152. Human Race Embarrassment: Shame on Us

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use embarrassment as an emotion and thinking pattern to dissociate myself from that which I see and create an experience toward it in an attempt to separate myself from others and deny that ‘I am them as well,’ which has been a pattern throughout my life to do ‘everything I can’ to be unlinked to anyone that I have deemed as too embarrassing and barbaric to even realize they are a part of that which is here as humanity, the race of beings that I am also a part of.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an emotional experience toward the actions, thoughts, words and deeds of fellow human beings as points of abuse toward oneself/ another/ the animal kingdom/ the Earth itself, without realizing how with me thinking and judging ourselves as humanity I am in fact only reinforcing the same systematic abuse wherein ‘who we are’ is reduced to only knowledge and information that I have separated myself from as pictures, images, thoughts, attitudes, habits that we have diminished ourselves when acting out/ living through a limited ‘frame of reality’ that we have established as ‘who we are,’ daring to even compare/ rate/ value/ regard everyone and everything in separation of ourselves.

 

When and as  I see myself experiencing embarrassment upon viewing/ hearing/ reading/ witnessing a human beings’ actions and words in/ as a point of abuse toward oneself, I stop and I breathe. I realize that me judging another through my mind is an equally abusive point that in no way assists and supports the being to realize the point of separation that’s being created and acted upon through the dictatorship of the mind that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become.

 

I realize that as long as I continue reinforcing an experience toward witnessing/ viewing/ hearing/ getting to know of a point of abuse that we as human beings have perpetrated against fellow human beings, the animal kingdom and our reality, it means that I haven’t unconditionally let go/ forgiven myself for what I have accepted and allowed to exist as ourselves, as individuals  that have used the mind to separate ourselves further and further from the actuality of who we are, from any relationship of ourselves toward ourselves, fellow beings, as we can only exist within the mind-frame of embarrassment/ shame as judgment that can only exist if I also reduce myself to only being and becoming an emotional experience of embarrassments as ‘who I am’ in the moment.

Thus, I commit myself to stop supporting any form of judgment/backchat/ gossip about and toward any being that is acting out/ living a point of self-abuse, as I see and realize that me judging makes no difference to ‘them’ and instead, only reinforces ‘my’ individual perspective as a point of separation in the form of an experience created through thoughts in my mind of shame and embarrassment, which can only exist if one exists as thoughts, emotions and feelings to create an idea of myself being ‘correct’ as in being superior/ better than the other part that is being judged – I instead assist and support myself to self forgive the point of separation and walk as breath to ensure that I stop supporting any form of separation through assessing ‘who I am’ as the mind and instead, equalize myself as the physicality that is here through breathing.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand shame as a point that I can use as a way to see how unconditional self forgiveness is the point wherein I can absolutely let go of the judgment toward any and all parts that I have separated myself from and instead, assist and support myself to ensure stopping patterns of recrimination and inferiority exerted toward others within/ through thinking, which is in itself an activity that we have accepted and allowed as ‘normal’ without realizing that: as long as we think, here are not Here as the physical moment of breath and instead we’re only separating ourselves from each other as the actuality of who we really are.

(Read Heaven’s Journey To Life blog for more: Thought Designs – Introduction: DAY 152)

 

When and as I see myself existing as shame and embarrassment toward ourselves as human beings upon hearing, watching, witnessing or reading about the abuse that we have imposed and inflicted upon ourselves and this entire existence – I stop and I breathe – I realize the experiences of shame and embarrassment as ways to only care about ‘how I think others/ how I ‘feel’ about something and someone,’ which is only existent within Me at a thought level, which leads to further laxity toward our own thinking when viewing it as a ‘normal reaction upon abuse,’ and within this missing the actual point which is how through thinking we create our own possessions upon the physical as a continued form of self-abuse.

I realize that as long as I participate in any form of thinking and judging others in separation of myself, I am in fact not supporting them/ myself to realize a point of self-correction, but only deviate the point of responsibility that I hold toward myself as my own accepted and allowed participation in thoughts, feelings and emotions – thus

I commit myself to stop any emotional experience of embarrassment as an emotional experience created upon witnessing/ reading/ viewing a point of abuse toward oneself/ others in order to take responsibility for my own thoughts, my own participation in the mind as that is what I in fact am able to change/ direct and align to what is best for all. I realize that I cannot change another’s actions, thoughts, words, but I can only remain standing as an example of what is possible to be and become when we do not allow ourselves to be ‘driven’ by an experience in our minds and as such, unconditionally also let go of any point of judgment exerted toward others that triggered the experience within me, as I see and realize I am the starting point of such experience, not ‘them.’

 

Furthermore it is to realize how this embarrassment toward all the points we read in the news and in our day to day living experiences in reality when becoming aware of a point of abuse can instead be directed to ensure that we do not only remain as ‘victims’ and ‘judges’ of our reality, but instead take such points as demon.strations that we ensure we stop and take self responsibility for in any away within ourselves, as we see/ realize and understand that as long as we continue thinking, becoming emotional and creating further thoughts about something/ someone, we are only standing in an equal-manner to the mind possession/ point of abuse that is being judged; within this we can see how we as humanity tend to judge each other for the atrocities that are committed without understanding the source and origin of such abuse being one and the same within all individuals/ human beings that currently exist as the dissociation of the mind in relation to the physical, which once again brings the importance of getting to know ourselves as our mind, as the physical and as such, create a point of reference to see where and how we have separated ourselves from every part that is here through us ‘thinking’ reality instead of standing one and equal as it to actually see in fact and understand any point of abuse that is existent at the seemingly ‘innocent’ level of a thought.

It is time for us to look into ourselves at all times to see if what we say, think, act and participate in is an expression that we are willing to stand as for eternity – we are actively and practically walking our mind to establish a final directive point within ourselves within the principle of what is best for all, which cannot contain a point of judgment/ projected blame toward others as ‘the abusers’ for we would understand how any point of abuse is in fact self abuse as the mechanisms that allow such abuse are existent in each one of us as well, thus we are all equally responsible and that responsibility begins toward ourselves as our own mind.

 

Self Respect as the Living Realization of what this Process is about can be walked with individualized assistance and support to ensure that one in fact acts upon one’s own Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Application in one’s world and reality:

• Desteni I Process
• Visit the Desteni Forum 

Support the Equal Money System wherein the Value of Life will be restored as a Living Principle

 

 

Blogs:

• Thought Designs – Introduction: DAY 152
• Thought-Designs: Part 1

• DAY 152: After Death Communication – Part 2

• This is a Continuation of DAY 151

 

Further Support:

• Life Review – The ‘Taking this Personally’ Victim

• Life Review – Changing my Thoughts, Will Change Me

• The Soul of Money – The Oneness and Consequence of the Existential Bodies – Part 35

 

146. Fear of Death

Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Statements/ Commitments

Thought:  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear death due to the pain that I have accepted and allowed myself to future project I will experience, without realizing this is all based on knowledge and information that I have used in order to generate the fear of dead, instead of realizing that I am here as breath and that whenever death comes, I am here as breath to walk through it till breath is no more

 

Commitment: I commit myself to instead of existing as ‘fear of death’ I live my life ensuring that I can broadly say I have Lived this day as if it was the last day, ensuring that I in fact thus commit myself to LIVE and within this holding no fear toward a future and no regret toward the past, but live in every moment of breath here, so that whatever may come or may not come, it does not influence who I am here as the physical day to day living

 

Imagination: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold the image of me burning in flames as the utmost fear in my mind toward death, without realizing that I have created this pictures as ‘fear of death’ due to how I have linked heat/ fire to the most excruciating torture – thus it is all based on knowledge and information that I have linked to ‘pain’ and as such formulating my own ‘fear of death’ linked to heat/fire as the ‘worst way to die,’ binding myself to my own creation at a thought level, which is ludicrous.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my imagination to think about my end as it is entertaining to ‘ponder’ about that stuff, without realizing that while doing so, I am in fact missing and giving away my breath of life to do so, which is pointless

 

Commitment: I commit myself to when and as I see myself fearing death and thinking of fire, I stop and Breathe, I realize that this is my own creation that I am here to take self responsibility for as it is only a thought emerging as a point of entertainment in my mind, without realizing that in doing so I am in fact missing the breath that is here as the life that I am existing as in every moment – thus I commit myself to live here as breath and Not participate in any thoughts about death, as they are utterly useless.

I commit myself to remain here as breath so that I do not go creating unnecessary thinking and draining in my body to create alternate dimensions of ‘death fears’ – instead I commit myself to live here, focusing on what is HERE

 

Backchat: I  forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold the backchat ‘I don’t want to die in a gruesome manner’ without realizing that in such fear I am just entertaining my fear, and there’s no point in even giving my breath away of Life to such thoughts about dying and ways of dying – I instead support myself to live as breath, wherein I am here physically aware of the body that is here and stop the unnecessary thinking about ‘ways to die’ lol

 

I commit myself to not entertain my mind with backchat indicating/ navigating through ‘ways to NOT die’ as it is absolutely pointless to entertain myself thinking about anything that is not HERE as myself as the physical reality – thus it is to live here, let go any minor attempt of thought about dying as a way to create fear and as such, ensure that I am breathing, living moment to moment.

 

Reaction: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear of death wherein because I have no reference to ‘death’ I try to make it up in my mind and react with ‘courage’ toward it, instead of realizing that nor courage nor future projecting about death is necessary as I am here as breath  and such, death may or may not come the next breath and that doesn’t determine who I am in the moment – thus I simply remain breathing not supporting any fear of death as a thinking possession.

 

I commit myself to stop fearing death or any thoughts related to dying as I see and realize it is mere entertainment for my mind to actually evade looking at what is here -thus when and as I see myself wanting to lurk around ‘fear of death’ and any thoughts related to that, I instead breathe and look at the point that I am facing in the physical reality to instead, work with/ direct myself to face the physical-reality that is here and stop going into the movie-theatre drama entertainment of ‘fear of death’ in my mind.

 

Physical: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel a petrifying fear whenever get an exhilarating/get a cool experience around thoughts of dying and how it ‘could happen,’ as I see and realize that this draining sensation in my physical body is in fact me creating an energetic experience out of my own thoughts, which is unacceptable when seeing, realizing and understanding that I abuse my physical and actually Kill myself when thinking about death and creating an experience about it- which is what requires to be stopped in any other aspect within my mind in order to actually be here and live

 

I commit myself to live here as breath wherein there is no possibility to create an experience of thinking as I see and realize that getting an energetic high through wondering and flirting about death is simply another way to entertain myself here, while abusing the physical reality and body that I am. Thus I live here as breath, and take responsibility for the thoughts I do direct in my mind in order to Live – I realize that creating even a positive experience out of thinking about death is rather ludicrous and no different to any other escapism modality to not face myself here – thus I take responsibility and face myself here as breath.

I see and realize that most of the ‘ways to die’ I have gotten from movies/ stories that I’ve seen and read and as such, accepted them as also ways to entertain myself in the mind, instead of being here as the physical realizing the absurdity of fearing death while I am breathing here.

 

Consequence: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not even be aware of what I have done onto my physical when ‘flirting’ about death and ways to die, wherein I am clearly not HERE as breath, but entertained in my mind with either a fear or exhilaration about ‘dying’ or everyone ‘dying’ as I see and realize that’s just part of the consequential outflow of me/ us not wanting to take responsibility for what is here as our creation

I commit myself to instead walk step by step my mind possession of either a positive or negative experience when thinking/ flirting about death/ dying thoughts, as I see and realize that I am here as breath and that such thoughts only indicate me wanting to ‘escape’ the moment in my mind – thus I bring myself back to here so that I realize that every single thought has a consequence to be walked through and as such I commit myself to stop creating consequences that are detrimental to self

 

Walk with us at Desteni to realize how futile it is to ‘Fear Death’ and instead, support ourselves to LIVE here in every moment of Breath.

Desteni I Process

Equal Money System : Supporting Life from Birth to Death –

 

The real death is the depletion we are imposing onto our world and reality when living in a world-system/ economic model that doesn’t support Life in Equality.

 

Blogs:

Thoughts: Pixels of the Screen of the Mind – Part 2: DAY 146

Day 146: Synchronicity and Natural Selection

Vlog:

FEAR WEEK: Fear of Drowning? Suffocating? In flames? FEAR of Death!

2010 Equal Money Ends Fear

131. Stop Yourself with Self Forgiveness before You Kill someone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be completely unaware of myself here as breath whenever I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as the backchat ‘I want to kill you/him/her/them or myself’ without being absolutely aware of what it is that I am in fact implying with this very sentence as an absolute statement of who I am in such a moment, which we have taken so ‘lightly’ in our reality, without actually considering how every single thought, word and deed that we give ‘life’ to, creates and manifests a consequence for all as equals – within this it is in the best interest of myself and everyone to investigate how we have become the words we created in order to have the ability to take someone/ one’s own life based on a mind-created retaliation process wherein who we are as life as one and equals is Not being considered at all.

 

When and as I see myself thinking, pondering and speaking the words ‘I want to kill you/them/ he/she or myself’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that to get to this point wherein we are able to exist as such backchat, there has been an actual accumulation of words that I have thought, spoken and acted upon without considering a single speck of the physicality that I am in fact abusing when existing as a self-created possession that can only exist if we give permission for it to exist as ourselves in any given moment.

 

I see, realize and understand that speaking words without awareness is an obvious result of never having lived the words we speak, but only THINK them and believe that they hold no effect upon oneself or others in any way whatsoever, without ever pondering how it is that our world is currently the construction of the words we think, speak and create in separation of ourselves, which implies that words and expressions of decisive violence against others are to be reviewed for the intention and starting point they hold as the accumulative effect of thoughts, backchat, internal conversations that we have believed it is ‘who we are’ in fact, without ever questioning WHO we are being and what we are accepting and allowing when existing as words that imply abuse, harm and violence against others.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to  harbor the backchat ‘I want to kill you/he/she/them’ as the result of me not getting what I wanted from something/someone, leading me to the absolute opposite of that extreme desire I experienced to initially seek to get what I want/ needed/ required/ desired, which implies that I am in fact willing to harm/ abuse others within the desire to match my positive experience in the mind, to a reality that in no way will ever match my inner fantasies of ultimate positive experience, as such positive experience can only exist if there is a point of abuse behind it within the current configuration of our world system wherein not everyone is being equally supported to Live.

I realize that who am I within the words ‘I want to kill you/him/her/myself’ I am in fact existing as the ultimate abuser that can be existent within ourselves as thoughts in our minds, the ultimate possession wherein who we are is reduced to one single point of self-destruction that is apparently ‘righteous’ in nature, and ‘makes sense’ without realizing that we in fact require to STOP, take a Deep Breath in order to realize what is it that we are in fact giving ourselves away to within a thinking pattern such as ‘I want to Kill you/ myself/ them’  – I realize that this is an absolute red flag wherein I must see and realize that I have accepted and allowed myself to be possessed by my own mind as the accumulation of time that I must take Self Responsibility for.

To do this, I Stop myself from participating or adding more thoughts to that single thinking pattern – then look back at the entire event/ points that I lead myself to get to this point of creating and holding the backchat such as ‘I want to kill you/her/he/them/myself’ in order to take Self Responsibility for oneself and one’s own thoughts, instead of using such backchat for further manipulation toward oneself and others in means of getting the problem solved, the ‘desired attention’ that we simply were not able to give to ourselves from the very first moment that we were seeking happiness, fulfillment and satisfaction in separation of ourselves through something or someone as the point of desire.

(This is why and how the previous posts explaining the polarity created upon Hate and Love are relevant to read, please do so in order to understand how the desire to Kill someone stems from a perceived point of loss/ lack that is then projected onto others as the absolute opposite, as that is how the mind operates)

• 130. Killing the Loved Ones
• 129. Will Love and Lighters end up Killing People?
• 128. Who am I as Control?

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as the backchat  ‘I want to kill you/them/he/she/myself’ as the result of an accumulated backchat that I allowed to compound within myself without having a look at What is it that I accepted and allowed to exist within my world as a point of obsession and possession without giving it proper self-direction, which means that I allowed myself to get to the point of wanting to end someone’s life/ my own in order to ‘get away with murder’ wherein the implication of ‘killing someone’ is the ultimate apparent imposition of power and control over someone’s life – including one’s own – which is frequently seen as something ‘honorable’ to redeems one’s pride and position without ever understanding what real Honor implies as life.

Thus I see realize and understand that any belief about the thoughts ‘I want to kill him/her/them/myself’ being the ultimate free choice and free will decision to end someone’s/one’s own life is nothing but an ultimate self-medicated brainwash wherein I am in fact declaring that I am being possessed by my own self-created thoughts, leading me to create an inner experience of dissatisfaction, disbelief and or depression through relationship problems which I decide to make as something ‘grave’ enough to retaliate against another that I have taken as the ‘cause’ and ‘reason’ for my experience in the form of wanting to kill them/oneself in order to vindicate any sense of ‘pride’ and ‘honor’ when one’s ego has been hurt.

When and as I see myself wanting to Kill Someone in my mind, I stop immediately and I breathe, I realize that whatever I am seeing in something/ someone that is leading me to want to end another’ life/ my own life is simply a escapism distraction to not look at where and how I am absolutely responsible for my own creation in that moment – thus I take responsibility for myself to ensure that I in fact investigate within me, my life where I have created this particular pattern of anger, content and a desire to retaliate against others for something that I have directly created within and as my own mind.

I realize that throwing a tantrum about my own self-created obsession is the ultimate stupidity loop wherein I created and manifested a point of obsession based on all the positive experiences such as love, fulfillment, satisfying desires, needs, wants, dreams and the moment that I cannot fulfill these positive experiences in my physical reality the way that ‘I’ envisioned it in my mind, I then take it out on those that I believe and perceive were the reason why my dream/ point of desire and obsession was not able to be fulfilled – thus,

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to actually be throwing a tantrum in my mind thinking about ‘killing myself/ another’ just because I could not get what I wanted, which became a self-created point of possession turning it deliberately into another form of Self-Victimization so that I could be labeled as ‘being mentally instable’ and s such, abdicate responsibility upon my own creation of which I am in fact able to be aware of from the very first moment of creating such a point of obsession/ desire as a possession, as I see and realize that anything that I created as a positive dream/ desire to fulfill, must eventually meet its downfall as the opposite negative point, which is how I believe I could ‘not take it’ to ‘lose’ my dream/ desire/ obsession, turning myself into an actual threat to myself and others’ lives just because of following my own thoughts to kill someone/ myself as a point to victimize myself and others as part of my own self-created obsession and delusion, that I see and realize ends where it began: within myself as my mind through taking responsibility for all that I have talked/ thought/ envisioned in my own mind toward that someone/ something that I allowed myself to become possessed by, losing all perspective of who I am as a physical being that only requires oxygen, food, water, shelter and basic relationships to continue existing and that anything else, is mind infatuation that I must take self responsibility for.

I see, realize and Understand that creating an ultimate desire for love, peace, joy and bliss as MY pursuit of happiness is what lead me to then experience all the opposite as hate, inner battles within my mind, dissatisfaction, dullness and self-hatred as the ultimate negative experience, that I then seek to ‘cure’ through exerting such anger stemming from ‘frustrated dreams’ against others, instead of actually stopping in one single cold moment to see what the hell it is that I am in fact using my physical body for, to think and scheme ways to kill others or myself just to ‘get away with murder’ within the love/hate relationship that I formed in my mind only.

 

When and as I see myself wanting to take revenge toward others/ myself for not being able to obtain/get what I wanted, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I am the one that must take absolute responsibility for the entire point of possession and understand to what extent I have allowed myself to be possessed by these seemingly ‘innocent thoughts’ like saying ‘I want to kill you/her/him/them or myself’ as an apparent quick fix and solution to a problem that was created Only within my mind, thus I take absolute Self-Responsibility for every single experience that I created toward others in order to vindicate myself and always consider as if I had won after a perceived loss.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize to what extent I am abusing all and every single cell of my physical body and dishonoring every single particle that I exist as, the air I breathe, the beings I eat in order to continue living whenever I use life to create thoughts of self-deprecation, self-hatred and hateful self-manipulative rants wherein I believe that ‘I can get my control back by hating/ loathing something/someone,’ without realizing to what extent I am in fact depleting the very life that I  consist of every time that I participate in thoughts of any kind – whether positive as love, light, bliss, excitement and negative such as hatred, violence and absolute desire to control and abuse others as a way to feel better about myself.

 

I see, realize and understand that who I am as the thinking pattern ‘I want to kill them all/ myself’ is an absolute threat to oneself and others that I must immediately Stop and take responsibility for through immediate self forgiveness in order to actually See and Realize what is it in fact that I am participating in, what type of experience it is that I am creating when and while having these thoughts of killing another/myself in my head, what is it that I in fact perceive I lost that I am now wanting to take revenge of due to my own apparent inability to realize and see how any positive experience that I desire as an absolute point of possession that is not ‘doable’ and ‘livable’ in this physical reality, becomes the exact opposite as the ultimate disillusionment and hatred that is then sought to be compensated with exerting a point of power/ control such as killing others in order to satisfy one’s own ‘game’ in the mind wherein after the perceived loss of the happiness-point, one retaliates against the perceived point of loss in order to be the one that ‘has the ultimate say’ as the perceived ‘winning’-experience within a game that I only created within my own mind, as it was never in fact real.

 

When and as I see myself using the thinking pattern of ‘I want to kill him/her/them or myself’ as a way to feel powerful and ‘in control’ of the situation, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am in fact wanting to make up for an apparent and believed loss/ disillusionment that I must then take self responsibility for, as I am not going to solve anything within my life just by exerting this point of apparent ‘power’ over another’s life – or my own – by desiring to end it, but that I am in fact only hiding myself from the actual responsibility that I hold toward my own self-created obsession/ desire and fantasy that only existed in my mind through and by my own creation and participation in it.

 

I see and realize that I could only ‘give head’ to thoughts about killing another if I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to give to myself that which I perceive I lack, that which I perceive I desire and cannot obtain, which is how and why the nature of the desire as a point of possession is what one must take self responsibility for, to see where and how we have in fact brainwashed ourselves to believe that we must have a relationship, that we must be rich, that we must be experiencing ‘happiness’ all the time, that we must be ‘successful’ and ‘gracious’ 24/7, without realizing how it is in this very accepted and allowed brainwash that I have created my own obsessions and desires as a perceived ‘lack’ without understanding how they have been deliberately created by each one of us individually and collectively as the ultimate ‘happiness’ that everyone is now seeking and busy ‘buying in this world,’ without actually stopping to see how false and unreal such satisfaction actually is, as it has never ever been considered within the base foundation of what is best for all life

 

Thus I see and realize that everything that I would want to take revenge of, retaliate against due to my perceived dissatisfaction and ‘unfulfilled dreams’ are points that I must take self responsibility for to see, realize and understand to what extent I have accepted all the ‘positive’ as love, bliss, happiness, sex, money, fame and glory as everything that is ‘normal’ to desire, without understanding how the entirety and totality of the world system is based upon these self-created ‘needs’ that function at a cultural level of imprinting/ programming desires/ wishes/ obsession points in order to keep us entertained within our minds within a believed ‘lack’ and ‘loss’ that we experience as a ‘negativity’ within ourselves, seeking to get to the ‘positive’ all the time, which is what keeps us all recreating and reinforcing the entire Money System of abuse wherein all points of attainment are based on supporting the entire machinery of money as the current function abuse upon life.

To understand this points further, please listen to:

• The Soul of Money – Fear and the Law of Attraction – Part 32

• The Soul of Money – How Money thrive from Personality Evolution – Part 33

 

Within this, it is to see and realize how we have all been participants and directly responsible for anyone having thoughts of wanting to ‘kill’ in the name of an apparent positive experience upon a process of disillusionment/ disbelief and dissatisfaction, which is in fact only demonstrating how everything that we have judged in our reality as so called ‘bad people’ and ‘mind possessed’ people are in fact no different to everything that we have become as our own mind, as the same thinking pattern that I can create in one single moment of anger upon not getting what I wanted, is exactly the same thinking pattern that accumulated within a killer’s mind that lead him to actually act upon those same thoughts.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to indulge into the desires to love, have the ultimate bliss and happiness as a relationships to money, sex, success and anything that I created in my mind as a point of possession wherein I see myself in the ultimate ‘throne of glory’ as I realize that the process of realizing how the entire accumulation of the positive energy toward all those ‘good things’ comes inevitably to a downfall in a direct opposite manner to the absolute negative when seeing and realizing how unattainable my dreams/ wishes/ point of desire become, which is where I must investigate what type of fantasies, illusions and dreams which are only formulated in my mind did I give myself away to, did I allow myself to participate in just to get a positive experience out of it, deliberately ignoring how ‘unrealistic’ and ‘non-doable’ such dreams are, which implies that I must take responsibility for all my deliberate participation in all things positive to then see and realize that any perceived lack, loss or disillusion is only that, losing the illusion that I created in my mind as the ultimate positive imaginary experience leading me to the absolute negative when coming to the final realization that any point I seek to fulfill myself and my desires eventually devolves into a downfall as a negative experience – thus

I see, realize and understand that participating in the physical world does not require for me to create a positive or negative experience about it.

 

When and as I see myself participating in desires of happiness, fulfillment through relationships, getting the ultimate job and success in this world and reality, having all the money in the world, I stop and I breathe – I realize that this is the starting point of creating an entire cycle of self-abuse wherein we indulge into the positive experience that participating in all these ‘good feelings’ creates, however I see, realize and understand that such initial positive input must meet It’s opposite energetic output as the negative, the same way that the light is generated through friction and conflict as I see that I am allowing myself to be blinded by the delightful light, without considering the actual opposite as ‘the negative’ that is the foundation and starting point for any of my dreams and desires, which is to experience the positive and the ‘moreness’ of myself. Thus I ensure that I remain here in and as the physical body wherein I do not require to desire/want/need to obtain something/ someone in order to ‘feel better about myself,’ as I recognize and embrace myself as the totality of who I really am as myself in this physical body and in this physical existence that I have separated myself from through desire in my mind only.

 

I take self responsibility for every point of obsession and infatuation that I have created toward a positive experience, in order to stop the entire cycle of self abuse that seeking happiness entails and ending up in absolute despair and self-deprecation toward oneself and others just because of realizing that in this physical reality, all our dreams are just that: illusions/ fantasies/ thoughts in our mind that cannot be practically achieved without creating the absolute opposite within a world of consequence due to how we have created a foundation of ‘life’ based upon abuse. It is to investigate then the starting point of such want, need and desire and see where and how self is not giving oneself that which we seek/ desire from and as something/ someone in separation of ourselves.

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Thus it is to see, realize and understand to what extent we are all collectively responsible for creating the ultimate polarity of love and light in opposition to get away from the perceived ‘lack’ as a negative experience, keeping ourselves always valuing everything outside of  as ‘more’ than ourselves, which is visibly existent currently as our monetary system –

It is to understand then that all killers, all mind possessed people are no different to you or me as we are currently ALL Mind Possessed. Thus through the living and application of Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective application  to start becoming aware of how every single thought that we have in a seemingly ‘fleeting moment’ of flinching and throwing a tantrum against others, does in fact create consequential outflows within everything and everyone equally.

This is our oneness and equality, wherein we have abused ourselves, the Earth, the animals that we are in fact Killing  slowly but surely every time that we give head to the directions that we created and programmed in my own mind, without taking responsibility for them and realizing what are we in fact stating within this action of wanting to be ‘more’ than others, to ‘have it all,’ to have the ‘ultimate happiness’ that cannot exist in this world currently without abusing something and someone.

 

More so than ever, I cannot see myself detached from any person that has ever been labeled as crazy or mind possessed as we are ALL currently mind possessed and as long as we try and hide this, we will continue blaming everything and everyone for what is going on on a daily basis as all forms of wars, abuse, violence and direct personal-life retaliation processes that originated from exactly the same place that you and I Also exist as, which is the mind that we are now here in the process of equalizing to and as our physical to finally ensure that everything we think, say and act upon is in fact standing in the Best interest of All Life in Equality.

 

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that FORGIVENESS is a Gift Given to Self to bring an END to the Illusion of a MINDSELF that is a Self Created Illusion, as Energy Presented as THOUGHTS, Feelings, and Emotions.” – Bernard Poolman 

 

Stop participating in those thoughts before it’s too late – there’s specific support for these thinking patterns available at:

 

Desteni

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2003

Blogs:

• Day 131: Forgiveness and True Activism

• Interdimensional-Physical Relationships – Part 1 (Self-Forgiveness): DAY 131

• Day 97: Morality Character Self-Forgiveness statements

• Day 94: Morality Character
• Day 95: Morality Character continued…
• Day 96: Morality Character Self-Forgiveness statements

Interview to realize what it  is to Really in fact Experience that point of being trained to KILL others due to problems in our world that we have accepted and allowed with apparent no solution, without realizing that all wars stem from the inner wars we have created within ourselves as the mind.

• Life Review – My Life as a Refugee

Know Thyself:

• Quantum Mind Self Awareness – STEP 1: A never before in detail explanation of how our mind works, what are thoughts, how do they emerge, are our decisions in any way REAL?

110.The Mad judging the Crazy

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to judge people that are condemned as socially deranged and mentally disturbed as people that must be ‘put on fire’ as the ultimate punishment for committing acts of murder and/ or terrorism within a society that did not care to, in the first place, see how such a ‘killer mind’ is actually the product of a society wherein we have only conditioned ourselves to get indoctrinated to survive in a world where support is not unconditionally given – thus enslaving each other to only focus on money, having a successful living, aiming at ‘the best’ in the world while we cannot even understand how is it that there are thoughts in our head and why is it that we become emotional at any given moment, which reveals to what extent we have become survivalist robots that do not care at all to educate children to get to know themselves as their own mind first, because we had never even pondered that ‘ourselves’ as adults in this world.

 

Thus it is plain to see how anyone that commits acts of violence and abuse as the result of acting on their own thoughts is in essence, a byproduct of our own ignorance toward our own mind, while deliberately accepting statements such as ‘we can’t do anything to change the world,’ because that would imply actually having to take responsibility for all that we have done and perpetrated in absolute negligence and disregard of what we have accepted and allowed as the decisions we have made in the name of only our personal interest

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to learn from my parents how to judge people that would commit acts of violence such as murderers and terrorists wherein the faces of disgust and disturbance would mean that I had to equally become disgusted at another human being, just because they had done ‘something wrong’ yet never investigating why or how it is that such beings became ‘the villains’ in the story of our every day lie, not realizing that it is through these events that I learned how to fear those that ‘commit violent acts’ and only condemn them, without ever even pondering about their lives, if they had enough support to live as children, if they had been abused or not because that is never questioned by the media, hence not questioned by anyone that is mostly informed/indoctrinated by the media.

 

I realize that the moment that I learned to condemn the so-called ‘social-aberrations,’ I learned to separate myself from them as if they were some type of ‘thing’ that I had to simply be and become disgusted by, never questioning who am I in relation to them, what are they revealing of our nature – and this is primarily because we as children only accept from our parents whatever they say, do and even act like in every single moment. Thus we are directly shaped and molded according to morals that ensure blame is projected at all times toward others, but never pointed back to self in order to take responsibility for that which we have accepted and allowed to continue as the ‘breeding ground’ for humanity, which is clearly a world and society wherein life has never been regarded  at all, wherein words have been used to separate, value and condemn in separation of self, where money dictates who lives and who dies and accordingly, who is able to grow up in a supportive environment or not – which explains how is it that unless we equalize this world into a functional system and society based on equality, we’ll continue to see individuals committing acts of violence as a way to bring attention to the problems in this world, because they clearly see no other way to do it in a society wherein only as shocking as mass murdering people or bombing themselves can make it to the news, while the rest of the daily violence and abuse is only known and heard, but never spoken about because that would imply having to re-assess our humanity itself, without realizing that we have only complied to each other’s rules and regulations as our current governments which are the externalization of a self-interested mind that will create a sense of order on the surface, but never dare to really investigate the so-called ‘human nature’ that is clearly the massive excuse to not have to stop and re-assess our entire lives and world system.

 

Thus, I see and realize that it is actually ‘the mad’ judging ‘the crazy’ because the mad cannot even see how it is that we are living in a world wherein paper, metal and plastic cards along with a set of numbers can define who lives and who starves, a world wherein life is not even considered as equal in all beings but instead abused in the name of bullshit dreams of success and ‘wealth’ that is being massively induced as a drug that people eventually become addicted to, not being able to see to what extent one is able to go to achieve such ‘dream’ and at what cost our very own lives are diminished in the name of an apparent point of ‘power’ that has been made as such by the same belief-systems that parents are born into, later on passed on to the next generation which is how beliefs have been kept ‘alive,’ through institutionalizing lies as legit within the statement ‘but it’s always been this way/ but it’s always been like this/ things have never changed and never will, deal with it,’ which is clearly how we accept to be slaves to a system of ill gotten gains that promotes self-abuse as entertainment, that promotes irresponsibility as freedom and promotes hatred as an honorable action to conduct in the name of ‘pride.’

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to  conform to the idea of people creating such a ‘mystery’ out of beings like serial killers, mass murders, bombers/ terrorists and generally mentally disrupted people, wherein ignorance lead me to simply accept it as some kind of ‘flaw’ in a human being’s mind, believing that a ‘crazy’ person was simply a ‘mal-functioning being’ that had no remedy and had to be locked up and never bee seen again in society, wherein I learned how to fear such places because of parents even making fun of sending me there with ‘the rest of the crazy people,’ without realizing how even the apparent subtle jokes create a point of fear toward beings that have clearly not been understood or even been investigated to the core to see how the majority is actually the product of  point of lack or abuse in a world system that should be able to provide and care for all beings equally.

 

Thus I realize that any perceived ‘mentally disturbed’ being as killers, bombers/ terrorists, mass murders and mentally deranged people are nothing but the result of our own fear to face ourselves as our own mind, the fear to realize to what extent a being can be damaged for an entire lifetime because of not having enough food on their table, a decent place to live, proper education, parents that provide actual care because no one has ever really had such points in alignment with a principle that is best for all, which is the reason why this world is ‘as is,’ as we have only cared to prepare ourselves to survive in this world, following the same mechanism transmitted from generation to generation without any form of progress, as the very cause of such stagnation and actual degeneration of humanity was not regarded, was not understood – and that is our own mind which we are now walking in detail within the Desteni I Process to learn how it is that we have become the ‘gods’ in our existence, giving ourselves instructions to kill, strive for a living and be willing to die for the ‘honor’ of those that sustain an empire that thrives upon the abuse of life.

 

I realize that in order to give ourselves a sense of living again, we must walk our entire mind in absolute detail and specificity as I see that it is only through walking our own mind that we can become specific in our own self-creative processes to establish a new ay of living and being and coexisting in this world based on Life in Equality.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to never see how whenever my parents would condemn another’s acts, they were trying to ‘show’ me what not to do and what not to be, yet never explaining why there was evil in this world but only managing to explain that people were ‘evil’ because of not having money – thus creating a fear toward people that had no money because of thinking and believing that they would all eventually go violent and try and rob/ kill me because of having ‘more money’ than them – this is an example of how when taking the ‘easy road out’ to explain a child the reason why acts of violence and ‘evil’ take place in society  leads to further fear when only giving an excuse such as ‘poverty’ for evil to exist, without explaining – or even being aware – how this is not a point to fear but to understand from the root cause and as such consider what we have to do in order to establish a solution. Yet, because parents and their parents had never been informed about ‘how the world works,’ the ‘best’ way to educate each other has been through fear, as fear ensures that one would not ‘even get close to’ anyone that would resemble being a stereotypical abusive/ violent person. Yet, what parents don’t realize is that kids grow up with curiosity to get to know ‘why/ how’ people eventually end up being mentally unstable/ disturbed based on the simple principle of being attracted/ fascinated by that which is only condemned and deliberately ostracized, which is how in an attempt to ‘understand’ the criminal minds, we end up making of other human beings a ‘mystery’ to understand as a form of entertainment, without even first realizing how such beings came to be within their world and reality as they are.

 

I see and realize that it is only in a culture of sensationalism that we can become obsessed with beings like serial killers, suicide bombers and mass murderers because of the taboo we’ve made of them, because of not really wanting to explain in the open the actual factors that leads to one being become possessed by their own backchat and commit any atrocities possible in order to make a statement that is a direct consequence of a society wherein life and children are being abused in the name of perpetuating  a system wherein the ever-abusive condition of ‘success’ is all that everyone is blinded with and by, never considering the counter effects that go on within a child that is absolutely incapable of ‘attaining’ or even worse ‘aspiring’ to get to such a position, as money determines who you are and will be for the rest of your life, never even pondering that there is another way to live and exist, which is that which is currently being condemned and crucified by a majority that is not willing to let go of the survival mode-living, because ‘it’s all we’ve ever known’ while having been indoctrinated to protect such self interest at all cost, and oppose anything that would propose such well being to all begins equally, as mind control is so great that Equality as Life is not even able to be conceived by the regular human being mind.

This is the example of the extent of our individual brainwashing that has taken place for all time as humanity.

 

We have instructed ourselves to be and become the very judges and executers in a reality wherein money as power and success is revered and praised, ignoring the obvious abuse that enables such fallacy as ‘wealth’ in the world, a society wherein ‘killers, robbers and murderers’ are also characters learned from generation to generation as an apparent ‘easy way’ to ‘cope’ with a reality that is not supporting all beings equally, which should already place an alarm as to what we condemn and the reasons for such people to commit ‘crimes against life’ while only trying to make living, and what we revere and praise as wealth and fame which can only exist upon the abuse of life and beings in order to sustain such airy-fairy heaven that is clearly only running with the resources and labor force of the flesh of the Earth.

 

I commit myself to walk my own patterns of dissociation toward everything that I learned how to ‘condemn’ and at the same, what to praise, what to seek, what to regard as sacred, what to regard as ‘dangerous,’ what to regard as ‘a dream to come true,’ which are all points that I blindly followed as ‘what life is all about,’ keeping myself from side to side fearing to fall in the perceived ‘bad/negative side’ and striving to maintain myself at all times in the ‘good/ positive side of reality.’ Within this

 

I commit myself to expose how it is that we the children become the patterns of fear and limitation, of fanaticism and obsession that exist within the parents, wherein we as children only learn how to adopt such ways because ‘our parents know better,’ only to later on create a massive disappointment when realizing that our parents lied and that they were actually instilling fear within us, which is why kids go into a massive point of shock and inner struggle to cope with the lies that had been taught for years through childhood, and walking them out while living in ‘the real deal’ of a savage reality wherein there are no considerations and/or special regard for beings, as it is just a dog eat dog world wherein everyone is then pushed to follow the ‘rough ways’ of making a living, learning how to deceive, cheat, steal and/or lick someone’s boots in order to be and become ‘successful’ as the ultimate stardom dream that is impulsed by the media that we grow up educating ourselves with.

 

I commit myself to establish a complete new standard of parental education wherein every parent will not be able to even dare to speak about ‘becoming a parent’ without having gone through extensive support and training that can be proven to be reliable enough to bring another kid into this world – within this realizing and considering that we have to being such training with our contemporaries and the new kids as the future parents in this world, as it is through a life-long education base on life in equality that such ‘rigorous measures’ won’t have to exist any longer, as such measures are only a emergency plan to deal with ourselves the spawn of the last drop of preprogrammed beings that were essentially existing only to fuel a system of mind delusions and keep it in place in order to learn how we had to aim for such ‘wondrous world’ as ‘heaven’ while neglecting everything we had to do in order to attain that while on Earth, which means: abusing the earth because all we were looking at was the satisfaction, reward and success obtained from it, but never really caring about the actual abuse that would go on in our pursuit of happiness.

 

I realize that unless we actually move to give ourselves proper direction in consideration of all life in Equality, nothing will move – thus we require to prepare ourselves as individuals as a world-wide team that will be able to provide support for as many beings as possible in order to actually walk a re-educational process that is already beginning with ourselves through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application wherein we get to face our acceptances and allowances as the decisions we have made in the name of our own mind-possession as the selfish interests we have fueled with the blood of the Earth.

 

I commit myself to expose how it is that fears are passed on from generation to generation to segregate and divide humanity to always remain controlled/ limited within a set of beliefs that ensure no one dares to question the current system and only accept it ‘as is,’ which is how when educating ourselves about how we function as humanity, how our reality exists as the result of our own self-created mind control which is what will cease to exist once that we realize that we are on the verge of obliterating everything and everyone on Earth if se do not Stop ‘the old familiar ways’ of indoctrinating children into fear and only instigating a sense of survival that is absolutely unacceptable, considering that we live in a world that has more than enough for beings to coexist in harmony – however because Greed is promoted as self-motivation we haven’t stopped the cycles that perpetuate the same system of abuse.

 

This means that I commit myself to expose the fear labels we have imposed onto one another as a way to never in fact investigate how is it that the so called ‘abject’ in reality is our own abdication of self-responsibility to educate each other in a way that is best for all, simply because what is best for all has Never in fact existed in this world and as such, we are the only ones that can take on this elemental task to de-mentalize a humanity subsumed in fear and shame for what we’ve become.

 

I commit myself to provide support for anyone that is willing to support themselves from the so called mentally unstable and deranged people that have been ostracized and stigmatized within a society that only labels in order to separate themselves from realizing ourselves as the actual cause and breeding-ground to all that is here as this world, which includes all the atrocities that go on on a daily basis as the result of mind possession, just because we haven’t learned how we operate as our own mind, just because we have abused our own physical body to seek for a dream that was imposed in order to keep an enslavement system in place.

The time has come to stop the abuse and madness in this world and to point back the finger at ourselves to realize how it is that we are in fact 100% responsible for everything that goes on in this world that is ourselves.

 

Demonology is specialized support for mind possessions through a process of Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective application to take responsibility for the accumulation of violent thoughts in nature that have become a threat to the individual and society as a whole.

Self-responsibility is at all times the key-point for anyone willing to support themselves, to stop any form of possession that will take an actual consistent process that can only be walked with proper assistance and support available at the forum within Demonology and Desteni.

Support the Equal Money System to create a platform of support for all future parents in this world, to understand ourselves and take self-responsibility for our current creation as this world and as such, implement a new living reality on Earth wherein Life will be valued as Equal in all ways.

 

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that this Ignorance is Perpetuated by Instructing Children that they Must Learn through their own experiences WITHOUT Realizing that these Experiences will be based on Inadequate training, and thus be Inadequate and that this Will Lead to Inadequate Realizations that Always Justify the Way the World of Ignorance functions, But  because the Characters Build by Parents were instructed to Protect their Ignorance no Matter what Real Practical Common Sense Instruction will be Ignored Unless it leads to Survival and thus Ways to Make Money as Money is Presented to Be the Road to Success for the Ignorant that Must in All Ways Be Protected, as Survival is the Ultimate Fear Parents Instructed, as the Foundation in their Children.”
– Bernard Poolman*

 

 

Indispensable blogs to understand this point further:

• The Future of Parenting: DAY 110

• *Day 110 – Children are Not Born with Instructions

• Day 107: Parenting Tips: Don’t Have Kids

• Day 108: Go For Gold!

• 53 – schizophrenia

 

Interviews for Vital Education:

• Reptilians – How the Physical became the Mind (Part 2) – Part 77

• The Soul of Money – Individual and Collective Global Responsibility – Part 30

• Life Review – Is Crime a Choice

Day 45: Rejoice when Others Fall

How come we haven’t asked ourselves: why do we enjoy and rejoice in seeing others fall?

What’s with our human nature wherein we expect others to fall, in the first place – being waiting for the moment when someone will finally give up and quit whatever point they had committed themselves to and get a ‘good feeling’ out of it, even if you are only an outside spectator of it all. And there’s the other side of the coin when we  as the ‘expected to fall’ individual actually create such ‘fall’ by accepted and allowed thoughts wherein we believe ourselves to be in a quandary, not knowing how to follow, what to do because of having ‘all eyes on you’ = in essence, listening to our voices in the head, the mind as thoughts which will always look for its own ways to continue creating conflict and perpetuating fear.

 

Conflict creates further uncertainty as the experience of ‘fearing to fall,’ which translates to a general unstable experience of ‘losing one’s ground.’  It’s like taking a thread of yarn and knitting it: one single thread suddenly becomes this thick patterned conglomeration that is no longer simple single thread: it becomes something ‘bigger’ – apparently – yet it is still a thread – it would only take walking backwards that knitting until the thread can go back to be rolled up into the one ball of yarn again. Is the knitting more special or more important than the single thread of yarn coming out of the yarn ball? Point to ponder for how we see – reality and how we add ‘value’ to matter according to the work that’s been put to it.

 

From the observer’s perspective, as this single thread gets knitted into being ‘more’ and becoming more intricate and with no apparent way out of it: we are only expecting for the moment for such thread to continue getting further into the maze and have no support to ‘come back’ to the single-thread it was, and instead of anyone caring to say: ‘hey, you are making a mess/maze of yourself, you are over-complicating yourself, it’s the other way around,’ we remain idle even when and while looking at the obvious consequences that can pull anyone to a deep end if there is no support available to make another realize: you are going the wrong way! – where is our neighborism when realizing someone is about to ‘hit the ground’ and not do anything to let them know about it? Careless-ness and actual expectation of seeing another fall to make ourselves ‘better’ by being the ones that ‘remain standing.’ This is what adds up to the mess that we believe some one else ‘staged’ for us – really? Let’s just ask ourselves: who are we within such constant expectation and secret mind desire of seeing someone falling, someone losing, someone being kicked out of some place?

 

Yes, evil in the possession of our very own unconditional flesh. Have a look at entertainment where any form of competition is made a TV reality show and the audience eventually gets more excited about seeing who will lose than who wins or develop and better themselves. We seek tragedy, we like seeing people suffer and be able to judge that from a ‘good standing position.’ Spitefulness toward life that is, carelessness, selfishness as the desire to remain ‘over others,’ wherein we secretly think: great, one mouth less to feed/ one less to fight against in this competition of a dog-eat-dog world.

 

See how far we’ve driven ourselves wherein instead of caring to promote an answer to the problems in this world that WE created, as to point out why and how we are all co-‘manifestators’ of this reality,  we prefer to spread separation and retaliation even further with no solution at all – and no public opinion is prepared to actually carry enough understanding to propitiate actual education about the functioning of our world/ reality.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a positive experience within me as ‘being powerful/ being more than others’ when seeing others fall/ lose/ get lost as this implies that they are ‘les capable/ able/ stable/ committed/ prepared/ enthusiastic/ hard working’ than me – which is then implying that I am seeing everyone as a potential competitor that I must ‘beat’ in order to feel at ease and feel like being ‘winning’ all the time, which is the experience that comes through blame, spite and abuse toward others in other for me to prevail and remain ‘standing’ in contrast to others, which means that I have reduced myself, my life to being only a comparative conglomeration of knowledge and information that has defined its ‘beingness’ according to others’ as reference point, instead of me being my own reference point as to what it is to stand in Self Honesty where our own thoughts, words and deeds demonstrate our own commitment to life – and allow such thoughts, thoughts and deeds to reveal the ‘true nature’ of what we are accepting and allowing ourselves to exist as the mind only, which means that any form of experience gotten from seeing/ realizing how others are living their own lives is simply spitefulness as the ego seeking to get its positive-energy fix in order to remain within the self-created idea of ‘winning.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thoughts of expecting someone to fall in order to prove ‘my point’ which is always that of diminishing others to a single pattern of self-defeatism and preprogrammed flaws wherein I have become the very perpetrator and equal abuse when participating in such hideous backchat that is at all times, seeking to win no matter what, seeking to ‘remain on top’ and ‘beat any enemy,’ which means that I have made of myself my own greatest enemy as I am only competing against myself and expecting myself to fall, which implies that the starting point of my beingness is not here as self equal and one – moment by moment – standing a self-willed, but compromised to being defined according to others and using others as a measurable point to see ‘who I am,’ which is absolute self-deception and self-sabotage as there is nothing and no-one I am actually directing such thoughtful experience of ‘expecting others to fall’ but toward myself only.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that ‘who I am’ is able to fall and lose any form of actuals substance in that, wherein all that can be ‘lost’ is the idea that I’ve kept of myself and others in my mind, wherein self-determination in every moment of breath to be here cannot be ‘more’ or ‘less than’ – I realize that I have lived a life wherein a thread of yarn is seen as ‘less than’ an entire sweater, even if the physicality of it is the same, I have placed more value onto the ‘over-wrought’ idea of who I am, while neglecting the fact that the only physicality of it is a single thread of yarn. Within this I realize that I have participated in the value-system that separates life into energy that can be either positive, negative or neutral according always seeking to be ‘the best/ the unbeatable’ as that ultimate positive experience that can only stem from this initial point of conflict as the separation accepted and allowed toward others, and seeing ‘others’ as separate from self, which is only the mind’s ego asserting its specialness in the name of self-glorification as the illusion of ‘winning.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever believe and be conditioned by the thought ‘all eyes are on me’ wherein I allow myself to compromise myself, my own standing here as it being ‘something’ for others, instead of realizing that with me standing in self-trust and supporting me in the most optimum way, I am simply able to expand that point of support for others in equality, wherein there is no special-generation of satisfaction ‘toward’ others, but remain self-honest in supporting me and share as to extend that same realization in equality.

 

I forgive myself that I have ever accepted and allowed myself to victimize me within thinking that ‘all eyes are expecting me to fall’ wherein I eventually would retreat and ‘get away’ from the spotlight because of believing that ‘I was not able to keep up with it,’ and in that sabotaging myself by having actually heard the voices in my head that were constantly threatening me/ me threatening myself to exist in constant fear, anxiety and paranoia of not being able to follow my schedules, routine and doing things ‘my way,’ wherein I instead allow me to go to the extreme opposite of apparently ‘not caring/ being careless’ which is just a mind’s justification to make my own insecurity, my own self doubt as an experience that was triggered ‘by others’ instead of taking self-responsibility for my own creation at all times.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in fears of ‘falling’ and projecting that onto others when ‘expecting others to fall’ in order to only prove ‘who I am’ as being ‘always right/ being self righteous’ which allows me to then feel better/ more than/ positive about ‘me remaining standing’ which means that any form of competition, rivalry, comparison is just another ingrained aspect of our human behavior in order to survive and participate in the survival of the fittest to make sure that we ‘make our space’ in the dog eat world, wherein we are taught from a very early age that we will be competing and striving to ‘make a living’ for an entire lifetime, without realizing that if we are able to give this to ourselves unconditionally, our entire starting point of human relationships will change as there will be no more energetic dependence as money, actual resources and competition of ideas of self, as all will have an ability to live in dignity.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the value-system imposed onto life, wherein I am able to compare myself against others, without realizing that each one’s lives are determined by specific aspects/ contexts that cannot possibly be ‘the same’ in two beings – therefore I realize that any thought related to a positive or negative polarity projected onto another, is simply me as ego, as personality seeking to survive and thrive upon bashing/ diminishing/ proving others wrongs as a way to prove ‘to others’ and myself that ‘I am better/ I can adapt quicker’ which implies that I have reduced my beingness, the physicality of who I am to a single idea that competes and opposes others for the sake of creating enough friction/ conflict in spite, blame and justification in order for me to be able to say: ‘I told you so, I was right’ which is just another egotistical confirmation that ‘I am my mind only’ which is the very brick of self-abuse that must be stopped at all times within myself, and stop projecting such ideas upon others in a constant manner as to be able to ‘have things working my way’ instead of always considering what is best for all life to live and stand as, wherein all beings are equally committed to develop themselves to their utmost potential and no more accept and allow seeds of anger, blame, retaliation and competition to exist.

 

I realize that within me being the point that stops ‘thinking’ about myself as an ‘ideal’ to uphold in relation to others, this point of survivalism as constant competition ends.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to perpetuate this monetary system that exists as imposed values onto ourselves/ who we are as one and equal in the name of our personal positive experience wherein our very nature is revealed as that of spite, abuse and constant competition in order for me to obtain my glory, attention and deification of who I am as personality/ energy/ ego as the mind through values that are translated into being successful/ surviving in this system wherein life is neglected and all that remains is money for one’s own personal power and glorification.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself t deny support to another just because of wanting to ‘see them fall’ and get my positive experience out of it, which is plain evil yet this is how the mind actually operates wherein we would rather see someone hanging from a cliff and get a kick out of it instead of unconditionally moving ourselves as equals wherein such extreme would not even exist as we would prevent at all times another from even getting close to the cliff, as I realize that the only one that I am spiting, abusing and excusing is myself as my own ego – thus, at all times when and I see myself waiting to see someone fall, I realize that I am only exerting the evil nature that I am here to correct, in the name of who we are as one and equal wherein all ego, all desires to win and be ‘above others’ is stopped at the very insinuation that implies seeing another fall for our own benefit and ‘position,’ rather than unconditionally supporting to walk as equals and realize that anything that leads us to ‘fall’ is self-created at a mind level = it is not who we really are and are able to stop, self forgive, correct it and make sure we do not allow ourselves to be defeated by our own participation in the mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have ever accepted and allowed myself to believe that we were born to compete and strive to get ‘the most of the cake’ within this world, wherein the ‘fall’ from another would signify one more chance for me to ‘make it’ and ‘be on top’ and ‘be the winner,’ which is only the consequence and outflow of our current monetary system that is implying that we cannot possibly exist as equals as that would imply the very death of our ideal of specialness, superiority, power and control over others, which is precisely what must be stopped in order for life in equality to be established as a living principle at all times toward all living beings in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see competition as a form of entertainment wherein I haven’t realized that I actually enjoy and get a positive experience out of seeing someone fall and get kicked-out/ lose as a way to vicariously experience the triumph in an imaginary way which is what the media’s purpose is about: generating experiences within the mind at the safety of your own couch.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not realize that who I am in this very desire of seeing someone fall is the absolute possession of evil as the evil nature of my own mind that I have accepted and allowed myself to become, wherein all that mattered is my own survival as ‘the winner’ as the one that is ‘always right’ and in this, seeing another’s fall as another triumph of my own expectations and prejudices toward others being ‘confirmed’ as ‘real,’ because of deeming the mind as something predictable and people as predictable patterns, without realizing that I am obviously within them mind also a predictable pattern that is only seeking to continue existing as that ‘self-righteous winner’ personality at the expense of the suffering and discomfort and actual disgrace that any fall may entail within a being’s life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to equate the fall/ the death of someone as ‘more space for me’ within the world, which is implying the ultimate self interest wherein I create only a mind relationship toward those that ‘fall’ and ‘who I am’ as one and equal is nowhere to be found, otherwise I would realize that only one that I have been spiting and separating myself from is: myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever consume myself within having constant thoughts of competition, rivalry, jealousy toward others wherein I am only ‘expecting them to fall’ so that I can finally get over with the constant conflict and be ‘alright’ again, ‘safe’ in my mind-throne, instead of realizing that I am able to stand as equal to anyone in this reality without having to create any form of rivalry, as this is only indicating that myself as the ego of the mind is wanting to exert its influence and abuse over life, which is unacceptable and I realize that it is in my hands and will the ability to stop this and any other form of separation that emerges and originates at  a through level – therefore

 

When and as I see myself participating in the very initial thoughts of comparison, jealousy, competition,  judgment toward others’ words, deeds, actions and already implying that they are ‘wrong’ and ‘I do it better,’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that this pattern leads to the self-righteous spiteful act of rejoicing when others fall, which is part of the building blocks of this current monetary system that is standing as the image and likeness of who we are as survivors, as constant opponents that only seek to ‘win’ to ‘thrive’ in this world, while neglecting the actual oneness and equality of life that we actually exist as. 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept a world wherein the reflection of y own desire to survive, win, be on top and in control of all is manifested as public opinion wherein rejoicing in another’s fall is a usual way of ‘having fun’ and gaining some power over others within our minds by the ability to laugh at their mistakes, falls and personal life problems – which is what political gossip, entertainment industries and any other form of media thrives upon. This implies that I have created an entire industry out of my own evil nature that is seeking to see others fall, ridicule themselves, make mistakes, reveal their ‘true nature’ – while ignoring that the only ‘true nature’ is the one that is able to pay for/ buy/ consume such type of entertainment as a way to make ourselves feel ‘good’ for a moment in the safety of our own room.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to proliferate an industry based on sensationalism wherein the reader is voyeuristically entertaining themselves through the stories/ images that depict the fall, the ridicule, the abject depiction of reality and create a ‘good experience’ of it by deeming it as entertainment, which is and has become one of the most profitable and abusive industries within entertainment, which reveals what makes the masses content is seeing another fall/ fail and ridicule themselves which proves that: this world is the undeniable creation of every single thought, backchat, spitefulness, judgment, comparison and competition that we form as Added Values to a reality that is simply physical and that should Not be subject of any form of lucre – yet it exists as a lucrative business due to the nature that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to exist as. Therefore, all abuse begins and ends with ourselves.

 

I commit myself to stop all forms of thinking/ backchatting in relation to expecting others to fall in order to prove myself ‘right’ and feel good about it, as I realize that this is the very nature of a system that we have accepted and allowed as ‘who we are’ which is promoting the principle of divide and conquer as the way to perpetuate the illusion of power and control over others – I realize that it is only through each one of us committing ourselves to stop as this constant projection of self-interest as the desire to always  win, be on top, be powerful and  in control of others that we can establish an equal and one relationship from the realization that who we are as physical beings can coexist in  equality without requiring to fight against each other to live – within this

 

I commit myself to create and establish a world system wherein Life is the only value that exists wherein no more survivalism will perpetuate the constant strive to live, fight to be ‘on top’ and exist in any form of self-righteous ‘power over others,’ as this will be proven to be the illusion and delusion of our mind as ‘our nature’ that sought to be always ‘more’ than who and what we already are as one and equal. This implies that reality as a living-physicality does not require to fight against each other to thrive, it is only the mind that seeks constant conflict in order to gain the most energy from it to continue existing and perpetuating itself as the occupier of this physical reality – which only implies that I commit myself to give myself back to myself all the relationships of separation that I have created as my mind, as the nature of ‘who I am’ as the result of the initial separation that I chose to ‘live’ within my exertion of self-righteousness over matter, over the physical – of which the consequences are now being visibly realized by all participants in this world.

 

I commit myself to reveal how it is that it is absolutely possible to exist as equals the moment that all forms of separation is stopped within our own minds, which implies that I walk the process to first stop me as my own backchat and participation in any form of comparison and projected superiority/ inferiority toward others in order to be able to stand in equality with other human beings walking the same process in order to finally stand as the new human nature that we all want to be and exist as, once that we have freed ourselves from our own cage that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to exist as in/ as our own minds.

 

I commit myself to expose the evil nature of our beingness that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become that rejoices in seeing others fall, in ridiculing and mocking others in the name of personal power wherein the only statement that is being presented is ‘I only feel good about myself when seeing others’ misery within falling’  and exposing the great profit that such vicarious entertainment is generating in this world, which proves that we would rather enjoy seeing others’ misery than walking a process to stop such evil nature and dare ourselves to become the point that stops any form of abuse toward another in the name of ‘personal power’ that can only exist as a form of abuse using the very life that keeps us breathing/ alive in the name of a mindfuck that gives a temporary kick as pleasure, as an addiction that we have all been consumed with/ and gotten money from.

 

I realize that the mind is able to be re-programmed, re-educated in order to serve life, serve all as equals wherein we act, speak and do that which is at all times considering life in equality – who am I as one and equal, which implies that there is no way to further continue our own separation if we are only directing ourselves according to the physical reality that is here to work with in tangible and physical matters that pertain all in this reality.

Thus, to stop the con-fusion and self-doubt that is experienced within a world wherein everything is just lies to make money, we have to make ourselves our own point of self-direction through developing common sense in a proper structure of self-support,  such as walking the Desteni I Process  as a lifetime commitment to Learn How to Live and start stopping the usual nastiness that comes when seeing others as ‘more’ than ourselves and waiting them to fall so that we, in our secret mind – can always end up winning against others. The only way to stop seeing your fellow human as an enemy is through walking the opposition and discord existent within ourselves, individually toward ourselves  through writing, applying self forgiveness and developing self-honesty to finally start living in consideration of who we are as one and equal.

Dare to expose the real evil in you as it is only through revealing to each other the very ‘secrets’ in our minds, that we can stop that binding bondage to our own damnation that emerges from a single thought that we accept in the name of personal power and identification – thus, through making ourselves aware of this, we are able to start getting to know ‘who we are’ within seeing others fall, who we are within participating in gossip, who we are within watching media/ news that make fun of politicians – who we are within bashing others in the name of personal glorification as ‘knowing better,’ while neglecting the fact that life has no preference, life has no value, life is not knowledge and life will never exist in a mind that believes itself to be superior to anything or anyone in this reality.

 

It’s Life’s way now.

 

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Learn how to Live:

• Are All Choices Damned?: DAY 44   

• Is Any Choice Ever Free?:DAY 45

• Day 44: In the Name of Love  

• Day 10: Redefining Words (Part 7) How to redefine words –Creative phase –

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• Atlanteans – Righteousness – Part 35

• The Consequences of Survival

• Life Review – Facing Gossip

• The Secrets of Competition