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370. Desteni Insider: God, Spirituality, the Afterlife

 

Coming to the realization that who we are in this world is not working to create a better world made me seek answers to try and make sense/justify the suffering, poverty, wars, corruption, a lack of consideration to one another that I used as an excuse to remain only within a persistent process of questioning reality beyond what one is taught in school. I grew up being influenced by the ideas of there being ‘Life after Death’ and the dead coming through channelers or mediums to tell their ‘loved ones’ how they were alright and how everything was going to be ‘just fine’ for them. But also there were messages coming from a form of ‘brotherhood’ from which myself and my family would be getting all sorts of apparent protections and blessings in order to ‘do well’ in our lives. I kept questioning who exactly these individuals were and why in spite of them seeing the people that were seeking for help – being mostly desperately seeking money – was there no divine intervention to support them and end the suffering, end world hunger or even better: establish Heaven on Earth. All that was shared between these spiritual people were nice messages that gave hope and reinforced any kind of faith that would keep everyone waiting and expecting things turning out to their favor as a sign that this ‘god’ or ‘spiritual beings’ actually existed and were in fact on our side,  taking care of ourselves and solving whichever mundane troubled situation we were stuck in. Yet all of this seemed too staged, too dogmatic since it wasn’t something one could openly discuss due to the entire atmosphere of secrecy and reverence that existed whenever these beings would speak through the channelers/mediums that could only speak for a short period of time.

 

I was then familiar with the existence of a heaven or a spiritual realm beyond the Earth plane where the dead would go, yet we never got any answers as to why the world was in the verge of destruction and why us human beings kept existing in these ‘lessons to be learned’ somehow always yearning for a better living condition (translated to having money to live well and in peace) – these and many other questions were not allowed, it seemed that all that really mattered were our personal queries of any form of personal relationship gone wrong, or money problem which, if resolved, would only confirm our trust on these individuals within the belief that somehow we were being ‘chosen ones’ or ‘special’ for having this kind of contacts. It seemed unfair to me since I knew that everyone in the world could benefit the same way we were – apparently – yet others didn’t seem to agree since I had to keep it a secret throughout my entire life.

 

When watching Sunette Spies as a portal in the Desteni videos that were being broadcasted on YouTube since 2007, the in breath and out breath wasn’t anything unusual or weird to me, I instead thought I knew what was going on: I immediately assumed and believed she was a channeler/ a medium like any of the other beings I had witnessed throughout my life – yet there were significant changes that made me ponder ‘what kind of brotherhood/beings were these’ because the message somehow was quite straight, direct, there were no staged words or fancy presentations charged with the usual key words that the other beings I had witnessed before would express themselves with.  I started questioning more and comparing the Desteni Message to what I had heard before from what I believed were the same kind of beings: how come these beings speaking through Sunette were speaking as any regular person? How come they would be speaking about there being No God and reptilian beings having created the human being? Why were they not just leaving with some message of hope and ‘goodness’ rectifying that god is with us? Instead the reptilian point was opened which wasn’t any longer a mystery to me since I had also done a brief investigation on the subject prior to Desteni. Everything I thought I knew about channelers/mediums was debunked when I got to watch the video and read the articles related to channeling (Kryon – Pre-programmed Channels, Questions and Perspectives: Unconscious Mind Pre-programmed Channels, Questions and Perspectives: Continued pre-programmed Channels , Questions and Perspectives: Oneness and Equality with regards to ‘Channelings’ , Questions and Perspectives: How was psychics and channels controlled and why? , 2007 History of Mankind – Part 16 – Anu’s Plan – YouTube) explaining why it was also part of the program and why all forms of ‘light beings’ were part of the deception on Earth to keep individuals trapped in the belief that somehow, there was a benevolent god, that love was the way and that we only had to continue aspiring to have some manifestation of the divine through thinking positive or asking things to the universe. All of this was the real scam and later on understood as the cult of money that it has become nowadays (Read: Day 450: The Power of Now Illuminated)

 

So continuing with the previous post 369. Desteni: An Insider’s Report what I came to realize is that everything was in fact a preprogrammed and predesigned reality construct that we have been living in wherein even the higher beings, the gods, the ‘supreme energies’ that I had placed any form of belief upon were in fact also part of the reality design that we have all been participating in within our minds and in absolute separation of the reality that was certainly existing in complete dissonance to all the benevolent words we would get within the New Age culture – all of this was perfectly schemed as part of the diversion to never get to question ‘God’s creation’ and the beliefs we have acquired through familial and cultural tradition, all being part of the necessary programs that we have within and existing as Mind Consciousness Systems. This is when the point of enslavement was understood. I grasped how perfect the plan had been wherein everything in this world was in reverse and every single aspect of who we have believed ourselves to be as human beings in terms of the spiritual endeavors, seeking gods, bonding ourselves within religions, seeking eternal life, seeking the philosopher’s stone had been nothing else but a nice game that we blindly followed, never ever questioning why is it that we only sought our personal enlightenment, happiness and comfort? Why were we just expecting some god to do the work for us, or have these ‘special connections with a higher force’ while the rest of the world was submerged in suffering and agony due to lacking the necessary means to live which is the same as: lacking sufficient money to live; furthermore, why were all of these people suffering absolutely unaware that there were apparently some spiritual beings that could grant them healings and protect them from ‘all evils’ – apparently. This all made sense to understand how the vilest form of enslavement had to have a very agreeable and sugar coated image in order to be unquestioned and undoubtedly accepted as ‘truth,’ how our constant need to ‘seek god’ was just fearing to realize we are here alone and responsible for every single aspect that has gone wrong in this world, how the enslavement of humanity had been part of a ‘greater process’ by a few individuals that wanted to ‘be Gods’ in existence – it was all revealed to be a sick cosmic joke that we have all been a part of, life after life.

 

As I went through the material, I committed myself to remain skeptical about that which sounded the most fantasy like to me, simply because I could not witness myself the ‘other side’ or ‘the afterlife’/heaven  yet, once again the consistency of the message from the hundreds of beings from all walks in existence speaking through the portal lead me to realize that the final message was quite clear, consistent and made absolute sense as to why this portal had opened and why we they were calling out humanity to walk a process of Self-Honesty. I understood then how all the New Age agenda, the spirituality movement, the promoted ways for ‘peace of mind’ through meditation and seeking to align your chakras to be in resonance with god had been nothing else but a self-interest brainwashing that I had briefly participated in within an attempt to make my life less ‘miserable’ or as I experienced it to be miserable in my existential woes and ever present form of depression. After understanding religion, love, spirituality, channelings as a pillar and essential part to this enslavement of ourselves in our minds, I was ready to leave that all behind and instead begin walking a very different path that I never ever thought I would place myself in: letting go of the idea of god, of spirituality, of something or someone greater than me in order to get to know me as a creator in this reality.

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What I came to realize was that we were truly all alone as human beings, we are the direct creators of the reality that I was wanting to escape from or completely eradicate or disguise with some ulterior beliefs about a genuine spiritual realm that we could somehow rely to in order to be supported or saved in worst case scenarios by invisible beings or forced of the ‘goodness’ that I thought existed beyond the Earth plane, little did I know it was exactly the opposite that this reality existed as.

These realizations led me to understand how I had veered my life to seek answers and make someone else responsible for the mess on Earth due to the fear that I had about who we are and what we have become as the real perpetrators of our crime scene: the world-system imposed on the Earth. This was what partly caused the emotional breakdown that I had to go through in order to be willing to see beyond what I had initially sought to find at Desteni which was just ‘more of the same confirmations about the goodness in existence’ I was wrong. For the first time I had a crystal clear understanding that if we don’t stop deluding ourselves in spirituality, religions, gods, masters, etc. we will continue to abuse and eventually destroy ourselves if we don’t stop.

I went from being a profuse reader of religions, philosophies and watching all kinds of conspiracy theories videos to a more down to earth verifiable investigation of the state of the world; while being subscribed to the DesteniProductions YouTube Channel (2007-2011) we would regularly get all kinds of documentaries and videos that would expose the reality of this world: poverty, crimes against life, corruption in the political world, the destruction of nature, the abuse of the animal kingdom, the conspiracy theory that our economy and monetary systems are, the madness of the human mind, including spiritual messages that were now clearly understood as a genuine scam to divert the human’s attention from the real problems we had provoked in this world. I was taken aback due to the realization that I had mostly avoided watching the full graphic reality that takes place every single day in this world – It made me angry and sad at the same time, going into a depression upon realizing to what extent we have all been too focused on our personal endeavors to get all kinds of gifts from the universe, attract all the money, health and all the ‘good stuff’’ in our lives, aiming at living a happy fulfilled life without ever really wanting to understand how such nice life was in fact being manufactured/produced/created by every individual that is existing in a slave position that earns the daily bread through creating our personal heavens, the real and actual forced labor that exists in this world happens when having no money means: you die.

The sensitivity that I claimed to have toward the world, the usual depression that I would allow myself to be in whenever I would go out in the streets and witnessed the misery, the ‘soft violence’ and constant fear that we all existed in became slowly but surely debunked as the mechanism to protect myself from actually understanding my responsibility within the creation of the problem in this world. I came to understand that my sadness, my depression, my ‘wanting to end it all’ was another form of manipulation to not take responsibility for myself and this world –the constant belittling believing myself to be ‘too little’ to make a change in this world was exposed as a personality trait that had lead me to stand in the background, to choose seeking to create images and pictures that ‘made me feel good’ in an attempt to seek something of ‘real value,’ something ‘greater’ and meaningful to do the work for me, to protect me, to give me some comfort and happiness while pretending that I could ignore the harsh and crude reality that exists for every individual that somehow we have all collectively decided do not deserve to have a dignified living, and yes I realized I am part of the clan as a human being that have accepted and allowed this without a question throughout ages. I understood my self interest to only have a ‘good time’ in this life and be ‘against the system’ while seeking some higher connection with the spiritual realm that I believed was ‘what was real’ – I was wrong, I was absolutely blind.

 

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What became clear was that such ‘nasty thing’ that I had avoided to talk about and pretended to ignore was suddenly understood as the ‘real god’ of this reality: money and this was the simple message that I could clearly reference within my world due to having been keen on politics and sociology before my ‘spirituality’ phase that I had resorted to due to having been too disillusioned of the political and economic world that going to the opposite side was just another shot at ‘making it’ in this life. I had to go back to reviewing the facts of this reality, the same one that is here the moment we go out from the comfort of our homes and the money we have in our wallets – I realized it wasn’t ‘god’ giving me this life, it was money and so my spirituality trip came to an end within the realization that everything I had participated in was a feel-good story for me-myself and I in the mind and that it had made no difference whatsoever to the genuine struggle that the world is sinking in and is continuing to sink in, in spite of this also having been foretold by the various beings through the Desteni portal in 2007 . Five years later and humanity is still opting to hear the feel good fluff rather than walking through a process of self-investigation to see ‘who am I’ within this world, what is my responsibility within this and  how can I practically contribute to stop the madness in here in order to establish the constant and consistent message that Desteni presents and represents: Life in Equality.

 

I started shedding away the beliefs I had held till then since I understood it was only a mindjob in order to justify the worst crimes in our reality, including the monetary system as a belief system, the idea of self as a self-religion and the seeking of my personal desires as a self-interest life path that was contributing to the enslavement of the many and the ignorance that exudes from every corner of this world wherein we are so used to buying and consuming happiness and avoid anything that makes us re-consider who we are, what we’ve done and become and what we are here for.

 

Slowly but surely I made the decision to become an advocate of the rather ‘harsh’ side of reality in an attempt to provide sufficient evidence and personal realizations for all spiritual and religious devotees to hear about such as there being no god, we’re It and there’s nothing and no one coming to save us: we have to do it ourselves.

 

Once stripped from this individual aspect of spirituality that had lead me to voraciously read the articles on the desteni.org website and watch the videos available, I came to the conclusion that I had to obviously do something about this. It was impossible to now turn my back and pretend I didn’t just hear that, it would have been impossible for me to lie to myself any longer – so I directed myself to what was explained to be the practical process that each one of us could live by and apply: the process of Self Honesty through Writing ourselves to Freedom, Writing and Applying Self Forgiveness, Developing Common Sense and Dedicating ourselves to get to know who we are, how we came to be to begin stopping existing as a preprogrammed organic robot that gets to experience highs and lows in various personalities for all the various ‘life scenarios’ and occasions. That’s when I determined myself to be part of this process, because all of the enigmas about god, the afterlife, the creation of humanity were explained in such detail and with such consistency that the key to create and establish solutions on Earth existed in fact within our individual participation in this process – so, if this was the solution I made the decision to do it, I had to finally try these tools that they were constantly explaining and directing everyone to apply. This meant that I had to actually do the whole Process, I had to test the waters and see whether this was ‘for real’ or not – and so I committed myself to this, wanting to be ‘part of it all’ yet not really yet grasping the actual importance of this process on Earth and the changes that were to come within my world, this certainly was No longer an illusion.

SAYING THAT ‘THE WORLD IS AN ILLUSION’ IS AN ATTEMPT TO SOLVE THE PRIMORDIAL PROBLEM ON ‘WHAT IS REAL/ WHAT IS REALITY’ AND FOLLOW THE LAWS OF THE LEAST EFFORT AND ‘SEEKING/ FOLLOWING YOUR GREATEST EXCITEMENT’ TO NOT HAVE TO FACE AND CARE ABOUT THE WORLD/ REALITY WITHOUT SEEING THAT THIS WORLD/ REALITY IS AS REAL AS WE HAVE TO EAT, SHIT, DRINK AND RELATE TO OTHERS TO CONTINUE EXISTING IN IT. HOW COME THAT WE AS HUMANITY DARED OURSELVES TO SIDE-VIEW THE MOST BASIC COMMON SENSE IN THE NAME OF JOY, HAPPINESS, FAITH AND HOPE? EASY, IT’S NICE TO REJOICE IN THE MIND AND NEGLECT OUR RESPONSIBILITY WITHIN IT ALL.

This will continue…

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The blog that explains it all : Heaven’s Journey To Life

 

Related blogs/ vlogs debunking spirituality – 

A selection of my investigation through the Desteni Process

2012 Life After Death–Interdimensional Portal | Testimony

The Video Tolle Doesn’t Want YOU to See

How to Raise Your Frequency (Ask Teal Episode on Increasing Your Vibrations

Spirituality and Capitalism Make sweet love through Hicks

2011 Pretty Happiness Machines – Vlog the Hell Out of this World

2011 AbrahamHicks – You Are Perfect As You Are – Video

2012 Spirituality and Activism Won’t Change the World – YouTube

Eckhart Tolle – Nirvana Is Already Here –

The Biggest Missing Piece – Abraham Hicks –

Fears and white light beliefs

Don’t try to get rid of the ego!” – Alan Watts’ review

The Jesus Message is Not Religious –

2010 ¿Spiritual Consciousness? Where’s the MATTER? –

2012 Positive Thinking Debunked! Heaven’s Journey To Life

2012 I Used to Be a Loving Person –

2012 Religious Consumerism: God is in the TV

2011 Vatican Exposed & the Faithful Deceived –

2010 EQUALITY: The END of All Religions

2012 Doomsday Character: Sick of Humanity?

2012 Existential Woes: Stop and Know Yourself

2012 Organic Self-Indulgent Lifestyle –

11.11.11 Opening Of The Portal Of The Divine

2012 Walking with Desteni: Why I could Hear the Desteni Message – Part 1 –

2012 Walking with Desteni: Why I could Hear the Desteni Message – Part 2

The Secret History of the Universe: The Discovery of Light –

2010 Do You Want to Be ETERNAL? –

Bruce Lipton ‘ The Power Of Consciousness’ –

2008 I used to believe in a god

Law of Attraction is Based on Memory

Why isn’t Love an Illegal drug?

2012 Love is a Drug: Are YOU an Addict?

Life After God

135. ‘The Secret’ CULTivates Narcissists |

future and white light crap |

Day 11: I.O.U. Life as a Debt System of Power

Occupy LOVE: New Activist Brainwashing

2012 R.I.P. God |

2011 Desteni Portal: Objectives

Desteni y las Teorías de Conspiración

How I was able to Hear Desteni?

In Heaven Everything is Fine

 

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282. What do Spirituality and War have in Common?

When one speaks about the truth of ourselves which is describing the reality we live in/witness every day and use basic facts like children being maimed and have their limbs blown off by bombs because of a war that was founded upon a seemingly ‘positive thing’ such as ‘eradicating terrorism’ –or whatever the final reason is kept to be – and justifying it with things like defending a nation from external evil, this explanation is then received as a radically Negative message. However this comes from people that would rather pray or indulge in 24/7 with Positive thinking and mass distractions – or mass destruction by seeking personal satisfaction and pursuit of happiness, hooked on so many ubiquitous drugs that have lead people to bankruptcy, losing all their functional relationships, ending up living in tents and cars managing to panhandle just to maintain an addiction.

What’s all of this? an indication of fear: fear of facing ourselves as the mind that we are and have become, that’s what generates crisis: allowing our indecision and irresponsibility to build up to such an extent that we get angry at the world instead of facing ourselves first and this is the origin of protests/rebellion, and its counter part where people would rather seek for peace of mind through attracting all the positive to your life while fearing to see this reality of ourselves that’s becoming to hard to overlook. It’s like running away from ourselves, really.

 

Why would we require positivity/ spirituality movements/ new age exist? Because the negative is what has always prevailed in our society, no matter what –that should already be an indication of how that which is ‘effortless’ such as seeking for our personal benefit, our self interest and competing to ‘win’ at all times seems like a natural instinct for the majority of beings, isn’t it? Hence when such desire is not fulfilled because of the physical reality as our world demonstrating to us our creation as the direct outflow of irrational thinking manifested as our world-system, we turn to love and light and positivity to hide from it, because we can’t just  bear the fact that we are in fact our own worst nightmare and enemy. And yes, this is what creates Fear, the Fear to face ourselves as what we have become.

People would rather pray for the ‘fallen ones’ in war before questioning why does war even exist in the first place, what is ‘in it’ for us to accept war as part of a country’s ‘defense tactics’ justified by the law of ‘an eye for an eye’ as retaliation to purify one’s “honor – this is the principle of war: masking real evil with noble intentions, creating deliberate occupations that are not meant to ‘fight terror’ but rather get a country’s ‘black gold’ that happens to be the motor of our current unsustainable lifestyle that we seek to improve through obtaining more money and more positive thinking – full circle of consumerism sanctified as holy freedom rights.

 

 

 

You drop out and tune in to the TV god that promotes several ways to free yourself, like buying lots of stuff you don’t really need, informing yourself about histories being told by those that would want to keep a certain order of this world and many spawns of religion in the form of spirituality programs and new age thinking that’s fed on a constant basis for massive indoctrination, supporting the surrendering to the here now moment of people that will feel like they’ve finally won a battle against the mind! Yet this is the perfect drug in fact, one so addictive that is hard to refuse and even harder to quit because it is not even considered as something harmful and detrimental to one’s common sensical reasoning and sanity: love, light, beautiful pictures and stories that keep us well contained in a parallel reality where no actual facts exist, where all the ‘ugliness’ of the world is covered up and justified with further things like god being wise and knowing why he would make some deliberately people left to suffer, and not even dare to question god’s word even if it means that we would be forever damned to see others starve while those with money can be thankful for our joyous lucky ride in life. Not a care, not a dare about how their system is being created, legalized and implemented by a set of deliberate flawed laws wherein people have not yet realized the actual contract one is endowed with from the moment of birth: to be a slave  to a corporation called nation that competes with other corporations/nations to make the most profit in this corporate-driven world – citizens are no longer humans with ‘god given rights’ but  employees with limited access to food, water, shelter,  drugs and weapons supplied to keep everyone feeling like there’s some freedom and liberty, feeling all happy and self righteous. with a moment of ‘entertainment’ while feeling safe at home. Hell yeah.

 

How have we come to accept our world as is and how have we come to invest our time, effort and resources  to disguise the massive totalitarian control that’s taking place. The charismatic leader is, unfortunately, not going to be someone like the usual fascist clichés imposing fear through  energetic personalities, but quite the opposite: it won’t be one single person, it won’t be perceived as ‘negative’ and it won’t seem angry – it is an ideology, it spreads like a feel-good drug that is easily indulged to by your own acceptance and allowance of thoughts that lead you to experiences that make you feel ‘good’ inside your mind and it will be presented as the ultimate remedy for a troubled angry hopeless human mind: Positivity. And yes, unfortunately in can only work if you have enough money to feed yourself to use up that energy to generate all the positive thoughts that we are so ignorant about in terms of what are the effects thinking and imagining create in this world – and not outside, as that is once again, our truth – but in the inside as in consuming our own living flesh to power up our own new-clear mind plant that we run inadvertently without ever pondering what the effects are of the words in our reality as building blocks of our creation.

 

Hence we go back to square 1: why would we require wars to get someone else’s resources through violent (vile-ends) means if we could instead establish a world system wherein resources are equally given and received?

Power requires abuse and the means to obtain it have been justified –we’ve done the same when seeking spirituality/ benevolence and our ‘prosperity’ that is composed and formed by a plethora of articles and services made and given by people that have no option but to work in such demeaning jobs with no other alternative.

 

In terms of war, it should be absolute common sensical reasoning that you cannot fight fire with fire and fighting terror with war is just that –would this prove that the level of intelligence and critical reasoning has been deliberately lowered in order to maintain an entire world driven by money, being busy seeking happiness through money that buys the sex, booze, drugs and a self-righteous superior position to ensure that there are always those that are enslaved to maintain the ‘life of the fortunate riches’ that are, at the same time, also consumed as an entertainment product that is bought/paid by those that live such menial lives that seek for a bit of ‘escapism’ from the dread of working to die and what do you get? TV and the most trivial entertainment that ensures people remain in this endless loop of barely making a living and using the little free time left to run the well known course of the seeking-for-something loop of god, sex, money, drugs, partying, remaining in isolation or openly hating each other to create excuses outside of ourselves as points to blame or get easily annoyed by, to then justify the personal desire for ‘inner peace’ through positivity or retaliation through war or killing your noisy neighbor.

  This is how the inner-demons are fought with light/love/positivity, not realizing that light also runs its course and cannot be sustained forever, just like ourselves in this world: what’s the point in going through an entire lifetime of endless battles within and without of ourselves? Is this what we are here for? I would say this is what we have created ourselves to exist for, which is different: we decide at all times what we do and how we live.

 

The inherent self-experience that we believe we just can’t get rid of-hence turning to love and spirituality as a cure, is definitively addictive pattern based on the lack of understanding how our mind works/operates, because just like the analogy of dark and light: the dark does not require batteries to exist, and the light does and as such, just like our oil that’s keeping our current ‘lifestyles’ in place, it will also come to a dead end in a not so far away future that’s already here.

 

What will run out first? Oil or Hope? I would like Hope to be the answer to this question, so that practical living measures are taken immediately and stop the inaction,  because we are in fact aware of what we are generating and perpetuating every single day and we realize one thing: we know the problem because we are it, we just haven’t realized to what urgency a solution is required to be in place so that we can all stop battling ourselves inside seeking for some comfort in the light that lead us to wage wars to  power/ sustain such light/positive/  progressive self experience, which is what we are currently seeing as all the beautiful pictures of what a wonderful lifestyle we can have if we just dare ourselves to dream and think positive. Nevermind the millions abroad fighting for a war they believe is a ‘higher purpose’ for a godly-blessed nation, nevermind those that work as slaves to produce such wonderful life.

 

Investigate Desteni to understand the inherent fear that we seek to mask and cope with by seeking spirituality, the same way that in fear we created money to create control and abuse – Equal Money Capitalism is the proposal to finally stop the massive destruction and abuse that is imposed when granting each other’s ‘rights’ in the name of self defense, because there will be nothing to ‘defend ourselves from,’ because fear will be understood and stopped within the understanding that we can only exist in fear when disregarding all parts of ourselves as equals.

This is a practical common sensical solution that will stop people from hoping and praying and instead use the available support to develop a real sense of physical living of cooperation and mutual regard in equality. No more will the sugar-fueled addiction of spirituality and love armed with righteous guns exist. Will this be a hard one to ‘give up’ here? Will common sense prevail after all?

Let’s find out – I dare you

 

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273. Honoring Life and our Creative Force in Equality

When looking at what we have learned to express as and dedicated our lives to as humanity, it’s not been to honor each other as equals, we didn’t learn from our parents or at school how to do that – we instead learned how to compete, how to win, how to ‘do whatever it takes’ to become number one and feel proud about it. We never learned how to direct our every breath and every moment consideration to nurture ourselves, to become better living beings, to learn from others, to support others to strengthen ourselves and themselves, to cooperate and realize the true harmony that can create in this world. Unfortunately, we have only learned the opposite: to only care for ourselves, our loved ones, to respect authorities that abuse the majorities, to vote for that which will ensure My security and satisfaction while neglecting those that will be affected by such measures, to deposit our time and workforce to maintain a system wherein no one is living ‘happily ever after’ yet still believe that such thing is possible.

 

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Our civilization is like a fractal from the perspective that we can take any part of it, anywhere in the world, study the patterns as the forces involved in creating the patterns that such part/piece of reality is presenting and we will be able to realize the limitations, the abuse, the suffering, the negligence, the harm and also all the benefits and good living conditions generated through the use and abuse of such resources/space/people/living beings.

When I began writing about this point within looking at sacred art the same points exist: we learn to revere to a reality according to the pictures that we are then taught to venerate, to obey and we get certain belief systems imprinted wherein we are able to justify such abuses – like no one questions why people are still living in shacks made of cardboard and aluminum sheets in certain peripheral areas of our ‘great cities’ but billions are invested in freeways, constructions of the greatest quality, multi-billion projects for malls and other centers that ensure more money will be obtained through such investment – but, what kind of ‘profit’ can one make from building proper houses for people? If you are the company that builds such houses, you can earn great profit with the right connections, however the materials of such houses are most likely flimsy and of the lowest quality, why? Because we haven’t learned how to honor each other as equals and we give to another that which will cost us the least so we can earn the most. Haiti is still struggling to recover after 3 years of the Earthquake and the world keeps turning without any substantial support being given to people that have no basic sanitation/ toilettes/ running water and sewage which in itself is currently the cause of the cholera outbreaks that are becoming a chronic situation there.

It is impossible to not look at my comfortable position and ponder how on Earth one can feel ‘happy’ in this world while billions of people that are equals in essence to myself are going through hell every single day. And all of this is because we have learned to honor money and not life. We have learned to trust invisible gods to make a change instead of us taking the responsibility for our creation; we have learned to rather applaud the great civilized world of wonders, luxury, opulence and ‘divinity’ while turning a deliberate blind eye to the reality that we are neglecting in order to ensure that we ‘keep on dreaming’ and never look at the other side.

 

The point here is to realize one thing: in the end, everything that we are currently securing our lives with is a make believe system that is no longer sustainable, just as the gods and religions that are slowly but surely coming to pass as more young people realize the fallacy that it is to venerate gods and money that is destroying the Earth, and it’s not a power that god and money have in themselves, it is the way we are currently using Money which is the problem. And currently our lives are revealing their ‘real dark side’ in order for us to realize that we have really fucked up. We cannot continue venerating gods and money that is deliberately becoming the most lethal drug that we are all consuming on a daily basis, and we have to understand that such lethal drug is the mind and who we are as the mind is the one that has accepted and allowed any form of power in separation of ourselves, any form of symbol as ‘more’ than ourselves and any creative force place at the service of forging these very same symbols and structures determined to implant belief systems that have ruled humanity from the very beginning of our civilization.

This is also in conjunction when looking at human history, all continents and their prehistoric times wherein all that remains is all the archeological residues of civilizations and all the representations and ‘great works’ that were mostly dedicated to create this ‘divine’ idea of the human being, adoring gods and forces of nature outside of themselves, learning to consider the ‘greatest forces’ in this world as ‘bigger’ and ‘more powerful’ than ourselves, and in this abdicating all sense of reality when it comes to really looking at what it is that we are praying for/ venerating/ building, what type of values, what are we really creating a sense of respect for, what are we placing on pedestals and as such, also looking at everything that we are mostly neglecting and brushing aside as all our ‘backchat’ and secret mind transformed into the ‘ugliness’ of the world that we constantly feel the need to ‘spice up’ – it is unsustainable now to hide behind gods and good spirits since even drugs and alcohol are turning the ‘party’ into a nightmare and horror screening in real-time.

 

Within all of this it is just a reflection of everything that I could realize just by observing some ‘marvels’ of sacred art and the history that exists before us as humanity, and the thing is that throughout all of this time there has been no equal and one consideration of who we are as living beings toward each other. Proof of that is that we rather employed our work force to create gods and ‘precious items’ to make ourselves ‘more worthy’ than developing any form of Self-Honesty and consideration of what is best for every single living being in this world. There was non, and the fact that many people are Still venerating any god – either money or religious god – generates the point of abuse necessary to maintain this current system in place. Yes, you read properly: abuse required to maintain this current system in place.

 

In the Equal Money Capitalism we will practice the law of placing our creative forces at the service of Life itself, learning how to honor ourselves as each and every single cell that we have taken for granted, we will learn how to understand that no system can be a ‘living environment’ without ensuring that every single being is equally supported to have the necessary means and services/ resources to Live in dignity – because we will stop living as viruses within a system outdoing each other and being subsumed in mind-battles against each other, we will instead learn how to become the beings that we all desired to become, but ended up veering such twisted self idea toward a relationship of competition, dishonor and abuse because that’s currently the only way only a few can ‘win’ in the game.

The creations that will originate from such self-stability and real harmony will have nothing to do with artifacts that represent symbols of ‘moreness’ as the depiction of our personal deliriums within the beliefs of gods/ money/ power, we will instead learn how to put our creative efforts to create sustainable environments that finally consider the life that has been used/abused to currently maintain our deceptive self-images and money systems. A real honor toward oneself and each other will emerge and the expression of ourselves will be a one and equal reflection of that – that’s definitely an art/creativity that one can ‘look forward’ to – however such decision to do this must not be placed in a ‘long term future projection,’ and instead realize that we have to become it ourselves, today, by making a decision in every moment to be of life and not of the mind of gods, moneys and ‘power systems’ that have only served to abuse life.

That is certainly the purest breath of life that we can give to ourselves, to purify ourselves, to support and direct our every single cell to ensure our lives are honored at last and we burn down to ashes everything that was never meant to do just that.

 

So, this is a rebirth for Self-Expression, to never again idolize gods and money and instead learn how to honor our every single cell that enables us to breathe and exist and as such, direct our every day and existence to for once and for all implement a world system that will ensure no one/ no-thing  is ever again used as energy and work force to sustain/maintain beliefs systems of abuse such as religions and the monetary system that only benefits some. From this starting point of standing one and equal to every single part/particle in our reality, we can be sure that whatever we express/manifest from this living-statement of who we are as Life in Equality, we will learn what actual Self Expression is, which won’t be based on beauty and all these wonderful stories of divine powers and great victories,  but a real extension of a stability, a certainty, an honoring of ourselves as that which we are committing ourselves to live by and express as.

The meaning and purpose of life, is at all times Life in itself – hence we first learn how to Live: we create a world system that lays the foundation to enable such living expression @ www.equalmoney.org

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2012 Self Forgiveness: How-To, Why, What, Where, When?

So, I’m watching Desteni videos – I am going one after the other looking for the ‘magic code’ that I can use to essentially deprogram myself now that I’ve understood that we have been preprogrammed Mind Consciousness Systems and we require to do something about it! I definitely don’t want to remain just as another ‘consciousness robot’ that’s not living, but only killing time – What do I have to do? – Where do I find the way out? – What’s the secret?’  these were my thoughts 4 years ago.

Initially I got so freaked out by watching the videos and hearing the words ‘STOP THE MIND’ so many times, that I feared ending up in like a vegetative state. I thought that this process was simply impossible and wondered how on Earth will I go on through my life with ‘No Mind’! I admit here that I was very gullible, that’s probably one of the reasons why I indulged into so much bullshit (spirituality and conspiracy theories) that I researched right before getting to Desteni. With having this ‘background,’  I didn’t take into consideration what was actually meant by ‘stopping the mind,’ and only allowed myself to get into what I now call ‘the whiner experience’ wherein I created a turmoil of thoughts, giving up on myself even before I started. This was due to this process being seemingly  impossible at first glance: ‘too much’, ‘unbearable’, ‘How will I do this?’ – It worried me for a while, lol, all part of the same mind-experience created within myself.

Within this state of enraged-pity, I sent a message to the guys at Desteni explaining my situation, how I was literally ‘losing my mind’ by realizing that I had to stop my mind – and wondered how will I live, what will I be? Etc. The reply that I got from them was, to my surprise, of such simplicity and obviousness that I literally laughed out loud while reading it, as I realized how usual this experience had been throughout my life: it was my mind throwing a tantrum, the mind’s defense mechanism to not have to go through this process = it’s not who I really am as life the one that’s complaining! So, this point became an initial realization: stopping myself from being the whiner. Ever since then I have shared that video with anyone that experiences the same point of it all being seemingly ‘impossible’ to walk through, only to realize that it’s the mind’s survival mechanism kicking-in and literally crying out for help when realizing: we’re about to debunk its kingdom.

Once I got over my initial reactions, I simply continued watching the material.

Self Forgiveness ?

I constantly heard the words Self-Honesty, Self-Forgiveness, Writing, Breathing, Self Corrective Application in the videos, which I inferred was ‘the way to go.’ I began assessing my then ‘values’ and ‘stance’ toward such words.

I was a ‘pro-Honesty’ person within the understanding of what ‘being Honest’ is/means in the system, which could have been like declaring war toward another being or country in a ‘rational and logical’ manner, and be considered as ‘being honest’ by ‘speaking the truth of their intentions’ without ever considering what’s best for all in such words/ decisions. I had considered myself to be a ‘frank person’ within those parameters, not really considered ‘what’s best for all’ in such a honest self-created idea of myself.  So, this is how I began opening eyes to what SELF-Honesty was, which made sense to me in every bit of it.

Writing was something I had been doing at the time – yet definitely using it as a reinforcement of my own personalities wherein poems or lyrics to songs I never sang would come through, lol – in essence, I wrote to form and shape my personality, just like a sculpture that I was busy creating of myself as a nice idea that I could wear. Those writings became the ‘code’ so to speak, wherein I would reassure to myself ‘who I was’ and why I thought in a particular way, why I liked or disliked the world.  I didn’t really write to get me out of my self-created‘hole,’ but rather reinforced it and justified it as ‘a way of living.’ This was all I would write about at that time.

When realizing what the process consisted of, I understood that this had to be developed in order to ‘change the world.’ I had no problem in directing such points into a ‘one and equal’ understanding, but… Self Forgiveness? All types of judgments went on inside me along with the usual questions like: ‘Why do I have to forgive myself?’ ‘Why can’t I just ‘let it go/ stop it?’ – ‘Isn’t that a religious thing?’ – ‘Isn’t there just another way to do this (process) instead of having to write out this format-like sentences to correct myself?’ I was very skeptical and even went to the extent of fearing ‘deprogramming myself,’ fearing getting to a point of having ‘no control’ over myself = essentially fearing becoming a ‘self forgiven drone’ lol, without actually realizing at the time that I was already Not ‘in control’ of myself and that I was a mind-driven being that had never actually lived.

We tend to get overwhelmed by the sole idea of having to forgive ourselves for everything that we’ve lived-as thus far and forgive ourselves as the entire world for that matter. This was only an initial mind-experience that we then fear ‘getting ourselves into,’ because it just seems ‘too much’ and we go into self-pity experiences of ‘I can’t possibly do this’, I went through a breakdown due to having to let go of my ideas of there being a ‘quick fix’ to this reality, or even some type of God existing to which I could ‘connect to’ and get to a ‘greater self-experience.’ This was all part of the mindfuck that was required to be stopped in the first place.

So I said to myself, I can’t go on as I am we’ve got to stop the world and for that we begin with ourselves. At first it seemed really petty to have this as a reason to do so, I still held secret desires on a magic wand doing the job for me wherein I would only have to ‘apply self forgiveness’ as in writing it out and the problem would be solved – later on I found out what it really was all about.

I got my shoes on, let’s walk this!

I went on to the forum just to see what Self Forgiveness was after spending the first weeks just trying to get used to the idea of me applying Self Forgiveness – initially it seemed like a repetitive drone of words wherein I would have to go through every bit of my memories, my ‘life’ and apply Self Forgiveness for it. It seemed extensive, in my mind there was like an immediate ‘No way! That is impossible’ within forming ideas of having to then spend the rest of my days applying Self Forgiveness non-stop, lol. That’s the ‘extremist’ aspect of the personality I continue exploring through writing and stopping within this process.

After reading the very first examples on Self Forgiveness by Jack, I sat on my bed in the afternoon and began reading. I saw myself in the awkward position of reading along those statements aloud for the very first time in my life. . I probably even blushed to myself, even if I was absolutely alone, it was just so ‘not me’ to be forgiving myself considering that I had lived as a self-righteous person that thinks, believes everything I do is ‘word’ and cannot be wrong. The single act of sitting down and reading self forgiveness was an immediate humbling moment, it was already being like a hand grenade blown toward my ego: it was about to be blown up for life.

One of the first points that I walked through self forgiveness was exposing the mind’s limitations and fears and any other emotion/feeling attached to beginning this process in itself. I literally had created this surreal scenario of ‘me walking process’ wherein I saw myself as a zombie passing by ‘regular people’ on the streets and simply having to remain ‘blank’ the whole time. Nope, that was my own misconception that was later on part of my own fears blowing Process out of proportion – laughing at it was a cool way to shed the point off and simply get myself to start writing,  committing myself to myself to life no matter what.

WHAT?

Okay, so… what is this supposed to do now? I’m now free from god? from the female ego? and I’m now Self Honest?” Lol, my first ideas on Self Forgiveness were linked to this being a process wherein I would be doing some type of magic spell by simply stating the words/ writing myself out and having it all ‘cleared up’– let’s say that the entire aspect of having to Live Self Forgiveness wasn’t really understood at that time. So, I decided to apply the point of being unconditional about it, I had nothing to lose.

I proceeded to first start writing a point out to see ‘how it worked’ which was working with the most prominent experiences I had in that moment. I wasn’t even participating that much at the time in the forums, I just focused on setting this foundation for myself, because I knew this was the way to walk the process, to stand up for life and finally stop my mind – I ‘knew’ it, yet it had to be walked and self-realized.

I noticed how at first it all seemed so repetitive – ‘Why can’t I just say ‘I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself’ once and then just name the whole list and ‘get over with it’?’ – I was still looking for the ‘fast and accurate’ way out of it, took some time to grasp what I was actually doing as ‘Forgiving myself’ after applying the usual ‘fake it till you make it’ wherein words don’t seem to mean anything – and in fact, they won’t! Unless you Live them. This was the ‘aha-moment’ that I had to walk and discover for myself through the actual application of it in time.

I must say that the judgment toward the word forgiveness remained even after a while into writing and process. To me it was like a silent-cringe inside me whenever I would hear myself forgiving myself, because of having these concepts of religion and priests and the entire religious-construct along with the word ‘forgiveness.’ It was just plain icky at the beginning.

Key-point here: I hadn’t applied Self Forgiveness for judging the word Self-Forgiveness in itself and clearing out the associations toward it. I had to see how the ‘awkwardness’ was linked to this memory of that one and only time that I ever ‘confessed myself’ to a priest, which remained like a very bitter experience in my life, almost like having to swallow a medicine that leaves a very bad taste in your mouth for a while. The priest spoke the word ‘forgiveness’ and so to me that had just left a stigma toward that word. I never went to confess myself again and in my mind, applying self forgiveness was like confessing my ‘dark deeds’ to myself, which I saw as a cool point in terms of not having to resort to telling my stuff to someone in order to be ‘absolved from my sins.’ Then I realized what a nice trick religion had created in order to be the ‘only ones’ that can endow you with such ‘god-given right to forgive you,’ whereas Self-Forgiveness implied: I can do it myself –  awesome, way to go to debunk faith and beliefs.

I applied self forgiveness on feeling ‘icky’ and weird and judging the word forgiveness and self forgiveness in itself – the whole lot of points that went opening up as I went writing out the sentences around thoughts like ‘why do I have to forgive myself,’ ‘why forgiveness sounds like something priests do to others,’ forgiveness related to god, forgiveness related to me having done something ‘wrong’, forgiveness as in ‘asking someone forgiveness’ and even ideas on this being a humiliating process and embarrassing even for myself alone.

When beginning process I also  noticed how I also wanted to ‘get over with my past shit and move on’ which I did through writing it all out and sharing it as a form of also demonstrating something to someone of my own application – in a way following an ‘ideal’ of clearing myself fro such ‘sins’ as soon as possible. This is not something that was ‘wrong’ or anything. simply I found out in that process how we find our own way to establish ourselves through process in a ‘trial and error’ manner.

In my case it was mostly through writing that I opened up points to apply Self Forgiveness for,  having that ‘freedom to write’ wherein I’d share all the apparent trivial points of my days. I would experience certain blockages while writing out self forgiveness whenever I would jump in my mind into an idea of ‘myself within process’ wherein we believe that we are doing something that will make us ‘better,’ make us ‘more’ in any way – Nope, not at all. I quote a sentence that came through a chat  once“The Self as life has no language or Skill yet.” Realizing the humbleness required to walk this process was quite a cool point within it all,  as it allowed me to stop having to ‘uphold’ a particular idea of myself I had been bound myself for my entire life as living up to the ‘highest standard’ possible at an intellectual level.

I had to let go of this ego-formed around been specific and effective within my application – it is still being stopped whenever it rears its head. I realized that it could only feed yet another ‘ideal’ of myself becoming something/ someone ‘better’ instead of simply realizing that self-honest application here will not enhance any egos, but only reveal/ expose and function as support to direct ourselves into an actual practical physical living realization of who we really are, supporting us to take off the blindfold to see what we all really are.

WHY ?

The simplest reason I can name of why I came to apply Self Forgiveness was to simply get to actually Live. I understood we can’t possibly go on as we have in this world,  we have to stop what we’ve accepted and allowed within ourselves and actually get to the realization that it is in fact possible to create a new world if each individual that is willing to stand up for life, dedicates themselves to themselves, to live a process wherein Life is considered in all aspects as one and equal – always.

I wanted to stop being the same self-deprecating system with all these habits and obsessions and desires to know and obtain any form of ‘truth’ to create a ‘meaning to life.’ When I heard that Self Forgiveness was the way to first of all STOP all of those delusions to then live, I realized that I had to ‘test this out for myself’, I couldn’t just continue watching the material and absorbing all the knowledge and information for the delight of my own witty-ego satisfaction, no.

I initially went ‘full-on’ applying Self Forgiveness and had a heavy-duty time with it with writing out a lot. I was still having this ‘urge’ to get something done, to ‘get it done’ and be finally ‘here’ with “no-mind” and being finally free, I was still applying Self Forgiveness from that starting point of achieving something, not really realizing what I was doing was part of the process of first getting to establish Self Honesty within myself.

I realized how this process is not about ‘bettering ourselves’ or ‘personal growth’ but simply the realization of what we are actually able and capable of living-as, directing ourselves toward our optimum-state and living in our fullest potential. This all made sense to me as the way this world and reality ‘should have always been’ – I saw how the point that was in between us from realizing our actual ability to stop and correct ourselves had only been ourselves as the mind. We are the only ones standing on our way– this is paraphrasing Bernard. All the ‘lostness’ thoughts began to diminish, because I saw that I had only ‘gotten lost’ according to the thoughts that I had given space and many breaths away to exist as ‘who I am,’ I then realized to what extent this had been my own creation and how I had to take self responsibility for it.

I suggest reading the blog ‘How I was able to Hear Desteni’ for further details about these first days of encountering it. Even though it all sounded extremely weird to me, I decided to ‘give it a try’ simply because I had already gone through other processes in trying to ‘make myself feel better’ which had not really been effective or with ‘long lasting effects’ just like the temporary bridge they were. I decided to apply Self Forgiveness in part also to see ‘what it was all about’ and not allow me to only formulate ideas/ beliefs about it without testing it for myself.

HOW ?

The initial experience within applying Self Forgiveness was fueled  with regret, shame and guilt when realizing what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to exist-as in this world, and how we had – within such possession-  created a world of hatred and separation. Myself being the +1 point that supported such depression,  anxiety, walking with this constant judgmental view on the world  that I allowed myself to be and become.  I walked through my reality seeking for experiences, people, drugs or anything that could allow me to ‘grasp’ this reality, to not feel ‘lost’ and apparently gaining some type of ‘higher status’ to be special, to at least ‘know’ any form of ‘truth’ within this reality that would make me feel like there was a ‘point’ in this existence –  though I could only continue seeing  that nothing made sense.

This is almost a ‘normal thing’ to go-through when realizing all the moments that we’ve spent in our little bubbles secluded from the rest of the world. Thus I initially rushed in means of ‘clearing my name/image’ as soon as possible. I had the idea that it was all about writing the self forgiveness out in one go, and then being ‘clear/ absolved’ of it forevermore. No, that was only my ego once again wanting to ‘shove it all away’ as fast as I could to regain a certain ‘peace of mind’ and be done with it –  it was just another attempt to regain the experience of ‘everything is fine,’ without really grasping how this was a process to be lived for a lifetime.

Self Forgiveness can only support us in identifying the points that we have to correct ourselves,  yet as we know, this takes the actual physical integration of that which I vow to stand for, Self as the starting point in all ways = walking the talk.

It was through the support through forums, Bernard, Sunette and everyone else participating at Desteni that I realized that Desteni was no quick fix, that it would take the actual living-application of it, that I had to actually walk-it, live-it, fall and rise again, make mistakes as many as I had to in order to get to know which road Not to follow – I realized that I actually required to DO THIS, that this was no prayer or magic wand wherein I could just simply spell nice words and pretend all is well – no.

I also had to see how I had never ever done this as it’s not a preprogrammed thing to do. I realized that it wouldn’t come as a single easy decision wherein you chose from one color to another, but that it would take an actual self-commitment and self-will to prove if what was being shared with regards to Self Forgiveness in Self Honesty and writing ourselves to freedom was actually supportive. Till this day I can say: yes it is, absolutely.

At times I would be quite overwhelmed with all the points I would go opening up through Self Forgiveness. It was a process wherein through writing and making it a consistent point within my every day living, it became a habit, a cool habit to start getting to know myself, to see where and how it is required to apply self forgiveness, how to apply self forgiveness for the experiences of the day. I mean, to me writing became like the most enjoyable part of the day and till this day, If I don’t write a day it would be because I’m absolutely sick or something – even if I don’t write blogs on a daily basis, I am continually writing somewhere in the internet or for myself in a notebook. It’s become part of myself – and it’s a very coo habit to develop a point of self-communication wherein we are able to ground ourselves as self-support and share it whenever we can with others as well. Writing and words are the key to this reality – and this is a Destonian realization, we are proving it for ourselves as we walk.

All in all, Self Forgiveness was a trial and error process initially, wherein I virtually began applying Self Forgiveness for everything and all that I noticed in my environment, in my thoughts, in the world – it’s cool though because that’s how I got to discern what is common sense, what is Self Honesty, what are points that I have to open up further and how eventually applying/ living Self Forgiveness would imply the ‘actual doing’/ walking of all of these statements.

This was finally something that I had to ‘make it work’ = it was no quick fix or magical wand as I had desired it initially to be – that’s when I began ‘meeting my maker’ for real, because Self Forgiveness became ‘the way’ to start seeing what the hell on Earth I was thinking and going through at all times as the inner chatter that I had dared to call ‘my best friend.’

WHEN ?

Once I started grasping Self Honesty, I saw that I could no longer be fooling myself with playing the same old ‘me’ when I had clearly set out the reasons, excuses and justifications for me being/ becoming a particular way – the self-interest, the narcissism, the arrogance, the self-inflated ego, the obsessions, the self-created delusions were out and in the open now, I could not fool myself nor did I want to continue deceiving myself. I can openly say now that it is through applying and living Self Forgiveness that I found what Self-Respect is, what actually establishing Self-Trust is based on one’s own writings and realizations and practical-living application of such realizations as well.

The moment that I saw that even after leaving behind all the idea of myself I was still ‘Here,’ fears started vanishing – and I continued walking no matter what. Self Forgiveness became ‘the way of living’ from the perspective of being able to correct myself when seeing ‘the point’ that was missed in a moment wherein – yes – a breath was missed.

Breathing through resistances to bring-through a point within Self Forgiveness, breathing through the initial judgment that may come whenever we expose to ourselves a point that we had suppressed and not looked at out of embarrassment, shame, guilt or fear – breathing through reactions is the way to go once you see the same points emerging after having applied self forgiveness for the point, such as my initial judgment toward Self-Forgiveness in itself.

I remember once buying myself an only-self-forgiveness bloc of notes and the day that I had finished writing on the very last page, I felt ‘so cool’ about it, I planned to save it for the posterity lol – I lost it that same day at the bus station, I realized that such process was not to be ‘cherished’ and that it wasn’t about creating a collection of self-forgiveness, but actually walking through the process of living it, living the correction that I had seen through my writings that I had to stop, correct, align within the principle of what’s best for all. Eventually I understood that I could write heaps – yet if it wasn’t applied, then it was absolutely useless.

I also saw how any ‘good feeling’ I could get out of applying Self Forgiveness, was a mind generated experience and had to be stopped.

When getting specific support on the point through the Tree of Life I realized how ‘my past was still haunting me’ literally and how I was creating an actual experience of rushing or even anxiety in wanting to ‘get rid of the fucker as soon as possible and be at peace,’ without actually realizing that I had to first let go of wanting to ‘overcome myself’ but simply face the points for what they are, self forgive and walk the process at the physical pace of breathing – moment by moment.

This ‘rush’ had to be stopped by first realizing that I had to clear myself from such thoughts of guilt, regret and shame that had emerged when writing myself to freedom, I wanted to ‘get over with it’ as soon as possible. I then realized that ‘there is nothing to attain’, there is nothing to ‘get to’ or ‘become’ – It is about realizing who/ what I really am,  that I am Here and I can’t define and limit myself within a perceived amount of time that I require to do this. So, rushing is linked to a self-competition through time against myself, against the personality I had become. So, forgiving myself for that became the pillar to walk in humbleness, to realize there is nothing to ‘attain’ or get, but is an actual walking-living self-realization that will be proven through our own participation in space and time in our reality.

This also included stopping the expectations or ideals of ‘who I will become once I have applied Self Forgiveness’ – making sure I didn’t form any self-grandeur within it, any ego enhancement as being then ‘more’ than others or now being ‘done’ with myself and not requiring to continue, that’d be rather another mindfuck to debunk indeed – and I remind myself of this every time that it is required. It is a constant living application. 

Living Self Forgiveness

I never knew how layered my personality was until I started applying Self Forgiveness

It was shocking to start seeing how I was essentially avoiding ‘mingling’ with people around me based on this idea/ personality I had of myself. I started realizing how I had become that which I had vehemently judged others for: I had become my own worst nightmare without ever noticing it. By this I mean a rather picky, elitist, judgmental, arrogant being that would only care to ‘spend time’ with those people that would ‘care’ about me as I did for them – conveniently so – I would not give a reverend fuck about the rest, I only cared about my little bubble. So, when applying self forgiveness and going understanding that this process was to expose myself for everything I had become, it initially was something I resisted, just because of fearing to face the reality that I had become, the actual  ‘true nature’ of myself while I had though of myself as being a nice and delightful person. This was then obviously out of still playing out my core-personality, instead of being fully unconditional within the application.

See, the cool thing about Self Forgiveness is that we realize that we’ve existed as patterns, patterns repeat by ‘nature/design’, we realize that due to the extent that we’ve lived as the mind, we will be facing layers upon layers of the same pattern in various different aspects of our reality. Thus, we know we can’t be ‘done with it’ in one go – we’ll in fact amalgamate ourselves to the physical as breath, moment by moment, walking with the necessary patience to go stopping and correcting ourselves. That is translated to simply being able to stop the mind, stop all unnecessary time-loops of repeating the same experiences over and over again, until we realize that we simply require to Stop, Self Forgive and let go of it. Sounds simple, yes, though it takes a constant application that becomes ‘who we are’ every time we stop ourselves from participating in the mind, in every moment that we do not participate in that which seems enticing and alluring to go into – that moment that we don’t ‘go there’ actually supports ourselves to ground ourselves in/as the physical, we prove to ourselves that we can actually do this, that it just takes one breath at the time and sufficient self-will to do it.

I never even thought that I would get to enjoy this process until I simply started living it. I would spend hours writing out self forgiveness because I saw it as a very effective way to go opening up points and almost ‘challenging’ me to transcend my fears of ‘oh no no don’t go in there!’ within my mind wherein I would have to kind of give myself an internal kick in the ass to write the point out. Embarrassment, shame, guilt, heaps of self judgment, self-hatred, a lot of judgments toward other people, the world – I was overwhelmed!  However, it was the most liberating point once it was ‘out’ like a physical relief from having now exposed this rotting corpse to myself, it no longer was this ‘dead talk’ inside my head lingering around, provoking me to go into certain moods or experiences that I would then dare to participate in and define as ‘who I am.’ These experiences began diminishing, simply because I could not kid myself into such thoughts after having extensively exposed them for what they are. Once the can of worms was opened, the can was empty and I filled it up with soil to grow something rather supportive for myself to live in common sense.

The specificity implied in the writing itself of Self Forgiveness has been a key point of support in order to learn how the mind works as a perfect-system for excuses and justifications to not take Self-Responsibility. Hence the only way to ‘tackle’ this problem is through walking an equally specific and perfected system of self correction, which is why Self Forgiveness is such a specific way to correct ourselves. Each word in the basic sentence as ‘I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself…’ is an absolute statement of taking Self Responsibility for having given our lives up to a mind-driven action that was done in inconsideration of who we are as one and equal.

Throughout the process of getting to know how Self Forgiveness works, participating in the forum, reading others’ posts became a pillar and vital point of feedback. I was pretty much amazed how any single action/ event was able to be directed by using the same tools – indistinctly – and how common sense is always able to be established in any given situation, by the fact that every action is exerted through a process wherein a process of decision making is involved: to act or not act – it is self-created and as such, it can be corrected.

How come we had missed this throughout time?

No Excuses: Life Cannot be Denied

I see Self Forgiveness as giving ourselves a second chance to live – to finally create ourselves as that which we see is and will be best for all as one and equal. This sounds ‘cool’ but living the words implies a life-dedication, a commitment toward ourselves that we support ourselves with and share with others. It is a way to expand our ability to see/ realize that who we really are had been caged in our own mind-traps and we are ready to take them all down for we have been the very creators of it all.

There is no ‘mystery ’in Self Forgiveness, it’s not a self-god-given right, it is about understanding that we stop ourselves from existing within a single point of definition or idea of ourselves that limits/ defines who we are, and living it out through first removing/ detaching ourselves from such memory, idea, thought, belief, picture and standing up from having accepted and allowed ourselves to remain limited within such conception of ourselves.

It’s about getting to know ourselves, to learn ‘how’ we function and  take Self-Responsibility for it, which is realizing and understanding  how there will be no miracles happening in order for us to correct what we have accepted and allowed to exist in this world.  We have this one life, one opportunity for us to be the creators of a reality that we are willing to exist as from now on, within common sense, within the principle of what is best for all as equals. This is the single starting point for creation we have missed throughout time – it is only now that we have the opportunity to stand as the living example of what is possible for us human beings to be and become when we become the change that we want to see in this world.

Enjoy living this out for yourself.

Supportive Articles I read to walk Self Forgiveness:

And many more at: http://desteni.org/articles

Self-Forgiveness Blog


2012 Man’s True Nature

“The natural intelligence of man is simply to function on the level of his true nature.” J.Ukelachi

That can be a conundrum in itself simply because such intelligence is only knowledge and information that has not served to create a world that stands in equality or even consider what’s best for all, it’s only compliance and superiority in relation to the functionality of a system of input/ output with no common sense of how to actually live it/ apply it in this physical reality. Then anyone that actually reads into these words would have to ‘assume’ there is certain ‘true nature’ to man, as if there was some ‘false nature’ which would only place the entire existence in a polarity system of true/ false without realizing that such polarity must be stopped first in order to take the system as it currently exists and walk the process of correcting it within the principle of what’s best for all.

Such ‘true nature’ would only confirm the preprogrammed condition of man as a mind consciousness system existing in separation from the physical body that is equally here – hence it is to ground ourselves within this starting point and understanding in order to first walk ourselves as our mind, establishing that initial ‘get to know yourself’ through writing, applying self forgiveness and walking your own words to see where is common sense, what requires to be corrected, where am I requiring to understand what Self Honesty is in this/ that situation.

What we currently understand as ‘life’ is a system – the same with nature and the human – hence the perceived disparity of humanity toward nature is only a ‘systematic discordance’ that can be corrected with the process and tools we are walking here at Desteni.  Thus, for the sake of practicality and placing concepts aside for now like ‘true self’, ‘natural intelligence,’ ‘true nature’ and ‘acting according to the being,’ which could only be considered as ‘natural’ within the context of how the program functions, we first establish the very basic facts wherein we simply realize that if any of such ‘natural disposition’ of humans existed in common sense or actual harmony = the world would not be in the current way it is existing now with human beings leading/ establishing the rules in a way that is obviously not best for all.

Thus, through this process and understanding Self-Honesty, you will get to realize that such ideal of our ‘true nature’ being benevolent or harmonic in itself,  is simply a belief to neglect what is actually here as ourselves, creating and manifesting the reality that we are now judging – which is certainly a point to STOP for once and for all now that we see and realize that we are all equally responsible for what is HERE = it is indeed our truth and mirror of how we are existing within our minds.

Within the understanding that life as we know it is a system and nature as we know it is a system, we then come to the realization that what must be transformed into correction in order to be aligned as Life in Equality, is the human being itself from the very basic programming wherein we work with debunking our personal beliefs/ acquired knowledge in relation to what we have identified/ believed to be ‘intelligence,’ ‘true nature,’ ‘true self’ and all of these concepts through a written process wherein we first get to know HOW we have acquired such knowledge and information in the first place, how is it that we have imposed such concepts upon the evidence of what is here wherein we see/ realize that if such ‘intelligence’ for example was ‘real,’ then why are we still running a system that is deliberately neglecting support for all beings equally?

The truth is, we have lacked the very basic understanding of ourselves as one and equal as Life – this is how the process is to begin with placing out through words what is our current understanding of ‘Life,’  ‘Equality,’ ‘Self’ – from here and through assisting and supporting ourselves with all the Desteni Material, you can go cross referencing if what you currently understand of this reality to be is in fact in accordance/ congruence with the physical reality that is here.

That’s how within the forum we walk with writings that are directly linked to our every day living, our living reality wherein we are able to get to know ‘who we are’ in every moment that we interact with what’s here. It’s certainly easier to discuss these points – however the ‘real deal’ is getting to live them as who we are in every moment, and for that, the support is here, to cross-reference ourselves through our writings and giving feedback in order to go realizing where we have ‘missed’ ourselves – and from that, stand up and take self responsibility for our creation.

A point of support as your Reality Check is to study how the system functions – how politics, the money system, how our basic institutions work, how is it that education plays a major role in keeping a status quo in this reality, how is it that religions/ spirituality have perpetuated elusive concepts that are nowhere to be found in this reality.

I also suggest letting go of past concepts and knowledge in order to not want to fit one’s ‘previous concepts’ into the understanding that we are walking here, which will certainly lead you to debunk several words in order to establish a new starting point for words to be able to be lived, some others will even have to cease to exist.

Within walking ourselves through writing, we go discovering ‘who we are’ within this entire system – this is how we ask ourselves pertinent questions like: how do I stand toward the system, what is it that I have accepted and allowed to ‘rule me’ in separation of what is actually here, in the physical and within this, walk the actual process of self correction in common sense = in the consideration of what’s best for all.

‎”All existence is a harmonic reflection of the nature of the creators of reality and man is the creator — thus creators will eventually understand what it means to create and what responsibility really involve and then man will be creators no more — as life never creates : life express” – Bernard Poolman

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2012 The End of the battle Matter vs. Spirit

Separation created between matter and spirit is one of the  unnecessary polarities created at a thought level.  Spiritualists promote that people should stop focusing on the ‘material world,’ deeming it as the ‘source of evil.’ People like Mokichi Okada that promoted the advent of a ‘New Era,’ believed that people should veer toward a spiritual-growth that could be in consonance with the coming age wherein ‘happiness’ would reign on Earth as part of ‘God’s divine Plan.’

People like Okada – a.k.a Meishu Sama – believed/ proclaimed themselves to be enlightened masters in this reality. If one reads their message, all you have is pointing out the need to be in alignment with the ‘new era,’ removing all the ‘bad thoughts’ from our minds and toxins from our physical bodies, and essentially kind of only ‘wait for it all to  happen.’ How could these beings call themselves to be ‘enlightened’ if all that they ever did was focusing in a non-tangible world that they simply ‘believed in’ according to apparent forms of communication/ access to knowledge given by a ‘god.’ I mean, common sense, if one has such access then:

Why only letting ‘him’ give the great news and not asking about the abuse and suffering that is currently existing in this world?

Why did none of the so-called ‘masters’ dare to challenge such a beautifully placed future ‘divine’ projection of humanity without giving any perspective on how the current system has been created by ourselves and how it requires an actual reform to create such  ‘heaven on Earth’?

Why did God did not come up with a holistic solution like the Equal Money System? Why was this reality based on a hierarchical system wherein only some had to inevitably be slaves?

How come an Equality system has never been the ‘order’ in this existence?

According to Okada and many others within the New-Age movement, there is a ‘great awakening’ about to happen. Imagine yourself being able to wake up in an equal world wherein everything is just like ‘heaven on Earth’ with abundant food, water, everything you need to build your wildest reality dream. Imagine if everything would be just ‘freely here’ yet each one of us would still find ourselves judging one another, fearing each other, not knowing how to cooperate and work together, essentially stuck in a general separation and apathy toward ourselves because of not having even become equal and one to the mind that generates and formulates such experiences and thoughts within and as ourselves.

It is common sense that a process of Self-Correction is required if we are all aiming to create an Equal world. I’ve recently read through interactions in twitter that ‘self is perfect as it is because God created us’ – which is just an ego trip and the tip of the iceberg of the massive abuse we’ve accepted in the name of ‘God’s perfectly flawed creation.’ Many people could equate Self-Correction to a purification process – yet the process we walk at Desteni is not able to be ‘chosen’ in order to  have that ‘ultimate experience’ such as ‘heaven on Earth,’ or reaching ‘enlightenment’ – it is a process that each one decides to walk within the realization that who and what we are is and has been always HERE – all the time – and that we don’t have to wait for some ‘divine discharge’ to happen for us to take self responsibility for what’s here.

The word ‘responsibility’ is not able to be found in Okada’s compilation of editorial letters called Teachings of Meishu-Sama – Volume 1 not even once – which gives us the necessary idea that in all its 60 plus pages, we won’t find an actual realization that it is not to create an eternal discordance/ separation with what is here as the physical reality/ ‘material world’ and the spirit (which we still can’t see) – but instead promoting taking Self Responsibility for how we are creating this world and setting rules that are clearly not created to support everyone equally and within doing so, looking at how we can practically create solutions for the matters in this world.  By ‘matters’ I mean the consequences of us disregarding the fact that we have been following and submitting ourselves to an elusive ‘divine plan’ that many of us have sought to be a part-of by following a certain ‘clue’ to get to accomplish our ‘mission in life,’ only to then get lost in translation when it comes to simply becoming a single servant of a ‘god’ that doesn’t exist and that we cannot certainly remain as ‘slaves to.’

The reason why matter was seen as ‘evil’ by Gnostics/ spiritual people is to maintain and perpetuate the belief system that could keep feeding ‘heaven’ with the necessary energy to preserve itself – that’s part of what you can learn at the Desteni Material, which explains how it is that such a god-belief system was an ideal distraction (in the form of spirituality and sex) from realizing the actual enslavement that we were living here, only being batteries that run an entire divine plan that promised ‘love’ and ‘bliss,’ while keeping a reality of suffering and abuse ‘well equilibrated’ this way.

That was a shock indeed, realizing I had been in fact perpetuating the abuse in this world while focusing in establishing a magnificent connection with ‘the whole,’ neglecting and deliberately ignoring the reality that is here, as myself and the world.

Here’s some facts from such document in terms of the words  used in it:

Number of  times we can find the word ‘Equality’ in this book: 0

Number of times we can find the word ‘Oneness’: 1

Number of times we can find the word: ‘Honesty:’ ‘0

Number of times we can find the word ‘Forgiveness’: 4 – all of them as mere titles, not in the actual content and only referring to ‘asking God for forgiveness’ prior to ‘judgment day.’

Number of times we can find the word ‘God’ in this book: 131

Number of times we can find the word ‘Spiritual’: 261

Number of times we can find the word ‘Light’: 103

We can figure out the rest in terms of ‘divine’ plans, guidance, love, etc..

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People following these writings usually believe that ‘we are not our physical body’ and that this is a ‘temporary lifespan’ wherein each one is essentially only waiting-to-die to get to some personalized heaven with the god of their choice. I once also believed that this body is only a vessel – and a rather annoying one -which is the same as treating myself as a carcass while being alive, absolutely disregarding the fact that it was my very own body the one that had to ‘endure’ my thinking processes of such nature while disregarding the very oxygen that I inhale to nurture every single one of the cells that constitute this physical body, that holds this mind system that creates who and what I am.

I have forgiven myself extensively for having placed all my ‘value and worth’ into a non-existent reality that I would only get to ‘know’ about through the knowledge upon which I deposited faith, belief and hope, really only wanting everything to just be magically fixed so that I wouldn’t have to actually deal with the physical reality. I am here to stand one and equal to my physical body and this existence – which is still a knowledge point, yet I realize this is to place into perspective what I am actually walking here.

Today I got a video response from someone claiming the above: we are not our physical body.  I once believed that, I once thought that there was some ‘superior’ or ‘greater phase to come.’ I pretty much indulged into readings such as Okada’s while immersing myself in the new-age writings wherein I took many words as ‘facts’ while following an inherent desire to prove my negligence toward this reality as ‘not being real’ to be ‘right,’ to be ‘ad-hoc’ to the process of Earth. I was utterly wrong, I’ve forgiven myself. That’s probably part of the guilt I would experience before, how I had neglected this reality and myself as my physical body in various ways while believing that who I was in this ‘material world’ is worthless, is non-important, is ‘useless.’

It is through these types of beliefs wherein the ‘spirit’ is placed above matter that wars are justified, because in the end they claim: ‘who really cares about some bodies just dying, they weren’t even ‘real’ in the first place’ – and this is not just me making stuff up, I’ve read and heard the above twice today and it came with a shudder to realize what we have become just because of a sole belief in us being a soul/ spirit/ superior being that we have never gotten a hold of to even ‘guide us’ to create some common sense in this world – in case it was ever actually ‘real’ which is not of course.

“We’re doomed” yes, by all of the positive bs beliefs that are being propagated in this world, neglecting the very body that allows us to indulge into such  hatred and separation of ourselves. It is unacceptable from this perspective that life continues supporting humanity’s delusional belief systems unconditionally, no wonder all the shit is now hitting our fan.

A luxurious ship half sunk getting more hype than 20,000 children dying of starvation every single day, a 170 million dollar mission to mars failed, millions of sharks are killed every year in the name of exquisite Asian cuisine while billions join in the lines of starvation and poverty because of being ‘invisible’ to a system of profit. This is our world today – are you willing to continue like this while focusing on ‘the positive’ and hoping to ‘enter a new era’ of bliss and happiness? Read this: we won’t go anywhere as we are already Here – we have to sort out this reality unless we allow our ego/ self interest to get ‘too high’ and destroy the world that we are blatantly disregarding every moment that we believe that ‘matter is not real’ and that all that exist is the ‘spiritual reality’ wherein you’ll be in the presence of some magnificent being that never even cared to show his face on Earth.

Common Sense is required in this world: only through creating/ establishing an Equality System can we create dignified living conditions on Earth. It is not about the spirit, it is about the beings that are placing rules upon the matter in this world. Matter is the physical, the actual god that is here regardless of us ‘the observers’ being aware of it – we’re not even aware of the totality that is here, we are submitting ourselves to a limited fraction just because of holding our mind/ spiritual invisible realm as ‘all that there is.’

We have to get down to Earth to see and realize what we are neglecting, what we are supporting even by holding papers with fictional value that allow us to enslave each other to only ‘live’ if having such I.O.U’s in our pocket. It is a sick joke and a game that must be given and end by ourselves.

The only ‘distance’ we have created from ourselves and this world is through our own mind through beliefs, thoughts, fears, judgments that have been externalized creating our accepted and allowed current monetary system. The Equal Money System ends the eternal battle of matter vs. spirit wherein we won’t have to focus on having a ‘better life’ once we’re dead, but we can create it and give it to each other only Here on Earth.

Om

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