I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bring children into this world out of fear of ending up alone, instead of actually realizing the responsibility that it is entailed within making sure that such being grows up in a supportive environment wherein I can actually establish proper communication that will define the child’s relationship to themselves, their parents and the entire world as society/ the world system. Within this, making sure that I stand as an example for them to follow within the principle of what it is to be a human being that is Self-Responsible and considerate toward all other beings, within the understanding that everything and everyone in this world is Myself as well.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to have the utmost care to the words I speak toward any other human being, wherein I have disregarded the long-lasting and often poignant effect that words imprint on another person, wherein instead of sharing words that are supportive for another as self-support, self-realization, self-respect and self-honesty, I have allowed myself to give suggestions, words, advices and beliefs and instilled fears. self hate and self-deprecation that limit the being’s experience and expression from the moment that such words are uttered with no self-awareness and out of a personal experience of anger, frustration and general irritation toward myself, which I hadn’t allowed myself to first sort out as the relationship with Me, and stopping myself/ placing a guard in front of my mouth every time that I see myself wanting to exert my anger, frustration and general dissatisfaction with life toward my children, animals, my neighbors and everyone in this world that comes to encounter me as a tornado that is willing to destroy everything around it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to develop a relationship of spitefulness, retaliation and general hatred toward my very own children, wherein instead of being able to communicate, know everything about each other – we become enemies, speaking nasty things of each other behind our backs, fearing being judged by each other, bringing up ‘our shit’ and ending up a usual interaction in never-ending spiteful acts of vengeance and blame that ensue guilt and remorse after a while, wherein after all the storm of anger, yelling, shouting, hitting and spitting waters down as tears of shame and sadness for what we have become, a human race divided by words, by thoughts, experiences that we all have accepted and allowed to exist within ourselves.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to utter the words ‘let the fucker do whatever he/she wants with his/her life’ as the words from a parent that indicate the dissociation of self-responsibility toward children once that they are ‘grown up’ at the eyes of a system, as the ultimate words of self-loathing and giving up to realize that my responsibility toward another being that I brought into this world begins and ends till I end or they end within a lifetime. In this
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see how poisonous my words are when spoken out of fear, anger, spite, blame and justification in order to not realize that any major problem with my children indicates that I missed a step toward them, that I didn’t place enough attention to them as myself, because: I had not even cared to first establish myself as a point of Self-Responsibility toward my own life, my relationship with myself, with others and the world as a whole, simply because no one ever taught me this – and for that, I realize that the manifested consequences of generational abuse and disregard from parents to children, has been the very source and core of the current manifestation that we are living in as ‘this world’ that is obviously a mirror everywhere of every point that we missed and disregarded to take care of in Equality as Life, because we had not even considered Life or Equality ever before in our reality, but were only busy trying to ‘make a living’ and trying to ‘make our lives work’ in a world where money dictates the amount of time I have toward taking care of my children, the amount of money I have to provide proper food, education, healthcare and entertainment that is recreational and self-supportive, not numbing and ensuing further drug addictions as the child grows up in this world.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to provide money for my children as a way to compensate for the lack of time that I spent with them, that I simply left them ‘be’ and get ‘educated’ by the school system, by the TV and other friends that were equally left alone at home, finding out ‘what the world is about’ through the internet, through TV as entertainment that is specifically designed with words, pictures and ideas-of-self that, with no reference and constant direction from the parents – install the blueprints of a wrecked generation that will consume as a synonym of living, that will want to work to buy all the products that are constantly advertised as the ‘solution to all problems/ the key to happiness’ in this world – and within that, becoming the very acceptance of a world wherein life is nowhere to be found, but only surviving, fighting, cheating and day-dreaming become a constant way to exist, always desiring to escape, to ‘get a better life’ which always – in most cases – end up in extreme conditions of licentiousness wherein lies are said in the name of money, wherein crimes are committed in the name of seeking a ‘piece of heaven’ because there was no guidance and example of the parents to explain how to live and how to ‘survive’ in a world of wolves wearing sheep clothes, where no respect toward life has ever existed.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that only through the use of force as hitting, screaming, punishing and verbally denigrating another will they ‘learn their lesson’ as to how to behave, what to do, what not do – without realizing that this is the basis of family violence that will only damage the relationships of all beings present in such moment, to such an extent that all participants will replay and re-enact the same acts of violence within any other realm of their reality, which is how youngsters/ the children learn how to ‘cope with reality’ in the ‘tough way,’ because ‘toughness’ is all they have ever known. Within this, joining gangs and ‘brotherhoods’ wherein the tougher and stronger you are to commit crimes, torturing and having promiscuous sex is seen as the basic initiation to become part of a ‘trustworthy’ being within such gangs, which literally mark a being for an entire lifetime dedicated to survive through the ‘harsh means’ because ‘harshness,’ ‘toughness,’ are the qualities that are imprinted as an immediate relationship of the child/ youngster toward the world, wherein marginalization as the very low-income environment they are born into permeates and defines who they will be for an entire lifetime, wherein crime is almost a certainty to be able to ‘make it’ in this world.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be an absent parent that leaves the child to ‘do as they please’ and hang out with people that are equally willing to retaliate toward ‘the world’ and ‘the system’ with no consideration at all, because they were not given any consideration at all as life, which makes us all equally responsible for having sustained an entire human-civilization based on abuse, because that is the only thing that is produced whenever there is inequality in the distribution of the resources/ money in the world, wherein it is more than obvious that everyone that is not able to get the necessary to live, will brew anger/ hatred toward their parents, family, friends and society as a whole, becoming the result of a collective negligence that is generated from the very moment that a child is born in a world wherein the parents have no proper education, no proper household, no proper income to support a child for a lifetime – hence children are born into this world and left to be ‘educated by the system’ which is equally flawed the moment that such education is only existent according to the community, state, country’s general economical standard, within this dooming entire generations because of there not being proper living-quality support at home, at school and in the general environment as society – which indicates that
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to be absolutely responsible for every single criminal in this world due to not having considered that a criminal can only exist if I don’t provide the necessary resources and services that can dignify every single being’s life on Earth, which implies that we are all equally responsible for every being that is currently in jail, as they are there for several reasons that stem from improper family education, no school/ poor incentives to go to school, no proper food/ health care, no safe environment to live in, no living support from any ‘authority’ within a system because such marginalized areas in society are the byproduct of a society that has thrived upon the deliberate maiming the development of large amounts of population that will have little to no-access to money to provide proper support for themselves, their children, their environment – which will push them to be willing to do/ perform any type of job in the name of survival, with no other way to survive other than resorting to such low-end jobs and some others, resorting to criminal activities that are not only driven by a definitive ‘need’ but also by and through the accumulation of spite, anger, resentment and a sense of vindicating their right to ‘be spiteful’ toward the system that has Not taken care of them unconditionally and equally.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear criminals that are actually the exact mirror and reflection of myself as all the aspects wherein I have neglected unconditional living support in all areas that we know and realize can create a human being that is willing to support each other as life. Within this I realize that criminals are not ‘bad’ people but the result of my own evil that has deliberately denied any form of support that can teach them how to live, provide them with enough money/ resources as a physical demonstration of actual care given to all in Equality.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that sending ‘criminals’ to prison is simply shoving away the problem that is My responsibility, My creation in all ways the moment that I had done Nothing to support all beings equally, as I see and realize that ‘they’ are the result of my own negligence to support beings to develop in safe, healthy and supportive environments which begins with the parents that are usually Not ready, not even considering what it will actually entail to bring a child into this world that is existent only in a survival mode –
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that prisons are ‘reforming people,’ without actually realizing that it only reinforces the sense of detachment and rejection within themselves toward a system, wherein they join together as a group that is marginalized in society, as a criminal record is a life-long stigma that is impossible to erase, just as a scar that they will have to bear with their entire lifetime, no matter how much they want to change and support themselves – within this
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continue accepting a system that is willing to place ‘the mark of the beast’ onto beings that have been ‘reckless’ and ‘violent’ and ‘disobedient’ toward a world-system based on lies, abuse, corruption and the abuse of the deliberately crafted ‘disempowered ones’ which is nothing else but the result of accepting a system of inequality as ‘myself,’ as ‘who I am’ and have become – never realizing that all that they are actually wanting and needing is proper self-support as they all have that equal inherent desire to Live and ‘make it’ in this world, which implies that within the Equal Money System we will be able to finally give to all beings a reason to support themselves, as life, as they will be unconditionally supported as well for the very first time in this civilization’s history.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the moment that I condemn any criminal is in fact condemning myself and all the extensive amount of factors that shape the various types of criminals that we are facing in our world in an ever growing rate nowadays, until we all realize what we are doing to ourselves and actually Stop, forgive ourselves and us that are in relatively comfortable and ‘steady’ positions within this world, take the responsibility to restore a common-sensical way of living wherein All beings are equally supported as Life.
I commit myself to expand this common sensical awareness wherein we can begin to see ‘criminals’ and ‘criminal activities’ not as spawns of hell, but as spawns of our very own nature as the Evil that has always existed in and as ourselves, that has been the starting point of ourselves living in a system wherein Life is turned into money, a survival system of separation, wherein the only brotherhoods stand together in means of defense against others, instead of actually standing as the brotherhood of man, the unification of man that we are here to show and reveal is possible once that we remove the survival system as our current capitalist system and eradicate poverty in this world through providing equal support for all.
I commit myself to show how human beings that are deemed and tagged as criminals are in fact able to be supported and reformed once that unconditional support is given through establishing a Basic Income Grant and later on, an Equal Money System wherein once that survivalism is not the modus vivendi of beings, we can focus on educating ourselves, preparing ourselves to become the pillars that will stand as support for the time when there is a population to re-educate to learn how to live in Equality, to remove the fears that endless generations have endured as a way to survive and ‘make it through’ in a system that never regarded life, but only money.
I commit myself to prove to anyone that is deliberately neglecting and judging the Equal Money System how it is through such spitefulness and egotistical assessment that we are keeping a rotten society in place, deliberately extending the time of suffering and absolute abuse toward all beings that are the byproduct of a unequal system that is not supporting them unconditionally.
I commit myself to reveal how it is possible to stop all criminal activities once that everyone is supported with money to live, have a dignified living from birth to death
Read and vote on our proposals at the Equal Money System website, learn to care about others’ lives through supporting you first, through studying reality and daring to hear those that we have conveniently banned from our reality, without realizing the context from which they are stemming.
I commit myself to support beings that have been deliberately marginalized in society out of fear of ‘who they are’ and show that ‘who they are’ is the result of who we have become as a whole in a world-rotten-system that has turned life into money and survival.
For Self Support:
Desteni I Process to Educate yourself to be an example of what Living in Equality implies.
Crime’s Journey to Life
Day 54: The Original Human
Transforming Mother-Earth into Money: DAY 54
Day 12: Selling Economic Dreams
Activist’s Journey to Life
Becoming Aware of the Words we Speak and Parental education:
Reptilians – The Future of Consequence
Reptilians – Existence in a Word – Part 48
Reptilians – The Responsibility of Words – Part 49
Life Review: the reflection of who we have become in this world:
Understanding the World System of Money and How we are all directly responsible for the poverty, starvation and ‘criminals’ in this world: