as part of a social organism that requires actual laws, policies and structures that support life in equality – for all to finally live as gods, as creators of a world that we can in fact live together in without desiring something in separation of self as motivation.

 

I commit myself to walk the process of realizing how it is that through me giving myself back to myself everything that I have separated myself from, that I can in fact stop all forms of abuse and negligence that stem from the single point point of friction that I allow within myself to exist as in relation to religion, spirituality and any other form of movement that stood as a yearning and desire to be ‘whole again,’ without realizing that such wholeness has always been here as myself in every moment that I am able o exist as breath and not give into an experience of self that is based on conflict and the accumulation of my own thoughts to ‘seek o be more/ seek something new’ and identifying the fact that all ‘temptations’ are in fact ourselves as points wherein we haven’ established ourselves as being a directive living principle at all times.

 

I commit myself to walk this process of self equality and oneness wherein I now take on the various components of myself as an individual within this reality, wherein all identifications and associations at a collective level in various groupings according to religions, cultures, political affiliations and self-identification movements are walked within the principle of equality and oneness to stop separation from

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I commit myself to expose and explain how a religion or any other form of seeking to be whole/ complete again is an actual process that can be walked in a written manner through a personal process of self-realization wherein such equality and oneness is walked as a physical process of writing out, applying self forgiveness and self corrective application for all the ways in which I have separated myself from as relationships in he mind, which is how we can learn how I is o exist physically once that all energetic reactions against each other cease to exist.

 

I commit myself to reveal how any form of judgment toward religion or any other aspect of our reality is actually a point that we all are responsible for and that instead of judging, we can walk as a necessary process of self-forgiveness in order o ensure that we understand Why and How we created such separation, to now be able to go stopping ourselves from participating in any energetic games wherein we all sought to get closer to god.

 

I commit myself to walk in Self Honesty which implies: walking as breath in every moment to ensure I am in fact supporting myself to stand one and equal as the physical breathing that confirms: I am here.

 

For that, I suggest you visit the Desteni I Process and support yourself to LIVE

 

IGod

Great Interview that explains the role that religions played within human civilization, as well as understanding Freedom and Imprisonment within/ as the Human Physical Body

Atlanteans – Why the Nature of Man is inherently Evil – Part 33

Blogs:

Glorifying the Devil as the Nature of God: Day 36
Day 36: Heaven on Earth

Man Know Thyself – By Bernard Poolman

Day 2: Perfection Game


Day 7– Deconstructing Sugar

Yesterday we had a chat with regards to food and quitting sugar, which is a point I have been consciously procrastinating due to the extent of the relationship that I have created with all things that create a sense of satisfaction, which are related to: sugar! I wrote out yesterday how obvious it was in my body experiencing the rush of sugar, I have made vlog about it as well in the past and I ‘reduced’ sugar for a while, then went back to it or at least not giving specific self-direction to the point, which was leaving the back door open for me to go in and out whenever I wanted.

 

This is about me as the creator of my own preferences, quirks and chemical addictions such as sugar. I am aware that this point is ‘far more extensive’ than any other relationship I’ve had, as this is about food that I’ve become so used to eating and ‘sweetening’ my life with, wherein it obviously at times became the ‘consolation price’ for all emotional down-loops, which is the most common way to divert my attention from what’s here.

 

I also realize that the last time that I was talking with my mother about sugar and stopping it, she told some something like ‘oh don’t be so hard in yourself, it’s not like you won’t ever eat anything with sugar ever again’ and in that, I could see how I gave myself this leeway to keep eating it as ‘the only pleasures left in life.’ I have also defined myself or creating myself a reputation for liking sugary things, specially when it comes to going out with my parents and having the opportunity to eat apfel strudel, lol my perdition.

 

I have to forgive myself the relationships that I build with the people that I buy food from. An example is stopping a relationship with a woman in the bakery as that friendliness is what kept me going to such bakery even if it was definitively more expensive than others. But then, I’ve created yet another relationship with other people where bread was cheaper and I made a habit of buying the same bread which lead the people there know what I like and identify me as the predictable robot I’ve become when it comes to buying items. God, the same in the supermarket actually… What is this revealing to me? That I have also compromised myself to buy and consume based on the relationships that I create with people and how they ‘identify me’ according to what I buy.

 

I cannot continue compromising myself in any way. I mean, if I walk past the bakery on a daily basis and I won’t buy there any longer, I might as well go in there to let them know that I won’t be buying bread from them as I have to take care of my sugar addiction. LOL

 

I realized how I have allowed sugar in my life as a ‘treat’ and I would deliberately ignore the side effects that I had to ‘endure’ as opposed to the deliciousness that was eating a cake for example. I mean, this should be read as masochism here, I’ve experienced how it is not cool for my body yet I kept doing it.

So in these seemingly ‘making up for’ type of experiences, we accept a LOAD of bs that comes in the form of ‘small allowances’ such as when you buy something and believe that you will be able to keep it for a week, and end up eating the whole thing in a few hours only. Stuff like that is creating the necessary alarms to realize: hello, I am not being the directive principle in my world, I am allowing myself to simply indulge into it for the comfort I experience within my body as I consume food that is ‘sweet.’

Ludicrous, we have created relationships toward food of course, and in that we have made of such a vital point an addiction, which is just an outflow of having made of our own thoughts a surrogate living as well as the emotions and feelings tied to ‘living’ as well as eating.

 

So let’s begin with that:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link sugar to a positive experience within my body wherein I have associated everything that is sugary as something that I ‘like’ by default and that I cannot say ‘no’ to, without realizing that as I stand as the directive principle within me, I have to create such ability to not be driven by a mental desire to eat sugar, but instead discipline myself to support my body with meals that are not creating me an ‘instant gratification’ such as sugary meals.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a self-definition base on it being ‘too difficult’ to quit sugar which means I was giving up before even trying it, which is ‘the’ point of self interest as a nice-fluffy experience that I can get from eating sugar, which I must now discipline myself to re-direct in a supportive manner, which is the process that I’ll be walking as I face this point.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let go of the idea of me being a sucker for desserts and specially, apfel strudel that I have defined as my favorite dessert of all time. I realize that deserting of myself as the idea of being an ‘apfel strudel sucker’ is something that I must let go of in order to stop existing as that energetic tie to it as a picture in my head of what I ‘enjoy,’ without realizing how much backchat it would occupy in my mind when being abroad and not able to get that specific apfel strudel that I like.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a thinking-relationship to getting the treats that I ‘like’ and in that, using my mind to continuously manipulate myself into getting that ‘quick fix’ of eating something sweet, without actually taking into consideration what sugar is and what it actually does to my body.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to procrastinate giving direction to stopping sugar because of fearing ‘missing out the sweetness of life’ by stopping eating sugar and bread and all of which I had created a relationship defined as ‘comfort’ and ‘consolation,’ which is mostly a coping mechanism when I am not willing to face myself a certain point that I am allowing to accumulate within me as backchat –  have resorted to instead cover it up by using something sweet to eat to neglect the actual experience that I am creating within myself and go into a sense of ‘satisfaction’ after it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create relationships of giving myself ‘rewards’ or ‘treats’ that I would create a relationship toward as that energetic longing for it, which is how I require to stop and see who I am without such treats and how I am able to replace such sugary treats with vegetables and other meals that are supportive and nutritional other than a piece of bread.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to the sensation of chewing something that I have defined as ‘whole’ and ‘filling’ such as bread in my mouth and stomach.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect the common sense that something that is altering my physical body to a sense of discomfort while digesting it, is simply not cool for my body and that I should stop it, yet instead allowed me to ‘swallow’ the side effects because of considering it to be the ‘consequences to bear’ for having such a pleasant and delightful taste in my mouth – and mind – out of eating something sweet.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to eat something that I know beforehand won’t support my physical body providing actual nutrients,  but instead allowed me to abuse my body to digest such gulps of sugar ‘just because of liking the flavor/ taste’ of it, and the sense of comfort and fulfillment that I would get out of it, which is my mind creating an energetic experience out of eating, which is certainly Not supportive at all.

 

I am here to support my physical body and that means stopping that which I have researched, realized and experienced in my body to be equal to  poison that makes my entire blood rush throughout my veins in an abnormal pace, which means that I am forcing and exhilarating my physical functioning at some level that is Not supportive for myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse my organs and my physical body that had to digest such amounts of sugar and me neglecting the actual strain that I’ve experienced to digest sugars, yet allowed it in the name of pleasure and a ‘piece of heaven’ such as when eating bread, cakes, apfel strudel and cookies – and in a lesser value: chocolate.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for having created such ‘untouchable’ items in my diet like eating bread and consuming that which is always ‘nice to grab a bit from,’ because of wanting to fulfill and satiate the usual sugar cravings that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to – yes, I must realize that I am dealing here with a life long dependency as the acceptance of sugar within me as a stimulant to create a sense of ‘feeling good,’ no different to seeking love and light, really.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link the idea of sugar to ‘being cared for/ being appreciated/ being pampered/ being spoiled’ from the relationship of getting such sugary stuff from my parents whenever I go to visit them.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to place value in a person that I met and made me 5 different types of cakes for my birthday and equating that to ‘care’ and ‘appreciation.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a dependency to eat ‘sweet stuff’ such as bread or sweet rice in order to give myself ‘a bit of a reward’ during the day, as if I had to be consoled and fulfilled with such moments of eating ‘sugary stuff’ equated to ‘me caring for myself,’ without realizing that such sugar has no nutritional value at all and that it is certainly not necessary within my every day diet. Thus, I walk the process to prove to myself that I can continue living without eating these obvious items that contain high levels of sugar.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist quitting sugar and having procrastinated it for such a long time, because of fearing missing out on that which I have defined as ‘the most enjoyable stuff’ as eating something that I can have a sense of fulfillment through and as sugar.

 

I know it is possible to stop as some other Destonians have shared their on processes of stopping sugar and I could see myself just keeping quiet throughout the chat because I resisted placing a commitment to do the same and stop eating the most obvious items that contain sugar – there is also a point of ‘oh what if I ‘fail’?- but I can’t, because I’ve made decisions to quit other stuff in my life that was obviously addictive – including people and activities. I also understand that the relationship I’ve created with sugar is quite a ‘tough one’ in relation to how I have accepted myself as always requiring something ‘sweet’ to end the meals with, even if it was a sip of some juice or ‘fiber cookies’ or some other ‘taste’ that I could satisfy my desire to EXPERIENCE the sugary taste in my mouth as ‘the final taste.’

 

I have recently cut eating yogurt which had been part of my self-religion in food, it’s probably a month of that already – I tried quitting milk right away but my body went absolutely aloof, so I’m still drinking it in a very reduced manner – this is also in relation to the processes we’re walking and how we require to support our physical in relation to the meals I have been so used to eating and that I cannot just ‘cut out’ overnight. 

 

And so, I commit myself to stop eating any sugary stuff – specifically bread which I have defined as a ‘filler’ in both a physical and experientially speaking as that moment of actually chewing the bread as a ‘relief,’ as a satiating moment that I have defined as ‘giving myself a treat’ due to the obvious amounts of sugar it contains.

 

Sugar is a must stop – there are diabetics in both sides of my family. Actually I know that my grandmother died of diabetes and my sister – when she was little – would hand her chocolates in a secretive manner until she died. So, I see myself in that mirror and realizing that I do have a predisposition to being a sugar junky – the same with my other grandmother that is also dead and would be a yogurt junky, lol.

So, evidence proves that I must stop sugar, I have been also more aware of this sensations that food produce within me and yesterday I went to the shop and bought some greens and vegetables, which is something that I was only buying every now and then. I also realize that I will take the opportunity to find out how my body works without rice – which has become ‘the main meal’ in my diet – yet it makes absolute sense that it does turn into sugar as any other grain, including wheat. I knew this from my sister – who is a nutritionist – yet I continued fooling myself because of the routine, remaining in the status quo with what I eat – I  mean this uncovers how I tend to make of my days a bit of a ritualistic movement – however it’s going much better.

I am not as obsessed with cleaning as I was before, and having everything ‘perfectly’ around me, I am less concerned about ‘how things look’ around me yet I have to be aware of making it functional as well. And so, within this entire point of walking the physical process, something that Bernard said got stuck in me the other day in relation to creating patterns and habits that are supportive as we are now walking the physical process. Thus I realize that it is the ‘perfect time’ to establish that which I am willing to maintain as a living-experience in the physical as myself.

 

I have made a habit of buying bread as the only ‘treat’ I give to myself. I walked it in a mind construct a few months ago, lol and I only stopped going to ‘that’ bakery that I wrote the mind construct about, but then found a cheaper one which made it easier for me to have access to bread again. So, I realize that identifying all the points is key and I am perfectly aware when I make the ‘decision’ or should I say when I indulge-into stopping by the bakery and buying bread. I usually associate it with a reward system that I have created for myself in relation to what I eat – which I took as ‘normal’ as in ‘giving myself a treat’ but I see that I can become quite sneaky when it comes to these allowances and not really disciplining myself to it.

 

However, I am taking it bit by bit, I do take my body into consideration to reduce the amounts of it little by little as I’ve seen how cutting down meals that I had built myself of can be quite disturbing in an overall physical experience that is not comfortable at all.

 

I also realize that I must increase meat consumption with that, which I can only see I have limited myself to because of money – so there you go! our experience, nutrition and relationship to food is directly linked to how much money we have. I am perfectly aware that I could buy all of such variety if I had the money to do so, and seek for organic stuff that is absolutely expensive here. So, at the moment I’ll seek for the best options which means buying more vegetables, which are certainly not expensive.

 

So, thanks for all that have shared their experiences with stopping sugar, that is the type of support and ‘inspiration’ that I required because this is one of the points that absolutely goes ‘against Marlen’s will’ I mean, me the cookie-girl no way! – lol yes I once sold cookies during summer time with my cousins and called ourselves ‘cookie girls’ – we would bake cookies and sell them to our neighbors, it was quite fun but we obviously would eat the remains and so, that was not supportive at all.

 

This point of liking desserts is yet another ‘chunk’ of myself that I have created and continued to generate as a positive experience – I mean, I’m glad that I have come to build a taste for vegetables – thanks to my mother that would nag me to do so – but now I have to actually get rid of that which would ‘console’ my desire to experience something ‘sweet’ within me. So I’ll continue walking this point as I go, for now this is it.

 

I commit myself to being this process of cutting down sugar to eventually be able to stand and see that I am still here after quitting all major sources of sugar in my daily diet.

 

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2012 The Reward World War

Psychopathology [1]

“Rogers described the concepts of congruence and incongruence as important ideas in his theory […] he recognized the need for positive regard. In a fully congruent person realizing their potential is not at the expense of experiencing positive regard. They are able to lead lives that are authentic and genuine. Incongruent individuals, in their pursuit of positive regard, lead lives that include falseness and do not realize their potential. Conditions put on them by those around them make it necessary for them to forego their genuine, authentic lives to meet with the approval of others. They live lives that are not true to themselves, to who they are on the inside.”


Sounds familiar? I can almost be sure that we have all gone through the ‘incongruent’ type of experiences within our lives wherein we could only trust ourselves based on other’s approval to our own ‘existence.’ In fact, that’s how socialization takes place. Some have the ability to be the ones that decide who’s ‘in’ and who’s ‘out,’ and accordingly create an incisure-factor within a being’s life to ‘feel’ accepted or rejected within the social context, which leaves a scar that is ‘ever present’ within the realization that: all and everything that we have experienced remains within and at a mind level [2] Quite shocking, but that’s who we are as the mind integrated within and as our physical bodies.



Incongruent social and economical system

Who has placed such ‘conditions’ to limit ourselves as life? We have. And the reality is that this obvious polarization was ‘necessary’ to instigate and instill the idea that beings would be either ‘winners’ or ‘losers’ within society throughout their lives. This stigmatization process/ fear labels begins at home by creating a point of preference toward a specific child that ensues rivalry between siblings – very well known for being an ever-lasting mythological topic; then emerges in the educational system wherein kids at school get the first taste of what social groupings are, and the usual accepted and allowed sectarianism accentuates the moment that kids start developing a sense of ‘value’ in separation of their initial unconditional expression.


Yes, you might have also gone through that phase in your life wherein one of your friends suddenly stopped talking to you because some other person thought you were either: a) no longer cool or b) suddenly too arrogant/ elevated for them. Social discrimination begins within this seemingly ‘innocent child-games’ without actually realizing to what extent a being’s life is defined by such moments of experiencing rejection and ostracism within the first developmental stages within one’s life.


However, as Carl Rogers postulates  – beings still ‘pursue their happiness’ which in our case here is social integration – adaptation through survival of the fittest mechanisms – which will define and limit their ability to develop any other potentialities, just because of having to subdue any other expression to be accepted within a particular and constricted frame within the social environment that the being is interacting in. “Conditions put on them by those around them make it necessary for them to forego their genuine, authentic lives to meet with the approval of others. They live lives that are not true to themselves, to who they are on the inside.”


The reality, as we now know it/understand it, is that there are no lives that are entirely ‘true to ourselves’ at this stage, and any perceived ‘real pursuit of happiness’ is an equally deranged mechanism to maintain people within particular profiles that could give the ‘appearance’ that human beings were actually ‘diverse’ and aiming at ‘different directions’ within their lives. This type of personalization was beneficial to the emerging marketing mechanism during the second half of the past century, to make good money out of encouraging people to bind themselves to particular ‘conditions’ so that the market – those making money out if this – were able to continue keeping track on the types of people and creating new needs for them with the illusion of ‘upgrade.’ Now – what would be actually ‘true’ to ourselves in a world where money has dictated and set the rules of  ‘who we are,’ what we eat, wear, what type of education we get, our basic needs met or not, the entire environment as the configuration that one being is developed in is currently pending on Money.



Incongruent Psychological Considerations

The fact that the mind is a mirror of our ‘true self’ as the actual beingness is a revealing aspect that we are places a point to ponder in relation to what ‘our real nature’ actually is: “They [incongruent beings] live lives that are not true to themselves, to who they are on the inside.” But what if what we are on the inside is actually that which generates the ‘outside’? What is something that is ‘true to ourselves’?


At this moment talking about being ‘original,’ ‘genuine’ and having certain ‘personality’ can be tags equally adopted by any product to be sold in the gas station of your choice. We have lost – or never actually had (!) – any sense of what our real ‘beingness’ is within this reality. I cannot blame anyone as to why so many people would rather dissociate themselves from this continual demon.stration of personalities and characters within this reality by deliberately becoming the mint reflection of the deception and dishonesty that we have created of this world.  We have all had to incorporate some level of insanity in order to be able to ‘compute’ in this reality – the more insane, the merrier, I’d say. The fact is that such incongruence is only existing from the vantage point of having an apparent ‘solid’ and ‘firm’ identification of what ‘being true to yourself’ could actually mean…


Let’s place some cues here

If by ‘being true to yourself’ is believing that you have ‘free choice’ and ‘free will’ and can do whatever you want in this world – just because the bible/ constitution told you so – then we can start pondering what such ‘truth’ is actually based upon. If ‘staying true to yourself’ means having sex with random people to satisfy your ‘true needs’ without any iota of self-respect for yourself and others – If ‘staying true to yourself’ is following the path of money wherein greed and personal conquests are the family’s favorite hobby, then what do you know? Family pride and National honor comes first to ‘stay true to your principles in your ‘homeland’ – which translates in $ as the real ruler in this world. Where is the Common Sense?


It would seem ‘overrated’ – or it is so to me as I write it because I had to come up with the usual clichés to write that out– but the fact is that: this is what we have made up of this reality, a set of predictable games that only some have mastered to play – and the rest are left to be cannon fodder to keep the cog wheels of the system running.



In my experience ‘staying true to myself’ was believing that rebelling against my family, ‘staying out of the system’ and living a life wherein I could be an ‘outlaw’ seemed like the way to go to ‘stay true to myself’ – nevermind believing in spiritual realms or invisible forces ‘guiding’ my life . ‘Staying true to myself’ would mean fearing ever having to ‘sell-out for the system’ – which in essence meant having to participate within this system in a usual manner as any other regular mortal does –reading again: regular mortal, because we also know that, for others, ‘staying true to themselves’ is following a particular family lineage that would ‘save them’ from any fall by landing on a well cash-puffed mattress every time that the money-noose would get too tight to bear.



What are we?

“Rogers suggested that the incongruent individual, who is always on the defensive and cannot be open to all experiences, is not functioning ideally and may even be malfunctioning. They work hard at maintaining/protecting their self concept. Because their lives are not authentic this is a difficult task and they are under constant threat. They deploy defense mechanisms to achieve this. He describes two mechanisms: distortion and denial. Distortion occurs when the individual perceives a threat to their self concept. They distort the perception until it fits their self concept.”


Aren’t we all incongruent beings according to this definition? Come on! If you see yourself reading this and thinking ‘oh no, I cannot possibly be that!’ I suggest t to check your self-honesty-o-meter right now – here are some reality-check points:

  • We have limited ourselves to become a particular character in our lives that is based on defending our ‘territory’ as thoughts, feelings, emotions and secrets that we built around our mysterious persona that we hold dear as a baby that must be fed to grow healthy and, eventually, sustain itself, which is what we can identify as the full integration of the identification of ourselves as the mind, as ‘who we are’ within our physical bodies.


  • What is ‘malfunctioning’ but being bound to conditions that are simply Not supporting life-expression, but tampering the being’s ability to actually LIVE because of having a perpetual peer pressure, social conditioning and the ‘financial-survivalism’ that makes us believe that whatever we do, we are not anywhere near ‘making it’ within this world. Within going to the ‘other side’/ opposite pole, we believe that such financial stability is only leading to self-doom and absolute ‘sell-out’ within the system – however the consequences for both are still determined and bound to get to the same ‘score board’ that is equally defined by money – who created the money system then? We did, human beings in the name of misanthropy.


  • We all have worked to build a particular personality/ ego, something that we can be ‘proud of’ – even if that suit/ personality in itself is meant to cause the exact opposite projection of pride and self-glorification, it is also experience-based.


  • Whose lives have been ‘authentic’ anyways? No one’s! And this world is the very definition of living in a constant survival mode wherein we go fearing each other, fearing losing relationships, fearing losing our own little bubble of magical words that build up the daily dose of self-talk to make us feel good/ bad and in-between -but making us constantly ‘feel’ something to make-believe that we are ‘alive.’


  • Defense mechanisms, we are all experts on that. Our entire personalities become suitable fortresses wherein we constantly hide from anyone having the actual ability to get to know ourselves, fearing to lose our ‘privacy’ as that secret mind, be living a lie that sharing too much of ourselves would imply no longer being a mystery to others, becoming ‘part of the herd.’ Any idea of having a way to ‘defend ourselves’ is only existent ‘per request’ the moment that we fear losing that which wasn’t ‘real’ anyways. We go keeping our secrets behind our heads and fearing others talking behind our backs, eventually making of this life the ultimate battle field until we die. Is this what we have dubbed as ‘ living’?


– To know what we can create/ implement/ establish within this world to be able to function ‘ideally,’ read on the Equal Money System.



Dissociative Human Nature

This defensive behavior reduces the consciousness of the threat but not the threat itself. And so, as the threats mount, the work of protecting the self concept becomes more difficult and the individual becomes more defensive and rigid in their self structure. If the incongruence is immoderate this process may lead the individual to a state that would typically be described as neurotic. Their functioning becomes precarious and psychologically vulnerable. If the situation worsens it is possible that the defenses cease to function altogether and the individual becomes aware of the incongruence of their situation. Their personality becomes disorganized and bizarre; irrational behavior, associated with earlier denied aspects of self, may erupt uncontrollably.


Mind possession and its brewing process here – we have all undergone this in-detail procedure wherein our own fear of loss as our over-protected ego experiences the threat to be debased by some external factor – one that is also usually ‘identified/ targeted’ by the individual/ ourselves throughout our life as a silent rival/ enemy that we build our entire world around in opposition and absolute contrast to.


Walk through the streets, observe your thoughts, observe people’s thoughts through and as their movements, observe your own movements, every blink of the eye, every ‘involuntary shift of paths’– I’ve seen fear, resistance, entropy and other points that I could continue listing here –  yet I realize that I am only describing myself and for that, this ‘threat’ must be understood not as some potential cookie-monster outside of ourselves: It’s Always Been Ourselves – only.


And that’s the thrilling and climatic joint-mode here – when we all would seek some-thing to swallow this one, simply because it has been of such delight to be able to blame society, the system, our parents, god, our siblings, childhood friends, teachers, doctors, bosses, partners, neighbors, presidents, money… yet forgetting or not even knowing that all – everything and everyone – has always been ourselves, this entire world as it is and how it exist is our creation. Quite an astounding level of separation from ourselves as our physical body and mind, powerful enough to create a sensation of ‘bizarre and irrational behavior’ such as believing that some paper and coins can contain actual value to get that which we need to live – some others going to the extremes to become ‘sick’ to get all the money they can as the ultimate delusion of ‘power’ and ‘control’ kicks in through the back door.

Would talking to ourselves in our minds not be considered something ‘bizarre’ considering that we live in a physical reality wherein everything that goes within our minds is absolutely matter-free and invisible? Why is believing in a god not the ultimate delusional and pathological aspect of the human being as an integral aspect to ‘research’ within psychology or psychiatry – if they want to find yet another ‘diagnosis’ that can be added to the FDA manual of self-created mindfucks to sell you some drugs to calm your ‘irrational behavior.’



Now, for that ‘uncontrollable eruption of the denied aspects of self’ as the past, as everything that we suppressed, I suggest: hold on before you attempt and do harm onto others or yourself. There is absolutely a way to stop being taken for a ride by our own mind, and that is Willing Yourself to Live and support yourself within walking an actual process of taking all the inner experience through a self-directive process to correct the words that stood as separation, and redefine what you want life to be like – for all as one and equal. Consider that it is possible for each one of us to be writing the new  philosophy of life that contains 100% Equality considerations that ensue effective human development at all levels.



If we realize that all the ‘storms’ that we create within ourselves are generated at a thought level, it becomes obvious that we are the ones that must stop stirring the thoughts and take responsibility for our experience. All forms of separation, rivalry, struggle, having to ‘defend’ ourselves for whatever reasons we believed that we could use to remain in our awesome blissful chain-buying experiences to fulfill our pursuit of happiness  – and all its related enterprises – must cease to exist as they have all served the $ame god in this reality, the greatest business and scam in our world.


We created it = It is our responsibility

If our basic human skills for socialization/ interaction with others is based on the principle of Life in Equality, wherein Self Honesty becomes the more-allity code, then no one will exist in fear of each other, there will be no need to ‘defend’ ourselves or even get lost within any form of inner or outer ‘true-self’ disparity.  We are able and capable to redefine our entire existence by focusing on ourselves, making sure that WE are the ones that Stop perpetuating the limitations that we have built toward ourselves as personalities/ shields toward each other and feeding the FDA’s manual for selling ‘legal’ drugs.  Vulnerability to communicate can only exist if we can trust each other as equals.

We stop the inner and outer wars that are currently led by the actual state of our reality that we can only define as ‘incongruent’ in all ways. There is no congruency available at the moment in this world: We must create it. We stop comparing, judging, harming, dishonoring, dissing each other and stand within a single basic principle: do/ be/ speak and live what’s best for all as others will do the same as well – that’s disentangling all our psychological dysfunctions and bearthing ourselves as the equality of Life that is long overdue in our existence.

Be-come part of the new Human-Kind.

Desteni

[1] Rogers, Carl. “Psychopathology.” Wikipedia N.p., n.d. Web. 5 Apr 2012. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Carl_Rogers

[2] Reptilians – WHO is the MIND – Part 15

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Life Review – How Thoughts Bombard the Physical and Destroy Self
Life Review – Voices trapped me in my Mind
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2012 Instant Gratification

This is part of the stuff that we share and walk at the Desteni forum, which is how we support each other to open up points that we can cross-reference in relation to ‘how we function as individuals’ within this reality, within a system that we have created as a reward-system wherein we sometimes get to experience ourselves within a ‘game’ of sorts wherein you must struggle in order to merely survive and ‘thrive’ within it, which is the entire pursuit of happiness mechanism that we are induced to by our parents, teachers, school systems, media, friends, society in general as a reflection of how we have equated ‘living’ to ‘experiences’ – commonly associated with ‘buying an experience’ and being instantly satisfied with it, only to seek for more after a while. That’s feeding only the mind’s cravings there.

 

So the following belongs to Cam Mantia in his writings within the forum.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire a quick fix to bringing about a change in myself to stand as equality and oneness – I realize that the mind moves quickly and jumps from time to time and does not remain here; I have gotten so used to the immediate gratification of the mind that I had forgotten that this reality is currently time based and requires time to play and out and to be lived here in breath.

 

That point of Self Forgiveness opened up the ‘instant gratification points here’ where we have equated this process to something that will be giving us some ‘bliss’ or ‘glory’ as having and experiencing an instant change or have a drive-thru fulfilling experience of stopping a particular pattern or habit. Within this consumerist society, we have forgotten that doing things actually takes space, time and effort to get something done. We’ve become so used to only handing out money in order to get what’s available in the store – and in that, we definitely alienate ourselves from the production process that is behind that ‘finished product.’

 

 

So the mind moving quickly and wanting to get things done asap, is a definitive pattern I have walked and I am currently working with as well, though I had not linked it to a sense of gratification or ‘props’ for my ego until  I started writing about it within a mind construct wherein I have linked ‘effectiveness’ to rushing, wanting to get things done in an almost anxious manner wherein I have not allowed myself to step down a notch from my usual ‘drive’ – which is energetic in nature – instead of walking point by point in the physical, here, at the physical breath pace.

 

The interesting thing is that I tend to judge capitalism and its production mechanisms wherein the fastest something is produced = the better, the quicker, the more satisfying and ‘ultimately fulfilling’ something is, as that is translated to profit and ‘power’ for whoever holds it in such case. At a personal mind-level, I work the same way, wherein being and perceiving myself as ‘fast and accurate’ is translated to feeling instantly and ‘inadvertently’ gratified with having accomplished something.

I recognize that I have deliberately applied myself in stopping any feeling as a the fluffy ego-props this point of ‘efficiency’ can be equated to –  as it is within the application of humbleness wherein anything we do/ say/ accomplish is not taken as a trophy, but seen and realized for the practicality of it.  I had a history of reacting when getting public recognition as in getting embarrassed about it – later on realizing that I was playing in fact the opposite role as well within seeking recognition, which I have written about in the past and how it was the first aspect that Bernard pointed out to me the day I got to the farm, lol that was cool. Since then, I have realized that I can acknowledge these points that I have walked-through and applied, recognize them for what they are and stopping ‘adding on’ to the personal record. This is then living each moment with its realization and moving on – clear- no keeping track of the personal record.

 

How did I get to that realization? Well, we don’ require to keep a record of ourselves as that would be in essence having to ‘load’ an entire lifetime-achievement and keeping it as ‘who we are’ in every moment – which is how the ego is formed – instead of realizing that if there is an actual self-realization, we integrate it as ourselves in the moment, without having to boast about it or make ourselves feel ‘better’ or ‘bad’ for having done or realized something – thus we understand that through self-forgiveness we give ourselves back to ourselves wherein no ‘more or less than’ exist, wherein we equalize ourselves to the points that we walk as our very own living application, which is seeing and realizing that we cannot possibly get somewhere/ become more or ‘achieve’ something in separation of ourselves – there is nothing to ‘earn’ or ‘lose’ – only points to realize and align within the principle of what is best for all.

 

That’s how I realized I was ‘keeping a record/ score’ of lifetime achievements and ‘loading that up’ as the idea of myself – once we stop defining ourselves according to ‘what we have done/ who we were/ how we have lived’ as the past, we give ourselves a blank slate to remain with the basic and supportive points that we have integrated as part of us integrating self-direction as a living-decision.

I also  discovered this when writing out a mind construct – I share some self corrective statements that contain the exposed above:

 

When and as I see myself rushing within my world in an idea of rushing = ‘being efficient’ I stop, I breathe. I realize that this is a copied-pattern within the belief that through rushing I will feel ‘good’ about having done something in the fastest and most accurate way when in reality, I am only ‘playing a game’ against time, against others wherein I perceive ‘the rest’ as ‘slow’ and ‘inefficient.’ I stop following this self-belief of having to rush through everything I do as a point of self-definition that makes me feel ‘good’ about myself/ feel ‘more than’ which are experiences created as a positive thinking within my personal record of lifetime achievements. Lol

 

When and as I see myself doing things from the starting point of ‘rushing’ and ‘getting it done as fast as possible’ – I stop and I breathe. I realize that doing things the fastest way is not an actual way of living here as breath at the physical pace, but existing as a constant energetic rush at a mind level. Thus, I direct myself to do things at the pace that it is required wherein I am aware of my movements being self-directive and not out of ‘rushing’ – the same with my breathing-pace wherein there is nothing to ‘compete’ or ‘achieve’ within buying groceries, but simply getting what’s required and that’s it.


Just in case you were wondering about the ‘buying groceries’ point, that’s part of a mind construct on going to the supermarket experience and getting  ‘as fast as I can’ in and out of it in order to achieve the ultimate task of buying groceries in the most ‘fast and accurate way’ lol! There’s a LOT more than what meets the eye when walking a single event through writing in such specific ways as we do within doing mind constructs, it’s fascinating. And this point is definitely related to some of this instant gratification point which becomes our current ‘living in the fast lane’ type of lifestyles, wherein some people have dared to say ‘we barely have time to think’ – but I would say that it is the other way around, we think too much, we consume too much, we rush too much within the almost embedded idea that ‘time is money.’ And just to give another perspective on the self corrective statements, the ‘acquired pattern’ is in relation to taking my father as a reference from whom I have copied this pattern/ habit, which makes it fascinating to see how we acquire all our ‘personal quirks’ from seemingly mundane events like ‘going to the supermarket with my father’ – fascinating stuff that you get to walk through the Desteni I Process.

 

I’ll leave it up to here for now, there’s many cool points that open up when looking at ‘instant gratification’ as the mind’s tendency to seek for quick fixes to fulfill the very programming that we have created for ourselves, to keep ourselves busy ‘up there’ while perceiving that breathing and being here is ‘wasting time’ or that we should be ‘doing something’ – it’s time to walk a process of balancing our day wherein we give ourselves time for ourselves, to write, to reflect on who we are every day, what we participate in and also remaining effective and directive within any physical work/ task that we require to give direction to as part of our daily reality.

 

There’s an entire aspect of the instant gratification based on our consumerist society, wherein we have all become addicts seeking the next fix – and we have to be quite aware that within this process there is certainly nothing to ‘earn’ or ‘accomplish’ that can make us ‘more’ in any way whatsoever. It is essentially only adjusting ourselves to the reality and living-principle that we should have always existed as, and it is only now that we are able to walk ourselves through our writings and Self-Forgiveness in Self Honesty in order to demystify our eternal ego-competition toward ourselves and everyone else that has a mind in this world – within this, we hold the actual power to stop an entire system of profit that is based on satisfying these very ideas of getting experiences as props for our personal score/ ego, as a lifetime achievement of experiences that we can then hold on as ‘who we are.’ We are the creators = we are able to correct chasing after experiences and ‘points’ to add to our board, and within that, stopping the cog wheels that are keeping the current system alive.

 

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If 'Survival of the Fittest' is true, is is the Marketer who is King - Selling the belief that the Freedom to pursue Self-Interest is not Enslavement to Consumerism

This time I feature Jeanne’s creation because it suits our current ‘living mentality’– lol – and the instant gratification point as the fuel that keeps this current system of zombies that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become. The quote says it all

 

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Equality debunks Massification

Response to Jessica Fuller

“I agree Ellory…equality is not the same as freedom. After all, Communists aim to make the masses equal.”

Placing the point into context. We are commenting over a fear-mongering article charged with sufficient propaganda to create the belief that living in perpetual fear and masking it with ‘survival skills’ relevant to one’s individual value schemes is something ‘clever’ to do and denoting ‘wisdom in living’ as the ‘voice of experience’ speaks. It is explained how one must ‘survive’ and protect oneself toward an apparent ‘enemy’ which is the system that we’ve created, accepted and allowed. Now within this, there are a set of prejudices that have built the brilliant educational system that is obviously sponsored by and lobbying capitalism as the ‘perfect living condition’ for people in this world. I’ve seen a constant in people’s arguments through these past  years of interacting with comments in our videos and blogs wherein we  present the solution of Equality as the implementation of the Equal Money System.

Freedom has NEVER existed in fact. It was introduced as part of the vocabulary  as an elusive concept that we were taught we had to ‘fight for,’ defend and even ‘die’ for – yet never ‘given’ as an actual living condition from birth for all equally. Look at your revolutions, they never brought any change but only superficial exchange of powers such as the ‘oppressed’ suddenly becoming the ruling class, often leading to worse results than the ones that were initially fought against.  Freedom in this current system is linked to money and money is inherently created upon abuse, therefore there is no freedom whatsoever because ‘None is Free till ALL is Free.’

Let’s look at ‘making the masses equal’ which is a particular usage of words to create the pejorative sense of ‘massification’ which is a term introduced to describe a sense of loss of individualism wherein groups of people could be directed and encompassed as a ‘whole’ with similar behavioral and thinking patterns through the media.  Therefore, isn’t it that we are already living such ‘massification?’ How about realizing that your current ‘equality’ is desiring the same as your neighbor which is achieving to live the ultimate ‘american dream’ that is charged with this idealism of being a ‘unique and special individual’ that seeks the ultimate success as money, sex and everything else that could create a sense of ‘completion’ in a human being’s lifetime.

Look at your adverts – what are they selling you? The image of perfection that makes you keep ‘striving’ to get to such happiness/ love/ bliss/ completion that is, more often than not, never actually fulfilled in a regular mortal’s life. It’s obvious that your ‘communism’ as it’s been taught in educational systems has been satanized and linked to the worst meanings possible for the sake of everyone seeing it as the ultimate ‘control,’ without ever being able to look back at ourselves and realize that we have accepted that very same  form of control, indoctrination and fascism wrapped up with false-flags of freedom and justice for all – none of them real in any way whatsoever and we only require to look at the world as proof of what I am describing here.

No one is free, we’re all abound to the same monetary system that is absolutely based on abuse and inequality, the inequality that we’ve accepted as part of the brainwashing wherein we believe that we have to ‘strive’ to get a decent living condition and that it is ‘okay’ to have over a billion beings starving in the world. This is all unacceptable and must be exposed for the propaganda it has been to determine a general social, economical and political structure designed to keep some people invariably disenfranchised so that there is always someone ‘willing to do the work’ that no one else wants to do out  of sheer necessity = extreme survival mode lived as the now friendly-named ‘modern day slavery’ which is just blatant slavery, another proof that evolution has not taken place in this world either.

“I also agree that we are responsible for ourselves. Buddhism, arguably the most peaceful religion out of all the major religions of the world, advocates that the only way you can influence lasting positive change is to begin with oneself. The New World Order has it’s talons deep in the world and it has been digging them deeper and deeper for decades…possibly even 100s to thousands of years depending how far into conspiracies you are willing to look.”

Peace is resisting war – peace is created out of the concept and acceptance of war itself in the first place. If you understand Buddhism, in common sense you will see that it promoted passivity and a general mode of observance/ detachment wherein people were never challenged to create a solution for this world; instead they were left to ‘meditate’ and ‘surrender’ to this world, taking on a light blindfold and remaining in a ‘blissful’ experience without even caring to look at how just by the mere fact of existing in this world, they were equally responsible to the ‘human condition’ that has never been ‘best for all’ or a harmonious one. Therefore Buddhism is another form of brainwashing wherein it is easy to ‘detach’ ourselves to ‘avoid suffering,’ yet the suffering remains ‘here’ and is not dealt-with. You ‘turn off your mind’ and pretend that everything is fine even though  ‘trying to keep the thoughts away’ is the first point that is being fought against when seeking such ‘peace of mind’ that is so revered and popular nowadays, it’s just another form of mental morphine to sedate ourselves from the problems that are existing in this world.

We begin with ourselves, yes, that is the principle. Yet the starting point must not be that of ‘existing in bliss’ or creating a false sense of ‘stability’ as a mind generated experience that can only exist at an individual level. It is only kept in place by the person  having to constantly turn off/ shut down the mind without actually daring to see and reveal what is existent within and in doing so, face the reality that we’ve become as our minds to walk an actual process of self correction.

I once tried ‘stilling the mind’ and entire Zen approach to life – I became so frustrated because I suppressed myself every time that I reacted within my mind that raced with thoughts and emotions that I could not ‘externalize’ and face, but simply shoved away.  It is in fact a process to create our inner demons because it all goes back into our head where it regurgitates and becomes backchat. This way we simply chew our own cud up there in our head without ever daring to speak it out and face what such drivel is revealing of ourselves.

It is only through the process of Self Forgiveness that I got to understand how we have to first allow ourselves to know ourselves, get to understand how our mind works through writing and speaking. From there the process of Self Forgiveness is taking Self-Responsibility on every statement wherein we recognize what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be/ become in separation of who we are as Life as Equals. Self Forgiveness is the only application – after many attempts to live through other various practices, philosophies and beliefs – that has enabled me to support myself and others equally by standing within one single and basic principle which is the principle that we are promoting as the base and foundation for a new system in this world: Equality as Life.

Common sense which is ‘what’s best for all’ becomes the constant measuring/ reference point to direct ourselves as our thoughts, words and deeds in our reality. This is how we begin with ourselves because we understand that we are the creators of this world and we cannot possibly look at ‘solving/ changing the world’ without first daring to look at ourselves and understanding what exists within us as our own mind. That’s the first point of Self-Responsibility.

‘The New World Order’ is as real as you want to believe it is in a similar way to the belief system we’ve accepted as our current monetary system. From my perspective it is no different to say ‘new world order’ or ‘capitalism’ or ‘socialism’ as any form of government and control over population imposed by a ruling class is equally deceptive and abusive. Hence I could say that we have existed within a perpetual ‘world order’ that has been based on the polarization of society, the survival of the fittest, the perpetuation of power for only a few that have become those that have set the rules of ‘who you are’ and ‘what you think’ currently, the same elusive ideals discussed at the beginning. They have cleverly designed the entire conspiracy theory point as their own way to entertain ‘the masses’ while igniting their sense of ‘indignation,’ yet continuing to accept a ludicrous monetary system that is certainly a point that is urgent to take self-responsibility for as every moment that we use it, we are existing in that tacit agreement for all the abuse and inequality that money is creating.

“Sitting in a circle signing “Kum-ba-ya” and discussing ideologies while plotting a peace plan celebrating equality will get us nowhere. It’s too late for all that.”

I certainly agree. Though I wouldn’t only judge people singing and praying or meditating – which are similar ways of neglecting the world – but also people that sit around watching TV consuming everything that the media says which is in fact the very artifact used for indoctrination and control to generate the necessary ‘massification’ to keep everyone well enter.tamed. What about people sitting around in their opulent international conventions to create “solutions for the world” year after year? They are also discussing only ideologies without getting anywhere. What about people discussing only about their dreams, desires and ‘pursuit of happiness’ around coffee tables? Isn’t that also part of talking about personal ideologies getting nowhere which in fact keep the current system in place because one will do ‘anything necessary’ to achieve ‘one’s dreams’ while disregarding the rest of the world. The pursuit of happiness is our demise and that’s why we must stop all forms of delusions to any form of ‘celebration’ – there is only people selling you the false sense of ‘freedom of choice’ and a ‘peace of mind’ that will run out the very first moment that you are confronted with your own feelings  and emotions and don’t know ‘how to deal with them’ other than shoving them under the rug, pretending once again that ‘everything is fine.’

There can be no celebration of Equality in this world as it has never existed – anyone claiming to do so is then in a self-brainwashing session that must be immediately stopped and exposed for the fallacy it represents.

“Now is the time to accept that life as we know it is about to change in a drastic fear-inspiring way and we might as well learn to protect ourselves and plan for the worst so that we can survive in order to join together and fight back. When you plan for the worst and the best happens then you may enjoy a pleasant surprise. When you plan for the best and the worst happens, you end up having your ass handed to you.”

I wouldn’t necessarily say that it will be in an ‘inspiring’ way. I haven’t found any ‘inspiration’ in this world other than death and destruction for creative processes –  if you are talking about that type of inspiration here. We are way overdue to accept and understand the fact that we require to stop living in our individual bubbles of self-indulgence wherein we’ve become so used to ‘the world as it is’ with its ‘flaws and charms,’ without ever really daring to question WHY we have accepted the world as it is and HOW we are all equally responsible for the current conditions of abuse we’ve imposed on to ourselves and everything here.

This world is already drastically changing indeed and the level of extinction of fauna and flora is a measuring point that gives us direct feedback of the level of destruction we’ve generated while following our dreams and desires, doing ‘everything we can’ to make an ideal imposed by the media and ‘education’ that began at home, our reality. We learned that we had to become ‘successful’ and reaching the ultimate state of ‘happiness’ and ‘success’ which is as elusive as the concepts of freedom, free-will, bliss, love, justice and any other concept that has been imprinted as ‘ideals’ that have never been lived as the actual agreements and relationships applied toward each other.

We’ve been living in a sugar coated reality of which the inside is starting to rot  and the pungent smell is seething out, reaching those that had lived in perpetual ‘safety nets’/ personal heavens where ‘everything is fine,’ which is how this type of articles are now ‘hitting home’ for many that used to boast on living in ‘the land of the free. ‘ And this must not be understood only as a criticism toward the ‘American Dream’ as we – people in the rest of the world – have managed to accept and copycat the same standards and general aims promoted by the capitalist system (American Dream.) Therefore we are all equally part of keeping our own trap in place.

Preparing for the ‘worst case scenario’ shouldn’t come with an expectation of having a ‘pleasant surprise’ as expectations are usually forms of self sabotage wherein you would then require a second ‘bail out’ to a second-layer of ‘worst case scenario’ in case you don’t get your ‘pleasant surprise’ in place. It’s very clear here how we have conditioned our self-movement, actions and self-direction upon having a controlled outcome or at least a general ‘outline’ of what we will be ‘getting’ wherein we are able to be rewarded. This is how we have always sought to ‘get something’ in exchange, we are always seeking to win and ‘overcome’ whatever adversity we have accepted and allowed as real in the first place, which can only be ourselves fighting back at us.

‘Fighting back’ is the recurred usage of words to abdicate self-responsibility and view ‘them’ as some form of ‘evil’ and ‘enemy’ outside of ourselves. In this we are in fact denying our responsibility within the creation of this current social, economical and political structure wherein we have neglected the fact that we can create a sustainable form of supporting ourselves as Equals, just as it always should have been.

Protectionism is fear based and is  another form of control to keep ‘the masses’ peacefully believing they are ‘saving their ass’ while diminishing their ability to respond– take self-responsibility – for the current conditions we are living in as the world – this means that it is the perfect implementation of ‘divide and conquer.’ People in power have obviously learned this point very well wherein they will stimulate your fear/desire of survival as ‘protectionism’ and promote it as a way to ‘guard yourself and those that you love,’  either family or friends usually, which will create a false sense of comfort based on ‘protecting’ yourself from a perpetual evil that has been self created all along.

When we break-through fear, we become actual stronger beings. This is exactly what people don’t want to realize because the more we see and open our eyes to the reality we have accepted, the easier it will be to realize that we have been brainwashed all this time and that  we can in fact create a change by the single fact of having been living in a system based on blatant lies and abuse for such a long time without ever pondering ‘why’ we are living in such disparity, suffering and abuse if the Earth and what is here is not charging us at all for what we eat and require to live.

The only motivation must be based on Equality as the realization of who I really am, and this ‘I’ includes all as one as equal – though this is not to get all emotional and sympathetic, it’s an actual realization that I am equally responsible for everything in this world: the abuse, the negligence toward all other life forms, the disregard of realizing that every other human and living being is also myself as well as the acceptance and absolute compliance to the current system which is capitalism.

Now within this context, denigrating Equality to a form of ‘massification’ can only reveal a lack of understanding of what the word implies as a living realization of who we really are. This is not a problem because we were all in the very same condition after having been equally brainwashed by our so-called authorities in this world – parents, teachers and the general structure of this world- as well as the money that dictates how everything moves, who lives and who dies.

Any proposal presented by someone and it’s not based in common sense, will pose a threat to humanity instead of an actual solution – this is by simple deduction.  (If it’s not advocating best for all then there is a set of special conditions applied only for some = separation.)

I invite you and anyone reading this to take a moment to learn about what I am saying here, check out the links below which are two websites that will change your life if you have agreed with some or all of the points I’ve exposed in this blog.

I don’t speak for ‘myself’ only, I speak and direct myself within the common sensical perspective that anyone could express in equality just by the fact of being another living being in this world. This  is how we measure our equality,  see for yourself.

http://www.destonians.com

http://www.desteni.org

http://www.equalmoney.org

http://wiki.destonians.com

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Perfectionism is an Inside Job!

Per-fact working with what is here to be created/ directed within the principle of what’s best for all – Working in specificity, living in ways that are taking into consideration an outcome that will benefit myself and all equally – there are no inner-guidelines according to my own value schemes based on comparison or fears within that. This is how we can transform our current participation in ‘perfectionism’ to self perfection.

Perfectionism – system word and the familiar imprint.

I read the word perfectionism and remembered the usual talks my parents would have with their friends around the table and how my father would boast about his peculiar traits of being methodic and a perfectionist. He’s cool from the system perspective and I’ve learned heaps from such specificity and efficiency within taking into consideration aspects that make our day to day living more practical – yet a lot is definitely based on fear and an underlying desire for control. Now that I look at the word I see that looking at the ‘driving force’ of this experience is having everything working the way ‘he wants it to be’ and this aspect can consume him the moment things don’t go as expected.

That’s when anger would ignite within him right away – it was a ‘known’ fact that if something didn’t work out the way it was expected, we would have to deal with his bad temper. It’s been cool actually because this past year  I’ve gotten to be more open in talking about how to support ourselves with my parents/ family in general, so I’ve been able to point out in the exact moment when he’s going into anger and frustration for things not resulting the way he wanted them. This has been supportive for him to snap out of it and realize that all the fuzz is absolutely unnecessary and that things have to simply be physically directed without adding any other ‘charge’ to it.

The reason why I’m writing about my father is because I require to apply the exact same points for myself.  I can see myself in him in terms of how we have lived ‘perfectionism’ as literal cage wherein we want everything to be ‘under control,’ wherein we don’t want to make any mistakes which is essentially out of fear, fear of not keeping up with this ideal that we’ve created of ourselves, our ‘reputation.’ I now remembered asking my father in one of these events ‘well, what is it that worries you the most if this doesn’t work out?’ and he replied something along the lines of ‘what everyone will say about it.’ And then he goes into his petulant mode wherein he’s just like a little kid that has been caught in the nitty gritty of what is actually ‘mattering’ within our mind, it’s actually funny because there is no place to hide once we reveal and expose ourselves. 

So, it is about fearing others’ judgments, fearing not being ‘up to the expectations’ which is just an overall fuckup since we then will try and make everything fit our imaginary idea – not a pleonasm but a required redundancy to realize how we cannot become an ‘idea’ that is only existent in our mind unless we actually live it in fact. When living in comparison and caring too much about our general ‘presentation’ toward others, we start hindering our expression and placing a lock to our expression to not get out of the ‘known-safe bounds’ and in that, giving up the ability to express, share, being, speak and act because of caring too much about what others have to say about it.

 

How I have experienced perfectionism.

It started when I was a little girl – kindergarten to be precise and I wanted to be the perfect girl that did everything I was told to do. The moment I deviated from it like grabbing a pair of scissors and cutting some boy’s hair, getting scolded and resenting such action coming from the ‘teacher,’ I got ‘stuck’ within the point of never wanting to create such ‘harm’ on to another, the kid started crying after it all seemed like ‘fun’ to me.  That’s the first imprint of ‘being mean’ at school and being reprehended for it. From there fear kicked in and made sure I was doing everything I was told to do out of fear of having to go through that ‘humiliating experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for having experienced humiliation out of being scolded without anyone taking into consideration the inner-workings and intentions behind the actions – in this

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to move from self-expression into fear because of not wanting to be ‘scolded’ again ‘in public’ and experiencing such humiliation which I didn’t know existed at the time, creating a general imprint of ‘fear’ which then became the driving force to ‘do as I’m told’ and be an obedient sheep in class.

In fact, from that moment on any ‘fuck up’ that I made during the elementary school years – like being kicked out of the class for talking too much which only happened once – I felt like the scum of the Earth, I feared to be expelled from the honorable wall of fame at school – losing the grace all teachers and others had – the ‘reputation’ point became quite prominent when being the ‘perfect system’ that does ‘everything perfect.’ In fact now that I see the latest points wherein that word has come up in my reality, I get this icky feeling like fuck that’s just not cool, it’s all ego based – how could ‘accomplishing tasks’ be related to ‘being perfect?’ It all was part of getting to know how to score in the system of rewards – nothing else.

I can only accept Self Perfection as myself and in that, we all have to stand equal and one to it – that would be principles and self-will to be efficient, practical, specific in terms of what will create an outcome that’s best for all. I speak of ‘creation’ because that’s what we are doing here with ourselves and the world. Therefore, now that we understand that all points within creation must be equally responsible, we can see how within being self responsible, correcting ourselves and accumulating words and deeds that co-operate to create a best for all outcome is walking the process of Self Perfection. This then cannot be a mind/ ego-driven move, but a best-for-all consideration that anyone can apply in an equal manner.

The reason why we have become so hooked on ‘perfectionism’ is due to the current system wherein one has to be absolutely ‘fit’ and aligned to its rules to keep going – this is just another survival-mechanism point because the main motive is fear once again. Whether it is fear of judgment, of not having money, fear of loss, etc. we have to take such fears to see where we have placed our value/worth upon.

Walking in this process has allowed me learn how to work as a team for the first time as I used to ‘loathe’ to work in teams, because it would usually mean having other 4 people wanting to be in my team because they knew and I knew I would do it all – yes I would create such a situation for myself and accept to do it all most of the times just so that I could make sure it was done ‘the right way.’ Once again we see that the motivation was fearing it would be a fuckup and believing that ‘my way’ is the ‘best way.’ I have stunned myself whenever I see how cool it is to brainstorm about points to the extent that I can see how funneling everything within the principle of equality can create an actual diversity of perspectives that lead to the same point – yet using different ways and expressions to get there, that’s the cool part.

It’s probably been over a  decade since I started letting go much of the initial hardcore perfectionism I experienced as a child – I mean, when I was around 8 years old if things didn’t go out the way I wanted, I would become frustrated and angry and bottle myself in it only getting to see some ‘light out of the tunnel’ with some support that I would get from my mother at that time, allowing me to see how I was simply able to do the things without having to be so strict and ‘hard on myself.’ I see how I would take such comments like ‘quick fixes’ that she could say in order for me to have like a spoon fed of honey to get past the bitterness, I would not really consider what she was saying. It did support to snap out of it and learn to be more flexible with my own religion. Like if I would say: I go to bed at 9:15 I had to be in bed at that time, no matter where I was I would have to be in bed because otherwise I was breaking my own rules and that was equal to what missing Sunday’s mass is for a hardcore christian.

I created for myself an overly-apprehensive childhood, no one was putting a gun to my head to have set such standards of ‘being the best’ all the time, it was like literal preprogramming running itself wherein my parents never had to bother in asking if I had done my homework or doing exhaustive reviews on my homework. My mother would support me with tools to learn useless data and create questionnaires to enhance the understanding of what I was learning –  that was it.   The drive that I would experience in an almost automated way to ‘be the best one in the class’ was driven by fear of losing my reputation and image toward others.

After these initial years at school I learned ‘the ways of the system’ wherein I simply got to know the ‘rules’ and started manipulating the points to get the desired outcome, extenuating the effort as well.  This is Not Self Perfection at all! Yet from a system perspective it was regarded as such – it was me becoming part of the ones that are able to manipulate things to suit my reputation/ ego. It actually sucks when people build a certain ‘idea of yourself’ and then create all types of expectations of ‘who you are’ and when finally getting to meet you, they eventually see you are just another mortal that is not self perfected – yet.

 

I can also now pinpoint the times in the past wherein I would create this ‘lower standard’ of something I had created even though it was ‘well done’ just to create a ‘safe zone,’ like a margin of error wherein if people thought it wasn’t ‘good enough,’ they would have my initial input of the work ‘not being good enough’ so that they could then measure the end result according to their judgment and my input and create an ‘acceptable average’ from it all. All fucked up complicated value systems – the mind complicates everything and it’s all done just for the sake of keeping up an imaginary standard that apparently can uplift of diminish who we are – it’s not real!

 

From Perfectionism to Self Perfection – the process.

The way to go every time from here on that I experience any perfection-demon kick I  stop for a moment and become aware of what is the driving force within this – what is it that I am actually supporting here and if common sense is not able to be found, we’ll know it’s being an ego-driven task directed to fulfill a certain patterned-idea of myself that is not self-supportive, that will not be applicable for all equally and will only stand as a general bluff within my experience.

Self-perfection is taking all into consideration to the best outcome possible – perfectionism is just ego-driven desires and fears which are the same but just in opposition to each other. It implies then stopping the desire to be ‘the best’ or beating my own standards and self-created ‘records’ to simply continue living in a way that is supportive for myself and everyone equally. That way we let go of measuring ourselves against ourselves and others and feeling ‘good’ or ‘bad’ about it.

“Perfectionism is based in fear – self perfection is based in self creation” – Bernard Poolman

And with that we can see how we’re all walking the process of self creation wherein self perfection is the accumulation of consistent self-application directed toward a best for all outcome.

 

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