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549. Being Physical

Or how to embrace the potential of who we are in our physical body through stopping the participation in our mind’s noise

Continuing from 530. The Secret Behind Attraction

This is the last word that I listed in the blog cited above wherein I started looking at all of the words I had separated myself from and instead approach them seeing ‘who I am’ in relation to all of these words. So far I’ve seen where I have lived words mostly through energy/through the mind or personality systems and instead learning how to substantiate myself with a redefined version of the word, sometimes I’ve been opening up aspects of a word I haven’t lived yet, sometimes realizing how I have in fact been living those words, just not in the energy-based type of experience I perceived that other person to be living out, some other times fine-tuning the meaning of the words in relation to self-support. Overall it has been an enjoyable process of self-discovery and this last word is definitely a key one for me as well.

 

I’ve seen throughout my life as a woman how there has been this tendency to look at males as a source and embodiment of physical stability, being grounded, being solid and structural that I, defined as a woman, perceive myself to lack, wherein I can many times feel that my expression makes me wobbly and that I might be experiencing ‘waves’ within myself while a male seems to be very solid, at peace, quiet and ‘whole’ in their physical bodies. Now this is also not ‘every male’ to be honest, but some males I’ve seen wherein this is something that I can perceive it in how they act, speak, direct and exist from a moment to moment.

 

However, here I have to remind myself how all of this that I am describing is in fact coming from me and my own experiences in relation to this perception of someone ‘being physical,’ because! What I’ve also discovered through actually getting to know males specifically – I’ve seen how this can be more of a portrayal of a controlled-expression founded in suppression, wherein any form of ‘expressiveness’ is linked to ‘being feminine’ therefore ‘weak’ and therefore culturally being associated with a ‘lesser’ experience which is the kind of gender-based crap – sorry for the word but it is what it is – that we’ve collectively accepted and allowed, starting with my perception that it is only males that can be fully physical, structural, grounded and that I as a woman cannot ever  become that.

 

Sure, there are structural and multiple-dimensions to a man and a woman that of course create such distinction based on being one or the other – these I cannot change nor ‘rewire’ myself to ‘be like a man’ because that’s not the point here, but I’m looking at how I can integrate the ability to be physical and debunk that perception of stability, being ‘rock solid’ that many times is only a show for others while in fact, in the inside, one can be very anxious or fearful or experiencing anger that creates such ‘solidity’ more coming through as a tension in itself, etc. So, here it is about not validating appearances or how I can ‘present’ myself towards others, but instead how I can take the word and make it a reality, a substantiation process for me.

 

Being in the physical/being physical is something one hears a lot in this Desteni process where it is about learning to see the relationship that our mind-states have to our physical-bodies and the effect it has upon our body. Therefore part of this process is learning to change the way that we participate in our minds, to be directive in it and stopping the participation in energetic reactions that lead oneself to go into any high or low experience in our bodies.

 

This is definitely something that I can say to a certain extent I’ve been able to work with, which doesn’t mean that experiences don’t come up at all anymore – they absolutely do, and I have been quite aware of how I can ‘layer’ an energetic imprint into my body over repetition, meaning repeating the same fears or emotions in relation to something or someone over time to the point that they get triggered by a simple thought I may have related to that something or someone I’ve attached all of these fears or reactions to, and voilà, there one has a seemingly overwhelming experience that I have created all the way through my own participation in it.

 

This is an empowering realization as well because I am no longer perceiving that these energetic experiences swirling in my solar plexus area are just coming by themselves or get triggered out of ‘nowhere,’ nope, we are the creators of it all the way and fortunately here we have the tools and ways to walk through these reactions in order to embrace our physicality which to me means being in the physical body, breathing, not participating in useless thoughts that lead to fears, reactions, expectations, judgments, opinions, and the rest of things that create a separation towards reality, which then causes us to live more ‘in our minds’ than actually embracing and existing as the physicality of our body, standing equal to everyone and everything in our reality. This is much easier said than done of course.

 

As one gets more in depth into one’s awareness, one can get to see how much we are in fact constantly assessing, judging, constantly having an opinion, a preference about something or someone, how many fears we might be participating on in an underlying manner, how many of our actions are motivated by fears or desires, how much we are constantly living in the past or the future – and the list goes on.

 

So, I am aware of how this might seem overwhelming at first, but the reality here is that we have the actual choice and ability to decide to continue living as these ‘broken records’ with all of those experiences being detonated within ourselves over and over again or, we decide to learn how to stop participation in them through understanding the root and cause of our experiences, which is in essence one of the foundations of walking this Desteni Process and something I’ve been practicing for nine years now, resulting in a great point of self-support for me to the extent that I sometimes get to forget how anxious, how fearful, how insecure or how ‘all over the place’ I once was, and this is also more easily said than done, because it does take dedication, diligence, patience, practice and perseverance to get to a point of physical stability as well, though it is of course completely worth it.

 

So that’s the point for me to look at here, physical stability which interestingly enough I can link it to being at peace within myself which comes through a process of ‘sorting out’ and creating solutions to whatever I am experiencing – therefore being physical, being grounded, being rooted, being anchored, being clear-headed when moving in my reality, when making decisions, when interacting with others becomes a reality.

 

Interestingly enough I’ve been able to improve my ability to ground myself back into the physical in relation to emotions, considering that was one of the ‘biggie’ points in my reality, though I consider I haven’t been as diligent in terms of grounding myself whenever I see that I am ‘elevating’ myself or getting ‘high’ in a particular perceived ‘good’ or positive experience, which interestingly enough I also refrained myself from even opening up because I had considered I didn’t have many of those or was ‘ok’ around that kind of situations. But lately I’ve seen how I can get carried away in moments where I perceive there’s an opening of expression with others and that’s where I’ve usually gone into the comparison – specially with some males – about this whole ‘me the wobbly expressive one’ vs. the sturdy ‘physical’ male, at least as an initial perception.

 

Here I’d like to focus on being physical and rooting myself whenever I am getting ‘carried away’ in a point of interaction with others and suddenly ‘lose my footing’ which involves getting into an energetic high of sorts, that may come through something as talking too much, being louder, laughing a lot and starting to get a jittery sensation in my body. I’ve explained how any energetic experience is not cool for my body, it’s ‘icky’ and sometimes headaches ensue or any other physical discomfort due to the load of ‘stimulation’ I create for myself, so here I’ll walk some self-supportive self-forgiveness to ground these points for myself.

 

I forgive  myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in comparison towards males that I have perceived as solid, stable, peaceful, mild-mannered or ‘refined’ even in their behavior wherein I have seen myself being ‘in awe’ towards such expression, perceiving that I cannot be like that because I tend to be more ‘bubbly’ and so feel ‘wobbly’ within myself, which is an energetic experience in me, therefore I realize that in order to be physical, I have to ground myself back to my body whenever I am first reacting to and comparing myself to males specifically that I’ve defined as ‘peaceful, solid, stable’ and ‘physical’ wherein I’ve created a sense of inferiority towards that which I see only exists as an idea, belief and gender-based experience I’ve separated myself from, because I’ve seen for myself how I can in fact be more stable, grounded, solid and peaceful once that I stop participating in any form of judgment, reaction, opinion, expectation, comparison or belief about myself or about others that invariably leads to a polarity-experience within me towards others, which is the actual cause and source of me going into this ‘high’ or instability.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to live equality towards males that I’ve defined as rock solid, physical, stable,  grounded at least from how I perceive them and instead have gone into an inferiority – or in-fear-iority towards them – instead of realizing that I can integrate those words to be lived by myself when in the presence of people that I may perceive as solid, peaceful, stable and physical and being males specifically wherein instead of going into the ‘inferiority’ or perceiving a ‘lack’ within me in relation to how they express themselves, I can remind myself I can live the word physicality as a focus on breathing, on seeing the other person as an equal, on realizing that whatever idea, belief or perception I might create about them being ‘more’ than me exists only as a belief and perception in my mind. It’s not at all about ‘them’ even, but how I’ve programmed myself to react to these words and expressions in separation of myself, therefore

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to live the words physicality, solidity, stability, grounded and peaceful within me in all contexts, specifically when being interacting/ face to face with people or males that I can perceive as rock solid, immovable, ‘untouchable’ even and perceiving such state of being is ‘unreachable’ for me, instead of seeing that it is actually very much existent already here within and as myself, as my physical body in every moment of breath that I decide to take on and be aware of, and stop participating in whatever idea, belief or perception I may create towards others.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate from the experience I’ve seen in cats and perceiving myself more as the playful dog in awe of the stoic cat – lol – where I have also defined my enjoyment and appreciation for cats based on their firm, slow, quiet, stable, precise expression that I’ve also seen as very much being ‘independent’ and all of these being words that I’ve believed I can’t ‘live’ for and as myself, but instead would usually be drawn to or be attracted to people that I perceived to be this way – where I also have to remind myself to not trust my perceptions or what I may ‘pick up’ in another’s expression, because all of it is coming from myself, my frames of reference, my experiences, my perceptions and in no way does this imply that there is a reality to it – because I cannot really be in someone else’s shoes other than through getting to know them and communicate with another to see who they really are behind their presentation and façade and what they are in fact experiencing.

 

Therefore I can only focus on myself and living this word as an expression of me wherein I don’t go making assumptions about others or focusing on others’ experiences and then compare who I am in relation to them, but where I can look at practically practicing being physical in moments where I am tending to go into a comparison of being ‘more or less than’ another in a moment, or where I get nervous in the presence of another seemingly being very stable, at ease and peace with themselves and perceiving that I am ‘at loss’ or ‘in fear’ of that, which creates the unsettling nervousness towards another,

Instead I can remind myself that I can live that solidity, that consistency, that stability and grounded expression whenever I allow myself to take one step back in those moments and simply not jump into the ‘train of thought’ but remain grounded, breathing and learn to observe, to hear another’s words, to slow down within myself so that I can in fact stand equal to my body and therefore as everyone else’s physicality that can be present or around me in a particular moment.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the belief and experience of feeling unnerved when being in the presence of particular males that I’ve defined as stable, solid, grounded and ‘earthed’ ultimately, believing that they are in control in themselves – and I am not – lol which is in fact an interesting thing to do because if I focus entirely on myself, usually who I am before seeing ‘the other person’ as a trigger point I can be quite calm, stable, solid within me and it’s only upon me participating in an assessment of another person and judging them as ‘superior’ due to appearing grounded, physical, stable and at peace within themselves, that I get into an unnerving experience, I start feeling ‘weak’ and clumsy or extra-expressive at times and this is mostly a reaction, again referencing the playful barking all-over-the-place dog that is jumping around the stoic cat that doesn’t seem to flinch at the dog’s expression. 

 

This is all of course still my perception of the cat being ‘less expressive’ or something like that, I cannot really know what their actual experience is, but I take the visual reference for me to realize I can also practice slowing down within me by not going into an ‘assessment’ of the other person or participating in judgments of how I ‘perceive’ them, but instead focus on myself, not on others, on being stable, grounded, calm, at peace within me when interacting with others, and stopping my judgments towards them.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself being ‘at loss’ upon facing and interacting with someone that seems stable, physical, present, calm, at peace within themselves to me, which I can simply use as a reminder to precisely take those words back to myself, to live them in equality – not based on ego, not based on ‘suppressing’ myself or putting up a ‘superior’ front anymore – but based on my ability to breathe through the swelling of energies, to be able to stabilize through becoming aware of the totality of my physical body and so focusing on myself and others at a physical level, who we are as equal beings, who we are in our words, stopping the usual ‘reaction’ within me of ‘compensating’ my perception of being unable to be ‘grounded and stable’ by becoming overtly expressive and instead allow me to be observant, to be calm, to slow down within myself, to focus on my breathing to remind myself of the physicality I also am and take things easily.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to separate myself from the word ‘physicality’ or ‘being physical’ as in being stable, grounded, consistent and defining it as something ‘superior’ to myself, which is only me as the mind perceiving that such words are ‘unreachable’ for me – when in reality they are here already existent in potential within me, I simply have to stop focusing on the ‘superior and inferior’ assessments and focus on the physicality of myself and others in any given moment.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still unconsciously allow the experience of myself being defined by gender – as in being a woman – and bring through experiences linked to perceiving a male as ‘superior’ to me, wherein I then separate myself from our living-equality and tap into the design, the programming and gender-based roles that we’ve lived for our entire human history.

 

I realize that this is indeed a set of patterns that have been ingrained beyond my awareness, however now that I am aware of it and I understand where this ‘inequality’ between genders comes from, I can assist myself to integrate and embody the words that I had perceived only ‘males’ could live in a natural manner for themselves – such as physicality, stability, grounded, structural, being at peace which are all words I can integrate and live as myself as well, which in turn will assist me in diffusing this gender-based perception I’ve lived out throughout my entire life without having questioned it to this level and specificity before, due to believing that ‘it’s just how things are set-up’ and not going any further than that.

 

Now I realize it’s entirely up to us to see what we accept and allow as limitations, as self-definitions and any other form of polarity that a difference in our physical bodies as human beings – being males and females – has contributed to create within ourselves, while in fact I realize I can live those aspects that I’ve seen mostly in males and integrate them within myself at a being level, beyond being a human physical body defined by a gender – without me falling into the trap of wanting to ‘be like a man’ – it’s not the point either – it’s about being a woman that is no longer separate from the potentials and capabilities of men and women to integrate into my life if I see them as supportive aspects or words to embody and live in my life.

 

For now this is the point I’ll focus on and what’s coming up for me in relation to physicality, but this is by no means the only extent of this word that I’ll be looking at, considering how this is only one aspect, one layer I’m focusing on changing or fine tuning within me, but this word ultimately relates to this whole process from consciousness to life in self-awareness, to living life in the physical, to birthing life in the physical and as one can see it is not as easy as simply ‘stating it,’ but one has to actually go through the ‘deprogramming’ and ‘reprogramming/rewiring’ process through living words and creating new sets of acceptances and allowances to live words that are supportive, that we can develop ourselves further with and in turn this becomes a way to expand in our lives, as life, and continue working on it until it is done.

 

Check out the series Quantum Mind Self Awareness to learn more about the interrelationship of our minds with our physical body

 

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332. Word Policy in Equal Money Capitalism

 

Explaining a new  conception of life in equality requires redefining words since they hold the key to understanding How we have constructed our reality. Therefore we have to look at words in order to conceive and be able to integrate the meaning of basic understandings and concepts that we as Desteni have developed throughout our process to be (exist) and become (integrate as a totality of ourselves) the living word, which means to speak, think and act within the consideration of what’s Best for All in Equality.

Word: a single distinct meaningful element of speech or writing, used to form sentences with others to express

Policy:  A  principle or rule to guide decisions and achieve best for all outcomes

 

We can call this a  Word Policy creation, a ‘fine tuned’ meaning of words according to what is best for all in Equality.

 

Continuing:

 

 

Problem                                                                 

Words are defined according to the relationships that we have created as the construction, organization, conception and understanding of ourselves in relation to everything and everyone in our reality. The reason why we have to redefine words is because all our words contain  multiple relationships of power and control that stands in separation of ourselves as equals. There are no words currently that mean equal-relationships, it is a Limited amount of words that we can use to signify an Equilateral Relationship between beings, or that indicate a tacit or implied symbiotic relationship, an inherent quality of sameness, a relationship of interdependence, an equal conception of who we are as every other being and particle in this existence as a part of ourselves.  All is All but we forget how to Live as such ‘All’ which means  understanding Equality.

The moment we thought, we separated ourselves from each other and became experiences in each other’s mind only, existing without any physical regard or consideration, because if we had been in fact physical beings with no mind, we would live according to physiological requirements to live and interact with each other. The problem is when we created value and generated a relationship toward objects or people according to beliefs, ideas, perceptions imposed onto physical reality.

The reason why it is important to understand the use of words in our explanations about Equal Money as part of our individual and collective education is because there’s a necessary bridge to create in order for every person that approaches our material – and is genuinely interested in understanding the world in equality – is able to understand what we are sharing without having any ‘gap’ left without clarification.

Language in itself is part of the program of the mind as a consciousness system that works and functions as a separate system in an opposite manner of how physical reality operates and regulates itself to exist in an equal-manner.  This means that the mind in its base  foundation and mechanism works according to consciousness as a system that runs on energy, and for energy to exist, friction and conflict must exist. This implies that the words and how we have lived them has lead us to create our image and likeness as all of these relationships of conflictive ideas, beliefs, perceptions, emotional and feeling reactions and essentially, how we ‘see the world’ is built according to how we conceive, understand and word the world.

By implementing these necessary changes and a new understanding in our fundamental way to conceive ourselves and reality in order to Live within it as an equal and one participant.

 

 

Solution                                                                

 

    Word Definitions:
    The simplicity of word definitions is obvious when there is only ONE and EQUAL focus point as Life. The interplay between what is best for all and what is not best for all will play the foundation role in all word definitions. This interplay is not a polarity as it is either best for all or not
    The word can have many dimensions in expression that will be what is best for all lifeBernard Poolman 

     

    The definitions are simple to understand, and place the person in self responsibility in immediately becoming aware that they aren’t aware if who they are is best for all, so the definitions must place the person in the position where they can no longer claim ignorance – Matti Freeman

 

  • Creating a Word Policy will imply that every individual will be aware of what is meant by every word written, thought and spoken to live, communicate and set the foundations of our conviviality,  wherein the meaning of the words will remain as a  physical consideration and no longer hold relationships and/or structures of power as knowledge and information that has perpetuated the Old world until now.

 

  • Words as the building blocks of our reality require our attention to integrate these basic equality and oneness considerations every time that we write or communicate verbally, to become aware of what is it that we are in fact wording ourselves as, within the unequivocal representation and understanding of our physical actions  this means: that we can be the word and exist as it, there is the ‘quality of being’ as a beingness that we become as the word and exist ‘as it,’ which is the accepted integration of a particular word as part of our  behavior, it is like an ‘application’ that we learn o live by.

 

Yesterday we reviewed what’s Best for All according to the physical reality requirements and general understanding of what each individual requires to have a fulfilling lifestyle, including the animals, plants and space that the human occupies and takes care after.

Here we look at the definition of Best within ‘What’s Best for All’

 

Best: what’s Best for All Life in All Ways Possible

  •  Best implies  the utmost potential

  • All Life: physical reality in all its dimensions, parts, particles, the fabric of existence
  •  All ways Possible in physical reality that  do not limit life, but rather instigate development and going beyond our current boundaries. In other words, what’s Best for All will be a physical possibility as a living principle because there will be no money concept that restricts this from being actually done.
 

Rewards  of
Redefining Words                                              
 
 

  • Being able to communicate with one another with equal understanding of each word we speak is the foundation to make of the Principle of Life in Equality a Reality, since it is through words that we have created our current living structures and as such, now work on developing the words that will enable us to create a new world based on understanding how to live and implement equality living conditions as part of the individual’s conception of reality.

 

  • Words are the creators of our reality, so, we have to equalize ourselves as the words we speak, learn how to take self responsibility for the equations we create as our ‘equalized’ definitions and realize that it is through Living the Words that we can speak about co-creating, which is an actual doing, a living application.

 

  • Paving the way to the New way of living begins with giving a new meaning to our present and then,  create our future according to this renewed word.

 

 
Happiness - Equal Money Capitalism  - Matti Freeman

 

 

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151. The Food for Thought is Our Flesh

 

Thinking Reality instead of Living it

I was listening to e Life Review – BeLIEving if I Know my Past – I’ll Know Me and it was most certainly quite supportive to realize to what extent I have defined my ‘stability’ according to the external factors that have created such Experience of stability: money, family, education, living in stable and supportive environments that I would tend to judge as being ‘non supportive’ in the past, however I see and realize now how I would consider myself ‘out of place’ based on the personality requirements and ‘needs’ that I created for me as the mind. I never had a particularly ‘shifting’ reality in terms of suddenly having no money at all, o having no support to go to school, or not even living with my progenitors/ family, which is something that for many children is not a ‘given thing,’ and it’s once again the points I’ve taken for granted that created the ‘who I am’ as the mind that is within this stability due to having support to cover all basic needs and essentially, becoming that stability as a certainty of assuming that ‘I’ll always be able to take care of myself/ there’s always someone that will be able to support me’ which is in fact still delegating the point outside of myself, as I realize that I have missed the absolute establishment of who I am here as breath.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define ‘who I am’ based on the stability that I grew up with and was born into, wherein such stability is translated to having been born in a family living in a stable environment that could provide all that which I required to live, which is what I took for granted and side viewed as a factor that determined how I am experiencing myself at the moment, as it is most certainly obvious that I would not have been able to continue living if it wasn’t for such basic support to do so.

Within this

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to instead of living that reality of support to develop an absolute point of stability, I created emotional and feeling relationships as the mind in order to ‘make myself alive’/ living, which I had equated to being/ becoming emotional, having feelings and ‘stories to tell,’ which is how all of that ‘readily-given’ support to be able to eat, to drink water, to have a constant environment to live in, to be supported in all that I wanted to do is simply ‘taken for granted,’ and considered as not living, but instead went out to ‘create experiences’ so that I could define ‘who I am’ as a mind that experiences thoughts, feelings and emotions as a way to create the ‘idea’ of living, instead of actually living here as the physical, breathing, eating, relating myself to others as equals and establishing a relationship with my own physical body, which I Absolutely never considered.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to while listening to the interview think ‘I must be grateful for having had a stable environment to live in,’ and within this separate myself from the stability that I am here as breath, wherein it is actually not about ‘where I am’ that defines who I am, it is to see to what extent we have separated our own experience based on the environment/ images/ people/ things around us, missing out the stability that is here as breath. It is almost as if we distract ourselves deliberately through thinking reality instead of Living Reality, which would be a constant and consistent in and out breath wherein our physical requirements are fulfilled and as such focus on seeing where such stability as the physical is not being fulfilled in other living beings to equalize such stability, which would mean creating a point of transformation in this world according to ‘how it works’ based on money, legal ‘rights,’ and an entire societal structure that must also support this realization of who we are as the physical, as we can see how right now we are essentially not living to establish ourselves as physical equality and oneness, but live in a system where the image/ picture of ourselves as an Idea is what’s being glorified, sought to be ‘upgraded,’ while missing out the obvious self abuse that has come with our ‘progress’ and evolution.’

I see and realize to what extent we have moved ourselves away from the obviousness of the physicality through transforming our world, our reality to a single set of visual-thoughtful-emotional bullshit that can only exist if we all have submitted and diminished ourselves to only be an image, to only be a ‘thought’ in our heads, to only want to Be a thought and an experience within other human beings. I realize to what extent it is absolutely delusional we’re still even alive when we are taught and learn how to fear from the beginning of our breath every day to the moment we go to bed, just dragging our lives along and accepting such experience of ‘dread’ and ‘drag’ and ‘doom’ as ‘who we are,’ without ever even pondering: how come my physical body is still here and is constant and consistent in its functioning, I mean, my lungs don’t get depressed and decide not to function one day or require therapy to continue going, or some type of incentive to realize that ‘there’s more to life,’ no – instead we judge the very air we breathe as we use such breath to only exist as a mind that judges, that consumes the physical to continue existing, building, upgrading ourselves only as a personality/ character that stands as the proof of everything we have separated ourselves from: ourselves as the mind.

Thus I commit myself to establish my self stability here as the physical breath, as I see and realize how effective it is to stop defining myself according to ‘where I am’ and as such, stop ‘evolving’/upgrading the IDEA of myself, and instead reinforce the physicality of who I am ensuring that I accumulate each breath to be here. This is at the moment only a statement that is ‘in my hands’ to live or not, however the physical is such a self-sufficient point that it does not require the mind to think of stability as it IS stability as itself, as its very own functioning and configuration – thus the point to live is assisting and supporting myself as my mind to stop giving attention/ giving my moment away to thoughts and instead breathe and assure the realization that I cannot continue providing myself as ‘food for thought’ as that food is my own physical body and as such, I cannot possibly continue depleting that which stands as the unconditional physicality that I exist as only to support my mindfucks, my deliriums, desires, wants, needs, ideas of ‘bettering’ and ‘improving’ myself, of happiness and fulfillment as an energetic experience in absolute abuse and separation of ourselves.

And all of this is yet to be walked, as I realize to what extent we have in fact configured this entire reality as ‘the perfect brothel’ for us to prostitute ourselves/ sell out to upgrade and exist only as a thought/ a mind that thinks itself, not even ‘thinks the body’ – and within that getting ourselves to the current ‘place’ we’re in: abusing this entire physical reality beginning with our body to sustain a ‘perfect picture world,’ that just as anything that runs with energy looks ‘pretty glimmering and shiny’ while being oblivious and ignorant to the actual process behind this point of ‘beauty in the eye’ that stems from the abuse of the physical.

 

I breathe and realize that I can only live these statements by being here as breath, not ‘thinking’ about doing it, but just living it, stopping participation in the merry-go-round of our constant thinking and support and assist ourselves to instead develop an equal and one relationship with ourselves first to see who we are as the mind, to get to know how we have become ‘who we are,’ continuing walking our process of self forgiveness, self corrective statements and application in self honesty to continue getting a hold of ‘how’ we’ve become what we’ve become and as such, correct ourselves and most importantly, ensure that we do not continue and perpetuate the same patterns of self abuse that we’ve called ‘a life/ living’ which is unacceptable.

 

Our entire ‘culture’ from the primordial conception of ourselves as ‘thinking species’ must be debunked, must be exposed for the abuse it represents, making it acceptable to praise ‘thoughts’ while being absolutely oblivious and separated from everything and everyone that is Here as ourselves, as this entire world/ reality and Existence which is something that we have always seen/ regarded as ‘too far fetched,’ ‘too much’ for us to even conceive it, without realizing that we Are It and we have only separated ourselves from-it through accepting and allowing ourselves to only be a mind that thinks.

 

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And the Absolutely amazing interviews by frogs on this point of consumption as ourselves – I am grateful for being able to hear this and finally make sense of this point of consumption and within this realize the Absolute relationship that we have neglected of our mind and our physical as the very pattern that we have used to create the current ‘civilization’ we live in – it’s in our faces yet I didn’t even realize until hearing it within these interviews, to what extent we have created and set our own limitations based on ‘how we’ve thought reality’ instead of just Living it.  A MUST HEAR in order to understand our absolute equal and one responsibility to everything that we have created, been and become from the starting point of separation from ourselves as the physical.


Day 56: Disappointed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience disappointment with myself today based on the judgment that I’ve held toward my lack of self-movement to actually be the most effective and self-directive I realize I can be in my reality.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an experience of disappointment toward myself based on existing as an expectation of fulfilling within myself a sense of ‘satisfaction’ as the saturation of positive energy in means of letting myself know that ‘I am doing good’ and I am ‘alright,’ wherein I am in fact then only feeding a pattern of ‘surviving’ as the energy of expectations that require to be ‘met’ in order for me to ‘feel good about myself,’ and due to such expectations not being met, I experience a sense of ‘disappointment’ wherein I simply have missed the point of direction that I exist as in every moment of breath to actually physically direct myself and that’s it – but instead, I use such moments to generate an expectation that has to be crushed in order to reveal to myself that existing in such mental projections toward a sense of ‘satisfaction’ can only exist as the mind to feed my own personality of being constantly ‘satisfied’ with myself as energy, as positive experience/ neutral experience of ‘everything is fine’ at a mind level, and not being simply here breathing as myself in the physical.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a sense of ‘lack’ as this disappointment wherein I believe that I ‘must’ satisfy myself/ others as the idea of myself that is linked to this completion/ fulfillment and ‘satisfaction’ as a positive energy-experience linked to completing tasks, linked to being ‘the most effective’ and the most ‘well-done’ and efficient person, which implies that this is all ego-based and not real in any way whatsoever because it’s only existing within the context  of me as an idea of self and future projection to be met –Not existing within and as who I am as an individual that is here as breath , physically realizing the points that require direction and just doing it.

 

I realize that as long as I hold this ‘idea’ of myself, there will always be a gap to be closed as I am not in fact moving the totality of myself in consideration of giving it all that I am in every single moment of breath, due to still allowing fleeting moments of opting/ preferring to do some things over others, which imply that I am not yet the absolute directive principle of myself, but existing as an idea that is pliable to my own set of preferences and needs, which are stemming from actual resistance to do work that is required to be done in order for me to stop looping around the same points, which is useless if I already know the actions to be done: it just requires doing it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel ‘disappointed’ simply because of perceiving that I am not getting ‘enough energy’ to keep me as that point of ‘self-satisfaction’ that is fueled  by experiences, by temporary fixes with food, entertainment, people in my world, casual flirts, looking forward for events and when I am not getting any of this and deliberately stopping them, I perceive that I am in fact ‘lacking’ something and causing me this sense of ‘s.o.s. do something or you will die’ which is only the mind absolutely craving for anything that will give that temporary fix, which is just like existing in withdrawal symptoms after having been so addicted to a mind that will use virtually Anything- from a single comment, word, person’s interaction, a drink, food, weather, people, a scenario, something I read, something I receive from another – and the list goes on – in order to create this sense of ‘I exist for others!’ which is only myself as the mind getting its confirmation of: yes, you still exist as relationships of the mind as your ego/ personality toward others – and in that, believe that I am ‘back on track’ which is Not as the self-stability that I should exist here-as-myself in every moment of breath, but instead that stability is based on the mind’s stability as that feed of energy that I have become so used to experiencing as ‘who I am’ as the mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, for a moment, believe that I could actually be ‘dissatisfied’ and ‘disappointed’ which in fact are only words that indicate that I am ‘not getting enough for my ego’ – as I realize that I am well aware in every moment if I am living as life – here and being absolutely self directive or not – hence being ‘disappointed’ as any other ‘beingness’ is in fact an energy-possession accumulation that I have given a name/ defined according to the types of energy that I’ve been used to getting in the past, and I am not deliberately fueling any longer. In this case ‘disappointment’ implies that perceived ‘target’ as that future projection that I would live up to throughout my life, always having lived to a future moment wherein I would be finally ‘complete’ – without practically having taking the steps to see How I would get myself to such position, which has been part of the ‘fleeting’ and ‘airy’ personality wherein words are not directed and lived, but only spoken with a sense of ‘hope’ that it will happen in any way, just like miraculously.

 

I forgive myself that I have never accepted and allowed myself to realize that it is this same sense of ‘future satisfaction’ that has been the lie we have accepted as humanity to ‘run our lives’ toward that elusive paradise-like happiness and fulfillment, which is only feeding my mind according to its necessary creation of relationships in separation of myself as life, while supporting the same mechanism within the world system to survive as a mind-system of energy, and never having pondered if it was okay to simply be and direct myself with the usual necessary without having to comply to follow such elusive dreams of absolute satisfaction and fulfillment.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that I can only be disappointed as an individual experience after having been seeking to ‘meet my target’ which existed as a future projection based on myself at this age and pondering about ‘what am I doing with my life’ and how I had projected myself doing ‘so many things,’ which boiled down to nothing. Yet I see that it was necessary for that to happen as all dreams, future projections and ‘visualizations’ of myself in the future were based and created within the ‘who I am as a mind’ – therefore, all future projections were based upon me wanting to fulfill the ‘me’ as the mind that would constantly generate these ‘dreams’ about the future, to ensure its survival as me continuing fueling the desires, hopes and dreams of such experiences wherein I could finally feel ‘satisfied’ about myself and my life.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that I will go through many ‘withdrawal symptoms’ every time that the mind does not get its constant ‘feed’ wherein my life will seem empty and I would create an experience in/of the mind of ‘dissatisfaction’ and ‘disappointment’ upon not getting that necessary energy to continue going, which is the moment wherein I would usually give up on doing something simply because of not getting the same ‘excitement’ and ‘positive experience,’ which is how I would withdraw from such point/ activity in my world and start something else, never completing something to its absolute.  In this

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to having kept my mind busy/ satisfied with the necessary attention/ energy to continue existing as all the relationships I have formed with others in my reality in separation of myself as one and equal, wherein only the ‘who I am’ as the idea of self was being fed and supported through this constant ‘feed’ through any of the interactions with others that would verify that I still ‘am’ something for others as the beingness of consciousness, as personality as the ego that is fed through and by the relationships created with others.

 

I realize that I have ‘naturally’ linked these two words ‘dissatisfaction’ and ‘disappointment’ as they both imply me as the mind not ‘meeting its target’ as the necessary energy for me to continue existing as the set of relationships I had created for and of myself ‘in the future’ from the time when I was 16 years old and pondering ‘what I would do in the future’ and ‘where I would be in 10 years’ wherein I created all types of high expectations toward myself based on seeking to satisfy the idea of self as all the ‘me’ that had been a ‘brilliant person’ in school, which I see and realize means nothing as all that which I am has nothing to do with the physicality that is here and cannot be ‘disappointed’ as that is only a  mind generated idea that exists whenever I am ‘dissatisfied’ as in not getting enough energy to saturate myself with attention as thoughts, emotions, feelings and any other form of mind relationship that I had become addicted to, as a single point of self-definition such as a dream, a future projection, a friendship of the past that can in any way ‘get me back on track’ which is the race toward that ultimate fulfillment of myself as the mind as the personality with ego projections of success and fulfillment.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from completion as self here, wherein I generate a separation from myself as a mind experience of ‘dissatisfaction’ and ‘disappointment’ the moment that I perceive that I am ‘not meeting my target’ which is mimicking the way that corporations function, always seeking to reach this ‘target’ as the necessary influx of money to keep running the business in a ‘smooth’ manner, while keeping the entire world system function in a ‘mint’ enslaving mechanism.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize how within the seemingly ‘unimportant’ points I am in fact feeding an entire mechanism at a world-wide level wherein my dissatisfaction and disappointment is usually ‘fulfilled’ and ‘overcome’ through buying, consuming and generating any form of relationship for the mind to continue its directive-role within ourselves as humanity, missing the totality of ourselves as completion, as wholeness that just requires to live as self-directive beings in consideration of what’s best for all, which is in this case overlooked and all that remains is that absolute self interest to satisfy and ‘foolfill’ ourselves within the options that people that take advantage of such emotional experiences in human beings have very well studied and prepared for ourselves to get ‘our fix’

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that any moment that I am not Here as life – breathing – moving – self-directing, I exist as some form of lack that seeks to be satisfied in the form of a want, need, desire generated by my mind based on the past and previous patterns of the ways in which I would ‘get my fix’ no matter how ‘small’ it may seem, within this always ‘giving into’ the experience of the mind as disappointment in order to get something outside of myself to ‘get myself back on track’ as the race of the mind to ‘meet its goal’  – within this

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to occupy only my mind and forget about the rest of the physical body that I exist as every time that I go into a mind-experience such as ‘disappointment’ wherein ‘all that matters’ is then getting myself back on the ‘track’ within the ongoing mind-feeding game that uses goals/ future projections wherein I keep myself bound to a single outcome that I can fulfill/ not fulfill and define myself as then being satisfied/ dissatisfied according to ‘who I am as the mind.’

 

I realize that the only real dissatisfaction that can exist is having no food in my stomach, not having water, proper living support for an extended period of time wherein the real pains of hunger and starvation are a constant experience for billions in this world, which should make us ponder how we are constantly looking after ‘how we feel’ instead of realizing how within such question I am only considering ‘myself’ in that moment, while in fact adding myself as the other billions seeking to be satisfied as the positive experience of myself that generate – as a consequence – the billions that starve because we live in a reality wherein the opposites are created the moment that only one pole is pursued and sought, which implies that we are directly responsible for every single atrocity as a result of any inkling of positive thinking and positive attitude that seeks to be More within everything we do in the name of self-satisfaction.

 

When and as I see myself experiencing a sense of ‘lack’ as dissatisfaction and in that going into the experience of disappointment as a result of not getting my energy to keep going on, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am simply existing as a mind that seeks for its survival – instead I direct myself to continue being here as breath wherein I see and realize that I must physically will myself to move myself regardless of any incentive, motivation or positive input that I used to be fueled by within my reality.

 

I also realize that there are problems in our reality that require our focus and attention which we are not in any way supporting while getting caught up in our minds – therefore  in order to stop such patterns from existing within us as a whole, the conflict and sense of ‘lack’ must be stopped within me first, to then support others to see how we have created our own ‘lack’ as a system of energy that does not consider life as a constant in-breath and out-breath that can be materialized as giving and receiving in a system of equality, but instead have decided to enslave ourselves to a system wherein because we want to be ‘more’ = we generate abuse invariably somewhere else within this social organism.

 

I realize then that this point of disappointment is only existent as a mind possession that is Not ‘meeting its target’ as that ‘something’ that I would always have as a motivation to ‘keep going,’ because I realize that I have never moved-me as self-movement before, but that I am only now realizing that If I don’t change,If I don’t move = Nothing will change and Nothing will move.

 

I realize that anything that ‘moves me’ is not ‘me’ but my mind seeking any past connection, any memory, relationship and idea of myself in order to fuel myself as an experience which is quite a ‘simplistic’ and easy way to trap myself in and as a mind possession if I give head to it in one single fleeting moment wherein I am not being Here, self directive, breathing and stop the minutest mind-wavering experience.

 

I commit myself to stop the backchat that is indicating that the mind is wanting its fix as the positive experience/ reward in order to ‘keep going,’ and instead realize that this is a physical process wherein nothing will move if I don’t move. 

 

I commit myself to flag point any experience related to ‘satisfaction’ and ‘feeling satisfied’ and ‘feeling alright’ as that indicates that I am somehow generating a positive experience as a necessary fuel to keep myself going as the mind, which is the very ‘addiction’ that I am here to stop for once and for all. I realize that the mind will do anything possible for me to crave my fix, and that I have even experienced extreme physical discomfort whenever I don’t follow through with the desire, which is the necessary pains to stop me from giving into that usual desire and fix to do ‘what pleases me’ but not what I am as a physical being that recognizes the responsibility that is required to be taken by myself, within the consideration of the decision I’ve made to stand up for life – which is not to be taken ‘lightly’ but with actual physical consequences that are implied within me giving head to my own desires, wishes, wants, needs, desires.

 

I realize that I had become used to being a constant ‘feeder’ for my mind, wherein even if I had a relatively ‘simple’ life, I would still trigger interactions, experiences and place myself deliberately in situations wherein I could get my mind-fix to continue fueling the idea of myself as my ego which is the very point and only point of resistance that I am walking through in order to become an absolute self-directive being that I realize I can be and become if I stop walking a middle-path of ‘nothingness’ as a mind that is seeking to be complete, not as an actual nothingness that exists here in every moment that I realize the responsibility that I have committed myself to for/ as life.

 

I recommend listening to the practical masturbation series that have just begun with basic physical tangible perspectives and aspects that we can start considering in our reality which, surprisingly enough, are very linked to the entire mechanism of us fueling our minds with anything or anyone to keep that same ‘ego’ glowing and growing, without us having any resolution to stop due to the pleasure that it represents. It is is vital to also hear the Soul of Money interviews as they explain the sexualization of society as well, as that mechanism to ‘keep us going’ as energy-beings of the mind that use and abuse the physical in order to continue satisfying the ‘who I am’ as the mind, and neglecting/ abusing the physical reality that is here as ourselves, that requires our directive participation within the starting point of what is best for all Life at all times.

 

 

 

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2012 The Illusion of this World is our Reality

This might sound like a paradox, and it actually is. It has been created within the human mind and has no other meaning or purpose other than creating a nice excuse to abdicate our responsibility upon this world and everything/ everyone involved in it.

In Buddhism, there is little doubt that to view the world as an illusion was a conception designed with a specific purpose. It is a spiritual device. One aspect of that purpose was to loosen the ties with the material world (with samsara) and so to encourage practitioners to turn away from the world. Thus, so loosened, one moves closer to the world of spirit.

 Yes, the eternal journey to that non-visible and ever elusive spiritual world that till this day I ask myself how have so many human beings deposited their entire existence in the desire to attain such a world without ever having a tangible proof that it could possibly and remotely exist. Yet, it is as everything else that is sought and looked for – even fought for – a nice delusion created at a mind level, embraced as a belief and defended as part of the religion of self that guards ‘spirituality’ as that untouchable preference within each human being’s life. Have a look at how people often say “respect my belief/ I am respectful of others’ beliefs” but what happens when such ‘respect’ becomes a blatant allowance of abuse and disregard toward this physical reality that is here, that we wake up to every single day and that we are clearly witnessing, is not getting any closer to god or some ineffable heaven-like scenario. We are only compounding the already existent hell on Earth and it seems that excuses like ‘this world is an illusion’ – ‘let go of this world’ are the fallacies backed up as part of spiritual dogmas and uplifted at the level of ‘divine truths’ only for the convenience of us, human beings that seek a way out of taking Self Responsibility for this world.

See, Self Responsibility would not have to be this ‘drag’ and ‘lousy’ type of consideration. It has become so because we weren’t initially born in a world where we all became aware of having to take responsibility for the consequences of our words, thoughts and actions. If we implement a living-reality based on Self Responsibility from birth, we will integrate it as a normal-aspect of our interaction within this world. Abuse and harm would diminish extensively as each one will be able to ‘think twice’ before doing, acting and speaking something that isn’t in accordance to what’s best for all – yet this can only be existent within a system that does consider everyone equally.

To see the world as an illusion and combined with altruistic motivation, bodhichitta and very great compassion for other living beings, produces a very pure and joyous view of the world. The conventional basis for this is that knowing the sufferings of others, wishing to care for them and knowing the impermanent nature of things and the inevitability therefore of all suffering, one then combines compassion with a view of the world as illusion, thus converting a grim situation into one of joy, hope and faith, as it is clear that all beings are our friends and always have been, and always will be.

 Whenever you encounter these type of fallacies wherein something that is considering an actual physical and tangible reality of suffering, abuse and disregard of human beings, animals, plants/ the world in its entirety into a Mental Experience of self-interest based on ‘joy,’ bliss’ and ‘purity’ is then an immediate red flag to realize: I am being sold a nice experience based on actual physical negligence and abuse that I am accepting and allowing to exist as part of who I am in this world. However, who is REALLY willing to take the red pill and step out of the comfortable lies upon which we have built this social, economical and political structure that we are living in?

Idealists, romantics and religious people of all types tend very predominantly to view the world as having some spiritual element and not being utterly corrupted, nihilistic or material. They choose, indeed they need, to see a mental, spiritual and moral dimension to life – pervading and underlying the raw physical facts of existence given to us by our senses. They also embrace the idea that good will always triumph over evil and they tend to regard the stark facts of materialism with considerable horror. In order to live happily they need to believe there is a spiritual and good, kind backdrop to life and the universe. It is very comforting to believe that hope and joy are justified.

This paragraph describes who I was right before Desteni. I rejoiced in creating all forms of nice perspectives upon life, consciously and literally trying to make the ‘bad shit’ look ‘cool,’ while existing in a make-believe system of justification toward the abuse and general disregard we have perpetuated as species toward all life forms.  Within seeking this ‘spiritual dimension of life’ we get lost and caught in these warm fuzzy thoughts that justify  why suffering exist, why wars exist, why deliberate abuse exist, using statements like: ‘there is a god/ law/ all seeing eye that knows of it and knows what and why he/she/ it is doing.’ This I would have to repeat to myself whenever facing a reality that simply didn’t match an ideal of what a ‘peaceful world’ should be – problem: the inner self-created mental experience wasn’t in consonance with the reality I saw before my eyes. Plain indication of self deception at hand – yet I kept playing blind for a while.

Holding a view/ perspective on life that is supportive instead of promoting philosophical mindfucks

Saying that ‘the world is an illusion’ is an attempt to solve the primordial problem on ‘what is real/ what is reality’ and follow the laws of the least effort and ‘seeking/ following your greatest excitement’ to not have to face and care about the world/ reality without seeing that this world/ reality is as real as we have to eat, shit, drink and relate to others to continue existing in it. How come that we as humanity dared ourselves to side-view the most basic common sense in the name of joy, happiness, faith and hope? Easy, it’s nice to rejoice in the mind and neglect our responsibility within it all.

This ties into the spirit vs. matter point that I had previously discussed in a ‘raw’ way in terms of using the elemental polarity-relation that has created ‘good’ and ‘evil’ as we now know it. I’ve read that ‘this reality is an illusion’ countless times and the first aspect that I see is required to be debunked is the use of the term ‘illusion’ and how it has been a comfortable ideal-meaning to give to a physical-reality that is assessed at a mind-level, to not take into consideration the full ‘weight’ of it all upon ourselves.

We know that the mind is a system, it is limited within its abilities to perceive reality – yes, I repeat: limited to perceive reality – yet it IS reality what we are perceiving and living and interacting with; we are not seeing the actual totality that is Here, but that doesn’t mean that it is  ‘an illusion’ at all. I’ll place Bernard Poolman’s words here because it would be the ideal definition toward ‘Illusion’: “Nothing is what it seems”

This phrase was given within the context of explaining the reality and events that we have experienced as our reality and how this process that we are walking is about Self Realization, which is something that has nothing to do with ‘spirituality’ but the eventual comprehension of how we all have created this world = how we are all responsible for what is here and having to face the space-time manifested consequences of our existence. ‘Nothing is what it seems’ doesn’t mean ‘it is not real’ – yet there is more than what meets the EYE, which is not in any way suggesting that ‘it’s not substantially here’ or that ‘nothing really matters,’ which is one of the common phrases coming from people that seek nice and beautiful experiences even if being aware that there are billions that have nothing to eat today.

What I see is how we have used words to separate ourselves from what is Here in all ways. I have shared in the past how I conceived language as the primordial form of cookie-cutting reality into specific shapes and forms eventually losing our own ground and perspective on such different shapes and forms stemming from the same cookie-dough = one and equal. It is within this point that we’ve gotten ‘lost in translation’ within the sense of believing that anything that we ‘point out’ in the form of a concept/idea encapsulated as a word is in separation of ourselves = this is the very first point that must be revisited to understand how Equality and Oneness has been side-viewed from the moment that we began singling out elements, things, people in separation of ourselves.

The abstraction of reality – if done in self interest – can result equal to the fabrication of weapons that will be able to justify the most hideous reality in the name of human supremacy over reality.

Thus saying that ‘This world/ reality is an illusion’ is equal to creating the greatest joint to neglect the world that we breathe in.

The mind became the data base with all the necessary nomenclature imposed onto this world for the sake of having power and control dubbed with ‘knowing.’ Once again, the human being as the all-knowing and ‘rational being’ that is here to conquer reality. The mind is the source and platform upon which such ‘rationality’ emerged as a form of supremacy that has become our current reality  where the human has obliterated the life that was already here, unconditionally. What is this human world? A world where everything and everyone was regarded as separated from who we really are as one and equal = self as the totality that is here. Within ‘forgetting’ who we are, where we come from, what we have done within this world, we have continued to perpetuate this eternal idea of ‘evolution’ and ‘progress’ while continuing  an invasion of a world that we are scavenging without ever taking into consideration that the beingness that exists here is one and equal as ourselves as well. This is then the story of human nature as self-destructive,  self-abusive because of a single premise not being looked at from the very beginning: we are one and equal to everything and all that is here.

Isn’t it common sense that if this reality was an illusion we could then just step out of it at any given moment? Oops! got news for you: we can’t, that point was missed then by Buddhists and Berkeley and anyone else that supported this convenient idea of considering this reality as an illusion.

The anthropocentric religion

One of the points that have vexed me in the past years when having to read books about art, philosophy and religion is how it is all stemming from an anthropocentric perspective – yes as ‘obvious’ as it may sound, it is only now that we are able to read and get to know about the perspectives given by beings that we never thought would be equally aware of what is here. This is in fact a fascinating point that I have been realizing when listening to interviews recorded by Atlanteans and describing their world, their creations and how everything that they ‘created’ would eventually become a being/ entity with awareness as well – hell, that is common sense, how come we had missed that all along! I remember having externalized stuff like this when I was a little girl and telling people that maybe the door of the car would feel when being slammed or the grass when being stepped on – this was more obvious when plucking out the petals of a rose, yet no one seemed to care or deemed that I was a bit coo coo – I accepted the latter name and have remained as such in an ‘affectionate way’ within my family. lol Anyways, I kept this ‘belief’ because it only made sense, somehow.

Within this life-experience premise, getting to school and learning about the egotistical ways in which the human portrays ‘himself’ within this world is just proof of how a mind will always seek to impose itself onto reality without any regard to anything/ any other being that is equally existing within this world. Within this perception, what’s being accepted and neglected is the equal-right that anything/ any animal, any plant, any element of this earth has as part of this world equal and one to us, human beings. These are aspects that must be considered when we speak about Equality and Oneness. It is about creating a world that will not only consider the creation of a supportive system for human life, but for all beings equally. We can agree that it is in fact the human being the one that must take Self Responsibility after all the damage done in the name of this ‘Quest to conquer Earth’ without ever realizing the long term effects and consequences of our endless attempts to become ‘Gods’ in this reality. We’ve failed in our godliness and we are now aware that we missed the most vital principle: Equality as Life – giving to each other what is here as ourselves in Equality – no more and no less, no masters, no slaves.

Saying that this Reality is an Illusion within this context, is diminishing and almost squashing down with a single footstep the entire world that is actually providing us with all the necessary means to keep our mindfucks in place – I mean, how ludicrous! We feed ourselves to continue existing as mind robots that do not give a reverend fuck about this reality – and we even dare to say that ‘what is Here is an illusion’ just so that we don’t have to ponder too much about the problems and obvious consequences for all of the abuse and misuse of what is here to create our bubble-gum world where sex and money move mountains, keeping the shackles in place for everything and everyone – this is All a self-created prison. Unfortunately, we have abused others in such mindfuck as well, and by ‘others’ I mean the animal kingdom, nature as every single particle that is also here, sharing the same time and space that we continue scavenging and that we will probably only stop once that the consequences are undeniable and most likely, unbearable.

From any point of regret of what has been done, from any form of projected embarrassment toward anyone that is and could still utter such statements in the name of ‘joy’ and ‘bliss’ – we are able to Forgive ourselves. There is no other way that I could see we could correct our stance toward everything and everyone in this world.

The religion of ‘mankind’ has then been that of believing ourselves to be the ‘superior species’ that ‘know it all’ and can ‘resolve it all’ with nice catchy phrases dubbed ‘wisdom’ to place them within an equally airy-fairy hierarchical system of values as ‘beliefs’ that have separated ourselves from what is HERE as Life, and created/manifested into/ as the current monetary system that is the actual ‘ruler’ within this reality. We’ve created our own monster and we’ve ostracized ourselves from our own reality through our own creation. We judge the ‘creators’ of this reality and judged them as ‘stupid’ for having locked themselves out of their own creation: we are doing exactly the same within this current monetary system, we have neglected ourselves as Life within our fantabulous creation of ‘money’ and ‘wealth’ as power over this existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel ashamed for being a human being that is part of the human race and that has neglected the very air, water, sun, earth that holds us and that allows us to continue existing, while disregarding that everything that is here I have separated myself from within and through a monetary system that is NOT here as the creation of equal-support for all and within this

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a human being that has supported the separation of ourselves as life, as everything that is here due to/ because of implementing a system that has only confirmed and supported our delusions of grandeur as ‘superior species’ within this Earth, without realizing that this is only a mind valuing itself according to how it can perceive itself as the only beings with such ‘instrument for reasoning’ and within this, neglecting and not even considering that there could be other forms of awareness without having to be existing as a human being to do so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a human being to impose my views, my perspective, my ‘philosophy’ on top of what is here as reality, imposing within this the mind’s reign upon the physical reality that is here, unconditionally, tangible, reliable and consistent which is everything that the mind is not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust a mind instead of relying on the actual visible and undeniable facts that this physical reality reveal of who we really are as beings that breathe, eat, shit, relate, reproduce and die as organisms that live here within a certain cycle with a beginning and an end – within this

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to as a human being, believe that the purpose and mission of the human being within this world had to be of some type of ‘spiritual nature’ that could only confirm the self-created and programmed supremacy of the mind over matter, the ‘spirit’ as the mind creation over the reality that is here, as what is tangible, as what we breath, eat, shit and sustain ourselves with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever allow myself to think or indulge into thoughts about this reality being an illusion, without ever realizing that I could only indulge into these thoughts because of not wanting to take Self Responsibility for this world, which I as a human being, have used and abused in the name of creating my ‘realm’ within an attempt to ‘conquer the Earth’ stemming from a delusional idea of such thing being possible in this reality as a fact. We can only abuse another in an attempt to create such supremacy that can only stem from who we are as the mind – not in consideration of who we are as one and equal.

Who we are as physical beings, as part of this world and reality cannot possibly be more than or less than what and who we already are as the entirety that is HERE as a whole.

“The void is not the void because there’s nothing to be empty of” – I’ve recalled this quote several times through my blogs and it’s possibly one of the Zen Buddhism type of quotes that allowed me to grasp what it is that makes any ‘desire’ and ‘longing’ such a useless mind-fuck to keep us well entertained and diverted from looking at the reality that is here, that we are absolutely abusing and neglecting while getting ourselves high on ideas of us not being this world, us not being ‘real’, our bodies being only ‘vessels’ and essentially only justifying any form of abuse toward each other while seeking joy, bliss, love, peace, drugs and rock & roll.

Only standing within this anthropocentric perspective of this reality, can we dub this world as ‘an illusion.’ We are now facing the consequences of the continued abuse to the extent of getting to a point of no return for life to continue in this world. I have to go as far as saying that only human beings have created theories, ideas, perceptions, axioms, hypothesis and endless philosophies in an attempt to describe, grasp and have a hold on what is here. The starting point of knowledge is that of control and power over this reality, this physical world that is here. And here I add one of my favorite Bernard Poolman quotes: “Knowledge will never be Life.” Such a simple statement shook my reality to the extent that I had to walk a process to see what was knowledge in fact and how it is that I had placed value and worth upon myself as knowledge. We as species have neglected reality in an attempt to be gods. Who/what created any idea of inferior/ superior but ourselves in our mind – it is but a program, a single structure of information that has served as an actual weapon to exterminate any ability to live and understand this reality from a common-sensical perspective which would have to be based on what is tangible, physical, constantly able to be verified and confirmed by all participants in this world.

The very manipulation, the very creation of something and someone – in terms of becoming parents – in separation of ourselves has become nothing else but a power-game, a failed attempt to be ‘gods’ and ‘creators,’ neglecting the most basic facts: anything we name, anything we create, we have to take Self Responsibility for.

Another Bernard Poolman quote: “If you create something, you have to give it responsibility as well” – that’s part of the fundamental principles to be applied and lived by every single human being in this world – I emphasize the human aspect and perspective as this is what I currently am aware of and what I see/recognize is the primary reason of why we are facing a reality that is busy collapsing = it is our creation collapsing as the entirety of the mind-empire that we’ve built like castles in the air with no foundation whatsoever on LIFE.

Everything that surrounds me that has been shaped and formed and given name is tainted by the human intellect, it is part of the prison we’ve built in separation of ourselves. Why? To create ourselves as ‘masters’ of the world. The Earth gives everything we require to live unconditionally, we have done the exact opposite and formed a system that can only benefit some to live in the type of heaven promulgated by religions, yet having the vast majority being locked out of this magnificent creation due/to and because of Money.

Money is a mental system. It is the actual  Illusion that has become the most convenient lie of them all for some. We all have accepted it as real. The more I see it in my pocket the more it becomes surreal that we still use this as a form of obtaining that which should be given as part of being in this world (no more papers required, thank you.)

Money has been created for the sole purpose of abusing, imposing and sucking dry this reality in an attempt to maintain the human being as the ‘supreme being’ in a reality that is then called an ‘illusion’ to remain at ease and with a false sense of peace that results as a comfortable Lie that we have all bought in the name of our personal interests, our personal goals and lifestyles that we accepted as how reality is, how humanity functions, how ‘human nature’ dictates our reality.

Nice comfortable Lies

Thus it can be argued that Berkeley – and the Mahayanists – simply and neatly sidestep and resolve this huge problem by proposing a theory that the whole world is an effective illusion upon our senses, and that the only reality is an entirely spiritual one. In Berkeley’s case, he argues that it is a part of the mind of God and is thus loved by God, seen by God and is part of Him, part of the fabric of his Being. This is a very comforting viewpoint for the Deist.

This statement says it all. What are we exactly complying to when saying ‘reality is entirely spiritual’? It is saying: ‘Neglect this ‘physical reality’/ this current world, do not even bother to see what’s going on, what’s wrong or what must be changed and corrected because: it’s not even real anyways!’ This is a key quote because it contains the ‘magic words’ to make it acceptable within  human’s gullibility when it comes to emotions/ feelings (which we know are programs and knowledge constructed to generate fluffy energies of being alright without actually being so.)

The magic word is ‘Love’ – by saying that this reality is God’s creation and it is loved, people that are believing in a God feel ‘honored’ and stupefied enough to never question why such ‘godly creation’ reflected our very own mind/ human nature allowing destruction and starvation that could have easily gotten us to get some type of realization about there being something inherently wrong within this reality. Once blinded by the light, it takes time to recover the ability to see what is really HERE. Love is then that glue that has kept the chains of enslavement tight and wrought into a nice presentation that we all bought into in one way or another – both positive and negative aspects are equally created at a mind level, hence we can’t deny that our participation in this.

“An advantage of the view of the world as an illusion is that we become genuinely fearless and relaxed in our life, accepting things as they are, people as they are and delighting in everything that comes along just as it is something which was meant to happen and which certainly contains something for us of value and benefit. We behave as if we are in a dream and as if all events are happenings within a dream.[…] It also enables one to be joyous and to be a friend of everyone. It enables us to develop greater hope and faith in ourselves, others and the world at large. It is unthinkable to even consider a life or world without these qualities of hope, joy and faith. Taken together all these advantages also form a basis for deeper spiritual insights and progress. They form a basis of relaxation and deep calm within one’s life, precisely because of the love, joy and contentment which the view engenders within us”

If ‘reality is an illusion’ how come that the very mind that thinks and formulates this excuse is not then seen as part of the illusion itself? – hence discarding itself out by mere inference of the origin being an illusion as well – I mean, this is just an attempt to equalize the mindfuck that is currently being promoted in the name of what we just read above: joy, hope, faith, relaxation, calm and love – we’ve become our-slaves to the creation and perpetuation of ‘nice feelings’ in an attempt to create some form of ‘support’ for a ‘deeper spiritual process’ which is then again the non-tangible realm where entire intergalactic battles could take place without a single physical mortal being able to confirm it.

Art has contributed to this creation of the perfect illusion of reality. From my own experience any time I tried to equate a drawing to reality would only result in frustration for not getting it the right way – we like art because of the illusion it represents of reality – when there is no light all shapes and forms disappear – yes – but a starving child remains a starving child during daylight or night time. How narrow minded have we become the moment that we only consider ‘life’ as ‘ourselves’ and how we live it/ perceive it and within that, dare to publish such points as ‘truths’ that many others that were also viewing the world from the perspective of me-myself-and-I then resonate with and follow, creating the ‘masters’ and ‘slaves’ that seek such grandeur in an attempt to control reality and dare to call it ‘pursuit of happiness.’

Why Bother?

How is reality any different from a dream?’ And ‘what difference does it make if they are the same?’ It was not possible for me to see any substantial difference between them, thus why bother to pretend that there is a difference? So one can confidently treat the world as if it IS an illusion and use that as a basis for living one’s life. That shows contempt not for the world itself, but for the materialist paradigm, maybe!

‘Why bother?’ Key phrase of the ultimate abdication of self responsibility upon this world and reality. A more colloquial translation would be ‘fuck it’ / ‘who gives  fuck’/ ‘I don’t give a fuck.’ What a convenient phrase to brainwash oneself into a pervasive negligence:  “So one can confidently treat the world as if it IS an illusion and use that as a basis for living one’s life.” We can see how the person that wrote this is inherently wanting to ‘oppose’ the materialistic perspective of reality which instead of remaining as common sense, became just another antithesis of spirituality without going any further than denying the postulates presented by spirituality.

It’s all here:

So to sum up, I think to entertain and thoroughly consider the idea that the world is an illusion is a surprisingly powerful and profound technique which can lead to real spiritual insights and lasting joy and delight both with oneself and with the world.

If the world is not real then not much that happens in it is of any great interest, worth or consequence –

See, there are internal paradoxes in all of this type of ‘views’ even when seeing it from a rational and logical human perspective based on how knowledge is built

What is supposed to be the ‘Illusion’ then?

And now, for the cherry on the top to give this entire unacceptable perorate full-mindfuck-circle

The world IS essentially an illusion as that is precisely how it is perceived by the mind of an enlightened being, a Buddha. Thus it can be argued that through cultivating the view of the world as like a dream or illusion, prepares us for the final stages of enlightenment, for the attainment of the view of a Buddha.

 The advantages of believing in the world as non-physical or as an illusion and thus essentially spiritual, are very comforting and indicate a desire to believe in the essential and pervasive ‘goodness’ of humankind and the world and universe we occupy. Such a view might be difficult to maintain in the light of our frequent battering by bad and unpleasant events that befall folks all the time. These events shake our faith, our hope and our joy and tend to negate our spiritual paradigm. It is similar when trying to love everybody and to regard them all as friends and kind folk when they go and act in an unkind or unfriendly way. The disadvantage for a spiritual person of believing the world to be only physical, is that it appears like a form of mindless nihilism which is unbearably depressing. Such a view makes life most definitely NOT worth living for the romantic idealists and spiritual persons. If materialism were true, such folks would be permanently in a state of profound despair.

I can call myself a human being that lives by the physical laws wherein if I don’t breathe, eat, shit, drink, sleep and exist in a network of relationships, I would not be able to exist. Is this ‘materialism’? I call it realism without placing emphasis on the ‘ism’ but keeping it close to the ground as the Earth that we eat from and where we all will end up lying once dead. I see this reality is Real for all that it takes and I am in no way in a ‘profound despair’ anymore-  even though I was before. I have forgiven myself, I am standing up to never again succumb to neglect my world and reality in fluffy thoughts and feelings that are actually damaging others and our sense of what living actually is.

The illusion is placing value and worth to the words that have no physical correlation to what is here as one and equal. This illusion is what must be stopped before it becomes an actual reality that we can later only regret about.

We’re still here, walking a process to establish what the real world is once we are fully here, fully equal as Life. Be part of this as well.

It is the mind that labels this physical world as illusion, the physical is real, the mind is just that -a maker of illusion.” @RebeccaDalmas

La Ilusión de este mundo es nuestra realidad - The illusion of this world is our reality
“La Ilusión de este mundo es nuestra realidad” – 2008

Educate yourself with a never before told reality on this existence beginning at an atomic level The Psychology of The Atom

Quotes taken from:  The World is an Illusion: Berkeley’s Philosophy and Mahayana Buddhism  by Peter Morrell http://www.homeoint.org/morrell/buddhism/illusion.htm


Selling Yourself to the eyes of the capitalist mind

Exposing our preprogrammed-nature is part of walking this process and one of the coolest things about participating in Desteni is being able to read ourselves through others as we are all essentially copies that exist with similar patterns that we’ve defined as ‘who we are’ and only differ in ‘make up’ so to speak.

The physical judgment seems to be quite an extensive point and I’ve walked the point just as the majority of people in this world – we’ve allowed ourselves to be bound to a single idea of ‘who we are’ through the eyes of another – what a fuckup.

I can certainly remember how much stress I’d go through due to this point, due to not feeling ‘alright’ in my own skin and so because of all the self-judgment that I had accumulated through comparing myself to other girls specifically, I decided to step out of the usual cookie-cutter stereotype of ‘female’ and engaged into ‘alternative ways’ of looking to deliberately ‘not fit in’ and pretend to be ‘fine’ within that – yet in essence still creating myself as the opposite of that which I deemed as overrated, as popular, mainstream, the usual female-stereotype that I ran away from for such a long time only to then try to embrace it with even worse effects that I’ve talked about before extensively so – I share something I just read in Rebecca’s blog:

“Watch yourself; Do you tell the same stories again and again and again? Do you tell stories that “uphold” a belief you have of yourself? Are these stories really just a need for constant validation? And what does this really do?”
Dalmas, Rebecca. “Flea infestation reveals how we are in this world..” Rebeccakarlendalmas Blog (2011): Web. 29 Aug 2011. <http://rebeccakd.wordpress.com/2011/08/29/flea-infestation-reveals-how-we-are-in-this-world/>.

This is essentially what we do as human beings just tell the same stories that validate our ‘place in the world’ with our little stories that make our entire ‘lives’ apparently ‘something’ to ‘someone else’ while we didn’t even actually consider LIFE itself but only the creation of experiences that we regarded as ‘living’, as ‘being alive’ – fucked up. I can still, till this day, see how there’s this ‘desire’ to create an experience just for the sake of believing that’s ‘living’.

When I was at the farm for a year, I got quite used to living a simple kind of life wherein your life becomes that of actual living – taking care of things that make your life possible in the most practical sense. By this I mean, I had already enjoyed the usual so-called ‘chores’ of day to day living but there it was like integrated as an actual point of enjoyment – lol it may sound weird but that’s how it was, I enjoy having a cool place to live in wherein things are considerably clean and arranged in a way  where it’s cozy, wherein we could enjoy ourselves even when living with another in the same room that wasn’t ‘huge’, like space didn’t matter at all – that’s when you get to see how futile it is to place value on the outrageous demands that this system places on your face to indulge into: big houses, big cars, big bucks to have ‘big experiences in life’ – all of that is seriously something that I got to see for what it is, and one then understands how people with money seek more and more outrageous experiences for the sake of out-doing their own experiences – it’s like a drug addict that needs larger quantities every time to get the same ‘effect’.

 

Life is NOT an experience, life is NOT an ‘effect’ of something – this is only what we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to believe through the eyes of the mind, the cravings of the system that requires energy to keep going.

 

This is certainly what’s driving us crazy at this moment and it seems impossible to stop because, in essence, stopping your mind and directing yourself implies that: stopping allowing ourselves from being these machines that require constant ‘fixes’ to continue – even indulging in a memory for the sake of mental-masturbation is a possession wherein we’re not here but telling the same stories that validate ourselves as mind-systems – nothing else.

 

Yet, because we’ve agreed for so long that life/living  is an accumulation of experiences, we’ve driven ourselves to our quest to gain some, to create some ‘living’ that is completely detached from our physical living reality. We go creating these characters of ourselves to believe that’s ‘who we are’ and people would remain ‘in character’ for the remainder of their lives. Fucked up! Glad we’re here aware of the cycles of the mind, aware of ourselves as programs that are standing up to life – yes, as blunt as it may sound that’s what we are and it is definitely possible to be patient and diligent enough to go stopping the participation in a world wherein quick-fixes as experiences that validate our existence are seen for what they are. Then it becomes more difficult to deceive ourselves and so everything is simplified, we’ve just got to accept the fact that we require to let go of the socially-acceptable ways of defining ‘living’ which is usually creating/buying experiences instead of actual physical walking breathing-living.  In the most practical terms.

 

Our physical self judgment derives from this inherent desire to appear as attractive to others and within that, diminishing ourselves to the state of being a single image that we spend our entire lifetime to make ‘acceptable’ to others, erasing ourselves as life from the entire image-equation. That is not who we are, that is but information that we receive through the I/eye of the mind which has nothing to do with the essence that’s equal and one with everyone/everything here.

That’s something that I see it’s just plain common sense yet it’s ludicrous how in our society and in our minds the point of perfect-image has become the actual credo and acceptable backchat within our minds – obviously this is Not acceptable when considering Self Honesty.

We have to stop existing as our own capitalists within our physical bodies, accumulating more and more of that which will create the picture-perfect and ideal-character for others to ‘buy it’ and essentially, seek to ‘have it’/ desire it – aren’t we just then like products selling ourselves? hmm – aren’t we only then creating us for the sake of getting the best ‘bidder’ for our own cause/ self-interest? Aren’t we just wanting to be ‘the winners’ all the time then? to be acceptable, ‘buyable’, ‘useful’ from the systematic perspective that we are existing as?

The moment I’d see this in social relationships and got to spoke about it as ‘selling yourself’ people would get offended, but it’s really how we have existed in this world, selling ourselves, selling life, selling an image, and experience and from there creating this floaty-bubble of values and worth that has nothing to do with actual-physical reality wherein acceptance, embracing ourselves, standing up within the recognition of what and who we really are has been missed which creates the requirement to stop deluding ourselves within this.

 

If you look at what ‘having money’ implies, it’s all about enhancing your abilities to have experiences, to accumulate stuff that ‘adds on’ to your ‘value’ – If everyone had an equal opportunity to experience life without having to attach money-value to it, then it certainly would become an extension of our expression instead of something that is fought for and compared with others. Though, currently seeking for such points only brings further separation, further submission to the system just for the sake of obtaining some benefits – ludicrous, man and completely unacceptable.

 

We’re here to dignify ourselves – we’ll walk in the game but won’t get ‘lost’ within it at all, we’re done with that.

 

This is the last life we live as merchandise waiting to be sold to the greatest bidder
this is the last life that I accept and allow myself to place a price tag to food so that others can’t have it
this is the last life that I accept myself to validate myself only through the eyes of other instead of first accepting me fully and completely, not only as ‘myself’ but as the entirety of this world and thus see what’s required to be done and work to be part of a solution to end all delusions.

 

We stop the bidding, we stop the selling of lies to get props within the system.

We walk as equals within this, Destonians – thanks for that –


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