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Day 26: Captive in My Own Cage

 

While listening to the latest chapters of the  Atlanteans’ series wherein the entire process of being being ‘imprisoned’ is explained in detail, I could see that my reactions to this energetic caging and enslavement were like physical experiences of slight chest constrictions and a general sense of regret mixed with powerlessness, as I explained yesterday.

I can see how the word ‘captive’ depicts the associations that I created of myself within such experience, which is what I felt like and fed through various thoughts that were part of the crutches that I would use as an excuse to pursue spirituality, seeing my body as a cage believing that who I really was is some spiritual being trapped in this body, this vessel – yet the point that we got to understand today is how there is no-part of me to oppose, neglect or dispose here, it is about an actual integration of who I really am as one and equal within what would be popularly identified as the mind, body and spirit – however this is understood as: the mind, the physical body and consciousness as the trinity that we’ve become wherein the equalization of all three points implies me walking myself back to self through occupying my mind, body and understanding how I created myself as consciousness to only later on, get to the point of birthing self as life which is only a possibility once that we walk ourselves backwards.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as a captive, as a prisoner and exist within a perceived victimization from what I accepted and allowed as a process of being captivated in order to become who and what we are today as human beings, without being able to remember why I had lived in such an internal conflict within feeling like a prisoner in my own body, without realizing that I haven’t actually ever occupied my body in its totality – therefore, how could I deem it as a cage if I am not even aware of the internal processes it functions as?

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself to an experience within the mind as an energetic imprisonment which has been the real ‘captivity’ that I have lived within and as, wherein I disregarded the absolute draining of physical matter to keep up my delusions and experiences of alienation from my very physical body, it is unacceptable to say the least what we have done to ourselves, what we accepted and allowed and how a single belief about who we are led us to the consequences we are facing today.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to hold myself captive of my own thinking processes about what I have accepted and allowed within my life and throughout existence, which means that I created general reactions of irritation and loathe toward everyone wherein ‘my freedom’ was sought in separation of the whole, wherein I thought that I was the only one feeling like imprisoned and limited, being ‘caged’ in my own body, without really understanding how we function as one organism that exists in constant recreation of separation by me using my mind and physical body to elaborate further ways to separate myself from the whole, which is what has led us to ‘upgrade’ our human version into a more distrustful, fearful, jealous, envious being that fears its own fear.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate ‘freedom’ with being out of the body- having no body at all – and not having to eat which is what I also have held as a constant experience of enslavement whenever any physical need has to be met, simply because of how I have judged this physical body and design wherein I created an experience toward it. I sought to make myself feel better about it, without realizing that in this very movement to ‘get out of the experience’ I would inevitably stir the waters and create further inner conflict, as I resisted to see and realize that it was simply me creating an energetic experience in my mind that is absolutely separated from the actuality of the physical reality, in this

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my mind, as my physical, as my creation which is my own body and everyone else around me wherein I got to be reluctant to accept myself here, because of not seeing ‘any point in life’ and within that, only fueling the separation that could only exist within my own mind, without any actual physical reference of the body being actually a cage or any other form of confinement that I believed it to be within my own mind, only. I realize that who I am as consciousness could only understand the physical through its narrow and limited ways of understanding the physical reality, which is not a beingness but knowledge only.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that whenever I sought to overcome/ fight an internal conflict, when and while I tried to force my way out of it, I would invariably create further resistance, conflict, friction as separation, which means that any belief of me being ‘over it’ is only a defense mechanism of my own ego to protect the reality that is still here and that must be self-forgiven in order to reintegrate myself back to self, wherein there is nothing to oppose or overcome or grow out of, but instead realizing the separation for the mind-creation that it is and walk the process of reintegrating myself back to self in equality and oneness, where no further conflicts are created as I will have then understood the starting point of me separating myself in friction and conflict as a self-created experience to only generate energy for my mind to continue existing, as part of the ‘maintenance processes’ that I have participated in within the co-creation processes within this reality.

 

I realize that the only solution is for me to unconditionally stop any type of judgment, not only toward the body in itself, but toward this idea of myself having been a captive throughout my existence. This implies that no victimization can be held toward myself/ anyone else. I become the point that stops all mental captivity in reducing myself to being a single idea, a single experience and being ‘held captive’ by my own deliberate participation in such concepts that I gave my power away to in order to regenerate the initial existential conflict created from that initial moment of separation, wherein I accepted an existence of seeking the positive to feel more/ feel better about myself and the idea of self that I accepted and allowed as ‘who I am.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to generate an experience toward the word ‘captive’ which implies that I can only inflict such limitation upon myself through my own participation as it, which is how easy an entire relationship of mind-abuse toward self can be followed/ created by living out a word as an experience, instead of realizing that I can simply self-forgive it and stop regenerating such beliefs and perceptions as myself.

I realize that captivity is simply an experience created within my mind as the accumulations of thoughts that I tried to make as if it was ‘okay,’ when it was really a draining experience when having no direction over my experiences and essentially becoming sad and dismal whenever any thoughts of a similar nature would come up.

 

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create this existential woe and dread from the belief and perception of being held captive by ‘someone else,’ without realizing that the best cage that I’ve built for myself has been my own thoughts that have created and generated an entire fortress as a limitation to my actual ability to live and express here unconditionally.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to want to blame others for this experience of feeling like a captive, which would imply that I sought for revenge other than actual freedom from such captivity, disregarding at all times and not even considering that I had been the one that accepted and allowed and fully agreed upon such moment of separation, which stemmed from a set of beliefs that are no different to the current belief system that we are still living in as our world-cage and fueling with our own participation in it every single day, just by the mere fact of living in a world wherein money decides who lives and who dies.

 

Okay – here’s the point tied with the point of being born into this world and essentially the memory of ever having blamed my parents for bringing me into this world. I can see how that is also another aspect of me blaming my mother/ father because I apparently didn’t choose to be here, so all in all it was me trying to find a reason and a general culprit for what I accepted and allowed beyond family ties and being born from two human beings. I now realize that this comes from such primordial separation wherein I accepted and allowed my energetic imprisonment as the mind, as the solidity of the individual that I’ve been wherein I probably spent lifetimes loathing my body and seeing it as a cage, because I essentially had a pretty bad relationship toward my body that I’ve walked for the past years and continue walking it.

 

This is just another perspective in terms of how whenever I wished to just die. This was also supported by the belief system of there being an apparent heaven that I would go to wherein some ‘real freedom’ could be experienced. But in fact, what I had held as a non-conscious thought of seeing this reality as a prison, was just feeling that I was not able to identify, which is what propitiated my vexed experience in this world. And what I can see is that, we probably all feel and experience ourselves in a similar way, because we are the same in fact, and that very first moment of separation explains how there is really no one to blame for this belief of ‘captivity’ because we were the ones that built the cage ourselves.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a captive of my own beliefs, thoughts, feelings and emotions wherein I used such internal conflict to apparently ‘resolve’ my ‘unresolved conflict’ within this experience of simply loathing the world, myself, reality and everyone, wanting to challenge and question any god: ‘why the fuck am I here for?’ which is part of the grudges toward this ‘god’ that lead me to stop desiring being a ‘good person’ and presenting this immaculate image, simply because reality was showing me the opposite at all times, without realizing that I was the very creator of it all, I am responsible for such primordial separation and in that, responsible for any inner-conflict experienced within myself against my own body, reality and every living being in this Earth.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever feel claustrophobic in my own body, which was actually a self-created experience from me being haunted by my own memories, my own fears, judgments and emotions that lead me to be constantly wanting to run away from everyone including myself, which is why I developed ways to not be alone or when being alone, being a complete absentee from my very physical body, because I simply neglected it and believed that I could only solace myself with entertainment and relationships where everything seemed at least ‘not that miserable,’ without realizing that through wanting to ‘clear up’ my experience, I inevitably also fed the negative inner-experience that was not actually self-forgiven, but only buried by layers of suppressing myself and building myself into an idea of self that could apparently ‘forget’ about my own mind as the experiences that lead me to ever really question who am I and what am I doing here.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever desire to just ‘die’ to be ‘free from my body,’ without realizing that the actual prison is and has been ourselves as our own mind, as the reality that is stemming from our very own mind wherein we have decidedly created a point of friction, separation and absolute disregard to each one of us being in fact one and equal, being the very cause of all our experiences wherein there is nothing and no one to blame anymore, but simply stand up, take Self Responsibility for our creation and ourselves and within that, stop any experiences from all that which we have accepted and allowed to exist as ourselves from the very moment of separating from self as one and equal.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that heaven was the ‘real freedom’ and the place wherein I could finally run free and no longer be held a ‘captive’ in this matter world, without realizing that heaven is non existent, that I fed heaven through my very own internal conflict and friction that kept me thinking in and of separation, which only fed my own separation from the actual reality that I am which is this physical body that I neglected within my mind, without ever pondering how it is that I can judge that which sustains my very beingness, how can I neglect the very processes that allow the food that I eat be digested in order for me to continue living in this world, how have I become spiteful toward my very beingness just because of allowing thoughts in my mind to run rampant as an eternal friction, conflict and opposition toward my very beingness and matter.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate the word ‘matter’ to ‘problems’ wherein I then believed that all problems that I experienced could be ‘ended’ if I ceased to exist as such matter, without realizing or even understanding that the reality that I am is actually matter, as the physical that I have neglected, diminished, abused and tortured by my very belief system of ‘being a captive’ in my own body.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever support belief systems of ‘life after death’ being ‘the real life’ and this being only a sick joke that I had to endure with lots of inner conflict and mental pain that I created and fueled by my very own participation, never ever questioning ‘what the hell am I doing to myself?’ because I saw it as a righteous way to blame any ‘creator’ for my existence.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to want to blame my progenitors for ‘bringing me to this world’ without me apparently having chosen to be here, which only points out a point of desiring/ wanting to abdicate my own responsibility that has been always diverted to an ‘authority’ and some ‘greater force,’ wherein I became part of the masses that prefer to blame than actually get to know and understand how reality operates, and how we got ourselves here.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to within this experience of and as captivity, seek to spite ‘god’ or fellow human beings for being born into this world that I see simply continued participating in within the ‘accepted ways’ of detracting, criticizing, judging, blaming everyone and anything outside of myself for my very own existence – and in that, becoming a captive of my own beliefs toward my ‘captive-state’ without realizing how I had created and generated it all for myself, from that very acceptance of separating myself from myself, ensuing the current state of reality that we’re living in, which is my creation and absolute responsibility to get myself back to as a whole again.

 

I commit myself to expose how we create our own cages of the mind while believing that all we are is this personalized fuckup that exists as thoughts, feelings, emotions that are only here to recreate and generate further inner conflict within ourselves, without realizing that it is in such separation that I have become this reality in its full splendor of human nature that spites itself back in the name of personal power and ‘freedom,’ that can only exist within this energetic-system of abuse as the current power games we play with and toward each other as personalities, fighting for survival and seeking the most ‘heavenly experience’ which is achieved with gaining/ earning/ getting the most money.

 

I commit myself to expose how any victimized state of being stemming from wanting to blame a god/ creator for our existence, is in fact abdicating our responsibility toward ourselves, this world as our creation and the very mirror of what we accept and allow to exist within our very own minds, therefore sharing and demonstrating how it is possible to stop living in such state of captivity by and through supporting ourselves to write out our cages, our frames of mind, our limitations/ fears/ judgments to walk a process of reintegrating ourselves back to that initial state of no-conflict, no opposition which is only able to be lived as self by walking this process of self through writing Self Forgiveness, developing Self Honesty and walking the practical living correction to ensure that we stop all separation in this world beginning with the separation that we have accepted and allowed in and as ourselves, as our physical body and mind.

 

I commit myself to walk my mind as my creation, my point of responsibility that requires a process of self-correction to ensure that I understand how I created myself, how I have limited and diminished myself to only being an ‘idea’ that is existing in constant and continuous conflict, to stop and walk a physical integration of such conflict into self-directive actions wherein who I am is able to be lived and expressed within the principle of what’s best for all as Life, as my actions and thoughts are from here on walked, self forgiven and directed to express the will of who I really am as one and equal, which implies no separation is allowed.

I commit myself to expose how we are the very ones that wrought this cage as our own mind, and how it is in reality that only through standing one and equal as our mind, as our physical body and taking responsibility for the consequences that are here as our reality and creation that we can finally birth life in the physical, the way that it always should have been.

 

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Day 25: Existential Woes

Since yesterday that I read Heaven’s Journey to Life blog, Consumerism Starts in the Womb of the Mother: DAY 23 I got quite a reaction coming up from the realization of the birthing process and how it actually takes place in such a way that it is like a recreation of that very initial moment of separation from the whole, that initial division that had a negative energy in it as a result of such conflict/friction that ensued separation. This point clicked within me as a piece in the puzzle that I had been missing out through my life as the experience that I would constantly have with no apparent reason for it at all.

As I’ve shared before, I had a very ‘normal life,’ I was and have been supported, got education and ‘great opportunities’ that have lead me to live a relatively stable and comfortable life. However, I always had this nagging experience that I could only call an ‘existential woe’ and I remember reading Sartre and somehow identifying myself with that, the same with Camus and other people that are now simply seen for what they are as ‘existentialists’ – that was a first approach. However I continued to search for more, to give a ‘name’ to this existential woe. I simply accepted such experience as a kind of  slight chronic depressive tendencies without any reason to have them. I even accepted the fact that maybe it had to do with being a more ‘sensitive person,’ but the reality is that I now understand a lot more about who we are/ our creation in a way that we all have now as a once in an existential lifetime opportunity.

 

I had shared since the beginning of this process why everything that I would depict in art was always this state of worry/ woe/ anguish/ concern, and I found it very very difficult to do anything else but depict such state of being that I could only pin point as a rather ‘deep’ experience within me that I wasn’t fully aware of. Yet it was Here, always here. And I even thought that it had to do with some fucked up chain karma of past lives or having had birth-suffering because of having my umbilical cord around my neck for quite some time. It is fascinating – to say the least – what I’m realizing within these blogs and overall with the interviews that are being released. Now I’m able to understand what I had never ever been able to place into words, never being able to grasp it, yet it was certainly an experience that had no reason to be other than just being ‘here’ as myself. I could be making a big assumption in terms of me expressing that point of separation and ‘existential woe’ through the pictures and scenes that I would draw/paint, but at least, such expressions now make more sense in terms of how such anguish and constant ‘down’ experience is what we all human beings exist as that very first energetic surge from that primordial friction/ conflict that caused the separation of the whole generating  a negative experience.

 

So, because none of us can fully remember or even explain/ give a name to these inherent experiences of absolute negativity toward ourselves and everyone else, it makes complete sense how this that I had experienced in what I would call ‘irrational manner’ toward people in my world.

Because of reading these blogs, all of the self-destructive patterns and behaviors we have lived out somehow make sense now. This is not within the context of it being something beneficial for all, no. It is about being able to understand A LOT more about ourselves as mind consciousness systems and why even after these 4 years of walking/reading the Desteni material, I only thought that such constant experience of negativity toward myself/ the world in general was merely ‘preprogrammed’ which is not, it is really the experience of separation as the cross we bear in fact.

 

Now, why this is such an important point to walk from what I have realized/ understood through my own experience, is because each one of us is essentially walking their own points of separation to reintegrate/ get ourselves back to the point that we have only separated ourselves from as relationships/ experiences, in a very absurd manner  -and by absurd I mean that we missed Ourselves as Life all the time, as simple as that. I also realize there are no If’s and that I could write a Looong blog about the reactions of ‘what ifs’ -however, what’s relevant here is walking my own mind of self-separation as I see and realize that it is the only way that I can really live that which is required for us to be/ do when realizing to what extent we had become these absolutely lost drones with no ability to remember that we once were all.

 

Why is this a very cool point? Because now I see how there is an actual ‘reason’ for such existential experience within each one of us, and now we can see that we missed the very obvious: Together we thrive and separated we fear and destroy each other.

One example is no matter how many millions you have, as long as we are still existing in separation. Makes sense why even during the first years throughout childhood there is conflict between children, conflict between children and parents, conflict from the very process of gestation within the womb. And yes, somehow it also makes sense why it was so difficult for me to see anything ‘holy’ and ‘graceful’ about childbirth.

 

I breathe and let go of this as I see that sometimes it is easy to reinforce the points of separation, instead of actually walking it through a writing of Self-Support wherein I make sure I honor myself as words, as the creation of the word as who I am. What does that mean? That all words that reinforce separation, must be walked through a process of self-correction and in that, I see that the usual ‘fear’ that exists is having to let go of our specialness within the use of words, the ‘who we are as words’ that encapsulate the entirety of ‘who we are’ in these great bubbles of ego that eventually only work as hard and soft veneers to keep ourselves ‘stable’ in this self-created world of Machiavellis  wherein we are all constantly existing in fear and experiencing this irrational hatred toward one another. I had a hard time playing nice in my life – yet I knew the system-value such attitudes had in terms of being able to use it to manipulate for my own benefit. And I would usually experience discomfort and judgment toward having to cheat or be corrupt, never realizing that we were the very instigators of such inner conflict that has become our reality till this day.

 

There is certainly a lot more to understand  – however I can see for now that I can make more sense of myself now, which I am grateful for, because even after having had extensive information, there was always this ‘point’ wherein I could not really understand Why we hated each other, because that’s the truth and there will be specific interviews to come that will explain why no two beings could stand in actual equality and oneness, which doesn’t surprise me. Sometimes I just have to take a deep breath to realize that I am here, I am the result of all of ‘that’ and I have the tools and essentially it’s up to me now to turn off the lights.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever seek a life-experience meaning to my ‘existential woe’ which now makes sense as the actual process of separation from who I am wherein the ‘who I am‘ emerged from that primordial separation from the whole wherein we lost all sense of recognition of who I am as one and equal and in that, accepted my self-definition as a negative-experience within this individualization as a process of ‘losing my religion,’ as in losing that unification wherein everything was just here, as self, stable as self, constant and consistent, which is what my physical body is actually the living-existence of that, I can trust my physical body and everything that I cause as a disruption exists as energy, as thoughts, as emotions, feelings, perceptions, ideas, that emerge from my participation and continuation in that initial negative experience from the moment of first-separation.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience this seemingly unexplainable hatred toward everything and everyone as an experience wherein I thought that there was something ‘wrong’ with me, going into judgment and trying to tamper it with playing the nice well-behaved little girl, even if it was obvious that from that very first ‘system’ day as the first day of school, I created this profiling of my classmates as people that I could either like or dislike, without having an particular reason that I could explain at the moment, as to ‘why I could dislike someone,’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with laughter, woe and general ‘powerlessness’ when realizing to what extent I have been unaware of myself, not only about the ‘who I am’ as one and equal, but within the realization of how separate we are from our very own physical body,because we cannot even know exactly how our body functions until now that we are having these great explanations of who we really are. I can certainly say that to me being able to hear this now is like ‘manna from heaven’ because I am sure that I’ve spent endless lifetimes longing to hear form it. Sometimes it became such a ‘normal’ thing to be living with a portal and talking to various beings that it really became a ‘normal thing’ – however this is an existential process and we’re at ‘the point’ wherein we are ‘on the spot’ so to speak to be able to get it, and the fact that it depends entirely on us reminds me the type of responsibility that this process implies within each one of us, human beings.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in such an initial fear of fucking it up again and having to simply end it all even after realizing that this world is already quite stable, that this Earth could require some changes and it could be heaven on Earth – yet because of perceiving it to be an insurmountable task I have believed that it will be ‘very difficult’ for us to do this, yet this is only a the very back of my head/ back chat because in a conscious manner as a ‘positive thinker’ that I tend to be is: ‘oh yeah we’ll do it’ – but ultimately it’s not about thinking it, but living it. Therefore

 

When and as I see myself believing ‘oh yeah, we’ll make it, we can’t go wrong this time/ there’s no way we won’t make it now’ and having a positive thinking while listening to the potential outcomes explained in the interviews while and during the moments when worst case scenarios are being explained – I stop and I breathe – I realize that I have become this ‘fighter’ that feels like part of a military that must keep a certain ‘hold’ all the time wherein the image of someone with a shield in a battlefield becomes a recurrent image within me, and I see that I created this ‘warrior’ experiences when delving into ideas of being some kind of life-defender according to some of the multiple and varied material I read about spirituality/ new age movements that I researched for a while.

 

Therefore, I realize that the decision to walk this process is a self-willed decision that I in fact took on for myself, for the very first time in my life or even existence wherein I realize that there is nothing to ‘defend’ or ‘battle against,’/ overcome, but instead is simply a process of reintegrating myself back to who I am wherein I walk my own mind to get out of such ever-lasting character and start actually living as the physical, as the reality of who I am.

 

I realize that any usual though in the back of my head of this all being ‘impossible’ as a result of having cultivated a constant view upon humanity as being ‘royally fucked’ and in that, validating my thoughts as ‘real’ without ever knowing that it was this very experience that I had that I become so used to exist-as ‘me’ as such constant judgment toward everything and everyone – which is only self-created wherein I helped co-create this world in the image and likeness of separation.

 

I was walking and it is fascinating how much we can make our home gates seem perfectly ‘normal’ and even beautify them with all of this useless ornaments, without realizing that the very existence of such gates like family-cells in each and every single house, indicates the fortresses that we have built out of realizing the potential ‘danger’ that we represent to each other. This is absolutely ludicrous, however it’s our reality, it’s what we have become: warded beings in our little fortresses fearing each other, entertaining ourselves to not realize the extent of separation that we’re living in, consuming our physical bodies while constantly thinking and thinking and thinking and going into endless self-talks that never lead anywhere else, but into further confusion – con. fusion= perfect soup for the mind to generate extra energy to keep the god system alive.

 

It also became very obvious for me today how I was definitely in a state of physical woe while listening the latest Atlantean interview, which is curiously called now that I see ‘Caged in Powerlessness’  because the entire point of obvious acceptance of separation is explained and in that, there is no space left to deny that we weren’t ‘aware’ of it. When hearing the result of how a single belief within the Atlanteans or what a single surge of excitement caused in Anu to ‘overlook’ within his creative processes wherein such fuck-ups manifested the consequences that we are living now: a single belief, a single surge of excitement – one single point missed  and the entirety of existence went along with it, and the fact is that I can see myself in both patterns, specially with the excitement one, wherein I could have definitely pictured myself becoming greatly excited about anything such as a great discovery in existence and disregard any point of practicality in the moment, just because of how nice it sounded/ was

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience regret, woe and a general sense of powerlessness while listening to the explanations of how we got ourselves in the state that we are living in as existence. I realize that this experience is coming from me thinking about what I have accepted and allowed within myself to be and become in absolute disregard of myself, my own creation, my physical body that I’ve applied some points of self forgiveness for, but I had not gone into the topic of the absolute acceptance that we went into within becoming just individuals defined by energetic experiences. Energy is a diminished and controllable form of substance in existence – and the fact that we’re not even aware of our own mind as energy, places us really at the ‘scum level’ figuratively speaking, because the scum of the Earth is definitely fully aware of itself, while us humans aren’t –

 

So, really – the only way that I can accept myself to continue living in this world after all the damage we’ve done is to stop all victimization –first place at an individual level – and secondly, realize that we were never here to become ‘masters’ in reality – we are here to restore the order and become the real guardians of the Earth along with all the Earthlings – no more power games or desires to ‘attain’ the non existent heavens or gods – we are here, we walk the consequences, we take Self Responsibility until it is done. And as we’ve said many times, the only way I can see myself walking this is obviously within being part of a group of people, that I see are walking the exact same process as I am, along with the entirety of existence that is equally here. That means that I walk this once in a lifetime opportunity – or once in an existential lifetime – to finally stop all cycles of abuse as the actual infinity loop that I describe when I write ‘cycles’ as it goes from pole to pole, just like cathode and anode to create energy.

 

I commit myself to stop any and all forms of energetic surges through writing, applying self forgiveness and structuring a practical point of support for me to be able to realize my creation as my point of separation and being able to reintegrate it as myself once that I’ve walked through the process of identifying, correcting, living self forgiveness to stop participating actively in recreating these same primordial separation from the whole every time that I go into any form of positive, negative or neutral experience as ‘who I am’ – I instead becomes the point that walks the necessary process to stop.

” I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand how my development/growth/manifestation of/as my physical-body within and as the womb of/as the female’s physical-body – is the manifested-representation, equal-to and one-with what I have become/done since the beginning in my relationship as manifested-singularity to/towards the whole/existence as me. Where: the female’s physical-body womb = is equal-to and one-with the womb of/as existence/the whole. Where: my physical-body development/growth/manifestation is dependent on a constant/continuous process of/as friction/conflict to/towards the very womb of/as the physical-body of the female = equal-to and one-with my manifested-singularity development/growth/manifestation that was/always has been dependent on the constant/continuous process of/as friction/conflict to/towards the whole/existence.” Sunette Destonian Spies

 

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Allegory of the Cave: our excuse to remain as slaves

 

The fact is that we come into this world without having any idea of ‘Why on Earth are we here’ becomes our drive in this reality. We then equate living to achieving goals, having a family, becoming successful (rich) – becoming a ‘winner’ in everything we do, following a single ‘dream’ without really questioning if such ‘missions’ or goals in life are actually what we are here for.

 

The accepted idea of us coming from a state of ‘forgetfulness’ and coming here to get back to ‘remembering’ something is already placing a massive condition to ‘who’ and ‘what we are’ from the get-go. This ‘forgetfulness’ must not be understood as ‘getting to complete ourselves’ here on Earth, but getting to realize how it was a deliberate plan to enslave man to always want to KNOW and Never Live.

That’s the key point of this here and I had to drive around in circles to get to the following: Life is Not Knowledge

 

Man Know Thyself

 

Getting to know yourself implies getting to see how we function within ourselves – the relationship toward our own mind – as well as the relationships we have formed that we have called ‘Life.’ If we have a look at it, the law of our being is currently compromised by money and the delusion of ‘power’ – we have then created our own cave wherein we have delegated our power to play only with shadows, believing that those that cast them are ‘more than ourselves’ and even separate from who we really are.

The fact is that we have forgotten to ‘know ourselves’ as the understanding that: we have set the rules of the game, we have cheated ourselves into believing it was never our ‘creation’ and that we could blame some ‘God’ for it.  It is now our turn to establish some basic living-conditions that will enable Life to flourish where there has been none, previously.

 

“God is really all people know and then this is called Man know thyself –that should be Man know thyself as Life” – Bernard Poolman

 

What Plato described as ‘Real Knowledge’ within this context would be knowledge that can be lived as living-words that stand within a practical realization of what Life is and can be lived-as in this world. This is now re-defining the usual philosophical rhetoric that never lead to a tangible and useful ‘use of words.’

We have lived ‘knowledge’ in a separate realm within our reality.

Equating enlightenment to the ability that some ‘privileged ones’ have, as passing on knowledge to the ‘ignorant ones’ already places an unequal starting point within the game. The Lie that is accepted and allowed is that the world of ‘ideas’ is what is real, when in fact we words not lived have been a primordial separation from what is here as the physical reality.

 

If we take the Allegory of the Cave as an example to illustrate this, the Prisoners of are set ‘by default’ as the natural-condition we are born into – yet we invariably created at some point that is ‘not remembered.’ We get to this reality wherein we are placed to race within this ‘game of life’ to attain nothing else but Knowledge that will apparently ‘set us free’ and give us an actual realization of what ‘Reality’ is.

 

Who are then those that solace themselves casting the shadows of a make-believe reality for the prisoners? We all are.  Even before that! Why on Earth did we allow ourselves to place us in such a position as  ‘prisoners’ wherein some others would be casting the theatre of shadows ?

We did – in our attempt to be ‘more’ than the rest – self interest which later on was capitalized as seeing everything with eyes of ‘personal power’ and a strong desire to obtain anything and all that could fulfill a sense of ‘freedom.’

Once we start asking the pertinent questions to everything we’ve bought as our ‘reality,’ we’ll start really taking the illusion of the shadows and the light of knowledge for what it is: our own knowledge trap that would perpetuate ourselves as prisoners wanting to ‘get out of the cave’ through attaining this ‘ultimate knowledge’ which leads to a perpetual state of ‘happiness’ and ‘everlasting grace.’

Nowadays we call this process the pursuit of happiness.

 

The fire is specific – light as enlightenment that only a few can achieve if having enough money for it.

 

Anything that could have bound us to keep facing the wall of shadows as some invisible force as the White Light as God, as Consciousness, has been debunked. 

 

What is left then? The ingrained idea that what we are doing here as humanity is seeking ‘God,’ seeking Knowledge, seeking ‘The Truth’ that will ‘Set us Free.’

 

So, we direct such myths to explain our current reality to a point of support.

 

 

We Cast the Shadows

“So what we see and experience is not necessarily real, yet we give existence to anything from actual structures to thoughts, concepts, ideas anything possible by our human mind. Existence is that which we give existence to and as – becoming that which we experience ourselves within and as..”[6]

 

The reality of the prisoners was depending on the shadows casted by those set as the shadow-creators behind the prisoners. In our reality that role is performed by those with enough money in the world to dictate the rules and the reality: politicians, corporations, bankers, elites as families and sects that were deliberately placed in this reality in order to maintain ‘God’s order.’ The fact is that till this day, they are seen as the ones to blame for our current status of the world – we never realized that they are also part of the game and that in fact, we have all accepted and allowed it in an equal manner.

 

This makes us all responsible because, what is money but knowledge imposed onto this reality as an ‘unchangeable’ and ‘unchallengeable truth’ – it is our own deliberate system of separation to make some remain facing a wall with shadows while others had the light to cast the show. This is allowing some to remain as the directors of the game – apparently – as ‘more’ than those who remained ‘tied and bound’ to facing a wall as prisoners – they never could realize each other as equals. We have accepted the shadows to be as real the same way that those that were deliberately and placed in the position of ‘casting the shadows’ believed themselves to be in control of this existence. The fact is that not even the creators were actually ‘in control’ of what is here – Life is directing now.

 

 

At an individual level we create this ‘wall’ in front of us as well, whenever we keep believing that the shadow we see in front of us is ‘everything we are,’ we see ourselves trapped and enslaved by this self-image/ self-idea, without ever questioning why on Earth are we even bound to this cave-reality with shackles that can definitely be taken off if we all agree it IS what’s best for all to Live.

 

See, this premise of the ‘prisoners’ in reality is that “original sin” that we have believed we must ‘pay for’ and this is something that could not have been understood until now that we get to hear from our Real ‘forefathers’ where and how and why we are here on Earth. [2]

 

 

Within identifying the shadows as knowledge, as all the ideas and systems imposed onto this reality, we get to see how we are directly responsible for perpetuating and accepting this reality ‘as is,’ because it was all we had ever known.

 

We just ‘can’t’ remember that we created such forgetfulness in the first place, and this is where the importance of studying the Desteni material exists. We would not be able to tell the ‘truth’ of reality as is without having the ability to ‘know’ beyond our own mind as that only instrument of cognition within this reality. That is through the Interdimensional Portal which should already be regarded as a once in a lifetime opportunity for humanity to see and understand what we have become, why are we here on Earth, how is it that we have created this world in separation and from there, while being able to understand and educate ourselves about the actual process of Creation. We have been the Gods we have blamed for our current situation in the world: we have set the rules all along.

 

 

Out of the Cave into Reality

because we created it in the first place

We are all responsible because we all accepted and allowed even the creation of allegories and mythologies as plausible and ‘credible’  explanations to our own deliberate separation, to justify our beliefs, our spitefulness toward each other in disregard of the whole. We created our own demise through accepted and allowed separation from each other as words– we tried to make sense of this world through knowledge and information and forgetting about the reality that has and always remained here.  [2]

 

Without understanding HOW we created ourselves as the reality that each one of us is constantly living and playing-out within the context of replaying the past, present and future, we will remain holding on to this shadow-like reality wherein we can only complain, feel miserable about the idea that we accepted and allowed ourselves to actually become.  It is through our very own participation in the constant and continuous thinking and communication based on this idea of being ‘separated from source/ left by God,’ that we began creating these words as ‘who we are,’ as prisoners that have been forever cast out from the realization and living experience of being one and equal.[3]

 

What are beliefs but words that are taken as ‘truths’ that eventually become part of our self-definition, it becomes ‘who we are’ without questioning it further.

 

“We are as real as what we have allowed ourselves to become as this world– the world being a system expression equal to our minds –we use our minds to create all the machines and technology–our minds interdimensionally actual looks exactly like the systems and machines and TV’s and computers we have in this world–that is our apparent evolution — the externalization of the mind into form — the next stage is the mind becoming actual physical form — this will be really tough to live through — prepare yourself effectively as all sentient life will face this in all ways” – Bernard Poolman

 

 

This is how we are walking a process of placing out the ‘truth’ of ourselves as thoughts, ideas, beliefs and perceptions of who we are, what we have become through our own accepted and allowed thoughts as patterns that we have continued playing out as ‘who we are.’ This goes from the micro to the macro – each self-belief as the self-religion that we have bound ourselves-to has become our own self-created cage that we feel we are betraying every time that we dare to equalize ourselves as God, as everything that is Here. How ludicrous! And some of us have gone to the extent of blaming a ‘god’ or some other beings in apparent  ‘higher positions’ for this separation, without ever actually realizing that: we did this to ourselves, I did this to myself, by a single belief in Separation.

 

 

Knowledge is ‘God’ and ‘God’ became an excuse

The words that created such separation as a belief became ‘our law,’ it became almost like ‘the word of God’ that no one ever dared to question again.

Knowledge is separation, words not lived are all lies told to justify our irresponsibility – we’ve knitted our own blindfold to remain in a victimized state within this world, feeling like the prisoners seeking to get out of the cave at any cost – even if that means enslaving our lives to menial jobs that could at least ‘shed some light’ to our day to day experience as temporary energetic fixes like fixating on love, happiness, bliss, light, money… Is this Living? No! Absolutely not – can we stop and change the current accepted reality? Of course we can.

Knowledge has  become our very own trap as the elaboration of words that could justify our deliberate belief on separation from what is Here. Knowledge became the words that we speak, the words that we have perpetuated as ‘who we are’ which is what is currently being taught as our philosophy, religion, morals, cultural values and mythologies wherein the role of ‘God’ is the utmost separation toward all humans[4].

 

‎”Spreading the word of God is equivalent to spreading a message of terror – the fear it creates makes humans blind to reality.” 
– Bernard Poolman

 

It is madness to see how a single be-LIE-f has separated ourselves from Li(E)Fe through believing that only through a process of enLIEtenment we could ‘attain’ the truth of ourselves once again. Knowledge and information as God, as the ‘law of our being’ in absolute discordance to the reality that is HERE and has always been here.

In essence this is us showing/ revealing to ourselves how it is that blaming and projecting our own misery, feeling ‘enslaved’ to this world is a self-created belief that we then formed as ourselves as the physical reality we live in now, creating the idea of the ‘original sin’ that we then would have to redeem ourselves from.

 

“We are the Living-Words that has become Contaminated by the Knowledge we have Accepted.” Bernard Poolman [5]

 

We are here to establish the living principle we have neglected while following knowledge. We have been ‘separated’ from reality, never realizing that such separation has been self-created and never inflicted by a higher-being. We must now as a matter of self-responsibility make sure we dissect all possible separation that is now ingrained at the systematic level of our reality – as our laws, policies and values that are embedded on to anything as a price tag.

We have justified suffering and abuse through our own elaborate words as knowledge. Who is the real ‘evil’ in this word then?

It’s time to take Self Responsibility for our creation, it cannot be ‘clearer’ than this that it is us the ones that have played the joke on this existence.

 

Seek life–dump knowledge–who you really are created knowledge–let your creation not be the controller of you as creator”   Bernard Poolman

 

 

Sources:

[2] The Cross’ – Atlantean Interviews through the Interdimensional Portal. Desteni,  2012

[3] The Decision’ – Atlantean Interviews through the Interdimensional Portal. Desteni, 2012

[4] ‘The Friction’ – Atlantean Interviews through the Interdimensional Portal. Desteni, 2012

[5] Poolman, Bernard. “Knowledge.” Bernard Poolman Quotes. Desteni, 01 Mar 2012. Web. 1 Mar 2012. <http://bernardpoolmanquotes.wordpress.com/2012/03/01/knowledge/>.

[6]  “What is existence?.” Desteni. Desteni, n.d. Web. 1 Mar 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/questions-and-perspectives-what-is-existence>.

 

Suggested Read:

Poolman, Bernard. ” The Age of Knowledge – The Point of Consciousness and The Power of Now.” Desteni. Desteni, 21 Aug 09. Web. 1 Mar 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/interviews-from-the-farm-23-the-age-of-knowledge-the-point-of-consciousness-and-the-power-of-now>.

Poolman, Bernard. “’The Secret Knowledge of God’.” Desteni. Desteni, 18 Dec 09. Web. 1 Mar 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/interviews-from-the-farm-42-the-secret-knowledge-of-god>.

“What was the White Light and why did it exist?.” Desteni. Desteni, 2007. Web. 1 Mar 2012. http://desteni.org/a/questions-and-perspectives-what-was-the-white-light-and-why-did-it-exist.


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