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Buy your holy-daze–be merry in a crisis mess

 

We have all indulged into ‘that time of the year’ wherein we asked toys to a non-existent benevolent man that could bring you and apparently “all kids” everything you wished for down your chimney – or under your door if you didn’t get to live in the stereotype of houses with the nice chimney, which now forms part of the collective ‘ideal’ of what a house should look like for Christmas purposes.  I bet you didn’t precisely ponder where, how or who created such toys, at least I didn’t at that time. Though this entire secrecy on these non invisible characters that gave stuff away to kids certainly created a dissonance within me because the whole thing didn’t match the ways of how everything else worked in the world.

I pondered how it was possible for someone to bring all of those products ‘for free’ during the night, deliver them in every single home during the hours that we would be sleeping and manage to get it all done without anyone ever noticing. I’d get anxious as hell to know how that worked, I even pondered if these guys had the ability to stop the time. A cultural clarification is that I never got stuff from ‘Santa’ because my parents told us that ‘that’ was an ‘American thing,’ so we would get our toys on January 6th by ‘the three wise men’ which is exactly the same thing really, in fact it is often counter productive as kids tend to think ‘Oh they are three so I can ask stuff to each one of them!’ Some others even got to get stuff in both dates, that’s depending on the family obviously and their ability to acquire stuff. Both points work the exact same way, making us believe that some guys could magically read our letters where we began developing our manipulation tactics telling them how ‘good’ and well-behaved we had been through the year to then feel confident enough to drop the list of the ultimate toys we had been desiring for, a list mostly influenced by all the stuff we would watch on the TV ads which are ‘surprisingly’ ubiquitous toward the end of the year, more so than any other time.

This is only part of how we have created a set of ‘unspoken agreements’ in society to create perpetual lies that sound ‘nice’ to all kids and create the dissonance of there being some ‘benevolent’ guy/guys that are able to give you toys only during this particular date of the year.

All of this sounded awfully wrong, something ‘was not right’ within this miraculous toy-delivery whenever I would see people that are living in the streets, having no food to eat, seeing kids my age selling candies in the traffic lights every day. I was not able to ‘make sense’ of some people not having a place to live or food to eat, yet having these guys in this same reality that can bring everyone all the toys you want regardless of the price – how come that they are Not supporting those in real need throughout the  year to have a decent living condition? No one could answer this to me. I grew some form of sadness around this time of the year because of that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a ‘sadness’ experience through ‘Christmas time’ because of always having pondered what would happen to poor people having no food, no ‘special warm meal,’ no proper place to stay yet many of us having our nice ‘dinners’ and giving presents to each other and being all ‘joyous’ as if everything was alright in this world.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become deliberately ‘sad’ and ‘depressed’ while growing up when pondering why poor people couldn’t enjoy a Christmas time like I did, with presents and all the food that I often wondered they could use to eat for an entire weak.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to make myself ‘feel better’ by imagining that they too had a ‘cool Christmas time’ given by someone in the government and making them ‘happy’ at least once a year – this is part of the self-brainwashing in order to be able to ‘cope’ with a reality wherein millions consume the last drop of their wallets and enroll in 12 month debts just to be able to buy stuff to those that ‘they love.’

This would seriously create a dissonance in my experience and this is a point I can see I might have inherited from my father  who would react most of the times to this season as well – yet I associated and developed it mostly to becoming ‘over-sensitive’ to ‘those in need’ while everyone just shopped around the clock. I couldn’t compute the fact that what I perceived back then as a ‘majority’ could have these food binges on that day while others didn’t have anything to eat. My mother used to tell me that the government would surely supply them with a nice dinner as well – yeah right… I don’t blame her though, she did what she could to make me ‘feel better’ and get myself out of that internalization to stop over-analyzing the entire world’s situation during ‘Christmas time.’

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create an experience of sadness as an inner-suffering whenever I could not make ‘sense’ of this world and the inner-workings of Christmas time which was like an absolute parallel dimension that would suddenly ‘emerge’ where everyone feels ‘ happy’ and more ‘compassionate’ to one another, though never living this out throughout the rest of the year.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever participate in the ‘special atmosphere’ either through happiness as a child due to the presents I would get or sadness while growing up, creating a sulky mood within me through this time of the year, every year without considering that I was in fact participating in this separate-dimension to this reality through an emotional experience that was related to ‘the season’ without pondering my participation being equal to that of ‘happiness’ or ‘joy’ that others experience yet in the opposite direction, still participating in a self-created experience related to a time of the year called ‘Christmas.’

This year has been the most ‘stable’ I’ve been through the past years, it’s taken some time and over three Decembers to not indulge into the usual depressive state, also for some other reasons wherein people in my reality would somehow become more depressed and suicidal during these days, so I had to deal with some of that in the past during ‘these days’ – all is memory based, so this is just sharing how such memories are then imprinted and how within our minds we relate certain ‘days of the year’ for the sake of keeping our mind systems that require memories and our participation within those memories to continue ‘ruling our world.’

 

Back to consumerism

I’m glad to say I didn’t participate in this entire game of the Christmas religion-rite where you are apparently able to demonstrate to another ‘how much you care’ through giving them stuff. The very fact that we believe this is a ‘must do’ is an indicative of participating in a set of beliefs that we’ve accepted as part of ‘traditions’ and ‘culture’ in the name of consumerism, because let’s be absolutely honest here: no one really gives a fuck about Jesus in this whole shopping-binge.

Production depends on whether a certain industry has a stable amount of faithful consumers that will keep an industry running creating enough profit to ‘keep up with the business.’ We are so predictable as human beings that such ‘needs’ are created out of nowhere to cover the most insignificant aspects of a human being’s life, yet making it as attractive as possible to make it a potential commercial success. Once we become ‘hooked on’ a particular product, we make it part of our lives which means becoming regular buyers of that which we now believe ‘we require to live.’

Within this process I have simplified my consumerist traits exponentially. I was brought up in terms of being used to seeing people buying, it became part of my ‘lifestyle’ to have all of these unnecessary products for personal care or more clothes than what I actually required, buying stuff that ‘defined me’ like cd’s and books, music magazines, and lots of other regular ‘traits’ that involved buying particular items that supported ‘my personality’ which included a shit load of antiques for decorative purposes. I just took a glance at all of that stuff in the storage room here, it’s all in boxes now, useless as it always was.

Once that I started debunking my ‘personal religion’ – which I based on these products/ items – I realized how much I had become used to buying and consuming as part of my life. I have been able to become aware of in terms of simplifying to a great extent the amount of stuff I buy overall.

Consumerism is what has given continuation to this current never ending machinery of buying and selling, accumulating and wanting more at the end of the day, everything powered by cheap slave labor that is tacitly implied in most of the stuff we buy in stores.

Production of unnecessary means is part of the entire capital-thinking machine that only seeks to create profit. Does anyone really give a damn about ‘toys’ or ‘making kids happy’ about it? No, children are just easy gullible targets which make them the most vulnerable marketing-spot during the entire Santa and Christmas time. These are all convenient dates to extricate ourselves from an entire year of scarcity and limitation – savings are destined to buy food, clothes, toys, cars, appliances and virtually anything else that we can give to each other as ‘presents,’ a presentation of our compliance to the current system where ‘traditions’ are sold and maintained as social codes with extreme ease once that everyone agrees on ‘how things are’ and what this ‘season’ represents.

We have all accepted consumerism as our one religion, as the ‘true code,’ the configuration of money being the one driving force to create virtually everything in this world.  We have disregarded ourselves as human beings whenever we don’t even get to ponder ‘who makes this all happen? Who builds the shoes that I wear? Who makes the clothes? who builds this furniture? Who harvests the food I eat? Whenever we buy something, we are tacitly agreeing and participating in all the current negligible labor conditions that the majority of the products we consume are created in. 

It is unacceptable to take a single stuffed animal as something that generates such ‘warmth’ and ‘tender’ without ever pondering how it was created in the first place.

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to create a sense of ‘being happy’ with the stuff that I would get which was the moment that my ‘sadness’ and all other questions would suddenly ‘dissipate’ because I had what I had vehemently desired.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can make people happy through buying and giving them stuff, without realizing this was just an acquired belief within this current system wherein buying stuff is a primary action to keep the enslavement rolling.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in a system of consumerism wherein I have equated ‘caring for another’ to ‘buying them stuff’ and linking this to ‘feeling good’ for giving other stuff while expecting something in return as well.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to compromise myself for the sake of ‘following a tradition’ and buying stuff within ‘Christmas time’ in the past to show that I ‘cared’ for others.

 

We have to stop compromising ourselves in these type of agreements as traditions and rites wherein all that ‘goes on’ is consuming: buying, eating, drinking and any other excess that having such apparent ‘joy’ creates in a human being. I was just outside in the garden listening to how people usually just get drunk and start singing and eating and that’s their ‘Christmas time’ – path.ethic. This must stop.

There will obviously be no Christmas like we know it, everyday will be Christmas if it is usually defined as a ‘peaceful time of the year’ where everyone is loving each other and ‘forgiving’ – we’ll make that self-forgiveness, self honesty and living according to principles that can be applied every single moment that we direct ourselves to create a world that’s best for all in Equality.

I suggest you watch/ read the following stuff to get more perspectives on the points exposed here.

 

Read:

Santa’s Workshop

Watch:

CHRISTMAS EVERY DAY HOW ?

Christmas for Profit Rant and Considerations

Who Builds Your Toys? Buy your Holy-Daze 

Music:

Scary Christmas – Slave Bells are Ringing

“Santa is an Illusion” – The North Whole Crew
SO OUT THERE – This Is Why Christmas Is Bullshit!
Jedi Mind Tricks – Shadow Business

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Tranquility

Writing for the sake of grounding myself as this is how I have walked through any point that I would have considered earth-shattering throughout my life and walking of this process.

Tranquility – I used to define and associate this word as the opposite of being in a loud place like a city with many people – you know, the usual images of the zen garden having only the buzzing of insects as background, having no major external disturbance and instead a nice fluffy environment I could simply sit and drift away in some mental-created state of ‘tranquility’, the type of ‘drifting off with the sea’ which I would experience when staring at it for a long period of time whenever I had the chance to do so.

Another memory is how my mother would tell me ‘tranquila, serena’ which she’d word whenever I’d go into any of my usual hissy fits and rage for anything in my world that I would vehemently react to spewing words that could somehow depict the amount of disgust and/or hatred I had towards something/ someone outside of myself. Actually no, I didn’t ‘hate’, I have always deemed that word as ‘too much’ for me to handle so it was mostly a general angst that I would then get patted on my back to be ‘at ease’, like snapping out of any given tantrum and being treated like a mentally deranged person that gets calmed down by being patted on the back – that’s how I would experience the ‘then’ tranquility experience, like that sedated effect that comes after we’ve unleashed hundreds of tears of sadness or anger.

Tranquility was always then a reaction-experience ‘after the storm’ as the necessary pole that would place an ‘end’ to any of the usual turmoil experienced – a sense of ‘everything is now fine in the outside world, there’s nothing ‘bothering’ me, I am at ease, I am tranquil now’ yet, it was always only an experience, a mentally created state for the sake of calming my waters down.

Tranquility also brings the song ‘stone in focus’ and how I used to repeat the same track ad nauseam hoping to find some sense of transcendence after numbing myself with such hypnotic sounds. That sense of ‘losing myself’ just as any other false tranquility that weed would give me, when I was able to remain staring at the ceiling for long periods of countless time, listening to equally mind droning music that seemed to have no beginning and no end.

Tranquility as being alone in my house, as having no neighbor-sounds coming at all, that sense of being finally living in a perfect world where I can hear my own heartbeat and breathing.

Tranquility as having enough money on my pockets throughout my life so that I wouldn’t’ have to worry about getting something to eat the next day. That false sense of tranquility that money can give to only a few compared to the vast majority that’s living in such a struggle for this sense of ‘financial tranquility’.

All of these definitions – and probably many more hidden in the backtracks of the overrated life experience – are associated with what I had understood ‘Tranquility’ to be. Though they were nothing but counter acts, self-created mindfucks of having specific sounds, pictures, people or the lack thereof around me to create a sense of ‘peace’ which is also what I sought through meditation and any other practice in ‘stilling the mind’ as in shutting up a never-ending thinking machine without ever even considering that I had to actually face myself as such mind, that I just didn’t have to ‘stop it’ and ‘shut id off’ but instead had to walk an actual point of Self Correction.

The correction with regards to this word now is how I can define tranquility as every moment that I am here breathing, stopping any thoughts and remaining attentive as the focus necessary to be stopping and redirecting ourselves every time.

This implies having no time-lag of any memory, picture or idea in my mind that could stir my waters into any direction up there in the mind as yet another experience. Instead of making of tranquility a separate ‘act’ that would be encouraged and self-created/ impulsed as a ‘need’ or ‘necessary outflow’ out of having experienced the opposite – such as anger, sadness or any other emotional outburst for that matter –  I now walk the process of embracing tranquility as that simplicity of being here as the physical body, ensuring I face myself as my mind watching the thoughts go by, self forgiving and ensuring I do not participate on them.

I write myself and voice myself as self forgiveness to stop any delusions that may be occupying my mind and thus I’m able to remain here as breath, walking, directing and within that, actual tranquility exists –  I make sure I am self directive instead of being only a prey to my own mind, being hunted/haunted by my own beliefs, ideas, preferences that I then face to see how it is simply a matter of realizing the program, stopping the thoughts linked to that to stand and focus on what’s actually here as the breathing-walking-living reality as self.

This is how tranquility is not some externally created moment with nice pictures all around to build and sell the entire package, but instead I make sure I realize tranquility as myself as nothing moving inside me and remaining just here, self directive, aware as my physical body –  breathing.

 


Spirit-to-hellity: a Heart-based business

Buy your peace of mind.

It’s been proven throughout history that the human has a tendency to seek a form of ‘reuniting with the hole’ and using/testing many ways to do so – it’s no longer a ‘mystery’ on how this has been ever pervasive along with the human kind – this is due to a preprogrammed set up to seek ‘god’ and seek that way of submitting to a greater force, to feel ‘detached from the whole’ to then seek ways to ‘get back together’ through any means such as religions which have now mutated into a more new-age era friendly practice called ‘spirituality’ which is apparently the evolution to fool-fill  the hole that major religions ‘left open’ in their practices.

Spirituality then fits the needs for a convoluted society that’s currently existing in a continuous survival mode wherein time is money, where the atrocities that are committed day to day affect the psyche of the being’s stability and general life experience of the individuals which leads everyone to seek some ‘peace of mind’ – we’ve all been there, most of us have had some experience with the spiritual practices wherein we indulged into that never-ending quest for self perfection through ‘peace of mind’, obtaining the ‘right answers’, endless ‘creative power’, perfect harmony within yourself, accepting it all as it is and only focusing on positive thinking, prosperity, happiness, love, freedom and the ultimate quest for enlightenment. All of this is easily able to be nowadays packaged and sold to you for exorbitant prices that you are willing to pay because it is apparently that type of inversions that will assure you some type of seat in the front row of enlightenment or an illusory quest to a heavenly ever after.

Within seeking these guides, paths and ways to fulfill this ‘inherent longing to reconnect with the whole’ or with the primordial energy a.k.a. ‘god’,  we get to indulge in various ways to brainwash ourselves into believing that being at ease with ourselves, allowing the world to just ‘be’ and focus on positive thinking is what will lead us to an eternal life and ever lasting grace – it is not, yet this is widely sold as truth and people buy it because it’s easier to buy your quick fix wherein you’ll be apparent a happy, stable and all-knowing person than having to face yourself in your reality, walking practical steps to realize how light and love as well as seeking that peace of mind won’t come just by listening to some tapes, repeating some mantras, meditating for hours and pretending that you’re not in and of this world.

The deception is clear now – yet there are many that are paying thousands to get these type of quick fixes that go hand in hand with the ever-present abdication of self responsibility as human beings. It also suits an entire ‘lifestyle’ wherein you’re apparently healthy and clean and not participating in the shit that’s going on in this world overlooking  the most basic common sense implied within being oneness and equality, which is that no one is really devoid of such responsibility, no one is really clean from having taken part in the current decadence that we’re facing as our world. Hence, what is it that you’re really buying into yet again?

Buying your peace of mind.

Many people prefer to say ‘I’m spiritual’ instead of saying ‘I am a catholic/satanic/jew’ or whatever, because it’s more chic than being religious, because there are all types of ‘cool people’ into spirituality, smiling themselves into a make-believe brighter view of the world with positive thinking while buying their tickets to go see Deepak Chopra or hear a sugar-coated message by some channel that lets you know that ‘everything can be solved with LOVE’ – the majority is willing to pay for THAT as it provides a false sense of security, trust and ‘protection’ that has the marvelous ability to be invisible – which is what makes spirituality the perfect business in all its branches and subdivisions targeting  the reckless human nature that seeks only one’s own experience to be satisfactory, to be ‘at ease’ and at peace without having to look back at the world and the reality that billions are living in. It’s easier to pay to be ‘blessed by the spiritual masters’ than researching how this reality works and how is it that each one of us have accepted and allowed a system wherein you’ve got enough money to seek these type of ‘answers’ and buy yourself a seat in paradise – what about the rest of the world? May I ask.

Spirituality is nothing else but another drug to escape reality, it is no different to taking valium or prozac to cope with reality, you pay for both and you get a ‘better feeling of yourself’ within this reality, another band aid solution with juicy profiteering that’s now been ever increasing in direct proportion to the current state of this world which is of obvious disparity, instability and general madness making things like meditation and contemplation and generally forgetting about the world popular activities as a form of ‘recreation’ and ‘cultivation of one’s spiritual side’ without having to do anything but sitting back, relaxing and just chill –  instead of getting involved into an actual process of realizing HOW we are the ones that have created the current conditions of this world as it exist.

I once defined myself a spiritual person, in fact it’s the definition that I held for most of the time since throughout my life, I was more aware of the so-called ‘spiritual realms’ of channelings and what I knew as ‘spiritism’ than going to church which I was taught it was bollocks from a very early age. So I became part of the new-ager squad that would keep ‘spirituality’ as something ‘sacred’ and something that I intended to maintain as my secret belief, as something I had to ‘cult.ivate’ myself more into – all of this prior to finding Desteni of course. Then I realized that spiritualism was no different to believing in a god and that it was only a refurbished version of any other religion, only suited and packed to fit in today’s scheme of what’s ‘cool’ and ‘in’ within our current society. When I started seeing the extensive market-creation around this point, it became quite obvious that this wasn’t as ‘pure’ as I had thought – it was time to simply stop.

People are willing to accept anything that rings like bells to their ears, that which sounds ‘nice’ and ‘fun’ and ‘peaceful’ and ‘it works’ – proof is how you get people asking shit to the universe and making it work without even pondering how on Earth can’t such ‘love’ as shit to fool-fill your life manifest as food and houses for people starving in the world? How can such love not manifest as pipes of fresh and clean water for people to drink, cook and bathe themselves in, how can it not manifest as heaps of food that can be distributed to every single human being so that we could ensure that no one suffers from hunger, diseases and mental problems due to lacking proper conditions to live in.

It’s easy to be in white robes avoiding to get any dirt on.

Dare to face yourself, you don’t have to pay a single cent for that, all you require is self will to stop all mental delusions, all desires for quick fixes and actually walk a path of self-forgiveness in self honesty to realize How we are all equally responsible for this world and everything that exists in it and how we are also walking a process of correcting everything that is HERE as it is ourselves. Yet, this is no easy-way-out, it’s actually the long hard road out of hell but there is no other way.

At Desteni you won’t get sugar-coated messages, you essentially won’t hear what YOU want to hear to be at peace with yourself. You will actually end up facing the truth of yourself, that truth that is usually overlooked and covered up with massive blinding lights that have become the way to believe that ‘everything is fine’ and that the people that suffer  is because ‘they deserve it as part of their bad karma from previous lives’ – really? What would You think if you were one of those persons with ‘bad karma’, would you still justify and accept your suffering with such bullshit explanation? No.

There is no other way but to take self responsibility and stop all desires to short cut yourself into a heavenly experience that has only been sold as a nice story from the times of the buy-bill that have now been refurbished and sold as that ever lasting love and light-bulb bliss story that will apparently solve all your troubles and exfoliate all your pain.

All delusions begin and end with ourselves. If we are not capable of stopping them, we better end ourselves and allow a self to emerge that won’t EVER again delegate its beingness into a belief of something ‘more’ than who we are and within that missing our ability to actually live and be free in Equality.

”Accepting the Idea of God will take me through all parts of existence as me in search for / belief of God in ALL FORMS this God exist, until I have walked all paths/cycles/lifetimes and manifestations as me to get to the realisation: there is no god – only me / this the extent of accepting/allowing a belief in the idea of god – for me and all of me that is here “– Sunette Spies

Lights out

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The END of Spirituality in an Equal Money System


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