106. Abundance = Elitist Positive Experience

 

Creating a positive experience upon opening a cabinet with lots of food stored as a synonym of care and love by parents. This became a ‘trait’ in itself wherein my logic worked as follows: ‘because my father cares for us, he buys us lots of food and ensures we never run out of certain products, which is how he demonstrates that he is always thinking about what is best for us’ – Yet I never took into consideration if there were any other motives to do that, if there were other reasons such as scarcity or even lacking  enough money in the future wherein the excess of items in stock were more of a food bank for emergency situations. The reasons may vary, however one thing is certain: such positive experience can only be achieved if we have enough money to buy food and to buy More than is immediately required to consume.

This is how I debunk parental care to an opportunity that only a few can provide their children with, as well as seeing how in an Equal Money System world, there will be no need to create a positive experience and binding force between family members out of being able to provide with the necessary means to live, as this will be a given right for all.

 

Self Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider that having enough food in stock at home bought by my father is a synonym of care, wherein I have associated the fact that he always ensures to have enough food in stock as an efficient-point, a preventive type of personality trait that I associated as something positive, without realizing that having food in stock is actually stemming from the fear of not having enough food/ not having enough supplies in any given moment, which is how I learned how to be preventive out of fear only.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to define my father’s efficiency according to ‘being able to always provide us food and never experiencing a lack of something,’ which is only a trait available and dependent on money itself – not the person.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience a form of admiration and pride when being able to open up our food cabinet and always finding several milks in stock, which I then took as an example for me to follow, wherein having ‘more than enough’ is seen as a synonym of being ‘preventive’ and ‘efficient’ which is something that my father would take pride on, and that I accepted as a genuine point to consider implementing as myself, until I realize that the starting point of it was fear of ending up with no food/ supplies – and also it is to realize how such ‘food in stock’ can only be a reality if there is enough money to buy more than what is currently required – wherein every time that I would find out there is no more than 1 item in stock, I would associated it with being in any form of crisis or financial trouble, just because of how I got so used to seeing more than enough in our food cabinets as a positive experience, wherein the negative as ‘not seeing more than 1’ was immediately a ‘red flag’ as an indication that there was something wrong going on in our economy.

 

I realize that this is plainly an elitist type of association since a couple of billion people in this world cannot possibly even fathom what it would be like to acquire more food than the one required in the moment, nor would it be even possible to have money to do so on a regular basis – hence I see how I had lived in a small secured bubble wherein I took food for granted and as a synonym of care such as ‘my father cares for us because he brings food to the table,’ but never questioning why my father was able to do that, but many other beings in this world were simply not able to do that, as there are billions deliberately left out of the ‘world system loop’ wherein money is not something that they have any access to – hence food, shelter, clothing and basic services come to them only as a rarity just because of everything else being secured within a minority in this world which includes ourselves – and within that, it is to see how we even dare to create a positive experience out of having enough good in your storage/ food cabinet, without even stopping for a moment to see if every single being on Earth is equally capable and able to have access to feed their children properly, if they have access to money itself in order to buy food and anything else required to live.

 

Thus I see that all the values I have created within my life and throughout the interactions with our basic sustenance within this world system, have been based upon me taking for granted the ability to have money, the ability to buy food and even the ability to choose what to eat, which is a rather elitist move that is not readily given to all beings equally.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate having enough food in stock as ‘feeling secure and cared for’ wherein I would start mimicking this attitudes of having plenty in stock in order to feel secure and that I was caring for myself, not realizing this is essentially done in fear of ending up with no food in the moment, wherein buying milk became a compulsory act until I realized what I was doing and how in a very clear though in ‘the back of my head,’ there was fear of something suddenly emerging in our reality and me feeling secure because at least I would have something to eat.

 

I realize that there are billions that have no possibility to even have a regular access to food, nor can they even dream about being able to store food somewhere and many do not even have a place to live. Thus I see and realize how I have kept myself in this small bubble wherein I would only seek to satisfy my needs, and forget about the world, which is how we stand for the Equal Money System to ensure that all beings can be equally cared for, without having to fear running out of something, not having enough money to feed ourselves the next day and also stop all the relationships of specialness and authority that we have built toward other beings in order to secure our own survival, which is what has created this entire system of self interest covered up and justified with familial bonds in the name of ‘love’ and ‘care,’ when it is in fact just associations that work like investments wherein you are either a winner or a loser according to the amount of money you are able to have in this world-system game.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a positive experience of just seeing that no matter if I empty this cereal box, there is another one ready to be opened by me as ‘my father bought it to me because he cares for me’ which is how I developed this positive attitude toward my father based on his ability to provide food for us and pay for our education, which is an example of how money defines our relationships toward people, often polarizing such relationships if the other parent is not as supportive financially which was then considered in my mind as ‘not caring enough for me,’ simply because of not being contributing in a physical manner as money toward the household.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to even at times get annoyed by me having to thank my father for everything he had bought us to eat and our personal care, wherein I would start backchatting the point of him sharing with us what he had bought us and how I judged him for boasting on what he had bought in order for us to feel ‘in debt’ with him, which was only my own backchat about it, never really considering what was enabling that entire scenario in the first place besides asking whether I was experiencing myself in a positive or negative manner.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate provision of food/ basic needs as ‘parental love and care,’ wherein I accepted the fact that I did not communicate that much with my father, but would always be physically supported by him with what I required to live- hence developing a positive attitude toward my father, which then turned into a polarity point in relation to how I would experience myself with my mother that would provide that point of communication but no financial support – hence me silently judging her as ‘less than’ because she would not contribute with money to our household.

 

Within this, I see, realize and understand how I went on creating my own value-systems according to what I deemed of value – such as products/ food/ personal care items/ education that I would get from my father, and how a point of interaction would be valued as also some type of asset that was ‘less worthy’ because there was no buying or consuming involved – which is how and why I had been brainwashed to only consider that which can be bought as something of value, just because of having to pay for such point of identification as self and it already indicating something more ‘challenging’ that I could call ‘love’ as I learned that in order to live = you must strive to make a living, and if someone cares enough for you = they will walk such a life-strive and bring food, which is what became a measuring point within me toward myself and as a future projection of how I wanted to lead my life: always having more than one and enough in stock in order to be secure and ‘feel cared for’/ provide care for others as well, without realizing it was mostly stemming out of fear.

 

 

Self Corrective Statements:

When and as I see myself feeling compelled to say ‘thank you’ to a repetition of items that have been bought in order to fulfill the character of ‘the provider’ within my father and myself; I stop and breathe – I realize that when I am compromising myself in any way, I must stop for a moment to assess what it is that I am in fact complying to as a positive experience that I am ‘grateful for,’ and how these seemingly positive reputation that we have and hold toward one based on complying each one’s positive character is the actual veil that does not allow ourselves to question such moments in the context of reality, but just comply to say ‘oh thank you!’ and feel cared for, loved and considered because of someone buying you food to eat, which is a relationship of convenience that can only exist as a form of control over others in order to become an authority over one’s life.

 

When and as I see myself associating having enough food in stock as something positive that I should be happy and feel that I am being cared for, I stop and I breathe – I realize that this is only possible within the context of living in a family wherein there is enough money to buy food, to buy more than the necessary in order to keep it in stock as a preventive measure, without realizing that prevention in this case is only available because of money – thus realizing how we have separated ourselves from what is here to such an extent that our relationships our built according to how we are able to give to ourselves the necessary to live from the moment we emerge into this reality, which proves that we cannot possibly walk this system without understanding how our very ‘loved ones’ are in fact systematic positions that have ensured we as children learn ‘who the authority is’ based on the ability to provide the necessary food / resources to live and how whenever we do not get these basic points, we retaliate against parents or custodians and use such resentment as a way to victimize ourselves for not having proper support – when in fact such support should not be bound to a family-structure only, but as an individual process of self-support in self-honesty that we can externalize as an overall system of unconditional support such as the Equal Money system wherein no one will be bound to another to get access to the necessary resources to live, but will simply observe that everyone is getting enough to eat and live as a living right on Earth.

 

When and as I see myself creating a positive experience out of buying something, consuming or keeping in stock, I stop and I breathe – I first ensure that I am not buying such product out of fear but only as self-support and in moderate quantities wherein I can see that fear is not being the directive principle of my consumption habits, but is only common sensical according to the ability we have of going to as shop and buying more if required, without realizing how such ‘simple action’ is not an opportunity for billions on Earth.

 

When and as I see myself feeling compelled to say ‘thank you’ to my father or anyone else buying stuff for me, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am only wanting to create a point of thankfulness as an awareness of what I am being provided with, without realizing that such provision is only available for those with money and how then all the perceived ‘care’ and ‘love’ and ‘concern’ is in fact covering up all possible fears of not having enough food to feed the children, which is a rather practical point to consider, ensuring no fear, no backchat is existent within the acquisition of such products being only a habit and a paternal-pattern that I had created as a point to emulate for myself in my life, as I see and realize how I had created such a positive attitude out of getting all these products for us to consume and eat, which was to me like a synonym of love and care.

 

When and as I see myself seeing food in stock as a positive thing in my reality, I stop and I breathe – I realize that this is only able to exist if we have enough money to do so, thus I support myself to make of such experience of being cared for not something bound to parents and money, but a living certainty, a living right that is able to be provided for all beings equally which is how and why in the equal money system, though parents receiving unconditional financial support, there will be more time to educate themselves to become parents and as such ensure that no emotional/ feeling bounds are created from the role that has been taken of the parents as ‘providers of life,’ but instead walk as equals with children only ensuring that proper nutrition, proper care and physical considerations are implemented in the living space, once that money is no longer a limitation for the being to have a dignified living, and how it is important to allow parents to see how a child is not a load to the parent, but only an extension of self that can be equally walked-with as the realization that we can support each other to Live instead of living to build each other’s ego and system-status as parents/ children in hierarchical levels.

 

I see and realize how money has determined my positive experience toward my parents – and my father specifically – in relation to being able to provide the necessary means and education for me to have a dignified living –whereas if I had not been supported with these things, I would have had a negative experience, which proves how money determines even our familial interactions and relationships as no being is currently an alien to how the world system works in terms of having money or not to live

 

I commit myself to establish the Equal Money System as a means to ensure that no being is bound to another through a monetary-binding force creating a dependence toward one another in a hierarchical mode – but instead, all beings being equally supported learn what it is that we can actually get to recognize and appreciate of one another out of the monetary loop, but instead consider how we can support each other to develop better ways to live and interact in a world wherein survival is no longer a “living-mode” but life and living is the point then explored, shaped and sculpted as we go learning how to be parents, children and inhabitants in the world where equality is the living principle, which in itself points out major shifts in how families currently exist and are bound as. Parents will become living examples of what we are here to be and do instead of becoming the bosses of children dictating their every word and every say through the imposition of authority as a relationship of need through and by money as it currently exists.

 

Support the Equal Money System as this is the only way that we will ensure each other are no longer subject to have a positive or negative life experience with regards to money, but money is instead a given-living-right, leaving enough time to focus on our living skills, communication abilities and the development of human expression as a means to ensure that no being is left behind in their ability to live and express in/ as their utmost potential, as this is what we see and realize is what’s best for all in Equality.

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105. Having a Good Time is defined by MONEY

94. In-Sin–Irate: Anger Issues

Have we stopped ourselves to consider in what way we gnaw and eat up our very physical body the moment that we participate in anger or any other emotion/ feeling experience? If we were really aware of ourselves as our human physical body, we would be aware of how the very thoughts we have consume our physicality in order to create such emotion or feeling in any given moment – we never dare to question how such ENERGETIC experiences are created, while even the name is indicating obviously: something must be consumed in order to fuel such experiences. Yet, we never looked into ourselves and only decided to accept and allowed energetic experiences as ‘who we are’ – because: ‘oh I am this that I experience in my body, I must act on it’ – and never ever questioning or even being able to fully see and realize what we are participating in the moment that we react in one single split of a second toward another in an emotion or feeling. One single shift from being here as breath and we can know: we’re mind possessed.

 

Anger

incinerate
n verb destroy (something, especially waste material) by burning

Yesterday I went out for my walk earlier than usual due to the storms that have been going on here. When I was already on my way back, I first saw this young male walking with a seemingly desperate and rather ‘uncontrollable’ dog – and I saw he had a wooden stick with him – a thick branch to be precise – and I immediately reacted to that within the realization that he would hit the dog with it, but I could not pull out the usual burning anger that I would experience before, it was just like paralyzing inside myself  in the moment and I simply started following them based on thoughts like ‘this is unacceptable/ I must do something about this/ what can I possibly do?’ I walked a bit quicker in order to be right behind him, then I saw that other three males – same age – were handling one dog each with the same behavioral characteristics: angry dogs barking at all dogs in the neighborhood, being seemingly uncontrollable – each one of the males had a similar thick branch on the other hand – I could not compute in that moment because I was only ‘making up my mind’ trying to figure out why the first dog I had seen seemed so uncontrollable and angry, having to be hit that way to behave.

 

I started deliberately walking right behind the four of them, I went into a point of possession wherein I wanted to pull out the anger that would usually drive me in the past to go and shout or even wanting to hit them – but I couldn’t. I ‘felt powerless’ but not in an emotional way, like actually having no ability to ‘pull out the anger’ I was used to experiencing in such moments/ events. I realized that it was not appropriate to go and shout at them because they were 4 males, with 4 angry dogs, with 4 thick branches and I was alone.

 

In a way within my mind, yet it didn’t even seem like thinking, I wanted to curse them to death – and I couldn’t. I could not even pull out some hatred. It was fascinating to see this unfolding, like slow camera movement where Marlen would want to just beat them to death in my mind with words or even pictures, and I couldn’t. Anyways, so as I approached them through walking behind them, I could just utter the following words in the moment – ‘Is this why you have your dog for? To hit him?’ – And obviously the young man didn’t bother at all, I was not grasping the whole picture in that moment  – and as I walked right behind the four of them I approached the second one and told him ‘Is this what you have your dog for? TO hit him? – and I managed to pull out some other words – ‘Would you want to be hit the same way you do onto him?’ and he just didn’t reply, he only made a gesture of ‘I couldn’t care less/ maybe I’d like to’ – So, there was no answer obviously. I realized it was pointless to continue doing anything about it.

 

Then I realized what they actually were as the whole picture: people that train dogs for dog fights – hence the attitude of the dogs and the males with the wooden sticks with them. It is their “job.”

 

The point here is that I wanted to be as angry as I could, I was wanting to just burst out in absolute anger toward them in that moment, and I couldn’t – and this strangely so felt like I was powerless = not moving by energy inside – however it was more of a concrete experience inside me that I could not even direct some ‘angry thoughts’ toward them.  I followed them until the corner where they went straight ahead, and I just stood there on the corner watching them and all I could think of is breathe – breathe – breathe – breathe – and so I did. After a couple of minutes of just deliberately standing there to see where they would go up to, I realized that there was no point in continuing that, so I turned to the right and followed my way back home.

 

In the past – and I’m talking about 4 years ago when I started becoming aware of the abuse in this world – I witnessed similar events and I remember becoming like a tornado inside me, filled with rage that I used as a fuel to approach the man that was dragging the dog on the street – I told this story in a video minute 3:49 – and I would react in boiling anger, ready to just torture another with my anger there, ready to shout and scream – and this time, I could not do that, even though a part of me wanted to. Another point is that I kept myself  grounded wherein, even in the moment that I approached the two males that I managed to talk to them,  I was just like a rock not really speaking in an  irate manner, even though I wanted to.

 

This is to reveal how out of habit, I would have wanted to make an entire drama out of the situation, shouting or getting myself ‘into trouble’ just for the sake of ‘making them see’ – but as I saw their reactions when I asked them the questions, I knew that I had to stop and not go any further.

 

So, the word that came up is ‘incinerate’ which sounds like in-sin-irate and how I had a moment there wherein I actually ‘wanted’ to be angry, me as the mind wanted to just bring up anger and lash out onto them and I couldn’t. Which is irrational because I knew beforehand ‘not to react’ but again looking at the event happening in front of me is more of a trigger point to face self-honesty to.

 

I was talking about this type of situations two days ago, and I myself had suggested not to intervene in such moments of witnessing abuse onto others – children, animals – as we do not know how they would react – and I was seeing with my eyes how it was 4 males, 4 dogs, wooden sticks – I really went too far to even approach them. So, to explain the point: ‘I ‘felt’ like I had to go and speak up to them however I felt like in an entire possession in that moment when I drove myself to speak to them. It was not directed by some churning inside me as in the past, but I did speak up to them.

 

I have explained before how I would deal with extensive anger toward everything and everyone – and I’ve certainly ‘slowed down’ in that, to the point wherein I cannot describe if what I did experience yesterday was anger, because I didn’t ‘feel it’ as the usual energetic experience – however, the realization here is:

 

– I cannot place myself in such situations of absolute risk just to let people know what they already know they are doing in the moment – even more so when seeing the whole picture and the reason behind such actions: dog fights = money/ business/ males getting paid to take care of the dogs = they won’t stop doing it as it is their job

 

– My reaction was based on thinking – meaning that I assessed the situation according to what I thought was ‘right’ to do in the moment, even if I was expecting myself to suddenly get absolutely and extremely angry, I couldn’t – which was a point of being grounded to realize that I could not possibly take the point further than approaching them with simple questions.

 

– I also directed myself to realize in that moment that If I witnessed the entire abuse that goes on in the world, I would have incinerated myself due to/ because of reacting to it all – we cannot possibly ‘make a change’ to a chain of events and situations wherein money is being the driving point, wherein the consideration of animals as ‘less than humans’ is a culturally ingrained fuckup for ages in humanity – I cannot stop what is currently being experienced by billions – I can only stop myself.

 

– I realize that in situations like that on the street, I had reacted in extreme anger wherein the usual desire is to just shout and flip the finger to them, as if that could ‘offend them’ or take them to a realization, without seeing that their actions are in essence already proof of what they are willing to do because of money, and how I have no context in any way whatsoever within the entire situation – but only wanting to react based on the obvious point of abuse, which is a constant point in our entire reality. Thus I see that I partake obviously in such point of abuse by simply accepting and allowing myself to exist within the current world that we are in the way it is, and not doing a thing about it – until now that we are beginning to STOP ourselves from being the very perpetuators of the same fighting/ battling eternal separation system that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become.

 

– I realize that I cannot expose myself that way, meaning – I walk alone, I am alone and I cannot possibly confront others that are clearly more, with ‘tools’ that could be harmful as well as the dogs themselves that seemed angry as hell. This is what we have become, using dogs to fight to satisfy some human being’s desire to see dogs attacking each other to fuel some mind mechanism that is pleasured when seeing wrestling, fighting – thus who I am within it all? Seeing where and how I am fighting myself, or wanting to fight others in the name of ‘doing something right,’ without taking into consideration the actual chain of events and consequences that could ensue from this point of ‘following my mind’ in such moments.

 

– I also realized that I had been blind when I watched the movie ‘Amores Perros’ which depicts that dog-fight business here in Mexico City, I somehow managed to just ‘numb it out’ as part of some ‘movie’ as if it was not real or in some alternate reality. I see how I would see movies without taking into consideration that such events DO take place, do happen and are as real as seeing those dogs ‘going out for a walk’ and having to be hit in order to behave, due to how they have been trained by the sick twisted human mind that solaces is seeing fights and dare to even gamble upon winners. This I fuel and exist as every time I seek to win and ‘win’ something, get a positive kick out of anything that I can witness and consequently experience as an energetic movement within me.

 

Fighting

I fought myself in that moment: from wanting to react and another ‘part’ of me – the real me – remaining just like a rock, I experienced like this cement inside me where I could not even think – it’s like when you are in the bottom of a pool and  you know that you could drown yet, you cannot possibly just move up to reach for air. I am describing what I experienced in that moment which I have also experienced as a child in terms of realizing I am drowning but not being able to move – so, the experience was not the usual ‘angry mode’ but instead it maybe was petrification – yet at the same time it didn’t feel like anything.

I also realize that if I had gone out at the same time I usually do, I would not have witnessed that, which means that it doesn’t matter if I’m present or not: those dogs exist, people that train them to fight exist, they will continue whether I witness that or not – I realize that any reaction is in fact stemming from my inherent desire – that certainly has mellowed down – to point out the abuse to others, instead of even realizing how the abuse is first onto me because of having the actual desire to be angry, to ‘burst up in flames’ – which is how I see that the word incinerate makes sense: I had not ever considered the ‘who I am’ in anger, and I had never considered the detrimental effects of such energetic experience of anger on my body.

 

I have written about the memory of me as a child becoming extremely angry, to the point where I feel my entire body just having like a ‘chill’ from how much I would put myself in such anger trance, and that’s when my parents would offend me ‘You are fucking crazy!’ and just leaving me in the room,  fueling that anger even more because of them judging to what extent I would lead a single point of anger into an actual anger possession. Hearing them cursing at me for fueling my anger made me even more angry.

 

And I remember the stories my mother would say about my father, picking up fights with people just because of going past a red light or something – he used to carry these sticks on the car ‘just in case’ something would happen – I took it as normal, and they always wanted me to carry some thick cable that I could hit someone with in case they wanted to do something onto me. I always refused.

 

 

Stepping out of the anger possession

Whenever I would go out of the possession when I was a child, after spending  a long time crying and fueling that experience of anger wherein the totality of my body would go into a paralysis almost, even just now as I write it I can experience the same thing, the tickling as pins and needles on my left arm. Even as  a child, I would fear dying in such moments – my mother would say to me that my entire face could be paralyzed if I continued boiling up with such anger – and so I would fear dying, I would fear ending up with a ‘dry half face’ because of anger – and that’s when I would slow down and just cry not even because of whatever reason I have had to get angry in the first place, but because of becoming aware of how my body had suffered in that moment of anger possession. I would brace myself and feel sad/ sorry and even worse for what I had put myself through.

 

It was just like vomiting. When I was a child and I was sick and had to puke, I would keep my eyes open and cry throughout the whole thing – I would then notice that the pores of my cheeks had burst, I would feel so bad for having damaged my body that way that I always feared having to puke again. One of the reasons why I stopped drinking was when puking was ‘the way to stop the drunkenness’ and me becoming absolutely disgusted of myself for having to do that. The ‘peak point’ was when I had to puke and I cannot even remember where I did it/ or don’t want to remember. I stopped, I could not take myself any further than that – besides waking up with bumps on my head and other undisclosed bruises.

 

Self abuse – no different to becoming angry – same experience, same pain felt after the energetic possession: the body took it all and, have I ever asked forgiveness for my body for such things? No.

 

I one way I am ‘glad’ I was able to stop myself most of the times before going into absolute rage, however seeing this potential in me – which is linked to thoughts related to killing/ hitting/ deliberately harming others that I see are ‘abusing’ was never realized as me following the threat of abuse even in my own mind. I guess that’s why and how I would ‘resonate’ with a clockwork orange in a way, and the entire experience that I had yesterday I later on assessed as the similar experience that Alex had when he cold no longer be violent against others – he would get sick, I just got absolutely ‘blank’ with no ability to do anything else than that.

 

I had taken for granted these surges of anger as a child, I remember them very well yet when I was pointed out that I had a lot of anger I went into a ‘what? no way!’ denial state, without daring to look inside myself and find the real evil justified by ‘seeing evil’ in others’ which became – as I have mentioned before as well – a thinking pattern of ‘humanity is evil’ and as such, shaping, molding my entire beingness to be in a ‘military’ way, like a soldier that is ready to combat any point of attack. And this is precisely being explained in Heaven’s Journey to Life blog, specifically the link I’ll leave below, and so I have just written out the whole point with several links to the past  up until the experience at the moment.

 

One single event can become the mirror we have not dared to look ourselves into, because we knew before hand we do not want to see what is reflected on it, yet it is ourselves.

 

The physical consequences after this was pain on my left foot  because of how I had a struggle with ‘my expression’ and the physical point of it in the moment – my mind wanting to go bezerk and the other me here stability pulling myself like cement on the ground. The trick is to keep breathing at all times. Looking back at the entire situation, It was ‘cool’ to face the point from the perspective of being able to face such ingrained inner-experiences with regards to anger. However, it is plain obvious that the cause of the anger won’t be solved in one go: Animals being abused by humans is the most despicable thing that we can do along any other moment wherein we abuse ourselves in the name of reacting to such abuse as well.

 

I will continue tomorrow with the Self Forgiveness points.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry, petrified at the abuse of this world without realizing that participating in anger only supports my own gnawing as physical flesh and that in no way does it support LIFE

 

“Animals are driven to extinction as they DO NOT feature in the Consciousness of Humans as Equals as Life-Forms”  – Bernard Poolman *

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69. Change is in the Meaning of Money

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that changing the monetary system implies a Change in the Meaning/ Signification of the word ‘Money’ itself, wherein the sign is no longer passed on from generation to generation as the medium of exchange in the form of coins, bills and banknotes based on rules and regulations imposed by a minority that Makes the money/ decides How it is distributed/ given and traded, and instead realize that for an actual Social, Political change we require an Economic change wherein we as human beings agree that the ‘balance’ required in money at the moment to stop the Inequality is through Equalizing Money to a physical tangible reality and principle, which is Life in Equality.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the current implications of the meaning/signification of money in our societies is implying suffering, abuse, power, over consumption, division of classes, greed, envy, comparison, competition, success as a positive quality, survivalism amongst any other form of separation that stems from the basic realization that: not everyone in the world has access to this ‘means of exchange’ as money – which implies that not everyone is able to give/ receive that which is required to live, signifying that we have accepted the ‘money tradition’ as a word/ meaning that is signifying the enslavement of man to an arbitrarily made system that is only benefitting a few, while the majority does not get to see ‘the light’ as money as energy/ power to acquire that which is needed to live. Furthermore, instilling the desire for ‘More’ within those that have the basics to live – middle class – but learn to not be satisfied with the necessary as the glorified ‘example’ of the ‘wealthy’ implies that one can get to have all that power as well, wherein the ‘rich and famous’ become just like a carrot on a stick that keeps everyone circling around/ working/ doing all that is possible in order to someday ‘attain’ that amount of wealth as a synonym of protection, happiness, ultimate satisfaction, and ‘worth’ completely oblivious to the actual abuse that goes on with the mere acceptance of money as a separate meaning from ourselves as Life, which implies by default that abuse is existent in its meaning over Life.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the basic required shift and change in the meaning of money can be established as a social convention based on the firm-ground and principle of Life in Equality, wherein All can be equally benefited by such change/ shift within the relationship we have with money itself: from a meaning of power that is only achieved through work – for the majority – or inheritance,  to a readily given tool as a means of giving and receiving equal access and distribution of the resources of the Earth that we use for consumption and construction of our society, of which its members must equally stand – one by one – as the understanding of what giving and receiving as Equals means: Equal-Money will be the consequence and outflow of us deciding and agreeing in a New Meaning to Money which can benefit All in an Equal-way, which implies that the relationship between the human and money won’t be that of power, lack, desire/ lust as greed and a constant survivalism to get it, but will become an Equal Living Word as a simple tool to manage resources and ensure everyone is equally supported, by mere virtue of being a living being in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to perpetuate an unspoken social convention over money as a current means of control of the Earth’s resources distribution, which implies that it is in our absolute power and ability to re-unite again to agree that within the principle of one man, one vote, we can establish a new system that can benefit all beings Equally, wherein those in the elite and those starving are finally equalized by having equal power of acquisition along with the rest of humanity, which will dissolve the eternal class-struggle and avoid the need to ‘take down the power’ by force/ revolutions/ battles/ wars – I see and realize that through giving a New Meaning to Money as an equally give-distributed tool, I can prevent a tumultuous process of shift/ change within the monetary system, as I see and realize that wars, revolutions and coup d’état only separate the individuals within a society further, which is precisely why Equal Money System is the most pacific way in which we can all agree to give to each other as we want to receive the right to Live a dignified living, without resorting to further violence, death, crimes and revolting in spitefulness, but instead recognize our actual Neighborism  if we agree to Live as Equals.

 

I realize that the responsibility for how money currently exists resides in each and every single person that has accepted the meaning of ‘money’ as it currently exists in absolute means of separation, division, power and competition, which implies that the solution will also mean a new social convention to give a New Meaning to Money that will imply a process of change through Education, just like learning a New Word and its Meaning, which must be first lived within the individual as the realization of who and what we are as Life is Equal and One = hence, making of money the representation of that realization made a system that is socially agreed upon through democratic means, as the real power that each one hold by virtue of being a participant within society as part of the entire ecosystem as the Earth.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that Equal-Money becomes an imposition as a new meaning to Money-itself, without realizing that fear is only a means of control that have kept us believing that the meaning/ value of money could not be changed/ transformed/ shifted in its functionality, which implies that we cannot fear implementing a Living Principle that is and will benefit All beings equally.

 

I realize that we have kept ourselves living in a generational inertia, never questioning money and its meaning, but simply accepting it ‘as is,’ which implies that it is now that more and more people are being affected and directly influenced by the inequality inherently schemed as Money at the moment, that we start questioning how money was created, when/ how did we accept this, which is the actual imposition and forced-acceptance that we all complied-to by the very first moment that we used money in our lives without further questioning its existence and the ‘rules’ behind it.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the ‘free choice’ that is implied in the arbitrary meaning of Money at the moment, was not established and promulgated in the best interest of all, but only considering the benefit of those that made the rules of its meaning in the first place, which means that we have followed the ‘tradition’ of such meaning as a ‘word of god’ without really questioning how come we have delegated the same abusive system from generation to generation without pondering the need for a change in its meaning and power over life itself.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that Money is a mere abstraction/ concept, and Not a full sign as a direct meaning of  what Money should be as linked to a physical-tangible object/ part of the physical world – but instead accepting its ‘value’ within the belief of ‘power’ in an abstract form represented by metal, paper, coins with no physical relationship to an actual physicality of/as life itself in this world, but became a meaning to ‘power’ as the ability to simply deny / allow the access of money to other beings, the quantity of it and the rules within which it would function-as, implying that it is Not a meaning/signification that is Real in any way whatsoever, but a socially deliberately ‘flawed’ convention representing the absolute separation of humanity toward the world itself and each other, creating the basis of Inequality by and through a single meaning in separation of ourselves as Equals as Life.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that money in itself as paper, bank notes, plastic, metals cannot in any way be a ‘meaning of power’ in itself, it is the social convention as a Belief-System that we have agreed upon that decides how it works,  which reduces money to a psychological object rather than an actual meaning in function of the physical reality as the tangible resources that can be given/ exchanged with one another – this means that the word ‘wealth’ is the solidification of this intangible ‘power’ above others as a mere social-convention/ belief-system that is only made real through the acceptance of such money having the ability to buy/ consume all that which the value of such money is accepted and allowed to have/‘mean,’ which is, once again, a mere belief-system wherein there are no real values attached to the physical reality, but are all man-made conventions/beliefs. H

Hence, I realize that the problem and solution resides within the ability of us as humanity coming together to create a New Agreement as a New Constitution to declare the value of Money as Life, as a tool to support each other as equals with no ability to generate the illusion of profit/ gain/ power over others as ‘wealth’ any longer.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize how we have conditioned and controlled ourselves through the acceptance of habit and tradition as a pattern followed to perpetuate a system of abuse, wherein we only came to understand the effect of having/ not having money once we experience the detrimental consequences as being poor, middle class or positive consequences as being wealthy/rich as the basic conditioning within a human being’s life, without first asking how it is that such Inequality is able to be accepted as ‘normal’ in our world-system.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that we are all one and equal as part of this physical world – and that money as words became the separators between ourselves as life through the imposition of meaning/ value as worth that can be more or less according to a social convention/ belief-system that was not based upon Life in Equality, which means that we only gave and acquired such meanings through establishing comparison, differentiating one from another as separate entities that could be then assessed as being ‘more’ or ‘less’ than others, which implies an obvious problem of Meaning and Signification within words themselves and Money as a a product of such social conventions/ belief-system in separation of the consideration/ value of ourselves being one and equal as Life. Within this

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the ‘injury’/ split/ incision manifested within this world system as and through Money stems from the very decision of giving words a particular meaning and value within a make-believe system called ‘social convention’ where not every single being was able to vote upon the meaning/ value and worth of words, which implies that the most common sensical way of establishing a new system, a definitive reform in the system stands within the agreement of giving to each other that which is best for all, as the realization that it is only through arbitrarily placed separations as words/ values upon Life itself that we came to create the current system that we are existing as and suffering the consequences of, wherein we have made ourselves subject to our own imposed cages as money upon life itself that is unconditionally given by the Earth as part of who we are in this same Ecosystem.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the substance of and as Life is here indistinctly, however we have as words and language created separate forms of it as different meanings that acquire ‘different values’ according to the relationships that we form with it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that value in itself is but a consideration given to things/ people/ the environment in separation of ourselves, which becomes a meaning of worth as more or less than in a fixed-system as a social convention to agree that some things are ‘more’ than others, and in that simple and primordial separation, accepting money as a ‘moreness’ and ‘lack’ at the same time, which is how and why money is a function of abuse.

 

I commit myself to establish the New meaning and signification of Money as the correspondence between the word Money/ Equal-Money to Life itself, as the physicality and substantiality that is here as the Earth’s resources that can be given and obtained in equal agreement and equal availability for All participants within this ecosystem of Earth, which implies that Money in itself has no power other than the ability to be a counting tool to administrate the resources, the provision of services and any other means of giving and receiving in equal terms. This is then establishing the real meaning of Economics as the administration/ management of the house’s resources/Earth’s resources, which is an absolute physical logistical processes and Not schemes to make more profit/ wealth based on unsubstantiated values as abstract meanings Over life itself.

(Read the blog an Economist’s Journey to Life for further support.)

 

I commit myself to equalize the signification and value of Money as one and equal as Life, as the value implying the relationships established between human beings as the social agreement and understanding that we had created a distinction/ separation and differentiation from the one and only real value that is Life itself, which will have to be equally extended to all words, concepts an aspects in our reality wherein we no longer create separation through/ as words that can imply a ‘moreness’ or ‘lesser’ value of things/ people/ the environment itself, but it is all turned into a simple tool to communicate, just as we communicate using words that must be then Equalized as who we are, as actual Living Words that can stand within the new Equal-Money System as the Equal-Value of Life System where the relationships that we establish with one another, can only be interdependent and symbiotic in nature – just like an actual social organism that is able to distribute its resources in an equal way, learning from the functioning of our own physical body that maintains the homeostasis of the organism in place through ensuring that all parts are equally supported with the nutrients required to Live.

 

I commit myself to explain that the difference we agreed to impose upon things and ourselves is a mere linguistic ‘problem’ as meaning/ signification that Must be re-evaluated within the consideration of the current consequences that such ‘flaw’ in the meaning of Money itself and the relationships we have created toward it/ as-it, have manifested a world in absolute separation, where only constant survival and competition is keeping the system alive, as that seeking for ‘more’ as an ideal of fulfillment, without realizing that such fulfillment could be actually readily given at birth by mere virtue of being alive in this world, and that it only takes a social convention and agreement to establish a New Monetary System based upon Life in Equality as the one and only value given to All as the realization of who and what we are as One and Equals as Life.

 

This means that Language in itself will cease to only be a ‘form’ imposed onto life, and instead become an actual Substance as each one of us realize, see and understand the separation that we have created within our world and reality through and as words – wherein we recognize that we are all made of the same substance that is Life itself, and that all words must be equalized as such realization – wherein Living Words implies recognizing the substance of who and what we are as One and equal in every single sound/ word that we express as a constant living-application/ externalization and expression of ourselves as Life.

 

For that, it is an entire process of Re-Education now that we see that the key to change ourselves and our reality exists and resides in the introspection, realization and investigation of who we are as words and how we have to equalize ourselves as such words within the principle of what’s best for all life to Live as Words that are in support of the new meaning and function of Money as Equal-Money = Life in Equality and Oneness.

 

Equal Money System 

Desteni

 

We are a group of people walking a process to redefine words as Life through a process of Self-Correction that entails All Aspects of our lives – where no part is more or less important to review, but equally important as the understanding that this world and reality is the consequential outflow of the separation as words we have ‘lived’ and perpetuated in our lives, and only now being reviewed to see and understand what it takes to Change the World beginning with Ourselves.

Read our blogs: Destonians and Journey to Life blogs 

 

Read the previous entries for the complete exploration of the separation created through and as the word Money

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  68. Money is a Hegemonic Language

• 67. Money = Function of Abuse

• 66. Holy Fetish: Money as Word of God

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  65. Treacherous System or Original Self-Deception?

 

Blogs that explain the Value/ Relationships created through/ as Money as the separation that exists as an energetic system, which is devaluing substance/life itself into meanings/ words/ relationships between each other that have placed a Cap on life itself.

Creation’s Journey to Life 

• Day 68: Relationship Dynamics – Part 3

• Day 67: Relationship Dynamics – Part 2

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  Day 66: Relationship Dynamics – Part 1
  

Heaven’s Journey to Life 

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  DAY 1: Who I Am as Money

  DAY 2: The Relationship between Energy and Money

  DAY 3: What does it Really Mean to be ‘Alive’?

  DAY 4: Who I Am as Money – continued

  DAY 5: Who I Am as Money – continued

  DAY 6: Who I Am as Money – continued

  DAY 7: What has ‘Life’ Become?

  DAY 8: How do we Create/Manifest ‘Who we Are’?

 

Bernard Poolman – FAQ Equal Money System – Science and Language