399. What is Missing in this World for Real Change?

The Necessity of Living by Principles

Throughout these past 6 and a half years I have embarked myself to understand more about the reality that I live in and that I most certainly was blinded from to be able to understand. Looking back and ‘putting the pieces together’ many of us – if not everyone and some simply don’t like to give ‘much thought’ into it – actually KNOW there is something profoundly wrong or ‘missing’ in our lives and this world. Yes, I also sought answers in some greater purpose, even in some divine and rather metaphysical concepts that I would simply hold on to because it remained as a comfortable lie that I ‘made sense of’ because it was comfortable and really not that challenging either, it was all about waiting and hoping in fact. But, the reality is that this was all the knowledge trap covered at all ‘fronts’ in the reality we live in to not EVER look in the most obvious place, the one that has always been here and that we have blatantly missed while ‘seeking truths’ or ‘seeking ourselves’ out there somewhere else: ourselves.

We are in fact living in a crucial time in our lives where the truth is being revealed behind the Veils to genuinely see the principle that has ruled us all thus far: Evil as the reverse of LIFE. I understand this might be rather an uncomfortable truth but for me it was actually the most supporting thing I could ever do, to be willing to understand that our actual nature as human beings is not that of benevolence, dignity, integrity, solidarity, love or else – and we have the blatant proof of that which is our world which we tend to reduce to a power-hunger game missing out the clue of where it all started in the first place, which is within ourselves, our very nature from which the rest of the world-system as we know it and the way we have enslaved each other to be masters and slaves has in fact emerged from: our own necessity to be controlled and to have such controllers, just because we have abdicated our power all along.

Throughout this process I have worked with – and continue to work on – being able to uncover/dis-cover my true potential that I had sedated and suppressed within personalities, ideas, beliefs of myself of which now I can look back and understand why so many of us still fear to ‘come to the front’ and speak up. Well, for reference of that you can read this blog site you’re on at the moment, I can only briefly say that there’s a massive de-brainwashing to be done in order for us to genuinely start recognizing the Power we all have and yes, ‘power’ as in our ABILITY and CAPACITY to direct ourselves to precisely ‘be the change that we want to see in the world’ which is not a positive-thinking mentality, this IS the Actual Process that it will take for us to genuinely change the foundation of the current ‘world-system’ that we see so ‘far’ from ourselves, not realizing that its very foundation exists/relies and solely exists in the intricacy of every single Though, Emotion and Feeling participation wherein we Allow ourselves to be Governed by the MIND, which is a preprogrammed Consciousness system in which we have only existed as fuzzy-logic survival-mode organic robots from which we have always only learned how to equate our OWN benefit and survival – but never ever learned how to genuinely start consider HOW we affect others with our decisions, our actions, our thoughts.

 

We have beseeched for ‘clues’ for ‘saviors,’ for a ‘good president’ to come and be our MESSiah, well, yes we have gotten ourselves only further down the rabbit hole because we haven’t yet understood one very basic principle: this world wasn’t founded upon the mercy of any god, it is actually ruled by our collective irresponsible ways that have created the reverse of life and as such it is to understand that: Nothing will change unless, I Change, unless We All make a stand and Change within ourselves and so the change in the without will be an outflow of this starting point which is Self-Change.

This is how we bring it all Back to Self and see, ok so what have we been Missing all along? What have we been Dissing all along? Living Principles – look at our culture! It’s plagued with vices, violence, revering death and destruction, consumerism, laziness, apathy, insanity, greed, power, sexual depravity, psychological abuse and the initiation of children to this great Consumerist CULTure wherein we have done everything but learning and fomenting ways of how to Honor ourselves as Living Beings –  that is Nowhere to be found!  not within parental education, in schools, in media, in arts, in politics, in religion, nowhere! Everywhere we have tainted ourselves with the same ILLusions of feelings as benevolence, feeling ‘good’ for doing some charities or believing that to Love Humanity means to ‘wish well’ for everyone, without even realizing why we have had the need to create such words as Love that imply only a fluttering experience in your stomach as a sign that Energy is all that we have in fact become within ourselves and toward another – but not life.

Everywhere I have researched and sought for answers, for a genuine structure of change I only have found further polarized solutions like thinking positively all day and deny ‘all the bad’ in your mind, seeking revenge to ‘the powers that be,’ changing personalities, doing some charity work here and there, be all nice and smiley and hope for better times to come or accept reality ‘as is’…. well, seriously, where are we pretending to get ourselves with that? Nowhere, of course as it’s all based on characters, ideas, self-presentations of ‘who we are’ toward OTHERS and so once again, missing out Who? Ourselves.

We require to have the actual guts and courage to develop some self-honesty along with having a directive structure and understanding of how it is that through one individual making a decision to stand AS and be Consistent and Congruent on the decision to Live by Principles, we become an Actual Revolution in this world, one that has Never existed before because we have always sought ‘solutions’ in the pre-fabricated Hegelian mentality of Thesis-Antithesis and creating the marvelous polarized and prefabricated upgrade of Synthesis. This has been our problem, still thinking within the same MIND-Construct and framework with which we have Created the problems in the same place.

Time to get OUT of the BOX as that’s where the illusion exists, that’s where we are governed by ideas, beliefs, fears, feelings and emotions, history, world-system constructs that we have obediently followed to the T out of fear.

Thinking OUT of the Box implies Living by Principles, doing exactly what you won’t see advertised on the TV, what Isn’t a ‘fashionable trend’ in the media and entertainment,, what would make you feel deeply uncomfortable in the first phases of implementing this as it IS in fact about getting out of our comfort zone, out of the comfort of fears, of resistance to change, or fearing to actually have to step Out of the Box  where we have become obedient slaves and have come to adore as our prison, our own mind – Nothing and no one else but ourselves will cure our Stockholm Syndrome but ourselves.

So, this is why I have decided to walk the process of Living by Principles, where I have come to realize that I must ‘search no further’ for answers, but that the answer exists and resides within me, within the volition to actually become the point of change I sought outside of myself.

Hereby I commit myself to live by the following principles that represent me and many more around the world that have taken this oath to themselves in Equality, as the necessity of recognizing our actual power and so living it for the benefit of everyone in this world and existence, in Equality AS Life.

 

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The Desteni of Living – My Declaration of Principle

1.       Realizing and living my utmost potential

2.       Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all

3.       Living by the principle of self honesty – to ensure I am pure in thought, word and deed: that my within and without is equal and one. Who I am within is who I am without and vice-versa

4.       Self Purification through Writing, Self Forgiveness and Self Application – the action of realizing I am responsible for my own thoughts, words and deeds, to forgive myself for transgressions and change myself to ensure I Take Responsibility for who, what and how I am and through this know that I can trust myself to always be honest with me and so others

5.       Living the principle of Self Responsibility – realizing only I am responsible for what I accept and allow inside of me, my relationships and my outside world and so with this responsibility: only I have the power and ability to change that which I see is compromising who I am, what I live and how this affects others

6.       Realizing that who I am in thought, word and deed affects not only myself – but others as well and so with Self Responsibility in thought, word and deed – I take responsibility for myself and so my relationships to be Self Aware in every moment  and live in such a way that is best for me and so others as well

7.       Living the Principle of Self Awareness – to be aware, to see, to recognize my own thoughts and Mind, to be Self Honest to the extent where I can take responsibility for when I see my thoughts / Mind is not what is best for me / others and commit to immediately take responsibility and change for myself and so for others

8.       With taking responsibility for myself, becoming aware of myself – take responsibility and become aware of others in my life, to assist and support them as I am assisting and supporting myself – to give as I would like to receive and do the extra bit every day to see where I can contribute to other’s lives and so my own

9.       Living the principle of self trust – as I commit myself to remain constant in my living of self honesty, self responsibility and self awareness, I stand as an unbending trust that I always in all ways know who I am no matter what I face and that in this I know, as proven in the constancy of my living that I will always honor and stand by what is best for all and so best for me

10.    Making Love Visible – through me not accepting/allowing anything less than my utmost potential, I support those in my life to reach their utmost potential, to love them as I have shown love to myself by gifting to me my utmost potential, the best life/living experience and show others as I have shown myself what it means to LIVE

11.    No one can save you, save yourself – the realization that the tools and principles of Desteni is the guide, but I must walk the path myself. We are here to assist and support each other in this process from Consciousness to Awareness/LIFE and what it means to live – but the process itself, where you are alone with yourself in your own Mind: is walked alone

12.    Not waiting for anything or anyone to take responsibility for me and this world – but that I realize I have created who and how I am in this moment, therefore I have the responsibility to change who and how I am and so the realization that we as a collective created how and what this world is today and so it is the responsibility of the collective to change how and what this world is today

13.    Honoring the life in each person, animal – everything from the great to the small of Earth, that we expand our awareness and responsibility to creating the best possible life for everyone and everything and so ourselves

14.    Relationships as Agreements: individuals coming together using agreements as a platform to one-on-one expand, grow and develop as individuals in life and living to support/assist each other unconditionally to reach their utmost potential where the agreement is a coming together of individuals understanding what it means to stand as equals and to stand as one

15.    Sex as Self Expression – where sex is an united expression between individuals in honor, respect, consideration and regard of each other as equals, two physical bodies uniting in equality and oneness – a merging of two equals as one physically.

16.    Realizing that by the virtue of me being in this world – my responsibility does not only extend to my own Mind / my own Life, but to the minds and lives of everything and everyone of this earth and so my commitment is to extend this awareness to all of humanity to work together and live together to make this world heaven on earth for ourselves and the generations to come

17.    I must in my thoughts, words and deeds – but most importantly in my Living Actions, become a Living Example for others in my world that is noticeable and visible when it comes to the potential of a person to change themselves and so change their world. So that more people can realize how we can change this world, by standing united in our self change within the principle of what is best for all to bring heaven to earth

18.    I am the change I want to see in me and my world – to bring heaven to earth is to bring into being, into living the LIVING PROOF of a PRACTICAL HEAVEN that can be seen and heard in our actions and words. We are the Living Heaven that must come into creation in this Living World.

19.    Through purifying my thoughts, words and deeds – my inner becomes my outer, so I bring into creation me as heaven into earth, realizing it is not enough to ‘see the change / be the change’ – for change to become REAL it must be a constant, consistent living of me through the words I speak and the actions I live visible and noticeable to all in every moment of breath

20.    Realizing that my physical body is my temple – my physical body is the living flesh through which and in which I will bring into being and create / manifest heaven on earth as me in my thoughts, words and deeds and so I honor, respect and regard – nurture and support my physical body as I would nurture and support me as equals: my body is me

21.    We are the change in ourselves and this world we have been waiting for: and so I commit to dedicate myself and my life for each one as all to realize this, as nothing will change if we don’t change in all that we are, within and without

22.    The realization that for me to be able to change myself in thought, word and deed to the most effective living being that I can be and become – I first have to ‘know thyself’ and so commit myself to investigate, introspect and understand how I became who I am today, to prepare the road before me into self creation of a responsible, aware, self honest and trustworthy person for myself and so for all

23.    The realization that for me to be able to contribute to change in this world – I have to get to ‘know thyself’ as this world and so commit myself to research, investigate and introspect the inner and outer workings of this world and align the systems of today to present and give the best possible life for all on Earth

 

 

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289. Our Lives as Money-Making Machines

 

Did you chose your profession based on your vocation/preference to it or because of the amount of money you’d make out of it?  How will this change if everyone go the same profit no matter what job you have?

 

Recapitulating, we’re going word by word in a very basic definition of Capitalism to redefine it, explore it and see what each word means and how we are able to re-direct every aspect of this collective agreement into a Best for All system.

 

Capitalism is an economic system that is based on private ownership of capital goods and the means of production, and the creation of goods and services for profit.^[1][2] Elements central to capitalism include capital accumulation,competitive markets, and a price system.^[3]

^{source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Capitalism}

 

Continuing from:

• 288. Goods and Equal Money Capitalism
• 287. You get Happy with your Paycheck?
• 286. The More Goods we Own, the More Good we Are?
• 285. Who Taught us What We Want in Life?
• 284. Capital Goods and Equal Money Capitalism
• 283. Private Property and Equal Money Capitalism
• 281.The Benefits of Redefining Rewards in Equality

For context on redefining capitalism, read: Day 180: The Word ‘Capitalism’ in ‘Equal Money Capitalism Redefined

 

 

Services:  

 

Services: Intangible products such as accounting, banking, cleaning, consultancy, education, insurance, expertise, medical treatment, or transportation.

Sometimes services are difficult to identify because they are closely associated with a good; such as the combination of a diagnosis with the administration of a medicine. No transfer of possession or ownership takes place when services are sold, and they cannot be stored or transported, are instantly perishable, and  come into existence at the time they are bought and consumed.

Read more: http://www.businessdictionary.com/definition/services.html#ixzz2JjU16q2w

 

 

What has become of Social Reciprocity?

What’s interesting about ‘Services’ is that it is in fact the very human component of our economy that makes everything function in our society, it is the ‘life’ that requires producing and consuming the goods and services that are entailed within the definition of ‘living’ within this world, which is implying maintaining our environment, our body and the relationships with one another in a mint condition.

Current services we have range from processing data to cleaning,  translating, accountancy, security, body hair removal, dental hygienist, hospitality industry, real state, sex services, performing arts,  social work, transportation, customer service, plumbing, coroners, diplomacy, lawyers, janitors, childcare, catering and the public utility ones such a water, electricity, waste management, telecommunications, gas – all of this is what makes a society functional, however, many of these jobs/professions/activities currently are not paid equally, which implies that a janitor will make less money than the person providing a medical service – and this is where one considers the amount of money/time that a doctor spent on their studies to perform their job while seemingly a janitor only requires physical force to do his/her job. However, it is quite obvious that both are equally important, since both are required for a functional living condition. A doctor would not be able to perform a surgery in an untidy place, and that would make his job impossible without having the basic hygiene in place.

 

 

Where’s the ‘natural vocation’ to perform a service?

There’s also been a creation of needs that lead to the creation of services has been a result of existing in a debt-economy, wherein people would always seek to create more money to pay their initial debt and as such, there is this constant need to ‘make money’ to be able to pay for basic necessities and interest rates from initial investment in learning/ acquiring licenses to perform any form of service as well as paying for basic needs and bills. People then would opt for providing services that would ‘make a lot of money’ wherein there’s no real human component of them being truly willing to perform such task as a point of expression, but rather only focusing on the final pay for it.  I am sure that not many people were born being willing to guard someone’s back and risking their lives to protect another person that is considered ‘important’ due to the value they represent as an asset themselves –all your elite people – however, that’s a way for the person to have a stable income and provide for their family, because maybe he/she had no opportunity to study to have an equal opportunity to become a lawyer, even if their skills would show that he/she would be good at it – this is what we mean by having forced ourselves into slavery, because we are performing jobs that we really do not want to do, but Have-to in order to get money.

 

 

No matter what service you give, you’ll be equally remunerated

This has reduced our lives to single commodities wherein the majority of the people ended up doing a certain job/profession that they really didn’t want to do. Some others might have ended up studying to become a doctor when their passion was to take care after peoples’ dogs, and some people that were managers in great corporations would have been happier if they could become a construction worker and physically work to build houses. Someone might prefer to provide cleaning services than working to study to become an accountant, because they’re really good at it and they find it non-stressful, they will get equal profit as the company’s accountant – is that fair? Yes, of course, both human beings have the same needs, live in the same world, using the same services.

 

One aspect that would amaze me from first world countries is knowing that gardeners, plumbers, landscapers, janitors were paid well enough to have the money to travel around with their entire family and have a fairly decent lifestyle, while me being in a ‘third world country,’ our gardener would mostly be part of a lower-rank in society, without any form of social security or working benefits that anyone should have by virtue of being existing within the same social system where basic rights to goods and services must be a recognition of the individual being part of this reality, as simple as that. Our gardener actually stopped being an electrician to dedicate himself to gardening as a full time job, and he was the best gardener in our entire neighborhood until the day he died – was he happier working with plants than electricity cables? Yes – would he make more money being a gardener than an electrician? Doubtful.

 

Charles Eisenstein in his book Sacred Economics identifies how services are social reciprocity that has been turned into a commodity in our current economic model, which is definitely so, as he mentions ‘we can always pay someone else to do it’ and within that, the consideration of a person’s contribution in a particular area in our reality becomes another replaceable job that exists within the realms of competitiveness and pricing. This leads to other psychological dysfunctions such as depression, aversion and hostility when a person is performing a job that they simply Do Not Want to perform.

 

 

Slave Labor will Not be a “Service”

There are several services right now that will have to cease to exist, because they have been the result of slavery, a tradition in itself that we’ve come to ‘adapt’ into our society without a second thought of what it is actually entailed in paying someone to clean Your house and take care of Your children.  This is a service that currently exists because many people have to work and have no time to take care of their own cleaning and children themselves. Even if they do have the time, having a maid becomes quite a comfortable situation for the person that requires the service. We all know and understand that girls are pushed to leave their homes – specially rural communities – in order to ‘come to the city and make big money to take back to their families,’ which implies an entire process of living away from their environment – leaving family, friends, communal activities of socialization behind – refraining themselves most of the times from finishing any form of proper education and mostly ending up making enough money to escape with their boyfriends, or go to ‘the other side’ to make more money in even more exploitative jobs, and this is all because of Money.

These housekeeping services are not regulated, people do not get social security guarantees for supporting in house-work, they are not regulated by proper contracts, which makes of these jobs rather unstable and insecure when it comes to having someone that is not of your family, not of  your immediate neighborhood living inside your house, being there as part of your family yet doing the chores that every single member of such family/house environment should perform. That’s common sense, but, we haven’t seen it in such a way because of the Power that money has to pay someone to do something we are mostly not educated to do as part of our Living Responsibility.

 

In this example, many factors must be considered such as people’s willingness to clean their houses, which will determine how big their houses will be, it will create a necessity for each inhabitant contributing to the cleaning and taking care of their own use of the house, rooms, dishes, distributing the gardening work, cooking, etc. Work distribution in itself is a way to cover these slave-jobs as maids that we currently have made ‘indispensable’ simply because of the known-fact of being able to pay someone to do it – plus, people won’t be working such a great amount of hours a day to not have the time to take care of the basic maintenance themselves. 

 

In terms of ‘maids,’  I am certain that if these girls in rural communities are equally supported with Education, they won’t be aspiring to ‘go to to the city to make a living there’ but will most likely remain in their communities and develop their lives providing a service/ working to support in their locality, there is no ‘natural disposition’ for any being to go and live in someone else’s house to support them with their own responsibilities, and from this perspective we can see what is a forced job and what isn’t.

 

 

People go to ‘the other side’ as we know mostly people from the south hemisphere of the Earth going up north to make more money, even if their job goes from taking care of children and cleaning houses in a rich family’s compound to working 8-12 hours a day in factory or crops, essentially work that has been diminished to ‘slave labor’ because of the same predisposition we have all created within our society, wherein physical/real/tough activities are Less remunerated than those jobs that are related to ‘intellectual’ work, which in fact should not go now to the ‘opposite’ and be less rewarded, but simply considered as equally valued and vital as the very physical work that is the one that makes such managing/ accounting possible in the first place.

 

So, there can be Many examples to see how we have separated ourselves from our drive to live and contribute to our communities in a way that is best for all, just because of having to subjugate this preference of ‘living skill’ to a real need/requirement for money/ making enough  to live, and this is where Equal Money Capitalism will generate a new way of looking at/considering jobs to provide services in our society, because everyone will be obtaining equal-profit from any position they have within any economic activity, and this is what will restore that initial sense of community and social reciprocity wherein people will be working to the best of their abilities, because there is no more competition or survival-conditions for them to become someone they don’t want to, which means we won’t have any more unsatisfied, depressed, tired looking people doing jobs that only generate money to then make more money and within this money-aim all sense of being alive is lost.

 

 

Serving Life in Equality 

 

Services will have to be restored to being the impetus of collaboration, cooperation and self-drive to contribute to that which benefits the whole, the community, wherein no job will be ‘less than’ others, wherein no more competition will drive people to hate each other to get a certain job or position, since there will be no restriction from a person opting to study to become a doctor than educating themselves to become a gardener, it will be a matter of seeing what they are really willing to contribute with and actually enjoy doing.

 

All services that contributed to support slavery or any other human denigration based on the need for money will cease to exist.This will imply no more child labor, prostitution, drug dealing, clandestine animal killings, home maids, hired-killers and various other deliberately abusive/harmful activities will cease to exist, because there will be no reason for them to exist in the first place if one will not be able to make ‘more profit’ by producing ‘cheap goods,’ because pricing will no longer be an aspect that represents ‘more profit’ but equal profit at all times. You won’t require to send your kids to work because they will have access to education and you as a parent will always have a job to provide for your family.

 

There will be no need for prostitution if people learn how to establish proper agreements/ relationships based on mutual support, not self interest or any other pushed convenience by societal-norms. Drug-dealing, which can be a 24 hour service, will cease to exist in a world where people won’t seek to get ‘high’ to ‘escape reality’ any longer, but instead learn how to Live and enjoy every waking day of our lives. The same with killing that is always the outcome of some mental pathology that will be prevented with proper education of children from the moment of inception until they are suited well enough to continue a living-pattern of dedicating one’s life to Live and honor each other as equals, where there will be no passion crimes, no vengeance acts to ‘kill someone’ and get away with murder.

Our lives will be fully dedicated to giving and receiving in Equality, which implies that there will be many transformations taking place in order to equalize the value of ourselves and what we do within the understanding of our interrelatedness as an economic organism where every single person must have equal right to exist and be equally supported to do so in the best way that we are able to. This all begins at the level of introspecting about our own life and finding out how we can re-direct/ redefine what we do and why we do it in a world wherein Money won’t be a goal in itself, but a means to learn how to live.

 

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255. Your Life has been a Lie, What is Real Then?

 

Our lives have been like a play: you’re born into the world, you never question the script, you learn your lines, you do all you can to keep yourself in the role as you grow up, maybe even try and evolve the role or ‘out do’ it, but eventually only managing to become the exact opposite of what you originally were, which is still defined by the first role you begun playing in the first place – still a controlled form of rebellion. You accept limitations without a question because there must be a director out there that is ready to fire you/ punish you if you skip a line or two, or dare to give more of a ‘freedom’ in expression to your character. You accept the menial ways in which a ‘living’ is made, you learn ‘that’s just the way it is’ and conform to that since everyone else seems to be doing ‘just fine’ with it – you comply. You sometimes reflect back at your character and believe there is inherently something wrong with you, you realize that the character is not really who you really are since there is always this ‘something’ that ‘just doesn’t seem right,’ but you see all the rest of the characters/ people playing their part without a care, they seem perfectly normal and comfortable being their personalized selves, without ever actually communicating with one another that they also felt the exact same way you do, and pondered the same questions you had, but were too afraid to speak up out of being ‘odd’ to step out of the role and question the entire play to finally stop playing in it, because fear then came in: what will we be then? Who will I be without this role?

 

“When an Answer is Given and Received, there is No Living Force that can Give and Receive – because, what has been Received is Accepted and Allowed to be the ‘Only Answer’.
What Answers have you been Given, that you Received so Completely – that you Became it? Your Religion, your Thoughts, your Feelings, your Culture, your Economic System, Education… See the Perversion of the Message of Jesus: “Give as you would like to Receive”, has been Adapted to: “the Answer Given, is the Answer Received”. And because the Answer is Given, you’re Rewarded when you Receive it. This is the Key of the Sacred Geometry Preprogrammed Design. The Program is the Answer – all you have to do is Receive it. And when the Platonic Solids go into Equilibrium as a System, you have Received the Answer and you have Become the Answer – Complete Acceptance and Allowance.” – Bernard Poolman

 

For context read Day 255: The Answer is Given and Thus Received – Secret Geometry of Consciousness and God – Part 3 – ADC – Part 102 by Bernard Poolman

 

 

One single paragraph explains the history of our civilization wherein we simply assumed, believed, perpetuated such beliefs from generation to generation as the purpose of living, the why we are here, what we came here for. And because of all of us wanting to veer toward this ‘tuning in’ with the system, we all sought to be happy and fine and peaceful and glorious without a single question, without pondering why some others had to spend their entire lifetimes physically suffering for some others to have the greatest luck of all to be born in a golden womb. We accepted the answers ‘That’s just the way it is/ that’s the way things are’ and it is inevitable to not see this as a point that could anger all of us, because we all knew it all the way and still kept going, shoving aside all the questions that would emerge every single day, we kept going in the inertia of our own preprogrammed system.  This is the same pattern we have all lived out in one way or another where you know there is something that you must stop, that you simply cannot continue doing/ living within a certain pattern/ dependency/ addiction/ habit, but still: we keep on doing it.  And what’s even more shocking is that sometimes these patterns are the most difficult ones to give up, just because of the intricate relationship with energy, the habits/ patterns that we have patterned ourselves as ‘who we are,’ which becomes then an energetic dependency that we give names as ‘our identity’ our ‘likes, dislikes, preferences’ and justify with further given-answers that the rest accepts as an actual ‘how things are’ type of thing = answer-received.

But, it is even more tricky to question everything within a system that seems to be working ‘quite well’ even within its limitations – and this ‘quite well’ is the conformity aspect, the moment we gave into ‘how things are’ with its ‘ups and downs/ trials and tribulations’ that we have accepted as our life. This is ‘How it must be’ and then we create fantastic stories about religion, or having to suffer to earn some heaven, or coming to the Earth to learn some lessons and ‘earn a living’ because somehow there is something that must always remain as an unknown secret to our existence that we then believe we have to ‘seek for’ as ‘our truth’ and in that, man, you become lost, because all you’ll find in books and from person to person is nothing but the same preprogrammed answers that were deliberately ‘left’ for people to create the very belief systems that would become religions with strong faith in ‘god’ or something greater than us directing the show, within this not questioning ‘god’s creation’ because that’s what we are here, for, that’s what we must do then and be complacent about it. 

Perfect systems of control that are sugar coated with names like ‘the purpose of life/ finding god/ becoming enlightened’ which is only tuning into the utmost form of enslavement as the perfect system that will keep on existing with the same thoughts, feelings, emotions, personality systems and relationships created in order to get oneself to be ‘the winner’ in the play no matter what, because: that’s what we apparently have to be and become, because it looks good/ feels good = must be good and positive.

Suggest also reading 2012 Wake up, Character: Life is not a Play!

 

Biggest Lie we’ve all participated in – same point as being mesmerized by the perfection of all the systematic equilibrium of a system that functions upon abuse – just like a shiny car on the outside that hides inside all the machinery and processes that would not look as ‘glamorous’ as the external surface, because we’ve been so used to only go for the picture / image of it and that’s it, not question anything further, take it as is. Same goes with nature: we spiritualize it creating this marvelous idea of how it perfectly works but forget about the actual laws that are still defining such interactions, which are pretty much the same processes of any form of consumption/ destruction that must exist in order to survive as a system. This is how life and death is happening all the time, yet we’ve come to fear death and seek to be alive by equating ‘life’/ living to all things positive. Really?

 

 

“This is the Key of the Sacred Geometry Preprogrammed Design. The Program is the Answer – all you have to do is Receive it. And when the Platonic Solids go into Equilibrium as a System, you have Received the Answer and you have Become the Answer – Complete Acceptance and Allowance.”

 

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Last post I wrote about creating an experience about the ‘order and control’ we see in our reality, wherein we seek harmony, peace, joy, bliss and all the positive things that we have been Taught and accepted and allowed it is what life is all about. One can probably resonate with things like ‘the meaning of life’ and having a purpose, having a goal, ‘all I want in life is to be happy’ and it is quite a shame to realize how we have been so limited to live the way we do with everything we deem as ‘our living’ which is obviously not acceptable – yet we all accepted and allowed everything as is. I asked many questions as a child and would take most of the answers as ‘how things are,’ there would always be this sting wherein I knew that such answer was insufficient, but I stopped questioning because everyone thinks that the moment you question a lot, you’re in to become a sad and depressed person, because somehow becoming aware of how things actually work in the world is something negative – that’s why when one presents an emotional turmoil when becoming aware of every form of abuse we’ve accepted and allowed in this world, we are only victimizing ourselves about something that we have all quietly and adamantly participated in, without a question.

“When an Answer is Given and Received, there is No Living Force that can Give and Receive – because, what has been Received is Accepted and Allowed to be the ‘Only Answer’.”

 

This is why and how we have never been alive, it’s only been systems that we’ve become and played without a question, because of accepting fear as a real limitation to see behind the scenes and go backstage to reflect upon the roles, to see, realize and understand why we are putting up this show for and if it is in fact something that is best for all. None of our lives have lead to a best for all outcome, nothing in this world is currently set to support actual life, but only overcome the obstacles that we created in the first place, only mitigate the consequences that we created and inflicted upon ourselves as a limitation, as ‘who we are’ from the beginning, only create a good experience to ‘help those in need’ while we’ve been the ones that neglected the unconditional support to all in the first place.

 

See the insanity we’ve created as ‘our lives’ and how futile it is to try and patch it/ band aid it with solutions that only try and fix patterns that are embedded in the very blueprint of who we are as our mind/body and the world system that we’ve built as a supportive platform to continue our limited existence as a mind-body in survival mode and seeking self interest above any form of living principle of equality.

The Education of how the mind works is a vital first step to realize all of this, to understand that we have never in fact Lived – and how it is at the same time absolutely possible to become a living-directive being if we direct ourselves to equalize our living to a best for all living process wherein we stop, self forgive and correct all the mind-driven activity that we have embodied without a question as the answer-given / answer-received relationship that kept the current status quo of abuse and disregard in this world without a doubt.

Please study the Quantum Mind Self Awareness interviews for further context as well as any other series at Eqafe that support one equally to become aware of who we are/ what we’ve become and how to walk the correction to stop being the abusive players leading to our own self-destruction.

 

The reason why we are doing this is because it’s clear that nothing in this world is working alright for anyone, not even those that ‘have all the money’ as they too depend on money to keep their personal-heavens in place. That is not sustainable and as long as one single being is being abused/ exploited to build another’s heaven = problem and we all must take the responsibility to solve it by creating a feasible solution that will ensure that within this system, we grant each other equal access to everything we requite to live. Thus it is our living principle to stop the system from running in this zombie-mode and actually wake up to see what we have accepted and allowed as the absolute configuration of ourselves as individuals in this preprogrammed system that ensured lack and wealth for people in an arbitrary mode, all for the sake of keeping some energetic system that runs on polarity to keep its ‘perfect functioning’ without ever questioning why abuse and suffering must exist to keep this perfect-functioning running ‘smoothly’ apparently.

 

The show must end, and nature, the animal kingdom are already standing up, it is only us now that are unaware of this and must become so if we are really willing to become part of the solution to this mad show we’ve ignorantly accepted and allowed. Till here no further, because we are unaware of the hell that billions have to go through in order to ‘make it’ through this hellish place we’ve made of ‘our world,’ without counting the uncountable amount of species and Earthly resources as the substance of the physical that we are abusing to ‘run the show’ as well.  What’s Real is the physicality that we embody, the physicality we consume to keep existing and it is clear for sustainability purposes that we must consider at all times all beings as part of the equations that can ensure life in equality becomes the given-fact in our reality. What do we have to do then? Walk our individual processes to stop blindly participating in the systems of control and abuse that we have accepted and allowed as ‘how things are,’ that’s deprogramming the limitations we’ve imposed to ourselves.

 

The only way to follow through that is acceptable is implementing the Equal Money System that will ensure all living parts and participants in this world are equally regarded and given support within an agreement to never again accept abuse and harm upon fellow living beings as a ‘must do’ in order to make ‘life’ possible on Earth.

 

Walk with us this Journey To Life, to remove all conditions and limitations we’ve accepted as ‘who we are/ how things are’ and direct our lives to be of actual substance, meaning and purpose: to live as equals, how it always should have been.

Desteni

Desteni I Process

Desteni Lite Process – Free Online Course to Step out of the Play

 

Blogs:

• Day 255: The Answer is Given and Thus Received – Secret Geometry of Consciousness and God – Part 3 – ADC – Part 102

• This blog is part of the After Death Communication Series
• Christ-Mass Day: DAY 255

Interviews:

• FREE: 2013 – The Future of Consciousness – Introduction

• Quantum Systemization – Minds’ Physical-Simulation – Part 8

• Quantum Systemization – Multidimensional Energy Domain System – Part 9

234. Feeling Weak Today?

Are Feel-Ill-ings Self Manipulation?

Continuing from:

• 230. Opposing My Roots
• 231. I’m Not like all of the Other Girls
• 232. Being Late Makes you Anxious?
• 233. Are we Anxious because We Know We Lie All the Time?

Where have we gotten this idea of ‘having to project strength and security’ in the first place as a means to ‘be presentable’ in this world? It’s the same point as: who taught us to feel good about ‘doing good’ things? It is certainly through the indoctrination received from generation to generation through parents as we get ‘suited’ and ‘loaded’ to face the war zone that our reality as the world system has become. Presenting ourselves thus as the best suited in physical appearance, mental skills, social traits, virtues and any other charismatic trait assures you – or may I say ‘assured you’ – a place in the system that would regard you as special and unique for representing the ‘Ideal Persona’ that everyone wanted to be.

I got to live this from a certain perspective and I will walk this by all means to not obviously puff up my own ego-preprogrammed self-image, but to absolutely debunk it within the consideration of how the opposite of what I had to play was always a point of discomfort within me, which is not usually considered when the majority is the one ‘not getting anything right’ and there’s only a minority that ‘do everything right’ – but all of this right and wrong obviously based only within the context of this system that was settled to only function this way: only a few will obtain the grace of god as all the best positions in the world system, while the majority have to strive for that. This does not mean though that I actually ‘made it,’ I simply got to try out and live out what would be placed as an example for others, which became more than unsustainable, worrying, tiresome and obnoxious to say the least. This was also part of the character, which is why I lead myself to ‘spite the world’ which was only spiting myself, ending up eventually not following through any of the expectations that I had lead myself within, which is just as it should be, as all the past expectations were based within my past-mind set of Who I Believed Myself to Be = Not actually real, but only a literally frothed idea of myself that I knew was fake all along, but felt ‘nice’ to play it for a while – due to all the benefits and the props you get, blatantly saying ‘Ok I’ll take the heat for a while, it’s cool, I like it’ and neglecting reality for all the abuse that stems from accepting a single idea of ‘superiority’ in this world, no matter where, how or why.

 

This is how debunking oneself implies looking at the personality creation model based on this ‘strength’ point that I began discussing in my last post and then follow through to what I can see, became my own ‘survival of the fittest’ and how from that single stand point, anything and anyone becomes a point to guard/ oppose, support/ antagonize, want/ fear losing and as such, continue the same inner-conflict and battles to keep us having ‘inner conflicts’ about ‘who we are’ and so on, when everything that we already are is here as physical beings – lol, how could be so conflictive about ‘the who I am’ question if we are already HERE. ‘Who’ Is a being – any other configuration would only reinstall the same past-characters configured within and as the same system of abuse. Do we want to ‘stick to our guns’ then? No thank you, I am not willing to participate in anything that recreates a system of separation, differentiation through the imposition of fake values that are meant to sell life, not live it and honor it in Equality.

 

Here I go with the first part on ‘strength’

 

Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Statements:

 

• Memory that pops up:

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create this idea of strength from the moment that I had to leave my parents in kindergarten the first day of school, and I saw all children crying and I simply ‘played the strong one’ as ‘the only one that didn’t cry’ and in this, marking what I would become throughout my school years: standing ‘above’ in my mind from the rest while at the same time, suppressing all the fears and anxiety experienced because of having to ‘stick to my guns’ of presenting such strength and self stability no matter what, hiding from others the turmoil experienced within me throughout my first school years, due to having to be sustaining/ maintaining this idea of self as ‘strong’ and ‘superior’ which I realize was only an energetic self-experience of Strength based on the survival of the fittest acquired mechanisms in the school system, learning to be ‘on top’ all the time but at the same ending up fearing losing such privileged position.

When and as I see myself fearing exposing a lack of ‘strength’ as this idea that I created of myself – I stop and I breathe – I realize that all the strength that I am is a self-movement that is not energy based or self-idea as the ego-past personality that I’ve been, but a single consideration that I have the necessary nutrients and money to survive, to keep my physical body ‘alive’ and that this is my actual strength as all the power that we have exists in every single breath – thus

 

• Fear:

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to develop this belief and self idea of strength stemming from actual fear of being abused or violated in any way which implies that all strength lived as a concept of ‘who I am’ was based on fear and as a safety/ protection mechanism as an energetic experience of superiority, never considering who I am as a physical being that does not require to ‘think strong’ in order to move and direct myself in every breath and regard this ability to do it as the actual physical strength that exists equally in all.

When and as I see myself believing and thinking that I lack strength/ I am not that strong today/ I feel weak/ someone stronger than me can do it – I stop and I breathe and realize my ability to move as that single breath in the physical which is where strength exists

 

• Imagination:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make of strength a concept as a self-experience of being invincible and acting as an ‘I can do it all’ character in my mind,  that in no way considers the actual reality and physicality that I am, but only an idea of myself that represented a point of perceived superiority when compared to others, and within this believing that stepping down from such self-created belief of who I am as ‘strength’ would actually mean or imply a weakness, playing the same polarity that I learned to obey without any further questions and simply keeping this ‘ideal’ in my mind but never equated it to physical reality.

I realize that I would also go into ‘feeling bad’ for those that had it tough throughout school, but not doing anything either to question why only some people could be ‘on top’ and the majority was ‘below’ the high-ranks of what a ‘good student’ should be, which is a point that I linked to strength, separating myself from strength as my physicality as every breath.

When and as I see myself believing that stopping playing ‘strong’ means a ‘weakness’ and actually playing out the ‘weakness’ as who I am  – I stop and I breathe – I realize that this is just me complying to my self created beliefs and personalities going from positive to negative and back again, without realizing that who I really am is not defined by being strong or superior, nor weak or inferior – but physically here as everyone else wherein all our power and strength is able to be lived in every moment of breath – thus I stick to my commitment of living physically here as the strength that allows me to move, communicate, live and essentially Be a living being.

 

• Self Belief:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider that I could be ‘strong’ for certain activities/ duties but ‘weak’ for others, and in this, always defining myself ‘liking’ to do what I perceived myself to be strong for, while evading and avoiding anything else that I believed myself to be incapable of living out – due to my own limitations – wherein I realize that I was the only one that followed my own protocol of what I was supposed to do and contain myself within such bubble of being ‘good’ and ‘strong’ for some activities and be ‘weak’/ not good enough for others.

 

I realize that we have all contributed to this separation of ourselves as the physical within definitions of pros and cons, believing that we would Never be able to be a sound-being because that was always portrayed as something ‘beyond’ our capability. Which is How I came to react to words like perfectionism or being extremely effective, wherein I separated myself from such words believing that they were too elusive for me to ever be able to embody.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to even within the idea/ belief of ‘strength’ placed on apparent intellectual abilities, I feared losing such strength and defined myself by lacking strength in other areas in my life, which proves that no matter ‘how’ I perceived myself to be within one area of my life as ‘the best,’ I continued with the ‘inherent flawed’ inner conflict within other aspects of myself such as lacking physical strength or lacking abilities to relate myself to many people –as I thought I had to do – or the perfect image presentation that I pursued in my mind for the purpose of satisfying the relationship stereotype that I believed I wanted – and all of this, creating a massive inner conflict that lead me nowhere but believing that the was actually ‘something wrong’ with me, which is what we have all blatantly accepted and allowed of ourselves as ‘who we are’ without a question.

 

I realize that this is unacceptable since every single self-acceptance of self-diminishment as being ‘weak’ or ‘inferior’ or ‘not good enough’ is recreating and reinstalling the same patterns of self abuse that we have collectively supported as ‘who we are’ within this world system where life has never been considered equal, but only diminished ourselves to these limited ‘models’ that could be sold according to some traits and skills that can be useful for further profiting schemes – therefore, there has never been an actual role model promoted in our society that considers life in equality which is why we are here as Destonians to be and become the example of what it is to equalize ourselves as physical beings, stopping all delusions of lack as experiences in the mind and focus on solving the physical problems in reality of actual Lack which is for example, lacking food to eat, lacking water to drink and have proper hygiene, lacking vocabulary and basic skills to live, lacking parental support, lacking compassion for others to place ourselves in the shoes of those that actually Lack money simply to make it in this world, that lack a place to live and as such, their weakness is real as thin bodies that lack nutrients to survive – that is real weakness that exists as a result of our mind-delusions seeking ‘strength’ as ‘power’ and ‘superiority’ while missing out the physicality and reality of what is here wherein we are simply not regarding each other as equals – and that in itself, is already showing to what extent any possible ‘positive trait’ can only be founded upon abuse.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project an idea of strength as a way to perpetuate what I believe I must ‘hold on to’ as an idea of myself within this system, wherein I had played the role of the ‘role model’ in certain aspects which became unsustainable and a point of inner conflict because of realizing that it was only based upon fake values within a system that was only imposed and followed and bought– therefore, actually not being able to ‘follow through’ with the lie of myself as such character – which is how everything has to ‘fall down’ and just like the tower that must be debunked – all must go before the new can emerge – thus I realize that I cannot hold on to any single ‘trait’ that I had as an Idea of myself that was not yet integrated as the physicality as who I am.

This does not mean now denying or opposing or avoiding ‘strength’ or anything like that, this only means aligning myself to a physical consideration of strength that is not an Effort – and this I worked actually in my Desteni I Process and remember very well how I had written the word ‘effort’ and my buddy said to change the effort word for Physical ability as the movement required to move things/ direct things in a specific direction/ outcome.

We can see how it is an ability that is ‘available’ for all as part of our self-movement – it is not then based on energy, which means, it cannot exist as an Idea of myself based on past experiences such as ‘keeping up to my ground’ and being ‘courageous’ but mostly out of fear – thus

 

• Backchat:

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to hold backchat such as ‘I can do it, I can do it all’ placing an overload within myself to believe that I could ‘take it all’ and come out ‘victorious’ as I had always done throughout my life, wherein no matter what I would always ‘make it,’ which is something that I took for granted and actually became detrimental to understand what real effort is and implies, specifically once that you are no longer in a ranking system such as school where you can be praised for having some preprogrammed wits, but when it comes to physical reality none of that is of actual substance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project strength as something ‘superior’ than myself and as such ‘live up to it’ through utilizing energy as self-talk and self-definitions instead of regarding the physicality of myself as that constant and continuous realization of strength as who I am.

 

When and as I see myself talking to myself believing that ‘I can do it all’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that this is a self-positive-talk based on past patterns wherein I would always be able to ‘make it’ – or at least that’s the belief that I guarded as myself – and instead realize that there is no such platform for me to always ‘have it easy’ and as such, real effort, real self direction is required. And this is where any Idea of myself as ‘strong’ must be debunked in order to establish a real physical consideration of strength as breath, here, physically.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to hold backchat such as ‘I am not strong enough to go through that’ or ‘I don’t feel strong today/ I feel weak’ wherein I am accepting and allowing energy to direct me instead of me realizing that all strength is existent here as breath as the physical.

 

When and as I see myself self-talking myself about being ‘weak’ or not being ‘strong enough today,’ I stop and I breathe – I stand up and physically ground myself to realize that all ideas of ‘weakness’ are only energetic leeches I’ve fed in my own mind and as such, ground myself as the physical breathing and understanding such breath as my actual strength in every moment.

 

• Reaction:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in discomfort and general haziness whenever I am not fully here as the physical strength of breath and as such, reacting within ‘giving up’ modes which can only exist due to having the time and ability to ‘give up’ because I am not in a survival mode – which implies one thing: Giving up is only an elitist act of self indulgence wherein I realize that people working 18 hours a day give up committing suicide due to lacking actual strength to keep going due to being malnourished and lacking any actual self-motivation to live, as how can that be a ‘life’ when living as a slave –

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in ‘weakness’ and ‘powerlessness’ while taking for granted everything that I have as an actual platform for me to move and be consistent her as breath, as the physical strength that I really am.

 

When and as I see myself reacting in ‘powerlessness’ and ‘hopelessness’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that in this experience I am only fueling energy as the result of the friction and conflict in my mind. Thus I direct myself to Stop all self diminishing within the understanding that I am only propitiating a continuation of an inner cycle in my mind as an energetic experience of ups and downs, which is not acceptable.

I commit myself to realize and bring myself back to Earth to be aware of the opportunity I have, the time available, the physical integrity that I exist as in order to move myself to my fullest potential that is nothing elusive or separate from me, but a point I commit myself to realize and integrate as a constant living realization of who I really am in the physical.

 

 

• Physical Dimension:
• Positive

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘play strong’ as in walking with more tension in my physical body in a self-conscious manner projected toward others as a sense of superiority/ strength, which proves that while being alone I don’t require to play these characters but it only exists as a personality created toward ‘others’ as general people in my environment when stepping into the world  – so to speak.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use words that I have defined as strength, as a way to ‘keep my stance’ which comes through as a sense of imposition or intolerance – this means that whenever I am not fully clear as myself when writing, I project this idea of strength through energy instead of directing myself in common sense.

 

When and as I see myself ‘playing strong’ around others through standing very straight But with a tension in my body – not breathing properly but being self-conscious in the mind toward others – I stop and I breathe – I allow myself to go back to that fluidity and comfort that I realize I am able to exist as whenever I am physically here moving and walking, which is what actually being here is about – any tension experienced, I flag point it, look at my thinking, what did I see, what came up from ‘nowhere’ in the mind, what did I hear, what did I remember –  as these are all basic points that can lead me to change my stance and physical beingness here in one moment – thus

I commit myself to be breathing and fully aware of the least physical change as a slight tension wherein I play out the ‘strength’ character out of fearing facing something-someone – and as such, take responsibility for it through writing, self forgiveness, self corrective application.

 

When and as I see myself wanting to write something that sounds ‘strong’ in order to impose a sense of authority through energy as I write it, I stop and I breathe – this is where I have to give myself a moment to not rush into this protection mechanism of portraying ‘strength’ through words, but instead, allow myself to asses the situation and come back to it after a few breaths or moving around to see the point for what It is and give it direction while being stable- here as breath. This is to ensure that all that I speak is actually physically here and not just a quick mechanism to protect myself or others from what I perceive as an attack to which I have to ‘defend myself’ from.

 

I realize that I can only play the game of wanting to ‘defend’ myself if I regard my own self as something that can be ‘abused’ or ‘violated’ or ‘brought down’ by words that others may express toward myself or others. Thus I commit myself to realize the words strength as the ability to move and be directive as who I am and exist as in physicality, not a concept.

 

I also realize that there is no real ‘positive physical experience’ as it is stemming from blatant fear to present this sense of superiority and ‘togetherness’ in physical presentation.

 

• negative

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to slouch and have eyes all droopy-down whenever I feel weak and get to a point of even creating an experience of actual muscular weakness sensation wherein I simply don’t want to move because of believing that ‘I am not strong enough today,’ without realizing the level of abuse and self manipulation that exists within this, only to victimize ourselves to not be readily here every moment in a sound state that is always here whenever we stick to physicality.

 

When and as I see myself experiencing any form of energetic ‘weakness’ as a perceived ‘lack of strength’ – I stop and I breathe – I bring myself to the actual living strength of myself here as breath, as the physical and move. Breathe out the experience until I am aware that my eyes are no longer ‘down/ droopy’ and I am not deliberately slouching as a way to send a signal ‘I feel like shit today’ which is not acceptable as that is an indication of clear mind possession.

 

I commit myself to stop all mind possessions the moment that I start experiencing a ‘weakness’ energetic experience, which usually leads to a ‘giving up’ in the moment. I assist and support myself to stick to physicality and breath as the actual power and strength I really am.

 

• Consequence Dimension:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live out this ‘ideal’ of strength based on knowledge and information linked to ‘intelligence’ within what is currently understood as intelligence, responsibility and ‘courage’ which was all stemming from being defense mechanisms and preprogrammed traits that I believed was in fact ‘who I am,’ without realizing that any self definition existent as knowledge and information at a mind level are not sustainable/ are not real as the physical thus

I commit myself to live the definition of strength as the physical ability to move and direct myself to a defined direction/ outcome/ to do that which I propose myself to do and be here as breath as the only and actual ‘fuel’ that I require to continue and do it.

 

I realize that the ‘roots’ that I had as ‘strength’ were not real, since they were based upon a self-belief of ‘who I am’ within the world-system as the values I perceived myself to be/ have which in no way stood in alignment to the physicality of who I really am as equal as everyone, as the actual strength that is an ability and capability within all equally.

 

I realize that any belief of ‘lacking strength’/ not being strong enough is actually self-manipulation to not actually just ‘do it’ and step out of the inner turmoil of mind-fixes as energetic experiences that in no way mean an actual self-realization of the physicality that is constantly here as breath, as the real power that we all are and exist as.

 

Directing such strength as a diligent self movement is the commitment, so that no ‘wavering’ occur and if it does occur, I immediately investigate it without leaving further ‘space’ to ‘try and find it out later’ – as that is what only keeps a point of suppression leading to further consequences in the mind and in my physical reality as in ‘not moving’ effectively.

 

 

Further self-exploration writing:

2012 Self-Religion: The Tower of the Fool

 

To Be Continued

 

Desteni

Desteni Lite Process

Equal Money System

Journey To Life Blogs

Blogs:

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  MAST(er)-UR-BA(i)TE (Masturbate) (Part 3): DAY 234

• Day 234: Parents as Gods – ADC – Part 81

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  This blog is part of the After Death Communication Series

 

Interviews:

• Giving Up on Myself – Life Review

• The Atlanteans’ Guide to Physical Intimacy (Part 1) – Part 59

• The Atlanteans’ Guide to Physical Intimacy (Part 2) – Part 60

• Quantum Mind Self Awareness – STEP 37 :

• Language Platform in relation to the Design of Internal Conversation and Back Chat Explained (Part 3)

 

Vlog:

• Parents as Gods and Availability Heuristic – Journey To Life – Desteni

• Experience vs. ‘Physical Here’

211. Why is Life a Struggle? Why Can’t All be just HAPPY?

 

We’ve come to neglect the fact that it takes a single decision and agreement to enable a state of well being to all human beings. Any brainwashing propaganda saying ‘We Can’t’ must be categorized as a weapon of mind control , because throughout our investigations we’ve come to understand how it is through massive propaganda systems through the media, that the population ends up being Educated by TV, by Newspapers, by everything which has become part of the ‘collective unconscious’ without anyone being seemingly regulating such aspects that influence us all – is it really? Now, I’m not speaking about conspiracy theories here, it is to realize how we are all aware of how Self Interest as the desire for power/ money complicates everything, leading us from personal trivial desires to ascend/ escalate the ‘social ladder’ or justifying wars in the name of a so-called national defense while regurgitating words that keep the population fearing each other all the time, fearing ending up without any form of money and support, in essence: fearing that their own ‘life’ is able to be turned off in no time.

 

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What Happens when we Don’t give to each other what we would like for ourselves as a basic form of ‘protection and security’ that is always sought by a human being that stems from the preprogrammed design of surviving and essentially, doing all it can to continue living, even if that means killing or consuming everything on his path? This is the history of our human civilization – do we have the power to change it? Of course, we just have to agree that there are basic conditions that we all require to give and receive in Equality in order to live Well*

I can attest how the moment one suddenly has no such security as owning your house – even on ‘paper – having enough money to have your ‘usual treats’ or any other vainglory that money brings, one is faced with an uncanny experience that I had never had before in my lifetime back then – since I was 8-10 years old when it happened – and it’s what one would call Depression, no distinct to how the crisis in Capitalism is also dubbed as ‘Depression’ and it only exists as an energetic experience of having little to no energy/ money which causes an emotional state of ‘Depression’ which is simply having a seemingly ‘negative experience’ of anxiety, distress, worry, concern, apathy and general diminishment of your ‘self-esteem’ a.k.a. not getting your happy-meal so to speak to continue escalating in the social standards in society.

Why have we even allowed Lack of Money to be a regular condition in this world?

Why have we never questioned poverty and ‘depressions’ as an actual disease that must be cured at the root/ source of the problem, which in all cases is the current monetary system?

Why have we only managed to ‘mitigate’ the problems that affect us ALL and Con.Form to what is presented as temporary solutions to a lack of money – such as further Debt that sounds like Death wherein you end up rolling on your payroll like a shroud wherein all that is left of you is a piece of flesh and bones that forgot about itself and always sought life, but never lived.

 

The reason Why we are doing this is because we have neglected each other as Equals – hence it is a matter of Education, it is a matter of being willing to step out of the brainwashing that is constant in our society which is nothing else but the sum total of individuals seeking to fulfill their own interest. Call it ‘making a living,’ I call it collective agreement to abuse each other as Life and must be Stopped.

 

Throughout these blog series I’ve investigated my own process of forming and linking the idea of well being, happiness, success to Money and I’ve titled it as the Elitist Character which is the inherent pattern we’ve acquired the moment that we live in this world and learn that only through money we can satisfy ourselves in all aspects – whether it’s the usual love/relationships, business/job and personal spiritual endeavors or simply having the ability to hoard money due to belonging to a certain bloodline-lineage that enables you to have the ‘Time of your life’ from the moment you are born.

For the rest of us mortals, we have to simply try and attempt to Succeed as in Sucking out the Life essence o the seed that gives life, following dreams of ‘someday Finally making it’ and spending the rest of our days literally ‘dying to live’ – why is this so? and why is it that the moment that we lack money and we are unable to have a proper living condition and/or meet our usual ‘treats’ that only a few people can afford in this world in fact, we are subsumed into what is called a ‘Negative Experience’ which is similar to the ‘lower vibrations’ that people on  Heaven would define the demon dimension to be like, never realizing the abuse that such standard of ‘heavenly experience’ meant for the Earth and human beings in it (Research: Demons in the Afterlife) The World is in Reverse –and yes, ‘the world is a vampire,’ Billy Corgan, however I would mostly say the Human’s been a vampire serving other greater vampires that have become our regular Empires that will kill and destroy as long as some form of bliss can be obtained from it – isn’t that gory? How we’ve neglected GLORY as the Victory over others through going on a killing spree without any form of mercy?

Why have we even accepted the fact that ‘life is a struggle/ life is a fight’ which takes me back to the motto of the Jesuit school I went to: Militia est Vita – yeah, Loyola was a soldier and suddenly saw himself maimed and enlightened with some form of godliness to predicate well being on mankind, did he have to Suffer in order to get such Godly predicament? Points to ponder, not to mention that his legacy  continued throughout  Jesuit schools that are meant to ‘shape leaders’ in this world are anything but affordable for the most of population.

To correct and redirect the title of this blog which is a common misconception in our lexicon: Life is not a Struggle, it is Us human beings that have made it a Struggle through the acceptance and allowance of the current world system ‘as is.’ Time for a Revolution? No, time to first debunk our own brainwashing through Writing, Applying and Living Self Forgiveness In Self Honesty – that’s the key to massive liberation from the drive-thru lifestyle behavior and start Valuing that which is REAL as Life, as the Physical.

 

Continuing with the Elitist Character – the Counter act: lacking money

• 194. Let the Mask Fall!

• 195. The Righteousness of Evil

• 196. The Elitist Evil behind Relationships

• 197. Friends of Convenience

• 198. Wealth and Positivity a Synonym of Abuse

• 203. The Acceptance of Heaven is the Allowance of Hell

• 204. Opposing the System: Elitist Act of Irresponsibility

• 205. Self Interest as an Obstacle to Real Change

• 206. Self Sabotage Is Self Interest

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  207. Changing the World in Self Interest

• 208. Doing Good as Positive Credit-Rewards

• 209. Successful Living = Capitalist Brainwash

• 210. Not Having Money Makes You Sad– but Why?

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to never question why it is that I suddenly felt sad and worried all the time as a constant experience only by knowing that we had financial troubles and within this, taking it personal to the level of believing that It would be a solution for them – my parents – not having to pay for my food and education, making it then an entire out of proportion desire to not exist as a fleeting solution in order to ‘wash away’ the worry and concern that I was witnessing in my father, never really considering how it is that in fact it would have only brought further problems.

I realize that people committing suicide due to financial problems are taking the easy way out apparently, and see no way to solve the problem – however, there is no way we can escape this world and reality for we will continue coming back into this Earth, and there is no way that one can accept the fact that the future of this world remains locked into a certain self-destructive mode as it is currently, and I also realize that this depends on us, human beings, being willing to step up and Take Responsibility, because if there is something that is neglected at all times throughout our lives whenever we ‘flirt’ with any desire to give up or even ‘leave the Earth’ as in committing suicide, we are deliberately denying and neglecting the responsibility that we all hold toward this world and ourselves as individuals that have accepted and allowed the current world system of debt as the only way to ‘make money,’ instead of agreeing altogether to establish a system that will Provide for All Beings Equally

It is already quite clear that we are running only from actually doing all we can in order to establish a solution that will be permanent, and will become the new living-phase of us as humanity for the first time on Earth, since all we have been thus far, is nothing else but slaves serving a greater ‘God’- either metaphorically speaking as in Religions and Spirituality – or literally as the Money that gives us such bliss and joy on Earth.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into extensive fear as a child about losing our house, losing ‘my safety and protection’ and within this, becoming unstable in my personal experience due to believing that having no money meant being close to death and that was it, close to living in poverty as the poor people that I would actually Fear becoming and living on the streets with them and eating what they ate and having to beg for money in order to survive.

I realize that this is the reality of fellow human beings that are HERE in this world as myself, and that the only barrier that divides me from realizing myself As Them, is the mind that I have cultivated in order to always seek to benefit me-me-me and never consider the reality of myself as the totality of who and what I am as One and Equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to generate an emotional experience of sadness, worry, concern, anxiety and fear generally when hearing about us not having much money and having our house owned by the bank for a moment which to me felt like suddenly descending from heaven into hell and even though my reality didn’t drastically change, the sheer fact of knowing that ‘We don’t have much money’ became a very bitter phase of my life to go through, wherein I simply desired to  have the nightmare be over, go back to our ‘happy go round’ lives of having money – at least enough to be ‘happy’ – and that was it. However, it was quite a road out  of that huge bump on the road wherein I then became that same instability and inferiority that I cultivated due to not having had enough money at that time to satisfy my desires imprinted and acquired mostly by the media, by wanting to have what my friends had (see 201. Friends of Convenience: for a little piece of Heaven) and as such, believing that I was certainly ‘less than them’ due to not having as much money as they did.

 

When and as I see myself defining who I am according to the amount of money that I have or I don’t have, and creating a negative experience/ positive experience for either occasion, I stop and I breathe. I realize that money should only be a means to Live and have the necessary to have a dignified living – and this means, becoming part of the solution through my own living self-agreement and consideration of supporting myself as life and others equally to step out of the selfish-act of survivalism as the actual point of mind control it represents

 

I commit myself to expose how we can all in fact assist and support each other to establish a world system that can be implemented by the sheer realization that who we are as life is and has always been Here, and that it is the human aspect that has become the very weapon of mass destruction as the imposition of a system that functions upon the abuse of life.

 

I commit myself for Life to stop this carnage, the strain, the worry and constant threat of having no money the next day to live, as I see and realize that the experience of each other is invariably creating the reality that we All Live in. It is impossible to ignore this.

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—- it is not over yet.

 

 

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2012 Suicides due to Financial Strain: Solution

 

Read:

• *Day 211: Creating Demons on Earth – ADC – Part 59

• Redefining LIVE: DAY 211

 

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• Prioritizing Awareness is the Key to Enlightenment – Life Review

159. To Forgive the Ignorance and Bliss

Continuing from:

• 158. Special Care for Good People
• 157. Wishing Well as Self Interest

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to as a child believe that there were in fact ‘special beings’ taking care of me/ my family/ my loved ones and that we were meant to be supported in a way that ‘not many’ would be supported, wherein I created a conflict within me trying to understand WHY it is that life was easy for some and would even get ‘extra protection’ and why some lived in poverty and were simply forgotten by this god/ entities that would ‘give blessings’ away without really going further basic questions of why us had this benefit and others didn’t, getting no proper answers and within that simply accepting things ‘for what they are/ how they are’ without going any further in questioning the points.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create a positive experience within me every time that we would pray and feel like a ‘good person’ because I was ‘thinking’ about those that were not supported unconditionally by the system, within this accepting the fact that I must ‘add the impaired to my prayer’ as a form of being ‘benevolent’ and in that, thinking and believing that it would support them/ others to live better and that my words in fact would do any good to them.

I see and realize that I learned this as a way to create an experience of compassion within me every time that we would begin praying on a daily basis before going to school as a ‘reminder’ that there were people that were not having a proper living condition, and within this creating a powerlessness within me and further sadness upon someone else’s actual suffering and that this was never explained/ walked in practical manners as in how we could eventually support ourselves to create a new system in the world, because such thing did Not exist at all in the minds of parents, teachers or anyone else involved within the basic education of the child.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to as a child take prayers as a benevolent and good thing to do, without ever questioning whether my words would have any effect upon others’ and our lives, and why it is that if poor people were not being unconditionally supported we would only pray for them instead of finding an actual solution for it, which is a point I simply ‘took as it is’ without any further consequence, slowly but surely building a relationship toward god/ the unknown as a benevolent force that could in any way create solutions on Earth, and believing this to be so because everyone else said so.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create and develop a belief/ relationship  toward invisible beings that would apparently take care of me/ my family and within this think, believe and perceive that MY spirituality was in fact something special and that I had something special within me to have these protection/ communication, which became a hidden/secret aspect that I would always hold and take into consideration throughout my life as ‘special protection,’ however never questioning it further as to why it is that I was being supported with these and even having ‘problems’ apparently solved while I continued seeing my world and reality being subsumed in poverty,robberies, frauds, familial problems and an entire system that simply didn’t work, and having these so called help at the same time.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept what others would tell me and within this, believe that I had to ‘take it as it is’ which is the premise of our acceptance and allowance of this entire system that we get from our parents and the generations before that wherein we learn that the world cannot be changed and that praying/ having a god/ resorting to positive thinking is a way to ‘support others,’ which is an absolute fallacy of the worst kind because we took pride and even create compassion out of believing that we could in some way better the lives of others through positive thinking and never in fact questioning further why such poverty exists, why are there people that must suffer in the world while there is plenty for all?

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever try and later on blame things onto god/ spiritual beings for ‘forgetting about the real suffering in the world,’ without immediately realizing that it was in fact all about Me/ us as humanity and what we have accepted and allowed to exist while believing that there ever was some ‘greater force’ at hand, which was only a way to continue living in ‘bliss’ and abdicating our responsibility toward everything/ everyone while believing that we were in fact ‘helpless’ toward the situations of suffering in this world and that we could do nothing about it, without realizing that the system is us and that we have actually all the necessary skills and considerations to take responsibility for ourselves as this world system.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a positive experience of compassion, care, and even sadness/ despair as well at the expense of those that actually suffer, which is what is linked to godhood beliefs about men being benevolent in any way, blindly missing that all we were doing is making ourselves feel good about the lives of others through praying and not questioning the system any further.

 

I commit myself to expose the deliberate ways in which spirituality, positive thinking and any belief in a god is an ignorant blissful belief that we have taken on in order to not question the system we’re living in As our creation and as our responsibility and within this, support ourselves/ each other to step out of such deception in order to take off the blindfold and begin realizing that no one will ever support something o someone through positive thinking/praying, and only actual doing, actual structuring and reforms to the current system are required in order to support all the ‘impaired ones,’ that are actually a direct outflow and consequence of some of us/ a minority in the world having a great life/ living condition while neglecting the aspects that were supposed to be given as a Right to all beings, such as Money to Live in dignity as a living right, which is what we are proposing as the Equal Money System wherein no more prayers will ever be required other than an actual gratefulness toward each other and the Earth, the Animal Kingdom for living in an Equality System for the first time in our existence.

 

We have the tools, we have the understanding from all the material available at Desteni and Eqafe how it is that we are absolutely responsible for everything and all that exists here, and that it is only ourselves as human beings that have the ability and responsibility to direct the current world system to a best for all living condition.

This will ensure that no more gods will be required as giving to all in equality is what any god should always aspire to be – let’s be gods, then – it’s just a word awaiting to be lived.

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Blogs:

• The Mind System’s Unconscious/Subconscious Mind Relationship – Part 1 (Self Forgiveness): DAY 159

• DAY 159: ADC – Psychic Questions and Answers

Check out the Biggest Missing Piece videos and blogs by us Destonians and see how Ignorance is Bliss

 

• The Biggest Missing Piece in the Law of Attraction

• The Missing Piece – a Video response to Abraham Hicks

• The Biggest Missing Piece – Abraham Hicks

• The Biggest Missing Piece — Video Response to Abraham Hicks

• The BIGGEST Missing Piece/Peace – Response to Abraham Hicks

• Abraham Hicks The Biggest Missing Piece Response Video

• The Biggest Missing Piece: Response to Abraham Hicks

 

• The Biggest Missing Piece – You Choose Your Reality? As a Slave

• Blog by Manuela:

  http://mindless-living.blogspot.com/2012/09/day-145-2012-loa-abraham-hicks-missing.html

• Blog by Maya: The Missing Piece – Day 159

  http://mayaprocess.blogspot.com/2012/09/the-missing-piece-day-159-post-title.html

• Blog by Esteni:

  http://earthsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/09/day-125-abraham-hicks-life-is-supposed.html

158. Special Care for Good People

Channelings, blessings and ‘extra care’ for chosen ones

Continuing from previous blog 157. Wishing Well as Self Interest

I briefly wrote about my beliefs within spirituality and people channeling ‘messages from ‘the afterlife’ which I absolutely believed were true do to the amount of information that these channelers and mediums (because they were apparently two different sides of the same coin) were giving, as well as the supposed ‘support’ we would get from these ‘white brotherhood,’ which just as anything within childhood created a great amount of questions that no one was able to answer to me, like WHY were we (family and myself among another few ‘privileged ones’)  the only ones receiving these ‘blessings’ and ‘extra support’ and not everyone in the world was aware of this seemingly ‘gift from above,’ such as all the nice words indicating ‘love’ and support for our financial troubles, personal woes and general health problems.  A child unconditionally takes in what the so-called authorities implant onto them, hence the acceptance of things like santa clause, the boogie man, the tooth fairy or god becomes a ‘usual thing’ with kids throughout their lives – I mean, how is it that we never in fact questioned these ‘cultural kicks’ to actually question how it is that one can implant such beliefs with no physical evidence of any of those being being real, or even worse, you as a parent making your child believe that they are getting these marvelous objects by the divine chosen ruffle that god has made in heaven, wherein you as a child, are suddenly born in a house with all the support and care you want, all the toys, all the fun and games while later on realizing that, oh oh, santa clause does not arrive to all kids, the tooth fairy leaves candy to some and money to others, even using scare tactics such as getting coal instead of toys if you are a ‘bad boy/girl’ – wow.

Then you have in spiritualism the belief of an afterlife that we had to aspire to through succumbing to worrying and asking for some external god to make us ‘get past the day’ every day. The pattern was clear even then: creating emotional dependency to actually continue supporting the cult of spirituality and plea for something ‘good’ and ‘better’ arriving to our lives. This was ‘the perfect plan’ that we accepted and allowed, wherein we never realized our physicality as equal and one, an instead remain in endless conflicts within struggles, trials and tribulations within the world system that WE also accepted and allowed ourselves to continue co-creating/ participating in.

 

And this is no different to any of us believing that somehow by ‘the magic word of god’ we could be supported to escalate our standard living – yes us and our ‘loved ones’ only, which was also part of the great conflict within me: why us? why was I able to get all these supposed blessings while I ‘knew’ that tons if not all people could benefit from such ‘blessings’ as well? If you reading this have a child, please read these words and don’t even  dare to speak of such nonsense like god, angels giving blessings, santa clause or the tooth fairy to your child – please, it really creates an inextricable dilemma within a child’s mind that adults can probably only laugh about, however living it out is a complete different story.

It is not ‘cool’ at all when you have the belief of these ‘invisible beings’ protecting you all the time – besides developing fear to ‘being watched/ observed by them all the time, one gets the impression that there must be something really ‘good’ and ‘special’ about me because these beings are taking care of ME me me and not anyone else. This was also a cause of conflict and separation wherein it seemed simply unjust to me that this ‘god’/ father/ creator whatever would only pick a few on Earth to ‘give unconditional support’ to, while the rest could remain in extreme poverty for the rest of their lives. Absolutely ludicrous

Now what? Well, this still exists in our current ‘civilization’ which I now see and understand how the sound of it always pops up in my mind as ‘see evil Eye/ I zation’ as the process of realizing how this current world system is the exact reflection of everything that we have become in fact when living by/ as the principles dictated within our minds, yes, the mind that can only think itself/ for itself/ by itself and that we have inadvertently hosted with our own flesh, giving away our entire lives to a limited framework of reality that we believed is ‘all we are,’ while neglecting the very life that is here, that we ‘know’ it’s here yet haven’t ever LIVED in reality, as we have all become sooo preoccupied to only better our current lives and financial situations, getting ourselves out of debt or getting even more money – or some extreme cases getting something to eat for the day – that no one has ever had enough time to consider our actual relationship with ourselves, each other and our reality.

 

Let’s Ask ourselves: How it is that even those with extreme amounts of money are also possessed and constantly preoccupied about money – and most likely also believing that there is some type of specialness toward them for having such ‘good fortune,’ mostly justifying it with saying ‘I am really blessed/ we are really thankful for the benevolence of our creator’ having no idea in fact how such good life and ‘specialized care’ in fact exists at the world-system level. 

 

No one is free until all is free and this practically implies realizing that our good-doer beliefs have ALSO become part of the jails that must be broken – why? because believing ourselves to be good and evil had lead us to believe that there was some type of ‘special reason’ for such polarity to exist within our world, while it was only a very basic mechanism existent within/ as the mind to keep generating energy  – you can read more about it in the post 129. Will Love and Lighters end up Killing People? to understand how love and light vs. evil and darkness have become the parody we have all arranged and followed to be a part of in order to condemn all that which we believe is negative and pursue the positive; within this, justifying imaginary forces/ gods/ spirits/ entities/ aliens that could somehow mean the ‘good’ in our reality and in that, creating a battle/ opposing/ bashing/ exterminating/ crucifying anything that can be labeled – by equal stance of brainwashing-  as bad/ negative/ evil/ satanic/immoral, instilling fears within human’s consciousness that we have believed ourselves to be till this day.

Who set the hierarchy? Who set the privileges? by accepting such point as money having any power over our reality – even before money as such existed but only existed as ‘power over others,’ we would comply to it as in there being a real.

If we remove the good and the bad – what remains? Physicality that has been already molded, shaped and in most of the cases abused in order to suit the human exigencies of good and bad. Now, this can be like a topic we’ve gone through plenty of times before, and we have in fact, however not from the perspective of how within the very acceptance of ‘good’ in our reality, we create the bad and in that, we are already being part of the necessary game wherein some ‘chosen ones’ become the ‘good/ benevolent’ ones, which are mostly and usually those that have enough money to not have to worry about ‘making a living,’ and yes, for all the ‘unfortunate ones,’ the usual ‘panacea’ is getting into some religion and replace the food on your table with ‘food for the soul’ through praying, chanting and wishing for ‘better times’ while repeating to yourself that everything will be al-right and that this has got to be ‘somehow’ some lesson to learn/ god’s plan that will magically turn out all fine in the end– nope, there’s nothing at all that can be corrected by magic spells from invisible beings –

This is so to then re-consider what we teach to our own children and how it is that within seemingly innocent points, we in fact create conflicts wherein the child is forced to BELIEVE and instill this form of thinking as a valid argument/ excuse to explain reality, relegating physical observation and experimentation to  a single method one learns in school as some type of ‘scientific stuff,’ instead of actually applying physical observation, experimentation and realizations as actual tools to get to know ourselves.

Yes, we have duped ourselves/ each other and that’s a constant within this current world system – are we willing to remain the same way as we do now? I don’t. I can’t, we can’t, we would deplete our entire planet if we continue this way – and once again ‘If you tolerate this, then you children will be next,’ and there’s no threat in that, it’s a fact.

Time to STOP religious and spiritual elitism and the implantation of beliefs about ‘benevolence’ existent only as self interest in our minds with no real action/ deeds that are in fact directed to ‘sweeten’ our ears with great promising futures that only be realized in fact if we dare to give such ‘divine benefits’ to all as equals – what? Yes, then there would be no Specialness but equalization of Life to ensure that there is no more delusional hierarchical ‘services’ at the expense of those deliberately left out of the ‘special ones’ –

This will certainly be Self-Forgiven, how else could we stand up from our own ignorance and deliberate neglect to believe that through thinking positive we could all benefit from ‘our creation’ and that those that suffer have no actual response as to why we have abandoned their situation as something we’d rather ‘not see’ within our ‘creative abilities’ of all the good, positive and fluffy experiences in “life”created only in our minds, while reality wails on an actual need that not many are willing to see, recognize as our responsibility and act upon it beginning with ourselves by Not tapping on to positive messages, spirituality or any other form of self abuse through ignorance.

 

Ask yourself: what will society be like once there are no more TV ‘blatantly rich’ and famous people all the time? What will children be and become once that any relationship with god disappears as the policeman in the head and what’s left is absolute self responsibility for ourselves as this physical world.

No more spiritual delusions of Grandeur, no more paranoia, no more justifying the lives of those that are part of the ‘contrast’ to a so-called benevolence/ goodness of man that is no where to be found, no more justified crimes against life in equality. Bingo: all win.

Please hear:

The Missing Piece – Response to Abraham Hicks

 

Blogs:

• Luck and Luxury: Day 158: After Death Communication ADC – Part 8
• The Mind System’s Unconscious Mind Structural Resonance – Part 2 (Self Commitments): DAY 158

Interviews:

• Reptilians – The Force of Good (Part 1) – Part 94

• Reptilians – The Force of Good (Part 2) – Part 95

• Atlanteans – How We Lost ‘Who we Are’ – Part 56

130. Killing the Loved Ones

 

‘I’ll kill you/her/she/them!’

Continuation from: 129. Will Love and Lighters end up Killing People?

This is one of the backchat points that can be found within the desire  to control someone, which is wanting to manipulate another for the sake of acting/ doing things our way/ getting our point of Happiness. Whenever the person does Not recede to our point of control, backchat may emerge in an insulting, denigrating manner toward the unsubordinated person and one of the ‘most negatively charged’ type of backchat exists in the form of ‘I HATE YOU/HER/HIM’ or ‘I WANT TO KILL HER/HIM/THEM ALL’

 

Now, what does all the positive thinking on ‘light, love, bliss’ has to do with the point of negative backchat such as ‘I want to kill you/he/she/them?’ It is an extreme bouncing off from the positive experience, it is the extreme polarity once that someone ‘had it all’ and then ‘lost’ it as a point of self definition, unleashing then the opposite-directly proportional input of positivity back into negativity – that’s when we can identify our ‘downfalls’ and ‘depressions’ and whatnot that can escalate through our own participation up to a point of absolute mind possession labeled as ‘mental instability’ by the psychiatrists that do want to make the most for their pockets out of a seemingly neuronal-hormonal dysfunction.

In other words, this can only happen if we give too much head to such negative experience, eventually becoming nothing else but the absolute opposite of the initial all-positive input of loving someone for example – there’s even a saying ‘from love to hate there’s only one step’ – and it is so, because the starting point of love is not an equal and one standing as physical beings of flesh and bones that care for themselves = care for one another in physical well being considerations – no, love means in our colloquial vocabulary just passion, energy, bubbles in the stomach that become an absolute life-hijacking obsession that is specifically directed to a point of possession a.k.a. wanting to control the other being, wanting to feel special with that something or someone, wanting to ‘fulfill the dreams’ that only existed as a positive experience in our minds.

 

This is how we can see MANY demonic-possessions today – which are MIND-possessions and should be understood as synonyms nowadays, wherein boyfriends attack their girlfriends – or vice versa – ending up slitting their throats, killing them, hitting them to ‘make them look ugly’ and one cannot possibly fathom: ‘but wait, I was sharing my life this man, I had sex with this man, how could it possibly be that the next day he’s trying to kill me!’ – and this is precisely where the role of the mind as a literal entity occupying our physical must be understood: the problem is thinking, the moment we think, we are already existing in an alternate dimension in our minds – and in that, hell is not far away. You may say: well, then we’re all living in hell, because we All think all the time, and that is correct and that is what apparently makes us these ‘supreme beings’ that can THINK – but is it really so? Who invented this type of judgment but ourselves as human beings that deep inside actually fear NOT being in control of Anything or anyone that exists here.

 

In past blogs when revising words as the imposition of man’s mind upon the physical reality, this relationship of control was seen, which later on became the money language that we are currently living with and by, it is to understand who/ what do we have to accept and allow ourselves to exist as in order to voice/think a sentence like ‘I want to Kill Him/Her/them’ and in other cases ‘Me’ as well. Here is the deal: not many people can deny that this sentence has crossed their minds in an absolute moment of an absolute negative experience which within the understanding of how the positive and negative exist, means a ‘Fall from Heaven’ to the absolute opposite – why? Because of all the expectations we built in our MINDS only – reading again, yes only in our minds – about getting/ being with/ experiencing ourselves with something or someone ‘for the rest of our lives’ which is the usual bullshit peddled in our media about these everlasting relationships for example. And this is primarily focused on wanting to Kill the Loved One, which for all cases should be the most shocking and extreme type of betrayal toward one’s conception – meaning creation of the concept – of what love is/ should be, it is as ‘frightening’ as can be, because every single bit of relationship that exists now as ‘our society’ is apparently founded (or found dead) upon love – have a look at the promotion of these experiences as something marvelous and real: having a partner, getting married, having kids, creating a family, having pets, your relationship to god,  your job, your neighbor – everything is promoted as these bubbly stages of your life wherein you are supposed to be ‘Luvin’ it’ all the way – and it’s actually quite fascinating how we can find a note in the news on a daily basis about apparent ‘loved ones’ killing each other, people hating their jobs, people bugging their neighbors ‘just because,’ people eating their children, people killing themselves or others because of their relationship with god, men killing their ex-wife and children because of a marital break-up, and the list goes on and on and frightfully on.

 

“The moment we make that decision, acceptance and allowance in the trust that whatever the mind present to us is ‘who we are’ and we continue participating in the backchats and energies, with participating as the more and more we continue talking in our minds and experiencing the energies without stopping them/investigating them: what one will find is that they become more and more intense in the mind, the more and more one remain in the energy reaction and so the backchat/thoughts/behaviours that it substantiate in the character/personality possession.” – Sunette Spies*

 

What is Wrong with this picture? The Mind 

Who we are as physical living beings in no way stand as something ‘alien’ to this physical existence as the Earth – the animal kingdom, the plants, the environment, everything functions as a whole and one single organism. Then, who is the real Problem here? The mind, the who we have become as this machine that thinks reality only to scheme one’s own survival and personal benefit, because WE programmed ourselves to only create a world system that could Only benefit ‘some’ in our reality. Now, that is seriously messed up to say the least, who are the real schizophrenic instead? Who are the real killers that are willing to maim any life left in this world in the name of a ‘thriving society’ that can look like the most outrageous façade you’ll ever see – but it’s just that, a facade, a sugar coating enamored view of reality behind which we all hide the Reality of who and what we have become as The Secret Mind. 

 

Once we pass through the initial disconcertion of realizing how EVIL we have become in fact to the extent of not being able to trust your apparent ‘Loved ones,’ we can start then realizing that there is a Seriously Important Task that each one of us must Take Self Responsibility for, and that’s not something ‘out of our hands’ to do, it is taking responsibility for our own minds, realizing that we all have to ensure that we STOP and Self-Forgive any single inch of hatred and Love toward another being – You might say: wait a minute, you say ‘Self Forgive every point of Loving another as well, but that’s not bad!’ yet, understanding how the existence of Hatred actually stems from Love must have left this point quite clear to you how any positive or negative input upon something or someone, will eventually go to its opposite as an experience that we then act upon, blinded by our own backchat and internal conversations that we are seldom aware of.

 

This is then to put all ‘Love and Light’ as any positive thinking ‘on the table’ from the perspective of realizing how we are all responsible for whatever we see as ‘BAD’ and ‘Negative’ in our society, it is Our Mirror and we have been denying this for far too long now. The thoughts that a serial killer or a bad tempered ex boyfriend that gets to stab her girlfriend are in no way different to Any other thought we may have in our heads.

 

Thus, it is definitely a bucket of cold water to realize that that which we always wanted to ‘ostracize’ in our society to not have to SEE what we had become, is in fact ourselves.

 

We’ll continue with the process of realizing the correction is not ‘out there’ in some bloody policy awaiting to be approved by the government to ‘Stop the madness!’ It is here within and as ourselves that the correction potentially exists: we just have to live it.

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• The Crucifixion of Jesus – Part 5

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• Reptilians – How I Justified taking Control of Existence – Part 84
  

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117. I Think, thus I Fear

What is the binding force within our reality wherein we keep each other safely protected from actually getting to know the Truth of ourselves?

FEAR

We can actually say that Fear has become our Religion, as Money for example is the externalization of the Fear of not having enough to live, which is how we created and manifested a system to control our ‘human nature’ in order to ensure that the entire regulation of how much we would use from this reality to live would be within some ‘bounds’ to not deplete everything and eventually end up consuming more than what we could even handle. Well, we have reached that mark, certainly and at the moment all that we consume is actually stemming from a fear, all that we buy as properties are apparently ways to ‘secure our future,’ all the relationships we create are stemming from a fear to be alone, all the decisions we take such as jobs, education, partnerships, hobbies and even what type of food we eat, where we live, what type of water we drink is stemming from fear. It’s not that difficult to create a political campaign that way: just propose a bunch of ‘Safety and Protection’ policies disguised with words like care and insurance to ensure one vote for your political statements, even if they do not get to be lived out and implemented at all.

As I walk through the streets, I see how our very houses are creaming out FEAR, most of the houses may have some ‘beautiful architecture’ such as how we create and build ourselves in our own minds, but oh what is the ‘cherry on top’ of such grandeur? Well, barbwire, electric fencing, double fencing, CCTV cameras, and if people have enough money/ live in a very well ‘seated’ situation: guards that ensure that ‘no threat’ is able to filter at your door. Our houses and neighborhoods have become like fortresses, prisons I’d say, yet that’s the most normal thing to do in a country wherein obviously, money is an extreme lack, wherein everyone does live out the sentence: ‘It’s easier to steal than work’ and also because there are no opportunities for them to have proper education, proper preparation to have a dignified job, because this entire system has been built to only benefit a few – so, we can see how we have built our own prison, how absurd! Considering it is us that have created it: no god has come to create it for us, we did.

 

“I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how and why FEAR as Consciousness is/has been the primary driving/creative force of/as the nature of energy that has become the starting-point creative force/source of/as me as the Mind and all the Characters/Personalities within that, that will thus all – equally as one, have an existent starting-point, nature and experience of/as Fear. Which, as we continue walking this process of Character-Creation, will be seen, realised and understood by self, the extent to which we exist as fear, the extent to which we’ve created who we are and how/what we live as fear and so within this, why and how this process of Communication, in keeping the internal truth of ourselves as the reality of the Mind intact while physically speaking the 1% portrayal/presentation of/as who we are: is controlled/determined by/through and as Fear as Consciousness.” – Sunette Spies*

 

And as within, so without – I have been noticing for some time how even slightest movements when walking in the street, that which we call as our ‘instincts’ is in fact all stemming from Fear, survival mechanisms that we have adopted from childhood, fearing each other at all times.

For example, it’s plain to see how we would suddenly cross the street to the opposite sidewalk  if we see someone that looks ‘suspicious’ enough to think they could harm us, how we cross our arms in front of our chest when we feel threatened or suddenly ‘feel’ like we have to portray ourselves as ‘strong’ which can only stem from perceiving a potential threat, how we pull out a condescending character or ‘good doer’ whenever we talk ourselves into our minds to think that a potential threat could have some mercy on us if we portray ourselves to be ‘good hearted beings,’ I’ve definitely thought about that.

 

From childhood we have simply complied to this religion and learn it to be ‘love’  because ‘our parents care for us’ which is how we pass on this twisted idea of Love as an actual mind-possession that serves to mark our territory, to protect our ‘who we are as the mind’ toward others and also, of course, protect our most ingrained desires that are always ensuring that what is best for ourselves is protected at all times. We cannot definitely blame our parents and ‘those that have gone before us’ as we have all been there, done that and blaming would only keep ourselves bound to an egotistical victimization role that has prevented ourselves as humanity to actually change, because it’s simply much easier to blame than actually taking Self-Responsibility.

 

Every decision that we’ve taken is in fact stemming from fear. Whaaaat? Yes, look within yourself, it’s there, it’s a mili-second imperceptible quick assessment of factors wherein we are always looking to maintain ourselves within ‘safe bounds’ of our mind, our con-fine-ment wherein we believe that the mind is something so ‘fine’ that we have to protect it, shield it and defend ourselves from any potential threat to ‘our being,’ but is it?  Or have we just been making/creating Gods in order to excuse the actual Fear that we experience to actually face the fact that we have built an entire world as our own prison, wherein all our decisions have Never been real, but only based on Self-Interest, which is certainly the interest of who we are as our mind only which uses Fear as the most effective protection mechanism, never ever considering what’s best for all as a physical tangible reality, which would certainly be the solution to end all fears – but why have we Not seen this before?

 

Now, looking at the world: Fear is everywhere – from our so called petty peeves to extreme moves and decision making that defines the lives of millions of human beings, Fear can be spotted as the default ‘background’ within it all.

Is it fearful to realize this? Well, only who we are as our minds can create Fear upon the already existent thick layer of fears we have embodied without even realizing how and to what extent we have essentially become a handful of fears that develop personalities and characters for each occasion – I think, thus I fear is what should be a more of an actual understanding of how the moment that we separate ourselves from our physical reality: wham! we are up there scheming, thinking, looking at ourselves as a mind that must protect itself at all cost. It’s time to be willing to go facing our fears: from the most obvious fears that we have even held as ‘personal favorites’ – you know, such as fearing the dark, fearing clowns, fearing to be judged and so forth to the most seemingly imperceptible fears for example when we talk to another being and we suddenly shift our eyes to another direction, in fear of being looking into the eyes when we speak about something wherein we KNOW that our mind is being exposed, along with all the variety of subtle ‘microexpressions’ that we have embraced as our ‘default’ expression – however: who, what and HOW did we shape ourselves into it?

That’s what we learn how to walk, dissect, explore and essentially get to know ourselves as within the Desteni I Process, studying all the Desteni Material and the excellent one-of-a-kind existential education available at Eqafe, wherein we are finally understanding the actual steps to Change the World from our Fearful beingness of the Mind as our own Mind Control to an actual Self-Understanding that will inevitably lead to the process of Self Liberation as Self Birthing Life here in and as the  physical, wherein who we are in our within and without exists as the transparency of what living as flesh and bones should be all about: speaking only when it’s required, thinking practical ways to establish solutions in this world, standing one and equal to the totality of ourselves as our mind and physical to ensure that every single movement is actually Self-Directed and Self-Awareness at all times – yes, from the awareness of one single blink of our eyes to how this entire system functions as our the externalization of our minds.

Great, isn’t it? We’ve got the tools, we have the understanding, we really have it all on a Golden Platter.

It’s just about time we face our greatest Fears – Let’s go stopping our participation in the mind as fear and we’ll realize: we’re still here.

 

Support the Equal Money System which is the primary way in which we are practically proposing a System that is Also an educational tool to learn how to co-exist as equals, simply because inequality has stemmed from the actual fear of not having ‘enough’ and as such, developing Greed from that belief that scarcity is something actually possible – yet we haven’t realized how scarcity as the SCARE with which we maintained ourselves controlled, is an actual outflow of a system that was built in order to maintain and sustain people with ‘pacified minds’ wherein fear became the best way to ensure that no human nature could further scavenge the earth. Well, in our attempt to control, we have become the controlled ones by our Own Creation which is the current monetary system. Hence, we can stop now biting our own tail and realize how a New World System in and as Equality as Life can only exist if we first stop living in fear and start considering what Life can actually be the moment that we dare to stand as Equals.

This is Just one decision away: once you take the decision and walk it, you’ll realize that everything that was preventing you from making such decision was only a self-created Fear.

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• *Trust your Inner Voice – Part 1 (Self-Forgiveness): DAY 117

• Day 117: #TRUEACTIVIST – Part 1

• Day 100: FEAR

• Day 110 – Children are Not Born with Instructions

 

Interviews:

My favorite Soul of Money Interview thus far, a MUST Read to see how money affects our entire beingness in this world system:

The Soul of Money – Mind Slaves to Money Authority – Part 31

• Life Review – Living Fear

• The Soul of Money – The Consequences of Survival – Part 15

• Reptilians – My fear companion – Part 44

• Life Review – The relationship between Fear of Death and Money

• Reptilians – The Fear of Change – Part 29

• Journeys into the Afterlife – The Being that died as Fear – Part 17

 

Watch the Documentaries The Century of Self and PsyWar

76. Art Saves: My Religion Exposed

 

Within looking at how I used my career choice initially as a way to ‘Get by’ and ‘a way out of the system,’ I am looking at how I would justify this decision by establishing relationships with people that would support and involve myself within such ‘life decisions,’ which is how I came to defend ‘our view’ the same way that any other religious person would defend their belief, which is something I was able to spot due to the latest Soul of Money interview How the Soul predetermined Human’s Relationship to Money – which also allowed me to understand how everything seemed ‘so perfect’ in terms of the relationship I had with specific people and ‘their dreams’ being ‘my dreams’ as well – all in all just the perfect way to feed my preprogrammed life and ensure that I would not delve myself any further than that which caught my attention first, which was art.

 

One of the reasons why I confirmed my ‘chosen path’ in life was due to having met the ‘most important relationships’ in my life because of art/ music, which was almost like a ‘miracle’ – ehm ehm preprogrammed – point in my life wherein I really believed that I was ‘meant to be’ with that person, I was meant to be doing that and that ‘god’ had given me such a good life with the opportunity to be an artist and have fun all the time – yes, this was MY religion and I would justify it with anything I could to maintain it ‘as is.’ No different to any Christian that pops eyes out when revealing the truth of the actual energetic kick they get of any rite – I had my rites and being with someone that backs up your religion with equal fervor ‘locks you’ into that self-belief with more candor than ever, making common sense literally nonexistent as all that exists is this glorious weedy ride where all is creation, art, laughter, enjoyment and chatting about existential matters that in no way regarded LIFE on Earth.

I would spend time at the terrace just taking pictures of the sky, hearing music, drawing, ‘living life’ in such peace that you know, everyone would like to just ‘stay like that forever’ – never daring to look at the real reality of human beings –why ruin such a moment? Everyone would think, and I also thought the same way until I dared to take off the blindfold for once and for all.

2004

 

Some Self-Forgiveness for such existential-conversations with arguments to back up the Religion of Self as ‘the artist.’

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I in no way could ever see myself in a 9-5 job, saying that ‘I am way more capable than that,’ which was an obvious excuse and justification to ponder myself as this ‘artist’ that is ‘above’ the regular people and has this ‘special gift’ that makes her beyond the regular mortals, which is absolutely egotistical and self-centered statements where I was in no way aware of the reality of the world, but only caring about fulfilling my dreams and being with people that could whole-heartedly agree that they would not be able to see themselves in such a way either

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I could not see myself doing anything else than ‘art,’ I had the perfect excuse to never have to have a ‘regular job’ because apparently, I knew better and my life was ‘too special’ for that, which is the entire ego that got inflated by myself, my own thoughts, people around me throughout my life that also agreed that I had this ‘specialness’ in me that would get me into ‘very high places,’ lol never really realizing that they were only supporting my own ego-high that I even made real through becoming a religious weedy ‘ritualistic’ person, believing that my career was almost like a ‘divine gift’ and that I was able to have a ‘great life’ this life for some ‘good karma’ or something, which is how I justified and excused following my desires, having a good life and excusing poverty in this world as ‘bad karma people.’ Which is how I simply at that time ‘stopped caring’ about the world, because I was justifying everything with spirituality

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to judge everyone that had what I called ‘an ordinary life’ which was linked to having a ‘regular job’ and having to spend all day at work/ with kids and family, which I deemed like a curse to someone, just to be able to justify my desire to escape the system through my career.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that my career as ‘an artist,’ could be the perfect excuse for me to not follow (and wallow according to my self-belief) into the family system of having kids, getting married, ‘settling down’ in just one place because I was busy following dreams of traveling, being famous, remaining ‘unsettled’ and ‘without a compromise’ with anything or anyone else than ‘art,’ which means that ‘art’ became my religion and my ‘savior’ from ‘the system,’ as an entire personality suit that I used to avoid having to take responsibility for myself and looking at the world that only ‘served me’ as inspiration, but in no way was I considering how to practically assist and support myself and others to make it a better place.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that ‘living an ordinary life doesn’t allow you to expand and be creative’ which became like a mantra that I would repeat myself wherein ‘ordinary life’ meant having a proper job, family, money, desires for success and having a cool position within the world-system through business and professions that had nothing to do with ‘artistic careers,’ which is how I used ‘art’ as an excuse to be an ‘eccentric person’ meaning out of the ‘usual drill’ of living, which is nothing else but justifying the actual fear of having to face myself in the world system and be In it as a regular participant, believing that I could surely live of art and being ‘an artist,’ just because everything had been ‘so easy for me,’ which started becoming a self-religious belief wherein everything would come ‘with ease’ to me, believing it had to be like a divine gift of sorts for me to be able to enjoy ‘my life’ in this life as some type of good-deeds-in-the-past-life reward. Absolutely unacceptable.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I would not be ‘free’ if I had a husband and children, and equating marriage and children to a prison, a jail that I would run away from and even react in obvious disgust whenever anyone dared to question my ‘beliefs’ around marriage and having children in the future, just because of linking it to being bound to one place, having an ‘ordinary life’ when all I wanted was to be a ‘free spirited person’ that can ‘create’ and move around with no commitment, which would have actually lead me nowhere because the system simply does not work like that – meaning: to make money, you must be stable and committed to one point to work it through and finding odd ways to make a living is often leading to massive uncertainty in all aspects of our lives, which is why people that ‘make it’ are the most ‘settled,’ and within this understanding I see and realize that in order to equalize myself as the system, I must ‘settle down’ within the understanding and commitment to stand equal and one to the system of money and finally get past the ‘fears’ of being ‘ordinary’ as a self-belief.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that having a family, getting married, having a regular job implies constricting any form of ‘freedom,’ which implies that I believed myself to be ‘free’ in any form, never ever actually realizing how nothing and no one is Free until ALL is Free – and in that, simply using excuses and justifications for me to not ground myself to understand that, I could only thrive within the system by standing equal and one to it, which meant ‘the end’ to all these airy-fairy dreams of art and a ‘free spirited’ life-creation.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to my sister’s life and avoid at all cost becoming ‘like them,’ which meant the definition of having an ‘ordinary life,’ that till this day I see I have still judged as ‘ordinary’ and ‘boring’ and ‘constricting’ which are all aspects that come from this desire, want and need of myself to be ‘free’ and ‘unbound’ which is only a mindfuck of myself to perpetuate my own personality as ‘superior’ and ‘more intelligent’ – apparently – for deciding not to be bound to a relationship, a place, or even having desires to create a family and have kids – all of which was already quite ‘settled’ in my sister’s minds when they were my age.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience actual fear when writing about ‘creating a family’ because that is an aspect of ‘life’ that I ‘do not like talking about at all’ just because of how I have linked marriage, kids and family to being like a hell that I tried to escape through defining myself as/ becoming ‘an artist,’ and within such tag, making myself acceptable as the ‘eccentric one’ within my family = meaning ‘the one that would break the mold.’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to actually future project myself with a partner living in a little house away from the city where he could play music, I could create art and have fun riding back and forth to the city to make money with art/ any other occupation and leave a ‘peaceful kind of life’ which became like this ‘dream’ in the back of my head that I almost get myself into fully right before I got to Desteni.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I could in no way follow my sisters’ steps in life, which meant studying a career, working for a while to make enough money to then settle into having kids and having a family, just because of all the judgments I created toward ‘creating a family’ and believing that to be the ultimate imprisonment for ‘a free spirited being like me.’ Lol

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to define myself and create my entire life as being ‘the antithesis of my sisters’ wherein I made sure that I would wear ‘the artist’s gown’ proudly, so that I could justify my actual fear to ever participate in the system of money as a regular being that has a stable job, that has a husband and kids, because that would mean the absolute ‘brainwashing type of life’ wherein I judged everyone that would follow dreams of success and money as ‘brainwashed,’ without realizing that I was doing the exact same thing, just veering to another direction but in the end: only seeking my personal heaven all the time in my ‘own particular way’ which became ‘my religion.’

 

I forgive myself to still hold on to the memory of my sister’s final exam in her uni where she was granted some honors that made everyone proud, and within that, thinking that I had to ‘top that’ which became this elusive comparison that I had to apparently ‘beat’ with my career just to remain within my self-belief of being ‘the most intelligent of my family’ that had a ‘promissory future,’ wherein the entire fear of failing at fulfilling such desire looms in the back of my head based on these future projections that I would participate in based in ‘making it’ within the art world.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to admire my sister because of having had a great final exam and great career development – then becoming disillusioned about her once that she had to quit her ‘kickass job’ because of following her desires to get married and have a kid, which was only confirming what ‘I was expecting of her,’ as self-righteous judgment that I used to fuel the idea that: ‘even if she was ‘great’ in her career, she won’t follow through with it, because her desires to have a family will be stronger than becoming successful in her career’ – and so it happened and I only fueled my self-righteous prognostic.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to take a position of superiority in comparison to my sisters wherein I have believed myself to be ‘more intelligent’ and ‘wiser’ because of not following the usual ideas of having a relationship and being planning to ‘settle down’ and getting the entire house/ marriage/ kids type of life which I have judged them for in the back of my head, without realizing that it was all based on me actually fearing having to face such a life because it meant having to stand in the system and have an ‘ordinary life’ of making money to ‘settle myself down’ the same way that they have done.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think ‘There is no way that I ‘m going to waste myself that way’ wherein I used my sisters as the example of everything that I did Not want to be/ become, still till this day seeing their lives as boring and dull, which is just a spiteful judgment and self-righteous to justify my actual fear of even considering myself living their lives of great responsibility now that they have children.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to actually fear and be petrified by the mere idea of having children.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define ‘support’ and a ‘supportive relationship’ that of someone that could agree with me whenever I would talk about ‘having an ordinary life’ as the worst thing one could ever do in a lifetime, and in that believing that whomever had ‘the same ideals in life’ was meant to be with me for the rest of my life, lol

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to actually veil myself from seeing that I was no different to my sisters/ anyone else in the world that plans a future with someone that can ‘agree’ with them and their ‘lifestyle’ which in essence comprises the same desires for happiness/ fulfillment/ satisfaction just the ‘means’ and ‘ways’ of obtaining that is what differs.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that ‘I wasn’t born to be that way’ pointing out ‘the way’ as the path that my sisters/ what I deemed ‘regular people’ would follow through within their lives, wherein I would instead believe that I had this ‘special gift’ that I could use as a justification to not have to go through that ‘path in life’ of the ‘ordinary living conditions.’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that ‘my thing is to create and be with likeminded people,’ which is how I would deliberately seek to create relationships within ‘the artworld’ and through those relationships believe ourselves to be ‘superior’ than the rest of the world because of the entire self-brainwash of considering ‘arts’ as an evolutionary step within a human being, which is how I would justify my own denigration toward ‘the ordinary lives’ that people live, without ever realizing the type of life I was aiming at being no different to that of any other ‘regular person’ in the world, and that I was in fact only seeking to be also happy, fulfilled and having a partner in life that I could continue my ‘creative dreams’ with, which still till this day remained as some elusive ideal in my life.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that the relationship that I had with that one person was absolutely ‘meant to be’ and it’s the relationship that has took me the most till this day to self-forgive and absolutely let go, because of all the dreams that I built around it for over half of my life – so, I realize that my dreams to be an artist were also based on wanting to be a special person that could be with this other ‘special person’ and be together in our ‘creative dreams’ wherein we could have art as the religion that binds us. This means that, within me realizing the religion I was following as ‘art,’ I am able to see with more clarity how I was structuring my life according to a single belief system that is no different to someone else’s wishes and desires to be ‘rich’ and famous, being absolutely religious in one way or another, or having knowledge as their ultimate ‘worth’ in themselves – art became that point that would bind my dreams and my relationship with the person that I had ‘dreamed’ about for a long time. Never ever questioning how come it had actually happened the exact same way I had envisioned it, and to what extent that relationship defined the entirety of ‘who I am’ and ‘what I want to be’ in the future.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that ‘I could do this forever: creating and enjoying life’ which was part of the self-belief that I followed in order to continue my self-definition of being with this particular person in my life, and reinforcing ideas of not having to be making a living out of ‘bullshit’ in this world – wherein ‘bullshit’ meant anything Not related to art-creation/ performance, etc.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think ‘What a better way to live life but to create!’ and in that, justifying my self-religion of seeking the ultimate satisfaction and relationship to others through that self-religion, as a way to not have to face the world system, remain in my happy-go-lucky artistic bubble with ‘likeminded people’ that I could simply use as a reinforcement to my own ‘decisions in life to be and become an artist,’ just because they were doing the same with their lives: trying to escape from themselves/ the world, feeling victimized from ‘the world system’ and wanting to create a safe haven outside of the city to just ‘be free, live and create,’ all of it just being a pipe dream, literally.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was genuinely happy at that time, which became just a mechanism of my mind to always take me back to those times/ memories as if I was genuinely happy and fulfilled, when in reality I was in the most self-suppressed state of being within a relationship that was not supportive at all and just using anything I could to not have to face myself, making myself co-dependent to another’s dreams and in that, make them ‘my own’ through association, due to the belief of art being a ‘savior’ in our lives, no different to any other religion.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I in no-way could do anything else than ‘art’ or any other artistic career like playing music, writing, photography and all these activities that seemed ‘acceptable’ as a profession in the world system, yet not fully being defined within my mind as the ‘ordinary type of career,’ which is how I came to justify my entire existence being based on ‘dream-fulfilling’ through art as a way to escape the world system.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I could remain drawing forever and be with people that would be also creative and be ‘happy together’ lol, which became just the usual way to justify my career my decision and ‘what I want to do with my life’ with this entire ‘feel good’ attitude to it. I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to establish my ideal life/ my idea of fun as being with someone else in a relationship wherein one could be playing music and I could be creating graphic art and fulfill our ‘creative dreams’ together, which is why I had a tendency to seek out for musicians lol – It’s an exorcism here so

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to deliberately seek out for musicians to establish a relationship with, because of the dream that I held oh so dearly as my ideal life wherein I could be ‘creating plastic/ visual arts’ and ‘he’ the ‘ideal partner’ could make the music for it, which became like this perfect future as the creative couple – just like many couples in the artworld that I sought to emulate – couples playing in bands, couples directing music videos, couples working in art-creation together.

 

Self Corrective Statements:

When and as I see myself believing that I could in no way take a regular job, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am following my ‘self-religion’ as ‘the artist’ wherein I would justify my aversion to having to be In the system and have a regular income Within the system – thus I direct myself to equalize myself to the system wherein no matter what I do to earn money, I realize that the purpose of doing this is to support myself, to be In the system and to support an actual process of changing the way the world-system works which implies that I won’t only be in it for the mere sake of survival, but as an active participant to finally establish a world system wherein I/ we won’t have to depend on money any longer as a limit to what we want to be/ become in our lives, this implies that standing up for life in equality as a new monetary system will allow each person to express themselves in the way that they really want to live and exist as wherein money will no longer define what an ‘ordinary’ or ‘extraordinary’ life is based on the way that money is made to live/ survive in the world system.

 

When and as I see myself denigrating anyone that is currently living a life within the system and having what I had deemed as an ‘ordinary life,’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that this is the spitefulness that I bred in my mind in order to not have to face myself going through the actual equalization of myself as the system, which implies that I direct myself to simply focus on what I have to do and become in order to really stand Within the system, no longer defining it as following a dream/ deviating from a dream – but living decisions that are based in the common sensical steps required for each one of us to take Self-Responsibility for this world and do what we have to do to manifest it/ create it as a living-activity until it is done.

 

When and as I see myself ‘pondering’ what I would be doing if I had followed my dreams and all of the idealism I sought to fulfill in my life – I stop and I breathe – I realize that such ideas were simply pipe dreams that I used in order to not face myself, to not take Self-Responsibility – hence I stand as the decision that I’ve taken to support myself to exist as an individual that become part of the people that support themselves to let go of all limitations and fears to actually change the world from within and without through practically taking one point in our world as ‘our responsibility ‘and following through with it as a life commitment.

 

When and as I see myself judging people’s lives as ‘ordinary’ I stop and I breathe, I realize that I gave such definition in a derogatory way to believe that I was making the ‘right choices’ in life, based on preferences/ self-beliefs and ideas of me as an ‘artist’ being able to have an ‘eccentric unique life,’ an ‘extraordinary’ life, which is part of the programming embedded within society wherein an ‘artist’ is acceptable as ‘not normal’ based on societal patterns which is nothing else but another belief system in itself that in no way regards life in equality in/ as all living beings. I stop placing further tags upon life itself.

 

When and as I see myself silently judging marriage, families, having kids, and the act of ‘settling down,’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that I judged that as ‘ordinary’ and as the ‘locks of the system,’ based on me fearing standing one and equal as the system and actually fearing ever committing myself to such points in life, which I see that once I remove the fear and judgment to it, if and the point is here to be walked, I am willing to do so within the consideration of what is best for all life at all times and never in self-interest desires.

 

When and as I see myself fearing ‘settling down’ because of having the idea of always being and remaining a ‘free spirited person,’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that the career choice was based on me being able to perpetuate myself as a ‘free being,’ but never based on actual practical physical reality taking into consideration earning money/ working within the system, but my entire decision was based on dreams, preferences and desires which I’ve walked previously – thus I realize that the direction that I give to myself will be based on being able to have a stable income, a stable place wherein I can work in the most suitable position in order for me to be an active participant in the changes that we’ll be walking within the world system, wherein I ensure that I am no longer bound to dreams and desires of the past – and instead, ground myself (lol wrote moneyself) to have a stable financial position as that is the primary point within the world system, as well as establishing relationships of Self-Support in the physical and practical considerations and no longer based on desire, attraction, support of fellow belief-systems and personalities and ego.

 

When and as I see myself comparing my life to the one of my sisters and their decisions in life, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am able to simply direct myself in the consideration of what’s best for all and not only trying to ‘step out of the family-mold’ which implies that I no longer resist walking any similar steps as all decision will be based on the point I’ll be walking in my reality which will be placing myself in the most suitable position in the world system to establish the necessary changes in the world in the consideration of Life in Equality – the measuring point for this will be cross referenced with people that I can get further perspectives on what is best for all whenever I see myself being stuck at making decision – yet being aware that whatever decision I take, will be walked in the name of Life itself – and never again my ego and personal desires.

 

When and as I see myself comparing the careers that my sisters’ have had – I stop and I breathe, I realize that such comparison stemmed from my desire to be ‘superior’ as ‘more intelligent’ within the family, which is all ego based – therefore I let go of my desire to end up being perceived as a ‘cunning’ person, but instead follow through with the necessary points to finish and walk the next steps in my life, preparing myself to place myself in the position that I will require to be in to support within this process of self-change into a world system based on Life in Equality.

 

When and as I see myself believing that I am ‘missing out on life’ being ‘life’ linked to my previous artistic endeavors, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I had linked my entire future to ‘being an artist’ and within that, having no regard to me becoming someone that would have even get to positions that I officially ‘loathed’ in terms of it all having to do with social and political management, which is what I am willing to be and become as well as the necessary education, because that’s the foundation of support for all humans beings to start considering Life in Equality – so, I realize that what I will be doing will be actively participating in the near future, within the education of myself and others within the principles of Life in Equality and structuring my life in away wherein I can ensure that all relationships that I establish are in direct accordance to this process, my life commitment first, and then to existence as a whole, which is standing as who I really am in all aspects of my life.

 

When and as I see myself being ‘unsatisfied’ and seeking happiness, I stop and I breathe. I realize that such happiness I had linked it to airy-fairy dreams of ‘creation’ that were in no way supportive, and only based on equally high-conversations that did not consider the practical living reality at all but were just literal pipe dreams that would only serve to our egos and our desire to not face ourselves, which is unacceptable – thus I support myself to remind myself of the commitment to life I’ve made and that won’t require to be a ‘constant reminder’ as when I am here as breath as life, there is no need to desire or ‘yearn’ for happiness or fulfillment – one simply walks the decision with no desire to experience something , but walks in self-responsibility as the correction to stop all the self-interest and desires that have been the building blocks of this current world-system that we are her to stop within and as ourselves and correct/ direct into a best for all outcome.

 

When and as I see myself looking at people as ‘potential partners’ based on what they do in life – placing preference to musicians – I stop and I breathe. I realize that I am falling into the egotistical pattern of ‘being an artist’ and in that already creating a preference of people over others – thus I commit myself to stop following my dreams and desires toward people based on ‘what they do,’ but instead support myself to establish agreements, relationships in all aspects within the consideration of what is best for all life – wherein no preference intervenes to place myself in the most suitable position within the world system to walk my decision to support myself and others equal and one within this process.

 

I let go of my art religion, because I see that this is the ‘real god’ I’ve worshipped the longest in my life and it had gone so inadvertently that it is like draining myself from my ‘safe haven’ – It had always been ‘here’ as something ‘in the background’ throughout my life, never wanting to admit that it was like this faith that I kept as myself, just like people keep ‘their god’ up there, as a faith that they can just hold on to as a point of resort and self-definition.

 

I breathe and realize I am here, and that letting go of all these dreams and ideas and future projections can only allow myself to become more self-directive in the decisions that I make from here on in my life, wherein I won’t allow myself to seek out a relationship based on any artistic bond or desires to ‘create’ and ‘be happy’ – but instead take into consideration the actual ‘facing’ of the world system that requires our absolute self-responsibility to practically and physically establish solutions wherein we stop for a moment seeking only our self-interested futures and instead create/ build a future that is best for all.

 

 

No es mi sistema 2005 (It’s not my system)

This is an allusion of how I saw the world as ‘too corrupted’ for my pure beating heart  – instead of realizing I was IT as well. I face the system as myself without wanting to remain in a separate bubble of dreams – I am the only one that can save myself.

 

Blogs:

• What the Masters of Energy do Not Know: DAY 76

• Day 76: Stopping the Mind in the Flesh – Part 2

 

These interviews supported me to realize what  ‘my religion’ was linked to money as the ultimate experience

• How the Soul predetermined Human’s Relationship to Money

• The One System that Rules us All

• Reptilians – The Relationship between Sex, Intelligence and Religion – Part 55