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507. From V-Day to U-Day

 

I read the following quote by Sunette Spies today and I see it as a very important message for all of us to consider in days like today where Valentine’s day has been for many – including myself in the past – a cause of anger, sadness or despair for not being in a relationship, which is definitely not necessary since we all have the ability to redefine how these global-celebrations are lived by each one of us so, here’s her quote:

Yes, today is Valentine’s Day – the 14th of February – globally. I reflected on this day, even with being in a relationship. Looking at the symbolism of the letter V, inspiring me to do this post and also a video soon to come!!! The following opened up for me:

Transforming V to U – V-Day to U-Day. What does this mean?
Even if you are in a relationship – you are still an individual….This is something many forget, neglect, don’t consider or simply haven’t looked at. Being an individual means YOU as who you are as an individual person choose, and every day essentially chooses to share yourself, grow, commit, learn, enjoy, built, create etc. a relationship and / or life with another. In this process, it becomes 1 + 1 = 2: one individual + one individual = a relationship. A trinity is formed. Two INDIVIDUALS creating a relationship.

eVery day should be V-Day and / or U-Day!!! We redefine then the ONE Valentine’s Day we GLOBALLY SHARE as a GLOBAL CELEBRATION of oneself as individual and / or one’s relationship with one’s partner as I do know there is also family days, friends days etc. that are globally celebrated.
YOU CAN OWN VALENTINES DAY!!! In a way of defining and celebrating it for yourself as you see fit – rather than in any way being emotional, judgmental, allowing yourself to go into comparison of others etc.

My message to all this day is: OWN THIS DAY!!! Define and celebrate it in a way that SUPPORTS and EMPOWERS you as a person and how you live. In the end, what will matter the most is your integrity, love, care, consideration and regard as a person towards yourself and others…

MUCH more to come in videos soon to be posted! Enjoy yourself this day as much as any other day…you are ALWAYS WITH YOU!!!” – Sunette Spies

 

Based on this, I’d like to share on the importance of this self-relationship because many times we come to accept and allow the belief that our happiness depends on being with another in a relationship, and sometimes we might even get to live out that type of experiences only to in the end see that without the person, we are still with ourselves and no matter if we are in a relationship or not, what remains is self, here, that we continue to live as and with.

I know, it sounds almost ‘weird’ to say that the first relationship we should establish in self-agreement is with ourselves and that means precisely walking this process from consciousness to self-awareness, self honesty and self-support, having ourselves as our starting point, reason or motivation for it.

Through walking this process for myself, and over time and through the various relationships I’ve had with partners, friends, colleagues, one thing is certain: change and I have been there before in my life where ‘the end of a relationship’ would mean ‘the end of my world’ for some time and it was usually very hard to step back on my own two feet, precisely because I was not focusing on first creating a relationship with myself, in essence living for myself, appreciating me, enjoying me, supporting me first and foremost.

I had mostly lived out a pattern of ‘being there for another’ and through that ‘completing myself’ which is definitely not sustainable, it was not healthy for myself or for another because that’s how dependency is created in relationships. I learned this the hard way, but through walking the Agreements: Redefining Relationships Course while I was alone or without a partner in my life, it assisted me to ground myself in understanding how no matter if I was alone or in a relationship, the focus of support was still on myself. It assisted me to precisely understand what this Self-Relationship is and throughout the whole course I got to see how a relationship is in fact a sum of 2 people, not ‘me completing another’ or me being ‘fulfilled’ by another, I got to see how no relationship that is supportive can last when one is not existing in that self-agreement to support ourselves first.

And this is how the word agreement is used as a way to define relationships where one person in self-agreement, in their own self-relationship can walk with another in the same self-agreement and self-relationship to then stand together and create this agreement of two individuals, a redefined-relationship in fact.

In doing this, one is also better equipped for whichever outcome is in a relationship, no matter the hardships, obstacles, starting overs or break ups. For example, if the relationship ends, sure there is the whole process of having to part ways and get used to being alone again – however this is a much ‘smoother’ process as well when one has a cemented relationship with oneself in self-support and self-honesty, wherein in that self-support and self-agreement one has lived within a relationship, no matter if the other person is no longer there, what one does for oneself as self-support doesn’t change, what one has grown and learned from the relationship remains there as oneself, how one has assisted and supported oneself in practical terms in one’s life and at an emotional level doesn’t change if the other person is no longer there.

Of course there are changes in terms of activities done by both in a relationship and any other practical arrangements in day to day living, but those changes are also able to be faced with more stability, strength and determination when one has already realized that, as Sunette explains, no matter if one is in a relationship or not, we are always with ourselves and that is something that is very cool to understand in the depth that it implies, because then we don’t depend on something or someone else for us to develop ourselves, to grow as people, to change the ways that we know we have to adjust in ourselves, to develop a genuine care for our bodies, our mind and so our lives and plans in it. It is always up to us, regardless of being in a relationship or not.

It’s interesting how we’ve come to accept a notion of ‘void’ or ‘lack’ if one is not in a relationship and allowing it to be a part of self-definition that is usually seen as a ‘lesser value’ or ‘in the waiting for it’ – when the fact is that in doing so, we are suppressing or not looking at the relationship that is by far the most important one in our lives: with ourselves, because no matter ‘where’ we are or with ‘who’ we are, we are always with ourselves and it is ourselves that we will genuinely ‘be with’ for the rest of our lives, which is great as well to realize ‘no matter what’ I always got me, my support, my words to live and my life to continue expanding on.

So, I can wholeheartedly recommend assisting oneself through the Agreements Course, specially if you can identify with what I mentioned earlier as the ‘who I was’ previously in relationships where I would literally lose my ground whenever I had to end a relationship and I’ve found out that this doesn’t have to be that way, one can decide to not give into those patterns and instead strengthen and rekindle – if you will – the relationship to oneself, because it is quite liberating at the same time for oneself and for others to not make ourselves dependent on others to live in self-fulfillment, in self-enjoyment and self-support, wherein we can decide to look at life through the eyes of owning our creation, owning our time of the day every day.

Therefore it is up to us then to instead of going into reactions like sadness or fatalism for being or not being in a relationship ‘with another’, I’d rather say: focus on the relationship with yourself because it’s with you that You’ll live with for the rest of your life, it’s your body, your mind the one that you’ll have to ‘stand through’ and with until your last breath and if we haven’t given to ourselves that actual love, care, consideration, support and enjoyment of who we are as a person, as an individual, alone,  then how can we expect any other person to ‘give it to us’? That’s how love turns to hate which Is what I have explained in a previous blog if you want to check it out.

I suggest embracing yourself and realizing how we are not really ‘alone’ as we are always with ourselves – and at the same time it is also up to us to expand our definition of relationships to others in a supportive manner, expanding this self-agreement in our relationship with any other person is certainly a suggestion here as well, so that no matter ‘what’ goes on in our lives and paths, we always have our ourselves as our own ground, our starting point of self-support, our own self-care and self-love, and in turn be able to give it to others as a genuine expression of ourselves, not as a ‘need’ or ‘lack’ or ‘convenience’ of sorts.

That’s definitely the kind of human beings I’d like us all to be, to be able to stand alone and be self-caring, self-fulfilled individuals that can join paths to create something of support together for ourselves and for others  – yet can function as units or ‘stand alones’ in an equally supportive manner. That’s the real equality equation of 1+1=2 and that’s what I want to continue practicing being and standing as in my life and with others in my life.

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495. Debunking Worry as Care

Or how to stop being a worrywart: a person who worries too much or who worries about things that are not important 

I described myself today as this because I’ve noticed how I’ve connected a sense of ‘worry’ to the word ‘care’ wherein I’ve learned to believe that the way to care about others is through worrying about them or if I ‘care about the world’ then I should worry about it all the time. Well, that’s one of the reasons why I ended up in continuous experiences of ‘feeling down’ because I have made it an automated mode in myself to over-think, over-analyze things too much wherein ultimately in an attempt to care and consider for others, for things happening in reality, for consequences that we can touch, breathe, eat every single day I attach too many thoughts around it all, which lead me to a situation of worrying about everything.

And the interesting thing is that I had not identified it as ‘worry’ per se, but today I was simply walking on my way back home and I saw a mother with a kid coming out of the pre-school and started walking in front of me. So this is more or less how thoughts went in my head: the kid was drinking something that I immediately judged as ‘unhealthy’ due to all the colors and tetra-pack it came in – and the kid was wearing a sweater in what I perceived as scorching hot sun, which I considered as a ‘neglectful thing to do’ from the mother towards the kid’.  I interpreted that the mother probably didn’t have money to buy him something healthier to drink, I assumed that the kid had no voice of his own to just take it off by himself; I interpreted that his pants were too long so that they can ‘last longer’ and so mother doesn’t have to go spending more on him every time the child grows, I assumed that they are having money-worries.  I interpreted that she is probably holding him that forcefully because she is pressured by lack of money, by her work, having to rush in some kind of ‘special permit’ at work to pick up her son, not being able to be a stay at home mother probably, yet talking to him that way, I interpreted that she probably didn’t even want to have the child in the first place = I worry about the kid, I worry about the future he will become as part of our society, what kind of ‘citizen’ he’ll grow to be and worry that this is the same story repeating a million times in this country and world and so multiply ‘his experience’ into that of millions worldwide.

Yeah, no kidding, hello! Welcome to Marlen’s thoughts throughout a couple of minutes of walking behind a woman and her son. Now, in my mind this is like ‘a usual thing’ where I observe and ‘compose’ an entire series of assumptions and stories wherein I try to make sense of what I may perceive as ‘forceful movements’ or ‘the kind of clothes they wear’ or the way they are speaking to each other and in essence, all these stories usually end up in tragedy in my head, I worry for that moment upon seeing them that the child will end up lost in drugs and doing something he never wanted to do in his life… and if I look at ‘who I am’ in this moment is essentially worrying, worrying, worrying and believing that ‘I care’ for others when I do all of these interpretations.

And this is something I’ve been more directly observing as of late because I haven’t really made it a point to consider how Exhausting it is to go seeing everything and everyone through the eyes of ‘it’s all a consequence, it’s fucked because it’s our creation and we’ve fucked up within ourselves, therefore what we see and every single thing that happens here is just ‘wrong’ because of that’  And in a way sure it has allowed me to no longer see the lives of everyone and the reality we live in as something that was ‘done onto ourselves’ but I push to see it as our collective creation. However, this still doesn’t have to come with a pinch of worry and sadness or temporary ‘low’ upon seeing reality, because I can ultimately choose and decide Who I Am in the face of it all, and worry is certainly not something that will change anything, it doesn’t make me care more because ‘caring’ cannot be something I give to every single person and bit of reality I encounter in front of my eyes, it’s not practical, it’s not common sensical or possible to do.

This is also one of the reasons why I became a bit too emotionally involved in seeing certain disruptions in my reality at the beginning of last month as well, where a part of me wants to ‘feel’ the worry and concern because of associating this with care.

When I see the words worry and worrywart, I can associate it with both sides of my family, my aunts on both sides especially and my grandmother and my own mother and my own sisters… lol like a female design of worry, worry, worry as a sign of care and it’s not needed, it only truly deviates myself from the potential that exists in everything and everyone and instead I keep focusing only at the level of ‘seeing the problem’ and participating in the problem through me spending those breaths of life Worrying about it all, so:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to equate the action of worrying with that of care towards others, making it a sign of understanding or solidarity, when in fact worry does nothing to actually assist me in sorting something out in reality nor does it assist me in actually changing my emotional experience, therefore I commit myself to stop, breathe and ‘swipe’ the thought and experience of worry about everything and everyone that I see, which means stopping seeing through the eyes of despair or problems everywhere and instead decide to first stop the judgments I tend to add towards the reality that I see and instead, assist myself to focus on the potential, how the consequences could be prevented, how outcomes can be supported or ameliorated, yet beginning with myself by ensuring I do this without becoming emotional about it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the experience of worry as a ‘natural way of looking at people and this world as a whole’ wherein I have made myself believe that there is no other way to look at this world, people and reality but through the eyes of worry, despair, pointlessness as momentary flicks of attention given to ‘the problem’ instead of me focusing on the solution as myself by stopping worrying.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my nature is that of ‘being too caring’ towards others wherein in my mental equation of ‘caring’ = worrying, I’ve become the embodiment of ‘constant worry’ which is also what I got to see in my facial expression in many videos in the past that I recorded where my face denotes worry, fear, sadness and it is nothing else but the condensation of this ‘auto-mode’ that I’ve fueled and created as ‘who I am’ in those seemingly fleeting moments where ‘nothing’ seems to happen yet I am seeing/observing people, reality around me and reading a bit too much into everything, taking myself to a level of worry and concern based on my own interpretations, my own assumptions that I project onto people and everything around me, which serves nothing and no one really. I am not practically making the world or others’ lives better by me making stories of suffering and despair around them as the reason ‘why’ I see them in this or that way.

I realize that I have tended to wear the worrywart filters on my eyes for far too long and that means I have made it almost a ‘natural state’ and condition in me, to assess everything through the eyes of worry, suffering, despair, sadness, enslavement… but reality just is, people just are what they are and I have to practically stop reading ‘into’ others for the sake of feeding this worrywart view of mine about virtually everything and anything in my reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to learn from the females in my family and extended family that worrying is a natural thing to do when caring about someone which is how I’ve developed this worry-care in my head in an attempt to make myself aware of others’ problems and hardship, but even in doing this, it can be done and looked at in a sober manner where I don’t have to emotionally invest myself in worrying about it as in being emotionally affected by it, but learning to see things objectively, for what they are, because I now realize that worrying is not the same as care and real care would be to actually practically assist the people or that situation to a better outcome – if it is in my capacity and ability to do so, because I cannot go practically changing ‘the world’ based on what I may see or assess about other people’s situation or the condition of a particular environment and pretend I can do things alone to change it. I have to be common sensical in this and be able to let go of my thoughts of worry about something, and rather apply care first toward myself by caring for myself, my body and not generating emotional and mental burdens at any given moment.

I saw this today as well where first I saw one pigeon walking next to us when entering one place and the next moment when we’re out, bam, there’s a pigeon squished on the pavement. I got worried about it instantly, as a form of ‘care’ but seriously, there was nothing I could do to prevent it, and so my worry and care are useless once that the consequence is there.

So I commit myself to look at reality with a different pair of eyes, wherein I first focus on me stopping my worrywartness experience and instead learn to see objectively how there’s a plethora of things that are out of my hands to prevent or directly change in their nature or outcomes, but I can focus entirely on myself, stopping existing in worry as fears or imagining ‘the worst’ in any moment and so stopping becoming that expression myself, because I realize it supports no one, it doesn’t assist me to grow or become a better person either, doesn’t make me more ‘considerate’ either, because worry is an emotional experience and consideration is a regard, a moment where I can acknowledge something without the added emotion into it. And that’s what I can focus on developing within myself: sticking to common sense and stopping seeing through the veil of worry as care.

So here looking at the word ‘preoccupy’ as a similar word to worry and also in Spanish ‘preocupar’ contains the words pre-occupy as ‘before or prior to occupying’ which is precisely indicating how futile it is to worry about something instead of directly occupying oneself in doing the things that we have to get to or do, and in this context my immediate self-responsibility is that of not participating or entertaining thoughts that usually lead to projecting, imagining and assuming a lot that goes on through the ‘worry’ experience, therefore I have to focus back on myself, precisely on not feeding this experience and instead seeing reality objectively, in stability, understanding the consequences, acknowledging the outcomes without emotional investment.

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482. Redefining Empathy

Or How to stop the experience of ‘misery loves company’ as system-empathy into a practical understanding directed to create solutions.

Dictionary definition:

empathy 

   noun the ability to understand and share the feelings of another.

 

ORIGIN

     early 20th cent.: from Greek empatheia (from em- ‘in’ + pathos ‘feeling’) translating German Einfühlung.

(pathos meaning suffering as well)

 

USAGE

            People often confuse the words empathy and sympathy. Empathy means ‘the ability to understand and share the feelings of another’ (as in both authors have the skill to make you feel empathy with their heroines), whereas sympathy means ‘feelings of pity and sorrow for someone else’s misfortune’ (as in they had great sympathy for the flood victims).

 

I had a ‘rough’ time that I was processing last week and trying to understand certain energetic experiences that I could not consciously ‘link to’ anything other than the situation that has emerged in my country from the beginning of this year. A lot of instability in relation to oil prices has led to inflation in prices, people protesting, people looting (or being paid to do so to destabilize the country) which has affected every single person that lives in this country in one way or another. So, even if I wrote about it here 471. Self-Forgiveness on Self-Limitation to make sense of the situation we are collectively creating and so facing, there was still an experience that would emerge in me, a form of restlessness, anxiety, fear, something genuinely not common in my day to day experience for a long time now.

So, upon sharing this with my buddy/support in walking this process from consciousness to awareness, we looked at how I may be at an unconscious level creating a form of empathy towards’ people’s mental states around here. People I’ve talked in my reality have also apparently identified the ‘tension’ in the air, as if we were just ‘picking it up’ but no, this doesn’t work that way, this requires one’s participation in our minds to be creating such despair, anxiety, confusion, fears and the rest of paranoia that comes when seeing our ‘usual stability’ suddenly be gone – as an initial ‘shock doctrine’ to be honest – and for the first time I saw myself being caught up in a form of mental anguish and collective paranoia that I wasn’t entertaining too much on a conscious level, but did become an experience within me without being able to ‘pin point’ exactly ‘why’ – until I tested this approach..

What we concluded is how I was creating a form of ‘empathy’ towards people living in this country as well, and at some level allowing myself thus to experience ‘the same as everyone else’: their worries, concerns, fears, I made them my own in a twisted manner of at a deep level thinking that ‘if they are going through this, I must do so as well’ see? Makes no sense, but that’s who we are in our minds: we make no sense at all! So, I called it also a form of ‘solidarity’, of course a Twisted form of solidarity where we tolerate/feed/consent each other’s experiences at a mind level that are of no support whatsoever, yet at some level we ‘believe’ that by us experiencing ‘what others do’ then it does some kind of ‘good’ or ‘sorts things out’ or any other delusion like that, because in reality, ‘feeling’ the same as other person won’t ever be a solution.

This comes out also as a realization of who we are as our emotions and feelings, as energetic experiences that only cause us to turn life into an energetic experience where we cannot see things straight because of being blinded by an emotion or a feeling (energetic experiences that are ‘negative’ and ‘positive’ respectively) in this case, believing that ‘everything is lost’ and ‘there’s no way around’ and falling into an experience of hopelessness which I’ve been writing about before. But the key point I had missed to look at is how I came to accept such experiences as ‘my own’ based on also seeing other people fall into the same collective paranoia. This made me the consider how often do we ‘become’ others’ experiences causing more problems than any form of solution.

Another example can be when upon seeing someone being super sad or depressed, I would also want to ‘express support and solidarity’ and in ‘empathizing’ with them and so become depressed and sad myself and agree to all of their reasons, excuses and beliefs of ‘how everything sucked in life’; then I would allow myself to ‘sink with them’ as a form of ‘being there for them’, eventually becoming my own problem caused by me accepting those experiences as ‘real’ as ‘who I really am’ – in essence, becoming my own mindfuck, really, sorry for the word but that’s what it is. We all know depression, anger, anguish, panic, hopelessness, euphoria, paranoia and the plethora of emotions or feelings I could name here won’t ever be a supportive experience for ourselves as human beings.

However, in our minds, we believe that ‘feeling what another is feeling’ is a way of supporting them, of assisting them – we believe that making their suffering our own is – in some twisted way – a form of care and support for them, when it is definitely not so. This I had to learn also through eventually seeing to what extent I indulged into very consequential experiences within myself in an attempt to empathize with friends, reinforcing personalities and patterns that already existed in me that were not supportive at all and caused myself to see ‘no way out’ at times either, because in any emotional experience, that’s usually the outcome: seeing no way out other than continuing feeling bad and suffering, which becomes a ‘normal state’ for many unfortunately, even a comfort zone as well to not push through the experience and change one’s life.

Here then my own practical self-support is to remind myself that ‘standing with others’ in difficult times does Not mean I have to go through and experience what they are going through as a form of ‘empathy’ or ‘solidarity’ – instead I have to redefine what Empathy can mean in a supportive manner, considering beforehand how imitating or experiencing a feeling in itself is a mind/mental experience that is not supportive at all, therefore, how to Live Empathy in a redefined manner?

Empathy – the ability to understand and share the feelings of another.

 

Here I’ve crossed out the part of the definition that I don’t need to live. No longer ‘sharing’ or ‘becoming’ the feelings myself, but understanding another is definitely something much more supportive which I in fact practice quite a bit when assisting others in facing their own minds as emotions, feelings, experiences where I have to immediately ‘look up them up’ in my own memories, to bring up similar experiences I faced and walked through in self-support, so that I can practically ‘place myself in their shoes’ to understand their experience – without me ‘becoming’ the experience itself any longer – but instead simply being able to see it, understand it as the pattern it is – whether it is an emotion, behavior, fear, habit, any type of experience really – that I can redirect towards focusing on how to best support oneself to transcend, walk-through, work on and correct/align that one experience and transform it into a supportive outcome, creating solutions and living them as a correction.

This leads me to add to that dictionary redefinition and make it something much more fulfilling and supportive. Because how I had seen it is that this dictionary-definition of empathy sounds to me like ‘misery loves company’ lol, which ultimately does nothing to sort out, solve or direct an experience into a solution. I’ve seen it myself maaany times before, not supportive at all.

This also means that in being able to hypothetically place ourselves in the shoes of another, it doesn’t mean we have to justify all the reasons why someone is experiencing something in a particular way, it is about understanding those reasons and justifications as further excuses, ideas, beliefs, opinions and validation of experiences that we create in our minds in order to not change, to be ‘stuck’ in an experience and not being able to ‘get out of it.’

So here our responsibility as a person that decides to live this redefinition of empathy ‘towards others’ is precisely placing self-responsibility as a primary point of awareness in this process of ‘empathizing’ with others, where we no longer accept and allow such experiences as an actual definition of ‘who we are’ or ‘who they really are’ and therefore we have to see beyond the experience into creating, developing and laying out solutions, practical solutions that can be suggested to the person that is ‘stuck in a moment’.

I also suggest to make sure at the same time that we are entirely clear when presenting these solutions, ensuring that we are no longer demonstrating a similar ‘feelings’ or ‘emotions’ because in doing so, we also accept and allow those feelings or emotions as real, as acceptable – but in reality if we look at what’s best for all, they are not. Suffering won’t ever bring out any form of ‘solution’ by itself, we have to create solutions, we have to sort ourselves out.

Therefore empathizing with another in this case is a temporary – and rather short – moment where we can understand what another is facing – because we have also faced similar points ourselves in our process – not engage as in not becoming the experience ourselves but be able to see it, understand it and investigate it as the pattern it is, as the experience in the mind it is – and so directly focus on looking at and discussing solutions to take responsibility for the experience, for the point in matter and so step out of the suffering/experience and start walking the stability of solutions, of changing that moment for ourselves.

This is also something that can be done with more ease once that we have done our own self-investigation, our own ‘getting to know ourselves’ process which is precisely what the Desteni I Process is all about, getting to know and understand ourselves as our mind in order to then create solutions that we can live and apply to develop a new version of ourselves, the one that can honor our lives and the lives of everyone else, where we can instead become living examples towards others that could also decide to stand with us to create a new way of living as human beings in this world. It is possible! And what’s required is then no longer tolerating, feeding, participating or validating another’s experience as ‘who they really are’ either.

In this process we understand that as much as the mind is ourselves, it is still a part of ourselves that represents ‘the worse’ of us in a way that we can change through directive means and principles: through writing, self forgiveness, developing an awareness of our self-responsibility and so actively changing.

Here it is also pertinent to debunk the idea that emotions and feelings are ‘humane’ or a ‘distinctive trait’ of humanity, because they are precisely ‘human’ in the sense that no other being in this reality has the same mind consciousness system that we have that had been preprogrammed precisely for us to constantly and continuously be experiencing the highs and lows of energetic experiences, the positive ones as ‘feelings’ and the negative ones as ‘emotions’ – here then also realizing that in stopping participation in these, it doesn’t meant that we will become ‘inert’ or ‘robotic’ or ‘lifeless’ – this is only so based on our equation of energetic experiences = life, but this is not so in reality.

A real expression of ourselves emerges after we first process our emotions and feelings and we go redefining our relationship to ourselves, our body, our mind. We go proving to ourselves and realizing that life is possible in actual stability and self-direction, without the emotional clutter and overwhelming experiences if we are disciplined enough to stop participating on the thoughts, ideas, beliefs, emotions or feelings that create these experiences, stop validating the reasons behind these experiences and decide to give one step beyond the ‘inner chaos’ that we have consented to as ‘who we are.’

This is then about living the word empathy, intending to remove the consent to the feelings and emotions per se, while understanding and acknowledging them as a part of ourselves, as our creation that is yet to be walked through/processed and redefined in order to embody and live words that are supportive, that are of living solutions.

I add then to the redefinition:

Empathy – the ability to understand the feelings and emotions of another as the mental experiences they are, so that through placing myself in their shoes I can instead immediately look at which words are supportive to live in that moment, what solutions I can share with them to assist them to see through the veil of the emotions and feelings and in doing so, anchoring ourselves back into reality, understanding our consequences and results of our participation in the mind while empowering ourselves to realize and lay out the ways to change these experiences within ourselves.

How I then in my case explained at the beginning have to live empathy is no longer accepting those experiences as something ‘I must live’ in a form of backwards solidarity with the people in this country. I have to precisely keep focusing on sharing the common sensical realizations about what we are facing as our reality, how we have all co-created these outcomes that will only change when we stop blaming the government and start looking back at the plethora of points that we have lived as ‘who we are’ in our individual lives that are not at all supportive of life, of real growth and development – at a personal and so at a collective level.

This way I can stand as a pillar of support and stability, no matter ‘what’ is going on around as a general paranoia, psychosis or plain panic attacks that we can ‘fall into’ if we are not entirely clear on how none of these experiences will ever be beneficial, they will never signify a ‘care’ for others – but instead are the sources and ingredients necessary for enforcing control and so further problems, never solutions.

Living ‘empathy’ this way becomes more of a humbling process in understanding the reactions, but not ‘re-living’ them ourselves, it is an empowering point since we can understand it and at the same time see the ways through in it, the solutions, the potential outcomes through redirecting our focus and attention from the ‘problem’ to communicating about the situation, taking self-responsibility on each side as necessary and then direct oneself towards a solution.

Sounds easy, but it does definitely require oneself to be stable and standing enough to not ‘be triggered’ by another’s experience, which if it does happen and we then ‘empathize’ in the usual system way of becoming the same emotion or feeling as the other person, what do we know then? We have to walk through our own personal relationship to those emotions or feelings ourselves first, take responsibility and change who we are in relation to those experiences if we are to stand as the redefined version of empathy that I’ve shared here today.

 

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Suggested interviews that explain a process of ‘empathizing’ with another’s experience and walking as a point of support to them

1.      Timeline of a Tantrum: Parents – Perfecting the Human Race – Parenting – Part 73

2.      Timeline of a Tantrum: Children – Perfecting the Human Race – Parenting – Part 74

 

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436. Lack of Money in Dream

Last night I had a dream where I would be aware of having only a 200 pesos bill in my pocket, that being the last money left with me at the time. I was with my family in a restaurant and I would still be quite sure about being able to pay for the bill, or at least help with some money. I would notice how I was very aware of what everyone was asking and in one moment I would see my partner taking the offer drinking ‘some’ of my father’s beverage, and all I could consider in that moment is how one drink cost a quarter of the 200 pesos, and because he would drink the whole thing in 3 seconds I would get so angry at him for being inconsiderate, for not realizing that then my father would have to get another drink and then it would take all the money away.

The shocking point however is how I reacted towards my partner in such situation which involved a lot of cursing and flipping fingers and generally wanting him to feel bad or notice that ‘he had done an inconsiderate thing’ by drinking that. Yet, right after I would be in my own possession towards him in that moment I would realize how I had not said or done any of that to him before, and realized that the damage was done: I could not revert back to a moment before all of that where I could have stopped myself from justifying my anger at him and the situation.  In my dream I realized how things could spiral out from there on, on how I had been essentially so disrespectful toward him in that moment, breaking into ‘uncharted territory’ from there on due to allowing myself to express myself to him that way. I felt regretful as well.

I woke up with this experience of ‘being angry at him’ lol, but of course I brought myself back to earth and realized it was MY dream, my creation and so what exists in my mind and what could possibly be a reality if I allowed it to become just that. It frightened me, because I saw how in one moment so many consequences would ensue and even if right after I wished I ‘hadn’t done that/said that’ it was done, truly felt regret yet of course in the dream I didn’t go into analyzing the situation. So here I go.

First of all it seems odd how if I knew I had little money left, still try and go to restaurants or even attempt to invite others and pay the bill for it. This is a point of defined ‘empowerment’ as well where I have enjoyed doing this with my family and having the ability to ‘invite them’ as well, which to me it just makes sense considering the many times they have invited me as well. However obviously, if I was in such precarious situation as in having little to no money left, I would not go out to restaurants, not pretend I can manage. I can see there’s the point of ego as ‘pride’ in maybe wanting to hide the fact that ‘I’m broke’ at their eyes yet be tense throughout the whole situation, because I would not have wanted to be in the position to have to spend more just because of adding one last drink to the bill.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define an experience of going out to restaurants and invite others as in paying the bill myself as ‘empowering’ and something I gladly do, wherein I would then prevent myself from being open and clear to others about my financial situation and explain why I cannot attend to a restaurant or pay for the bill due to having little to no money left, which is what I see makes sense to do in such situations and not have the ‘restaurant’ or reunion be centered around ‘going out’ but family reunions and ‘going outs’ don’t always have to relate to eating out/ paying somewhere to eat/drink something while it could be done at home as well, this is in consideration to  be considerate of  money spending when there are no sources of income, and not perceive it as a ‘missing out’ or a ‘lesser’ experience if I cannot afford something any longer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to slightly charge the experience within me of being able to afford paying a meal in a restaurant for others and myself, which is a point of perceived ‘empowerment’ which certainly can be done when there is sufficient money and income, however if one’s situation changes, adjustments have to be made and such kind of unnecessary expenses have to be cut, instead of me trying to ‘keep the show going’ at the eyes of others, while knowing well in the situation in the dream that I was compromising my ‘last moneys’ in order to give a pleasure/moment to others to enjoy, or what I perceive to be ‘enjoyment’ or expressing some kind of ‘gratefulness’, when in fact enjoyment and gratefulness can be expressed in so many other ways that don’t involve having to ‘go out to restaurants’ only as what I’ve lived throughout my life within the family scenario.

In this it is to realize that it is not limiting myself when no longer being able to afford such things if having no income, but rather be considerate about the situation instead of wanting to ‘pull it through’ and compromising my basic livelihood.

Another aspect here is how I allowed myself to get to that point of only having 200 pesos on my pocket. It is interesting because in the morning today I saw this picture on social media about how if you have 10 dollars in your bank account, you have more than the 75% of the world, which is ridiculous that we’ve allowed ourselves to get to this point of most of the world living in poverty while being in a world that sufficiently caters for everyone.  So there are various factors that lead to having no money, but within my personal situation and environment/context, it IS possible to make money therefore here within the dream context and as a possible scenario that exists in all of our lives

10 dollars

 

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to get to a position of poverty, which is a form of disregard, lack of self responsibility, apathy, not putting myself out there in terms of knocking doors and looking at the many possibilities that still exist in this world to make money, having no judgment to particular activities or job situations, but realizing that I cannot allow myself to get to such point of seeing ‘the last drops’ of my money go and do nothing about it, therefore

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to neglect my financial situation of my dream and take that into consideration within my current experience where I am living of savings and definitely require to make sure I don’t spend money unnecessarily or waste it in ‘going outs’ that are not really necessary for me to ‘live.’ In this

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to slowly but surely allow the ‘fear of ending with no money’ to be in the back of my head and creeping in as a constant ‘variable’ in my day to day situations, wherein I can see that it can affect the way that I live and interact with others, which should NOT be so, because in this it is about me first establishing clear accounting with myself, looking at what is it that is essentially needed, the basic points of livelihood that I require to cover in joint expenses and take responsibility for that part that corresponds to me. In this I realize that I do have to ‘give up’ more unnecessary expenses not because of ‘fearing’ not having money, but simply being realistic about current financial situation and ensuring I am not placing myself in a dire situation just because of ‘squandering’ the current possibilities.

And ultimately in this, what matters is that I would not have to ‘restrain’ myself in all aspects if I start creating other possibilities for income as well, which is where I have to move myself to and start planning where and how I can continue making money to live without worrying about ‘eventually depleting my source of money’ and this is my point of self responsibility.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become angry, tense, anxious, absolutely possessed with the miser experience at the same time when judging what my partner did in the dream about the drink and blame him as ‘inconsiderate’ when in fact that was me only venting and exerting my own neglect, lack of consideration and responsibility to my own life, my own financial situation and in this realizing that there are moments where bit by bit I start getting ‘stingy’ about money due to not having a continuous source of income.

In this I see that the financial aspect when sharing expenses with another and at the same time when placing oneself in this ‘comfortable’ position with money and then having that ‘comfort’ point change to a position of precariousness can change the way we behave toward others and essentially ‘the worst of us’ can come out when in that survival mode.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be so ashamed of myself in that moment when realizing what I had done as in doing all the cursing, yelling, flipping fingers and venting out my own anger towards another, because in the ‘shame’ of course we don’t see the actual starting point of it all, which is how in that dream situation I allowed myself to get to that position of ‘having the last drop’ of money and doing nothing at all about it, which is unacceptable and it is unacceptable that I would dare to see another as ‘the problem’ in that moment, which is such a common way to miss out MY responsibility in it all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as someone that is ‘unconditional’ when it comes to ‘sharing’ which means sharing of my money when paying something for others and link this to a ‘sign of appreciation’ when it is part of the programming at home where any given money was to be considered a sign of love, appreciation, gratitude, care and even recognition as a ‘prize’ for doing something ‘good’,  when in fact these words mean so much more than just ‘money’ and can be lived in so many more ways than just ‘giving money’ or ‘paying’ things for others.

I realize that if I do enjoy being able to live in a comfortable manner and even at times be able to ‘share it with others’, then there’s two options: either I get a sufficient source of income to continue doing this in a moderate manner, or rather explain my situation, stop compromising myself and rather live these words as care, love, appreciation, gratitude towards others not by ‘paying’ for things or ‘inviting out’ but rather by assisting them in their lives in what I consider I can, such as sharing or providing some personal support, be with them in times when we can chat/ be up to date with each other, do something together that doesn’t require any consumption of sorts or ‘going outs’ as in eating out etc. and so also challenge that programming that has been so ingrained throughout my life in terms of ‘going to restaurants’ and seeing that as a point of luxury, comfort and ways to interact with others better, because in reality, I first have to assess the financial situation in order to fulfill such ‘ideals’ and if it is not possible, then rather redefine the ‘gatherings’ to something else, where I have also come to realize that it is part of those ‘illusions’ I’ve hold on to as if they were part of ‘my lifestyle’ throughout my life, but I do know of people that would rarely ever do this in their lives and could live without it, which enabled me to see how I have conditioned myself to believe this is part of the ‘rites’ of socializing, when it doesn’t have to be the ‘only’ way to go out and socialize in any case.

Last Sunday for example instead of going out to a restaurant, we rather went to eat at my parents’ house and spend much less money by doing so than keeping the ‘outings’ program in place, and it was as enjoyable as well because the interaction and ‘getting together’ shouldn’t be defined by ‘what one eats’ or ‘where’ and ‘how much it costs’ at all, when the same can be done/prepared/cooked with much less money anyways.

In this I recognize that it is not like I will say NO to all outings in restaurants, but certainly be much more moderate about it and be considerate of not squandering money within such habit.  Which leads me to the point of how I was also justifying these expenses in saying that ‘I am in turn also supporting the economy in my locality’ and assisting others to ‘get a better wage’ with going to places and leaving tips and whatnot, however this is ‘ok’ if one has the money to do it, but it is silly to compromise one’s own livelihood just to keep ‘benefiting others’ and be left with nothing oneself.

And then comes the anger point which I mean, I have talked about it many, many times. And it was cool to face this rather uncomfortable and – to say the least – regrettable situation in my dream where my own lack of responsibility to my financial situation led me to essentially ruin or if not create a faux pas with my partner in doing something that I immediately regretted to have been said and done toward him. It really sucked the moment that in the dream I realized: what have you done? You can’t go back and undo that, he will forever remember this that you just did and said to him. And this has to do with previous situations where I also allowed myself to be possessed in certain situations also due to familiar contexts and traditions or ‘politics’ that my partner would not be used to, and that I essentially blew things out of proportion against him at the very beginning of our relationship and only later on did I admit to see that it was My ‘religion’ of how things should be that was the problem, and how I did not communicate about it beforehand and how I made it such a big deal in my mind and exerted that anger toward him as well. That was talked about and it took me to recognize my own ‘religion’ of what I believed he should have done that caused the problem, while him also admitting to aspects of his participation to work with, which has actually worked fine.

However in the dream due to the financial ‘strain’ and situation I was in and not communicating about it with others, but keep it to myself and just ‘venting out’ the consequence of my problem, I would create another rift in my relationship with others because of this precarious situation I created for myself.

When waking up and realizing I was carrying the experience of the dream, I cleared myself up by forgiving myself for having allowed myself to get so angry at my partner in the dream, for judging him for generally ‘drinking things too fast’ because I equate this to ‘money’ only, and in general create this scenario in the dream to test myself ‘who would I be’ in such situation of poverty.

So, what I could see is that surely being in that ultimate state of having almost no money left at all, does make one go into ‘overdrive’ in survival, which can be by all means first of all prevented. However the point of ‘instant possession’ upon living the consequences is also preventable, wherein in the dream I could have taken a moment to stabilize myself, not keep feeding the ‘fears of not having money’ or the judgments on how anything eaten/drank equated to more money on the bill and so becoming angry at consuming in itself, and so preventing me from getting so possessed in this rage, anger about money that one can say or do things that one will regret a moment afterward. I have to remind myself that no matter how ‘difficult’ a situation might be, I cannot blame others for it, I cannot use another as a ‘punching bag’ for it and seeing others as ‘the problem’ when in fact it is all self-created.

In an ultimate situation if I had to walk the ‘aftermath’ of that situation in the dream, I would explain my own anger about my situation, how I didn’t take responsibility for my experience and allowed myself to exert it out and ask for forgiveness to the other person, after having forgiven myself for being so neglectful towards myself and my personal responsibility in relation to money. It is also interesting that even if it was ‘just a dream’ I could not just see it as ‘just that’ because it felt such a real possibility for me in all aspects that I considered the importance of aligning this point so that I can prevent most of the situation by changing definitions of ‘outings’ with others from now on, in relation to family gatherings, going out for the sake of ‘paying for others and supporting them through my consumption’ and rather be realistic about my financial situation.

In this I realize that it is not a ‘missing out’ because one defines what one makes of any situation or experience, so I stop defining ‘comfort’ and ‘pleasure’ and ‘gratitude’ and ‘enjoyment’ and even ‘sharing’ with others just through what money can do. And many times to be honest the process of ‘going out’ becomes more of a ritual than an actual enjoyment, so I can decide to suggest other ways and even ‘change the ways’ that it usually goes wherein we can all save up money and realize that it is not always necessary to spend in order to show care or live enjoyment or any other aspect like that.

So what can I learn from the dream in retrospect is: how to prevent getting to a point of lacking money, how to prevent myself from affecting my relationships with others by remaining in a position of ‘pride’ and not seek out for ways to make money or support from others, how to stop defining experiences of ‘empowerment’ related to money only, how to live appreciation, care, joy, gratefulness and sharing in ways that don’t involve ‘paying’ for something to someone else as an ‘expression of care’ because I can decide to change that, how I can prevent myself from blaming others and getting in an exertion of my own anger towards myself and use others as my ‘valve of escape’ for that emotional experience.

Ultimately of course we should prevent ALL of humanity from ever having to be in a precarious situation, of having no money/no food/ no shelter and having no possible way to get an income and step out of survival mode. We need to guarantee everyone’s wellbeing if we want to prevent people getting possessed in such a dysfunctional mind state of accumulated problems and experiences related to money that lead to the worst of the worst in our society: from mental illness, to domestic violence, addictions, blaming governments and neglecting our personal and collective responsibility in this system.

In relation to the comment, We can make a difference if we all place ourselves in the shoes of situations like the one that ¾ of the population in this world are living in and decide to stop creating obstacles for us to live in a dignified manner, it really starts with us and empowering each other not only with money, but with skills and abilities to be able to contribute back into society and so be genuinely proud of creating a world we can live in without worries of ever going poor again, it’s up to us to remove for every person that possibility of only having 10 dollars in their pockets or even only ‘a bit more’ of that, no one wants to live in such poverty, so why should we allow the majority of this world do go through that?

 

Please check out this great series that supports with this process:

Making Do With Less – The Soul of Money

https://eqafe.com/p/making-do-with-less-the-soul-of-money

 

 

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266. The Secret behind Addictions

When a problem is not addressed at its root cause, for the human it is the mind for instance in how it functions thought by thought, solutions for human society will not be possible” – Bernard Poolman

 

I watched the discussion/ talk called Brain Development & Addiction with Gabor Mate in order to understand addiction at a chemical level. We are aware the we always seek to ‘feel good’ and this is one aspect that is currently understood in relation to this constant feel-good experiences that are generated by chemical compounds such as opiates and dopamine that are part of the brain circuits wherein impulse control and stress control are also a part of. These basic categorization is what leads us to address the infamous ‘chemical imbalances’ wherein only through these chemical compounds obtained through an induced manner – either through drugs or energetic associations to people/ places/ environments – one is able to experience as sense of fulfillment and enjoyment.

Opiates, according to Dr. Gabor Mate create the experiences of love, connection, reward, pain relief.  Dopamine creates the experience of incentive, motivation, vitality, curiosity and as sense of ‘being alive.’  Thus it is definitely so that these are energetic-experience requirements that are beyond being only brain-sent requirements, there is a much deeper explanation to all of this and it is through understanding how the Quantum Mind operates that we are able to finally understand why we are never in fact ‘stable’ even if we have all the support of the world to live in dignity, because we find rich people also being hooked on drugs and alcohol or any other type of activity that creates a temporary rush. Sure, people living in poverty also use drugs to mitigate hunger and evade a reality that is not ensuring that they get equal support just as anyone else that was born in a family of wealth and social benefits, however we have realized that it is not only money the point that defines the well being of the individual, but also the care and basic forms of parenting that must be understood in order to see from where does this inherent desire to seek for ‘more’ come from.

 

The understanding of how these experiences are created go beyond any current understanding promoted by contemporary science and the reason why is because the mind is not a physical system, but an interdimensional system that is out of sigh for us human beings. This implies the following point: We have become in essence subject to our own mind to use it as a tool to ‘get to know ourselves,’ which is limited to the possibility of only see the consequential outflow as chemicals such as opiates, dopamine, endorphins and any other chemical that are the result of processes that take place beyond any spectrum and understanding of our conscious, subconscious and unconscious mind, but exist within the domain of the Quantum Mind and Quantum Physical.

 

The mind’s relationship to the physical body is not yet a basic understanding that should exist as the foundation of any psychological problematic that we are only attributing to chemical imbalances and treat with drugs that do Not solve the problem, but involve the consumption of chemicals that will artificially sustain this well-being experience through drugs/ medication toward which the ‘patient’ eventually becomes addicted to. And not only the people that take drugs in legal/ illegal manners are drug addicts: we are all essentially on the same boat. We just get our fix through thinking, becoming emotional, thinking positive and all the best feelings in the world, through activities that we have attached to an experience of vitality, liveliness, feeling good, being on ‘top of the world,’ which includes virtually anything that we use to get ourselves to a constant High in the mind – yes, the mind – but, where’s the Physical then?

 

That is precisely the point to walk here: how through the definition of our well being according to who we are as the mind as these temporary fixes of ‘love, connection, happiness, reward, motivation, vitality’ turned to an energetic fix of ‘being alive’ we have neglected in fact how such self-induced experiences operate at a quantum mind level which means, beyond any form of current mind-awareness that we could gather from self-investigation with our own pair of eyes. Yes, we are talking about interdimensional support and assistance through the Portal at Desteni through which the most advanced mind-technology investigation is being presented in all the current series that are finally allowing us to understand our entire relationship of who we are as the mind toward our physical reality. Quantum Mind Self Awareness Series as well as Quantum Systemization are key points of study for anyone that is willing to go beyond ‘chemical imbalances’ to understand the constant necessary feel-good experiences at a mind level, while neglecting how the mind uses/ consumes the physical body/ flesh/ tissue in order to generate such ‘feel good’ experiences, because the quantum mind as a system of energy will use any form of thought process to associate to an either positive or negative experience to cause friction and conflict which is what generates enough ripple effects that the mind is able to generate within the physical tissue/ flesh of the physical human body in order to ‘power up’ these thoughts, feelings and emotions that we believe is ‘who we are’ and we end up building our entire lives and make decisions according to these basic energetic experiences that we blindly follow as ‘who we are.’

To read more about this, I suggest reading the past entries that explain from various angles this basic mechanism of how the mind operates within the physical body and why following a ‘feel good’ mentality is causing us the current depletion and neglect of the physical world in the name of our personal stability At a Mind-Level.

 

Continuing from:

220. Drug Culture: Mad Society as a Lifestyle

 

 

An actual Sound and Stable Solution that we are able to propitiate/ give to ourselves by the mere fact of being a living-breathing being, is through equal and one self support in a global social, economical and political system that ensures we all get equal support to live in the best conditions possible and sustainable in this world. For that, the entire system must be changed, because our system is the result of having sought for these never-quenching experiences of ‘having more’ / being happy/ obtaining power through money that has become our own demise as we realize it is unsustainable to continue giving all our ‘power’ to sustain a system of abuse – and this same system is the one that runs in an exact and equal manner within ourselves as the constant strive for ‘feeling good’ that we create at a mind level, then seeking to satisfy ourselves in any way we can, even if that implies abusing ourselves, which is how it has worked thus far.

 

Thus, the experiences that we can all define would be best for all as these ‘brain circuits’ that Dr. Gabor Mate describes can be and become a living-physical expression if we decide to implement a system that can ensure that all kids are born in families where every individual will be qualified to give birth to another life/ child, ensuring everyone has equal support through money that ensures health care, proper nutrition and infrastructure – shelter, food, sanitation, water, clothing – as well as parental education is in place to create a suitable environment for children to be born into this world – and I quote Economist’s Journey to Life here: Equal Money Capitalism – Preparing the Road for Change:

“CHILDREN

When a child is born, the parents’ company/companies will allocate an equal profit share for the child – which will be added to the parent’s profit share. Every parent will have a company – because everyone will be employed.”
http://economistjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/12/day-164-equal-money-capitalism.html

 

“The government only represent the same controls we allow within the mind and is thus an externalization of the inner world of the people. That is why Government acts in ways that are seemingly strange, yet it is what the people actually want to remain in the inner world of self deception and self interest. This will be a most difficult journey to change our world to what is best for all–which must include Government as some level of universal management is required to have some freedom for all. The problem is not addressed at the mind level where it exist as each one attempts to protect their mind, thoughts and feelings as if it is sacred, without understanding how it is created” – Bernard Poolman 

 

This single basic certainty of self support ensures that parents have No worries, No stress to give birth to a child, this ensures that people will be able to spend quality time with their babies in a world wherein everyone will be equally stable and confident, since everyone will have all that is required to live. This creates a sense of well being within the progenitors that will define the stability and condition of the new baby in order to grow in a sound and self-supportive environment, immediately becoming used to living as a physical being that is whole, here, complete instead of a baby that picks up the current worry, concern and stress that people have due to debt, lack of money/ resources, lack of education of how to take care of a newborn, having relationship problems, addictions, manias and a total ‘flawed nature’ that is the reflection of who we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be in the mind, which is creating what this entire world currently Is and exists as. This is in conjunction to what Dr. Mate explains as the negative effects that lacking an ‘available, non stressed nurturing emotionally available parenting care giver’ creates as potential addicts that seek to activate these basic experiences of completion through chemically induced experiences, while they could have been developed as a natural physical experience that is not constantly sought as an Energetic experience, but are simply not sought since the same stability that equal support provides will ensure who we are as the mind is no longer seeking for this never ending desire for ‘more.’ We are all addicts, we have said that before – so we rather stop condemning  ourselves, take responsibility and create solutions at a world-system level, not through medications or street drugs that lead to harm and self abuse.

 

So, if we only allow sound stable parents to have children, all the ‘future of the world’ will ensure to continue this living stability as they know nothing else but that: stability, cooperation, care, support, consideration, empathy, compassion, all of which ensures that life is then actually lived and not survived in this world, and this is what common sense is all about: implementing what’s Best for All through preventing addictions and mind-fixes that lead to self destruction.

 

Through this unconditional support, love, connection, reward, incentives, motivation, vitality, curiosity, a sense of being alive and ways to cope with stress won’t exist as some chemical sought in drugs, people, places, activities that we associate positive experiences to in our minds, but we will rather understand how Not to participate in a mind that will constantly seek for a ‘fix’ to continue its survival as a parasitical system within ourselves that we have been mostly unaware of in terms of how it functions, we have only seen the consequences but Never understood the mechanisms and that is why and how Desteni and all the interview series at Eqafe are of vital study for any human being that is willing to finally discover the ‘missing pieces of the puzzle’ in terms of addictions and any other psychological and reality-functioning aspect that has never quite ‘fit’ in all the vast theories and studies proposed by our most laureate scientists, because no one until now had been able to see the exact mechanisms and functions of the Quantum Mind in the physical body interdimensionally.

 

This is ground breaking information that Must be studied in order to take responsibility for our own addictions, to understand the problem is to get half of the solution in place, the second half is implementing it and that begins with and within ourselves through walking a process of Self Support in order to stand equal and one to the mind that we have defined as ‘the problem,’ simply because of not understanding who we really are and what we are in relation to the mind, how the mind operates interdimensionally upon the physical body and what we can do to practically stop such self-abuse and support ourselves to become living beings:

 

Equal Money System – The economic, political and social revolution that will ensure all living beings are born in a self-supportive environment where no more lack of money, care and stress result in needy human beings seeking for a fulfillment through addictive chemical substances – we instead Prevent the problem through presenting the cure and solution: Living Life As the Physical Body and Stopping Participation in the Mind as who we are – but for that, a Process is walked:

Desteni I Process

Desteni Lite Process – Basic steps to get to know yourself as your mind

Desteni Forum To read all the self support through various processes of self correction in relation to the mind

 

 

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213. Opinionated Elitism: Intellectual Prickism

Revolutionary –Elitist Character – because all worry and concern about the system was not self-honest, but rather aiming at personal glory.

Continuation of the Elite Character

The Revolutionary Character:

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I required a reason to stand up for life in equality as in having a particular ‘bad life’ or suffering in order to advocate a world system that will ensure all living beings are supported for life and in this, believe that any form of suffering was necessary for us to stand up, without realizing that such suffering, struggle and abuse has been he direct outflow of our own accepted and allowed existence in selfishness, self interest and utmost greed that leads to the negligence of other beings as ourselves, which leads to accepting and allowing a reality of abuse and neglect, simply because we were not apparently directly affected by it, when the reality is that we all are aware at some level of everything that goes on in this world, and that no matter how hard we try to ‘make our lives work’ and ‘try to make it’ in this world, we will never get to an actual state of well being unless we change the system that is currently fostering the conditions of abuse as a means to survive.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to comply and form my judgment about reality based on ‘critical opposition’ to a system that I thought had to ‘work for us’ no matter what, without ever questioning why it is that the only civil-obedience act that I would know of was paying for taxes and voting for political representation, never actually realizing that this world is the way it is because we have all collectively agreed to the non-sensical rules and regulations as ‘laws’ that are only benefitting a minority of the population that lives in opulence, while the majority  is neglected and side viewed by any form of human-rights and laws that could guarantee the general well being of mankind as equals, though because this would imply having no ability to abuse and exert power over someone that isn’t forced to ‘make a living’ to get by and survive, we simply agreed that living in optimum conditions would mean having to work/ having to have a constant struggle to ‘make it’ in this world, accepting this as the general imprint we grow up as children, always aiming at ‘getting better/ progressing/ developing’ but always witnessing things only going wrong, bad, corrupted, failing and within this

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to start conforming to an apathy and general mocking of our politics and governmental systems due to believing that they were the only bad guys creating the problems I was witnessing in my environment as the country and the world, and that we, the people, had to ‘fight for our rights and be heard,’ generating an entire energetic personality of constant opposition, criticism, wanting to hoard as much knowledge and information about the world as possible so that I could ‘defend’ myself when being asked about my opinions about politics, economics and social matters. I realize that in this all I was not In fact looking at the actual reality of people, but mostly being entertained by numbers, graphics, pictures that I would see in the media in order to create a particular Experience about ‘how bad, how wrong and twisted the world is’ without ever even questioning my own participation within it as an equal-part that is responsible for Everything that goes on in this world, no matter what I do or what I don’t do, the sheer fact that we are living beings is already indicating that we have all tacitly agreed with the current ways the system works – and within that, any form of change cannot come only from a new system in place, but must be In place through our individual change and self correction within the understanding of what it is that Life must be as What is Best for All.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to for a while not question my reality further because of seeing that ‘out of my reach’ and seeing the understanding of how money works, how money is created and what the devaluation of our currency meant – beyond just ‘erasing’ three zeros’ – and simply brush it aside as if it was something that had ‘nothing to do with me’ at the moment. Not realizing that everything that was making my life work was not out of ‘nowhere’ but money that is what enabled me to continue living and being educated and existing only seeking for my own benefit, because it is quite clear how if I had any form of physical struggle to get money as in not having enough money, I would have questioned my  reality further  – yet I used the reality, the knowledge and information for my own benefit as a way to make myself ‘knowledgeable’ and what I’ve been tagging as ‘system savvy’ in order to perpetuate the intellectualism of the problems in the world to have interesting ‘talks’ with other people that would seem ‘equally interesting’ to me to do so, and within this never really actually SEEING the problems we were speaking about as the actual reality of people, but were only using it as a way to show off knowledge and information, have long talks over coffee and ‘plot’ some amusing plans to ‘overcome the system’ that would go no further than just that, talking and having no inkling of an actual plan, way and method to in fact create a change in this world – thus, my concern about the system must be seen not as an actual act of caring, but was also imprinted with my desire to start making a name for myself in order to get to be part of the Intellectual-Elite that could talk about the problems in the world and earn great money out of it. (Read: 207. Changing the World in Self Interest)

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be ‘informed’ from an early age about what was happening in the world, but this was all based within self interest as in having the ability to Know more about the world, to be quite the ‘exceptional child’ that would not be amused by ‘childish games’ but would act as an adult in order to seem special and within this,once again, building up a point of specialness, superiority and recognition over time in order to get to be ‘the most’ everyone told me I could be, which became then an over-confidence as an Experience based on me being ‘opinionated’ and having ‘critical views’ on the world early on, which made me feel good when people would be amazed of my wits and knowledge and information, never really in myself even considering how what I was speaking about, was being actually lived and experienced in Reality by human beings that are also part of myself as everyone and everything that is here – which is how we have intellectualized reality instead of actually Understanding it in order to create a feasible way to change our living-ways and within this, promote an actual system-change.

 

I realize that my interest for the world matters was also in self interest for all of the above mentioned points: superiority, specialness, being ‘witty’ and system savvy wherein no real actual consideration of the lives of the people that I was generalizing with data and names and history was actually about. This is how once again, we are only able to intellectualize reality because of the protection and security that money is granting us, a select sector of the population that has been ‘gifted’ with the ability to have a dignified living, neglecting the majority that is out of our sight and only reduced to ‘world news’ of poverty, starvation, abuse, trafficking, animal extinction and wars that we see only as ‘interesting topics’ that will make us look like a person that Cares, but little did I even care to actually be and become a human being that understands the reasons and actual detail of why the lives of human beings have been neglected to such an extent that we’ve reduced Actual Lives to graphics, to GDP numbers and figures that in no way serve Life, in no way actually consider the living conditions of such people that are just forming parts of percentages, numbers and statistics that indicate an apparent growth or devaluation of life on Earth.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never question how it was possible to have a ‘Devaluation’ of our currency which would be the same as ‘devaluing’ life in one way or another – within this, missing out all possible common sense that I could have considered if I had allowed myself to investigate further on  how money exists, and how money is created, and the actual laws and regulations that dictate our reality, but instead, only used such knowledge and information for my own personal benefit as a opinionated character, having some form of ‘criteria’ to speak about the world simply because of judging this as proper to educated and wealthy people. There you go, intellectualism exposed.

 

I Forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to hide the fact that my interest on world matters was actually only based on attaining/ hoarding knowledge and information as a synonym of money, wherein I would be planning already how ‘great’ I was going to be when having had a life of being informed on social matters, politics, trying to understand wall street and becoming a news junky just so that I could give lectures/ talks about my education, my ‘awareness’ of the problems of the world while gaining a name for myself as this type of ‘good being’ that would fight for social justice and a revolution,  without being self honest with myself to see how the starting point of this all was in self interest and not really caring about investigating the actual lives of the people I could be naming as general figures and numbers that we use in order to sound ‘cool’ and ‘intelligent,’ while neglecting even asking why such numbers and figures of poverty, starvation, war, crime, unemployment, rise of prices and any other act of corruption existed in the first place.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that exposing my selfish desires to ‘help the world’ would make me a ‘bad person’ not realizing that we have all been living lives masking our self interest with benevolence, goodness and ‘good will’ that has never in fact existed, as if it really had existed, we would have done something already about this world. Thus,

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to plan/ plot and project a life for myself based on being an ‘aware’ being, like the ultimate intellectual that could talk about all spheres of life in order to sound interesting, to even find a partner that could ‘fill in the gaps’ with more knowledge and information as an ‘intelligent being and socially aware – whatever such tag would in any way imply as ‘worthy’ to me – and a social-group of people that I could fit in based on my desires to have friends in elitist-intellectual positions as I deemed that to be ‘my spot’ within my life, and within this

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to admire, even idolize people that were these ‘examples’ in my life of what it was to read a ton of books, have huge libraries in their houses, collect art, have the ultimate sybarite lifestyle while being very aware of the system and talking about change while eating some form of delicacy with wine, which was the precise type of social reunions that I wanted to preserve in my life – and I repeat: while theorizing about the problems in the world, which is unacceptable.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value who a person is according to the education they have, the knowledge and information about ‘the world system’ that they have memorized, because of having created my own standards of intelligence based on knowledge and information placed ‘at the service of humanity,’ which is where the revolutionary-intellectual character exists, never realizing that within this, I was supporting the very cogwheels that make this wordl system turn wherein knowledge and information is valued more than life, wherein all money is valued more than life without understanding how there could be no money, no real value if there was no actual physicality that we could in any way put a price tag on, including ourselves as ‘knowledgeable beings’ that can sell such ‘wits’ within the academic and intellectual circles in the form of books, lectures and general elitist-status of social investigators that may propose a ton of ways to create a change in this world but never in fact even consider how to make it a reality as a process of Self Responsibility by the individuals, because all solutions were only looked at in the form of opposition, revolution and further criticism of the system without looking at the monetary system as the source and core of the problem that must be corrected and aligned in this world to support Life in Equality.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to also use this accumulation of knowledge and information to gain the tags that people would generally see me as ‘acculturated intelligent person’ which became part of my ‘steps toward success’ in this world system because of having done all the research and deliberate accumulation of knowledge and information for my own benefit, to seem like a good doer, revolutionary, future ‘leader’ of change in self interest. I see and realize that there could be no actual good intention the moment that I was using knowledge and information as a form of reputation that I could later on Sell to the same system I was trying to oppose. I realize that within this world system, I tis not not oppose it or retaliate against it and try and make a living out of doing so, but instead become part of the system, educate myself, support other’s education in order to recognize the fact that there is nothing to oppose, but to align, correct and direct to an outcome that is best for all.

 

I realize that whenever self interest as our own personal benefit is in place when trying and ‘do good’ to this world can only backfire as a self-deception that we have to take self responsibility for, and that it is not to be judged any further other than taking the necessary actions to align our lives and our dedication to understanding reality not as a way to abuse such knowledge and information for our own benefit, but to in fact self-forgive any remains of personal/ selfish interest about ‘changing the world’ / making a change and take the necessary actions to be self responsible which doesn’t exist ‘out there’ as some major reform in the system at the moment, it begins with our every seemingly ‘unimportant’ thoughts in our head whenever we place ourselves on top of others, whenever we want to be ‘right,’ whenever we want to have the ‘right answer’ all the time which is a point that is not indicating anything else but the desire to remain in a knowledgeable and righteous position that actually does a lot of harm upon reality, wherein intellectualism has become part of the general abstraction of reality into nice words and pictures to depict the reality, instead of actually investigating how Reality operates, why such people have been neglected, how our very own lives depend on their suffering and abuse and how our very worlds of elitist first world lifestyles are stemming from another’s endless laboring days in conditions that no knowledge and information can change in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to see the desire of changing the world as a ‘noble act’ within our society that I had to attain to in order to be part of a select-renowned group of people as an artist or intellectual, or linguist or whatever that I could be and become in order to get my ‘big part of the cake’ while holding an image of a ‘good doer’ in my society, and be known and praised and recognized for that, without realizing to what extent I had simply then acted in self interest all the time and never really caring as the actual expression of what that word implies about the reality of the people and situations and events I was only reducing to long strips of words that were not lived at all.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to read people’s biographies as in revolutionary people, artists mostly  as examples of what I wanted to be and become and within this starting point of fame, recognition, getting to be part of history books, desire to get to the ‘top’ and be ‘superior’ within my society as knowledgeable person/ an intellectual of ‘the greatest kind’ wherein I learned how this type of recognition was an acceptable way of becoming rich/ wealthy while still holding on a façade of ‘activist’ as a ‘good doer.’ I realize that I deliberately neglected the absurdity and paradox I would have made of myself by becoming rich out of opposing the system and the lack of integrity that really exists in all our so-called intellectual spheres in this world, where it is very nice and simple to talk and talk and talk about the problems in this world, blame the government or any other institution and always avoiding seeing one’s own life and the decisions made based on wanting to obtain a point of benefit in absolute self interest.

 

I commit myself to continue writing the revolutionary-elitist character out, in order to see how even in what could be spotted as ‘good intentions’ there were actual greedy interests behind it, most likely wishing to succeed only at an individual level and forgetting about the actuality, the physicality the actual living conditions of the people that are reduced to numbers, stories, figures that are sold in books and lectures and further story-telling journalism without proposing an actual living solution that can Stop such abuse and negligence in humanity. I commit myself to establish the Equal Money System as the common sense that is necessary in this world, which can hold no specialness or hero-like action, this is about the reality that should have always been but were too busy satisfying/ satisFRYING our own egos.

 

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159. To Forgive the Ignorance and Bliss

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I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to as a child believe that there were in fact ‘special beings’ taking care of me/ my family/ my loved ones and that we were meant to be supported in a way that ‘not many’ would be supported, wherein I created a conflict within me trying to understand WHY it is that life was easy for some and would even get ‘extra protection’ and why some lived in poverty and were simply forgotten by this god/ entities that would ‘give blessings’ away without really going further basic questions of why us had this benefit and others didn’t, getting no proper answers and within that simply accepting things ‘for what they are/ how they are’ without going any further in questioning the points.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create a positive experience within me every time that we would pray and feel like a ‘good person’ because I was ‘thinking’ about those that were not supported unconditionally by the system, within this accepting the fact that I must ‘add the impaired to my prayer’ as a form of being ‘benevolent’ and in that, thinking and believing that it would support them/ others to live better and that my words in fact would do any good to them.

I see and realize that I learned this as a way to create an experience of compassion within me every time that we would begin praying on a daily basis before going to school as a ‘reminder’ that there were people that were not having a proper living condition, and within this creating a powerlessness within me and further sadness upon someone else’s actual suffering and that this was never explained/ walked in practical manners as in how we could eventually support ourselves to create a new system in the world, because such thing did Not exist at all in the minds of parents, teachers or anyone else involved within the basic education of the child.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to as a child take prayers as a benevolent and good thing to do, without ever questioning whether my words would have any effect upon others’ and our lives, and why it is that if poor people were not being unconditionally supported we would only pray for them instead of finding an actual solution for it, which is a point I simply ‘took as it is’ without any further consequence, slowly but surely building a relationship toward god/ the unknown as a benevolent force that could in any way create solutions on Earth, and believing this to be so because everyone else said so.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create and develop a belief/ relationship  toward invisible beings that would apparently take care of me/ my family and within this think, believe and perceive that MY spirituality was in fact something special and that I had something special within me to have these protection/ communication, which became a hidden/secret aspect that I would always hold and take into consideration throughout my life as ‘special protection,’ however never questioning it further as to why it is that I was being supported with these and even having ‘problems’ apparently solved while I continued seeing my world and reality being subsumed in poverty,robberies, frauds, familial problems and an entire system that simply didn’t work, and having these so called help at the same time.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept what others would tell me and within this, believe that I had to ‘take it as it is’ which is the premise of our acceptance and allowance of this entire system that we get from our parents and the generations before that wherein we learn that the world cannot be changed and that praying/ having a god/ resorting to positive thinking is a way to ‘support others,’ which is an absolute fallacy of the worst kind because we took pride and even create compassion out of believing that we could in some way better the lives of others through positive thinking and never in fact questioning further why such poverty exists, why are there people that must suffer in the world while there is plenty for all?

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever try and later on blame things onto god/ spiritual beings for ‘forgetting about the real suffering in the world,’ without immediately realizing that it was in fact all about Me/ us as humanity and what we have accepted and allowed to exist while believing that there ever was some ‘greater force’ at hand, which was only a way to continue living in ‘bliss’ and abdicating our responsibility toward everything/ everyone while believing that we were in fact ‘helpless’ toward the situations of suffering in this world and that we could do nothing about it, without realizing that the system is us and that we have actually all the necessary skills and considerations to take responsibility for ourselves as this world system.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a positive experience of compassion, care, and even sadness/ despair as well at the expense of those that actually suffer, which is what is linked to godhood beliefs about men being benevolent in any way, blindly missing that all we were doing is making ourselves feel good about the lives of others through praying and not questioning the system any further.

 

I commit myself to expose the deliberate ways in which spirituality, positive thinking and any belief in a god is an ignorant blissful belief that we have taken on in order to not question the system we’re living in As our creation and as our responsibility and within this, support ourselves/ each other to step out of such deception in order to take off the blindfold and begin realizing that no one will ever support something o someone through positive thinking/praying, and only actual doing, actual structuring and reforms to the current system are required in order to support all the ‘impaired ones,’ that are actually a direct outflow and consequence of some of us/ a minority in the world having a great life/ living condition while neglecting the aspects that were supposed to be given as a Right to all beings, such as Money to Live in dignity as a living right, which is what we are proposing as the Equal Money System wherein no more prayers will ever be required other than an actual gratefulness toward each other and the Earth, the Animal Kingdom for living in an Equality System for the first time in our existence.

 

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This will ensure that no more gods will be required as giving to all in equality is what any god should always aspire to be – let’s be gods, then – it’s just a word awaiting to be lived.

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106. Abundance = Elitist Positive Experience

 

Creating a positive experience upon opening a cabinet with lots of food stored as a synonym of care and love by parents. This became a ‘trait’ in itself wherein my logic worked as follows: ‘because my father cares for us, he buys us lots of food and ensures we never run out of certain products, which is how he demonstrates that he is always thinking about what is best for us’ – Yet I never took into consideration if there were any other motives to do that, if there were other reasons such as scarcity or even lacking  enough money in the future wherein the excess of items in stock were more of a food bank for emergency situations. The reasons may vary, however one thing is certain: such positive experience can only be achieved if we have enough money to buy food and to buy More than is immediately required to consume.

This is how I debunk parental care to an opportunity that only a few can provide their children with, as well as seeing how in an Equal Money System world, there will be no need to create a positive experience and binding force between family members out of being able to provide with the necessary means to live, as this will be a given right for all.

 

Self Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider that having enough food in stock at home bought by my father is a synonym of care, wherein I have associated the fact that he always ensures to have enough food in stock as an efficient-point, a preventive type of personality trait that I associated as something positive, without realizing that having food in stock is actually stemming from the fear of not having enough food/ not having enough supplies in any given moment, which is how I learned how to be preventive out of fear only.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to define my father’s efficiency according to ‘being able to always provide us food and never experiencing a lack of something,’ which is only a trait available and dependent on money itself – not the person.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience a form of admiration and pride when being able to open up our food cabinet and always finding several milks in stock, which I then took as an example for me to follow, wherein having ‘more than enough’ is seen as a synonym of being ‘preventive’ and ‘efficient’ which is something that my father would take pride on, and that I accepted as a genuine point to consider implementing as myself, until I realize that the starting point of it was fear of ending up with no food/ supplies – and also it is to realize how such ‘food in stock’ can only be a reality if there is enough money to buy more than what is currently required – wherein every time that I would find out there is no more than 1 item in stock, I would associated it with being in any form of crisis or financial trouble, just because of how I got so used to seeing more than enough in our food cabinets as a positive experience, wherein the negative as ‘not seeing more than 1’ was immediately a ‘red flag’ as an indication that there was something wrong going on in our economy.

 

I realize that this is plainly an elitist type of association since a couple of billion people in this world cannot possibly even fathom what it would be like to acquire more food than the one required in the moment, nor would it be even possible to have money to do so on a regular basis – hence I see how I had lived in a small secured bubble wherein I took food for granted and as a synonym of care such as ‘my father cares for us because he brings food to the table,’ but never questioning why my father was able to do that, but many other beings in this world were simply not able to do that, as there are billions deliberately left out of the ‘world system loop’ wherein money is not something that they have any access to – hence food, shelter, clothing and basic services come to them only as a rarity just because of everything else being secured within a minority in this world which includes ourselves – and within that, it is to see how we even dare to create a positive experience out of having enough good in your storage/ food cabinet, without even stopping for a moment to see if every single being on Earth is equally capable and able to have access to feed their children properly, if they have access to money itself in order to buy food and anything else required to live.

 

Thus I see that all the values I have created within my life and throughout the interactions with our basic sustenance within this world system, have been based upon me taking for granted the ability to have money, the ability to buy food and even the ability to choose what to eat, which is a rather elitist move that is not readily given to all beings equally.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate having enough food in stock as ‘feeling secure and cared for’ wherein I would start mimicking this attitudes of having plenty in stock in order to feel secure and that I was caring for myself, not realizing this is essentially done in fear of ending up with no food in the moment, wherein buying milk became a compulsory act until I realized what I was doing and how in a very clear though in ‘the back of my head,’ there was fear of something suddenly emerging in our reality and me feeling secure because at least I would have something to eat.

 

I realize that there are billions that have no possibility to even have a regular access to food, nor can they even dream about being able to store food somewhere and many do not even have a place to live. Thus I see and realize how I have kept myself in this small bubble wherein I would only seek to satisfy my needs, and forget about the world, which is how we stand for the Equal Money System to ensure that all beings can be equally cared for, without having to fear running out of something, not having enough money to feed ourselves the next day and also stop all the relationships of specialness and authority that we have built toward other beings in order to secure our own survival, which is what has created this entire system of self interest covered up and justified with familial bonds in the name of ‘love’ and ‘care,’ when it is in fact just associations that work like investments wherein you are either a winner or a loser according to the amount of money you are able to have in this world-system game.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a positive experience of just seeing that no matter if I empty this cereal box, there is another one ready to be opened by me as ‘my father bought it to me because he cares for me’ which is how I developed this positive attitude toward my father based on his ability to provide food for us and pay for our education, which is an example of how money defines our relationships toward people, often polarizing such relationships if the other parent is not as supportive financially which was then considered in my mind as ‘not caring enough for me,’ simply because of not being contributing in a physical manner as money toward the household.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to even at times get annoyed by me having to thank my father for everything he had bought us to eat and our personal care, wherein I would start backchatting the point of him sharing with us what he had bought us and how I judged him for boasting on what he had bought in order for us to feel ‘in debt’ with him, which was only my own backchat about it, never really considering what was enabling that entire scenario in the first place besides asking whether I was experiencing myself in a positive or negative manner.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate provision of food/ basic needs as ‘parental love and care,’ wherein I accepted the fact that I did not communicate that much with my father, but would always be physically supported by him with what I required to live- hence developing a positive attitude toward my father, which then turned into a polarity point in relation to how I would experience myself with my mother that would provide that point of communication but no financial support – hence me silently judging her as ‘less than’ because she would not contribute with money to our household.

 

Within this, I see, realize and understand how I went on creating my own value-systems according to what I deemed of value – such as products/ food/ personal care items/ education that I would get from my father, and how a point of interaction would be valued as also some type of asset that was ‘less worthy’ because there was no buying or consuming involved – which is how and why I had been brainwashed to only consider that which can be bought as something of value, just because of having to pay for such point of identification as self and it already indicating something more ‘challenging’ that I could call ‘love’ as I learned that in order to live = you must strive to make a living, and if someone cares enough for you = they will walk such a life-strive and bring food, which is what became a measuring point within me toward myself and as a future projection of how I wanted to lead my life: always having more than one and enough in stock in order to be secure and ‘feel cared for’/ provide care for others as well, without realizing it was mostly stemming out of fear.

 

 

Self Corrective Statements:

When and as I see myself feeling compelled to say ‘thank you’ to a repetition of items that have been bought in order to fulfill the character of ‘the provider’ within my father and myself; I stop and breathe – I realize that when I am compromising myself in any way, I must stop for a moment to assess what it is that I am in fact complying to as a positive experience that I am ‘grateful for,’ and how these seemingly positive reputation that we have and hold toward one based on complying each one’s positive character is the actual veil that does not allow ourselves to question such moments in the context of reality, but just comply to say ‘oh thank you!’ and feel cared for, loved and considered because of someone buying you food to eat, which is a relationship of convenience that can only exist as a form of control over others in order to become an authority over one’s life.

 

When and as I see myself associating having enough food in stock as something positive that I should be happy and feel that I am being cared for, I stop and I breathe – I realize that this is only possible within the context of living in a family wherein there is enough money to buy food, to buy more than the necessary in order to keep it in stock as a preventive measure, without realizing that prevention in this case is only available because of money – thus realizing how we have separated ourselves from what is here to such an extent that our relationships our built according to how we are able to give to ourselves the necessary to live from the moment we emerge into this reality, which proves that we cannot possibly walk this system without understanding how our very ‘loved ones’ are in fact systematic positions that have ensured we as children learn ‘who the authority is’ based on the ability to provide the necessary food / resources to live and how whenever we do not get these basic points, we retaliate against parents or custodians and use such resentment as a way to victimize ourselves for not having proper support – when in fact such support should not be bound to a family-structure only, but as an individual process of self-support in self-honesty that we can externalize as an overall system of unconditional support such as the Equal Money system wherein no one will be bound to another to get access to the necessary resources to live, but will simply observe that everyone is getting enough to eat and live as a living right on Earth.

 

When and as I see myself creating a positive experience out of buying something, consuming or keeping in stock, I stop and I breathe – I first ensure that I am not buying such product out of fear but only as self-support and in moderate quantities wherein I can see that fear is not being the directive principle of my consumption habits, but is only common sensical according to the ability we have of going to as shop and buying more if required, without realizing how such ‘simple action’ is not an opportunity for billions on Earth.

 

When and as I see myself feeling compelled to say ‘thank you’ to my father or anyone else buying stuff for me, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am only wanting to create a point of thankfulness as an awareness of what I am being provided with, without realizing that such provision is only available for those with money and how then all the perceived ‘care’ and ‘love’ and ‘concern’ is in fact covering up all possible fears of not having enough food to feed the children, which is a rather practical point to consider, ensuring no fear, no backchat is existent within the acquisition of such products being only a habit and a paternal-pattern that I had created as a point to emulate for myself in my life, as I see and realize how I had created such a positive attitude out of getting all these products for us to consume and eat, which was to me like a synonym of love and care.

 

When and as I see myself seeing food in stock as a positive thing in my reality, I stop and I breathe – I realize that this is only able to exist if we have enough money to do so, thus I support myself to make of such experience of being cared for not something bound to parents and money, but a living certainty, a living right that is able to be provided for all beings equally which is how and why in the equal money system, though parents receiving unconditional financial support, there will be more time to educate themselves to become parents and as such ensure that no emotional/ feeling bounds are created from the role that has been taken of the parents as ‘providers of life,’ but instead walk as equals with children only ensuring that proper nutrition, proper care and physical considerations are implemented in the living space, once that money is no longer a limitation for the being to have a dignified living, and how it is important to allow parents to see how a child is not a load to the parent, but only an extension of self that can be equally walked-with as the realization that we can support each other to Live instead of living to build each other’s ego and system-status as parents/ children in hierarchical levels.

 

I see and realize how money has determined my positive experience toward my parents – and my father specifically – in relation to being able to provide the necessary means and education for me to have a dignified living –whereas if I had not been supported with these things, I would have had a negative experience, which proves how money determines even our familial interactions and relationships as no being is currently an alien to how the world system works in terms of having money or not to live

 

I commit myself to establish the Equal Money System as a means to ensure that no being is bound to another through a monetary-binding force creating a dependence toward one another in a hierarchical mode – but instead, all beings being equally supported learn what it is that we can actually get to recognize and appreciate of one another out of the monetary loop, but instead consider how we can support each other to develop better ways to live and interact in a world wherein survival is no longer a “living-mode” but life and living is the point then explored, shaped and sculpted as we go learning how to be parents, children and inhabitants in the world where equality is the living principle, which in itself points out major shifts in how families currently exist and are bound as. Parents will become living examples of what we are here to be and do instead of becoming the bosses of children dictating their every word and every say through the imposition of authority as a relationship of need through and by money as it currently exists.

 

Support the Equal Money System as this is the only way that we will ensure each other are no longer subject to have a positive or negative life experience with regards to money, but money is instead a given-living-right, leaving enough time to focus on our living skills, communication abilities and the development of human expression as a means to ensure that no being is left behind in their ability to live and express in/ as their utmost potential, as this is what we see and realize is what’s best for all in Equality.

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Day 39: Hypocrisy

 

hypocrisy
n   the practice of claiming to have higher standards or more laudable beliefs than is the case.
hupokrisis ‘acting of a theatrical part’, from hupokrinesthai ‘play a part, pretend’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever judge another being as being hypocrite without realizing that we have all become hypocrites the moment that we live according to the idea that we want to fulfill of ourselves in our minds, chasing our wants, needs and desires and using all means available to achieve them, wherein we portray ourselves as a character that is able to ‘get what one wants’ by using deceptive means that in no way consider life and what is best for all, but only self interest and personal gratification.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people in my reality as hypocrites toward myself, when in fact the only one that was judging them was myself in my secret mind, believing that because ‘they need me/ they require my stuff’ they are being hypocrite toward me just to keep things ‘at ease’ around, without realizing that I have been the only one creating the point of hypocrisy by having thoughts, judgments about others in my mind that I have justified in self righteousness wherein projecting blame toward others makes me ‘the victim’ and the ‘good person’ that is ‘good spirited’ and is ‘true’ to herself – without realizing that the very act of judging and having thoughts in the back of my head about others that they can in no way see/ be aware of is making me exactly that which I am judging others for:a hypocrite.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that we have all always been hypocrites as that has become ‘the way’ to survive in a dog eat dog world, wherein pretending to care, pretending to be interested in another’s life, about animals, about the environment, about those in need comes like a ‘nice thought’ that makes us feel like we are ‘considerate’ toward fellow living beings, just to eventually in one second forget about it and continue living our lives, pursuing happiness, scheming ways to win, seeing how we can get the most with the least inversion, planning out ways to become effective within the system that functions in corruption and dishonesty by playing the game, without having ever considered that the acceptance of such constant scheming to be ‘more,’ to be ‘above others’ is what is driving this entire Earth to its absolute depletion, wherein everything that will be left-  if we don’t stop ourselves -is our dreams of chasing after the elusive pot of gold in the name of personal ‘power,’ that can only exist as an illusion within the delusional and schizophrenic monetary system that is based upon abuse and not life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as hypocrites for having approaching me in the name of self-interest and not in a ‘genuine’ way, without realizing that there are no ‘genuine intentions’ in this world wherein we have all bound ourselves to a system of survivalism, where the one that is able to be the best liar and ‘fool’ the most is the one that gets the most power as the ultimate reward = money in the world – hence how could I have ever gotten ‘hurt’ by seeing the truth of ‘others’ intentions’ without realizing that I have ruled my life according to the same principle of having to play the rules of this abusive game in order to survive, which are rules that I had never questioned and that I had accepted as ‘how things are’ and in that, justify all abuse and neglect toward life, which became me accepting hypocrisy as ‘who I am’ toward everyone and everything in this world, pretending to be ‘just fine’ while in fact, I could only deem that ‘everything is fine’ by deliberately accepting lies as truth and making myself ‘more’ through such ‘truths,’ as knowledge and information that I have defined as ‘who I am’ – in this

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become equally deceptive and hypocrite the moment that I accepted another to be and become only a personality, a set of preferences, beliefs, judgments, values, words, pictures, emotions and feelings that I have accepted as ‘who I am/ who others are,’ which is in fact accepting the abuse of life ‘as life’ and pretend that we and everyone in this world were in fact ‘living,’ while in reality, we have all become hypocrites in pretending to live while abusing life, regardless of the evidence that is here every single day, in every moment  wherein animals are going extinct due to our abuse, people die out of sheer human negligence to provide unconditional life support, the environment is extremely exploited in the name of personal power, in the name of human supremacy over all other life forms that are regarded as ‘less than,’ which in fact makes me and all that have defined ourselves as our ego, our personality, our beliefs, our dreams, our feelings, emotions, preferences as hypocrites toward life, because we never dared to question ‘who we are’ in relation to life and how come that our ‘lives’ could only be fueled by using what is unconditionally here as the Earth and what we call ‘resources’ and selling it for our own personal ‘benefit’ which is translated to money as power in this world-system.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become the ultimate hypocrite by believing that I could point out ‘flaws’ in others, while not even having dared to realize that who I am is the product of a society and a world built upon lies wherein no genuine thoughts, intentions and values have ever existed, because we’ve sold life in the name of money which means that whatever I ever pondered as genuine, as ‘sincere’ within me/ others was in fact part of the lies to keep myself within the belief that ‘I am a good person’ / ‘I am trust worthy’ – not wanting to see that this can only exist as long as ‘I am protected’ and I have money in my pocket as a form of security – otherwise, when my very own survival is threatened, all ‘honesty’ and ‘sincere intentions’ would be dumped out of the window because reality then knocks at our door to realize that: nothing that we have ever perceived to be ‘good natured’ was in fact so, as it had always been a cover up, a make-up for the inherent negative experience that we have all stemmed from since the inception and conception of ourselves within this existence. (Read Sunette’s blog for more)

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was sincere and a genuine ‘good hearted’ person, without realizing that I used this as a way to manipulate my reality to obtain and gain that which I knew would make me ‘worthy’ at the eyes of others in society and in that, being able to eventually create a ‘good reputation’ that can be translated as ‘good source of money’ in a system wherein personalities that are presented as ‘good willed,’ ‘sincere’ and ‘honest’ are ‘rare to find,’ yet not realizing that any self-perception of being ‘good natured’ and ‘honest’/ sincere has only been a way to continue surviving in the ‘good side’ of reality, while avoiding and deliberately covering up the ‘bad side’ which is how I had deemed others to be: hypocrites, cheaters, liars without daring to see how the very scheming and planning of my own life, myself, my personality and the picture presentation that I built of myself toward others, was aiming at serving two gods –  wanting to do ‘good’ to life but wanting to preserve my specialness and my recognition in the system as a way to be able to continue abusing/living a ‘good life,’ yet pretending to care about those that were ‘less fortunate’ than myself.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that I’ve become the very epitome of hypocrisy, not only as an individual but as humanity, as an entire race that has dared to pretend that ‘everything is fine’ and we all go walking our days, seeking to ‘make it’ and looking for our greatest next excitement and successful living, living to the ‘max’ while neglecting all the effects and consequences of having lived by the law of self-interest throughout our existence, which is now facing a turning point that affects us all, and that must be a wake up call for everyone that is already seeing and living the consequences of our endless disregard toward life.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to judge smiles as a sign of hypocrisy without realizing that I would play out the exact same mechanism every time that I actually perceived a potential ‘threat’ or ‘antagonism’ from another, wherein the positive attitude such as unconsciously smiling was used to ‘soften’ any form of hostility that I could be facing in such moments, which reveals how being ‘affable’ and ‘good natured’ as an overall positive attitude is actually stemming from fear of conflict, fear of having enemies, fear of antagonism wherein through deception and lies we can ‘buy’ another to have them be ‘on our side’ in a world wherein only self interest can be the reason to divide and conquer.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I have been a hypocrite from the very first stages in my life wherein I knew that presenting an ‘adorable expression’ would lead family, teachers, older people to be fascinated by me and in that, have everyone just ‘loving me’ and ‘appreciating me’ which would make me feel ‘good’ as the positive reward that I then became so used to constantly and continuously obtain from others – in this

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that hypocrisy became the deceptive portrayal of a decorative positive experience toward people as my modus vivendi, in order to always have everyone/ the most ‘on my side’ and ‘agreeing’ with me, wherein I ensured that all things would always work according to ‘my plans/ my way,’ which means that hypocrisy became the ultimate manipulation to always get what I want, how I want it and whenever I want it, through instilling sympathy for me as the devil that looked for ways and means to always get ‘the most of the cake,’ as all the positive energy experience that attention, care, money and compliments that I could gather from others, in order to then ‘value’ myself as ‘worthy’ because others could see me/ consider me as ‘worthy’ and a ‘valuable person.’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to accept positive rewards toward my hypocrisy which made a professional life-long hypocrite that knew how to ‘handle’ the system through creating and developing different personalities according to ‘where’ and with whom I was in my world, wherein I learned that different tricks as behavior, personality, words, self-presentation could work different according to each moment, each person to obtain my positive reward  becoming a chameleon that is multi-personality based,  and never ever considering this as something that was signifying deception and dishonesty, because I thought that everyone else was doing it, so it ‘must be’ the way to cope with reality, and in that

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become an equal part of a deceptive, corruptible and life-treason system wherein we have all pretended that it was ‘okay’ to place price tags upon ourselves to be sold for that positive reward – to place price tags upon  life wherein we thought that it was ‘okay’ to have people starving in isolated countries in the world wherein they could not ruin our ‘pretty picture world;’ wherein I made it okay to compete against others by presenting a made-up personality,  misrepresenting, manipulating and abusing the very  life that constitutes my beingness and diminishing it to a single personality as a bundle of thoughts, feelings, emotions, desires, wants, needs, preferences as a constant engine that had to be kept running by consuming more and more of anything that could keep me existing in that ‘positive idea of self,’ never pondering why I required to ever feel ‘more’ and ‘better’ about myself – and in this, never questioning why we were always seeking to be and portray ourselves as an ‘image of success’ at the eyes of others, in spite of the actuality that was going on within us, as all the inner conflict, self-hatred, self-loathing, anger, frustration and desires for revenge that we were only seeking to exert toward ‘the world/ others’ as an apparent blame for ‘them’ as the ones that went before us, having left a world in shambles, while the reality is that I as everything and everyone that is here have been equal participants in this game that we have called ‘life/ living’ wherein only through deceptive/ hypocrite means could we get some form of ‘decency,’ which implies that respect for life and human integrity have never been existent in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that ‘higher standards’ can exist as an immaculate form of benevolence in this reality, without realizing that all positive experience is in fact stemming from our very own strife to make ourselves ‘more’ and ‘higher’ than what we are, because we have enslaved ourselves to an energetic system wherein we can only be ‘worthy’ and ‘good’ at the eyes of others through building up an image as a reputation that can be then ‘upgraded’ and ‘inflated’ like a price and sold and rewarded for good money as the actual positive-reward that can lead to fulfill the ‘higher standard’ that I sought to get and be recognized for as the ‘moreness’ of myself, which is and can only exist through abuse and general conflict/ opposition and abuse toward life and the consideration of Life in Equality.

 

As I see and realize that everything I have ever believed myself to be and think as a positive attribute has been part of the lies and deception in this world, I understand the importance of walking a process of Wiring, Self-Forgiveness and Self Corrective Application to give back to myself that positive experience that I always sought to be and become in the name of personal glory, wherein I tacitly agreed upon living in a system of abuse just to eventually get my positive reward for having been such a ‘good player’ in the system, abiding to the laws and rules of ‘survival of the fittest’ as the natural selection that I used as a justification to build up my ‘positive attributes’ to become part of the ‘winners’ in the system, and in that, forgetting eventually about all the ‘good-doer’ type of personality once that power and the desire for it simply corrupts even the most ‘honest’ man on Earth, as once that abuse is accepted and allowed in one single part/ aspect in our reality = it becomes acceptable for all, which is precisely how it is important for me to become The Point that Stops perpetuating the existence of myself as a deceptive and hypocrite toward myself/everyone else and this entire world the moment that I pretended to ‘care’ but only really care about my personal satisfaction, which can only exist as the saturation of positive energy based upon the abuse of all life.

 

I commit myself to expose my own hypocrisy toward myself/others/ the world from the personal to the global systems wherein everything ‘positive’ and ‘good natured’ was in fact the make-up put upon the actual shady, nasty and greedy side of each and every single participant in this world system that we have accepted and allowed to use for personal glorification and self-interest, and seeing it as something ‘normal’ and ‘acceptable’ to live-by and seek-for, without ever questioning why it is that we can’t ever get to an optimum position that benefits all and seeing that the cause for the problems in the world is in fact our own personal pursuit of happiness wherein we only care about ‘our own stability/ benefit/ security’ as money, while deliberately neglecting to ask/ ponder/ question the fact that not everyone in this world has the same access to money to have a decent living condition, nor can even they exist in the same ‘dream state’ of pursuing happiness without even having the very basic needs such as food, shelter, water, clothes, sanitation available within their world, which places into perspective the extremes of our deliberate human ignorance toward the world as ourselves.

 

Therefore I commit myself to walk my process to show and reveal to myself that anything that I had deemed as ‘good’ within myself, could only stem from a negative self-created experience that sought to be covered up in an acceptable way wherein I could obtain and gain other’s attention and acceptance in the name of my personal power, power that can only exist if others are ‘less’ than me in my own mind.

 

I commit myself to walk in every moment in Self Honesty wherein I ensure I no longer place myself as a separate part of the system that apparently ‘doesn’t abuse,’ because of believing that ‘I always wanted to do good’ – while not even realizing how this was also seeking a reward to myself for ‘doing good’ as recognition and eventually making of it all a ‘great life’ that I could live out of keeping myself as a lie within a system wherein hypocrites gain the most as they are the best liars when complying to the system and being seemingly ‘benevolent’ while in fact the world is in reverse, and all those that had nothing were the ones that we kept in such a deliberate isolated and caged position in order for us to ‘feel good’ about being able to do something for ‘the less fortunate,’ which proves that altruism is the most blatant form of hypocrisy that is stemming from personal glorification and never from a genuine care toward another as equals, as all that is sought in altruism is to feel good about having people depending on you, as that makes you ‘powerful’ as a mind that thinks that having power over others is something fulfilling.

 

I commit myself to stop any projection of hypocrisy as a judgment toward others in my head as I realize that we have all been equally participating within a system wherein we have compromise each other to only be able to thrive if we comply to the ‘rules of the game’ as a deliberate form of abuse toward all life/ all living forms in the name of personal power and self-gratification.

 

I commit myself to expose how there can be no ‘personal power’ unless it is based upon abuse, and how the only power that exists is here as ourselves as the physical breathing moment wherein I can stand still in my mind, not participating in desires, wants, needs, dreams and the opposite as lack, self rejection, blame, excuses, justifications and self-deprecation that are equally energetic experiences that I have defined as part of ‘who I am’ and in this, expose what is it that we have been In Fact abusing while keeping our personal states of mind ‘alive’ which is ourselves.

 

I commit myself to reveal, show and demonstrate how it is only through Self-Forgiveness in Self-Honesty that we can in fact stop fighting for our own survival and stopping the desire for ‘power’ and ‘moreness’ of ourselves – and reveal this process of Self Honesty as the only way that we can make us trust-worthy again with Life, that Life can stand in and as a system that benefits all, that is regarded as one and equal within and for everyone, wherein Who I am is no longer defined by a point of separation of my self equality and oneness.

 

I commit myself to be part of the group of people that have committed themselves to ensure that the rules of the game within this ecosystem function according to that which is best for all, at all times, wherein we can finally stop being hypocrites toward one another and discover what it is in fact the genuine expression of human beings and life, once that the bonds of dependency through the current monetary system as survivalism and abuse, stop and reveal the actual nature of ourselves to be worked with once that the threat toward life is removed as an actual self-willed action within the understanding that: we were the only ones that generated, stimulated an perpetuated such separation from substance/ life in an attempt to make of life an experience as a ‘feeling of being more’ than ourselves here, in the physical.

 

I commit myself to use the word hypocrisy as a way to rattle the cages of all that are caged in a comfort zone of self-dishonesty as I stand and dare to call out the abuse that we have all accepted in the name of personal glory, and in that, reveal our ‘true nature’ as well as showing/ revealing how we can only redeem ourselves once that we dare to care to create a world system of money that can be equally distributed for all, as a self-forgiveness act to clear the sins of our past wherein we only sought our individual satisfaction – we can only become self-honest and trustworthy with life/ as life if we dare to give and receive life unconditionally to all parts equally, within the realization that we are one organism that must function in equality at all times and that any form of abuse will only cause the re-load of the same abusive patterns of the past.

 

I commit myself to breathe here, to walk my own secret mind toward others beings throughout my life until I make sure that I have cleared my standing here as every moment of consistently existing as breath only, so that I can in fact be trusted again with life. And extend this point of self-support toward others as I see and realize that we can only stop if we All collectively stop and take responsibility for the spider web spun in separation of life as ourselves.

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Day 33: Land Lover

Wanting to change the world, claiming to ‘love life’ is a usual personality suit to avoid having to deal with looking at the first change and ‘love’ that we have always missed within ourselves: ourselves

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever proclaim that I ‘loved the world,’ wherein this world was only based on the pictures I would see with my two eyes wherein I tried to always see the positive side of everything, and in this believing that everything always has a ‘positive/ happy ending’ which is part of the hope that remains when looking at this world and realizing that: it was never a pretty picture, it was always what I wanted to believe the world was, which became an elusive desire wherein I sought to attain a state of happiness ‘for the world’ by thinking positive and seeing the bright side of everything, without realizing that I was only deceiving myself and making it all seem ‘better’ than it ever really was.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create a positive experience toward ‘the world’ according to pictures that I would see through eyes which were filtered through a positive view on reality, wherein everything seemed to be ‘heaven sent’ and believing myself to be heaven sent, without ever realizing or even knowing how it all actually operates on a 24/7 self-abuse that I had chosen to not see, because I did not want to ‘make myself feel sad’ about it, without realizing that any experience – positive or negative – is equally supporting the same fuck-up and abuse as I misused the physical matter to sustain my dreams, my hopes, my wishes, my bright-side looking at the world wherein I believed myself to be ‘innocent’ for all the atrocities in the world, never ever considering that I was all, and that all forms of abuse are existent ‘here’ as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to deliberately become spiteful toward all abuse that I got to know of and be aware of in the name of keeping myself happy and positive thinking about it, wherein in my mind, everything would have to get to a positive/happy ending, within this, always expecting someone/ something to miraculously save the day – but never considering how I was in fact being the source of such abuse by constantly seeking to see beauty and see the bright side while the reality everywhere, in every street that I walked through was showing/ revealing/ demonstrating me that it wasn’t. In this

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to deliberately neglect reality in the name of my ‘how I feel about reality,’ which I dared to use as a catalyst to create pictures about, but never really being aware of how is it that I was a part of it, and the proof is that I always thought that what I painted was from some ‘alter ego’ that could only paint death and destruction, within this only creating further experiences within myself that had Nothing to do with an actual physical awareness of Who I am within this entire world – yet claimed to want to ‘save the world’ and be a ‘good-doer’ for the sake of feeling good about myself, feeling ‘at peace’ and at ease, because hey, at least in my world things were just fine.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to want to change the world outside of myself, yet existing as a total wreck within me, impregnated with fear, anxiety, fear of the future, fear of loss, self deprecation, suicidal thoughts – yet! still wanting to save the world – and the point that I never asked myself was:

How can I pretend to care about my reality if I haven’t even dared to care for myself, for my ‘mind sanity’ and my own experience, my physical body that I neglected in every breath that I used to only fuel my own tormented mind-world, never ever questioning how it was this very state of mind that was being poured out along with other 7 billion people manifesting this world that we ‘live’ in now.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to proclaim that I was a ‘good person’ because ‘I want to do good/ save the world/ bring peace to the world,’ without even daring to look at how within myself I was in a constant conflict and self-deprecation wherein I sought acceptance through abuse and abusing substance literally and figuratively speaking only to fulfill and idea of being ‘in a phase,’ in a temporary transition, which could have been easily perpetuated till this very day in endless patterns of ‘wishing well,’ but forgetting about myself and missing myself within my entire desire/ want of ‘changing the world.’

 

I realize that I could have never done anything by myself, with my own wishes and creations in order to ‘make an impact’ because I had not even dared to stand with more than 2 people as a friendship relationship – meaning that I had become the very antithesis of working in a team/ being part of a group and now I see, realize and am discovering how it is that I could not have gotten anywhere alone, and that I can only walk this process within a group wherein I have learned how to first care for myself, because I had little self-respect left for life, for my own life.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to project my own desires and wishes toward ‘the world’ and ‘people’ and seeking to ‘make people happy’ as temporary mindfuck that I could trigger in others in order to feel better about myself – within this thinking that through creating ‘positive experiences’ within others and showing them that I ‘care,’ I could ‘change the world – but in fact, it was all simply a blatant lie and deception that I participated in.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever preach spirituality to others as a way to ‘find themselves,’ wherein I became the perfect example of portraying a peaceful face while existing in absolute suppression of the most gnawing experiences such as petrification, fear of losing relationships, fear of the future and doing everything that I could – including life-choices – in order to not have to face my world, which is a point that I am still walking within my reality as I see that I had become a pattern of only being subservient to ‘the system’ to keep everything in a constant/’stable’ status quo, yet never really risking anything or anyone in my life in order to stand up for real, stand up for life.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever experience fear of loss toward family, friends, relationships in my world for committing myself to life, as I see, realize and am walking the point as being doing something for myself – as all, as one, as equal – for the very first time in my existence, wherein I am learning how to care for myself and dare I say, love myself first, which is a word I have been deliberately avoiding and backchatting about these past days because of the lies that I involved myself into in the name of so-called ‘love,’ which was only me abusing myself – it was never, ever about ‘others.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still hold an opposite experience toward the word ‘love’ which reveals by the moment that I had avoided writing it out when it comes to self-love, as I see and realize now that I am able to stand one an equal to this word beginning with myself, to actually walk the process of writing myself, applying self forgiveness and self corrective application to occupy the space that I breathe in, to occupy the cells that I had sold to my mind in the name of making my life ‘an experience,’ a vault with memories that I could use to feel good about myself – instead I see that I had missed the very primordial relationship which is myself toward my own physical body, as all the cells, bones, tissue, flesh that I am, that is of the Earth, that is the actual creator that I had reduced to being  a single ‘vessel.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever want to ‘clean the world’ and live in a constant criticism from a very young age toward people wasting water, littering on the streets, becoming extremely angry at people throwing garbage, abusing their animals, their children – without ever daring to look or even being aware of how my inner physical body, the very water that makes up over a 70% of my physicality is equally polluted as the outside that I see, that I smell, that I cringe about because of my own reactions, my own feelings, my own emotions that were equally consuming my body in order to be able to exist.

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think that the world is ‘fucked up’ because of others but never seeing myself as part of the same equation, which means that I would carry this innocent ‘aura’ around me wherein I deliberately became an ever agreeable person at some point in order to be liked, accepted, even be lol considered by some as some type of guru  because of the image that I portrayed of myself – yet in fact only deluding myself and others within this positive white-crap while the inner reality and experience of myself was of a constant anxiety, nervousness, uncertainty, self doubt, always going into future projections and ‘what ifs,’ still seeking some ‘final truth’ that I could stick to, just because I wasn’t accepting myself as being able to ‘save myself’ and first focus on my own process before even daring to think believe or perceive that ‘I actually cared’ and wanted to ‘save the world,’ when in fact, I was seeking to feel good about myself just so that I could avoid having to look at relationships and my own participation within them, because the thought ‘hey, I am a good person, I want to do good and that’s all that matters’ was in my head as a constant self-brainwashing to avoid looking at the reality, wherein actual physical actions must be self-directed and self-willed in this world to make and actual difference to the current ‘living’ condition that we are all existing as.

 

I commit myself to expose how deceptive it actually is to ‘pretend to care’ about the world and all other living beings if one has not yet vowed to support ourselves first, to learn to really care for our own lives, to expose how easy it is to want ‘the best for all’ but not really walking the process of self-equalization as the self-agreement that must be established in order for me to really be able to stand as one and equal with myself, and within that, expand my own self equality and oneness within to establish my self equality and oneness without, wherein no desire to ‘change the world’ is necessary, as I decide to walk the process to stop all desires, all wants, all dreams and instead walk the self-support necessary in order for me to actually take Self Responsibility for myself and this world through placing myself in a position within the world system to then actually become part of the change that we require to direct and conduct once that we have established our own self-authority first.

 

I commit myself to stop any desires/needs as a constant ultimate wish that it will all turn out ‘just fine’ in the end,and expose it as the laxity promoted by all spirituality and positive thinking wherein ‘it will all be just fine’ becomes the greatest excuse to hope and wait and only care about our own little bubble of ‘life’ wherein we ‘live’ and then we die with the same hope that something/ someone would actually make this world a better place all of a sudden.

 

I commit myself to explain and share how within  ‘wanting to change the world’ and ‘save the planet’ only with good intentions, we are in fact only looking at a feel-good for the pseudo-altruism that stems as a desire in separation of self, and how it is necessary to first take Self Responsibility for ourselves as our own mind – which is our creation – in order to establish ourselves as the authority of life that can decide with effectiveness and precision what is best for all, as I will have walked the inner/ personal process to be able to discern what’s best for all as I will exist as and live by the principle of that which is best for all = life in Equality as the certainty of self-movement to create actual physical solutions to make of this world a place wherein we would like to come back to again, a place where all life can be equally regarded and simply live, as that is what we haven’t allowed ourselves to realize just because of fearing that it was ‘too much, ‘ and impossible to change.

 

We are here and walking the decision we’ve made to  stand one and equal as ourselves first, to establish a self-agreement wherein we give ourselves back to ourselves as the realization that I cannot own/ possess/ control anything o anyone in separation of myself – nor can I stand alone in my initiative to better the living conditions for other beings: I walk my own process out of the mind and into the physical to then, go walking my physical equality and oneness along with other beings that have equally decided and dedicated to a Solution for all Life to be one and equal again.

The only accumulation that is acceptable is breathing as life and stopping all ideas/ beliefs/delusions about love and saving the planet – the statement of love can only be accepted if a system such as the Equal Money System  is established by ourselves to create the necessary living conditions that enable LIFE to exist, until then, I commit to sharing how  professing love is no different to selling drugs on TV for so-called mental instability. 

 

ps. Hard Rock should also stop promoting daydreaming. We are all new in this process of learning How-To Live in physical reality.

 

Learn how to Love Yourself and then the Planet in Equality:

Desteni

Desteni I Process

Desteni Forum

Equal Money System for a Real Loving thy Neighbor practical plan for this reality

Neighborism

And read our blogs at Journey to Life

What is she so fulfilled about? (2008)

 

Blogs:

How the World will Never Change – Day 32

Day 32: Mind Authority

 

Great Interviews:

Reptilians – Facing The Question of ‘Who I Am’ – Part 36

An existential questions answered and walked into simplicity while revealing the actual secrets of existence.

Reptilians – How Hope Creates Hell – Part 38 : what are we waiting for?
Life Review – Waiting for my Life to Happen: we can be filled with great plans, but if we don’t ground/ land them, they will remain as great pipe dreams only – hear why.

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