392. Why are Emotional Relationships a Fuckup?

Continuing from:

• 387. The Love/Hate Relationship with Art
• 388. Regretting Choices and Definitions
• 389. Are Emotions Necessary to Be Creative?
• 390. Making Decisions Based on Feelings, Not Facts

 

“So the disillusionment with arts have to do with My Own expectations about it. How I thought that this was ‘the way’ to change the world and of course I didn’t follow through with ‘becoming an artist’ in the traditional sense which I then perceived as myself already ‘opting out’ of it all and seeing the sheer idea of dedicating myself to ‘create art’ as utterly selfish, without realizing how much I had desired ‘that’ to be my reality before. I’ve also been recently sharing about these points with people, explaining how I’m not proud of the decisions I made earlier on in my life and how I would not recommend anyone to study arts. I do however not say ‘don’t study arts’ but simply place my own expectations, my own experience, my decision to do something else and how such studies were a nice platform but not real tools that I can apply to what I am doing now.” From 387. The Love/Hate Relationship with Art

 

 

Facing Myself, my Relationships through the Relationship with Art

I suggest to read:  What does it Mean to Have a Relationship with Oneself? – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 608 by Andrew Gable

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my relationships based on emotions and feelings wherein it doesn’t matter whether it is arts or a person or a responsibility or a place, the moment that I create emotional and feeling attachments to places/people/objects/professions then I begin creating my own trap through definitions based on what I believe that ‘I like’ and what I believe is ‘my thing’ based on nothing else but emotions, feelings, experiences that I went attaching toward something/someone over time, and then believing that I am in fact all of these experiences, emotions and feelings in relation to something or someone, without realizing that such experiences cannot define what such something or someone is in fact, as it is all entirely self-created, it is me-myself that has created this experience within me.

Within this premise, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to immediately automate the words ‘my relationship to/with something/someone’ being defined as an experience that I have built toward something or someone instead of the actuality of how I participate, interact with, communicate with /through something or someone and within that realizing that any experience that I create is entirely my own and has nothing to do with that something or someone but myself at all times.

Therefore I realize that the projections upon ‘art’ is in fact the experience that I have created toward the who I was within that time of my life when I chose to study art and that If I were to place myself within that same frame of mind 7 years ago, I would probably still go for that choice in life, which means that it is a decision I made entirely based on what I wanted to experience and who I wanted to be as a personality, an ego and satisfy my drive that I went building up throughout time to ‘make it’ within the art world – so this point I have opened up before however now I am able to see that it has nothing to do with ‘art’ in itself, I’ve made of art the excuse to project my own judgments toward my decisions, the way that I established relationships toward this something that I ‘built myself’ around, and as such because I realized I could not continue constructing myself as ‘an artist’ within the initial ideals I had, then I acted in spite and begun regretting and embarrassed by my choices in life as I see them as ‘useless’ without realizing that I was actually reacting at all the various others things I did in my life throughout that time of which I cannot be proud of either and that I cannot certainly recognize as ‘myself’ any longer so

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me according to the relationships that I built with people and with specifically my career as ‘arts’ which in fact reflect all the choices in my life, the people that I chose to surround myself with and that I cannot really judge myself for who I was back then as back then I had no awareness of the points I am aware now.

So I realize that I have to stop being ‘hard’ on myself based on this hidden-experience of having ‘the past haunting me,’ and so be able to finally let go of it as I do not have to re-enact this kind of shame or embarrassment about myself, my past relationships, my emotionally-driven decisions in life because it is to realize that back then I didn’t know any other way – and so instead I am grateful to be able to be here writing myself, having deviated from ‘the path’ that I had initially chosen as god knows where the hell I would be if I had followed through my ‘lifestyle’ and the relationships I built around the same ego and personality that I was. I rather see and recognize that I’ve definitely moved on from that phase of my life, but! Also realizing that every time that I create an experience toward any memory, any relationship, any past choice including my decision to study arts, I recreate the entire network of ‘the who I was’ in my past and as such I continue enslaving myself to those relationships and only fuel the negative experiences that are the opposite polarity to the initial positive experiences that I used to build my relationships with people and with the profession/career I was veering myself toward.

And within this, I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to follow the usual pattern within the mind which is ‘dissing’ something once that one has squeezed the last drop of positive experience out of it, which means that once that it ‘served me’ and ‘its purpose’ and I’ve hit the ground back into reality about it and I am no longer seeing visions based on emotional and feeling experiences, then I go into the opposite polarity of talking bad about it and feeling righteous within that, without realizing that it is only the predetermined and rather predictable outcome from an initial positive experience that I created with such ‘passion’ about it that when the whole experience was no more, I ‘dropped’ down to the bottom and the opposite – so it happened just like a typical relationship wherein people first get in love with each other and as time progress and the energy runs dry, they part ways and talk shit about each other, so that’s what I did toward ‘art,’ and I didn’t even realize it because to me it was so right that it hadn’t fulfilled my expectations that I believed I had ‘the right’ to feel that way about it, without seeing the obvious: it was a feeling, an emotion, a judgment that came from nothing else but the ‘who I was’ toward art and so, within this ‘dissing’ recreating my past relationship to art over and over again – trapping myself in my own past.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form emotional relationships toward what I deemed as ‘my career’ or ‘my path’ which in this case was art/being an artist and within this allow a physical process to become a rather emotionally driven relationship, similar to those that I’ve walked with individuals wherein there are a lot of feelings and emotions attached to something/someone that I want to hold onto and when the relationship is no more, such dependency then turns into a ‘lack’ of this fulfillment gotten from something or someone and as such, it turns into a form of bitterness ‘toward something or someone,’ without realizing that this all is really not about ‘art’ in itself or the people in my past relationships or else, it’s about myself and how I created relationships of dependency upon others in order to ‘satisfy me’ or ‘complete me’ or give me some kind of experience to which I could define myself, build myself, construct and upgrade myself as the ego that I was wanting to be within the ‘who I am’ as a professional artist as well as within the relationship formed in relation to who I am as an artist and in relationship to others.

 

Therefore I realize that the best way to follow through with this is to entirely let go of my experiences toward my past specifically and so be able to give myself back to myself as being able to focus on what is here, what I am working with, what I am developing as myself and also to align my relationship to art and be able to enjoy it, visiting museums or read about it, hear it, interact with it without loading the entire experience of ‘going to the museum’ and defining myself according to that any longer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be spiteful in the past few years and whenever I would talk about some forms of contemporary art become infuriated and a bit angry about what I defined as being utterly selfish and self-centered and ‘useless’ to the problems that I was then realizing were ‘much more important than that’ – and in this, I still agree that there are more important points in life than some kinds of art that are merely conceptual and contemplative and ‘useless’ as a tool to create practical solutions to the world – however, this obviously doesn’t justify the fact that I’ve been spiteful and holding this love-hate relationship to it, and within this only fueling an inner conflict of still being interested in or curious about the current art forms that are emerging while at the same time judging it as useless so here

I had considered myself to feel bitter about art

Bitter: causing pain or unhappiness. Feeling or showing angry hurt or resentment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel bitter about art as in becoming resentful toward it and toward the people that create it, not realizing that I had exactly done the opposite for a prolonged period of time which is why the inner conflict arose in the first place, all based on me wanting to make of art the quintessential human experience and making it the most ‘honorable profession on Earth’ or so, and so believing that being an artist was the same or similar thing as to say I was chosen by god and/or touched by god, so in essence a lot of delusions of grandeur that I created within me and that I projected toward art. So, this bitterness as in being angry, resentful, dissatisfied toward art has to do with me having to let go of my own desires/hopes/dreams related to me becoming an artist. So once again, it has nothing to do with ‘art’ in itself but the expectations and experiences I created toward it and so, when realizing I had to stop pursuing my mind any further and only feeding my ego, that’s when the opposite relationship came up.

When and as I see myself feeling bitter about any form of art that I may see, read about or even people that create art and discuss their work – I stop and I breathe, I ensure that I am not tensing my physical body and experiencing that bolt of energy within me wanting to ‘let them know the truth about their creation’ which is in fact nothing else but me wanting to ‘express’ through reaction, as if I had ‘the truth’ within myself and so within this actually becoming nothing more than an ego that wants to be recognized for ‘my new position’ which is not really supportive but only a packet of resentment, judgments and overall bitterness toward that which I once praised.

I realize that this all comes from how much the entirety of ‘my world’ and ‘myself’ that I deemed as ‘real’ and ‘genuine’ were in fact not, so this whole relationship with art I remember very well was the first initial ‘big hit’ that I took when understanding who we are as the mind, as a preprogrammed mind consciousness system and that the thing I feared losing the most was the personality I had created through/as art and having chosen that path for myself, which is why that initial big fear of loss about this self-definition had such a ‘big impact’ in the aftermath, wherein I allowed myself to not be entirely self-directive toward art but instead then create the opposite polarity and so still participating within the mind. And this came through even though I believed I was ‘well over with it,’ only to test out not long ago that there were still reactions coming through the more ‘artistic’ documentaries I would watch and wanting to ignore the reactions to it until I simply believed that I had to ‘speak my mind’ about it – and yes, it was ‘my mind’ and a till here no further to when and as I see myself questioning or asking another about their creation from the starting point of the ‘bitter drop-out of an artist’ that I became in my mind, and so stop defining myself based on the choices of the past and focus on communicating or creating a dialogue based on what we can learn from it, what can be useful to understand our human condition or even innovate and take points to be creative in the ways that I can support myself and others through this process while using art as a supportive tool for it, without endowing it the entire ‘duty’ of ‘changing the world’ in itself, which as I’ve previously discussed, it’s impossible.

When and as I see myself wanting to create an experience of spite or disdain and bitterness toward ‘art’ and seeing it as useless or pointless while at the same time being curious about it, I stop and I breathe – I realize that both the negative and positive experiences are only re-creations of the ‘who I was’ in the past as an art-lover and then the who I became as the anti-thesis of that which was pretty much being very critical toward art within a negative context, and so I simply stop, breathe and observe/interact with it without creating any experience but rather seeing it objectively for what it is. And this is the challenge really because I had cult-ivated the experiences attached to works of art and becoming emotional about it, which I also learned from books at the same time. So I realize that all of my emotions and feelings are in fact nothing else but knowledge and information that I’ve translated into energetic experiences that serve no purpose for me to interact with something or someone.

 

I commit myself to be able to be here as breath while witnessing performances, watching/visiting museums or art galleries and also to remain here as breath when getting too excited about seeing something because that’s also once again recreating the same pattern of the visual vicious – which I’ve talked about extensively of – and so realize it’s just images, it’s just pictures, it’s just a part of reality and the only way I can ‘react’ to something is if I ‘load’ all my past-definitions in order to react based on memories and the knowledge that I had built around art and the ‘who I am’ toward art. So I can practically simply stop those past definitions and focus on reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to read about the Stendhal syndrome in some book and consider that I would get this kind of experiences such as seeing ‘the sublime’ and mostly images that would depict the end of the world, which is why I focused myself so much on depicting the end of the world and getting a kick out of it, and believe that these emotions were ‘normal’ to me and that I had all the right to ‘express them’ but, the reality is that it was all a self-created experience and that there was no ‘magic’ or ‘real connection’ to painting or anything like that which I believed was something ‘special’ within me. Therefore I realize that these experiences were pretty much all created within my desperate need to ‘feel something’ because I had deemed the ability to ‘feel’ as in becoming emotional as special, as sensitive, as ‘unique’ in a human being – and so I created my own web of experiences according to how I would see others would feel and so mimic it, read books that were very emotional and then going determining what I would find as ‘emotional’ and what I would like to experience and so integrate as part of the ‘who I was’ as the characters that I read about and that I eventually wanted to create for myself.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to made of past relationships as something conflictive and filled with ‘turmoil’ inside my mind as I realize that this was also part of the definition of who I wanted to be as a very sensitive person in order to be able to have stories to tell or talk about, as I believed that I had to suffer to make any real art. Therefore, I realize that any experience I created toward something or someone wasn’t part of reality as such, but entirely self created in my mind. Within this, I realize that also in my relationships the experiences I created about others were never ‘real’ as such, but only the plethora of experiences and definitions I created upon them – that’s why once the energy ran dry and seeing the individuals or situations that I was in within my life with sober eyes and frame of mind, the ‘truth’ of myself and the interactions with others/something came through as it is.

 

So a way to redefine a relationship it is to first of all no longer define tit through/as an emotion or feeling, something that we believe is ‘real’ in the mind based on memories, ideas, beliefs, past experiences that we then make real as our preference, as that which ‘we want,’ without taking physical reality into consideration.

Therefore an emotional relationship will always end up as a ‘fuck-up’ if it is not aligned to physical reality wherein I can stand as an individual that first of all ponders what it is that I sought in my relationship with something/someone that I believed I didn’t have myself, alone – and so realize that whichever I was expecting to get from ‘art’ or someone in my life were and had been all points of separation, illusions that I believed were unable to be experienced within me. So this is how the best way to create a relationship with someone or something is to ensure that it is seen through the eyes of physical reality, where no emotions, feelings, no past experiences, no ideals, wants, needs or desires become a decisive factor in terms of defining who I am toward others, as all I have to consider is myself and within doing that I can then interact with something/someone based on the principles that I can integrate within myself, as the relationship that I want to establish for myself so that no matter what I do, where I am, with who or alone, I remain stable, supporting myself, getting to know about others in the relationships formed with my reality, recognizing myself as one and equal with them, instead of seeing them as points to ‘fulfill me’ or things/experiences that I believed I lacked.

I realize that it’s been supportive to revisit this aspect of ‘my relationship to art’ to review my state of affairs in relation to other relationships based on emotions in the past, and so to focus on preventing further ‘fuckups’ as the ups and downs and polarity relationships of ‘love and hate’ as that is all of the mind –  instead there are more physical aspects and perspectives to consider here as well.

Life on Earth in itself is built through relationships, so I cannot define relationships only as personal relationships with something or someone, but rather realize that we are all made of and constantly require and exist as relationships that define the way we live in our world – therefore the more we are able to act, participate and be part of these relationships in a physical and common sensical manner without being driven by desires, hopes, dreams, fantasies and illusions, the more we will be able to begin changing the focus of our reality – from the distraction that emotional relationships are to a rather physical process of aligning ourselves to that which enables our coexistence in the best possible manner – no feelings/emotions required for that, no special relationships but rather the equalization and realization of who I am as this interdependence

 

to be continued…

 

To learn more about how to establish proper Relationships suggest the Re-defining Relationships – Agreement Course  as well as:

• Desteni
• Desteni Articles
• Destonians
• Desteni Lite Process
• Desteni I Process
• Desteni Forum
• Desteni Wiki
• Desteni Español
• Creation’s Journey to Life
• Heaven’s Journey To Life
• 7 Year Journey To Life Process

345. Freedom in Equal Money

 

One cannot ‘be free’ from having to breathe every single moment to remain alive. This  should suffice in order to understand the physical laws all living beings are subject to, yet we created the word ‘freedom’ as a convenient and necessary carrot on the stick to ‘live up to’ without first questioning why are we born into  slavery and how it is that we have perpetuated this system where our life has become and asset and part of a greater business scheme, where we are taught to ‘fight for freedom’ and indulge in all forms of Experiences to ‘Feel Free’ but, Can Freedom be Real in our physical reality and if so, how can it be lived within the Principle of Life in Equality?

 

 

 

Continuing:

• 332. Word Policy in Equal Money Capitalism
• 331. What is Best for All in Equal Money Capitalism
• 333. Life = Money in Equal Money Capitalism
• 334. Equality in Equal Money Capitalism
• 335. Money in Equal Money Capitalism
• 336. Self Responsibility in Equal Money Capitalism
• 337. Common Sense and Equal Money Capitalism
• 338. What is Equal Money Capitalism?
• 339. Value in Equal Money
• 340. The Imposition of the Symbols of Power
• 341. Why don’t We Get Rid of Money in Equal Money?
• 342.Monetary System in Equal Money Capitalism
• 343. How are We Going to Change the System to Equal Money?
• 344. Integrity in Equal Money

 

 

 

Problem                                                                

 

Definition:

freedom
n    noun
1    the power or right to act, speak, or think freely. the state of having free will.
2    the state of being free. unrestricted use of something.
3    (freedom from) the state o

• Our very own breath is subject to the money that we can make/ not make  in the available jobs wherein we learn to ‘make a living’ and have a life based on survival instead of actual self expression in Equality. Is Freedom possible in this world? Is the physical world able to provide such ‘freedom’ as the definition above denotes?  We can only seek freedom due to recognizing the enslavement we are all bound to where our very own life becomes a contract of constant commercial relationships where the outcome is always seeking to make the most profit – relationships of abuse – that is then turned into a a necessary agreement we submit ourselves to in order to have enough quantity of money to cover our living necessities and if we have a bit more than that, we call it ‘freedom’ and feeling secured by this having-money experience. But why is such secured and comfortable living not an assured support for our lives by virtue of being alive? And why is it that only a few can have such comfort and extra money as freedom while others are subject to work to generate the products and services that the wealthy ones buy with such ‘freedom’ wherein the poor’s need for money leads them to accept ‘any way’ to make the necessary to survive, yet at the same time dreaming of one day being ‘free’ from this system of perpetual self consumption with no regard for equal sustainability as an individual guarantee given by the state.

 

• Freedom is  a concept that generates the belief that our liberation relies upon having more than enough money to decide ‘how we want to live,’ our ability to ‘express’  and ‘the way’ we want to express it, while at the same time being taught and ‘encouraged’ to pursue the options that we are presented with to exercise such freedom according to prefabricated models of expression, identity and individuality that can be bought and sold as experiences of empowerment as along with all the other necessary products and services that we require to live. ‘Freedom’ is but an experience generated by having money to live or more than enough to buy the strictly necessary. This becomes the foundation of the degenerative concept of  Free Will as an apparent self determination that ‘supports’  the ability to ‘choose who you are’ in a world where every single breath you take is subject to the amount of money you have and even in that, one is taught ‘how’ to spend it.

 

• This is indulging in accepted and allowed self-created desires, where buying and consuming becomes a synonym of self-gratification and self-interest  as a ‘well earned freedom’ by working to earn money in a system that is founded upon default slavery-status from birth to death and living within coercive means wherein you either work to get money or starve. 

 

• Why do we have to fight for freedom? Why is it a ‘right’ and how we have abdicated such self determination in this system? Is Freedom  real or is it another product of feel-good words to evade, deny and neglect the responsibility we hold toward each other as part of the whole in Equality?

 

 

freedom
1    the power or right to act, speak, or think freely. the state of having free will.

• As reviewed in the Might Makes Right series, power is a relationship of abuse that generates the necessary Rights for people to ‘defend’ or ‘fight for’ and justify inequality. Freedom is commonly experienced as a state of mind, an empowerment in a self-righteous way without realizing that this ‘fight’  implies that we had to abdicate our ‘right to life’ from birth in order to later on have to reclaim ‘our freedom’ or ‘fight for it’ within the same system that has ensured that we are never actually in fact ‘free’ to have access to that which we require to live in Equality to everyone else. This means that we generated a relationship of separation from our living expression and to a subjugating and binding relationship of ‘power’ and ‘rights’ that is currently existent in the foundation of our political, economic and social organizations.

 

• Our actions are dictated by thoughts which stem from our preprogrammed Mind wherein every single definition we have linked to words is meant to satisfy an individual self interest to feel ‘better’ about ourselves without looking at the root and cause of our eternal longing for ‘freedom’ as the consequential outflow of an inherent limitation existent in our current world system. Therefore, if our freedom is defined according to being able to ‘think freely’ we can already know that such freedom has never in fact existed, because all our words as thoughts and deeds have not been self determined in common sense and according to that which is best for all. Otherwise we would have already lived in a natural state of freedom in Equality and Freedom would not even be a concept to ‘long for’ but an integral aspect of our self-honest and common sensical living principles.

 

 

2    the state of being free. unrestricted use of something.

• Freedom should not be the meaning of ‘liberating oneself from oppression,’ since this would imply that the conditions that generate such enslavement would be constantly re assured every time that ‘Freedom’ is sought or fought for. An example is how every time that we use money we comply to this relationship of enslavement wherein we ratify that it is only with money that we’re able to have the necessary means to live.

 

• Our current understanding of Freedom also entails the ability to have experiences that we call ‘living’ such as buying/ consuming and generating desires upon the ideals that we obtain from our family, our education, society and its 24/7 mirroring media where all values, habits, vocabulary and human experience is imprinted to people through our entertainment and ‘educational’ systems, which is in fact the necessary indoctrination to be shaped and formed according to become part of the working force that is sold to generate an absolute well being to a minority in a system where ‘those at the top’ experience ‘the most freedom’ by enslaving the majority to generate it for them i.e., having people working in slave labor conditions to generate the goods that people with enough money are able to afford.

 

• Freedom becomes ‘libertinage’ in this conception of ‘unlimited abilities’ in a finite physical world where every thought word and deed does have an effect on everyone in an equal basis. This is why when a concept like ‘Free Market’ is imposed, one associates the sense of ‘liberation’ with it and ‘unlimited capacities’ without considering that this physical world cannot sustain such ‘unlimited nature’ and/or capacities that are only a product of a concept that gives the right for desires to exist in our minds that such ‘unlimited nature’ can be true in fact, without seeing that it holds no common sense or physical understanding of the laws we are all subject to where we can Definitely deplete the resources of this Earth if we continue trying to impose our desires and dreams and use our life force to ‘make it a reality.’ This has been the current accepted and allowed abuse because we haven’t learned how to honor ourselves yet, and this is also why we believe we have ‘free reign’ upon reality – have turned of our world into a massive profit-making machine which is busy in  a state of free fall decay wherein new measures are being generated to protect the minorities at the top and keep the majority controlled from commanding further ‘acts of freedom’ that are identified as abuse, without realizing that ‘reclaiming freedom’ is only trying to deal wit the consequence of an accepted and allowed born-into-slavery condition we all exist as in our world system.

 

3    (freedom from) the state of not being subject to or affected by (something undesirable).

• The level of enslavement, limitation and self-imprisonment is created every time that we speak words that result in actions and behaviors that stand in the name of personal interest that lead to harm and abuse in disregard of what is best for all. However, in our system we are taught that being ‘Free’ is having the ability to ‘express’ and call it ‘free speech’ and that is how if someone decides that their expression is to denigrate, abuse, extort or control others –even wage war to protect such freedom – it will be done and blatantly accepted and allowed by everyone regardless because of the false premise of ‘If I want my freedom to be respected, I must respect other’s freedom as well’ And this becomes the glue with which we bind each other to relationships of abuse, extortion, exploitation, murder, violation of physical common sense and the ultimate disintegration of any spec of life that we could hold within ourselves. Freedom thus becomes the accepted and allowed form of abuse, to buy and consume the life that we have placed ‘on sale,’ where every time we obtain something that we require to live, we reinstate and reenact the very acts of complacency to a system that works as the reverse of providing life and security for all in equality.

 

4    a special privilege or right of access, especially that of full citizenship of a particular city given to a public figure as an honour

• We are born into debt in a system where our very Birth Certificate is already an acceptance of our lives lived to serve a corporate system where life is made an asset and sold in a society that functions more like a market than a living playground of ‘unlimited capacities,’ where that which we require to sustain our lives is deliberately turned into product that we can only have access to with money, and money can only be accessed if one works in the system to grant ourselves such ‘right to life.’ This is how Survival is granted through complying and adopting Enslavement as a way to ‘make a living’ – this is existent from the moment we accept money as that necessary entity that enables us to live or die if we have a lack thereof.

 

• There is No Freedom in our world where we become part of a social contract based on a business-model instead of a life supportive system where man-made laws determine what is supposed to be our ability to express and live. Accepting our citizenship is supposed to be the entitlement of our ‘rights’ and ‘guarantees,’ but again, we don’t question why the same state that is supposed to grant these ‘rights’ imposes limitations from the moment we arrive into this world and the food we eat is sold and not given as a living guarantee.

 

• We are introduced to money as a way to ‘obtain more freedom’ in this world, little do we question why we created such an entity to guarantee our ability to live, and why not everyone s granted with this access. We abdicated this ‘freedom’ and complied to only have certain ‘options’ in life and claim we have free choice in a world where nothing is in fact secured, since life is something that cannot be secured with money, otherwise we would have many people buying insurances to remain alive in order to avoid the natural cycles of life and death.

  
  This same cycle is accepted and allowed as our limitation: we are born to give away our life to a system wherein limitation, abuse, subjugation to ‘greater powers’ exist the moment we think that we are in fact acting in ‘our best interest,’ while in fact, in this current system ‘following our dreams’ is only the result of accepting what we are presented as ‘our dreams and desires’ as  and claim such dreams to be the key to our freedom, never questioning why we cannot dare to accept the fact that seeking for freedom already implies we are enslaved – there is no freedom possible where no matter how much money you have, you depend continually on breathing to be able to be alive, that implies having to be bound to a relationship of consumption that is currently turned into an ‘experience’ for the sake of enhancing greed as a means to generate more profit for a few. This is thus what also supports the commercialization and monetization of life, our substance and that which we are all made of.

 

 

5    archaic familiarity or openness in speech or behaviour.

 

• The moment we think, the moment we experience an emotion or a feeling, we are already ‘under the influence’ of the mind, we are then subject to/controlled by energetic experiences where no physical common sense exists. There is no Free will existent where every single thought that we have accepted without a question as ‘who we are’ is a product of the same system that we have lived in and only complained about for not granting us this living-right to ‘freedom,’ without generating or proposing solutions to change it either. If our behavior was truly meant to set us free, we would have stopped desired to generate ‘the most’ only for ourselves because we would have understood how No one is Free until All is Free. This is Self Honesty and this is the base foundation of what Equal Money implies.

 

 

Solution                                                              

“Self Honesty is Freedom from Self Deception” – Bernard Poolman 

 

• Freedom can only exist in Equality – it is the living understanding that we are subject to physical laws that must be taken into consideration in order to ensure that the use of the natural resources to live is done in a moderated and regulated manner that benefits everyone equally. This is a preventive measure to ensure that each one’s access to goods and services required to live are guaranteed. This is  a Physical Common Sensical Freedom that can be obtained through the necessary changes at a political, economic and social level to be Educated to understand this common well being as an individual principled living  in common sense as what is best for all.

Further reading:

• 1. What is Best for All in Equal Money Capitalism
• 333. Life = Money in Equal Money Capitalism
• 334. Equality in Equal Money Capitalism
• 335. Money in Equal Money Capitalism
• 336. Self Responsibility in Equal Money Capitalism
• 337. Common Sense and Equal Money Capitalism

 

• We have to disengage from our current laws and policies in which we are born into by taking responsibility of the systems that have held such ‘world order’ until today. This is part of the realizations where we understand and accept that we have the ability to decide what is best for all, which must be  the foundation and directive principle to liberate one another from the binding forces of profit making schemes, value systems and interests that we have all adopted without a question in the name of our personal gain without ensuring common benefit at all.

  This is where Self Honesty exists: we cannot ‘be freed’ by fighting against the system or ignoring it, or overriding the current order with separate forms of government or communal living.  We All have to  Take Self Responsibility for the enslavement we have all complied to in the first place. We make use of our democratic systems to become a political party that presents the Principle of Life in Equality so that it can be made an option to be voted along with the current well known ‘old orders’ that we are still subject to.  This is how we will use the current legal and political systems to reinstate  directive Self Responsibility to our living substance and lead ourselves/ our lives in a common sustainable well being principled living where everyone’s expression is exercised in moderation and self-regulation within the understanding and consideration of our thoughts, words and deeds been of no harm and no abuse toward one another. This also implies the liberation of our imposed power systems onto nature, the animal kingdom and every part of this ecosystem that has suffered the consequences of a man-made righteous system of abuse.

 

“Abuse as in abnormal use is to chose to not allow equal freedom in the context of what is best for all” – Bernard Poolman

 

 

• Freedom will be a living integrity where Self Honesty resides in the understanding that everything we require to live are resources that must be made available to all. Hence our virtue to guard everyone’s best interest will ensure that such freedom is never again revoked by individuals or groups attempting to maim and control others in means of obtaining the necessary to live, this is prevented and eradicated by giving equal access to the goods and services required to live in dignity for all.

 

Further suggested reading:

• Directive Dynamics For New World Order

• The Only Relevance of God

 

• Freedom won’t mean  buying, consuming, reproducing the lifestyles of ‘the rich’ and ‘own everything we want.’ We won’t feed the greed  that would re-generate a level of enslavement and limitation toward each other as well as a dishonoring behavior toward the life that we abuse to generate such ‘states of mind.’ This is why through Equal Money we can ensure that this Freedom is lived within common sensical practical understanding of the physical laws we are subject to, such as the natural cycles that we have to consider in order to generate the means for our sustenance, as well as ensuring that  our actions and attitudes are always aligned to be part of this common well being that is generated by the very words we speak and act upon, wherein our freedom is our ability to ensure everyone’s well being is secured as our own, by our own work, by our own self-willed decision to live according to the principle of what is best for all, that’s the only condition where actual freedom can exist.

 

• Freedom from our personal Mind Control is the process that has already begun in which through a personal written process each word that we have tainted with experiences and turned into ‘longing desires,’ wants and needs is taken through a process of writing, applying Self Forgiveness in Self-Honesty to understand how it is in the very words we speak and the way we act and behave toward one another have bound each other to self destructive and abusive behaviors, which in turn exists as the foundation of our current world system: we are it.

  Writing yourself to Freedom is the actual Key to decipher the codes and blueprint of our mind, identify the points of self interest, self dishonesty, abuse, greed and all forms of ego in order to redefine our words so that we may live them/ as them in the best interest of all individuals in Equality as life, ensuring that every word, thought and deed is determined to generate relationships of interdependence and symbiotic behavior that lead to generate what’s best for all.

 

• Equal Money is the necessary tool at an economic level to understand how it possible to equalize these relationships in an accountable/orderly manner to sustain and maintain our lives  in this physical reality where having food, water, shelter, clothing, secure and dignified living environments, healthcare, work/jobs, educational skills and facilities and all the infrastructure of human and material support for this is granted to each other by virtue of recognizing our ability to coexist in means of supporting our assured well being in equality – it is a tool to ensure no abuse is recreated by having the ability to control / have power over others, which is in fact what will guarantee each other’s freedom from enslavement, coercion and subjugation to ‘hierarchical powers.’ Equal Money means the laws of our physical requirements decide what everyone needs to have a successful living.

 

Rewards                                                  

• Freedom will no longer exist as a ‘separate concept’ or a ‘yearning ideal’ to look up to –it will be the very foundation of our  ability to exist as Individuals with Integrity recognizing each other’s Equality as Life, ensuring that our words, thoughts and deeds are always lived and expressed to honor ourselves and every single being, part and particle that coexists with us here on Earth, ensuring that each other’s living requirements are guaranteed by a establishing a system that we can all participate in to generate the necessary means of sustenance in abundance and optimal living quality standards for everyone’s benefit.

 

• Living in Self Honesty is ensuring that we all guard each other’s best interest as our own, this means that no harm or abuse is possible once that we all understand that we all have to contribute to generate the best living environment each one of us want to live in. This ensures no competition, no war, no rivalry or ‘survival of the fittest’ conditions are imposed ever again toward one another –  our freedom is created at a collective level through Self Responsibility, sustainability and equal regard to one another to maintain this  living behavior as an actual state of freedom.

 

• Freedom means no mind control, no slavery, no fear of survival, no subjugation to laws we don’t understand,  no more hierarchical powers, no more legal means of oppression, binding behaviors or illegal operations that lead to a state of insecurity in our world. Instead all the necessary support to Live will be Given and Received in Equality which will generate the certainty of having the best living conditions for our lives to thrive in Equality for ourselves, our children and the generations to come to be born into an actual state of Freedom.

 

No One is Free Until All is Free

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344. Integrity in Equal Money

 

“It is Essential that Human Integrity as Life Equal be Restored as the Fundamental Rule of Law in this World. Call Out Those that protect Inequality, Become Politically Wise – Install a New Government, through Democracy and Re-Educate the Abusers of Life; in the same way they now keep Millions in the Chains of Inequality – ‘till they Repent and Show through their Actions that they Also Care about Life.”
– Bernard Poolman

 

Continuing:

• 332. Word Policy in Equal Money Capitalism
• 331. What is Best for All in Equal Money Capitalism
• 333. Life = Money in Equal Money Capitalism
• 334. Equality in Equal Money Capitalism
• 335. Money in Equal Money Capitalism
• 336. Self Responsibility in Equal Money Capitalism
• 337. Common Sense and Equal Money Capitalism
• 338. What is Equal Money Capitalism?
• 339. Value in Equal Money
• 340. The Imposition of the Symbols of Power
• 341. Why don’t We Get Rid of Money in Equal Money?
• 342.Monetary System in Equal Money Capitalism
• 343. How are We Going to Change the System to Equal Money?

 

 

 

Problem                                                                

“We’ve become dependent on fear as a survival instinct and so actually fear commonsense and integrity as it is experienced/believed to be a ‘weakness’ – you have to live in fear in order to survive as the law in the matrix goes” – Sunette Spies

 

• The result of our abdication of self responsibility to the laws and mechanisms in which our physical reality visibly operates is expressed in the current organizations and institutions that we have become so ashamed of and continuously complain about, which are the  product of our primordial disregard of ourselves being one and the same organism that is subject to physical laws that enable life to exist. Instead, we created these external entities to become the deposits of our rights that we signed off when agreeing to become part of a system wherein money as our creation meant our ‘indebted access’ to have a dignified living. This means that we lost our integrity the moment that we placed ourselves to be subject to laws that were never equated to guard and ensure a constitution of life in Equality.

 

“You are in this World, because: You Have No Responsibility, No Integrity and because you have Never Cared about Life in the Universe throughout All Time. You are, in a way, in a Prison. A Prison you created for yourself. You’re Not Going to Get out of This one…not here or in the hereafter without facing consequence, taking responsibility for it and changing for oneself and so for all as self.” – Bernard Poolman 

 

• What we face as our current world system is the product and manifestation of our abdication to Life in Equality. What does this mean? That the same system of oppression, or scarcity, of lies, of corruption, of hierarchical structures and imposition of power to generate fear is in fact the mirror of every single relationship that we formed in self interest, seeking for our individual benefit only in separation of ourselves as one and equal. This means that the imposition of ourselves as our Ego, our Mind, our Personalities, our Preferences, our Opinions, our Thoughts, our Emotions and Feelings, our Desires over the Physical matter is what became and exists now as the violation of our own ‘right to life’ where no Self Respect toward ourselves, toward the life that is here as ourselves and in the various Life Forms exists – instead  we have turned each other and this world into assets for our benefit and indiscriminate consumption. Life after life we have lived throughout generations guarding these interests as laws that we enforced to every single child born into our world without a question.

 

• We made of our so-called Free Will and Free Choice that individual ‘course of action’ that determined the ability to abuse one another through the acceptance and allowance of self-interest, superiority and personal satisfaction of security and power over the common well being. Every single word that we have used to denigrate or deify something or someone became the symbols of power that we imposed onto ourselves as a sign of our Inability to See what is Real and Live according to it.

  All the suffering, harm and abuse  as the result  disintegration became a reality when  we imposed meanings, values as experiences over matter and made ourselves subject to it, instead of doing the process the other way around: ourselves becoming the direct beneficiaries of every single word thought and lived as a result of an understanding of ourselves as creators of our reality through the values imposed onto matter and experiences at a mind level, disregarding the physical laws and considerations wherein clearly no spec of matter has been regarded as equal, instead it has been always gauged according to the system of values that serves the Human Mind, the Human Nature that became the accepted and allowed behavior of ourselves as species, indoctrinating every individual to integrate the same patterns generation after generation, wherein some symbols became our gods – like money – and some others became the experiences in which we all got ‘lost’ and confused while missing physical reality, and dare it to call it our ‘human nature’ such as our desire to win, our desire to have more than others, our rejoice in emotions or feelings and any other mind activity that is never evident as an integral part of our physicality, because it is only existent at a mind level, as our creation.

 

• What we regarded as ‘Our Human Nature’ in the form of emotions and feelings became the greatest distractor and consent enter-tamement to not question the laws, the rules, the systems in which we’re living in, but instead merely complied to them as a sign of ‘resignation’ because no one else seemed to be noticing how inherently flawed and wrong the system is, no one dared to question the abuse, the suffering, the poverty, the absolute madness and absurdity of how we bound ourselves to a system of values where money became an abstraction that contains the value of our work to obtain what we require to live – a giving and receiving in separation of an integral equality process, instead we became the embodiments of a an unequal relationship between what dictates in our minds and what our body requires to exist. Therefore it is through our very own laws and belief systems that we enslaved ourselves to what we believed in our minds is real, ignoring physical reality evidence of such facts being true as an inherent part of the matter and the physical.

 

• Our integrity has been non existent from the moment we give our power away as the breath of life to exist in multiple ‘states of mind’ leading ourselves to feel ‘superior’ or ‘inferior’ to the physicality that we are, which is clearly indicating that we’ve always lived in a continuous separation from the integrity of our physical body that is as constant and consistency as the physicality that is nurtured and reconstituted in every singe breath that we take.

 

• Our political system, our monetary system, our economy, our social structures denote the exact opposite of this physical relationship of equality and oneness that we could hold as ourselves and toward one another. This is the physical integrity that we have lacked in our words, which became our laws and eventual authorities wherein we created fictional entities to take care after ourselves. We created our kings, our policemen, our judges, our monetary system, our politicians, because they all represent the violation of our individual right to life in Self Responsibility.

 

 

Solution                                                              

“Integrity and Standing in Reality is Not Determined by a ‘Piece of Paper.’” – Bernard Poolman

• Words that stand as the law of our being of Equality and Oneness, lived and applied as a physical consistency of the recognition of who we are as life are the key and way to ensure that we establish our individual an collective Integrity by our individual decision to live according to that which is best for all.

 

• The process of Self Forgiveness wherein we  take Self Responsibility for the Accepted and Allowed Mind-Nature as thoughts, emotions, feelings  that we have imposed onto ourselves as physical beings is the way to  establish our definitive integrity. This is for us to understand how we created relationships of self diminishment or self aggrandizement in self-interest, causing the tumor as an overgrowth  that indicates the violation of the physical matter of Equality. This Self Forgiveness Process is the key to understand our individual and collective participation in the current outcome we’re living in as our society and world system. This responsibility comes with immediate self-directive solutions that are understood and lived at an individual level to create and establish the Law of our Being in Equality.

 

• Money as the creation and manifestation of such system of self-abuse will also become the solution; this is within the principle of ‘Like Cures Like’ wherein we are determined to make of money a tool that represents this reintegration of Equality and equalize its function to our physical breathing, which means it will become a guaranteed giving and receiving of the resources we require to live, it is an insurance to maintain our physical integrity where all parts are equally supported, which will translate into an  integral society where relationships are formed in an interdependent manner, existing in a one and equal recognition of our responsibility to live. This implies absolute self directive principles to grant each other the right to live that is not ‘demanded,’ but instead founded and created through our collective ability to honor ourselves and each other as equals.

 

• Once that money ceases to exist as the driving force within our lives, actual integrity will emerge in our society which will create new forms of entertainment, of relationships, of social interactions that will be based on mutual support and understanding where no ‘hidden interests’ will exist in an attempt to harm or abuse for personal gain. This means that our ability to stop abuse will form part of our ability to construct this integrity as who we are: no abuse, no harm and no disregard will be accepted or allowed to exist.
  

Rewards                                                  

• Living Self-Integrity is the foundation of a fear-less society where each one’s words can be measured according to the actions lived that generate the Best Living condition for all.  It is the actual consideration, understanding and regard to guard each one’s well being as our own which will result in a mutual honor that has never before been existent in our society toward each part of ourselves as one and equal. 

 

• Self Honesty is the principle in which we recognize that our individual well being is founded upon our ability to respond and act in the best interest of all, which creates the relationships of self support, dignity, respect, compassion and consideration to one another once that we live in a world where another is seen as an equal part of ourselves and no longer someone to fear, abuse, extort or compete against.

 

• The living of our individual Integrity leads to generate the necessary foundation to establish Self Trust within ourselves and toward one another to ensure that no matter where we are, what we say and the decisions we make, we are always acting according to that which is best for all which is the manifestation and living practicality of what Love and Honor should be. This is the key to manifest a heaven on Earth but for that, we have to establish our Self Honesty and Self Forgiveness first – this is the Individual process we’re walking and invite you to participate within the understanding that Education is the first step to understand where, how and why we separated ourselves from life.

 

Education is Available here:

• Desteni

• Desteni Lite Process – Free Online Course to Learn how to become part of the Solutions presented here

• Desteni Forum

• Visit the Group Capitalism vs. Equal Money group on Facebook.

• Read the Equal Money Wiki

• Read Economist’s Journey to Life

• For more about Self Education on Words, visit the Desteni Forum and Desteni I Process

• Read the 7 Year Journey To Life blogs

 

Blogs:

• 
  

  Day 345: The Internet is the Global Mind (Part Four)

 

Hear:

• 
  

  The Soul of Money

• Living in a World of our Own (Part 1) – Part 179

• Living in a World of our Own (Part 2) – Part 180

 

Vlog:

• How are We Going to Change the System to Equal Money?

• Why Can’t We Get Rid of Money?

• “Will Equality be Forced?”

2012 Words Are Us

“Words are here as a tool, as support as assistance for each one of us to communicate with each other, to converse, to express and live through our words, to show each other who we are as I am communicating, expressing, sharing and showing who I am through words. I am the words I speak as each are the words you speak. Words – through words we communicate, we share, we express – have anyone forgotten the importance of words, of realizing the simplicity of the living word?”
~ Osho through the interdimensio­nal portal [1]

Within studying the basics of linguistics I realized how everything that we can define in this world, all that we are able to communicate, identify and depict in this reality can be expressed through words. Some  years ago when I went through one year in linguistics school, I would hear teachers saying how we had chosen to study the most important subject within humanity, which is words – though I judged this as part of their necessary self-glorification because of having dedicated their lives to this science. I was wrong.

One of the core definitions we had to learn by heart is that language is a group of conventional signs arbitrarily created and agreed upon by people. When understanding how the sign was created as the arbitrary placement of one piece of reality= a group of letters called ‘word,’ I thought that this was almost like ‘violating’ the reality that is here – it was like becoming God within being able to name things and give it a certain space and value within what would become the realm of knowledge, our first bite of the apple.

Within this realization, I came to a precipitated conclusion that we had just created a world out of ‘made-up words’ – we had simply taken the entire language system‘as it is’ because that’s what we learn and acquire from our parents, that’s what we use to define what’s here and communicate with others, never really questioning to the core how is it that we have words for everything that is here in both physical and ‘abstract’ reality.  At the time it felt like being studying the origin of the corruption of what is here as the primordial human imposition onto life,  it was like separating a piece of reality, placing it under a certain category wherein we become the point that categorizes and ‘controls’ reality through words, this is where human’s ‘reason comes out as the self-belief – or dare I call it self-talk – that ‘we now know better’ because we are able to define it.

This mindfuck  that I created for myself  became an excuse for me to degrade this reality to being ‘an illusion’ and a ‘fallacy,’  because we have based our reality essentially out of words that – literally – god knows how we got to create. The origin of languages has been placed within the Indo-European civilizations according to the academy; however this only seems like placing a starting point for the sake of having that first methodic doubt solved and not have to linger around ‘filling the gaps’ within our history – which is still being sought/ studied in various fields of our human civilization (see.evil-I-zation)

That’s where I began seeing how there were words that are used to name what is here, what’s physically here – and that makes perfect sense – and words that were then pointing out to an almost ‘metaphysical existence’ that is not-tangible. We are human beings that require to interact with each other in relation to ‘What’s Here’ and whenever we say ‘what’s here’ it means: the world with everything that is existing as the entire ecosystem, the physical reality that we eat from, that we breathe and live and interact within. But then, the word ‘concept’ came into being, it was this ‘abstraction’ that the word becomes out of a piece of reality .

I’ll explain again the cookie-dough theory simply because that’s the way I was able to grasp it that day in school. We have the ‘nebulae of thought’ as they describe it – yet I would rather place it as we have the reality that is here as raw cookie dough. What we did as humanity, was creating a set of cookie cutters that are in, this case, a specific configuration of letters as words to take a piece of that entire mass of cookie dough and give it a shape, give it a form. Within the identification of such mass within a particular form, we are then able to give it a name, to call it in a way that we are able to identify it from the other pieces of reality that have been created with other different shapes from the same cookie-dough.  Just as the first molecule explained, what happened as we went on creating words to name what is here is that the primordial separation of ourselves as one and equal began. Words became these capsules that enclosed a particular meaning/ piece of reality which was absolutely arbitrarily placed.

An example we had was in terms of different languages – in Spanish it is ‘tongues’ as languages is the system of signs, where as ‘tongues’ is different idioms as languages such as English, Spanish, German, Gaelic etc. So, let’s say we have a particular range of colors that go from green to grey. In English there can be a particular word that indicate a particular tonality of green that is predominantly green, whereas in another language such as Gaelic for example, there is a word that would comprise the meaning of a color that was considered ‘green’ yet it was predominantly grey in nature (nature seen here as the color spectrum.) And probably another language could have comprised the meaning of the exact equal combination of both colors in one single name of the color – this is how words that comprise a certain range of meaning in one language, would not exist in another, while – even worse, there was even a gap left for a particular color range that didn’t even have a name. When I realized this, the biblical myth of the Tower of Babel came to mind as our reality: separated by words, by different language systems wherein we all eventually got lost in translation and were simply cursed with having the ability to communicate only with those that used the same code, which eventually became our different cultures/ nations as the blocks of separation. In our attempt to ‘reach god’ we were instead separated through and by words.

“When the languages were confused at the tower of Babel – the outcome you are living now was already foresaw and programmed; and every thought you have was programmed through fuzzy-logic to give you the idea that it is ‘you’

[…]

So the tower of BABEL; it was the attempt of man to build the road/ladder to heaven on earth which was within the DNA/MEMORY of the beings confused to prevent them from doing this by creating multiple-languages so that the humans could not co-operate and never create heaven on earth as it is part of human nature that makes it impossible. Meanwhile it is part of pre-programming. Languages so became the sins of the fathers / the principle of divide and conquer. Now it’s taken forms as personalities as well  that cannot see eye to eye.

                                                                          ~Bernard Poolman (25/11/2011)

A contemporary example of how this separation is now made into profit – and as our entire money system – is the eternal battle of Microsoft vs. Mac – you can’t simply make them function/ work along because of their different OS System, specifically designed to be incompatible and within this, polarize the computer industry/ market. That’s how we have existed as humanity essentially – and this is not only in relation to speaking different languages which define/ identify the entire culture of a civilization/ group of speakers – but also as the creation of words that became the ultimate tool – and even weapons – created and used to conquer reality, which means ‘gaining power = $’ as a means of control upon life.

Not being able to communicate effectively is also a big problem in our reality. We see this every single day when not being able to communicate within common sense with other beings, simply because knowledge and information as concepts, theories and further mindfucks clog the ways in which we could understand the simplicity of what being living the words imply. This is also because common sense as a living-realization of doing/being what’s best for all has not been lived/ applied either,  and we are barely placing our feet on the ground to get to live that at the moment here. This is how and why the purification of vocabulary has been constantly reinforced within the Desteni material, to realize to what extent words are the key to Self Honesty, to Live as one and equal = because we create this reality as the words we accept and allow ourselves to live/ exist-as.

“Wanting/desiring to become God – is the most profound trap of enslavement in this world – that have raptured the very core of beings into separation. Seeking God as themselves or within others through utilizing methodologies of this world.”

                   ~ Swami Muktananda through the interdimensio­nal portal[2]

I underestimated and degraded myself as words at that time while deeming them as cages of this reality – fascinating self-revelation: me judging words with words that could only depict the nature of what I had accepted and allowed myself to be and become. That was the time when I decided that ‘words weren’t my thing,’ I dropped out of linguistics deeming ‘the systematic nature of words’ as something ‘too constrictive for my liberal mind.’  I opted to create images, entered art school and declared war against words.

It was rather foolish to do this because it’s definitely clear how we cannot separate ourselves from our creation – yes, this was my attempt to ‘escape the system’ as well. I also indulged in literature that would be vicious in nature, depicting the misery that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become in our desire to live within an equation of experiences = ‘being alive.’ It was only when I got to Desteni that I realized what a mindfuck I had created with my ‘rebellion against words,’ I had only created the ultimate separation and spitefulness toward myself, and the world as a whole.

“No word is just a word in this world–it is our fucked- up nature that is in the words

the deceptions exist as words–acceptances–kindness—allowances, etc.

do not avoid words — direct words”

                                                                                              ~ Bernard Poolman

It is only now that I am able to see and realize who I have accepted and allowed myself to become as the words that I think, as the words that I speak and place into action by myself – that is and has become our ‘free choice’ wherein we have an array of words that we can choose to speak and embody without any insight or realization of what is it that we are in-fact saying/ speaking and communicating with others. When we do get to this point of seeing what-on-Earth we have become, the only way to stop it is through Self Forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to declare war against myself as words, to become disgusted by our creation as words and in that, spite my reality through indulging in the use of words to degrade myself through judging and criticizing myself/others,  disregarding at all times who I was within and as such acceptance and allowance of uttering such words toward myself, others and the world that is here, that I separated myself from.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to deem words as jails for our reality, and within this remaining as a victim of a system that I saw myself as ‘not being the creator of’ while neglecting the fact that I have accepted and allowed such words to exist as part of myself and this world, without seeing that it is only through and as myself that such ‘atrocities’ can stop, instead of blaming/ judging words for themselves. Words are innocent, it is only us that have given such ‘free reign’ of the having tried to avoid, suppress and escape from them through separating myself from the words I speak, never minding the consequence that I created and manifested through perpetuating the separation of everything that I name and speak as ‘separate’ from me.

“Words are innocent – it is us as who we are that place value and worth and definition to words. We have separated ourselves from words – where words had become separate from us – with separate definition, with separate energetic experience connotations to words which we have used to define who we are separate from ourselves – which has manifested in the form of mind consciousness systems.”     ~ Sunette Spies

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to indulge into speaking words without ever questioning the consequences that I would be creating when uttering them, never questioning what words could create within this reality that is me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use words to control, manipulate, denigrate, judge, criticize and vandalize a reality that I defined through words as the actual reflection of what is existent here as myself, as the depiction of what we are accepting and allowing ourselves to be and what we have become, never realizing that who I was in fact judging, criticizing, denigrating, manipulating and controlling is/was myself only through accepting and allowing such words to exist within and as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and use words that would enable the continuation of abuse toward anything/ anyone in this reality that is also myself.

I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to not question the meaning of words and the potential harm/ abuse and separation that they implied. Within this I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to use words inadvertently, repeating the words I would hear around and see others speak without ever daring to stop myself to see what I was actually implying and meaning within such words.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak words out of spitefulness toward words themselves wherein I then placed myself as a victim of ‘language’ as a form of separation, instead of realizing that words are me, words are my creation and within this I take Self Responsibility for each and every single word I’ve uttered in disregard of this point of self-creation.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear using words such as hate, in fear of realizing that I was actually fearing realizing what was existent within me as ‘hate’ as part of this reality/ as myself.

See, this is the shocking point that I realized – how anything that can be named and defined is because: it exists. When reading words about our psychological terms, when finding out the meaning of certain words that imply actions such as forms of torture, diseases, social-negligence such as ‘starvation’ and ‘murder’ – these words exist because we have created them through our own actions. These words have been ‘lived’ – perpetrated –  as what we have accepted and allowed as ‘human nature.’ Words are the mirror of what we exist as – and it’s definitely clear now that we must take Self Responsibility for each word that we have uttered in separation of ourselves. This world is the result from us speaking and acting without awareness of our thoughts and words, without considering what we were actually manifesting as ‘gods’ of this reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spite myself with words that I used in order to ‘spite humanity’ as an attempt to become ‘god’ and stand in a ‘superiority’ point wherein I deemed myself to be ‘right’ and the rest of the world was ‘wrong,’  never realizing that this entire reality and words are who I am, and within this I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to use words in means of creating and building up an image of myself, an idea that has no relation to who and what I really am, here as the physical reality that I breathe in.

We have created words that are able to rise us up to a non-existent heaven, and words that can depict ourselves as the scum of the Earth. Last night I came to the realization that: we are one and equal as the scum of the Earth – why have we created such value systems as words that can categorize something that is here that may cause us repulsion or disgust – yet it’s part of the Earth itself, is our reflection, it is part of what’s also here as ourselves.

In an attempt to become God, we became our own holy talking ghosts with enough words to fuel our ‘idea of self’ with either delusions of grandeur or misery – both equally fucked – yet only existent in our minds in an invisible form, missing out the physical reality that is simply HERE as ourselves, as the flesh and bones, as the monads of life – if I can call it that –  that we have simply disregarded while being too busy ‘thinking words,’ never seeing and realizing what we were caging and defining ourselves-as and the consequences of how we ‘shape’ ourselves as the words we say/think and act upon.

We are here in fact to relinquish such accepted and allowed past through writing ourselves out, unconditionally placing before ourselves even the darkest pit of our regret through words within the understanding that: we are able to Forgive Ourselves. Whenever I have realized and applied this, it becomes a living-realization that I can now let-go of any attachment I had toward everything that I had blamed myself for/ felt ‘bad’ about, any despicable words projected onto myself/ others and the guilt/ remorse and shame that comes with it,  because there is nothing to keep lingering on to within that. It would only recreate the same patterns if I was unwilling to forgive myself. Blame is another way for us to keep that ‘trap’ in place, simply because in our minds it is a well-known place – whereas taking self-responsibility for our words to stop and correct such patterns is not yet. That’s how now we get to actually create ourselves from the vantage point of giving ourselves a second chance to actually live through applying and living Self Forgiveness.

What does Being the Living Word mean?

“We must, as I have, forgive ourselves for the allowance of separating ourselves from words, which caused knowledge and information only, alone, separately to try and understand and express itself through the creation of the mind/consciousness whilst us were unaware of who we are as knowledge and information in application: the living word. We have allowed ourselves to become slaves to knowledge, slaves to information and have forgotten how to live, forgotten how to breathe and have forgotten the moment as who we are in every moment with every breath.”
~  Osho [1]

“Words are alive – they haunt you infinitely if you abuse words – they never go away – there’s a haunted story if you’ve ever seen one – we’re living it in this world

what exist as this world which you touch – this is living words – this is the living word

touch is a word which you live – because you touch – so, you live the word touch”

  ~beard hair through the interdimensional portal, 2008

Be watchful when you speak – when you voice – be certain that when you speak the words are one with you as you as who you are of life – if they are not – you will surely create and experience what you speak and what you voice as who you are – you create and manifest and experience what you speak – if necessary – do not speak or voice at all – until you are clear and certain of you as who you are with every single word you utter.

                                                                        ~Muktananda [2]

What a great lesson we had missed all the way in existence: we create reality according to the words we speak, according to the words we have created to name our acceptances and allowances. We have given a name to the atrocities that we have perpetuated as our ‘human nature,’ as words we still accept and allow to exist as ourselves in this reality. Imagine being in the moment wherein we have to give a name to the act of a man having sexual intercourse by forcing a woman against her will to do so – the word ‘rape’ was created as an accepted and allowed ‘natural instinct’ of the ape man with and extra ‘r’ to camouflage the act and place it along the large list of words that mean the human actions that name the various ways in which harm and abuse exist.

We are the meaning of such words, it has been an accepted and allowed part of this existence – that is what we have become.

“You have taken the very nature of yourself for granted – your words – your words are who you are – thus who you are is in your words…”[1]

“Insight, wisdom, knowledge, understanding: No matter how beautiful or profound – is empty and worthless without self as presence as the words – without self as awareness as the words – without self living the words.” [2]

Within this process, living the words means we first purify our words to stand one and equal as the words that imply/ mean what’s best for all, as that which we actually see the expression of life can be, the expression that we have tampered with words that have diminished (de-manished) or augmented (increasing ourselves as our mind) ourselves and this reality in absolute separation of the actual expression that can be lived.

Words as Self-Creation

“Be aware, be watchful, be considerate, be creative, be expressive with and through the words you use as an expression, sharing and communication as who you are in every moment with every breath. The moment, the breath, the words, who you are as the living word – this is the recipe for creation. Creating through becoming and living who you are in every moment with every breath. Create yourself, express your creativity through words as who you are as the living word, you are the creator and creation of your world and your existence. You have the opportunity to create in every moment as the living word as who you are.” ~ Osho [1]

“What to do. Silence.

I must silence my mind to see. I must return to birth – to stop all words, all worth, all definitions and start as if I am just born, one difference though – I am going to be my own teacher.

I am going to birth myself.

I am unconditionally going to look at any words I choose to allow within me, as me again and start again.

It must be practical, not only in this world, but beyond.

I must be able to live and experience the word as myself. I must understand honesty with myself.

I must understand self discipline within the process of the movement of myself, as I create myself in this world.

I must stop at nothing and no-one and thus I must be able to stand as all life – meaning, that the answer must prove itself, that when all of life apply it as one, we will be equal and one and live in harmony as God.

I understand clearly that such a point of God/creator existed within each one of us.”
Bernard Poolman [3]

This is how it is explained that we must stop ourselves from recreating the past as words that we see in common sense – the realization of what’s best for all – are not supportive toward our expression, toward the consideration of living as equals/ regarding each other as one and equal.

This is the process that each one lives to see where and how we have separated ourselves from this basic consideration that must become the first educational aspect we can share with children coming into this world. Sharing with them how important it is to be aware of the words spoken to honor themselves and honor life equally, to not accept anything less than who we really are.

This is within common sense – not because words are ‘good’ or ‘bad’ and entering the morality trap again, but just placing a cool question in front: ‘what is it that you really want to be/ become as part of this world? What is the ultimate ‘wish’ for all of us to be and exist-as here? Everyone wants to be able to Live and express and ‘be free,’  thus we share words and live actions that we want to implement as the new way of speaking, living and acting in this world wherein no harm or abuse is accepted again – but expression in self responsibility is understood as the new ‘code in life’ – this is where purifying words/ living words becomes the language we speak. Within this single point, we will be giving an actual huge step for humanity to never again step into the old fuckedup preprogrammed ways of existing in separation ever again.

Self-Responsibility within Self-Creation

“All must, as I have, take responsibility as creators for their creation through words as who you are as I am to set ourselves free from allowed and accepted enslavement self-definition conditionings as knowledge and information which have become God, instead of each one realizing; I am God as the living word and I create in every moment, with every breath with each word creating and forming sentences as a statement of who I am through communication, sharing and self-expression.”

                                                                                             Osho [1]

“Though we’ve entered a phase within process wherein we’ll be stopping ourselves – through the experience of ourselves in and as manifested consequence – this consequence is not a ‘payment for deeds done or words spoken in the past’ from the perspective of ‘deserved revenge’, but simply to realize, simply to see – that there has been and is consequences to what has been accepted and allowed within each one’s actions and words towards self and another as self and another as self as within the manifested expression as this world/reality as nature, the animal kingdom and water.”

– Lao Tzu through the Interdimensional Portal [4]

“Self forgiveness and self corrective action must stand as one and equal as you in and as you – it’s the point of establishing oneness and equality in self expression here as you. Because when self forgiveness is applied absolutely, self honesty will emerge and within self honesty – you will absolutely live the self correction of and as that which you’ve self realized in self forgiveness – as what and how you must change and transform you in and as how you live and speak in self expression here as and while you participate in and as this world.” [4]

Self-Forgiveness is the application and I am the expression that lives it wherein I start taking Self-Responsibility for my creation as one and equal and within this, learning from scratch in humbleness how to become the living word as what I see and realize is what life in equality can be for all.

Cites

[1]Osho. “I am the living word in every moment.” Desteni. 22/03/2007. Web. 24 Feb 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/osho-i-am-the-living-word-in-every-moment>.

[2]Swami Muktananda. “In the beginning was the word and the word was God and the word was with God.”Desteni. 04/10/2007. Web. 24 Feb 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/swami-muktananda-in-the-beginning-was-the-word-and-the-word-was-god-and-the-word-was-with-god>.

[3]Poolman, Bernard. “I, the living word.” Desteni. 04/07/2007. Web. 24 Feb 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/bernard-poolman-i-the-living-word>.

[4]Tzu, Lao. “Manifested Consequence.” Desteni. N.p., 15/08/2008. Web. 24 Feb 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/manifested-consequence-lao-tzu>.

Video Support:

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