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193. Self Motivation – Self Movement

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I’ll be writing self forgiveness on the specific points that lead to procrastination which have to do with the motivation aspects to ‘move’ and ‘do things’ in our reality, wherein if it’s not based on earning a reward/ there being something for us as a ‘positive experience,’ we simply don’t direct ourselves / don’t do what is required to be done.

And this is how it all started:

I had a dream wherein I had applied for a job at a record store, and I was given a certain schedule that I of course had to cover. However I was rather entertained in my reality with something else, I remember I was interacting or moving around with people and as such when the time came for me to go cover my job schedule, I simply decided not to go and the reason in this case was because ‘I didn’t require the money,’ thus I experienced this absolute laxity toward the point of responsibility simply because I was not being guided by survival to do it, which is something that I can see is related to the motivation/ motive-factor as that energetic point that acts like a crutch for me to move.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for having procrastinated things because there is no positive reward/ money in it as a point of incentive that I have accepted and allowed myself to learn is the only reason why I should ‘move’ and do things within my reality – furthermore, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within this very same thinking pattern, believe that because I won’t be making money out of my career, then ‘what is the point of being a ‘licensed pro’ at it?’ without realizing that in both cases, my procrastination and deliberate neglect toward this final examination point is showing how I have been used to only moving myself if there is some positive reward/ money and/or future benefit from it, without realizing that this is actually a system requirement and as such it is part of finishing what I begun and getting the actual paper that will certify all the years that I did spend in school, which is a point within the system that is definitely required to be walked and to obtain.

 

When and as I see myself thinking and believing that I require some positive incentive in order to commit myself to my tasks, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am able to move and direct myself within the consideration of such task/ activity being in the best interest of all, which includes that which I believe would only ‘benefit me’ such as a career, without realizing that this is a point required by the system in order to validate the years spent in school – thus it is not a matter of preference, but a requisite in order to validate myself within the system.

 

I commit myself to be my own motivation regarding all points that I decide to participate in as an opportunity for me to expand myself in my world and reality and within this, also walking any resistance toward anything bureaucratic in nature, such as final papers/ examinations and protocols at an academic level, which is how I commit myself to simply breathe through it, get to do the necessary contacts and arrangements and get it done.

 

The stagnation and deliberate shoving away of responsibilities is part of this point. I’ve lost the ‘fear’ to not do things and within this, I have self sabotaged myself extensively, simply because all the ‘discipline’ that I had lived was in fact only based on fear and keeping up a reputation that in my mind, I could not ‘afford’ to spoil for one second.

When the characters were identified, in my mind I created this point of laxity toward responsibilities, like literally only doing it at the last moment and essentially justifying it – foolishly enough – with me no longer acting out of fear to get things done, but ‘testing my waters’ in relation to my own ‘self-movement’ once that such fear is apparently non existent. And I say ‘apparently’ because it is quite obvious how I actually only turned the tables and went to the opposite of being the ‘on time responsible one’ to be a deliberate procrastinator one. This was all done consciously/ me being aware of it, and the only point that I can see has factored into it is this ‘force’ wherein I have opted to simply give myself away to it and continue placing things aside, postponing it all simply because I don’t perceive such points getting done within a matter of life or death. This reveals to what extent we have only moved when there is either a positive or negative reward and in my case, in the dream, the ‘record store job’ I had always kept in the past as this ‘dream like job’ – even if I am now aware it is not ‘dream-like’ at all – as something that I would do out of pleasure and that was going to apparently only be like an extended hobby. So, in the dream when it came to actually cover my hours, I decided to simply not go and take it as lightly as possible, simply because there was no point ‘behind’ it that was pushing me to do it, to move.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see money/ fame/ good life as a motivation to move in my reality and the moment that such motivation is no longer ‘here,’ I stopped caring about my career and getting to the last tip of it even knowing that I had to do it anyways – thus

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only move when and as there is money involved in what I commit myself to do/ act and direct in terms of responsibilities/ studies within the system.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a prey of my own dishonest starting point for studying a career as within the impetus of going for it for a personal benefit, once that personal benefit is no longer a point sought within me within this career, I stopped caring about it all and in this, going into a cycle of just walking through it without any actual direction to use the point and opportunity to expand myself in my world, as after all, it was my decision made at all times to study what I studied – thus, I take responsibility for my words, my decisions, my life and stopped believing that ‘I must do this for the system’ but do it for myself, as the starting point of all that I do.

 

When and as I see myself requiring a reason outside of myself to do things, I stop and I breathe –  I realize that this has been a point of self-sabotage most of the times as within having a reason to do things outside of myself implies that I am not being the directive principle of the task, but doing it ‘for something/ for someone.’ Thus

 

I commit myself to be the starting point of everything that I do in the consideration of the requirements that I have to participate in/ complete as part of this world system, as well as the consideration of me doing this as a practical action and direction to see how it is possible to direct oneself without being motivated by external factors of either a positive  (money/ recognition) charge or negative charge (fear of not having a license in the system/ fear of wasting my studies) as I see and realize that at all times, all tasks to be done imply a point of self-movement: what is best for all as best for myself within the consideration of my own commitment to do and participate in that which I have agreed to work and participate in as part of my responsibility.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use reasoning as excuses and justifications which is knowledge and information in order to not do things based on my ‘wants/ needs/ desires’ wherein the moment there is no ‘positive incentive’ to move, I simply don’t move and relegate the point aside as if it was actually not important to work with, not realizing that it is not about what I can ‘get’ from it as an experience, but simply realizing: what Must Be Done no matter what – and in this, I stop seeking for a ‘reason’ to do it, and instead become my own self-willed direction to do it, without having anyone or anything in the background of my head as a reason to ‘push through’ as this would be separation and only lead to further cycles of ‘reasoning’ why I would rather just continue Not doing it and leave he point without any direction.

 

When and as I see myself reasoning why I should not do a task – I stop and I breathe – I bring the point here as what it physically entails, the consequences that doing it and not doing it in reality are and stick to this practical outflow of my decisions, instead of weighing my decisions based on the values that I’ve given to such task as a point of preference and the level of ‘uselessness’ that I’ve guarded toward acquiring a professional title within being an artist.

 

I commit myself to stop sabotaging myself based on knowledge and information toward the tasks to be done, and I actually realize that it is only a moment of standing up and taking responsibility for what I had agreed upon studying and finishing it till it is done. Those were my words when I begun, and those are the actions I have to live.

I realize that the most prominent point within this procrastination point was also the extensive judgment toward my own choices for a career and within this, seeing such final title/ paper/ license as equally useless, which then became this whole ‘uselessness’ experience toward it, wherein I deliberately placed it aside, just the same way that in the dream I thought of the job as ‘not necessary’ and simply deciding to ‘not go to my job and remain with what I have.’

 

I commit myself to to stop assessing what I do based on the ‘investment value’ that I have given to all things in my life, wherein even if it is a point of responsibility if I am not considering it at face value/ according to my personal interests as something ‘important’ then I simply not do it, without realizing that If I applied the same reasoning to all things in my reality, and all beings acted the same way, it would only create a replica of the world we have today, wherein each one is only seeking after our personal interests while neglecting everything else as ‘non of my business/ not my ‘responsibility’’  – within this

 

I commit myself to understand that Self Responsibility is Not selective and that I cannot ‘choose’ what I apply myself with and what not – it is about a principle of committing myself to certain responsibilities and walking through them till it is done.

 

So, the key words here are Self Movement and Self Will – again, which have become the pillars of the realizations in the past wherein I would get ‘stuck’ within something even within writing and not writing everyday in the past, and how I had to deliberately get myself out of the loop not by an external motivation but, as a realization that I had to continue writing as a proof to myself that nothing and no one can motivate me to support myself, but myself and that way I can stand as my own authority.

 

I realize that in the Equal Money System, we won’t require to go through points like getting ‘credentials’ for money either or survival – thus this is a point to train myself to move without an incentive and realizing this point as part of the responsibilities acquired within the ability to have a career/ having studied.

 

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Day 10: Money and Politeness

 

As I walked the point of politeness as a positive experience within me and now that I am realizing to what extent everything that we have done/lived by has been linked to Money and the functioning of money in this world, I’ve seen how I’ve lived as a ‘polite person’ without identifying the actual positive ‘kick’ I would get out of it, yet this ‘attribute’ was linked to an inherent desire to be part of the ‘polite people in the world’ which, if reading back in my previous entry – were ‘well educated people’ that were mostly rich/ having more than enough money to live ‘well.’

 

This ties in with my choice of careers as well wherein my inclinations toward the world of ‘arts and culture’ lead me to believe that I had a more ‘refined’ taste than other members in my family who would not be any type of art enthusiasts or well-cultured in the usual ‘intellectual ways’ that I would deem people to be in such ‘social circles.’ So, when I began realizing that only a certain type of people was into art/ music and how they mostly were people with a certain education/ background that lead them to have such ‘refined’ tastes and views on life, I realized that I had to equate that, that I had to become part of such circles in order to achieve my desires/ dreams that I had formulated back then, which were pretty much linked to having enough money to travel around the world and the usual stuff that we dream of as young kids growing up into the ‘adult world.’

 

So these ‘refined manners’ were acquired from interacting with people outside of my family. I recall admiring people that were ‘well cultured’ and would express themselves with such a vocabulary that denoted they had read tons of books throughout their life. I would enjoy going to my aunt’s house for that reason, it was filled with books and we could go to museums and do stuff that I never did with my parents. The same when enjoying talking to their friends and also when being with parents of my friends and partner, they were all ‘well-cultured’ people, even teachers in literature and history and linguistics, which made me want to become part of that circle of people that would have dinners with wine while telling intellectual jokes and having some delicious Italian salad while eating nuts. If you have seen the movie ‘the hours’ I wanted to be like the character played by Meryl Streep, and somehow I would picture myself feeling equally empty even if I had achieved such ‘status’ in my world. But anyways, it was that ‘realm’ wherein I envisioned myself as being fulfilled.

 

What was the way to go there? Becoming equal and one to how I would see these people would behave, talk and experience themselves. So, I enjoyed reading from an early age and linked this to being/ becoming a cultured person, even if I read mostly fiction novels for most of the time.

There was also a time when I was a lot younger around 9 years old when I would attend these luxurious dinners with my parents wherein I got to experience what ‘being in society’ was, and how I was simply acting like a full grown up at that age. I would observe how everyone behaved and even though I knew the whole thing was a façade and really fake, I would play along trying to be charismatic to be equally liked/ accepted the same way that my sisters were. I guess that having a taste of what it means to have a ‘good life’ left a mark on me, even if at the time we were under extreme financial strain, all of those trips and luxury was paid for according to a certain position my father took for a while in a national organization. It was such an awkward experience because we did not have much money then, but we were in these pompous dinners and staying in master suites, literally stealing the room from rockstars staying in the same hotel. I guess that’s the most ‘taste’ I’ve had of what it is to have such luxury and comfort, as well as people praising you all of a sudden by association. Man, it is really something that ‘traps’ you for a while.

 

I guess that if I had not had such experiences, I would have not been aiming for such positions in a not so conscious way – or I didn’t want to fully acknowledge because of not wanting to be deemed as greedy. It’s cool to expose this as there is obviously so much that I held as an imprint on these trips wherein ‘the good life’ was suddenly my reality for a moment. That’s where I got the association of ‘polite’ as in being a ‘politician,’ because that’s how I identified the way that people at such conventions would act like/ interact with each other: in a polite, refined and ‘safe’ manner which is not being too ‘open’ yet not ‘too quiet’ as if there was a problem with you. I learned how having a constant smile made you being liked – I could not fathom why people would always say the same things to you ‘oh how pretty are you!’ It was a bit traumatic having to go through such disparity at such a young age, really. When coming back home after such events and trips – which were only two or three only during two years – it was like getting off of some really nice dream where you could ‘have it all’ and forget about all the actual financial troubles that my father was going through at the time, which I have shared and how it would also preoccupy me extensively as in fearing losing the house and everything.

 

So, to sum up, politeness was for me a way to establish and place myself on the track to become someone of ‘importance’ and in a certain ‘circle in society’ that I wanted to be part of, which was mostly the ‘intellectual circles’ wherein I could have enough vocabulary and presence to mingle with such people. That’s how both my career choices were linked to such cultural world, even after knowing that making a lot of money out of it would not be as easy – as I had initially thought. I got to admire mostly people that had written books already and that I knew I could ‘learn from’ in my attempt to become equal to them. And this all entailed having a secured-financial ‘freedoom’ while doing ‘what I like,’ which was either writing or creating art. I knew how being polite would lead you to get preferential treatment as well, and I sought that, creating a certain aura of power/ control and importance wherein I made sure people would ‘pay attention to me’ – yes.

 

Later on I went into the controlled opposite, but that’s another story wherein further suppressions were linked mostly in relation to judgments toward money – as I have briefly explained above. What I have walked here were dreams and desires that I had kept and was preparing myself for when I was in my early teens; I even thought of becoming a financial advisor just because of knowing how much money they would make, and all of those decisions were only based on desiring having a preferential position in the system wherein I could have enough money to travel around the world, as that’s what I really wanted to do or my ‘idea’ of what happiness in this world is about.

 

Now I have realized within the 23rd Interview by Anu how such elaborated words are definitely only for the ego of the intellectuals and it’s absolutely true – I mean, I created myself as that for the sake of belonging and making myself a space in such circles that I later on absolutely abhorred and almost completely ostracized myself from – going from admiring rich people and the power they had to opposing them and even blaming ‘them’ for the current status of the world, that’s been my life with money which I had not exposed to such extent from this money-perspective before. However I see how it is definitely the ‘missed factor’ that I probably withheld from sharing because of not wanting to be seen as greedy or superfluous/ self-interest driven person while acknowledging that we all are, and we all sought our ways into the system in one way or another. Everyone would enjoy having such financial comfort and power – even myself that later on tried to deny it can only recognize that I did, and ‘my dreams’ were based upon getting to a certain ‘state’ wherein I could write or do some works while having all time left to explore the world.

 

Well, it’s easy to dream and part of this entire process is to take all the points here back to Earth wherein I land myself on the ground to then see how a single seemingly ‘normal’ expression like being polite is in fact having all of this – and probably a lot more – behind it as a conditional input for me to express such ‘politeness’ as ‘who I am,’ which is linked to how I had defined myself according to the ‘social stratus’ that I wanted to be a part of within this world system.

 

I still have a lot of ‘points’ to sort out in relation to and toward money and my career and who I want to be and what must be one, mostly because of – as I mentioned before – going to the opposite polarity of judging rich people, judging the ‘power’ that some beings had to manipulate others because of money, judging the attitudes rich people would present while neglecting the fact that I had sought to be ‘just that’ as well. All of this while deliberately shoving off the reality that I knew and was well aware was going on in this world.

During this time, I managed to make of poverty and misery something that was just a constant part of my ‘landscape’ yet continuing to seek my personal fulfillment. I could have long talks with my then contemporaries that were sociologists and economists, literature people and talk about social policies and the government and whatnot, but we never ever had an actual definitive realization on how We were absolutely responsible for it. That would be yet another part of my ‘socialization’ wherein sitting in cafés talking for long hours would lead us anywhere, yet believing that we were ‘changing the world’ with our bright intellectual ideas and reunions. Lol

 

So – time for self forgiveness and self-corrective application to disengage from this politeness that I have separated myself from according to all of these memories that I’ve held within myself for the purpose of someday, being able to correlate/ cross-reference if I had ‘made it’ within this world system according to the expectations that I placed onto myself.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to make of myself a ‘polite person’ and allowing it to create an inherently positive experience wherein I became part of the ones that are looking forward to become part of a certain elite in this world, which in my case was the ‘intellectual/ well cultured’ people that can certainly only exist in a particular social stratus where money is affluent and where money is not a concern. Therefore, by me acting and playing out being the ‘polite person,’ I was in essence training myself to be part of the ‘polite world’ which I had linked to higher-social stratus of well educated/ well cultured people/ rich people/ intellectuals, because that’s what I wanted to be and ‘where I wanted to belong to.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to then create an inherent desire to be and become someone ‘superior’ within the social standards which is why I fed myself so much with knowledge and information as I had given value/ worth to knowledge and information as my ‘talents’ when realizing that I could make a living out of it and still get to an elevated social stratus wherein I could be financially stable and have more than that in order to have a life of luxury and traveling as the dreams that I had created in my mind while neglecting this reality in its entirety.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear losing all the relationships at an intellectual level with writers, sociologists, historians, linguists, and any other person that I deemed as ‘intellectual/ superior’ when I decided to step aside from that world and going into a more ‘noble’ and ‘meek’ path of not wanting to be part of the ‘high spheres in society,’ which came after a particular event that changed my view/ perspective about money and recognition and made a decision that ‘I didn’t want that for my life.’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to want to be part of the ‘intellectual people’ as that’s what I gave myself value as, knowledge and information, accumulating data that I could later on speak about and be regarded as ‘important.’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to play out being the ‘polite person’ among people that I wanted to ‘keep’ as relationships because of already being scheming me being part of such social-circles that I sought to be a part of, mostly because of regarding that I could make a load of money with it while doing something that I regarded as ‘humane’ as possible – which is culture/ words/ arts/ music, etc.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to increment my desire to know and prepare myself within specific careers simply out of the desire to accumulate as much knowledge as possible that I could ‘sell’ as my profession and earn good money out of it. In this I forgive myself that I had denied the fact that my life, my attitude, my politeness had been having money and the desire for money as an obvious drive in the background, while me denying so because in such realms, people seemed to be “humble” about their careers and knowledge – yet having a very affluent type of living, which I also desired to be like/ experience myself as: having money yet not being a ‘show off’ about it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link a proficient vocabulary to being a ‘well cultured person/ well educated/ refined/ well mannered/ polite’ which I have immediately identified as something ‘valuable’ within a person, which is identifying knowledge and information as ‘valuable’ on top of the one and only value that exists which is life and Life cannot ever be knowledge.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself for having ever criticized/ judged people on how they would place value in their possessions without realizing that I was doing the same toward myself as my own mind in the form of knowledge and information and creating a value toward myself according to it, separating myself absolutely from the one and only reality that is here as myself as my physical body, as life, the life that I absolutely neglected in such times simply because being too busy building myself and preparing/ scheming my way to climb ‘the ladder of success.’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to blind myself with believing that my parents were unconditionally supporting my decision in life, without realizing that they were ‘happy’ about it because I was aiming to be a ‘rich’ person or having more than enough money and that my aspirations and actions were leading to becoming this ‘important person in society,’ which is why they started reacting when I stopped creating/ forming relationships in society and retreated, because this was linked to me losing all contact with such ‘intellectual people’ and losing the opportunity to be ‘a part of them.’ Now I realize that it was linked to money, to securing my ‘place in the world’ that I also deemed to prefer above any other professions or activities in the world. I was ready to praise myself as knowledge and information only, which I now see is the absolute manifestation of self-interest because I never considered ‘life’ in that, at all.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create and build myself within a particular personality wherein I made sure that people would ‘pay attention to me and give me a position of ‘importance’ even at face value, which was linked to my ‘scheming’ of positioning myself within a certain area in society that I could live ‘well’ of and still fulfill my desires to be someone ‘important’ in my world.

 

I commit myself to stand in a position in this world wherein I can truly make use of these attributes in a way that is best for all, because I see and realize that if I had personal interest as a driving force to be ‘preparing’ for such world, I could do the same now with having the starting point the absolute drive to support myself and all beings equally within a position within the world system wherein I no longer ‘fear’ it/ oppose it as some type of rebellion and antagonism stemming from criticism toward money/ power in this world. I realize that being in a position of power in this world cannot possibly exist within me unless I stand as one and equal to all – which means that whatever I have to do within this world system, I realize that I am perfectly able to do so, with having the starting point of doing/ living/ acting and creating myself as someone that can stand within the system to establish a system that is best for all life.

 

I commit myself to use these acquired ‘attributes’ and experiences as a point of reference to see and realize how I am capable of standing in a position that I had deemed as ‘superior’ yet now having a principle to actually stand for, which is life in equality and oneness – and not just following ‘dreams’ of fame, glory and success that I formulated in my mind which I knew would lead me to feel equally empty, because I obviously was not considering the whole in that equation.

 

I realize that the only true-fulfillment that I can create for myself is stemming from the standing and consideration of an overall well-being for humanity, that is my ‘true passion’ and as I got to know from some feedback at the farm ‘I’ve found my purpose in life,’ and the proof of this is that I had not been as consistent toward any particular ‘movement’ or ‘phase’ in my life as I have now within this process, because it is not just ‘another phase’ in my life of seeking my way into the system, it is The Phase and only phase wherein I dare to face myself and take self responsibility for my creation. And I realize that this entails actual work, actual self-commitment that strengthens every day the more I see, I realize and understand the extent to which we have enslaved ourselves to the absolute separation that stops here as myself.

 

Thus, I commit myself to stop any personal interest that stood only in the name of personal glory and success and instead use what is here as myself as a means to establish what is best for all in this world, which I hereby commit myself to walk into its completion as I know that I won’t ever be actually ‘fulfilled’ until this entire world is equalized as myself as who I really am, and for that there is Actual work to do and a long road to walk.

 

 

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An Interview on how when you really have it ALL and you then see yourself in the absolute opposite, your life changes, ‘who you are’ is gone. It is proof of how much we can also disregard within the experience of those in ‘power’ and apparent ‘control’ of their lives – a very cool interview that supported me to open up these points with more ease, to not judge what I have lived and become, but to see it for what it is: unacceptable forms of separation we’ve created in this world:

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Dysfunctional Minds

We are the creators of our world and the so-called ‘our world’ is often comprised of our own mind which is the product of the pre-laid conditions passed on through the genes from generation to generation – doesn’t matter which/where/how many  bloods or eras, we’ve always been part of this world within the basic principle of reproduction – as well as through the influence of  ‘invisible forces’ that are represented through the effect that money and social conditions that we’ve created as well, determine the environment and general aspects that add up to the factors that determine who we’ll become as a product of our society, another product of our own.

Within this, as human beings and in an attempt to ‘understand ourselves’ as the inherent deviations — based on very basic principles that we’ll explain here – we’ve created terms that are now well accepted as conditions that are, somehow apparently, sprouting in peoples minds and becoming the usual ‘conditions’ existent in people living in this world, as well as a juicy business that’s requiring a constant supply of pills to apparently ‘alleviate the symptoms’

This obviously not being in fact so and being just the tip of the iceberg of all the blatant lies and cover ups we’ve hidden ourselves behind.

One of the points that we cannot deny is that we all have to be deluded and mad in some level to be able to accept this reality as it is, I mean for that matter we’re all existent in a parallel universe every time that we’re not here breathing and not thinking unnecessarily  – though as we know, this is one of the most difficult points as we’ve been so used to thinking all the fucking time – hence we see we’ve created the problem, it’s then our responsibility to create a solution as ourselves as well.

Here some of the words that are being broadly used to define and out-line someone from ‘the rest’ for apparent unsociable conditions.

Psychopathy: a lack of interest in, or care for, the sanctity of human life.

Just today I got feedback from someone saying that I ‘aim for non-human goals’ wherein such person is already allowing the ‘inherently flawed human nature’ as something unchangeable that only can be ‘dealt/ coped with’ – No, I refuse to accept such status quo and in that regard, these type of statements should be the ones that are labeled as an actual psychopath as they’re not willing to change the preordained human condition to exist in massive loopholes of disregard to anything that’s common sense, and thus actually posing a threat to the rest that are willing to stand up for life and care about life which are the ones that have actually dared to question, expose and create solutions to the accepted and allowed ‘human nature’ that has created such harm toward life – not only humans toward other humans, but as a general disregard to everything that’s here.

Hence, who is a real psychopath? anyone not willing to live as an equal and walk the necessary steps to live as such.

For that matter I could’ve been called a psychopath in the past as well because of having gone through a series of thoughts with regards to how lame we’ve become as human beings and within that mimicking the external conditions as myself in an attempt to create a ‘warning sign’ that no one really heard until I understood I had to stand up for myself, as myself, not to create further calls for attention but become my point of attention – first beginning with myself and realizing my own point of self responsibility and then extending this to the world.  This didn’t really mean that I ‘loathed’ my kind, but I do recognize the gigantic faults, disregard and general fuckups in this world. So, tag is proven to be obnoxious and only necessary to apply it within the actual terms of someone being a threat to the betterment of humanity.

Sociopathy: a lack of interest in, or care for, the rules of a society.

Within this single consideration, anyone that’s a freechoicer and only caring for their own two feet – and sometimes not even that – could be labeled as a sociopath, virtually anyone that is not looking at the current state of the world and realizing that it is our responsibility to start becoming active participants within our reality and being aware of the current world affairs which will indicate where are all the flaws within the system, so that we can then create and implement a new way of existing/ living in this world at last.

Any person that isn’t willing to look outside of their own mind bubble can then be tagged as sociopath, as individualism is their priority while using the greatest weapons of freechoice and freewill to defend their righteousness,  all glorified ‘commandments’ that command/govern the minds/mentes of people to justify, glorify and vindicate their actions as ‘their right’ within this world, liberty and justice become only a self created idea that has no basis on common sense and what’s best for all, but only suiting each one’s sense of ‘what’s right’ for them only.

When the rules and so called ‘wisdom’ of man turn against himself, we must know, an urgent reform to the entire system must take place.

I assure you no one in this world is absolutely ‘happy’ and anyone that claims they are, they’re lying. Therefore being happy, positive having the ‘full-glass’ perspective on this world is in fact a deluded being, an actual sociopath that is claiming that ‘everything is fine, there’s nothing to change, I’m cool just as I am’ and won’t do a thing to become part of a solution to the obvious fuckedupness because he finds ‘no fault’ within himself/ this reality at all.

Another blatant way of deviating and abdicating self responsibility – and is also an often accepted ‘way of being’ – is positivity and people embrace it as a ‘way of living’ without anyone daring to name it for what these people are: actual sociopaths that pose a threat to the world because they’ll defend their positive/bright side view on the world where everything is fine and there’s nothing to correct within themselves or the world while neglecting and deliberately overlooking/ disregarding the abuse that’s being inflicted to everyone and everything in this world. Real danger, yet the world is full of them.

Time to expose them for what they are. There is no bliss in the world other than blissful mindfucks that can only last for so long, really.

Malignant narcissism: pathological grandiosity, lacking in conscience and behavioral regulation, characterized by joyful cruelty and sadism.

Lightworkers, positive thinkers, optimistic people, full-glass viewers and general ‘happy people’ should be regarded then as ‘malignant narcissistic’ as they are often imbued within their own realm of reality wherein they’re always viewing through the full-glass filter where everything is fine just like what ‘heaven’ should be and within that, believing that you only have to ask for your shit to be given by your pal the universe with all your might and joy and positive vibrations while turning their backs on the real actual constant daily hideous suffering that this world and the beings within go through while some only focus on ‘following their greatest excitement’. I mean, what the fuck? Psychology/psychiatry are equally retarded by usually embedding these tags to people that dare to question reality, that dare to mimic the state of the world we’re living in as a way to pointing out what should be obvious already, people that dare to break the status quo and show to the world what’s being accepted and allowed. No wonder, once again, that the world is in reverse.

All the me-me-ists then would be encompassed within this illness, a serious one.

If we look at it, this current system the capitalist system is the perfect incubator for malignant narcissism to sprout like wildflowers along the road, I mean, all is about ‘you’, satisfying ‘your wants’, ‘your needs’, ‘your desires’, ‘follow your greatest excitement’, ‘ask the universe for whatever you want’, ‘you are god, you can have it all’, ‘be happy, life is short, enjoy the most of it’ – suck everyone dry on the way in the end I mean ‘one’s got to make the most of this life isn’t it? –  And, isn’t it real cruelty and real sadism to deliberately boast on happiness, joy, completion, success while other human beings are living in deplorable conditions in the very same world wherein you are showing off your greatest wants and needs become ‘true’? Isn’t positivism to have your thoughts be the cause of wars and conflicts that seek the same ‘stardom’ and ‘superiority’ that you seek in your own mind? Isn’t seeking something outside of yourself the sickening aspect that’s lead to this general malady in the world?

Positivism a behavioral trait of man should also be targeted as the actual deluded ‘nature’ that is neglecting the violence, abuse, exploitation in all forms of everyone and everything around us, thus being the actual threat towards others as it will ran over anything/everyone in the name of ‘following a greater excitement’.

Isn’t it actual sadism to exist in such vainglory and self-petulance of ‘obtaining whatever you want by just asking for it’ while billions starve, while billions are sold/traded for money  to build the house of your dreams, to build the car that’ll get you the nice piece of ass you want as a wife, to sow the clothes wherein you built up the ‘perfect image’ that will sell good to other self-obsessed people that seek to match their ideals of perfection by getting along with ‘like minded people’ – nothing else but colonies of robots seeking to mingle together to not be alone in their self-deluded version of the world that’s only able to be kept lit up by – yes you guessed it – Money.

Nothing else but self interest seeking others that run on the same mindset to feed of each other, perpetuating the alternate reality that will hit the ground once the illusionary money as ‘power’ to the illusion is gone and what’s left is the physical darkness of this reality that’s equal in all ways – all mind delusions, all mind pathologies will be seen for what they are in reality and there will be no other way but to adapt/align to what is best for all or cease to exist.

Insanity, craziness or madness is a spectrum of behaviors characterized by certain abnormal mental or behavioral patterns. Insanity may manifest as violations of societal norms, including becoming a danger to themselves and others, though not all such acts are considered insanity. In modern usage insanity is most commonly encountered as an informal unscientific term denoting mental instability

The easiest way to not face ourselves and our reality is through claiming insanity, through becoming and embodying this idea of being deranged because at least that’s an ‘acceptable way’ within society to claim one is handicapped, unable and not in an optimum condition to take self responsibility. It’s created as a defense mechanism that comes when realizing the extent of our acceptances and allowances and instead of daring to face ourselves, we rather create a split and decide that we’d rather wander off and appear aloof than taking self responsibility.

Isn’t everyone then insane when being ‘mentally unstable’ as being able to shift in personalities, mood, states of being, wondering from one realm to another in our minds, we’d all be then tagged as ‘insane’.

It’s a comfortable self-created lie just as all of the above conditions are.

Insanity is to have such policies like Scorched Earth wherein the ultimate evil of man is justified through means of ‘war’ as if war had any ‘positive outlook’ in any way whatsoever.

Anyone that defends a policy that stands as the least harm, abuse inflicted towards another living being/ the world itself is the definition of an insane person, but so is the person that decides to not hear, not see and resort into a bubble where everything is fine and be accepted as ‘insane’ just to not have to face ourselves in our creation. So all ‘people in power’ as well as protestors should be tagged as insane as well, isn’t it?

A legally declared ‘insane’ person can literally get away with murder without being processed due to such ‘condition’ – nice way to protect the real self-abusive behaviors that are perpetrated within such self-definition and inflict harm/abuse on to others only to end up being justified and ‘cleared’ within our flawed legal system.

Both poles are equally fucked – all of these mental definitions as medical diagnosis are equally fucked as they’re created by fellow men that are also running as systems seeking for nothing else but – yes you got it – Money.

Hence you can’t possibly trust someone whose years of  studying, their actions, decisions and exertion of ‘will’ is not self motivated within the starting point of Equality as Life at all, but is coming from and being driven by greed, desire for power and success through the creation of medicated drones that will run to them every month/ week for another yellow note that defines them as being incapable of being a ‘functional member of society’.

What a dog eat dog world – there’s nothing left here but for you to  investigate the Equal Money System where NONE of this will exist ever gain.

In the end, it’s each and every one of us that have the actual choice to decide who and what we’ll be within this world –

Choose Life at all times, it’s not really a choice, you can only choose to neglect it and turn a blind eye which is what should be in fact regarded as a serious illness and be treated accordingly to be corrected and avoid all possible harm to others – realize: there’s no ESC button in this reality, you’ll have to face yourself anyways so why not beginning today.

And now, for the marvelous correction to all of this:

Functional Mind: thinking, acting, writing, doing what’s best for all in all ways based on the principle of Equality as LIFE. Simplicity.

To see how this ties in with the Monetary System, watch:

Monetary Psychosis – The Cure is HERE

 

When all of your wishes are granted, many of your dreams will be destroyed


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