116. Dreams of Perfect Lives as Mind Control

Self Forgiveness and further realization about how we have accepted the expression such as ‘Follow your dreams’ to define our current life as either successful/ not successful based on the imaginary future projection that we created at some point early on in our lives, wherein we complied to that single question of ‘What do you want to be and become when you grow up?’ wherein the question itself would already suggest that we could do whatever we wanted with ourselves and our future to satisfy our personal desires and preferences, never really taking into consideration that we are all here in this world, living the consequences of everyone seeking our own personal pleasures and ‘happiness’ without considering at all who and what we abuse and neglect while we are very busing building our own little castle of our ‘perfect future,’ which can only be manifested if we have enough money to do so.

Though, we’ve held these‘memories as pillars to create the characters  that we spend our entire lives trying to fulfill, which is once again, trying to match a dream/ imaginary future projection mind creation to a physical reality that is governed by an economic system that does not support all beings equally.  This can be read and understood in the blogs Heaven’s Journey to Life  and also Creation’s Journey to Life.

“The dreams will determine where you are within process – what’s still suppressed/hidden and require more focus and what you’re realising/transcending – so, basically all aspects of your process you’ll see in dreams or a specific point that require direction” – Sunette Spies

 

I have been having dreams and sometimes I have even desired to ‘keep dreaming’ just because of how entertaining it is, which indicates that I am still allowing the point of entertainment to be a driving force, which is obviously creating an illusion of me experiencing something ‘more’ than myself here, which is ludicrous when we consider how we are in fact only lying on a bed with our eyes closed and ‘having a ball’ in our minds. Well, that’s no different to how we go through our lives

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Dreams Look so Real, as Dreams are Formed from the Same Substance that forms Characters, and the Dreams as Character as Memories are the Only Reality yet known to Man, and because of that, Man cannot Determine the Difference Between Actual Reality and the Dreamstate of illusion on which Consciousness is based.” – Bernard Poolman
http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/08/day-115-dream-evolution-2012_7.html

 

There’s also times wherein the situations are quite ‘mundane’ and it’s as if I am still seeking to keep dreaming to see ‘where does it all lead to’ – and the most ‘extreme cases’ are when I have seen myself just wanting to keep dreaming because it is ‘more entertaining than real life’ which is is part of how we function as human beings, always seeking to be living within the ‘moreness’ that exists as an illusion in our minds, having nothing to do with the actual physical reality.

“The dream shows that your version of reality you so much dislike and how to sort it out is not clear. Do self forgiveness on judgments of how you see people and your perception that you are somehow more than those that seem blind. Also that you have no clear directive understanding on how to clear and direct reality in a way that is best for all –dissect the dream to remove all limited views”

“ALL DREAMS and everything/everyone in it – reflect SELF, it’s never about the person in the dream, that person will represent a part/aspect of you
Cause only you are in your MIND, there ain’t anyone else in there – so whatever goes on in there – is ALL YOU” – Anu

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept the common belief of me having to ‘follow my dreams’ when I was a child, wherein the moment I was asked ‘what do you want to be when you grow up?’ and later on ‘Where do you see yourself in 10 years time?’ I allowed myself to project myself with all my ‘dreams come true’ which were primarily based on being a writer, an artist someone that was ‘famous’ and would be able to make enough money to live with luxuries in the top of a building in some important city like New York City, which became me following the idea of what an ‘American Dream’ would be like, which is how I drove myself to spend my time working on what was necessary for me to become a music-review writer, as that was one of the ‘dreams’ I had – as well as being an artist or any other ‘important person’ that could step out of the ‘ordinary’ experiences in life, which is how I directed myself to build and sculpt my personality according to my ‘dreams’ and my desires, which is how the moment that we keep such dreams in place, everything else will seem quite ‘mundane,’ and if we don’t get to ‘fulfill our dreams,’ our life seems like a waste and a failure –

However, I didn’t realize how my dreams were only that: an imaginary process that I indulged myself in without taking into consideration the physical, practical reality and the actual current conditions in which our dreams are definitely not able to be ‘fulfilled’ as easy as we imagine them to be, without realizing how we see them as ‘possible’ simply by our cultural input of ‘follow your dreams’ and believing that this world is made for us to ‘conquer it,’ which is nothing else but absolute brainwash to keep each being bound to one-single-dream, and if this one-single-dream is not fulfilled, we go into the downward spiral believing that we are not ‘good enough’ to accomplish it, that we were not the ‘chosen ones’ that could be benefitted with having such a ‘good lifestyle’ the same as what we see on the media in relation to famous people.

 

When and as I see myself comparing my current life to that of my ‘dreams’ when I was a teenager and that 10 years later I was supposed to be ‘living out’ and going into an experience of me ‘missing out on life,’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that such dreams were never ever real and that I was just complying to what I was taught to ‘think about’ in school in order for us to always aspire to be and become ‘the next great successful person’ that could play out being just another example of what ‘making your dreams come true’ would mean, in order to instigate the same type of idealism within others. I see and realize that All dreams as positive life-style experiences are based upon abuse as there can exist no positive experience  at the moment in this world that is not leaving another behind, and this is clearly obvious within our current monetary system wherein we have defined ‘happiness’ and ‘dreams’ based on having money and being ‘more’ than others within a world system wherein wealth stems directly from the abuse of other beings’ lives.

 

Thus I see and realize that me thinking and believing that ‘My dreams didn’t come true’ is an actuality and a realization within the consideration that I had only allowed myself to create such imaginary scenarios as a ‘potential outcome’ within my life, just because of how ‘good’ it felt to do so – yet I never really considered or even walked the actual path to get there, which is how I mostly hoped that all of it could develop by some type of ‘fate’ that I was supposed to live, without realizing how this is precisely the trap that we have all indulged in at some point in our lives, leading us to actually always hold such dreams as the ‘aim’ and ‘goal’ for a lifetime without actually taking the practical steps to do so in physical reality.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself want to continue dreaming and therefore sleeping in order to continue experiencing that which I deem in one moment as ‘more entertaining than real life,’ wherein I then give into the mind’s experience of whatever it is that I am doing in order to satisfy a positive energy experience that I have defined as being ‘more’ than myself here, without realizing that it is such experiences that instigate a positive experience within me that which becomes the hooks to keep me bound to one single desire/ hope/ dream that I hold on to as a ‘potential outcome’ in my reality, without realizing how within keeping this point in the future as a potential successful achievement, I am in fact binding myself to only search and look for that one point that I have defined as the ‘moreness’ of myself, without considering how I have been in fact the creator of such separation the moment that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can in fact experience any form of ‘moreness’ within and as myself.

 

When and as I see myself waking up and realizing that I am having a ‘cool dream’ wherein I want to ‘keep dreaming,’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that in this very moment I am giving into the ‘positive experience’ in my mind when and while dreaming wherein all that I am stating is: I decide to live a positive energy experience instead of myself being awake and self directive in the physical reality moment, which is unacceptable. Thus I direct myself to immediately take a deep breath and step out of the bed in order to instead write and walk through the dream point in order to establish what it is that I am still ‘falling for’ as a positive experience that me as my mind is showing/ revealing to me in order to see where it is that I am still allowing myself to ‘follow a dream’ instead of me being self-directive here as breath.

 

I realize that such positive experiences in dreams are based on the ‘adventures’ and ‘positive experiences’ that I had created according to the various characters that I vowed myself to be and become in this world, wherein the dream thus becomes an actual point of support for me to face that which I am not being able to face in real life at the moment – therefore I direct myself to be and become aware of my dreams in order to walk them as a point of self-support instead of actually giving into the experience and wanting to elongate the dream just to continue experiencing myself in such a ‘thrill’ in my mind when and as dreaming.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, in my dream, try to find the ‘gist’ of the dream wherein I am actually seeking to get to a climax experience within it, which often doesn’t manifest, revealing to me how there is still a pinch of hope and desire to have a positive experience in my life, which is what is still influencing myself in moments wherein I compare such positive experiences as my mind with the dreams that I have created and held within my mind in order to believe that ‘someday’ it will manifest or that ‘someday’ I will finally be and become such ‘moreness’ experience, which is not real in any way way whatsoever, and is instead one of the primary points wherein we give into the mind in order to maintain this one single point in separation of ourselves.

 

When and as I see myself trying to find and attain that ‘positive experience’ within my dreams, I stop and I breathe – I realize that me still being ‘looking for’ and ‘searching for’ that one positive experience in my dreams is still an indication of still holding dreams, secrets as positive experiences that I have bound myself to in order to have this ‘backdoor’ that creates this experience at times of my life not being ‘as thrilling’ as my dreams, which is why and how we go through our lives believing ourselves to be ‘less than’ and ‘unsuccessful,’ just because of how we were taught to always ‘follow our dreams’ and do everything we could to fulfill such positive experience in our lives, which is what we then use as a measuring point to see ‘where we’re at’ in relation to such high stakes, eventually always concluding that we are not in fact ‘good enough,’ thus considering ourselves a failure based on an imaginary outcome that was self created.

 

This is how I see and realize that we go comparing ourselves to such delusional ‘goals’ as ‘our dreams’ in life which were always only considering our own benefit, our own ‘feeling good’ experiences but never ever really taking into consideration how we could actually walk our lives in order to actually make such dreams come true Within the consideration of what is best for all life, which would imply that all our hopes, all our dreams, all our desires that kept self interest in place would have to be re-aligned to an outcome and direction that can benefit all beings in this reality within and as the principle of Equality as Life, as I see, realize and understand that the world is a consequential outflow of everyone following their ‘dreams’ and wanting ‘OUR dream to come true,’ wherein we are willing to compete, fight and deceive others in order to get to our desired outcome.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to foolishly compare my current life to that of my ‘dreamed life’ which was always only this literal imaginary projection of myself doing what I made myself believe I was ‘good at’ and what I really ‘wanted to be’ when I grow up, without realizing that our dreams would always look much better and ‘brighter’ in our imagination than the actual reality of it, which is how and why we then create a negative or a ‘lesser experience’ within ourselves because we compare such positive-fulfilling-bright imaginary future projection toward our own living-reality that we then judge as dull, unfulfilling, sad, boring and unexciting, which is the perfect trap for us to then always seek ways and means to achieve such apparent plausible positive experience which translates to living a life of consumerism, of doing all we can to have more money, to get the ultimate relationship, to ‘get the most of the cake’ without stopping to look at how it is that such ability to ‘seek for more’ within an ambitious-surivalism type of experience can only exist within people that already have money and already know what ‘money can buy,’ whereas ¾ of humanity do not have such ability to even ‘dream’ of having a constant and stable living condition in their world, wherein their dream is to have a clean toilet and running water from a tap, which is how this places into context how deluded and actually abusive our dreams of ‘fame and fortune’ actually are, wherein we neglect the lives of the majority of beings that are Also ourselves and that we placidly ignore in order to just focus on ‘our dreams,’ and never even considering that such dreams should be Equally available and possible for all.

 

Thus I commit myself to stop following any form of positive experience in my dreams, as I see and realize that this is the perfect trap to keep me bound to one-single-point as a minute ‘positive experience’ that I am following in my dreams, such as the desire to be somewhere else, to be someone else, to have ‘more’ than what I have which is only reflecting how we have projected such dreams and desires into a media that we feed ourselves with, eventually weaving our own spider web trap of ‘unattainable desires,’ simply because we have dared to make money as that ability to abuse others in order to manifest/ materialize such ‘positive experience’ which in our current world and society translates to having all the money in the world to buy it.

 

Instead, I commit myself to establish a world system wherein Life is equally valued, where our only ‘dream’ stands as an actual ability to give to each other what we want for ourselves which is a practical way to manifest our dreams/ our heaven on Earth within a system that is actually able to be implemented in this world without having to even ‘dream’ about it, but simply through deciding that money can be valued as Life and as such giving Equal Money for all to live the best way that is possible for all beings on Earth, as I see and realize that we have only separated ourselves from our fullest potential as humanity because of binding ourselves to a system that was inherently designed to only benefit some while leaving a vast majority out of the ‘happiness loop’ that money creates for those in elitist positions.

I see and realize that we are here educating ourselves about how our dreams have become the greatest obstacle to actually implement, manifest and practically work to create a world that is best for all, because we accepted and allowed ourselves to believe that we could in fact ‘make our dreams come true,’ never realizing how this was the actual trap that we bind ourselves to without realizing that We are the ones that Decide if we actually create the world of our dreams or not where every single being can be Equally supported to live the life that we all want for ourselves/ each other in this world.

It is never too late as long as we are still breathing here – no more Waiting, we are Here and perfectly capable of walking the necessary steps to realize how life can only thrive in Equality.

Let’s Do it.

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Dreams will be of Great Assistance from 2012 Onwards for those in the Journey to Life, to Realize where Illusion is still in Control of Determining the Future Self and thus the Future of Life on Earth, and that Each Dream must be TIMELINED and Dissected to find the Motivating Characterization and to Remove this, so that one Can Return to the Actual Reality of the Physical World and Leave Dreams to where they Belong, as Illusions.” – Bernard Poolman*

 

Very supportive Life Reviews to realize and understand how ‘Following our dreams’ has not been aligned to an actual physical reality within our current context wherein the opportunities to achieve our ultimate ‘goals’ is not a certainty and most of the times, cannot even be fulfilled within a world wherein Inequality is all that has prevailed – we are the change that the world requires:

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  Life Review – Obsessed with My Future

• Life Review – Losing Sight of Life

• Life Review – Waiting for my Life to Happen

• Life Review – Compromising dreams for Money

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  Life Review – Obsessed with My Future

 

Blogs:

• Day 116: Re-Defining Words to Living Words

• Sub-Character Creation – Part 4 (Self-Commitments): DAY 116

 

Vlog on Equal Money System 

• 2012 What Makes the Equal Money System Different?

Watch The Trap, The Century of the Self and Psywar

Euthanasia: Evacuate the body that suffers

 

Testing through words to write about – it became obvious that the points related to death, pain, suffering had to come through after realizing the death of a beloved being, yes everyone that had been at the farm enjoyed her.

I can only speak from the innumerable amounts of times that we played ball, the many times she’d come to my desk and place the gooey ball on my leg to throw it to her – it was never too far or too high for her to catch it, it never was too late at night or too early to do the same over and over again . All I’ve got is cool memories from that, but I also saw her suffering from the time she got her surgery and how she was really down and in pain – we’d take turns to baby sit her through the day – I remember not being able to cope very well with seeing her that way because she’d always be the ever-panting type of dog that’s never too tired to play ball…

 

So, a decision had to be made today, to put her to sleep because she’d had to basically go through the same process again which could eventually become a pattern – she had a process of her own definitely and some videos are still up about it if anyone wants to review them I’ll leave the links at the end.

 

Though this point opened up the Euthanasia which is something that I fully support and I told L how it is weird that we accept to do this to an animal but not to a human being – why not? because there’s a mental attachment from human beings to other human beings? I’d say the same goes towards an animal – anyways to me that type of differences make no sense in this world and preserving a human being alive just for the sake of keeping the family or the people close to the one that’s suffering ‘happy’ is sheer egoism, sheer selfishness wherein the actual experience of the human being is not being considered at all.

 

I cannot see why there are laws that cannot actually allow the person itself to decide to die, to have an ‘assisted suicide’ for the sake of ending the suffering from a terminal disease – we’ve become so infatuated with life preservation – or should I write “life” because we know we’re not yet actually living-  and within that, pondering our ‘thoughts’ and feelings/emotions and whatnot over the actual physical experience that another goes when getting to a point wherein life in the physical becomes too much to handle, becomes a drag in itself – that’s not living and all people should be able to decide when to have a dignified end to themselves in such conditions – for clarity and third eye parties: this is NOT supporting suicide, once again: this is only in cases of people going through terminal diseases and any other physical impediment that tampers the ability to live and have proper physical functioning in this world as a decision taken by themselves after having had proper psychological and medical assistance to evaluate the case – yet not forcing the point of them staying alive if it’s virtually impossible to stop a degenerative process in the body –

 

From when I was a young girl I remember my grandmother was sick and remained with various illnesses through her entire life. I had quite a relationship with her, I liked teasing her because I saw her as easy-to-be-picked-on yet it wasn’t with malice, it’ was more like a way to make her laugh and stand outside of her own pains and self-created turmoil she lived in.

I remember organizing all her meds that were lying inside a box, out of their respective boxes and so when I showed her what I had done with them and expected a ‘thank you’ she proceeded to shuffle them all again, seemed she liked her stuff all messy anyways – I don’t know why I got that memory so embedded. Anyways she’s dead, she died like 2 years ago while I wasn’t in Mexico, seems my family cared-a-lot that I wasn’t here and that I didn’t say anything about it when I was back, nor have I gone to the cemetery or anything, not interested either.

My mother probably still sees this as ‘rude’ as she sent me a message to remind me of the day that she died this year – I simply replied ‘ok’ because I have nothing else to say about it – I didn’t grieve over her dead even though this is the closes ‘death’ I’ve had in my life – though I was never really close with her either – anyways, I was actually glad that she died because she ended her life-long suffering from various diseases – yet when saying this to my family, they reacted momentarily to my words but eventually saw how it was true.

When I explained to them how people grieve over their own death and how they aren’t actually considering what the person goes through when people are wanting the person to remain alive, they understood how it’s actually selfish to preserve someone alive for the sake of the people around them.

 

Unacceptable-  yet morality fucks the points up, all religious babble that condemn these acts as well, all that which stands as a posture that isn’t considering the physical actual reality at all.

 

Lately I’ve had several people commenting on my video entitled ‘Is there Life after Death?’ in spanish – fascinating how it has pushed several buttons because everyone wants to believe there’s a heaven you go to – I only could ‘hope’ there’s a heaven for animals because they’ve been the real deal here in this world – and they are the ones that we’ve put on major suffering through our domination process on Earth – unacceptable. Though obviously not really ‘hoping’ for them to exist after death, is just one of those thoughts that I’d like to resort to in cases wherein we see animals suffer and die – I breathe and let go of it all as nothing that can die can be actually real – that’s the key here.

 

And so – we look at how evacuation comes after the word euthanasia – evacuating the body that requires to be put to rest to go back to the earth, evacuate it from the consciousness that suffers, that thinks and feels – seems to be the most eloquent and reasonable thing to do yet, we’ve got many perspectives in this world still fighting against this right.

 

I take some of the points that Bella once discussed in a pair of videos wherein people would focus too much on Euthanasia or assisted death and would create such grand debates instead of actually making sure that the same emphasis is placed on actually Assisting Life – so it’s a matter of considering Life as the cycle that must be taken into consideration from beginning to end in equal-consideration – no point must be ‘more important’ or feared or relevant – instead simply considering what’s best for the being and their experience throughout their life and support everyone the best possible way.

So yes, when Life becomes the highest value, death as an end to this life must be taken with the same care till the last moment and won’t be influenced by any type of morals or money or any other ideology that is currently deciding for being, but instead accept Death as part of the cycle that we’re in here for.

I have experienced these taboos at home and I’ve brought the points up until it becomes more ‘comfortable’ to talk about it- yet fascinating that people go into this tension to simply not have to speak about it.

Probably facing the ‘fear of death’ has come to me only through dreams. I had a very specific one wherein I gave my last breath when realizing I was  going down a cliff inside a car that had simply missed the road and that was it – I’ve also faced fear of death in some real life minor events mostly involving car accidents, one where I could’ve fried to death and that I actually shared in a blog because it was in a fucking instant that I could’ve been dead in the middle of the night – fascinating how we’re so vulnerable to dying and that’s how we simply say: live every day as if it’s the last day of your life – that means: do not fear death, it’s useless to live to die and to see death as something that is not to be spoken about, or must be ‘avoided’ at all cost.

Removing the ‘fear’ and confronting it for what it is has allowed me to be more stable here in my reality – in moments of apparent death in dreams I’ve been mostly allowing it to come as in realizing: okay this is my last breath and I go – only once did I freak out while dying in a fire… so yes, I’ve forgiven myself for that and that’s it.

I am here and I live – I walk and I don’t fear dying – that’s what my conscious mind wants to say though there’s obvious points that I haven’t faced as an actual death so, it’s one of those points wherein I simply know that I won’t be thinking about ‘going to heaven’ or ‘going to hell’ and instead welcome the death when it comes and in any form it comes as I’ll know that it’s not something ‘bad’ to happen to me, but a single basic outcome that’s inevitable the moment you’re born into this world. As simple as that.

 

So conclusion of this all:

Dignified Life = Dignified Death for ALL in Equality 

This way we don’t make death any more or less than what it is, we accept it and simply allow ourselves to let go of those that depart as it’s only part of life to accept and see death as part of this cycles we’re living as.

 

Thanks for reading.

 

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