The extent of separation that we have lived in separation from our very physical body is absolutely abhorring.
One single eye twitch and we can know that we are activating an entire network of self created relationships that we have participated in a continuous period of time, in relation to the past that we re-create here when we impose our ‘human nature’ as an experience toward others. One single eye twitch and hours of explanations that blew my mind for the while wherein I just realized how much I have disregarded my physical body. I mean, before I had thought that eye twitching was lacking potassium or some other mineral. What we haven’t even realized is how such minerals and physical energy is actually drained by the mind, and that is blood-curdling enough to realize that science fiction was never that far from Reality.
Writing is the structuring of self, as that which we will live by, as a new living direction that we all have to do for ourselves – this entire process depends on our individual participation – common sense: we are all here walking the same process and no one can walk each other’s mind for another.
While walking and hearing all of this, I noticed I probably had a face of being absolutely astounded to see how much we have neglected our human physical body. It is the most obvious point that we have missed, and it could not be any ‘further away’ in relation to how we are living at the moment, running around in circles in a conscious layer while not being able to be fully aware of ourselves Here as the Physical Body.
I mean, how come we never questioned the fact that we could not be aware of all the processes that go on within our body, how the blood runs through our veins, being aware of every breath and instead live as a constant threat toward our own life, ‘killing us slowly’ by draining life to support our most elaborate mindfucks. Why is it that I am not able to see ‘This’ that I am existing as? Sure, our eyes of the mind only allow us to consciously look at ‘how we look’ – and, what did we do with it? We remained in that ‘how we look’ and made of ourselves an absolute 2 dimensional picture presentation of ourselves – it is abhorring to see to what extent we have neglected every single breath that has kept our ego running ‘alive.’
The fact that I can be grateful for is having the tools and the support to, for the very first time in my existence – be able to have all of this material and tools to support myself. I mean, we literally Do have everything on a golden platter, every single detail to the T of how we have created ourselves. We wanted to be gods yet remained in a closed polarity reality, switching off and on like a binary signal – definitely limited. I can only see how everything that I ever ‘thought’ I would ‘lose’ of myself was absolute bs that has, literally, no substance other than the one I gave to my thoughts to ‘live.’
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use and drain the very life substance that I exist as in the name of keeping my mental-reality ‘alive,’ while not being even aware of every breath that I take to do so.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me and diminish who I am to a single picture presentation as a two dimensional reality that I have lived as my mind, as thoughts, feelings, emotions, conversations wherein I schemed a ‘life’ that ‘I’ could only get the most benefit from.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to never question the fact that I could not be aware of my physical body as the actual ability to see how I am actually existing as, and abdicating my seeing-reality to a limited system wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to be self-enslaved to a series of experiences, emotions and feelings that I believed was ‘all there is’ to living, while neglecting my very own physical body in its entirety while focusing on chasing after an experience and pretend to be alive.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to feel ashamed of myself for having always remained within a limited idea, belief and perception of myself and never having dared to question who am I really, and how it is that I relegated my own physical body to being a ‘nuisance’ to myself, never really ever considering how separate and oblivious to my very own physical body I have actually being throughout my life.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that who I am as my thoughts could be the key to seeing and realizing the actual nature of myself, instead of seeing it as a limited and constricted program to which I thought I had ‘nothing to do with.’ Oh man, was I wrong.
I Forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to for the first time realize the extent to which I had lived only within my mind, seeking for experiences while neglecting the actual self-consumption, self abuse and self destruction that exists as a continual process every moment that I ‘give in’ to thinking, to feeling, to keeping myself busy with some internal conversation that has No physical relation to what Is HERE as myself.
And by HERE as myself it is realizing the extent to which I have abdicated my entire responsibility to an automated system wherein I could just ‘rejoice’ and do nothing, other than continuing wishing and hoping while neglecting the actual abuse that I was/ and still am inflicting to every single cell and atom within my physical body, by the single act of engaging into an emotional experience created at a mind level.
Because we cannot see it, because we cannot feel it, it doesn’t mean that it is not happening. And it is only ourselves that veiled ourselves from seeing.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear for the very first time seeing the actual nature to which I am consuming myself and the reality that is here as me by my own participation in the mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ponder an emotion, a feeling, a single energetic kick above every single breath that I have abused to power my ego-trips. I stop any judgment that comes with this as there is no point in making it more than what I have already done and become – I can only direct myself to establish myself to accept myself – the consequences of what I have become and walk the process that is here for me to finally be HERE as my physical body.
It is absolutely unacceptable how we go throughout our days, judging ourselves, our physical bodies for absolute bullshit while not being able to remember or even see how we are consuming the very life that keeps our judgments alive.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for having sustained a lifetime of mindfucks alive with my every breath. Double judgment is always a double-mindfuck and it all must stop here.
So – we realize points, it is shocking yes – the most prominent reaction I had was when realizing to what extent we have kept us ‘living’ in this reality, absolute robots circling around our conscious mind – and then came the realization that there is an entire process to walk, I mean, we are so far from actually ‘getting here’ that just a single twitch in our body is and has been an indication of to what extent we are feeding our own mind-assessments that we have abdicated life, the physical reality to.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to reduce the physical life and reality that I am to a single thought, a single experience, a single energetic fix that creates a sensation that comes and goes just as it started – it cannot be real – how can it?
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from all parts that conform who I am as the physical and believing that ‘who I am’ only exists as the idea of ‘myself’ within ‘my mind.’ How ludicrous, I breathe and I realize that I can only direct myself to establish myself here, willing to walk my mind, taking responsibility for every single thread that I have created in separation of myself as a mind system that consumes the physical life that is here.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to having lived a life of absolute self-interest wherein I took for granted every single process that my human physical body does in order to keep me alive. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate me-from-me by opting to believe that living was an experience.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live a surrogate ‘living’ as the mind, as that comfortable limited experience wherein I did not have to see the truth of myself and where I neglected the very physicality that I exist as, relegating it to a second plane that I could only use to sell myself as an image, as a single picture presentation while neglecting the very life that exists in every pore that holds me.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to reduce life to being a business, a single corporation wherein I could remain as the eternal CEO believing to have ‘power’ over myself, without even realizing that I am not even aware of the very process that every breath that I take creates within my physical body.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a dependency to create an experience out of my every day living and breathing here – giving up my own physical living to a mono-reality wherein all that I confined myself to experience is myself as a mind, with constant thoughts while neglecting the totality that is here as myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take for granted the very cells that conform ‘who I am’ as a physical body. What does it mean to stand equal to and as my cells? That will only be lived, but for now I see that the least thing I can do to honor the life that I am by stopping using/ abusing it to feed my mental realms of self-judgment as a continuous self-righteous act upon the physical.
We have judged dictators, ‘powerful people’ abusing others to get to a certain position, while neglecting that we have and are doing the very same thing toward our physical bodies, using it and abusing it to keep our delusions of power as our ego-trips wherein we ‘believe’ that we are ‘above it all.’
How wrong have we been. This is only as scratch on the surface.
I can only renew my vows to live here and actually do so – I am aware of the consequences that we are facing for not having realized this before, it is definitely the least thing we can do here, to face the consequences for having separated ourselves from our very own physical body, from life by transforming it into a single shallow experience.
Everything is in constant movement inside ourselves, how come we have claimed we could be ‘still’- it is only a stillness of the mind that can exist! have a ‘look’/ physical-experience within yourself: blood is constantly flowing and endless processes are going on.
When and as I see myself worrying about some bs story in my mind, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am neglecting the very breath that is keeping my blood running and focus on realizing how it is that every breath is allowing me to give the next step to ‘enjoy myself’ while walking. lol how fun will it be to be able to finally be here, like literally realizing that all our ‘loneliness’ ideas is simply because of having existed as a mind system seeking for another mind system to talk to – neglecting every single cell that we could actually communicate to as ourselves – here – and to everything else. How could you ever get to feel ‘alone’ if we are actually in fact all that is here?
Some necessary buckets of cold water to realize how attentive we must be when walking this process – to never ‘lose sight’ of what is it that we are in fact doing here: walking out of the mind and into the physical.
I cannot say anything else other than give yourself the opportunity to investigate Desteni, the current interviews which have been like fire to melt down any little effigy I could have created of myself. I realize to what extent and with what ease we can recreate the same old patterns by simply giving into it again. It is also great because I see and realize there is no other way I could have ever faced myself.
Facing, walking the mind is having to let go of the greatest addiction that we have ever created, an addiction fed and sustained by life – how can we dare to judge a single point of abuse if we are doing this to ourselves every single moment that we are not HERE breathing?
I’ll stop here for now.
Thanks for breathing.
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