385. The Most Important Job in the World: Parenting

 

A Review & Commentary on the Documentary ‘The Naked Room’/El Cuarto Desnudo (México, 2013)

Throughout this process I’ve realized that the most important job that exists is that of being a parent. As I go understanding the fabric of our society, I can see directly how the lack of parenting skills or even the inability to know what these are or should be reflects back to our society, shaping each one of us into the individuals that at the same time, create the nature of the ‘world-system’ as is, because when we talk about ‘the world’ it’s not really the Earth, the living beings other than humans that are the problem – the whole and sole problem is who we have become as human beings and how we have shaped, modified and distorted reality through and by our mind as a consequence of lacking any efficient education and parental guidance while we are brought up in this world, which in turn affects every other part of our reality as well.

So in essence, we’ve lacked the skills to support ourselves as the units of our society to grow strong, healthy, stable and with clear directives in our lives and as a result, this society is the mirror of the lack and/or misguidance of parenting skills.

 

El cuarto desnudo/The naked room from AMBULANTE on Vimeo.

“The naked room” shows a whole world without leaving a single space: the examination room in a children’s hospital in Mexico City. Listening to the children, their parents and the doctors during consultations allows us to have a more profound and complex view of our social reality and of human nature.

 

I watched the documentary ‘The Naked Room/ El Cuarto Desnudo’ some weeks ago, here’s part of a synopsis I found about it:

“The Naked Room exposes the complex and hard situations that are the consequence of something as simple as a kid wishing for a more loving brother. Also, the behavior of people with a mental disorder, a condition that always affects the loved ones (sometimes even physically). Ibáñez has not created a documentary to be enjoyed by everybody per se, I mean, we’re dealing with a brutal theme in a very direct way, with no pauses; it’s a constant display of human sadness and mental problems.

It can be easily described as a depressing film, after all it’s a natural view to the life of several persons, and some of their closest relatives, whose hopelessness has lead (some of them) to go as far as attempting to take their own lives. In a way, The Naked Room is here to explain the “why” behind suicide or self-harming, specifically when the problem happens to a kid or a teenager. What’s great about Ibáñez’s film is the fact that she is not trying to explain anything by interviewing doctors and relatives or using information from other sources. The doc is simply crafted: it’s entirely based on footage obtained from a series of meetings between psychiatrics and patients.

Ibáñez knew that showing those conversations was enough for a thought-provoking piece. All she had to do was place the camera at the right spot and then working inside the editing room. And the camerawork is really interesting and precise; firstly, it only follows the patients, hence some scenes are just fascinating: observing the facial expressions of the children while their respective relative is talking with the doctor brings a unique feeling, as the conversations deal with nothing childish, indeed.

For about half an hour we don’t see the same patient more than once, so The Naked Room engages you. The audience will want to know what’s behind, for instance, a problematic kid whose father has threatened to abandon him in the streets. There are many patients involved, so when each one of them appears again, you might be a bit confused, not remembering who is who; that could have been a flaw related to the structure, but the confusion is always temporal.

And, ultimately, the diversity only helps the documentary to be thematically richer. It can be seen as an exploration of teenagers, with such themes exposed as insecurity and social rejection, but that’s just one of its layers. The Naked Room is, simply, one of the strongest Mexican films of the year (my personal favorite from the Morelia documentary selection), even when it’s simply crafted, like I said, and very short (less than 70 minutes).”

Read more: http://twitchfilm.com/2013/10/morelia-2013-review-the-naked-room-el-cuarto-desnudo-a-powerful-display-of-sadness-and-insanity.html#ixzz2wu4eXQg1

 

The constant identification of parental patterns being transmitted onto children, the lack of creating supportive familial relationships and living environment, the lack of money to have proper nutrition, healthcare, education themselves, the fact that some parents didn’t want their children in the first place, the fact that they resort to hitting them for not complying to do what they asked them to do, the physical and verbal abuse between parents, the divorces and separations that affect a child’s ability to learn and interact with others properly, the lack of sexual orientation support, the threats used as a way to establish discipline that are depicted as part of the reasons why the kids in this documentary develop mental instability, can all be traced back to the parents and the unfortunate lack of skills, information and education on how to deal with their own lives, their marriage/relationships and in turn how to be a mother or a father.

In turn, parents have only learned to react to seeing the problem that their children develop as something born out of the blue, which is the position of becoming a victim to their children’s mental instability in the form of worry and preoccupation due to not knowing ‘what is going on with their children?’ without realizing that their role is inevitably implied within what their children are experiencing as well. However, can we talk about it solely being ‘their fault’?

 

 

Understanding Who We Are as The Mind

Parents were educated in turn by their own parents and consequently the same has happened to those parents as well, which means that the parent-child relationship is the essential relationship that has shaped (ruined) the way that we develop ourselves as human beings. You might react and say ‘not me’ and I could as well, but the fact is that even if one can consider oneself having ‘good parents’ or ‘supportive parents’ the moment that there’s no principle of support to understand the mind, the feelings, the emotions, the ‘who am I’ as the mind and assist with the integration of physical living words that we can live as a decision, a self-directive process that one directs oneself to express as a Living Principle, one is already missing out the most important aspects of our relationship to ourselves, others and in turn the ‘who we are’ and will become as we come of age in this world – instead, we’ve been brought up with mechanisms that use fear, control, violence, abuse, threats in order to establish some sense of discipline and direction, as well as happiness, rewards, ‘love’ and the illusion thereof as ways to create the ‘good’ and ‘bad’ definitions that we’ve limited ourselves by, going all the time attempting to be ‘happy’ and/or dreaming of reaching an eternal happiness without even understanding how that is also a mindjob essentially. We’ve only learned to ‘cope with reality’ by reacting to the environment, to another’s words, to take things personal, to seek revenge, to be spiteful and that is of course already a massive fault in parental skills.

Not to blame ‘them’ though…

The reality is that we’ve never ever had such skills, because we had not ever before understood who we are as the mind, how it is that we are separated from our physical body through and by the mind which is a Mind Consciousness System, a design, a programmed patterned system that generates thoughts, feelings, emotions and through this our behavior, personality, fears, reactions, beliefs, etc. that we have adopted and believed is ‘who we are.’ In this documentary we can see this reality as spectators of a glimpse of how far one can experience one’s emotions and feelings to the extent of wanting to die just because there is no proper medical support, assessment or understanding of what the mind is, what our emotions is, how the patterns that we’ve acquired from parents are imbued from the moment of conception, and at birth we are directly influenced by every single word that parents speak, every single move, every single experience that parents have within themselves while being with the child – and this I am almost certain only an excruciating minority of parents have taken into consideration.

 

it is so damn clear in this documentary how the fact that we have taken our minds personally and others’ reactions personally, while being unable to understand Why such patterns of aggression, violence, harm, hatred exist and are coming from ‘those’ that should have ‘cared’/‘educated us’ to be able to live in this world the best way possible, which is what creates the traumatic experiences within children  that evolve to become ‘mental illnesses’ because of our inability as parents to stand as living principles for them, to become all of us in society a living example of how to live, interact and direct oneself in this world. This has been our ‘missing link’ in the relationship between parents and children, but also in our society as a whole.

 

 

The First Seven Years of Your Life

At Desteni it’s been explained how the time-frame of development from ages 0-7 is crucial in our development because that’s where the ‘programming’ process of the mind takes place, activating all the pre-existent patterns coming from parents, integrating new ones from the child’s interaction with their immediate environment – which are most of the times, parents or any other ‘parental figure’ –

“The inheritance and transference of the survival skills from both your parents takes place when the entire mind consciousness system develops within you within the mother’s womb together with your physical development. The copying and duplication of the survival skills from both your parents takes place through your observations, interactions and participations with your parents’ as the parent/child relationship develops during your childhood years (from two to three years up to the age of thirteen years).”

Veno – Structural Resonance – Part 2 – Phase 5

 

This means that the direct effect of our words, thoughts, behavior and emotional or feeling participation is imprinted onto children from such early stage of their lives, with them being like a virgin cd that one is about to literally ‘burn’ with information that they will simply then replay, adjust and ‘upgrade’ throughout their entire lives.  That is the magnitude and importance of the responsibility we have toward every individual that is born into this world: the world we have for them at their arrival will become the program, the structure, the patterns they’ll accept as ‘how things are’ with the possibility of only changing them once that they’ve walked their own lives, their consequences and decide for themselves to change what they have learned up to that point, which is the process of Self-Honesty and Self Responsibility that we are walking here at Desteni.

 

So, while watching the documentary El Cuarto Desnudo I could understand for example what has been explained in the  Spite series of interviews at Eqafe in relation to Self-Harm. Some of the kids in the documentary attempting to commit suicide, cut/punch/harm  as a response to the disbelief they had of having their parents attacking them, insulting them, not giving them all the necessary attention, hitting them, abusing them in various ways as well as managing them with ‘fear’ which in result, in a helpless attitude of ‘I just don’t know what to do with her/him anymore, doctor!’ which to a young child it doesn’t make sense that your parent, your ‘guide’ is becoming your own worst enemy or an inept person to take proper care of you and as such, even if they say ‘they care for you’ or they ‘love you’ they are still not being supportive at all in the situation… doesn’t make sense isn’t it?

And no, it won’t make sense. And this is the point we’ve missed all along and that can actually support, assist parental relationships to entirely change because what hasn’t been understood is how the Mind operates, how the mechanisms of creation of energy as emotions, thoughts, feelings is what has become the directive principle, the sole ‘director’ of ourselves to the extent that we comply to such mind/thoughts/feelings/emotions absolutely ignoring our physical bodies, the living flesh that we are and that we should never ever harm in order to ‘relieve’ some sort of emotional or feeling experience which comes from a constant struggle and inner conflict to ‘cope’ with what’s going on up there in the mind, because the children look perfectly ‘healthy’ at a physical level, but in the mind they are certainly completely possessed and this is a clear testimony for us to see what the mind does to the physical body and why it is so important to take responsibility for our minds, our bodies and completely take both into consideration before continuing inflicting any harm or abuse upon oneself, only acting upon what we ‘feel’ or experience as thoughts, emotions in the mind.

In the documentary, almost every child would cut/harm themselves, and I’m talking about Children here –  which becomes a form of self-spite: anger toward oneself so that it becomes a way to spite the parents, which doesn’t make sense to spite oneself in an attempt to get another’s attention or ‘get back at’ someone when one is being ‘attacked’ by another, as that will then in turn become the attack and abuse onto oneself, the very same attack that one can be complaining about is coming from parents.  However because children are not taught how to deal with the emotions they have at a mind level, the only way to ‘cope’ with this inner turmoil which becomes self-hate is to resort to self-destruction. Do ‘they’ really want to do it? No, it’s who they are as the mind that want to harm themselves, just because the amount of energy continued to be thought of and used up by the individual is too extensive for the child to stop and get back to physical reality to understand how one is abusing one’s own body and in essence doing onto themselves what they were complaining that others were doing onto them at first – and this is how the ‘chain’ of self-abuse is continued.

 

 

 

Learning from the Parents

With friction and conflict stemming from their family/environment situation, children learn to ‘cope’ with the constant conflictive and problematic situations with their own emotions generated as a reaction to things they see in their environment, things they are unfortunately done onto, and not having any way to stand up or stop participating in these automated reactions in the mind. And these can obviously be of a wide variety of factors, such as lack of money/education that turns into a poor household where parents have to work to make a living for the entire day – being left with other family members that might turn abusive, that might not properly care after them – sometimes the parents/relatives resorting to alcohol/drugs to cope with stress, to mitigate hunger, to mitigate family abuse, being depressed, being in the verge of financial bankruptcy…. there’s also marriage disruption, physical and verbal abuse between parents, abuse from parents to child which turns into children then hitting the parents/spiting the parents, desperation from parents for not knowing what to do with them and so children see themselves as being ‘a problem’ a ‘drag’ to the parents to the extent that they reason it’s best to die/commit suicide than continue living – and this may come from parents expressing them that ‘they don’t know what to do with them any longer’ or how ‘they wished they had never been born’  which once again, to a child and even if you the reader  never got told this, placing ourselves in the shoes of children being told this, it is mostly obvious that there will be a reaction of feeling worthless, not desired, not loved, inferior and this remains as permanent rejection throughout their lives unless they encounter support while growing up to not take such words personally, but understand how they come from parental distress, desperation, not knowing ‘what to do’ with their own lives and in turn not knowing what to do with their children.

 

There might emerge a desire to blame parents for that – but blame once again would lead us to miss out the point here. Blaming, holding grudge, being constantly mad, angry, frustrated at parents or even hating them is only the outflow of not getting a supportive, comforting and adequate parental support for the parents themselves to begin with while they were in the position of being the children. And one would say, yes, it makes sense to be angry for not getting that – but, this is where I implore you to consider the ‘greater context’ which is how I assisted myself to – within and after the documentary ended – be able to clearly see where the surges of blame or anger toward parents were coming from and immediately understand how it is necessary to see the ‘greater context’ to take all points into consideration to understand such parental and children relationships throughout our entire history.

The key here is understanding a very, very important point: All can be Self-Forgiven and Must be Self-Forgiven in order to stop holding on to the grudges created from children to parents and vice-versa if we truly want to change the world.

 

 

No ‘parent’ knows How to be a Parent.

No person is born knowing How to be a parent, a self supportive and adequate one, how to become an example for your child to ‘look up to’ because No Human Being has EVER been such Living Example for oneself or for others – yet. Sure there have been great personalities in the world that were ‘great men and women,’ but even that one can notice that people in politics or social change in the world such as Mandela for example, when his daughters were interviewed they were proud of him for the principles he stood for, but as a parent they had no further comment other than really not knowing ‘him’ as such, because he had not really been around with them….. point to ponder.

So, the problem is in fact not that we haven’t learned ‘how to be a parent’ but how to be a Living Human Being. We have only been mind-robots driven by thoughts, feelings, emotions, not knowing ‘how’ to cope with them, how to direct them because we entirely accepted ‘who we are’ as our mind and so, what happens is that the moment that we Identify ourselves with the mind as ‘Who we are’ entirely without any possibility of change, that’s where we dissociate ourselves from our ability to be self-directive which means, realizing that everything that we’ve become is the byproduct of generation after generation of human beings that have not known how to direct/deal with one’s thoughts, feelings and emotions – in essence with one’s mind – but only learned from certain religious and moral dogmas and ‘authorities’ that became only ways to control people through fear, or control through the illusion of ‘love’ which is another point I have had previously discussed.

 

 

What does being a Living Human Being mean?

The self that we all have and can become the moment that we start living and applying the realization that one has to honor, support, care, develop and nurture oneself to become an example of what it is to act, do and speak what is best for oneself and everyone else as equals. Becoming the Living Word, the Living Example for oneself and others to follow as the norm, the way, the law of our being in which we can trust ourselves and each other to realize that no matter what: I honor, consider, support and care for myself , I stand as my own support and as such, stand as support for and toward everything/everyone else as myself, as life, as equals. This is the standard, this is how we can genuinely ‘change the world.’

So because we have failed to live this way with and for ourselves, the consequence is and has been that all our relationships have failed to be fruitful and bloom into a world that we can all be genuinely ‘happy’ to live in. With understanding this premise of the ‘legacy’ we have in terms of the ‘human nature’ as the mind, the generation after generation passing of ‘the sins of the fathers’ it then becomes much easier to understand why a human being that has taken the role of being a parent has failed to become a living example for his/her children, because the consideration of being a Living Human Being has never existed – yet we do have all the potential of each one of us becoming such living example of being the human beings that we all know we can be and become – and this is where our responsibility resides: to ensure that we can be the example of how the so-called ‘human nature’ is able to be self-forgiven, stopped, self corrected and changed.

 

This understanding that I just shared here in written words is what I used to then see, realize and understand and self forgive the surges of any emotions that could have been accumulated while watching the documentary, and through this understanding rather seeing this documentary not only as presentation of the problems we have within children at a mental level – instead, it also becomes a  motivation to see once again for myself that there is just SO much that is required to get done in relation to education in this world, so much to be understood about the mind, who we are as the mind and how we can in fact support each other to assist those children to change and solve their experiences… but most importantly the Parents of those and any other children to prevent ‘The Naked Rooms’ around the world where children attempt to get support from psychiatrists, while not even being aware of the root and cause of the problem: ourselves as individuals, as human beings that have never lived to the best of our potential – but have only ‘coped’ with reality through and as a mind system that generates constant friction and conflict as the experience of ‘living.’ And to grasp this there’s quite a lot of understanding and information to self-educate oneself about this, which I will provide at the end of this blog.

 

 

Self Forgiving the Sins of the Parents 

Once one understands how ‘who we are’ is the reflection of what we’ve always been since the beginning of ourselves as humanity, we can truly see that there is no other way out of our hatred, our anger, our despair, our grudges, our laments, our grief toward parents, children, relatives or authority figures other than applying the principle of Self Forgiveness. Without Self-Forgiveness it would be very difficult to come to a resolution about any form of abuse that one has experienced through one’s life, whether from parents or anyone else. So I suggest to dissolve the word tag of ‘parent’ for a moment and just see ourselves as human beings, not being born knowing ‘how to live’ and ‘how to be self-directive in our mind’  and begin applying Self-Forgiveness for allowing ourselves to be driven by thoughts, emotions, feelings, reactions wherein as a child, one has no further idea as to what is being experienced within self – all the fear, the worry, the stress, the anger, the rage,the hate that is formed at home toward parents, siblings, teachers, schoolmates, all of it existing within self without proper direction other than medicines and ‘cures’ that don’t take into consideration the source and core of the problem: the who we are and have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become as the mind.

 

I’ve noticed that one of the most difficult things to do for children/people that have been abused by others – whether they are parents, siblings, relatives, schoolmates, etc. – is the ability to self-forgive, to absolutely take into consideration and understand why the other individual abuses, take into consideration their entire life, their entire upbringing, their social and economic background, their habits/addictions, their ‘modus vivendi’ and experiences and how they too also didn’t know at the same time HOW to deal with their own minds, and how it is the same for all of us – not a single one left without a mark – of passing this unresolved understanding of who we are as human beings from generation after generation up to the point where our ‘fuckups’ are escalating to the extent that one can only look at 3 year olds – or even earlier than that now –to already see the patterns they mirror of the parents and the generations that have gone before us.

One could say: well how come they learn to manipulate, to spite, to be envious and selfish, to be depressive, to be sensitive, to be angry, to hit others to get what they want, to treat others as superior or inferior, to like and dislike, to be a stubborn… and yes, a child is the entire reflection of the parents and of humanity in its entirety for that matter that only develops the rest of the pre-installed programming through the interactions with parents and the environment. And because it is only now that we are understanding these mechanisms that exist within the mind in the physical and the vital importance that this mind and physical relationship has in our upbringing, it means that we still have a lot to do in this world in order to make each one of us aware of this process, how to direct it, how to support ourselves so that we can start establishing solutions and a new educational process where we can change the world by changing humanity, which means: changing the way that we educate ourselves as human beings, which implies at the same time that the relationship between parents and children is the one we have to focus on, as it will be the guideline and blueprint for all other relationships developed by the child throughout their/our entire lives.

 

This also thus ties in with the previous blog entry wherein I explained to the people that first didn’t want to hear how it is about time that we STOP the patterns that we’ve continued from generation after generation in relation to the abuse of ‘educating children’ by hitting them, or teaching them to ‘fight/attack back’ upon abuse or become spiteful and vengeful… all of this MUST GO and Must be stopped by ourselves as the parents, the family members, the teachers, the siblings, the people around kids to become the examples of the way we can Always direct ourselves in a way that is best for everyone: self supportive, considerate, being able to communicate effectively, being the living words of the principles we want our children to embody as well and as such, children will learn by default  – from their very first interactions in a world where we all act and live by principle of what is best for all and as such, by default, learn how to live by principles too.

It is only an excuse and negligence to say that the human can’t change, that we can only resort to psychologists or psychiatrists – this is unacceptable. What we require is to apply a New understanding and vision of who we are as human beings in order to support every single being that comes into this world to adopt the new living ways that we can begin living within ourselves individually and in the ‘without’ as the way the world system operates. For that, investigate the Living Income Guaranteed to provide support for parents to have sufficient time to stay at home implementing the new education available for parents and for any other individual –regardless of being a parent or not – at the DIP Lite course for free.

 

It certainly won’t be the same to bring a child to a self-supportive world where you have a guaranteed income/have your human rights being genuinely granted and assured with money provided to you from birth than a baby that is born in a condition of poverty in a third world country where not even a solid foundation of family or parents exist, because everyone is on a survival modality. It doesn’t make sense anymore to continue allowing our children to grow up in front of the TV and computer screens or taken care by ‘third parties,’ and the reason why this is so is because everyone has to ‘get a job to live’ and there’s no support given to parents to get time to educate their children. This should make it clear how it is all of us that are ‘shooting our leg’ by not providing to each other the right to life, so it’s about time we understand that the new way of Living is to Support Ourselves and Support All Life Equally to become our fullest potential.

 

To learn how to stop being only a mind that perpetuates the patterns and sins of the fathers, research:

• Desteni
• Desteni Articles
• Destonians
• Desteni Lite Process
• Desteni I Process
• Desteni Forum
• Desteni Wiki
• Desteni Español
• Creation’s Journey to Life
• Heaven’s Journey To Life
• 7 Year Journey To Life Process

 

Parental Support:

•  Parenting: Perfecting the Human Race

• Parenting Support at the Desteni Forum

• Education for Parents: Facebook Group

 

Parenting and Educational Blogs:

• Journey to a New Life – A Young Mother

• A New Fathers Journey To Life

• A Parent’s Journey to Life 

• A Teacher’s Journey to Life 

 

Vlogs:

• Parental Abuse: Self Forgive the Mess & Correct the Future of the World

• 2012 Parental LOVE is Abuse

• 2012 Who will Educate the Future of the World? Parental Education at Desteni

• 2011 Parenting in an Equal World

• Rebelling Feels GOOD but WHY?

• Junk Food, Schooling and Parental Negligence

• Self Harm at Age 5 – How to Support?

• How to Stop Bullying?

290. How to End Slave Servility? Equal Money

We see our reality being reduced to a set of definitions like properties, goods, services that all mean money that is able to be accumulated to then, compare such wealth within a value system that will indicate either poverty or abundance of capital. Okay, but where do we get to consider the human factor within it all? There is no explicit description of uplifting the human being to a best for all quality living standard, nor do we even dare to place such benefits as a living right for all, and the truth is that we can only exist the way we do now by creating and maintaining a forced way to maintain a limited conception of what an economic system should be, as that ensures a limited  state of mind, a limited view of ourselves that will conform with any entry of money that enables us to exist and accept any way in which it is being provided. Is this what we can call a fair deal? No.

 

Continuing from:

• 289. Our Lives as Money-Making Machines
• 288. Goods and Equal Money Capitalism
• 287. You get Happy with your Paycheck?
• 286. The More Goods we Own, the More Good we Are?
• 285. Who Taught us What We Want in Life?
• 284. Capital Goods and Equal Money Capitalism
• 283. Private Property and Equal Money Capitalism
• 281.The Benefits of Redefining Rewards in Equality

For context on redefining capitalism, read: Day 180: The Word ‘Capitalism’ in ‘Equal Money Capitalism Redefined

 

Definition of Capitalism:

We’re going word by word in a very basic definition of Capitalism to redefine it, explore it and see what each word means and how we are able to re-direct every aspect of this collective agreement into a Best for All system.

Capitalism is an economic system that is based on private ownership of capital goods and the means of production, and the creation of goods and services for profit.^[1][2] Elements central to capitalism include capital accumulation,competitive markets, and aprice system.^[3]

^{source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Capitalism}

 

Service

ORIGIN
    Old English, from Old French servise or Latin servitium ‘slavery’, from servus ‘slave’.

 

The word ‘service’ has had a negative resonance to it, it’s got to do with the way that I was raised in wherein I had a person that you can call a nanny, and I got to see or realize how she didn’t precisely liked her job, maybe not all of it, because we used to have some fun – but when it came to having to do certain thing like cleaning, she would get into a particular experience or so I remember. In spanish the word for ‘maid’ is sirvienta and this is a word I grew an aversion toward because it seemed denigrating- why? It’s got the word ‘serve’ implied and that implies already a hierarchical relationship. The aversion comes from realizing the power that money has to make these girls leave their houses at a fairly young age to work as maids/nannies just because they live in poverty and, somehow I would be ‘feeling sorry’/concerned about their experience.

 

I would place myself in that position of being away from home and really only wanting to make money to support you family living in penury wherein their need for work seemed like a punitive act. I would hear stories of how they would cry because they missed their families. Every time I would see myself being a ‘happy child’ around them, I could not ignore the fact that being with them meant me being ‘more’ than them, because they were being employed/paid by my parents,  I was going to school, watching TV and having my parents spoil me with their money – they didn’t have this and they are mostly subject to what people that hired them decides to give them access to in the house in terms of food, entertainment, place to sleep, etc. I have a lot of memories from my early years around my nanny and seeing how she would go to a beauty-school, had to work as ‘my nanny,’ then clean the house, do her practices and this was a rather fortunate position because my parents would treat her like a fourth daughter at times, but there was an inevitable distinction, and that was the role that she played at home, she was nonetheless an employee which means, she lived there because of money only.

When I went to Bavaria I saw how people say Servus in means to greet and meet and that I found it interesting, like reinstating servility/slavery to it, and in fact it does come from this – and the fact that within capitalism and its definition we don’t see the word ‘human’ or ‘work,’ or ‘living condition’ it becomes a serious topic to ratify, since we’ve done the same with the word ‘goods’ and pointed out what a trickery word it is to create an immediate positive association of the word ‘good’ and immediately place aside/ overlook the actual doing, the ‘getting there’ to that final product/good that as we all know in this world, is far from being entirely made by/through benevolent means.

 

So, the word ‘services’ within the context of our capitalism definition should be redefined in order to no longer stand as servility, as a relationship of slavery that implies a hierarchical order, it must be redefined as a giving and receiving in an Equality system wherein what I do, what I contribute will be remunerated with money in order to live a dignified living, wherein everyone will have access to money through contributing to do the jobs and activities that we prefer and enjoy doing – if everyone contributes, the ‘shitty jobs’ that no one wants to do would be distributed as part of our inherent responsibility, and that’s something I am definitely looking forward to, since it is the most sane manner in which we can All contribute to Really End Slavery.

 

Another example is that when people call you on the phone for example, and they ask you if you are this/that name, if the person is in fact such name, they answer su servidor/ your server indicating that it is you that’s such name and are ready to ‘serve you.’ This bothered me as well since to me there is no need to place ourselves as a rug on the floor in order for people to make business with us. And this example contains the aspect of convenience with it. How many times will the moon and the stars be spoken out – so to speak – by a certain sales clerk when you’re about to invest in a certain product, and we’re told how wonderful their service/product is and we are given sugar to our ears in such a way that we end up buying it? Many times, if not all the time. This is an outflow of competition between people providing the same services, everyone’s work will read to be ‘the best’/the most exclusive/with the most experience/having all the credentials necessary and being people’s favorite. Isn’t this tricking ourselves to buy just to make a sale of our services? Yes, and we’ve accepted this as ‘how things work.’ 

 

I disliked the fact that people had to revere to you when you’re about to buy, it’s like money has this intrinsic power to bend, mold, shape and twist people around according to the amount of power you hold in your hand in the form of money.

 

There is also of course services that are being sold and that should be in themselves a basic human right. Medical services are expensive ones throughout the world, yes, you may have social security but that only comes if you are already working in a stable job, and currently not all jobs offer social security as a guarantee, because it involves further contacts, responsibility and investment from the employer. Therefore, health becomes a luxury when it should be a living right, it becomes another preferential opportunity for those that have enough money to pay for private health services that are better than public ones. And the list goes ad nauseam, simply because with money being a synonym of power which invariably creates hierarchy and slavery, because the moment that money is not something that is able to be reached by all people equally, we’re faced with an invariable disparity that must be addressed every time that we seek to create a change in this world.

 

We have to redefine the word ‘service’ in our basic definition of capitalism in order to restore the equality that should exist within a giving and receiving condition of relationships, this is the only way to ensure that a service is no longer stemming from a forced necessity to live, a forced activity that competes against others, that is no longer acting like an activity that people see no option to succumb to work in, just because the opportunities are ‘here.’ This can be a sex-server’s justification for entering the realm of prostitution wherein there is no way that a ‘decent job’ would provide them with the same affluence of money compared to working ‘by their own means,’ and even in this, we realize the relationships of protectionism as the pimp that must get some of it in exchange of the security and protection that women require in these contexts.

 

So the whole term of ‘goods and services’ is a well made trick to imply usury, hierarchical powers, cheating, lying, submission and of course any lack of integrity at the moment, which is why we have all accepted the world ‘as is’ and learn from a very young age that one must be corrupted in this world in order to make it, which is a point that caused me a great conflict in terms of my morals o always ‘doing the right thing’ but if cheating is the way to get ahead, you have to comply to the majority or you’re left out of the game. And this is precisely what I mean by pushing each other’s envelope to further abuse and extremities to make money, we can create a service out of nowhere. Like if you would enjoy planning parties and supporting your friend to to do it, it has now become a very well paid activity, the same with childcare or tutoring,  or showing how to cook, or sharing computer skills – we’ve turned everything into a service, because there are not many options that we have to make a decent living in this system.

 

Workforce is what makes the ‘service’ possible and if we create a system wherein activities will be paid as regular jobs – yet –having such activities being the basic activities that make a system functional, then, would prostitution would still be a preferred service by women? will taking care of other people’s children still be a choice to work on – could be, but for the most part all parents will have sufficient time to take care of their own children, so all nanny/maid services won’t continue to exist, unless there is a specific reason and there is someone willing to do the job for it, that should remain as a possibility.

 

However, what we are removing from the equation is the Forced activities that we are pushing each other to work in within the current way capitalism works, wherein some people are Deliberately left out of the equation and pushed to be part of the service-force doing jobs like cleaning or garbage collection, or domestic work which end up being a person’s entire lifetime jobs and one should place oneself in the shoes of the garbage collector, the sewage cleaner, the toilet scrubber, the sweatshop worker, children selling candies on the street, the maids in people’s houses, factory workers: were we meant to live to do this for an entire lifetime? Is this what ‘Living’ means?

 

You can agree by now that it is not – we have been serving only the money-god with no real consideration of How we are giving/granting access to money, and this is what must be aligned in order to understand what we are all collectively perpetuating if allowing our current capitalist system to continue ‘as is.’

 

The fact is that as long as we are only working ‘for money’ and not because we actually care and enjoy to contribute to a particular sector of our system to sustain it, makes us all slaves equally – are we ready for a change? Of course, as ready as we’ll ever be.

To be continued…

 

 

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270. How to Face Consequence and Stop Running Away from it

Self Corrective Statements and Self Commitments on Escaping from the Inner Hell creates the Outer Hell

Continuing from:

220. Drug Culture: Mad Society as a Lifestyle

• 225. Is Living Life about Getting High?

  • 226. Seeking for a Posi+ive Fix All the Time?

  • 227. Are We Addicted to our Emotions and Feelings?

  • 228. Mental Disorders Hide us From Self Responsibility

  • 257. A Piece of Heaven at the Expense of Life

  • 258. Spiting The System with Drugs

  • 259.Drug Addiction Prevented by Unconditional Living Support

  • 260. Homeless Drug Addicts Sleeping in Graveyards

  • 261. Know Thy Demonic Addicted to Energy Self

  • 262. Why is Nothing Ever Good Enough?

  • 263. The Remedy to Stop Addictions

  • 264. All I Want to do is Feel Good

  • 265. Seeking for the Next Fix: a LIEfstyle

  • 266. The Secret behind Addictions

  • 267. The Greatest Addiction Ever: The Mind
  • 268. Escaping from the Inner-Hell
  • 269.The Inner-Hell creates the Outer-Hell

 

 

When and as I see myself fearing to face the consequence of what I have become and seek a way  out of it to not face me, to not consider taking responsibility for what I have done and become – I stop and I breathe – I realize that there is one single point that I cannot ever escape and that is myself, my mind as what I have become and in this, there is no point in prolonging the point as that can only feed the mind that thrives in friction  and conflict –

I realize that fear is a great self-manipulation aspect for us to victimize ourselves toward our own creation, it is a reason, excuse and justification to exist as energy instead of existing as a physical self-directive being.

I commit myself to stop participating in fear when facing the consequences of myself and instead direct me to take self responsibility and stop all self-manipulation to seek for quick fixes out of my responsibility – I realize that I am the only one that can take Self Responsibility for myself, and that this is inevitable no matter where I am in this existence. Literally.

 

When and as I see myself having the thought of vanishing/ disappearing, simply wanting to not-exist in order to not have to face the consequences of what I have become – I stop and I breathe – I realize this thought leads me to the inertia of not moving, not directing myself which is a waste of time really – thus I direct myself to breathe, stand up, physically move in order to realize that there is nothing preventing me from taking responsibility for what I am and what I have become, this is simply a matter of deciding to face myself and stopping participation in the distraction of my thoughts.

 

I commit myself to face myself in my reality and stop any thought that deviates me from moving physically, the attention is thus here as breath and focusing on immediately directing myself toward a solution, which implies actually writing out the pattern/ point faced in order to structure specific corrections that must be implemented by myself and as such realize that I do not require to ‘fly away’ in my thoughts if I instead decide to direct myself physically and be at ease for real from that.

 

When and as I see myself creating backchat in relation to having ‘no way out’ from my self-created experience and believing everything is fucked up, that we’re going nowhere, wanting to give up – I stop and I breathe – I realize there is no real giving up in this world other than dying and as such, not even death will be a safe-place from facing myself and my responsibility – thus, I direct myself to be and become active in that moment to look at how to instead direct myself to look at the problem I am facing and as such direct myself toward a solution, as I see and realize that wanting to give up/ hide/ run away from myself is simply a point of conflict that does not support myself to Live, but only to entertain a mind that seeks for further ways to maintain oneself in friction and conflict – thus

 

I commit myself to stand one and equal to my mind to create solutions for the problems/ situations I am facing, wherein I ensure I take on the directive principle of myself and my reality and for that, no desire to run away/ thinking everything is fucked is required.

 

When and as I see myself wanting to ‘make it all stop’ in my mind, I stop and I breathe within the realization that thinking about stopping is only enhancing the self-experience – thus it is pointless to think ‘I want to make it all stop,’ since the stability of who and what we are is always here as the physical as breath.

 

I commit myself to remind myself to realize that the stability of the physical body is always here ‘one breath away’ and that any desire to seek for a better self experience is only another way to escape responsibility, which is unacceptable and as such, commit myself to stand up and walk the necessary steps to get to a point of stability and self-responsibility, to ensure that I in fact face my reality and my decisions made.

 

When and as I see myself imagining that it will take me a long time to solve the situation/ problem and go into an experience of helplessness and gloom, I stop and I breathe – I realize this is another self manipulation in order for me to Not take self responsibility and create an excuse to not face my reality. Thus

I commit myself to direct myself as my mind to instead plan a way to walk the corrections and take self responsibility, as I see that there is no point in feeding imaginations that lead me to further excuses and justifications to not stand up. Thus I stop manipulating myself and face the reality of myself and what I have become.

 

When and as I see myself going into imagination and experiential flashback of immediately grabbing onto something or someone when facing a point of conflict – drug, relationship, food, going out, avoiding myself with any form of entertainment – I stop and I breathe.  I direct myself back to physical reality and deliberately stop participating in the desire to ‘have something’ to ‘make myself feel better/ help me cope with the situation’

I realize that the reality of what I have become is that which I am Here as a living being and as such, imagining to ‘run away from it’ through positive experiences that I have defined within my mind as such will only prolong the process of facing myself here, physically and in a stable manner.

 

I commit myself to stop participation in any enticing thought to consume something in order to feel better about myself, as I see that this is a temporary fix that has never lead me to an actual living stable and consistent solution.

 

When and as I see myself experiencing apathy, dullness, sadness and a general lack of ‘energy’ and wanting to give up on myself, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am actually manipulating myself to feel this way through all the thoughts and backchat allowed – thus I direct myself to stop wallowing in this mind-create experience and as such, focus on the constancy and consistency of who I am as the physical, as breath, where as long as I am breathing I realize I am able to perfectly move myself toward a solution instead of hooking myself onto reactions that only support the mind.

 

I commit myself to stop creating self experiences  of self-doom and gloom in relation to ‘having to face myself/ my consequences’ as I realize these are not self supportive at all, and instead direct myself to act upon the solutions that will lead to an actual consequence that will benefit myself and all equally – no longer being bound to a single self-definition of ‘having to cope with my reality’ but being sound and stable to face it and take responsibility for it as myself.

 

When and as I see myself yawning and wanting to sleep, slouching and a general heaviness on my eyes, I breathe and I realize that I have to take some fresh air, move around and not give into the physical wallowing experience- and instead direct myself to breathe and focus on the solutions that I have to lay out in front of me.

 

When and as I see myself biting the lower part of my index finger, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am biting my own direction and as such creating a  mind experience about that which I have already propitiated at a mind level. Thus

I commit myself to breathe, focus on my physical body, move, get fresh air whenever I am feeling tired/ down/ wanting to sleep as this is a clear pattern of wanting to avoid having to face myself.

 

When and as I see myself wanting to compulsively clean something or wanting to go out and ‘get this one thing I require no matter what’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that this is compulsive behavior wherein I use such points/ events as an excuse to not have to face myself as my responsibility toward my world/ reality and seek to ‘get out’ for a while, which leads to a pattern of evasion. Thus

 

I commit myself to stop being compulsive or impulsive in my decisions that lead to a prompt ‘get away’ from responsibility, which is a flag point in order to always be common sensical about our activities and decision, to ensure I am not directing myself as y mind to seek a ‘way out’ – which thus requires me to slow down and always ensure I am in fact making the decisions of what to do, instead of creating a point of ‘easy way out’ by finding excuses of ‘what I require to do’ which is usually only a distraction from what I in fact have to do and give direction to.

 

When and as I see myself doing nothing, being idle and as such ‘waiting’ for the right moment to snap out of the freak of having to face myself, take responsibility for myself, I stop and I breathe – I realize that If I don’ move then nothing will change or move.

 

I realize that we have created this world as the perfect ‘entertainment center’ wherein we have dedicated our lifetimes to only feel good, seek the ‘good self experience’ while avoiding to look at how we have created all the bad/ negative that is certainly the outflows and consequences due to us having wanted to have a quick fix to our problems and flaws that are generated at a thought level, which implies that: the more I avoid facing myself = the more I contribute to maintain our current world and reality ‘as is’ because we have feared consequence so much, that we don’t want to give up and stop participating in everything that has kept us in a bubble of ‘everything is relatively fine,’ without realizing the abuse and unsustainability that such bubble exists as, because it is only through having enough money to live that one can actually not do anything and still manage to wake up the next day, because people that have no security and support to live each day, Truly live each day getting what they require to eat to ‘live.’ This implies that instead of us wanting to avoid facing the responsibility of how we created such a reality that we all want to run away from, we all become self responsible beings beginning with ourselves to spot and identify where and how we have contributed to this life-long apathetic behavior, fearful manipulative behavior to not face our responsibility and create solutions for ourselves in this world.

 

I realize that it is only through individual ‘awakening’ which means: realizing the problems in this world, taking the decision to face ourselves/ what we have become, take the self directive decision to STOP participating in everything that prevents life from being lived – beginning with our thoughts, feelings and emotions, stop wanting to consume/ get high/ get a relationship/ run away literally from our reality and as such face ourselves as everything that we are and have become as this is the key to actually getting to know ourselves and realizing that in the mind we won’t ever be able to solve the problems in our world and reality, but only through physical self-corrective processes wherein we deliberately start caring for ourselves and each other, to stop being subsumed in a self-experience of doom and gloom and instead, start looking at and caring to see what is the current state of the world we live in and as such, become part of the solution through stopping self-interest and individualized self-experiences and focus on creating solutions that are best for the whole, that includes ourselves as well.

 

I commit myself to stop wanting to get any form of energetic high as a positive experience to not face myself and my consequences as I see that the accumulation of consequence is pervasive currently in our reality and leads ourselves nowhere else but the constant and continuous self-experience of being ‘flawed’ and ‘wrong’ as a justification to not stand up – thus it is a commitment to stop Feeling bad about ourselves and the world situation that WE have participated and created, and focus on how to stop and correct the patterns of the past that we already know had led us nowhere but toward further consequence as humanity. We created the problems, we create the solutions.

 

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249. Can’t stop the Cookie from Crumbling

 

Consequence is all around us. Creating an experience about what we’ve done and become only complicates everything. I noticed myself assessing my reality and ‘the world’ when coming back to ‘my origins’ and I realized to what extent I have lived in a bubble, no matter where you are, as long as you have money you are protected and separated from Reality. Everywhere it is like a scenario put up to attract money and become a winner, everywhere we all know we lie to each other to get to such positions and such lies and competition are some of the basic components that reveal what we have become.

I discussed many things about our current society and reality, but it all just ends in a hoping-experience stemming from others, that somehow a thing or two will ‘ring a bell’ to make a change, which would still exist as a self-limitation, because every one that is willing to be part of the change, will initiate it themselves.

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• 241. The EndGame Show: 2012

• 242. Overwhelmed by the Abuse upon Life?

• 243. The Sublime and the End of the World

• 244. How to Prevent School Shootings

• 245. Sublimity and Ecstatic Self Experiences

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  246. Why do we Seek to Escape this World through Emotions?

• 247. Blindly Following Our Progress

• 248. Are you Depressed about the End of the World?

The real problems we have neglected in the name of entertaining ourselves so gossip about, it is our responsibility as every word that we speak without awareness of the consequence only adds up to the already existent pile of ‘meaningless lives’ that we have lived, and it’s not to bring anything or anyone down, but it’s plain to see that if the if the Human Race was to be wiped out of the face of the Earth, a small amount of beings would truly be missed, and that says much about who we are and what we have become.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever stop desiring to keep going and be alive, without having ever really lived and never having given myself the opportunity to test out what it is to Live the Words I speak and as such, become the principle and directive force as myself, as an individual that recognizes one’s own ability to stand up and live.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever seek for ‘an end’ to myself or humanity as a whole, not realizing that in such situation there would be no self-realization of why we became the very reverse of life incarnated and as such, miss out the entire point of living this life of consequence.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see how easy it is to get ‘lost’ in the bright and warm colors in reality as all the comfort and security that money is able to provide, wherein one is able to be the one that spares some ‘change’ to a kid selling chewing gum during traffic lights, most likely sent by parents that know a kid triggers more compassion than adults will ever do. I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become ‘used to’ this and forget the very initial shock I got from witnessing this reality, which is clearly a blatant demonstration of how we have made things just normal and go without a care about anything/ anyone else but ourselves.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to never really look at all the ‘items’ I possess and disregard its origin and source and as I went reading the tags, realize that having more than enough of what we really use is accumulation, is capitalism, is what we were taught to believe in, and that I pay for the slave labor that creates my clothes and shoes alike. And within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that every single thing that I have paid for and that I have used, contains a form of abuse, of blood and death and this is no exaggeration, since we just have to investigate the lives of the millions working in factories and sweatshops, producing the most clothes in an astounding record of time– and we are so clever to buy that to an irrational price – as all prices are – wrap it up with nice paper  and gift it as a demon-stration of love and appreciation – thus

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see how easy it is to justify the abuse of what creates our ‘ownerships’ just because of having paid for it, which makes us all equally responsible for any unfair labor that has been used as the production of our ‘goods’ and services that we simply take for granted, unaware of the lives of those in the positions of extracting, manufacturing, producing and distributing these goods and services, that are the actual ones that do all the labor but instead, we buy brands, we buy names, we buy prices and as such, enslave each other to become the very fuel to a system of abuse, by simply neglecting how everything that we buy and consume was created.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to neglect our living-beingness as human beings wherein we just accepted ourselves to seek for a reason and purpose to live and in this, diverting our attention to anything and everyone else but life in itself as who we are, and this is a grave mistake that we have all co-created, and we have to all face with, as that is currently our equality: having to go through equal consequence so that we learn from first hand what we have done and not done onto ourselves.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to exist in such a self interest toward myself and the world wherein I continually looked for ‘myself’ outside of myself and believing life was about a meaning – and in this, become oblivious to everything and everyone that was working in a continuous manner in order to sustain the world-system we are living in now, wherein only a few humans are able to have the amount of time to ‘ponder’ about reality while missing out the real-problems and real-physical struggle on Earth.

 

When and as I see myself hitting the ‘low’ and ‘depressed’ state about how humanity exists at the moment – I stop and I breathe as many times as necessary to ensure I am back HERE on Earth and not going into an experience about the world – and realize one thing: me being/ becoming depressed about the current state of humanity and life on Earth makes no difference or stands as No Solution to what I see and realize must be done and live d in this reality – thus in essence, emotions and feelings are but a distraction to what is Really going on here as physical processes and equations that are being blatantly disregarded.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rejoice letting another know about the actuality of the problems in this world as a means to open up their eyes, without realizing that there is no need to convince another from realizing/ doing something that will support each other as equals – self realization implies sharing without wanting others to do the same, but living as the example of what it is to genuinely care and that’s where real responsibility resides in.

 

I commit myself to bring myself back here to Earth as I share myself and anything that I’ve become ware of that is leading to any of the current consequences in our Reality and instead share how the basic point is to stop participating in any diversion from self-application if one is absolutely decided to face the consequences and be willing to get back to honor ourselves and each other through facing the consequence.

 

I commit myself to stop making an experience of consequence and also when and as I communicate about it, as I realize there is quite a journey to walk here as consequence in order to become aware of what we’ve become in its totality and that wanting to prevent this from happening or altering anyone’s awareness about it in an incisive manner can only lead to further creation of consequence. Thus I stand as a stable and equanimous person that continues to realize the extent in which we have neglected ourselves, all life that we have used and abused to construct our ‘ideal lifestyles,’ growing consequence without an awareness of how everything we thought we could just escape from ever having to face again is always here as manifested consequence, as our result of any parasitical relationship of abuse.

 

There are things we cannot just assume are not ‘here’ any longer, and as such, I follow through with the  path we all must walk to realize ourselves and our responsibility to every single word and action we decide in every moment that we are here and also show how money becomes a comfortable veil to not face what others as ourselves are facing every single day, which cannot go ‘unnoticed’ any longer.

This is not evil, this is not bad, this is being real and self-honest: there is no way out of this that won’t involve having to give up the self that can continue avoiding facing consequence and responsibility for what we’ve become. Thus, I take a breath and continue walking as there is certainly nothing else to do and live in this world but the solution to all that which we have tried many times to escape from.

 

We might not be able to stop what has been set in motion in unawareness and gone to a full extent of consequence to depletion, death and permanent damage on Earth, but we can begin living lives wherein we realize that prevention is the best cure, and as such seeing how there is a lot we have missed in our reality due to having honored the mind and not the physical, and that the time has come to face what we’ve abused in the name of self interest.

 

To be continued

 

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“Human Perception is our Greatest Enemy. Because, it has Devolved into Complete Separation as Self-Interest where the Individual will do its Utmost, to Ensure its own Comfort, Luxury and Survival – No Matter What. That is Extremely Unpleasant – to Watch a World, where Not a Single Face Presented in any way, can be Trusted to be the Real Face. It is Disheartening, to be in a World where no-one really Care. No matter how much Doomsday we have every day, no matter how many Living Beings die – there is just Silence. Not even a Cry. And, no one Shed a Tear. All Accepted, and Allowed.” – Bernard Poolman+

 

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within the consideration of humanity being fucked, having no regard to any other human being, I cultivated a desire to have everything be wiped out/ humanity disappearing and within this, create a layer of disdain toward humanity as a whole, without realizing that in this I was simply projecting blame onto others within a stance of superiority/innocence as if I had not participated in every single point that is leading us to this current situation of being close to our own annihilation and annihilating the lives of every single particle that is also here as part of who we are, without realizing that by the sheer fact of me existing, I am equally responsible to any single point I could criticize/ judge or even be ashamed of that other human beings represent in this world.

 

When and as I see myself participating within a quiet-desire for everything to just ‘disappear’ and have humanity wiped out, I stop and I breathe. I realize that facing the reality that we have all participated in is certainly part of what we have to breathe through because I realize that my experience and my desires to ‘end it all’ have no ability to support any being for that matter. Thus I breathe and stop participating in any thoughts that contribute to separating myself from others and the responsibility we all hold as having been equal participants within the current state of humanity.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience disgust as ourselves, human beings, for doing what we’re doing onto each other and every single animal, plant and small particle as part of our existence that we are abusing and simply disregarding within any consideration of them all being also part of what should be regarded as equal, equally valuable, equally important to make life on Earth possible but instead, we have become so imbued in our own pursuit of happiness, of a good time that everyone is just caring after their own well being and survival, because we have all collectively accepted a system wherein one just care-after oneself only, never promoting an actual collective sense of existence/ coexisting and requiring the same points to live thus

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that the evil that I judge and create emotional experiences about when witnessing it within my reality, is nothing else but the consequential outflow of a collective agreement wherein we have accepted and allowed disparity, inequality and scarcity toward fellow human beings, simply because of accepting a country’s economy, a race, a region of the world and the disparity in currencies as actually ‘acceptable’ and ‘real,’ without realizing that in this make-believe world-system, we had never questioned why we haven’t been genuinely benevolent to each other to stop all forms of political, economical and social separations in order to Grant Access to all that is required to live as natural resources and necessary tools to be able to thrive as humanity no matter where we are located in this world.  Within this

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that judging the Evil in humanity is absolutely unnecessary since it is only another layer of self-preoccupation and self-experience added to the already existent selfishness that exists within/as the human mind that only caters for its own benefit individually, disregarding the collective and ecosystem that enables life to be possible on Earth.

When and as I see myself judging humanity/ a single human being’s actions as evil, nasty, spiteful, shameful or any other adjective that points out a degradation of life, I stop and I breathe. I realize that reducing myself in one single moment to assess/ participate in such judgmental activity becomes another link in the chain of self-abuse, because I am only generating yet another emotional experience that only feeds the same mind that is the very starting point of this whole problem in our reality in the first place, since who we are as the mind is the one that thrives upon friction and conflict to generate enough energy to feed itself from the actual physicality that we are here – thus within this realization and as a point of self correction in the moment: I direct myself to breathe through the surge of energy as contempt, disdain, shame and anger and follow through to apply Self-Forgiveness out loud in order to bring myself back to the physical reality wherein I can focus on supporting myself to do/ say that which will support me to Live and others to also realize the same instead of projecting and compounding yet another form of rivalry and antagonism toward others in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that every time I participate in any form of anger toward ‘humanity’ as a mass, as a group in its totality and identify ‘humanity’ as irresponsible is indicating only where I am currently standing as myself, and reacting to that which I would have also participated myself, even if it’s through actually rejoicing at watching another’s series of unfortunate events which already raises attention to see to what extent we have come to be lax about what we deem as entertaining just because of the Experience that we get from it as an energetic kick out of watching another suffering – therefore

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rejoice in watching another’s suffering which is quite a common point in our humanity, wherein because of the fear that we get from hypothetically placing ourselves in the shoes of the person, we would create the opposite experience as a positive experience through vicariously enjoying watching another going through events that are deliberately evil as a problematic situations in our so-called lives and call that entertaining, without realizing that in all of this Self-Experience we are only focusing on ourselves and our personal ‘good’ experience –  but in no way are we actually considering what is it that we are in fact laughing/ rejoicing about and become Aware of what we accept and allow to be commonly experienced as entertaining/ fulfilling without having a clue WHY we rejoice at such evil and generate a positive out of a negative.

 

When and as I see myself generating any form of either positive or negative experience through judging others, I stop and I breathe within the realization that it is within the participation of myself as my mind that I will only contribute to the already existent/portrayed point of experience as ‘common’ and ‘acceptable’ within us human beings, without realizing it is within such participation that we neglect and forget about being equal living beings but only opt for rejoicing in an experience at a mind level of either a positive or a negative that is equally abusive to who we are as physical beings – and to understand this and why please, educate yourself with the Quantum Mind Self Awareness interviews, so one can make an informed decision of why we require to stop all participation in our minds of thoughts/ emotions/ feelings as positive or negative energetic reactions and to start learning how to honor each other as physical beings.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the disgust projected toward ‘humanity’ that I have participated in before and that emerged after watching a group of people deciding upon another being’s life to go through the worst-case scenarios, is in fact my own self-interest and selfish self-experience wherein I am placing myself as ‘above’ those that are making the decisions, as if I was absolutely innocent within such outflow and being completely responsible toward myself , my own mind and my physical reality which I am not yet – thus I see, realize and understand that I can only generate any form of contempt, disdain and disgust toward ‘humanity’ as a single concept in my mind that I have used to abdicate my own responsibility toward myself, toward within my mind and what such participation contributes with as ‘who I am’ within this world.

 

Thus I commit myself to walk absolutely diligently to establish myself as a physical living being that stops in all ways and forms contributing to the same cycles of abuse through judgment, creating emotional experiences upon such judgment and in the end doing nothing to establish solutions but remain as a single victim that adds up to the rest of the victims that believe one have no ‘power’ to change things, without realizing that we have never in fact have any form of ‘power’ upon ourselves in reality until now that we are realizing we can become self-directive beings that deliberately decide to support/ be and become the solution to establish Life in Equality.

I realize that we have never in fact have any form of actual power or control over this reality and that who we are as living beings require physical self-correction to stop participating in the mind assessing one’s performance as either evil or good – step out of any form of positive or negative energetic experience upon assessing our reality, and instead focus on physical solutions that don’t require any form of judgment, contempt, desire to retaliate others or simply ‘wipe them out,’ as that is obviously foolishly again contributing to the same patterns of separation/ abuse and neglect toward one another.

(Listen to Why it is Important to Investigate the Negative – Part 135 for further education and understanding of what we are in fact facing when we deal with the Evil in this world)

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to reduce physical beings to ‘evil characters’ in my mind in order to then create within myself an experience of/as an ‘offended character’ without realizing how in this single participation of any form of backchat or speaking to myself about how ‘fucked we are’ as humanity is only contributing to further characterization and in fact maiming our ability to stand up because within that I am accepting and allowing ourselves to be ‘fucked’ as in powerless, having no ability to self-direct ourselves and essentially within that, accept and allow myself to diminish myself to a single self-defeatism experience that is only existent in my mind – thus

 

When and as I see myself judging people for being ‘evil’ and ‘mean’ and ‘irresponsible’ in my mind, I stop and I breathe. I direct myself to Not participate in these thoughts in any way whatsoever but instead learn about how we function as humanity and see the practical ways in which I can ensure I stop the perpetual cycles of self-abuse such as opposing/ judging or ‘being ashamed’ of being a human being and instead focus on walking the solution to humanity as myself: stopping our minds of desires, wants and needs that lead us to such evil in the first place and become the example of how it is possible to simply look at humanity and have an empty mind, take the facts and propose solutions.

 

I forgive myself that I have ever accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as judgment toward others and reacting emotionally upon another’s actions and projecting blame upon ‘them,’ instead of first taking the point back to self to see where I am in fact reacting because of me being doing the same or simply creating an emotional experience about this spitefulness toward life that I then co-create by participating in my mind of emotions and feelings. I realize that this physical reality is being physically disregarded, exploited and abused and my emotional experience toward it won’t change a thing – I rather absolutely stop, forgive myself for any reaction and continue breathing in my self-stability to be able to direct myself to create solutions, become the solution myself by stopping following my own wants, desires, needs that may in any harm one’s and another’s life.

 

When and as I see myself existing in self judgment and within any emotional experience toward others in my reality, I stop and I breathe within the realization that whatever experience, thought I create toward others in no way contributes to an actual living-solution. Thus I direct myself to instead understand the point that I am judging, see ‘who I am’ toward it, how I am participating in it and in self-awareness direct myself to establish a solution for that which I am judging, which begins by me stopping judging it/ becoming emotional about it and then focus on physical directions/ solutions that can be implemented in order to prevent such ‘evil situation’ from happening in the first place.

 

I realize that we are abusing in the name of satisfying one’s ego and entertainment in this case, wherein the worst-case scenario decisions are being made in order to have a ‘good time’ as a form of entertainment. The same happens when we exert our anger upon others as a form of vindicating our position as victims in this world which becomes nothing else but another grain added to the sack of the plethora of beings that would rather fight against the system/ oppose the government/ retaliate against corporations/ religious institutions and any other association in separation of life that are in no way envisioning a collective agreement to support each other as equals and within that, correcting the root of evil that we have all become and participated within without any form of physical awareness of who we are in fact fighting against.

 

“If Karma Existed – as a Real Law of Consequence and Man had to Pay for What has been Allowed on Earth: there would be No End to Suffering for All on Earth, Virtually for Eternity Now. Many Hope to Escape the Consequence, by Finding all kinds of Saviors. How can anyone Save you from yourself – If you are not Willing to do it for yourself? If you are not Willing to Change you, Why must someone else Change you? Because that is your Greatest Fear, that you Claim that anyone else that try and change you, is Brainwashing you… it is Such a Conundrum, the Perfect Trap.” – Bernard Poolman+

 

 

When and I see myself wanting to blame and project a single experience of disdain toward human beings for the acts they are perpetrating as any form of abuse toward life  – I stop and I breathe – I realize that such abuse is happening all the time in our reality and that my experience contributes to such abuse. Thus I stop, I breathe, I become aware of the abuse, I trace the point to see how such abuse is created in order to ensure that such root-cause of the abuse is self-corrected within me at all times.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I can only generate an experience upon that which I have participated/ been/ become myself  – thus any form of externalization of judgment is only a key point that I can direct myself to immediately take it back to self, investigate where and how I have become that which I am judging in others and take self responsibility for it. Such as ever rejoicing in watching another’s pain and suffering which we can condemn as ‘evil,’ however we are all inflicting such pain and suffering by the single acceptance of Money as a system to obtain that which we require to live, and such money is not readily available to all human beings equally, that is the real reverse of life that we are All blindly accepting and allowing in this world-system.

 

I realize that if I was aware of the abuse that we are All Collectively directly inflicting upon each other, upon each animal, insect, plant, life particle in this reality, I would have been consumed by my own anger, shame and remorse about it. Thus existing in guilt, shame, remorse, anger and sadness about what we are Doing upon this world is actually self interest – and within that, wanting to ‘wipe out humanity’ is simply in fact just opting to ‘get a quick fix’ to not have to face the consequences we have all co-created in/as this world we’re living in. This is our Doomsday, this is what we participate in on a daily basis beginning with ourselves in our own minds – thus

 

I commit myself to stop participating within my own Mood-change as my self-doom by creating emotional experiences upon the abuse, evil and neglect upon life and walk my physical process to actually become Life / Live as the reverse of all that evil that I can simply then become aware of, establish the root-cause of such evil, plan a solution that I can live and implement as what’s best for all and as such, promote solutions, promote and become the way that we can practically correct the patterns that have we tend to simply judge or become overwhelmed by in self interest as a personal experience.

 

I realize that my responsibility toward this world cannot be possibly corrected or ‘washed away’ with any form of immediate self destruction, as that would be similar to simply ascending/dying as in leaving our consequence behind as this physical world/ the Earth that is holding all our evil deeds as proof of how we can neglect each other and life with such an ease that should be a focus of attention to start creating a sense of self-responsibility and self-worth as life as equals, because as long as I expect consequence to ‘hit others’ and place myself out of the equation, I am still existing in such self interest as in seeing myself as ‘superior’ to those that I believe are the ‘evil ones,’ without realizing that we’re All in this together and we have Always been together in this co-creative process in existence, therefore there is no way out of facing ourselves, no matter what.

 

I commit myself to live the realization how within any form of desire/want and need to only satisfy my self experience as either in a positive or negative experience about another’s thoughts/words/deeds, I am equally contributing to perpetuating this system of abuse, as the system is founded upon satisfying our wants/ needs and desires through making them available through a monetary system that is already set to only benefit some – within this it is to realize how delusional it is that we have all collectively agreed to only benefit ‘some’ and disregard the majority using reasoning, logic, beliefs and ‘laws’ even to protect such elitist granting of ‘living rights and guarantees’ that have become the reflection of how our own minds function: care for yourself and nevermind the rest –

 

Therefore I take the point of self responsibility toward myself, my own mind and become  a physical living example of how it is possible to become a contribution to Life/ Living and sharing myself, my process within this with others so that more can become aware of another way of living as equals, wherein we can in fact then establish an actual self-awareness to see what we are rejoicing with, to become aware of how it is through our desire/want and need to have certain positive experiences that we overlook the abuse that lies beneath it. And this is existent virtually everywhere since this world and reality has become the epitome of evil and everything that is the reverse of life.

 

Thus, I commit myself to continue living a process of physical integrity as life wherein my thoughts/words/deeds speak and express that which I realize we are, that which I realize has to be done and implemented in this world in order to no more support and cater for the abuse toward fellow living species/beings and become life myself, as that is the actual living-example that can propitiate and place in motion the necessary changes that are urgent in this world, such as establishing the Equal Money System that will certainly enable people to be relieved from having to exist in an endless payroll and survival mode, competing to ‘make a living,’ and instead, have enough time to support themselves, to learn about how our mind works, how to support oneself to become a living-self aware being that is self-responsible through the tools of self-support that are the only ones that will enable us to realize our responsibility within this reality, which are writing, Self-Forgiveness, Self Corrective Application, Breathing and sharing because acting alone is futile in this Journey to Life wherein the outcome will always affect the whole.

 

More to come…

 

Further Self Support:

• Desteni

• Desteni I Process

• Desteni Lite Process – Free Online Course

• Equal Money System

 

“I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that with parent-child, teacher-classroom, Money-humanity relationships being based on Elitism of/as “the One / Chosen One”, has become platforms within humanity that propagate Competition for Survival – put Man against Man, Man against the Physical/Earth, as all compete for/as their Survival, their Elitism, their “specialness, uniqueness, importance” energy experiences, that we would within such relationships – not consider: a solution to this physical existence where we ensure that each parent is equipped to have children, that each child is ensured a life from birth to death, that all children are ensured an equal and one education, that each human being co-exist within a World System that contribute to life on earth. But, we’ve conditioned/submitted ourselves, our Minds to the systems of this world, in ‘how life has always been’ – instead of standing up, and changing, and taking responsibility for ourselves, for those that have gone before us, with what ‘life on earth’ has become.” – Sunette Spies *

 

 

Blogs:

• * The Chosen One (Part Two): DAY 242

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  Day 242: Doomsday and God – ADC – Part 89

• This blog is part of the After Death Communication Series

 

Interviews that support oneself to understand how to walk our process within the perspective of consequence and informed decisions:

• The Domino Effect of Unknown History – Part 134

• Why it is Important to Investigate the Negative – Part 135

• How Consciousness Evolved to EGO – Reptilians – Part 133

• Demons in the Afterlife – Part 13: The Difference between Energy and Breath.

 

Vlog:

2012 Doomsday Character: Sick of Humanity? – YouTube

2012: Overwhelmed with Tears by Media – YouTube

205. Self Interest as an Obstacle to Real Change

 

• “Freedom of choice is now protected by the individual as it feels like it is free –in spite of the evidence to the contrary and even when it rebels– it only do so in ways that do not impede with its special comforts and thus –the system is safe from the group as the individual now act as a group through what it buys or watch on TV. So –you fear to lose COMFORT and CHOICE to BUY stuff” – Bernard Poolman

 

Continuation of the Elite Character

194. Let the Mask Fall!

195. The Righteousness of Evil

196. The Elitist Evil behind Relationships

197. Friends of Convenience

198. Wealth and Positivity a Synonym of Abuse

199. You Hate the Beautiful People?

200. The Make-Up Reality

201. Friends of Convenience: for a little piece of Heaven

202. Optimism as a Sign of Success

203. The Acceptance of Heaven is the Allowance of Hell

204. Opposing the System: Elitist Act of Irresponsibility

 

 

I would  judge people that would only spend their time focusing on ‘what to wear, what party to attend, calling their friends, sitting on their couch watching TV, going shopping, etc. which I deemed to be activities that only people that have no survival problems can participate on – however, I was obviously projecting the problem outside of myself and taking on again the ‘Self Righteous’ aspect of judging others, pointing fingers and blaming because it’s much easier to Blame than take Self Responsibility and see where and how I was doing exactly the same processes – different conditions, different scenarios but same starting point: having money, not worrying about having to ‘make a living’ and instead believing that through my wits and intellectualization of reality, I could create a difference in this world.

 

Well, what did I get from those endless hours of sitting sipping coffee with sociologists, writers, economists, poets, artists and plain dissidents of the system? Nothing else but always ending up with a feeling of ‘powerlessness’ while not having to worry much about it at the end of the day, because hey at least we were having money and studies to live, I see how even within that the point of change was projected ‘there’ in the future, never ever pointing fingers back to ourselves, I was so high up on my horse about blaming the system that I simply was absolutely getting an energetic kick out of it. All we would eventually realize is that  money determined everything and that no intention of change will do a single thing, nor criticizing will do a thing either which is part of what I was exploring yesterday in terms of the opposition of the system, of which I obviously participated in.

 

I was comfortably wanting to become part of the elitist groups of intellectuals that could speak about reality as politics, economics, culture ‘from head to toe’ and be revered for that while earning good money from the system for doing so – because of what I had seen some others in my reality doing – however never in fact becoming an active part of proposing a solution, because even then I was still only wanting to do it as a form of ‘resistance’ and ‘exposure’ which is how many of our current intellectuals and well-versed people can have ‘all the knowledge and information about how the system works’ – this being within the current available considerations that fall short when it comes to a holistic understanding of reality – and can even propose great sounding theories of how to create a change – but missing out the point of ourselves, who we are as the mind, how the world system is an outflow and consequence of this relationship of ourselves to our own mind has been absolutely missed.

 

Most of these theories are never taken to an actual political implementation, since they end up within certain groups/ factions of society that only seek to create a constant ‘war’ and opposition to the ‘establishment’ as a source of self-empowerment, without realizing how there will be absolutely No change in reality if we remain only blaming others, finding flaws without understanding the cause of such flaws, sipping our coffee in long hours of discussing the system, in conventions and global forums to ‘discuss the problems’ without proposing tangible solutions, or going to protest and then hooking up with friends to party, or raging against the system of which one is also being able to eat from; all of this reveals to what extent money is also a condition that allows us to ‘rebel’ only and be concerned in self—interested ways to make an apparent ‘change’ in this world, while being rather absolutely ignorant to the actuality of the process that must take place in order to Really in Fact consider even what an actual change in this world would require, which is at all times: ourselves, focusing at this moment on the individual and realizing that no matter how long it takes, education is the key here, and that as long as we continue diverting our efforts to seek to create a point of ‘opposition’ from our safety zones of ‘opposition’ and ‘dissidence,’ nothing will change.

 

So, it became rather part of the main branches of my personality, wanting to Remain within my comfort zone while taking on a seemingly ‘critical position’ toward the system, keeping my benefits, keeping my security and protection that money gives me, having the ability to ‘study lots’ to have all careers necessary to ‘empower’ myself  as a knowledgeable Act without Acting it out – this is how when getting to Desteni and realizing that I would Actually have to do it became quite a blow to my ego, and I can say that in this regard, I am barely only stepping within my own realization of what does it meant to really Do everything it takes/ whatever it takes to live out the words I am speaking here – otherwise, it would be no different to sipping coffee, theorizing about reality and expecting ‘world change’ to come while I remain in my comfort zone. 

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I could ‘change the world’ while holding on specifically to that which would ensure that every step that I take toward such apparent ‘change’/ revolution would not disturb my security and comfort zone within my reality, which implies: not allowing my own criticism toward the system to compromise my position, which is then being and becoming the absolute walking paradox, deliberately ignoring how it was only because of money that I was able to have the time to read and chat and educate myself about the system and direct such knowledge and information ‘against the system’ while also seeking to educate myself ‘more’ within the system to create further opposition/ criticism to it within a position of ‘respect’/academicism which is like wanting to use weapons to end a war – which does happen in our reality – and so, it reveals the level of ignorance we have accepted and allowed ourselves to deliberately create in order to ensure that We are Not affected by that which we are complaining about – this is within the standing point of the specific character of the educated/elitist antagonist of the system.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to actually initiate such desire to ‘oppose the system’ from a vantage point of having money, having a good life and only wanting to seek to do some ‘justice’ for the people mostly because of wanting to become a particular character in my society wherein I would still remain in a position of comfort/ power and ‘support others’ as well, which reveals how I was not willing to fully let go of my self interest and desire to remain in a comfortable position in order to create a point of change in this world, and I see and realize how this has been ‘the point’ that I have accepted as a limitation, because of still wanting to have the ‘good life’ at all times, which then becomes just another way of wanting change while holding on to an aspect of that which is required to be changed, because of fearing losing the comfort and general ability to buy/ consume/ fulfill my desires and in such point, I give into the same cycle of self interest that exists when considering having to do whatever it takes to create a point of change in this world, which certainly begins with myself and the decisions and Choices I have at the moment.

 

Within this, I commit myself to ensure that I am not deliberately wanting to stick to my point/ zone of comfort in order to remain ‘safe’ and ‘protected’ by the money that I have as a point that must be feared to let go of, and instead remind myself how Self Interest is The point that has always stood in front of any actual full-blown decision to stand as an immovable example of self-correction in this word. Thus,

 

I commit myself to investigate where and how  Self Interest exists within me, maybe not in the form of luxuries or comfort as money, but also as a point of further responsibilities and preparation that is required for me in order to stand as part of the actual change in this world system.

 

More to come.

 

 

Blogs:

• Have you Seen my Happiness Anywhere? (Part 2): DAY 205

• Day 205: After Death Communication – Part 53 – Must Read

Interviews:

• The Crucifixion of Jesus – Part 15

• When EMPTINESS is REAL – Life Review

• The Crucifixion of Jesus – Part 16

• The Crucifixion of Jesus – Part 17

• Revisión de Vida – El Filántropo de la Élite 
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188.Con-Sequence

Consequences of Procrastination – Writing 

The manifested consequence of our creation is what we learn to face within this process  – and one would common sensically consider that because of knowing/ being aware of the potential harm, disruption, loss of integrity when deliberately participating in any thought, word and deed that we ‘know’ is not what best for all, we simply would stop doing it and stop the harm and self-abuse. Well, who we are as the mind is anything but common sensical or ‘sane’ within the logical sense of what sanity should be as a state of equilibrium at an organic/body and mind level. We are anything but that. While reading one of Heaven’s Journey to Life blogs I remember leaving a comment how I was a bit shocked when realizing that we Know what we are doing to ourselves, such as consuming our very life substance in order to create energetic experiences – yet we continue, yet we keep doing it even though the explanation is here on a golden platter for us to stand up and change.

I saw within myself also how the points that I’ve been able to definitely quit and stop and support myself to face the ‘withdrawal’ of were aspects wherein I made a firm decision to change. The moment I do not make this definitive decision, I know beforehand that I will use an excuse to not-change and kind of sneak in the pattern that I am ‘trying to stop’ because in the ‘trying’ there is no definitive action taken to decisively stop something. How on Earth have we managed to fool ourselves? To actually be abusing our lives, our living opportunities of expansion and growth even within the current ‘constrains’ of the system we live in, and simply allow ourselves to be ruled by apathy, by uselessness, by the sheer decision to ‘do it later’ which implies already deciding to do something else that sounds better to me than actually pushing myself to expand my current accepted and allowed automated response to only ‘go for’ that which sounds nice, enticing, comfortable, cozy even within my mind.

 

Now, the consequences… this is the part we really don’t want to face because it is all obviously to our own detriment and within the character walked so far, I realize the piece of self-sabotage masterpiece this has been.  I have also realized that I cannot victimize myself, make excuses, try to explain why I didn’t do it in a way that would sound ‘good’ at the ears of others – nope, I can’t like and all I have been able to say is ‘I have no excuse for that’ and even that sounds like cynicism based on me obviously having judged people in the past that would ‘blatantly’ accept their mistakes and faults and have  ‘nothing else to say’ because apparently, an excuse or justification would ‘soothe the consequence’ in some way, which is always stemming from this inherent human-mind desire of keeping ourselves on the ‘positive score’ of the game, even if everything goes to hell today we rather say ‘oh, but, you know, we did our best, we did everything we could, there was no way to change this’ – and cross our arms and hope to die probably.

Well, that which I see could happen at a global scale in terms of the procrastination we are accepting and allowing to sort out this world, the same I can see in the seemingly ‘unimportant’ points that I have procrastinated, deliberately ignoring the consequences and effect that this single point that I accepted and allowed to leave behind created as an effect in my overall beingness wherein it is rather difficult to pretend that everything is fine when there’s this corpse you’re dragging behind you and stinking every day a little bit more every time.

The consequences are both at a physical reality level and within my own ‘stance’ as a living being, because as we’ve explained before: if the sun refused to shine and postpone it’s glow today, life on Earth would not be possible, if the oxygen decided to withdraw itself from the atmosphere, take some ‘time out’ and come back in a week or so after a run through the universe, would life still be possible? No – and these are all obvious hypothetical points because it is simply not common sense to even conceive that a physical constancy in our world would procrastinate its function – the same applies to our physical body.

 

So, I see, realize and understand that every single judgment I had toward anything else not being fully applied and determined to change within others, must be absolutely reverted for me to face my own deliberate procrastination even though realizing and knowing/ being aware of the consequences. In my mind, it doesn’t make sense obviously to do something that will not be producing energy for it to create an experience about the moments that I am working on something – and this is precisely the ‘withdrawal’ process I see I have to face here – it’s going ‘better’ in terms of being able to spot the moments, however unless a definitive decision is made to stop walking the middle path, nothing will absolutely change/ be corrected.

 

I see and realize that within giving up on a single point and trying to hide/ suppress the actual experience toward it, it simply compounds until it becomes a literal burden on your back – so, this has been cool in order to spot the anxiety in relation to this, which would be automatically coming up in the seemingly unnoticeable moments wherein I would have the least ‘reminder’ of this point that I have to do – however since I’ve been actually working on it, the ‘benefit’ of this is also re-establishing myself as my directive principle which is one of the other dimensions of consequences that emerge when procrastinating: we stop existing as that immovable force that is able to ‘walk through it all’ simply because of allowing ourselves to be diminished and create an entire detrimental experience within one single point that we Know we are not ‘sorting out’ in our reality.

We cannot blame either, that’s just a be-lame act in order to not take responsibility for our actions, and I have walked that as well as it came through while walking all the other dimensions to this procrastination character that you can read from the first day here:
162. Either Do it or DIE

So, my suggestion within this is to give ourselves the necessary direction to commit ourselves to do and act and give direction to that which we have committed ourselves to be and do, to stop generating unnecessary consequences as I see and realize that it is Not required for us to go through hell and back to learn a lesson, that’s just white-light-dovey crap like the ‘paths of the soul’ for us to accept our own self-abuse as a ‘living lesson’ – No fucking way.

Within stopping the first moment wherein we see ourselves wanting to procrastinate, we are able to stop the entire sequence of events generated as a result of our own con wherein we opt for the ‘feel good’ experience instead of doing and working on that which we are aware must be directed and done.

 

Till Here No Further

Feelings and Procrastination

 

”More perspective on the points of feelings is that one tend to procrastinate because you feel good. But interestingly enough you have created those feel good feelings through your resonances through time so that you can trap yourselves so you never have to do anything. Because in-fact you are in constant fear and the only way that you don’t have to face your fear – which is everybody else in this world and the world system – is to create a feel good situation where you can justify why you are powerless and helpless to do anything about the situation in the world and that is how you delude yourself and deceive yourself to never actually take action and to accept the world the way it is, through happiness, feel good little feelings.

And obviously the world system in terms of money, and all the days like ‘Christmas’ and ‘Father’s day’ and ‘Mother’s day’ – all those kind of stuff is supporting your self delusions in keeping you trapped in it. And all the parent’s are teaching their children exactly the same traps so that they can feel good and even say, ‘I mean how dare you, let the child at least live and feel good while they’re alive’. Meantime, you have stolen that child’s life using the deception of feeling and energy.

Understand, the ‘Physical’ do not feel good. The ‘Physical’ will either have pain or no pain. That is all the physical feel. It’ll be either hot, cold – it’s simple physical things, that’s what the physical feel. That’s what’s Real.

One plus One Equals Two.” – Bernard Poolman 

 

So, Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Statements on consequence to come…

Desteni 

Desteni I Process

Desteni Forum 

Equal Money System 

 

Blogs:

• Turn off the Lights and FACE the DARK: DAY 188

• Day 188: After Death Communications – Part 37
  

Interviews:

• Feelings and Procrastination

• Reptilians – The Future of Consequence – Part 41: Parental support to understand why your children are becoming demonic spawns from hell

• Reptilians – Time is Consequence – Part 32: Why does consequence exist in our reality and how to align ourselves to a physical-living process and stopping creating further consequential outflows in our reality.

2012 Death in every breath until life is all that remains

 

Realizing how we have suppressed and caged life within and by our own minds, creating the entire reality as that suppression of life, as the control of life in order to remain easily numbed by the perception of having to ‘attain’ something in separation of ourselves, while missing out the whole that is here as self.

 

This process is the realization of that ability we have to create ourselves and must not be taken lightly – I can only share it and if one is willing to live it, one will hear and walk along.

The world is divided and conquered within tagging on our ‘personal lifestyle’ – so the way to go is equalizing our lifestyle and world into equality. Words are the key here – one single sentence as one single rhyme that points out we have created this mess and lies, and that there’s no time to rest. We perceived we lost the key, while the key has been always here, beneath our eyes and above our mouths – breathing, living, realizing ourselves as the physical living flesh that has been tampered with our mind maze.

 

The consequences of our own imprisonment cannot be taken lightly as it is with this light that we have shaded reality; love and light we used as misleading words into an illusion of grandeur, a bubble of ethereal self interest that never considered that this physical reality is as real as us having to eat in order to continue living in.

 

Be that point of change you want to see in your world – you’ve got the common sense, so why keeping it to yourself? Dare to create a shift within yourself as who knows if there will be a ‘next’ time for that –

 

Stand as the sound that enables self-realization and gets to the ears the ones that are willing to Hear, to be Here, stopping spreading the ‘vibes’ that promote vile-ends within rhymes that forget that the one we oppose can only be myself within this ‘role’ of playing games to satisfy the lies that have kept sterilized from common sense, within the belief that we could only be ‘free’ with all the money and fueling each other’s greed.

 

Choose life – stop battling and self-loathing in a world wherein war is the ever presence in the back of our own heads.

Reflecting decay at all time – what have we accepted caged Life with? Some ideas as roles that oppose each other, that can love and hate and praise and loath from one blink of an eye to the next – is that what life is actually about? 

 

Our words are a self-supportive mirror that we can share in order to learn how to use words as self-support, not as carriers of the same old songs that delivered no actual support to this world that we built with every single word, that we mostly spoke out of scorn – never realizing that it was only self-here – the whole is the whole and there is nothing to be empty of. 

 

Standing up for Life  is not to fight, oppose or defend, it is about becoming aware that in order for us to live we have to take on every word, deed and thought we have powered within and by ourselves – and thus breath by breath we start to see that all that exists as life is me.

Ask yourself: what’s the substance that is moving me at the moment to exist? What drives me to create? Who am I within this point of expression? Is there a way that I can express this common sense within this expression that I create as myself ? If there is any fear of loss, you can know there is a limitation based on preserving an ‘idea’ of who we are – not yet realizing who self is as one and equal here and cannot be bent.

Reinventing is allowing ourselves to live and die in every moment of breath – daring to step into the unknown here as the integration of all missed bits of self here (life) and slowly but surely stop and leave the old behind (death.) Afterwards, only that which is real will remain: self-as-life here equal-and-one.

 
Applying this to everything we do and what will we get? 

Death of that self-protected idea of self as the necessary step for life to emerge – we are the only ones that built up the cage. Delivering the message of self responsibility is and must be a living extension if self realization is lived here, in every breath as self willing self to live  – self-expression that emerges as words that we have all longed to hear and live, yet never dared to figure out that: we are able to live them  if we simply stop and forgive ourselves to see that the the reconciliation is only one breath away.

That’s how it’s fascinating that everything I do/ say and think creates myself and my own experience in this reality, what a perfect way to trap yet support ourselves to inevitably be starring at ourselves the whole time, to not be able to break the mirror in a mind-blasting scene, but having to inevitably face it and live the correction until the reflection that I see is no longer an idea bound to ideas, judgments, fears, perceptions of and as a defined image of the mind – We are able to stand as self equal and one here, wherein the reflection is no more, because the mirror will hold no reflection any longer.

Once there is no image to correct – we’ll know there are no more definitions left, as self here would have pieced the puzzle back together again.

 

We have this lifetime to realize that: every moment counts, every breath is the opportunity to liberate the life that we have caged in all the bits of limitation that we created of ourselves as our mind. The mind is not the enemy, it is the perfect mirror to trap ourselves within an inevitable reflection of which we have all the tools to equalize ourselves to.

Who we are here requires no praise and no worship, no belief – who we are here is self-evident and the points to correct begin within ourselves, and emerge from the layers of self deceit, if we are self-honest enough to dare and see.

If you equalize yourself as the words you speak, people that can hear, will hear. Words are the carriers of the message, we become and stand as the voices that stir the wheel.

Jesus said  ‘love thy neighbor as thyself’ – ‘give to another what you would like to receive’ –  his message was ridiculed, opposed and later on turned into a 2000 + year old empire that stands against the basic message that he left. It is suggested to not become part of the ones that ridiculed life as you can only be mining out on creating your own destiny and ability to live.

We are the ‘second coming’ that is here as all of us, to finally birth life as the physical.  Ask yourself:
Do I want to live or do I want to die? That’s the question we all have to ask ourselves in every moment of breath here.

Let this not be words that come and go as the ebb and flow that our mind tends to only be stirred up with, but become the one that stirs the wheel in the only certain outcome that will remain in this world and reality: life in reality as what’s best for all in all ways, self here.

Breathing ourselves here

 

Reptilians – The Death and Rebirth of Self – Part 12