276. Why Do We LOVE FREE Stuff?

Both words Love and Free entail the utmost fallacy and life-abuse, yes, keep reading and you’ll understand why.

 

“Social change organization have been marginalized by the idea that support must be FREE as they give support FREE–but in fact it is subsidized by corporations to be able to provide FREE stuff –This addiction to FREE STUFF is ensuring that the 99% cannot stand up and fund change –Every one is trapped in self interest where FREE STUFF determine decisions — Some common sense that a group must be funded should be realized if change is ever to become a global solution –as long as value is equal to FREE STUFF, the brainwashing trap all in the prison of Money Bottom of Form” – Bernard Poolman

 

This is an Eye-Opening statement that we usually obviously have mostly ignored wherein we have become so used to falling for all the ‘free stuff’ and believe that there are actual ‘free’ things in life. We obviously ignore that there is no-thing in this world that can be carried out without having a point of consumption/extraction/ work/ actions/ time that leads to a certain consequence. This is how whenever people say ‘Hey, watch Zeitgeist!’ and point out their solution being ‘burning all the money/ eradicating the money system’ is a clear indication that brainwashing has been quite deep to understand the implications of what it means to pay for something as a process of acknowledging/ understanding of the resources, processes and labor that took place to create such ‘thing’ that then becomes ‘free’. Sure, the Earth don’t charge us Money for what is grown here, however the ecosystems run through natural processes wherein certainly a lot of life and death processes take place, which obviously imply consumption, relationships, deterioration of the environment which is now carrying all the effects of all these activities lived-out by the inhabitants – the effects of this is demonstrating what happens when we  break the natural cycles of this physical reality in order to establish quantum time mind-desires on a space-time reality where things take Time and actual Work to develop. This is the consequence of implementing our mind-reality upon physical reality: absolute destruction and a constant unstopping depletion of life on Earth, within this, removing Money from the equation can only lead to further unawareness of the actual forces that have made of our current system seemingly sustainable, which is human labor along with the resources that are certainly ‘not for free’ as we’ve explained just now.

 

The way we have been educated is to believe in ‘Freedom’ and as such this libertinage leads to the idea/belief of ‘Free Stuff’ that is a perfect and suitable concept for a capitalist system that promised freedom through consumption – you can watch the Century of Self for self-education purposes and understand the role of Public Relations as the actual cogwheels that use the mind-ingrained patterns to create a sense of ‘independence’ and ‘empowerment’ through buying/ consuming from where this whole idea of Freedom comes from in order to in fact Sell More/ Consume more – did it work? Just look around yourself and this entire world, of course it did which is only possible due to us having been ignorant of the actual forces at work within/as our own mind.

 

If wee look at the tactics to create junkies/ drug addicts, the dealer first gives a ‘free sample’ to the person as a bait in order to expand the clientele, since there is quite a high percentage of certainty that the person will come back for more, this time obviously there won’t be any ‘free stuff’ to take. I place this example to make more obvious the implications of how we believe that receiving free stuff is ‘cool’ without measuring the actual agenda behind such belief and ignoring the fact that nothing is ever really benevolent and ‘free’ and as such, it should never be valued as something ‘truly positive’ in our consumerist society since no-product/ no-thing that is given ‘for free’ is devoid of being an actual product of physical and logistic processes that involve a production process in order to get to be something that can be ‘given for free.’ This should already make it clear that ‘free stuff’ is a delusion.

 

When we look at sales and how we believe that things are in fact ‘cheaper’ or ‘on sale,’  we in fact ignore that the retail prices of things are usually hundreds of times more than the actual cost of production – which is usually done and paid as ‘slave labor/ cheap pay’ and as such, the owner deciding to earn a ‘little less’ to sell more through placing things “on sale” is just another tactic to in fact get rid of all the merchandise to get all the new stuff in store and continue selling at ‘normal prices’ just because it is ‘new stuff’ and ‘no longer on sale’ – Great Lies. Again: there is no ‘real benevolence’ or positivity in ‘free stuff’ if you actually look at what makes it possible for you to even become aware of such ‘free stuff.’

 

Now, in terms of us at Desteni being a a group that was funded by people that understand the implications of being Equal in all ways within this world and process toward change that implies being Equal to the System that we all live in, it is obvious that we are not exempt of using money to survive and continue expanding just like any other person/business that requires money to live. We understand how the system works and this is why we are providing Education such as the Desteni I Process and educational material at Eqafe in order to continue expanding the already 6 years of providing unconditional support to any being within the internet at the Desteni Forum, through all our blogs/vlogs in our Journey To Life and the free courses like the Desteni Lite Process. All of these process imply the dedication of a full time job- certainly implying More time than your regular 9-5 job, a lot of preparation and financial stability in order to be well fed, well educated and having the available time to support more beings, because we understand that the Key to Self Change is through Education, and that’s what we currently provide as well as the solution for a global change that we are currently busy implementing as the Equal Money Capitalism proposal. All of this implies having just what any other human being on this current world system has in order to Live Well: the necessary income to have the available time to provide such services is not given just by ‘spreading self support’ and just consuming air to breathe – that’s obviously Not how it works.

 

If we look at a ‘spiritual teacher’ and an example is here,you’ll hear how it’s fairly easy to link a positive message to self-promotion for meditation and all other forms of psychic abilities, intuition and ‘connecting with your angels,’ which we all know is all bullshit and using blatant tactics to sell some made-up services that people pay for within a self-enlightened interest mode. This seen as ‘okay’ because ‘it’s stuff that you want to hear’ and as such is considered positive, the same way we believe candies are positive and fun and believe this is so until kids turn hyperactive and show early cavities in their teeth, along with elevated levels of sugar – is that real fun and treats for our children?

I mean, if we wanted to make easy money by telling lies and speaking what people Like and Want to hear, we could be making great money – but, since we are speaking the reality of this world and providing tools for self support that imply no miracles and magical acts, people then are turned off because we all want this quick fix, easy-doings type of solutions wherein all that is realized is how we have become so used to our drive-through lifestyle wherein we literally just want to drive-through, ask for our order, get what we want in a few minutes and pay a few bucks for a process that does not involve only the ‘final product’ that you consume, but all the forces at work in order to make it possible for it to exist and as all ‘fast food’ and McDonald’s solutions, this implies animal abuse, labor abuse, exploitation, unhealthy foods that cause illnesses and diseases as well as certain sugar addictions that are not that ‘hard to quit’ once people believe it’s better to ‘buy McDonald’s than cooking fresh food at home.’ This here is the definition of  self-accepted slavery, isn’t it? This only an example that can be extended to virtually any other job in the world that we all depend on.

 

So, we want to create change but we want to give no money to fund it? How does that work? It’s plain to see that virtually everything we benefit from implies a process where money is involved, everything we wear, eat, use on a daily basis is money, the houses, the cars, the so called ‘free areas’ implied money to pay for the labor to build them, education, even growing food is currently not a ‘free act’ either since you have to Buy the seeds and the necessary nutriments to fertilize the Earth, pay for the water to water your crops, etc. We haven’t educated ourselves to understand the processes and actual work-force and resources-used to generate a sustainable system. Yet, we only learn to complain whenever something goes up in prices and are always waiting for ‘luvin’ the free stuff, the sales, the bargains and make ‘great deals’ with that. Right.

 

I am realizing to what extent I had been brainwashed with regards to money, how within certain contexts we make it ‘okay’ to pay for things and for others we believe that we should ‘have it for free,’ because we tend to look at the ‘final product’ and disregard all the amount of mouths fed, all the resources used, the time and education that a person requires in order to create a certain piece of product/ service that is provided. What’s more fascinating is how we even believe that organizations that are determined to Change the system should charge No money at all –how is such thing possible considering that money is the one thing that has enabled us to be in the current position of being educated beings around the world that are committed to fund for a change in this reality – otherwise we would be as voice-less as the 2+ billions of people that we are in fact standing up for, to create and establish a world system that In fact creates a correction from the very root of the flawed structure that we have all accepted ‘as is’ to finally benefit Them as well, the voiceless, the uneducated.

 

What’s more interesting and absolutely fascinating is that all the Education and material at Desteni and Eqafe explain precisely the keys that enable you to understand how change must take place, why we have to be In the system to create a change, where is the ‘problem’ stemming from and how to walk the correction beginning at an individual level. There is No other group in the world that provides the explanations from the very beginning of human civilization and even before time was created in order to understand how and why we are here in this current ‘mess’ we’ve all learned to complain about but never realize our self responsibility toward it,  how and why we have gotten ourselves to this current process of crisis and how Change must be funded with the very same money that we have used to abuse and enfilade beings to win the ‘war of life’ and abuse everyone else on the way.

 

So, the same way we have spoken of freedom being a fallacy and a concept word that sounds as good as ‘love,’ we expose the same with regards to ‘Free Stuff’ that constitute a fallacy in fact since there will always be mouths to feed, resources to consume and work-force-time directed to create such ‘free stuff.’ We can instead ask ourselves what type of enslavement are we accepting and allowing when expecting things to ‘be free’ instead of actually working to implement a system wherein actual freedom will be the ultimate law of equilibrium: equal rights = equal responsibilities and as such one can see that there are always actions and reactions, there is a force and consequence, there is an intention that creates an effect, there is an ability and a duty in equal-manner. That’s the basic giving and receiving consideration that must be understood in our society, to finally stop being brainwashed to think ‘there are free things’ and this ties in with the saying we have at Desteni ‘None is Free until All is Free’ and this is actually implying being free from the Money-Consciousness that we have all participating in wherein we have forgotten who we are as one and equal and the giving and receiving in equality this implies – instead, we have reduced everything to numeric values that we then believe are ‘more’ or ‘less’ than, which is precisely the system that we must transcend through understanding how we created money, why and how we have to use money in order to correct the deliberately abusive relationships we’ve funded with it. Just like anything else: if money became the problem = money becomes the solution.

Real Freedom can only exist when understanding how reality works and as such become an equal force to support to change how the current system that enable abuse operates, because this is our creation: we face it as the gods we have believed ourselves to be.

This is fairly simple: you contribute with paying for your self support and as such you are contributing to continue growing and expanding such support for others, this is the only way that we can ensure that people Hear the Solutions to Equalize Life for All living beings, wherein the same money that we have enslaved ourselves-to becomes our own actual key to freedom, a real one at last and only then can we dare to speak about real love and care for all as Equals.

 

For further information, visit:

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To support Desteni while educating yourself about who we are, how the world works, how to support ourselves to learn how to live and invest for material that will last you for a lifetime: www.eqafe.com

 

 

Interviews:

To understand the level of abuse LOVE implies, please Educate yourself with:

• Kryon – My Existential History – Part 8  Why is Spiritual Love Energy so Powerful?

• The Crucifixion of Jesus – Part 24 – Give as you would like to receive explained

• How to Live Harmony and Peace (Part 1) – Part 142

• How to Live Harmony and Peace (Part 2) – Part 143

 

Also read:

• Freedom: Free from Doom

• Day 46: Free Choice Godhood

• Day 274: Eating Disorders and Desteni

• The Circus Act of CharACTers (Part Two): DAY 274

Watch:

• Who Knows What this Means: Do Unto Others as You’d have Done Unto You?

 

And to Educate yourself about Money Consciousness, please invest on Self Education with  The Soul of Money series

220. Drug Culture: Mad Society as a Lifestyle

Perfect Elitist Enslavement with a belief of Freedom.

A branch of the Elitist Character is being able to form/ mold/ shape your ‘personality’ with traits of Your Choice – lol – which is the choice that money is able to spare when you have your life essentially ‘solved’ to not be begging for money on the streets or working and actually ‘earning your money.’  I’m going to be writing about what came to be a mix of an elitist-intellectual-revolutionary/antagonist/libertine character that was mostly sought to be ‘lived’ within my life through and as this kind of fascination to become ‘acculturated’ in the drug scene. Yes, in common sense, a person that is barely able to make money to live cannot possibly suddenly be trying to be fascinated by the effects that chemicals create inside your body, trying to reach some form of bliss/ enlightenment with particular substances, read books and information about it, watch movies on the topic or just hold on a continuous habit of indulging in them, which obviously requires one to have More money than the required to Live in order to pay for pills/ drugs to make You Happy. This is depicted quite well in a book by Brett Easton Ellis Less than Zero.

 

I went to the supermarket yesterday and noticed three guys being quite excited about getting a bottle of Jack Daniels while overhearing one of them saying ‘this place should be run by someone like my dad,’ complaining about the ‘slowness’ of the service to get the bottle, which was barely a 3 minute wait. I could imagine/project or almost predict their entire evening with a bottle of Jack Daniels, most likely ending up puking it out on the toilet, feeling like shit the next day and going with a massive hangover to their top-elitist university nearby. Yes, this is a ubiquitous pattern nowadays, a ‘lifestyle,’  and no it is not criticizing or judging it, this is what we have become: once you have money to cover your basic needs, You SEEK for something more than surviving – because that is already covered.

 

So this is an aspect of the elitist character, because there are many other conditions that lead to drug consumption, which is also the opposite polarity of poverty, which you can read her “Huffing makes me Forget My Tummy Aches” based on the street kids that sniff cement or glue in order to mitigate hunger – as well as the toxic paint Romanian kids would sniff in that documentary that I also recommend watching if you haven’ Children Underground. That’s another point to walk in itself, but what I’ll share is from the perspective/ side I got to live in and be most ‘acquainted’ with – so to speak.

 

Drug Culture

I made up a conclusion of why Black Metal/ Death Metal brewed mostly in Scandinavian countries – later on in a then flourishing/stable America – that have the best and most stable economy and general well-being, in which I created a hypothesis that because everything was just ‘too fine’ and ‘happy’ in their world, they had to create some form of opposition to balance out the dread of having everything being seemingly fine inside, but the hell inside was not sorted out, as well as becoming aware of the obvious disparity it is to live in a ‘First world’ like that and having wars, poverty, starvation, abuse in any other place in the world;  yes, it is enough to already label us all Mad people to not see the obvious polarized ‘nature’ we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become.  This is a similar point in our capitalist societies wherein we are absolutely living in a virtual world wherein things like Depression and Social Phobia have become a lifestyle – and I realize it’s not only a past-century thing, it’s always existed in humanity and the ‘crazy’ people were mostly out skirted in order to not cause any problems to the so-called healthy rest of the population – you can read that in ‘Stultifera Navis’ the First Chapter in Michel Foucault’s Madness and Civilization: A History of Insanity in the Age of Reason. (1988) wherein madness was certainly something that should be kept ‘away’ – nowadays, we’ve embraced it and called it a lifestyle fueled with designer drugs. Wow, really, wow. And why? Because Drugs = Addictions = Constant and Certain Profit Making = Lots of Money.

All of this is mixed into a cultural set of identification to a form of escapism due to how Alienated we’ve become from any form of actual understanding of how everything that enables life to be Lived is produced, what it is to work on our own sustenance. Instead we have focused on and then focusing on things that will give you a mental high in the comfort of your 4 walls room, which is how the majority of people are living as in this world.

I remember when going to the family doctor when I was a child, he would always have all these pens, notepads, rulers, sticks for your tongue and virtually everything plastic made around the area had names of medicines on them. I am sure you are quite aware of this and I questioned it at the time and my mother explained how the companies would give the doctors money/ commissions if they would sell a particular brand of medicine. I took it as normal since it was quite obvious that we were being sold many things all over the place, so it seemed when simply becoming aware of all the billboards on the streets and the suggestive ways in which to BUY our happiness, our health, our improvement, our sanity.

 

This morning I began hearing more than watching The Marketing of Madness  and I say I begun because I’ve barely gotten to the 3rd part out of 18, but as I was hearing, all this entire network of information was suddenly here for me to realize that I must now write about this. Why? I have had a strange fascination for drugs and madness and this goes as far as when I was a little girl and they would joke-threat me to take me to the Batán, which is/was the most well known mental hospital in a smaller city nearby where I lived. Why? I just liked playing crazy, it became a form of entertainment that’s for sure, it was something staged in order to attract people’s attention, well to freak out my parents and sisters mostly.  To me insane people were quite ‘free’ according to my schemes, which is what mostly fascinated me – why? Hell, All I know is that from the moment I got cable TV – as I’ve mentioned several times in the past, it was the ‘opening of myself to the world’ at the key-point age of 7 years old, I was more aware of the eccentricity of musicians and I would definitely always hear around the house how ‘artists take drugs / get high to look so careless/ free/ expressive’ which is what to everyone’s eyes would Justify their behavior as ‘careless’ = free.  Before that, just playing ‘crazy’ was something that could give me a thrill for doing something ‘out of the ordinary’ which I’ll open up in posts to come.

 

This is quite an extensive topic that I’ve been writing about here and there throughout this process, but it’s been not that long ago when I was busy with some other character that this entire insanity-point came up again, along with realizing the fascination I had with certain ‘alternative cultures’ based on what I grew up reading, watching on TV, learning from ‘artist’s biographies’ of how most of them had some form of insanity, drug addiction or plain disturbance, which is how I almost lead myself to touch upon those fields within a self-aware act of investigating madness and drugs, then defining all of this to be of my preference/likeness = self brainwashing. Why would that be? again, for the reason that I had the time, had the money to not be living only on survival mode and explore my own ‘personal fascinations’ for a while, enough time to now be able to write about everything that I saw, witness, tried out and have realized now when it comes to see how everything that I had thought to be quite a ‘rebellious act’ of the type of stuff that I was into/ that I liked, came to be just another polarity in the system that required my courageous fascination with things that I deemed as ‘forbidden’ in order to entertain myself further, leading me then into spirituality/ seeking god and wanting to mix both. I mean I was quite into researching DMT and Entheogens and all these ‘awakening’ procedures as well as the effects LSD had to ‘see beyond the veil’ and whatnot. My experimentation was not to get Lost or evade my reality, but to find some form of ‘divinity,’ lol this is the ultimate mindfuck that anyone can fall for in this world wherein you can buy anything you want, give it a meaning and call that a talisman for protection – same with drugs:  take it, feel good, realize that you re not ‘mad’ or ‘crazy’ but just an ‘Awakened’ person, yep and there you go: specialness + drugs + money + boredom = perfect slaves on drugs – or as Thom Yorke would write ‘a pig in a cage on antibiotics.’

 

Now, the personal endeavor to write about this is because I immediately noticed there were still reactions when hearing all these drug names, all the movies, books, relationships came to mind and I realized that I had not opened this point up mostly as a point of reservedness and morality according to how it would be seen as ‘insane’ to have some fascination for madness and drugs – both together were like a perfect cocktail for self-debauchery, that is quite ubiquitous in our current culture/ media, which is where I got it all from in the first place. Idolizing junkies is precisely not what I would want to continue perpetuating as a fluffy reaction within me – yes, there are feelings attached to this entire topic – why? That’s what I will find out as I continue writing here – a sense of freedom in a constrictive world? A sense of ‘limitless expression’?  As a result of writing out this, I experimented for sure that there are threads to be walked in order to stop keeping this fascination as part of my little-secrets to keep this bit of a world that I still wanted to be defined by, somehow, because of the entire participation in emotions and feeling when touching upon all things madness, drugs, eccentric behavior and the ‘inextricable human mind,’ which is part of my ability to now be quite thankful to Understand my Mind and be aware of how one can virtually pick any point of fascination according to what one is exposed to, and use it only as a constant point to re-fuel an energetic relationship toward it. This entire aspect is one of those parts of a personality that I became quite infatuated with while developing my emotional/ feeling body, so this is relevant, absolutely relevant to walk.

 

So, I’ll continue with going sharing part of the personal story and writing out Self Forgiveness, Self Corrective Statements and Realizations about such ‘fascinations’ as mere treats for the mind, which certainly must be stopped so that I expose the entire thing for what it is: just another way to entertain ourselves and pay for it while becoming ‘hooked on drugs’ which is virtually getting ‘hooked on Energy’ wherein the Mind is the only one that benefits.

 

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Documentaries:

• The Marketing of Madness

• Big Bucks, Big Pharma: Marketing Disease & Pushing Drugs

• Bellevue Inside Out – YouTube

Vlog:

• 2012 Cure for Cancer & Prozac Nation: a Profit-driven Reality

• 2011 Why is Society based on Alcohol?

• 2010 Media Creates Bi-Polar People – YouTube

Blogs:

• SELF-enJOY-MEnt: DAY 220

Day 220: The Greatest Cult in History

*Watch Curiosity Season 2 Episode 4 ‘Brainwashed’ (or read this blog) to See the Devastating effects of Brainwashing

Blogs on Drugs and Madness:

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  Addictions in the Equal Money System « Equal Money for ALL as LIFE

• Weep-on US with Drugs and Golden Bullets

• “Huffing makes me Forget My Tummy Aches”

• Dysfunctional Minds «

• 63. The Perfect Drug

• 109. We Hate Love! We Love Hate! –

• 125. An Alternative Pop Culture Child: raised by MTV

• 110.The Mad judging the Crazy «

• 2012 Desensitizing: A Culture of Indifference «

• Day 42: Toxic Fun–Drugs as Enslavement «

• 166.Absinthe-Minded Comfort Zone «

• War On Drugs « Equal Money for ALL as LIFE

• It’s Fried-day Night, Mr. Self Destruct

 

Interviews:

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  Demons in the Afterlife

• Self Awareness steps for the Elite

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  Quantum Mind Self Awareness

169. Imagination as a Distraction to Not Do things

When it comes to walking the procrastination character in relation to imagination, I could see myself having both positive and negative projections wherein within ‘playing’ with both, I would end up simply being entertained in the mind by either/or with no physical / tangible doing that would mean a single decision to get things done, such as just writing it out.

Thus as much as imagination would be linked to facing a point of fear in relation to the task at hand, the positive imagination would be me convincing myself of what I could instead do to not have to face the point of actually just doing it.

 

A specific thought among others is when I think of me being at the office of my professor and waiting for a verdict on my paper wherein such single image of the office is linked with a negative energy experience that I have created a resistance toward due to thinking and believing that the word ‘revision’ means doing it all over again several times. I explained the thought of ‘the office’ in the previous blog linked to fear of having to confront my ideas with another person – hence the thought would become an actual play out of events in my mind which is more in the realm of imagination of how it would go finally facing the point and how I would direct myself in the situation:

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a resistance to actually doing the written document due to this single thought of me sitting in front of my professor’s chair at his office and waiting for a verdict on the current state of the work, hoping for it to go well without realizing that with me creating this single thought and going into the imagination of him telling me that it is either ‘done’ or ‘requires a lot of re-writing to be done,’ I create an actual resistance to do anything at all – this means that whether my imagination is positive or negative about it, I remain entertained only in my mind about it instead of actually physically doing it.

 

When and as I see myself entertaining myself in my mind with regards to a positive or negative feedback upon my work, I stop and I breathe – I realize that what is being created in my mind is of no substance other than my own thoughts that are built upon a future projection of me having ‘finished the work,’ which is precisely what needs to be directed by me in physical reality.

 

I realize that I will invariably have to face such imagination-point as an actual event of going for revisions and that in no way do I require to create an expectation about it being good or bad – I assist and support myself to remain here as breath when and as I approach the office/ the person and take things as breath, ensuring that I do not try to make things only ‘my way’ but am open to perspectives/ constructive criticism that can in fact assist and support me to expand my current view/ perspective on the point.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link the word ‘revision’ to a negative experience wherein I believe that I will have to re-do everything again and link this ‘re-doing’ to the ‘worst case scenario’ that I participate in within my mind, without realizing that this fear is actually me preventing me from actually doing anything at all.

 

Thus, when and as I see myself imagining the moment of revision of my work and being anxious and nervous while having him reading the whole thing, expecting for the worst to happen, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am able and capable of supporting myself to remain here as breath, realize that I can only hear and be willing to co-operate within going through the written document as many times as required in order to have everything done in a suitable manner, without creating any stress or anger for having to repeat the whole thing/ repeat some parts as I see and realize that this is part of doing this work thus

I commit myself to stop any fear and imaginary play outs of the worst case scenario as having to repeat myself several times, which I see is a possibility within the nature of the current task at hand – and that in no way do I require to create a negative experience toward it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a future projection of be expecting ‘the worst’ within the imagination-rolling of this thought of the office wherein I play out a hypothetical situation of me having to re-do the whole thing over and over and over again, getting frustrated about it and this is so without realizing that with me simply giving Into this thinking and imagination processes, I am in fact giving permission for me to eventually really go through this,  as I am being the creator of myself and my reality, believing that I somehow had to ‘face’ such points in order to see ‘who I am’ within them, which is absolutely Not necessary as I can simply decide to stop all future projections in the negative realm of it all ‘going wrong,’ stop all resistances and fears in one single moment and actually do the doing as an actual doing as point of Self Movement that must take place by my own physical decision to type and write it out.

When and as I see myself rolling the thought of the office into an imaginary moment of having to confront my work with another being, I stop and I breathe – I realize that this is me sabotaging myself with no substance to it other than entertaining myself in the mind instead of actually doing – thus

I commit myself to stop going into imagination about future projecting the confrontation/ presentation of my work with other beings and as such, assist and support myself to be here as breath throughout the entire process, as I see and realize that going into nervousness, anxiety or frustration leads nowhere but having to eventually do it all over again no matter what, as I realize that this has to be done and there is no other way around it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the imagination of being in the room of examination with all professors and having them asking the question ‘what does this all have to do with your career’? which is a primary imagination play out due to my own backchat toward my career choice and my belief that I am betraying ‘my vocation’ by now being dedicated more to the study of the human mind and not so much in the creative process of visual arts, without realizing that we use our mind to create and as such there is no possibility to dissociate a physical externalization as an ‘expression’ of ourselves without making use of the mind.

Thus I realize that this self-creation process is of course as relevant as any other aspect/ consideration within any expression, as it is an externalization of who we are/ how we are existing as the mind.

When and as I see myself going into imagination of that moment of having to confront my work and receive criticism for it not being ‘visual arts related,’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that there’s no sense of going into this thoughts and participate within it as it is only based on fear and further backchat that I’ve had toward my own career and current interests in life, which can be certainly equally supported by both activities, as both points are related to who we are as humans and as such, there’s no need to create a dissonance around this in my mind any further.

 

I commit myself to stick to the physical, common-sense reality that is here for me to walk and direct myself in, wherein I do not require to imagine the whole thing ‘being done’ as I can only stick to writing it and working on it as a physical action in the moment, as I see and realize that imagining possible outcomes with it serves no purpose but distraction in relation to the actual work that requires to be done.

— to be continued

 

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Blogs:

Character Dimensions – BACKCHAT Dimension (Part 3): DAY 169

Day 169: After Death Communication – Part 18

 

Supportive Interview:

Eye Twitching – The Body as Teacher