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80. Seeking for a Meaningful Li(e)fe

“This is even better!” Is a constant way to talk ourselves into thinking that whatever we had perceived as a failure/ fall is now ‘overcome’ and the ‘new me’ is even better, so as to always remain like the ‘winner in the story’ wherein the character that suffered some great fall/ disillusionment finds something ‘greater’ than before, something that is ‘the real shit,’ the ‘real deal’ and absolutely ‘truthful to oneself.’ Can you recognize the gibberish? Yes, it is sponsored by the most common spiritual positive type of self-talk to always remain like a ‘winner’ in your mind, no matter what.

 

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Pattern:

  1. “I did not get what I wanted; I seek for something else to ‘truly’ fulfill me”
  2. Wanting to escape from the ‘capitalist world’ and rebel by boing to an ‘unexpected extreme’

 

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Anything taken Personally is Just a Defense Mechanism to Protect a Character from being Diminished in its Role of Competing for Validation, and Influence and Happiness in the World of Illusion as Character to keep the Illusion going, because in the Illusion the Character makes all the Rules and is a Law unto itself, Regardless of what Harm it Bring to the Natural Living World” – Bernard Poolman*

 

Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to whenever I do not get what I want, I drop it, diss it and ‘move on’ by spitefulness to seek something – once again – that will ‘fulfill me’ in a more ‘truthful manner,’ which is what is usually linked to escaping the world of money that I had accepted and allowed myself to judge extensively.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to throw psychological tantrums wherein through allowing myself to remain in a particular ‘emotional mode,’ I make decisions based on that emotional-spitefulness, without considering at all what is it that I initially reacted to and how I was absolutely self-responsible for that which I deemed was ‘done onto me,’ which I allowed myself to use to become ‘the victim,’ instead of taking responsibility for all the stages of the event/ moment/ situations that took place before I go into an emotional-breakdown wherein I ‘revamp’ myself by doing something ‘radical’ for a change.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be against something/ someone that I had initially sought to attain and that, because I didn’t get my satisfaction from it, I then turn against it, diss it/ criticize it and judge everyone involved wherein I turn into a spiteful person that ‘does not want anything to do with that/ them’ in an emotional state, without being able to consider a solution simply because of allowing me to be self-righteous about my emotional experience, believing that ‘I had the right to be pissed off/ sad/ disillusioned.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and I would go into disillusionment, an ‘emotional breakdown’ and seeing my entire ‘world’ falling apart, I would do the next most radical thing that I could pursue in my own value and moral schemes, wherein I would then take me to the opposite extreme just to spite the previous situation, to not have to face my responsibility toward everything that I judged, but instead, become self-righteous about it and believe that ‘it is my right to do whatever I want and say whatever I want to say, I don’t give a fuck about anything’

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to make decisions in my life while being possessed by anger and spitefulness, believing myself to be ‘right’ about being angry and this being backed up by friends that would agree with me, just because of how I would tell the story which was obviously to my benefit, to make me look like ‘the victim’ so that I could get their commiseration and have them backing up my ‘new plans’ for life.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create ‘friendships’ based on how much they could agree with the character I was aiming at being/ becoming.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to deliberately become spiteful toward the people involved in an event that I projected blame toward, without ever realizing how I had accepted and allowed myself to just ‘trust’ without any form of actual communication and understanding of what I was in fact participating in and cooperating with.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to use people to validate my perspectives, points of view upon the entire event so that I could feel like I was ‘cheated’ and remain as a ‘victim’ that had all the right to simply cut all ties with them and ‘do things my way,’ which is a recurrent pattern whenever I experience myself as ‘the victim’ in the world, gathering enough ‘votes to my favor’ so that I could feel good in my misery.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to use ‘disillusionment’ from ‘the artworld’ as an excuse for me to seek new ways to create wherein I use people to validate my ‘new aims’ based on wanting to create a more ‘meaningful’ art that would not be sold in art galleries.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to start a project based on spitefulness, a desire for revenge and an apparent ‘healing process’ to what I perceived was ‘done onto me,’ which was nothing else but 100% pure drama that I created in order to validate my own way out of having to face my responsibility, not realizing that any anger that I allowed myself to exist as was in fact anger toward myself for not getting my dream and instead facing reality, which was then me thinking that ‘I had made the wrong choice,’ which all boils down to me realizing that I simply was not alright toward myself at all and that my discomfort, anger and frustration was not even about the entire art event, but a general dissatisfaction with myself.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to seek to now turn into spirituality even further as a way to finally declare my dissociation from ‘mainstream arts,’ and seeking to ‘find the truth’ in that which I had been reading/ investigating which was in the vein of entheogens and spiritual awakenings through the use of acid.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to turn further into spirituality as a way to escape what I judged as the evil capitalist world that would ‘suck artists dry of their pure inspiration,’ which was nothing but blatant self manipulation to get things my way and remain as a ‘winner’ in my world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how I used spirituality as way to spite the world as in spite-you-all that is also existent in the word spiritual. I realize that my search for ‘god’ or a transcendental experience was based on knowledge and information that I sought to ‘make real’ in my world through following a ‘divine path’ that I was creating for myself, wherein all signs and symbols and events that I started connecting would ‘match’ a pattern of me having to apparently become this enlightened being that could create a new form of art that could heal the masses.

 

This was the moment in my life when I was rapidly hitting rock bottom – this was December and I found Desteni the last day of the last month, where everything that went on for these two months was nothing but me drowning myself into my own ‘tormented soul’ and not getting any other satisfaction but the one that I was busy building as the ‘spiritual search,’ dedicating my entire days to research more and learn about conspiracy theories and everything that I could use to redefine my career.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ‘want to seek the truth behind the veil of money and success’ wherein I was aiming at becoming some type of ascetic that is only seeking for a ‘divine truth’ by detaching from all worldly things and pursuing my ‘spiritual awakening’ even further – never realizing or considering at all what I was in fact doing and proclaiming as an overall desire to ‘detach from the system,’ which was plain ignorant as I had no idea nor did I consider how no one is able to really in fact be ‘out of the system,’ yet I proclaimed I would do it in the name of ‘the truth’ and ‘my mission in life,’ which started blending more with my artistic-endeavors and I was busy shaping my ‘new religion’ based on spirituality, art and a guru-like personality.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to seek ‘the truth’ through the use of drugs as a means to ‘speed up my awakening’ which proves to what extent I manipulated myself to ‘spite the system’ in what I deemed was ‘the key’ out of the system, seeking spiritual enlightenment so that I would not have to be ‘bound by the claws of the system,’ which was very naïve of myself and plain ignorant, because I never considered how everything that I consume had to be paid for, including the drugs.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to want to ‘seek for something to give me the answer to my life’ and ‘seeking to create meaningful art’ as a point of self-definition based on spitefulness due to/ because of the previous event wherein my dreams of fame/ success we’re not fulfilled as I wanted them to be, throwing a tantrum and seeing everything as being ‘not good enough for me,’ believing myself to be ‘more special than that,’ which is how I lead myself to pursue an spiritual awakening and being predicating overzealously about it, which was me driving myself into my own religion wherein I could finally ‘do things my way’ and apparently ‘free myself from the system.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself at the moment of writing this because of seeing it as absolutely tantrum-based, typical emotional breakdown wherein overcoming the situation implies doing something ‘more rebellious’ than what was done in the past, wherein I simply would have continued trying something out and when being dissatisfied by it, dumping it and going for the next big hit in my life – over and over and over again moving from one spot to another seeking for a ‘truth’ outside of myself.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as plain stupid for having done what I’ve done, and regret having existed with such self-righteousness in the past wherein I could not see anything else but what I deemed was ‘right’ and believing that what I was doing was ‘my right to do so,’ in absolute spitefulness and vengeful ways that I covered up in a positive manner through and by spirituality, believing that I had to go through such ‘tormented situations’ to give up my ‘earthly desires’ and pursuit a more ‘divine-relationship with god.’

 

So this is the moment that I was ready to go fully into the rabbit hole of spirituality and religions and, if it had not been because of finding Desteni and finally supporting myself to stop all my mindfucks, I would have probably continued that way for the remainder of my life.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I had to seek ‘beyond myself’ and my ‘limited mind’ to create some type of transcendental art, wanting to ‘establish awareness with the divine in this world,’ which is how I justified all my endeavors in separation of myself, seeking for a ‘truth’ that I could defend zealously, because of thinking that ‘this time, what I was pursuing was ‘above it all’ as it had to do with the idea of god and the ‘whole’ as myself. I realize that this is the ‘oneness’ preached in spirituality, wherein I would only seek to fulfill myself and my dreams/ ideals based on ‘the positive’ while being absolutely oblivious to the entire world and Reality, where no bliss or happiness exists if you have no money to eat.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to want to ‘change the world’ through art mixing it with spiritual practices, so that I could fulfill my spiritual ego and endeavors of something ‘greater than myself,’ which is the basic and primordial fuck that lead us to the point that we are now facing in our reality, wherein everything that we have ever sought is this ‘moreness’ of ourselves outside of ourselves, in separation of who we are as one and equal.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to validate my ‘pursuit’ by taking other artistic characters as examples, wherein I ‘knew’ that by creating this specialness about my life and turning into this ‘misunderstood misfit’ I could justify my work as even more ‘meaningful’ within the art world, due to how ‘drama’ was accepted as a key ingredient to ‘make any real art.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify my abdication of responsibility toward myself, my word and reality by pursuing ‘spiritual realms’ wherein I could apparently only establish a relationship with something divine and somehow be magically ‘saved from this evil world,’ without even taking a moment to look at reality and see how I was the very +1 point added to the entire mess wherein we only care about ourselves, our own pursuit of happiness which I translated to an apparent ‘superior’ stage such as spirituality, never realizing it is no different to pursuing being a millionaire and having ‘all the power in the world,’ as I translated such power to light, bliss and ultimate wholeness that spiritual teachings claimed.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think ‘I don’t want anything to do with this reality any longer’ which was just another character script line so that I could justify my ‘eccentricity’ as a special being in this ‘fucked up world’ that seeks for something ‘greater’ that not everyone pursues, fueling my own mindfuck by the perspectives and opinions given by people around me which were all relationships backing up my character, my self-belief and within this thinking that I was ‘on the right path’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become the thought ‘I just want to be at peace with myself’ wherein I implied that all that I cared was me-myself-and-I and the rest could go down the drain, because of believing that I was not my body, that this world was an illusion and that I had nothing to do with this ‘realm’ of earthly desires. Within this manipulating myself to be and become this spiritual-artist character that is ‘more special’ than everyone else in my own mind only.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to judge, criticize, diss and diminish the ‘glamorous art realms’ due to and because of me believing and perceiving that I had been ‘cheated’ within it, and that I was ‘too noble’ for such businesses, which became my excuse to not pursue anything ‘real’ within my career but only follow through my spiritual endeavors and beginning to start thinking again that I had made the wrong career choice, and that I should dedicate myself fully to spirituality.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to make an ‘oath’ with myself to only make art that ‘matters’ and not just take nice pictures, which was me making myself ‘more’ than before just so that I could not feel like I had failed in my dreams and endeavors to become famous and ‘well known’ in the artworld.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think that ‘I don’t want to sell myself out this time,’ which is when I started judging money even more as something evil and corrupt that would ‘taint noble young souls’ and ruining the ‘true artist’ which I deemed myself to be, based on all the stories I had read of other artistic characters that I took as a bible to follow

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that this time, I was going to create something ‘real’ and ‘meaningful’ which was just creating my self-religion based on past experiences wherein I was still trying to spite everything that could point out to earning lots of money/ being famous just because I had not achieved my satisfaction within that point, not realizing that if it had in fact ‘satisfied me,’ I would have continued walking my endeavors to escalate more and more in the artworld and continue defending ‘art’ the way that I did before.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever think, believe and perceive myself to being establishing a relationship with ‘the divine’ and wanting to express ‘god’ through my work, getting lost in meanings, symbols, knowledge and information that I consumed in order to create this ‘unique’ self-religion so that I could make of art and spirituality ‘my life,’ all in separation of myself, not even regarding how everything that allowed me to continue living was money to buy food and pay my rent and continue existing in this world, which is how I deliberately shun away the actual planning and the practical steps to be taken in order to establish myself as being able to earn money from art.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think ‘god is not money and fame, and it is here for everyone,’ wherein I deluded myself into thinking that I could escape from reality somehow if I established a real devotion toward ‘the divine,’ which is nothing more but pure fanaticism that I was busy building and feeding through knowledge and information that I would quickly embrace because ‘it sounded good to my eyes,’ which proves how anything that eventually shattered my world was seen as something ‘of doubtful precedence’ and ‘not trust worthy’ just because of how I had become so used to thinking that life was about beauty, art and ‘the divine’ that I had to somehow embrace as a constant ‘state of being, ‘ as eternally blissful even if I was in this world – which is the ultimate declaration of separation, as I was willing to pursue this eternal satisfaction, feeling untouchable by the world while the world could fall apart in pieces because I would be protected, because of being a ‘good divine follower’ to some god/ energy/ superior being that I was busy trying to create a relationship to- never ever taking the point back to myself to see how I was only seeking me in separation of myself here.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I would not sell my artwork to ‘stay true to myself, ‘ which was nothing else but a tantrum-based declaration due to the past events of which I remain a victim of for a long time, due to me deliberately seeing how I was absolutely responsible for it all.

 

spiritual mindfuck

 

 

Self-Corrective Statements

When and as I see myself wanting to get rid of something/ someone based on a past event wherein I see myself as the victim – I stop and I breathe – I realize that this point will not have to even be existent if I stop the victimization process from the get go every time that I believe and perceive that ‘something is being done onto me.’ Thus I take the point back to myself, take responsibility for what I have created, said/done and within that, stop the cycles of spitefulness, revenge and retaliation toward anything or anyone that I have blamed for my experience.

 

When and as I see myself going into a tantrum of feeling misunderstood and building up emotions and feelings with it, I stop and I breathe. I realize that every time that I see myself going into a ‘down’ experience is linked to me not fulfilling an expectation that I envisioned in separation of myself. Thus I take responsibility to ensure that whatever I do is based on the benefit of all and not just pursuing my personal-life of seeking any form of desire as something/ someone in separation of myself. I realize I am here, breathing, and complete. I do not require anyone or anything to make me ‘more’ than who and what I already am here.

 

When and as I see myself seeking for a ‘radical change’ in my life, I stop and I breathe. I realize that such ‘radical’ and ‘extreme’ moves are based on wanting to spite something/ someone, wanting to make myself ‘more’ again based on a previous perceived fall leading to the belief of me ‘lacking’ something to make myself feel better again, which is all mind-state based/ experience based which is not who and what I really am. Who and what I exist as is the simplicity of breath here that is self directive and does not require to experience something ‘more’ based on a previous memory of a perceived fall. All I require is to stop participating in thoughts leading to a ‘more’ or ‘less’ experience of myself and continue breathing, doing and directing myself to be an do that which is best for all.

 

When and as I see myself believing that I am right at being/ becoming angry at someone/ the world and people agree about this experience within me. I stop and I breathe. I realize that this is not a point to trust as I am manipulating myself to become the victimized character that seeks company and commiseration in order to justify my own experience as ‘real,’ which is not. I direct myself to take responsibility for any thought implying that I am being done something ‘onto me,’ instead I take responsibility for my thoughts, stop, breathe and continue directing myself within the practicality required in the moment.

 

When and as I see myself projecting blame onto others, thinking or believing that ‘they are doing something onto me deliberately,’ I stop and I breathe. I realize that this is the victimized character mechanism to ensure that I continue seeking ways to ‘make myself feel better’ by opposing, creating further conflict to regain my ‘positive experience.’ I realize that who I am here as breath does not require to exist as a constant experience.

 

When and as I see myself using spitefulness and a deliberate self-deprecated sate of being as a ‘healing process’ I stop and I breathe. I realize that I used this ‘state of being’ to manipulate people around me, to ‘have mercy on me’ and continue fueling my character of the ‘suffered and misunderstood one’ which is unacceptable, as it is nothing else but emotional blackmail that I am able to stop the very moment that I see myself feeling ‘down’ and ‘low’ as a deliberate expression presented onto and toward others.

 

When and as I see myself wanting to ‘spite the system’ by doing something that is ‘against the law’ and against ‘morals’ I stop and I breathe – I realize the little game for what it is as a means to make myself be ‘more’ than/ more clever/ more ‘cunning’ in the system based on doing that which is ‘forbidden,’ which is just a tantrum and mind-game of self-importance that I ensure I don’t ever participate in by establishing myself here as breath wherein I take responsibility for everything I do, say and think.

 

When and as I see myself seeking for something to give me the answer to life, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am the answer to life by directing myself in common sense, stopping all useless participation in thoughts, emotions and feelings and realize that there is actual work to be done within myself and in my reality to be the solution required in this world. This implies nothing else but common sensical living, moment by moment, breath by breath, taking responsibility for all the mind-games that I’ve placed and ensuring I stop them here as myself in every moment that I breathe and stop participating in the mind.

 

When and as I see myself whining about wanting to experience something, I stop and I breathe – I realize I am creating an unnecessary friction in my mind to eventually become possessed by that whining and get it by all means possible, which is unacceptable. I remain the directive principle of myself here in every moment that I breathe and direct myself in common sense.

 

When and as I see myself accessing the pattern of ‘I don’t want to do this any longer’ I stop and I breathe. I check the point wherein I have missed the point of myself and how I am creating a ‘better experience’ in mind. I apply self forgiveness for the desire of a ‘moreness of myself’ in separation of who I am here as simplicity of breath. Within this I ensure that I remain in the simplicity, stability and consistency of myself in breath day by day, moment by moment without defining myself according to the past or any other desire, want and need that may emerge in the mind.

 

When and as I see myself seeking to create, be and become something ‘meaningful’ I stop and I breathe. I realize that I am separating myself in the desire of ‘meaningfulness’ as something more than myself here in simplicity as breath.

 

When and as I see myself judging selling my work, I stop and I breathe. I realize that such judgment comes from the self-righteous spitefulness toward the perceived ‘evil world system,’ which means that it is all judgment based on making myself feel ‘less corrupt’ than everyone else, which is a lie to see myself as ‘better than.’ Thus, I direct myself to if and the opportunity is here to do so, go for it and use the money to support myself in what I require to consume to continue living. Simple.

 

When and as I see myself thinking that I have to ‘stay true to myself,’ I stop and I breathe. I realize that this ‘truth’ as myself has been a personality that has believed itself to always be right as a character/ personality based on always seeing myself as the winner, the one that is right and always ‘on the right path.’ Thus I direct myself to simply stay here as breath wherein I see, realize and understand that I do not require to make myself as a ‘truth’ and ‘honest’ person based on a self-belief of ‘being right’ about my decisions and actions – instead I continue breathing and moving myself moment by moment without holding an ‘idea’ or belief of ‘who I am’ moment by moment.

 

“I commit myself to show that as Long as One Create Self as a Character in the Mind, one is a Criminal that Abuses Life for Self-Interest of the Self Created as Character.” – Bernard Poolman

 

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“I commit myself to show that Self-Honesty will be Tough, as the Characters of the Life of Self have Multiple Diversions and know all the Lies – and thus will Do Everything in thought Backchat to Invalidate Self-Honesty. Discipline Self, Breath by Breath, in Self-Honesty to Return to the Physical Body and to Stop all thought, as Thought Only Creates Characters of Illusion that Lie.” – Bernard Poolman

 

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52: Capitalist Quick-Handy-Brainwash

We are all aware of poverty as one of the greatest problems we face on Earth as the direct consequence of having numbed and sedated ourselves quite nicely with knowledge and information that we accepted as ‘unchangeable,’ and that we have simply embedded as a veneer to protect us from facing the real screwed up facts that we have swallowed in the name of our personal “well being” wherein anthems like ‘I don’t care about anyone else but me’ become the voice of a generation that is doomed to remain secluded in a 4 x 4 cell – ehhm… room, proclaiming such perfect brainwashed hate-culture that promotes individualism through the appearance of proud and and bravery while neglecting an entire reality that is crumbling down to pieces.

Within this quick-answers to life, we find several quotes that reflect the collective-acceptance of knowledge as a way to give an explanation to – virtually – all, it doesn’t matter if what’s implied in such quotes is detrimental to life, nooo – what matter is the ability of pumping up an ego that is clearly submitted within a state of ‘powerlessness’ wherein the constant desire to ‘outdo’ others through knowledge and information becomes the equivalent of actual battles to conquer territories in the middle-ages.

Let’s begin with the Holybook that sounds more like Hollywood as its second remake to keep the masses ‘occupied’ while missing the very first acceptance here.

There will always be poor people in the land. Therefore I command you to be openhanded toward your brothers and toward the poor and needy in your land.” Deuteronomy 15:11

 

God/whoever said it: There will ALWAYS be poor people in the land – Massive crime against humanity in the holy-script-you-are yet, what people only look at and ‘Pay’ attention to is ‘oh so what do I have to do to be able to earn the kingdom of god in the heavens?’ which is perfect indoctrination really, be the effect that ‘solves the problem’ instead of ever looking at the cause, which is actually one of the greatest flaws within the ability to observe reality and ourselves as the cause and origin of the problem.

 

Another quick-drive-thru example: I had a discussion with someone defending the use of guns because ‘how else would they defend themselves if someone shoot first’? and in that, missing out the entire root and cause of the problem – how have we dared to build / produce an object as a means to “protect,” embedding in it the ability to be ‘god’ as in taking a being’s life in one split-second.

 

“Life is tons of discipline.” – Robert Frost

Live, work, work, work, have children, work, work, get old and die.

Do not deviate from that (production) line and you’ll be a happy-living fella. Well, we should be aware by now how ‘wisdom quotes’ are used to perpetuate the very system that will maintain everyone with a happy-coat of caramel melting all over you in order to not see the actual truth underneath it all. Discipline is regarded as a ‘positive aspect’ within society for the complacency it implies within the monetary realm: I do not see, I do not hear, I only work and what I earn is for me and my loved ones to live happily ever after – but is it when all that you discipline yourself to is being an obedient robot that doesn’t question why he has to spend 40 years of his life working non stop to be able to “live”? And people learn how to be proud of such achievements while in fact, it’s like an ode to a life-long decimation of any inkling of life in each one of us. And I’d get always this ‘feeling sorry’ for people when noticing this, this asphyxiating routine and how we can mock at each other’s day to day living yet: we are all trapped in the same boat just because of Money.

 

Within that equation Life = tons of discipline: heavy weight, a burden, life is a struggle, life must be fought for, life must be ‘earned’ and not unconditionally given – all of it is reflected in one single moment that you propose to someone the ability to live in Equality = giving and receiving what we want and require within a System that values Life and all you get is complains and even threats toward ‘making sure Equality never works for all’ – Jesus left great words but they have never been lived – whenever you propose Neighborism and living in Equality people go:

Whaaaat?

 

And then the fears come up because: who will I be without ‘this’ discipline? If I don’t require money to motivate me, then ‘what’ will motivate me? And this is not for the sake of judging, I mean It took me quite a long time of actual common sense development to understand the Equal Money System – however, I’m bringing into awareness how one single word can trigger out the most rabid fears toward communism, and abuse of ‘being able to have it all’ which implies one thing: we have never in fact lived, we have only lived to die and survive through.

We are discovering the power of the word, but we’ve certainly trapped ourselves even further whenever we take such words as the ‘law of god’ without actually pondering what is being defended and actually said there.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use knowledge and information in order to blind myself and only bling my eyes with that which sounds ‘right’ and ‘good’ and ‘productive’ within a world wherein ‘my happiness’ depends on ‘my effectiveness’ to be a complacent slave that does not question the most basic accepted and allowed forms of ‘living’ in this world, which are conditioned to money and money and money and my desire to fulfill the ultimate state of ‘superiority’ above others, because that’s what I apparently came here for.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept poverty and starvation, abuse, violation of life in all ways because ‘the bible told me so’ and in that, buying the bill of ‘rights’ and ‘liberties’ that are focused on maintaining a ‘guaranteed individuality’ based on the satisfaction of one’s own ‘living rights’ which are bought and sold only, within a system wherein money is not given to all in Equality, but is instead given upon working as a slave within a system that will ensure that one is so embellished with entertainment, ‘goods to buy’ and the eternal seeking of perfect-picture lifestyles of a thousand smiles and ‘good times’ that I have neglected the very existence of fellow human beings that are most certainly starving and having No say in the system as to why they had to be born as a deliberate outflow of an elite that seeks positivity, power, ‘comfort’ through protectionism provided by money.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for having been a ‘disciplined being’ in society as that is considered a ‘reward’ within the system wherein: the better slave I am, the more money I get, the less questions I ask, the more I am liked by my boss – and in that, becoming the perfect eslabón (Spanish for link) slave in the chain of be born, consume, make money, love and die as a way to ensure that Life is always at the background, just ‘there’ as a taken-for-granted fact that we can simply ‘make money from’ and in that, believe that it is is ‘how the world works’ and ‘how God wanted it all to be’ – because otherwise, within the realization that it is in fact US that have created this system would create such great distress in people’s lives that all fairy tales would dissolve in a rather caustic manner, implying that they were never real in the first place, but only sustained through prolonged acceptance and allowance of abuse as ‘who we are’ in the system of ‘living, consuming, dying’ and repeating ad nauseam.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect the reality that is presented only through flashy pictures on the TV screen about poverty and viewing it in perfect HD while neglecting that the very ability for me to watch poverty through TV implies that I am in fact the elite that has created and manifested poverty as the waste produced every time that I sought my own comfort, happiness, bliss, joy and the ultimate state of satisfaction as the saturation of myself with ‘positivity’ that is translated in physical reality as wealth/ money and a never quenching desire for More.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use ‘wisdom quotes’ as a way to defend the apparent ‘human supremacy over matter/life/ Earth’ giving ourselves the ‘permission’ to intellectualize reality to suit our preferences, our knowledgeable ego that is willing to neglect the very basic aspects in which we are sustaining this self-fulfilling suckcessful bubble in the name of my own personal glory.

 

I commit myself to continue exposing the accepted and allowed abuse in this world through the use of knowledge and information as way to mask reality and its rawness with positive attitudes and ‘attributes’ that make the perfect consumer a ‘happy being’ because apparently, such actions provide a sense of ‘well being’ for ourselves, without realizing that it is in the very accepted and allowed words and implications within such words that we have created this reality as the perfect excuse and actual spitefulness toward life, only to suit our self-interest and personal self-enlightened behavior.

 

I commit myself to become the example of what it is to let go of knowledge and information as  way to suit my own ‘needs’ as my-needs is implying that I participate in a world-system of money that is only existent for a minority in this world as an actual means of satisfaction and completion through buying/ consuming to be ‘happy’ in this world, while the same monetary system means absolute disgrace, poverty, enslavement and a never ending rabbit hole wherein life doesn’t meet its needs and money is only seen as that god that has never shown its face to them.

 

I commit myself to stand for Life in Equality no matter what, no matter how many threats and words and spiteful vengeful discussions are walked in the name of defending the system with all claws and weapons of choice which have become words, as ‘wisdom quotes’ as ‘facts’ that people use in the name of guarding that which they love the most: money, power, specialness and their ability to abuse just for a temporary sense of satisfaction and fulfillment in a system where Energy is the real enslavement of humanity.

 

I commit myself to implement the Equal Money System as the one way to show and reveal to what extent we have doomed ourselves by our own negligence toward life itself, wherein I have become the very abuse that the system has been proclaiming as a way to ‘succeed’ which I have bought because there is apparently ‘no other way around in the system.’

 

I commit myself to life no matter how many rocks are thrown as words that intend to kill and perpetuate abuse, as I realize that ‘them’ are myself and all I can do is show the way to forgive ourselves for the delusion we have created, bought and sold in the name of personal interest – and within that, showing, revealing and sharing examples of how we stand for Life in Equality as an actual living-statement that Life must be valued in equality for and as All that is here in this same ecosystem as the Earth, and that there is an actual way to go forward which implies each one’s will to stand as an equal in this world, and be the actual change that is required to promote a new living-system that will never again have to use words/ knowledge and information in means of satisfying only mind-egos, but actually support practical living-life between all living beings on Earth.

 

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Desteni Forum for further support to develop Common Sense, Self Honesty and an actual living-understanding of what Equality as Life implies/ means.

 

 

Blogs:

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This blog is in continuation to Day 16: Who am I

For further education:

Vlog:

2010 Do YOU have a Suckcessful Living? – YouTube

Watch The Trap, The Century of the Self and Psywar for Self-Support


Stopping being self-whacking bubbles

The one thought that you give attention to, the thought that will become your driver.

It may seem impossible to ‘snap out of it’ while being driven at 200 km/h by a thought within an entire plethora of memories as pictures, sounds, smells, words, colors, people – it really did seem difficult to realize that I am actually able and capable of stopping that in one single breath as a constant and continues living-application of simply not allowing myself to ‘go inflate the bubble’ but rather burst it and remain here, grounded, breathing.

 

Imagine enraged people fighting against each other suddenly realizing that: they can stop the thoughts of hatred towards each other, remove the accumulated grudge and scorn, drop the guns and simply breathe. That’d be a cool movie to create and Holy-wood would simply go bankrupt.

 

Yes, thoughts have become our most-vivid and personalized enter.tamement – forget about personal gadgets and whackgets, this is the real deal man, how else would you then be able to create an entire puffing-up experience of yourself but through thinking, feeling and experiencing yourself as your mind – that addiction, that sole self projection as Ego that we create and go whacking the bubble as our minds that have become the coins in the piggy savings container that is ready to burst – we’ve all contributed to this  bomb that is ready to explode as this time-ticking world is revealing to be standing up. It is us, humans, that must become walking-physical beings, not airy fluffy walls of soap that are easily moved and burst out with a single blow. Let that blow be your breath, here, in every moment. 

 

Now it’s not about the human as the physical being that could actually reduce their current life-style in an 80% and live in simple ways wherein we could essentially become environment-friendly as physical beings instead of creating environment-friendly products and further organic waste– which we produce anyways. There is a solution to that (Equal Money System)

 

What we’ve got to work with is stopping that thought/thinking experience as ‘who we are’ – Literally ponder that, how would the world be if no more history was held at the memory level – there’d be no nations, no hierarchies, no values on ‘more’ or ‘less’ as there’d be no reference points for that, no distinction between one another as there would be no names to honor or hate, there’d be no interest as money would not serve a purpose of keeping accounts in red numbers depicting the fallacy of the current monetary system for the fictional story of the apparent lack that has represented up until now – Money would become an actual living-organism, a functional part of the system that supports life and not drains and sucks everyone dry on endless payrolls.

 

Who has allowed all of this? We have.  And who has deliberately by actual choice  neglected the consequences that we’ve created not only for ourselves at the moment, but for every single living being in this world that we believe don’t have the ability to ‘think’ or ‘speak’, what about the generations to come if we don’t stop the current machinery and create a system that’s literally part of the living process as the physical, that’s best for all – We have done this, now, there’s no time to wallow in pity. Self Forgive and face the music.

 

Our money-mind master must cease to exist as it currently works– within this, all value placed on thoughts, memories, pictures, people, ideas, projections, mind networks of relationships must be annihilated along with the current monetary system that keeps such bubbles in place – take a look at it, what we believe ourselves to be has been made-possible due to the money we have/ we don’t have.

 

Easy example: do you ‘think’ that a person that’s currently “living” in a survival-mode has time to dwell upon emotional turmoil or failed relationships or lost dreams – furthermore, seeking to gain ‘more power’? No, they’re most likely focusing their every moment on continuing breathing and getting any means possible to live such as food, some clean water and a place to spend the night in.

 

A single example on how ludicrous it is to pay-off our apparent  ‘madness’ is giving names to our own accepted and allowed mind-delusion with such nicely placed psychiatric-savvy tags such as ‘social anxiety’, ‘bipolar disorder’ and a long list of so-called mental/personality disorders that are then obviously treated with drugs so that everybody wins and ends up with a happy smile on their fake-face. It can’t obviously be a real solution, yet people see no ‘solution’ other than indulging in chemicals to apparently ‘do the fixing’ that we’re more than able and capable of doing through an actual self-willed process that requires no pills to place into action, but single words as Self to be Lived:

Self Forgiveness.

 

A single process of daring ourselves to be intimate with ourselves for the first time, nurturing ourselves and caring for ourselves to stand up from the pit of self-pity, suffering, hatred, anger, frustration, belittlement, impotence, weakness, ugliness, shyness, self-loathing and self-suffocating experience that is ALL created at the mind level. It is this experience that is mostly existent in all human beings that has been projected as our spiteful, vengeful and absolutely self-abusive monetary system as the world system we’re currently accepting and allowing ourselves to live in.

 

It can only be an act of cynicism to claim we’re NOT responsible for how we are currently existing in this world, not actually realizing that we are the creators of each and every single outcome that has taken place Here and the consequences that go beyond what our eyes can see.

 

When realizing the extent of this, we can only simply STOP from being such whacking bubbles of self-deception and self-infatuated importance and forgive ourselves– because we can’t possibly create a new world upon layers of decadence lived as mind-drones. We can’t possibly go on as we currently are.

 

Stopping that masochism that we exist as in our heads can stop wars in our reality – yes, this is revealing how we are all responsible for what we’ve accepted and allowed within/out of ourselves as this world/ reality.

 

That second chance, that bringing-yourself-back-here is Here for everyone. This is not glorious, this is a Fact. This is the simplicity of stopping our thoughts, emotions, feelings and Pandora’s box will simply be sealed off forevermore.

It is only the rush, the energy, the mind-craving addiction that can keep us wanting more & more from it without realizing the obvious self-abuse that it brings and entails for all – equal and one.

We begin by giving ourselves time to breathe, to stop thinking and dare to walk mind-bare here, breathing ourselves through time and space.  That’s the real deal – suggest you try it out and you’ll see how one by one we can set us free.

This is 100% doable, we’re walking it – Are You?

 

 

 

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Witnessing: You’re Equally Responsible

 

It’s easier to expect a ‘better life once you’re dead’ than taking the necessary actions to LIVE in this world through supporting/creating solutions that can enable Life on Earth for all as Equals.

People seek ‘peace of mind’ and ‘tranquility’ which are part of the teachings that ‘masters’ such as Buddha  left on this world: ‘you’re not your body, just relax and chill’

Following some feedback on the video that I talked about yesterday, I’ve been called out for having ‘no faith’, for being ‘negative’ and ‘soulless’ – I can say I have no faith, yes and I am definitely soulless as everyone else in this world now. This person also speaks about daydreaming people that are walking for the same ‘common outcome’ that I am speaking about there as Equality, a dignified living for all –

Though, the obvious question is: how on Earth could I create a world that’s best for all only by wishing, hoping, witnessing, admiring, ‘thinking positive’ and hopping on chanting songs around a bonfire? Okay, that’s quite a cliché I admit, though it’s certainly the type of ‘relax and just chill’ attitude that spiritualists/ light&lovers/ general daydreamers and fantasy people talk about. They will most likely have some type of spiritual-agenda behind their enlightened ideas of ‘do nothing, let it all just ‘be’, smoke of this and be at peace’.

 

Now, what this particular person claimed is that I’m speaking from ‘Reason’ while they pretend/claim to be speaking from ‘the soul’ as in considering all the fuzzy feelings and emotions that make the infamous human, a ‘human’.  It’s obvious that this is not about reason or not, but words and sentences that can simply describe the actuality of this reality and the actual physical points that require to be taken into consideration if one is actually willing to/ interested in creating a world wherein Life is actually existent for all in/as Equality.

 

I’ve also just now read another comment pointing out how such human nature is existent at a genetic level and can’t be changed. Welly-well we’ve got a situation here, we got people justifying the current ways we’re living in because of our DNA and genetic predisposition, without even daring to question such programming, let’s not even say ‘daring to challenge it and change it’ because according to this person’s reasoning, it would be most likely impossible to do such a thing.

 

With these two examples on accepting spirituality/daydreaming/wishing and hoping as ‘means of change’ in this world and accepting the ‘human nature’ as immovable/ unchangeable  we can have a clear perspective on how it is through

 

Buddha was the ultimate ‘witness’ of this world and left this idea that bliss was created through detaching from everything of this world as yourself –

 

Just one quality of the Buddha has to be remembered. He consists only of one quality, witnessing. This small word witnessing contains the whole of spirituality. Witness that you are not the body. Witness that you are not the mind. Witness that you are only a witness. As the witnessing deepens, you start becoming drunk with the divine. That is what is called ecstasy.
– Osho

By passing this as ‘truth’ as usually accepted and venerated by people that follow the so-called ‘masters’, we then have a greater view on what people that have posted such comments/perspectives can be considering as part of their ‘views on the world’: be a witness, you’re only passing the Earth by, go sit down a tree and let go of the world, be at ease, chill out.

[No wonder such Buddha bar cd’s are made for getting drunk and literally chilling out while pretending everything is fine in this world… ]

 

“Becoming drunk with the divine!” Isn’t that what we’ve all done while being immersed in our thoughts and being self absorbed not considering at all the reality as this world that we live in and how ‘god’s master plan’ was to simply keep us entertained with things like ‘our thoughts’/feelings/emotions’ and spirituality to cultivate such bullshit as a way to simply not take an actual look at this world and question the current establishment/functionality and inner-workings of this entire reality – now who’s been duped here?

 

Osho/Buddha and most likely any other ‘master’ talk about following an experience – this is obviously what people that commented also defend: human nature/ humanity as an experience that seeks to be perpetuated without having to actually take on the necessary steps to do so.  By focusing on the ‘invisible side’ tagged as ‘spirituality’, all atrocities, the matter-dystopia in which we are currently living in is then ‘accepted as it is’, is ‘only witnessed’ not to be questioned or bothered by – what a load of crap we have indulged in as humanity. Having people till this day claiming that these characters were ‘enlightened’ and ‘all knowing’ is simply proof of how deluded we are/ have been.

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In contrast or the pole-effect of such ‘blissful’ characters usually praised and hailed by white-robbed people, we have characters of this same reality such as Hitler.

When reading and watching Hitler’s series through the Interdimensional  portal within  the Desteni material, it all made sense and became clear on how Forgiveness is the key. Though an initial barrier of fears and brainwashing had to be stopped to do so and the realization also was: if Hitler has forgiven himself then everyone/everything can.

Such ‘barrier’ is the extensive brainwashing we’ve all been subject to through our “education” that is proposed by those that keep the entire system in place.

Ironically, Hitler’s being the point used as bait for banning purposes upon the Desteni message – that says it all in relation to humans being easily brainwashed and holding grudges as ideas/beliefs according to the history that’s being told without even daring to see the current holocaust that we’re creating through several means towards all life. This is also linked to that ever-convenient attitude of only ‘being a witness’ and not actually daring to face the consequences of this world and create a change that will stop the abuse towards life/ourselves and ensure that we create and place a world that’s best for all for all time to come.

Opposing self forgiveness is in fact denying life and our ability to create a second-chance for all to live within this world. By saying we ‘can’t change our nature, we’re opposing Self Forgiveness, by saying that ‘we must allow it all to be’ we are opposing self forgiveness as it can only result in inaction and negligence towards Self Responsibility as actually taking care of the current problems we’ve created within this world beginning with ourselves.

 

We require as humanity to STOP seeking out a ‘blissful experience’ by all means, to stop seeking a ‘peace of mind’ because it’s obvious that it’d be like wanting to keep yourself in a clean bubble while the outside is filled with dirt and scum.

We’re all in this together now and we’ve got to open eyes to see that this is Not about ‘negativity’ but realism – this is not about being ‘soulless’ but having the entire understanding of how we had been conditioned by such soul/preprogrammed lives of endless cycles wherein we’ve disregarded ourselves as the perpetrators of the current abuse of life wherein people such as Hitler have been satanized forevermore, without even daring to question how people are nowadays waging wars for decades and are not being equally regarded as criminals and placed under the same scrutiny that has been inflicted upon others.

 

All of this malarkey has a single solution: Self Forgiveness because the madness of this world can be stopped from continuing and being perpetrated within each one of us.

We can only be held back by memory – if there is no memory but actual allowance of Self-Forgiveness to start clear from the moment on, we can create a new world based on a constant self-forgiveness application until Equality and Oneness is Here as a reality in this world.

This sounds nice – though to create it, will take you and I and many +1’s  more to do so, so let’s do it – this means, we’ve got to stop being all sorts of ‘witnesses’ that can be completely aware of how this works yet do nothing about it and instead, become the change that we have to create in this world.


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