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114. Being the ‘Supportive Role’ for another’s Character

 

How do we get hooked on each other’s manias by manipulating our own moment and expression in order to support another’s mind possession/ character play out wherein we compromise who we are in order to either suppress or exalt ourselves to play the ‘counter act’ as a deflective mirror of another’s expression, a form of ‘empathetic character’ that plays the role that another character orchestrates, which is part of an entire submissive character wherein I accepted and allowed others to ‘dominate’ me by my own perceived inferiority in such moments.

This is how we keep each other’s in the safe box, being ‘untouchable’ in our devious ways of being wherein in our minds, we’re always winning, without realizing what we are in fact imposing onto another being’s life as well when such being is certainly a child that absorbs this world like a sponge.

Here I walk Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Statements  on specific aspects/ points that I would play out with and toward my father, which became part of my ‘automated behavior’ in any other situation wherein the similar events would unfold.

This is the event again of me going to the supermarket with him wherein I can now see how all decisions I made were based on some type of Fear and how I then would assess a situation in a very quick mode to ensure that I was being ‘secure’ within my self-definition while supporting my father’s self definition and walking together as the supportive roles for an entire ‘mission’ called: going to the supermarket and buying things in ‘no time,’ which means rushing all the way and doing it all just ‘perfect.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hurry unfastening my seatbelt and getting out as fast as possible when being with my father, just because of believing that I always had to hurry in order to not be judged by him the same way that he’d judge my mother. I see and realize that the backchat held is ‘Hell no, I don’t want to be like my mother’ and in that, moving myself out of fear and not out of an actual point of self-movement in common sense.

When and as I see myself wanting to rush out of the car when going out with my father in his car or any other car, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I can conduct myself here in every moment of breath wherein there is no need to fear being tagged as ‘slow and inefficient’ or ‘clumsy’ but simply taking the necessary time to walk out of the car and within that, also supporting myself and others to equally slow down, as I see and realize that with me rushing out of the car, I was only supporting another’s character as well which is what must be stopped unconditionally in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my mother as slow, clumsy and inefficient – thus agreeing with my father that ‘I had to be and become as efficient as him’ in order to Not become like my mother.

When and as I see myself wanting to be effective in what I do and how I conduct myself in my everyday living, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am following a decision based on opposing the image/ stereotype I have caged my mother in as inefficient- thus I realize that I do not require to ‘want to be efficient,’ and instead simply direct me to walk in self-honesty wherein efficiency is a living-way of conducting myself in a particular task and in every moment of breath, without making it something to ‘attain’ like another character or personality.

I realize that any definition of what is efficient or inefficient can only stem from a self-belief based on a polarity pattern represented by each one of my parents, just to instigate the necessary conflict in my life to create myself as an antagonist toward my mother.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for having feared being judged as slow, dull and not physically common sensical due to fearing him reacting in exasperation and general annoyance toward me for slowing a certain process down, hence I realize that I would follow his way just because of creating this idea that ‘his way is always the most practical way’ which is a self-belief in my mind in order to cover up the actual fear that I experienced of fucking up things in that moment, regardless of them being actually practical or not.

When and as I see myself doing things the way that another wants me to do them from the starting point of fear, I stop and I breathe –I realize that I am in that moment not considering the actual practicality of what is best for all, but I am only doing things out of fear of doing it ‘the wrong way,’ thus I direct myself to breathe, diffuse the anxiety within and then direct myself to learn how to do things in a more common-sensical and practical way.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to support my father’s anxious-character of ‘going to the supermarket in no time’ wherein we get the groceries real fast, just because of wanting him to confirm that I am ‘as efficient and accurate as he is,’ which is stemming from the opposite point I was trying to Not be which is a lagging nuisance for him just like my mother is/ or how he would complain about my mother when going with her to the supermarket, eventually becoming used to simply going by himself because of her not being able to ‘catch his pace’

I realize that I wanted to deliberately be able to ‘catch up’ with my father and his fast pace as a way for him to have a special regard toward me in contrast with my mother, as that was a rather weird pattern wherein I believed that I had to ‘out do her’ in situations, like a form of unspoken rivalry that would emerge at times.

When and as I see myself rushing through the supermarket trying to be as fast as possible, I stop and I breathe – I realize that this is part of the automated rushing in the supermarket father-figure character that is supporting only the perpetuation of the ‘efficiency character’ within me, which stemmed from the fear of becoming like my mother. Thus I direct myself to walk through the aisles and supermarket taking into consideration the breath-pace and not the ‘I’m in a mad hurry’ time pace. The patterns of our parents begin and end within ourselves.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rush to help my father to take out the stuff from the trolley with fear and anxiety to make sure I place the products in perfect alignment to the type of products that they will be packed in, which is me doing it from the starting point of fearing my father getting irritated and angry for screwing up his religious order of how to place the products on the band prior to checking out, which is coming from the belief that ‘the cashier is waiting for us and there’s more people behind us,’ which is how I became used to always rushing to do things, because of not wanting to make others wait, which is a form of unnecessary servitude type of attitude, wherein we don’t actually give ourselves our space-and-time required to perform a task as everyone’s got their opportunity to do so – but instead, I complied to the belief that I got from my father that we always had to do things as fast as possible to allow others to go through a certain process/ point of service equally as fast, which is a form of chivalry that I acquired toward ‘unknown people,’ yet from the starting point of wanting to be a ‘good person,’ which eventually becomes detrimental to one’s own practical living as this ensued an unnecessary rush and anxiety to conduct ourselves in on a daily basis.

When and as I see myself rushing to get my products on the band in the supermarket and or getting exasperated for others going ‘too slow’ through the same process, I stop and I breathe – I conduct myself to simply be here as breath whenever I see myself in the supermarket queue and ready to pay for my products, breathing, being patient and walking moment by moment within the process of checking out, which somehow had also become a point of unnoticed anxiety within me to simply rush and ‘get the hell out of the supermarket’ wherein going out through the doors would be like a ‘mission accomplished’ type of situation. LOL

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get hooked on the point of doing things ‘as fast as possible’ for the actual energetic ‘kick’ that I would get from doing that, wherein I became used to experiencing a mix of anxiety and fear that would build up through the entire supermarket experience with my father, which would be relieved the moment that our ‘mission was accomplished’ as in getting everything we required in ‘no time’ and getting all we required in an ‘efficient manner.’

– I realize that this is simply an acquired pattern from the times I would go with my father to the supermarket wherein I actually feared making others wait for my apparent inefficiency to do it as quickly as possible, wherein it seemed like a race that we would go into in order to get the products out of trolley – lol – which is quite interesting when realizing how the mix of fear and anxiety became an ‘enjoyable’ experience within me, which is how I dubbed that going to the supermarket with my father was in fact something ‘fun,’ which was only so from the starting point of the actual experience I’d get from it.

When and as I see myself believing that I had ‘fun’ with my father at the supermarket – I stop and I breathe – I realize that this was me actually saying that becoming anxious, nervous and fearful was fun because of the adrenaline experienced through the entire process of getting our groceries – thus I assist and support myself to realize how fun is just an energetic game that we can also become addicted to if we allow ourselves to do so. Therefore, I see that I don’t require to make something ‘fun’ or ‘boring’ in my reality the moment that I can simply direct myself in and as the physical at all times.

 

I commit myself to stop playing out the characters that we have kept each other caged in for the sake of maintaining a familial relationship of play-outs that we have never considered as the building blocks of this entire world system’s Lie and Delusional definition of what ‘living’ is, which has become nothing else but a perpetual sanctification of the sins of the fathers, turning them into something to be ‘proud of,’ to stand in opposition to something or someone that we had deemed to be inferior/ bad/ less than, without realizing how this has become the basis of our  nature that we have accepted and allowed as ‘who we are,’ believing that it won’t ever change or that we can’t ever get to change it. It’s false, we can, we decide who we are and what we become from here on – this is it, our creation: we face ourselves, walk the living correction and actually create a world that’s a living playground for all or we allow ourselves to rot and die in the ‘old familiar ways’ filled with fear toward a world that we spoiled in the first place.

 

I stand up to create and be an active part of  a world wherein I can ensure that the kids that can come into this world can actually learn how to be examples of what living is, as they will learn from parents that can right now take responsibility for this point: ensuring that no form of ‘positivity’ or ‘negativity’ is instigated as part of the child’s basic character formation. The sins of the fathers begin and end with ourselves here.
Time to Stop for once and for all – It is our creation: we solve it back into Equality and Oneness for the very first time in our existence.

 

“And so, I see, realise and understand that it is with the starting-point of me, to walk-through me as the Mind/Consciousness I have become as living-memories, taking the characters/personalities I have created as memories, and re-align them into and as self-aware physical-living as is walked specifically in the Desteni I Process, so that I can rebirth me into/as what I was supposed to have been birthed as, with my beingness equal-to and one-with the physical, instead of separating my beingness into a Mind that control me/my existence through/as memories. And so I walk this process in investigating the Mind/Characters/Personalities, getting to know how I created/programmed them, to in this understanding re-align those separate parts of me into/as physical equal and one living; as the process of me in fact taking responsibility for who I am in me and my living. And simultaneously walk this World-System of Money in establishing its alignment to humanity/this physical existence to contribute to the life/living of all, and so make humans aware of how changing starts within ourselves, to align our relationship to ourselves, the physical and so this physical existence, from evolving a mind that only serves itself, a world-system that only serves itself: to individuals living/contributing to the life of ourselves and all of humanity and so this physical existence; from the evil of separation reversed to the life/live of ourselves and all within/as walking this ONE DECISION – taking responsibility from the Mind to living responsibility as ourselves and so to/as all as ourselves.” Sunette Spies *

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68. Money is a Hegemonic Language

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that Money as a language is elitism, because it is not a language that All beings can equally participate in – this makes Money a language that has commanded the greatest abuse that is daily lived as the ‘power’ that we have all collectively accepted and allowed ‘money’ to have and exist as, which reveals that money as a hegemonic system was never meant to be in the best interest of all, but as a weapon of choice to create desires, inflate egos as the mind of men and justify denying life to others as market-forces that are obviously also man-made in the name of self-interest and personal glorification at the literal expense of others.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that money is a hegemonic system because its rules and regulations and actual functioning is not revealed, shown or taught in schools, which is a basic aspect/ point that should be implemented in order to make sure that all transactions existent as money can be equally-understood by people, as equal understanding implies equal-power. This is what makes economics and financial systems the very tool to exert power as their ‘terms and conditions’ as rules and regulations can only be understood by a people that are trained to perpetuate its apparent ‘complexity,’ which is meant to only divide and conquer over the population when the majority has no access to such understanding, or no interest at all in it due to it being a secluded and elitist group of people the ones that make the rules and regulations to their own benefit.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the greatest imperialism that humanity has lived is Money, as it became the primary motivation to control, divide and conquer in means of establishing power over a certain population, which is an action that money enabled through its unequal existence and access for all beings equally, becoming a means to establish control and ‘order’ upon the lives of human beings– hence Money as a language became the real ‘king of the world’ through processes of imperialism/ colonization as the imposition of a particular currency/ worth/ value over Life.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that the real dictator over the world is money as the creation of human being to which we have all enslaved ourselves and nature to, which is now revealing the consequences of such forced-imposition over Life as the depletion, destruction and absolute obliteration of nature and the animal kingdom evidences, as the demonstration of the obvious consequence of a man-made system in separation of ourselves is followed in means of having ‘power’ upon Life, not realizing that Life as a system can Only function if it is Equally regarded, Equally provided and given to all in Equality.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see everything around me in monetary terms and no longer as unconditional available matter that can be distributed to all beings equally, but instead has become an asset/ product in itself that can be capitalized, which is a form of having power/control over and raping the nature and unconditional-beingness of everything on Earth, turning it all into a separate value of which, when arbitrarily owned/ possessed by an individual, can be capitalized according to our current rules/ regulations of the monetary system that is not based on providing ALL with equal-access to everything that is here of/ as the Earth, but has made of Life a Market that was built in the name of establishing control over resources through deliberately denying to all human beings having equal-access to it, because that would mean that No Abuse would be possible = No Power over others/ life itself, which is what we are currently accepting and allowing as capitalism and our current monetary system.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that through accepting money as a sign of ‘power’ to acquire that which I require to live, I was inheriting ‘the best option available’ as world-system due to the trust placed on parents and those in ‘powerful positions,’ wherein through believing and trusting that they are really looking after the ‘best interest of all,’ I proceeding to merely follow and comply the system, believing that it was the best possible option to live-by in this world – within this

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to see the ‘lack of money’ as part of the individual’s lessons for not wanting to contribute in a ‘productive sector’ of society, being lazy, bad karma and any other excuse that I could use in order to justify my acceptance of poverty and starvation as part of my everyday reality, becoming part of the ‘social scenario’ without further questioning it.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that Money as a language was not created in the best interest of all, but rather in means of Controlling All for the benefit of some – which is why and how Money as it currently exist must come to an end as a language and re-signify itself with a New definition that can stand Here as the Reality of Who and What We Are as One and Equal, which means that Money can only take One Single and Only New Meaning and Value: Life in Equality for/as All.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that what we are witnessing as this world and all the events that point out to a monetary de-function/ death, is the inevitable fall of what had begun with a certain beginning and an end, as all systems based on energy that are not equally giving and receiving in a symbiotic relationship, are meant to die due to/ because of the inevitable abuse upon life with such an artificially-made system in means of control, which cannot be sustainable now that Life in Equality is the only Principle that will prevail in our existence.

 

I commit myself to make of Money as Equal-Money a Universal Language that all can have access to as a means of getting and receiving that which is required to live, wherein power over life is no longer possible/ existent as a meaning-itself within beings’ minds, as we will understand that it is only through giving and receiving in Equality that Who We Are as Equal Participants in this Social Organism can thrive as a Living-Organism in Equal relationships of power. This means that no more discrimination and elitism will ever exist once that we LIVE the Meaning of Equal-Money as Equally Giving and Receiving what we need and require to live as Equals in this world and Existence.

 

I commit myself to create the necessary Shift in the language that Money represents in this world, to re-educate ourselves on how it is through the value/ meaning/ worth we give to Words as the meaning of ‘who we are’ and what we accept and allow ourselves to exist-as, that we create our own prison or liberation – hence, the current monetary system is currently a prison-word that we can Revitalize and Shift into a New Meaning that Signifies Life in Equality – Money as a means to administrate the relationships between individuals and the resources available, to ensure that all are equally able to have access to the resources, products and services that stem from and of the Earth, and give / receive them unconditionally through money as an administrative tool to ensure that Real Economy takes place in consideration of the physicality of Life on Earth as Equality.

 

I realize that, just as the evolution and shifting necessary within the power that language has over beings and the relationships defined by words and people toward the environment and each other, it is a progressive process wherein the meaning of Life in Equality must be imparted as an Educational Process first, so that we can grasp what does Equality as a Quality of Being Here as Who and What we Are as Life means; this way, Money as a word lived in Equality means it is stemming from such understanding and living realization, which signifies it can only exist as a tool that benefits all as equal-participants of the world-community, using money as a language as a means of communication with the environment and each other in equal relationship to one another.

 

I realize that the assimilation of Life in Equality is but a concept that cannot be grasped only through words, because such words have Never Been Lived. Hence, I commit myself to stand as the example of what it means to equalize life as myself, as the self-forgiveness process of all the relationships that I have formed in separation of myself, to see how I have placed value/ worth in separation of myself as life itself – and from there, realize that in order to create an actual change in this world, the very Meaning of the Word Equality must be first lived within and as individuals that are able to stand as Living Examples of what Equality implies as a Living-Realization of Who and What we are in and as this World and Existence.

 

I commit myself to explain that a mint linguistic system must be in order with the ways that the population live within themselves, as words can only be Lived if realized as a Living-Aspect of Self, as a inherent quality that truly denotes who and what we are as such word, which means that Equal-Money in the Equal Money System  is the word that will allow us to first train ourselves to consider that the one and only value in Life is Life itself, and that such means of exchange as Equal-Money cannot mean any ‘more’ or ‘less’ than Life itself.

 

I commit myself to establish money as an Homogeneous System wherein all being and parts coexist in harmony where no harm is perpetuated by the lack or excess of money as ‘power over life,’ but instead is understood and amalgamated as an equal and one tool that each one can use as a word, as a means to signify the actual giving and receiving in equality, which is what ‘Love’ would really mean in a tangible and physical way as a System that Works for All Equally.

 

I commit myself to make of Money a language that signifies the best interest of all in all ways, that can be easily understood as there won’t be any fraudulent means to ‘gain power’ over others, as the only real power will only exist in Equality as Life.

 

“I commit myself to show that all words are Compromised to Serve the Profit Motive and that when you Investigate the nature of the Relationships implied by Words you will find the Profit/WIN Motive in there Somewhere.” Bernard Poolman *

 

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