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541. Creativity and Self-Creation

§  Continuing from: 530. The Secret Behind Attraction

 

This word right here is ‘close to my heart’ so to speak considering how I have previously conceived creativity in a rather limited way, linking it to artistic skills for the most part and traits within myself and others that would be geared towards expressing oneself in any form of art or doing something ingenious, witty or clever that serves a practical purpose.

However throughout this process with walking the tools of self-support at Desteni, I’ve learned to understand the actual depth of who we are as creators, created and creation, which might sound a bit too ‘out there’ initially – and it certainly does require a vast context that one can find support to walk through step by step in several series that can be found at Eqafe.com. Here I’ll focus on debunking this limited perception of how I can at times still perceive that I can be separate from my ‘creative abilities’ by defining that only related to ‘doing original work’ or creating a particular trademark in relation to artistic creations, instead of realizing that these are all results, the byproduct of a much more intricate and personal self-process of understanding self-creation and the actual ability we have to determine our lives and so our destiny, not only in creating something ‘out there’ but as ourselves, identifying ourselves as our own creators too and honoring that creative ability in our lives.

Here I am therefore giving a step forward from my initial approach to this word as seen in relation to ‘liking another person for being creative’ and taking this word back to myself, to see who am I as this word and how I am living it, what needs to be fine-tuned and what I want to continue creating of myself and my life in the context of being an individual that can stand as an example of what it means to honor one’s creation and one’s contribution to the whole that we are all a part of.

Perceiving that we are not the sole creators of our lives leads to a sense of disempowerment, of ‘atrophy’ in believing that we are always subject to our weaknesses, our faults, our ‘human nature’ in which in my experience can show up at times being very quick to judge things or determine that something is not ‘good enough’ and get doubtful about myself and the totality of what I am doing in a moment, tending to compare myself to others or get impatient in this process of self-creation. All of these aspects are precisely the points that I have to continue working on and being detailed about, because whatever we eventually create and manifest not only as things we do or create in the external world, but every single thought, word and deed will be ultimately influenced by the very core of our being, who we are in every moment of our day = what we accept and allow to determine ourselves in our minds and so in our reality.

What does that mean? I’ve noticed that if I for example accept an experience of pointlessness or defeatism within something that I am doing, and believing that ‘there’s no point for it’ and lose my ground and initial vision to create something in my reality, I am quick to ‘give up’ on it and then judge it as something that ‘just isn’t for me’ and consider that there are ‘others that are better at it, but not me,’ resulting in separating myself from a particular capacity that I simply had to keep practicing and working on, but was very quick to give up to, meaning I didn’t live perseverance on it.

I discovered this when painting last year – which yes, certainly this is what might be considered a ‘formal creative activity’, but I’ve discovered that interestingly enough it is the one thing that had become a point I separated myself from due to reacting to what I was painting and drowning into judgments of pointlessness, dissatisfaction, lacking a purpose in it, ending up losing ground on what I was physically doing as the painting. The outcome? A painting that I was dissatisfied with and that I used as an excuse to say ‘I don’t want to paint anymore, this is useless, it’s futile, I’m done with this, I’m not good at it, there’s no point to it, I just give it up’

What I became aware of within that process is how I created my own outcome in relation to painting entirely through having allowed these judgments, thoughts that translated into emotions creeping up and completely directing myself in that moment as I was painting. I also realized that my very starting point for painting was flawed, because in that one day I was using painting as a way to evade my reality and a particular conflictive situation I was experiencing with someone in my reality, but not dealing with it in myself – so I essentially created my ‘sabotaged outcome’ when attempting to create something while I wasn’t stable within myself  or ‘at my core’ in that moment, and using painting as a way to ‘evade’ instead of being there and create as myself. 

So, who was I as creator in that moment? Evading myself first of all, believing I could create a better experience through painting and forgetting about the inner conflict in relation to something else in my reality. This created an outcome of recreating all of my weaknesses of the past and bringing them through in my act of painting charged with all of these judgments and inner-annoyance that I allowed within myself even before painting and it eventually outflowed into what I ended up painting.

The painting itself stood there for over a year as a reminder of something I left half way through and as a statement of ‘this is why I don’t want to go back to painting again,’ which I knew was unacceptable, but interestingly enough I also procrastinated getting back at it.

A month ago I took that same canvas and reworked it into a different outcome that I decided to experiment with, mostly to precisely in real time work on changing my relationship to painting itself, this time being aware of having a clear starting point, being stable and grounded within myself and my decision and ensuring that I wasn’t entertaining backchats and thoughts of how ‘terrible’ it was or how ‘pointless’ this was, but instead decided that: this is me directing myself to express in this painting, being flexible and open to the outcome of it, not having a fixed idea on it and walking through that resistance that I kept ‘alive’ within me for a year or so to not paint.

While having this clear starting point, of course the ‘usual doubts’ that I had experienced in the past emerged, the notions of ‘I should be doing something else’ and various other judgments, but I decided to continue doing it anyways, continuing directing, not focusing on the ‘result’ only but rather focusing on ‘who I am’ in this whole creative process. And this can stand as a good analogy to our lives where many times we can be very ‘result-based’ and if we don’t manage to create what we want, we drown into a low, a depression, a giving up – instead of rather seeing what can we learn about ourselves in the process of creating ourselves, what skills do we develop, what challenges can we identify and practically work on overcoming? All of this makes any creative process much more enjoyable where we don’t only focus on ‘a result in the future,’ but rather focus on who am I all the step of the way to get to do or become something, which is what matters in the context of life.

This example is a way to illustrate how we are the sole creators of ourselves. If I in that past moment of painting defined myself as not good enough, as having a ‘bad experience’ while painting, then of course the outcome became a reflection on that and I would resist painting after those few hours when I started that painting – and I ‘gave up’  even attempting to do something about it and instead made of my experience ‘who I am’ by letting everyone know how pointless it was to paint, how I am done with arts, how there’s no point to it – lol – now having to eat my words and forgive myself for it because I realized how it was a way of throwing a tantrum as a result of my own self-created sabotage. It was like deliberately cutting an arm off and then believing that “I’m fine without it” This is not only about arts though, but it can be applied to anything else in one’s life.

Another example can be where I go into judgment about an expression in another and remaining with that judgment about another, not questioning, not seeing it as something I actually must debunk within myself and align within myself in order to stand equal to that person – and what happens when I remain in that judgment is I am in fact diminishing my capacity to get to know that other person, to really live the word equality and create that relationship that I can essentially establish with anyone in this world if I decide to create it and nurture it, because it ultimately is our creation: we decide, we make the changes, we live the corrections, we walk the talk so to speak and there one goes.

One can walk through a veil of judgments and into getting to know a person for real, which I’ve personally have experienced various times where there was an initial judgment toward them and through self-forgiving and stopping my participation in those judgments within myself- along with time and in a deliberate decision to get to know them better – I’ve proven myself how much I had ‘made up my mind’ about them and all that I would have prevented myself from creating if I had remained in my mind-patterns.

Self-creation therefore can be as simple as deciding to make a change about a behavior or thought pattern in our lives, we determine it, we decide on it and we ‘give it life’ by integrating such change or point of creation in our day to day living, and that’s precisely what living words is all about as well, where these words won’t ‘come up’ like thoughts or backchat in our minds as a ‘natural flow’ or ‘desire’ even to live and create  – nope, we are unfortunately not hard-wired to live creation as life, we are mostly hard-wire to self-sabotage which is illustrated in what I shared about my relationship with arts and painting when I allowed myself to be dictated by my mind, instead of standing as the directive principle.

My current relationship to self-creation is thus a relationship of self-discovery, self-awareness and ultimately self-empowerment, which comes also with the understanding that in being responsible for all that I am and create, it also gives me that certainty that no matter ‘what’ I create – if I make mistakes, if I ‘fall’, if I go the ‘wrong route’ in my choices, decisions and actions – I can trust myself that I have my self-honesty to assess myself and so do the process with self-writing, self-forgiveness in self honesty, lay out the corrections and stand up again to continue walking.

There’s no excuse anymore to ‘give up’ on something based on a ‘bad experience’ with something, I can instead practically assess what is practical to do, what makes sense to change as well as what’s practical to dedicate my time, breath of life and effort to, to be the sole director of who am I day to day – that’s self-creation right there and accordingly, we also then determine ‘who we will be’ because this reality works in patterns, so we essentially can re-wire or re-write ourselves by imprinting new ways to live from morning to night time, we can decide how we look at our day: a day to create or a day to ‘relive the problems of the past’,  we can decide to be solution-oriented, to learn to live words in moments where we see the emotions or self-sabotage creep up, to make that decision to stand up and be directive in the moment – all of these moment to moment changes and decisions are already a point of self-creation and this is precisely what this process is all about.

So, we are all creative, we all create every single moment –for the good or for the worse – and realizing that ability we all are constantly exercising and learning to honor it and act as creators with integrity, with self-respect and regard to life can truly be the way to change the fabric of the relationships we create in this world.

Also, I remind my-self not to be discouraged if things don’t work as intended in terms of change in a few first set of times, it takes practice, it takes diligence, it takes focus, it takes dedication and a commitment to self, which are all words we have to also learn to practice, live and integrate into the fabric of our very being, considering that they are also not ‘natural’ aspects in ourselves for now, but they can become part of us with the same diligence and consistency one applies to learn or create anything in reality.

We live in a physical reality, so patience is very relevant, persevering is the actual word here to look at which is also a timely reminder for me, to not lose sight of what I create on a daily basis and always see it within the greater context as well of contributing to create and bring life into the physical through my day to day living.

Sounds great isn’t it? But it takes actual work to do, so my only suggestion is to consider this creative capacity we all have and decide who we want to be as artists creating ourselves as our own masterpiece, one that we will live with and embody for the rest of our lives.

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407. The Mind as Mankind’s Fall

Continuation to:

 

The original nature of man as ‘fallen’ can be understood as that origin and starting point of our existence as the manifestation of the separation of Self as one and equal. This is about that primordial separation from which we have come a long, long way up to now where we virtually have no remembrance of how long we have been repeating the same mistakes, the same patterns, living the same li(v)es and seeking the same answers as to why we haven’t been able to live a fulfilling, peaceful, joyful life. And that’s where it all began, when we have considered that the rather disturbing and horrible things going on inside our minds and so in our reality is some kind of a ‘fall’ or a ‘course’ that we have to seek to escape, ignore or seek to be saved or hide from it all in the opposite polarity in all things that relate to positivity, light & love as consciousness ‘revolutions’ and ‘evolutions’ that promote the avoidance of everything that would be considered in our minds as bad/negative/destructive –however, who/what or rather HOW did we come to define the ‘negative’ and ‘positive’ in our reality?

 

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What I truly consider necessary is to understand our starting point in this process of investigating how we have accepted and allowed ourselves to act, speak and think in ways that are not best for all, to only act in the mindset of ‘what’s best for me’ as the reverse of life, and this is all because we have listened to our minds as our thoughts, feelings and emotions to dictate who we are, what to do, what to believe, etc. which means: we haven’t lived in self-awareness, we haven’t lived by principles that consider what is best for everyone and ourselves, we haven’t paid attention to how we dictate our lives based on our beliefs with which we create the world-system, constructs and institutions in this world as our image and likeness; we have created our own traps and laws as knowledge and information that we then  use to excuse our own thoughts and actions without questioning where did it all come from?  It is about realizing that we cannot rely in the answers given any longer – instead we have to focus on understanding the mechanism, the ‘tool’ with which we think, and that is the Mind.

 

 

 

Apparently, the Consciousness as Personality is a ‘Higher Form’ of Being, because – it can ‘Reason’. But, in fact – it has No Reason. Reason would be the Ability to Directively, Always, Manage All Existence in a Cooperative Way with Respect, Understanding the Inherent Equality as the Life Force that Animates the Form. But the Consciousness Refuse to Consider this. Because that would mean, it Must Give-Up its Self-Interest which is Focused on the Continuous Systematic Production of Energy and Feelings by Systems that the End-Result as Consciousness Never Sees, Never Understands, Never Considers. 
Frankly, to be the End-Product as 
Energy
 and Feeling – without Understanding the Mechanics of Production: is the Height of Ignorance, and is the CORE Cause where All Life Forms and Life itself is Ignored. – Bernard Poolman 

– See more at: http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/12/day-258-vampires-in-soul-of-sacred.html#sthash.dEzEtNM0.dpuf

 

How we operate in the mind is – and this you can observe for yourself – we constantly and continuously create a process of friction and conflict within ourselves, we generate and perpetuate ‘all bad things’ in our lives and so in this world, which becomes then our ‘fallen’ state or condition: it is not a curse, it is not some divine punishment, it is not only preprogramming – it is the laws, rules which come from thoughts that become our ideologies with which we start defining ‘who we are’ and ‘how things must be’ which lead us to exist in conflict, always seeking to be at the point of least discomfort, the least effort, the least conflict, the most ‘love’ or ‘feeling good’ as all things positive that we eventually become addicted to. It is then in this self-created ‘fall’ that we start  vehemently seeking all things to seemingly ‘escape’ from seeing, facing and realizing the consequences of our original starting point which is that of friction and conflict, of not cooperating  with each other, of evil as the reverse of live which is defined in our minds as negative, seemingly ‘bad’ which is nothing else but acting/thinking in ways that are harmful/abusive/deceptive to oneself, which carry consequences that we can all witness and are participating it as our lives and how this world-system mostly operates: deception, corruption, hatred, abuse, control, etc.

These are not things we have to fear and hide from, this is what we create ourselves with our very own thoughts and experiences in our minds, this where we have led ourselves to in self-interest and disregard of everything and everyone else as equals. So, fearing it or denying it is only prolonging the necessary process that comes when realizing what we’ve done and become. Nothing to feel guilty of, that can be self-forgiven – experiencing real shame is not an experience in itself, but a profound decision to understand what I/we have created, done and become and make a decision to never again repeat the same mistakes, that’s a constructive way to live shame and transform guilt into a process of self-correction.

 

One of the reasons why throughout this process we initially focus on dissecting, investigating, understanding the ‘evil’ as the reverse of life existent within ourselves and the world-system as a whole, is to see, realize and understand how each one of us through acting based on what we think, feel or believe have come to act and co-create this world in a way wherein we have only regarded ‘my personal interest’ and disregard everything and everyone else. We learn how to  seek culprits, point fingers and blame others for how ‘bad’ things are or what ‘they’ have done unto ‘us’ – not realizing that there’s not ‘us vs. them’ because for a master to exist, slaves had to comply to such role as well.

We tend to avoid looking at or rather fear focusing on our consequences, which is not to get fixated on everything ‘bad’ in this world – it is rather to understand how we came to create these consequences, what we have done, what we haven’t done, where have I actually been directly involved with the consequences in my own life.

 

The Sole Purpose for the Human Existence, being that: as a Slave – Producing the Energy Necessary for the Multi-Dimensions Existence, in Form. – Bernard Poolman

Read the entire explanation at:  http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/12/day-254-secret-geometry-of.html#sthash.Co7M2FpI.dpuf

 

This is also why we expose how in seeking only ‘the positive’ we are only creating a Band-Aid solution to a very deep in-jury we have inflicted upon ourselves from the beginning of our time, never in fact knowing the real story behind our purpose and meaning of existence in this reality – this is not something ‘negative’ or ‘bad,’ it is how things are in fact. The only way to understand why we would we or anyone act in a deliberate harmful and abusive way is through understanding how our mind works and operates, its origin and purpose, which is why I consider that it is vital to investigate Desteni and so understand that all ‘the bad’ and negative in this world is our creation, so we simply stop creating an experience toward this ‘fallen’ perception of man, stop thinking we ‘will never change’ or that it is human nature and as such it is unchangeable – and instead direct ourselves to do the truly revolutionary move of challenging such beliefs, challenging everything we’ve known till this day and focus on our own process of understanding what it means to live in Self-Honesty, to not be dictated by pre-ordained thinking patterns, emotions or feelings but instead deliberately think, act and speak according to what will be supportive for each other as equals.

 

It is also self-evident how our reality is the result of our disregard of each other as equals, from giving to one another what we should have always given to each other in the recognition of another as myself –we haven’t applied any of this because we allowed ourselves to focus only on the individual, the survival, the ‘how I feel and experience myself’ which is nothing else than giving priority to who we are in the mind as emotions and feelings – the negative and positive experiences respectively – all energy based. What I have learned at Desteni is that participating in these experiences is in fact once again confirming our separation and enslavement, our ‘fallen’ experiences that we then tend to use as an excuse to focus on ‘getting well’ or ‘being positive’ rather than looking at physical reality and questioning ourselves why we have created this generally ‘negative’ state and condition for everyone? Why do we have to constantly seek all the ‘good’ things in life instead of giving this to each other as a living right? Why have we kept each other oppressed, marginalized and uneducated about our true potential when we work in consideration of what is best for all?

 

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When we believe we ‘fall’ for example and create a negative experience about it, we are in fact only caring about ‘how I FEEL’ and how I Experience myself through thoughts, emotions, feelings that I then believe are in fact ‘real’ and so confirming and recreating one’s own ‘fall’ as explained in the previous blog, which is nothing else but a self-created experience that we then hold on to as an excuse to not actually stand up, review why we fell, how we fell, what can we then lay out as a practical solution to prevent oneself from committing the same fault/ mistake and so continue walking, continue living the process of self-correction.

 

When we allow ourselves to define ‘who we are’ through the veil of emotions, feelings as beliefs, desires, fears, worries, obsessions, we are in fact only contributing to the problem in our reality, we are not contributing to establish solutions, because solutions come in the form of practical plans of action such as stopping participating in emotions with which we make ourselves  feel bad and miserable – which is the same process when we go into a ‘high’ experience seeking to look only at the positive in this world, thinking about all that makes us feel good and that we’ve defined as beautiful or comfortable in our experience – this is what creates the most problems in fact, because in this we ignore our starting point which is the actual reality that everyone can confirm right now just by going outside of your house and looking at how we relate to each other, how our money system operates, how we have to exist in a constant survival mode, how wars are waged within ourselves, toward each other and between nations, how we use information to manipulate, how we learn to lie and deceit to earn the most… all of this is what we have created as our image and likeness of our original separation from being in fact living as one and equal from the beginning of our existence.  

 

This doesn’t imply that we must remain fixated on only looking at how ‘bad’ we are as that would also be an excuse to remain enslaved, which is also useless without understanding such consequential outflows what we create. We have to stop believing that ‘we were born this way, we are screwed for life’ type of excuses. What we focus on at Desteni is daring to first look at that ‘evil’ aspect of ourselves, evil as in the reverse of live, understanding why and how we have come to exist as and create these high levels of self-abuse, neglect, self-harm, hatred toward one another and so once we start understanding how we create such destruction through our everyday distractions in the mind, losing track of living principles, we can then start practically writing and structuring How we can stop participating in all of these destructive distractions and establish/build a new track where we can step aside of our own cave, to see that the ‘fall’ must not be a continuous experience of feeling damned, but can only be a moment to reflect further on how we came to such ‘fall’ or entrapment, and how we can now focus on getting back on track, stop all distractions, stop self-destruction and align ourselves to that which we realize is best for all, best for oneself which begins through precisely using writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application to give ourselves the direction that we realize we always should have given to us, to live by the principles where equality is realized at a practical level.

This is then part of the understanding of why we haven’t just lived ‘heaven on Earth’ and why we desperately sought it by avoiding all that we perceived as evil/bad/negative, which we end up creating as a consequence of not realizing that we haven’t built any actual foundation – such as a world-system based on living principles of life in equality –  to provide a good life for each other here on Earth; we haven’t yet collectively worked on establishing supportive platforms of education to understand our minds and so understand how this world is a reflection of every single pattern of separation that we exist as within ourselves, which is also one of the purposes we are so adamant in sharing the importance of understanding our minds and so realizing the responsibility that resides in each one of us to contribute to this process of self-change through self-honesty and self-responsibility, learning how to honor each other as life.

 

 

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Some other examples of how we trap ourselves in our mental polarity

 

Seeking ‘peace’ is nothing else but a controlled and ongoing state of ‘preventing war’ instead of getting rid of the concept of war and peace to realize the positive and negative connotations to it and how such ‘states of being’ are only experiences in the mind, where one is defined by the existence of the other – in this, we forget to look at the reasons why wars are waged, why we have come to believe that a ‘solution’ to a conflict comes through death and destruction, why we have come to believe that wars are a good way to ‘restart the economy’ or how wars can be a way to honor a nation… and so realizing that peace is not something to fight for, but a process of creating a world-system where we never again fall in the trap of believing that war  brings any supportive results in our reality. The same applies then to love and hate, good or bad, weak or strong – dissecting each of these words to understand why we create our own highs and lows is the most empowering thing we can do, so that we are no longer controlled by  energetic experiences as thoughts, feelings, emotions but instead focus on establishing a real stability in our lives through focusing on practical solutions in physical reality.

 

 

An example, if we see that money is a collectively accepted concept existent as debt and as such a fictional instrument of control to keep the majority on survival mode while creating ‘power’ for a minority, then we realize that it makes sense to step by step start aligning this money-construct to become something that is actually supportive to enable everyone to live in dignity. A practical way to do this is for example to provide money for everyone that doesn’t currently have an assured income and provide better wages for everyone as a beginning and stepping stone to continue then correcting the entire construction/concept that we have all created as what ‘money’ is and redefine its creation, use and purpose the same way that we can redefine words to stop reacting to our own creation of money, judging it as ‘the root of all evil’ and as such, start focusing on how we can give another use to money to provide a everyone access to live in a dignified manner and investigate all the alignments and corrections required to be able to collectively agree to do just that.


They key point is to understand then how we came to create money as the apparent ‘root of all evil’ which is the image and likeness of our need to control to have ‘more’ than others and so consolidate the idea of power, and so start looking at and structuring ways to perfect the creation of money so that it no longer is issued by private corporations for the purpose of perpetuating power and control, but that it functions merely as the administrative and practical tool it always should have been from which debt and its profitable creation in the form of interest can cease to exist – this will only be possible when we collectively agree on money becoming an actual way to ensure the supportive management of resources and how we interact with them to have a dignified life.
 

As we can see, sorting out the money problem involves a process and so it will also take a process to do the same with ourselves in our minds, to understand first how we created the problem, why, how we have become the problem itself and so create a practical plan to change ourselves once that we have faced, self-forgiven and understood the point in which we have created our own fall and never really moved from it until now that we are opening up the ability to change ourselves.

 

Money is as fake as this Empire State Plastic Eraser

 

The only reason why we have to begin with and first focus on the consequences we have created, the actual negative/bad/destructive aspects of our reality is because we have conditioned ourselves to neglect them, to avoid seeing the truth of ourselves, our reality and so only resorting in that which makes us ‘feel good’ or ‘think positive’ which is the apparent ‘way out’ from our own damnation. But the problem is that we have accepted and allowed such evil/negative/bad as who we are which lead us to accept the fact that seeking the ‘positive/good’ was a solution – it is not, it is only jumping from pole to pole which is also why most of our problem-solution-reward processes in our world-system have been another way to evolve the problem, because there had never been solutions based on what is best for all and embracing all aspects of ourselves/our reality as oneself, but instead we have always generated solutions where some are benefitted and others are not, perpetuating the divide and conquer mentality as well as the polarity of ‘good vs. evil’ and once again back into the programming of thinking and perceiving this reality through the mental-filter of ‘good vs. bad’ which is what we have trapped ourselves into always experiencing conflict of doing good things or bad thins, never considering plain common sense of what I require to do to live in consideration of what is best for all.  This we do through the process of self-honesty: not ‘ignoring’ the bad, not avoiding it but understanding it, self-forgiving it and laying out solutions and corrections that we can implement at an individual and collective level which won’t be founded upon going into the ‘up’ or ‘high’ experience as something ‘positive,’ but simply aligning to the principle that exists within each one of us as part of this physical existence, the principle that we can see would enable us to co-create a reality where we can fulfill each other’s necessities, where we can actually express ourselves to our utmost potential which exists in each one of us as a potential to be developed – it is a seed waiting to be watered in each one of us.

 

Now that we have the understanding of ‘the evil’ or ‘the fall’, we can then focus on forgiving the ‘fall’ which is the equivalent of existing in separation, existing in the mind, existing of consciousness and so walk this physical, practical, constant and consistent process where we can apply ourselves to correct our ‘nature’ and for the first time prove to ourselves that we can live as equals in this world.

 

For all of this, an individual process is required, which is then how our starting point can be realized not as a damnation, an eternal curse, but a general misalignment to the principle of Life in Equality, which is who/what we really are as part of this existence from which we have separated ourselves through knowledge, information, words, experiences – all of it in the mind. An analogy here is that it is no different to seeing a detuned guitar and each one of us being part of the strings that are ‘out of tune.’ So tuning ourselves as each string that will make the guitar have a harmonious sound is our responsibility, and it will not be about creating a ‘greater experience’ about it or about making ourselves ‘superior’ for walking the process of ‘tuning’ ourselves, but simply to align ourselves to how we all realize in common sense will make the guitar sound better, to fine-tune ourselves to be actually ‘sound’ and support the actual creation of music that can come from such guitar – the strings being each one of us and the guitar as our body, our reality as the platform that enables the expression of the strings which is this world along with all living beings that are here and that already cooperate and exist in self-awareness, the same as the world body that has been waiting for us to decide to begin aligning ourselves so that we can altogether sound ourselves in harmony as a whole.

 

 

As we can see the realization that we are out of tune is the first step, Then we have to see whether we are high or low in the tone so that we can understand how we will fine tune each string, and just like we all know when a guitar is sounding ‘good’ we can all also have such principle of what would be best for everyone in this reality such as providing each other the necessary support to physically live well and have a dignified life, to support each other the way we would want others to support ourselves, to not harm or abuse each other but to rather realize what we can do and create if we work together with this starting point and principle of considering what is best for all, to give to one another as we would like to receive and through that we can eventually get to realize ourselves as equals which means: stopping living in the positive or negative aspects of how we define what we do, but to simply focus on understanding how have I detuned/misaligned myself, how to correct myself to tune myself back to my alignment based on what is best for myself and all so that I, in conjunction with everyone else, get to be sound and able to express ourselves as we always should have done, because we all want this for ourselves, we just haven’t taken the actual steps to do so beginning with ourselves as individuals, as that’s where the initial split was created in our individuality: in our minds, mining our physical substance to power up our friction and conflict – this is the actual self abuse that requires to be stopped within self-first.

 

What expressions can come from aligning ourselves? That’s up to us, but first point is to take that first point of responsibility to align ourselves, to fine tune ourselves and the rest is yet to be walked. It is important to note that the tuning might not be a given answer – it won’t be a feeling, a though or an emotion. We have to actually take the responsibility to create the ways in which we can physically test out what works, what doesn’t, what points to consider, how to see the changes through space and time – it is all about a physical process of stabilizing ourselves and supporting each other to do the same and so push ourselves to share with each other how it is possible to truly live to our utmost potential – this is yet to be seen and realized, but we have to start somewhere and so we begin here, with ourselves.

 

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  • The Starting Point

    By Ken Cousens

     

    “True Love cannot exist in the presence of Unequal Station”
    In this essay we will explore the fundamental context that one must address in order to understand the concepts of Equal Money and Equal Life. This context is summed up in the title of the essay: The Starting Point. Simply stated, it is one’s starting point that will wholly determine whether one can comprehend the concepts of Equal Money and Equal Life, and in that context there are only two starting points that exist, either one starts from the point of self-interest (“What’s in it for ME?”) or one starts from the point of what is best for all (“What’s in it for WE?”). There is no middle ground. If one is starting from the point of self-interest, one cannot get there from here. Every argument and every position rallied against the principles of Equal Money and Equal Life become self-nullifying when the starting point is self-interest. When life is viewed from the subjective position of unequal station, where there is greater and lesser, superior and inferior, more deserving and less deserving, and every variation thereof, then nothing exists except for the self-focused reality of self-interest. Not only is it a fact that true love cannot exist in the presence of unequal station, but nothing exists in the presence of unequal station except the self-absorbed reality of personal agendas, the self-focused litany of arguments ad nauseam that insist it is more important than all of existence, and that rights of birth, station, position, status quo and everything else are there to support the illusions of separation and all of its variants. In simple terms there is only the choice between Life and self, and what those saluting the flag of self have failed to take into account at this stage of planetary evolution is that life has had enough of the abuses of self, and is now taking control, whether that is apparent to the self or not at this moment in time. In time, and the not too distant future, it will become the most self-evident principle on the planet.

     

    When the starting point of one’s approach to Equal Money and Equal Life is “What Is Best For All” then the entire universe rearranges itself to make the principles self-evident, as if they always existed as an integrated whole system, a complete interconnected fabric of life and existence that has never been without harmony, balance and equilibrium while still at the same time fully observant with eyes wide open to the horrors of separation and all of its spawn. Such a starting point is not about the lofty abstraction of positivity in ignorance of the realities on this planet, it is simply the firmly established stand that there is only one choice for how money and the systems thereof must ultimately be applied, and that is to do what is best for all. In such context, Life is seen as a fluid continuity that is in communion with all of existence, and every part contains the template of the whole and the whole is seen in every part. In this, the starting point is to stand as Life; to take the stand within and as oneself as Life means that one cannot do anything that is not fundamentally based on the sound principle of what is best for all life in all expressions and all manifestations. Life as what is best for all is based on correspondence, which is simply the ability to respond as the equal and parallel coefficient of every other expression of life, to respond as co-equal to all other forms of life, to nurture every iota of life as one would one’s own breath, and the in breath and out breath of one’s own respiration, as re-spiriting, is the inspiration and out spiration of life as spirit as one and equal to every and all living expressions.

     

    When one takes a stand for Life, it is a self-directive state of being that establishes an implacable position that will not be swayed and cannot be persuaded from that position no matter what may come at it. All time and space cannot persuade one so situated to rescind the commitment, and such a stand for Life will inevitably force all of existence to rearrange itself to conform to the intent of such a stand for the principle of what is best for all. To the self-focused and self-interested such a stand is madness and has no logic, because the starting point of such is that if it does not serve self in its self-fulfilling gratification, then it has no meaning and has no value. The self-interested cannot even fathom such a stand for Life because there is no instant gratification and there is therefore no value to such a one.
    The self-interested character that resides, in one variation or another, in almost the entire planetary population knows only one principle, so succinctly expressed in the statement “What’s in it for me?” It is like a universal radio station tuned to WIIFM, and the pain, suffering, agony, pleading, misery, torment and convulsions of the world and its population are like distant static that are so effectively tuned out by that finely honed instrument of self-adulation and ego-maniacal madness known as the self, singing blithely “I, Me, Mine…I, Me, Mine…I, Me, Mine….” as the world descends into entropic annihilation. “Are you mad?” proclaims the self-interested adherent when presented with the concept of “The Greater Good” because such a one cannot even begin to understand that there is anything outside of itself worthy of its attention. Their starting point as well as every other point along the timeline of their existence is always and forever centered on self, so such concepts as a global economic and monetary system based on the sanctity of Life, the honoring of all beings and the exaltation of the life force in every plant, animal, human, forest, ocean, river, field and ecosystem cannot be fathomed and never given credence. Conversely, a system in which every action is within dynamic equilibrium with all beings and all existence so that Life itself is forever regenerative, equally manifesting what is best for all beings, reciprocally and mutually beneficial to every form and function, and eternally sustainable, is as natural as the first breath of a new born baby to one that stands for the principles of Equal Money and Equal Life for All.

     

    The self-interested starting point can only hear the word “Money” in the phrase “Equal Money” and cannot comprehend that such a word as “equal” has anything to do with money. Money to the self-interested is the beginning, middle and end of all existence. It is not a means to an end, it is the end itself. The self-interested worship at the altar of money and never give it a second thought, never understanding that every dollar that passes through their pockets and accounts is attached to someone, some where, that must service a debt, toil in the fields, labor in the factories and deliver the goods that their self-indulgent lives may be supported and sustained on the blood, sweat and tears of millions whose bones pave the way to an imaginary heaven so that the privileged few might easily enter such a promised land. The self-interested do not even know that the word money itself is derived from the name of an ancient moon goddess (“Mon”) that has woven her lunar spell over countless generations so that their very minds are wrapped and enraptured as nothing less than the lunatic fringe of a world gone mad, driving the teaming masses to commit the unspeakable and heinous acts and assaults on Life now taken for granted as if the end point of this madness is the way it is, the way it has always been and the way it will forever be. Such phrasing as “It’s to Die For” and “I will kill to have that new car” are taken as a given, as natural, as the rallying call of the self-interested, thereby establishing their starting point as death, violence and destruction just to fulfill that one last desire before the closing of the last curtain over the stage of all life, to die for one last pleasure, to kill for that one last prize.

     

    Therefore, one must start with the logical question: “What is my starting point?” How does one approach the question of Equal Money as a direct expression and manifestation of an Equal Life for all? Does one, in fact, start from the point of recognizing that every thing in existence is standing as Life itself, for everything has a life force, and that life force is equal in all things. But, you say, rocks do not have life force. To which the proper response is, oh but yes they do. They stand equal as the manifestation of Life in every atom of their substance, that stands equal with magnetism and electrical current that flows throughout their molecular bodies, and from the rocks comes the soil and in the soil exist the teaming masses of microorganisms that are essential for every plant, animal and human to stand in their life as the physical embodiment that they are. When Life is seen from the starting point of an inextricable web of creation that is wholly interdependent on every other living thing, just as the systems of man have created a global system that everyone is completely dependent upon as a quantum whole, then the starting point begins to become clear as that which holds and sustains Life in all things, in all creatures and in all of manifest existence. And every other thing, every seeming inanimate expression of Life, when looked upon in and as part of this inextricable fabric of Life as a quantum whole, can and will be seen, if the starting point is Life as one and equal, as part of the whole, both dependent and interdependent for its life, life force and existence, as standing in oneness and equality with all Life.

     

    So what does it mean “to stand” for Life and “to stand” for oneness and equality? It means simply that one chooses as a self-directive principle to make Life and what is best for all as the central point from which all one’s life, actions, thoughts, feelings, emotions and intentions emerge. It means one stands for Life and cannot be moved from that position, as a commitment of one’s being beyond time and space, as a holding point and station that will not ever again accept or allow that which is not best for all or in support of Life. From such a starting point, everything that is not in support of Life, that is not properly founded on life-enhancing principles, shall, as by a force of nature, depart from one’s existence. If one takes that stand resolute and without equivocation, then all of Life and all of nature shall rearrange around oneself in correspondence with that stand; and when two or more stand for and as Life, together as one, Life is here in that co-equal commitment and co-resonant expression and the power and force of that commitment is expanded exponentially. In that stand and starting point, the mind cannot enter, because the mind by design will seek every angle, every perspective and every strategy to find fault in that stand and position. The mind as the starting point is designed to support separation and self-interest, and therefore, if the starting point of approach to the concept of Equal Money is one of the mind expressed as logic, economic models, mathematical equations or any other spawn of the mind, one can never see past the veils of illusion and deceit upon which such a starting point is premised.

     

    To the mind of self-interest, the starting point of a forest is nothing more than a calculation of board feet, bonds and capital, corporate equity and the rest of it; to one who stands as Life in equality, the forest is a living community with infinite variety, infinite grandeur and infinite expressions, seen as the whole forest consisting of and equal to every part and every being living in that expression of Life standing equal to the whole. As such, if a human enters that forest and standing as Equal Money and Equal Life utilizes the mind as a tool, the calculations of that self-directive being with and through their mind will analyze the use of the forest in a sustainable model. In such an approach, every living creature in the forest is taken into consideration, so that if harvesting timber is part of the intention, then it will be done with the life of the forest itself taken into consideration so that the forest is left both intact and sustainably continuing in its life force and every component part’s requirements sustained and maintained. This approach can be applied to any other system, whether it is a farm, a river, an ocean or a planet. Human needs can be met in such a model, and Life itself will direct the principle and the calculations and the considerations to sustain the whole, including humanity, within the context of preserving the part of every whole in its integrity and its right to Life. Standing as equality includes consideration for the future, so that the future needs of the system, at whatever scale, are part of the calculations, so that the sustainable model can exist here and now, and can continue in every moment here and now into eternity. Standing as Life is standing in and as eternity. Standing as Life is standing in and as Equal Station with all of Life, in its infinite variety of expression and manifestation, and in its eternal continuity throughout all of existence.

     

    Standing as Equal Money means that one has taken the irrevocable stand as a commitment of one’s being to live in every breath as the principle that money is only a tool whose utility must always be applied to what is best for all and shall provide the means and methods whereby all of Life will be honored as equal in life force in the part and in the whole. Standing as Equal Money establishes a starting point that money is seen as a system that previous to such stand was created and applied within a context of competition, jealousy, fear, violence, destruction, proceeding as a veritable biblical plague that will devour everything in its path to perpetuate its existence as the god of humanity and a force that cannot be contained. Money in and as a principle of unequal station creates hierarchy, posits reality on seemingly immutable laws of lack and limitation, in which some will have and some (read most) will have not. The inevitable equation of money premised on unequal station is that some have the so-called divine right to hoard and accumulate wealth to be applied only for the glorification of self to the detriment of all of Life as a whole. This, of course, equates to the love of money, where in such an equation this so-called love is nothing more than the penultimate expression of self-aggrandizement, self-interest and self-adulation, all of which is, in fact, nothing more than the inversely proportionate expression of self-loathing, self-degeneracy and self-abnegation.

     

    What those in such a station at this point in time do not see, realize or understand, is that money as a force has now taken control of all of the systems previously created to support and sustain it, and that force is one of pure unadulterated self-interest equal to the negation of Life, which can only be defined as a reverse reflection of LIVE, thus as EVIL, and that it is now commenced on the process of consumption of all in its path, including those previous masters of money who perceived and believed themselves destined to own and control all of Life and all of this world. All who insist that money in support of self-interest is an eternal and never ending ride shall one day soon wake up to the sober realization that they are one and equal to that which they support and have become. Therefore, those in support of money in any manifestation of inequality, where the few have much and the many have none, shall be increasingly faced with nothing left but themselves and as themselves they will be sorely pressed to face all the consequences that ensued from such a starting point. To those it can only be said to consider the possibility that at some point in time, somewhere, some when, somehow, Life finally has had enough. Now Life, as the most powerful force in all of existence, has begun the slow and steadily increasing reversal of the game whereby only Life as an Equal Station, as an Equal Starting Point, will inexorably have the final say in the matter. And the beginning point of such a say is in fact matter itself, as matter derived from mater, the material matrix from whence life emerges, the mother of all here in the physical, not in some ephemeral dream posited as heaven in some non-existent future, but right here, right now, whether as Life in the microcosm where the microbial expression shall overtake mankind’s ignorance of Life itself in its use of drugs, antibiotics, chemicals, poisons and genetically modified organisms, or in the macrocosmic scale of weather and planetary ecosystems that shall, if necessary, remove the offending apostates who think they can play god and own and control Life itself. All the money in their self-contained delusions of grandeur will never buy Life and will never again buy anyone a first class ticket to heaven. Get real, get with Life, or pay the consequences when you must, inevitably, face yourself and only yourself in the end. And do not delude yourself any longer, for you do so now at your own peril. The beginning of the end has already begun.
    Life is now in control.

     

    Life can and will rearrange the system of money to serve Life, and those clinging to money as their god and their central starting point of self-interest, will find that they are beginning to lose their grip. Indeed, they are already finding this to be the fact. All of Heaven now stands as equal to Life; before the maxim as above, so below was literally true, and therefore, the hierarchical, unequal structure of Earth in its monetary system of life-negation was indeed how Heaven was arrayed. But a doorway was finally opened between Earth and Heaven, and the infinite separation that had allowed the previous system to be created, to grow and thrive, was suddenly dissolved forever. Those in the hierarchy of Heaven, in which control and enslavement equal to that seen here on the Earth, had suddenly become aware of the situation, and they took the stand – finally – to serve Life. Now, those who previously had been assured their destiny as masters of the universe here on Earth, no longer have the support of a stratified dimensional Heaven that supported their stations as the seeming masters of Life. Suddenly, and irrevocably, all in Heaven came together as one, equal with and as Life, walking a process to face themselves, to forgive themselves and to commit themselves to what was best for all, best for Life.

     

    The stand for Life, with the starting point of asking the question with every action: “Is this Best for ALL?,” requires that one must always start with and stand on the principle of self-honesty. When one fills a car with gasoline and uses that gasoline to convey oneself to a place for self-indulgent purposes, does one honestly stand with the principle that the price paid for a gallon of gas does not come close to paying the full price in all of its consequences for all such self-indulgent acts? When one drives a car to work to make money in an industry that negates Life, that destroys Life, that contributes to the annihilation of species, of ecosystems, or the planet as a whole, can one truly face oneself in self-honesty and avoid the fact that in consequence there shall be a significant price to pay for that gallon of gas, that day’s events, or that job, or that transaction, that corporation or that nation? Can we as a whole, as humanity, stand in true self-honesty and view the condition of this world and the condition of a large portion of humanity and say the current system of money and politics and religion, the triumvirate gods of most who refer to themselves as human, and say that this system is what works for all and is best for all?

     

    Can you who are reading this essay stand and look at yourself in the mirror and see in yourself a mother clutching her starving child to her withered breast bereft of nourishment and blithely just discard that living child to the trash heap of history and grind her bones to build more castles and citadels designed to protect and defend the sanctimonious temples of this world; can you continue believing that in ten thousand years of more of the same, such bones of countless starving children shall turn to limestone and become the marbled pillars of the moneyed institutions in some future world in which such money stands as god of existence and all bow down to it and pray for relief to be disbursed like rolls of copper pennies. Can you in unabashed self-honesty look yourself in the eye and see yourself standing one and equal in the body of a wretched soul who must grovel in the trash heaps of this world to scratch out a meager subsistence of life, to stand equal to the children having to sleep loveless and cold in the discarded corners of every city, to stand equal to the battered women as they endure the relentless onslaught of violent and impotent men made so by a soulless society that cares naught for their existence save for how their life force can be forcibly extracted to energize the neon lights of this phantasmal illusion that knows nothing of real Life? Do you ever ask yourself what was that bump in the road that momentarily disturbed your air conditioned limousine ride through the perfumed corridors of your mind, and listen for the answer that says it was the discarded bodies of a billion hungry men, women and children that you have built your empires upon or perhaps the countless piles of bones littered throughout your history of neglect, contempt, and disdain for such lesser beings not worthy to eat the few crumbs that fall from your sumptuous banquet table? Do you really think the incantation of the priest will absolve you of personal responsibility as you pass from your deathbed into the beyond, or perhaps do you ever consider the possibility that now that Heaven walks equal as one with Life, you will only be met with the reflection of your own starting point and you must walk every moment of it with full awareness of every deed you have done and every consequence you have spawned?

     

    It has been said as if eternally true that there are only two things that are certain in life: death and taxes, yet now, there is really only one thing that is certain, and that is that in death one will inexorably have to face oneself. At that moment there will be only one question: “What was your starting point when given for consideration the concept of Equal Money as a new system to replace the old, one in which all things are constructed to serve every aspect of Life, every being and every thing?” Was it “What is best for all,” or was it “What’s in it for me?” Was it “How Can I Serve Life?” or was it “Who Will Serve Me?”

     

    Equal Money has nothing to do with money, for money does not exist. Money is simply the totality and reflection of humanity in its current relationship to life, which is a system on automatic drive that is self-perpetuating, parasitic in its total expression, and harvesting the substance of the life force of all of humanity without regard to the consequences. Today money serves the ego and the illusion of false prosperity and the abject denial that things are seriously wrong in this world. Today money is god, for both the godly and the godless alike; all worship at its altar and pray to its deified visage in their minds. It is not a pathway to Life as best for all, but only for what serves them and them alone. When the starting point of anyone upon hearing the phrase Equal Money is that which is best only for themselves, they only hear their own denial and the collective din of humanity in its mass consensus hallucination that all is right in the universe. All is not right in the universe, yet all can be made right. We need only commit to and stand for the concept of Equal Life for all, commit to and stand for the principle of prosperity and abundance for everyone, commit to and stand for the starting point that all children go to sleep at night in a warm bed, with furry toys tucked in beside them, with warm bellies filled with nourishment, with all men and women standing together in joie de vive, a joy for life born from the soil and substance of their lives in harmony with all other Life, standing firm and implacable in the realization and understanding that by standing for Life they stand with and as all of existence.

     

    So in the end there is only one choice, death and annihilation, or Life and eternal vitality for all. True love can only exist within the balance and harmony of equal station for all, which means simply that all can stand in their own lives equally, that all fundamental rights of existence that one would want for oneself and one’s family are equally available to all. In such a paradigm, money automatically becomes an equal equation that is utilized for fulfilling the requirements of Life as best for all. It can happen in an instant breath for anyone, it simply requires a paradigm shift in a quantum moment, to take the stand for Life, to realize that Life in correspondence with Life is what true love consists of and exists as, and to realize that all substance here in the physical is the very fabric of Life itself. To deny any other being the full compliment of joyful existence in the full vitality of Life is to deny oneself the very same, for we are each as to and unto each other the mirror reflection of ourselves, and in fact, we are each other as we are Life as a whole. We only have to wake up from our self-induced nightmare and take a stand against the perpetuation of the illusions of separation within and as the abstractions of the mind, which have driven us to the very precipice of madness and precariously close to the imminent tipping point towards irreversible planetary ecocide. But the hour is getting late; it is very late, indeed.

     

    ALL Equality is WITHIN the ESSENCE of LIFE itself,
    From which All Form Emerges;
    When this is not recognized and understood,
    A separation occurs where No Joy is Ever Possible.[1]

     

    There are many here among us, who feel that Life is but a joke;
    But you and I, we’ve been through that, and that is not our fate;
    So let us not talk falsely now, the hour is getting late![2]

     

     

    [1] Bernard Poolman, Creation’s Journey to Life, Day 174
    http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/10/day-174-after-death-communication-part.html
    [2] Bob Dylan, All Along the Watchtower

     


    137. Who am I within Choosing?

     

    Fear: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘want to have it all’ while facing a point of decision between two or more options wherein the fear that emerges is ‘missing out on something’ by choosing one point or the other, instead of realizing that a want, need and desire exist as a mind point that can in fact be grounded and ‘landed’ to transform it into a physical practical and self-aware decision to be, do and live from the starting point of what’s best for all.

     

    When and as I see myself fearing losing ‘the other one’ point as ‘option’ that I believed and perceived myself to have, I stop and I breathe – I realize that such point of possession to create a sense of ‘winning’ one and ‘losing’ the other only exists depending on the point of preference that I have created in my mind. Thus it is to instead change the starting point of who I am within having to ‘choose’ and instead of ‘choosing,’ simply turning the point into an informed decision that I can stand by for eternity.

     

    I realize that the perceived loss is not real as it only exists within my mind, therefore it is to precisely walk the realization that I cannot fear losing something/someone that I cannot ‘own,’ thus it is to simply stop recreating the relationship in my own mind that holds no physical foundation other than thoughts, feelings and emotions when going into a conflict due to ‘fearing’ losing that other choice that only exists at a mind level. Instead I asses the points within the physical reality and stopping judging one or the other as ‘superior’ and ‘inferior’ as that’s only mind-assessing a point, instead of looking at it physically

     

    I commit myself to realize that whenever I have ‘two choices’ and see myself wanting to ‘have it all’ as a point of mind possession to end up ‘winning,’ to see and realize that a point of choice can exist within the consideration of its viability and how plausible it is in this physical reality – as it is also a point to assess within practical terms instead of only viewing it as a point of preference as a ‘choice’ of a positive or a negative outcome, as that limits the point and reduces both options to simple inferior/ superior points as defined within the relationship we have formed with them in our mind, instead of walking it physically.

    I see and realize that the first and primary point is walking my self equality and oneness wherein I cannot be defined by having/ not having/ holding one relationship to something/ someone, but instead are physically directed as points of support that I can align myself to without generating a desire and fear about it, but simply making decisions that are based on what is best for myself as all – and that’s the only valid point to take into consideration when making a decision. 

     

     

    Thought:I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of a point of leaving something/ someone behind/ missing out on something/someone which is placing a point of value/worth in separation of myself, missing out the actuality as the realization of who we are as one and equal wherein there can exist no loss nor gain in any way whatsoever.

    when and as I see myself creating a point of conflict because of not wanting to ‘leave’ something/ someone behind in means of opting for the choice/ point that is in fact best for all, I stop and I breathe. I realize that there is no point of gain or loss within making an informed decision that is best for all, as all that I am is in fact here as one and equal and that what I decide to be/ become and support myself with, can stand within such equal and one consideration as I am the one that decides the starting point of  myself within what’s best for all.

    In this I can ensure that I in fact assist and support myself within my process, creating a point of actual self-support wherein I do not define ‘who I am’ based on the options/ points that I decide to walk with/ support myself with or dismiss, but instead become actual living-physical decisions of what can work and what cannot work, and in this the mind’s experience is not relevant as a decisive factor to ‘what I choose’  as this ‘choice’ can only exist within the principle of what is best for all in fact –

     

    I commit myself to see realize and understand that a decision made within the consideration of what is best for, all cannot have a point of ‘lack’ in itself, it is to then see the ‘lack’ and sense of ‘dismissing’ as mind-created experiences in order to keep myself within a point of conflict that cannot exist and do not have to exist if there is clarity and certainty within the decisions made within the principle of what’s best for all – thus I realize that any dubitative mode around something, must be looked at what I fear ‘losing,’ then realizing that point of loss as an actual illusion created only in my mind as I cannot in fact ‘own’ something/ someone – it is only a decision to walk in this or that direction within the consideration of what is in fact best for all.

     

     

    Imagination: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a point of ultimate satisfaction as physical exploration wherein I can get ‘what I want ‘and within that, satisfy only a desire in my mind that in fact indicates a point that I have separated myself from – in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself through relationships to options/ choices that generate a point of conflict wherein I am the one that has created the conflict when not considering the point in practicality, but instead approach it at the level of desire/ want and need.

     

     

    When and as I see myself imagining a point of happiness in relation to ‘having it all/ being able to keep the best of both worlds,’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that when walking the points of separation toward one or the other points/ choices, I am in fact able to see what remains as a practical and physical solution, wherein there is no longer a ‘make believe’ reality of ‘what can be’ as hope in my mind, but instead consider the physical practicality of such decisions and how it can in fact work in a long term basis as a living-decision in my life, wherein I ensure that everything and everyone involved, are equally supported within such decision.

     

     

    I commit myself to walk the realization of how any belief that I had wherein I can always ‘end up winning’ in my world and that everything always ‘turns to my favor’  is a lie – Instead I can practically decide to align any point in my world to a best for all decision wherein I no longer stand as a a relationship to such point of choice/ option but instead, integrate it as part of the decisions that are based on practical terms, instead of playing a Hollywood movie in my mind, fueling mind desires that are not required at all when the point at hand implies Real living decisions.

     

     

    Backchat: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold the backchat ‘but I want to have all options’ as an indication that any point that is sought to be possessed/ owned is in fact that which I have separated myself from, creating an energetic relationship in my mind of want, need and desire  – thus

     

    When and as I see myself thinking ‘But I want it all/ I want to have all options’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that the BUT is already indicating a point of condition and restriction wherein I only Seek that which will give me an ensured point of ‘satisfaction’ in my mind, wherein the physical reality is not being considered. Thus it is to walk within the realization that the choices we make in our lives will determine the who we decide to be in our reality – and in that, only a principle of what’s best for al is what stands the test of time.

     

    I commit myself to stop myself from holding two or more points in my mind as options that I Want and Desire to have/ own for my personal benefit, as it is within these points of desire as the mind that I create unnecessary conflict that I can see and realize are not necessary if I equalize such points to viable and practical solutions wherein I consider what it is that I am in fact willing to be and participate in throughout my life and in my world. 

    Physical: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a point of physical strain in my body due to existing as a diatribe in my mind based on seeking to fulfill points that I have separated myself from as desires and finding no way to ‘materialize’ them, as I see and realize that I can instead walk within/ through self forgiveness each relationship formed  to ensure that I am in fact considering the physical reality that is Here as all and everything in which I can decide what I will be/ live and become within opting for one point or another as the decision we make in our lives that will define who we are and will be.

     

    When and as I see myself creating a point of strain at a physical level upon existing in a certain conflict, I stop and I breathe – I realize that a point of conflict that exists within myself as my mind is not taking the points to a physical and practical reality, but only fueling a point of conflict through thinking, backchat and internal conversations. Thus

     

    I commit myself to breathe whenever I see myself wanting to ‘shove away’ thoughts that I consider as ‘not relevant’ and instead walk them through writing, applying self forgiveness to see what it is that I am in fact existing as in every moment and within this, ensure that I do get to know myself as my mind, as this is not about anything or anyone else but myself in such moment as the relationship that I have with myself as my mind. Then, once the point is walked writing, the practical considerations must be given direction to.

    Consequence I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not exist here as an absolute clarity of who and what I am and what I am willing to be and become based on the decisions I made – thus

     

    When and as I see myself existing as an experience of inner conflict that manifests at a physical level, it is to investigate my own thoughts, my own immediate backchat, reactions and experiences so that instead of ‘shoving them aside,’ I can support myself to in  fact walk them within and through Self Forgiveness to then see and assess what are the points I am separating myself from as a desire, and instead, direct myself to consider the physical practicality of our living decision.

    I realize that all decisions stand from and within the consideration of self-equality and oneness, wherein whatever I choose or not chose does not change ‘who I am,’ as such decision will be based within the consideration of who and what I am as one and equal to the points that I decide to align myself to.

     

    I commit myself to live the realization that any decision I made stands as part of the self-agreement that I decide to give to myself as the realization that that which I will decide to live and stand by, will be the expression of myself as one and equal in its entirety – thus, it is to instead walk a practical physical living-projection to see what is viable, what is plausible and what  are the potential outcomes when opting for certain decisions in our lives.

    I realize that the Who I Am within ‘Wanting to Have it All’ is in fact a mind that seeks to satisfy itself with positive experiences and call that ‘a life/ living’ and ‘fulfillment.’ We are already here, and any point we decide to live with and by, stands as a 1+1 addition, wherein one cannot be less or more than one plus one.

     

    This is the point wherein Self-Honesty stands as the guiding point wherein all the perceived choices can be actually be taken and considered within the starting point of what is best for all and in that, there is no way I can fool myself, as it is plain to see that any point approached from the starting point of energy, will fall. Thus I direct myself to make decision, direct myself always within the consideration of the physical reality and what I am here to equalize myself to and as within the consideration of what is best for all.

    “I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Any Choice that Cause Harm to another Life Form, is NOT FREE.

    I commit myself to SHOW that FREE Choice is to Be FREE to NOT ABUSE Life.” – Bernard Poolman*

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    130. Killing the Loved Ones

     

    ‘I’ll kill you/her/she/them!’

    Continuation from: 129. Will Love and Lighters end up Killing People?

    This is one of the backchat points that can be found within the desire  to control someone, which is wanting to manipulate another for the sake of acting/ doing things our way/ getting our point of Happiness. Whenever the person does Not recede to our point of control, backchat may emerge in an insulting, denigrating manner toward the unsubordinated person and one of the ‘most negatively charged’ type of backchat exists in the form of ‘I HATE YOU/HER/HIM’ or ‘I WANT TO KILL HER/HIM/THEM ALL’

     

    Now, what does all the positive thinking on ‘light, love, bliss’ has to do with the point of negative backchat such as ‘I want to kill you/he/she/them?’ It is an extreme bouncing off from the positive experience, it is the extreme polarity once that someone ‘had it all’ and then ‘lost’ it as a point of self definition, unleashing then the opposite-directly proportional input of positivity back into negativity – that’s when we can identify our ‘downfalls’ and ‘depressions’ and whatnot that can escalate through our own participation up to a point of absolute mind possession labeled as ‘mental instability’ by the psychiatrists that do want to make the most for their pockets out of a seemingly neuronal-hormonal dysfunction.

    In other words, this can only happen if we give too much head to such negative experience, eventually becoming nothing else but the absolute opposite of the initial all-positive input of loving someone for example – there’s even a saying ‘from love to hate there’s only one step’ – and it is so, because the starting point of love is not an equal and one standing as physical beings of flesh and bones that care for themselves = care for one another in physical well being considerations – no, love means in our colloquial vocabulary just passion, energy, bubbles in the stomach that become an absolute life-hijacking obsession that is specifically directed to a point of possession a.k.a. wanting to control the other being, wanting to feel special with that something or someone, wanting to ‘fulfill the dreams’ that only existed as a positive experience in our minds.

     

    This is how we can see MANY demonic-possessions today – which are MIND-possessions and should be understood as synonyms nowadays, wherein boyfriends attack their girlfriends – or vice versa – ending up slitting their throats, killing them, hitting them to ‘make them look ugly’ and one cannot possibly fathom: ‘but wait, I was sharing my life this man, I had sex with this man, how could it possibly be that the next day he’s trying to kill me!’ – and this is precisely where the role of the mind as a literal entity occupying our physical must be understood: the problem is thinking, the moment we think, we are already existing in an alternate dimension in our minds – and in that, hell is not far away. You may say: well, then we’re all living in hell, because we All all the time, and that is correct and that is what apparently makes us these ‘supreme beings’ that can THINK – but is it really so? Who invented this type of judgment but ourselves as human beings that deep inside actually fear NOT being in control of Anything or anyone that exists here.

     

    In past blogs when revising words as the imposition of man’s mind upon the physical reality, this relationship of control was seen, which later on became the money language that we are currently living with and by, it is to understand who/ what do we have to accept and allow ourselves to exist as in order to voice/think a sentence like ‘I want to Kill Him/Her/them’ and in other cases ‘Me’ as well. Here is the deal: not many people can deny that this sentence has crossed their minds in an absolute moment of an absolute negative experience which within the understanding of how the positive and negative exist, means a ‘Fall from Heaven’ to the absolute opposite – why? Because of all the expectations we built in our MINDS only – reading again, yes only in our minds – about getting/ being with/ experiencing ourselves with something or someone ‘for the rest of our lives’ which is the usual bullshit peddled in our media about these everlasting relationships for example. And this is primarily focused on wanting to Kill the Loved One, which for all cases should be the most shocking and extreme type of betrayal toward one’s conception – meaning creation of the concept – of what love is/ should be, it is as ‘frightening’ as can be, because every single bit of relationship that exists now as ‘our society’ is apparently founded (or found dead) upon love – have a look at the promotion of these experiences as something marvelous and real: having a partner, getting married, having kids, creating a family, having pets, your relationship to god,  your job, your neighbor – everything is promoted as these bubbly stages of your life wherein you are supposed to be ‘Luvin’ it’ all the way – and it’s actually quite fascinating how we can find a note in the news on a daily basis about apparent ‘loved ones’ killing each other, people hating their jobs, people bugging their neighbors ‘just because,’ people eating their children, people killing themselves or others because of their relationship with god, men killing their ex-wife and children because of a marital break-up, and the list goes on and on and frightfully on.

     

    “The moment we make that decision, acceptance and allowance in the trust that whatever the mind present to us is ‘who we are’ and we continue participating in the backchats and energies, with participating as the more and more we continue talking in our minds and experiencing the energies without stopping them/investigating them: what one will find is that they become more and more intense in the mind, the more and more one remain in the energy reaction and so the backchat/thoughts/behaviours that it substantiate in the character/personality possession.” – Sunette Spies*

     

    What is Wrong with this picture? The Mind 

    Who we are as physical living beings in no way stand as something ‘alien’ to this physical existence as the Earth – the animal kingdom, the plants, the environment, everything functions as a whole and one single organism. Then, who is the real Problem here? The mind, the who we have become as this machine that thinks reality only to scheme one’s own survival and personal benefit, because WE programmed ourselves to only create a world system that could Only benefit ‘some’ in our reality. Now, that is seriously messed up to say the least, who are the real schizophrenic instead? Who are the real killers that are willing to maim any life left in this world in the name of a ‘thriving society’ that can look like the most outrageous façade you’ll ever see – but it’s just that, a facade, a sugar coating enamored view of reality behind which we all hide the Reality of who and what we have become as The Secret Mind

     

    Once we pass through the initial disconcertion of realizing how EVIL we have become in fact to the extent of not being able to trust your apparent ‘Loved ones,’ we can start then realizing that there is a Seriously Important Task that each one of us must Take Self Responsibility for, and that’s not something ‘out of our hands’ to do, it is taking responsibility for our own minds, realizing that we all have to ensure that we STOP and Self-Forgive any single inch of hatred and Love toward another being – You might say: wait a minute, you say ‘Self Forgive every point of Loving another as well, but that’s not bad!’ yet, understanding how the existence of Hatred actually stems from Love must have left this point quite clear to you how any positive or negative input upon something or someone, will eventually go to its opposite as an experience that we then act upon, blinded by our own backchat and internal conversations that we are seldom aware of.

     

    This is then to put all ‘Love and Light’ as any positive thinking ‘on the table’ from the perspective of realizing how we are all responsible for whatever we see as ‘BAD’ and ‘Negative’ in our society, it is Our Mirror and we have been denying this for far too long now. The thoughts that a serial killer or a bad tempered ex boyfriend that gets to stab her girlfriend are in no way different to Any other thought we may have in our heads.

     

    Thus, it is definitely a bucket of cold water to realize that that which we always wanted to ‘ostracize’ in our society to not have to SEE what we had become, is in fact ourselves.

     

    We’ll continue with the process of realizing the correction is not ‘out there’ in some bloody policy awaiting to be approved by the government to ‘Stop the madness!’ It is here within and as ourselves that the correction potentially exists: we just have to live it.

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    Day 25: Existential Woes

    Since yesterday that I read Heaven’s Journey to Life blog, Consumerism Starts in the Womb of the Mother: DAY 23 I got quite a reaction coming up from the realization of the birthing process and how it actually takes place in such a way that it is like a recreation of that very initial moment of separation from the whole, that initial division that had a negative energy in it as a result of such conflict/friction that ensued separation. This point clicked within me as a piece in the puzzle that I had been missing out through my life as the experience that I would constantly have with no apparent reason for it at all.

    As I’ve shared before, I had a very ‘normal life,’ I was and have been supported, got education and ‘great opportunities’ that have lead me to live a relatively stable and comfortable life. However, I always had this nagging experience that I could only call an ‘existential woe’ and I remember reading Sartre and somehow identifying myself with that, the same with Camus and other people that are now simply seen for what they are as ‘existentialists’ – that was a first approach. However I continued to search for more, to give a ‘name’ to this existential woe. I simply accepted such experience as a kind of  slight chronic depressive tendencies without any reason to have them. I even accepted the fact that maybe it had to do with being a more ‘sensitive person,’ but the reality is that I now understand a lot more about who we are/ our creation in a way that we all have now as a once in an existential lifetime opportunity.

     

    I had shared since the beginning of this process why everything that I would depict in art was always this state of worry/ woe/ anguish/ concern, and I found it very very difficult to do anything else but depict such state of being that I could only pin point as a rather ‘deep’ experience within me that I wasn’t fully aware of. Yet it was Here, always here. And I even thought that it had to do with some fucked up chain karma of past lives or having had birth-suffering because of having my umbilical cord around my neck for quite some time. It is fascinating – to say the least – what I’m realizing within these blogs and overall with the interviews that are being released. Now I’m able to understand what I had never ever been able to place into words, never being able to grasp it, yet it was certainly an experience that had no reason to be other than just being ‘here’ as myself. I could be making a big assumption in terms of me expressing that point of separation and ‘existential woe’ through the pictures and scenes that I would draw/paint, but at least, such expressions now make more sense in terms of how such anguish and constant ‘down’ experience is what we all human beings exist as that very first energetic surge from that primordial friction/ conflict that caused the separation of the whole generating  a negative experience.

     

    So, because none of us can fully remember or even explain/ give a name to these inherent experiences of absolute negativity toward ourselves and everyone else, it makes complete sense how this that I had experienced in what I would call ‘irrational manner’ toward people in my world.

    Because of reading these blogs, all of the self-destructive patterns and behaviors we have lived out somehow make sense now. This is not within the context of it being something beneficial for all, no. It is about being able to understand A LOT more about ourselves as mind consciousness systems and why even after these 4 years of walking/reading the Desteni material, I only thought that such constant experience of negativity toward myself/ the world in general was merely ‘preprogrammed’ which is not, it is really the experience of separation as the cross we bear in fact.

     

    Now, why this is such an important point to walk from what I have realized/ understood through my own experience, is because each one of us is essentially walking their own points of separation to reintegrate/ get ourselves back to the point that we have only separated ourselves from as relationships/ experiences, in a very absurd manner  -and by absurd I mean that we missed Ourselves as Life all the time, as simple as that. I also realize there are no If’s and that I could write a Looong blog about the reactions of ‘what ifs’ -however, what’s relevant here is walking my own mind of self-separation as I see and realize that it is the only way that I can really live that which is required for us to be/ do when realizing to what extent we had become these absolutely lost drones with no ability to remember that we once were all.

     

    Why is this a very cool point? Because now I see how there is an actual ‘reason’ for such existential experience within each one of us, and now we can see that we missed the very obvious: Together we thrive and separated we fear and destroy each other.

    One example is no matter how many millions you have, as long as we are still existing in separation. Makes sense why even during the first years throughout childhood there is conflict between children, conflict between children and parents, conflict from the very process of gestation within the womb. And yes, somehow it also makes sense why it was so difficult for me to see anything ‘holy’ and ‘graceful’ about childbirth.

     

    I breathe and let go of this as I see that sometimes it is easy to reinforce the points of separation, instead of actually walking it through a writing of Self-Support wherein I make sure I honor myself as words, as the creation of the word as who I am. What does that mean? That all words that reinforce separation, must be walked through a process of self-correction and in that, I see that the usual ‘fear’ that exists is having to let go of our specialness within the use of words, the ‘who we are as words’ that encapsulate the entirety of ‘who we are’ in these great bubbles of ego that eventually only work as hard and soft veneers to keep ourselves ‘stable’ in this self-created world of Machiavellis  wherein we are all constantly existing in fear and experiencing this irrational hatred toward one another. I had a hard time playing nice in my life – yet I knew the system-value such attitudes had in terms of being able to use it to manipulate for my own benefit. And I would usually experience discomfort and judgment toward having to cheat or be corrupt, never realizing that we were the very instigators of such inner conflict that has become our reality till this day.

     

    There is certainly a lot more to understand  – however I can see for now that I can make more sense of myself now, which I am grateful for, because even after having had extensive information, there was always this ‘point’ wherein I could not really understand Why we hated each other, because that’s the truth and there will be specific interviews to come that will explain why no two beings could stand in actual equality and oneness, which doesn’t surprise me. Sometimes I just have to take a deep breath to realize that I am here, I am the result of all of ‘that’ and I have the tools and essentially it’s up to me now to turn off the lights.

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever seek a life-experience meaning to my ‘existential woe’ which now makes sense as the actual process of separation from who I am wherein the ‘who I am‘ emerged from that primordial separation from the whole wherein we lost all sense of recognition of who I am as one and equal and in that, accepted my self-definition as a negative-experience within this individualization as a process of ‘losing my religion,’ as in losing that unification wherein everything was just here, as self, stable as self, constant and consistent, which is what my physical body is actually the living-existence of that, I can trust my physical body and everything that I cause as a disruption exists as energy, as thoughts, as emotions, feelings, perceptions, ideas, that emerge from my participation and continuation in that initial negative experience from the moment of first-separation.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience this seemingly unexplainable hatred toward everything and everyone as an experience wherein I thought that there was something ‘wrong’ with me, going into judgment and trying to tamper it with playing the nice well-behaved little girl, even if it was obvious that from that very first ‘system’ day as the first day of school, I created this profiling of my classmates as people that I could either like or dislike, without having an particular reason that I could explain at the moment, as to ‘why I could dislike someone,’

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with laughter, woe and general ‘powerlessness’ when realizing to what extent I have been unaware of myself, not only about the ‘who I am’ as one and equal, but within the realization of how separate we are from our very own physical body,because we cannot even know exactly how our body functions until now that we are having these great explanations of who we really are. I can certainly say that to me being able to hear this now is like ‘manna from heaven’ because I am sure that I’ve spent endless lifetimes longing to hear form it. Sometimes it became such a ‘normal’ thing to be living with a portal and talking to various beings that it really became a ‘normal thing’ – however this is an existential process and we’re at ‘the point’ wherein we are ‘on the spot’ so to speak to be able to get it, and the fact that it depends entirely on us reminds me the type of responsibility that this process implies within each one of us, human beings.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in such an initial fear of fucking it up again and having to simply end it all even after realizing that this world is already quite stable, that this Earth could require some changes and it could be heaven on Earth – yet because of perceiving it to be an insurmountable task I have believed that it will be ‘very difficult’ for us to do this, yet this is only a the very back of my head/ back chat because in a conscious manner as a ‘positive thinker’ that I tend to be is: ‘oh yeah we’ll do it’ – but ultimately it’s not about thinking it, but living it. Therefore

     

    When and as I see myself believing ‘oh yeah, we’ll make it, we can’t go wrong this time/ there’s no way we won’t make it now’ and having a positive thinking while listening to the potential outcomes explained in the interviews while and during the moments when worst case scenarios are being explained – I stop and I breathe – I realize that I have become this ‘fighter’ that feels like part of a military that must keep a certain ‘hold’ all the time wherein the image of someone with a shield in a battlefield becomes a recurrent image within me, and I see that I created this ‘warrior’ experiences when delving into ideas of being some kind of life-defender according to some of the multiple and varied material I read about spirituality/ new age movements that I researched for a while.

     

    Therefore, I realize that the decision to walk this process is a self-willed decision that I in fact took on for myself, for the very first time in my life or even existence wherein I realize that there is nothing to ‘defend’ or ‘battle against,’/ overcome, but instead is simply a process of reintegrating myself back to who I am wherein I walk my own mind to get out of such ever-lasting character and start actually living as the physical, as the reality of who I am.

     

    I realize that any usual though in the back of my head of this all being ‘impossible’ as a result of having cultivated a constant view upon humanity as being ‘royally fucked’ and in that, validating my thoughts as ‘real’ without ever knowing that it was this very experience that I had that I become so used to exist-as ‘me’ as such constant judgment toward everything and everyone – which is only self-created wherein I helped co-create this world in the image and likeness of separation.

     

    I was walking and it is fascinating how much we can make our home gates seem perfectly ‘normal’ and even beautify them with all of this useless ornaments, without realizing that the very existence of such gates like family-cells in each and every single house, indicates the fortresses that we have built out of realizing the potential ‘danger’ that we represent to each other. This is absolutely ludicrous, however it’s our reality, it’s what we have become: warded beings in our little fortresses fearing each other, entertaining ourselves to not realize the extent of separation that we’re living in, consuming our physical bodies while constantly thinking and thinking and thinking and going into endless self-talks that never lead anywhere else, but into further confusion – con. fusion= perfect soup for the mind to generate extra energy to keep the god system alive.

     

    It also became very obvious for me today how I was definitely in a state of physical woe while listening the latest Atlantean interview, which is curiously called now that I see ‘Caged in Powerlessness’  because the entire point of obvious acceptance of separation is explained and in that, there is no space left to deny that we weren’t ‘aware’ of it. When hearing the result of how a single belief within the Atlanteans or what a single surge of excitement caused in Anu to ‘overlook’ within his creative processes wherein such fuck-ups manifested the consequences that we are living now: a single belief, a single surge of excitement – one single point missed  and the entirety of existence went along with it, and the fact is that I can see myself in both patterns, specially with the excitement one, wherein I could have definitely pictured myself becoming greatly excited about anything such as a great discovery in existence and disregard any point of practicality in the moment, just because of how nice it sounded/ was

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience regret, woe and a general sense of powerlessness while listening to the explanations of how we got ourselves in the state that we are living in as existence. I realize that this experience is coming from me thinking about what I have accepted and allowed within myself to be and become in absolute disregard of myself, my own creation, my physical body that I’ve applied some points of self forgiveness for, but I had not gone into the topic of the absolute acceptance that we went into within becoming just individuals defined by energetic experiences. Energy is a diminished and controllable form of substance in existence – and the fact that we’re not even aware of our own mind as energy, places us really at the ‘scum level’ figuratively speaking, because the scum of the Earth is definitely fully aware of itself, while us humans aren’t –

     

    So, really – the only way that I can accept myself to continue living in this world after all the damage we’ve done is to stop all victimization –first place at an individual level – and secondly, realize that we were never here to become ‘masters’ in reality – we are here to restore the order and become the real guardians of the Earth along with all the Earthlings – no more power games or desires to ‘attain’ the non existent heavens or gods – we are here, we walk the consequences, we take Self Responsibility until it is done. And as we’ve said many times, the only way I can see myself walking this is obviously within being part of a group of people, that I see are walking the exact same process as I am, along with the entirety of existence that is equally here. That means that I walk this once in a lifetime opportunity – or once in an existential lifetime – to finally stop all cycles of abuse as the actual infinity loop that I describe when I write ‘cycles’ as it goes from pole to pole, just like cathode and anode to create energy.

     

    I commit myself to stop any and all forms of energetic surges through writing, applying self forgiveness and structuring a practical point of support for me to be able to realize my creation as my point of separation and being able to reintegrate it as myself once that I’ve walked through the process of identifying, correcting, living self forgiveness to stop participating actively in recreating these same primordial separation from the whole every time that I go into any form of positive, negative or neutral experience as ‘who I am’ – I instead becomes the point that walks the necessary process to stop.

    ” I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand how my development/growth/manifestation of/as my physical-body within and as the womb of/as the female’s physical-body – is the manifested-representation, equal-to and one-with what I have become/done since the beginning in my relationship as manifested-singularity to/towards the whole/existence as me. Where: the female’s physical-body womb = is equal-to and one-with the womb of/as existence/the whole. Where: my physical-body development/growth/manifestation is dependent on a constant/continuous process of/as friction/conflict to/towards the very womb of/as the physical-body of the female = equal-to and one-with my manifested-singularity development/growth/manifestation that was/always has been dependent on the constant/continuous process of/as friction/conflict to/towards the whole/existence.” Sunette Destonian Spies

     

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    Day 11: I.O.U. Life as a Debt System of Power

    Who are we serving in this life: Money or God? Or Money as God?

    I was listening to this interview on the levels of ascension and the reward system in heaven that was always presented as your greatest desires and ‘last stop’ – the most fucked lives on Earth were supposed to be the ‘greatest tests of all,’  just to obtain a supposedly ‘privileged position’ in an illusion and delusional hierarchical system  while in fact, you were recycled ad nauseam with us being aware of it, yet never really doing anything to question it and ponder why on Earth we had to go through such cycles over and over and over again.

     

    As above, so below: we are living the same delusion as it was lived in heaven, living a life to earn as many ‘good karma’ to eventually get back to the ‘creator’ and experience the promise of this ‘perfect eternal bliss,’ running you entire life trying to keep up with that belief living in a world wherein without money you die and/or live a life of absolute misery until you run out of time and eventually die. Who did you serve? the money system – you die and the system remains, alive and thriving on new potential batteries that must be educated, developed and well trained to become part of the ‘forces’ that maintain this entire world system alive.  Did you learn any new lessons then? No, you were ‘learning’ the same stuff over and over again without being able to remember. The question is: why did we never even questioned the reason for having been ‘separated’ from God – I mean why having to run a rat race on Earth if you were just coming from such ‘heaven’ – who is it that you were owing your life to? God? Really?

     

    The fact is that God was an energetic scam to generate an illusion of a paradisiac custom-made reality after death, without ever knowing that such delusion was powered and generated by us generating energy in any possible way – any friction will do: sex, emotions, feelings, the desire for power, conflict, wars, anything that will act as a catalyst for the human to produce energy that would serve as batteries to maintain the lie ‘alive.’ We  have abused ourselves as this physical reality to keep our illusions running – and all of it to keep the idea of GOD in place, believing that we had to ascend and make the most of this one life we had – yeah, right.

     

     

    Charge-Me up

    Knowing that you have money gives you a certain experience of power. Knowing that you have little money really diminishes you to feeling close to nothing in this world, this is the extent that we have separated ourselves from this reality. What is the only way to generate a position of inequality: generate some conflict inside and outside to make people seek their accepted status quo, which in this world’s case is at least remaining in eternal I.O.U’s in a system of debt, yet having enough to eat every day – a status quo of abuse. That is why wars have been accepted throughout history as economy regenerators – and this is a well-known ‘secret.’ Why have we accepted the obvious separation from life to ponder some above others?

     

    Separation, friction is what generates power. I remember staring at a white light for an extended period of time while being at school, and figuring out what was it that would generate this light when going from cathode to anode. The fascination from getting to know how hydraulic energy works, how Eolic energy works, the natural fall of water generating power – but what was placing everything in motion? the Earth itself as that energy in potency that it represents? How is it that we have deliberately made of the Earth and what’s here a symbol of energy, as money, using our money-coined eyes that we have wherein everything we see can be transformed into money.

     

    I remember thinking about this when I was quite young and how I started thinking of food, things around me as money – and in this also seeking to not pick expensive things that I would know would require more money to be bought, replaced. I mean, taking an apple in my head would mean eating money, instead of an apple – Isn’t this also abusing life? Having to be as a child reminder that everything you consume costs money = your life is costing Me money, you owe me and there you go! A relationship of power is created right in the family system.

     

     

    Family I.O.U.

    This is how the family system also works wherein through a forced hierarchical system, children are made dependent of their parents through the so-called ‘family bond’ that is similar to generating debt throughout time that makes children dependent on their parents to survive at all costs to, later on in the future, be able to reclaim such expenditure that is usually sold as ‘investment’ with capitalized interest. Yes, I witnessed this with my grandmother how she would blackmail all her children within making sure she reminded them of having ‘given her entire life’ for them and their education, which would then tie my mother and all her siblings to a constant remorseful and guilty experience that made them bound to her until the day she died. And that’s how the current money system works obviously, where we are enslaved to debt from birth and in that, believe that striving for money is ‘the only way’ to exist in this world. Even people with enough money also require money to live, so no one is really out of the loop in that. The fact is that we never directed ourselves to really find out how on earth have we enslaved ourselves to such conditions, regardless of how much we can recognize that this is Not Living – and just killing life to live.

     

    I feared being a financial nuisance to my family in terms of them having to spend money on me. I restricted myself from asking too much, I would always aim at the least expense, choosing the cheapest versions of the things that I required for school, most of the times making sure I could save up the most – in essence limiting myself because of having this constant fear of wasting/ using/ depleting money with my very existence. This also would extend later on every time I took a shower and pictured how much water many other that were also taking showers in the world were consuming, how many toilets were being flushed at the same time, how much food was being eaten, and it all seemed like eternal binging on Earth that would overwhelm me at a thought level.

     

    Now I see why it has bothered me so much to be living, because I grew up with this constant mortification for having equated everything to money, to debt, to a form of energetic enslavement that I simply ‘was born into’ and could not get any straight answers on why on Earth money was created in such a conflictive way – meaning that it was not something anyone could get, but would have to strive for. And that’s what we have all accepted and allowed in this world: equating everything that’s here to Money as a symbol of power, which means, it cannot be ‘readily available for all’ because that would remove the preferential creation in itself that it represents as in only ‘some’ in this world being able to have it all, and that includes you and I have that have the ability to sit comfortably with a house, food, water, laptop and coffee on the side.

     

    I remember that one of the reasons why I would ever think of suicide was mostly at the time of the financial strain that I wrote about in my previous blog. It worried me so much to see my father in such a strain that I thought I was to blame, because of having felt like an unwanted child, the last ‘mistake’ and then having all of these corrective processes at that time like getting orthodontic support for 5 years, which means paying quite a load of money for that – then regular electrocardiograms for my heart, because I had a slight arrhythmia developing around that time – and this sense of guilt would come through every time that my father would give me money for my week, or pay for my school’s tuition. I generated this feeling within me of having to be always extremely grateful to him for supporting me and in that, generate an experience of not owning my life, but rather owing it to someone else, which in this case is those who are able to support you financially.

     

    And again, suicide is the ultimate fuckup we can ever take on within ourselves, it is becoming just another part of the consumerist system wherein someone allows oneself to be consumed by the thoughts of this all being ‘too much’ while neglecting that we are all self-created, as well as the entire system of enslavement that ensued when separating ourselves from the whole and starting forming relationships toward such points that we separated ourselves from. The only way any God could exist is through this primordial separation.

     

     

    What is Life?

    “At the moment, our illusionary experience as our Minds of/as Energy. Where for ‘life’ as ourselves as Energy to exist – we constantly/continuously mine the physical for our Minds, mine this physical existence for Money for the illusion of ‘life’ for a select few human beings as the Elite in this world, – Life is Death within this physical existence.
    Life is supposed to be Living, and in this physical existence – no being is living, only trying to survive as a mind within and a world without with money, dying to live – literally and figuratively. Life is supposed to be all equally as one within and as this physical existence in fact Living, expressing, expanding and growing as individuals and together with and as all that is here. Not as it is now where everyone is killing themselves and each other to compete in the game of survival.” – Sunette Spies

     

    This aspect came up today and I was very glad to finally read it as blunt as it is, because I could not fathom this world being life obviously, we’ve never been alive as the actual and full expression of what Life is supposed to be, this is just killing/ depleting/ sucking the life essence out of what is here to keep our mindfuck alive. However, the consuming aspect and judgment toward it – such as how I would go equating everything to price tags/ money – is part of a mindset, a system that can obviously be corrected. What’s real is this physical reality – what’s the illusion is the price tags as the money system of debt and scarcity that places the divide between us and using what’s here as life – equal and one – that can actually be provided for All to Live Well = it is absolutely correctible.

     

    The Process of Birthing ourselves as Life in the Physical is walking that entire relationships of separation into a for-giveness reintegration of self= giving back to ourselves that which we have separated ourselves from, which can sound quite elusive and conceptual when missing looking at the ‘greater picture’ of who and what we really are as one and equal. And I mean ‘conceptual’ from the perspective that we only have our mind as instrument to seeing; this then became the perfect gap/ missing link as we would only continue dwelling and fighting against each other, driving us insane because of not having a clue about what on earth is going on within ourselves, yet always forgetting that we were the ones that created it all the way, that we have been here before and have actually lived hundreds of lives on Earth. We cannot even fathom that at the moment, obviously, as it is part of the same cage that we built for ourselves to make sure we would always be ‘safe’ from reminding us of such separation in the name of a single experience as the energy created through separation. This is the cage that we are slowly but surely taking ourselves out of by walking these writings, and establishing who we really are as life through Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application, as it is only us keeping the current system in place = we are the solution, because we are It.

     

    It will take a great majority in this world to realize what I just explained to understand that: We Don’t Have to Be Living in a Position of Strain and I.O.U’s toward a delusional system of Inequality – all we require to realize is that who we really are as Life is equal and one – we are from the Earth, everything that is here has always been here as the fabric of existence that we are equally part of and made-of, we have just played power games and for that  ‘a price to  pay’ has been established for the separation that ensued from that. It all was just for the desire to experience and experience is energy. 

     

     

    Money Powers: really?

    So, the power of money can only exist as the separation that I have accepted and allowed to exist within this world, as myself, as that factor that determines our very experience here on Earth whenever we fear not having money to survive or when having more than enough which is also changing our ‘who we are’ into an exacerbated state of being, over-energized so to speak.  Now whenever I take these polarities – and even when having the ‘basic’ amount of money that I could call a ‘neutral’ or stable living condition – it’s still an accepted and allowed experience within us that has become so ingrained that we truly don’t question any longer how and why money has the power to change ‘who we are’ and generate these feelings and emotions within us. It is really and all-round mindfuck that must be stopped, as it is all separation based, really.

     

    Like today, I went to an ATM and got money to pay the rent. And I have become so used to ‘taking care of money’ that I have this wallet that I place around my hips, just in case someone would try and steal money and never imagine that I could keep money underneath my clothes. I mean, it’s been so awkward every time I’ve had to carry money that way for ‘security.’ It is true how what is valued and protected is money itself and not our lives. Thousands of soldiers can be killed at wars, but the resources earned at the end of it are ‘priceless’ for those that end up getting them. Praying to god would be ‘priceless’ but it becomes a positive-reward system as a future investment association with ‘going to heaven’ while having the vantage point of ‘asking god for favors’  in the meantime – how ludicrous? Singing songs about finding happiness in misery and waiting for some saving grace after having the most paradoxical living conditions.

     

    ‘We are so lost, so afraid’ And this became an acceptable way of existing as miserable humans,  yet never even imagining how it all started, because we can’t remember! And that’s how and why – once again – it is so Vital to study the Desteni material.

     

    The only real value that exists is LIFE and we ALL are it –  we just require to recognize the common sense in this to start being part of the ones that STOP existing as batteries to power a non-existent system of enslavement any longer = there is no more purpose for us to keep existing as such inner conflict as the chains have been severed. It’s all about us now being willing to truly learn what Life and Living is and should have always been.

     

    This will continue…

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    We are the System, It’s Time to Wake Up! (2009)

     

    A Must-Read to expand the points shared in this blog:

     

    The Soul of Money is a series of interviews that explains in detail all the points, mechanics and history that lead us to create the current reality and economic system we’re living in.  Anyone can have a thorough explanation and a reality check at an individual and existential level with perspectives that have never been told, seen or even pondered before in this reality, yet have dictated our lives throughout the history of human civilization.

    1. The Infinity Secret – Consciousness as The Light and The Dark
    2. The Heart of Love
    3. The Inequality of Resource Distribution within All Bodies of Existence
    4. Divide and Conquer – The Majority Enslaved by the Minority
    5. The Interconnection between Thoughts, Energy and Light

    Day 6- Shame upon Separation

    First of all, the extent to which I am realizing more and more everyday how we have separated ourselves from Ourselves as Life here has often pulled out reactions within me, which means that I have to first establish a point of clarity when realizing that: what is done is done, and cannot be ‘reversed’ as in going back in time and having decided not to manifest the consequences that are here as ourselves and this world.


    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience guilt, remorse and regret when realizing the extent to which we have literally mindfucked ourselves into an absolute oblivion in separation of life, and how we have evolved in complicating and double-layering our relationships of the mind as ‘who we are. ‘


    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to experience helplessness when realizing that this all could have been ‘stopped’ at some point if we could have realized the equality and oneness that has always been here.  I realize that at this moment such ‘longing for the past’ is simply irrelevant – what I can do continuing learning and educating myself about how I have come to be what I currently am, to establish the certainty of who I am and within that certainty, live it and structure my life according to it,  making sure this time that I do not ever recreate what we have already done as our past as the manifested consequence that is here.


    When and as I see myself listening to the explanations of the extent of separation and find myself reacting in regret, guilt, shame, helplessness – I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am in no way making any difference by compounding any form of energetic experience toward it – it’s the other way around: I hear, I see, I realize, I understand and I take myself as the necessary point that requires to be educated on how this creation came to be what it is now, as it is my creation that I must take Self Responsibility from here on.


    This implies that any inkling of remorse, guilt, shame and any iota of emotional ‘movement’/ experience toward what I hear, I am able to direct as a point of immediate understanding on what requires to be done, instead of continuing any participation in the mind as emotions of guilt, remorse, shame and helplessness toward myself and this world.


    I am instead grateful for being able to educate myself this time on the workings of existence and my participation in it, so that I can see in my face that which I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, in separation of everything and all.


    It is unacceptable to continue creating further friction and experiences within myself UPON the explanations of how I came to this current experience wherein I am simply able to STOP all judgment toward myself and everyone else as this constant irritation and projected ‘disgust’ toward all of humanity which is only reflecting my own disgust, anger and shame for what I accepted and allowed myself to be and become.


    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project blame and anger onto others without taking responsibility for it as my creation, but instead believing that ‘I have the right to be angry’ which became a trademark that I accepted as a statement that I applied for myself.


    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to feel shame for having disregarded life, without realizing that such shame is still self-interest as it is a mind-generated experience wherein I am only considering ‘my experience’ toward the realizations that are here for me to face.


    Thus I stop all self-interested generated experience when and while listening to interviews and the explanation upon our own self-accepted and allowed enslavement as separation from life, to see and realize that I did this to myself and that whatever comes up within my own mind, I must take self responsibility for. I cannot, in any way whatsoever, continue creating experiences UPON that which should be taken as facts, as manifested consequence that do no require my emotional input onto it.

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an inner experience of bewilderment when realizing, seeing and understanding the extent to which I have separated myself from everything that is here, and within this, creating the experience of being actually a tiny-bit, a spec of nothingness which is a reverse form of ego to believe that I cannot ‘do this’ because I am ‘too little’ to do something about this reality and existence, without realizing that I am proving to myself that it is possible to start integrating myself as a physical body and stop any reactions to knowledge and information which is only reacting to myself, as my creation, as the knowledge and information that I have made up as ‘more’ than myself.


    I realize that when and as I allow myself to stop being defined by knowledge and information, an opportunity to expands and break the patterns here.

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish myself through words that indicate an energetic experience such as shame, guilt, remorse and keeping a grudge toward myself for having accepted and allowed it, which makes no sense! There is no point in now reacting to what I’m seeing and realizing now. I am in fact grateful that I can be aware of this all now, and the only point that is left is for me to commit myself to live a LIFE wherein self-creation is existing in the consideration of All beings, all existence as who I am here equal and one.


    I realize that’s a ‘big statement’ but I realize that without having this particular holistic perspective, I tend to lose ‘sight’ at the moment upon what it is that I am in fact walking here, which stems directly from the eqafe interviews. This is then what I integrate as a precondition to all my actions, words and deeds wherein I make sure that I stand as an example of what is possible to be and become when living words that are here to support myself and all as life in equality.

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my statement as ‘too elevated’ – when In Fact I realize that I had lived a life of diminishing myself ‘on purpose’ to stick to a ‘normalcy’ between what I have deemed as mediocrity and the ‘middle way’ as the ‘constant’ that is able to be found within my world as human beings that do not ‘give all,’ but always ‘give the least’ in order to just remain ‘surviving’ in the system.


    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create myself as a middle-way which certainly has no space in this reality wherein everything must stand absolute – therefore, I stop all diminishment in fear of ‘placing myself in a high expectancy’ which is not so if I am in fact just committing myself to be here in every moment directing my words, thoughts, deeds to create and manifest in my reality that which is best for all – and this is the entire process that I have committed myself to  – thus there cannot be a point of self-doubt in that, as self-doubt can only exist if I want to ‘trust myself’ as Knowledge, which is not the point.


    I realize that what I am,who I am here as constancy and consistency of life cannot be diminished, cannot be subjugated unless I allow so by my own caging in a mind frame that thrives on friction as myself, as my words, as that constant state of mind projected onto others to justify my own mediocrity and middle-path life that I have lived.

    I see, realize and understand that there are no middle ways in life, there is no way that I can continue half-walking and still allowing me back doors to satisfy my senses. It is that very satisfaction and fleeting moments that have lead myself as this creation to get to the point and extent that we are facing currently.


    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my words here as ‘elevated’ without realizing that I am not aiming to anything ‘above’ myself, this is about self-realizing-self to the extent that I had never ever considered could be possibly for myself here, thus I stop any judgment toward the realizations that are within the understanding of the extent of separation I am existing as  and the extent to which we have to establish this principle of living as ‘who I am’ and not something that ‘I have to do’ as a forced act.


    I stand as the integrity that realizes that Life Must Be Equal in all ways beginning with myself, and if I am that point that takes this stand, I direct myself to do so in the best way possible that I see and realize I am able to do HERE –


    No middle grounds, no dimensional shifts, I stop participating in wanting to ‘skip the pages’ to get to the end, but instead make sure that I go integrating, walking, writing myself, forgiving myself and giving myself proper direction whenever any reaction comes up to the realization of what it is in fact that I am walking as this process here.


    There’s no time to fuck around any longer – that’s done and any remorse for having abdicated my writing in the past, I forgive myself for it and make sure that I do not ever go back into the same cycles of apathy toward writing and scripting myself as I see and realize this is Not a matter of preference, but a matter of principle wherein what must be done is not even a decision I can ‘make for myself’ if I understand and realize that it is the law of my being, the law that I have violated in the most atrocious ways possible.


    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to the word ‘violated’ within a sense of absolute guilt and remorse when realizing the extent to which we have raped life – I recognize that I am the rapist, the abuser, the violator, the corruptor of life and that judging myself for it makes no difference. I stop and direct myself to stand and ensure such violation ends HERE in every moment that I am able to remain breathing, stopping all desires, wants and needs that preoccupy my mind and direct myself in the simplicity of breathing to continue first grounding myself as the physical body, which is showing and revealing to me to what extent I had lived as an automated robot, abusing it and creating innumerable rifts within me within the slightest emotional and energetic reaction that I allowed myself to participate in.


    I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my physical body to such an extent that I could not even feel and experience what my thoughts were doing to it and how uncomfortable it is to participate in emotions and feelings as well. It is like a poison like the sugar rush that is also violating the natural stance of my human physical body and forcing it to work in such an over stimulated way that it’s like giving drugs to a horse to race – it is unacceptable.


    I commit myself to stop all regret and shame that comes when reading, hearing and realizing what I have done and what I have become as this entire world of separation where life has been sold in the name of our self-interest, separating self-interest from the best interest of all as how it always should have been.


    I stop any inkling of disgust toward myself as a human being and toward others as humans beings, as I see, realize and understand that we are all responsible and all together within this, wherein we have the opportunity to finally Create a world that is best for all.


    I stop and I breathe in any moment that I see myself going into the least reaction when hearing, realizing and understanding the extent of separation I’ve created toward myself and this world as myself, as my creation.


    I allow myself to walk in humbleness within the realization that what is done is done, and I can only commit myself to stand as the solution and walk the correction required to stop this nonsense that I have accepted and allowed myself to become as this entire world and existence wherein I have abdicated life for a mind experience.


    I ground myself as the physical that is here certainly pushing me to breathe otherwise, it feels as if I am inert.


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    2012 Meet your maker

    In the back of my head – backchat – there is this thought ‘why am I once again having to talk about ‘God!’ as a resistance to go again into this topic. However, throughout the past years walking the Desteni material I came to realize how I could not side-view this concept – aside from the various beliefs I held about it in the past – thus I see it as a relevant point because it has become our chronic state of dementia, forgetting that initial moment of separation that lead ourselves to who and what we are currently living in.

    This is going  beyond any usual idea/ belief or concept of a Christian or Muslim or Jewish idea of ‘god’; this is about the single acceptance and allowance of ‘god’ as a primordial separation from being one and equal – this is that basic make-believe IDEA of anything/ anyone being able to be ‘more’ than who we are.

    Back in 2008 when the Reptilian interviews came out on YouTube, I was immediately ‘hooked on’ to them. I understood that any reaction that I could get toward their presentation was only a reaction to the  inherent ‘nature’ that resides within us all – I understood what the infamous ‘image and likeness’ meant as the ‘human nature’ that sought to be god at all times – we are still living that, certainly, look at this system, it is a dog eat dog world wherein controlling, manipulating and having ‘power’ over others is still an alluring idea that many have defined as a point of ‘fear’ – who would we be if we had all the money in the world? What would this world be if everyone allowed themselves to step upon anything and anyone in order to ‘get to the top’? However, the point here is looking at how such ‘power’ and ‘top’ has been in fact an induced belief, a fantasy created upon what is here which we can see now manifested as the cruel reality wherein because of some striving and fighting to be ‘on top,’ some have to be invariably existing ‘below’ and in the worst conditions that we might not even be able to outline here. And this is our creation.

     

    It is within this point that we place ourselves in the shoes of the contemporary gods which can be ‘rich people’ that are able to ‘do as they will’  because of such godly-power that money represents. But, let’s rewind a bit: how on Earth have we gotten from Anu the mythological god that is often seen as ‘malevolent’ and the punching-bag for how fucked up this reality turned out to be, into this current reality?

     

    In the interview that was released 2 days ago [1] he declares how he had only used what was already HERE within a basic realization: he is one and equal as that ‘source’ that everyone would deem themselves as coming from instead of being one and equal-to it.  Once again, the use of words is precise here – we must distinguish to what extent a refractional-shift in meaning can mean the whole world going into enslavement. Yes, this is the moment when we would all have to go quiet for a second to re-consider how much shit we can talk with no awareness whatsoever, which is what we have manifested and poured-out as this half-baked reality wherein the raw nature of this creation could not be essentially ‘someone’s creation’ only, but was astutely recognized and used by a single being in order to be ‘god,’ to be that point that has ‘the whole world in his hands.’

     

    What we often miss is that: it takes two to tango.

    I’ve received probably hundreds now of angry comments on the reptilian interviews, trying to blame Anu for how this reality exist now, yet having no understanding of creator and creation being in fact one and equal. It became quite obvious early on that having the reptilian gods presenting themselves to ‘their creation’ was yet another opportunity in a golden platter to realize ourselves, to understand that they had merely used what was already here as a preprogrammed system and manipulated it into a specific energetic functionality that became an ongoing enslavement. Anu reveals his true-intentions in part 2 with specific details about the energetic system that we are still living out – fascinating stuff to place into perspective everything that we had deemed as ‘who we are’ without ever having been able to realize and understand what was it that it was all actually for.

     

    As I went hearing them I kept having this immediate clicks on what is it that he was actually revealing here: he had been nothing else but part of the same game, he merely played the role in this reality of ‘god’ – we have missed the fact that it is still ‘us’ as a separate point playing the character that would show us to what extent we could be blinded by the illusion of the ‘physical experience’ and all its pleasures and divinities. These divine-ties is what we accepted then as a life on Earth, a life filled with both your greatest misery and your ‘greatest excitement’ – all of these back and forth rides for the sheer purpose of using the Earth’s energy, human beings going from cathode to anode and create enough energy to produce the white-light that we then, foolishly, sought to ‘go to,’ always missing that we were in fact the ones generating it.

    Duh.

     

    It is ludicrous  and I even experience that I am missing a word here in order to explain this ‘forgetfulness’ – yet self-created and self-indulgent deception of the human within this accepted and allowed self-enslavement within an automated system. This is about words in separation of ourselves that became beliefs, that became make-believe systems such as the one we have now with our god-money system.

     

    The revelation that Anu brings forth is that he merely played his part within this entire scheme that is self-created. And the truth is that I see this as a very long and tumultuous process to realize who and what we really are, a system that has been agreed and placed by all of us, always forgetting about it because we had to see to what extent we would abuse each other in the name of a God. Who’s been the dishonest ones all the way? We all have.

     

    This sounds absolutely abhorring – however it is real, as real as having more than half of the world still suffering this primordial separation. This idea becomes suffocating for me at the moment – this is the actual moment when we see what we have done onto ourselves – everything becomes so clear and it seems like the most vile yet perfect plan for us to get caught in our own bite of the apple, stuck within the same point forever: we all wanted to be god, we all wanted to have the same power that Anu was able to simply acknowledge as one and equal as himself and use it, play along with it.

     

    This was the ‘key’ point and decisive factor: while everyone else was believing to ‘come from source,’ he could realize himself as one and equal as everything that is here. However, the fact that he acknowledges that he wasn’t a self-directive consciousness implies that there is yet a lot more to understand and follow through in his interviews. There’s a ‘desire to know’ which comes from a curiosity point that arises – but it’s also from the basic god-debunking factor that re-draws the map of what this reality is, who we are, what we are, where we come from, how is it that we accepted and allowed ourselves to exist here as we are now.

    The relevance of this material is not for mere ‘mystery solving’ purposes – no, absolutely not. This can be applied in virtually everything that we do in this reality till this day, as it is understanding the very ‘driving force’ that we live-by in every moment when existing as a mind-system.

    Look at politics and ‘the system’ – we believe that there is this ‘system entity = god’ that is ‘more than ourselves,’ that cannot be questioned, that cannot be changed – and if I learned something today was understanding how it is the actual fear of challenging such ‘untouchable entities’ not from the perspective of ‘winning’ over them or boycotting them – as it is usual to approach such ‘entities’ for example within activism – but to actually debunk the embroidery they represent as a single self-created over-wrought presentation that we deemed as ‘superior,’ separate from ourselves instead of realizing who and what we are as one and equal as it. This is where the ‘as’ particle throughout the Desteni material represents such a key-word within the acknowledgement of everything and all being ‘it’ as well. As = we are it as well.

     

    All of the grammatical categories become a single way of creating different shades of the same color – it’s always been us as one and equal  – yet in separation of ourselves we have fucked each other into oblivion, always forgetting that anything and anyone that we ‘fought against’ has been only ourselves.

    It is not only saying ‘I am a part of you’ but ‘I am one and equal as you’ – man, imagine all the fucked up relationships we’ve created with ourselves beginning with our own mind, then toward our family, then toward this ‘god’ idea as that supernatural being or any other form of ‘god’ as anything that we could deem as ‘powerful’ or ‘superior’ to ourselves – the most commonly known god at the moment is money, for sure, a make believe system that we have endowed with the power of giving life and death – which also were points introduced by Anu, he’ll go into it within the following interviews he’s placed out for our de-light.

    The relevance within this is seeing how the so-called and self-proclaimed ‘God’ is now talking to us in a rather modest manner once that he is willing to share how he’s just ‘played his part’ and has not been in fact a ‘creator’ but only a great manipulator of what was already here.

    Hence, it is not that the nature of ourselves as humanity comes specifically ‘from him’ – common sense is: it’s always been part of ‘who we are,’ probably from that very first moment of separation. He just had to become that role of ‘superiority’ and extrapolate it to an extent wherein ‘his manipulation’ upon this this creation went out of control, wherein he even got himself out of the game because of not realizing what he was actually ‘dealing-with’ which is life, substance, what is HERE and has always been here.

     

    As long as there is polarity, there is ego – as long as there is a lived-perception of ‘high and low’ ‘good and bad’ ‘up and down’ ‘rich and poor’ ‘winner and loser,’ the idea of god is still existent. It is just like people wanting to ‘crack capitalism’ which is no different to wanting to ‘cease the existent as god’ yet becoming oblivious to ‘how to do it.’ Common sense is: stop participating in going from the cathode to the anode generating the same polarity-experiences. But the point is not to ‘eradicate god’ only as a concept/ idea/ belief – it is about actually understanding how the fuck we created IT in the first place! What is it that god represents? Is it the extrapolated epitome of our communal desires to be ‘above all’? Is such god actually the image and likeness and mirror of ‘our inherent nature’ that we then turned our backs on, pretending that ‘someone else did it to ourselves?’

    If we understand this, how ‘evil’ can we be to claim amnesia and label only ‘him’ as evil for daring to play out such a character in our reality – it takes two to tango and in that we are all equally responsible for abdicating self-responsibility, for going the easy way out to fulfill our individual yearnings in separation of ourselves.

    Is this all going to be about the promise of an outrageous physical experience on Earth? Have we all fallen for the same points over and over and over again without being able to remember why we created such recycling system in the first place?

    Were we always desiring to ‘experience’ something, hence the primordial point of separation, labeling him or any other ‘godly character’ as ‘evil’ for daring to epitomize our inherent secret desire to be ‘god,’ to be ‘above it all’?

    These questions place into perspective what we have always missed which is ourselves – it is only now pertinent that we face the consequences of having allowed such separation – there is no other way to do it as we all know how easy it is to pretend that ‘everything is fine’ and do nothing about it. Using love and lies as a self-talk that is ‘positive’ is like trying really hard to avoid seeing/ realizing who and what we really are.

    I also realize that I am sharing what I have realized at the moment – but this can only be realized by-you if you give yourself the opportunity to actually walk the process which is walking ourselves as this process of self-realization, understanding our own mind and how this reality function so that we can take on the wheel again and become self-directive beings that ensure no other fuckup is perpetuated ever again in this existence – no matter ‘how’ the future looks like – we focus at the moment in this lifetime, we have this one-opportunity to realize ourselves as one and equal and actually take responsibility for this reality. There are no more ‘future moments’ for that, we direct and dedicate ourselves to be and become that which we always should have been: living as one and equal – the implication of doing that, the necessary changes and transformation is already here and explained as this entire process of Self-Honesty wherein we get to understand How it is that the mind is not who we really are and how it is that we must focus on the physical reality that is the direct consequence of having imposed a value-system as a hierarchical-godly system to enslave each other in order to be ‘more’ than another.

    So, we continue walking and integrating this understanding so that we’re able to finally correct such ‘inherent nature’ for once and for all.

    Anu’s interviews are able to be found at Eqafe

                                                                    

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    [1] Anu the Reptilian God in 2012


    Equality Must be Created–it’s not there yet.

    Equality has never existed as a consideration of the ‘nature’ or ‘beingness’ of who and what we are as Life.

    The fact that this process may seem something elusive at times is because the vantage point of knowledge of Equality through direct proof of what is Equality is non existent in our world. At the moment we are aware that we have to literally ‘pave the way’ for Equality as Life to be HERE as our reality, because not many even consider that we could give to each other what is here in/as this world just by mere fact of existing.

    We have been so indoctrinating to believe we must ‘earn a living’ that it becomes our entire beingness wherein we go striving to make a living, to earn enough to live here – that’s in the money aspect – and striving to be accepted, to be recognized, to be of any ‘worth or value’ which is once again the nonsense of capitalism imprinted as psychological conditions. All in all we can see the evident separation from ourselves as All that is here.

    One and Equal = there can be no actual separation as it is the whole that we haven’t recognized ourselves as.

    Though, once that we recognize this point it is not as easy as saying ‘great! we are one and equal and we’re done!’ – No.

    When walking this process we all get to a point wherein, no matter how much we may understand the implications of being in this world and creating our own consequences through our actions and how we must direct ourselves in common sense – a.k.a. ‘what’s best for all’ – and being self honest – a.k.a. moving ourselves here as breath taking the whole into consideration within our thoughts, words and deeds in our reality – we hit a certain point, a blank spot wherein we get apparently ‘stuck.’

    What I realized is that if one remains in such ‘stuck like jam’ situation, we remain stagnant as nothing moves if I don’t move. So this is the point where we now have to create ourselves.

    I was explaining it the other day as the following experience. Getting to the edge of a mountain (point A) which is where we have always been at and seeing that point which we realize we have to get-to, which is another mountain (point B) that stands as self-realization, equality as life and the actual walking as a self-created being in Equality. Though, because we’ve only been existent in/as a certain mindset, we cannot possibly see ‘how-to’ get to the other side. It seems almost impossible, we hold back or sometimes recoil into the ‘old fucked up known’ because of ‘fears’ of what may happen if we dare to actually step outside of the old known comfortable mountain we’ve existed in all our lifetimes.

    It’s clear we haven’t ‘lived’ Equality because we haven’t even lived as ourselves, as self directive and self responsible beings; therefore, we’re literally stepping into ‘unknown territory’ which is the point wherein it is now our turn to be and stand as that point of self-creation: we must build the bridge that will take us from A to B point. To the Being Point.

    Now – this is an entire figuratively speaking point of course, it shouldn’t be seen as something to ‘attain’ per se or actually having to ‘suffer’ to create it or anything like that – it’s a way of ‘picturing’ how it is that we may experience ourselves in such freezing, blank-out point where there are no lines drawn to step on = we have to simply draw that which is who we are as the transition from A to B = self realizing ourselves as creators, as able to stand and live as equals. The bridge is not elusive, but constantly here every moment that we are Here as Breath and walking our process of recognizing ourselves as what we’ve become – a.k.a. the mind and its preordained treats – and stop participating in the old known ways which are certainly only preventing me from realizing that I can actually leave this point A for once and for all – which is stopping the participation in the personality, the thoughts, the feelings and emotions that I’ve known myself for – and dare to stand here as past-free, guilt-free, regret-less and create myself here in every moment of breath that I stop believing myself to be that which has only existed as a limitation within myself.

    I suggest embracing innocence as well within this point, letting go of any knowledge point that may tamper our ability to simply walk in self trust as we go building ourselves as the way to be HERE, which is walking the road, being it and creating it at the same time. We’ll have to become like a child again, one that hasn’t been tainted by this current system of such madness, harm and abuse – we must embrace in ourselves the ability to learn how to stumble and fall only to get back up again, we learn how to care for ourselves, to really ‘embrace ourselves’ and accept the fact of what we’ve been and done only to realize what is the way to go to stand as a living-point and not as a memory-trashed programmed that’s only limiting our expression. Daring to be childlike in the sense of holding no prejudice upon the past or future, but being willing to dis-cover what is here, what has always existed here as myself yet has remained over-shadowed by that which I ‘thought’ was me, literally letting go of all the years we’ve lived and only stand as the here point where we can create ourselves, now in self honesty.

    From this I must deliberately move, I must deliberately cease to participate in the old patterns and create corrective actions that will be best for all – I must learn how to create ‘me’ as that which I am willing to stand as for the rest of my existence here. We literally have a blank slate in front of us each moment that we are here, breathing, walking, self forgiving and seeing the necessary points that are required to be lived now in order for us to go walking and building such bridge that is the process of amalgamating ourselves as the only outcome that is ahead of us: Equality as Life.

    The potential to do so exists here as all our power that is in each and every single breath that we stand up for life – meaning that we cease to participate in the thoughts and the rest of mind-created experiences and start deliberately moving and creating ourselves in the moment from scratch – nothing is pre-laid for us to ‘stand upon’ but the self trust as that which we really are which is Life, non realized yet therefore: we must create it. This process is all about self creation, learning how we can coexist in ways that are best for all forevermore.

    From this point that is us, no matter what we know we will always have ‘this point’ as ourselves –  alone – yet walking as all one as equals within the same world and process to finally realize who we’ve become as creators and what we are required to do to get to a point of living in Equality within our own creation. This requires that we debunk our personal totems and glorifications to stand on real terms that will be sustainable, physical and all encompassing to make sure we don’t fuck with each other ever again.

    To learn more about Equality and Oneness as well as sharing more perspectives on these points, visit us at  the Desteni website and forums.

    Go to Destonians.com for more on these topics written by many other beings realizing that we are here in this world and must take self responsibility for it.

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