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247. Blindly Following Our Progress

Doomsday is a novelty joke to evade the consequences of our thoughts, words and deeds of having disregarded the laws of nature and the physical in our reality in the name of following through with our mind-driven desires, all based on energy which implies the abuse of the physical for the sake of feeling just Fine.

What’s the fine line between progress and devolution? The neglect in which we have built this marvelous see-evil-I-zation wherein we have focused on the ‘I’ only of self interest, following our success, no matter ‘what’ has to be destroyed and potentially damaged for the rest of the Earth’s existence just to have a moment of bliss and ideal of progress disregarding the shit hitting the fan while smiling at the beautiful scenes of what progress implies.

Cities like Dubai are the perfect example of what human beings as gods disregarding the ‘forces of nature’ imply: creating this great buildings at the expense of the most horrid living conditions that any worker on Earth is currently having to go through just to make a living. The same goes for all the people that confections our clothes, build our gadgets, grow and reap our food which is essentially the extraction and transformation industries that get to do the most work at the expense of slave labor. The ‘retail’ industry is the one that benefits through us buying brands, lifestyles, experiences that we have tagged as our ‘successful living’ while neglecting everything that had to be destroyed for that single ‘lifestyle’ to be now something that is Normal to ourselves.

Read Matti Freeman’s Day 152: Slaves of Dubai – Exposing the Darkness behind the Glittering Lights of Progress for further context.

 

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We’ve come to the point where we would rather expect some 3 days of darkness to happen or some planetary alignment and suddenly have a renewed world all of a sudden. Seriously, is there any  trace of sanity in such beliefs? No – and this world-system is proof of how we have all been inherently insane to keep blindly participating in this world system wherein Nothing is projected to be sustainable in a long term basis.

I was watching Gian’s video on Hope – which I obviously suggest you watch as well – and realized that it is true, we are born with a certain belief/idea of ‘this is how things always have been and there’s no change in how things work’ – and in this ‘this is how things work’ is the doom of our race, because in such acceptance we have only gone either of the two following ways:

1. Waiting for the world to end/ be destroyed = doomsday character.

2. Waiting for something marvelous to happen that will wash away all the destruction and will wipe out all our atrocities in a blink of an eye = ascension/ transformation of consciousness character.

 

Both are equally fucked, to say the least, since we can read WAITING which is just precisely HOPING for something to happen. In both scenarios we either drive ourselves to a Negative Self Experience – which is what I have described in the past posts – or we drive ourselves to a Positive Self Experience, which is all your ascension/2012 transformation of consciousness type of messages. It is funny to recall the last book I read on the Mayan Calendar subject, right before Desteni – well in fact the day I finished the book I encountered Desteni – where Dr. Calleman said that by November 2012, everyone would be enlightened – I would quote the page of the 2012 Transformation of Consciousness book he wrote, but gave it away within the realization that I had just indulged in quite an extensive amount of unfounded statement. Wow, really wow.  If enlightenment means being ready to continue using and abusing the Earth by our every single move in everything we think say and do then by all means, we are full of light and will soon burst into flames if we don’t stop.

 

What I realize is that beyond me having gone into the negative experience about the world and feeling all sad/ depressed that ‘this world is shit,’ is really only the exact same as thinking positive and waiting for something Great to come, because in self-doomification I am doing exactly the same thing: Only waiting for an End while precisely only living to die and doing absolutely Nothing to stop the current ways in which our society has been made ‘acceptable,’ which is accepting and allowing self-abuse in all ways.

 

Now, the problem is not the Earth of course or the ecosystem and all the living beings beside the human being, that was perfect in its natural equilibrium; it is our force as human nature of actual Evil that has disregarded the physical forces we are subject to. That’s what playing God in essence has been about: believing we could somehow implement our jolly civilizations of multiple advancements without a single point of concern on ‘what’s next’ you know? Because there is a very important factor that we have ALL Participated in: We Trusted in those that have come before us to only give ‘permission’ – accept and allow – to implement what is currently running here as a living-condition that should be beneficial for all. But is it so? Of course not, not at all since all decisions made have been based upon Energy, which in this world system means Money/ Profit being the directive principle of the route we have followed through as humanity. And as all decisions made/founded upon energy: there is a massive disregard for its sustainability in the long run, and this goes from relationships that we found upon this energetic positive experience to making our living decisions of what career to study, what to ‘invest upon’ only within the same scheme of what we have currently valued as ‘More’ than life itself.

 

When I was a child, I developed this ‘ecological awareness’ in a very limited way, but it was ‘something’ and I remember being 7-8 years old and from that time and on, every time that  I flushed the toilet I would ‘feel bad’ for the water that will have to go with all the rest of the world’s toilet water and polluting the Earth. Whenever I would take a shower I would literally imagine how many more were showering around the world as well, how many were spending too much water in their showering while I was ensuring I would spend the least – I worried about things like littering on the streets and the smog produced by all the cars in the city – and I would become rather depressed whenever I would get to go to another country or see pictures of another’s travels throughout Europe for example, and be marveled at the cleanliness and order that those cities/places were in, it all seemed ‘to good to be true,’ which is another outflow and consequence of us regarding such advancements as something genuinely positive to follow and desire. I only created a loathing for my country and the people here, so I went into an absolute abhorrent state because in my mind ‘no one cared’.’  And again, going into a ‘powerlessness’ and ‘hopelessness’ because no matter how much I tried to make an effort to ‘do something,’ obviously it was futile, because I wasn’t really looking at or aware of the greater picture of how things work in this reality.

 

Throughout the years, it was like swimming against the tide all the time, everyone just wanted me to relax a bit about all the things I would constantly worry about – all that which I called ‘pollution’ yet never really saw how everyone’s – including my own-  every single move contributes to this ‘pollution,’ no matter what we do in this current society. So, this is part of a personality that I became until I simply opted for the ‘fly away’ type of personality wherein I would shove aside my constant awareness on dirt/ pollution/ contamination/ civil carelessness for the environment and blamed this country and its people for it, never really understanding the magnitude of the problem at a global scale of which this idea of progress was mostly the direct source of, and how it was because of the ‘improvements’ that people in the first world were developing as the ‘ultimate civilizations’ that we were in fact following through with this abuse, without the necessary education on how to DEAL with everything we would get now from such first world countries and simply started copying it, using it,  without any further regard, which became a problem because we simply followed through with the ‘advancements’ without really pondering: hmm, if I buy a v.8 vehicle yes I’ll have a shitload of HP and luxuries, but is this sustainable?

And so, our living standard instead of focusing on creating sustainable conditions for transportation became the ultimate presentation of an actual mock to any regard for the resources required to run a v.8 vehicle, because all that we really cared for is showing off our ability to pay for such amount of gas, taxes and maintenance as an indication of elevating our power of acquisition through buying that which could SHOW to others that we are ‘making it in the system.’ This is what our success have become.

 

“A Successful Failure, is when Failure is taken Personally – and the Purpose of Failure is not Grasped. Because Failure, has been Changed into the Illusion of Energy and is Experienced as some form of ‘Feeling’.
Failure, when Grasped – is the Map and the Road to Self-Perfection.” – Bernard Poolman*

 

The example I give is quite a tangible one, since also in my home city there’s Volkswagen and all the German people worked there and had this thing for cars, which I then became used to the idea of one has to have this latest-model of car and dispose the older ones because: you always get improvements. This is a single example of how we Always buy into the idea (social conditioning) of having the latest and most recent upgrade of everything as a sign of success – see for yourself how only the nice bright idea of power is looked at, but have no regard at the actual need for an upgrade and what happens with all the cars that are disposed, what are the current productions settings that have created our brand new car, the gas requirements, labor that has been put into it, how has it been paid for – none of that is of our concern, we feel like royals just having the ability to buy it and ride it and disregard everything else. And yes, it feels GREAT but I bet it won’t feel that great when there’s no freaking gas to pump into such v.8 vehicles, where already decisions are being made between eating or pumping gas into your car, as a matter of fact and consequence of disregarding basic common sense equations in which life should run upon.

 

Now we get the point of success being a blatant ignorant self-abuse, you see?

 

And then, when the shit hits the fan as it is happening now, we would rather follow through either of the above mentioned 2 options, instead of actually placing our hands on the problems and become aware of the series of steps that we have followed through until it’s become this chain-massacre of points that we accepted and allowed to end up in this blind-line of production and consumption that is disregarding and neglecting the primer matter of which everything is formed.

Please read an Economist’s Journey to Life for further  details

 

I had to just go and clean the fridge from all the food that my house mates have just ‘left’ and realized how just because we have the money to buy, we simply buy-buy-buy and don’t even think about what we are in fact going to in fact use. I can absolutely say that the waste of food I have created for the most part has been the one I have processed in my own physical body and dumped on the toilette, but I absolutely measure the amount of food I will in fact eat – and if some vegetables go rot, it’s a minimal quantity that I can place as compost for the tree and that’s it. And when confronting anyone about such blind-consumption, we only face the point of: Oh but ‘I’ bought it, so it’s ‘my’ stuff as a given right to abuse. The same we do with everything that we consume that we know it’s not beneficial, like people taking drugs and believing that it is only THEM that they are fucking up, not anyone else – which means that we disregard the basic fact that Everything we do, act and speak is linked through a collective process of coexisting in the same world, this means: there are no ‘isolated forces’ that will not have an effect and consequence on this reality, we’re all equally contributing to them.

 

And once again, what do we do? If you ask any regular person, everyone’s just hoping things will just go ‘mildly wrong’ in our lifetime as it’s being predicted everywhere, we just hope to ‘make it through,’ die and leave the future generations with the most heavy load of destruction to deal with. This is the statement we are living by every day that goes through without placing and becoming a solution to this world.

 

What is this whole ‘evolution’ based on, what is our progress based on? Abuse of the Earth to make things bigger, faster, greater, more efficient, more astounding and creating within ourselves this fantabulous self-experiences of this being a ‘marvelous world/ our creation,’ but we rarely or never even look at all the processes behind everything that we consume – and for that, we are ALL equally responsible.

 

And this is one of the points that listening to the See no Evil, Hear no Evil, Speak no evil – Life Review which really walks us through what we’ve become without a doubt in this world, and also a great way to gift to another a piece of audio-awareness that can be an eye opener for this ‘holiday season’ when all our “Love” is DEMON-strated through buying/ consuming and giving each others stuff that we have no idea how it’s been created.

 

So, where does our responsibility reside on? Having accepted and allowed the current lifestyles we’re living as ‘the way things are’ which is what Anu also explains is something that should be really questioned at all times, as that implies the inertia that we’ve moved ourselves within: how things are/ it’s always been this way wherein we automatically infer = then it is fine, then it is okay, then there is no harm or potential life-threat within this, because it’s been running for 50 years. Well, it’s certainly ONLY 50 years that’s taken us to massively upscale our current abuse on Earth and we call this progress.

And we expect doomsday? Lol that would certainly be a ‘gift’ if any god existed, we won’t get rid of any consequence any time soon unless we actually take responsibility for it, face it and fix it.

 

“Without Failure – Self-Perfection is Impossible.
Without Failure – Birthing Harmony on Earth is Impossible.
Without Failure – Perfecting Individualization is Impossible.
Without Failure – Enlightenment Perfection is Impossible.” – Bernard Poolman*

 

To be continued, for sure.

 

 

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    194. Let the Mask Fall!

    The beginning of the Evil Series

    For some time we’ve been reading about Evil and how it is a primary point to start dissecting within ourselves in order to – obviously – get to know ourselves as the totality and actuality of what we’ve become, which has been mostly covered-up by make-up ideas of goodness, benevolence, positivity and ‘goodheartedness’ that is like a constant self-talk of ‘I’m good, let’s do good, let’s become better human beings, let’s be more this/that’ while in fact, neglecting the so called ‘darkness’ of ourselves that is required to be scrutinized within ourselves in order to finally stand on our own two feet without any veils to not see the evil that we are and have become.

    Within this, it is to realize that this is not only about morals of ‘good and bad’ but seeing the inherent nature of ‘who we are’ as evil that is mostly covered up with ideas, beliefs and yes, concepts created around ‘good/ benevolence’ and everything that touches upon the light-love-airy-fairy view of reality, which is simply a make-believe system just like anything else. However, who and what we are as individuals, as the mind, as our beingness is in fact Not good, otherwise the world would be corrected/ solved/ changed a long time ago. 

    Now, you might go into the idea of this being pessimistic and whatnot, but it is in fact within such characters that we hide ourselves from the reality that we’ve become by trying to become a better person, and it is Not about becoming a better person as that would imply that I am trying to ‘make up for’ the past, the who I have become out of guilt, remorse and further cover-ups to the reality, the ‘truth’ of ourselves that we keep always there in the secret mind.

    I wanted to begin writing about this topic for some days here in my Journey To Life blogs, however I decided to give proper finish to my procrastination character and begin this one, which will most likely be going in depth to what I accepted and allowed myself to become within, first of all, all the cover-ups to not have to face the inherent evil within me. It’s interesting how even writing it out this idea of me being pessimistic or dramatic or ‘satanizer’ comes up, however it is just any other word that depicts that side of ourselves that we have tried so hard to ‘overcome’ and ‘make better’ and ‘spice up’ with all types of experiences in our reality that in no way have ever in fact changed our real nature, otherwise, again, we would have come to a sensate consensus of  what is best for all to live and apply in our reality. Now here ‘con’ comes from consentire = ‘agree’ – con also means with and sensus = senses with a direct sense based on what is physical in this reality, which is not something that can be labeled as good or bad in itself, but our actions and ways of approaching reality have in fact become polarized to create and generate this inherent conflict that is ‘constantly there’ as who we are and have become, which is what I will be explaining here. 

    Now, this all begun some days ago when watching Maya Harel’s video  Day 187 – EVIL — Journey to Life which is a blog review on Heaven’s Journey To Life blogs on Evil

    and this is a note I made for myself:

    The point that has come up while watching Maya’s video is how I have experienced this evil even in the most supportive environments where everything is seemingly ‘fine’ and still, there is this nagging, uncomfortable experience within me, not being able to just ‘pin point’ it, it’s always just there and then thoughts would emerge such as ‘is there something wrong with me?’why can’t I be normal and just enjoy this?’  without realizing that, such experience was/ has been probably the ‘evil aspect’ of myself that I haven’t allowed myself to really look into, because of always believing that this ‘thing’ would somehow recede through time. Hell no, it is this experience wherein we are not completely comfortable within ourselves no matter what a ‘pretty picture’ of environment we are in. It becomes almost like this battle of trying to ‘keep up the ‘good and positive’ based on knowledge and information of the environment being supportive, of the people being supportive– We try and fully embrace the moment but, there’s this ‘something’ all the time and it just seems not possible to simply be here, fully stable or even enjoying the moment, it just doesn’t ‘go away,’  it is this constant experience of there something being ‘wrong’ within ourselves – and this constant nagging experience is what I can spot as my own deliberate negligence to face the ‘truth’ of myself, as evil.

     

    And I questioned myself many times why it was like me wanting to simply ‘let go’ of such nagging experience, without realizing that it won’t just be ‘gone’ by me kind of only ‘thinking’ about it and coming to realizations like ‘oh yes, it’s the evil in me’ and turn around and keep going with my ‘life.’ Of course it cannot work like that, that’s precisely how we have lived as humanity, just wanting to brush-off, neglect and hide the actuality of our inner experience. What comes to mind is this video that I would watch several times while growing up, and it depicts this standard humanization of the ‘happy go lucky lives’ while hiding the real evil behind at all times (Blackhole sun – Soundgarden – quirky point is that this is post 194 and ‘94’ resonates within me as the year that I became aware of the ‘world’ through TV and becoming used to watching gruesome/ explicit acts on TV and essentially facing this ‘evil’ nature – same year I became used to being fascinated by everything that would challenge what was accepted as good/ benevolent and developing my personality around that, however only at a surface value)

    To understand happiness as the ultimate brainwash for control of the masses and proliferation of capitalism, watch The Trap – this is how happiness, love and light has been the control-system of humanity not only within our ‘capitalist era’ but throughout our entire existence as humanity – and that you can understand by studying Heaven’s Journey To Life blogs and Reptilian interviews at Eqafe.

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    The images were disturbing just like anything I watched that year when I was 7 years and seeing a ‘broader picture’ of reality through TV – lol, interesting, getting to know humanity through the TV. And even within this realizing that everything that we get to see/hear/ read cannot be just labeled as ‘brainwashing’ without understanding first how even such deliberate demonstration of ‘the human nature’ is in fact existent because We in fact have become That and it is thus used for further entertainment purposes, wow.  So this video contains various aspects that I got ‘hooked on’ throughout my life which was this ‘end of days’ type of depiction while presenting humans as ‘mindless robots’ within a prefab type of ‘lifestyle’ – this also brings me to the realization of how I created this separation between the façade of ‘who I am’ and how I would actually experience myself throughout my entire life.

     

    polarity as meThis is, for example, not being able to understand why I would only paint seemingly ‘bad/ negative/ pessimistic’ stuff and in the outside I was seen as this normal, happy, young person. I could not ‘compute’ myself within this. And so, that’s why it always seemed so ‘fake’ whenever I was expected to act/ be a certain way and present an image for the sake of society, parents, school, etc. I became quite aware of becoming this two side-side person which was also depicted in some of my early art  and even beyond throughout the years, the same would still ‘come up.’  That’s how I went through my rebellious teenage years of being like this pessimist existentialist that lead me Nowhere of course, other than consuming myself in reading books of which I can gather absolutely Nothing that can be lived in Self-Honesty. Well, probably a few words from Douglas Coupland, however he went too spiritual and seeking god somehow. And yes, that’s why I also sought god at some point, and went into spirituality because the sole idea of me being ‘stuck’ in this emptiness – which I had gone through in my teenage years/ late childhood even – was simply unbearable and so, I sought to get myself ‘out in the world’ by deliberately portraying myself as someone more optimistic and friendly, even the scheme of my clothes changed from only black t-shirts to various bright colors, lol,  Oh boy, I tried hard, I really did, but didn’t matter how bright my appearance looked, the same ‘nagging experience’ where it all seemed too fake to fool myself simply kept popping up, rearing all the time behind my back when I tried to simply ‘have a good time’ and become to what I thought was ‘being a normal person,’ which involved being friendly and nice and going out, meeting people – Oh well, that can be another personality in itself of course, but it was all based within me wanting to just ‘get rid of’ this me-isness, like ‘get off of me!’ …

     

    It never did, not even when I thought my life was perfect with having gotten everything that I supposedly wanted and desired in terms of the specific people I had desired to be with, the specific things, the specific likes, dislikes, so called talents and everything was just ‘there’ like here! be happy! and I just couldn’t, and that’s what I’ve explained many times before throughout this entire process of writing myself out, however I had never tapped it into what it is: this beingness that is actually me, that I only probably painted pictures on, projected onto others instead of seeing Me, getting to know who I have become as this ‘inexplicable’ experience, which is not pessimistic, I simply found it hard to fool myself to be enjoying life at all. And that is because I simply tried to cover up the experience with many things, doing various activities, tried relationships, people and a looong etc. – and it would never go away.

     

    A memory pops up, one of my ‘best friends’ at the time would explain to me about this constant presence he could not bear – yes he tried multiple times to ‘commit suicide’ and overdose on whatever he could buy over the counter, though the point is how to me this was ‘too puzzling’ to understand, as if his experience was something absolutely ‘alien’ to me, not realizing that I had always experienced the same but actually, was too fearful to get to know it – and this is the KEY here, ‘I was too fearful to get to see that same ‘nature’ within me’ and that’s how I deliberately would take the position of the ‘good doer friend’ that tried to get everyone back on track to the ‘good side,’ without seeing myself As them and realizing that I was precisely being there with them because the exact same thing was existing within me. Fascinatingly enough, I would veer toward people that were comfortable with this aspect of themselves, however I always saw myself as this ‘little lamb of god’ next to them, lol, which is plainly delusional and existent as, yes, the ‘good person’ character.

    Part of the writings I came up with while reviewing ‘the evil’ some days ago, was how friends would reflect me/ who I am, just as any other relationship I formed and this is something I denied at all times, to me I was the ‘good nurse’ and that was it, nothing to do with them being my mirror ‘noooo waaay, I am a gooood peeeerson’ – right.  Even the image of being ‘the nurse’ may already indicate the type of role I played and that I can still see till this day comes up at times with trying to ‘support others’ and ‘save them’ instead of focusing on myself and sharing my own process of how I have ‘saved myself from myself,’ which also explains my particular affinity to types of music, which in this case is diverting the attention to the ‘outside’ and kind of ‘identifying’ with others and what they were saying and becoming in their ‘beingness,’ instead of developing an intimate relationship with me, beginning with yes, looking at the ‘dark side of the moon’ that I always kind of brushed aside believing that ‘I was not that, noooo, I am a good person,’ and! Because I didn’t have the guts to admit that existed within me as well, which is how we become fascinated with something as an energetic relationship of Further separation, instead of standing one and equal to that which we find disturbingly fascinating.

     

    The truth may be seemingly harsh, but it’s bee rather fascinating finally realizing how silly it was to try and keep covering up, because of fearing ending up as ‘dreary’ as I perceived others to be.

     

    There’s much to come, this is just the beginning.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to for so long try and hide or brush off looking at the ‘evil’ within me, even if I heard it a thousand times for the past  years at Desteni, and instead simply looked on the surface of it without really being willing to ‘dig into the dark corridors and hidden corners’ that I had been suggested to do, but remained on the ‘surface’ of portraying myself as only a ‘good person’ with bits of flaws here and there, which is what caused this ‘dissonance’ within me, not being able to stand here facing myself absolutely because of still hiding things From Myself even, thus,

    When and as I see myself wanting to remain hiding the reality and truth of myself as the inherent evil that I’ve become, I stop and I breathe – I realize that this resistance to look within myself were based on having judgments toward ‘evil’ implanted as a child wherein I was taught to only seek to be a good girl/ good person and as such, stick to ‘all things positive’ no matter what, which leads to our actual ‘cannot compute’ status where we don’t know how to Deal with the evil coming up within ourselves, and so, evolve our minds through positive personalities to try and cover it all up even more, without being willing to instead, look at who we are as the evil just the same way that we look at ourselves as ‘the good’ and remove both conditions, to instead walk a process of deliberately doing/ establishing ourselves as what is best for all life. 

    I realize that this ‘best for all’ is nor positive nor negative as that can only exist within energy relationships toward ourselves and others – best for all is the way that we can describe the physical way of establishing an agreement between all parts here coexisting that can lead to an outcome that is best for all. Thus, the good and evil is walked through a process of removing the conditions imposed toward ourselves as our mind and beingness in order to integrate a consideration toward everything and everyone as one and equal as ourselves.

     

    I commit myself to give myself direction within the walking of this ‘fear of evil/ good person’ character as the necessary process to dissect all aspects that I had denied, suppressed, neglected of myself in order to keep only the bright side showing – thus, this is no longer a point of morality as only good or bad, but understanding self as the actual inherent nature we’ve become and walk the necessary process to correct ourselves with the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self corrective application and living that which we write ourselves as, within the principle of each one of us becoming the necessary change/ correction that is required in this world.

     

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