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406. ‘The Fall’ in Process

  

 

Throughout this process and interacting with a considerable amount of people online walking the same process within Desteni as I am, I’ve read many, many times how people ‘come’ and ‘go’ when it comes to applying the tools at Desteni like writing, sharing at the forums, sharing our writings and in essence doing so because we understand that this is about placing visibility of the principles that we should have always lived by, such as the consideration of being one and equal, of being life, of taking responsibility for how we act, live and exist in this world as cohabitants of the same reality. However we also become aware of how difficult it is at times to simply stop existing in our own mind-patterns, our routine, our excuses and justifications for holding on to something that defines us, that we perceive is ‘who we are’ and as such don’t really want to change and challenge ourselves our ability to step outside of the known ‘hole’ or obstacle, as if these were in fact part of ‘who we are’ and always have been and had no cure, no remedy and no means to ‘get well’ or stand corrected. Well, whenever we decide to ‘fall’ in process is similar to standing inside a cave and knowing how one can get out, the tools for practically dealing with ‘life outside the cave’ or ‘the box’ and how to begin living outside of everything we’ve ever known, but somehow we become afraid, or miss the false sense of comfort that remaining in such cave or ‘box’ gives us, which is our mind, everything we’ve ever been and done.

 

So, what happens is that when we ‘give up’ on ourselves is really in essence a declaration of saying I prefer to remain in the cave, I prefer to remain enslaved and I do not want to actually change. Why is it necessary to then understand the ‘fall’ not as such as in falling into a precipice and seeing ‘no way out’ of it? Because a fall is associated with a ‘falling’ from the sky, a falling from heaven, a going down, a being ‘damned’ and going to hell, a getting ‘out’ of the ‘higher realities’ and seemingly missing out some kind of heaven… well, those associations – regardless of believing in any religion or god – are existent in our own conception at least in English and in Spanish in my case of how something that ‘falls’ is a form of decay, a damnation, a ‘not good enough’ statement, self-deprecation, self-devaluation, etc. So the point here is to consider ‘the fall’ which is also associated with the ‘fall and rise’ of empires or regimes and so on, to stop seeing our process in such terms and rather see them for what they are: a deliberate decision to change or not to change.

 

To back up this point, here the exact quote of Oxford dictionary on the word ‘Fall’ and see all the meanings that we want to apply or implicate when we say we ‘fell’ in our process:

fall

1  move from a higher to a lower level, typically rapidly and without control. (fall off) become detached and drop to the ground. hang down. slope downwards. (of a person’s face) show dismay or disappointment by appearing to droop.

2  cease to be standing or upright; collapse.

3  decrease in number, amount, intensity, or quality.

4  pass into a specified state: the buildings fell into disrepair. occur or arrive. (fall to doing something) begin to do something.

5  be captured or defeated. Cricket (of a wicket) be taken by the bowling side. archaic yield to temptation.

6  be classified in the way specified.

  noun

1  an act of falling. Wrestling a move which pins the opponent’s shoulders on the ground for a count of three. a downward difference in height between parts of a surface. a sudden onset or arrival.

2  a thing which falls or has fallen. a waterfall.

3  a decrease.

4  a defeat or downfall. (the Fall of Man) the lapse of humankind into a state of sin, ascribed in Jewish and Christian theology to the disobedience of Adam and Eve.

5        North American autumn.}

“fall (n.) Look up fall at Dictionary.com
   c.1200, “a falling;” see fall (n.). Old English noun form, fealle, meant “snare, trap.””

EMS Adam and EVE

 

The Fall of Man and Breaking the Illusions

Again, doesn’t matter if you are religious or not, this exists at an unconscious level within each one of us. The moment we go into the perception of ‘falling’ we actually corroborate our own ‘damnation’ and apparent inability to change: I fell, I am damned, I have no remedy, I’m fucked for life, screw this process! But how can we define our failures if we haven’t even fully gotten ourselves out of the cave, which means to live by principles in the constancy and consistency required? How come we have continually damned ourselves as incapable of change? Or constantly ‘falling’? Are we really ‘falling’? I mean, have you actually gone inside a hole in the ground of which you can’t get out? No, it’s all in our minds and when we declare that we ‘fall’ we expect ourselves to justify our own ‘damnation’ by confirming our preprogrammed ‘sins’ and being ‘damned’ for not following some divine laws.

This is how we trap ourselves in the polarity of doing good and bad, of rising and falling, and perceiving this constant battle to  ‘keep oneself from falling,’ not being ‘strong enough’ and feeling ‘weak,’ not realizing that this already implies that I AM battling against ‘the fall’ or ‘falling’ which already makes our starting point absolutely flawed when it comes to walking this process as principled living which means: living the way that I realize we should have all always lived by: living by principles to get to our utmost potential, which is nothing more and nothing less than living by the principles where we individually and collectively ensure we consider each other as equals, where we give to each other what we would want for ourselves within the realization that we are in fact one and equal.

 

So, that’s the ‘theory’ behind this process, but in practicality then it means that there’s no such thing as a ‘fall’ when I deliberately decide to not act in this principle of considering what’s best for all, there is no ‘sin’ or ‘wrong doing’, it is simply a decision of not living by principles. Is there a punishment? A judgment? A devaluation necessary? A feeling bad for it? No, that would be manipulation of course, another sense of guilt that people in churches and religion are meant tot experience when perceiving themselves to be doing something ‘bad.’

The perfection of this process resides in us facing the direct consequence of everything we do or don’t do and according to our starting point in everything we do, act, speak or don’t do act or speak on, the principle with which we do something, we’ll also receive and or get the feedback/result in equal-stance or equal starting point. Of course we live in a world where we are Not yet living in principles so this is not a guarantee as I cannot force another to treat me as an equal because I consider him/her as an equal, but it all Does begin and end within self at this stage and so doing this will certainly mean creating our own way ‘out of the cave’ from scratch as it’s never been done before. So, instead of feeling, perceiving that one ‘falls’ when not continuing the application of living principles, I suggest realizing it simply means I haven’t willed myself and made a clear decision to live, act, speak in the principle of what is best for all, to actually commit myself to live by these words that I see and realize will be the actual bricks to construct a world that I would surely like to live in, one that is best for all.

Instead of a falling, I suggest picturing yourself rather deciding to remain inside of a cave or an invisible jail that we’ve become so comfortable in, our ‘con’ of a fort, a fortress we’ve created and existed as in our minds where we believe we are always ‘safe’ and ‘protected’ instead of seeing it as the prison we’ve existed as for far too long now. Instead of perceiving ‘I fell’ I simply realize I have to once again see How I am keeping myself from walking outside of the cave, what skills do I require, which fear is it that I have to work with? What am I not willing to let go of/ what do I want to hold on to?

And so, break through the illusion of ‘the fall’ and see it rather as the actual movement I require to stand up inside the cave and give myself direction to walk outside of it, to walk outside of the box. No one said it would be easy, but not doing so would only confirm our own mind control and frankly, I am done with it. If I don’t like the world I see around me, the daily news, the apathy, the distress, the pain, the suffering… I am not going to retreat further into my cave and keep dancing with the shadows, I stick to willing myself to walk outside of it and take the necessary steps to make it visible that we are capable of doing this as human beings, and that’s what I commit myself to be and dedicate myself for: rattling the cages of the caged which implies my own as well.

For further reference on The Myth of the Cave by Plato, see: 

Allegory of the Cave: our excuse to remain as slaves

 

The fall is not real, it is only a lack of decision to change, so be the change you want to see in this world – stand up and take the steps outside of the cave. Walk along with us, you /we are not alone.

 

 

 

Let’s learn together how to stand up and walk out of the cave:

 

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379. “This World is the Universe’s Asylum”

 

“Ask yourself this: Does mankind deserve redemption for everything it’s done? Is this a world which deserves to be saved? Everything you see around you, all those wars, all those acts of destruction and brutality were caused by the minds of people. We’ve destroyed this world without even batting an eyelid and you wish for us to be saved? Why?
Though well intentioned, your solutions will fail and never be heard; your voice of reason is barely a whisper in this world. How are you going to convince 7 billion people to be compassionate, loving, kind and respectful to one another and the world? You can’t and you won’t. Sorry. We condemned ourselves to this hell hole existence a long time ago. This world is the universe’s asylum. Have fun in the mad house!! Get the 9-5 job, work until your old, watch TV, eat junk food, obey the law. Trust me, this world ain’t going anywhere. It’s here to stay, sadly. You may as well partake in the madness while you’re here. What else is there to do?”
FocusReborn

 

This is a comment placed as a response to the vlog I Want the World to End and it brings up the same mentality that I would have remained in – or probably dug my own grave with – if I had not stumbled upon Desteni and taking on this Journey to Life, to finally shed the skin of apathy and misanthropy that at times emerges whenever I see or read about things that I haven’t yet fully realized are part of everything that is here, myself, no matter how hideous they may be.

 

Pollution - 2003 - Marlenlife

 

To the person that wrote the comment, thanks for writing it out as it has opened up a window of opportunity to renew my vows to myself and this process and explain the starting point of everything that we do, which  is precisely to get past such enslaved mentality of ‘nothing’s gonna change the world’ and only seek and con-form with bits of highs here and there and sit down and feel miserable about every thing that we’ve been and become, all that we’ve created as a world that we rather feel sad, ashamed of, despise or even ‘accept as is’ instead of doing something about it.  This is the kind of message that can only trap you when one believes oneself to be ‘so small, so little, so insignificant’ to create any form of change in this world, which certainly begins with ourselves, our own life.

 

It’s astounding how we discourage each other from stepping out of the (mind)frame, however I understand the individual’s starting point for sharing this and how the origin of such words are not even questioned by the author, I can read no life in it, it’s only a mind speaking for it’s own survival: the resistance to change, the hopelessness, helplessness, conformity, apathy and judgmental behavior for the sake of seeing everyone else on ‘the same boat,’ seemingly lost.  And this is not to be taken personal, as once again, it’s not the potential of life speaking for the individual, but only the ‘who we are’ as the lesser form of ‘life’ that we have become, the de-manned position.

 

The starting point of walking this process is not within the hopes of ‘changing 7 billion people,’ that would be rather disingenuous and not  considering the reality that we are in wherein yes, it will take a long time to change our current human nature, it will take the most effort from each one of us since it is as if we were all addicts of the worst kind wherein our very own lives and this planet’s stability depends on us getting unhooked from very addictive drugs which creates secondary reactions such as fear of changing, apathy, complacency, hopelessness, helplessness, positivity, negativity that I also once experienced, seeing no way out and then simply deciding to ‘jump in the boat’ of the hopeless ones, because apparently feeling miserable about the world make me at least ‘feel good’ and ‘alive’ – yes, it sounds contradictory if one does not understand how the mind operates. Once you get to understand who we are as the mind and decide to stop feeding the constant desire, want and need to FEEL anything – whether positive or negative – you start realizing how puny this little energy-whoring system that we’ve become really is.

 

Robot man - 2003 - Marlenlife

 

However it does take quite a constant and diligent decision to stop seeking the energy, the experience, the ‘thrill’ and instead breathe and direct oneself to what is physically supportive – and yes, that means that there’s no ‘highs’ or ‘bad’ experiences in doing what’s best for all, in moving oneself to become a living example of a mind-addict reformed human being, and that’s why walking this process is so unpopular in our reality – for now – because it provides no energetic payoff that one can feel ‘good about.’ Yet, all I can say is that consequences in our reality are knocking on everyone’s door and I certainly cannot recommend to anyone anything else but getting hands on keyboard or pen and start writing, start straightening up ourselves, start making sense of our own ‘mindful selves’ wherein the usual points of support sought are street or over-the-counter drugs, ad-vices from other people, escapism through alcohol, sex, developing ‘extreme habits’ only to get away from facing oneself…

 

This is the nature of our current selves drowned in a very limited pit that exists as the mind that we have delegated our every-moment of our lives to. And so, the entire ‘mess’ and ‘Universe’s asylum’ that who we are as this world have become is nothing else but a proof, a written testimony of what the majority of us are thinking and acting upon every single day, making of these thoughts our creed. And then we ponder ‘why are we so fucked up???’ while ignoring that the sheer experience one usually has when asking such question with extreme awe is already a 1+ vote to humanity’s  similar thought-patterns and experience – and once again: an experience ONLY exists in our mind.

 

Look at the trees, look at the animals, look at the air: does it show any emotion or feeling or speak about ‘giving up’ or ‘seeing no way out in this world’? Do birds get depressed and tired when the sun comes up and think of rather staying in a branch wallowing in their misery? Of course not. If anything, every single part of this existence is far more aware than a human being, and by all parts I mean animals, plants, nature, every blade of grass and that includes what we consider ‘inanimate’ too – it’s just common sense that everything that is here is an enclosed reality of which we’ve never been ‘outsiders’ from, which means that everything we see and are here is ourselves, our creation. 

 

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Deciding to jump into the comfort of apathy, disdain, hatred, misanthropy or plain disgust with ourselves as humanity is nothing else but another justification, excuse and distraction to not acknowledge what it is that we are here for: to understand ourselves as creators. Yes, we have even built gods to do the ‘dirty work’ for us and have someone to blame for everything that went wrong,  just because we’ve been so scared to realize and understand that every single atrocity committed in this world is ourselves, and yes, I know, it does get your reactions going on when witnessing some horrible acts that reveal our current human decay, but that’s the whole point of it: it’s about realizing that any atrocity, any thought, word and deed against life is committed by everyone of us each time that we do not act within the consideration of what is best for all, which imply energy-less physical moments of self-direction, self-will, self-responsibility and self-honesty to act in the best interest of all.

 

These are empty words without having context as to how to live them, because they are not part of our inherent programming as to understand ‘How to be self-honest,’ ‘How to learn how to Care for yourself and another,’ ‘how to develop self-integrity,’ ‘how to become self-directive.’ In a world where the word responsibility is immediately hooked on to the usual connotations of fear and resistance, it becomes quite ‘challenge’ to remove the veils and see thing for the potential we all have to change each word into a living expression wherein, in fact,  taking self-responsibility is one of the most empowering things we can do in our reality.

 

Defeated - 07

 

Look at the ‘elites,’ those in ‘power,’ they stand as points of responsibility in our societies and because the rest of us decided to cross our arms, sit and watch TV to be entertained, they automatically got a carte blanche to do whatever they would think about that would provide the best experience, the greatest reward, the most power – isn’t this something that we All participate in as well? So why are we blaming Others for ‘doing bad things to us’ when we think and assess our reality using the exact same mental framework that ‘THEY’ do to commit the ‘BAD’ and ‘EVIL’ deeds in the world – people are nothing else but parts of ourselves we continue to deny as ourselves too, and within this we believe we don’t have any ‘say’ on this world because apparently ‘we haven’t done anything wrong’ but as long as one continues to fear outcomes instead of walking through the solution in the moment itself, we’ll continue to lengthen our process: unless we stand up for ALL life within the understanding that the part that commits all atrocities, all the madness, the neglect, the irresponsibility, the dishonesty, the nastiness is the ‘who we are’ and have become as the Mind – yet, who ‘those’ people are as flesh and bones is no different to anyone of us reading these words and that’s where each one of us has the potential to wake up from zombieland mindcontrol and start realizing how much time and space we’ve wasted in ‘feeling like a waste’ in a world that we’re turning into a wasteland with our own apathy to correct and direct things into its right place, to deliberately push ourselves to become individuals that can be trusted with life.

But again, ‘trusted with life’ seems meaningless and pointless when we haven’t even been ‘alive’ for real, we’ve only existed as automated patterns that we have called our life and within such diminished and narrow-view we then create an equally narrow view of our ‘doomed lives’ wherein we dare to write comments like the guy that wrote that – once again – without even understanding or pondering about the origin of such words and how within each one of us ‘living’ such words, we become the very problem subsumed in the ‘greater problem’ that we’ve made of our reality, due to this accepted and allowed apathetic and dreadful behavior of ‘nothing’s going to change anyways.’

 

Well, I’ve been there done that, and the reason why I made that video is precisely to address and reach out to anyone that feels the exact same way, which is quite common since everything we see around us is mostly the ultimate decay and bottom line that we’re reaching as humanity. There’s no denial of that, however this is about realizing that who we are and have become is nothing else but the worst of the worst, the lowest point that we can reach as a collective, to finally understand how we feel miserable and so create this world as misery because of such thoughts existing within ourselves in the first place. And so, the rest goes on with each word we direct to continue drowning ourselves in our self-created torment in our minds, without realizing that in doing so, we’re doing nothing else but creating excuses and justifications as to why we’re not standing up and taking responsibility for the mess that we’ve collectively created.

 

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Have we been ‘bad’ as human beings? One only has to see the results of our thoughts, words and deeds and have the results speak for themselves. If we continue to bash us,judge us, blame each other and ultimately lose any sense of respect for oneself and another, we will continue living in our current world that we are all so fed up of, yet we fail to see that the answer to stop recreating the ‘shithole’ resides in our very own hands, in our words, in our actions, in the decision to live and do what gives zero energetic high, but endless self-stability and clarity that emerges with the certainty of being and doing what is right, what is best for all.

 

Fortunately, I’m walking this process to never again allow myself to be trapped in the swamps of the moody mind patterns of ‘this world is going to hell, so why bother doing anything about it?’ and actually deliberately direct myself to investigate, create and support solutions to this world, which at this stage, must come from the realization that We CAN do this if we all give ourselves that initial chance to stop the addiction to feeling miserable, sad, depressed, hopeless, helpless and instead realize that this world is about breathing and doing, not about feeling and thinking, that’s been our whole problem, so let’s stop rambling, let’s rather become part of a 1+ human physical body that decides to live, breathe and create in consideration of what’s best for all, that’s deal reached.

 

We’re not here to save others, we’re here to stand up, face and correct ourselves, and within understanding who this self is, you then won’t require to get entangled with the idea of ‘changing 7 billion people.’ So I suggest: less thinking,  more of self-awareness, developing self-integrity required to do this as a principled living, not as a result-driven thing – this is about making a decision of who one is every single moment, where I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to exist within a limited framework of my mind wherein I have seen the world from the ‘gloomy-scope,’ meaning seeing no way out, without realizing I was only seeing through this thought/emotion filter of mind which I became used to because it was much easier to ‘feel bad’ than stopping and actually doing what is supportive for oneself: to stop thinking, and feeling miserable and instead focus on the potential that exists within each one of us to ‘save oneself’ from becoming another mental patient in the asylum that each one of us reside in when existing only in the mind.

 

So, this world isn’t the asylum: our minds are our personalized one, and as long as we remain complacent to what we think, believe, feel, experience only in our imaginary worlds: the world will still look like a perverted-story of what could have been a genuine paradise. Is it too late? is there salvation? is there ‘light’ at the end of the tunnel? I don’t know, nor do I Have to KNOW as that would only once again be a creation of the asylum mentality that keeps us bound to fear, limitation and neglect most of the times. So, the solution is to act in every moment that we are here and can physically act in the best interest of ourselves and each other, which begins the moment we decide to stop participating in the collective delirium of giving up on ourselves and the world, without understanding first how it only is another trick of our minds that we can also stop and correct to not be shaken again by words, pictures, thoughts, imaginations that maintain us in our schizophrenic reality, separated from what is real here.

 

My voice and that of others walking with within this journey might seem a ‘whisper in the 7 billions in this world,’ but again, trying and change others is not our goal either, it would be cool but we understand how reality and self-change works,  so we can be the example of what it is to be able to shed the skin of limited prepackaged personalities and genuinely learn how to create ourselves, it’s the best process one can ever undertake in this world, yet be warned: there is no ‘high’ in it and that’s the challenge: this process won’t make you feel greater, stronger, smarter or being just the god in your world, and that’s the whole point: to learn how to live as physical beings instead of existing as walking mind delusions on two feet that do not even understand why we follow every single thought that comes in our mind and immediately thinking ‘its me thinking’ ‘it’s me talking’ ‘it’s me feeling…..

 

Mr. Madhouse porter – what else is there to do in this world, in our lives but to get ourselves out of the personalized asylum? Only in insanity would anyone want to remain in a miserable and limited position, so let’s start with developing a bit of care to see what it is that we would really want to live like in this world and start doing something about it.  We all are the madhouse’s porter until we dare to see that the insanity only exists in the mind, not the physical.

 

It wasn't Eve - 07

 

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