414. Solution to Ferguson: Learn Self-Forgiveness

 

A fascinating point opened up as I was watching CNN. Yes I tend to criticize CNN quite a bit for the false information and scare they provoke, but as I was cooking last night and turned it on to see what kind of ‘disinfo’ they were sharing, a female TV show host was being interviewed about Ferguson and the words ‘Forgiveness in Ferguson’ were on the headlines of the news section and as I seek for such info on the net, I found yet another reverend that talks about Forgiveness required to get to a solution. What’s interesting about the woman speaking about Forgiveness is that beyond the usual ‘being able to forgive another,’ she explained there is forgiveness to apply to ourselves, which is another way of saying: we require to apply Self-Forgiveness for what we have accepted and allowed – almost her words there.

 

 

What do we have to Self-Forgive here? Upon witnessing the current ‘rioting’ and looting and anger that people in Ferguson experience, what we have to do as humanity is realize that this violence, this sense of ‘being violated’ will get us nowhere, because what we are witnessing is only the outflow of our entire history of abuse, disregard, violence and harm we have imposed toward each other, our environment, we have essentially violated our right to life by complying to, accepting and allowing ‘the way the world works’ as this current dog-eat-dog functioning of the system in a blind manner. This world-system – our laws, our institutions, our governments, our fears, our paranoia, our media, our scares, our injustice – is our collective creation, this is what we have to begin to self-forgive here first because as long as we continue to see ‘perpetrators’ and ‘culprits’ outside of ourselves, the fight, the reclaiming of ‘justice’ will continue without any sense of self-responsibility, which is the rather uncomfortable truth: any act of abuse is not done by ‘others’ but it’s always what we have collectively co-created by having abdicated our participation and decision making processes to decide what is best for all.

The fact that the word ‘Forgiveness’ is pointed out in our MSM (Mainstream-media) as something that is required to solve the problem, should not be taken for granted: it is one step further to understand that we have to step down from our righteousness, our ‘victimized self’ that we climb upon as our mind-horse where we take ‘the abused’ position to ‘ask for justice’ without first focusing on seeing and coming to realize how it is that all the problems we are facing is our collective consequence of having Never actually having cared to review the laws, the agreements, the money systems, the general structures by which we organize and live as a society, which would then of course lead us to see why do we have to create all of these laws and live in constant fear of one another, protecting our ‘right to defend ourselves’ from other potential ‘wrong doers’ or criminals, instead of creating a world system that can benefit everyone and so naturally create peace by doing so?

What we have missed is that the real problem exists within our own minds, within our desire to blame something or someone for any form of abuse, instead of seeing how no justice, no equality, no support or real care has ever existed toward one another as living beings because: We Haven’t Created it, We Haven’t Lived such words ourselves in the first place! All that has ever existed is the war mentality, the selfish nature of only caring for our own wellbeing and not even giving a thought about others’ lives.

How can we ‘demand’ something like Respect when we haven’t ever really lived SELF-Respect such as ensuring that one is not accepting and allowing any form of abuse, harm, diminishment or counterproductive actions that prevent us from living to our fullest potential, individually – so, how can we as individuals feel ‘violated by others’ when we have never cultivated this basic point of self-support as self-respect?

 

 

How can we ask for ‘Justice’ toward some authorities and institutions that we created based on our inherent belief of being unable to direct ourselves and take responsibility for ourselves within the consideration of what is best for all, to create and structure our entire economic, political and social system within such principled living considerations: considering everyone’s wellbeing, supporting everyone to live in dignity, to create a sense of community and solidarity that leads to a well-functioning society… none of these aspects have been our starting point as human beings to coexist in. Even if these ‘rights’ are written in constitutions, on paper they look really nice, but when it comes to living such words and agreements: we have all considerably failed to do so because we have ultimately abdicated our responsibility to live such principles ourselves, individually, which leads to outcomes such as wars and any other form of brutality imposed by our designated ‘authorities’ to create a sense of ‘order and control,’ organisms and institutions that exist as an outflow of us believing that it is more important to impose punishment and be constantly spied on for a sense of security rather than focusing on providing everyone a general good living standard so that the ‘anomalies’ of the system are reduced to genuine mental problems – not ‘criminality’ as theft due to the necessity to get money to live in basic dignity. This is what we have co-created as our social injustice.

This is why, the more we face consequences that shook the foundation of our so-called ‘stability’ or disrupt our belief that ‘everything is generally fine,’ the more we have to start considering that the solution resides within each one of us. It is awaiting to be ‘awakened’ as a sense of self-responsibility to first Live in each one of us such as Self-Respect, to Take Self Responsibility for what we have co-created as our world and so be Willing to Work Together for solutions, to no longer depend on institutions/authorities that are there to ‘calm the waters’ based on imposition of force or further punishment toward those that have resorted to violence or crime because that’s all we have ever learned as human beings to do in moments of distress, fear and desperation to ‘get an answer’ – once again, just because we haven’t learned how to become and implement solutions that benefit everyone, which is absolutely possible for us to do.

 

 

The solution begins within self: not giving into fear, helplessness, hopelessness, rioting, protesting or ‘demanding’ answers from those ‘authorities’ we have placed in such positions because we have rendered ourselves as useless or incapable of solving our own problems – it’s about time we begin to Self-Forgive our perceived victimization on these events, to self-forgive the accepted and allowed abuse we have co-created as our ‘world system’ and how we treat each other as criminals, as potential enemies, as a ‘problem’ instead of facing our own problem inside ourselves: to face and self-forgive our paranoia toward each other, to face and self-forgive our fears, to face and self-forgive our belief of being incapable of changing things – we have to self-forgive all of the ideas, beliefs and perceptions we have about the problems that are going on in this world, to not call out on the perceived ‘culprits’ but to stand up in the realization that: we did this to ourselves, this is our creation and only through allowing us to self-forgive this massive abdication of self-responsibility will we ever come to a general agreement that the solution resides within each one of us: to learn how to Live Self-Respect, to Live Solidarity and learning how to Live by Principles which will prevent us from having to ‘punish’ others as a way to solve problems that are fully preventable if we so agree and decide to create a world system that can benefit everyone’s lives, because that is what we all want for ourselves anyways, isn’t it?

 

The solution is not further police intervention, no further ‘presidential intervention’ or curfews…

 

Time to focus on the solutions, on Self-Forgiveness as a first way to recognize our complicity and Self-Responsibility in all problems in the world right now and so creating a culture of becoming and providing Solutions instead of continuing existing in indignation, victimization and the perception of being powerless to change things.

The time is now, we have only one life to do this – so let’s stand up as examples of what we can be and become when we integrate self-responsibility in our lives and expanding this sense of awareness toward others in our everyday living.

 

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398. The Act of Killing: Humanity’s Self-Reflection

We are all Anwar

No one really likes to recognize one’s own evil. We live in a mass hypnosis state where we have accepted things like poverty and war as ‘norms’ and ‘the way the world works’ without considering a possibility to change. We often blame a particular establishment, government, tyrant, economics, politics, culture and media for the continuation of the atrocities without a change in this world. What we tend to usually forget is that before any secret societies or secret cabals taking control of how the world works, there is and was only ourselves, human beings as the creators of all of the above and everything that we can possibly complain about as the ‘evils of the world.’

 

Fascinatingly enough what we have done is make of our evil something separate of ourselves that we tend to fetishize and fictionalize in, for example, Hollywood movies that glorify wars, mafias, creating the notion of super heroes that can suddenly overcome such evil but then even that idea of the good vs. evil and ‘the good side’ being triumphant is no longer something that is credible in this world. We haven’t really pondered what it takes to create this notion of ‘victory’ and how victory is actually defined by those that win, those that (w)right hi-story, their story to then present an act of killing as something that is glorifying, righteously defending ‘The Act of Killing’ as a justified means to ‘win’ a battle.

We would have to also ask ourselves if we have also come to admire villains for their ‘cunning ways’ to get things done their way. But when it comes to understanding Why we actually harm each other, and How we have come to make of such harm and abuse part of who we are in fact and the ways we justify it is, we don’t go far enough; we often only stick to ‘presenting the show’ which is what sells, what the entire Hollywood industry is founded upon – which is what we do within ourselves too: we see others as the problem, the ‘evil ones’ instead of being willing to look deep inside of ourselves and acknowledge the same problem exists within each one of us too.

Stepping aside from the massive Hollywood propaganda for films that instead of informing or supporting people to see ways in which we have to take responsibility and implement solutions in this world, there is also another type of film that makes us all question everything we have made ‘acceptable’ as a form of enter-tamement/ entertainment such as the voyeuristic ability to watch violence, abuse, harm and murder as part of ‘what happens in the movies’ and eventually, even coming to inspire real life murderers and crimes. Which one came first? One would ask. Yes, it is rather obvious by now that we haven’t evolved as species when we still rejoice in watching battles and wars with all the gore and perceive that as entertainment – gladiators at the coliseum 2.0 – which is also at the same time used as a way to create a normalcy in the act of killing, of murdering, torturing, abusing and have an entire political connotation to it which is what consecrates it at the eyes of world history.

 

 

The Act of Killing is as surreal as anyone like André Breton probably could have imagined surrealism to be defined by and it is probably the first time that watching a film can feel like a movie, only to remind myself that it is in fact a Documentary: a real life presentation where there are several production processes as attempts to recreate and mystify the massive killings in Indonesia in the 60’s and how nonchalantly the perpetrators of such killings decide to represent what they did as part of what they believe is an honorable duty they were a part of – or should we say were told they were doing as an honorable thing – showing the massive propaganda machine that must exist as a constant reinforcement to convince us to do something, to actually kill and torture and commit the most hideous crimes and believe this is something in the name of national defense, honor, respect – sounds familiar? Only every single time that any form of conflict between human beings or two factions leading to war is justified.

 

What would happen if we were able to stand as observers of our own mistakes, crimes, abuse toward ourselves and others? The Act of Killing by Joshua Oppenheimer is remarkable in the sense that he has produced a documentary here the film in itself becomes the platform for the perpetrators to direct their own vision, their own accounts of the killings and re-enact – in their own ‘influences and vision’ – their hideous crimes that they choose to not define as such, because to their eyes they did ‘the right thing’ and as such ‘winners get to choose what ‘war crimes’ are, which is also part of the fabricated truths and creeds that we use to keep ourselves always on the ‘winning score,’ even if it means making of the killings of thousands – or even millions – of people an act of honor, a ‘need,’ a ‘right thing to do’ and forgetting completely about who and what they are in fact doing which is killing another living human being, an equal to themselves.

 

 

Witnessing the self-revelation that comes to the protagonists of this documentary specifically when taking the role of their victim opens up a possibility to realize what they have really in fact done, what they have put others through and witnessing a genuine moment of having the killers place themselves in the shoes of the ones they tortured and killed: perhaps an opportunity to forgive themselves for what they have done.

 

I watched the documentary twice and when I was in the movies I had a knot in my throat specially when realizing how disconnected we have been to everything we watch in a film, especially killings, what it means to kill, how killing is justified but what is more astounding is the actual potential for self-evaluation of such acts as something that is certainly unacceptable in contradiction to how these killers were just told to be and do.

Second time that I watched it was one week ago and I ended up tweeting: we are all in fact Anwar because I could see that we rejoice in blaming people and seeing everyone else as ‘the evil ones’ and we haven’t yet recognized we are all in fact the abusers in this world that allow not only the act of killing but any form of evil as the reverse of life to become our self-religion: what is money in this world but the way to deny life to another if so we decide to do so through ‘laws’ and politics, economic plans and further excuses like races, nations, colors to just not see and realize each other as equals? Who we are if not exterminators in this reality when thousands of species are dying every single day for our sheer presence in this world? Do we ever place ourselves in the shoes of the air, the water, the animals, every single part of this world that we constantly abuse, kill and deplete every single day in the name of ‘our progress’ or our ‘victories’?

If anything this documentary allows us to step back and not only get to see first hand the mentality that has to be fabricated to ‘create a killer’ but to also take the point back at self when attempting to blame anyone for this, or see ‘Anwar’ and the rest of the killers as ‘the bad guys.’ I realize that everything that we’ve seen as this abject consequence of our self-abuse is our responsibility and as such I have nothing but gratitude for having the opportunity to watch this film and be able to cry like a baby at the end in Anwar’s vomiting scene, because I’ve also felt disgusted, sad and angry at myself for what we have done to this world and each other and so it was revealing being able to witness another human being going through that.

Even if I haven’t killed a human being in this lifetime, I am equally  responsible for every single form of abuse that exists here, as we recognize we are all in fact one and equal – that’s our current Oneness and Equality – and there’s no way to escape this and this is one of the reasons why I am so committed to my process of self-change and self-responsibility, mostly to be able to shout out to the four winds : WE DID IT TO OURSELVES! LET’S STOP BLAMING FOR EARTH’S SAKE and instead FOCUS ON CHANGING OURSELVES to Prevent crimes and CREATE SOLUTIONS!

 

So, once we watch this cathartic process that this documentary The Act of Killing represents to every one of us as human beings, we can begin to Forgive ourselves for every single crime, abuse and atrocity we have perpetuated in the name of power, in the name of money, in the name of a god or a belief because we have all done this, then be willing to roll our sleeves up and focus on getting ourselves straight by first and foremost stopping the self-abuse within us because ‘wars’ and governments taking over and secret societies ruling millions of people is nothing else but the outflow of our own abdication of Self-Responsibility to oneself and one another. I say till here no further, we cannot go sponsoring death and destruction one more day in this world beginning the abuse at a thought and individual level we commit each day.

I stand up for Life in Equality and Self-Responsibility for the Crimes we have all committed against Life – AND please: do yourself a favor and watch this documentary, you can’t miss it.

 

 

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Thanks to Joshua Oppenheimer for being such a kick ass film maker and creating this masterpiece that should be shown all over the world to become more aware of the most essential form of abuse we all commit in one way or another: the act of killing.

 

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350. Self Forgiveness in Equal Money

Changing the world is a process of Self Realization – Self Forgiveness is the tool that provides the ability to recognize the responsibility we hold toward one another as equals and as such, learn how to give and receive the Gift of Life in Equality. This is the necessary process at an individual level to ensure we never again commit the same abuse and mistakes we have created thus far and instead learn how to honor life within and without of ourselves in Equality.

 

Continuing:

• 332. Word Policy in Equal Money Capitalism
• 331. What is Best for All in Equal Money Capitalism
• 333. Life = Money in Equal Money Capitalism
• 334. Equality in Equal Money Capitalism
• 335. Money in Equal Money Capitalism
• 336. Self Responsibility in Equal Money Capitalism
• 337. Common Sense and Equal Money Capitalism
• 338. What is Equal Money Capitalism?
• 339. Value in Equal Money
• 340. The Imposition of the Symbols of Power
• 341. Why don’t We Get Rid of Money in Equal Money?
• 342.Monetary System in Equal Money Capitalism
• 343. How are We Going to Change the System to Equal Money?
• 344. Integrity in Equal Money
• 345. Freedom in Equal Money
• 346. Manumission with Equal Money
• 347. How to Become the Change in this World? Equal Money
• 348. Self Honesty in Equal Money
• 349. Self Will in Equal Money

 

 

 

Problem                                                                

• Currently when we look at ‘change’ in this world we see it outside of ourselves as all the structures that would have to be reformed, changed or ‘brought down’ within the premise of them not working to create what is best for all.   The problem is said to be an inherently rigged and flawed system, which is true. However that ‘nature’ of the system was not born in and of the system itself, it is the outflow and outcome of our individual participation in this system that we wrought and shaped according to the relationships we formed toward ourselves, each other and the world. This realization requires an individual decision to first look at the problems within ourselves to understand the nature of the system as a reflection of our individual participation – this is the inevitable individual process that one has to go through in order to stop projecting a point of change outside oneself and instead look within, walk through the process of Self Honesty to understand how it is that this system is in fact the reflection of every single fear, desire, want and need that we have separated ourselves from through the structures that we have built in order to not have to constantly be aware of how our lives are being governed, how our food is grown, how our basic services are provided, how our education systems operate – we have given away our basic responsibilities to these structures without questioning about the eventual consequences of this process, which are the consequences that we are currently facing in our world – they are not anything that we can be proud of.

 

• What has stemmed from us hiding in the fear to recognize the mistakes we’ve made and the abuse we have imposed upon this reality is precisely becoming subject of our own thoughts, actions and intentions that seek to get a point of benefit at all cost – no matter who or what we had to abuse and surpass in our endeavors – we tried to make ourselves ‘better’ while ignoring the root cause of the inherent lack, limitation and insecurity that we are all born into and continued to accept and allow. We have reflected this same inherent self experience wherein it became the very governmental systems that run our lives where our security systems are evolving more day by day, our ability to make a living is becoming more and more difficult  and the ability to become an actual responsible being is virtually non existent because of being taught that we were born into a faulty world and could do nothing about it – yet had a ‘government’ that was supposed to care. This is the nature of our own mind deposited as the structures and frameworks upon our political and legal systems operate.

 

 

• We are witnessing a fundamental crisis in all our relationships – this is because they were simply not based and founded upon that which is best for all but were only outflows and consequences of accepting ‘things as they are,’ which is what has caused all the abuse, suffering, hatred, discrimination, self-deliriums, inequality, etc.  which indicates that we are all equally the cause of the suffering, abuse and deaths of not only humans, but the animal kingdom, plants, the environment that we have absolutely failed to honor as ourselves as life and instead abused to turn into money, assets and goods that could cover our needs to pursue happiness or reach a certain standard of wealth in our society.

 

• We became our own worst nightmare and we have to only look at all the aspects that we have given away our lives to in the form of money that transformed into all the wars, all the destruction,  wealth that causes poverty by default, all mental disorders, health problems, corrupted natures, greed, religions, governments, politics and everything that has lead us to realize that we have allowed a tumor to grow to such an extent that it is already causing consequences that we will have to live with for generations. Our ability to change all of this resides within each one of us – yet we believe we are ‘too weak’ and ‘too powerless’ to do anything to change the system. This is what we have come to believe which in turn becomes another ‘way out’ to not face the consequences and our responsibility to them.

 

 

Solution                                                                                       

• We have realized that it is  impossible to create a  substantiated and permanent change within ourselves without first walking/ living/ applying a Process of Self-Forgiveness. It is the necessary individual process of self realization to humble ourselves within seeing and understanding that we are the creators of this world in all its facets, aspects, organizations and nature, it is only us as the human race that can get to recognize our responsibility toward everything and everyone we have created in separation of ourselves and as such, take Self Responsibility to Correct ourselves, to understand that Change in this world cannot be forced, it is a decision that one lives to live in every breath as a physical being that in fact honor our life and can contribute to create a living symbiotic environment that we can be certain is suitable and adequate to live in, to educate ourselves to become self responsible people, to have every system and part of our society reflecting an actual human nature we can all be proud of.

 

• Walking in Self Honesty and in Self Will a process of Self Correction implies that we are willing to understand how we created the problem to ensure we take on the necessary steps to correct the nature of ‘the system’ that is and stems from our individual participation in it. This sounds a bit too abstract which is why to walk the process of Self Correction it is to understand that we first have to get to know how we created what we have accepted and allowed to exist in this world as an expression of ourselves and be able to gauge the consequences and will ourselves to walk the necessary correction. What we have found is that there is an inherent desire within ourselves as humans to blame others for how everything went wrong and how everyone is so enslaved and limited in this world – but we never dared to recognize our point of responsibility for it, simply because we were taught that we only had to take care of that which we get paid to do to make a living, or the children that we bring into this world, or the house that we live in. An understanding of how we are all equally responsible for this world was never brought forth in our families or schools, which means that the ability to recognize our mistakes was mostly deemed as a weakness, a loss and as such a ‘fault’ within the system.

• The process of Self Forgiveness goes hand in hand with a genuine realization of the processes that are required to be implemented in order to generate a new world, because in essence it means giving ourselves an opportunity to ‘start over’ and create a solid foundation for the  relationships that make our lives possible. This is what enables us as human beings to create agreements in common sense of how we see is best to direct our lives, our behavior and every day living to create a best for all outcome  – it is recognizing how we created the problem so that we are able to correct ourselves individually through walking the process of Humbling ourselves within recognizing our full responsibility in the creation of this mess – this is what Self Forgiveness is for.

 

•  Self Forgiveness is the way to realize that we can Give ourselves back the life that we neglected and abdicated to systems, to authorities, to beliefs, to other people in separation of ourselves. It is about finally being willing to let go of the Ego that has stood as the image and likeness of separation and everything that is the reverse of Life and as such, walk a process of honor, humbleness, self respect and integrity to understand our co-creation of this reality and system that has always been a mirror of our own nature.

 

“What is real cannot change. That is why the physical reality is real. That is why consequences exist HERE. If you can change your mind about something, it is NOT REAL –you must live it into reality like a breath taken –without the chance to change it–then it is real. That is why self forgiveness do not change reality–It change you and then you change THE FUTURE — The past cannot change and in the NOW exist both the Past and the Future–unless you live it DIFFERENTLY so that change is PERMANENT –you have NOT CHANGED. Changing the mind is easy as it is NOT REAL — Changing reality is the MOST difficult task that exist, because it is really happening RIGHT NOW everywhere and once it happens, it CANNOT CHANGE. Thus the necessity to create systems that produce PERMANENT CHANGE and to set yourself FREE from the ILLUSION of energy and the MIND through which you abuse REALITY causing UNCHANGEABLE consequences EVERY DAY” – Bernard Poolman

 

To read more about Self Forgiveness, suggest reading:

•  Day 1: Self Forgiveness
• Destonian Wiki entry: Self-Forgiveness
• My personal story: 2012 Self Forgiveness: How-To, Why, What, Where, When?

 

Rewards                                                  

• Integrity, dignity, honor, self respect, common sense, self realization, self responsibility, assertiveness, critical thinking, mathematical thinking, confidence, liberation, self appreciation, self will, authority, power, self honesty to name but a few are all the benefits that one is able to recognize, integrate and live as oneself as a result of walking this process of Self Forgiveness in Self Honesty. This foundation that we establish within ourselves becomes the pillar of our stand in our world and reality to ensure we can live to support, share our understanding and create a world that we will all surely want to live in. This is what Self Forgiveness creates: a fundamental self-change in the individual that enables self correction at a system level as a result of our living application and example of what it is to consider in every moment, every single aspect of our reality as ourselves, guarding each other’s life as our own and ensuring that we honor every bit of our lives with utmost care ad consideration – no harm, no abuse. 

 

• The Reward of Living in a System where Money no longer Controls our Lives is certainly the realization that freedom is not ‘having a lot of money’ but having money functioning as a system that ensures everyone’s basic needs are covered and no one ever again has to suffer of lack, limitation, marginalization or discrimination. Life in Equality is the optimal state for humanity that ensures Peace on Earth created by ourselves and our every day participation in the Equality System.

 

• Living Self Forgiveness means letting go of the past within understanding and Living in Self Commitment as the correction to ensure that through our day to day living, we change the ‘who we are’ into the beings that we can live with for eternity. This is thus realizing the level of Self Perfection that is possible when we Commit ourselves to live Self Change, to Integrate Life in Equality as who we are and become our physical bodies to the extent that we are able to be aware of every single breath that we take, which will mean that no human nature will ever be separate from the physicality that we are and as such: we shall never disregard life within ourselves and everyone else as who we really are, as Equals.

 

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  Day 351: Desteni, Equal Money, Zeitgeist and Occupy Wall Street

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  The meaning of Self-forGifting/Giving Life – Part …2

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  Planting the Seeds of Life: DAY 345

 

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• The Nature of Words – Reptilians – Part 183

   

 

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334. Equality in Equal Money Capitalism

Inequality is concept originated in the best interest of who we are as the Mind that disregards physical evidence of our equal requirements to live, to justify why we can transform each other and the resources as means to enhance our lifestyles as the expense of others, creating the legal means to justify Why some are entitled to have More than others. In this we’ve made of knowledge and information a criminal code of behavior accepted as  ‘the way the world functions’ which is applied to everyone on Earth, without ever questioning the starting point of such decisions and if they were in fact based on establishing a world that’s Best for All. Our reality proves they were not, and it is our responsibility to ensure we establish the living principle of Equality as Life to provide to everyone the ability to Live in the Best Living Condition granted to everyone by virtue of their existence.

 

Continuing:

• 332. Word Policy in Equal Money Capitalism
• 331. What is Best for All in Equal Money Capitalism
• 333. Life = Money in Equal Money Capitalism

 

Problem                                                                 

 

• Our constitutions have had these words as part of their guarantees and precepts, but they have never been applied and even if the ideal Capitalism points out ‘Equal Rights,’ we know this is not so, otherwise the people making cents an hour to produce goods that are sold a thousand times more expensive on retail price would be equally wealthy to the people that adjudicate themselves the right to decide who gets what amount of money – that ‘right’ to be equally earning profit is not supported. The right to life that people have by virtue of being a living being is neglected, and we have 2 billion people in this world that are proof of that.

 

• Equality is usually linked to Communism of Socialism, pointing it out as a ‘failure’ or leading to mass murder and absolute control over people, which is by now the most common association and the most detrimental to get past this association and actually understand the ‘Equal’ next to Money. We have stated many times that Communism or Socialism only stood as names that refer to other forms of hierarchical structures of power and control – with this it is to understand that Equality has Never Existed on Earth or Existence for that matter, and this should suffice in order to be open to Hear what Equality as Life implies – yet we have another set of common obstacles for this.

 

“Without morality as the inner being of equality, one will manipulate reality to suit your self interest as you would be living in fear of other life forms as they compete with you and you want to win at all costs –even if it means the end of the planet” – Bernard Poolman 

 

• People claim that no one is Equal and no one will ever be – this mostly comes from an understanding of who we are as our personalities, our skills, our abilities valued according to a System where No Life in Equality has ever been existent – hence all that is valued is knowledge, the ideas and beliefs of who each one is as a part of the system that does a certain work that creates more money than others, that is profitable, that leads one to earn a lot of money and within that become ‘more valuable’ in society. This is only, again, a value system created by the human mind in separation – disregard, inconsideration, neglect and deliberate ignorance- of the physical reality wherein two human beings might not be exactly ‘the same’ in their physical and psychological abilities, but both require the same Basic Needs to live, to satisfy their living requirements – we all live in the same world and that makes us Equal in the understanding that in order to live, we require to obtain resources and means to do so. Money has become the only way to obtain this ‘Right to Life’ and if we don’t grant this Right to Life as Money to everyone, we have our current Inequality or Income Inequality where some earn More than others –

 

“This inequality as ego is the foundation of education, economics, religion, politics, money, spirituality, family culture, sex and from this knowledge of self as ego, every child that enter this realm is immediately infested with the illusion and forced to create an ego themselves that will follow and abide by the rules of the illusion that has been manifested as the human civilization.” – Bernard Poolman

 

• Inequality has been set as the ‘default’ ground of our social, political and economic order and organization as a society, we have believed that ‘this is how it’s always been’ and that we should just ‘stick to it.’ It has only been the History that we have been repeating without a change throughout time, we can’t claim evolution while we still justify the suffering of those left out of the equation that should have always considered Each Individual within the distribution and access to means and resources to live. This is a Physical consideration of what human beings as all other living beings in our planet require to live.

 

• Equality has been linked to an automated, insipid, robot like state of being, a lack of ‘inspiration to live’ because ‘everyone will be the same,’ which is a common misconception and fallacy, a contribution of our basic programming at home, at school and everywhere in our society in order to cultivate and preserve the privileges and benefits we obtain from our education – which is existent if you have money – our means to live well and have a good social status – only if you have money – and seek ways to capitalize it and grow it to make it even ‘more successful’ – only possible if you have capital/money to begin with. And within these ‘privileges’ everyone complies to accept the fact that some have no money to begin to even ‘run the race’ at the same level than others – this is justified with multiple excuses that make of Inequality part of our ‘Human Nature’ – again, this is only the result of Education and perfect slave-training wherein we are taught to Fear that condition that would Enable us to be in fact Free – because No One is Free until All is Free.  We have been taught to praise the jail we are born into, to polish it, to adapt it and make it a sophisticated ‘way of living’ without ever questioning why individuals are tampered from their ability to Live if they have No Money

 

 

• Privileges, specialness, uniqueness, power, control and the desire to have more as greed have been the basic lessons we’ve learned at home, in school as the foundation of understanding our ‘position’ in society where we accept the fact that only money gives us access to a freedom that we are not given by default at birth. We are trained to ‘Fight for our Right to Freedom’ ignoring that such statement implies we were born as slaves. We are Able to provide to each one the Right to Life that Capitalism proclaims, but that implies that there can never exist again any law, policy, right or excuse to justify the ability to control, to abuse and have power over others – for that our entire system must change since it has Always been based upon the abilities to do just that. 

 

“Remember, whatever is faced or created within self – self is and has been the creator. Do not live in fear of what is here, understand it, realise self as it and assert yourself to stand-up for change to not expose others as you to such a world – but create a world in which they will be embraced with equality and oneness and actual living”

– Bernard Poolman

 

 

Solution                                                           

 

“Equality is to take the supply of life giving resources and to distribute it according to the demands of the living system equally effectively to prevent suffering and fear –we do that with equal money and competition and survival. This needs to stop as there is no life in the system of time. Time should move with the heartbeat of the physical to support life breath by breath – then we will live and stop watching flow by.” – Bernard Poolman

 

• Equality and Oneness as the Law of  Our Being is the foundation for every relationship and interaction with one another, every form of organization on Earth which stands as the solution to every single problem that has ensued from our accepted and allowed neglect of this basic principle. We have written ‘Equality’ in our laws and constitutions, but have never Lived it, because we didn’t understand Equality as a physical living realization of all of us being part of the same world, the same existence, made of the same bones and flesh as the Matter that comes from the Earth and returns to Earth.

 

• Equality as Life is the recognition of our origin, our substance, that which we’re made of that we learn to honor as who we are. This will take precedence in all relationships we create with each other, how we see and conceive ourselves, how we organize our societies, the way we learn how our world functions, the way we value each other – this is the inalienable right that is omnipresent as the quality, the fact, the matter that each one of us Exists as – no law, no  agreement can ever again violate this living fact. All forms of concepts that stood as the representation of separation will cease to exist the moment that we Learn to Live the Words that stand as this Realization Who and what we are as Equals.

 

• The Starting Point for Each Individual as Life in Equality –  we don’t require an extensive amount of laws and regulations if we all learn to live within the Principle of Prevention as the Best Cure for all problems that can only exist if one does not regard all parts as equal and one to who we are: self understanding of Life in Equality is the key to realize why each part of ourselves as One and Equal requires to be Equally supported to generate an actual Well Being where Everyone is benefited from each individual’s well being.  

• We as humanity are the key to restore the separation that we have created in our minds, which means that we have to first understand How we created the problem to Stand as the Solution, individually and collectively – and for that the Desteni Material stands as the basic source of understanding at an existential level how we have created the primordial separation of ourselves as life into what we currently exist as.
  
  

  “Equality is not based on input output –it is based on life — animals will be supported although they cannot produce food for themselves for instance –equality is not only about the human –it is about all life in very form = the humans will require re education — that will be the first primary task after the basic inequalities is removed to allow at the individual level a life of worth and self respect — watch the documentary The Century of the Self and hear how human nature is programmable — this makes anything possible even for the so called less intelligent as the measurement of intelligence is based on consumerism and capitalism without any understanding how learning in fact work.” – Bernard Poolman

• Standing together as Equals is the only way we can create solutions – we have to ensure that we guard each other’s Right to Life as our own,  therefore if our ‘Right to Life’ exists in the form of Money that we use to buy that which we require to Live – then we can transform Money into the means and representation that is able to vest this Equal-Right to Life that we can give to everyone in an orderly and manageable manner to ensure that each one’s Right to Life is existent as the starting point of our life on Earth.

 

We have to assist and support each other to realize this basic principle of Equality as who we are:

“The first step is establishing self agreement, walking self into equality and oneness with self – this you do through walking through your mind and asserting self as the starting-point directive principle – once you have walked this, you only then start with others cause then you will understand and actually be the living point of ‘assisting another as self’ – but one cannot in fact be/know that yet if self hasn’t walked for self first. So – walk self-agreement equality and oneness in being equal and one here with your physical and prepare you for your next phase of assisting/supporting others” – Sunette Spies 

 

• Education  is pivotal to integrate these principles as a living principle. This will exist as the foundation of Parenting and Educational Policies where Equality is understood as the foundation of our interactions with one another as Equals, such as the definition of words that stand as the building blocks of a world conceived in Equality, basic physical living support skills like nutrition, hygiene, communication, living responsibilities as well as mathematics and vocabulary to establish a comprehension of the world as a Physical Living in Relationships of Equality that enable Life to be Lived in Harmony with one another.

 

“The Equal Money System have as Goal to Educate prospective parents with the skills and understanding necessary BEFORE a child is Born to make sure that the Child have every opportunity of an excellent Life and the required Base foundation as example of what it means to give as you would receive with a dedication to care for Life in all ways. We are what we are taught form Birth and changing our Beginning Here will change Human Nature. We all know this, yet we continue to ignore what can be changed” – Bernard Poolman

 

 

 

Rewards                                               

“Within a System of Equality all working towards what is best for all, we will have the mathematical certainty of a future that’s best for all, and thus do not need to be feared. In the way that it now exist in systems of abuse, secrets, and who we are as humans now, the future must be feared because in the mathematical equation of it we are certain to produce disaster.” Bernard Poolman

 

• Equality is the cure and solution to all limitation, fight for survival, abuse, all power plays, competition, violation, discrimination, poverty and greed, hatred, judgment, disease and general state of distress that we have lived as – our ability to co-create a world that is best for all is founded upon the ability to recognize how stable, enjoyable and comfortable our lives can be if we ensure each other’s right to have this same condition in their lives themselves, we won’t ever again fear to be robbed, violated or abused in this same right because there will be No need to do so if everyone’s well being is guarded as our own life.
  
• The New Living Agreement is of all Parts standing as Individuals in Equality – this implies the diversity of expression based on what is Best for All Life – true freedom, true self expression and diversity will exist as a unique expression that stands equal to every other being – this ensures an actual enjoyment and eagerness to Live in order to expand our creative abilities once that no abuse or extortion guides our every breath, but who we are as equals stands as a certainty of Life in Every Breath.

 

• Birthing Life from the Physical as the Manifested Equality and Oneness wherein we will in fact Live for the very first time and exist beyond every form of limitation that has existed up to now, and this is certainly the one reward we can all ensure is manifested as Who We Are in our directive principle of deciding to Live Equality as Life, as the words we speak, the way we live among one another, how we conceive and regard each other in our reality once that Money doesn’t stand as a point of separation, but as a tool to support this physical living realization of Equality as our Individual Responsibility to life as a whole.

 

 

• Visit the Group Capitalism vs. Equal Money group on Facebook.

• Read the Equal Money Wiki

• Read Economist’s Journey to Life

• For more about Self Education on Words, visit the Desteni Forum and Desteni I Process 

 

Artwork by Damián Ledesma

 

Blogs:

• Day 331: The Cancer Experiment
• Day 330: To Write with Principle and Integrity on …
• From Reactive Responses to Self RESPONSE(ability):…
• From Consciousness/Ignorance to Self-Awareness:

Must Hear

• The Soul of Money 

Vlog:

• Why has Equality Never Existed on Earth?

248. Are you Depressed about the End of the World?

What comes after we become aware of the current state of this accepted and allowed levels of destruction, annihilation and death everywhere as an outflow/ consequence of our accepted and allowed lifestyle? Self-Experience of all of which I have walked throughout these past blogs: helplessness, worry, dismay, concern, preoccupation, sadness, suicidal thoughts, wanting to ‘give up’ whatever we are doing, hoping to just die and end our experience here, hoping to end suffering through praying/ wishing/ chanting for change?

 

Continuing from:

• Day 2 – Running out of Oil

• 241. The EndGame Show: 2012

• 242. Overwhelmed by the Abuse upon Life?

• 243. The Sublime and the End of the World

• 244. How to Prevent School Shootings

• 245. Sublimity and Ecstatic Self Experiences

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  246. Why do we Seek to Escape this World through Emotions?

• 247. Blindly Following Our Progress

 

I was washing the dishes this morning and on the radio comes ‘Give Peace a Chance’ and one is for a moment embraced by this ‘heart-felt song’ that reminded me of the entire documentary that John Lennon and Yoko Ono made in relation to their days in bed in a Hotel in Montreal, wherein they made this ‘pacific statement’ of make love not war – and the moment shows how people were gathered in that hotel room chanting and getting all emotional with their nice vibes and intention to ‘give peace a chance,’ lol. I mean yes, one can understand that coming from any of us that has never experienced what being a ‘casualty of war’ implies or being directly sent to ‘fight a war,’ creating a nice positive experience as a way to prevent it might seem like an adequate thing to do – but did anything change from any peace and love moment? No, if only it only lead to further dissociation of reality through the use of drugs as a temporary ‘ailment’ to ‘cope with reality’ that has become more like a worldwide crisis when it comes to seeing how many people are on drugs – either on a legal/prescribed or illegal manner . Now that we see and realize that what’s ahead within our human lives is not going to be nice or pretty, I’m sure that many might be going through the stages of planning/ plotting a ‘way out’ of the Earthly scene.

 

I want to share here just a single consideration, which is why suicide/ giving up was a discarded point for most of us that would get initially overwhelmed with the realization of who we are/ what we’ve done/ what we’ve become and simply thinking that it is just Too Much!

 

When I began reading/ hearing  Desteni, it also implied getting on a daily basis a lot of videos from all types of documentaries that would show/ reveal the abuse in this world. I at first had to ‘play strong’ and watch them all – this included of course basic education on how the monetary system worked and some basic conspiracy theories to learn how to discern reality over schizo-media frenzy. Of course I wasn’t used to being Aware of the reality of this world, as I had spent those last years focusing on reading about religions, spirituality, the occult and everything that seemed like a ‘nice thing’ to divert my attention from reality with, I was living in Hope I can say, definitely.

So, when reality hit the door along with Desteni, I went into an emotional turmoil wherein I spent almost one whole day manipulating myself with thoughts and crying because it was apparently just ‘too much.’ Was I in fact in such actions being responsible in any way or was I only focusing again on MY Experience only? Of course the latter is the correct point. It was a non stop point and I was travelling so I made a show of myself weeping throughout the whole trip from the moment I left home and went to my home city, it was endless drama – of course also then my family started saying I should ‘stop seeing all of that’ just because of how I made an experience out of becoming aware of the absolute destruction we’re imposing on Earth.

 

I recall that moment as a manipulation point because I got to be aware how ‘feeling bad’ for the things that go on in this world is only again going into a Mind-Emotional experience that serves no other purpose but as another distraction from what is HERE and what I have to actually focus on, which is stopping participating in my emotional and feeling outbursts that were actually created out of me Thinking about destruction, Thinking about depleting the forests, Thinking about Animal Abuse, Thinking about all the filthy corruption that is governing our countries, Thinking about the gigantic plaster in the ocean, Thinking about all the species that are going extinct every single day as a direct effect of our consuming-producing civilization. Did me Thinking and crying about this made any difference? No. And I certainly recall going past the mountains in the bus and just bursting out crying again, lol, it seriously was a tear-jerking mind possession, I have no other words for that and after I cross referenced it back then I realized that I had made only a Show of myself, and manipulated me into ‘Feeling Bad’ about the destruction in the world, going again into hopelessness/ helplessness, wanting to just ‘give it all up’ and seeing no future.

 

What’s interesting now is that even if I am and continue to be aware of the destruction, depletion going on in this world, I realize and have integrated within myself that generating any form of experience is truly only In My Mind and that it is only Self Interest to do that – Anu explains it flawlessly here:

Reptilians – Am I Real – Part 37

Now, I invite you to check out our constantly updated Facebook Group wherein all of the reality-show of this Earth is being presented through the latest Human Endeavors – now, how could I just ‘cry’ upon that, seriously, if everything we’re doing within this world is based on absolute self interest wherein anyone creating an Experience about the state of the world would be the definition of hypocrisy, really.  (For further understanding on this word, please read:  Day 39: Hypocrisy

 

Link to Facebook Group here:

Capitalism vs. Equal Money

 

Once you’ve read through the posts you’ll be in tune to follow through with this blog wherein   we’ll keep walking the self forgiveness on this self-experience in relation to How we are destroying the world, the animals, all living species and still dare to become emotional about it, feeling sorry for ourselves as humanity, feeling depressed/sad/anxious which will certainly not stop the oil from being pumped into your car, will not stop children from being raped, murder, sold, abused for profit and deviant pleasures, will not stop animals from being sold, tortured, used and abused for any form of profit, as well as for mass consumption to supply our ‘genius’ fast food lifestyle, will not stop the air from being polluted in faster than sound-like lifestyle that is fueled by oil all around, will not stop the slaves building our gadgets from having to work illegal amount of hours under pressure or even committing suicide as a way out of their personal hell won’t stop mothers from having to abandon their children for not having food to feed their newborn, will not stop a person from opting to go to war as a means to save their families/ get some money from such a mindless job, won’t stop people from consuming precious items that come from the most heinous ways of abuse upon life, won’t stop people from shooting themselves up with drugs or bullets to ‘escape reality’ as that would be quite similar to us becoming emotional and feeling hopeless and powerless to do anything about this world.

 

See the point?

For a moment I suggest you look at the information that’s being presented through the news, see if any reaction comes up and Self Forgive it, for example if you react to watching the documentary in an emotional way, you can apply the following self forgiveness:

Garbage Island: An Ocean Full of Plastic (Part 1/3)

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel absolutely worried and anxious about the plaster of plastic on the ocean and feeling helpless about me being able to do anything to stop/ solve the problem, without realizing that me being/ becoming sad about the manifested consequences of our current ‘lifestyles’ is not going to solve the problem, nor will it enable use to be empowered to fix the problem – thus, I breathe and stabilize myself to rather continue informing about what is going on in this world, investigating how I am directly involved and responsible for the current situation in our world and How I can become part of the solution.

I commit myself to stop living only as a victim of our reality and instead, stand as a self responsible being that is willing to face the consequences we’ve all manifested in our reality as a consequential outflow of our current lifestyles and consuming conditions and within this to realize that I am part of the solution through directing myself to take responsibility for myself, my mind and my reality.

 

Visit Equal Money System wherein a recent goal has been added that reads the following:

Goal: Stewardship Within an Equal Money system it will be recognized that Humans are a part of the Ecosystem they live in. The word ‘eco’ stands for ‘home’ – and thus, each human will be responsible for maintaining the Balance and Harmony within their home, within their Ecosystem. This involves the Monitoring of the Well-Being of the Plants and Animals within one’s Environment and to Intervene when Disharmony occurs as a result of Human Impact, so that a new Equilibrium can be established. source: http://equalmoney.org/goals/16-stewardship

 

If anything, one should seriously have the courage to listen to what Animals have to say about ourselves as species, it is the most humbling walk through what we’ve become and within that, we might get a bit over ourselves and focus on the reality of the things as the actual process that must be walked to realize to what extent we have separated ourselves from what is HERE and what is REAL and certainly what we are missing out while living in such conflictive ways between our mind and physicals while waiting/ hoping/ dreaming about the world to end or suddenly be renewed. Rather stick to reality and what is actually here as a result of our negligence – give yourself a Self Awareness Gift to enjoy these ‘numb’ days where everything seems to be about giving further products with no other purpose than continuing the same capitalistic mechanisms of consuming-being happy –repeat again, rather support Life:

 

• Animal’s Life Review 

I got no particular suggestion, rather pick an animal that you like and hear what he/she/it’s got to say, all are equally ‘enlightening’ to see what we’ve become, what we neglect and how we can fix the problem  for sure.

 

Now, that is what we can all begin applying already, becoming aware of how Money has being a factor that has lead us to neglect the basic balance/ harmony between humans and the Ecosystem, that implies all living beings in it.

 

Within this, we can see that there is actually a lot to do other than giving up and throwing ourselves out of the window – so to speak. There is no point in wallowing since we will have to get up/ stand up anyways, and even at death, there is no way out since the process that we are going through is existential and no one is truly ‘out’ of this in any way – if any, process in the afterlife is most consequential as many beings have been able to attest in the Life Reviews at Eqafe and here a real nice wake up call I suggest you give to yourself after reading this blog and realizing that you in fact got all the potential to become part of the solution:

• Giving Up on Myself – Life Review

 

Further support:

Desteni Forum

Desteni Lite Process – Free Online Course

Desteni I Process

Equal Money System

 

Blogs:

• Day 248: Change The World and God – ADC – Part 95

• This blog is part of the After Death Communication Series

• UN/TI(e)-ME – (Part Two): DAY 248

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  UN/TI(e)-ME: DAY 247

• Helplessness by Lindsay Craver
  Day 227: Learned Helplessness Character – Contextual Overview

• Day 249: Learned Helplessness Character: The Power to not Give a Shit

 

Must Hear Interviews – along with the Animal Reviews –

• Reptilians – How Hope Creates Hell – Part 38

• The Soul of Money – The key to understand existence as a Human Physical body and its relationship to the Mind.

• Demons in the Afterlife – Understanding the current abhorrent situations in this world stemming from Real Stories told by a Demon himself. Enabling yourself to not Fear the Mind but understanding it is crucial within our current state in this World.

94. In-Sin–Irate: Anger Issues

Have we stopped ourselves to consider in what way we gnaw and eat up our very physical body the moment that we participate in anger or any other emotion/ feeling experience? If we were really aware of ourselves as our human physical body, we would be aware of how the very thoughts we have consume our physicality in order to create such emotion or feeling in any given moment – we never dare to question how such ENERGETIC experiences are created, while even the name is indicating obviously: something must be consumed in order to fuel such experiences. Yet, we never looked into ourselves and only decided to accept and allowed energetic experiences as ‘who we are’ – because: ‘oh I am this that I experience in my body, I must act on it’ – and never ever questioning or even being able to fully see and realize what we are participating in the moment that we react in one single split of a second toward another in an emotion or feeling. One single shift from being here as breath and we can know: we’re mind possessed.

 

Anger

incinerate
n verb destroy (something, especially waste material) by burning

Yesterday I went out for my walk earlier than usual due to the storms that have been going on here. When I was already on my way back, I first saw this young male walking with a seemingly desperate and rather ‘uncontrollable’ dog – and I saw he had a wooden stick with him – a thick branch to be precise – and I immediately reacted to that within the realization that he would hit the dog with it, but I could not pull out the usual burning anger that I would experience before, it was just like paralyzing inside myself  in the moment and I simply started following them based on thoughts like ‘this is unacceptable/ I must do something about this/ what can I possibly do?’ I walked a bit quicker in order to be right behind him, then I saw that other three males – same age – were handling one dog each with the same behavioral characteristics: angry dogs barking at all dogs in the neighborhood, being seemingly uncontrollable – each one of the males had a similar thick branch on the other hand – I could not compute in that moment because I was only ‘making up my mind’ trying to figure out why the first dog I had seen seemed so uncontrollable and angry, having to be hit that way to behave.

 

I started deliberately walking right behind the four of them, I went into a point of possession wherein I wanted to pull out the anger that would usually drive me in the past to go and shout or even wanting to hit them – but I couldn’t. I ‘felt powerless’ but not in an emotional way, like actually having no ability to ‘pull out the anger’ I was used to experiencing in such moments/ events. I realized that it was not appropriate to go and shout at them because they were 4 males, with 4 angry dogs, with 4 thick branches and I was alone.

 

In a way within my mind, yet it didn’t even seem like thinking, I wanted to curse them to death – and I couldn’t. I could not even pull out some hatred. It was fascinating to see this unfolding, like slow camera movement where Marlen would want to just beat them to death in my mind with words or even pictures, and I couldn’t. Anyways, so as I approached them through walking behind them, I could just utter the following words in the moment – ‘Is this why you have your dog for? To hit him?’ – And obviously the young man didn’t bother at all, I was not grasping the whole picture in that moment  – and as I walked right behind the four of them I approached the second one and told him ‘Is this what you have your dog for? TO hit him? – and I managed to pull out some other words – ‘Would you want to be hit the same way you do onto him?’ and he just didn’t reply, he only made a gesture of ‘I couldn’t care less/ maybe I’d like to’ – So, there was no answer obviously. I realized it was pointless to continue doing anything about it.

 

Then I realized what they actually were as the whole picture: people that train dogs for dog fights – hence the attitude of the dogs and the males with the wooden sticks with them. It is their “job.”

 

The point here is that I wanted to be as angry as I could, I was wanting to just burst out in absolute anger toward them in that moment, and I couldn’t – and this strangely so felt like I was powerless = not moving by energy inside – however it was more of a concrete experience inside me that I could not even direct some ‘angry thoughts’ toward them.  I followed them until the corner where they went straight ahead, and I just stood there on the corner watching them and all I could think of is breathe – breathe – breathe – breathe – and so I did. After a couple of minutes of just deliberately standing there to see where they would go up to, I realized that there was no point in continuing that, so I turned to the right and followed my way back home.

 

In the past – and I’m talking about 4 years ago when I started becoming aware of the abuse in this world – I witnessed similar events and I remember becoming like a tornado inside me, filled with rage that I used as a fuel to approach the man that was dragging the dog on the street – I told this story in a video minute 3:49 – and I would react in boiling anger, ready to just torture another with my anger there, ready to shout and scream – and this time, I could not do that, even though a part of me wanted to. Another point is that I kept myself  grounded wherein, even in the moment that I approached the two males that I managed to talk to them,  I was just like a rock not really speaking in an  irate manner, even though I wanted to.

 

This is to reveal how out of habit, I would have wanted to make an entire drama out of the situation, shouting or getting myself ‘into trouble’ just for the sake of ‘making them see’ – but as I saw their reactions when I asked them the questions, I knew that I had to stop and not go any further.

 

So, the word that came up is ‘incinerate’ which sounds like in-sin-irate and how I had a moment there wherein I actually ‘wanted’ to be angry, me as the mind wanted to just bring up anger and lash out onto them and I couldn’t. Which is irrational because I knew beforehand ‘not to react’ but again looking at the event happening in front of me is more of a trigger point to face self-honesty to.

 

I was talking about this type of situations two days ago, and I myself had suggested not to intervene in such moments of witnessing abuse onto others – children, animals – as we do not know how they would react – and I was seeing with my eyes how it was 4 males, 4 dogs, wooden sticks – I really went too far to even approach them. So, to explain the point: ‘I ‘felt’ like I had to go and speak up to them however I felt like in an entire possession in that moment when I drove myself to speak to them. It was not directed by some churning inside me as in the past, but I did speak up to them.

 

I have explained before how I would deal with extensive anger toward everything and everyone – and I’ve certainly ‘slowed down’ in that, to the point wherein I cannot describe if what I did experience yesterday was anger, because I didn’t ‘feel it’ as the usual energetic experience – however, the realization here is:

 

– I cannot place myself in such situations of absolute risk just to let people know what they already know they are doing in the moment – even more so when seeing the whole picture and the reason behind such actions: dog fights = money/ business/ males getting paid to take care of the dogs = they won’t stop doing it as it is their job

 

– My reaction was based on thinking – meaning that I assessed the situation according to what I thought was ‘right’ to do in the moment, even if I was expecting myself to suddenly get absolutely and extremely angry, I couldn’t – which was a point of being grounded to realize that I could not possibly take the point further than approaching them with simple questions.

 

– I also directed myself to realize in that moment that If I witnessed the entire abuse that goes on in the world, I would have incinerated myself due to/ because of reacting to it all – we cannot possibly ‘make a change’ to a chain of events and situations wherein money is being the driving point, wherein the consideration of animals as ‘less than humans’ is a culturally ingrained fuckup for ages in humanity – I cannot stop what is currently being experienced by billions – I can only stop myself.

 

– I realize that in situations like that on the street, I had reacted in extreme anger wherein the usual desire is to just shout and flip the finger to them, as if that could ‘offend them’ or take them to a realization, without seeing that their actions are in essence already proof of what they are willing to do because of money, and how I have no context in any way whatsoever within the entire situation – but only wanting to react based on the obvious point of abuse, which is a constant point in our entire reality. Thus I see that I partake obviously in such point of abuse by simply accepting and allowing myself to exist within the current world that we are in the way it is, and not doing a thing about it – until now that we are beginning to STOP ourselves from being the very perpetuators of the same fighting/ battling eternal separation system that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become.

 

– I realize that I cannot expose myself that way, meaning – I walk alone, I am alone and I cannot possibly confront others that are clearly more, with ‘tools’ that could be harmful as well as the dogs themselves that seemed angry as hell. This is what we have become, using dogs to fight to satisfy some human being’s desire to see dogs attacking each other to fuel some mind mechanism that is pleasured when seeing wrestling, fighting – thus who I am within it all? Seeing where and how I am fighting myself, or wanting to fight others in the name of ‘doing something right,’ without taking into consideration the actual chain of events and consequences that could ensue from this point of ‘following my mind’ in such moments.

 

– I also realized that I had been blind when I watched the movie ‘Amores Perros’ which depicts that dog-fight business here in Mexico City, I somehow managed to just ‘numb it out’ as part of some ‘movie’ as if it was not real or in some alternate reality. I see how I would see movies without taking into consideration that such events DO take place, do happen and are as real as seeing those dogs ‘going out for a walk’ and having to be hit in order to behave, due to how they have been trained by the sick twisted human mind that solaces is seeing fights and dare to even gamble upon winners. This I fuel and exist as every time I seek to win and ‘win’ something, get a positive kick out of anything that I can witness and consequently experience as an energetic movement within me.

 

Fighting

I fought myself in that moment: from wanting to react and another ‘part’ of me – the real me – remaining just like a rock, I experienced like this cement inside me where I could not even think – it’s like when you are in the bottom of a pool and  you know that you could drown yet, you cannot possibly just move up to reach for air. I am describing what I experienced in that moment which I have also experienced as a child in terms of realizing I am drowning but not being able to move – so, the experience was not the usual ‘angry mode’ but instead it maybe was petrification – yet at the same time it didn’t feel like anything.

I also realize that if I had gone out at the same time I usually do, I would not have witnessed that, which means that it doesn’t matter if I’m present or not: those dogs exist, people that train them to fight exist, they will continue whether I witness that or not – I realize that any reaction is in fact stemming from my inherent desire – that certainly has mellowed down – to point out the abuse to others, instead of even realizing how the abuse is first onto me because of having the actual desire to be angry, to ‘burst up in flames’ – which is how I see that the word incinerate makes sense: I had not ever considered the ‘who I am’ in anger, and I had never considered the detrimental effects of such energetic experience of anger on my body.

 

I have written about the memory of me as a child becoming extremely angry, to the point where I feel my entire body just having like a ‘chill’ from how much I would put myself in such anger trance, and that’s when my parents would offend me ‘You are fucking crazy!’ and just leaving me in the room,  fueling that anger even more because of them judging to what extent I would lead a single point of anger into an actual anger possession. Hearing them cursing at me for fueling my anger made me even more angry.

 

And I remember the stories my mother would say about my father, picking up fights with people just because of going past a red light or something – he used to carry these sticks on the car ‘just in case’ something would happen – I took it as normal, and they always wanted me to carry some thick cable that I could hit someone with in case they wanted to do something onto me. I always refused.

 

 

Stepping out of the anger possession

Whenever I would go out of the possession when I was a child, after spending  a long time crying and fueling that experience of anger wherein the totality of my body would go into a paralysis almost, even just now as I write it I can experience the same thing, the tickling as pins and needles on my left arm. Even as  a child, I would fear dying in such moments – my mother would say to me that my entire face could be paralyzed if I continued boiling up with such anger – and so I would fear dying, I would fear ending up with a ‘dry half face’ because of anger – and that’s when I would slow down and just cry not even because of whatever reason I have had to get angry in the first place, but because of becoming aware of how my body had suffered in that moment of anger possession. I would brace myself and feel sad/ sorry and even worse for what I had put myself through.

 

It was just like vomiting. When I was a child and I was sick and had to puke, I would keep my eyes open and cry throughout the whole thing – I would then notice that the pores of my cheeks had burst, I would feel so bad for having damaged my body that way that I always feared having to puke again. One of the reasons why I stopped drinking was when puking was ‘the way to stop the drunkenness’ and me becoming absolutely disgusted of myself for having to do that. The ‘peak point’ was when I had to puke and I cannot even remember where I did it/ or don’t want to remember. I stopped, I could not take myself any further than that – besides waking up with bumps on my head and other undisclosed bruises.

 

Self abuse – no different to becoming angry – same experience, same pain felt after the energetic possession: the body took it all and, have I ever asked forgiveness for my body for such things? No.

 

I one way I am ‘glad’ I was able to stop myself most of the times before going into absolute rage, however seeing this potential in me – which is linked to thoughts related to killing/ hitting/ deliberately harming others that I see are ‘abusing’ was never realized as me following the threat of abuse even in my own mind. I guess that’s why and how I would ‘resonate’ with a clockwork orange in a way, and the entire experience that I had yesterday I later on assessed as the similar experience that Alex had when he cold no longer be violent against others – he would get sick, I just got absolutely ‘blank’ with no ability to do anything else than that.

 

I had taken for granted these surges of anger as a child, I remember them very well yet when I was pointed out that I had a lot of anger I went into a ‘what? no way!’ denial state, without daring to look inside myself and find the real evil justified by ‘seeing evil’ in others’ which became – as I have mentioned before as well – a thinking pattern of ‘humanity is evil’ and as such, shaping, molding my entire beingness to be in a ‘military’ way, like a soldier that is ready to combat any point of attack. And this is precisely being explained in Heaven’s Journey to Life blog, specifically the link I’ll leave below, and so I have just written out the whole point with several links to the past  up until the experience at the moment.

 

One single event can become the mirror we have not dared to look ourselves into, because we knew before hand we do not want to see what is reflected on it, yet it is ourselves.

 

The physical consequences after this was pain on my left foot  because of how I had a struggle with ‘my expression’ and the physical point of it in the moment – my mind wanting to go bezerk and the other me here stability pulling myself like cement on the ground. The trick is to keep breathing at all times. Looking back at the entire situation, It was ‘cool’ to face the point from the perspective of being able to face such ingrained inner-experiences with regards to anger. However, it is plain obvious that the cause of the anger won’t be solved in one go: Animals being abused by humans is the most despicable thing that we can do along any other moment wherein we abuse ourselves in the name of reacting to such abuse as well.

 

I will continue tomorrow with the Self Forgiveness points.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry, petrified at the abuse of this world without realizing that participating in anger only supports my own gnawing as physical flesh and that in no way does it support LIFE

 

“Animals are driven to extinction as they DO NOT feature in the Consciousness of Humans as Equals as Life-Forms”  – Bernard Poolman *

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Day 39: Hypocrisy

 

hypocrisy
n   the practice of claiming to have higher standards or more laudable beliefs than is the case.
hupokrisis ‘acting of a theatrical part’, from hupokrinesthai ‘play a part, pretend’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever judge another being as being hypocrite without realizing that we have all become hypocrites the moment that we live according to the idea that we want to fulfill of ourselves in our minds, chasing our wants, needs and desires and using all means available to achieve them, wherein we portray ourselves as a character that is able to ‘get what one wants’ by using deceptive means that in no way consider life and what is best for all, but only self interest and personal gratification.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people in my reality as hypocrites toward myself, when in fact the only one that was judging them was myself in my secret mind, believing that because ‘they need me/ they require my stuff’ they are being hypocrite toward me just to keep things ‘at ease’ around, without realizing that I have been the only one creating the point of hypocrisy by having thoughts, judgments about others in my mind that I have justified in self righteousness wherein projecting blame toward others makes me ‘the victim’ and the ‘good person’ that is ‘good spirited’ and is ‘true’ to herself – without realizing that the very act of judging and having thoughts in the back of my head about others that they can in no way see/ be aware of is making me exactly that which I am judging others for:a hypocrite.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that we have all always been hypocrites as that has become ‘the way’ to survive in a dog eat dog world, wherein pretending to care, pretending to be interested in another’s life, about animals, about the environment, about those in need comes like a ‘nice thought’ that makes us feel like we are ‘considerate’ toward fellow living beings, just to eventually in one second forget about it and continue living our lives, pursuing happiness, scheming ways to win, seeing how we can get the most with the least inversion, planning out ways to become effective within the system that functions in corruption and dishonesty by playing the game, without having ever considered that the acceptance of such constant scheming to be ‘more,’ to be ‘above others’ is what is driving this entire Earth to its absolute depletion, wherein everything that will be left-  if we don’t stop ourselves -is our dreams of chasing after the elusive pot of gold in the name of personal ‘power,’ that can only exist as an illusion within the delusional and schizophrenic monetary system that is based upon abuse and not life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as hypocrites for having approaching me in the name of self-interest and not in a ‘genuine’ way, without realizing that there are no ‘genuine intentions’ in this world wherein we have all bound ourselves to a system of survivalism, where the one that is able to be the best liar and ‘fool’ the most is the one that gets the most power as the ultimate reward = money in the world – hence how could I have ever gotten ‘hurt’ by seeing the truth of ‘others’ intentions’ without realizing that I have ruled my life according to the same principle of having to play the rules of this abusive game in order to survive, which are rules that I had never questioned and that I had accepted as ‘how things are’ and in that, justify all abuse and neglect toward life, which became me accepting hypocrisy as ‘who I am’ toward everyone and everything in this world, pretending to be ‘just fine’ while in fact, I could only deem that ‘everything is fine’ by deliberately accepting lies as truth and making myself ‘more’ through such ‘truths,’ as knowledge and information that I have defined as ‘who I am’ – in this

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become equally deceptive and hypocrite the moment that I accepted another to be and become only a personality, a set of preferences, beliefs, judgments, values, words, pictures, emotions and feelings that I have accepted as ‘who I am/ who others are,’ which is in fact accepting the abuse of life ‘as life’ and pretend that we and everyone in this world were in fact ‘living,’ while in reality, we have all become hypocrites in pretending to live while abusing life, regardless of the evidence that is here every single day, in every moment  wherein animals are going extinct due to our abuse, people die out of sheer human negligence to provide unconditional life support, the environment is extremely exploited in the name of personal power, in the name of human supremacy over all other life forms that are regarded as ‘less than,’ which in fact makes me and all that have defined ourselves as our ego, our personality, our beliefs, our dreams, our feelings, emotions, preferences as hypocrites toward life, because we never dared to question ‘who we are’ in relation to life and how come that our ‘lives’ could only be fueled by using what is unconditionally here as the Earth and what we call ‘resources’ and selling it for our own personal ‘benefit’ which is translated to money as power in this world-system.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become the ultimate hypocrite by believing that I could point out ‘flaws’ in others, while not even having dared to realize that who I am is the product of a society and a world built upon lies wherein no genuine thoughts, intentions and values have ever existed, because we’ve sold life in the name of money which means that whatever I ever pondered as genuine, as ‘sincere’ within me/ others was in fact part of the lies to keep myself within the belief that ‘I am a good person’ / ‘I am trust worthy’ – not wanting to see that this can only exist as long as ‘I am protected’ and I have money in my pocket as a form of security – otherwise, when my very own survival is threatened, all ‘honesty’ and ‘sincere intentions’ would be dumped out of the window because reality then knocks at our door to realize that: nothing that we have ever perceived to be ‘good natured’ was in fact so, as it had always been a cover up, a make-up for the inherent negative experience that we have all stemmed from since the inception and conception of ourselves within this existence. (Read Sunette’s blog for more)

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was sincere and a genuine ‘good hearted’ person, without realizing that I used this as a way to manipulate my reality to obtain and gain that which I knew would make me ‘worthy’ at the eyes of others in society and in that, being able to eventually create a ‘good reputation’ that can be translated as ‘good source of money’ in a system wherein personalities that are presented as ‘good willed,’ ‘sincere’ and ‘honest’ are ‘rare to find,’ yet not realizing that any self-perception of being ‘good natured’ and ‘honest’/ sincere has only been a way to continue surviving in the ‘good side’ of reality, while avoiding and deliberately covering up the ‘bad side’ which is how I had deemed others to be: hypocrites, cheaters, liars without daring to see how the very scheming and planning of my own life, myself, my personality and the picture presentation that I built of myself toward others, was aiming at serving two gods –  wanting to do ‘good’ to life but wanting to preserve my specialness and my recognition in the system as a way to be able to continue abusing/living a ‘good life,’ yet pretending to care about those that were ‘less fortunate’ than myself.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that I’ve become the very epitome of hypocrisy, not only as an individual but as humanity, as an entire race that has dared to pretend that ‘everything is fine’ and we all go walking our days, seeking to ‘make it’ and looking for our greatest next excitement and successful living, living to the ‘max’ while neglecting all the effects and consequences of having lived by the law of self-interest throughout our existence, which is now facing a turning point that affects us all, and that must be a wake up call for everyone that is already seeing and living the consequences of our endless disregard toward life.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to judge smiles as a sign of hypocrisy without realizing that I would play out the exact same mechanism every time that I actually perceived a potential ‘threat’ or ‘antagonism’ from another, wherein the positive attitude such as unconsciously smiling was used to ‘soften’ any form of hostility that I could be facing in such moments, which reveals how being ‘affable’ and ‘good natured’ as an overall positive attitude is actually stemming from fear of conflict, fear of having enemies, fear of antagonism wherein through deception and lies we can ‘buy’ another to have them be ‘on our side’ in a world wherein only self interest can be the reason to divide and conquer.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I have been a hypocrite from the very first stages in my life wherein I knew that presenting an ‘adorable expression’ would lead family, teachers, older people to be fascinated by me and in that, have everyone just ‘loving me’ and ‘appreciating me’ which would make me feel ‘good’ as the positive reward that I then became so used to constantly and continuously obtain from others – in this

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that hypocrisy became the deceptive portrayal of a decorative positive experience toward people as my modus vivendi, in order to always have everyone/ the most ‘on my side’ and ‘agreeing’ with me, wherein I ensured that all things would always work according to ‘my plans/ my way,’ which means that hypocrisy became the ultimate manipulation to always get what I want, how I want it and whenever I want it, through instilling sympathy for me as the devil that looked for ways and means to always get ‘the most of the cake,’ as all the positive energy experience that attention, care, money and compliments that I could gather from others, in order to then ‘value’ myself as ‘worthy’ because others could see me/ consider me as ‘worthy’ and a ‘valuable person.’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to accept positive rewards toward my hypocrisy which made a professional life-long hypocrite that knew how to ‘handle’ the system through creating and developing different personalities according to ‘where’ and with whom I was in my world, wherein I learned that different tricks as behavior, personality, words, self-presentation could work different according to each moment, each person to obtain my positive reward  becoming a chameleon that is multi-personality based,  and never ever considering this as something that was signifying deception and dishonesty, because I thought that everyone else was doing it, so it ‘must be’ the way to cope with reality, and in that

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become an equal part of a deceptive, corruptible and life-treason system wherein we have all pretended that it was ‘okay’ to place price tags upon ourselves to be sold for that positive reward – to place price tags upon  life wherein we thought that it was ‘okay’ to have people starving in isolated countries in the world wherein they could not ruin our ‘pretty picture world;’ wherein I made it okay to compete against others by presenting a made-up personality,  misrepresenting, manipulating and abusing the very  life that constitutes my beingness and diminishing it to a single personality as a bundle of thoughts, feelings, emotions, desires, wants, needs, preferences as a constant engine that had to be kept running by consuming more and more of anything that could keep me existing in that ‘positive idea of self,’ never pondering why I required to ever feel ‘more’ and ‘better’ about myself – and in this, never questioning why we were always seeking to be and portray ourselves as an ‘image of success’ at the eyes of others, in spite of the actuality that was going on within us, as all the inner conflict, self-hatred, self-loathing, anger, frustration and desires for revenge that we were only seeking to exert toward ‘the world/ others’ as an apparent blame for ‘them’ as the ones that went before us, having left a world in shambles, while the reality is that I as everything and everyone that is here have been equal participants in this game that we have called ‘life/ living’ wherein only through deceptive/ hypocrite means could we get some form of ‘decency,’ which implies that respect for life and human integrity have never been existent in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that ‘higher standards’ can exist as an immaculate form of benevolence in this reality, without realizing that all positive experience is in fact stemming from our very own strife to make ourselves ‘more’ and ‘higher’ than what we are, because we have enslaved ourselves to an energetic system wherein we can only be ‘worthy’ and ‘good’ at the eyes of others through building up an image as a reputation that can be then ‘upgraded’ and ‘inflated’ like a price and sold and rewarded for good money as the actual positive-reward that can lead to fulfill the ‘higher standard’ that I sought to get and be recognized for as the ‘moreness’ of myself, which is and can only exist through abuse and general conflict/ opposition and abuse toward life and the consideration of Life in Equality.

 

As I see and realize that everything I have ever believed myself to be and think as a positive attribute has been part of the lies and deception in this world, I understand the importance of walking a process of Wiring, Self-Forgiveness and Self Corrective Application to give back to myself that positive experience that I always sought to be and become in the name of personal glory, wherein I tacitly agreed upon living in a system of abuse just to eventually get my positive reward for having been such a ‘good player’ in the system, abiding to the laws and rules of ‘survival of the fittest’ as the natural selection that I used as a justification to build up my ‘positive attributes’ to become part of the ‘winners’ in the system, and in that, forgetting eventually about all the ‘good-doer’ type of personality once that power and the desire for it simply corrupts even the most ‘honest’ man on Earth, as once that abuse is accepted and allowed in one single part/ aspect in our reality = it becomes acceptable for all, which is precisely how it is important for me to become The Point that Stops perpetuating the existence of myself as a deceptive and hypocrite toward myself/everyone else and this entire world the moment that I pretended to ‘care’ but only really care about my personal satisfaction, which can only exist as the saturation of positive energy based upon the abuse of all life.

 

I commit myself to expose my own hypocrisy toward myself/others/ the world from the personal to the global systems wherein everything ‘positive’ and ‘good natured’ was in fact the make-up put upon the actual shady, nasty and greedy side of each and every single participant in this world system that we have accepted and allowed to use for personal glorification and self-interest, and seeing it as something ‘normal’ and ‘acceptable’ to live-by and seek-for, without ever questioning why it is that we can’t ever get to an optimum position that benefits all and seeing that the cause for the problems in the world is in fact our own personal pursuit of happiness wherein we only care about ‘our own stability/ benefit/ security’ as money, while deliberately neglecting to ask/ ponder/ question the fact that not everyone in this world has the same access to money to have a decent living condition, nor can even they exist in the same ‘dream state’ of pursuing happiness without even having the very basic needs such as food, shelter, water, clothes, sanitation available within their world, which places into perspective the extremes of our deliberate human ignorance toward the world as ourselves.

 

Therefore I commit myself to walk my process to show and reveal to myself that anything that I had deemed as ‘good’ within myself, could only stem from a negative self-created experience that sought to be covered up in an acceptable way wherein I could obtain and gain other’s attention and acceptance in the name of my personal power, power that can only exist if others are ‘less’ than me in my own mind.

 

I commit myself to walk in every moment in Self Honesty wherein I ensure I no longer place myself as a separate part of the system that apparently ‘doesn’t abuse,’ because of believing that ‘I always wanted to do good’ – while not even realizing how this was also seeking a reward to myself for ‘doing good’ as recognition and eventually making of it all a ‘great life’ that I could live out of keeping myself as a lie within a system wherein hypocrites gain the most as they are the best liars when complying to the system and being seemingly ‘benevolent’ while in fact the world is in reverse, and all those that had nothing were the ones that we kept in such a deliberate isolated and caged position in order for us to ‘feel good’ about being able to do something for ‘the less fortunate,’ which proves that altruism is the most blatant form of hypocrisy that is stemming from personal glorification and never from a genuine care toward another as equals, as all that is sought in altruism is to feel good about having people depending on you, as that makes you ‘powerful’ as a mind that thinks that having power over others is something fulfilling.

 

I commit myself to stop any projection of hypocrisy as a judgment toward others in my head as I realize that we have all been equally participating within a system wherein we have compromise each other to only be able to thrive if we comply to the ‘rules of the game’ as a deliberate form of abuse toward all life/ all living forms in the name of personal power and self-gratification.

 

I commit myself to expose how there can be no ‘personal power’ unless it is based upon abuse, and how the only power that exists is here as ourselves as the physical breathing moment wherein I can stand still in my mind, not participating in desires, wants, needs, dreams and the opposite as lack, self rejection, blame, excuses, justifications and self-deprecation that are equally energetic experiences that I have defined as part of ‘who I am’ and in this, expose what is it that we have been In Fact abusing while keeping our personal states of mind ‘alive’ which is ourselves.

 

I commit myself to reveal, show and demonstrate how it is only through Self-Forgiveness in Self-Honesty that we can in fact stop fighting for our own survival and stopping the desire for ‘power’ and ‘moreness’ of ourselves – and reveal this process of Self Honesty as the only way that we can make us trust-worthy again with Life, that Life can stand in and as a system that benefits all, that is regarded as one and equal within and for everyone, wherein Who I am is no longer defined by a point of separation of my self equality and oneness.

 

I commit myself to be part of the group of people that have committed themselves to ensure that the rules of the game within this ecosystem function according to that which is best for all, at all times, wherein we can finally stop being hypocrites toward one another and discover what it is in fact the genuine expression of human beings and life, once that the bonds of dependency through the current monetary system as survivalism and abuse, stop and reveal the actual nature of ourselves to be worked with once that the threat toward life is removed as an actual self-willed action within the understanding that: we were the only ones that generated, stimulated an perpetuated such separation from substance/ life in an attempt to make of life an experience as a ‘feeling of being more’ than ourselves here, in the physical.

 

I commit myself to use the word hypocrisy as a way to rattle the cages of all that are caged in a comfort zone of self-dishonesty as I stand and dare to call out the abuse that we have all accepted in the name of personal glory, and in that, reveal our ‘true nature’ as well as showing/ revealing how we can only redeem ourselves once that we dare to care to create a world system of money that can be equally distributed for all, as a self-forgiveness act to clear the sins of our past wherein we only sought our individual satisfaction – we can only become self-honest and trustworthy with life/ as life if we dare to give and receive life unconditionally to all parts equally, within the realization that we are one organism that must function in equality at all times and that any form of abuse will only cause the re-load of the same abusive patterns of the past.

 

I commit myself to breathe here, to walk my own secret mind toward others beings throughout my life until I make sure that I have cleared my standing here as every moment of consistently existing as breath only, so that I can in fact be trusted again with life. And extend this point of self-support toward others as I see and realize that we can only stop if we All collectively stop and take responsibility for the spider web spun in separation of life as ourselves.

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Day 37: The Opium of the People

 

A cold realization – yet another one in this process – in relation to Religion. I had become such a blatant hater of the religion I was born into and then, fascinatingly enough, sought others to fulfill ‘my needs’ that were based on any type of philosophy and practice wherein I could create a ‘bridge’ toward a relationship with a god/ source/ higher self and ‘fulfill my mission in life.’ I’ve written before about it in the various spirituality-related blogs  and it’s great to realize that there is still a lot to understand about this reality, and that I can take a lot of my words back to self through Self Forgiveness on this post in relation to how much I have judged reality as the ‘opium of the masses’ without understanding why we actually required to be  sedated with the illusion of god/ heaven/ happiness in the afterlife in order to not end up killing each other due to our Real Nature. Yes,  as shocking as it is: we required God and following Religions, Spirituality or any other Movement that promoted the reunion with the ideal of benevolence that could instill – on a parallel mode – Fear as a way to control our real heavy-duty evil nature.

It’s fascinating that I saw the word opium coming up yesterday and I could not pin point what was it all about, until today that I heard an interview that explains Religions and their key-role within the development of our civilization. Then Marx’s quote about Religions came up and realized that we truly had no idea about ourselves until now. With this, I clarify I am in no way justifying or now supporting religion – as anything in this world, it is part of the enslavement that We Created for ourselves and that we were definitely requiring it in order to not go absolutely haywire against each other.

It is interesting as I had realized this point partially, when seeing how people with scarce resources – poor people – could be the most angry and spiteful toward the system yet remained appeased due to one stronghold in their morals: religion, the idea that they had to be good/ do good in order to get to heaven. The idea of heaven then becomes such a powerful dream and desire that is able to instill fear – as the opposite force of the happy ideal of fulfillment – through creating necessary threats to make it clear that:you had to love your neighbor in order to get to be with god in heaven. That was, of course, the heaven of ‘your choice’ which was created and related to specific groups of people in this world as humanity.

Now for the entire explanation, hear about why the inherent nature of man is Evil and enlighten yourself about the exact detail of why, how and how come it is that we haven’t seen and realized this before throughout human history. Brilliant.

 

Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge anything in this world just because of what I read and what I got to understand as knowledge that seemed like common sense to me, but never really knew ‘why’ a point like Religion, in this case, was a necessary ailment to prevent the actual inherent nature of man as evil from taking over our reality to such an extent, that we could have most likely exterminated ourselves long time ago.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge Religion as the ‘opium of the masses’ without ever really understanding why Religion existed as a key-aspect in our relationship to ourselves due to the inherent evil nature that exists as ourselves, human beings, hence religion being an actual regulator of our inherent evil nature to prevent us from killing one another in the name of power and greed over others.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that Religion was pure evil, while in fact it is me as humanity that is the real evil and required of a handbrake as fear-installment through Religion in order to create a point of morality to always seek to do good to eventually get to a heaven wherein we could meet ‘god’ and live happily ever after – all of this because of our real nature being that of self-interest, desire for power and being willing to do anything to get to a position that would fulfill that self-centered egoistical nature that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become – in this

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never question why I hated religion and then sought religion as a way to make myself less miserable, without realizing that the relationship that I had sought to create toward god was in essence, the relationship that I had separated myself from as god, as one and equal, which is the essence of separation that we have created, recreated and multiplied in all the plethora of points that we have acquiesced as part of our reality, without ever really questioning ‘why’ and how come we require the idea of a god to exist, and how come god it is separate from ourselves if it is god, which should be an ever-present omniscient type of concept.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge religion based on deeming it as brainwashing, without seeing that it is not about ‘Religion’ as a man-made creation in itself, but about Human Nature, our nature that is the actual effect of the primordial separation that ensued the moment that we separated ourselves from being one and equal as life – within this

 

I forgive myself that I have ever accepted and allowed myself to be so ‘sure’ about something such as deeming, judging and denigrating any aspect of reality as something that is ‘bad’ and ‘wrong’ and ‘abusive’ without taking such words first back to myself and dare to investigate how come an apparent point of ‘separated-reality’ is able to be ‘evil to me’ and ‘bad toward me,’ such a religion ‘wanting to manipulate me’ and forgetting about asking the very key-question to all aspects in our reality: Who  have been the creators of religion, of spirituality, of movements, of capitalism, of the banking system, of the political elite, of the corporations: we have, human beings.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never question why I hated religion and then sought religion as a way to make myself less miserable, without realizing that the relationship that I had sought to create toward god was in essence, the relationship that I had separated myself from as god, as one and equal, which is the essence of separation that we have created, recreated and multiplied in all the plethora of points that we have acquiesced as part of our reality, without ever really questioning ‘why’ and how come we require the idea of a god to exist, and how come god it is separate from ourselves if it is god, which should be an ever-present omniscient type of concept.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge Religion as the ‘opium of the masses’ without ever really understanding why Religion existed as a key-aspect in our relationship to ourselves due to the inherent evil nature that exists as ourselves, human beings, hence religion being an actual regulator of our inherent evil nature to prevent us from killing one another in the name of power and greed over others.

 

I realize that the only way to walk this process is through accepting humbleness as self, because we cannot possibly continue existing in an elevated idea of self based on knowledge and information as our own spiderweb that was spun, without ever considering that every single point of separation as knowledge and information is actually demonstrating an aspect of ourselves that we created an experience toward, and that must be now restored/ given back to self through Self Forgiveness, as there is no other way to get to a point of equal-terms and clarity as Self once that we are now witnessing the damage done as the result of our own creation.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create separation upon separation through judging the initial judgment that religion entails as a point of separation from god/source/ substance as life, that we then sough to ‘reunite with’ without ever wondering: why and how did we ever then ‘separated’ ourselves from it? How come we have allowed ourselves to fall for a belief and base our entire civilization upon a single judgment that is indicating our separation from any form of actual understanding of how we got ourselves to this point, wherein we are blaming religions for the problems in the world and overlooking the very simplistic aspect of ALL problems in the world: they have all been man-made.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself in words as creations that I then dared to judge, blame and  base myself in comparison-to, belief-upon, belittle, antagonize and even hate without ever realizing that nothing was just ‘miraculously’ placed here by a ‘hand of god’ – I see, realize and understand that this reality has been my creation, in all bits, parts and even that which I had promised to myself to never ‘be a part of’ – it has always been me.

 

I realize that Self-Forgiveness is the ability for me to no longer be bound to the chain-massacre of judgment upon judgment and reaction upon reaction as the infinite ways in which I could continue delegating my point of responsibility toward ‘something/ someone’ outside separate from me – from god, to politician, to CEO, to bankers, to spiritual leader, to the pope, to parents, to teachers, to kings, queens and any other person that I deemed was ‘responsible’ for the fuckup that is here as this world, missing out completely the basic common sense realization which is: it’s always been myself creating and perpetuating separation as the initial after-shock from that primordial separation from being one and equal, from which this negative experience that emerged, became ‘who I am’ as a separate being, which is and has been the starting point of ourselves as creation.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wage war against me all the time, to separate myself even further every time that I sought to feel better about myself, to ‘be closer to god’ which is in essence the perpetual enslavement that we all became a part of – either through religion, spirituality and participating in any form of movements – as well as sex and following money – all forms of desiring to create a point of positivity and a good experience in ourselves, that could get us ‘back to’ that initial fulfillment that exists when ‘being whole’ as the sum of all separation that currently exist – therefore

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that it is only through writing myself, applying Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Application that I can go stopping all forms of separation toward myself and walk the necessary process to stand one and equal as that realization of completion/being one and equal,  through stopping the recreation of separation as an energetic experience within me, which begins at the level of a thought that is seeking to be ‘more’ and ‘feel better’ about myself and in relation to ‘others,’ within this

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the initial point that lead me to seek to be a part of a religion and seek ‘god’ and establishing a communicating with ‘god,’ as that ideal of perfection and ‘greatness’ which had always actually been me seeking to communicate with myself – yet always existing only as an ‘idea’ of myself toward the idea of an almighty god that could ‘save me,’ without ever being able to see the obvious: there is no god and I’ve done this all to myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, within this point of righteousness toward religion, seek to make myself ‘feel better’ about myself whenever I would rejoice in criticizing it and deeming myself to be ‘more intelligent than that,’ while missing out the obvious: any time/ moment that I sought to ‘find myself,’ I was participating in the same religious construct that I judged as the opium of the masses, just because I had pondered knowledge and information above all common sense within this reality.

 

I realize that the relationship that I sought to create with god, was always seeking to create a relationship with myself, which is now in the process of stopping the energetic relationship that I have created toward my own thoughts, emotions, feelings accumulated as memories that defined ‘who I am,’ and walking the process of disentangling myself from all the bits and parts that I have separated myself into within the belief that: I was incomplete and required  god and the illusion of eternal life in heaven to exist, wherein I could finally be ‘free’ and ‘happy,’ which is the reason why I actually accepted all the abuse and suffering in this world, diminishing this reality to being just ‘hell’ in my mind, which was always self created by individual and collective participation due to our inherent beingness that emerged from that primordial separation that we have ‘forgotten’ about, yet recreate every single day that we neglect the fact that any being that is Here as part of this reality is equal to and one with ourselves.

 

I see, realize and understand that it is my/our duty to now walk the process of actually Living as equals in this world, which is a process that lived by self every moment of breath that I have been able to effectively write out, self forgiven, applied self corrective application and walk the process of self, here as a breathing living being that is existing as part of a social organism that requires actual laws, policies and structures that support life in equality – for all to finally live as gods, as creators of a world that we can in fact live together in without desiring something in separation of self as motivation.

 

I commit myself to walk the process of realizing how it is that through me giving myself back to myself everything that I have separated myself from, that I can in fact stop all forms of abuse and negligence that stem from the single point point of friction that I allow within myself to exist as in relation to religion, spirituality and any other form of movement that stood as a yearning and desire to be ‘whole again,’ without realizing that such wholeness has always been here as myself in every moment that I am able o exist as breath and not give into an experience of self that is based on conflict and the accumulation of my own thoughts to ‘seek o be more/ seek something new’ and identifying the fact that all ‘temptations’ are in fact ourselves as points wherein we haven’ established ourselves as being a directive living principle at all times.

 

I commit myself to walk this process of self equality and oneness wherein I now take on the various components of myself as an individual within this reality, wherein all identifications and associations at a collective level in various groupings according to religions, cultures, political affiliations and self-identification movements are walked within the principle of equality and oneness to stop separation from

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I commit myself to expose and explain how a religion or any other form of seeking to be whole/ complete again is an actual process that can be walked in a written manner through a personal process of self-realization wherein such equality and oneness is walked as a physical process of writing out, applying self forgiveness and self corrective application for all the ways in which I have separated myself from as relationships in he mind, which is how we can learn how I is o exist physically once that all energetic reactions against each other cease to exist.

 

I commit myself to reveal how any form of judgment toward religion or any other aspect of our reality is actually a point that we all are responsible for and that instead of judging, we can walk as a necessary process of self-forgiveness in order o ensure that we understand Why and How we created such separation, to now be able to go stopping ourselves from participating in any energetic games wherein we all sought to get closer to god.

 

I commit myself to walk in Self Honesty which implies: walking as breath in every moment to ensure I am in fact supporting myself to stand one and equal as the physical breathing that confirms: I am here.

 

For that, I suggest you visit the Desteni I Process and support yourself to LIVE

 

Great Interview that explains the role that religions played within human civilization, as well as understanding Freedom and Imprisonment within/ as the Human Physical Body

Atlanteans – Why the Nature of Man is inherently Evil – Part 33

Blogs:

Glorifying the Devil as the Nature of God: Day 36

Day 36: Heaven on Earth

Man Know Thyself – By Bernard Poolman

Day 2: Perfection Game

Day 36: Vulgar Display of Power

A spiritual master, a judge, a gun, the image of Christ on a cross, an exuberant city hall building, a prison, criminal record, a car, food, clothes, water from a tap, a toilet, a machine, a college degree, the Vatican, the White House, a famous person, a circus, a house, gold chains, kings, queens, a TV, a party, a synagogue, a sugary-drink corporation, a school,  a yacht, an ideology, a plant, a skyscraper, a personal gadget, a last name/ family name, a politician, a computer, a banker, a regular working man that ‘earns a living’ – in this reality where Money has become the divide between ourselves and Life in Equal availability for all, anything we use, abide to, follow, buy, sell and indulge into with masked innocent ways (read religion and spirituality) are governed by and represent a form of power over others – including your parents – why?  They all entail a relationship of power just as anything currently does in a world wherein life is subdued to the illusion of power that money entails in this reality.

 

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my dreams of wealth and success to become the control that decides the fate of many through protecting the rights of the few as justified as a free choice opportunity, brainwashing even many of the poor into the hope that they may also one day Live the dream without me realize that I have in fact created a dream for me, but a nightmare for others without considering that an Equal System is in fact a shared dream, without any nightmare as side-effect.” Bernard Poolman

 

The moment that we create a point of superiority and inferiority/ more than and less than idea and perception towards another being, an item, a single part of this reality that we create and generate a particular experience toward – either a want, need, desire, fear, resistance – implies one single thing: we are Not standing One and Equal to everything and everyone that exists in this world, and that means we are living in a constant re-creation of this Idea of separation through our current monetary system, wherein it becomes obvious that life is not being readily given accepted as one and equal for all in our reality, because we have created Capitalism as the way to instead become flagrant righteous beings that according to the amount of money you have, your vulgar display of power will be praised accordingly. And I say ‘praise’ because absurdly enough, we get absolutely mesmerized and tantalized by the ‘rich and the famous’ in this reality, to the point that we can have their sybarite lifestyles recorded, call it a “Reality Show” and it will get Millions of viewers that would rather get a vicarious sense of enjoyment from such vulgar display of power than informing themselves about How on Earth have we come to this low-end in society wherein Money is dictating the very breath we breathe in.

 

Hence the need to seek for god, the need to always have to decide upon yes/ no, black or white, be  in favor of/ against of others, subdue ourselves to a spiritual authority in the name of ‘good fortune’ where being a ‘good neighbor’ becomes a survival tactic rather than a real act of equal compassion. Because of this separation toward life, we have made of this living reality a constant survival mode wherein having food, water, clean clothes and proper sanitation can be a luxurious lifestyle for those that have Nothing to eat and drink; while on the other side of the coin, the need to capitalize money drives an entire civilization that is willing to do anything possible to get to achieve the regularly promoted ideal of happiness and well being that, in our contemporary society, means ‘being rich and having it all.’ Why have we accepted wealth which is a blatant display of spite toward any single being that is below the range of what any regular mortal can aspire to throughout a lifetime and not see it as abuse, but rather justify it with blatant excuses such as: god made us this way, people are paying for their past sins with such unhealthy pauperdom.

It is an absolute dissonance currently to click on an RT video to watch news about an ongoing war situation in this world and having to bare watching advertisement campaigns that fashion industries have designed to – now in a more ‘royally fucked’ way – implant the absolute desire to ‘be strong and powerful’ that is currently promoted toward women, transforming an opportunity to stand equal to all living beings – males included of course – and making it just another gimmicky ‘fashion statement’ while instilling desires for such ‘absolutism’ that was accepted some centuries ago in this reality as the ultimate power: having it all and the world at your feet (or below you several meters from your balcony.) Has anything ever really evolved? No, it just got suited into a TV format wherein the ruling of a few has become the very corporations and institutions that we all depend upon, once again, because of Money.

 

 

Ask yourself: why do we study degrees? To be able to have a stable income/ job that enables us to life – this is according to theory of course, as it is being proven now how having PhD’s can get you nowhere or remain underemployed, which proves that everything that you have specialized yourself was ‘not worth it’ in a reality where all that matters is to live fast and die young – which translates into: consume all you can until you end up eating yourself away. This is what at a physical level we actually do when accepting and allowing a reality of consumption with no regard of what the hell it is that’s giving us this ‘power’ to exist, and why on Earth is such power is not readily existent/ given for ALL in Equality.

 

We have now created ‘special considerations’ toward points in our reality wherein we justify such disparity and polarization when having to watch femmes seducing men in expensive gowns within a royal palace for a few seconds before watching information about an ongoing war with no signs of receding. Why is such vulgar display of power a must-watch for all? Because of money, because advertisement has become a powerful industry in direct proportion to how often we actually indulge into such ‘lifestyles’ as a means to mimic an idea of life that cannot possibly be a Reality for all. Come on, we’re being fed dreams and the naivety of it all is: we still fall for it. Other ‘special filters’ include justification towards abuse due to ‘respecting’ a particular culture, tradition, religion, preference, opinion – all building blocks of the illusion that we have become as selfish beings that don’t really care about creating a world that is best for all, but rather improving and evolving into ‘better ways’ to have it all for oneself and for that: Money is the weapon of choice.

How does this work?

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that a system of wealth and property rights is a system of control that is a form of protectionism where only some are protected against the others that do not have equal rights.” Bernard Poolman 

 

Isn’t it a vulgar display of power to have the audacity to squander money in things you don’t require to live while the world starves?

Money is the manifestation of Inequality in this world. We essentially have become the living-split and spite of ourselves when transforming life substance into energy, wherein Money represents that fuel that we have all made ourselves dependent upon, our own  enslavement as ‘our world system/ society’ wherein if you don’t have money = you die. And who benefits from this? Anyone that has generated enough wealth to be able to employ needy people created and accepted by default as ‘poor people’ in society to do the type of jobs that your regular rich person would simply not move a single hand to do. Thus this clarifies how abuse can only exist in the name of power/ power can only exist if abuse exists and abuse can only exist if energy as separation exists.

 

“ I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that once an Equal System is in place, me as the wealthy will no longer have slaves whose Lives I can buy and will have to clean up after myself with my own two hands. This will force me to realize that I as the wealthy have only ever existed at the mercy of slaves and that I have abused the slaves without mercy and should not expect mercy when I never gave it. “ Bernard Poolman

 

A person that is not willing to give to another what they want for themselves, is already abdicating the very ability to live in this world, it is digging your own grave as it is the ultimate statement of you not willing to stand in the shoes of another and consider that they too are yourself and would very much like you tot care about an extreme level of  poverty and unhealthy precarious conditions that they are enduring.  There is certainly no regard to any other being the moment that a definitive stance against equality is established and complaining does a great job to abdicate our equal responsibility within this global problem we’re facing.

 

“I commit myself to the Institution of Democracy as Government by the People, through the People, in fact – with NO authority abdicated to parliament or single Leaders, as that always leads to abuse.

I commit myself to the recognition of the crimes of wealth and ownership as the admission of pre-meditated murder and abuse to do grievous bodily and mental harm, so that morality and integrity may be restored to be values of Life and not profit.

I commit myself to the end of the Tyranny of wealth and ownership.

I commit myself to restore Life to be the only acceptable nature of man on Earth.”

Bernard Poolman

 

It’s in our hands now – we either continue deprecating Life into a sensual experience that comes and goes where consuming the most is considered as being fortunate, lucky and wealthy – or we start realizing to what extent our own “values” are the very reflection of a twisted morality that has been shaped Not according to what’s best for all, but according to the interests behind a machine that continues instigating desires, wants and needs while defending it with the infamous ‘free will’/ ‘free choice’ and ‘liberty’ – all false concepts now being used to promote individualism at its finest.

 

The key to stop the engine of this roaring chainsaw is in our hands.

“It’s time to decide: We decide: we make it or we die “ – The Unicorns Tuff Luff

Be One Vote for World Equality – Support the Equal Money System 

 

 

 

Blogs

All quotes from Bernard Poolman were taken from the blog:

• Day 35: Equal Money will Save the World

Also read:

• The Soul of Fear: Day 35

• Day 1: Reaction Games

 

Interview to understand this process and the world:

• Reptilians – Where does Relationships come from – Part 40

And the Soul of Money Series that is a complete explanation of our current downfall along with the steps to create solutions that are relevant to each one of us in our reality.

 

 

Take a moment to watch this great animation by Micah Buzan that depicts the current reality wherein we are consuming ourselves in the name of Money

THE THIEF – Animation + Music by Micah Buzan

2012 What’s your Mark?

What has ‘marked you’ in your life? If you ask yourself this question you might come up with a memory, a moment in your life that ‘changed it all’ for you. Does that define who you are? Another answer would be having physical marks that could indicate the walk in time-space wherein our physical body starts to deteriorate according to the current experience of ‘getting older’ – does that define your current experience in any way? Marks are also qualifications, standards, requirements, symbols, representations, points of reference – setting up marks as goals can also be applied the same way, competing against ourselves. In essence, we could say they are imprints that we create and regard as a reminder of something, someone, identifying ourselves with a particular something/ someone for the sake of keeping track of ourselves.

There’s also a general desire to ‘leave a mark’ in this world – that’s almost the type of purposes we all had, whether it is going toward the usual success and pursuit of happiness associated with fame and glory, or the opposite polarity as becoming that point that leaves a mark as a reminder of everything that is wrong in society; that’s for example how serial killers have remained as transcendental beings for showing/ revealing the extremes of the accepted and allowed ‘human nature,’ they played out the reality that we have secluded and kept ‘secret’ within ourselves – they became the manifestation of what has existed in every single being’s mind as the idea of harm, abuse and violence toward ourselves/another. Such beings have tainted/ left a mark in human history that can be regarded as ‘negative’ – however we have all been the creators of such actions, regardless of the initial point of denial to take Self Responsibility for this that may come up while reading these words.

Some others seek to leave a ‘great mark’ in their lifetime, becoming someone ‘outstanding’ and influencing this reality in a  ‘positive’ way – these are people that are usually honored/ reminded in society as benevolent beings. From here all the delusional stages of light and bliss, god, angels, positivity, good vibes and the divine stem from, never ever questioning how it is that we have created of ourselves heroes and villains just to maintain a fuckedup status quo of ‘good vs. evil’ that apparently keeps everything in ‘balance’ which implies that the friction is not eradicated.

We can see that it is such desire for peace/ balance/ harmony that we are  not supporting ourselves to consider the root and cause of everything that goes on in our reality that is currently not supporting life, not supporting our expression, but only existing as beings that are always apparently subject to experiencing the highs and lows of ‘reality.’

As much as we would like to neglect the following, it must be said: it is within our little bubble (mind) wherein we walk a lifetime trying to ‘leave a mark’ in this world. We become so self-absorbed in our own realm of oddities and stories as the personal mythology that we neglect the world that is here, physically revealing to ourselves what happens when we stop watering a plant: it dies. This is a single example of how this reality had been specifically designed to keep us all well entertained with our own mind – and the relationships we have formed in it – as a form of never questioning or even having the least consideration to look at other beings’ life-experiences in this same world. Opening our eyes to see how it is that we spent our lives trying to create an effigy of ourselves in the name of whatever we believed in – and wanted to be ‘reminded’ for –  is only another mindfuck that reveals to what extent we as humanity have neglected reality while seeking to outdo our personal scores, to leave our mark.

Winning, competing, striving, fighting, outdoing, overcoming are actions that imply a necessary effort to accept a starting point of ‘adversities’ that we have accepted and allowed as ‘how life is.’ Isn’t this world now looking like a rat race in a labyrinth wherein each one is only trying to find the most ‘outrageous’ way to get through it? This comes to mind as I see the usual world that billions are immersed into: entertainment, TV, music industry, fashion, glory, big business, pursuing happiness, being Special.

To me leaving a ‘mark’ is wanting to be Special and exist in any possible way wherein we make ourselves ‘more’ than the rest, become ‘different’ by any possible means wherein we can make sure that we ‘leave a statement’ which is usually  linked to a single belief, a single character we decided to play in our life. Some dedicate their lives to be benevolent, others to play out the villain, others to simply seek happiness regardless of anything that may come on their way.

We have all played out these roles and, at the moment, all of this bs is what’s stepping on top of the lives that have no desire to be ‘special’ or even enough energy to think what type of ‘mark’ they would want to leave in this world, simply because they have no food, no water, they have no house to live in, they have no proper education and they are mostly used to living in constant fight or flight mode, merely surviving or even having to mitigate their daily struggle to live in the physical level using any form of drug – not for ‘recreational processes’ but to stop thinking about being hungry and having no means to feed themselves. The same goes for all the slave workers that dream of ever being able to leave such hideous jobs while having no possibility to do so, leading them to now leave a mark that is mostly a reflection of the consequences we can create in a world that doesn’t support all beings equally: they commit suicide.

I am watching a news report on Homs, the Syrian city that has been extensively terrorized the past weeks with as much as 4 detonations every 5 minutes, a conflict where thousands of people have already died including civilians of course, the usual ‘casualties’ wherein kids have their brains blown off by bombs, wherein people have lost their family and friends already – “Where is the UN?” is the question they ask themselves, where are the so-called ‘Human Rights’ organizations?– We all know that such ‘unity’ is non existent in this world as long as there are interests behind the gears that move this reality. It is obvious that such consistent war is financed for ‘higher purposes’ of control and conquering the territory to have access to the resources, that is also a statement of ‘creating a mark’ in means of showing ‘who’s the boss’ now.  CNN has placed this ‘warning’ sign at the beginning of each segment saying that ‘the graphic nature of the content may not be suitable for all viewers’ – how come this reality is censored when it comes to seeing/ witnessing in a voyeuristic manner the outflows of the human ego trying to take control an entire territory for the sake of money? How could we neglect these events while entertaining ourselves with our personal lifestyles seeking glory and power?

We have accepted such war scenes as ‘normal,’ as ‘part of the necessarily evil in this world’ as some dare to call it.  Yet on the other side of the coin, people mourn the ‘loss of a star’ in the entertainment industry while celebrating with pompous awards wherein people carry thousands of dollars on top of themselves to look ‘great,’ to leave and set a mark in the world, to win something. This is the type of madness we are living in – yet all I see is that who I am in this world as part of it all is linked to such entertainment industry, because I consume it one way or another  – I am not apparently linked to anything that goes on in the middle East, yet I use the same money and resources  that are the ‘hidden causes’ of such wars.

‎”If suffering were payment for karma, the elite would be in hell in every breath. The system of money as it now exist proves that karma is not functional in this world at all at the moment.” – Bernard Poolman

I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again: we are living in a bi-polar world. I cannot still fathom how anyone that is willing to pay over a 1000 dollars for a pair of shoes can neglect this entire reality wherein people are starving and could eat for several months with such amount of money – how low can we go? The same can be applied to someone that could only seek to harm and abuse others to make evident the already accepted and allowed abuse, yet only wanting to perpetuate themselves as a character that did this in order to ‘make a statement,’ which is how the regular terrorist organizations work and function like. Either poles and all the stages in between, are not supporting ways wherein all beings could actually unite for the very first time within a single principle to establish equal possibilities to Live,  having a constant and consistent form of support that could place all in an equal ground to LIVE.

I mean, come on! All our system of ‘leaving a mark’ just to be reminded in a certain person’s mind, in a history book, in a certain piece of reality for the sake of exalting ourselves as the ego that we have only existed within/ as our minds, must cease to exist, because it is in this very pursuit of a goal that we end up forgetting about anyone and everything in this world. This is how we turn ‘the world’ into a me-myself-and-I situation within a limited scope of reality comprised in our mind.

What would be the ‘mark’ that I would like to create in this world? Leaving a mark that would ‘taint’ everyone with a self-honest realization of having to live by the principle of what’s best for all in order to stop the current accepted madness in this world. The mark would be living as the example of what is possible if we set a single goal for humanity: Walking a lifetime dedicating myself to create a world that’s best for all, a world wherein the future generations can come and finally stop the recrimination and projection of blame to the ‘ones that came before them,’ because of not having done anything to stop the cycles of abuse and disregard of life in this reality.

I’m looking at and being part of a very strange phenomena that is already leaving a ‘trace/ mark’ in this world and this is what we are doing as Destonians, as people that are  paving a non-existent road in this world which is walking the way to establish Self-Equality in all forms/ ways in this reality.

How to transform the world from this manic-driven self-inflicted ego possessions of importance, competition, rivalry, superiority and general madness wherein we have made ourselves to accept inequality, injustice and wars in the name of progress? We place and create ourselves as the solution: we stop within ourselves existing as that constant coming and going between poles of right and wrong, good and bad, as that friction and struggle that we create at a mind level and stand as the point that allows the world to see that: we don’t have to seek answers and solutions outside of ourselves, we must become the point that stops and corrects the current ‘human nature’ we are still playing out.

If we look at the marks in the bodies of people  from having to experience war and be part of the set of ‘casualties’ within a careless money-driven conflict, such marks can only remind us one single thing: we cannot perpetuate a world that is biased in nature, that is bipolar and has lost all sense of regarding any other being as oneself, losing a sense of reality while being indoctrinated with what media, society, educational systems have  told us that ‘we should be’ which is not based or even pointing at the necessary implementation of an Equal World  – at all.

Do people that have no money have an option to ‘leave a mark’ in this world’? As harsh as it may sound, they do – only as part of a number in a statistic of people that are living in poverty, that are starving, have no means to aspire for a better living condition or have died in a war.

Turn your TV on, glance through all the channels, see the variety of realities that are fictional and real that we are creating as a reflection of ourselves in this world. We don’t have to go that far to look ‘outside’ for that madness and general chaos – we just have to look within ourselves in our minds: that’s where the chaos begins. This is how we begin a process of Self Honesty to investigate how and why we are participating in the current reality in such selfless manners until we become the point that Stops.

The one and only mark as the final goal of each one of us is one and equal = establish Life in Equality for all, self-forgiving all our personal-scores to create and leave the ‘best mark of it all,’  the best mark that could ever and should only exist is: Equality as Life – right now, we only carry the mark of having accepted and allowed a world of abuse.

Time to open our eyes, time to start looking at what we accept and allow in our world, what do we occupy our mind with, how much do we actually ‘care’ about our own personal-marks as the constant competition to become someone ‘better,’ instead of simply vowing ourselves to live a lifetime of self-support for ourselves and for the rest of this existence that is now crying out for ‘help,’ which can only come if we all work together and stand up for Life.

We are all responsible, it is impossible to deny this any longer.

Choose Life.

Burst the bubble @ desteni.org