Day 42: Toxic Fun–Drugs as Enslavement

Who are we when we allow the intoxication of another being that you can call a friend/ partner/ lover in the name of ‘Fun’? It’s taken a punch to my ego to write a ‘we’ when I have declared myself as an official drug/ alcohol detractor – yet, I’ve been there myself and even had special affinity toward self-destructive people, which implies that whenever I accepted the consumption of drugs/ alcohol in the name of ‘fun’ = I accepted an allowed the man-infestation of the abuse of drugs and alcohol consumption in the world as way to ‘have a good time. ‘

 

Who are we when we support the use of drugs/ alcohol as a way to ‘free ourselves’? Isn’t that the same as inducing another to take some rat poison while pretending that you can just throw your hands in the air and wave them like you just don’t care?

 

My mind wants to run rampant in rage when seeing the effects that such stupefaction generates in a human being – however, here I have placed myself as the point that stops judgment and any other reaction, walking the Self Forgiveness as well [*]. And how I was able to stop the immediate surge of backchat was through saying out loud ‘I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge another for seeing the obvious effects that alcohol/ drugs had upon them while in fact that person as this very moment could have been me’  – and so, the tendency to judge from this ‘superiority’ idea of self was deflated and brought back to the ground, hearing about Patience today also supported me a lot to slow myself down.

 

Thus, now that I have walked the road to hell and back, meaning having walked the process of self forgiveness on these subjects and practically Stopping all forms of substance abuse as an integral part of my commitment to life – I can say that allowing the continuation of such self-abuse between so-called ‘friends’ and partners/lovers is just the most obvious act of actual spite and self-loathing that you can ‘gift’ yourself and another with – that’s how any relationship that wherein alcohol and drugs are promoted as a way to ‘feel good’ and ‘have a good time,’  ‘relax and just chill’  is equal to allowing any form of Self Abuse such as rape, murder, violence and any other form of psychological and physical abuse,  no matter how it is ‘covered up’ and ‘masked’ within this reality.

 

It should be fairly obvious how alcohol is promoted and accepted in our society in such a ‘broad spectrum’ so to speak: it keeps slaves happy and sufficiently droned down to be able to never question how this reality works and only care about dumbing people down to be willing to accept the most ludicrous social policies as long as the so-called ‘free choice’ and ‘free will’ are a means to be able to get drunk, get high, get fucked and repeat the next week on a regular /religious basis.

 

Unacceptable, even more so when the physical body is absolutely neglected, not really imagining what the cells of the body are having to go through once they are drenched in alcohol and any other chemical-poisoning in the name of earning an ‘Experience’ – the use of drugs indicate to what extent we have separated ourselves from our physical bodies and believe that it is only ‘here’ to hold as a chemical reactor of experiences that we dare to call happiness, enjoyment, fun, satisfaction and even going as far as ‘getting in touch with yourself’ when it comes to psychotropic drugs.

 

How low have we gone within this reality in the name of drugs? Extremely low hence, here’s some Self Forgiveness to give ourselves an opportunity to review what we have done onto ourselves in the name of our own energy-god experience that alcohol, drugs and sex abuse creates.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take a hierarchical standing within ‘superiority’ for being ‘over any drug/ alcohol/ substance’ abuse – including sugar – while realizing that this process is not only about ‘me bettering myself,’ but expanding the realization of who we have become as life-consuming beings in the name of an experience, such as getting drunk/high which is numbing our senses in the name of what we have accepted and allowed to call ‘fun’ and ‘entertainment.’ I realize that this world won’t be ‘done with drugs’ until every human is able to realize the actual detrimental effects that such drugs/substance abuse creates at a physical and mind level.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the use of alcohol as a way to ‘have fun’ that is socially acceptable simply because it is sold in your corner shop, which I have then equated to ‘it is safe to do it – otherwise, why would ‘my government’ want to poison me?’ without realizing that in a world where money moves the threads of every single being and manifestation in the name of power/ control over reality, we cannot possibly assume that everything that we buy/ consume is ‘safe’ and ‘not harmful’ while such assumption is deliberately wanting to neglect and ignore the facts about human decay that are stemming from alcohol abuse, which means that everything that I have ever deemed as ‘safe’ because ‘it’s sold in stores’ I have accepted and allowed simply because of faith and trust upon others while neglecting FACTS and actual Consequences of such substances in reality.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to equate ‘having a good time’ to taking some form of drug, drink alcohol or take any other chill pill to ‘feel just fine,’ without ever considering the irreparable damage that I am inflicting upon my body whenever I consume any substance that I abuse in the name of personal satisfaction as an euphoric experience of which I am completely oblivious as to what are the actual consequences as harm that I am inflicting myself with when using and abusing substances. I realize that I have made things ‘0kay’ in my reality because they are ‘socially acceptable,’ and ‘everyone does it,’ which makes me ponder what else have I accepted in the name of it being ‘socially acceptable’ and it making me a deliberate sheep and follower of a system of enslavement and abuse, such as the capitalistic system wherein I actually pay for my own slow death the moment that I pay for drugs to ‘have fun’ for some time, while having long lasting effects at a physical level out of a moment of self-indulgence.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to ask forgiveness to my body, to every single cell that I neglected the moment that I only sought to ‘have fun’ and inducing chemicals into it that had detrimental effects in an immediate moment, which is how we can numb ourselves from the actual physical experience that we put ourselves as our physical body through the moment that we aim to ‘live’ through Experiences – without realizing that Energy as Experiences is Not Living, but actually abusing the physical in the name of personal interest as instant gratification.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make this entire system of drug consumption which includes entertainment, information, media, advertisement, religions, spirituality as a constant seeking for ‘bettering’ myself either through deluding myself with drugs, knowledge, information, self-talk or positive thinking which are all self-induced forms of abuse in the name of personal satisfaction while neglecting the reality that we are all living in, wherein any form of experience is at the expense of the very use/ abuse of life substance as who we really are, which causes a massive delegation of our physical-breath power to the diminishing of ourselves to a single ‘positive experience’ such as the one that we get to have when drinking alcohol, taking drugs, praying, praising some deity, doing charity, meditating, talking to god/ self as the mind and seeking to mimic the lives of the rich and famous that seem to have a never-ending life of eternal satisfaction, without realizing that such lives are essentially propagated and sponsored by the elites to promote a way of living that is associating life with consumption/ abuse of substances, as this has proven to be the best weapon to keep the masses silenced and obeying.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately induce self-harm toward myself and others in the name of ‘fun’ and ‘partying’ through the use and abuse of substances like alcohol, drugs and any other ‘legal pharma-suit-to-kill’ that can give me a temporary high and experience of ‘feeling great’ for a moment, while neglecting the very breaths that I am squandering and essentially eating up in the name of personal satisfaction such as ‘getting high’ and ‘having fun’ as a ‘cool mix’ that has been accepted within society as nowadays’ way to ‘have a good time,’ which makes it obvious how abuse is inherent to anything that we have dubbed as ‘good time/ positive/ enjoyment’ through the use and abuse of external points such as drugs and people alike.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to label self-abuse as ‘free choice’ and ‘free will,’ which is the standard used by individuals to justify their ability to consume drugs and even ‘spite the system’ through consuming illegal drugs within the belief that such action will – in any way – ‘liberate them’ from the so-called ‘oppression’ in reality, while in fact the only thing that is being perpetuated is the constant opposition and conflict toward a world that is self-created = we are all responsible for everything that we could deem as limiting and subjugating to a ‘hierarchical power,’ which is only us subjugating ourselves to a monetary system that is does Not care about life and supporting a dignified living for all, but deliberately promotes self abuse as a way to maintain ourselves limited and caged within a very narrow spectrum of reality – which reveals that we have been the only ones that have accepted a ‘lifestyle of abuse’ as something that is cool and socially acceptable, while neglecting the harm that is being inflicted at a physical level and toward other beings when ‘making it acceptable’ to consume alcohol/ drugs within society.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to apparently ‘spite the system’ such as family, society, government/ laws by consuming ‘illegal drugs’ without realizing that if they were really a threat to promote an actual emancipation of beings, they would have been eradicated from society and any form of market – yet because they represent the greatest weapon of control and temporary fear-reliever, they are accepted as an apparent surreptitious market and industry – yet having great weight upon global economy as drugs represent one of the greatest markets with the most profit that goes un-checked and unnoticed – apparently – due to the extensive amounts of money that are involved within such so-called ‘criminal activities’ – which once again proves the reverse psychology within beings wherein: everything that is deemed to be ‘wrong’ and ‘bad’ and ‘opposing the law,’ will be embraced and promoted as a ‘self-liberating’ way to ‘be free’ and ‘be joyful’ – while neglecting that this represents falling in the very trap carefully built to enroll people within chemical addictions that become a promoter for passivity and acceptance of this reality ‘as is,’ which is no different to how spirituality promotes ‘surrendering to the here now moment’ and neglecting any form of self-responsibility toward the individual within society and the individual’s life itself, beginning with considering HOW am I harming my physical body with consuming substances that are obviously detrimental to my physical body.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘oppose the system’ and be an ‘activist’ while using alcohol, drugs and any other illegal abuse of substances as a way to reinforce my so-called antagonism toward society/ the system, which reveals that I am a perfectly mind-controlled drone that is willing to create resistance toward a system that requires such conflict to continue thriving in the same stagnant position of continual disregard toward life – without ever questioning how it is that opposition and protesting against the system has never ever had an actual effect on this world as a living-change that affects every single being in reality, which proves that I as an ‘activist’ and ‘system basher’ was only seeking my personal satisfaction and gratification to be able to deem myself to be ‘free’ while neglecting that it was through the very use and abuse of substances that I was already making a statement of: ‘I don’t really care about anyone else but me and my fun’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a religious drinker/binger in the name of personal satisfaction as a way to proclaim that ‘I am a free being! I have free will! I have free choice! I can do whatever the fuck I want!’ While obviously neglecting every bit of life that I abused in the name of such desire and need to create an Experience of ‘power’ as the ‘moreness’ of myself through deifying energy as ‘who I am’ as such fleeting moments and experiences, while defying the physical living substance that I use and simply consume as a fuel to my own personal delusions, which is absolutely unacceptable.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to promote drug consumption as a way to ‘get in touch with yourself’ which was actually only promoting ‘get drunk, get high and forget about your living reality that you breathe in’ – which is in itself proving that I have become nothing else but a single self-seeking individual that is willing to do ‘anything’ for a moment of ‘peace’ and ‘happiness’ and ‘love’ which have all proven to be the very keys to the enslavement of this reality, creating and supporting the existence of a passive and ignorant human being toward all-aspects of reality that are outside of the self-obsessed culture that we have become in reality.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to link the use of drugs and alcohol to sex and call it ‘sexy’ which means that I have been sufficiently brainwashed through media, books and everything that indicates that I am willing to accept self abuse in the name of personal satisfaction as the fleeting moment that becomes sex when stemming from mind-stimulation which in no way constitutes an actual physical Real expression of reality.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that through consuming drugs, alcohol and any other substance it is possible to ‘escape from myself,’ without realizing that it is actually within facing myself and supporting me to walk my own mind as fears and desires to ‘be free,’ that I can in-fact free myself from my own mind-limitation that is the only one that seeks such type of entertainment and ‘satisfaction’ in the name of a temporary band-aid to the existential doom that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish who I am to a single fleeting moment wherein I lose all integrity as a human being while allowing me to become obsessed and possessed with the chemical influences that a single substance can create in the entirety of my human body, which reveals that I have in fact never considered the very life that allows me to continue breathing in this world and that I have only become my own enemy while having to seek ‘outlets’ as ‘diversion’ in order to ‘have fun’ and ‘enjoyment’ in separation of myself, which means that I have accepted and allowed myself to become nothing else but a mind-drone that seeks an experience at all times, while neglecting the fact that who we really are is here as breath as ourselves, in every moment that we allow the mind to be quiet yet remain self directive in our living-reality, which is absolutely possible if we walk a process to do so.

 

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that fear is now so automated as a system, that no one can remember what started it and no one cares – because a good scare gives a physical response, a physical high, so as to get Drugs for Free – just by producing your own Fear is Heaven on Earth.

I commit myself to show that the body is always in agony due to the Mind feeding on it in various response patterns, forcing the body to produce chemicals in many ways to keep the experience of the Mind Bubble to NOT see reality – producing, just like with the use of drugs, a dreamlike state – while calling the dream of the mind real, and calling the physical that is real, a dream.

I commit myself to show that Breathing Here without using the MIND, being physical – will show how fear is a MIND JOB based on a physical addiction to the body response to the fear.” Bernard Poolman [+]

 

Thus, I commit myself to continue exposing the truth of what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become as energetic vampires that seek an experience out of virtually anything in this reality, in the name of personal satisfaction and a fleeting moment of so-called fun and enjoyment that is in no-way in relation to the physical reality that is here, tangible, breathable and doesn’t require a specific ‘state of being’ to exist.

 

I commit myself to reveal how one is able to live and exist here as a physical being without having to constantly be seeking ways to ‘feel better’ and ‘have fun’ through using/ consuming substances, alcohol, drugs or create a deliberate experience in order to satisfy ‘the senses’ which is no different to believing that who we are is eternal bliss and fueling positive thinking to create such perpetual state of actual self abuse that neglects the physical reality that is burnt as fuel in order to keep such self-created mechanisms going.

 

I commit myself to expose and reveal the ability to live without seeking for the next greatest excitement and having to be constantly living up for a future moment of ‘enjoyment’ through the use and consumption of substances, and instead show how the acceptance of self as breath here is the solution to all the problems/ desires/ experiences that would have gotten anyone to consume alcohol/ drugs, as all desires, wants and needs are created at a mind level which I am able to stand one and equal to.

 

I commit myself to promote a system – the Equal Money System – that supports all life in Equality, that supports actual living self-expression wherein no drugs, no alcohol will have to be produced as there will be no need to seek for an alternate experience other than the ability to live as heaven on earth for the very first time in our existence, as I realize that all drugs have been an attempt to mimic and false-represent a true well being that we are actually able to work for as a collective, as humanity in order to establish a Living Reality that doesn’t consume life, but supports Life as Life itself.

 

“I commit myself to show that the Human Race is yet to Wake Up and that all Mind Jobs of Self-Realization are just ways used to find a better chemical producer by the Flesh on which to continue the High of the Addiction called Personality/Individuality. It is like the Robbing of the physical flesh of its resources, as constant raping of Life, just to have Feeling – like being on Drugs.

I commit myself to show that these Addictions to substances is all the Human has ever been – and that at the moment, few will have the resolve to Break the Addictions. Fortunately, Death ends this – but, what is visited upon the children, generation after generation, is atrocities of magnitudes yet to be Realized.” – Bernard Poolman [+]

 

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Why isn’t Love an Illegal drug?

 

I had felt a tremendous ‘yearning’ for something in my  life, it really drove me toward various directions wherein I was seeking this ‘something’ that I was ‘missing’ – apparently – and what’s funny is that it could be equally fulfilled with eating a chocolate, watching a  film or having a nice sex-session… and nope my ‘meditation’ never took me to such bliss, I guess I was too much of a neophyte in that.

 

What I never knew until now is that such yearning to be fool-filled was in fact nothing else but a preprogrammed system that we have accepted as ‘who we are’ which was given with the promise of ‘Eternal Life’ – or at least a Heavenly-experience once you die. We accepted this yearning for a spiritual realm wherein ‘everything would be fine’ as ‘that which is real’ of ourselves. By having this promise on the shelf, we accepted to live a life of ‘learning lessons’ and generating all types of connections to something ‘divine’ or at least something that could bring us ‘closer to God,’ similar to that Heavenly-experience which many would channel through different ways: spirituality, religion, relationships, sports, sex, drugs, alcohol to name but a few.  Now it makes sense! All those miserable years I spent within this ‘yearning’ for something else was nothing but me following my mind – because I always accepted my mind as ‘who I am’ – see.king to obtain the ultimate happiness/ bliss/ fulfillment in life. I never considered or even accepted myself as a ‘whole’ within my own body before.

 

When we would break apart from relationships or desiring relationships, we were in fact seeking to fulfill our ‘love-fix’ again, which has been also explained by science as a chemical-fixation  within our bodies. That’s how stopping a relationship is similar to the process of withdrawing from a certain drug. This is what we have accepted as ‘love’ – or even the term ‘lovesick’ when getting too much of it– however it’s gotten way more toxic than a simple chemical-dependency at a biological level.

 

 

And, if one look at for example, drugs/alcohol – it give one that positive/heavenly experience – equal-to and one-with that heavenly-experience self as the soul desired and so addictions are created to energy/heaven/afterlife searching for the ‘better life’ as we’re pre-programmed to yearn for ‘that experience’. – Sunette Spies

 

 

The fact is that when reading Sunette’s explanation on this energetic aspect, the word ‘drug’ popped up and began remembering how easy it was to get a quick-fix on an experience induced by a chemical drug, by spirituality, by this yearning to ‘be fulfilled within a relationship.’ It literally becomes this icky obsession that keeps us occupied in our minds the whole time, without even daring to ask ‘Is it really ME here that is yearning for this? Or is this just a mind-generated addiction?– for all cases, addictions begin at a mind level.

 

 

No wonder that it is easy to get fixated on drugs, sex, relationship, spirituality = we were preprogrammed to do this. And this ‘human trait’ became a juicy predisposition for anyone that sought to make money out of human’s feeble character easily swayed by desires –which is what has been vindicated as the infamous  ‘Human Nature.’ Yes, this great excuse to always be seeking for our personal-interest and seeking to be satisfied/ fulfilled/ content with buying, consuming and generating any form of ‘pleasant experience’ – whichever ‘form’ such experience would take.

 

 

My fix

I also fell for this big time. It began with this inextricable yearning for ‘something’ that lead me to become a music-junky – for real and by this I mean being listening to music most of the time when I was not in school and/or sleeping, even though I would go as far as sleeping with my earphones on sometimes. By this creating all of these ‘mental relationships’ with people that I got to idolize from the bands I liked. I can identify this ‘idolizing’ process as something similar to ‘feeling understood’ or even ‘cared for’ because of someone externalizing that which I then thought I was ‘also feeling’ inside me.

 

This is where the entire identification of myself as emotions/ feelings began, simply because I was yearning to experience the same that I could see those beings were experiencing when performing. I guess this is how I chose to be an ‘artist’ lol, because it was a way to justify me being extremely used to ‘being emotional’ and ‘being in touch with myself’ lolol I am laughing because I have written heaps before about me being a drama queen, and the usual stereotype of ‘artists’ is that of being an egotistical emotional-driven being that is then ‘accepted as is’ because ‘that’s who artists are/ that’s what they do,’ being and feeling ‘misunderstood’ and extremely ‘sensitive’ to the world.  Fascinating that we even created such niches in our society to never allow to question such experiences within ourselves, but even glorify them to the extent of equating ‘being a sensitive being’ to something that was almost touched by the hand of god, which is how artists were also identified as in the past.

 

Yes, we accepted these experiences or ‘gifts’ as a god-given trait or ‘right’ as you may wish to call it as well, I mean, we’ve essentially walked endless cycles of living out the same lives without being able to remember it, without getting to a point of ever questioning anything of this existence. And oh no if you actually got to a certain point of Self-Realization: you were screwed till the 9th hell which is here on Earth anyways, but just in a more miserable and in a position wherein ‘those in heaven’ would make sure that no one could get to a point of realizing who they really are.

 

So, I accepted myself as this ‘sensitive being’ and proceeded to cultivate my ‘sensitive preferences’ such as sticking to the world of ‘the intangible’ like music, literature, philosophy, painting, writing and so forth – I used to talk a lot to myself, it was my primary relationship and how I probably built up this idea of being a bit ‘coo-coo’ for doing that, never realizing that all humans do that, yet some hide it or simply take it as the infamous ‘human nature’ without having ever pondered ‘hmm, but where are these thoughts, feelings and emotions essentially coming from?’ So this is how I began giving myself my own ‘fixes’ through generating thoughts, feelings and emotions through all of these ‘activities.’

I never equated that to the same fix that everyone else was looking as ‘love’ – it is only now that I can understand I also drove myself through a similar vein.

 

 

The love fix

So I eventually got involved in relationships and got to see what a marvelous fix it was, and the fact is that it is accepted in this world without a question makes it something as ‘normal’ as having to eat to live. There are millions of songs, books, and anything that I could think of related to ‘love’ and ‘relationships’ and being happy or being feeling miserable because of not having this love-fix.

 

But,  I developed another curiosity which was mostly enticed by movies that I was attracted to for ‘some odd reason’= preprogrammed – wherein drugs was the main player. I know that there are many beings that have gone through this, in fact some of these movies became the first ‘bridge’ I built as a ‘likeness’ with someone that I could then call a ‘best friend’ or even ‘soul mate’ for that matter lol. So, I was very curious about drugs and dedicated some hours to reading articles about it, investigating the effects, read about the movements related to drugs like the ‘rave’ era in the 90’s, the Oxycontin boom in the early 200o’s and all the hype about heroin from the 70’s on. Music was pretty much linked to drugs and with me having ‘admired’ all these beings as personal-heroes, it lead me to think that ‘this is it, that must be that which I must be yearning for.’

 

So, just as anyone else in the world, I became a junky for various things including relationships, sex, weed, music, books, anything that could give me a very ‘specific’ energy- obviously at that time I didn’t question this nor did I ponder why I was ‘driven’ to-it, I just accepted it as part of my ‘personality.’ All the music I would listen, the relationships I had, the stories I would read, the nature of my writings would give me a specific energetic-kick that I then defined as ‘who I am.’ This only lead me to seek – just as any other junky in this world – ‘new ways’ of taking the energetic-kick to ‘the next level.’

 

An examples is how in pornography, beings stop getting their ‘fix’ out of the usual porn and go into various ‘specialized’ ways of presenting naked bodies that they can jack off to. That’s how sadistic porn, pedophilia and any other paraphilia is formed: becoming more specific in that which ‘turns you on,’ just like a machine that requires oil and fuel to ‘keep going,’ to keep ‘riding the rollercoaster’ which we have defined as ‘life.’

 

This is how we initially react so much to the point of having to stop our minds, simply because we are all addicts to generate experiences in whichever way we find ourselves ‘comfortable’ with. We have all sought for a ‘something’ to fulfill within our lives to give us a specific feeling/ emotion that we have called ‘being alive.’ It is fascinating how in our world and society, not being experiencing feelings or emotions is seeing as a malady, is seen as if ‘something is wrong’ with the being because, apparently, the being is ‘detached from reality.’ This is because of having defined life as a constant stream of energetic experiences, instead of realizing that it is an actual physical constancy and consistency just as we breathe here – in and out – at the physical pace that is not bound to ‘time.’ We end up depleting ourselves while trying to get the ‘most experiences throughout our day/ our lifetime.’

 

 

 

Love is a Drug

 

“Thus for spirituality to exist as love and peace — we have to allow ourselves to be blind to the actuality of the conditions in this world and promote this world as an illusion with reality only after death, making it impossible to reason with the spirituals”

– Bernard Poolman

 

 

I definitely got to experiment with drugs in order to see if I could get to this ‘transcendental state’ which I had heard, read and mindfucked myself-with from stories about Maria Sabina, Carlos Castañeda, Alejandro Jodorowsky and his ‘once in a lifetime’ intake of LSD – apparently – as well as Terence McKenna whom I had gotten to know of when investigating about entheogens, an intake of mushrooms or any other drug to create a connection with ‘the whole.’ So I was quite interested into this entire ‘exploration’ as a way to get to ‘transcendental planes’- I actually was ‘this close’ to further down that rabbit hole .  I was ‘saved by the bell.’

 

No wonder ‘ecstasy’ is called the ‘love drug’ because it really becomes this ever-glowing experience wherein everything just feels great – it is a FEELING, it is a literal mindfuck and we all go throughout our lives seeking for this ‘great experience.’ I mean, once again, look at your movie plots, songs, books, adds, religion, spirituality, self-improvement courses, self-help associations, supermarkets, it’s all about indulging into the gooey love experience that will ‘give a meaning to your life.’

 

Well, if by ‘meaning of life’ we have accepted being constantly experiencing such a chemically-induced experience that we have called ‘love,’ no wonder we’re living in a world full of addicts.

 

Unfortunately, this addiction has become also the greatest ESC button to neglect the reality that is HERE as our world, wherein we all know that no positive thinking, no ‘loving thoughts, no ‘meditation’ or seeing ‘world peace’ with daily prayer will bring food, water, shelter and proper living conditions to human beings that are starving on a daily basis.

 

‘Good spirits’ is then the perfect excuse to get drunk on the holy-spirit of alcohol, drugs, sex and call this a ‘heaven on Earth.’ Is this all that we aim for? Waiting for weekends to come to get a ‘heavenly mindfucking experience,’ getting a huge hangover the next day, ending up spending what was earned through the week, to then forget about the ‘awkward parts,’ keep the ‘nice fluffy experience’ as a memory to ‘save’ and be willing to do it all over again the next one. This is what we have diminished ‘life’ to, what a gas.

 

We induce this idea of ‘excitement’ and ‘happiness’ toward children as well, making use of the infamous chemical catalyzers to produce altered states of beingness which are commonly accepted as: candies. Can.dies as the sellable version of Sugar is then linked to ‘love’ through giving them as a ‘demonstration’ of care/ love toward people which is just the same as giving an ecstasy to your lover get the same ‘hype’ within a relationship again. And the reality is that all of this is seen as ‘normal’ without realizing that we have all been playing out the same game – either alone or along with others – within seeking this ‘something’ that will make us ‘feel’-something – you name the game, it costs money usually and it keeps us well occupied in our heads while neglecting the reality that is HERE as this world, that is now suffering the effects of a self-interest driven society.

 

Why would we want to be ‘eternal’ then? To continue seeking more fuel to energize our systems and get a fluffy experience, while neglecting the fact that the acquisition and extraction of such energy is depleting the planet itself?

 

 

God Is Love

I stumbled upon the definition for:

amphetamine 
n    noun a synthetic mood-altering drug, used illegally as a stimulant.

 

So, if love, sex, spirituality, alcohol, drugs, movies, songs, food, religion and god is able to give you a mood-swing ( lol ) why aren’t all of these things dubbed as ‘illegal stimulants’? Everything can be a drug for that matter and the fact that some are legal or illegal is just a matter of money.

You can get legal amphetamines in dieting procedures as well as using other masking-names for it like Benzedrine. Prozac is just the ‘over the counter’ counteract for it, wherein depression is just the reversed form of being in love – lol. Chemicals to ‘treat depression’ are seen as ‘meds’ whereas anything that induces love – which is a drug, remember – is promoted extensively just like candy, literally. Both are equally profitable and this is how, we can just say that we are full of drugs everywhere, just by our accepted and allowed ‘human nature’ as having to be experiencing something to being alive.

 

 

So, to get out of the ‘love trap’ or any other drug that keeps us bound to the ‘ups and downs’ we have dared to call ‘life’s cycles’ and ‘human nature,’ we must stop our dependency to thinking, to being constantly seeking to ‘feel’ something – as simple as that.

 

Love has been a trap that we have all fallen for – in one way or another – even in its opposite as ‘hate’ wherein the same energetic input is placed onto oneself or others, yet only varying on it being positive or negative energy = the human remains the same in that constant mind-trap wanting to be ‘experiencing’ something all the time.

 

What’s interesting from this is that I had despised ‘love’ all the way, dubbing it as something ‘too cheesy for my pizza’ yet never realized I had indulged in the exact same thing whenever I would have a relationship or would be seeking (or sickening) myself with a more ‘spiritual’ approach of such love through wanting to establish a connection with ‘the whole’ and, obviously, when indulging in chemically induced experiences through drugs.  I was only disconnected from HERE because of being thinking/ feeling/ yearning  instead of breathing myself here.

For that, the ‘God’ character is the main narco in this whole Earth-reality. ‘God is Love,’ remember?

 

 

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• Darryl Thomas’ 2012 & the Fraud of Buddha’s “Enlightenment”

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Articles:

• Poolman, Bernard. “How can love exist.” Desteni Articles. (2007): n. page. Web. 6 Mar. 2012. http://desteni.org/a/bernard-how-can-love-exist
• Poolman, Bernard. “Illusionists use Love with Great Effect.”Desteni Articles. Interviews from the Farm.71 (2010): n. page. Web. 6 Mar. 2012. http://desteni.org/a/interviews-from-the-farm-71-illusionists-use-love-with-great-effect
• Poolman, Bernard. “Love is Mind Control .” Desteni Articles. Interviews from the Farm. 28 (2009): n. page. Web. 6 Mar. 2012. http://desteni.org/a/interviews-from-the-farm-28-love-is-mind-control
• Poolman, Bernard. “Why Love and Light will Never change Reality.” Desteni Articles. (2010): n. page. Web. 6 Mar. 2012. http://desteni.org/a/why-love-and-light-will-never-change-reality

 

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