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632.#EqafeDiscovery:Do We Fear Living?

 

During the process of translating Eqafe material to Spanish, I come to rediscover stuff that perhaps I didn’t ‘hear’ the same way that I do now. This is also how even if I have listened to most of the material in there, I keep revisiting it every day and now I get to hear many different things that I didn’t grasp back when they were first published. At times I have also seen how I can be discriminatory in relation to some of the recordings based on the title, believing that ‘it has nothing to do with me’ or that ‘I can’t relate to it’ or that ‘it’s just not of my interest’, but over the years I’ve proven this immediate-mind-response to be just part of the many limitations and distractions that may still come up within me that at times prevent me from expanding myself. So what do I do? If some of these words come up in me? I go for it, I click and listen to it J hehe

When it comes to recordings in Eqafe, a guideline that I suggest for everyone is to listen to all of the stuff there even if it ‘seemingly’ doesn’t relate to you. For example, I could say ‘well I am not a parent therefore, I don’t have to listen to the parenting series’ or if I was single then saying ‘well I don’t have to listen to the relationships series, for I am single’ – but! We truly miss out on very supportive stuff if we go through life only choosing to hear that which we ‘feel resonates more with us’, because I’ve seen how this is mostly resonating yes, to the most prominent personalities I am living out at a certain point in my life. So, that’s why upon listening to it with an open mind and an open heart to see ‘what can I learn from it?’ No matter what the title, topic or series it is coming from, I can guarantee you that if you are really willing to listen, learn and apply something in your life that you get from those recordings, you will surely benefit from it in your life in many noticeable ways.

So one of those interviews that at first I dismissed because of having a ‘blah, I already know that fear of death is the ultimate fear and so what?’ type of thought, was one Life Review called ‘Fear of Death’ – so that’s why I decided to click on it and translate it.  Upon listening to this short yet substantial message from this lady here, I realized how I had been considering this ‘fear of living’ when it comes to a process of healing and so changing in relation to something that I had defined as being ‘my problem’ that is currently ‘holding me back’ in life. I had suddenly gotten to a ‘bottle neck’ in my inner experience where I needed to process things that I was merely shoving aside and not really working – processing them as we say. It’s been worth it as I’ve been sharing in my past blogs, but the obvious point emerged of how once that the main problem ‘in the head’ is being sorted, solved, ‘healed’ if you will and then changes emerge, there’s now the next step of self-creation to take.

I’ve also been reading a book about healing that a friend of mine recommended and I realized how much we tend to get ‘stuck’ in our minds about all the things that are seemingly ‘not working out’ and we focus on all the flaws, and all the fears and I’ve seen for myself how easy it is to build your stance and experience in life around all that garbage that we allow ourselves to think and believe ‘it’s all that we are,’ which then becomes the way that we see our life, the world, others in our lives and…. it’s no wonder at all how we’ve come to create the current reality we are living in, if we have allowed ourselves to play out the worst of us and let that rule our lives every-single-day and every-single-moment of our waking life – and hell at times we even torture ourselves in our dreams, yep.

The process that I have been walking with Desteni, the process I am learning to integrate day by day of becoming more directive within me and my mind, and now more in contact with my body is aided by the material that I get from Eqafe.com, and I also assure you that it might sound like stuff we somehow ‘already knew’ at the depth of our being, but we have somehow forgotten or gotten lost in translation as they say, taken over by the busy-ness of our lives and distractions to the point where we have forgotten that we have IT all, we have and we are all that we need to take those steps to get out of whatever ‘mental hole’ we might find ourselves in.

Sure, at times it might be difficult to go through certain situations or phases in life, all I can say is: reach out, communicate, speak it out loud with someone because I know how ‘blinded’ one can become if one remains in isolation and/or in fear of opening up with someone what one is going through. To me this is an essential aspect and also why Eqafe.com as part of the Desteni group, is not an isolated type of ‘source’ that you just go and listen and that’s it. It involves self-work, it involves practical application and a sharing, a referencing back of how one is supporting oneself to actually change based on the support that we get through the audios/interviews/recordings. For that, there’s the awesome community Destonians.com where you can also join in weekly chats to share, open up whatever you are working with and walking through in your life. A one of a kind community we are for sure.

Back to the topic! When listening to the audio/video called ‘Fear of Death’ I considered that it could be renamed to ‘Fear of Living’ but! of course, at least in my case I could have perhaps ‘jumped the gun’ and say ‘blah! I don’t’ fear living’ but…. The reality is quite different as you actually walk through certain points, like actually getting to overcome certain ‘obstacles’ or ‘difficulties’ or transcend major problems or addictions in life and then what opens up is: the many possibilities in which we can direct our lives, and so the actual possibility to choose, test out and walk through any of the options and dare to actually live, dare to learn to live in a different and new way and continue learning to live because I very much see that this is what I am here for.

So, as much as it might sound ‘off’ that one can ‘fear living,’ this audio will perhaps assist you in realizing WHY that very fear might be existing in you right now and HOW it plays out in seemingly ‘not so important’ moments in our day to day living. It is those small moments where I’ve seen that I can substantiate my life the most, in all those ‘little moments’ that I believed ‘didn’t matter’ because I wasn’t ‘producing’ something or I wasn’t necessarily creating an ‘impact’ on someone else… yet, I see that those moments that I am dedicating to live the best of me, to express me and so focusing on looking at what are the directions, talents, skills and abilities that I would like to now give direction to, there’s like a new opening to life and living that in fact has always been there, I had just sort of used the excuse of a mental-mindfuck (sorry for the language, but that’s what it is) to create a justification of why I had to kind of ‘place my life on hold’ and focus too much on ‘sorting issues out’ and place my self-creation on pause. Now, I don’t judge this as a waste of time or as something bad either, I now see it as part of the things that I had to confront and understand about myself and how I in fact create my experience and my life.

It is now up to me to take the steps to actually stop living in the habit that I gave my energy and breaths to that took me down to a bit of a rabbit hole in my personal experience, to learn from it, to see what I have to self-forgive and so to decide my next steps. Even though I see this direction, it is so that in our minds, the tendency of the ‘old habits’ to live in fear essentially will still come up. I know it is possible to live without the constant ‘fear’ and believe me, I THOUGHT that I was a fearless person…… yep! Well, it’s cool to get humble and realize ‘Nope! I definitely see I was many times acting out of fear!’ so that’s how I’m also glad I got to hear this through the audio so that I can become aware of the ‘little habits’ that have taken me to that inner experience, which sure may come and go, but now I can identify it better, give it a name and so decide in that moment what I decide to live.

So to me this is one simple, simple example of how listening to an Eqafe recording can confirm an entire process that I’ve been walking and how it can assist one even further to ‘take the next steps’ we might be missing out on or not giving the proper attention, relevance and importance they require, which are in fact the building blocks of our self-creation, the actuality of LIVING the best of ourselves, the actuality of BEING the best of ourselves – yes, acknowledging the downfalls, the ‘off’ moments, but somehow this audio assists with realizing what those OFF moments really are and so, be able to grasp it, identify them and so be able to DO something about it.

I’m more than glad I have this awesome source of support, every time I see scientists, psychologists, sociologists or any other person that still have some certain ‘big questions’ such as how was the universe created? what is consciousness in fact? How do animals think or communicate? How do our bodies relate to our minds? Is there life after death? Etc. I kind of go back to my senses in realizing that Eqafe is not yet broadly known in humanity, yet the information is here. So, I can’t even consider where I would be if I wasn’t aware of all of these things already to get the ‘curiosity’ out of my bag around those topics and focus on things that are right ‘here’ for me to work with.

All I can say is be part of this opportunity and take that step forward not only in getting educated about all-things-life and living, but also dare to take the steps to Live and Apply all the practical support that one can gather from every recording, to be the example of what it means to break free from the ‘programming,’ and! With that, assist not only yourself, but the rest of who we are as life to give a continued expansion to this process of self-awareness, to actually be, become and birth life from the physical.

Ok! I leave this one for you then to ponder about J Sign up for the Eqafe Unlimited  Plan which is an incredible offer to have access to this audio I mentioned and more than 4,000 other titles that you can benefit from learning in virtually every aspect of what it means to be a living being in this existence. So, don’t’ wait any longer! Be part of the real evolution that is very much needed in our world.

 

Thanks for reading

 

breathing being

 

Join in if you want to start walking your own process of defining your Self-Honesty

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292. Moving through Helplessness within Changing Self and the System

We tend to see problems in society and only look at names, numbers, acts that make us fear the same happening to us – or we already are facing the consequences – but we seldom introspect how we have all contributed to the current state of crisis we’re all in, in detail from our very mind participation wherein our thoughts of wanting to just ‘end our lives’ resonate throughout the totality that is here creating a massive surge of further suicidal attempts just because one single being is accepting and allowing the existence of such self-destructive thoughts within. This is the type of realization we don’t look at, because if we were aware of every single process behind our every move in our reality, we would have probably gone already more crazy than we already have become. Part of realizing Equality and Oneness implies that no one is really enjoying this life, not even if having millions and having ‘everything you could ever dream of,’ because there is no way to deny the fact that we cannot be genuinely, truly and self-honestly happy if one single person is suffering from starvation, lacking a proper job to have a decent life or being abused and exploited for capital means.

 

Following through with yesterday’s post on learning how to first love ourselves to be able to create a changing this world, a point to clarify is how it  is not from the perspective of experiencing a Feeling, such as ‘having butterflies in our stomach’ and call that a ‘loving experience’ –  what I mean is a real and deep introspection within all areas of our lives wherein we have merely accepted and allowed the configuration of the world ‘as  is,’ and in this becoming square-headed and only focus on the problems outside of ourselves, never really turning our eyes back to self and looking within, and really pondering, how it is that I’ve come to accept me as what I  have become without a question of this ‘me’ being that which I truly am and want to be? And within this question, an opening exists, being ready to question not only yourself and everything you’ve always been, but also the entire system that has currently lead us all to feel like there’s something ‘inherently wrong’ without having any definitive conclusion about Why.

 

I had an encounter with an old classmate a month ago or so and I could see that a person’s drive to support can be directed in a way where ‘everyone wins’ wherein establishing a business that supports meat production in a more fair/ sane/ healthy way could benefit not only the top minority that can afford such organic meat, but the community and every single person involved in its production, as well as the living of the animals used for the meat. However, he encountered multiple problems to have proper licenses and permissions to distribute this product at a broader level, creating all sorts of excuses and paperwork that certainly pushed him down within his attempt to provide the population with meat free from the usual toxin that we eat in our meat, as well as keeping the animals roaming free until the time to kill them comes. So, he had to team up with others to be able to keep the meet a a luxury item that is only affordable for a few, when his goal was to expand the production, make it affordable by the majority and as such, everyone wins.
This tampering that he encounter affected him at the level of realizing to what extent we have lost our minds because of money and as such expressed deep concerns and uncertainty about what is it that is inherently wrong within ourselves. I explained how it is our mind, our nature and as such questioning how we have allowed such  conflicts to dictate what we are committed to do? We said farewell for now, because we realize we have to do something in the near future, as we cannot continue lying to ourselves any further, this is then a physical example of moving through hopelessness and helplessness in one single moment and making the decision to stick to what we see will develop into an opportunity for further ways to implement sustainable systems at a local level that can contribute within a greater system that stands within principles wherein everyone can win, so to speak. But, this decision is taken when the first question posted at the beginning of this blog was taken further through deep ups and downs that lead him to realize that happiness, no matter how much money you have, can only truly exist if everyone is equally supported to create such happiness at a well-being level, that is currently only provided and existent if money is in our pockets.

 

Everything that we currently exit as at a mind level is not designed to be caring, compassionate, common-sensical and self-driven, we have only learned to exist based on self interest, the usual thought in the background of ‘what’s ‘in it’ for me’ and as such we’ve driven our world to the verge of self destruction because everyone wants to win more than the other, instead of realizing we could all equally share and ‘win/win.’  This affects our ‘who we are’ within our relationships, either at a personal or a professional level because when the energetic-drive is gone, we believe that we’re ‘missing out on something’ but it is not, it is just that we haven’t learned how to live within and as this principle of equality as life, as effortless and ‘experience less’ as a breath, yet so powerful that it enables us to maintain our organs functioning and blood running through our veins, which is what our life is all about right now: a physical system that should learn how to support all bodies of existence equally.  This means that is not a mind-energy driven process, but physically realizing what would be a best way to ensure all beings are equally supported. No matter how much I would explain the solution, as long as the person sees themselves as separate From the solution, it becomes quite a futile talk, because self is then not here realizing the individual responsibility within this, which is what leads to eventually ‘giving up’ any form of world change.

 

In a hypothetical situation seeing all our resources, world, stability and fictional sense of ‘everything is alright’ lost, we will go back and say: why the hell did I not Hear what was  being said and suggested to be and become a self-responsible being in my life? And regret is what we would all have to face for not giving it all we can to ensure that people become aware and Realize that any form of fear to change the system, is nothing but a perfect indoctrination tactic that we’ve accepted and allowed within the belief that ‘the  system is bigger than us’ and as such, fearing punishment for standing up, when in fact what we call ‘standing up’ is simply aligning things/ the system in the way in which it always should have worked. And if you realize what this means is that: it is a matter of removing the limitation by allowing words to be understood as the necessary and inevitable changes that we have to create in this world. We are so self-driven currently to our own demise that it is definitely an imperative job to focus on our individual de-conditionalization  in order to become an effective participant in our society, because as long as we fear making a change, we remain as the very guardians an perpetrators of the past abuse.

This is what I can gather from a day of exchanging perspectives with various individuals that presented the same questions: is it possible to change the system? and How are we going to do this?

 

How about then realizing that getting to know ourselves, taking self responsibility to live a physical and practical change within is what will manifest such desired ‘love’ without as the world that we all want to live in –  yes, because correction means supporting everyone in Equality, and that’s where real freedom resides.

 

If you’re ready and up for this, if you really care for another as yourself,  follow the links below and we’ll walk in equality to demonstrate ourselves how we always held the power of deciding to do what’s best for all, we just hadn’t realized How to direct it and that’s what we are to stand as an example and support everyone that is willing to do the same.

 

Further Support:

 

Blogs:

 

 

Inspiration to Stand up for Life:

 

Documentary:

A Virus Called Fear – Documentary Short Movie

 

Vlog:

We’re Enslaved- What now?


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