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The Breaking Point: how to live it & walk it.

There is a moment wherein we are faced with one decision: you take the blue pill and pretend you never heard of anything that could ever disturb your perfect little bubble OR you take the red pill and  you are virtually in for a self-directive ride wherein the only possible outcome is getting to actually LIVE for the very first time in all your lives this far.

 

The breaking point, the decision to live is made by choosing the red pill = choosing Life which first comes through doses that we take every time that we watch the Desteni material, every time that we read an article, every time that we watch and read fellow Destonians’ vlogs & blogs daring to expose the mind that’s equally existent in all of us – yes! that same mind that we had all kept away from the view of anyone and everyone, wanting only ‘us’ to be creating our magnificent little bubbles of existence apart from anyone’s awareness… lol at Desteni this is simply not possible anymore.
 
As we go walking this decision, participating in the forum becomes the most refreshing experience as we go by sharing ourselves, letting all our mind-programming out through writings which will also support fellow human beings at the perfect place to share, get perspectives from others and within that, correcting our view of ourselves and the world aligning them in common sense to realize where is it that Self Honesty exists in any given situation that we may face as human beings on this Earth – fascinating, such place hadn’t ever existed until now as the Desteni Forums.

 

Within walking this process it becomes inevitable to stop who we’ve been and become to finally start changing and standing up as who we really are, a new human being that is no longer bound to fears, judgments, prejudices or to any type of adjective that may tamper our actual expression that supports ourselves as LIFE – this new human being then begins a process of Self Realization which is not anything ‘magnificent’ as some would like to think it is or experience, yet it is magnificent from the perspective of giving ourselves a second chance to start all over again, to begin from an unknown scratch to create ourselves as these new human beings that are willing themselves to support themselves, to be living examples of how it is that the world would be a better place amongst human beings that worth themselves as life.
 
Yet this is not all nice and rosy, nope – this new stance will then clash and create frictions around the rest of our world wherein everything remains ‘the same’ = that’s the breaking point, wherein we have to make a decision to no longer being bound to the same old same old which is ‘safe’ even if we are certainly limiting or abusing ourselves within fears, prejudices and all other types of limitations that we’ve lived within those boundaries because ‘that’s all we’ve ever known’.
We had never considered that we could actually become someone different. This is then the moment where we stand for ourselves for the very first time even though the mind may scream ‘Nooo!’ and wants to ‘give up’ from facing ourselves and creates all types of justifications of why ‘the old’ is better than the actual fresh new start which is self directed and unexplored.
 
We fear the future that we haven’t created yet what we haven’t realized is that such future is being created by the same mind that is obviously wanting to remain ‘as is’ with no challenge or disturbance into its intricate perfected flawed-idea of ourselves that we’ve lived as ‘who we are’ this far.  Lol.

 

Ludicrous that we’ve actually allowed this ourselves – breathe
 
I can hardly relate to the person I’d saw in old pictures, yet it’s still me, I’m still facing myself and my past and the more I walk the more I shed and peel off the layers of that person that I once was – lol it’s quite cool to have a self-reference of ‘who we were’ through our writings, through pictures or even interactions with ‘old friends’ or family or whoever as the image that they had of us is certainly not the same as what we are now – and this is not only bound to hair and no hair, even though it is most certainly a cool an self-empowering action on a daily basis : D.

 

So to recap: the breaking point is that moment wherein we decide to finally let go of the idea/belief that we had cherished for so long as ‘who we are’, our ‘precious’ personality and ego that encompasses our fantabulous little bubble wherein we have created ourselves to be our wondrous ideal shaped and formed accordingly as a personality/ego that seeks constant confirmation of its existence by fellow mind consciousness systems yelling out ‘I’m Here!’, ‘recognize me!’, ‘acknowledge me!’, ‘I want your attention!’ – all ego based.

 

One of the points that certainly becomes a bit ‘tough’ is going through relationships as friends, family, partners and walking these changes as ourselves – some might remain – though in my case almost everyone was gone except for the family, yet what I want to share is that even though it seemed ‘hard’ at the beginning like letting go of my “friends” and my “life” I wouldn’t have changed this process at all, even the seemingly ‘tough moments’ are able to be transcended through constant application – man! It takes time yes so patience, consistency and diligence in one’s application is key here –

 

I’ll make the analogy of the shaved hair and my process: at first it took me quite some time to take the decision of ‘I’ll do it’ because it’s not one of those decisions that will give you ‘something in exchange’ or a ‘reward’ – it’s one of those self-willed actions that you take for you-yourself for the very first time as self support – yes awkward virtually very few will ‘get it’ on why you do it, irrelevant if they don’t though lol –
 
So, once the decision is made, you go through the actual process of ‘shaving your head’ which can be equated to that moment wherein you decide to support yourself, that first time you saw yourself applying Self Forgiveness, that first time that you Write Yourself to Freedom – such a cool and innocent moment wherein we are actually supporting ourselves for the very first time – same with the hair point as a symbol for Standing up for Life in Equality.
 
Then comes the actual facing of ourselves in the mirror – oh man! the shock, the initial discomfort, judgment, even hatred of what we’re looking as ‘ourselves’ – same goes when we start writing and revealing ourselves as what we’ve become – from there you know ‘there’s no going back’ I mean, once I decided to shave my head it was definitive as in ‘I will do it for life till I die or till Equality is in place in this world’ – such a stance is how I placed myself and directed myself within my process – walking through the breaking points no matter what, breath by breath- here integrating myself as the physical.

 

What’s awesome about walking as a group here is that: you’re not alone while walking through the breaking point – you got people reading, watching and supporting you in realizing how that is actually the way to ‘break free’ from our limitations as they have walked the same or similar points within their own reality – and even if at the beginning we want to sit and cry and give up, we walk through that point, we go through the process of actually accepting and embracing ourselves which is quite a point –  it took me quite a while to actually accept myself as a human being that’s not less than or more than but equal – that’s it –
 
Shedding self definitions is the most empowering thing and understand power is in each breath that we take as the ability to simply be HERE – not ‘thinking’ of ‘process’ but actually living it as ourselves.

 

That’s the actual simplicity of it and it’s been fascinating yet, I say: don’t worry if these words don’t seem to make full sense, each one gets to this point eventually wherein – taking the shaved-head analogy again – you simply stop judging yourself every time you look at yourself in the mirror and start embracing yourself as the physical human being that we are – that’s the point wherein we no  longer get our backchat as a constant self-sabotaging experience and instead we face, we expose ourselves and eventually stand with a shaved head, a clear mind and a constant stance that becomes who you are in all ways and all aspects of yourself – real characters of life –

 

This is in fact possible, we’re living it and I encourage everyone to realize that giving up is of the mind, there is no such thing as giving up life and all that we require to do is be patient with ourselves, be constant and not fearing ‘losing’ the idea of what we’ve become because it’s just that! an idea, a bubble in the head, baggage containing pictures, words, sounds, people, smells that we’ve defined as ‘ourselves’ – each definition we impose on ourselves is one single point of limitation to who we are as unconditional expression – yet it’s cool to see who we are as such definitions and go exposing it and walking them as that’s what’s cool of this process.

 

See, only the ego can be hurt and create such a heaviness about it – man! Life does not really ‘feel’ hurt or cannot ‘fear losing itself’-  lol that’s all mind survival and as such, we continue walking and breathing and facing ourselves going past the illusions and delusions that we’ve accepted as ‘who we are’.

 

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This process is the most liberating experience a human being has ever experienced on Earth and we have the ability to walk it and live it fully here and within that, being supporting others to breakthrough as well, it is quite amazing as we go expanding ourselves in Equality – the ego goes diminishing every time as we walk by, letting go of our world, bursting our bubble is actually stepping out of our jail that was only mental and never physical.

 

Once you dare to step into the seemingly ‘unknown’, you start realizing that it is the realization of who we are in simplicity as walking, breathing, shitting human beings that relate to others and have a life-time in this world – yes we know this is not currently the best way to live and that the system requires a complete reform, for that we propose the Equal Money System and we realize how it is actually important to care for this world as a whole, as ourselves because it is only then that we start seeing the greater picture and stop focusing on feeding our ‘petty little lives’ with our occupations up there in the mind.

 

Dare to walk, dare to embrace yourself as Life, dare to let go of the old to welcome the new that won’t just be another rusty program but an actual self-directive, self-willed attitude that supports Life in all ways – you’ve got to actually move this to create it, it won’t come your way – this is it.

We got his one Life – Let’s Do It!

 

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Motive-Action: No reason behind it but Self as Life

Through writing myself I discovered how throughout my life I had motivated myself day by day through relying on outside-points to keep going, I would hang on dreams and events that would ‘make my day’ – and I can’t deny about that being supportive in a way – yet it became obvious how depending on external factors lead to an experience of uncertainty within myself.

Motivation – self motivation – that was quite a point to walk through and still walking as I’ve had to let go of the dreams that became my motivation, I had to let go of expecting something of myself or someone that would ‘make my day’ – and by this I mean from seeing someone, from achieving something, from going somewhere – all about experiences, little flickering lights that would light my way so to speak.

Though once I realized that I couldn’t keep up to this, I had to become my own motivation, self-motivation yet I realized that I hadn’t actually cared for myself, I had built myself around an idea that was built in terms of how I wanted to be seen by others, in terms of ‘making a statement’ of how I viewed the world so in essence creating and molding myself as an apparent eccentric person that would still be defined according to the ‘center’ of society – this works in similar way as to how an atheist defines themselves according to the non existence of god – I did the same in terms of being the opposite of the ‘mainstream’ and within that, creating a ‘space’ for myself here in terms of being an outcast of sorts.

This indicated to me that I had created a limited space within reality where I could fit in, it’s fascinating because we’re the only ones that go creating such categories and ‘spaces’ like that, it’s not really something that is already-existent, we merely exist as this program that seeks for its ‘space’ and defines itself accordingly. So my ‘space’ was that of having never actually supported myself, never actually having embraced and accepted myself which made that motivation something quite difficult to walk through, because I hadn’t done something for myself, it all had been for the sake of something/someone else – and within that, I had to face the reality of the situation: I had never actually cared for myself to the extent of doing things as me for me –

Through writing myself I realized that such care wasn’t coming ‘naturally’, I discovered how anything I did was in relation to ‘the rest of the world’ and not really me being the starting point of it all – I didn’t care for myself and till this day I can say that such ‘carelessness’ lead me to self-abuse in certain ways that I’m still facing today.  This inherent desire to have another point to validate my existence – a.k.a. relationship – and seeking my worth and value within that became the modus vivendi for myself for quite sometime wherein I could only exist and define myself according to ‘who I was for such person’ – I couldn’t stand or bare to be alone and so within walking this process I’ve learned how to embrace myself, be by myself and get to enjoy myself again – such a self-given gift really, I realized how much I had forgotten about me within that, and I see that I still tend to do that which I am simply placing a ‘flag’ upon because, I can’t be focusing on ‘the outside’ more than I do on the ‘inside’.

Within this, self-motivation which is moving you for you, as you for the sake of supporting yourself entails first getting to stand within self respect, self-forgiveness is definitely a requirement to get to a point of dignity as ourselves, to finally allow ourselves to care for ourselves if we’ve never actually done that. When we realize all that we’ve done and how we disregarded our physical body, ourselves as life it comes as a bucket of cold water, yet it’s necessary for the sake of realizing that we’ve got to create that care, that acceptance and that self-support that’s never ever been promoted as part of what being a human being is, we’ve always been only taught to ‘work hard’ and ‘have great expectations of ourselves’ yet never actually learning how to motivate ourselves for ourselves within the understanding and acceptance of who we are as life – never has that been explained or even considered as part of being a human being.

The motivation that I’ve created for myself as myself doesn’t rely on hopes or wishful thinking of a better world, the motivation that I have is realizing that I’m part of a group of human beings that are standing up for life – I seriously doubt that I could’ve done this alone, by myself and within this it’s obvious that I realize that Desteni is that point available for everyone, all of us that are actually willing to support ourselves as life. The motivation that I’ve created as myself is seeing that I am no longer only supporting these systematic experiences wherein I would go seeking some feeling or emotion to ‘be alive’ but instead realize that it’s up to me to create myself as someone that is stable, self-directive and considering what’s best for all – in essence walking through the steps to be and stand as an actual dignified living being so that I can support in the implementation of a new way of existing – a new way of living in this world wherein we’re no longer motivated by money, by fame, glory or sex – but actually moving ourselves as the will of life we are to stand as equals and create a world that will be simply best for all – a reality that we’ll all be enjoying ourselves to live in.

At the moment I realize this is rather a point that seems too difficult to grasp, I get you – though, I am definitely here to stand as this point of self-support because I see and realize that my ‘life’ being miserably depressed lead me nowhere but to ensure I remained in a state of confusion, self abuse, eternal wonderings and most prominently seeking answers that would’ve made no difference to this reality whatsoever.

Here I place the importance of walking as a group – here I call on Desteni but we also place it within the context of humanity in its entirety. Finding people that are actually willing to care in equal terms has been definitely supportive from the very beginning. At moments where I can’t find that self-motivation, I take it back to the point of doing it for the sake of who I am as part of the group as equals – within that I can support myself in leading myself back to that self respect and self-support that I had realized is perfectly possible before. We’ve gotta ground ourselves from swaying back and forth within this –
If I move myself then it must be constant and consistence – this doesn’t imply ever only existing moving myself– this means within the terms of actually supporting myself in continuing this process as myself, supporting myself to remind myself what is it that I am doing here and how I am walking this as we certainly tend to lose that ‘grasp’ of reality at times. This is only a temporary bridge until we realize ourselves as self movement and within that not basing our application within a separate outcome or for a certain purpose/goal in separation of ourselves.
Equality is a point of motivation – finally dignifying LIFE as it always should’ve been – Self Honesty is  a point of motivation as it is within this way of existing that people will learn to consider all participants within all actions – this is the most excruciating part at the moment considering the state of possession we’re living as humanity – yet not impossible.
See, there is no ‘hope’ as I rather move myself to create a better future, there is no ‘faith’ required but on myself as that ability to reassure to myself that I can walk and breathe and do whatever is required to be done for the ultimate goal which is Equality as the certainty of who we are as life – this sounds ‘cool’ but in essence it is only within this that we can actually realize our full potential devoid of a personal interest that usually separates the outcomes into personalized ideas which is where people tend to go into ego.
Moving as one has a single outcome and motive-for-action: equality as life –within this it is the one point we can all agree is required to create and where we can all agree that our fullest potential exists. Therefore I have decided to live my life through this principle, to make myself the motivation for my own walking due to Equality being the single most prominent and important outcome that we require to realize as ourselves first.

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Self motivation:

Self is the motive to act and live to create a dignified living for all as what’s best for all which is best for myself wherein I am the beginning and end of my day to day living – there is no separate reason to it as I live by principle which is applicable to all equally and I move and create this as myself breath by breath through time and space till it’s done.

There is no ‘reason’ required to move, but only realizing myself as self will and within that the movement of it becomes self-motivation – always back to self without creating a separate point for me to move, act and direct.


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