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2012 Instant Gratification

This is part of the stuff that we share and walk at the Desteni forum, which is how we support each other to open up points that we can cross-reference in relation to ‘how we function as individuals’ within this reality, within a system that we have created as a reward-system wherein we sometimes get to experience ourselves within a ‘game’ of sorts wherein you must struggle in order to merely survive and ‘thrive’ within it, which is the entire pursuit of happiness mechanism that we are induced to by our parents, teachers, school systems, media, friends, society in general as a reflection of how we have equated ‘living’ to ‘experiences’ – commonly associated with ‘buying an experience’ and being instantly satisfied with it, only to seek for more after a while. That’s feeding only the mind’s cravings there.

 

So the following belongs to Cam Mantia in his writings within the forum.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire a quick fix to bringing about a change in myself to stand as equality and oneness – I realize that the mind moves quickly and jumps from time to time and does not remain here; I have gotten so used to the immediate gratification of the mind that I had forgotten that this reality is currently time based and requires time to play and out and to be lived here in breath.

 

That point of Self Forgiveness opened up the ‘instant gratification points here’ where we have equated this process to something that will be giving us some ‘bliss’ or ‘glory’ as having and experiencing an instant change or have a drive-thru fulfilling experience of stopping a particular pattern or habit. Within this consumerist society, we have forgotten that doing things actually takes space, time and effort to get something done. We’ve become so used to only handing out money in order to get what’s available in the store – and in that, we definitely alienate ourselves from the production process that is behind that ‘finished product.’

 

 

So the mind moving quickly and wanting to get things done asap, is a definitive pattern I have walked and I am currently working with as well, though I had not linked it to a sense of gratification or ‘props’ for my ego until  I started writing about it within a mind construct wherein I have linked ‘effectiveness’ to rushing, wanting to get things done in an almost anxious manner wherein I have not allowed myself to step down a notch from my usual ‘drive’ – which is energetic in nature – instead of walking point by point in the physical, here, at the physical breath pace.

 

The interesting thing is that I tend to judge capitalism and its production mechanisms wherein the fastest something is produced = the better, the quicker, the more satisfying and ‘ultimately fulfilling’ something is, as that is translated to profit and ‘power’ for whoever holds it in such case. At a personal mind-level, I work the same way, wherein being and perceiving myself as ‘fast and accurate’ is translated to feeling instantly and ‘inadvertently’ gratified with having accomplished something.

I recognize that I have deliberately applied myself in stopping any feeling as a the fluffy ego-props this point of ‘efficiency’ can be equated to –  as it is within the application of humbleness wherein anything we do/ say/ accomplish is not taken as a trophy, but seen and realized for the practicality of it.  I had a history of reacting when getting public recognition as in getting embarrassed about it – later on realizing that I was playing in fact the opposite role as well within seeking recognition, which I have written about in the past and how it was the first aspect that Bernard pointed out to me the day I got to the farm, lol that was cool. Since then, I have realized that I can acknowledge these points that I have walked-through and applied, recognize them for what they are and stopping ‘adding on’ to the personal record. This is then living each moment with its realization and moving on – clear- no keeping track of the personal record.

 

How did I get to that realization? Well, we don’ require to keep a record of ourselves as that would be in essence having to ‘load’ an entire lifetime-achievement and keeping it as ‘who we are’ in every moment – which is how the ego is formed – instead of realizing that if there is an actual self-realization, we integrate it as ourselves in the moment, without having to boast about it or make ourselves feel ‘better’ or ‘bad’ for having done or realized something – thus we understand that through self-forgiveness we give ourselves back to ourselves wherein no ‘more or less than’ exist, wherein we equalize ourselves to the points that we walk as our very own living application, which is seeing and realizing that we cannot possibly get somewhere/ become more or ‘achieve’ something in separation of ourselves – there is nothing to ‘earn’ or ‘lose’ – only points to realize and align within the principle of what is best for all.

 

That’s how I realized I was ‘keeping a record/ score’ of lifetime achievements and ‘loading that up’ as the idea of myself – once we stop defining ourselves according to ‘what we have done/ who we were/ how we have lived’ as the past, we give ourselves a blank slate to remain with the basic and supportive points that we have integrated as part of us integrating self-direction as a living-decision.

I also  discovered this when writing out a mind construct – I share some self corrective statements that contain the exposed above:

 

When and as I see myself rushing within my world in an idea of rushing = ‘being efficient’ I stop, I breathe. I realize that this is a copied-pattern within the belief that through rushing I will feel ‘good’ about having done something in the fastest and most accurate way when in reality, I am only ‘playing a game’ against time, against others wherein I perceive ‘the rest’ as ‘slow’ and ‘inefficient.’ I stop following this self-belief of having to rush through everything I do as a point of self-definition that makes me feel ‘good’ about myself/ feel ‘more than’ which are experiences created as a positive thinking within my personal record of lifetime achievements. Lol

 

When and as I see myself doing things from the starting point of ‘rushing’ and ‘getting it done as fast as possible’ – I stop and I breathe. I realize that doing things the fastest way is not an actual way of living here as breath at the physical pace, but existing as a constant energetic rush at a mind level. Thus, I direct myself to do things at the pace that it is required wherein I am aware of my movements being self-directive and not out of ‘rushing’ – the same with my breathing-pace wherein there is nothing to ‘compete’ or ‘achieve’ within buying groceries, but simply getting what’s required and that’s it.


Just in case you were wondering about the ‘buying groceries’ point, that’s part of a mind construct on going to the supermarket experience and getting  ‘as fast as I can’ in and out of it in order to achieve the ultimate task of buying groceries in the most ‘fast and accurate way’ lol! There’s a LOT more than what meets the eye when walking a single event through writing in such specific ways as we do within doing mind constructs, it’s fascinating. And this point is definitely related to some of this instant gratification point which becomes our current ‘living in the fast lane’ type of lifestyles, wherein some people have dared to say ‘we barely have time to think’ – but I would say that it is the other way around, we think too much, we consume too much, we rush too much within the almost embedded idea that ‘time is money.’ And just to give another perspective on the self corrective statements, the ‘acquired pattern’ is in relation to taking my father as a reference from whom I have copied this pattern/ habit, which makes it fascinating to see how we acquire all our ‘personal quirks’ from seemingly mundane events like ‘going to the supermarket with my father’ – fascinating stuff that you get to walk through the Desteni I Process.

 

I’ll leave it up to here for now, there’s many cool points that open up when looking at ‘instant gratification’ as the mind’s tendency to seek for quick fixes to fulfill the very programming that we have created for ourselves, to keep ourselves busy ‘up there’ while perceiving that breathing and being here is ‘wasting time’ or that we should be ‘doing something’ – it’s time to walk a process of balancing our day wherein we give ourselves time for ourselves, to write, to reflect on who we are every day, what we participate in and also remaining effective and directive within any physical work/ task that we require to give direction to as part of our daily reality.

 

There’s an entire aspect of the instant gratification based on our consumerist society, wherein we have all become addicts seeking the next fix – and we have to be quite aware that within this process there is certainly nothing to ‘earn’ or ‘accomplish’ that can make us ‘more’ in any way whatsoever. It is essentially only adjusting ourselves to the reality and living-principle that we should have always existed as, and it is only now that we are able to walk ourselves through our writings and Self-Forgiveness in Self Honesty in order to demystify our eternal ego-competition toward ourselves and everyone else that has a mind in this world – within this, we hold the actual power to stop an entire system of profit that is based on satisfying these very ideas of getting experiences as props for our personal score/ ego, as a lifetime achievement of experiences that we can then hold on as ‘who we are.’ We are the creators = we are able to correct chasing after experiences and ‘points’ to add to our board, and within that, stopping the cog wheels that are keeping the current system alive.

 

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This time I feature Jeanne’s creation because it suits our current ‘living mentality’– lol – and the instant gratification point as the fuel that keeps this current system of zombies that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become. The quote says it all

 

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Self-Gratifying Machines

I came across a picture on Facebook that read the following:

‘There’s a point in your life when you get tired
of trying to fix everything
and trying to make everyone happy
When you finally decide to quite,
it’s NOT giving up.
It’s realizing you don’t need certain people
and the bullshit they bring to your life’

 

It’s in essence a declaration of abdicating self responsibility wherein there is a great scoop of victimization as the person writing being a little white dove that had to sort out everyone’s lives and wanting to change the world and when eventually getting tired of it, deciding to ‘quit’ by shutting themselves off from everyone that they’ve attempted to change while blaming them for ‘bringing bullshit into their life’ – and they seal the deal by justifying it as ‘not giving up’ as if this was in any way part of a life mission they had towards others.

There is this constant desire for the human to make oneself better than, beyond/above a certain point – just like the cliché you see in movie ‘I’m so over him/her/it/that’ and within this, placing oneself in a pedestal to continue existing in the the self-gratifying bubble of such events being nothing but ‘obstacles’ to one’s precious  oath. Inevitably separating oneself from others and neglecting the fact of self creation at all times. It’s ludicrous and people actually click ‘I Like’ to this so I had to share some perspectives and get my spoon in the pie.

I placed a quote from Bernard there:

 

  • Marlen Vargas Del Razo ‎”The point of self forgiveness is to realize that all will have to give up on revenge if we want to change the future of the planet”Bernard Poolman
    This brings common sense in realizing it’s must not be a ‘shut down’ but an actual process of SELF Forgiveness that is required to take SELF Responsibility for yourself as your creation in this world

     

  • And I got the following remarks:

Chita Vergel de Dios at this point in my life i must not be dictated by what people think of me. i will do things that make me happy coz i am a freespirit and not a tight asshole.

 

So ‘freespirits’ – as the new age neologism it seems to be – and ‘tight assholes’ don’t mingle, okay got that.  Though, if we look at this statement, it can justify virtually anything for the sake of ‘being happy’  and being a ‘free spirit’ which is the equivalent to the usual ‘free-will’ and ‘free choice’ that is taken as the most common deluded apparent ‘right’ within people to be/do/speak/babble  whatever they want because that’s apparently  what they come to do here on Earth, nothing but self-pleasuring machines. Bukowski wasn’t that lost after all.

And another one:

  • Albert Gonzalez ‎”you can’t please everyone so you gotta please yourself and if you can’t be with the one you love, love the one you’re with!”

It is amusing to see how these type of ‘wisdom traits’ are able to be created to justify, vindicate and tamper any actual self abuse and human misery just for the sake of ‘seeing the bright side’ of reality.

We can see how ingrained it is to have everyone constantly caring for what others say/ think about oneself – ‘you can’t please everyone, gotta please yourself’ – so whatever it is that pleases you even if its raping animals or babies for your own pleasure and people get annoyed by that, such person has made a statement and thus their ‘will’ is command. Plain self-righteousness with no proper consideration of what  words entail and it can be used as a weapon to defend even the most atrocious acts in the name of ‘being yourself/ staying true to yourself’ and boasting about it as if it was something proud to be of – once again, a condescending trait of humans to not actually see the self created rollercoaster misery that’s being accepted and allowed and only ‘uplifted’ through statements that make oneself feel ‘better’ on a floating bubble that will only burst once enough shit has been allowed inflated on top. That’s how Self Honesty is suggested at ALL times, to stop any point of self deception that allows any form of self abuse.

And the second part of the sentence is just a second-hand washed out way of wiping your tears and conforming after not having your ‘pleasures’ and ‘dreams’ fulfilled – so, it shows how far we can brainwash ourselves to make-believe we can ‘still get our way’ even though it’s not what we wanted to begin with. Feeling and filling oneself up to continue being ‘the winner’ even if by their own standards, they lost the big-score. Winning, losing, being more than/less than = all polarity that is able to be stopped for once and for all if we actually dare ourselves to. 

The human mind works in self-gratifying ways wherein one will tend to see the ‘bright side’ and the ‘half full glass’ for the sake of not being self honest and see the actuality of this reality and our existence and experience within it as nothing else but our own creation. Spitefulness, subtle insults and self-retaliation become part of the way to ‘prove oneself right’ which are words said with no awareness on their full implication, not considering the starting point of them either at all. There is obviously no self-reflection or even actual understanding of anything that we may point out in another being our own accepted and allowed nature as well

Here’s another one that’s been out for group discussion:

“Life is too short to waste another minute on anyone or anything that do not make you happy”

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Self gratifying machines seek pleasure, happiness, joy just like a kid recently introduced with sugar during their first Halloween, they’ll seek for it in any possible way and justify it along the lines of being here for the sake of ‘being happy’ as if that was the ultimate reason for the existence of the human being on Earth. Right.

Billions of people seeking pleasure, happiness, no wonder we’ve turned this world into a gigantic McDonald’s ‘drive-thru’ where people get in and out of ‘relationships’  – or get into a franchise of one-night standing – get hooked in drugs, videogames, tv, food, any extreme activities that will fulfill the need to be constantly seeking this ‘happiness’ – all of this done without the least attempt to look at OTHER living forms coexisting in hideous ways in this same world while one is seeking that ultimate ‘shot’ and ‘grace’,  seeking the ultimate fuck to get oneself satisfied for the remainder of the day – just pleasure seeking machines that won’t obviously be willing to walk any path of self-understanding, self forgiveness and self honesty as that won’t certainly fulfill the constant rush and requirement of ‘happiness’. We’ve become thing else but mind addicts definitely.

Now, to broaden the scope, see if someone starving is also ‘seeking for happiness’, see if they can also afford to not go wasting their lives on something/someone that won’t fulfill their inner mindfucks. Obviously not, they’d mostly ask why are people so imbued with their own personal jackoffs without giving a fuck about the rest of the world that does suffer and that don’t have even the least amount of ‘grace’ from the so-called bliss that lightworkers claim exist as a ‘godly presence’ in this world. It is all just a real mind-split reality wherein unless each one get to live in one’s own flesh what other living beings are currently going through in this same reality,  we won’t stop existing in such absolute bullshit of seeking  happiness, joy and apparently doing anything possible to not be a tightass.

Self Honesty is daring to see ourselves with all our traits, with all our mind games exposed to see how we’ve attempted to always be the ‘winner’ and within this, disregarding life, disregarding others and instead continuing and ensuring the abuse that’s being currently perpetuated by everyone that exists within one single iota of ourselves being and feeling superior to someone or something in/of this world.

 

Equality cannot tolerate any form of condescendence, Equality as Life debunks any fluffy bubbly cloud as thoughts and beliefs of humans attempting to continue existing in such sugar-rush at all times.
Time to Stop – clock’s ticking out.

 

Support yourself at Desteni dare yourself to face yourself and all our mind addictions – the real rehab for LIFE.

 

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