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Day 49: I Consume Myself – I Worry

Erode: gradually destroy or weaken

I haven’t discussed much my ‘relationship’ with garbage but I have this constant ‘emotion’ attached every time that I gather the garbage and take it out until the moment that I hand it to the men that take the garbage away, it’s like delivering my sins/ my waste to others in absolute shame and sometimes disgust for having to be this consuming vampire that only knows how to ‘put in’ and ‘put out’ mere waste, which is actually only an idea I’ve created toward excretion as it could be re-used for purposes of supporting the Earth. However when it comes to physical garbage, it’s another thing as I cannot digest that in order to turn it into manure or something like that.


I have created a pattern of emotional reaction every time that ‘parties’ take place and disposable cutlery, plates and cups are used without any care – yes, I saw myself distributing some of my ‘washed and stored’ plastic containers to distribute some left over from one of my roommate’s end of school dinner and for a moment I saw that my only concern was not to waste more polyurethane plates ‘in vain’ due to the emotion that I’ve linked to seeing any form of massive waste – yet eventually neglect it and swallow it as if ‘nothing happened.’


There’s this ingrained memory of me as a child sticking some ‘ecological’ (lol! I just wrote egological) stamp on the bathroom’s wall indicating that one can place a bucket of water beneath the shower to collect the water that first comes out until it warms up – and while doing this as I was showering I made a habit of imagining how many people would also be showering at the same time in the world and ‘wasting water’ all the way. The relationship I’ve created of myself toward anything that I use is then not an equal and one relationship, I’ve always seen myself as a scavenger and a polluter creating waste. In this, any human activity would be automatically tainted with wondering: ‘holy fuck, how many toilets are required for that? Where will all the garbage from such event will go? How on Earth have we managed to still have running water in our taps?’ and within this seeing my entire existence as a gnawing-beast – this was most of the times as a ‘by default’ thought that then enslaved me to only be existing as this idea of human beings = consuming leeches that produce a lot of waste.


It’s quite fascinating that this point came up as I had quite a talk with one of my ex-professors and I noticed that during the chat, I noticed an emotional reaction when reviewing the chemical processes that are involved in art-creation, specifically the etching workshop I spent half of my days in, wherein I accumulated this unspoken guilt for seeing the amount of paper wasted, the type of chemicals/ acids we used, how I was deliberately harming myself at some point – which became quite obvious when I got to the farm and didn’t take proper physical-considerations when working with my hands – and in this general disregard of my own physical body when doing certain jobs/ tasks. This implies not only my human physical body, but the world itself as the one that is bearing the entire fuckup of our personal interests.


I would always feel guilty when having to wash a single brush with paint – yet I continued doing it because ‘it is acceptable, others also do it, so it should not be ‘that bad’ for the environment.’ And within this same train-of-thought, I allowed myself to simply shove away all the reactions that I would constantly get when looking at trash cans in art school, when seeing all the chemicals that would go down the drain and realizing that it didn’t matter if there were ‘chemical traps’ installed: there is no way pure water can come out from what I’m disposing down the drain.


We have placed the Earth and Earth’s resources at ‘our service,’ wherein it is inevitable to not see ‘abuse’ in everything we do. Art is just a more direct/ tangible experience for me throughout my life experience, from that very first time I used oil paint and I was concerned because I didn’t know where to dispose the turpentine after I was done cleaning my brushes. Everything we do entails a process of consumption which involves: extraction, production, transportation – consumption comprised of the entire buying-selling current drama of economic policies – digestion/ use and excretion/ waste/residues/ left overs that go back to earth – the way that they go back to Earth then implies Earthing back an entire cycle and chain massacre of abuse – it is and has become what ‘life on Earth’ is.


We have excused ourselves from being the very origin of the massive crisis that has unfolded since the beginning of our times as human beings, using our physical bodies to generate this energetic experience that we thought was ‘who we are’ and in that, sipping and gnawing the actual physicality into a single stream of energy that served some Heavenly purposes that we were unaware of while here, but were absolutely aware of invariably at some point in between lives.


Now that I’ve been reading ‘Heaven’s Journey to Life blog, I realize that these ideas that I had place ‘outwardly’ have been in fact happening within/ as me from the very moment of my inception and conception in this reality – yet, it wasn’t due to the most obvious afore mentioned mechanisms of consumption. This is about how our very own participation in that which we accepted and allowed ourselves to exist as, which is our mind and within that very acceptance of feeling/ becoming emotional as something ‘normal,’ I became the very menace to my own physical body. Was I ever aware of this? No. I only accepted the belief and idea of aging due to it being a ‘natural process’ but let’s face it: not many – if not all – ever questioned the effects and consequences of us thinking, existing in constant emotional and feeling turmoil, to the extent where diseases were and have been only looked at from the perspective of an ‘external pathogen agent,’ but never seeing the core an source of it as ourselves. This already implies that we have blamed and used spite as way to ‘wash our hands’ from being the very starting point of virtually all the problems in our current world – wherein it’s easier to believe that ‘they’ are doing something wrong, while there is in fact No ‘they’ = it’s always been ourselves only.


Self Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live a life of creating an emotional reaction toward erosion as pollution, depletion of resources outside of myself through creating worry and concern about trees being cut, us using water on a daily basis to shower, wash, toilets, industrial processes, and get an experience of disgust every time that I have to smell the environment at night, which is revealing that I have existed with a constant reaction toward our consequences, wherein all that I learned to do as a little girl was promoting ‘good things’ related with ecology and environmental preservation, getting absolutely and extremely angry when seeing people littering on the street to the point of boiling up, people burning trash and any other form of general environmental abuse, without ever questioning HOW it is that I am the origin and cause of this massive problem which begins within my own body –


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept myself as a mind that exists as the consequence and result of having abdicated Life and accepted myself to be an become an energy-making machine that requires energy to make energy, which means that the entire process includes erosion and gnawing of the means that produce such energy which is myself as my physical body, by having accepted the use of physicality in the name of an energetic experience, without ever asking/ questioning what effects this would create on a constant basis within my physical body, leading to its inevitable finiteness as absolute depletion of myself as my physical body after having served life to consciousness, the mind system as an energy-making machine every time that I participated in thoughts, feelings, emotions and the identification of myself as ‘my mind.’


I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed to always see the pollution problem outside of myself, and never daring to see that I am the cause (acceptance) and effect (allowance) of it from the very beginning of myself in my conception as a mind consciousness system and my inception simultaneously within this physical existence wherein I tacitly agreed to be born to die, to be born to exist as an energy-creation machine that seeks constantly energy to continue existing without ever questioning the effects that this process entailed at the long run, not only in my own physical body but as this entire creation / manifested consequence that each one of us is equally responsible for.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in distress, worry and concern about the effects of our every day living consuming/ wasting activities wherein I usually then carry myself as my own burden to this world, which has been part of the patterns that I ensured I ‘keep myself as’ which became a constant reminder of self deprecation, leading to misanthropy along with any other constant thinking-process that reminded me that ‘I am consuming and polluting the Earth,’ which became a way to only victimize myself and ‘feel less than’ other than actually taking responsibility for me to realize that there are definitive reasons for our current neglect toward life and that such neglect stops by me first directing myself to stop adding ‘more’ waste and depletion by creating an experience out of seeing a polluted world by our own hand. I realize that creating any experience out of it serves no one and it won’t change a thing unless I take responsibility to create a world system wherein money does not define the way products/goods are extracted, produced, transported and distributed –  which means that an entire economical, political, social along with environmental research reform is required in order to stop scavenging the Earth while only caring to make the most money out of it, and disregarding the very life that sustains our current world-system.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to accumulate unspoken guilt and remorse every time that I used chemicals and papers and procedures for art making that I knew would be detrimental to the environment, and instead justified, excused it and neglected it because of believing that ‘everything must have a ‘con’ in itself, there is always a detrimental factor to everything we do, there’s no other way around it’ and in this, thinking that it would not matter as the world was doomed already, in this continuing spiting my own common sense through making it ‘ok’ and ‘acceptable’ which is and has been the story of my life in the face of abuse: making it ‘ok’ and ‘acceptable.’


I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to make it ‘ok’ to be inhaling harmful acids because of the ‘elders’ making it almost like a point of pride of how they have lost their sense of smell due to their endless years of printmaking which made me believe that ‘If I want to be a ‘serious’ artist, then I must shut up with my environmental complains, because ‘that’s the price to pay’ for it.’ This is part of the usual excuses and justifications wherein we make any form of abuse ‘acceptable’ as that is then seen as part of the ‘passion’ that you have toward your work/ your art, wherein the actual physical body is severely damaged due to the constant contact with harmful substances to the skin, eyes, nose, and or heavy-duty physical tasks wherein all of it is justified in the name of ‘art making.’


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that in this world ‘things can’t be pink all the time,’ which is an excuse that I also accepted whenever becoming aware of any living being being ‘killed softly’ due to harsh work conditions, with long labor-hours with improper conditions to work in and having no other opportunity as ‘that’s all that’s available for them,’ which implies that the living reality that I accepted and allowed was that of absolute detriment to life, and I made it ‘ok’ because ‘that’s how the world works, what can I do about it?’ which came with the same cycle of feeling only worried/ concerned and eventually powerless to make a difference in this world.


I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to see the animal abuse for factory farming as simply something that ‘had to be done’ in order to feed humans, because that’s the excuse that I was given by parents and teachers which became another point to add on to the list of ‘make it look alright’ and ‘don’t bother to question ‘why’ any further’  within this, making it alright to simply stop caring that much because that’s what I was told: ‘You cannot do anything about it, stop worrying and instead live’ – but then, I continued suppressing the worry without any explanation as to why no one stopped to ponder about these points which became reminders of me being supposedly ‘powerless’ to do anything to change our situation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an emotional reaction every time that I gather my garbage up until the moment wherein I give it to the men that take it to the dump, due to feeling guilty for being such a ‘waste’ as in being an organism that is able to produce all of that garbage in a never ending manner, which means that I have simply resorted to ‘feel bad’ about it only, instead of realizing that this entire system can work in a much more sustainable way the moment that we start considering how this entire waste-land that we’ve made of this Earth is directly linked to and the result of our current economic system that does not regard Life in Equality at all – which means that WE are absolutely responsible for it – thus, can absolutely change the way things are done as well.

This will continue…


I commit myself to, first of all, stop creating any emotion attached to me disposing garbage and taking out the garbage and gathering my own waste, as I see and realize that within such constant worry/ concern that I have accepted as an automated experience toward all things ‘waste’ – from the water that I use for the toilet, to shower, to wash, to the garbage I dispose on a daily basis- I am not making any form of improvement/ change or actual actions that can create an alternative way to produce and live in this world, wherein through me only worrying about it and creating this constant blame and guilt for being a consumer of life, I am only consuming more life as such emotional experience requires me to sip energy from my very own physical body to exist – thus


I commit myself to remain here as breath when and as I see myself going into the thought pattern of worrying/ feeling guilty/ feeling shame for consuming and wasting – I stop and I breathe – and realize that I am only ‘thinking’ my own guilt and it does nothing in reality to create a change and a difference as to how we use the resources and how we dispose everything that we do not require any longer.


I realize that the actual solution is not through me feeling ‘bad’ in my ‘egological/ ecological personality’ that I have cultivated as a little girl and throughout the years, only compounding a general disgust toward human beings and seeing ourselves as leeches and ticks, sucking the blood out of life and polluting the Earth. I see and realize that there is a solution that must be linked to an entire political, social and economical reform that will give way for science, research and studies that will be committed to create and develop the most functional and real-environmental friendly ways to extract, consume, produce goods and services related to human and animal consumption, which implies that: the moment money will no longer be an obstacle for life-supportive systems, we will be able to start focusing on ourselves as the origin and starting point of all this chain of life decadence due to our primordial acceptance and allowance to only exist as energy-based systems that consume to live, without any practical systems in place to ensure that it is sustainable and renewable in all ways.


I commit myself to create the Equal Money System as the one solution that will place ourselves at the level of understanding how it is that we have co-created this reality as our image and likeness within ourselves as our very own physical-body functioning, and in that, within us stopping ourselves from participating in consumerist and careless behaviors, we will start caring and constructing ways that make of this world an actual sustainable environment for Life and stop supporting the idea of the Earth being ‘at our service’ as humanity.


I commit myself to realize that anything that is not indispensable for me to participate in that pollutes the Earth unnecessarily is able to be stopped the moment that I realize the effects and consequences of me buying such product, me participating in certain activities and within that, commit ourselves to develop a new living-style that is no longer defined by ‘buying’ as a synonym to ‘living,’ but instead: expressing, developing sustainable systems that Do consider Life in Equality and the necessary changes to do so.


Investigate the Equal Money System wherein we are making sure that this world stops being the energy-consuming machine with no regard to life – and instead, be a part of voting for the principles that will ensure humanity becomes a NEW humanity that is willing to take care of another as ourselves and in that, pave the way for the generations to come wherein: all children won’t have to live in a constant fear and petrification when seeing a world in depletion and no one doing anything about it. We make sure that they are born into a world system that cares and regards life, as it is and will be realized as who we really are.



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‘Reality-Insight and not Mind-feeling’

“All experience is always judgment” – Bernard Poolman

n    noun
1    practical contact with and observation of facts or events.
2    knowledge or skill gained over time.
3    an event or activity which leaves a lasting impression.
n    verb encounter (an event or situation). Øfeel (an emotion).


If we understand that we are currently walking-experiences, we can see that everything that we go through is assessed by the mind as an experience – Life is Not an Experience yet we are currently walking as mind-created experiences wherein we can simply stop identifying ourselves as the feeling/emotion/judgmental experience and instead SEE through practical living-application how we can go living ourselves as a point of change – yes, it will still be a mind-perception of yourself yet it will be a more physical experience wherein no more backchat is directing the reality but simple physical living interaction – this is what we’re walking.


How we use the tools is to identify ourselves as the experience that we’ve become of thoughts, emotions and feelings and as we go stopping we will still experience ourselves in a certain manner as we are currently existing as mind consciousness systems that assess and value everything according to one’s established parameters – we’re establishing parameters that are aligned with what’s best for all in common sense which certainly creates a guideline of how we are able to practically physically live and still experience ourselves yet not clogged and stuffed with emotions and feelings and useless thoughts, but instead allow ourselves to stand equal to the mind to direct ourselves. That’s what’s here as ourselves hence we direct us to the best possible outcome that’s livable/ walkable in this reality through direct realization of it being in fact so.


This is how we realize that all knowledge must go, that all past perceptions as experiences of ‘who we are’ must be self forgiven and let go of because all of them are holds that keep the system in place – we are the system and unless we stop feeding the same constructs and walking in absolute directive principle, we’ll re-create the same patterns over and over again which is in essence recreating the past of self-enslavement with no self-direction consideration.



“the price that must be paid for our blindness due to experiences” – Bernard Poolman

We’ve disregarded life while wallowing in our mental diseases that we’ve accepted as ‘human nature’ as ‘our life experience’ – this is only one of the reasons why giving up the mind is giving up the actual harm and abuse imposed on to life – it’s only fair that we’ve got to walk now from the consequences of such continued disregard to what is here as ourselves while existing as the helmets on the head.


It’s clear that the physical body doesn’t ‘experience’ knowledge or values/ judgments upon comparison, worth imposed over things and people – all of that is but mind-creations, huminds creations that we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to wallow in. The physical just IS:

“The physical -has no agenda, need to know nothing, is already in full design, and live as it breathes, as it eats, as it fucks, as it touch. The mind – has judgments, reasons, meanings, laws about everything -without actually understanding anything.” – Bernard Poolman

So physical-experience is still an experience yet has nothing to do with the mental schemes of values/worth/judgments that we impose on to that which functions as a vital system – the physical is a vital system that doesn’t require us to ‘think’ to function – example is how body digests and absorbs nutrients without us having to direct a single thing of that process, we’re not even aware of how it all takes place, that’s proof of how detached we are of our own physical body.


“mathematics shows that if one follow common sense and NOT experience–we can change the world”
– Bernard Poolman

So, in terms of participation in reality, we’ve got to stick to the physical cross-reference of ourselves, to remain here as breath to simply stop feeding our ‘life as an experience’ and simply walk here with the necessary points to be done.


We’ve discussed how the mind-experience is still overriding common sense living which is the physical living wherein everything is ‘there’ for all to see. An experience is only experienced by each one, it’s ‘invisible’, it takes place in the mind of each one – that’s how we’ve lived as separate bubbles as our thoughts, just this globe on our heads that no one sees yet we know ‘it’s there’, creating an alternate experience of what’s Here as our physical body that lives, that exists in simplicity.


“when you die–the experience abruptly ends” – BP

So, the point to realize here is that we cannot just stop ourselves being an experience as that would imply we’d have to die – as the above quote presents – so what’s practical here to do? We simply direct ourselves to be living here as the physical, to breathe in and out to literally heal ourselves from all the damage we’ve done to this world, to ourselves as our physical body poisoned by all our mind back-chatter. It is insane that we’ve lived as constant self-abuse machines without ever even pondering if that was ‘natural’ to do – yes, our “human nature” is severely fucked up and not at all in harmony with the physical.


Human nature as experience

We can then see how it’s been a HUGE Lie from our world system to identify that the glorious thing about humanity was to possess a mind to think, feel, experience, etc – that is the very thing that allowed us to get into our EGO of the mind and thus possess this world through the marvelous Machiavellic existence as Egos that want to conquer and dominate everything and everyone.

Is that what we want to remain like?

No, absolutely not.


So, hereby I express how I am not willing to second the mind in its own glorification, survival and regurgitation – that has simply created hell on Earth and I’d like to quote Bernard once more because these words must be heard everywhere possible:


“Ego is the acceptance as self as superior to others in truth and thus the allowance of chaos to find an angle with which to screw all competition till only the ego version of truth remains — then the ego were right and for this, the ego will destroy the planet” – Bernard Poolman


We’re walking as all of these points, we are supporting ourselves to become effective in simply stopping ourselves from living as walking-experience and instead get us into a living-physical reality wherein no backchatter exist as directive principle and prime influence over ourselves dictating our experience as ‘who we are’.

We are experiences walking into the living reality – and this is how we’ll continue walking because we see, realize and understand how the humind motivated by internal back-chat has created the current system to be of such abusive and unequal nature, we have seen how the humind in search for new experiences has lead this entire world to the brink of destruction while trying to ‘experience more’ and ‘get more’ which has become the drive for all human action.


So from here one when we share ourselves, we’ve got to make sure that we speak from direct-seeing here as part of our physical amalgamation to the reality that is HERE physical and not only sharing the reaction that is mostly emotional/feeling based according to past-patterns that exist as the mind –  as Sunette pointed out

‘Reality-Insight and not Mind-feeling’


When we are existing in our mind we are only caring for our personal fulfillment of the idea that we’ve become, we don’t consider the totality of reality that is here as ourselves. By exerting a single opinion or judgment upon this world, we are in fact supporting the existence of such judgment as part of the reality we live in. We’ve become so used to criticize and point-fingers at ‘others’ instead of actually simply dedicating ourselves to STOP from remaining as complaining systems instead of being in fact the solution to all this humind distortion of reality: stopping ourselves from participating in thoughts, feelings, emotions = stopping existing as the mind and start living as the physical.


We’ve got to stop living as the Illusion – the ill-uses we’ve placed as value/worth on to what is simply here – it is a constant addiction to seek experiences in everything, everyone out of virtually anything – even if it’s something as simple as going out we tend to seek to have an experience out of it, out of watching nature, sometimes even creating a mental experience of breathing ! lol that’s in essence how meditation works, quite a mental job indeed.


So, we’re all here learning how to actually in-fact live, this is the process – we’re all in this together at the same level and so we simply are here to walk and live and share and support ourselves within it.

This is where we’re currently at walking as a group of people that are willing themselves to live and let go/stop/terminate all the illusion of this world – that’ll in essence will eventually expand to changing the current world system as part of this realization on physical-tangible living wherein no more super imposed caps exist on life.


No more mental-limitations to what is HERE as Life.


Let’s continue breath-walking

Selling Yourself to the eyes of the capitalist mind

Exposing our preprogrammed-nature is part of walking this process and one of the coolest things about participating in Desteni is being able to read ourselves through others as we are all essentially copies that exist with similar patterns that we’ve defined as ‘who we are’ and only differ in ‘make up’ so to speak.

The physical judgment seems to be quite an extensive point and I’ve walked the point just as the majority of people in this world – we’ve allowed ourselves to be bound to a single idea of ‘who we are’ through the eyes of another – what a fuckup.

I can certainly remember how much stress I’d go through due to this point, due to not feeling ‘alright’ in my own skin and so because of all the self-judgment that I had accumulated through comparing myself to other girls specifically, I decided to step out of the usual cookie-cutter stereotype of ‘female’ and engaged into ‘alternative ways’ of looking to deliberately ‘not fit in’ and pretend to be ‘fine’ within that – yet in essence still creating myself as the opposite of that which I deemed as overrated, as popular, mainstream, the usual female-stereotype that I ran away from for such a long time only to then try to embrace it with even worse effects that I’ve talked about before extensively so – I share something I just read in Rebecca’s blog:

“Watch yourself; Do you tell the same stories again and again and again? Do you tell stories that “uphold” a belief you have of yourself? Are these stories really just a need for constant validation? And what does this really do?”
Dalmas, Rebecca. “Flea infestation reveals how we are in this world..” Rebeccakarlendalmas Blog (2011): Web. 29 Aug 2011. <http://rebeccakd.wordpress.com/2011/08/29/flea-infestation-reveals-how-we-are-in-this-world/>.

This is essentially what we do as human beings just tell the same stories that validate our ‘place in the world’ with our little stories that make our entire ‘lives’ apparently ‘something’ to ‘someone else’ while we didn’t even actually consider LIFE itself but only the creation of experiences that we regarded as ‘living’, as ‘being alive’ – fucked up. I can still, till this day, see how there’s this ‘desire’ to create an experience just for the sake of believing that’s ‘living’.

When I was at the farm for a year, I got quite used to living a simple kind of life wherein your life becomes that of actual living – taking care of things that make your life possible in the most practical sense. By this I mean, I had already enjoyed the usual so-called ‘chores’ of day to day living but there it was like integrated as an actual point of enjoyment – lol it may sound weird but that’s how it was, I enjoy having a cool place to live in wherein things are considerably clean and arranged in a way  where it’s cozy, wherein we could enjoy ourselves even when living with another in the same room that wasn’t ‘huge’, like space didn’t matter at all – that’s when you get to see how futile it is to place value on the outrageous demands that this system places on your face to indulge into: big houses, big cars, big bucks to have ‘big experiences in life’ – all of that is seriously something that I got to see for what it is, and one then understands how people with money seek more and more outrageous experiences for the sake of out-doing their own experiences – it’s like a drug addict that needs larger quantities every time to get the same ‘effect’.


Life is NOT an experience, life is NOT an ‘effect’ of something – this is only what we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to believe through the eyes of the mind, the cravings of the system that requires energy to keep going.


This is certainly what’s driving us crazy at this moment and it seems impossible to stop because, in essence, stopping your mind and directing yourself implies that: stopping allowing ourselves from being these machines that require constant ‘fixes’ to continue – even indulging in a memory for the sake of mental-masturbation is a possession wherein we’re not here but telling the same stories that validate ourselves as mind-systems – nothing else.


Yet, because we’ve agreed for so long that life/living  is an accumulation of experiences, we’ve driven ourselves to our quest to gain some, to create some ‘living’ that is completely detached from our physical living reality. We go creating these characters of ourselves to believe that’s ‘who we are’ and people would remain ‘in character’ for the remainder of their lives. Fucked up! Glad we’re here aware of the cycles of the mind, aware of ourselves as programs that are standing up to life – yes, as blunt as it may sound that’s what we are and it is definitely possible to be patient and diligent enough to go stopping the participation in a world wherein quick-fixes as experiences that validate our existence are seen for what they are. Then it becomes more difficult to deceive ourselves and so everything is simplified, we’ve just got to accept the fact that we require to let go of the socially-acceptable ways of defining ‘living’ which is usually creating/buying experiences instead of actual physical walking breathing-living.  In the most practical terms.


Our physical self judgment derives from this inherent desire to appear as attractive to others and within that, diminishing ourselves to the state of being a single image that we spend our entire lifetime to make ‘acceptable’ to others, erasing ourselves as life from the entire image-equation. That is not who we are, that is but information that we receive through the I/eye of the mind which has nothing to do with the essence that’s equal and one with everyone/everything here.

That’s something that I see it’s just plain common sense yet it’s ludicrous how in our society and in our minds the point of perfect-image has become the actual credo and acceptable backchat within our minds – obviously this is Not acceptable when considering Self Honesty.

We have to stop existing as our own capitalists within our physical bodies, accumulating more and more of that which will create the picture-perfect and ideal-character for others to ‘buy it’ and essentially, seek to ‘have it’/ desire it – aren’t we just then like products selling ourselves? hmm – aren’t we only then creating us for the sake of getting the best ‘bidder’ for our own cause/ self-interest? Aren’t we just wanting to be ‘the winners’ all the time then? to be acceptable, ‘buyable’, ‘useful’ from the systematic perspective that we are existing as?

The moment I’d see this in social relationships and got to spoke about it as ‘selling yourself’ people would get offended, but it’s really how we have existed in this world, selling ourselves, selling life, selling an image, and experience and from there creating this floaty-bubble of values and worth that has nothing to do with actual-physical reality wherein acceptance, embracing ourselves, standing up within the recognition of what and who we really are has been missed which creates the requirement to stop deluding ourselves within this.


If you look at what ‘having money’ implies, it’s all about enhancing your abilities to have experiences, to accumulate stuff that ‘adds on’ to your ‘value’ – If everyone had an equal opportunity to experience life without having to attach money-value to it, then it certainly would become an extension of our expression instead of something that is fought for and compared with others. Though, currently seeking for such points only brings further separation, further submission to the system just for the sake of obtaining some benefits – ludicrous, man and completely unacceptable.


We’re here to dignify ourselves – we’ll walk in the game but won’t get ‘lost’ within it at all, we’re done with that.


This is the last life we live as merchandise waiting to be sold to the greatest bidder
this is the last life that I accept and allow myself to place a price tag to food so that others can’t have it
this is the last life that I accept myself to validate myself only through the eyes of other instead of first accepting me fully and completely, not only as ‘myself’ but as the entirety of this world and thus see what’s required to be done and work to be part of a solution to end all delusions.


We stop the bidding, we stop the selling of lies to get props within the system.

We walk as equals within this, Destonians – thanks for that –

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