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Allegory of the Cave: our excuse to remain as slaves

 

The fact is that we come into this world without having any idea of ‘Why on Earth are we here’ becomes our drive in this reality. We then equate living to achieving goals, having a family, becoming successful (rich) – becoming a ‘winner’ in everything we do, following a single ‘dream’ without really questioning if such ‘missions’ or goals in life are actually what we are here for.

 

The accepted idea of us coming from a state of ‘forgetfulness’ and coming here to get back to ‘remembering’ something is already placing a massive condition to ‘who’ and ‘what we are’ from the get-go. This ‘forgetfulness’ must not be understood as ‘getting to complete ourselves’ here on Earth, but getting to realize how it was a deliberate plan to enslave man to always want to KNOW and Never Live.

That’s the key point of this here and I had to drive around in circles to get to the following: Life is Not Knowledge

 

Man Know Thyself

 

Getting to know yourself implies getting to see how we function within ourselves – the relationship toward our own mind – as well as the relationships we have formed that we have called ‘Life.’ If we have a look at it, the law of our being is currently compromised by money and the delusion of ‘power’ – we have then created our own cave wherein we have delegated our power to play only with shadows, believing that those that cast them are ‘more than ourselves’ and even separate from who we really are.

The fact is that we have forgotten to ‘know ourselves’ as the understanding that: we have set the rules of the game, we have cheated ourselves into believing it was never our ‘creation’ and that we could blame some ‘God’ for it.  It is now our turn to establish some basic living-conditions that will enable Life to flourish where there has been none, previously.

 

“God is really all people know and then this is called Man know thyself –that should be Man know thyself as Life” – Bernard Poolman

 

What Plato described as ‘Real Knowledge’ within this context would be knowledge that can be lived as living-words that stand within a practical realization of what Life is and can be lived-as in this world. This is now re-defining the usual philosophical rhetoric that never lead to a tangible and useful ‘use of words.’

We have lived ‘knowledge’ in a separate realm within our reality.

Equating enlightenment to the ability that some ‘privileged ones’ have, as passing on knowledge to the ‘ignorant ones’ already places an unequal starting point within the game. The Lie that is accepted and allowed is that the world of ‘ideas’ is what is real, when in fact we words not lived have been a primordial separation from what is here as the physical reality.

 

If we take the Allegory of the Cave as an example to illustrate this, the Prisoners of are set ‘by default’ as the natural-condition we are born into – yet we invariably created at some point that is ‘not remembered.’ We get to this reality wherein we are placed to race within this ‘game of life’ to attain nothing else but Knowledge that will apparently ‘set us free’ and give us an actual realization of what ‘Reality’ is.

 

Who are then those that solace themselves casting the shadows of a make-believe reality for the prisoners? We all are.  Even before that! Why on Earth did we allow ourselves to place us in such a position as  ‘prisoners’ wherein some others would be casting the theatre of shadows ?

We did – in our attempt to be ‘more’ than the rest – self interest which later on was capitalized as seeing everything with eyes of ‘personal power’ and a strong desire to obtain anything and all that could fulfill a sense of ‘freedom.’

Once we start asking the pertinent questions to everything we’ve bought as our ‘reality,’ we’ll start really taking the illusion of the shadows and the light of knowledge for what it is: our own knowledge trap that would perpetuate ourselves as prisoners wanting to ‘get out of the cave’ through attaining this ‘ultimate knowledge’ which leads to a perpetual state of ‘happiness’ and ‘everlasting grace.’

Nowadays we call this process the pursuit of happiness.

 

The fire is specific – light as enlightenment that only a few can achieve if having enough money for it.

 

Anything that could have bound us to keep facing the wall of shadows as some invisible force as the White Light as God, as Consciousness, has been debunked. 

 

What is left then? The ingrained idea that what we are doing here as humanity is seeking ‘God,’ seeking Knowledge, seeking ‘The Truth’ that will ‘Set us Free.’

 

So, we direct such myths to explain our current reality to a point of support.

 

 

We Cast the Shadows

“So what we see and experience is not necessarily real, yet we give existence to anything from actual structures to thoughts, concepts, ideas anything possible by our human mind. Existence is that which we give existence to and as – becoming that which we experience ourselves within and as..”[6]

 

The reality of the prisoners was depending on the shadows casted by those set as the shadow-creators behind the prisoners. In our reality that role is performed by those with enough money in the world to dictate the rules and the reality: politicians, corporations, bankers, elites as families and sects that were deliberately placed in this reality in order to maintain ‘God’s order.’ The fact is that till this day, they are seen as the ones to blame for our current status of the world – we never realized that they are also part of the game and that in fact, we have all accepted and allowed it in an equal manner.

 

This makes us all responsible because, what is money but knowledge imposed onto this reality as an ‘unchangeable’ and ‘unchallengeable truth’ – it is our own deliberate system of separation to make some remain facing a wall with shadows while others had the light to cast the show. This is allowing some to remain as the directors of the game – apparently – as ‘more’ than those who remained ‘tied and bound’ to facing a wall as prisoners – they never could realize each other as equals. We have accepted the shadows to be as real the same way that those that were deliberately and placed in the position of ‘casting the shadows’ believed themselves to be in control of this existence. The fact is that not even the creators were actually ‘in control’ of what is here – Life is directing now.

 

 

At an individual level we create this ‘wall’ in front of us as well, whenever we keep believing that the shadow we see in front of us is ‘everything we are,’ we see ourselves trapped and enslaved by this self-image/ self-idea, without ever questioning why on Earth are we even bound to this cave-reality with shackles that can definitely be taken off if we all agree it IS what’s best for all to Live.

 

See, this premise of the ‘prisoners’ in reality is that “original sin” that we have believed we must ‘pay for’ and this is something that could not have been understood until now that we get to hear from our Real ‘forefathers’ where and how and why we are here on Earth. [2]

 

 

Within identifying the shadows as knowledge, as all the ideas and systems imposed onto this reality, we get to see how we are directly responsible for perpetuating and accepting this reality ‘as is,’ because it was all we had ever known.

 

We just ‘can’t’ remember that we created such forgetfulness in the first place, and this is where the importance of studying the Desteni material exists. We would not be able to tell the ‘truth’ of reality as is without having the ability to ‘know’ beyond our own mind as that only instrument of cognition within this reality. That is through the Interdimensional Portal which should already be regarded as a once in a lifetime opportunity for humanity to see and understand what we have become, why are we here on Earth, how is it that we have created this world in separation and from there, while being able to understand and educate ourselves about the actual process of Creation. We have been the Gods we have blamed for our current situation in the world: we have set the rules all along.

 

 

Out of the Cave into Reality

because we created it in the first place

We are all responsible because we all accepted and allowed even the creation of allegories and mythologies as plausible and ‘credible’  explanations to our own deliberate separation, to justify our beliefs, our spitefulness toward each other in disregard of the whole. We created our own demise through accepted and allowed separation from each other as words– we tried to make sense of this world through knowledge and information and forgetting about the reality that has and always remained here.  [2]

 

Without understanding HOW we created ourselves as the reality that each one of us is constantly living and playing-out within the context of replaying the past, present and future, we will remain holding on to this shadow-like reality wherein we can only complain, feel miserable about the idea that we accepted and allowed ourselves to actually become.  It is through our very own participation in the constant and continuous thinking and communication based on this idea of being ‘separated from source/ left by God,’ that we began creating these words as ‘who we are,’ as prisoners that have been forever cast out from the realization and living experience of being one and equal.[3]

 

What are beliefs but words that are taken as ‘truths’ that eventually become part of our self-definition, it becomes ‘who we are’ without questioning it further.

 

“We are as real as what we have allowed ourselves to become as this world– the world being a system expression equal to our minds –we use our minds to create all the machines and technology–our minds interdimensionally actual looks exactly like the systems and machines and TV’s and computers we have in this world–that is our apparent evolution — the externalization of the mind into form — the next stage is the mind becoming actual physical form — this will be really tough to live through — prepare yourself effectively as all sentient life will face this in all ways” – Bernard Poolman

 

 

This is how we are walking a process of placing out the ‘truth’ of ourselves as thoughts, ideas, beliefs and perceptions of who we are, what we have become through our own accepted and allowed thoughts as patterns that we have continued playing out as ‘who we are.’ This goes from the micro to the macro – each self-belief as the self-religion that we have bound ourselves-to has become our own self-created cage that we feel we are betraying every time that we dare to equalize ourselves as God, as everything that is Here. How ludicrous! And some of us have gone to the extent of blaming a ‘god’ or some other beings in apparent  ‘higher positions’ for this separation, without ever actually realizing that: we did this to ourselves, I did this to myself, by a single belief in Separation.

 

 

Knowledge is ‘God’ and ‘God’ became an excuse

The words that created such separation as a belief became ‘our law,’ it became almost like ‘the word of God’ that no one ever dared to question again.

Knowledge is separation, words not lived are all lies told to justify our irresponsibility – we’ve knitted our own blindfold to remain in a victimized state within this world, feeling like the prisoners seeking to get out of the cave at any cost – even if that means enslaving our lives to menial jobs that could at least ‘shed some light’ to our day to day experience as temporary energetic fixes like fixating on love, happiness, bliss, light, money… Is this Living? No! Absolutely not – can we stop and change the current accepted reality? Of course we can.

Knowledge has  become our very own trap as the elaboration of words that could justify our deliberate belief on separation from what is Here. Knowledge became the words that we speak, the words that we have perpetuated as ‘who we are’ which is what is currently being taught as our philosophy, religion, morals, cultural values and mythologies wherein the role of ‘God’ is the utmost separation toward all humans[4].

 

‎”Spreading the word of God is equivalent to spreading a message of terror – the fear it creates makes humans blind to reality.” 
– Bernard Poolman

 

It is madness to see how a single be-LIE-f has separated ourselves from Li(E)Fe through believing that only through a process of enLIEtenment we could ‘attain’ the truth of ourselves once again. Knowledge and information as God, as the ‘law of our being’ in absolute discordance to the reality that is HERE and has always been here.

In essence this is us showing/ revealing to ourselves how it is that blaming and projecting our own misery, feeling ‘enslaved’ to this world is a self-created belief that we then formed as ourselves as the physical reality we live in now, creating the idea of the ‘original sin’ that we then would have to redeem ourselves from.

 

“We are the Living-Words that has become Contaminated by the Knowledge we have Accepted.” Bernard Poolman [5]

 

We are here to establish the living principle we have neglected while following knowledge. We have been ‘separated’ from reality, never realizing that such separation has been self-created and never inflicted by a higher-being. We must now as a matter of self-responsibility make sure we dissect all possible separation that is now ingrained at the systematic level of our reality – as our laws, policies and values that are embedded on to anything as a price tag.

We have justified suffering and abuse through our own elaborate words as knowledge. Who is the real ‘evil’ in this word then?

It’s time to take Self Responsibility for our creation, it cannot be ‘clearer’ than this that it is us the ones that have played the joke on this existence.

 

Seek life–dump knowledge–who you really are created knowledge–let your creation not be the controller of you as creator”   Bernard Poolman

 

 

Sources:

[2] The Cross’ – Atlantean Interviews through the Interdimensional Portal. Desteni,  2012

[3] The Decision’ – Atlantean Interviews through the Interdimensional Portal. Desteni, 2012

[4] ‘The Friction’ – Atlantean Interviews through the Interdimensional Portal. Desteni, 2012

[5] Poolman, Bernard. “Knowledge.” Bernard Poolman Quotes. Desteni, 01 Mar 2012. Web. 1 Mar 2012. <http://bernardpoolmanquotes.wordpress.com/2012/03/01/knowledge/>.

[6]  “What is existence?.” Desteni. Desteni, n.d. Web. 1 Mar 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/questions-and-perspectives-what-is-existence>.

 

Suggested Read:

Poolman, Bernard. ” The Age of Knowledge – The Point of Consciousness and The Power of Now.” Desteni. Desteni, 21 Aug 09. Web. 1 Mar 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/interviews-from-the-farm-23-the-age-of-knowledge-the-point-of-consciousness-and-the-power-of-now>.

Poolman, Bernard. “’The Secret Knowledge of God’.” Desteni. Desteni, 18 Dec 09. Web. 1 Mar 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/interviews-from-the-farm-42-the-secret-knowledge-of-god>.

“What was the White Light and why did it exist?.” Desteni. Desteni, 2007. Web. 1 Mar 2012. http://desteni.org/a/questions-and-perspectives-what-was-the-white-light-and-why-did-it-exist.

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How I was able to Hear Desteni?

This wasn’t planned at all, but on a day like today January 29th but in 2008 I stumbled upon my second Desteni video which I got to finally watch. I was alone at night in my apartment and ready to get back to school in the following days, while continuing a process of being longing for a change in my life in a desperate manner.

The months before Desteni – and my entire lifetime if I could say so – I searched for answers that I could not get in encyclopedias or my dictionary. I sought into the occult and mystic realms another form of ‘knowledge’ that could make any sense to all of this ‘life’ of mine of which I was losing my ground on. I was absolutely enthralled with spirituality, the idea of ‘God’ being everywhere, us being god, being one, seeking love, wanting to ‘feel love’ and within this getting quite a burnt perspective on reality which lead me to follow certain ideas/ beliefs of myself having this benevolent mission in life that I had to seek ‘guidance’ for in order to ‘fulfill’ it.

At that time I was questioning myself extensively. I would write about losing the ‘meaning’ of who I am and how I had to go back to memories to remind myself ‘who I was,’ yet at the same time not believing that all I was is this ‘so-called lifetime’ as I wrote. I had been interested in how everything develops/ works as a process in life and this curiosity is what lead me to research on various topics like religions, philosophy, mysticism which included alchemy, magic, esotericism, kabbalah, Sufism and the list goes on with various ‘isms.’ I mean, I tried to get a hold of each thing to see what ‘suited my interests.’ Now we know that religions are designed according to people’s minds and cultural lifestyles which now makes me realize how it is that I couldn’t ‘fully identify’ with any of them. I wanted to ‘make my own religion’ as a syncretism of all of which I could find ‘supportive’ from each one of these religions/philosophies/ practices/ cultures, etc.

I’ve been quite fond of writing and I had been doing it for 8 years by that time wherein I wrote “I know the writings and the essence of my thoughts are creations.” Yet all of this I would still link to the idea of ‘enlightenment’ which is essentially what I was seeking at the time. I also would feel like ‘death’ was around the corner – yep, it was the death of me as who I had believed myself all the time.

I’ll share my exact words on the first encounter with Desteni written out in the evening of January 29th, 2008:

“So I saw this girl from Desteni bringing Ian Xel Lungold who is the man that got me investigating about the Mayan Calendar. So I thank him, now I know what goes one a bit more. . I mean, it’s really tough when you truly think of it, but it is completely plausible as I’ve been in touch with such things since I was a little girl. I was brought up with the belief in spiritualism. Basically my whole life has been based in their beliefs.”

Then I describe several events that I used as a form of believing that spiritualism was real as in ‘real life events’ that supported me to believe in it. I proceeded to write hours later – I apologize for the sketchy and jumpy type of enunciation, but I was mostly on weed all the time and I would write in a rather messy way, yet I wanted to share it as ‘raw’ as it is, this is to clarify that the words might not be well suited to describe ‘Desteni’ yet it was how I grasped it at the time.

“It’s 11:05 and I come here only to make or point out the fact/ statement that a whole dimension of who I was has been completely/ almost shattered today. Something beyond here and there changed my mind. So the channel (portal) can be applied to Einstein, Tesla, Marilyn Monroe, Dimebag Darrel I mean, everyone. So there goes this manifestation… It is beyond all schemes, I couldn’t have (illegible ‘thought this’) not even in my wildest dreams. But seeing Kurt Cobain speaking through a blond woman makes you wonder how you really haven’t (illegible) on stuff, even more when we’ve certainly felt like I didn’t belong here. The idea of good and evil dissolving, I hadn’t thought about the idea of god and it makes me wonder. We are our words and I allow myself to forgive myself for ALL and for it ALL. Each pinch of doubt, fear, insecurity might come from my pre-installed system as it feels odd to be coming out of the end. […] So it’s been a long, long day filled with truly, this time TRULY unexpected information, therefore I’m grateful and I’ll try to begin acting as one, being honest with myself as the very chains of reality, this shadow world comes to a transformation from the core. I want to assist that change.

I’ll try to watch them all (videos.) Lots of good vibes. I thank everything until now for I am indeed now aware of my own nature”

And that was the entry for the day. The real ‘shift came through the writings two days after I spent all my time watching videos while having the last days of vacation from school.

The following pages contain very ‘powerful’ realizations that I would like to share here in a summed-up version of entire pages wherein I expressed how excited I was and all that I was ‘ready to give up’ for this process. I’m even a bit flabbergasted myself to see how immediate my decision was to HEAR – and this is all mostly because of seeing the common sense in having to be the ones that cut the chains of our own shackles in this world.  I’ll transcribe a bit here:

“It’s the last day of the first month. It could officially mean that it’s the end of my vacation time and all I can realize is that all my life could be thrown out the window right now because my belief systems have fell and with it, many things I became a part of. I saw each system demon come in and talk about polarities, beauty, addictions, god, trinity, everyone, everything. And this made me ‘feel better’ like I have a solution to the possible outcome of it all. I heard LaVey saying who he’s is/was a demon and he’s in the dimensions observing how humans go to heaven, their heaven once they die.

So me and that LSD experience. I won’t ever do that again as I must realize what I saw was still the product of our mind. I am really curious about Gurdjieff and his afterlife. He says he was erased from Earth because he realized true awareness of ‘I am.’

So really, it is a BIG change for I now know my thoughts, feelings, emotions are part of the system I am. This isn’t really me, we’re covered in bags of skin with huge egos while thinking about success and happiness in the system. I don’t know what I’ll become or what will actually happen after this whole breakthrough. I really feel I want to quit it ALL. I mean it. So, words are me.

Really this is the end of our world as we know it, really. What will come is our Self Realization through the destruction of our systems/demons and I feel think 2012 will be only a shifting time for all of us to save Mother Earth and become Aware, not saved as Jesus (through the Portal) said, but become aware that I don’t have to worship anyone […] Therefore I won’t be experiencing the unity as I thought. It’s good I’ve got a record since 2000 of my life, so now I will consider, re-consider it all…”

Feb 5th and my world was falling apart already within my relationship in terms of how I began sharing about Desteni with family and friends in a rather enthusiastic manner that didn’t suit their scheme of who I was/ what I was supposed to be. Here I share something of this day

“I’ll be like the temperance so I may have time to realize how we exist through relationships. It can’t make me sad anymore, it’s a fight against my own mind. That is judgment day, is here for me, it’s beginning. I do not believe in anything outside of myself anymore, no more religions, no more surrendering to a higher power. There’s no such God as we are god ourselves. All of us, we just have to realize it.

[…] The deal with it all now is becoming my words and it requires subjugation of our big egos towards unity and equality. Will that ever happen? All my beliefs on 2012 are awaiting (in relation to a final ‘end of the world as shared in previous blogs) In fact I like the idea, but what kind of seems torturing is the fact that there’s no solution, there’s no going out of it all forever.  […] It is fascinating I know I’m not alone, I’m not a stranger, I’ll rather try to burn my ego down to ashes and let the true me get out. I won’t hold on to things as I realize how everything is constantly moving. What’s real? I don’t know. And I’m glad I’m not into a relationship anymore.”

And now I remember how initial ‘doubts’ on Desteni were triggered by others in my world – though common sense was undeniable:

“What if Desteni is actually a conspiracy? Well I don’t feel so, it’s not nice to think that all the books I recently bought are nothing but fantasies either, yet they can be so. Music is a system, art, expression, feelings, so what the hell on earth can I do? I’m just waiting, TELL ME! I have no desire whatsoever and it might be really bad/ good whatever. Everyone… So I sometimes wonder… maybe I could be very useful on heaven here on Earth… I have not bought my life yet but I’ll be patient. I’m doing my effort and placing my endeavor towards – not what is called enlightenment – but the truth of our essence. There is nothing to be scared of but of ourselves. So here we go, that’s it. I will not think of anything but forgive myself and I walk for this is all I got now, somehow.

I will trust them this time for it makes complete sense to me. I want to thank Jack and everyone out there in the dimensions who are currently coming to us (through the portal) in a specific moment of our lives. We can’t deny this, we’re in this together, all of us so we might as well hurry, we are aware of this now. That’s why maybe we all felt our worlds crumbling down for some time now, we didn’t know the dimensions were actually struggling to take out all the white light system. So, we were enslaved, huh, who could tell? To me it isn’t much of a new thing because I’ve seen everyone and I know I feel their whatever they are feeling and I’ve always felt weird whenever a young kid approaches me to ask for money or anything. How odd really, we don’t have to ask more. I will continuously make my endeavor to stop the mind. To know who I really am and so, If we are all gods, we better make up to our own nature. Nothing is sacred anymore but all of it together. So that’s about it. This is the real change.

Then the ‘crisis/ breakdown’ came wherein I started digesting more and more of the material, yet it was a necessary process as we all walking this process know and have experienced at some point in our lives/ process.

“So today it wasn’t such a  great thing going back to school. I know it was going to be mad, I couldn’t really sleep that well, I kept wondering about many things and I had goose bumps, very intense ones so I hope today I find a reason for that. If there’s one, Maybe I’m going through a deep crisis indeed, I need help.

Self Honesty, using common sense. I got a message from Andrea at Desteni. I feel great I know and them, it’s great. It has helped me a lot.

My world is really falling apart, it consists of my beliefs, thoughts, that includes all the stuff I used to cling to. There are no more chakras, there will be no more reincarnation as Buddha (through the portal) wrote – so what happens then? So I’m guiding everyday towards equality and it’s hard considering life in this city which is hell. Art is even nonsense now.

Everything up to where we are now makes no sense. There’s no ‘white light’ anymore so we’re on our own. This will be a major shift, I might as well sell everything and go for a ride. But I enjoy myself here I am now. And I’m thankful for it all too. No matter what, I’ll be a ‘stop the mind freak’ if it’s necessary for me to be so. I’ll quit weed if it’s needed, I’ll do so. I believe I was like a heretic or something (in a past life belief), I believe I stood up for No God in other lives and now I returned for a while as a god conceiver, a ‘god seeking person,’ a mystic which is the ultimate enslavement by that of ‘surrendering to a higher power’ – God! I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to think of a higher power other than me. I am living my words so I make it happen. If I need to quit my friendship, I will only if required. I hear my blood streaming. So this is where we got to. It is now, the apocalypse (revelation) is here slowly but surely. The revealing. I am all, I am alive. My blood is pumping.”

The following days I continued describing all the series of realizations with regards to what and who I had become, I realized that I was fooling myself by using weed to ‘cope with the message’ and eventually stopped it, the same happened with my relationship as I saw for myself the deception it was and how it was not supporting myself to walk this process.

I found it cool to share these thoughts straight from my notebook as ‘who I was’ 4 years ago wherein I was waking up from a slumber filled with ‘positivism.’ Desteni became that final and initial point to a process of having sought for a ‘solution’ to this world and having sought for a ‘way out’ of my own ‘chains,’ I saw the common sense in having to become the solution in this world once that I realized there was no God. This proves that I had in fact deposited faith on some benevolent being eventually being able to ‘save us.’ Now I know that it is definitely not so and that we are here, walking our process of self-revelation as the realization of who and what we are as one and equal which is not nice or pretty and implies taking Self Responsibility: an actual understanding of How we have created this world and walk through the Manifested Consequences in/ as our world.

Common sense could not be denied and I walked a process of shedding off my beliefs and embraced the new way wherein Forgiving myself was the way to stop participating in delusions like god or having some form of ‘guidance’ above me to become this ‘enlightened being.’ It was very supportive to get messages from people at Desteni when I did ‘seek for help’ as I was going a bit crazy with all the material. It only lasted a couple of days but what I got really allowed me to settle down and assert myself to walk this.

I eventually walked through the entire breakdown of crying and thinking that I had ‘lost myself’ but it was only beginning to step out of my religion and realizing that I could not continue as the ‘me’ that I had lived as until then.

Now I’m here, I did finish school and I’m actually in that point again in my life where a cycle is about to end here and a new one will begin. I can’t believe it’s been 4 years already yet it is so and we continue walking here.

All I can say is to be patient with yourself if you’re beginning this process, takes time to walk through one’s mind as thoughts, feelings, emotions and the rest of our reality within writing and applying self forgiveness, we’re all still all walking it as well.  I see how the commitment to be part of this process of Equality and Oneness was almost an immediate decision, because I had sought to be part of a change that could give a ‘meaning’ to my life. I realized how I could make myself the point of my existence and within that, make of my life this instrument to transform and establish a system that supports all Life.

Desteni is the process to get to live in this world. It might have come in the ‘weird’ presentation of a portal with all of these fascinating messages that made all sense to me. Yet the process of walking it and applying it/ living it became that single ‘point’ in my world that I required to realize that I was in fact able to become that which I saw  ‘knew’ we were even if it was in the back of my head. I was able to finally get the ‘reality check’ that I required to see how deluding myself with god and spirituality had been in fact neglecting my reality. The breakdown that I described was precisely because of realizing how I had been living in a bubble of positive thinking while abuse, suffering and violence was everything that was creating and making of this world such a fucked up place, all of it beginning within our very own thoughts (!)

Witnessing that through documentaries and videos we would get on a daily basis by Bernard, allowed me to open my eyes to the reality I had neglected. This was probably one of the key points within my Desteni-process wherein I started looking outside of myself to a reality that required to be exposed and shared to see what we are accepting and allowing to exist in our world, our creation. And with that, create and stand as the necessary solution that we are now presenting and walking as the Equal Money System.

Some lines in those journal entries contained some lyrics by John Frusciante that I wrote and seemed appropriate for this point in my life:

My life goes blank
Life was never what you thought.
Life was never what you saw
The lights go out

I dared to turn off the light and face the reality of what I had become, I wrote that it was ‘painful’ but understood why I required to walk this process and committed myself to it fully.

I’m grateful as I’ll always be for being here, being able to share my story today after 4 years of walking this process, between hell and Earth and back again, facing the nitty gritty details of myself that I would sometimes get embarrassed to even expose to myself. All of it I’m able to Self Forgive and prepare myself to be the point that takes Self Responsibility, that does stand up to create the necessary system for all of us to live as equals.

If you want to read more about my process, check out the archives now available in this same blog in the year 2008.

We continue walking. Thanks for reading.

Watch the vlogs on this topic here:

2012 Walking with Desteni: Why I could Hear the Desteni Message – Part 1

2012 Walking with Desteni: Why I could Hear the Desteni Message – Part 2

First note when watching Desteni 2008

First notes while watching Desteni, January 30th 2008


2012 The hard and soft veneers

While listening to Life Review: Keeping Quiet I saw how I was tensing my body, and my muscles were contracting and certain memories passed through my mind, specifically when he mentioned the point of  fearing conflict which was one of the reasons why I played-out and created a ‘nice person’ personality so that I could be the ‘neutral’/ stand in the middle road in all situations and be in a ‘safe zone’, be accepted which means not being opposed/contradicted, not to create any ‘enemies’ which I developed a fear for in terms of having being sort of bullied early on at school and not knowing what to do/ how to react to that, suppressing an entire shock and pretending that I didn’t care.

Interesting, this just came up as I am writing here, I hadn’t even considered that I have in fact played out both characters out of the same ‘fear of conflict.’ I created a ‘strong hold’ personality as well out of fear. This just came up as I remembered stuff like one girl wanting to asphyxiate me in the classroom, it was sort of in a ‘playing mode’ but still it affected me at the level of not knowing how to react/ what to do in such moments. She was one of my ‘best friends’ at the time. Events like these and being picked at for being a ‘smart ass’ early on in elementary school lead me to have my personal-support  coaching to ‘stand up and be stronger,’ which were words mostly provided by my mother which were ‘cool’ at the time to create a defensive mechanism of ‘I am not affected by others words toward myself’ – yet never getting an actual understanding of how or why they would react in such a way and how I simply didn’t have to participate within such judgments allowing that to obfuscate myself and create an entire experience within me.

That’s when I started developing a personality of being ‘tough’ or keeping a certain stance wherein I made sure ‘no one was able to fuck with me’ and this developed as early as elementary school into puberty.  A point that I played out in certain situations – standing within this same ‘tough/ superiority’ role is that I would deliberately test myself getting involved in opinionated conversations in school, just to prove my point right and within that, inflate my ego as this personality, which turned into superiority wherein I would then ‘not give a fuck about anyone else in this world’ because I was apparently ‘above that’/ not able to be affected. 

Now that I look at it, I’ve actually walked both polarities on and off.
One was the personality that I lived earlier in my life which is the one I have described as ‘being above it all,’ staring  at everyone with a blank-face in an ‘I don’t give a reverend fuck’ type of mode. This was also linked to what I’ve shared these past posts of believing myself to be a victim of this world, ‘not belonging here’ and having to deal with ‘stupid humans’ (playing out the superiority complex)– because that is exactly the type of thoughts I had to create in order to not exist ‘in fear’ toward other human beings. This is how I would judge and automatically ‘see’ everyone around me, wherein only those that shared the same views upon people/ this world would be the people I would hang out with – which were about 2, lol.

And as I’ve been walking this point, I can say that this is part of the physical corrections I am still walking I mean, it’s become quite a ‘way of carrying myself in this world’ wherein I would get feedback from others in how I seem to be a grumpy person all the fucking time, when I don’t ‘see’ myself as it, yet this personality has been recorded at such a physical level that I have to be completely Here, aware of myself as my breath to see how I am walking, how I am experiencing my physical body, how I am either frowning or tensing my jaw line when and while walking in the  street, stopping all instant-judgments that I would generate to virtually anyone, all in the same type of ‘shade’ as in belittling others while pretending to be ‘above that’ – yet living such belittling point within myself as an actual ‘nature’ that lead me to develop a ‘strong hold’ as a personality, a ‘hard veneer’ to present to this world, to not be vulnerable, to avoid being hurt = to avoid conflict at all cost.

The other side of the coin was later on becoming the ‘nice personality.’ It’s fascinating to look back at these two faces/ phases of my life which were clearly marked by the type of people I held as friends. Actually now that I see those two friends represented both poles – oh was it such a bomb when they lived together, it was like merging heaven and hell and me stuck in limbo. Eventually I could not keep up with both and had to ‘leave’ the friendship that supported this first aspect of playing out the strong-hold superior type of personality, the gloomy-dark times of absolute pessimism, depression and self judgment wherein I definitely resorted to paint, write and read a lot of books that would equally support this personality.  I can relate to what the man tells in this life review in terms of guarding his books like a treasure, I did the same and I was so ‘content’ with my little bubble of books, cd’s and paintings.

Back to ‘the other side of the coin’ aspect, the ‘glowing’ façade  I experienced in my late teens when having some sort of ‘spiritual awakening’ lol, changing my all black wardrobe to absolute flamboyant pieces of clothing that matched a ‘new perspective’ on life which I deemed to be ‘healthier’ and ‘full of positivity’ – I really thought of myself having ‘found the way’ while seeking some form of ‘higher purpose/ mission in life’ and presenting myself to people with this ever lasting smile, being servile, being ‘loyal’, being ‘positive’ about life, having a ‘good time’ apparently while smoking the hell away to suppress what I was in fact experiencing and still existing-as, without having had any actual direction to see how I was only creating the exact opposite of my past to apparently ‘wipe it out’ only keeping the same point in place but with a new mask that had to eventually blow out as well.

Now, I mention this ‘positive façade’ because in my mind I became very aware how I didn’t want people to antagonize me, I sought for their approval and the only way was making sure that they liked me/ accepted me = they weren’t able to tease me/ oppose me and that’s how I created a rather ‘happy’ person as a presentation of myself,  which ensured that I got everyone’s ‘appreciation’ and no one would dare to become an ‘enemy’ = fearing conflict. I can see how whenever I deemed someone to not like me, I would immediately react toward such being, which was only me projecting the inner fears that I never dealt-with in fact, because I was just covering-up all the fear with a nice benevolent and meek personality, suppressing the hell that I realized later on I had absolutely ‘blacked out’ from my experience through using weed. Yes, this I only got to know of because of all the writings I’ve kept for over 10 years now, wherein the mind-experience would come out, only to eventually forget about it all the next day. It was quite a shock for me to see how in my mind I link that time of my life as ‘glowing happy years,’ yet in fact they were also hell as I continued experiencing a constant inner-struggle and discomfort in my own skin that I simply managed to  suppress more and more all the time. This became unsustainable and it all burnt out to ashes the moment I found Desteni – thank Anu for that, otherwise fuck knows where and what I would be doing now.

The latter personality is still able to be spotted in my first vlogs wherein a bubbly personality comes-through while letting through at times the actual ‘inner experience’ that I was only covering up, which was exactly the  type of walking contradictions we have become as human beings when fighting against ourselves in our mind, and living a double life within ourselves and toward the world. Yes, complete schizophrenics, but we’re here walking our corrective process.

 

So, this point of the ‘nice person’ is still playing out at times, yet asserting myself as I go. When I was at the farm I would react whenever I would see/ hear conflict. This became so obvious to me at some point and it was so cool to face it in one definitive scenario wherein Bernard just spotted it like that:  ‘You Fear Conflict!’ – and yes I was, my entire body was in this constricted state while presenting myself to be ‘cool with it,’ yet being actually fearing to be ‘in the middle of conflict’ even if it wasn’t ‘directed’ toward myself.  Hence I had to walk through the point of realizing that I will be dealing with these situations and having to direct myself to face  reality and stopping the ‘I’m over it all’ and ‘I’m such a nice person you can’t oppose me’ personas which were created as defense mechanisms to not have to stand up in moments of perceived conflict or create any form of  perceived rivalry/ opposition/ antagonism.

What triggered both personality creations was fear and seeing ways to ‘cope’ with the fear of being vulnerable, fear of being hurt, fear of having to take responsibility for myself, fear of having to confront another, fear realizing that I was still belittling myself toward others. It becomes quite clear to see how we develop coping mechanisms to not have to stand up in common sense, which is ludicrous to even place out like this because it doesn’t make any sense to create excuses to not stand up for what we see is common sense, what we see is required to be done, lived, spoken-up about. Instead of using coping mechanisms, we have to create practical ways to face reality, that’s essentially what we’ve learned through walking this process: how to practically direct ourselves in any given situation that we would have previously simply ran away from/ shut down to not face it.

After I became aware of this fear of conflict once that it was ‘in my face,’   I’ve been walking the process of deliberately taking on points of speaking out, commenting, pressing-myself as common sense regardless of what ‘reactions’ it may trigger, because I see and realize that this is the only way to see and test who am I within those situations.  I am able to direct the point within common sense instead of just wanting to get rid of it and not having to face it at all, or having ‘others’ to do it for me, or eventually just pretending that ‘I don’t care’ which is what I saw was quite the nihilist type of defense mechanism, yet dealing with quite extensive inferiority/ in fear of others which lead to a constant requirement to ‘uplift myself’ to ‘keep up with the pressure.’ We were just discussing how it is really energy-draining to keep-up these ideals of ourselves as personalities, while living here in self honesty, as life, is actually very very simple and effortless as it only requires us breathing here.

We have accepted and allowed ourselves to cage each other in this world ‘keeping up’ nice pictures of ourselves as being affable and smiley as well as creating a tough-rough presentation out of fear. This became quite evident when interacting with people that would seem like absolutely ‘tough’ and ‘rough’ and with a haughty way of carrying themselves and getting to see how they were in fact these ‘sensitive, vulnerable beings’ that had developed such image/ presentation as a defense mechanism toward ‘others/ the world, which is then standing as an ‘inferiority’ point in fact, though we require Equal stance in all ways.

If we look at this point it is essentially how gangs are formed and why they exist the way they do. Look at the Maras, they create such self image to portray this literal ‘fearless image’  as beings that are able to provoke fear in others to protect themselves – why? because they are mostly beings that have been born into circumstances of extreme poverty and abuse that they eventually seek a way out of. That’s how they run away from home and become part of gangs that become ‘their family’ = their security, their way of developing an entire self-image that ‘cannot be fucked with’ using the ‘power of unity’ at its max– all because of fear and probably resenting the fact that they are not being considered as equals in this world. Surviving through using these defense mechanisms becomes part of their being, as their full-blown personality and lifestyle that justifies their actions like committing crimes out of that inner experience of having been disregarded within this system from birth. A usual mindset would be ‘Why would they ‘care’ to not ‘harm others’ without considering how they have been neglected/disenfranchised from birth?’

See how in such gangs, striking up confrontations is  actually part of the rites of initiation for 11, 12 year olds that want to become a part of such gangs. They have to endure all of  the pain and fear to ‘become a man,’ to be ‘over it’ – eventually becoming beings that are in fact only walking with a hard veneer out of fear, fear of others, fear of death, fear of anyone that could have more ‘power’ than them in this world, which translates to once again economical disparity wherein the Maras are usually coming from poverty backgrounds.

 

I realize how I have feared conflict, I see how I have created personalities based solely on ‘fearing others,’ developing a stance of being ‘over this world’ or ‘knowing better’ –  yet the point that differs from what we heard on the interview is how I didn’t remain silent. 

Now that I remember, I deliberately decided to start speaking up because I would see my mind filling the gaps in terms of, for example, seeing two people getting into a form of conflict and I would see the common sense of the point – yet because of seeing myself as not wanting to stir up anything and not wanting to ‘lose my friends’ or not wanting to ‘come across as fill in the gap,’ I would remain like the silent person that pretended to be ‘over such conflicts,’ being neutral, feeling/ portraying myself as some wise person that would only speak if enough ‘wisdom’ was at hand to share – quite a deluded position; and as I bring the point here, as I write and rewind on the points in my life wherein I would ‘feel’ this very same way, it is almost like having to keep up with the character, having to ‘sustain’ such silent frame of mind, such ‘wise person’ and ‘peaceful’ type of being – yet the internal conflict was still there, it only grew and grew – the more fear grew, the more I started compounding this experience wherein the only valve of escape was smoking weed and drawing and ‘listening to music,’ while experiencing myself in perpetual annoyance and irritation toward myself, this world and  everything, because of not seeing a ‘way out’ and it was all because of not having dared to face myself, to walk through that which I was gladly just covering up in an ‘everything is fine’ personality wherein the abuse and the gory aspects of this world had been ‘left behind’ to seek for ‘new healthier horizons.’

From this I can see how having being into spirituality, seeking a god and seeking some form of ‘remedy’ to myself and my “reality” were only ways to mitigate the fear and inner conflict that I experienced within me. It is fascinating that no one never really got to ‘know’ what the hell was actually going on inside me as I moved myself throughout my life, only ‘I’ knew, only I could see how while being with others I could create this ‘everything is fine’ personality, literally like a guru that believes that all conflict is just a mind problem and it can just be ‘sorted out’ by remaining in a perpetual resistance to think, speaking the least possible and ‘simply ‘stopping thinking’ which is and would be equal to trying to ‘stop breathing,’ because we see and understand now in our process how it is not about ‘shutting off our mind’ and our thoughts, but to walk a process of self-correction stand one and equal as our mind = being self-directive through actually participating and interacting with others in our world, instead of being taken by a ride by our own thoughts. This is taking self responsibility for ourselves.

 

How have I supported myself to stop fearing conflict? Through writing, applying and living Self Forgiveness, walking a deliberate process of placing myself in the ‘eye of the storm’ not for the sake of ‘proving myself better,’ but to see who am I within the face of such perceived conflicts/ confrontation and seeing who I am within it: am I able to ‘cope’ with it, am I able to stand fully and not fear speaking up, am I still fearing compromising any ‘idea’ of integrity I may have of myself, which can only exist at the ego level that we are here to stop and correct to stand in common sense as equals. This requires me to deliberately ‘push’ myself to participate, how else would I have known that I feared conflict? I mean, even the reason why I had initially created a blog in a service that wasn’t ‘well known’ was part of keeping myself in a safe zone out of ‘creating conflict’ with people in my reality reading my blogs and eventually having any form of reaction toward myself/ my words. I’m glad to say that I found a way today to bring all my blogs into this domain which is awesome. Yet I could still see the thoughts related to fear coming up in terms of ‘this being a well known domain now and people having more of a direct access to my stuff’ – which is yet again ‘fearing conflict’, ‘fearing exposure.’

It is a matter of walking the correction now because I’ve seen and realized for myself what such apparent ‘superiority’ as  in not speaking/ not participating because of seeing everything and everyone just so ‘out there’ and not having anything to do with me, and keeping myself in a fantasy land feeling like the incomprehensible human being that has this ‘sensitive side,’ yet portraying and carrying myself as the exact opposite to not have to explain myself all the time. It was almost a way of having others ‘fearing me’ to protect myself. This has remained as a point that even people walking this process have expressed having as an ‘idea’ of how I am based on the pictures they see, based on one single point of expression that vlogs are, until getting the actual experience of talking face to face and living together, which enables us to really tear down any beliefs created about each other. I saw then how ‘instilling fear’ is a protection mechanism as well as a form of creating an idea of power based on ‘being above others,’ a way to generate an idea of myself that people can ‘respect’ instead of being someone that is easily ‘picked on.’

Having said this, we can see once again how any form of fear is an actual limitation lived out as ‘who we are’ while remaining as the faithful followers of our personal religions wherein common sense is neglected while sticking to our “safe ways” of existing to not have to face ourselves. It takes a while to fully stop this,  it is only after four years that I am beginning to see how I have created myself in terms of creating positive and negative personalities from the starting point of fear.  From this we can see how this entire world is built upon fear! This must stop here, that’s how all polarity must be eradicated as any reason to be opposing anything or anyone is only separation, a point that we’ve neglected exist within ourselves as well.

We are here to create a world that’s’ best for all and that cannot be ‘questioned’ but simply realized and walked as that principle.

This blog is über lengthy now, but let’s say that the main point here is how stopping fear is the first point to be able to take on our own lives and the world through this process of walking the consequences. The moment we allow ourselves to be overwhelmed by the reality we are creating within and without, we become ‘less’ than that which we are creating, which is like a reversed-god complex if we can call it that, making ourselves less than our creation yet portraying a ‘superiority’ image at the same time. Quite unnecessary if we can stop it all by simply walking here as breath.

For this, writing is the tool, self forgiveness implies the self corrective process to walk the correction as we go living every single day. Simplicity is the key, we can just see through these experiences how I complicated my reality by trying to ‘cover up’ fear, instead of seeing fear for what it is: a self created limitation that comes in the form of thoughts that I can work with through writing, applying self forgiveness and directing myself in common sense.

That’s it.

Thanks for reading and suggest you listen to that interview because it was the point that triggered all of this here.

 

polarity as me

 

 

 

 


Creation and Responsibility

If god had not existed as part of the preprogramming in this reality, we would probably not be in such a chaotic situation in this world where we’ve made of invisible gods and money the invisible rulers of the planet – instead we would have accepted our point of responsibility within creation. “If I can’t find the origin = I must be the origin” this should be the ultimate debunker for  the entire idea of ‘God’ as the creator. Though we are here, 21st century and no real change or ‘evolution’ as many claim has taken place – right, because it won’t ‘take place’ by itself, it must be created.

 

Such evolution is unlikely to ‘happen’ according to the inherent programming we have. God was a fucker that made us with the preprogrammed belief of ‘creation is not equal to creator’ and in that, because life was not taken into consideration at the moment of understanding creation, they ended up locking themselves out of this creation as well. Figure it out, Life cannot be really subdued, only not recognized and realized within each one in Equality.

Due to not recognizing each other as one, due to being in a constant strive to ‘get to the top,’ the reality that is here as this world is being absolutely neglected to the extent of existing in an absolute alarming state in all human aspects – and no one seems to care enough. I ponder: how long can we endure this? How long will we have to wait until everyone starts caring? Probably the moment that you open your tap water and get no flow out of it or you go to a supermarket and find the shelves are empty or go to the gas station to  fill your car’s tank and find there is no oil left for a refill.

We’ve been so used to only take and take and only give paper and coins in exchange and use it self righteously as if it was a real ‘fair pay’ for it, without never really caring to know how our water is distributed, what happens to the shit when I flush it, where does my garbage go, how is electricity distributed and generated, where is the food that I’m eating coming from – and then extending it to the rest of the world like getting to know how our usually made in Bangladesh, Thailand, India clothes are the result of slave labor that can only benefit the retail store that sells it to you for a high price, only because of the brainwashing we participate in as some type of prestige and fame that the brand itself has created according to an entire propagandistic campaign that tells you what is In and out in fashion. Fashion is currently a rather fascist business that is blatantly abusing people that don’t have any other opportunity to have a decent job and the only thing that’s left is creating clothes in massive factories wherein each second is equated to a cent. Time is Money and we must place a final stop in such ‘equation.’

I watched the documentary on water and they reveal shitty facts about Mexico City. I actually live quite near to one of the devastated areas with what once was like ‘Venezia’ with great methods used in pre-hispanic times for agriculture. Now it’s known that if one dives in there and you’ll get all types of diseases like cholera – yet food is still grown there. Negligence is everywhere,  not considering that resources are not precisely renewable. The environment in this city is living proof of the inconsideration upon the environment and resources available here. The most basic principles are still not lived at all.

I have been giving my garbage to the same men for almost 5 years now, they know me and I see how because of the regard I have toward their job I’ve developed this way of greeting them every morning and smiling as if that could make their lives and jobs ‘less miserable,’  I have written about this point specifically yet, it seems that they do appreciate the fact that one can say more than the usual ‘thank you’ and giving some coins as if that was our ‘compensation’ for the job they do.  So, all I have to do is change the starting point of me not feeling ‘sorry’ for them and simply express in that moment.

I’ve probably expressed before how they should get at least the best pay in the current system because of what they have to do , but this wouldn’t be ‘acceptable’ within the current fucked up value system wherein people that are ‘well prepared’ and have master’s degrees are the ones that get the most rewards by the system for sitting on a chair and pretending they care to be an actual example of what it is to create solutions in this world. Not at all. It’s very common to see that people with jobs like garbage men, general cleaning workers or in construction smoke weed for the sake of ‘getting by’ in their reality. This is also common for public transportation drivers, people working in grocery stores, 9-9 businesses selling random stuff. If we dare to look at the amount of people being in some type of drug, we would realize that almost everyone is in some form of drug and that it is the only way that everyone is ‘coping with reality’ instead of finding a solution.

I was lying on the floor of my room, I  saw  a note I took on from some other documentary: 900 million cars are in this world – holy fuck! Is there any viable solution to keep filling each car’s tank? Do we simply have to Stop? And as I was pondering about this and many other problems we’re facing in this world, getting myself in a momentary mindfuck of ‘there is no way we can continue this way,’ when everything began moving around me,  it was an earthquake just  few hours ago, the Earth literally shook the ground beneath me. I snapped out of it and went outside – all is fine around here and it was a literal wake up call to not indulge into these experiences.

 

We go back to the initial point: why only seeking to bail ourselves out instead of taking the wheel of the car and changing the entire fucked up structure of this reality? Why only focusing on case-specific situations in our world to ‘create solutions.’ Sure I mean, we have seen the ‘hero of the year’ on CNN with people trying to eradicate slavery, but it won’t work as permanent solution because it’s just putting on the infamous band aid while the wound is deep to the core of the entire system. Same with ‘peace prizes,’why having to implement ‘peace’ while we could be creating a permanent solution that creates living conditions that are honorable for everyone and with that end all forms of disputes between humans –  why then having to make of such actions that should be everyone’s responsibility a matter of ‘awards’ and pompous events sponsored by corporations that are most likely responsible for the direct permanence of the abuse they could be reflecting upon in the show.

It’s certainly Not the way to go and we’ve made of any possible solution just another race for fame and glory, not really considering the whole picture that is ourselves as well.

What I watched on CNN in a show called ‘Bullying Stops Here’ with the so-called ‘sane’ people in American TV like Anderson Cooper and Doctor Phil, we see how they try to address the bullying problem, bringing the kids to expose their stories only to generate more feelings of condescendence ending it all with creating some type of ‘reward’ to the suffering they have to endure after they exposed how they’re hit, peed on and cursed at every single day, without having any solution coming from ‘teachers’ or parents as ‘authorities’ being able to solve the problem. Instead Anderson makes space for the kid to sing a Lady Gaga song so that the show ends with this ‘sweet taste’ in people’s heads like ‘oh, poor kids but he got to sing and be applauded for it, how nice was that!’ then change the channel and forget about it all. Same with the rest of the kids that exposed how they were picked on due to apparent sexual preferences, race, size, being ‘intelligent’ in school etc. I can relate to the latter, I never experienced it as intense as these kids do, but I definitely know how much others’ comments can ‘lower your self esteem’ if not ready to face such words and support ourselves to not take them personal.

All of this makes us ask the ultimate question: what we we doing to ourselves? Our kids are becoming bullies or bullied without there being a ‘solution’ because: it all begins at home!  The world is simply reflecting back the disregard and negligence we have toward ourselves, abusing ourselves in any means possible, seeking for ways to ‘cope with reality’ without taking self responsibility to Change it/ Correct it in a sustainable way.

 

As long as we remain subdued by the imaginary and fictional story of money having more power than life, we’ll remain with the same constrictions that we’ve created almost in a masochistic way to remain in separation, to remain absolutely hating each other and getting used to the idea of ‘this life being this way’ and that’s it, no more ‘questions’ about it. I mean, that’s how my parents were probably educated, they educated me the same way and that’s now the reason why I must be the point that stops from perpetuating the same old ways on to future generations. We cannot possibly continue this way and unless we vow ourselves to take humanity through this correctional process, we will simply cease to exist – not by any ‘mysterious’ condition, but as the result of the consequences of our actions reaching the top and overflowing in an inevitable end to the entire human drama.

I said to myself at least 3 times today: the problem is the human being –as without us, non of this would be happening on Earth. We are the problem = we must be the solution and using the homeopathic principle of ‘like cures like’ we use Money as the point to cure the atrocities that have been perpetuated by money itself, by changing its principle and base foundation of existence – from debt and a tool to subjugate to an accounting tool to make life available for everyone equally.

We don’t require ‘spiritual gods’ or any other light and love belief system to take self responsibility, it is in fact through accepting our self responsibility that we can stop looking up above for answers and start caring for what goes on here on Earth.

Becoming part of the solution begins with each one of us, the more we wait, the more shit will hit the fan. We must stand together, we must learn how to work together and work with our ‘differences’ individually, until we are able to stand within one single principle that rules this entire reality: Equality as Life – as all as One as Equal. That is the universal law that must be practically lived in this world and for that, human beings must love each other as neighbors, for real.


“If you create something, you should give it responsibility as well”
– Bernard Poolman


Fluffy-sparkly li(v)es

We all are here for some special purpose so STOP
STOP being prisoner of past
AND become the architect of your future
DO the things u fear… – spiritual proverb

If we were here for some special purpose, don’t you think we are way overdue in accomplishing it? Or that we should be getting some clear indication of what it might possibly be about? We have gone through the same cycles over and over again throughout thousands of years with no possible answer to ‘fulfill our mission’ – could this be an indication that there was no mission at all? What would it be like if we got to understand that we’ve been a cosmic joke? Would there by any ego-enhancement within that?

The relevancy of the Desteni material is to realize that all sweetened justifications and ideas of us being here for some ‘supreme reason’ have been  blatant lies to keep the entire belief system of ‘god’ and the holy trini.ties in place. In other words, keeping ‘good faith’ and believing that we would eventually ascend to a ‘higher status’ once we brake the ‘chains of the past’ has been another form of control to keep everyone seeking for the ultimate blissful experience and never ever questioning how dysfunctional the system is and how we’ve managed to live life after life without any actual progress.

Evolution anyone?

Here we are, more ‘human’ than ever, not even able to recognize ourselves as the creators of this entire existence and take self responsibility for it, not able to see the blatant lies we’ve believed in for such a long time beginning with the current monetary system, not being able to stop such basic problems like terminal diseases, poverty and starvation regardless of having enough technology to get to Mars and explore the nice pictures of the universe far far away; not being able to stop the constant thinking which is the very same chatter that makes us believe that there is something ‘magnificent’ yet to be unveiled as our living purpose. It’s all been fluffy sparkling lies to make us feel better = less miserable when realizing that there is no such purpose in this world other than realizing what self creation is – and that hasn’t been understood within all its implications.

False self-empowerment can only uplift someone through pre-accepted and allowed beliefs of grandeur and magnificence as our ‘true nature’ wherein self then tries to ‘overcome the past’ and the ‘limitations’ through doing that which you believe will ‘break you free,’ apparently becoming ‘more’ through beating yourself against the odds – lol. It is really ludicrous to have this idea that becoming a ‘better being’ entails only considering your own experience, your own beliefs, your own reality without even questioning what type of ‘fear’ can someone that is starving  overcome to become the architects of their future? Hmm, I bet that their greatest fear just as any other human being’s would be linked to dying and currently, not even if they could use the law of attraction and visualize themselves as ‘god’ itself could they manifest food to eat and clean water to drink. How narrow minded do we have to be to believe in such ‘uplifting statements’ of there being a god, a something/someone that is having it all ‘under control’ while there are beings that cannot clearly even conceive that the suffering they endure every single day could possibly have any ‘higher purpose’ other than being a sick joke from a non-existent god that solaces in watching people starve wherein they can’t even uplift their condition to a living one. If there is no god, then who are the ones allowing such atrocities to remain as a constant aspect of our reality without doing anything to stop it? No one else but ourselves.

All things god, all things light, all things love, all things happiness, all things enlightenment, all things spirituality, all things bliss, all things that can be ‘exciting’ have but one single purpose: keeping everyone with a fake smile in place making themselves believe that human life is inherently benevolent  – how can we possibly even pretend everything is ‘fine’ and feel ‘blessed’ and ‘loved’ when there is but a single person in this world that is you and me as well that is being abused, that is starving, that is suffering some terminal disease, that is being raped, that is being fired after serving as a loyal slave for a lifetime – all events designed by an apparent benevolent force according to all those that preach some form of godhead exist. How come that we’ve kept ourselves perfectly occupied within our minds, not being able to see the forest for the trees, yet always seeking the next biggest excitement, the next uplifting energetic experience that can keep us ‘going,’ putting on the same show everyday until there is eventually no more artificial power to keep it running.

This is how Self Honesty is the most difficult thing we’ll ever walk in this world as there can be no other point of motivation outside of ourselves but ourselves – being the point of our existence is something that we’ve never realized and in that, self-acceptance, self-will and creating an actual consideration toward ourselves as this reality are points that must be cultivated for the very first time in our human existence. Self Honesty means that we move by principle, we realize ourselves as the creators of this reality simply to take self responsibility for it, stopping any form of personal ‘upliftment’ to make us then feel better and special, just to have something to ‘strive’ for and accept the enslavement that exists as a tricky aspect of our existence and that’s it.

Well, there are thousands of quotes like the one at the beginning of this post polluting cyberspace – I say ‘polluting’ because they are like temporary kicks of sugar to our brain wherein we believe that we can ‘do it all’ and feel better about ourselves which is already accepting a form of ‘positivity’ and ‘brightness’ added to an existence that we’ve accepted as inherently flawed in the first place – that’s the only reason why we would stick to the ‘positive side,’ just to hide the actual facts and self-experience that I suggest: must be exposed for what it is. The more we keep our demons trapped, the more difficult it will get to face ourselves as such experiences to stop and correct them. Living in denial is living in such false sense of self-empowerment, it is definitely  yet another crime against humanity as one is certainly missing out the entire reality of this world that is certainly NOT blissful, not great, not special in any way whatsoever.

The moment we dare to step down from our high horse, we will be able to walk in humbleness, understanding how reality operates and walking the necessary steps to become the solution that has never existed within this world directed and created to benefit all equally.

Overcome your fears.

Okay so by following such advices like the one in the quote, I could jump down from the top of a skyscraper and apparently that would be creating my future and being ‘my architect’ – I bet that wouldn’t change a thing other than experiencing major fractures or injuries or even death – this reality is certainly not exactly the same as the matrix movie.  We can all see how this is the type of energetic ‘uplift’ that anyone can obtain in some form of spiritual exorcism wherein you feel completely ‘great’ and apparently liberated in the moment, only having to wait for a while until the effect runs out and the actual bullshit starts hitting the fan – just like any other drug really. This leaves us with the realization that such words can only feel like ‘sweets’ that dissolve very quickly and end up leaving a bitter taste which won’t be corrected unless we start taking actual self responsibility to Stop the Past, and be the actual creators of a reality that isn’t based on fears, limitations and polarities of good and evil as the memories of abuse and negligence lived out toward ourselves. For that, Self Forgiveness is the way.

The fact that in such statement self creation is only existing as a way to ‘overcome one’s fears’ and feeling great about it is revealing to what extent we’ve limited self creation to. ‘Overcoming fears’ can only be an initial point to start debunking the lies and limitations we’ve accepted as ‘who we are,’ but it cannot possibly be ‘all there is’ to this reality, not at all.

Real self-empowerment begins when we consider the ability to create a world that’s best for all – this has nothing to do with becoming ‘more’ than or ‘better’ or ‘supreme beings’ – No, it is simply establishing the way that things should have always been in this reality, it is a matter of aligning with the principles of life, the life that has been absolutely disregarded while getting ourselves lost in the ideas of being/becoming nothing more than some type of super hero that runs on batteries, eventually having to step down from the cloud to face the actual process of creating a world that is best for all.

Let’s stop being prisoners of our mind and start learning how we can direct ourselves to finally live, for real and not just think about it.

‎”Gratitude when half the world starve is not based on love or oneness or light, It has its roots in survival. To feel love and gratitude in spite of the evidence of suffering in this world confirms that good feelings are also demonic possessions and purely the result of trained methods with which to turn a blind eye to actual truth as reality. All masters and Gurus should be seen for what they are, send to deceive and distract you from being the dominion on earth that produce a reality that is best for all. What excuse are you going to have for not attending to the suffering when you are able to?”-Bernard Poolman

Learn more about the very basic steps to start supporting yourself in this process of Self Honesty, correcting ourselves to eventually live.


Self-Gratifying Machines

I came across a picture on Facebook that read the following:

‘There’s a point in your life when you get tired
of trying to fix everything
and trying to make everyone happy
When you finally decide to quite,
it’s NOT giving up.
It’s realizing you don’t need certain people
and the bullshit they bring to your life’

 

It’s in essence a declaration of abdicating self responsibility wherein there is a great scoop of victimization as the person writing being a little white dove that had to sort out everyone’s lives and wanting to change the world and when eventually getting tired of it, deciding to ‘quit’ by shutting themselves off from everyone that they’ve attempted to change while blaming them for ‘bringing bullshit into their life’ – and they seal the deal by justifying it as ‘not giving up’ as if this was in any way part of a life mission they had towards others.

There is this constant desire for the human to make oneself better than, beyond/above a certain point – just like the cliché you see in movie ‘I’m so over him/her/it/that’ and within this, placing oneself in a pedestal to continue existing in the the self-gratifying bubble of such events being nothing but ‘obstacles’ to one’s precious  oath. Inevitably separating oneself from others and neglecting the fact of self creation at all times. It’s ludicrous and people actually click ‘I Like’ to this so I had to share some perspectives and get my spoon in the pie.

I placed a quote from Bernard there:

 

  • Marlen Vargas Del Razo ‎”The point of self forgiveness is to realize that all will have to give up on revenge if we want to change the future of the planet”Bernard Poolman
    This brings common sense in realizing it’s must not be a ‘shut down’ but an actual process of SELF Forgiveness that is required to take SELF Responsibility for yourself as your creation in this world

     

  • And I got the following remarks:

Chita Vergel de Dios at this point in my life i must not be dictated by what people think of me. i will do things that make me happy coz i am a freespirit and not a tight asshole.

 

So ‘freespirits’ – as the new age neologism it seems to be – and ‘tight assholes’ don’t mingle, okay got that.  Though, if we look at this statement, it can justify virtually anything for the sake of ‘being happy’  and being a ‘free spirit’ which is the equivalent to the usual ‘free-will’ and ‘free choice’ that is taken as the most common deluded apparent ‘right’ within people to be/do/speak/babble  whatever they want because that’s apparently  what they come to do here on Earth, nothing but self-pleasuring machines. Bukowski wasn’t that lost after all.

And another one:

  • Albert Gonzalez ‎”you can’t please everyone so you gotta please yourself and if you can’t be with the one you love, love the one you’re with!”

It is amusing to see how these type of ‘wisdom traits’ are able to be created to justify, vindicate and tamper any actual self abuse and human misery just for the sake of ‘seeing the bright side’ of reality.

We can see how ingrained it is to have everyone constantly caring for what others say/ think about oneself – ‘you can’t please everyone, gotta please yourself’ – so whatever it is that pleases you even if its raping animals or babies for your own pleasure and people get annoyed by that, such person has made a statement and thus their ‘will’ is command. Plain self-righteousness with no proper consideration of what  words entail and it can be used as a weapon to defend even the most atrocious acts in the name of ‘being yourself/ staying true to yourself’ and boasting about it as if it was something proud to be of – once again, a condescending trait of humans to not actually see the self created rollercoaster misery that’s being accepted and allowed and only ‘uplifted’ through statements that make oneself feel ‘better’ on a floating bubble that will only burst once enough shit has been allowed inflated on top. That’s how Self Honesty is suggested at ALL times, to stop any point of self deception that allows any form of self abuse.

And the second part of the sentence is just a second-hand washed out way of wiping your tears and conforming after not having your ‘pleasures’ and ‘dreams’ fulfilled – so, it shows how far we can brainwash ourselves to make-believe we can ‘still get our way’ even though it’s not what we wanted to begin with. Feeling and filling oneself up to continue being ‘the winner’ even if by their own standards, they lost the big-score. Winning, losing, being more than/less than = all polarity that is able to be stopped for once and for all if we actually dare ourselves to. 

The human mind works in self-gratifying ways wherein one will tend to see the ‘bright side’ and the ‘half full glass’ for the sake of not being self honest and see the actuality of this reality and our existence and experience within it as nothing else but our own creation. Spitefulness, subtle insults and self-retaliation become part of the way to ‘prove oneself right’ which are words said with no awareness on their full implication, not considering the starting point of them either at all. There is obviously no self-reflection or even actual understanding of anything that we may point out in another being our own accepted and allowed nature as well

Here’s another one that’s been out for group discussion:

“Life is too short to waste another minute on anyone or anything that do not make you happy”

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Self gratifying machines seek pleasure, happiness, joy just like a kid recently introduced with sugar during their first Halloween, they’ll seek for it in any possible way and justify it along the lines of being here for the sake of ‘being happy’ as if that was the ultimate reason for the existence of the human being on Earth. Right.

Billions of people seeking pleasure, happiness, no wonder we’ve turned this world into a gigantic McDonald’s ‘drive-thru’ where people get in and out of ‘relationships’  – or get into a franchise of one-night standing – get hooked in drugs, videogames, tv, food, any extreme activities that will fulfill the need to be constantly seeking this ‘happiness’ – all of this done without the least attempt to look at OTHER living forms coexisting in hideous ways in this same world while one is seeking that ultimate ‘shot’ and ‘grace’,  seeking the ultimate fuck to get oneself satisfied for the remainder of the day – just pleasure seeking machines that won’t obviously be willing to walk any path of self-understanding, self forgiveness and self honesty as that won’t certainly fulfill the constant rush and requirement of ‘happiness’. We’ve become thing else but mind addicts definitely.

Now, to broaden the scope, see if someone starving is also ‘seeking for happiness’, see if they can also afford to not go wasting their lives on something/someone that won’t fulfill their inner mindfucks. Obviously not, they’d mostly ask why are people so imbued with their own personal jackoffs without giving a fuck about the rest of the world that does suffer and that don’t have even the least amount of ‘grace’ from the so-called bliss that lightworkers claim exist as a ‘godly presence’ in this world. It is all just a real mind-split reality wherein unless each one get to live in one’s own flesh what other living beings are currently going through in this same reality,  we won’t stop existing in such absolute bullshit of seeking  happiness, joy and apparently doing anything possible to not be a tightass.

Self Honesty is daring to see ourselves with all our traits, with all our mind games exposed to see how we’ve attempted to always be the ‘winner’ and within this, disregarding life, disregarding others and instead continuing and ensuring the abuse that’s being currently perpetuated by everyone that exists within one single iota of ourselves being and feeling superior to someone or something in/of this world.

 

Equality cannot tolerate any form of condescendence, Equality as Life debunks any fluffy bubbly cloud as thoughts and beliefs of humans attempting to continue existing in such sugar-rush at all times.
Time to Stop – clock’s ticking out.

 

Support yourself at Desteni dare yourself to face yourself and all our mind addictions – the real rehab for LIFE.

 

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Some Deep-shit to bring afloat

If you want to reach a state of bliss, then go beyond your ego and the internal dialogue. Make a decision to relinquish the need to control, the need to be approved, and the need to judge. Those are the three things the ego is doing all the time. (So) It’s very important to be aware of them every time they come up.”
~Deepak Chopra

If – then – so

Thanks for confirming our preprogrammed reality, Deepak! Using fuzzy logic is definitely accurate if we want to continue perpetuating ourselves in a reality motivated only by a sense of ulterior pleasure that is, apparently, that which we must conquer if we want to be in an ever-lasting dazzlement as the ultimate quest in life.
 
So, get rid of any sense of self-motivation as self-realization of being self responsible for everything that is here as our own creation and directing yourself accordingly – listen to Chopra as he places the attractive solution to kill your ego to ‘reach a state of bliss’ I mean, what else could drive a human being to stop the inherent addictive habit of thinking? Only thinking of a blissful glazing experience where I don’t ‘think’ and I’m this empty vessel shining in full view. Wow
The reason why such statement is bullshit is because it is promoting an elusive state of being that functions like candy to kids that have been taught that candy is the reward for doing something ‘good’ in this world. Then, stopping the mind just in a literal ‘shut-the-fuck-up’ attitude creates nothing else but further separation that can only lead the being to completely deny themselves ‘as’ those thoughts, as the actual creator of such ego-treats wherein the actual understanding of self-creation is deliberately overlooked. Within this premise, it won’t matter whatever ‘I think’ because I can simply ‘shut it off’ and shove it under the carpet while gaining one step closer to the virtual paradise-heaven like experience.

Okay, so, you shut off your thoughts and any desire/ need to create any sense of ego recognition BUT motivate that through wanting to reach an experience that can only be relevant for you as an Ego, how paradoxical mr. Chopra.

The point is that this person knows what SELLS WELL in spirituality, which is following the long-lasting desire for ‘heaven’ and a more decent life experience other than what the usual mortal-mode allows us to do so. This lies obviously within the ultimate ‘wanna be god’ experience that can only be relevant to the individual as the mind, as feelings and emotions which is what this guy is attempting to ‘warn you about’ as in  ‘be aware of them’ without even considering any best for all or consideration of the entire world or even life for that matter within such blissful promotion of any deceptive kind of “self-help” that people buy nowadays.

I’ve had some people asking me if ‘I know Chopra’ whenever I speak about what we do at Desteni – I sincerely don’t need to know much about someone once I see what a single statement of them is promoting as ‘self help’ or ‘life philosophy’ which in this case is quite clear it’s nothing else but a revamp of the old ‘heavenly experience’ promoted by christianity – or any simile in the rest of this world’s cults-religions. That sells well, self responsibility and self honesty don’t. Yet it’s what must be done and lived in this world for any actual change.

So, reaching a ‘state of bliss’ is a glowing mindfuck that can only be relevant to you as an individual experience of the mind without actually caring to see how such experience is self-created, powered by your own thoughtful-batteries which in itself, contradicts the rest of the argument Deepak gives in order to ‘stop your ego/ stop your mind’ without even caring to look at the context of this world, this reality that we’ve created as a casino wherein everyone wants to WIN/WIN all the time and nevermind about the world problems that are created in-fact by such long-lasting desires to be bliss-fool.

We obviously don’t support this type of bullshit that promotes abdication of self responsibility, ignorance of man to know himself and the determination of seeking something ‘outside’ of yourself as a mental experience that keeps everyone trapped in a single cycle of buy-your-peace, buy-your-happiness becoming blind to see what is actually being created by each one of us in and as this world that’s actually run by nothing else than money.

Time to debunk Chopra and any other ‘self-help guru’ that fails to see Equality as Life, Common Sense and the requirement for an overall change in the system if we do want to do something that betters our lives in this world, not just ‘for me’ but for ALL Equally.

 

Get your reality check at  desteni.co.za  and support the Equal Money System so that ALL are included in your quest for a blissful experience as an actual self-sustainable system that supports LIFE not the mind.

 


Spirit-to-hellity: a Heart-based business

Buy your peace of mind.

It’s been proven throughout history that the human has a tendency to seek a form of ‘reuniting with the hole’ and using/testing many ways to do so – it’s no longer a ‘mystery’ on how this has been ever pervasive along with the human kind – this is due to a preprogrammed set up to seek ‘god’ and seek that way of submitting to a greater force, to feel ‘detached from the whole’ to then seek ways to ‘get back together’ through any means such as religions which have now mutated into a more new-age era friendly practice called ‘spirituality’ which is apparently the evolution to fool-fill  the hole that major religions ‘left open’ in their practices.

Spirituality then fits the needs for a convoluted society that’s currently existing in a continuous survival mode wherein time is money, where the atrocities that are committed day to day affect the psyche of the being’s stability and general life experience of the individuals which leads everyone to seek some ‘peace of mind’ – we’ve all been there, most of us have had some experience with the spiritual practices wherein we indulged into that never-ending quest for self perfection through ‘peace of mind’, obtaining the ‘right answers’, endless ‘creative power’, perfect harmony within yourself, accepting it all as it is and only focusing on positive thinking, prosperity, happiness, love, freedom and the ultimate quest for enlightenment. All of this is easily able to be nowadays packaged and sold to you for exorbitant prices that you are willing to pay because it is apparently that type of inversions that will assure you some type of seat in the front row of enlightenment or an illusory quest to a heavenly ever after.

Within seeking these guides, paths and ways to fulfill this ‘inherent longing to reconnect with the whole’ or with the primordial energy a.k.a. ‘god’,  we get to indulge in various ways to brainwash ourselves into believing that being at ease with ourselves, allowing the world to just ‘be’ and focus on positive thinking is what will lead us to an eternal life and ever lasting grace – it is not, yet this is widely sold as truth and people buy it because it’s easier to buy your quick fix wherein you’ll be apparent a happy, stable and all-knowing person than having to face yourself in your reality, walking practical steps to realize how light and love as well as seeking that peace of mind won’t come just by listening to some tapes, repeating some mantras, meditating for hours and pretending that you’re not in and of this world.

The deception is clear now – yet there are many that are paying thousands to get these type of quick fixes that go hand in hand with the ever-present abdication of self responsibility as human beings. It also suits an entire ‘lifestyle’ wherein you’re apparently healthy and clean and not participating in the shit that’s going on in this world overlooking  the most basic common sense implied within being oneness and equality, which is that no one is really devoid of such responsibility, no one is really clean from having taken part in the current decadence that we’re facing as our world. Hence, what is it that you’re really buying into yet again?

Buying your peace of mind.

Many people prefer to say ‘I’m spiritual’ instead of saying ‘I am a catholic/satanic/jew’ or whatever, because it’s more chic than being religious, because there are all types of ‘cool people’ into spirituality, smiling themselves into a make-believe brighter view of the world with positive thinking while buying their tickets to go see Deepak Chopra or hear a sugar-coated message by some channel that lets you know that ‘everything can be solved with LOVE’ – the majority is willing to pay for THAT as it provides a false sense of security, trust and ‘protection’ that has the marvelous ability to be invisible – which is what makes spirituality the perfect business in all its branches and subdivisions targeting  the reckless human nature that seeks only one’s own experience to be satisfactory, to be ‘at ease’ and at peace without having to look back at the world and the reality that billions are living in. It’s easier to pay to be ‘blessed by the spiritual masters’ than researching how this reality works and how is it that each one of us have accepted and allowed a system wherein you’ve got enough money to seek these type of ‘answers’ and buy yourself a seat in paradise – what about the rest of the world? May I ask.

Spirituality is nothing else but another drug to escape reality, it is no different to taking valium or prozac to cope with reality, you pay for both and you get a ‘better feeling of yourself’ within this reality, another band aid solution with juicy profiteering that’s now been ever increasing in direct proportion to the current state of this world which is of obvious disparity, instability and general madness making things like meditation and contemplation and generally forgetting about the world popular activities as a form of ‘recreation’ and ‘cultivation of one’s spiritual side’ without having to do anything but sitting back, relaxing and just chill –  instead of getting involved into an actual process of realizing HOW we are the ones that have created the current conditions of this world as it exist.

I once defined myself a spiritual person, in fact it’s the definition that I held for most of the time since throughout my life, I was more aware of the so-called ‘spiritual realms’ of channelings and what I knew as ‘spiritism’ than going to church which I was taught it was bollocks from a very early age. So I became part of the new-ager squad that would keep ‘spirituality’ as something ‘sacred’ and something that I intended to maintain as my secret belief, as something I had to ‘cult.ivate’ myself more into – all of this prior to finding Desteni of course. Then I realized that spiritualism was no different to believing in a god and that it was only a refurbished version of any other religion, only suited and packed to fit in today’s scheme of what’s ‘cool’ and ‘in’ within our current society. When I started seeing the extensive market-creation around this point, it became quite obvious that this wasn’t as ‘pure’ as I had thought – it was time to simply stop.

People are willing to accept anything that rings like bells to their ears, that which sounds ‘nice’ and ‘fun’ and ‘peaceful’ and ‘it works’ – proof is how you get people asking shit to the universe and making it work without even pondering how on Earth can’t such ‘love’ as shit to fool-fill your life manifest as food and houses for people starving in the world? How can such love not manifest as pipes of fresh and clean water for people to drink, cook and bathe themselves in, how can it not manifest as heaps of food that can be distributed to every single human being so that we could ensure that no one suffers from hunger, diseases and mental problems due to lacking proper conditions to live in.

It’s easy to be in white robes avoiding to get any dirt on.

Dare to face yourself, you don’t have to pay a single cent for that, all you require is self will to stop all mental delusions, all desires for quick fixes and actually walk a path of self-forgiveness in self honesty to realize How we are all equally responsible for this world and everything that exists in it and how we are also walking a process of correcting everything that is HERE as it is ourselves. Yet, this is no easy-way-out, it’s actually the long hard road out of hell but there is no other way.

At Desteni you won’t get sugar-coated messages, you essentially won’t hear what YOU want to hear to be at peace with yourself. You will actually end up facing the truth of yourself, that truth that is usually overlooked and covered up with massive blinding lights that have become the way to believe that ‘everything is fine’ and that the people that suffer  is because ‘they deserve it as part of their bad karma from previous lives’ – really? What would You think if you were one of those persons with ‘bad karma’, would you still justify and accept your suffering with such bullshit explanation? No.

There is no other way but to take self responsibility and stop all desires to short cut yourself into a heavenly experience that has only been sold as a nice story from the times of the buy-bill that have now been refurbished and sold as that ever lasting love and light-bulb bliss story that will apparently solve all your troubles and exfoliate all your pain.

All delusions begin and end with ourselves. If we are not capable of stopping them, we better end ourselves and allow a self to emerge that won’t EVER again delegate its beingness into a belief of something ‘more’ than who we are and within that missing our ability to actually live and be free in Equality.

”Accepting the Idea of God will take me through all parts of existence as me in search for / belief of God in ALL FORMS this God exist, until I have walked all paths/cycles/lifetimes and manifestations as me to get to the realisation: there is no god – only me / this the extent of accepting/allowing a belief in the idea of god – for me and all of me that is here “– Sunette Spies

Lights out

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The END of Spirituality in an Equal Money System


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