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282. What do Spirituality and War have in Common?

When one speaks about the truth of ourselves which is describing the reality we live in/witness every day and use basic facts like children being maimed and have their limbs blown off by bombs because of a war that was founded upon a seemingly ‘positive thing’ such as ‘eradicating terrorism’ –or whatever the final reason is kept to be – and justifying it with things like defending a nation from external evil, this explanation is then received as a radically Negative message. However this comes from people that would rather pray or indulge in 24/7 with Positive thinking and mass distractions – or mass destruction by seeking personal satisfaction and pursuit of happiness, hooked on so many ubiquitous drugs that have lead people to bankruptcy, losing all their functional relationships, ending up living in tents and cars managing to panhandle just to maintain an addiction.

What’s all of this? an indication of fear: fear of facing ourselves as the mind that we are and have become, that’s what generates crisis: allowing our indecision and irresponsibility to build up to such an extent that we get angry at the world instead of facing ourselves first and this is the origin of protests/rebellion, and its counter part where people would rather seek for peace of mind through attracting all the positive to your life while fearing to see this reality of ourselves that’s becoming to hard to overlook. It’s like running away from ourselves, really.

 

Why would we require positivity/ spirituality movements/ new age exist? Because the negative is what has always prevailed in our society, no matter what –that should already be an indication of how that which is ‘effortless’ such as seeking for our personal benefit, our self interest and competing to ‘win’ at all times seems like a natural instinct for the majority of beings, isn’t it? Hence when such desire is not fulfilled because of the physical reality as our world demonstrating to us our creation as the direct outflow of irrational thinking manifested as our world-system, we turn to love and light and positivity to hide from it, because we can’t just  bear the fact that we are in fact our own worst nightmare and enemy. And yes, this is what creates Fear, the Fear to face ourselves as what we have become.

People would rather pray for the ‘fallen ones’ in war before questioning why does war even exist in the first place, what is ‘in it’ for us to accept war as part of a country’s ‘defense tactics’ justified by the law of ‘an eye for an eye’ as retaliation to purify one’s “honor – this is the principle of war: masking real evil with noble intentions, creating deliberate occupations that are not meant to ‘fight terror’ but rather get a country’s ‘black gold’ that happens to be the motor of our current unsustainable lifestyle that we seek to improve through obtaining more money and more positive thinking – full circle of consumerism sanctified as holy freedom rights.

 

 

 

You drop out and tune in to the TV god that promotes several ways to free yourself, like buying lots of stuff you don’t really need, informing yourself about histories being told by those that would want to keep a certain order of this world and many spawns of religion in the form of spirituality programs and new age thinking that’s fed on a constant basis for massive indoctrination, supporting the surrendering to the here now moment of people that will feel like they’ve finally won a battle against the mind! Yet this is the perfect drug in fact, one so addictive that is hard to refuse and even harder to quit because it is not even considered as something harmful and detrimental to one’s common sensical reasoning and sanity: love, light, beautiful pictures and stories that keep us well contained in a parallel reality where no actual facts exist, where all the ‘ugliness’ of the world is covered up and justified with further things like god being wise and knowing why he would make some deliberately people left to suffer, and not even dare to question god’s word even if it means that we would be forever damned to see others starve while those with money can be thankful for our joyous lucky ride in life. Not a care, not a dare about how their system is being created, legalized and implemented by a set of deliberate flawed laws wherein people have not yet realized the actual contract one is endowed with from the moment of birth: to be a slave  to a corporation called nation that competes with other corporations/nations to make the most profit in this corporate-driven world – citizens are no longer humans with ‘god given rights’ but  employees with limited access to food, water, shelter,  drugs and weapons supplied to keep everyone feeling like there’s some freedom and liberty, feeling all happy and self righteous. with a moment of ‘entertainment’ while feeling safe at home. Hell yeah.

 

How have we come to accept our world as is and how have we come to invest our time, effort and resources  to disguise the massive totalitarian control that’s taking place. The charismatic leader is, unfortunately, not going to be someone like the usual fascist clichés imposing fear through  energetic personalities, but quite the opposite: it won’t be one single person, it won’t be perceived as ‘negative’ and it won’t seem angry – it is an ideology, it spreads like a feel-good drug that is easily indulged to by your own acceptance and allowance of thoughts that lead you to experiences that make you feel ‘good’ inside your mind and it will be presented as the ultimate remedy for a troubled angry hopeless human mind: Positivity. And yes, unfortunately in can only work if you have enough money to feed yourself to use up that energy to generate all the positive thoughts that we are so ignorant about in terms of what are the effects thinking and imagining create in this world – and not outside, as that is once again, our truth – but in the inside as in consuming our own living flesh to power up our own new-clear mind plant that we run inadvertently without ever pondering what the effects are of the words in our reality as building blocks of our creation.

 

Hence we go back to square 1: why would we require wars to get someone else’s resources through violent (vile-ends) means if we could instead establish a world system wherein resources are equally given and received?

Power requires abuse and the means to obtain it have been justified –we’ve done the same when seeking spirituality/ benevolence and our ‘prosperity’ that is composed and formed by a plethora of articles and services made and given by people that have no option but to work in such demeaning jobs with no other alternative.

 

In terms of war, it should be absolute common sensical reasoning that you cannot fight fire with fire and fighting terror with war is just that –would this prove that the level of intelligence and critical reasoning has been deliberately lowered in order to maintain an entire world driven by money, being busy seeking happiness through money that buys the sex, booze, drugs and a self-righteous superior position to ensure that there are always those that are enslaved to maintain the ‘life of the fortunate riches’ that are, at the same time, also consumed as an entertainment product that is bought/paid by those that live such menial lives that seek for a bit of ‘escapism’ from the dread of working to die and what do you get? TV and the most trivial entertainment that ensures people remain in this endless loop of barely making a living and using the little free time left to run the well known course of the seeking-for-something loop of god, sex, money, drugs, partying, remaining in isolation or openly hating each other to create excuses outside of ourselves as points to blame or get easily annoyed by, to then justify the personal desire for ‘inner peace’ through positivity or retaliation through war or killing your noisy neighbor.

  This is how the inner-demons are fought with light/love/positivity, not realizing that light also runs its course and cannot be sustained forever, just like ourselves in this world: what’s the point in going through an entire lifetime of endless battles within and without of ourselves? Is this what we are here for? I would say this is what we have created ourselves to exist for, which is different: we decide at all times what we do and how we live.

 

The inherent self-experience that we believe we just can’t get rid of-hence turning to love and spirituality as a cure, is definitively addictive pattern based on the lack of understanding how our mind works/operates, because just like the analogy of dark and light: the dark does not require batteries to exist, and the light does and as such, just like our oil that’s keeping our current ‘lifestyles’ in place, it will also come to a dead end in a not so far away future that’s already here.

 

What will run out first? Oil or Hope? I would like Hope to be the answer to this question, so that practical living measures are taken immediately and stop the inaction,  because we are in fact aware of what we are generating and perpetuating every single day and we realize one thing: we know the problem because we are it, we just haven’t realized to what urgency a solution is required to be in place so that we can all stop battling ourselves inside seeking for some comfort in the light that lead us to wage wars to  power/ sustain such light/positive/  progressive self experience, which is what we are currently seeing as all the beautiful pictures of what a wonderful lifestyle we can have if we just dare ourselves to dream and think positive. Nevermind the millions abroad fighting for a war they believe is a ‘higher purpose’ for a godly-blessed nation, nevermind those that work as slaves to produce such wonderful life.

 

Investigate Desteni to understand the inherent fear that we seek to mask and cope with by seeking spirituality, the same way that in fear we created money to create control and abuse – Equal Money Capitalism is the proposal to finally stop the massive destruction and abuse that is imposed when granting each other’s ‘rights’ in the name of self defense, because there will be nothing to ‘defend ourselves from,’ because fear will be understood and stopped within the understanding that we can only exist in fear when disregarding all parts of ourselves as equals.

This is a practical common sensical solution that will stop people from hoping and praying and instead use the available support to develop a real sense of physical living of cooperation and mutual regard in equality. No more will the sugar-fueled addiction of spirituality and love armed with righteous guns exist. Will this be a hard one to ‘give up’ here? Will common sense prevail after all?

Let’s find out – I dare you

 

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215. Red Fears = Capitalist Propaganda

 

Communism as Fear Label.

I grew up with the belief that people were leaving the USSR because communism lead to poverty – little did I know that it was not because of Communism in itself, but a failure within the Attempt to establish Communism as an actual living of what Marx envisioned. As Cerise Poolman puts it:

“people already cry out “communism” when they hear about it [Equal Money System] – not even realizing that everything we think we know about communism is the distorted image that the power-countries want us to believe. Maybe this is then a good indication that we are on the right track?” 

Day 213: War, It Isn’t Good For Absolutely Nothing

 

Hence as a child and knowing this ‘friend of my mother coming from Russia because of communism’ instilled the belief within me that Communism leads to poverty and as such, growing under the influence of my parents who also adopted such belief – of course I don’t blame anyone here, this is just how things developed and here I am taking responsibility to see where and how I have conditioned myself to create an entire opinion and perspective based on what I’ve heard-  yes, without any further investigation or background to it. 

 

Continuation of the Elitist Character:

The Revolutionary Character:

 

As I mentioned in the post 212. Opposing the System= Act of Ignorance the word ‘Communist’ became a pejorative term that could lead people to be tagged by the government and even be jailed-  once again, little did I know the context of such situations and the actual course of events that developed.

I realized later on how ‘in the back of my head’ which means an entire opinion-personality existed toward communism, wherein the word ‘revolutionary’ is inherently linked in my mind to some paintings,  general icons in relation to communism etc. So the point to Self Forgive here is the brainwashing in itself, wherein I took information ‘as it came’ without further investigation – and only when having people linking Equal Money System to communism realizing that we  were onto having some major resistances from what I had witnessed throughout my life, wherein communism was spoken in a similar fashion to talking about the devil or the scum of the Earth, ‘revolutionary’ became another key word linked to rebellion, which  I then took proudly as a tag I wanted to wear myself within a personal vendetta against ‘family patterns’ that I’ve discussed throughout my entire process. We’ve lost all ability to discern information and actually not take things at ‘word value,’ but investigate, research and create our own conclusions and even more so, suit it to our own personal vendettas. I even recall quite clearly how I would get an ‘upliftment’ when I was called this way by my parents.

 

It is certainly now easier to have access to information, 20 years ago I had no access or even interest in what I do  now. I remember going to this explanation of the communism in Venezuela which I shared here: Socialism in the 21st century? and how it was painted as something absolutely nice and pretty by this German sociologist that I met. Later on I realized that the man’s stance was that of ‘fucking with the system’ even in petty acts of theft, and his entire proposal was putting up a front toward the ‘academy’ while earning quite good money from his academic endeavors. He was another example of what I thought was ‘cool’ to do for a moment, even though the retaliation and vengeance toward the system by petty theft definitely seemed like obviously questionable – however, it is to remember that I was pretty much in that ‘reactive’ side of social matters, and my aim was to be ‘inspired’ by these ‘libertarians’ mostly from other countries, mostly people that have even come to Mexico as a ‘political asylum,’ because virtually you can ‘do it all’ here.

 

The Muralist movement here in Mexico was one of my greatest influences of course as that’s most of what one would have to see as a demonstration of art in the 20th century. Communism rang again and the same with Siqueiros and his communist endeavors up to the point where he became active in the Communist Party here. I knew that the muralists had gotten themselves into trouble for portraying socialist icons in murals made for Rockefeller – lol – that’s quite obvious yet courageous within the same starting point of ‘confronting’ the system and making money out of it, good money and fame out of it – hence we add more information to my communist sack: revolutionary, opposition, courageous and within that admiring mostly Siqueiros as a man with ‘great guts’ and in that, holding him as an ideal of what I wanted to be and become as well.

 

A reminder is that I am placing out here all the Knowledge and Information I acquired as the propaganda it is, meaning even these artists also got to have lots of fame, fortune and living the ‘ideal’ of an artist I envisioned early in my life. Right now my sister’s influence from the time she was a teenager popped-up, she was quite the communist act during her high school years, she even was a role model for me when I was also 8-9 years old, she was quite an opinionated person while being in a school that was funded mostly by communist/ leftist intellectuals in our city. Fascinating how I got the influence of such people through my sister and her acquired ideas at school, pretty cool since I got to know some of our ‘hidden history’ from the books she’d read and tell stories about.  This was  also seen as a threat to what the normalcy of her desires at the time should have been (she’s 10 years older than me) in terms of  people in ‘high school’ and being in our society like she did.  Later on, with her entering Jesuit Private University, any remains of communism/ socialism or social justice dwindled to the point of remaining as a washed-out version of  ‘good will’ in the background, while realizing that one cannot survive in this world while opposing the system/ idealism in essence, even though we are aware of many people that do make good money out of that, which was never our case in the family since making money out of opposing the system implied becoming an Intellectual and, people in my direct family weren’t that at all – hence my initial fears, brainwashing toward communism.

 

It is only now that we realize that communism became another version of capitalism due to its confinement and lack of understanding of actual change stemming from the monetary system. Not to mention the boogie-man Communism was also conveniently made within us ‘western societies’ –  the Movie ‘Goodbye Lenin’ also played a role in forming certain criteria around communism, another proof of how media is a powerful way to educate and misinform the masses.

Hence, it is to clarify that Equal Money System is nor capitalism, nor communism but Equality – there can be no other precedents to an Equality System throughout our history, simply because it has never existed. Period.

 

Any correspondence with the principles promoted by any other historical figure within the Communist-Fears, it is simply a point to consider with regards to what prevented such principles and considerations from being implemented, and the collective acceptance and allowance of such principles as something ‘Evil’ and ‘Bad’ when promoting the well being of all beings Equally. Isn’t then quite obvious that any detractor of anything sounding like Communism being a blatant defender of the Abuse toward Life? Communism as a word, without the historical load it contains as our knowledge and information like I’ve just poured out myself here, means ‘communal to all’ = common, it was thus envisioned as a common sense. I repeat: Envisioned as a common sensical system, it was never placed in full action and consideration of all the factors that should have been taken into consideration to actually have a real demonstration of what a functional communist country could be like to support human beings to their utmost potential. This, precisely became Idealism instead of practical realizations.

 

The world is in reverse and this means that Capitalism is by far the most well-covered up form of slavery we’ve accepted with positive-acts of ‘fulfillment’ like happiness through consuming, escalating the social ladder to get more money and call that ‘success’ instead of abuse, perpetuating political dispensations that support a system of perpetual ‘struggle to live’ wherein things like poverty have become a background aspect in all societies around the world, coming up now to the surface in a more visible way  to realize that there has been something Very Wrong about the acceptance and allowance of a Consciousness-mentality of a System that is in no way regarding Life in Equality, but only seeking to consume, destroy the most for its own engulfment of power in the hands of a few.  Listen to The Soul of Money to understand to the T what I’m saying here.

 

As above, so below: the same happened in Heaven and Hell (The Earth)

Heaven spreading fears around the Demon dimension, not wanting to even get close to them to support them and integrate them as part of the whole – but instead relegating them to some ‘outskirt’ rank in existence – just like we do with poverty and any other marginalized being in our reality, little did anyone know what their real abilities were. The same with Jesus and everyone having missed the point of his entire process on Earth to promote Life in Equality and instead, turning his words and persona into some Christian paraphernalia to sell idols as saviors instead of realizing the actual gift that he meant for human beings to realize the Equality as Life that we are, which is  what Jesus came to say. These are Crucial aspects to understand of our reality – both able to be heard in the series Demons in the Afterlife | The Crucifixion of Jesus |  And No, this has Nothing to do with the fact that you believe in a god, heaven, Jesus or hell – this is part of the configuration/ set up that we all exist as by the sheer fact of existing as a mind and a physical body merged into ‘who we are’ which is more of an accepted and allowed con that must be corrected now.

Read: Day 214: Jesus was the Greatest Threat to the Creator Gods – ADC – Part 62

 

Within this all, it is not a surprise that my initial reactions toward the Equal Money System when getting to know about it in 2008 were met with an uncanny resistance that I was not even aware of ‘where it came from’ obviously, it had become part of my programming to fear anything that threatened our current system, even if the idea sounded Great at first, there were many questions around the value of money and how it was all going to be done if we already had this nice value-system wherein I had been brainwashed to accept the fact that one can only be supported to live if you work for it, more like Struggle for it. You know? Life is Hard/ Life is Tough, waddle your way through it, push to breakthrough and maybe, only maybe, you’ll make it.

 

From here stems all these ideas that we were being ‘oppressed’ by the system, not realizing we Are the System and that any leftist-endeavor was always met with resistance because no real solutions were considered: there was no Self-Responsibility as in Individually realizing how the nature of our current Capitalist System is the exact reflection of how our mind works. Hence even if on paper communism was meant to be a ‘utopia’ on Earth, it would have mostly failed on the long run if the nature of the human would not be precisely engineered to support and sustain the communist principles, which requires understanding of how the mind works and how this reality operates within the same principles of our mind and its relationship to the physical body. These are the reasons why and  how a reform in the system cannot only be seen as a single political move to a betterment of society – it must be a holistic gradual process of Self-Change, individually, through Education that must be considered even from the moment one is pretending to conceive another life form/ child to live in this world. There is a lot of  material to study in order to understand How we came to create the current world system as the image and likeness of the relationship existent between the mind as consciousness as the ‘resident evil’ within our physical body, and what it actually implies and entails us having to walk this process within existence as a way to correct – dare I say ‘conciliate’ that inherent separation we accepted and allowed as existence. Yes, energy as the result of separation and exemplified nowadays as our monetary system and its ‘inner workings’ is the perfect physical example of what happens when the creators – not ‘gods’ but each one of us, creators and perpetrators of this current world system – disregard all beings within this world as equals and consider only Self Interest.

All of this is explained to the T in all the interviews at Eqafe – and I say All because the default ‘scenario’ for everything narrated there is our entire history that has never been told, but that has created the very consequences we are facing till this day on Earth, in our day to day living. Thus, as you can realize, it is as Relevant as can be and we cannot give further steps without individuals taking the Responsibility to Educate themselves to Understand, and upon Understanding, Acting according to the common sense realizations of how to walk through within this world to create and establish a viable solution for all.

 

Will the world hear? Are you ready to understand reality to the T and regain your actual power to no more be subdued by the constant impulse of buy-consume-happiness brainwashing that we’ve accepted and allowed Till this day on Earth.

I dare you.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become brainwashed by knowledge and information that I acquired within ‘trust’ toward the people and sources of information as ‘reliable’ without realizing that in this world, everything has been managed and controlled through knowledge and information as education and media in order to veer the population that has access to such information toward a particular outcome that will benefit those that write the history books, lay out the Education programs which is all designed to perpetuate the capitalist system as a form of acceptable slavery through values and words that represent an inherent inability to support all beings equally and placing that as a form of ‘physical law’ that I never investigated but simply took ‘as is,’ not realizing that all the knowledge and information acquired around communism, socialism and revolutions was meant to be placed as warnings, as ways to prevent any of us from actually taking action to question our own system – but instead, accept Fear of Communism/ Socialism as something that we simply had to avoid at all cost, which proves how it is through individual acceptance and allowance of information as ‘the devil’ that we shape, form and sustain our own mind control.

 

I commit myself to debunk my beliefs, accepted and allowed brainwashing around communism and revolutionary characters in order to establish a common sensical starting point within my own process of taking responsibility for what is here, so that it is no longer tainted by my personal history, by humanity’s history written in books and told by teachers/ people that were taught to teach such information in the first place – and instead, establish a common sensical practical consideration of using knowledge and information to understand how we have created our ideological apparatus and how it has been conveniently set up, not only from schools or parents, but on the streets/ the media as the general configuration that defines our reality – which is currently based on money/ capitalism –  and within this, explore the ways we can use the same mechanisms that are currently existing as a way to educate people and get to know the actual reality that has been veiled behind the symbols of power/ success/ happiness that have become the real weapons of mind control, widely accepted and allowed in any home and school with sufficient money to be active within this world as an economic force – which proves again how people that are not part of the system are not even taken into consideration when it comes to brainwashing, because they have no money to spare as a result of such brainwashing.  Shame on us, humanity. But, we are here to take Self Responsibility for all of this, until it is done.

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212. Opposing the System= Act of Ignorance

     

    The Revolutionary Character

     

As we have walked our own life reviews as our own process, I realized that my immediate incorporation within Desteni had to do with agreeing on establishing a betterment for humanity in all ways. However, what I’ve heard in interviews on Eqafe is how most of us had seen ‘the evil’ in this world in one way or another, had experienced it ourselves which is why we decided to stand up for Life in Equality. I could not make much sense of that if I only took my life into consideration. I mean, yes as I mentioned in the last blog 211. Why is Life a Struggle? Why Can’t All be just HAPPY? there were times of financial distress at home, but it was never to the extent of actually having a tough life or going through any other form of suffering as many people do. So, what had I witnessed then in my reality that piled up to a desire for this world to change?  Being living in a third world country, seeing corruption everywhere, people cheating to get the most, that became quite an obvious point for me all the time to witness in my life, even from the time when I was a little girl and supposed to be informed about cartoons or stuff like that, I was already more interested in knowing what the hell could lead a person to suffer or have ‘problems in life’ if you will, more involved in adult talks than what I diminished as petty little childish games that most kids my age were into. I realize how I missed out on my childhood by wanting to ‘know about the world’ too fast, yet again it became a vital aspect within my life in order to form a certain criteria toward ‘who I am’ within this world-  obviously still limited to the confinement of my own TV set with news and information coming from it, and later on the information I got in my school about world economics and political systems with a great professor whom till this day, I would clone and give one to all people since most of the information that we are now watching in documentaries that ‘expose the truth’ was given to me by him, I guess I can say that ‘knowing the truth’ partly also lead me to see that there was something absolutely wrong going on wherein people were mostly unaware of the actual mechanisms that make this world go round.

So, my own reality check in this country – Mexico – seeing how the business world functioned, how our money had suddenly ‘lost three zeros’ and no one made a single comment other than ‘practicality purposes’ about it, being aware of endless protests, crime, shootings, robberies, assaults, kidnappings, drug trafficking and the list goes on and on, made me realize that there had to be a way to establish a solution in this world, and within that, I became a character for a while which was linked to ‘wanting change’ but mostly, being absolutely unaware of how me protesting against some governor’s pedophilia could make in any way a real change in the way he would govern the city.  I just tagged along with people that saw that as incorrect and followed through with endless talks about how ‘wrong’ the system was – as I have explained also in past blogs, all based in actual ignorance of how the system works, really.   And so I begin with explaining some of the most prominent points that come to mind today.

 

Red Fears

I remember my first approach and interaction with anything having to do with Communism while growing up. A friend of my mother had come from Russia – then USSR – to escape the poverty she was experiencing in her birthplace, my mother was her dentist and so I became aware of her being from another place due to her funny Spanish accent, I’m talking about me being probably 5 years old or so. My parents explained to me about Communism being this government-modality that was very detrimental for people’s lives, people were going poor really fast and so she had decided to come her to make a ‘better living’ condition for herself. I had the same approach with some other older lady that was also a friend of ours and she was from Chile, had come to Mexico as a refugee in the 80’s  – it was interesting seeing people escaping from their country for one or another reason. I didn’t question that, nor did I have much understanding about the world back then, but I do see that the communist reference became part of me integrating the so called red-fear from believing that: if communism is what the USSR was living in and people are wanting to escape their situation, then communism is no good.  Seems fair when it comes to logic and the information one is given about a subject, which most of the cases, we simply engulf as some sort of ‘informed decision’ with regards to what we agree or disagree in our world, little do we even ask if such information is valid in all contexts – hence the personalities built around acquired and almost inherited points of view/ opinions as the building blocks of our current division and separation in reality, missing out anything that is Real.

 

When growing up and being around 10 or so I knew that some artists here, which have become some form of Mexican icons like Frida Kahlo, Rivera and David Alfaro Siqueiros – whom I came to be very fond of while studying art – were supporters and militants of the Mexican Communist Party here. Siqueiros had been part of the military as well during the revolution – which is interesting how the people that came to be part of the military and later on became artists – Siqueiros and Beuys as a parallel point – supported new political systems that were based on a more ‘just society.’  Anyways, I realized that there was something really ‘controversial’ about the whole Communist word, not to mention that all the people that were supporters of socialism and communism in my environment were dubbed by my parents as mediocre – most of the times and other words on the same vein – simply because to them, Communism meant a rusty poor Cuba and an impoverished Russia.

 

I grew up then rather not wanting to ‘make up my mind’ about communism, and leaving it aside as something that I would somehow later on in life come to make an informed decision about. I kept a fair idea of how Marx’s communism was never implemented and all that was done was simply creating another form of control of society in very non-best-for-all ways. And that was it. Later on we begun having a lot of feedback about the Equal Money System being something linked to Communism. So obviously what must be understood here is how then Communism has been portrayed as the counter act, the ‘evil guy’ standing as the counteract toward Capitalism. What was mostly not known is how Communism had become a convenient boogie-man/ fear point to maintain people locked within the propagandistic idea that capitalism is Life, that capitalism is the best way for humanity and within that, using it as a bastion, a legion and a force that was imposed in several countries as another way of masking out colonialism in the name of ‘progress,’ which is what capitalism came to be defined as for the most part.

 

Corruption

When I became aware of the world system as in there being a president in our nation, one of the so-called most corrupted presidents in our ‘modern era’ was in office. I grew up having constant references to the NAFTA and solidarity, progress, under development, devaluation and later on crisis– all these words were constant imprints from the news, while always hearing adult talks and hearing their complains about the government, the corruption. Later on it was the Zapatistas making their armed movement in 1994 and I was only 7 years old when I had quite a formed picture of our country definitely not being alright, lots of poverty and uprisings around and something had to be done, also became aware of how a lot was being left unsaid on the TV as well.  I knew Revolution was also not the way since all those paintings I had seen from the revolution indicated lots of guns, people with blood, kids crying and certainly no change had come from that time – which was early 20th century here in México. Another reference then was that my father was in Mexico City studying when the 1968 student ‘revolution’ and demonstrations took place where thousands of them were killed mercilessly by the government, such an event is still remembered till this day. He would tell this story along the lines of how unnecessary it was to create such a problem in the first place. He ended up being in jail for two days just because of ‘being around there’ and having no direct participation in it. I vowed to then never take part of such acts as I feared I could get myself in such problem as well. And never did, for the most part.

 

Murdering those that dare to Stand Up

I became aware of the murder of a presidential candidate here in 1994, he was apparently murdered because of his attempt to make a real change in this country, which was obviously against his political party’s intention. That murder became an entire ‘mystery’ while most of the people actually knowing that it was an actual complot by his own party. A world so cruel, how could that be? Killing someone that was up for change? What?  – Yes, I was only 7 years old and I remember very well the entire story and it also marked me ‘for life,’ how this person aiming to be a president being killed during his political campaign, shot to the head. 

 

Going back to Siqueiros that stood up within a political Communist party to promote a change in this country, he ended up in jail and arrested several other times for openly attacking the president and generally opposing this entire system. Watching his paintings in the Palacio de Bellas Artes allowed me to see one thing: there was something really wrong going on and I wasn’t aware of it, because I had seen it as ‘history’ as something that is ‘long gone,’ little did I know that the same processes were pretty much still ‘alive’ within the entire configuration that this system is operating with and as. We might not be carrying bullets on our chests or wearing sombreros, however the essence of the social injustice is still here while having a major system of sugar-coating the abuse through entertainment/ media that has made of this world a silenced agony and destruction, covered up colors in bright HDMI screens and entertaining masses with iPhone upgrades where we have all have become just silent self-abusers in an abusive world. Well, why have we feared standing up? Due to our history, however what ‘type’ of standing up is it that we have come to fear? The one that has created an open opposition to the system. Little did we care to investigate that there is absolutely another way to walk in this world, be within the system and implement a change.

 

Crucified for Standing Up

The problem with all these revolutionaires was that: opposing the system, begin dissidents and that will obviously always only upgrade the system to silence any form of opposition that attempts against its own survival. Hence the way is not ‘giving the finger’ to the system, but being within the system.

The fears I see related to this are mostly related to seeing how people that became part of political parties that stood up for what was defined as communism were always threatened to death, ostracized and in the end, I see that fear can be latent when one is still Opposing the system. It is so common in this country nowadays to kill anyone that dares to speak more than the usual, however it is the same point: obviously people will try and silence that which reveals their corrupted ways of going through the system, that’s an obvious survival-mode tactic. However, if we stand as a group of people that propose simply another way and form of creating a new system within this world based on life in Equality, we can certainly see that there is no need to ‘oppose’ anyone, but just present an alternative of what is possible.

 

Fear is used as the greatest form of control so that any person considering ‘changing the system’ is immediately warned about the perils that such actions bring. Fear and warnings on this subject have been ‘conveniently’ placed and existent throughout our lives when learning about history and revolutions, just another form of control which is what revolutions have actually served for: a great warning to the population in the ways of ‘this is what happens to you when you dare stand up’ – little did the people participating in such revolutions know what their desires for change would end up being used as fear-propaganda for people to remain ‘calm and quiet’ where they are, going by within a system that certainly does not support life  yet fearing doing any move or proposal to change it, because of having this constant imprint of fear dying due to Standing up for what is best for all. However, were and are our current revolutions best for all? Are wars and opposition what is BEST FOR ALL? No, not at all. This is how and why the Equal Money System is the most Sane proposal that exists within our world currently to create an actual change that is permanent and sustainable within our world  Without having to oppose anyone or fighting against any form of regime or government.  Democracy must not be an act of retaliation, vengeance or opposition toward the ‘evil one,’ it must be an actual decision to exert one’s will to be a part of a world system that stands up for All Life in Equality, for that which we All know and are aware of is Best for All, what we have All desired but have Feared standing up from – it only takes one decision in Self Responsibility to do so.

 

Activism and Revolutions

All these stories, the history we learn in our books must be reviewed within the consideration of how it has been all conveniently preserved in order to instill fears within humanity to not make a change – perfect weapon of mass control: fear for your life if you stand up for Life in Equality, for ‘Freedom’ and ‘Justice’

We are here, individuals with common sense, taking Self Responsibility toward our world and reality, realizing the acceptance and allowance of the world system that has lead us to this point at the moment wherein it is a matter of actual life or death, not only for individuals, but for Every Being Equally if we don’t get to an agreement to do and live within a system that will benefit all beings equally. This is thus not a matter of Revolutions, Oppositions, Protests, Flipping Fingers at your Presidents, firing up flags and pictures of leaders as a sign of inconformity, this is about dedicating our lives to first Educate ourselves HOW human history has developed, how we have accepted the issues that exist nowadays as an inheritance of the past, how we are the ones that must take responsibility and within this, create a political, economical and social solution that benefits ALL Equally, yes including those that are currently on the top of the world – otherwise, we already know where this fight between classes leads us to: nowhere but further upgrades within the same system of abuse.

 

This is why we say Activism is Futile as all revolutions and people that have ‘stood up’ for anything in this world have been killed, ostracized and exterminated by the system.  This is why we have explained that the real revolution begins within us, individually, the moment that we stop only caring for our individual lives and consider the whole in our thoughts, words and deeds – that’s the greatest common sensical ‘weapon’ toward everything that is promoted within this world, a ‘white glove’ smack on the face as they say here which means, using Common Sense = What is Best for ALL as the principle to live by that will eliminate the constant desire to be ‘above’ others, to maim another’s opportunity to get some form of benefit in order for you to get it first. All of these individualistic tactics is what is promoted within capitalism. We can decide to change it by standing up for Life in Equality, what a better way to slowly but surely dismantle an entire empire founded upon self-interest and selfish acts of greed. This implies that Changing Human Nature is required, and this is why and how we are walking at Desteni as the primary point of understanding the relationship that exists between ourselves as physical bodies, our mind and the current creation of this reality With the actual, real and practical solutions that each one of us, individual by individual are able to take on in order to establish a real change that will be Here as a certainty for generations to come.

Now, this is something that I am definitely willing to live for and by for the rest of my life, there is nothing else to do, be or become but standing up for what is best for all, this is the law of our being and this is what must be pursued equally by any sane person left in this world. This is thus not being a revolutionary in the sense of opposing or fighting the system, this is about changing the way live is being ‘lived’ currently and be part of the group of people that is willing to implement it until it is done.

Amen.

 

Self Forgiveness in any left overs of fears toward standing up for Life in Equality will come in the next post. Thanks for reading.

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205. Self Interest as an Obstacle to Real Change

 

  • “Freedom of choice is now protected by the individual as it feels like it is free –in spite of the evidence to the contrary and even when it rebels– it only do so in ways that do not impede with its special comforts and thus –the system is safe from the group as the individual now act as a group through what it buys or watch on TV. So –you fear to lose COMFORT and CHOICE to BUY stuff” – Bernard Poolman

 

Continuation of the Elite Character

194. Let the Mask Fall!
195. The Righteousness of Evil
196. The Elitist Evil behind Relationships
197. Friends of Convenience
198. Wealth and Positivity a Synonym of Abuse
199. You Hate the Beautiful People?
200. The Make-Up Reality
201. Friends of Convenience: for a little piece of Heaven
202. Optimism as a Sign of Success
203. The Acceptance of Heaven is the Allowance of Hell

204. Opposing the System: Elitist Act of Irresponsibility

 

 

I would  judge people that would only spend their time focusing on ‘what to wear, what party to attend, calling their friends, sitting on their couch watching TV, going shopping, etc. which I deemed to be activities that only people that have no survival problems can participate on – however, I was obviously projecting the problem outside of myself and taking on again the ‘Self Righteous’ aspect of judging others, pointing fingers and blaming because it’s much easier to Blame than take Self Responsibility and see where and how I was doing exactly the same processes – different conditions, different scenarios but same starting point: having money, not worrying about having to ‘make a living’ and instead believing that through my wits and intellectualization of reality, I could create a difference in this world.

 

Well, what did I get from those endless hours of sitting sipping coffee with sociologists, writers, economists, poets, artists and plain dissidents of the system? Nothing else but always ending up with a feeling of ‘powerlessness’ while not having to worry much about it at the end of the day, because hey at least we were having money and studies to live, I see how even within that the point of change was projected ‘there’ in the future, never ever pointing fingers back to ourselves, I was so high up on my horse about blaming the system that I simply was absolutely getting an energetic kick out of it. All we would eventually realize is that  money determined everything and that no intention of change will do a single thing, nor criticizing will do a thing either which is part of what I was exploring yesterday in terms of the opposition of the system, of which I obviously participated in.

 

I was comfortably wanting to become part of the elitist groups of intellectuals that could speak about reality as politics, economics, culture ‘from head to toe’ and be revered for that while earning good money from the system for doing so – because of what I had seen some others in my reality doing – however never in fact becoming an active part of proposing a solution, because even then I was still only wanting to do it as a form of ‘resistance’ and ‘exposure’ which is how many of our current intellectuals and well-versed people can have ‘all the knowledge and information about how the system works’ – this being within the current available considerations that fall short when it comes to a holistic understanding of reality – and can even propose great sounding theories of how to create a change – but missing out the point of ourselves, who we are as the mind, how the world system is an outflow and consequence of this relationship of ourselves to our own mind has been absolutely missed.

 

Most of these theories are never taken to an actual political implementation, since they end up within certain groups/ factions of society that only seek to create a constant ‘war’ and opposition to the ‘establishment’ as a source of self-empowerment, without realizing how there will be absolutely No change in reality if we remain only blaming others, finding flaws without understanding the cause of such flaws, sipping our coffee in long hours of discussing the system, in conventions and global forums to ‘discuss the problems’ without proposing tangible solutions, or going to protest and then hooking up with friends to party, or raging against the system of which one is also being able to eat from; all of this reveals to what extent money is also a condition that allows us to ‘rebel’ only and be concerned in self—interested ways to make an apparent ‘change’ in this world, while being rather absolutely ignorant to the actuality of the process that must take place in order to Really in Fact consider even what an actual change in this world would require, which is at all times: ourselves, focusing at this moment on the individual and realizing that no matter how long it takes, education is the key here, and that as long as we continue diverting our efforts to seek to create a point of ‘opposition’ from our safety zones of ‘opposition’ and ‘dissidence,’ nothing will change.

 

So, it became rather part of the main branches of my personality, wanting to Remain within my comfort zone while taking on a seemingly ‘critical position’ toward the system, keeping my benefits, keeping my security and protection that money gives me, having the ability to ‘study lots’ to have all careers necessary to ‘empower’ myself  as a knowledgeable Act without Acting it out – this is how when getting to Desteni and realizing that I would Actually have to do it became quite a blow to my ego, and I can say that in this regard, I am barely only stepping within my own realization of what does it meant to really Do everything it takes/ whatever it takes to live out the words I am speaking here – otherwise, it would be no different to sipping coffee, theorizing about reality and expecting ‘world change’ to come while I remain in my comfort zone. 

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I could ‘change the world’ while holding on specifically to that which would ensure that every step that I take toward such apparent ‘change’/ revolution would not disturb my security and comfort zone within my reality, which implies: not allowing my own criticism toward the system to compromise my position, which is then being and becoming the absolute walking paradox, deliberately ignoring how it was only because of money that I was able to have the time to read and chat and educate myself about the system and direct such knowledge and information ‘against the system’ while also seeking to educate myself ‘more’ within the system to create further opposition/ criticism to it within a position of ‘respect’/academicism which is like wanting to use weapons to end a war – which does happen in our reality – and so, it reveals the level of ignorance we have accepted and allowed ourselves to deliberately create in order to ensure that We are Not affected by that which we are complaining about – this is within the standing point of the specific character of the educated/elitist antagonist of the system.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to actually initiate such desire to ‘oppose the system’ from a vantage point of having money, having a good life and only wanting to seek to do some ‘justice’ for the people mostly because of wanting to become a particular character in my society wherein I would still remain in a position of comfort/ power and ‘support others’ as well, which reveals how I was not willing to fully let go of my self interest and desire to remain in a comfortable position in order to create a point of change in this world, and I see and realize how this has been ‘the point’ that I have accepted as a limitation, because of still wanting to have the ‘good life’ at all times, which then becomes just another way of wanting change while holding on to an aspect of that which is required to be changed, because of fearing losing the comfort and general ability to buy/ consume/ fulfill my desires and in such point, I give into the same cycle of self interest that exists when considering having to do whatever it takes to create a point of change in this world, which certainly begins with myself and the decisions and Choices I have at the moment.

 

Within this, I commit myself to ensure that I am not deliberately wanting to stick to my point/ zone of comfort in order to remain ‘safe’ and ‘protected’ by the money that I have as a point that must be feared to let go of, and instead remind myself how Self Interest is The point that has always stood in front of any actual full-blown decision to stand as an immovable example of self-correction in this word. Thus,

 

I commit myself to investigate where and how  Self Interest exists within me, maybe not in the form of luxuries or comfort as money, but also as a point of further responsibilities and preparation that is required for me in order to stand as part of the actual change in this world system.

 

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109. We Hate Love! We Love Hate! A Bipolar Societal Anthem

 

Watching news, movies or stories around people shooting people, guns and essentially a culture of violence. We can only exist in such ‘culture’ as an acceptable thing if it is made acceptable At Home, wherein we are taught to love our parents while learning how to judge those that are clearly not part of our ‘loved ones,’ which later on escalates to the righteousness of being able to actually Hate people that are deemed as the villains in the movie of reality. We take the right to recriminate, spit and boast around in anger about the so-called psychopaths while biting our tongue the whole time because: we are them as well.

 

We push the envelope even further every time, and it’s fascinating how love and hate emerges from the acts of people like James Holmes or Jared Loughner wherein they get an instant bred of ‘fans’ that suddenly obsess with them, while some others pull out their guts as words to hate them and absolutely express their own distress toward the obviously shocking realization of a human being being able to perpetrate acts of violence that disturb our perfect little quiet lives. From a certain perspective I can understand both the lovers and haters, simply because the mind can grab onto virtually anything to have just another fascination to cling on to, really.

In terms of ‘the Holmies’ as James Holme’s ‘Lovers/ fans’ we have a word for what they are expressing, and it’s not a surprise that we have such a wide range of paraphilia’s in this world? Mix sex with anything that is generally stigmatized and voilà, you get your perfect new drug. Let’s look at the word that describes this:

Hybristophilia “is a paraphilia of the predatory type in which sexual arousal, facilitation, and attainment of orgasm are responsive to and contingent upon being with a partner known to have committed an outrage, or crime, such as rape, murder, or armed robbery. The term is derived from the Greek word hybridzein, meaning “to commit an outrage against someone,” and “philo,” meaning “having a strong affinity preference for” – Wikipedia

 

So, having a strong affinity (love) for someone that has committed an outrage (hate) against another  Isn’t this word ‘hybristophilia’ depicting what we actually thrive in? Morbid fascinations such as getting turned on by serial killers, having animal crush fetishes, snuff films, movies like Crush that made it into popular culture and are elegantly termed ‘erotic films’ while it clearly depicts an aspect that no one is willing to admit: the love for those that hate, the hate for everything that could resound love as the ultimate spite– the perfect endless loophole that we have subsumed ourselves in. Nothing else but an energetic addiction, really – but, do we even dare to strip it down to see it for the battery-nature that it is? Hell no, according to people, life would be ‘boring’ if there was nothing to obsess about. That is ‘our popular culture’ – and this is what kids are born into at the moment.

 

This ‘rationality’ called ‘dichotomy’ is the outflow of our own ignorance about this reality as a result of the lack of understanding about our own mind and how we sentence ourselves with and by our own words. However, any ‘psychopath’ is not just a spontaneous-creation, it is the byproduct of our own society which is not this gigantic cookie-monster called ‘system’ that exists in separation of ourselves – no. It is all ‘home made’ and that is a literal term to consider, because we often see all types of evident-abusers in the world and condemn their acts which is the entire hatred toward the hater that is absolutely astounding and no one really cares enough to even ask how is it that a point of violence is attacked with even more violence.

 

So, from the ‘haters toward the hater’ coming from James Holme’s fan page on Facebook:

  • Veronica Abigail Jordan-Hubble how are ya’ll fans of this man? freaking sick fuckers! This man killed a 6 year old little girl, a mother, father, boyfriends, girlfriends. He killed so many people and your going to be fans!? You would not be a fan if it was you in the theater that night, you wouldn’t be a fan if it was your mother, father, girlfriend, boyfriend, sister, or brother he killed.
  • James holms fan club Why would my friend kill my family
  • Veronica Abigail Jordan-Hubble if your family had been in that movie they could have been killed, or seriously wounded.
  • Zoltan Csordas: Because your friend might have a fuckin screw loose? or might be seriously fucked up? who ever is a fan of this guy should be fucking shot dead and hung, and then shot while they’re hung. fucking disgusting people. James Holmes changed cinema going for those people involved that night FOREVER, and for those peoples children, and their children etc. I hope Holmes gets the ELECTRIC chair, never mind the non painful lethal injection shit…. no fuck that, this guy should be crucified onto a table, have his testicles pinned apart by his scrotum, and then one at a time, have each testicle ‘popped’ by a small hammer. I can think of many other ways to ‘take care’ of the rest of him but i aint gonna dwell too much on that. He deserves no fucking mercy, no compassion. and i don’t give a shit if he has a mental problem… too many murderers seem to be blaming their crimes on stuff like that. That guy knew EXACTLY what he was setting out to do. i hope those people killed RIP and my sympathy and thoughts will be with the survivors and others caught up in this horrific situation till the day i FUCKING die.

 

What no one realizes is how ‘the bad guy’ is ourselves at all times and how the very same thinking patterns that lead anyone to abuse and kill others – or themselves – are the very same patterns existent in each and every one of us as it is clearly proven in these quotes above. But, why are they seen as ‘acceptable’ when they are in fact the same type of thinking that lead someone to actually do it?

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If we were able to call out each other’s abusive acts, we would be doing the same about each and every single adult person that is obviously an equal participant in this mess called ‘society’ and ‘reality’ that is clearly the brewing pot of any sociopath that is currently walking on Earth, which is essentially everyone but the children. However, our ill-driven minds ensure that children are quickly indoctrinated in ‘the ways of the world.’ Give them a toy gun, show them your regular ‘action movies’ and videogames and voilà, you’ll get a child playing to kill his fellow classmates with plastic guns that later on turn into legally bought weapons and you get Columbine, and with that a plethora of raging critics that can not even fathom that all condemnation is essentially a reflection of what exists in our minds.

 

Then, we dare to start condemning their acts as if they had suddenly ‘lost their mind’ to perpetrate such events, without realizing that is in the very mind that such atrocities are schemed and built-up throughout time as the accumulation of thoughts as the belief of ‘who we are,’ just because there was absolutely No One that could tell us otherwise.  And this opens the inevitable question: Who wants to point out parents as the cause and reason for any ‘apple gone rotten’ in the tree of a happy Family-Lie? No one, that would definitely deflate any sense of ‘honor’ that is held at stake toward the so called ‘nucleus of society’ that is obviously and absolutely inherently flawed from generation to generation. I mean, how could we as humanity have even dared to create the word ‘progress’ as a positive thing when all we have done is copied the same limiting and self-abusive patterns of the past and covered them up with LED lights to make them seem ‘bright in accordance to an artificially held by tweezers future’?

 

So, All Abuse has a beginning – and thank Anu, also an end –  and our beginning is clearly in the womb of a woman that  has lived in a world wherein Life has never been honored, wherein the basic considerations of human integrity do not exist and where money dictates who lives and who dies, wherein the Earth’s resources are consumed in absolute mind-possessed ways that are currently mining our entire ‘civilization’ from head to toe – we really lack the most basic common sense to not see and realize this. And that’s how we come into this world, some with more or less fortune speaking in money-terms, however all being equally ignorant of how it is that the very education – or lack thereof – from our first 7 years on Earth will determine who we will be for the remainder of our life. It is great that scientists are busy trying to find a ‘god particle,’ but can’t even explain the most basic repulsion that every kid experiences toward their parents while growing up, being a friction that we have accepted as ‘who we are,’ an inherent battle toward everything and everyone including ourselves. This is what we have become.

 

Therefore, being able to point fingers at someone requires turning the finger back at self to see and realize how we have become in fact the very perpetrators of everything we could possibly hate and love which is just the polarity relationships that we keep ourselves bound to, just by thinking and believing that there are ‘good things to keep’ in this world and in that, keeping our fascinations nearby and repulsions at a ‘safe distance’ apparently, we haven’t yet realized that this entire world is the materialization of our own mind, our ‘real nature’ made world-system. This is the only way how we can explain ourselves the reason why e have turned abuse into an entertainment industry and money into our own killer – literally.

 

So, back to the main point: any killer is not a man on an island, every abuser can only learn from what is seen around in the environment – therefore any form of abuse is and can only stem from a previous example available as ‘popular culture,’ such as a fascination for serial killers and all types of ‘role models’ such as the ‘rich and famous’ that set the tone for what kids will live to aim for – who has ever questioned how this creates robbery in the first place? Crime begins at home the moment that a child is not given a step by step explanation of the images seen on TV, of the advertisement on the street, of the basic ways in which this world function, pointing out the truth of our reality while giving a solution that can be worked for, establishing a communication to see what is it that they are in fact experiencing within themselves.

 

 

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Parents Produce the Nature of Their Children as Hate through the Excuse of Love, Even Inventing an Imaginary God, to Deny Responsibility, to End up as a Product as a Child, which is taught How to Love so that the Child can become another Parent that will Produce Hate as Very Few Humans are in fact Satisfied with themselves Physically and Mentally, and Refuse to Realize that this Result in the Direct Effect of the Spirit of Religion that is Used to Justify the Love through which Hate is Produced, ending up with a World where Love is Used to justify Hate, even Calling the Truth Negative, just to Not take Responsibility for the Sins of the Parents Generation after Generation.” – Bernard Poolman*

 

WE must understand that we are facing ourselves full on in/ as this world, that every single event that goes on in this world is not some random schizophrenic act to be amused by for a moment – no. Everything and everyone that is currently existing in this world is ourselves and as such, we have to start Paying Attention to what we are in fact becoming as humanity – see what is behind the animal fetish, what is behind the movie theater shooter, what is behind the life-long happy pill addicts, what is behind children being dumped in China, what is behind women having unprotected sex while being highly drunk, what is behind people eating people’s faces, what is behind the celebrity fascination in our culture – these are pertinent questions to ask and as such, seeing how the very things we cling on to that in any way we believe is GREAT of this world is in fact the very lock that disables the realization of how we have created the positive to mask the negative. Come on, peace cannot exist if wars didn’t exist – it’s just like perfume. We create these wondrous smells to cover up the natural stench of the human flesh – well, as long as we continue hiding from ourselves, nothing will change.

 

Stopping Love and letting go of all those ‘small things’ as the positive experience we have gotten ourselves high with is a Must-Do in order to sober up and realize hate as the actual human nature that must be self-corrected through a self-willed process, wherein you and I can live to be the final point to the ongoing mayhem on Earth. Once we dare to face the killer as ourselves will we be able to actually make progress in understanding how we bred ourselves into Insanity.

 

Walk the Desteni I Process to finally realize and understand who and what we are as our mind, what are the implications of the current existential process on Earth wherein we have the opportunity to Change ourselves into a living-reality where all beings are equally considered as Life. This is the final call for us all if we want to in fact prove that we can ‘love’ and stop all hate for once and for all.

 

Support the Equal Money System which is the world-system change wherein Parental Education will be compulsory before even thinking about having children, because we are witnessing the result of undesired lives brought to exert such self-hatred onto this world. WE are all on the same page, yet we are taking Self-Responsibility for our own minds, for our own bit within the map of this reality that requires more beings to Wake Up to the fallacy we have built until now.

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95. Any Abuse is Always Self-Abuse

Continuing from 94. In-Sin–Irate: Anger Issues 

Self Forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act upon abuse in a way that I am abusing myself as my physical body by reacting emotionally with what I have defined as ‘anger’ toward a scenario of animal abuse, without realizing that in such experience I am in no way changing the actual reality that is generating and causing such abuse in the first place.

When and as I see myself reacting with anger followed by a sense of petrification when witnessing animal abuse in my reality, I stop and I breathe – I realize that in order to be able to assist and support myself to stand in the face of the consequences we have created and manifested in our world, the reactions must be non-existent as they are only an indication of me placing myself as a reaction that in no way proposes a solution to stop the problem in itself. Thus I direct myself to instead continue breathing through it, as I realize that if I were to be able to witness the entire reality of what exists here in every single moment, I would be dead by petrification and anger.

 

I realize that it is about acknowledging and witnessing what we have become in order to become aware of the consequences that we have manifested for ourselves and imposed onto life/ animals/ the environment itself based on how the current monetary system is existing as, wherein dog fights are used as an ‘illegal way to gamble’ wherein greed, animal abuse and twisted entertainment are conflated into a profitable business just like any other business that is based upon abuse.

 

I realize that the reaction comes whenever I see in real life the actual consequences of the abuse we have imposed as humanity upon animals, life and ourselves becoming slaves to our own enslaving system, which makes it clear that it is not about the point of abuse only to a particular set of beings, but an entire chained-existence of actions, words and deeds that are existing in separation of who we are as one and equal. Hence everything that is currently existing, contains in an implicit manner the same form of abuse –the only point that changes is that we do Not see such abuse right away, we do not see the slave labor that is contained in the very computers we are using to write and communicate ourselves with, we do not see the family that earns slim to nothing for cultivating the coffee that I drink, I do not see the suffering of the animals whose skin was used to build the boots that I was walking on when approaching a ‘situation of abuse.’

 

Thus I see, realize and understand that we have been limited to only react to that which we can immediately associate with ‘abuse’ as an obvious image of a man hitting a dog – however, such abuse is implicit in virtually everything and everyone in this reality. Thus

To assist and support myself to clarify this point for me in and as every moment that I see myself reacting to an explicit image that depicts abuse, is to understand that everything and everyone is equally participating and equally responsible for what I am witnessing as ‘abuse,’ and that the only way to really stop the abuse that is here – whether I witness it or not – is through creating an entire reform within this system from its foundation, which is Money at this stage being the point of value over life in separation of life itself.

 

I realize that my reactions in no way can change the reality for such dogs, nor will it change ‘the mind’ of the beings hitting the dogs as they are most likely taking such point as a job that they are dependent on in order to live.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to want to judge the beings in my mind and see them as utterly ‘evil,’ without realizing that we are All equally evil just by having accepted and allowed ourselves to never question this reality and the ways that we have ‘built our civilization’ based on building, creating, selling, using, consuming what is here without any consideration toward what it is that we are in fact doing to ourselves, as we never had even considered that we were in fact equal and one to the animals that we abuse, equal and one to the environment that we suck dry in order to satisfy our needs and even ‘luxuries’ that are defined according to a point of ‘having more money/ more power’ to spend in points like ‘dog fight gambling’ as an illegal business that is existent due to all the factors mentioned above: separating ourselves from life as one and equal, getting an energetic experience of pleasure from seeing dogs fighting, from the very ability to ‘win’ within gambling and as such having everything wrapped with the nice experience of even making money out of the entire event, which is all created at a mind level – the same mind that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become without a question.

 

Thus I see and realize that the same point of abuse that I judged and blamed others for exerting upon dogs, is equally and one existing within and as me just by the mere fact that I have coexisted here in the same reality without ever daring to see what is behind everything that I ‘own’ and that I use on a daily basis in order to continue my ‘life,’ which within this understanding has never been a REAL equal and one self-supportive Life, but has been and existed as a condition of enslaved abuse wherein we have conned ourselves/ each other to lie, cheat, abuse in the name of survival – thus, I am not separated from the beings that hit dogs and abuse animals in the name of money, as I use the same money and the same products that use animal testing, the same money that is gambled in dog fights, the same money that pays for products derived from animals that are abused and treated as products only and any other living being – including the environment – that we use on a daily basis in order to ‘live.’

 

Therefore I commit myself to ensure that a new system is able to be in place in order to stop the chain massacre of events that we are equally responsible for just by the mere fact that we are equally existing HERE, ensuring thus that the new system is based from its very foundation on Life in Equality – and that Money no longer exists as a point of power that can only exist as abuse over life/ ourselves – but instead becomes a single tool to ensure that all beings are equally supported in this world, so that atrocities committed due-to and because of making profit/ making the most through abusing what is here is no longer possible, as there will be no need to create ‘wealth’ if all have the ability to have everything that is required to live in a dignified manner, wherein all GREED that is causing our world-system problem is treated as a disease at a mind level that each individual will take responsibility for.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize in the moment of experiencing anger toward an event/ situation of abuse that I am only witnessing but a snippet of what goes on in this world on a daily basis, as everything that we currently use, consume and make money from is linked to the same system of abuse that we have all complied to by the mere fact of accepting money as a means to live – instead of making life something that is equally recognized as who we are and as such, start considering how to implement the best ways to use, transform and consume what we require to live in the most adequate and studied ways to ensure the least harm toward life/ animals/ the environment is considered within all aspects of our human-civilization living.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to even try and exert anger and experience anger toward the event of abuse, without realizing that in such moment I am Only considering ‘my experience/ my own reaction’ to the event, wherein I am in no way supporting the beings to step out of such character as ‘the abuser’ nor am I creating an entire systematic change to ensure that dog fights are no longer existing as a clandestine business – therefore,

 

When and as I see myself wanting to conjure a plethora of reactions and offenses in my mind toward ‘those’ that I perceive as perpetrators of abuse, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am only reacting to what I am witnessing in that moment with my physical eyes, yet in no way looking at the entire context of how such point of abuse is equally existent everywhere else in the world wherein an exorbitant amount of abuse is being imposed onto virtually everything and everyone in this reality. Therefore I see, realize and understand that me in that moment wanting to cure and shout at another is plain mind possession that in no way would have changed the scenario for the people or the dogs in the event.

 

I realize that I am ‘them’ as well and that everything that I reacted to was a mirror of myself that I was not willing to recognize exists here as myself and as such, I see the reaction as my own point to work with in order to be able to stand in the face of abuse, to stop all reactions as self-interest within only looking at ‘my experience toward abuse,’ and instead become the point that works in reality to take responsibility for the current system we have created, which will be primarily working first with myself to stop all minor reactions toward abuse – and as such, prepare myself in every moment that I am able to breathe through such scenario to be able to then make actual decisions that will be directed to change the reality that is currently based on money only – and establish Life as the one and only real value on Earth.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to deliberately ‘make others see’ the point of abuse, which is no different to want to convert someone to ‘seeing reality the same way I see it,’ which is futile and of not practical solution as I am in such action only recriminating on another what I have defined as ‘blatant abuse,’ however in no way am I actually assisting and supporting the beings to realize what they’re doing within the entire context of how the money system exists, our relationship to animals, to this entire world and each other as equals. Thus

When and as I see myself wanting to ‘show’ to others the point of abuse that they are exerting over other life forms and themselves, I stop and I breathe – I realize that in no way my recrimination and judgment toward them will make a difference to those/ that which is abused in the moment, as I am in no way actually walking with the person to reveal the point of abuse and share the practical ways to stop and correct themselves, which is something that cannot be imposed onto another, but can only emerge as a decision self makes in order to be part of the solution and stop the problem.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to direct myself to speak toward other human beings without realizing that in no way my starting point for doing that is here as and in self honesty, because I am only in fact reacting to the entire event wherein I am in no way for example, the reactions and aftermath of what they could have done from me asking questions to them, which is then a point to realize how

 

When and as I see myself reacting within this surge as a desire to speak/ call out the abuse that others are imposing onto animals/ any other life form or themselves is stemming from actual fear and denial of what I am witnessing, with no consideration of how to assist and support the beings to realize what they are doing or participating in, as I am merely interjecting myself into a situation that I came to face ‘by casualty.’

 

Thus when and as I see myself with this desire to speak to others based on reacting to the point/ event/ moment/ situation , I stop and I breathe – I realize that everything that I have done thus far in my reality is by a pattern of ‘seeing the abuse outside of myself’ but never even daring to see how I am abusing myself and my very physical body because of and just by the fact that I had accepted and allowed myself to become the mind that reacts to abuse, but had in no way considered the practical ways and means to stop such abuse overall.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from ‘the abusers’ and believing that they have ‘no heart’ and that they are ‘evil in nature,’ without realizing that everything that we are just by the fact that we have become the very epitome of separation from and of life itself makes us all the reverse of Live as Evil, wherein some of us have made ourselves as the entire denial of such evil existing within ourselves – which then points out to see how it is dishonest to react to one single point of abuse and call it out on others, without daring to see it within ourselves first, without daring to realize that our very current survival is dependent on a system that is based and founded upon abuse – hence, no one is innocent, no one can possibly ‘wash their hands’ from being the very person that hits a dog that is trained to fight against other dogs in clandestine businesses such as gambling, as it is all formulated and schemed in a human mind that I also exist as.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react and/ or desire to react in equal violence as thoughts directly linked to harming others the same way that I am witnessing others harming other beings, which makes me equally participant in that moment of the same abuse I was witnessing, as I accepted and allowed myself to deliberately want to harm and kick them, which is an aspect that is existing ‘here’ as myself and no different to exerting it out on dogs – therefore I see and realize to what extent I have made myself the ‘innocent’ and ‘righteous one’ that can ‘call out the abuse on others,’ without realizing the entire reaction that comes before ‘calling the abuse on others’ is me wanting to attack and harm them in an equal way as that which I am witnessing in the moment.

 

When and as I see myself feeling ‘righteous’ to call out on the abuse of others, I stop and I breathe – I realize that calling out the abuse and wanting to deliberately ‘do to them as they have done onto others,’ is taking a point of equally abusive vindication that I have in no way the right to exert onto another as I am in this only participating in the same cycle of abuse. Thus I stop believing that ‘I have the right to become angry’ by participating in a deliberately crafted momentary surge of anger and imaginary projections of violence and abuse toward beings in a way to ‘make justice’ to a point that is in itself stemming from an absolutely unjust system that has never ever considered life, that has never ever been based upon living Life in Equality and Oneness – thus, I am equally responsible for everything that is here and as such stopping the reactions toward it is the first and primary point to establish here as myself, in order to be able to practically face the consequences and reality we have become and in that, instead of reacting: work with myself and others in order to establish Solutions for this problem in a tangible and physical manner wherein such abuse will never again have to exist because of money.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for having deliberately wanted to ‘create anger’ within and as me, as that familiar state of energetically charged reaction of paralysis wherein ‘I want to make justice to the situation,’ taking the self-righteous point of me being ‘innocent’ and ‘right’ about it, without even taking a moment to consider how within this I am wanting to deliberately use my physical body to play out anger as a way to force myself to point out/ call out the abuse on others, which is unacceptable.

 

When and as I see myself wanting to become angry in the self-righteous position of ‘the benevolent being’ wanting to ‘call out’ on the abuse that I see others perpetrating onto something/ someone, I stop and I breathe, I realize that in such point I am becoming the ‘savior’ character toward other life forms that cannot defend themselves- however in such moment I am only becoming part of the fighting and retaliation system that in no way supports to create a solution, but only adds up to the entire conflagration of emotions and reactions that do have consequences on a physical level for all participants involved.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to movies portraying a clandestine business of dog fighting shot in the city I live in and merely take it as ‘fantasy’ and something that was not in any way a ‘reality’ of ‘my reality’ which shows to what extent ‘my reality’ has become only that which I am able to see, witness and experience first hand on my day to day basis, which is the very core of the problem in this world because we have not dared to recognize, see and understand that no matter if we live in a castle where ‘nothing ever bad happens,’ everything and everyone that is here is equally responsible for any and all forms of abuse that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become by the single acceptance of living as a mind over matter/ over the physical / over life itself.

 

Therefore, I see and realize that just because I don’t see it – the abuse – it doesn’t mean it’s not there/ it doesn’t exist – as I see and I realize that in this very denial that we simply cover up with further abuse we have neglected the reality that is here as ourselves, as all forms and ways of abuse that we base our current ‘life’ upon, which is no life, is abusing life to get by, continuing existing just as consuming beings that have no regard to realize that what is being consumed, used and exerted ‘power’ upon is ourselves, and that All Abuse is Always Self Abuse.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make myself ‘brave’ in that moment of approaching the beings that I am wanting to judge and curse at in a situation of abuse, without realizing that I cannot measure the consequences of this entire event and as such, I realize that I could also be harmed and cause further problems from me wanting to ‘exert my right to call out the abuse’ in a situation wherein within the current conditions of this physical reality, I did expose myself quite a lot, as I in no way had an idea of how the males could have reacted toward me.

 

When and as I see myself wanting to directly speak toward someone that I see is perpetrating any form of abuse onto themselves/ another – I stop and I breathe – I realize that in this besides wanting to ‘save another’ I am in fact placing myself in an unpredictable situation wherein I have no idea of what thoughts can drive another to do and react as – thus I ensure that I do not participate in such points unless the being is explicitly requesting to be supported s that would indicate that ‘then’ we do have an opportunity to create a solution – yet wanting to just ‘call out on abuse’ on others in that moment is actually a risky situation that I cannot measure its consequences to the T as to ensure that I would not end up being harmed as well.

 

Therefore, when and as I see myself witnessing a situation of abuse, I stop and I breathe – I realize that my participation in such point would make no difference to stop the situation and that I would only expose myself unnecessarily. I instead assist and support myself to see the context of the abuse to ensure that we do take into consideration everything that is currently linked to any form of abuse in this world system, which is nothing else but our own mind that must be walked through a process of self correction to ensure that everything we do, say and think is based upon Life in Equality at all times.

 

Thus I stop existing only as a self-righteous caller of abuse and instead, focus on becoming a self-responsible being for myself, my own reactions, my own reality wherein I no longer only ‘react to abuse,’ but I instead become aware of the situation, study the points behind such abuse – what caused it, who, how is it allowed and accepted and how it can practically be stopped – which is most likely always linked to money and the relationship we have created toward money in our minds

 

I realize that ‘my anger’ is just ego – wanting to feel ‘bad’ for a point of actual abuse which is unacceptable – thus I stop from wallowing into my own reactions and instead ground myself to breathe through facing and realizing the consequences of what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become – and instead, walk the process of self-correction to ensure that I no longer am part of the chain that unfolds these crimes against life, against ourselves = I stop the inner battle of anger existing within and as me.

 

We’re all responsible and responsibility comes for all participants here as we can no longer just expect some god-president to do it for us, we cannot expect someone to come up with a ‘bright plan’ to just implement ways to ‘save the planet’ and ‘save the animals’ or implement peace in a world where war is waged against ourselves in our very minds every single day that we accept and allow ourselves to exist as our mind.

Until Here and No Further.

 

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94. In-Sin–Irate: Anger Issues

Have we stopped ourselves to consider in what way we gnaw and eat up our very physical body the moment that we participate in anger or any other emotion/ feeling experience? If we were really aware of ourselves as our human physical body, we would be aware of how the very thoughts we have consume our physicality in order to create such emotion or feeling in any given moment – we never dare to question how such ENERGETIC experiences are created, while even the name is indicating obviously: something must be consumed in order to fuel such experiences. Yet, we never looked into ourselves and only decided to accept and allowed energetic experiences as ‘who we are’ – because: ‘oh I am this that I experience in my body, I must act on it’ – and never ever questioning or even being able to fully see and realize what we are participating in the moment that we react in one single split of a second toward another in an emotion or feeling. One single shift from being here as breath and we can know: we’re mind possessed.

 

Anger

incinerate
n verb destroy (something, especially waste material) by burning

Yesterday I went out for my walk earlier than usual due to the storms that have been going on here. When I was already on my way back, I first saw this young male walking with a seemingly desperate and rather ‘uncontrollable’ dog – and I saw he had a wooden stick with him – a thick branch to be precise – and I immediately reacted to that within the realization that he would hit the dog with it, but I could not pull out the usual burning anger that I would experience before, it was just like paralyzing inside myself  in the moment and I simply started following them based on thoughts like ‘this is unacceptable/ I must do something about this/ what can I possibly do?’ I walked a bit quicker in order to be right behind him, then I saw that other three males – same age – were handling one dog each with the same behavioral characteristics: angry dogs barking at all dogs in the neighborhood, being seemingly uncontrollable – each one of the males had a similar thick branch on the other hand – I could not compute in that moment because I was only ‘making up my mind’ trying to figure out why the first dog I had seen seemed so uncontrollable and angry, having to be hit that way to behave.

 

I started deliberately walking right behind the four of them, I went into a point of possession wherein I wanted to pull out the anger that would usually drive me in the past to go and shout or even wanting to hit them – but I couldn’t. I ‘felt powerless’ but not in an emotional way, like actually having no ability to ‘pull out the anger’ I was used to experiencing in such moments/ events. I realized that it was not appropriate to go and shout at them because they were 4 males, with 4 angry dogs, with 4 thick branches and I was alone.

 

In a way within my mind, yet it didn’t even seem like thinking, I wanted to curse them to death – and I couldn’t. I could not even pull out some hatred. It was fascinating to see this unfolding, like slow camera movement where Marlen would want to just beat them to death in my mind with words or even pictures, and I couldn’t. Anyways, so as I approached them through walking behind them, I could just utter the following words in the moment – ‘Is this why you have your dog for? To hit him?’ – And obviously the young man didn’t bother at all, I was not grasping the whole picture in that moment  – and as I walked right behind the four of them I approached the second one and told him ‘Is this what you have your dog for? TO hit him? – and I managed to pull out some other words – ‘Would you want to be hit the same way you do onto him?’ and he just didn’t reply, he only made a gesture of ‘I couldn’t care less/ maybe I’d like to’ – So, there was no answer obviously. I realized it was pointless to continue doing anything about it.

 

Then I realized what they actually were as the whole picture: people that train dogs for dog fights – hence the attitude of the dogs and the males with the wooden sticks with them. It is their “job.”

 

The point here is that I wanted to be as angry as I could, I was wanting to just burst out in absolute anger toward them in that moment, and I couldn’t – and this strangely so felt like I was powerless = not moving by energy inside – however it was more of a concrete experience inside me that I could not even direct some ‘angry thoughts’ toward them.  I followed them until the corner where they went straight ahead, and I just stood there on the corner watching them and all I could think of is breathe – breathe – breathe – breathe – and so I did. After a couple of minutes of just deliberately standing there to see where they would go up to, I realized that there was no point in continuing that, so I turned to the right and followed my way back home.

 

In the past – and I’m talking about 4 years ago when I started becoming aware of the abuse in this world – I witnessed similar events and I remember becoming like a tornado inside me, filled with rage that I used as a fuel to approach the man that was dragging the dog on the street – I told this story in a video minute 3:49 – and I would react in boiling anger, ready to just torture another with my anger there, ready to shout and scream – and this time, I could not do that, even though a part of me wanted to. Another point is that I kept myself  grounded wherein, even in the moment that I approached the two males that I managed to talk to them,  I was just like a rock not really speaking in an  irate manner, even though I wanted to.

 

This is to reveal how out of habit, I would have wanted to make an entire drama out of the situation, shouting or getting myself ‘into trouble’ just for the sake of ‘making them see’ – but as I saw their reactions when I asked them the questions, I knew that I had to stop and not go any further.

 

So, the word that came up is ‘incinerate’ which sounds like in-sin-irate and how I had a moment there wherein I actually ‘wanted’ to be angry, me as the mind wanted to just bring up anger and lash out onto them and I couldn’t. Which is irrational because I knew beforehand ‘not to react’ but again looking at the event happening in front of me is more of a trigger point to face self-honesty to.

 

I was talking about this type of situations two days ago, and I myself had suggested not to intervene in such moments of witnessing abuse onto others – children, animals – as we do not know how they would react – and I was seeing with my eyes how it was 4 males, 4 dogs, wooden sticks – I really went too far to even approach them. So, to explain the point: ‘I ‘felt’ like I had to go and speak up to them however I felt like in an entire possession in that moment when I drove myself to speak to them. It was not directed by some churning inside me as in the past, but I did speak up to them.

 

I have explained before how I would deal with extensive anger toward everything and everyone – and I’ve certainly ‘slowed down’ in that, to the point wherein I cannot describe if what I did experience yesterday was anger, because I didn’t ‘feel it’ as the usual energetic experience – however, the realization here is:

 

– I cannot place myself in such situations of absolute risk just to let people know what they already know they are doing in the moment – even more so when seeing the whole picture and the reason behind such actions: dog fights = money/ business/ males getting paid to take care of the dogs = they won’t stop doing it as it is their job

 

– My reaction was based on thinking – meaning that I assessed the situation according to what I thought was ‘right’ to do in the moment, even if I was expecting myself to suddenly get absolutely and extremely angry, I couldn’t – which was a point of being grounded to realize that I could not possibly take the point further than approaching them with simple questions.

 

– I also directed myself to realize in that moment that If I witnessed the entire abuse that goes on in the world, I would have incinerated myself due to/ because of reacting to it all – we cannot possibly ‘make a change’ to a chain of events and situations wherein money is being the driving point, wherein the consideration of animals as ‘less than humans’ is a culturally ingrained fuckup for ages in humanity – I cannot stop what is currently being experienced by billions – I can only stop myself.

 

– I realize that in situations like that on the street, I had reacted in extreme anger wherein the usual desire is to just shout and flip the finger to them, as if that could ‘offend them’ or take them to a realization, without seeing that their actions are in essence already proof of what they are willing to do because of money, and how I have no context in any way whatsoever within the entire situation – but only wanting to react based on the obvious point of abuse, which is a constant point in our entire reality. Thus I see that I partake obviously in such point of abuse by simply accepting and allowing myself to exist within the current world that we are in the way it is, and not doing a thing about it – until now that we are beginning to STOP ourselves from being the very perpetuators of the same fighting/ battling eternal separation system that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become.

 

– I realize that I cannot expose myself that way, meaning – I walk alone, I am alone and I cannot possibly confront others that are clearly more, with ‘tools’ that could be harmful as well as the dogs themselves that seemed angry as hell. This is what we have become, using dogs to fight to satisfy some human being’s desire to see dogs attacking each other to fuel some mind mechanism that is pleasured when seeing wrestling, fighting – thus who I am within it all? Seeing where and how I am fighting myself, or wanting to fight others in the name of ‘doing something right,’ without taking into consideration the actual chain of events and consequences that could ensue from this point of ‘following my mind’ in such moments.

 

– I also realized that I had been blind when I watched the movie ‘Amores Perros’ which depicts that dog-fight business here in Mexico City, I somehow managed to just ‘numb it out’ as part of some ‘movie’ as if it was not real or in some alternate reality. I see how I would see movies without taking into consideration that such events DO take place, do happen and are as real as seeing those dogs ‘going out for a walk’ and having to be hit in order to behave, due to how they have been trained by the sick twisted human mind that solaces is seeing fights and dare to even gamble upon winners. This I fuel and exist as every time I seek to win and ‘win’ something, get a positive kick out of anything that I can witness and consequently experience as an energetic movement within me.

 

Fighting

I fought myself in that moment: from wanting to react and another ‘part’ of me – the real me – remaining just like a rock, I experienced like this cement inside me where I could not even think – it’s like when you are in the bottom of a pool and  you know that you could drown yet, you cannot possibly just move up to reach for air. I am describing what I experienced in that moment which I have also experienced as a child in terms of realizing I am drowning but not being able to move – so, the experience was not the usual ‘angry mode’ but instead it maybe was petrification – yet at the same time it didn’t feel like anything.

I also realize that if I had gone out at the same time I usually do, I would not have witnessed that, which means that it doesn’t matter if I’m present or not: those dogs exist, people that train them to fight exist, they will continue whether I witness that or not – I realize that any reaction is in fact stemming from my inherent desire – that certainly has mellowed down – to point out the abuse to others, instead of even realizing how the abuse is first onto me because of having the actual desire to be angry, to ‘burst up in flames’ – which is how I see that the word incinerate makes sense: I had not ever considered the ‘who I am’ in anger, and I had never considered the detrimental effects of such energetic experience of anger on my body.

 

I have written about the memory of me as a child becoming extremely angry, to the point where I feel my entire body just having like a ‘chill’ from how much I would put myself in such anger trance, and that’s when my parents would offend me ‘You are fucking crazy!’ and just leaving me in the room,  fueling that anger even more because of them judging to what extent I would lead a single point of anger into an actual anger possession. Hearing them cursing at me for fueling my anger made me even more angry.

 

And I remember the stories my mother would say about my father, picking up fights with people just because of going past a red light or something – he used to carry these sticks on the car ‘just in case’ something would happen – I took it as normal, and they always wanted me to carry some thick cable that I could hit someone with in case they wanted to do something onto me. I always refused.

 

 

Stepping out of the anger possession

Whenever I would go out of the possession when I was a child, after spending  a long time crying and fueling that experience of anger wherein the totality of my body would go into a paralysis almost, even just now as I write it I can experience the same thing, the tickling as pins and needles on my left arm. Even as  a child, I would fear dying in such moments – my mother would say to me that my entire face could be paralyzed if I continued boiling up with such anger – and so I would fear dying, I would fear ending up with a ‘dry half face’ because of anger – and that’s when I would slow down and just cry not even because of whatever reason I have had to get angry in the first place, but because of becoming aware of how my body had suffered in that moment of anger possession. I would brace myself and feel sad/ sorry and even worse for what I had put myself through.

 

It was just like vomiting. When I was a child and I was sick and had to puke, I would keep my eyes open and cry throughout the whole thing – I would then notice that the pores of my cheeks had burst, I would feel so bad for having damaged my body that way that I always feared having to puke again. One of the reasons why I stopped drinking was when puking was ‘the way to stop the drunkenness’ and me becoming absolutely disgusted of myself for having to do that. The ‘peak point’ was when I had to puke and I cannot even remember where I did it/ or don’t want to remember. I stopped, I could not take myself any further than that – besides waking up with bumps on my head and other undisclosed bruises.

 

Self abuse – no different to becoming angry – same experience, same pain felt after the energetic possession: the body took it all and, have I ever asked forgiveness for my body for such things? No.

 

I one way I am ‘glad’ I was able to stop myself most of the times before going into absolute rage, however seeing this potential in me – which is linked to thoughts related to killing/ hitting/ deliberately harming others that I see are ‘abusing’ was never realized as me following the threat of abuse even in my own mind. I guess that’s why and how I would ‘resonate’ with a clockwork orange in a way, and the entire experience that I had yesterday I later on assessed as the similar experience that Alex had when he cold no longer be violent against others – he would get sick, I just got absolutely ‘blank’ with no ability to do anything else than that.

 

I had taken for granted these surges of anger as a child, I remember them very well yet when I was pointed out that I had a lot of anger I went into a ‘what? no way!’ denial state, without daring to look inside myself and find the real evil justified by ‘seeing evil’ in others’ which became – as I have mentioned before as well – a thinking pattern of ‘humanity is evil’ and as such, shaping, molding my entire beingness to be in a ‘military’ way, like a soldier that is ready to combat any point of attack. And this is precisely being explained in Heaven’s Journey to Life blog, specifically the link I’ll leave below, and so I have just written out the whole point with several links to the past  up until the experience at the moment.

 

One single event can become the mirror we have not dared to look ourselves into, because we knew before hand we do not want to see what is reflected on it, yet it is ourselves.

 

The physical consequences after this was pain on my left foot  because of how I had a struggle with ‘my expression’ and the physical point of it in the moment – my mind wanting to go bezerk and the other me here stability pulling myself like cement on the ground. The trick is to keep breathing at all times. Looking back at the entire situation, It was ‘cool’ to face the point from the perspective of being able to face such ingrained inner-experiences with regards to anger. However, it is plain obvious that the cause of the anger won’t be solved in one go: Animals being abused by humans is the most despicable thing that we can do along any other moment wherein we abuse ourselves in the name of reacting to such abuse as well.

 

I will continue tomorrow with the Self Forgiveness points.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry, petrified at the abuse of this world without realizing that participating in anger only supports my own gnawing as physical flesh and that in no way does it support LIFE

 

“Animals are driven to extinction as they DO NOT feature in the Consciousness of Humans as Equals as Life-Forms”  – Bernard Poolman *

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69. Change is in the Meaning of Money

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that changing the monetary system implies a Change in the Meaning/ Signification of the word ‘Money’ itself, wherein the sign is no longer passed on from generation to generation as the medium of exchange in the form of coins, bills and banknotes based on rules and regulations imposed by a minority that Makes the money/ decides How it is distributed/ given and traded, and instead realize that for an actual Social, Political change we require an Economic change wherein we as human beings agree that the ‘balance’ required in money at the moment to stop the Inequality is through Equalizing Money to a physical tangible reality and principle, which is Life in Equality.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the current implications of the meaning/signification of money in our societies is implying suffering, abuse, power, over consumption, division of classes, greed, envy, comparison, competition, success as a positive quality, survivalism amongst any other form of separation that stems from the basic realization that: not everyone in the world has access to this ‘means of exchange’ as money – which implies that not everyone is able to give/ receive that which is required to live, signifying that we have accepted the ‘money tradition’ as a word/ meaning that is signifying the enslavement of man to an arbitrarily made system that is only benefitting a few, while the majority does not get to see ‘the light’ as money as energy/ power to acquire that which is needed to live. Furthermore, instilling the desire for ‘More’ within those that have the basics to live – middle class – but learn to not be satisfied with the necessary as the glorified ‘example’ of the ‘wealthy’ implies that one can get to have all that power as well, wherein the ‘rich and famous’ become just like a carrot on a stick that keeps everyone circling around/ working/ doing all that is possible in order to someday ‘attain’ that amount of wealth as a synonym of protection, happiness, ultimate satisfaction, and ‘worth’ completely oblivious to the actual abuse that goes on with the mere acceptance of money as a separate meaning from ourselves as Life, which implies by default that abuse is existent in its meaning over Life.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the basic required shift and change in the meaning of money can be established as a social convention based on the firm-ground and principle of Life in Equality, wherein All can be equally benefited by such change/ shift within the relationship we have with money itself: from a meaning of power that is only achieved through work – for the majority – or inheritance,  to a readily given tool as a means of giving and receiving equal access and distribution of the resources of the Earth that we use for consumption and construction of our society, of which its members must equally stand – one by one – as the understanding of what giving and receiving as Equals means: Equal-Money will be the consequence and outflow of us deciding and agreeing in a New Meaning to Money which can benefit All in an Equal-way, which implies that the relationship between the human and money won’t be that of power, lack, desire/ lust as greed and a constant survivalism to get it, but will become an Equal Living Word as a simple tool to manage resources and ensure everyone is equally supported, by mere virtue of being a living being in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to perpetuate an unspoken social convention over money as a current means of control of the Earth’s resources distribution, which implies that it is in our absolute power and ability to re-unite again to agree that within the principle of one man, one vote, we can establish a new system that can benefit all beings Equally, wherein those in the elite and those starving are finally equalized by having equal power of acquisition along with the rest of humanity, which will dissolve the eternal class-struggle and avoid the need to ‘take down the power’ by force/ revolutions/ battles/ wars – I see and realize that through giving a New Meaning to Money as an equally give-distributed tool, I can prevent a tumultuous process of shift/ change within the monetary system, as I see and realize that wars, revolutions and coup d’état only separate the individuals within a society further, which is precisely why Equal Money System is the most pacific way in which we can all agree to give to each other as we want to receive the right to Live a dignified living, without resorting to further violence, death, crimes and revolting in spitefulness, but instead recognize our actual Neighborism  if we agree to Live as Equals.

 

I realize that the responsibility for how money currently exists resides in each and every single person that has accepted the meaning of ‘money’ as it currently exists in absolute means of separation, division, power and competition, which implies that the solution will also mean a new social convention to give a New Meaning to Money that will imply a process of change through Education, just like learning a New Word and its Meaning, which must be first lived within the individual as the realization of who and what we are as Life is Equal and One = hence, making of money the representation of that realization made a system that is socially agreed upon through democratic means, as the real power that each one hold by virtue of being a participant within society as part of the entire ecosystem as the Earth.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that Equal-Money becomes an imposition as a new meaning to Money-itself, without realizing that fear is only a means of control that have kept us believing that the meaning/ value of money could not be changed/ transformed/ shifted in its functionality, which implies that we cannot fear implementing a Living Principle that is and will benefit All beings equally.

 

I realize that we have kept ourselves living in a generational inertia, never questioning money and its meaning, but simply accepting it ‘as is,’ which implies that it is now that more and more people are being affected and directly influenced by the inequality inherently schemed as Money at the moment, that we start questioning how money was created, when/ how did we accept this, which is the actual imposition and forced-acceptance that we all complied-to by the very first moment that we used money in our lives without further questioning its existence and the ‘rules’ behind it.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the ‘free choice’ that is implied in the arbitrary meaning of Money at the moment, was not established and promulgated in the best interest of all, but only considering the benefit of those that made the rules of its meaning in the first place, which means that we have followed the ‘tradition’ of such meaning as a ‘word of god’ without really questioning how come we have delegated the same abusive system from generation to generation without pondering the need for a change in its meaning and power over life itself.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that Money is a mere abstraction/ concept, and Not a full sign as a direct meaning of  what Money should be as linked to a physical-tangible object/ part of the physical world – but instead accepting its ‘value’ within the belief of ‘power’ in an abstract form represented by metal, paper, coins with no physical relationship to an actual physicality of/as life itself in this world, but became a meaning to ‘power’ as the ability to simply deny / allow the access of money to other beings, the quantity of it and the rules within which it would function-as, implying that it is Not a meaning/signification that is Real in any way whatsoever, but a socially deliberately ‘flawed’ convention representing the absolute separation of humanity toward the world itself and each other, creating the basis of Inequality by and through a single meaning in separation of ourselves as Equals as Life.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that money in itself as paper, bank notes, plastic, metals cannot in any way be a ‘meaning of power’ in itself, it is the social convention as a Belief-System that we have agreed upon that decides how it works,  which reduces money to a psychological object rather than an actual meaning in function of the physical reality as the tangible resources that can be given/ exchanged with one another – this means that the word ‘wealth’ is the solidification of this intangible ‘power’ above others as a mere social-convention/ belief-system that is only made real through the acceptance of such money having the ability to buy/ consume all that which the value of such money is accepted and allowed to have/‘mean,’ which is, once again, a mere belief-system wherein there are no real values attached to the physical reality, but are all man-made conventions/beliefs. H

Hence, I realize that the problem and solution resides within the ability of us as humanity coming together to create a New Agreement as a New Constitution to declare the value of Money as Life, as a tool to support each other as equals with no ability to generate the illusion of profit/ gain/ power over others as ‘wealth’ any longer.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize how we have conditioned and controlled ourselves through the acceptance of habit and tradition as a pattern followed to perpetuate a system of abuse, wherein we only came to understand the effect of having/ not having money once we experience the detrimental consequences as being poor, middle class or positive consequences as being wealthy/rich as the basic conditioning within a human being’s life, without first asking how it is that such Inequality is able to be accepted as ‘normal’ in our world-system.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that we are all one and equal as part of this physical world – and that money as words became the separators between ourselves as life through the imposition of meaning/ value as worth that can be more or less according to a social convention/ belief-system that was not based upon Life in Equality, which means that we only gave and acquired such meanings through establishing comparison, differentiating one from another as separate entities that could be then assessed as being ‘more’ or ‘less’ than others, which implies an obvious problem of Meaning and Signification within words themselves and Money as a a product of such social conventions/ belief-system in separation of the consideration/ value of ourselves being one and equal as Life. Within this

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the ‘injury’/ split/ incision manifested within this world system as and through Money stems from the very decision of giving words a particular meaning and value within a make-believe system called ‘social convention’ where not every single being was able to vote upon the meaning/ value and worth of words, which implies that the most common sensical way of establishing a new system, a definitive reform in the system stands within the agreement of giving to each other that which is best for all, as the realization that it is only through arbitrarily placed separations as words/ values upon Life itself that we came to create the current system that we are existing as and suffering the consequences of, wherein we have made ourselves subject to our own imposed cages as money upon life itself that is unconditionally given by the Earth as part of who we are in this same Ecosystem.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the substance of and as Life is here indistinctly, however we have as words and language created separate forms of it as different meanings that acquire ‘different values’ according to the relationships that we form with it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that value in itself is but a consideration given to things/ people/ the environment in separation of ourselves, which becomes a meaning of worth as more or less than in a fixed-system as a social convention to agree that some things are ‘more’ than others, and in that simple and primordial separation, accepting money as a ‘moreness’ and ‘lack’ at the same time, which is how and why money is a function of abuse.

 

I commit myself to establish the New meaning and signification of Money as the correspondence between the word Money/ Equal-Money to Life itself, as the physicality and substantiality that is here as the Earth’s resources that can be given and obtained in equal agreement and equal availability for All participants within this ecosystem of Earth, which implies that Money in itself has no power other than the ability to be a counting tool to administrate the resources, the provision of services and any other means of giving and receiving in equal terms. This is then establishing the real meaning of Economics as the administration/ management of the house’s resources/Earth’s resources, which is an absolute physical logistical processes and Not schemes to make more profit/ wealth based on unsubstantiated values as abstract meanings Over life itself.

(Read the blog an Economist’s Journey to Life for further support.)

 

I commit myself to equalize the signification and value of Money as one and equal as Life, as the value implying the relationships established between human beings as the social agreement and understanding that we had created a distinction/ separation and differentiation from the one and only real value that is Life itself, which will have to be equally extended to all words, concepts an aspects in our reality wherein we no longer create separation through/ as words that can imply a ‘moreness’ or ‘lesser’ value of things/ people/ the environment itself, but it is all turned into a simple tool to communicate, just as we communicate using words that must be then Equalized as who we are, as actual Living Words that can stand within the new Equal-Money System as the Equal-Value of Life System where the relationships that we establish with one another, can only be interdependent and symbiotic in nature – just like an actual social organism that is able to distribute its resources in an equal way, learning from the functioning of our own physical body that maintains the homeostasis of the organism in place through ensuring that all parts are equally supported with the nutrients required to Live.

 

I commit myself to explain that the difference we agreed to impose upon things and ourselves is a mere linguistic ‘problem’ as meaning/ signification that Must be re-evaluated within the consideration of the current consequences that such ‘flaw’ in the meaning of Money itself and the relationships we have created toward it/ as-it, have manifested a world in absolute separation, where only constant survival and competition is keeping the system alive, as that seeking for ‘more’ as an ideal of fulfillment, without realizing that such fulfillment could be actually readily given at birth by mere virtue of being alive in this world, and that it only takes a social convention and agreement to establish a New Monetary System based upon Life in Equality as the one and only value given to All as the realization of who and what we are as One and Equals as Life.

 

This means that Language in itself will cease to only be a ‘form’ imposed onto life, and instead become an actual Substance as each one of us realize, see and understand the separation that we have created within our world and reality through and as words – wherein we recognize that we are all made of the same substance that is Life itself, and that all words must be equalized as such realization – wherein Living Words implies recognizing the substance of who and what we are as One and equal in every single sound/ word that we express as a constant living-application/ externalization and expression of ourselves as Life.

 

For that, it is an entire process of Re-Education now that we see that the key to change ourselves and our reality exists and resides in the introspection, realization and investigation of who we are as words and how we have to equalize ourselves as such words within the principle of what’s best for all life to Live as Words that are in support of the new meaning and function of Money as Equal-Money = Life in Equality and Oneness.

 

Equal Money System 

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We are a group of people walking a process to redefine words as Life through a process of Self-Correction that entails All Aspects of our lives – where no part is more or less important to review, but equally important as the understanding that this world and reality is the consequential outflow of the separation as words we have ‘lived’ and perpetuated in our lives, and only now being reviewed to see and understand what it takes to Change the World beginning with Ourselves.

Read our blogs: Destonians and Journey to Life blogs 

 

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Read the previous entries for the complete exploration of the separation created through and as the word Money

 

Blogs that explain the Value/ Relationships created through/ as Money as the separation that exists as an energetic system, which is devaluing substance/life itself into meanings/ words/ relationships between each other that have placed a Cap on life itself.

Creation’s Journey to Life 

Heaven’s Journey to Life 

 

Bernard Poolman – FAQ Equal Money System – Science and Language


54: God doesn’t play favorites

 

“On the surface, perhaps man scripturally being in charge over women may seem unfair, sexist or overbearing, but this is the reality of the world we live in. The purpose is not about a show of superiority or favoritism ( God doesn’t play favorites ). There has to be one parent with the final word, and thus men and women can’t be totally “equal.” Why ? Because chaos would ensue. If two people ( parents ) had equal levels of authority, I would pity every child…”

FrisbeeGuy87  on Why Woman give birth in Pain and are Blamed for the Fall of Man – (Deleted YouTube Video)  January 19, 2010

 

Why have we accepted that we can’t be ‘totally equal’ and in that indulging in fallacies as potential ways in which assumptions instill fear as to how ‘problems’ would ensue if people were equally empowered in this world. This is a typical example of how through logic/ assumptions and beliefs, we have built a world of absolute separation and limitation through the very concepts that we spread as ‘facts.’ In statements like ‘but this is the reality of the world we live in’ = ‘we can’t change the world, don’t even try’ is implied, and for that, using the example of parents – considering the typical male and female structure –  contains the inherent acceptance of social roles as one of the primary points wherein the hierarchical-existence of society is adopted ‘as is,’ which later on extends within any other realms/ sectors of social matters and endeavors. Why? because that’s simply what ensures that no one ever questions the hierarchical structure of the system, no one then seeks to be equal and complies to the adamant status quo even if it implies abuse and separation.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in a world where there must Always be someone that has the ‘final word’ stemming from an inherently believed sense of ‘power’/ having control over others, as the authority that stands in a ‘superior’ position, instead of establishing equal responsibility toward one’s words and the effect that such words as actions inflict upon the whole which must be equal in all ways and considering what’s best for all at all times.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that someone must always have the ‘last say’ in any given moment as a definitive decision that is accepted as a way to stop discord, which implies that we have believed that equal-power leads to inevitable conflict, chaos and further rivalry, without seeing and realizing that we have only believed ‘this’ to be ‘true’ within a system wherein Equality has never in fact existed, it has never in fact been Lived yet it has been promoted as something to fear. Within this, all we have ever complied to is the separation of humankind as individuals that can be ‘more’ or ‘less’ successful according to social roles – being a male or a female – and the amount of money they own, which has determined and is linked-to the amount of ‘authority’ one has which is one of the basic traps wherein we will only hear those in ‘power’ and in roles that are socially deemed as ‘more powerful’/ of authority due to the credentials as values we believe they inherently ‘represent’ and ‘own’ by virtue of their position within a particular social and economic context.

 

I see, realize and understand that the patterns followed in any social construction have been defined and determined by money as power wherein money decides the type of society that is built, which is a set of norms, rules/ regulations toward the lives of particular human beings in a defined context such  as nation/ community/ gender/ race/ economic status, which complies to greater schemes of hierarchical organization of the world, such as world economies, cultural values and traditions as well as political and religious endeavors that may or may not be influenced also by the natural environment in itself.  Anthropology, sociology, linguistics and other social ‘sciences’ have focused on establishing the differences between individuals, categorizing society into this dissected scheme that is able to be studied and pretended to be ‘known,,’ as a way of establishing ‘order and control’ which is the positivism implied in our current science – while in fact, the point that should matter for all such sciences is developing ways to establish common sense points to live as equals, regardless of the cultural baggage that is currently being carried as some form of ‘value’ that is defended to be preserved, without even daring to question such ‘values’ because we have deemed that as ‘untouchable’ and ‘too sacred’ as it implies digging into personal beliefs that are usually ‘left alone’ for the sake of not causing further riots in ‘sensitive areas,’ which is also a point of abuse the moment that religions step in the way of implementing a way to live that is best for all in Equality.

 

The same goes on at the very basic level of establishing a family nucleus wherein the usual belief of it having to be either a matriarchy or patriarchy is entailing the basic submission that must exist in order to have something working/ functioning – which is the primordial flaw that we have indulged in within society, accepting ourselves to take the position of either being more or less than the partner in this relationship that is the most basic unit of society, that will ‘give birth’ to a child that will comply to the idea of someone having to have the ‘ultimate say,’ regardless of it being in the best interest of all or not. Complying, obeying, suppressing any form of expression that could change the way societies work is then stemming from that very initial acceptance of seeing ‘mom’ or ‘dad’ as the ultimate say at home, and us having no say at all in decision making.

 

Our childhood is a vital point of education where all the basic acceptances at a social level, are transmitted through the very interaction that parents have toward each other. If parents exist in  constant conflict, retaliation, desire to be the one with the ultimate say/ win and the other submitting to it and/or even fearing to voice their perspective– the only thing that’s being transmitted to the child that is like a sponge of all behavior, words, information in his/her surrounding is how to find ways to overcome power and control, or become absolutely submissive to a reality that is perceived as unchangeable, which implies diverting such frustration in other means to get a sense of ‘power and control’ over others, which is how bullying emerges, how becoming a constant ‘fighter’ against the social limiting standards – which begin at home –  finding ways to get the most benefit from manipulating others to do things for us– and the list could go on and on.

 

How often parents fear being a ‘bad example’ for their children? I’d say very often – yet the fact is that unless parents themselves walk through a process of deprogramming the basic social conditions that have been accepted and allowed as ‘who we are,’ there will still be this desire to impose or submit to another in order to continue such ‘social roles’ and prevent conflict at any cost. How many times have we thought that we rather keep quiet to not ‘stir problems’ while neglecting the fact that in us ‘keeping quiet’ we essentially become the links within a chain that will go on generationally, creating submissive humans instead of common sensical self-directive individuals that seek to debunk the most common accepted lies and fallacies and question the accepted and allowed forms of ‘order and control’ in society, taking on the responsibility to ensure that no such patterns are ever repeated within the subsequent generations.

 

There is a lot to be said and exposed from these seemingly ‘acceptable’ ways of thinking such as the quote at the beginning of the post, wherein through fearing ‘power’ and ‘control’ we actually accept such power and control as something real.  Basic common sense  is not taught in schools – what we accept and allow with the existence of one single word as the starting point and origin of an accustomed behavioral pattern within another being, regardless of it being harmful – is what we become/ accept and allow ourselves to exist as a whole. For that, we just have to look at our legislation books and see the amount of atrocities that had to happen in order for us to write laws that could classify them all and find ways to condemn it, other than looking at the root cause/ origin of such problems in the first place.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to comply to the existence of myself as part of a system wherein my own rights are a proof of all of that which is not given as an unconditional birth-right, wherein I have made myself subject to texts as words that have been written in the name of keeping ‘order and control’ through the instilling of actual fear, due to such laws and regulations being the proof of how far we can drive ourselves as humanity in our thoughts/ words/ deeds, wherein only punishment and condemnation is legally established, instead of first looking at the cause/ root of the problem and working toward the correction and reform of such cause/ root of the problem, which would prevent the growth of laws and regulations to classify human behaviors that could be instead prevented and stopped before manifesting as a regular pattern, and realizing how they have been the product of a society wherein the most basic principle of Life in Equality has never been existent.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if we live in a society wherein there is a constitution that ‘defends my rights,’ that I then had nothing to do to better it/ review it, as I believed that everything that any other person would be/ live/ do would fall within the category of ‘being abiding to the law’ while in fact, this is the type of gullibility we have all accepted as a way to not question the application and validity of words implied in laws/ constitutions, ignoring the obvious evidence that there is no sense of law and consideration of Equal-Rights between all human beings from the very first moment that I accept one gender to be above the other as a general social, political and economical factor that determines the lives of human beings in this human construct that is ‘society.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to as a child, become used to having one of both parental figures as the ‘dominant/ strong one’ and the other as the  ‘submissive/ weak one’, wherein I then learned that the way to impose my own will was through exerting control over others, stirring conflict and always having to ‘battle’/ oppose another to finally establish ‘my way’ of doing things, without ever questioning why I always had to fight for my right to be ‘heard’ instead of simply being able to communicate and agree on what is best for all to do/ be and say in any given moment/ event/ situation in our lives.

 

I realize that in my case specifically, I learned that the one that gives the money has the ultimate say in terms of buying/ consuming and further expanding the ‘wealth’ of the family – while the moral/ educational authority has the ultimate say toward the education of the children, in both cases neglecting the other side as having equal decision-making stance, due to the accepted and allowed and unspoken agreement of always having someone deciding for us, instead of establishing equal and communal agreements that consider what benefits All members of the family, including the child as a pertinent decision-maker from a young age through deliberately integrating them within family conversations as a way to ensure they grow up as self-aware beings of the responsibility that is entailed within coexisting in a world with others.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in a society wherein children are made subject to the decisions of the ‘elders’ as parents, without having any window of opportunity to support them to also speak/ share and be part of the decision making/ interactions within the family nucleus as parents, which actually leads them to become beings that see themselves as ‘outsiders’ and having ‘no say’ within any social/ family matter, which becomes an actual personality-maim to any living expression that could have developed in a healthy self-relationship if parents would have learned how to integrate the child from a young age in decision making conversations and establishing constant communication with children instead of leaving it all to the ‘educational system’ to do that for them.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept the ‘authorities’ in this world from the initial moments of my interactions within society – which is family – wherein I learned that I had to comply to my parent’s will and decision, wherein I was only told what to do/ what not to do without any further explanations, within that becoming used to abiding to the law as a system that does not consider the actual needs, requirements and self-correction  for such habitual patterns that may induce harm and conflict, but instead simply ‘fear’ committing such actions, fearing asking about them and sticking to the rule of thumb of approving and disapproving without having any space to further discuss/ communicate How and Why such laws exist and are ‘acceptable’ as a category in itself in the first place, instead of addressing the problem and finding the cause/ origin to be corrected as an initial step in the first place, which begins within the education at home.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in a system where the ultimate say is nor a male or a female but money as the actual control point that dictates and mandates the decisions in this world in all spheres and levels of our interactions, which is how and why the importance of removing such basic conditions and limitations to life within ourselves, stems from the realization of who and what we are as Equality of Life and educating ourselves to understand how/why we separated ourselves, which will reveal how our own monetary system is currently re-enacting and perpetuating the same conditions of separation with no aperture for dialogue to ask pertinent questions as to How we have become so imbued within the current monetary crisis and world-wide financial noose, that we have forgotten to ask the most basic questions such as what is money in the world in the first place and how we have the absolute ability to change how it functions.

 

I commit myself to expose the most usual lies and social stigmas embedded at a cultural level that is preventing ourselves from realizing the actual fact that it is only through removing the conditions accepted and allowed as ‘differences’ that we can come to the realization of all human beings and living beings being able to live within a single system that promotes Equality as Life, wherein gender roles will come to be a single identification of the physical body design, but no longer a way to define and constrict the social rights, virtues or perceived inabilities that have maimed human societies through the orders of religion and tradition as considerations for law-making processes.

 

I commit myself to stop within myself any form of belief that would consider me being ‘different’ to any other human being, from gender, nation, race, beliefs and any other point that is currently ‘socially acceptable’ as a way to maintain the differences/ separation between humanity – within this, I stand as the point that represents one single value: Equality as Life, wherein all men are actually equal and living as equals which requires a complete new system that can ensure such words are lived in a physical and functional way and no longer having to be ‘defended’ through righteous acts of violence and wars, which indicate that we have missed the very basic premise of beingness in this world as Life, which doesn’t require to ‘strive’ to be.

 

I commit myself to provide common sense and support for beings that are currently being trapped within the gender-roles within society and believing that being a male or female in any way represents one or another form of limitation – in this, I commit myself to promote equal living abilities for all beings, including animals and the consideration of the environment wherein we as ‘human beings’ won’t exert our own ability to abuse over nature and the animal kingdom, as we will also consider them in an equal way within all decisions and choices we vote upon in order to establish Equality as Life.

 

I commit myself to continue educating myself about how the world works, how we have existed as a perpetual stigma toward our own gender based on what we have accepted and allowed in a blind manner as ‘education’ which has been indoctrination to continue the ways of a system that only could thrive if inequality is existent.

 

I commit myself to walk my own mind to see where I could still harbor this ‘gender roles’ as dictated by society, and within this ensure that whenever I speak, I speak as a living being that holds no preference for a particular gender, but represents the words that I as a living being see are pertinent to communicate to re-establish the will of Life as living words in each one of us, which is a process of Self Honesty that we walk and share at Desteni.

 

“I commit myself to show why and how – the only solution to ourselves, humanity and so this world: is ourselves within ourselves as God/Energy-Authority/Consciousness control of separation, taking responsibility and walk ourselves into and as equality and oneness with and as the physical-body, and eventually this physical existence through and as the process of writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application. To, as we stop the separation within, and standing and living absolute equality and oneness as ourselves with and as the physical, we will so stop the separation without, and walk this world/current World-System into and as a System of and as Equality and Oneness, that ensure this world of sacrifice/suffering stop in the name of money, for each to have an equal and one opportunity Life/Living, as we stop the sacrifice/suffering to our own physical-bodies in the name of Energy/Consciousness.” Sunette Spies *

 

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53: A Clockwork Mindkind–The Evil in Me is the Evil in You

When I watched A Clockwork Orange some 10 years ago, I was amused and fascinated at the same time with the entire story, without precisely knowing why I could rejoice in being witnessing Alex’s and his fellow droogs mischievous acts of random violence. The Fact is that for a long time, I thought that Kubrick had left the story in a ‘sellable’ ending compared to the original story in the book, which ends with a grown up matured and reformed Alex encountering himself with another one of his droogs and recalling the ‘good old ultra violent times.’ That seemed like a ‘right’ and socially redemptive ending that Burgess gave to a story filled with an actual accurate depiction of humanity: Evil, Madness, Violence and Vile-Ends to achieve a sense of power and fun.

 

The idea of ‘Humanity is Evil’ has been a constant thought pattern within me, and I can guarantee it has been within YOU as well. It is now that we are witnessing the real Evil of Man coming out from the gutters that we start pondering if we had held ourselves in high pedestals when it comes to claiming any form of ‘goodness’ and ‘benevolence,’ while the current state of the world can prove we have never in fact really showed any true benevolence that we could hold ourselves accountable for. Even more so, any attempt to ‘do good’ as charities, social services, helping the poor and starving is in fact fueling the same evil machinery that has created such conditions in the first place – and for that you must hear all about it here.

 

“While nothing is easier than to denounce the evildoer, nothing is more difficult than to understand him:” Dostoyevsky

 

We get a sense of pleasure from watching evil – here in México it’s very common to have these yellow-press as we call it which shows gruesome and explicitly gory pictures of people that are murdered, ran over, tortured and savaged in one way or another by fellow humans. That sells a lot – and the same goes for Hollywood and all the ultraviolent movies that leave Kubrick’s interpretation of Alex’s violence looking like an artsy Saturday Morning version of evil.

Now, what’s the REAL point here: We are willing to witness in others what exists within us. You, reader, cannot possibly deny that you have never ever thought of killing someone or committing the most vile act in one fleeting moment of absolute rage and madness, wherein your entire body becomes possessed by this seemingly unstoppable desire to go out and just destroy or kill something/ someone. And I’m being quite general in the description because the point here is to realize that we can only get a sense of pleasure from an apparent detachment from the representation and ‘acting out’ of what goes on in our heads. Hence, Dostoyevsky was rather kidding himself when thinking that we cannot understand evil, because that would be not wanting to know our true-nature. Yes, that’s the basic ‘shocking’ point for anyone that is willing to read and be Self Honest in this world – in fact, as I’ve mentioned in several blogs in the past, one of the key quotes by Bernard that allowed me to witness the reality of this world and remove – slowly but surely- my ‘veil of sanctity and goodness’ was

Self Honesty  is not nice or beautiful” – Bernard Poolman 

And this implies that getting to know yourself as who you really are in Self-Honesty, won’t come up as shining gold dust falling from the skies over your head and angels singing about your perfection – Hell, no. It’s quite the contrary and we’ve reached the time that had been explained back in 2007 within the Desteni material that would take place on Earth in the coming years – yes, we are 5 years from that time and it’s now quite settled and going on with full force. One just has to glance at the news of people committing more ‘vile acts’ even in full and broad daylight – like a man trying to rape a woman in a busy street while she was going out to walk her dog.

 

There is no place to hide and you know why? Because such evil is existent in every single one of our minds.

Denying it is futile, it is the same as talking to yourself and repeating a 1000 times that ‘you are a good person’ which is obviously stemming from the actual fear that we have experienced toward our own ability to exert our Real Nature, which is Evil in its utmost potential. This is one of the reasons why willing to delve into the pit of your own mind takes a lot of guts, as well as obviously making the commitment to stop both the delusional ‘goodness’ and the rawness of the evil nature within. ‘The Killer in me is the killer in you’  – another  piece of lyrics that to me meant quite a literal sense of reality: we cannot deny the fact that we are fully aware of how our Mind Works – yet we suppress it and deny it behind fake faces and fake smiles to pretend that ‘everything is sugar and spice.’ Really?

If we can spot the evil nature of man through our daily news and obvious consequences in this world, why is it so difficult to accept such same nature within ourselves? Is it actual fear of realizing who and what we have become?

I am sorry, Mr. F. Dostoyevsky – wherever in this existence you are – but a man that is willing to know oneself would not pretend ‘not to understand’ his inherent nature.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever deny the real nature of myself as a human being that by default emerged into existence as the result of friction that generated the separation that remained as a constant self-experience of division, antagonism, separation and longing toward the whole that I separated myself from in order to become energy that seeks to be ‘more’ than others, and in that be the primary source and origin of all abuse in this world and existence, for I see, realize and understand that for power and control to exist =abuse must exist.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever be resilient to accept the true nature of myself as the inherent nature of ourselves as humanity as Evil, because of having lived as an idea of being a benevolent being that cares about humanity and life and the environment, and it was ‘impossible’ for me to believe that ‘I’ could ever be ‘a mean person,’ which was simply the way to neglect any form of responsibility that I held toward this reality, simply because of being taught to always ‘do good’ which implies that I had to be educated to ‘tame’ my inner nature of actual evil.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to miss the very basics in common sense wherein: if we had to be trained/ educated/ tamed and indoctrinated to ‘do good’ and be ‘good respectable citizens,’ it implies that the actual nature of ourselves was Never of good, benevolence and actual consideration of each other as equals, otherwise, our education from our emergence into this reality would have been based in simply fine-tuning such ‘benevolent nature,’ and it wasn’t like that – we became the very battle within ourselves through constantly having to place ourselves back in the cage of our ‘do good’ mentality, without having any proper explanation to understand WHY we had to always be fearing ‘the bad’ and ‘the evil,’ which only lead me to create fear toward any bad thought that would come into my mind as a child, fearing my own thoughts, dreams and nature, which I learned to mask very well with smiles, ‘doing good’ and sticking to always thinking on ‘the bright side’ of reality, which caused quite an inner conflict when I would become aware of my own nature.

 

I forgive myself that  I have accepted and allowed myself to find a sense of vicarious enjoyment through watching the evil nature portrayed in films, stories, books, villains of any kind as they ‘dare’ to represent that which has always existed as my own nature, but hid and suppressed it out of fear, out of having been taught to always ‘do good’ and ‘stick to the positive thinking,’ which caused me to then only become a concealer of thoughts that would come up in my head, and fear them, believing that some other ‘bad entity’ was responsible for it – hence fearing all the dark and evil as it caused tremendous anxiety to face that which I was taught to stay away from at all cost.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to use the belief in god, spirits and guardians as a way to ‘keep me safe from evil,’ which would be the way for me to cope with that which I came to only constantly fear because of following the education of my parents who have also been educated in a way to always ‘fear the evil’ and ‘stay away from being a bad person,’ which is how I simply became fearful of all things evil, avoiding it at all cost and resorting to the comforting thought of god as a means to protect myself from my own mind and thoughts that could come up in any given moment, which revealed the actual nature that I existed as, but denied and suppressed which caused an inner-struggle and fascination at the same time for it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever believe that within ‘thinking positive’ I was actually correcting my real nature as the thoughts that would come up in my head – which now I see and realize is what we have all been doing as  humanity: staying away from the actual nature of ourselves and stigmatizing anyone that would dare to portray the actual evil-nature of ourselves in a blatant and open manner.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create a point of fascination toward ‘all things evil’ and malicious at some point because it seemed ‘more real’ to me than the fluffy caramelized version of reality – associated with the pink color – and in that, always wonder WHY I had such a fascination for the rawness of human evil such as serial killers and demon possessions, wars, brutal massacres and everything that could point out that we were able to be evil/ kill others/ do ‘bad things’ that could disturb the world and society, simply because all of it was revealing our own nature.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to keep myself ‘safe’ from ‘evil’ through developing a personality that could be comfortable with seeing ‘the evil’ in others, but never really pondering where and how I was existing in the exact same nature of such evil and how I had repressed it and suppressed it in order to not have to realize the actual reality of myself as my own mind, as who and what I have always been, which is and must not be ‘feared’ but rather walked through a process to ensure that I no longer stand in the pole of being ‘good’ or ‘bad,’ but just a physical being that is able to coexist with others in Equality, which means: the beginning of the separation that instigated the evil in ourselves is able to be stopped and taken to an end with ourselves walking our process of Self-Honesty to ensure that we stop being the cause of evil/ separation and reverse of Life by stopping ourselves from participating in the same mind-set that disregards everything and every other being as one and equal with ourselves.

 

I see, realize and understand that the current evil in humanity is driven as an energetic experience that begins at a thought level – therefore, I ensure that I become aware of every single thought and forgive myself for every single attempt to give head to a thought that implies harm, abuse, desire for power, revenge, superiority and any other form of separation that is only generated the moment that I see others as separate from myself.

 

I see, realize and understand that every-one that is here is myself, and in that, any ‘battle’ that I generate stems from my very own beingness as energy, as thoughts, as a personality that seeks to ‘thrive’ as a mind in individuality – wherein I then take a deep breath and establish my self-directive principle of Life in Equality, as I see and realize that it is only through me stopping all forms of separation at a thought level, that I can begin correcting the inherent accepted and allowed patterns of separation that I’ve imposed onto Life, which has always been here as myself in and as Equality and Oneness.

 

I commit myself to support myself to lay out all that which I have veiled from myself, to not see who and what I have actually become as a mind that exists in separation of the whole – and in that, become the point that stops existing as ‘evil’ as the reverse of life and in that, correct my physically accepted and allowed patterns of separation that can only exist if I give continuation to who I am and exist as within my own mind.

 

“I commit myself to show why and how – the only solution to ourselves, humanity and so this world: is ourselves within ourselves as God/Energy-Authority/Consciousness control of separation, taking responsibility and walk ourselves into and as equality and oneness with and as the physical-body, and eventually this physical existence through and as the process of writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application. To, as we stop the separation within, and standing and living absolute equality and oneness as ourselves with and as the physical, we will so stop the separation without, and walk this world/current World-System into and as a System of and as Equality and Oneness, that ensure this world of sacrifice/suffering stop in the name of money, for each to have an equal and one opportunity Life/Living, as we stop the sacrifice/suffering to our own physical-bodies in the name of Energy/Consciousness.” Sunette Spies *

 

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