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146. Fear of Death

Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Statements/ Commitments

Thought:  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear death due to the pain that I have accepted and allowed myself to future project I will experience, without realizing this is all based on knowledge and information that I have used in order to generate the fear of dead, instead of realizing that I am here as breath and that whenever death comes, I am here as breath to walk through it till breath is no more

 

Commitment: I commit myself to instead of existing as ‘fear of death’ I live my life ensuring that I can broadly say I have Lived this day as if it was the last day, ensuring that I in fact thus commit myself to LIVE and within this holding no fear toward a future and no regret toward the past, but live in every moment of breath here, so that whatever may come or may not come, it does not influence who I am here as the physical day to day living

 

Imagination: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold the image of me burning in flames as the utmost fear in my mind toward death, without realizing that I have created this pictures as ‘fear of death’ due to how I have linked heat/ fire to the most excruciating torture – thus it is all based on knowledge and information that I have linked to ‘pain’ and as such formulating my own ‘fear of death’ linked to heat/fire as the ‘worst way to die,’ binding myself to my own creation at a thought level, which is ludicrous.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my imagination to think about my end as it is entertaining to ‘ponder’ about that stuff, without realizing that while doing so, I am in fact missing and giving away my breath of life to do so, which is pointless

 

Commitment: I commit myself to when and as I see myself fearing death and thinking of fire, I stop and Breathe, I realize that this is my own creation that I am here to take self responsibility for as it is only a thought emerging as a point of entertainment in my mind, without realizing that in doing so I am in fact missing the breath that is here as the life that I am existing as in every moment – thus I commit myself to live here as breath and Not participate in any thoughts about death, as they are utterly useless.

I commit myself to remain here as breath so that I do not go creating unnecessary thinking and draining in my body to create alternate dimensions of ‘death fears’ – instead I commit myself to live here, focusing on what is HERE

 

Backchat: I  forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold the backchat ‘I don’t want to die in a gruesome manner’ without realizing that in such fear I am just entertaining my fear, and there’s no point in even giving my breath away of Life to such thoughts about dying and ways of dying – I instead support myself to live as breath, wherein I am here physically aware of the body that is here and stop the unnecessary thinking about ‘ways to die’ lol

 

I commit myself to not entertain my mind with backchat indicating/ navigating through ‘ways to NOT die’ as it is absolutely pointless to entertain myself thinking about anything that is not HERE as myself as the physical reality – thus it is to live here, let go any minor attempt of thought about dying as a way to create fear and as such, ensure that I am breathing, living moment to moment.

 

Reaction: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear of death wherein because I have no reference to ‘death’ I try to make it up in my mind and react with ‘courage’ toward it, instead of realizing that nor courage nor future projecting about death is necessary as I am here as breath  and such, death may or may not come the next breath and that doesn’t determine who I am in the moment – thus I simply remain breathing not supporting any fear of death as a thinking possession.

 

I commit myself to stop fearing death or any thoughts related to dying as I see and realize it is mere entertainment for my mind to actually evade looking at what is here -thus when and as I see myself wanting to lurk around ‘fear of death’ and any thoughts related to that, I instead breathe and look at the point that I am facing in the physical reality to instead, work with/ direct myself to face the physical-reality that is here and stop going into the movie-theatre drama entertainment of ‘fear of death’ in my mind.

 

Physical: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel a petrifying fear whenever get an exhilarating/get a cool experience around thoughts of dying and how it ‘could happen,’ as I see and realize that this draining sensation in my physical body is in fact me creating an energetic experience out of my own thoughts, which is unacceptable when seeing, realizing and understanding that I abuse my physical and actually Kill myself when thinking about death and creating an experience about it- which is what requires to be stopped in any other aspect within my mind in order to actually be here and live

 

I commit myself to live here as breath wherein there is no possibility to create an experience of thinking as I see and realize that getting an energetic high through wondering and flirting about death is simply another way to entertain myself here, while abusing the physical reality and body that I am. Thus I live here as breath, and take responsibility for the thoughts I do direct in my mind in order to Live – I realize that creating even a positive experience out of thinking about death is rather ludicrous and no different to any other escapism modality to not face myself here – thus I take responsibility and face myself here as breath.

I see and realize that most of the ‘ways to die’ I have gotten from movies/ stories that I’ve seen and read and as such, accepted them as also ways to entertain myself in the mind, instead of being here as the physical realizing the absurdity of fearing death while I am breathing here.

 

Consequence: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not even be aware of what I have done onto my physical when ‘flirting’ about death and ways to die, wherein I am clearly not HERE as breath, but entertained in my mind with either a fear or exhilaration about ‘dying’ or everyone ‘dying’ as I see and realize that’s just part of the consequential outflow of me/ us not wanting to take responsibility for what is here as our creation

I commit myself to instead walk step by step my mind possession of either a positive or negative experience when thinking/ flirting about death/ dying thoughts, as I see and realize that I am here as breath and that such thoughts only indicate me wanting to ‘escape’ the moment in my mind – thus I bring myself back to here so that I realize that every single thought has a consequence to be walked through and as such I commit myself to stop creating consequences that are detrimental to self

 

Walk with us at Desteni to realize how futile it is to ‘Fear Death’ and instead, support ourselves to LIVE here in every moment of Breath.

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Equal Money System : Supporting Life from Birth to Death –

 

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The real death is the depletion we are imposing onto our world and reality when living in a world-system/ economic model that doesn’t support Life in Equality.

 

Blogs:

Thoughts: Pixels of the Screen of the Mind – Part 2: DAY 146

Day 146: Synchronicity and Natural Selection

Vlog:

FEAR WEEK: Fear of Drowning? Suffocating? In flames? FEAR of Death!

2010 Equal Money Ends Fear


The world just had a ‘tough day’

It is through wake-up calls that humanity will start seeing more and more that we are driving this world into insanity.
Coming home watching the news with a ‘financial meltdown’, London in flames and 29 000 kids under 5 years old dead in Somalia over 3 months of starvation with other 3.5 million severely requiring immediate aid makes you ponder how far do we have to go to see what we’re doing to ourselves in this world.

Within this, I’ve encountered ‘mixed perspectives’ so to speak wherein some are still taking a side on the entire problem instead of realizing that it is all our creation – equally – We’ve been the creators of the current system wherein we’ve allowed royals to exist while millions starve in a country where no one can even ‘help’ because of further jihads taking place in the area.

Though this and what is to come, we cannot allow ourselves to be appalled, that can only add on to the hysteria that’s being promoted while it’s only about seeing what’s going on in the world as a result of our negligence to all life.

I made this etching this some 3 years ago – it was part of realizing that we’ve cut our own hand while creating this reality, it’s the realization that we have actually failed to see this world as ourselves, and from there my stand can only be the realization that it is me that must stand up even if the world is upside down, through that constant support that I can give myself to not allow myself to ‘fall’ into a certain state due to how I see the world I am able to then embrace this world as myself and walk the necessary steps to continue living for life – to continue walking this process until it’s done.

It’s quite obvious that the events that are to come into this world won’t be ‘brighter’ tomorrow – we’ll be facing the truth and reality of ourselves full on and within all of this, within you sitting in front of your tv or computer, I can only say: watch the news, get informed in relation to what’s going on in this world, but let’s not get ourselves down or appalled by what we see – we rather see it as a manifested consequence of our disregard to life, of the failure that we’ve created as humanity to guard Life and instead guarded money with our lives – failing to see that our duty to be a custodian to life has been diverted towards an outcome that can have only result in an imperative desire to be the ‘kings of the world’ at all cost – that cost is here, is higher than ever and what we are realizing is nothing nice, nothing pretty of ourselves – this is our actual revelation.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to neglect life in all moments wherein I kept accepting a system wherein we simply continued participating in our worlds without having ever asked pertinent questions in relation to our existence, to our ability to create a system that could work for all

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to accept social inequality as the result of my own desire to avoid self-responsibility wherein the existence of slaves and economically marginalized people signified a convenience for me to not have to ‘do the job’ but rather have the ‘power’  as money to have others doing the stuff for me, having others taking self responsibility for myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be appalled by the news today calling it a ‘tough day for Earth’ without realizing that this is just information that we are getting to know of because it’s got major impact on financial markets- YET the abuse, the starvation, the corruption that’s existent everywhere in this world doesn’t get such promotion because it prevents people from ‘being happy’ and consuming more to fool-fill themselves.

I can see that I have accepted and allowed this all the way hence me being affected by it is in fact resorting once again as a victim to this world and system without realizing I am this world, I am this system and I can’t possibly continue this way.

I realize that I am the only one that is able to support myself and within this, support others equally to walk this no matter what, not allowing us to react and participate in massive-hysterias and massive-fears which can only be but another way to drive humanity easy to self-doom.

We stop and we simply expose the reality for what it is, always pointing out that it’s about the entire contract that we’ve created as humanity while disregarding our ability to create a system that could be best for all. I allow myself to liv e in Equality to no longer be another ‘affected person’ but be a self-directive person that exposes, that shares perspectives in order to continue supporting ourselves, to lose all faith and believes of a ‘better world’ and instead dare to care and live myself through writing, through reflecting my experience and correct it in my reality.

I no longer allow myself to be appalled by the events of this world wherein I speak from a point of knowledge based on what’s being promoted in the news and instead, continue to breathe and walk and direct myself to a single outcome which is Equality as Life as myself, realizing and applying it and living it every moment that I’m here – from there, I can only see that the ‘tough days’ can be walked and breathed through, learning what we’ve done and why we have created this world as it currently is. Taking Self Responsibility for ourselves as individuals within the context of this world is key point here

Thank you – see you at Desteni.

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