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247. Blindly Following Our Progress

Doomsday is a novelty joke to evade the consequences of our thoughts, words and deeds of having disregarded the laws of nature and the physical in our reality in the name of following through with our mind-driven desires, all based on energy which implies the abuse of the physical for the sake of feeling just Fine.

What’s the fine line between progress and devolution? The neglect in which we have built this marvelous see-evil-I-zation wherein we have focused on the ‘I’ only of self interest, following our success, no matter ‘what’ has to be destroyed and potentially damaged for the rest of the Earth’s existence just to have a moment of bliss and ideal of progress disregarding the shit hitting the fan while smiling at the beautiful scenes of what progress implies.

Cities like Dubai are the perfect example of what human beings as gods disregarding the ‘forces of nature’ imply: creating this great buildings at the expense of the most horrid living conditions that any worker on Earth is currently having to go through just to make a living. The same goes for all the people that confections our clothes, build our gadgets, grow and reap our food which is essentially the extraction and transformation industries that get to do the most work at the expense of slave labor. The ‘retail’ industry is the one that benefits through us buying brands, lifestyles, experiences that we have tagged as our ‘successful living’ while neglecting everything that had to be destroyed for that single ‘lifestyle’ to be now something that is Normal to ourselves.

Read Matti Freeman’s Day 152: Slaves of Dubai – Exposing the Darkness behind the Glittering Lights of Progress for further context.


Continuing from:


We’ve come to the point where we would rather expect some 3 days of darkness to happen or some planetary alignment and suddenly have a renewed world all of a sudden. Seriously, is there any  trace of sanity in such beliefs? No – and this world-system is proof of how we have all been inherently insane to keep blindly participating in this world system wherein Nothing is projected to be sustainable in a long term basis.

I was watching Gian’s video on Hope – which I obviously suggest you watch as well – and realized that it is true, we are born with a certain belief/idea of ‘this is how things always have been and there’s no change in how things work’ – and in this ‘this is how things work’ is the doom of our race, because in such acceptance we have only gone either of the two following ways:

1. Waiting for the world to end/ be destroyed = doomsday character.

2. Waiting for something marvelous to happen that will wash away all the destruction and will wipe out all our atrocities in a blink of an eye = ascension/ transformation of consciousness character.


Both are equally fucked, to say the least, since we can read WAITING which is just precisely HOPING for something to happen. In both scenarios we either drive ourselves to a Negative Self Experience – which is what I have described in the past posts – or we drive ourselves to a Positive Self Experience, which is all your ascension/2012 transformation of consciousness type of messages. It is funny to recall the last book I read on the Mayan Calendar subject, right before Desteni – well in fact the day I finished the book I encountered Desteni – where Dr. Calleman said that by November 2012, everyone would be enlightened – I would quote the page of the 2012 Transformation of Consciousness book he wrote, but gave it away within the realization that I had just indulged in quite an extensive amount of unfounded statement. Wow, really wow.  If enlightenment means being ready to continue using and abusing the Earth by our every single move in everything we think say and do then by all means, we are full of light and will soon burst into flames if we don’t stop.


What I realize is that beyond me having gone into the negative experience about the world and feeling all sad/ depressed that ‘this world is shit,’ is really only the exact same as thinking positive and waiting for something Great to come, because in self-doomification I am doing exactly the same thing: Only waiting for an End while precisely only living to die and doing absolutely Nothing to stop the current ways in which our society has been made ‘acceptable,’ which is accepting and allowing self-abuse in all ways.


Now, the problem is not the Earth of course or the ecosystem and all the living beings beside the human being, that was perfect in its natural equilibrium; it is our force as human nature of actual Evil that has disregarded the physical forces we are subject to. That’s what playing God in essence has been about: believing we could somehow implement our jolly civilizations of multiple advancements without a single point of concern on ‘what’s next’ you know? Because there is a very important factor that we have ALL Participated in: We Trusted in those that have come before us to only give ‘permission’ – accept and allow – to implement what is currently running here as a living-condition that should be beneficial for all. But is it so? Of course not, not at all since all decisions made have been based upon Energy, which in this world system means Money/ Profit being the directive principle of the route we have followed through as humanity. And as all decisions made/founded upon energy: there is a massive disregard for its sustainability in the long run, and this goes from relationships that we found upon this energetic positive experience to making our living decisions of what career to study, what to ‘invest upon’ only within the same scheme of what we have currently valued as ‘More’ than life itself.


When I was a child, I developed this ‘ecological awareness’ in a very limited way, but it was ‘something’ and I remember being 7-8 years old and from that time and on, every time that  I flushed the toilet I would ‘feel bad’ for the water that will have to go with all the rest of the world’s toilet water and polluting the Earth. Whenever I would take a shower I would literally imagine how many more were showering around the world as well, how many were spending too much water in their showering while I was ensuring I would spend the least – I worried about things like littering on the streets and the smog produced by all the cars in the city – and I would become rather depressed whenever I would get to go to another country or see pictures of another’s travels throughout Europe for example, and be marveled at the cleanliness and order that those cities/places were in, it all seemed ‘to good to be true,’ which is another outflow and consequence of us regarding such advancements as something genuinely positive to follow and desire. I only created a loathing for my country and the people here, so I went into an absolute abhorrent state because in my mind ‘no one cared’.’  And again, going into a ‘powerlessness’ and ‘hopelessness’ because no matter how much I tried to make an effort to ‘do something,’ obviously it was futile, because I wasn’t really looking at or aware of the greater picture of how things work in this reality.


Throughout the years, it was like swimming against the tide all the time, everyone just wanted me to relax a bit about all the things I would constantly worry about – all that which I called ‘pollution’ yet never really saw how everyone’s – including my own-  every single move contributes to this ‘pollution,’ no matter what we do in this current society. So, this is part of a personality that I became until I simply opted for the ‘fly away’ type of personality wherein I would shove aside my constant awareness on dirt/ pollution/ contamination/ civil carelessness for the environment and blamed this country and its people for it, never really understanding the magnitude of the problem at a global scale of which this idea of progress was mostly the direct source of, and how it was because of the ‘improvements’ that people in the first world were developing as the ‘ultimate civilizations’ that we were in fact following through with this abuse, without the necessary education on how to DEAL with everything we would get now from such first world countries and simply started copying it, using it,  without any further regard, which became a problem because we simply followed through with the ‘advancements’ without really pondering: hmm, if I buy a v.8 vehicle yes I’ll have a shitload of HP and luxuries, but is this sustainable?

And so, our living standard instead of focusing on creating sustainable conditions for transportation became the ultimate presentation of an actual mock to any regard for the resources required to run a v.8 vehicle, because all that we really cared for is showing off our ability to pay for such amount of gas, taxes and maintenance as an indication of elevating our power of acquisition through buying that which could SHOW to others that we are ‘making it in the system.’ This is what our success have become.


“A Successful Failure, is when Failure is taken Personally – and the Purpose of Failure is not Grasped. Because Failure, has been Changed into the Illusion of Energy and is Experienced as some form of ‘Feeling’.
Failure, when Grasped – is the Map and the Road to Self-Perfection.” – Bernard Poolman*


The example I give is quite a tangible one, since also in my home city there’s Volkswagen and all the German people worked there and had this thing for cars, which I then became used to the idea of one has to have this latest-model of car and dispose the older ones because: you always get improvements. This is a single example of how we Always buy into the idea (social conditioning) of having the latest and most recent upgrade of everything as a sign of success – see for yourself how only the nice bright idea of power is looked at, but have no regard at the actual need for an upgrade and what happens with all the cars that are disposed, what are the current productions settings that have created our brand new car, the gas requirements, labor that has been put into it, how has it been paid for – none of that is of our concern, we feel like royals just having the ability to buy it and ride it and disregard everything else. And yes, it feels GREAT but I bet it won’t feel that great when there’s no freaking gas to pump into such v.8 vehicles, where already decisions are being made between eating or pumping gas into your car, as a matter of fact and consequence of disregarding basic common sense equations in which life should run upon.


Now we get the point of success being a blatant ignorant self-abuse, you see?


And then, when the shit hits the fan as it is happening now, we would rather follow through either of the above mentioned 2 options, instead of actually placing our hands on the problems and become aware of the series of steps that we have followed through until it’s become this chain-massacre of points that we accepted and allowed to end up in this blind-line of production and consumption that is disregarding and neglecting the primer matter of which everything is formed.

Please read an Economist’s Journey to Life for further  details


I had to just go and clean the fridge from all the food that my house mates have just ‘left’ and realized how just because we have the money to buy, we simply buy-buy-buy and don’t even think about what we are in fact going to in fact use. I can absolutely say that the waste of food I have created for the most part has been the one I have processed in my own physical body and dumped on the toilette, but I absolutely measure the amount of food I will in fact eat – and if some vegetables go rot, it’s a minimal quantity that I can place as compost for the tree and that’s it. And when confronting anyone about such blind-consumption, we only face the point of: Oh but ‘I’ bought it, so it’s ‘my’ stuff as a given right to abuse. The same we do with everything that we consume that we know it’s not beneficial, like people taking drugs and believing that it is only THEM that they are fucking up, not anyone else – which means that we disregard the basic fact that Everything we do, act and speak is linked through a collective process of coexisting in the same world, this means: there are no ‘isolated forces’ that will not have an effect and consequence on this reality, we’re all equally contributing to them.


And once again, what do we do? If you ask any regular person, everyone’s just hoping things will just go ‘mildly wrong’ in our lifetime as it’s being predicted everywhere, we just hope to ‘make it through,’ die and leave the future generations with the most heavy load of destruction to deal with. This is the statement we are living by every day that goes through without placing and becoming a solution to this world.


What is this whole ‘evolution’ based on, what is our progress based on? Abuse of the Earth to make things bigger, faster, greater, more efficient, more astounding and creating within ourselves this fantabulous self-experiences of this being a ‘marvelous world/ our creation,’ but we rarely or never even look at all the processes behind everything that we consume – and for that, we are ALL equally responsible.


And this is one of the points that listening to the See no Evil, Hear no Evil, Speak no evil – Life Review which really walks us through what we’ve become without a doubt in this world, and also a great way to gift to another a piece of audio-awareness that can be an eye opener for this ‘holiday season’ when all our “Love” is DEMON-strated through buying/ consuming and giving each others stuff that we have no idea how it’s been created.


So, where does our responsibility reside on? Having accepted and allowed the current lifestyles we’re living as ‘the way things are’ which is what Anu also explains is something that should be really questioned at all times, as that implies the inertia that we’ve moved ourselves within: how things are/ it’s always been this way wherein we automatically infer = then it is fine, then it is okay, then there is no harm or potential life-threat within this, because it’s been running for 50 years. Well, it’s certainly ONLY 50 years that’s taken us to massively upscale our current abuse on Earth and we call this progress.

And we expect doomsday? Lol that would certainly be a ‘gift’ if any god existed, we won’t get rid of any consequence any time soon unless we actually take responsibility for it, face it and fix it.


“Without Failure – Self-Perfection is Impossible.
Without Failure – Birthing Harmony on Earth is Impossible.
Without Failure – Perfecting Individualization is Impossible.
Without Failure – Enlightenment Perfection is Impossible.” – Bernard Poolman*


To be continued, for sure.



Red Fears




Interviews at Eqafe 


    Day 2 – Running out of Oil

    ‘Running out of oil’ is another way of explaining the entire depletion and extinction of the ‘fuels’ that keep this entire reality running as the world system that We have made ourselves dependent on, in the form of fuels/ energy, which is using the Earth’s resources to maintain our electric bubble. All of this done and established within a single acceptance and allowance of separation from ourselves to exist  as energy mind consciousness systems, as thoughts, feelings and emotions that generate experiences that we have called ‘life.’  The moment that we created a belief about being separate from life itself, we abdicated our ‘who we are’ to be run by and and through a system that operates by energy extracted from the physical reality- this Earth – and transformed into energy that fueled an ‘experience’ that we all sought to get to: heaven – but never ever questioned what is it that we were actually using/ abusing in order to create a ‘fulfilling lifestyle’ on Earth.

    We diminished ourselves to being power generators, living in a reality wherein we became dependent on energy extracted from the physical – that is ourselves – in order to fuel a delusion of what ‘living’ is and ‘would be’ once we were dead.

    This is a Long story that you can research about throughout the Desteni material and the current series walked by the designers/ creators of ourselves and this entire existence. Fascinating stuff, if I had not listened and studied that, I would not have been able to realize that: this entire world system is a mint reflection of what we accepted and allowed ourselves to become: mind consciousness systems generating fuel to power our ‘dreams’ of happiness and ‘infinite satisfaction.’

    I saw this ‘work of art’ done by a Mexican artist that created the outline of this country with bike-chains as a cogwheel mechanism hanging on a white wall, while having oil all over as the ‘lubricant’ to keep the entire mechanism going. The oil was also dripping down creating a puddle on the floor. The outline of the country was upside down, which means that the oil was ‘dripping to the north’ part of the country – that’s an obvious connotation about this entire oil-economy-driven reality and the ‘powers’ that are currently seeping the oil to ‘the north’ – however whenever we look at this reality as a running-on-oil reality, we can see that it works exactly the same way as our mind. This allows us to stop seeing ‘the problem’ outside of ourselves and actually bring it back to self.

    >We feel, think and get emotional to create the same ‘oil’ as the energy that the mind requires to keep functioning and in that, we are certainly no different to our entire economic system that is currently ‘going dry,’ which is how consciousness works as well. So, when we realize what stopping participation in the mind implies and how that will reflect in our world system, it will be quite interesting to see how dependent on energy we have been to keep our own ‘heaven’ running. This implies that we are all responsible for this current accepted and allowed ludicrous reality that is thriving on abuse and exploitation of the same life essence that we are all equally existent as/ made of.  We abuse our very physical to keep our own mental-realities going.

    So – a practical suggestion that is ‘walkable’/applicable at the moment is to see if there are any fears that may come up when realizing: What will actually happen if/when oil runs out? Do I fear losing something? Do I fear having to go through a particular situation with regards to such scenario? Do I experience any other emotion about it? And within that, we can simply make sure that we do not create and hold unnecessary reactions as fears, worry, concern and preoccupation within our mind, without giving it proper direction -which means writing it out, applying self forgiveness and establishing some common sense to stop all ‘fear of loss.’

    So: taking it back to self is: will I go into ‘panic’ if the world system currently crashes? How can I assist and support myself for that? What is it that I fear losing the most? And walking from there, one point at a time.’

    At the moment there is some primary Self-Forgiveness to walk here as the initial acceptance to create this current system that have made ourselves dependent on as our very own abdication of life to live through an energetic mind system.

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as a mind mechanism that ‘runs on energy’ which is what I accepted and allowed myself to exist and define myself as, wherein ‘living’ became equated to fueling a machine in separation of myself, instead of being the expression that is ‘who I am’ as one and equal to what is here, which doesn’t require ‘fuel’ to exist, but simply Is and exists.

    I realize that the creation of this existence as an energy generating/dependent machine implies a lot more than what I can currently ‘perceive’ with my own eyes. However, I do see that the current dependency that we have created upon natural resources to ‘run our reality,’ is stemming from the very nature of the world system that we have enslaved ourselves to and made dependent upon the illusion/ belief system that Money within this current world system represents.

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create any future projection of ‘fear of running out of oil,’ as the meaning of stopping an entire world system that depends upon it, without realizing that I am the one that has abdicated our very own self-sustainable, consistent and constant expression as and of life to a system and a reality that functions on energy in separation of ourselves.

    I realize that I can only create consequences that are Not best for all when life is disregarded as who I really am. Thus, I see that by having created a monetary system in the name of self-interest within the desire for power, control and greed, I abdicated my own ability to direct and express myself, here as one and equal to what Is and has always been here, and instead allowed myself as this reality to function in the nature of a battery system that requires energy to continue going, energy that is extracted in the name of ‘power’ as money.


    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse the resources that are existent on this Earth in the name of money, in the name of powering a system that I created, accepted and allowed myself to be dependent on energy to exist – and within that, giving up my ability to stand equal and one to what is here, which would imply not requiring energy to exist as in having to consume to ‘remain alive.’


    We tend to see this reality as something ‘separate’ from ourselves, we tend to judge the ‘world system’ and the current mechanisms we are utilizing to ‘power’ our existence as something ‘outside’ and ‘beyond ourselves’– however, we are actually living out the same processes as our own mind. What does that imply? That the source and cause for all the current crisis and problems in the world must not be considered/ looked at from the perspective of something ‘beyond ourselves’ without actually realizing that: all and everything that exists as our current world system has its starting point ourselves, within our own mind.

    Therefore I realize that any fear, experience or potential ‘experience’ when facing the consequences of our own disregard toward this reality as ourselves, is  the outflow of the events that have my own mind, each one’s mind as starting point. Thus, instead of looking at the manifested consequences and ‘my potential experience’ within it, I stop and I breathe to realize that the point that must be corrected to begin with, is my self-abdication to live through a mind-system that works and functions to create energy as experiences that I have become addicted to, as the constant and continuous thinking processes that keeps the idea of myself alive.

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the ‘energy crisis’ is some rich person’s ‘fault’ which is and would be only neglecting myself as the starting point of the problem, as having accepted and allowed the current world system to exist ‘as is’ and having seen the solution as ‘outside’ of myself/ out of reach, without realizing that we are all equally participants within this current world system. For that, we are all required to take equal participation to stand as the solutions required.

    I realize that whenever I am going into an experience within my mind due to ‘fearing’ the outflow and consequences in the near/ far future of what we have created and manifested in this world, I am not supporting myself/ this reality in any way to stop the very same system I am complaining and fearing about. I instead direct myself to become the point that stops at all times any and all experiences stemming from facing the reality that I have created for myself and everyone equally here.

    I realize that the current way that I am ‘keeping myself alive’ as fears, as future projections, as limitations that are existent in our world as the ‘greater systems,’ are in fact stemming from my very own abdication to exist as a mind consciousness system, as a mind that thrives on experiences generated by my own participation within thoughts, feelings and emotions that create enough friction to power my own existence as a mind, as this reality.

    I commit myself to stop all reactions as fears, future projections, preoccupation and worry about our future within a potential scenario of energy-depletion such as ‘running out of oil’ and instead, support myself to stop my own mind-participation in such unnecessary mind processes that generate the same energy that is keeping this entire system in a state of ‘fear,’ which prevents us from realizing that: we can actually create solutions if we direct ourselves to stand together As the solutions required in this world, beginning with stopping all unnecessary participation in our own mind.

    I commit myself to be the point that stops existing as an automated system that functions as a constant energy-charging machine, as a surrogate of ‘life’ which is my own mind, the mind that I have separated myself from and that I am here to commit myself to stand one and equal to, to reintegrate myself as all parts that I have separated myself from. This means, I stop participating in thoughts, feelings and emotions that have been the very cause to create the primordial separation of ourselves from what is Here and has always been here, which is life as the ever constant substance that we are actually able and capable of stand one and equal to, as it is who we really are.

    I commit myself to be the point that stops any reaction to and when seeing the manifested consequences of an overall disregard of our reality – this means, stopping fueling my own mind with fears, judgments, complains, blame and/or mental suffering when projecting the potential scenarios that we face. I walk myself to prepare myself to face the eventual outcomes that we have created and generated within our reality.

    I commit myself to stand as a point of stability which means, allowing myself to walk through the manifested consequences breathing, here, physically moving and directing myself within the consideration of what’s best for all in any given moment.

    This way, we ensure that we are all aware of having to face our reality, our creation and that no mind-experience is required to walk through it.

    I commit myself to stop any future projections that are unnecessary to create a point of worry and concern about – I instead direct myself to continue walking a process of stopping participating in the same points that limit ourselves from realizing: we are the solution if we become the point that stops existing as a limited system of energetic experiences generated by our own mind.

    I commit myself to walk this process of stopping even the slightest fear and movement when hearing about ‘oil peak’/ energy resources being depleted, as I understand the process that we are walking Here as a mirror of our initial acceptance and allowance of abdicating life and ‘living’ through and as a system of energy.

    For more, visit the thread at the Forum for further support and assistance on how to walk this process of writing ourselves to establish a point of self-responsibility through committing ourselves to be and become the solution that we require in this world.

    This point emerged at the forum in the following thread:

    What is the most important thing in the world?


    “Is this just a life preserver bivouac tenure? The Tropic of Cancer answered ‘Drink the Quicksand’”– lopsided. At the drive-in

    Further considerations and practical examples of how to walk this process of Self-Forgiveness:

    Day 1: Self Forgiveness by Bernard Poolman
    DAY 1: Who I Am as Money by dimensions

    To Educate yourself about the current Money System and its origin on the very mind that we are existing as, take the opportunity to read/ investigate and educate yourself with a never-before told investigation about reality and its current mechanisms stemming from the functioning and mechanism of our own mind.

    The Infinity Secret – Consciousness as The Light and The Dark

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