‘Oh, but I’m only a Human (Failure)’

One of the points that I struggled with to actually accept as a point to stand equal and one with was the word ‘Perfection’ wherein when that point of Self-Perfection came out I first saw it as a point wherein we allow that ‘flawed nature’ as humans within a ‘flawed system’ wherein the best justification available for all fuckups when not taking self responsibility is ‘oh but we’re only human’ or ‘I’m not perfect, I am a human’ and within that allowing ourselves to diminish ourselves as our the potential that we are actually capable and able to stand equal and one with.

We can see within that ‘flawed nature’ we diminish ourselves, it is that single back door existent in all of us when we tend to say ‘oh fuck it I don’t see myself getting to this/that point’ and it’s like a form of giving up before even starting and seeing it as ‘normal’ within is when it is not, it’s part of that which we’ve allowed ourselves to become through our participation in society, in the education system.

So when understanding Self-Perfection I realized that we’ve simply accepted perfection as something that is apparently ‘more than us’ because we’ve been used to believe that ‘perfection doesn’t exist’ which is what I told Bernard at the farm when this point was opened up and then he replied ‘Yes, perfection doesn’t exist, we create it’ and that made complete and full sense as that ‘click’ in the moment on how I was by-default giving up to actually realize that it is possible to create ourselves as self-perfection as life – obviously throughout a process that we begin with ourselves, point by point yet aligning ourselves within this very point of self perfection as what’s best for all – cool isn’t it? Being able to re-design ourselves as human beings simply because we are able to do so, it’s a matter of understanding why it’s best for all, why we require to live as equals to the fullest potential and then simply being the actual steps into applying this as ourselves.

See, before in my life when looking at solutions to this world, I would always end up saying that this world would have to be changed from its root/starting from scratch and applying that as ourselves in this moment is us re-educating ourselves at this stage paving the way for future generations – This begins with for example re-educating the now to be parents so that the same patterns and cycles of ignorance and disregard of life are able to be stopped with everyone realizing ourselves as Self-Perfection. And, when we talk about re-education it means the entire education system has to be modified within the starting point of supporting an Equality System and not a Capitalist ruthless competitive system which in itself will change the way ‘buildings are built’ so to speak – thus if we see ourselves as capable of building and creating in this world already at the level that we are doing now, we simply veer all of that to an equality starting point wherein Self-Perfection as the ability to give the best of ourselves for everyone equally is actually created, to realize that optimum level of existence as an individual and collectively is actually possible –

And this point of ‘Perfection not existing’ is something that I saw in this movie called ‘Tron’ wherein they imply how people end up going all nuts and sick of power when seeking perfection – so at the end they state that clearly on how they cannot go looking for perfection, creating a perfect system which they equate to almost a fantastic-like equivalent to fascism. So we can see how within your movies nowadays – which is a Disney movie btw for kids and all general public – we get the idea of people giving up to be able to live in an actual Perfect world – heaven on earth – wherein from a young age they are then indoctrinated to thin ‘Seeking perfection will make us mad, we can’t be perfect, perfection doesn’t exist’ and within that accepting the flawed ‘nature’ of ourselves as humans and the reflection of ourselves as the current system as ‘how things are’ not being able to be changed apparently – so that’s quite a fucked up point that is being imprinted in kids through that movie.

So, we do have to clarify the point of how when standing as Equals as Life, we we will be then actually living as Self Perfection as that which should’ve always been the actual ‘nature’ of ourselves within this world which never has been in fact due to us accepting the single fact of ‘human error/nature’ as ‘how we are’ and thus giving into failure by default – within that we can see how we are used to seeing things breaking apart – lol from agreements/relationships/marriages/families/associates/partners etc to electric appliances and all other technology designed to not last on purpose to have clients buying every year yet deliberately using this tactic because of the pre-existent belief in people that ‘nothing is perfect = things are able to break down’ or ‘ it is actually how things are and can’t be changed’ – and within that single acceptance and the proliferation of it as ‘who we are’ we have our own creation as this world wherein self perfection is placed as a crazy person’s unattainable dream.

Hear us well, we are here to get ourselves to realize ourselves as that Self Perfection that we’ve never known due to our own limitations towards this point – we are here to remove all threads of self-imposed limitation, capping ourselves, placing a lampshade to not allow ourselves to give the totality of our potential – and thus because seeing everyone else accepting that point of ‘failure’, we accept that as ourselves, as the world and entire system with everyone participating within an ingrained acceptance of ‘we are able to fail and fuck it all up, it’s our nature’ which is what must stop in all ways. Thus the importance of having to remove that inherent flawed idea of ourselves to no longer re-create that at the greater-picture level which is the current world system wherein the greatest atrocities and crimes against life are then justified and covered up with the excuse ‘Oh but I’m only human, we are not perfect’

No more excuses to be One and Equal as Life –

Liberation

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to define the word ‘Liberation’ in relation ‘to/towards others’ first instead of living it as self, as myself here in practical living application

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word ‘Liberation’ and seeing it as a ‘greater process’ that involves ‘many people’ instead of realizing that Liberation as myself is lived every moment that I am here breathing, holding no judgment, no emotion or feeling or any other process that isn’t being self-directive as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit the word ‘Liberation’ as a definition in contraposition to ‘enslavement’ which is simply limiting the word within and as the connotation that I have been experiencing and defining as in relation to this world and country in particular with ‘heroes’ and people ‘liberating’ entire countries from imperialist oppressors.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link the word ‘liberation’ as ‘becoming free from a point of external superior- point of authority’ which is once again, defined and created upon history and its processes where an apparent ‘liberation’ took place for the betterment of society.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see liberation as the result of struggle, of fights, of revolutions, of violence of any kind as I am relating the word ‘liberation’ to how wars and guerrillas exist as ‘liberating processes’ that encompass violence and abuse to be able to ‘obtain/regain freedom’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to directly link the word ‘liberation’ to imprisonment and/or general oppression coming from people in power and thus limiting the word ‘liberating’ to a process of ‘re-obtaining power’ through struggle.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit the expression of the word ‘Liberation’ according to a social process and seeing it as something ‘outside of myself’ that involves ‘moving masses’ instead of realizing the word ‘Liberation’ as myself Here in every moment of breathing here as a being that’s not defined by the stance of others – but realize Liberation as myself in every moment that I exist without strings attached to that which I know-of, that which ‘I was’ and doesn’t exist ‘here’ when I exist as breath only.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link the word ‘Liberation’ to that painting having the impersonation of ‘Liberty’ as a woman within the context of the french revolution– thus only seeing and limiting ‘liberation’ as an act of overcoming oppression, enslavement and overall disregard of human life within a polarized context only. Pic of Painting by Eugène Delacroix – La liberté guidant le peuple

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the word ‘Liberation’ linked to a ‘hero’ a someone that is willing to take on the wheel to direct others into liberation – just as history has placed it for us.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the word liberation lived as myself as having to do something as ‘big’ as ‘liberating masses’ due to being existing as the limited definition of liberation in relation to social context instead of self first.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myelf from the word ‘Liberation’ in seeing it as a ‘greater purpose’ that implies living it ‘towards others’ instead of realizing that I was taking the points above mentioned as a ‘framework’ for the definition I have created of the word ‘liberation’ which had no ‘direct-relation’ to myself and my practical application here as the word ‘liberation’ itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define ‘liberation’ as an outside-process that involves others being liberated from an oprressive-system/ government/ way of life without realizing that to be able to become the living word as ‘liberation’ this point has to start for myself as Self first – Here in practical physical application.

I forgive myself that I haven’t actually considered already being living ‘Liberation’ as myself within my process and my current stance and still  believe that it is something to ‘obtain’ somewhere or through certain processes that involve not only myself but others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define ‘liberation’ as a point to be ‘proud’-of  ‘living-as’ as something that could be misplaced as ‘superior’ within the context of the whole, without realizing that this self-liberation process can be taken-on by everyone willing to live these points as Self by accepting Equality as life as the ultimate liberation– Here -  in every moment, boundless to whatever we’ve seen and perceived as ‘who we are’ which is in itself the very first act of actual self liberation I can re-define myself as: living as myself here in letting go of all that which I see limits myself, ‘de-fines’ myself, everything that not allows me to see a point in clarity here as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create my own limitation as the self definition I allowed myself to live as and live-by within my reality for all my life.

Self-Platform for Liberation is lived moment by moment living the word as myself implies living in the simplicity as Breath as Life here in every moment whenever a point of limitation as an experience is created which stirs up an experience within myself.

Liberation as in not being carrying-around the ‘memories’ of ‘who I am’ and present that as myself but instead be the actual space-here as myself in and out in every moment of breath that I do not allow myself to fall back into any point of limitation or self abuse existent as thoughts/words/images/pictures/memories/beliefs that lead me back to a point of definition/pre-conception that limits my stance as self in the moment in simplicity.

Liberation is the point of letting go of all the regard for opinions/beliefs/judgments that might come from the inevitable standing in my every-day life for the rest of my existence here –

Liberation as the point of being able to stand anywhere and not ‘lose’-myself within the pictures and create an immediate ‘assessment’ of my standing in comparison to other beings.

Liberation as the recognition of myself as Life nonetheless, nothing more either – Equal as any being any part of this existence I am one and equal-to, stopping in the moment the judgments and opinions that might arise within me.

Liberation is also the act of expressing myself in the moment, not holding back or refraining my expression, but delving and getting to live myself as expression in a moment and letting go of limitations every time they arise based on knowledge and information as the indoctrination we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to ‘live’-as within the nature of this system currently.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever censor myself and my expression based on cultural taboos, family beliefs, general knowledge, manners, etiquettes, definitions in relation to ‘who I am’ as a woman, etc – I have to say this point I see isn’t that prominent as from a very early age I did manage to what I called ‘speak out my mind’ and enjoying breaking those ‘silently commonly-agreed rules’ that exist within a society or group or place or moment’ – lol I’ve always enjoyed sort of defying, ‘challenging’ the system within this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that for me to be liberation, to live as liberation there has to be a constant reminder of the ‘opposite’ which is opression/enslavement.

I live the word liberation as self here in every moment of physical breath as self here – No boundaries, no limitations – but constant ‘hereness’ in directing myself to create and establish liberation as my very expression here.

Self-Remembrance : putting myself together in moments of ‘self created oppression’:  I got breath – Self Platform : we know we got our primary platform which is the first step into living liberation as myself – liberating myself from being controlled by my own mind and thus standing within the process of Equalizing that point as everyone that is.

‘Liberation’ lived as myself every moment I stop a cycle, a pattern, a habit, every-time I am able to stop ‘following my thoughts’ and breathe to let go – Liberation is lived as self every time I am able to walk empty inside, no judgment, no feeling, no emotion but only physically walking through the point.

Liberation – more to explore later on.