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491. From Tantrums to Self-Responsibility

After I wrote yesterday’s blog I kept looking at how we all have tantrums and they appear in various ways/manners like anger, frustration, hopelessness, despair, guilt, shame, regret, victimization, revenge, addictive behaviors and the source of it all which is blame in which we make ourselves believe that we are powerless to change things, to change the outcome of our creation, when it is really not so.

 

So in my case I’ll look at how I have created a pattern of using a high pitched voice in order to shift away my responsibility and so manipulate others to make themselves responsible or at fault for something.

It’s also interesting because when I had the chat with my mother, many times throughout my life whenever I have had my anger tantrums, she’s said: ‘you should have a mirror in front of you to see how you look like when you react like this’ and this was precisely mentioned in some recent interviews as well wherein, we could record ourselves while being in some anger possession or victimization possession and take a look at how our entire facial expression changes and in my case eyes widen up and all the muscles on the face tense up and in general, yeah let’s accept it, we look demonic to say the least. Well that’s ourselves allowing ourselves getting possessed in a series of gestures/mannerisms and voice tonality – of course words in that – which want to point fingers at/blame others for something that we have caused and created ourselves.

 

And I know how this looks in others but have I really looked at myself in the mirror in those moments, not really but I have played around enough in front of the mirror with different faces to know how scary it might look in fact, but the point is precisely to realize how we physically express ourselves when bringing through/channeling an energetic experience in ourselves, be it only a voice tonality or a complete set of facial expressions and even behaviors that become tantrumy like kicking stuff or throwing stuff around, which I’ve done in the past several times when possessed in complete anger. It’s not fun, I mean it solves nothing yet for some reason we allow ourselves to act out that energy that has been also piled up from a long time. So the solution is to go taking responsibility for our own creation, to be willing to look at how we got to create something and in doing so, remind ourselves of our ability to direct the situation without having to be reacting/going mad about it.

For some people this might sound common sensical, but for some others like with myself, it’s been life-long patterns where I can easily flare up to a boiling point and any outcome from it has never been anything good, but the other way around, a source of shame and regret for allowing myself to be so pissed off about something that I try to destroy everything around me in an attempt to ‘sort out the problem’ which is not the point at all.

Here I’ll look into using the voice tonality of disempowerment, victimization, whiney/why-me voice that has been such a prominent thing in me since childhood.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use a voice tonality that is high pitched containing strains of complaint, blame, frustration and victimization wherein I use it every time that I want to make someone else responsible for what I’m experiencing, for what I did or didn’t do and at the same time, it is implying a manipulation point wherein I want to sound ‘distress’ so that others will want to  ‘do whatever they can’ to make me happy/stable again if I keep talking this high-pitched and whiney, complainer-mode, when in fact this is nothing else but a series of reactions that I have created in order to abdicate my responsibility from what I caused or created, did or didn’t do.  The core of this is precisely seeing how I’ve adopted a manipulation expression from a very young age which I remember hearing possibly sisters do and so seeing how parents would obey to such whiney tones and do whatever they could to sort out the situation, when in fact what should be done by parents is Not to react to a tantrum, not to be moved at all by this manipulation tonality and instead keep firm and stable to common sense, to ensure that self-responsibility is explained to the kid from a very early age, so that next time we as kids can actually desist from even going into the ‘whiney’ mode because we will know by default that it won’t change anything and so, we rather focus directly on sorting things out, creating solutions or simply assuming and living through the consequence the best way possible to learn from it, and so prevent it in a future time.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to activate this whiney mode with people with whom I’ve grown to be very comfortable with like my parents and my partner, wherein I’ve noticed many times that I’m using this ‘whiney mode’ when I’m actually manipulating them to do something for me that I am not being willing to do, like assume my responsibility within something and instead use this whiney-tonality as a way to get them do as I say, which is tyrannical to say the least but unfortunately it did work some times while growing up which is why I have adopted this mixture of reactions as disempowerment, victimization, complaint, frustration, powerlessness into a voice that I expressed in order to manipulate others around me to get to ‘sort things out for me’ as I’ve usually done when I was a child and saw ‘parents’ as the ones that could ‘sort my mess out’ – not realizing that this is how we all become dependent on an ‘authority figure’ to sort things out for us, where we don’t learn of our creations and consequences, and instead simply learn to ‘throw tantrums’ to sort things out, which is nothing else but acting out in our minds to have someone else ‘do the work for us’ – this is the origin of self-irresponsibility and personal disempowerment at the same time, because then we will always be depending on ‘others’ to sort out our lives and experiences. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to manipulate people with a voice tonality that is a common way to get people to believe ‘I am in discomfort, I am not having a good time about something’ and so through the voice tonality attempt to manipulate others to attend my plea, to get to fix something for me, to do something for me that I am not willing to do out of laziness, out of not wanting to assume my responsibility or simply out of convenience, wherein each time I do notice a moment afterward that I have just manipulated another one to do this for me, and it’s not a great experience at all because I notice how ‘easy’ it came out and how ‘easy’ it was to obtain the desired outcome.

 

The correction point here is committing myself to be more aware of myself whenever I am already seeing myself preparing to bring out the ‘whiney-voice’ that is attempting to manipulate or show disempowerment about something – even complaint – so that ‘others’ can step in and ‘help me’ with things, which is where I have to stand on my ground, don’t give into my own sense of disempowerment and be self honest: taking responsibility for the things I am attempting to get others to do for me, not giving into the law of the least effort that seeks to manipulate others to do things for me – and as well, whenever I see that I genuinely could ask for help in doing something, I can do so in a stable, sober voice making a simple question that prompts an answer of yes or no to assist me, instead of having to bring out all sorts of reasons and justifications to get someone to ‘help me’ or ‘do something for me’ which are all unnecessary really and have become more of a mind habit than a real self-direction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a belief that the ‘whiney mode’ is a ‘cute way’ to ask for things, linking this to myself as a child where I genuinely had to ask others for certain things, so it became convenient for me to at times seek to be ‘the grown up’ and sometimes remain as a child that can still ‘go into disempowerment’ in order to manipulate others to do things for me, which I have to definitely grow out of no matter how subtle this pattern is in the way I speak it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have criticized many times people in my past – as friends/ people I knew – that I noticed would speak in this childish/whiney voice whenever they were asking something they wanted to their parents or partners and I would go into a judgment toward them of being ‘too childish’ and manipulative – again, forgetting that that which I am judging in ‘others’ exists in myself and I missed out investigating it within me first of all, which I can see now is very much still alive as a pattern in me, which hereby I commit myself to stop.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to conveniently speak in a high pitched voice whenever I am attempting to present myself as ‘needing help’ or ‘wanting someone to do something for me that I want’ which is a form of manipulation not only towards others, but towards myself, wherein I know I am becoming a fake expression of myself since I am aware that my voice in a ‘normal state’ is not at all whiney or high pitched, but can be very stable, settled, deep and without any ‘dramatization’ involved, so here I commit myself to not only become more aware of how I speak towards those people that are closest to me in a continuous basis = therefore that I’ve become more comfortable with, but also how I do this with strangers like with people I need to ask a favor of or need help of something with, to know that asking for a favor, asking for help does not need this whiney tonality to make it easier to get a ‘yes’ for support.

Here is then how I can stop this ‘whiney’ programming for once and for all, within and without of myself because if I can learn how to ask in a stable and regular voice manner –  I can then support to stopping the chains of patterns around manipulation and victimization linked to voice manipulation or high pitched tonalities of disempowerment,  based on the awareness that these are not best for all habits and ways that I would like to feed as part of our patterns in humanity.

Hereby then I commit myself to acknowledge my responsibility first of all Before jumping into an exertion of responsibility to others, attempting and/or seeking to get a solution from others to my situation through whining about it and instead, asses my responsibility, acknowledge the consequences, learn from them and move on.

Otherwise if I see that there is a point where I can genuinely ask others for support, I can do so in a stable, deep voice wherein I no longer manipulate myself or others, but be willing to accept a ‘no’ as an answer and be ok with it, knowing that at least I didn’t fall into a manipulation pattern to ‘get a yes’ – or get beyond my belief that I need to ‘manipulate’ with a childish/whiney voice in order to ‘get a yes’ to support me, and realize that what matters is the words and the asking, not the voice tonality or theatrics around it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to recreate the childhood patterns in me towards my mother every time that I take advantage of my relationship with my parents and bring up this ‘spoiled’ attitude of using a whiney voice whenever I want to get things to be done ‘my way’ or do ‘what I want’ and still manipulate through words and voice tonality, even attitudes in order to get my point of self-interest and satisfaction, which is really unacceptable to be continuing in me and so, I commit myself to stop seeing my parents as people that I can ‘still manipulate’ in one way or another through words, voice tonalities and instead, see them as my equals wherein I first make sure I take my own responsibility and create my own solutions, rather than seeing it ‘easy’ to just ask them for a solution or to fix something for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use whiney voices asking something from my partner where the intent behind it is to appear less ‘bossy’ towards him and something that I request and ‘soften the blow’ of asking something, instead of realizing that this is really deceptive and it does nothing, because if I was in his shoes, I’d appreciate a sober, frank and direct asking – as he is – rather than using manipulative ways to get things done. Instead I have to practice asking directly, without expectations, without manipulations, without ‘intentions’ as experiences in my voice in order to get my desired outcome, but be devoid of a hidden agenda and learn to simply ask, in a simple, stable and sober manner in my expression, which I commit to develop and practice every moment that I get an opportunity to do so from now on.

Time to grow out of these whiney patterns

 

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27. It’s always only been me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to identify everything and everyone I see with my eyes with a particular judgment that will allow me to believe that ‘I know it/ know them’ when in fact, all that I have been always been looking at is only a picture that I define and categorize within my mind according to the value schemes that I have created toward everything/ everyone at a face value, not realizing that everything I see is the reflection of my own mind as judgments, ideas, beliefs or perceptions wherein the moment that I impose this idea/ belief/ judgment onto others, I am becoming my own dictator over reality as I have not even allowed myself to get to know me as my own mind, and I have dared to judge and pretend that I know others just by a single glance at them.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to cultivate this idea within me as a child of being apparently able to ‘know what a person is all about’ just by looking at them, when in fact it was just me creating the idea/ belief and perception of such person through my own eyes

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was always ‘right’ when it came to the visual judgments that I would create onto others in order to identify ‘what they’re all about,’ wherein I never realized how I was becoming the very judge, dictator and boundary to actually get to know another, simply because of becoming my own selective-color function, wherein all colors as people/ personalities that I ‘didn’t like,’ I would not bother to talk to/ get to know simply because of deeming them as ‘not compatible’ with myself, which was only following the judgment at a face value of ‘who another is’ which is always only me reflecting my own value-scheme toward everything and everyone as separate from me.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become an elitist in my own mind wherein I would only be open and friendly toward people that at face value I would deem would be ‘similar to me’ or that I would be able to get along with, simply because of the image that I would perceive them to be, be recorded/ assessed as part of the people that are ‘cool’ and that I would like to communicate with/ get to know, while doing the exact opposite toward people that at face value I would judge as incompatible with myself, not being ‘in the same realm,’ and in that becoming the very separator that fuels the current existence wherein while standing divided in our personal-religions as self-image and constantly projecting judgments onto each other, we become absentees of the physical reality, wherein all that we have cared for is how we look/ how we present ourselves to then try and manipulate ‘how others will see us,’ which is all based in keeping track of my own ego as what I have accepted and allowed myself to become, a simply and image.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be perceived as simplistic by how I look, without realizing that in this I am still wanting and expecting to be ‘judged by others,’ instead of simply becoming the point that stops judging myself, creating judgments in my mind and projecting them to everything/ everyone wherein I have been constantly expecting to be judge because  have become the very perpetual judge myself toward me and all that I have deemed is separate from myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imprint an energetic experience of superiority every time that I could have the ability to judge another for ‘who they are’ and assessing whether I see myself as superior or inferior toward the judgment that I create of the, wherein I would then act accordingly toward them. This implies an automated experience hen being with people, regardless of them being close acquaintances or simply people in public places, which implies that I have become the very judge of my reality in separation of myself for the sake of constantly being assessing me as a certain ‘value’ in comparison to others.

When and as as I see myself assessing others to ponder whether I am ‘more’ or ‘less’ than others according to the judgments I project onto them that actually stem from myself and my mind only – I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am able to stop the judgments in the moment and focus on the physical reality to simply breathe and continue moving/ walking and directing myself in the physical reality.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to become angry at people that I would deem as ‘judgmental,’ without realizing that I had become the very epitome of judgment in its full splendor simply because of being able to judge another with the very same application that I was existing as in that very moment, which is the proof that when I am in my mind, I am always justifying my judgments and assessments as ‘acceptable,’ without ever really seeing that I was only playing out the secret judge in order to ‘be in control’ of my environment, seeking to be always ‘guarding’ myself toward potential beings that could be ‘judging myself, which indicates the level of my self-created paranoia toward others beings being constantly judging me, which was always only me judging myself at all times.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever become absolutely freaked out by people staring at me, because of me believing that they were judging me/ lusting at my image when in fact, it was all self-created as an idea that I have created of myself as a picture that can be infinitely judged and lusted upon, which has become an ingrained aspect of constantly ‘guarding myself’ from ‘potential judges’ which are mostly men that I have created a pattern of rejection and arrogance toward whenever I have believed that they are only judging me and lusting over my body.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become deliberately hostile, rude, laconic toward beings that I would perceive and believe to be judging me, when in fact I was only hearing to the backchat in my head that eventually would become my experience toward such beings, believing that ‘I was always right’ in thinking that they were judging me, when in fact several times I got to prove myself wrong, giving myself a slap on the face with a white glove, simply because I would then be faced with the remorse and regret of having judged someone based on my own value-schemes, which had prevented me from communicating with the beings. And when I was actually able to communicate with them, I would realize that I had simply been ‘wrong’ and ‘mean’ toward them for no reason, really.

 

So, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I always had to ‘assess a being’ to see  how I would behave toward them, which would be a usual ‘application-mode’ when meeting people such as ‘assessing them in my mind, ‘ to then see ‘what they’re all about,’ and then deciding who I am going to be toward them, wherein I would deliberately camouflage myself to fit the moment/ event/ person/ situation to mirror my own judgments toward such people, which meant that I would be limiting ‘who I am’ to a single judgment/ definition of how I perceive others to be, never realizing that it was Never about ‘them’ but always about me and how I would become the very judgments that I projected onto others, simply because of believing that ‘like attracts like, ‘ and in that manipulate the situation according to a desired outcome of being ‘attractive’ for others or existing as the exact opposite, all in the name of taking my ego for a ride of self-gratification by either adulation or rejection, reducing my life experience to being a constant on and off, in and out, good and bad, happy or dismal, fulfilled or unfulfilled, while always having missed the constancy and consistency that my physical body would grant myself with in every moment that it would endure my constant existence of self-judgment.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the game in society wherein according to what you wear, you become a character that is able to get along with similar characters, even when perceiving that I could have a no-image/ no –character simply because of within my mind, existing within this idea that I am the clothes that I wear and that I still want to portray myself in a certain image that can be identified as a particular definition that can suit in other’s minds as someone that looks always the same.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define what I wear as a projection of the image-based idea of simplicity, when in fact I am simply caging myself yet into another idea of ‘me being the clothes that I wear,’ because this would apparently allow me to be judged by others as ‘simple/ always looking the same’ according to the clothes that I wear.

 

I realize that the fact that I wear similar clothes simplifies my every day living wherein the focus is on how I experience myself within the clothes that I wear  – if they are physically supportive or not – instead of seeing them as part of the image that I define myself as and how I want to be seen by others, which is still existing as a point of expected judgment according to how others see me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever discriminate/ judge/ diminish people for what I would deem as a hideous attitude when in fact, all that I was judging was myself as a hideous attitude that I would actually become myself the very moment that I would dare to judge another as a ‘hideous person.’

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become a self-righteous person when it came to judging people/ assessing/ profiling others wherein I believed that ‘I as always right,’ which comes from the ingrained belief that I could in fact have some type of ‘gift’ that n no one else had when it came to being able to assess other beings’ life according to being 15 minutes in their house, hearing them speak, move, seeing what they wear, what they own, how they interact with others, wherein I would then create a definitive assessment of ‘who they are/ what they are all about,’ which now that I see, would usually end with perceiving most of the people to be just ‘fake’ and ‘hypocritical’ without realizing that I was the only critic and judge in that moment.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to sugar coat this automated judgment as ‘constructive criticism’ wherein I believed that through identifying someone’s flaws and strengths I was actually doing something ‘constructive’ in any way whatsoever, without realizing that such judgments can only exist within my own mind according to how I value and asses something/ someone according to my own mind-schemes of values acquired through a particular lifetime experience.

This means that any process of deliberating what is more valuable/ worthy within this reality and what is not, is essentially creating a world of further separation wherein we’ve got lost in categories, values, worth, seeking to be accepted and valuable at the eyes of others, never realizing that any ‘opinion’ or judgment created by another was only stemming from themselves as a reflection of their own mind – which implies that I have only been staring back at me every time that I tried to make a judgment about anything/ anyone.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever believe that by seeing everything in a beautiful manner = I would create beauty and happiness in my world, without realizing that I actually did create such experience not as an actuality, as an inherent property of the world being that of positivity/ beauty/ magnificence – but it only became a self-created projection as a mind-possession wherein in this desperate desire to seek for beauty/ and the experience of being ‘alive,’ I became my own positive-seeking demon, wherein I believed that things would happen to me ‘for a reason’ and that I was being rewarded by some ulterior forces because of being constantly seeking to see the bright side of the world, without ever pondering if I had only simply been the creator of such experiences within my own mind, without any actual manifestation of ‘beauty’ or ‘aliveness’ existing as an actual property of the beingness of  beings/ things in my reality.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that every time that I judged someone as hypocrite, it was me existing as hypocrisy staring back at me, as a judgment of my own mind that I created and used to project onto others in a form of superiority as in ‘knowing better’ and believing myself to be ‘not hypocrite’ because ‘I’ was the one that was able to ‘spot’ hypocrisy on others.

I realize that this unnecessary cycle of self judgment can be stopped when and as I see myself looking at another and perceiving them as ‘hypocrite’ – I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am only reflecting my own mind at another and that obstructs my ability to communicate and interact with another without any preconceived idea of ‘who they are’ based on ‘what they look like.’

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that every time that I perceived and judged another as ‘hostile,’ I was in fact simply reflecting my own hostility toward others, wherein I would reflect back that hostility as my own judgment staring back at me – this means that I would become the very judgment that I would project onto others/ or act out the exact opposite, such as deliberately being more friendly/ warm as per personality definition according to the situation I was in.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always become the judgment that I would project onto others in my mind, wherein I would be the actual cause of the perceived ‘communication gone wrong,’ wherein I would create an entire inner experience of being ‘misunderstood,’ without realizing that I had secretly projected a judgment toward another such as being ‘hostile,’ and as a response, I would become hostile myself and ‘shaping it’ into ‘my own personality’ which was that of self-victimization as in ‘being misunderstood’ when communicating with another.

 

When and as I see myself judging another as being hostile toward me – I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am simply reflecting back that which I am existing as in the moment of judging another, regardless of the ‘shade of judgment,’ I see, realize and understand that in order to stand one and equal to all and everything, I have to stop any automated judgment to exist within my own mind. I direct myself to continue participating in the physical moment without assessing the event further in my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that whenever I judged another as being probably ‘bored’ with me, it was me reflecting back what I was judging myself as in the moment, wherein through projecting my own judgment in my secret mind and not communicating about it, I would become that boredom and fedupness myself, wherein I would then be existing in an energetic possession of ‘boredom’ and ‘dullness’ that would set the tone for the moment when and while being with another, which would cause the entire point of communication to be non existent and into what I had perceived as an uncomfortable silence, while resorting to distract myself with any other picture/ image in my environment to shove away the experience.

 

When and as I see myself projecting the judgment toward others as ‘them being bored with me,’  – I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am in fact only projecting that which I am judging myself for, wherein through a process of becoming such judgment, I have in fact been the creator of my experience toward others, without having ever taken responsibility for it and instead, remain in the usual self-victimized state wherein I could remain secretly blaming another for what I would experience within me as a result of my own mind projection.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use what I see as a vice of self-judgment, wherein I believed that I had the ability to judge what is good/ bad, beautiful/ ugly, magnificent/ hideous and in that, becoming my own dictator that would create my experience toward everything/ everyone according to How I have judged others/ everything ‘outside of myself,’ instead of realizing that I am able to stand one and equal toward everything/ everyone by stopping all judgments and focusing on the physical reality that I am participating in the moment.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to identify myself with the image I see of myself in the mirror, which is only a reflection at a mind level of who I really am

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the image that I see on the mirror believing that an image is all that I exist as, when in fact this is what I have accepted and allowed everyone and everything else to be diminished to within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to identify myself as a set of preferences according to the pictures I see in reality, diminishing my beingness here in the moment of breath to become a single definition of what I have accepted and allowed myself to become, now that I see and realize that everything that I have always perceived/ judged and defined ‘others/everything’ outside of myself has only been me defining myself.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see that my believed ability to see another being’s nature by looking at them in one glance was only me looking at myself as my own mind.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that by me ‘judging people first’ before ‘them,’ I would take a certain advantage toward others wherein ‘I’ could be ahead of them/ superior to them/ faster than them in being able to judge myself – within this I forgive myself that I always accepted and allowed myself to believe me to be faster/ more ‘aware’ of people and the environment wherein I would be immediately assessing ‘who I would be’ according to how I had judged the person, the place, the environment, the situation in order for me to achieve the expected outcome, wherein ‘I’ could always win and get things done the way that I wanted.

 

I realize that I have only been always looking back at me, which implies that for me to be able to stand one and equal as my mind, as everyone and everything else, I must stop existing as a constant judge within my mind, wherein I make sure that I become the point that stops all values, assessments, perceptions that create further separation from myself being able to exist here as the constancy and consistency of the physical which doesn’t require to be judged in order to exist.

 

I commit myself to continue stopping any automated judgments onto people in order to be able to walk here in the world wherein no judgment as thought, energetic experience toward anything/ anyone is created which would indicate that I simply shifted into my mind to ‘think’ about reality/ the situation instead of simply living it.

 

I commit myself to stop believing that I have any special ability to assess people and ‘know them’ without even talking to them, just by face value, which I deemed as a ‘positive trait’ within me, without realizing that such characteristic is as flimsy as any other belief that I know and realize are not real, and that I have only been the creator of myself as this secret judge at all times, wherein I believe that ‘how I see people,’ is ‘who the are,’ in that in fact only becoming someone that fears being judged because of  me having existed as this constant judge myself toward me and everyone, now realizing that it’s always been me.

 

I commit myself to take back to self any judgment that I do see emerges in the moment to get to see how I created it and  practically walk it through writing, applying self-forgiveness for accepting and allowing such point of separation to exist within me and walk the necessary correction according to the realization that in order for me to stand here as one and equal, no point of judgment as separation can exist, for I don’t require to judge to breathe.

 

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2012 Death in every breath until life is all that remains

 

Realizing how we have suppressed and caged life within and by our own minds, creating the entire reality as that suppression of life, as the control of life in order to remain easily numbed by the perception of having to ‘attain’ something in separation of ourselves, while missing out the whole that is here as self.

 

This process is the realization of that ability we have to create ourselves and must not be taken lightly – I can only share it and if one is willing to live it, one will hear and walk along.


The world is divided and conquered within tagging on our ‘personal lifestyle’ – so the way to go is equalizing our lifestyle and world into equality. Words are the key here – one single sentence as one single rhyme that points out we have created this mess and lies, and that there’s no time to rest. We perceived we lost the key, while the key has been always here, beneath our eyes and above our mouths – breathing, living, realizing ourselves as the physical living flesh that has been tampered with our mind maze.

 

The consequences of our own imprisonment cannot be taken lightly as it is with this light that we have shaded reality; love and light we used as misleading words into an illusion of grandeur, a bubble of ethereal self interest that never considered that this physical reality is as real as us having to eat in order to continue living in.

 

Be that point of change you want to see in your world – you’ve got the common sense, so why keeping it to yourself? Dare to create a shift within yourself as who knows if there will be a ‘next’ time for that –

 

Stand as the sound that enables self-realization and gets to the ears the ones that are willing to Hear, to be Here, stopping spreading the ‘vibes’ that promote vile-ends within rhymes that forget that the one we oppose can only be myself within this ‘role’ of playing games to satisfy the lies that have kept sterilized from common sense, within the belief that we could only be ‘free’ with all the money and fueling each other’s greed.

 

Choose life – stop battling and self-loathing in a world wherein war is the ever presence in the back of our own heads.

Reflecting decay at all time – what have we accepted caged Life with? Some ideas as roles that oppose each other, that can love and hate and praise and loath from one blink of an eye to the next – is that what life is actually about? 

 

Our words are a self-supportive mirror that we can share in order to learn how to use words as self-support, not as carriers of the same old songs that delivered no actual support to this world that we built with every single word, that we mostly spoke out of scorn – never realizing that it was only self-here – the whole is the whole and there is nothing to be empty of. 

 

Standing up for Life  is not to fight, oppose or defend, it is about becoming aware that in order for us to live we have to take on every word, deed and thought we have powered within and by ourselves – and thus breath by breath we start to see that all that exists as life is me.

Ask yourself: what’s the substance that is moving me at the moment to exist? What drives me to create? Who am I within this point of expression? Is there a way that I can express this common sense within this expression that I create as myself ? If there is any fear of loss, you can know there is a limitation based on preserving an ‘idea’ of who we are – not yet realizing who self is as one and equal here and cannot be bent.

Reinventing is allowing ourselves to live and die in every moment of breath – daring to step into the unknown here as the integration of all missed bits of self here (life) and slowly but surely stop and leave the old behind (death.) Afterwards, only that which is real will remain: self-as-life here equal-and-one.

 
Applying this to everything we do and what will we get? 

Death of that self-protected idea of self as the necessary step for life to emerge – we are the only ones that built up the cage. Delivering the message of self responsibility is and must be a living extension if self realization is lived here, in every breath as self willing self to live  – self-expression that emerges as words that we have all longed to hear and live, yet never dared to figure out that: we are able to live them  if we simply stop and forgive ourselves to see that the the reconciliation is only one breath away.

That’s how it’s fascinating that everything I do/ say and think creates myself and my own experience in this reality, what a perfect way to trap yet support ourselves to inevitably be starring at ourselves the whole time, to not be able to break the mirror in a mind-blasting scene, but having to inevitably face it and live the correction until the reflection that I see is no longer an idea bound to ideas, judgments, fears, perceptions of and as a defined image of the mind – We are able to stand as self equal and one here, wherein the reflection is no more, because the mirror will hold no reflection any longer.

Once there is no image to correct – we’ll know there are no more definitions left, as self here would have pieced the puzzle back together again.

 

We have this lifetime to realize that: every moment counts, every breath is the opportunity to liberate the life that we have caged in all the bits of limitation that we created of ourselves as our mind. The mind is not the enemy, it is the perfect mirror to trap ourselves within an inevitable reflection of which we have all the tools to equalize ourselves to.

Who we are here requires no praise and no worship, no belief – who we are here is self-evident and the points to correct begin within ourselves, and emerge from the layers of self deceit, if we are self-honest enough to dare and see.

If you equalize yourself as the words you speak, people that can hear, will hear. Words are the carriers of the message, we become and stand as the voices that stir the wheel.

Jesus said  ‘love thy neighbor as thyself’ – ‘give to another what you would like to receive’ –  his message was ridiculed, opposed and later on turned into a 2000 + year old empire that stands against the basic message that he left. It is suggested to not become part of the ones that ridiculed life as you can only be mining out on creating your own destiny and ability to live.

We are the ‘second coming’ that is here as all of us, to finally birth life as the physical.  Ask yourself:
Do I want to live or do I want to die? That’s the question we all have to ask ourselves in every moment of breath here.

Let this not be words that come and go as the ebb and flow that our mind tends to only be stirred up with, but become the one that stirs the wheel in the only certain outcome that will remain in this world and reality: life in reality as what’s best for all in all ways, self here.

Breathing ourselves here

 

Reptilians – The Death and Rebirth of Self – Part 12


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